“Keep Swimming”

My Personal Race For Life After Prostate Cancer

BY GARY CROMPTON

2009

Website Designed & Donated by Mark Ramskill

Story written from Gary’s original transcript by Karen Palmer
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My Personal Race For Life After Prostate Cancer

Introduction
The purpose of this website is to share with you a special
journey, an initial journey of despair and loss, but ultimately
of hope and life after prostate cancer. My journey is written to
each and every one of you, the 35,000 men who will be
diagnosed in the UK this year alone, to raise awareness for the
men yet to join our elite membership in the years to follow
and for those who have already begun.

Please, know your body, accept you're getting older and acknowledge
and question changes in your body and its functions. Be aware of your
options and don't let misplaced embarrassment or fear ultimately take
away precious days of life with those you love.

My journey is not only about cancer, it also recognises and explains

depression at its most destructive, the devastation of impotence, its effect
on the male psyche and relationships and my ultimate fight to regain my
physical, sexual and mental health.

I promise to be open with you on every aspect of prostate cancer, it's

repercussions on you as a man, its effects on you as a father, brother,
husband, lover, friend, colleague - All the unique things that make you,
YOU.

In talking to you in this way, I hope to offer you insight into places and people who really can offer positive solutions
and help you repair and heal the man behind the cancer.

So, who am I and what right do I have to talk to you on these intimate and personal subjects? OK, well my name is
Gary Crompton; my age at the time of writing this is 44. I'm a plasterer by trade, I come from the north of England,
Wigan, Manchester to be precise, I'm divorced and a dad to four beautiful children. I've been a dedicated weight
trainer for the past 16 years and have always been a bit of a health nut I guess.

The Bomb Drops

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A couple of years ago, I visited the doctor when I discovered a lump on one of my testicles. My GP said I had an
infection and he suggested I go away; take the antibiotics he’d prescribed and come back in 4 weeks. I went home,
took a shower and found another lump on my other testicle. I went back to the doctors and like before, he told me
to keep taking the antibiotics, not to mess around with the lumps & come back in 4 weeks. I wasn’t happy with this
time lapse or what seemed to me as a “diagnosis he’d guessed at” rather than knew for certain so I asked to go private.

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My local private clinic was the QUEENS PARK CLINIC, Chorley Road Bolton, where they did an internal rectal
examination and found that the testicle lump was probably due to
an infection but, the examination also showed that the prostate
was enlarged.

The next stage here was to have a prostate blood sample taken but
I was told to come back several days later for a scan. I had the scan,
came back as requested a few days later for the results and the
results on scan were that everything was clear but the blood
showed abnormal cells. I was sent to Wigan Infirmary for a
biopsy. I was concerned but really kind of took it for granted that
everything would be ok ‘cause like you, I never thought it could
happen to me, the health nut! – The consultant broke the news to
me that the test for men just over 40 should be a PSA blood level
should be between 1.5 and 2. Mine was 6.5.

It was official, I had Prostate Cancer! Those of you who have

already experienced the beginning of my journey will know how
my world fell apart.

It was 2006 and I was 42 years old.

The scary statistic is that this WILL happen to ONE IN ELEVEN MEN! Look around you, at your male
family members and friends, are there about 11 guys in that close circle, could you be that 1 in 11,
are you prepared to play Russian roulette with your life? If you’re 40 years old and above, INSIST
ON REGULAR PROSTATE CHECKS WITH YOUR GP.

There is a section on this website that enables you to sign a petition to the Prime Minister to get
screening for men as common place as cervical and breast screening is for women. We’re not asking
to be given special rights, just equal treatment! Please log on and sign, whoever you are, man or
woman, we need your help.

Medical Stuff!
(PSA is a protein produced by both normal and cancerous prostate cells. A high level of PSA can be a sign of cancer,
but your PSA level can also be raised in prostate conditions that are not cancer (are benign), or if you have an
infection. There is no one PSA reading that is considered 'normal'. The reading varies from man to man and the
normal level increases as you get older. But the following values are a rough guide

• 3 ng/ml or less is considered to be in the normal range for a man under 60 years old
• 4 ng/ml or less is normal for a man aged 60 to 69
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• 5 ng/ml or less is normal if you are aged over 70).

It still amazes me that so many people, both men and women, know so little about the Prostate
gland and its function so for the uninitiated, here’s the medical explanation:

The prostate is a small gland about the size of a walnut, which lies just below the bladder in men. The prostate gland
is part of the male reproductive system. It develops at puberty and then continues to enlarge after the age of 40.

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 Women do not have a prostate gland and therefore cannot get prostate cancer.

The prostate gland acts rather like a junction box. It allows the tubes that carry sperm from each testicle, and the
tubes that drain from the seminal vesicles to meet and then empty their contents in to the urethra. (The seminal
vesicles consist of two pouches that provide nutrients for the sperm and lie immediately behind the prostate). At the
point of orgasm sperm, seminal vesicle fluid and prostatic secretions enter the urethra and mix together forming
semen. This is then ejaculated out through the penis by rhythmic muscular contractions.

Options
After the diagnosis I was given 3 options:

1) Insert pellets in to the cancerous prostate gland (procedure is called Brachytherapy and is a form of radiation
treatment in which tiny pellets containing radioactive material, such as Iodine-125, are implanted directly
into the tumour containing organ. This form of radiation therapy has long been used in other types of
malignancies including cervical, breast, endometrial as well as head and neck cancers. Brachytherapy offers
the appealing concept of delivering high doses of radiation to the prostate while limiting the exposure to the
adjacent organs.
2) Surgery.
3) Leave it.

One of the most important factors for you to understand is to why I chose option 2, surgery. When you hear that
word, Cancer, that’s all you hear. Possible impotence at some stage in a future you may not have isn’t even a
consideration, you’re advised of it sure, but the word cancer stuck fear into me. I was going through a divorce but
was in a brilliant relationship with a special lady called Ann whom I loved very much. Ann, her daughter and I had
been making a new life and up to this point I had been totally happy. Being told you have Cancer is like suddenly
being hit with a baseball bat - All I could see was dying and losing Ann, her daughter and my own kids, family and
friends, everyone that I loved and cared about.

Ultimately you focus on the magnitude of the CANCER, you live and breathe that word, from the initial mind-
blowing shock, to the all consuming daily fight to pull and wrench it out of your body and your life. You look at those
you love, you look at your kids and wonder if you’ll see them grow up and become independent and loving
productive adults. Would I see my kids get married, would I be given precious time to see my grandchildren? And
Ann, how do you say goodbye to so much love? There are so many questions that rip at your heart that you can’t
answer – At that time, the possibility of never having an erection again was never considered, never part of the
equation. For me, my personal choice had to be surgery. I had listened to all options, asked numerous questions but
the possibility of the cancer returning with the pellet option seemed higher and leaving it, even now I can’t see how
leaving it would be an option to a man of 42. I could see the sense of this if I had been 80 and it was a slow growing
tumor but to me, I’d be walking around with a time bomb in my boxer-shorts. Dying and losing everything that I
loved was all that I could see and with no other options given to me, I believed surgery to be my only chance of a long
term future.

Losing Richard
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Before I had the surgery but after the diagnosis, I lost my good mate Richard. I was out with a couple of friends on
our motorcycles when Richard came off his bike whilst travelling at speed. Looking back, I think he was gone before
the wheels of his bike had stopped spinning. I tried my best to revive him for what seemed like hours but in reality
was probably about 25 to 30 minutes until the ambulances came. He was rushed to hospital but there was no chance,
he’d died at the side of the road. How do you come to terms with losing a good mate in his mid twenties in such a

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violent way, how do you face his family and friends and their heartbreaking grief?

The crash would continue to play through my mind repeatedly in slow motion in a continuous, repetitive loop. The
feeling of helplessness, feelings of guilt when I couldn’t save him, the horror of his injuries, the funeral, the tears, and
the grief – everything. If I was to pinpoint the time where my depression began it was here.

Just before I went for surgery I was diagnosed with Post Traumatic Stress Disorder.

Surgery
I went in hospital in July 2006 and had the surgery to remove the cancerous prostate gland and prior to the op’ I was
told that there was an 18 month recovery before I would get back to full health. I’d been advised about possible
impotence, a 50/50% chance of incontinence and I was also warned there was a 50,000 to 1 chance of contracting
HIV due to blood transfusions that would be needed. Looking back, I entered the operation already in a state of
shock due to Richard’s death and the diagnosis of Cancer and all the trauma connected with that. After the operation,
I had a catheter fitted and I knew I had to wait a period of 4 weeks before I had the catheter taken out and before I
knew if I was impotent or not.

When Impotence Becomes a Part of Your Life

When you get down to the actual fight against the invasion of cancer on your body and your life you don't look to the
future, to a specific moment in time where you'll be in bed with your partner again.

Hopefully that time will come. If like me you’ve had the operation to remove the prostate, you’ll be sent on your
way from hospital, in remission from Cancer but with a high probability of impotence. For some reason you’re not
supposed to mind, I was 42, I don’t know if this makes a difference, I hope I can still want and enjoy sex as much in
my 50’s, 60’s and beyond. When you first get home, you hope that you’re going to be one of the lucky ones. As the
discomfort from your operation subsides, you look forward to the removal of the catheter and you’ll look forward to
seeing how “things work”. Mentally, you’ll remember how it used to be. You’ll look at your partner and want them
as intensely as before the treatment and operation (if not more so because of what you’ve been through together).

Your partner will want you, want to touch you like before and want to feel you get hard, want the anticipation and
excitement of you - only now, no matter what you do, whatever you try it won't happen. Each time you try more,
try anything but you’re hit with the realization that it’s never going to be like it used to be.

Your penis has become just a piece of skin that you urinate through. Even now, I can’t really put in to words the
despair that began to take over my life. It gets to the stage where you can’t look your partner in the face; you turn
away from the slightest embrace in-case it leads to a kiss, which leads to a touch, which leads to.................nothing.
You begin to dread going to bed, dread intimacy of any kind; you know in your heart that this is your life now. This
is you and how can you face a lifetime with the person you love, feeling like you’ll never be a man again with them
and for them. You begin to doubt their loyalty, convincing yourself that one day they’ll leave you for some man who
can make them happy in bed, like you used to be able to. No matter what your partner says to convince you
otherwise, inside you don’t believe it. You’re no longer a man, you’re no longer you.
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At the time, just after the operation, I wasn’t aware that the choices I’d been given were incomplete I just thought
that I was expected to live the rest of my life without my right as a man to have an erection, penetrative sex and a full
and loving sex life with the woman I loved.

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 Trial And Error
I went to my GP in desperation and was given an oral prescription Viagra and Cialis – none of them worked –
nothing worked, nothing! You’ve got feeling in your penis, it’s not numb, but it’s like touching your arm, or your
foot, no matter what you do you don’t get the feeling of arousal, you don’t get an erection. Your functioning penis is
dead, it doesn’t work, it’s just skin that you urinate through.

Medical Stuff! – Oral Prescriptions

• Cialis is not an aphrodisiac. It will not increase sexual drive. Cialis works by helping the blood vessels in the
penis to relax, allowing blood to flow into the penis causing an erection. For Cialis to be effective, sexual
stimulation is required. Men who do not have erectile dysfunction should not take Cialis.
• Both Cialis and Viagra work in the same way. Although no direct comparative research has been carried out,
both drugs appear to be similar in how effective they are for men with erectile dysfunction. Cialis does differ
from Viagra in that it has been shown to work for up to 24 hours, although this does not mean the man gets
an erection for 24 hours because Cialis only works when he is sexually stimulated. In addition, Cialis is not
affected by food so can be taken with a meal and its effects remain unchanged.
• As Cialis enhances the actions of the chemical messengers responsible for producing an erection, it will only
work once these messengers are present. This means that sexual stimulation is required for it to produce and
maintain an erection. The dose should be taken at least 30 minutes before intended intercourse, and it may
produce an erection in response to sexual stimulation for up to 36 hours after taking the dose.

Penile Injections
Next, they put me on an injection called Cavajet; it worked and was brilliant but caused some pain – When you get
an erection sometimes it can get quite sore using this method. I took it 3 times and was told it was causing scarring.
This was on NHS - The first time they show you how to do it then you go back a second time and you do it (inject
yourself) in front of him, the third time you go you do everything yourself in front of the doctor just too fully ensure
your correctly administering the injection. The third time however it was causing a lot more pain.

It’s not the injection itself, it’s when you go on to have penetrative sex then it’s really sore.

Medical Stuff!
How injection therapy causes an erection

Injection treatment typically uses a combination of drugs prescribed by a

doctor, usually a urologist. The man directly injects the drugs into the side
of his penis. The drugs relax muscles and increase blood flow to create an
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erection.

The most common drugs are Papavarine, Phentolamine and alprostadil. The
doctor may combine two of these drugs (called a "bi-mix") or all three of
the drugs (called a "tri-mix.")

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The drugs are injected directly into the penis through a fine-gauge "insulin-style" needle. A firm erection develops in
10-15 minutes and lasts up to 60 minutes. If a prolonged erection occurs, the man should contact his prescribing
physician immediately or seek medical treatment.

Injection therapy advantages

• Fast-onset, high-quality erection.
• Erection may last longer than a natural erection.
• Partners have no reported side effects.

Injection therapy disadvantages

Side effects may occur.

• Limits sexual spontaneity.

• Some men feel a sting from the needle.
• Some men feel penile pain after injection.
• Some men develop nodules in their penis, although this may
disappear after a short break from injections. In a small number of
cases, permanent nodules may occur with long-term use.
• Some scarring can occur with multiple use. This can further
complicate the process of achieving an erection.
• Scarring may cause curvature of the penis.
• Although rare, prolonged erection can occur. Such an erection
can turn into "priapism." This is a painful erection lasting more
than four hours. If priapism occurs, immediately seek medical help.
• The treatment may fail, causing additional stress and anxiety.

Depression Takes Control

Finally after the 3rd painful attempt I was told I couldn’t have any more injections as it was causing scarring which
would go on to cause curvature of the penis.

My last chance, my last hope had failed…

I nose-dived into deep and clinical depression, with no where to go, no one to turn to that could help me. I was
(mentally), back into the gutter that I’d begun to slide into after Richard died and I was first told I had cancer. Back
then I had hope, but now that had been taken away from me. At this point in my life, I was given no further options.

My life as I had perceived a man’s life to be was over.

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Like everything before Richard’s death and my diagnosis of cancer, I had taken life and health for granted, thinking I
would always be as I was back then. I also took the right to have sex for granted. I never realised the gravity of my
own sexuality and how much it was a part of me as a person until it was taken away from me. I never envisaged that
one day the masculine fundamental right of a man to have an erection would be lost, no longer a part of my life and
no chance of recovery.

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 Losing Ann
My precious relationship with Ann declined with the depression fueled by the loss of Richard, the impotence, my
non-existent self esteem and constant drinking. I can say, hand on heart that it was the depression not the sex that
ruined my relationship with Ann. My rational train of thought was gone, but that’s what depression does – that’s
what it’s best at - ruining relationships.

The thing is, when I was diagnosed with cancer, everybody was there to support me but, because I was going through
a divorce and I was separated at the time, Ann was there for me as well as my family members, especially my brother
Keith.

Like all loving partners Ann supported me and loved me and did everything in her power to help me. In retrospect, I
can see that my actions, fed by clinical depression, and a self-destruct cocktail of Anti-depressants and alcohol made
me impossible to live with. I was drinking heavily every day and instead of helping, the anti-depressants and drink
combination were making me a lot worse. When you’re in the middle of such devastation you just don’t see it
yourself. At the time all I wanted was to blot out the pain, everyday was filled with confusion and emotional sorrow
for so many precious things I’d lost, the grief of that loss seemed to reach into my soul. With all my heart I needed,
wanted to be the man I had been, to be able to love Ann again physically as I once had but with all my heart I knew
that the man I had been was gone. Even now after all this time, if I could somehow turn back the clock, I’d do
anything I could without question to make it right but I know I can’t.

I don’t remember much of it in detail because of the depression, the prescription drugs and drink but my day was,
well, I’d get up, go and see my children, maybe visit my mum and just walk round the shops all day, I’d get blind
drunk and didn’t know what day it was or where I was half the time. What made the depression worse wasn’t just
the impotency, I felt tortured by guilt for Richard’s death.

Going back to the depression and what it does to you – when it takes hold it basically destroys your life and those
close to you who love you. I said some really horrible things to people that I deeply love and care for, family, friends
and Ann. Depression warps your train of thought; you’re overwhelmed by loss and emotional pain that eats away at
you every day without release. You try to lose yourself with drink and you won’t listen to those people who love you
and want to help. Ann had been my rock, but unless you’ve experienced depression, then you really don’t
understand the nightmare I personally suffered and in turn put Ann through. Ann simply didn’t understand
depression and as you can only really empathise by experience, I hope and pray she never will.

Ann did everything she could to support me to the end and I will remain grateful to the day I die for the love and
tireless support she gave me when I needed her most. I still miss her and her daughter, but in all sincerity I wish them
both a happy life and future, they deserve it. I can’t defend my actions and won’t try to, all I can say to those I hurt
during this time is that I’m deeply grateful for the help you tried so hard to give and sincerely sorry for the pain and
anguish I caused each and every one of you.

I wasn’t that person before I had the cancer and I’m not that person now

Turning Point
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I’ve heard that to change your life radically, you sometimes need to reach the lowest of low points. Mine came after
Ann and I had split up. I was living in my transit van, but on this particular day I’d gone to my ex wife’s property and
had sat steadily drinking in the garage, my head getting more and more messed up. All I could feel was loss, loss of
everything. Don’t get me wrong, in saying that, it may seem that I didn’t value my children. Nothing could be
further from the truth. I love, adore and am proud of each one of them, but in my mixed up and distorted state of
mind, I felt they’d be better off without me. I wasn’t a man any more, children want a strong man to look up to and

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in all conscience I believed that the man I had once been had died during the operation. There was no future, no way
forward, no solace or hope, everything I thought I could try had been tried and failed - I had failed as a man, husband,
partner. I’d lost ME, my identity, my laughter, joy. I didn’t recognise myself any more and at this point I realised
that I just didn’t want to go on. Every minute of every day was agony with no end in sight, I’d had enough. I wanted
an end to it all, I needed peace so badly.

I left the garage, and felt a kind of calm I guess, I’d made a decision that at the time made sense to me. I thought I
was on my own in the property and went into the kitchen and cut my wrists. It was done, over and in that instant I
was glad to leave it all behind. In my appalling state of mind, I didn’t think of repercussions and when I look back to
that moment, I’m filled with horror and sadness that my daughter, son and ex wife Denise came in and found me.
That anyone should witness this in another human being is appalling, but I put these people whom I loved and cared
about through such a personal atrocity fills me with horror to this day. To each one of you, I thank you for saving
me, for your continued support and love, without which I wouldn’t be here.

On another occasion, I seriously considered committing suicide in front of a train. The main reason I didn’t, was
because of the people around Ann. At that most dreadful time, people were saying to her “he’s a waste of time, he’s
using you, he’s not going to come through” and plenty of other things as well. I didn’t want them to be able to say “I
told you so”. Everyone was thinking, he’s got cancer; he’s going to die, if he gets through the cancer he’s impotent,
he can’t have sex any more – that’s what people think and I had to prove them wrong.

My ex-wife Denise later made a discovery which would change my life forever.

A Ray Of Hope
Denise looked on the internet and found out about penile implants which consist of reconstructive surgery. She told
me about it, I looked at it on the internet and decided it was the only way out for me. For the first time in months, I
had hope, the examples of impotency that were described on the internet were a replica of my own experiences and I
saw an opportunity of really getting my life back.

Medical Stuff!
You ha ve to un dersta nd the func tion o f the pro s ta te gla nd to under sta nd why yo u
be come imp ote nt in the fi rs t pla ce.

F unctio n

The prostate is one of three glands necessary for reproduction. The

prostate produces a sticky, milky fluid of acids and enzymes. This fluid
makes up about 15 percent of the total volume of the semen and helps to
sustain the sperm cells that are created in the testicles. The prostate is
surrounded by muscle, which contracts to ejaculate this fluid. When the
entire prostate gland is removed, the operation is called a radical
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prostatectomy. During my operation the nerve and blood supplies to the

erectile tissues of the penis were removed as part of the procedure, this is
often a generally accepted part of the process. However, I have since
discovered that the chance of impotency has been substantially reduced
with the development of "nerve-sparing” techniques which you MUST
discuss with your doctor before the operation. Without this, blood will no
longer be able to flow into your penis and you will be left impotent.

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 Inflatable Penile Implants
Overview - Inflatable Penile Implant

The implant provides a more natural appearing erection and

greater flaccidity than rod implants. These advanced, prostheses
are inflatable implants available in a variety of models and sizes
for a custom fit. Each consists of a reservoir implanted in the
abdomen, a pump placed in the scrotum and a pair of cylinders
implanted in the penis. The entire device is totally concealed in
the body.

Advantages

• Acts and feels more like a natural erection.

• Expands the girth of the penis.
• A true firm & full erection.
• You can control the actual time you remain erect.
• Feels softer and more flaccid when deflated.
• Totally concealed within the body

A Ray Of Hope Continued

I couldn’t believe what I was seeing, a device inside your abdomen, a cylinder full of fluid. The device which you
operate, floods the fluid into your penis where the blood should go and thus creates an erection – then the rest is up
to you! I can honestly say in that respect you come out better, more capable than before you were diagnosed with
cancer, it’s amazing.

I thought about it; spoke to a specialist about it at the Thomas Linacre Centre (Thomas Linacre Centre, Parsons
Walk, Wigan. WN1 1RU Phone: 01942 774743), but I was told I wasn’t entitled to treatment. Obviously again, I
slipped back down into depression, at death’s door and thought “That’s it, there’s nothing else.” I spoke to my own
GP, Doctor Sutton, but he told me that information wasn’t right, I WAS entitled to it and he would sort it out for
me.

A couple of weeks later, I had an appointment to see a Mr. Minnus in Surrey. I went down to Surrey, had the
interview with him and he said he could help me and basically give me my life back. I can’t really convey in words
the excitement and hope that surged through me, I believed what he’d said wholeheartedly. It seemed so easy for
him to say it in such a matter-of-fact way, but it was on a massive scale to me. I went onto a waiting list and 3
months later I went to the London University College Hospital
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University College Hospital (UCH) 235 Euston Road, London NW1 2BU, Main switchboard: 0845 1555000

I had the reconstructive implant surgery, (which I admit was very painful). I remember coming round from the
anesthetic and looking down below and seeing a big stonking erection! It was unbelievable, fantastic! NO
DEPRESSION! The depression just went and I just wanted to build my life up again, make a fresh start. I was sent
home to recover for 4 weeks, and then I had to go back to London for a check-up.

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Keep Swimming – My Inspiration
Ann with whom I was having a relationship before the cancer told me to “Keep Swimming”, I asked her what she
meant by that and she said, “well, if you tread water, you’ll get tired and go under, but if you keep swimming, you’ll
move forward and your alive, so I thought about that every day, in my darkest hours her words stayed with me.

Those two words were massive to me and still are. They got me through my hardest times, it was because of what
Ann said to me that I got through it, in retrospect I have no doubt. I think she knew exactly what she was saying
when she said it, she understood its impact, but at the time, I didn’t and that’s why all the events that I now do since
the reconstructive surgery are called “Keep Swimming”

A Normal Life – What’s That?

I’m now leading a normal life, believe me, I’m more capable now than I ever was of having a relationship. The
rewards are massive from the reconstructive surgery. Anyone who’s impotent through cancer, medication or is born
that way – THEY DON’T NEED TO BE IMPOTENT! The feeling of orgasm since the operation is more intense
than ever it was before I had cancer, everything’s normal, there’s no sperm, you get fluid coming out now and again
when you orgasm but that’s it, there’s nothing in it (your sterile). I would totally recommend to anyone who is
impotent to have that surgery, they’re entitled to it (on the NHS) so don’t let anyone tell you that you’re not
entitled to it because you are. If you go on the waiting list you can get it on the NHS. I didn’t want to wait, I
went private (it cost – at the time £8,000).

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Fundraising & the support of family & friends keeps me strong

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 Keeping On Top
The clinical depression still comes and goes because there’s no cure for clinical depression. You’re not level all the
time, you know when you’re getting it, but I’ve now learned how to deal with it. I deal with it by exercise or going
for a walk or doing something positive but I admit it’s a constant battle. At first I lost the battle, the impotency and
depression made me a horrible person. You don’t know you’re doing it ‘till after you’ve done it. Prostate cancer
doesn’t kill everyone, but it destroys your life in other ways. I’m OK with the depression and I can control it now,
it’s become a part of my life, it’s a lot better than it’s been, the doctor can’t tell me when it will stop, it’s like, how
long is a piece of string? I don’t cope with it by drinking any more, I exercise and go running.

Extreme Fundraising
The main reason I do my events is to raise money and equally important, awareness for Prostate cancer and womb
cancer. The womb cancer, a friend of mine, her grandmother had it and we thought my daughter had it, my
daughter had a scare, but thankfully got the all clear and I thought to myself, well, it’s horrendous for a man, it’s
really, really bad,, but for a woman to have it done – to take away the possibilities of having children – it must he
horrendous.

With regards to prostate cancer where families are

concerned, I would say to the wives or the partners
don’t give up on it because they’ve become
impotent, you’ve got to stick with them. If you
stick with them and what we call, ride the storm,
you’ll keep swimming with them and you’ll come
out of it and he’ll be normal again. It’s vital that
they get that support, without that support they
won’t get through it.

I support these charities for obvious reasons. I do

the events, I do extreme events ‘cause it seems to
me you have to do something out of the normal to
be heard. Men don’t like talking about it – no one
wants to talk about it – there was no one there for
me to turn to, to ask about it so that’s why I’m
here, for that reason, to talk about it.

“For anybody who has prostate cancer

and they want to talk to me, or visit me
or me visit them, I’m there 24 hours a
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day to speak to them, their wives, Presenting my fundraising cheque for £2,500 to Mr.
Minnus at London City Hosp ital who performed my
partners, anything they want – I’m not implant operation and gave me my life back.
embarrassed, and it needs to be said”.

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“Keep Swimming” Fundraising Event 1
The fundraising side of it began last July when I pushed ‘the’ bed, the double bed that belonged to a friend of mine,
Steven Knox who had just died of brain cancer, his wife Ann asked if I’d push his bed in memory of him and of course
I said yes. He spent all his time in that bed, and he died in it. I ran with that bed, not walked, I ran with it, the team
was myself, my son Gary John, Rob Simm; Rob is a friend, but, well more like a brother. When I was really ill with
the depression, he found out that I was living in my transit van. He took me into his home; he was on suicide watch
with me and nearly lost his job. Also on the bed run was Fritz Jones and Rob was the organiser, he sorted all the food
out and other things. In 8 days I ran 180 miles - Rob and my son Gary ran with me. Fritz drove the back up vehicle
with his caravan bringing up the rear. On the first day I collapsed with sun stroke, I still got up the morning after and
still ran 32 miles. On day 2 I collapsed with exhaustion, my feet and legs swelling, my feet bleeding, I lost some
toenails, but I had to keep going, I couldn’t let everybody down, not now. We finished the event in Wigan town
centre on the 8th day. The bed push ra ised £2,000 for Christies a nd £2,000 for London University College
to go towa rds trea ting men with impotency.

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“Push For Life” In Memory of Steven Knox (It was Steven’s bed I pushed)
After 8 days and 180 miles we return home to Wigan town centre
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 A few days later, the depression came back because I was so exhausted. Your thoughts begin to slide again into the
black abyss and every thing comes back – Ann, Richard and the drinking but this time, I managed to get a grip of it
because of the support of friends and family. It took me 4 months to recover.

“Keep Swimming” Fundraising Event 2

On November the 16th 2008 (Ann’s birthday), I carried a full size fridge freezer from Southport to Standish it took 8
hours and I carried the fridge freezer for 19 miles, including Parbold Hill, Wigan. Half way up a caravan hit me and
sent me flying with the fridge-freezer.

The fantastic Team With Me Were:

My son Gary (so proud of the man you’ve become – Thank you for your love, support & strength, I wouldn’t be here
without you son)

Rob Simm

Fritz Keith Jones

My Brother Keith

Mick Farnsworth

Ann Knox

Sarah Smith

David Grimshaw

Both Ann & Sarah were

amazing with their support,
looking after us all, providing
food and refreshments along
the way.

John Veary

(John was responsible for getting more money than most, which totaled £3,000, without him we wouldn’t have
raised that amount. John was waiting for bowel surgery and had never trained before, never done any exercising, but
still walked the 19 miles) along with Mick & Dave carrying the Christie money buckets for people to donate anything.

I can sa y hand on hea rt tha t without these special people, their love and sup port; the events I
ca rried out to raise money would never ha ve happened. To each of them, I give my sincere thanks.
I’m humbled by their generosity of spirit a nd for their belief in me. It’s a team effort, without them
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it’ s just no t possible.

The fridge wa s a lso ca rried in memory of the following:

In memory of David’s wife Jennifer Grimshaw (who died last year from cancer of the Esophagus).

Kay Parkinson’s cousin Paul Tonge who died of Brain cancer at 24.

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November 16th 2008

The fridge pictures are of Dale & Morgan…who along with

their father have Retina Blastoma. £1,000 of the monies raised
by this event will go to St Bartholomew’s Hospital to help with
this disease

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 Also – the event was to raise awareness of Retina Blastoma
(eye cancer).

Since the fridge freezer event, I got depression again, triggered by the exhaustion and I began to slide back into the
gutter. However, this time I was expecting it and decided to fight it. My first step was to cut the drink out. I locked
myself away in my flat and dealt with it, cause that’s what you have to do, you have to deal with it every time. For
me anti-depressants don’t work and I personally, feel that people need to come off them to get back to health again,
but don’t take my word for it, I urge you to discuss it with your doctor before you try. Everyone’s different;
everyone has their own way of coping.

“Keep Swimming” Fundraising Event 3

My next event is to ca rry the fridge freezer from Manchester to Wigan which is 24 miles.

Setting off at 6am from the A6 outside Manchester city centre; I’ll make my way towards Wigan through Worsley,
Westhoughton, Hindley and Ince, carrying a 200lb fridge-freezer from Manchester to Wigan. At 24 miles it is longer
than the last trek where I carried the fridge from Southport to Standish and raised £3,000 for The Christie cancer
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hospital in Manchester and London's St Bartholomew's Children's Hospital eye cancer fund.

The main beneficiary will once again be The Christie, but this time I’m also running to raise funds for Hindley dad
James Smith's trip to America for treatment for a debilitating brain condition and completing the marathon in
memory of two friends: the former boxer Ryan Cummings from Scholes, who tragically hanged himself last year, and
six-year-old Neil Turner, also from Scholes, who died several years ago in a tragic accident.

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I know it will be another tough da y's work, but I have got plenty to motivate me. Like always, I’m
tra ining hard, running 100 miles a week and also weight tra ining every evening. Please support me
if you ca n. I thank you with a ll my heart for your k indness and generosity.

You can log on to my website: http://www.prostatecancerinsider.com

You can dona te using my “Just Giving” web pa ge: http://www.justgiving.com/garycrompton

You can petition the Prime Minister to Ensure Eq uality in Health Services for Men by Providing
Ca ncer Screening: http://petitions.number10.gov.uk/MaleCancers/

My Special Thanks
I want to take this opportunity to pay tribute to Denise, my ex wife and mother of our beautiful children. Denise,
you’ve been with me heart and soul throughout our marriage, through thick and thin. For all these years you’ve
given me support and friendship when many would have turned away. Without you and what you did for me; in
taking time to help me find a solution, I wouldn’t have had a life, future or hope. Your generosity of spirit will
remain with me always and I thank you from the bottom of my heart; you are and will always remain a very special
lady.

I want to thank ALL my kids, Gary, Emma, Sarah and Shane for their never-ending love and forgiveness. My heart
swells with pride for each of you and I love every one of you, ALWAYS…

My brother Keith who’s been like a father, friend and the best brother ever, you are all these special people all rolled
in to one fantastic person.

My mother who has always listened to me without judgment and instills in me the strength to carry on even in my
darkest hours.

I want to thank Ann for what she did for me when I was diagnosed with cancer.

A sincere debt of gratitude goes to my dietician, Wayne Mapson without whom I would not have finished any of the
events. Thanks for your advice and guidance throughout.

This web site has been set up by Mark Ramskill who has donated his time and expertise to put it into place and it will
be managed by Karen Lamb (Palmer) who has been the driving force to get the information together to be included
onto the site, both of whom I hadn’t even met until a few weeks ago, what wonderful and generous people you are
and I am delighted and honoured to include them into the ‘Keep Swimming – Extreme Fund Raisers Team’

Finally, I need to give a massive “THANK YOU” to ALL the people who have taken the time and kindness of spirit to
donate so generously along both trips. London to Wigan on my “Push For Life” and my “Keep Swimming” Extreme
Fundraiser Fridge Carrying Event from Southport to Standish. This included, but not restricted to Supermarkets,
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Public Houses, Football Teams, Banks, Hotels & Restaurants, Grocers, Hairdressers, Private Businesses and to every
person who threw money into our buckets along the way!

Why This Was Written

My reason for writing this and my most intimate and painful memories, is that I want people to see that there IS life
after cancer. It’s not for any personal gratification, I’m not interested in that I can assure you, but I need people to
see and really understand how it was.
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 I don’t ever want another man to experience both the loss of identity and his relationships with the people he loves.
I’ll carry fridge freezers till the day I die to make people LISTEN, to RAISE AWARNESS and TO GIVE HOPE.

If I can do it, if I can go through all that I’ve been through then anybody CAN get through it. It wasn’t just getting
over cancer, it was getting over the impotency, the depression, post traumatic stress disorder, divorce and a massive
split with Ann. Cause I didn’t just lose Ann, I lost her daughter as well, that was massive, it was like losing one of
your own kids.

For The Women Who Will Read This…

The only way I can really put everything into context for a woman, to explain the trauma of cancer, impotency &
depression, well, the only comparison I can think of is for a woman to have her breasts or her womb removed. I’ve
been told and can empathise that you feel scarred, you feel traumatised at what you believe is the loss of your
femininity, and also the chance for more children. You feel unattractive to your partner and as a woman you no
longer feel whole.

Having the operation, and the subsequent impotency left me with just a piece of skin to urinate through and to go
from being very active (sexually) and having 4 children and being in a relationship with someone who’s special to you,
to go from all that you just think, “it’s all gone, and if it’s all gone then why be here, it’s pointless”

You’ve got to get your man to focus and just do it, to fight it every step of the way. You may not realize how
important your love and support is, but it’s vital, it’s vital that you continue to love them, even at times when their
despair drives you to the brink. Don’t take “NO” for an answer from the hospitals and doctors, YOUR MAN’S
ENTITLED TO RECONSTRUCTIVE SURGERY, A LIFE AND THE ABILITY TO KEEP ON LOVING YOU
PHYSICALLY – THE RIGHT TO BE A MAN. I’ve been there, its 40% medication and 60% mental strength. In
normal life before the cancer you took health and love for granted, now you have to fight together to get it back. I
know from experience that men are a lot weaker than women. Women are strong, tenacious fighters, fight for your
man when he’s weak in body and spirit, and please don’t give up on him. I promise you hand on heart, you won’t
regret it, and you’ll reap such rewards together. There will come a time when the healing’s done, when you find
peace and the precious gift of life and a future together you never thought you’d see. Be strong for him. I know I get
that personal strength from my mother, it doesn’t come from anywhere else, that’s it, you’ve got to be focused or
you just die and now I don’t really want to die.

Hopefully, I’ll just keep going as I am, if the cancer comes back, no problem I’ll sort it, that’s how you have to be.
Don’t think like you’ve got cancer, think like you’ve got flu or a cold and I know that without the support I’ve had, I
wouldn’t be here today and without the reconstructive surgery, I certainly wouldn’t be here, it sorted the depression
out and gave me a life again.

I took my health for granted and like everything, until it’s not there you don’t realise what a massive part of you life it
is.
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My Inspiration…
When I went for my interview at the London University College, there was a young girl there who was in a
wheelchair, she lived in that chair, and she had a morphine drip in front of her (I know it was morphine because I’ve
been on it). She looked up at me and I saw the gentleness in her face, I thought I’m not ill, that little girl’s ill. She
looked up at me and despite her own suffering and pain, she smiled like the angel she was and put her thumbs up at

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me and I went in to the toilet and cried my eyes out. Her strength humbled me, and continues to humble me to this
day. The hospitals are filled with such children, some of whom will never grow up, adults who lose their loved ones
to illness, each individual fight a mountain who’s summit won’t always be reached – All the suffering behind closed
doors, in hospitals, hospices, family homes, with all my heart, I wish carrying a fridge would make a positive
difference to the life of each individual that suffers. I know I can’t do that, but what I do know is that I’ll never stop
trying.

I think about what I went through and all that these people go through and it changes your perspective forever. These
people inspire me daily; I never tire of hearing about the courage and kindness of my fellow human beings.

Remember to be kind to those about you. Never forget to tell those close to you how important they are and that you
love them. We’re on this earth for such a short time and every day should be cherished. It’s important that we leave
behind a legacy of love and kindness, compassion and understanding for those who have suffered.

I know that now, after all this, I understand why we’re here and I will never give up, I will never
stop fundraising and I’ll do it till I die, it’s as simple as that.

Gary Crompton 2009

During the writing of Gary’s story and whilst training for the 3rd “Keep Swimming”
Extreme Fundraiser Event, Gary suffered a heart attack one month before his latest
marathon, due to take place on 2nd May 2009.
Gary hadn’t been aware but he had been suffering from atherosclerosis (a condition where a heart valve narrows) and
underwent a reparative procedure to open the blocked artery by the insertion of a stent. The procedure begins
through an incision in the groin. As always, Gary wanted you to be fully informed as to the procedure.

P e r c u t an eo u s c or o n ar y i nt e r v e nt i o n ( P CI o r
angiopl asty wit h stent)

What is it?
Percutaneous Coronary Intervention (PCI, formerly known as
angioplasty with stent) is a non-surgical procedure that uses a catheter
(a thin flexible tube) to place a small structure called a stent to open
up blood vessels in the heart that have been narrowed by plaque build-
up, a condition known as atherosclerosis.
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For a moving diagrammatic explanation, please

click on the link below:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gvRtP3wl_AY

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 What’s The Procedure?
Hair in the groin area around where the catheter will be inserted may be clipped. An intravenous (IV) line is inserted
so, if necessary, you can be given medications quickly. Electrodes will be placed on your body to monitor your heart,
and a small device called a pulse oximeter may be clipped on a finger or ear to track the oxygen level in your blood.

Most PCIs are conducted with the patient sedated but not asleep. You will lie on your back on a procedure table. A
local anaesthetic will be injected into the skin at the site where the catheter will be inserted. Once it has taken effect,
the catheter will be inserted into the blood vessels. You may feel a brief sting or pinch as the needle goes through the
skin and some pressure within the artery as the catheter is moved. If you are uncomfortable, tell your doctor and if
necessary additional pain medication may be given.

When the catheter reaches the heart, the contrast dye will be released so the area where the blood vessel is narrowed
can be identified. When the dye is released, you may feel a brief flushing sensation or feeling of warmth. Some people
experience a salty or metallic taste in the mouth, or a brief headache. A few people may feel nauseated or even vomit,
but this is rare. These effects are harmless usually last for only a few minutes.

When the narrowing is located, the catheter will be advanced so the special tip can be activated. It is possible to
experience some chest pain or discomfort at this point, but your doctor will monitor you carefully and the discomfort
should go away quickly.

When finished, the catheter will be withdrawn and pressure put on the insertion site to stop the bleeding. Once the
bleeding has stopped, a tight bandage will be applied. You will need to remain lying flat during this time. If the
catheter was inserted in the groin, you will have to keep your leg straight for several hours. If it was inserted in the
arm, your arm will be kept elevated on pillows and kept straight with an arm board.

After the procedure, you will probably go to a recovery room for several hours of observation. You will be asked to
remain in bed for two to six hours, depending upon your specific condition. Pain medication may be given if you
experience any discomfort. You will be encouraged to drink water and other fluids to help flush the contrast dye
from your body. Most people spend the night in hospital after a PCI. When you return home, keep an eye on the
insertion site. A small bruise is normal, but contact your doctor if you experience increased pain, redness, swelling,
bleeding or other draining from the insertion site, fever, or chills.
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Message From Gary:

Obviously, I have to take it easy for a while and give my body chance to heal. I want to assure all those
who have supported me and pledged donations for what was to be my third event on May 2nd that the “show
will go on!” I’m aiming for July 2009 but of course will have to take guidance from my doctors as to when
I’m considered fully fit.

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I would ask that you please still continue to pledge your support, for whenever that time comes, you can be
sure I’ll give it 100%. I’m lost without you!

Thanks to all of you who continue to support me and for those who are suffering from prostate cancer and
its effects, I’m still here, still fighting for you and help is only a call away.

“Keep Swimming” 2009

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