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MIXING GENRES Installation art changes the way we experience art WESCOE WIT Ready for me to whip it out and give it to you? STAGE PRESENCE Lanky lyricist Stik Figa and his real-life rhymes
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In the spirit of outside-the-box thinking of Leslies story on page 8 about installation art, an emerging form of contemporary art designed to create an alternative, more interactive experience for its viewers, I thought Id shake things up and write this editors note in three haiku poems. A note in homage To outside-the-box thinking Like mixed-media Bright suits made of sound, Painting flowers on the snow Are installation Creativity Seen in new technology Unites us viewers Be sure to check out Kansan.com/Jayplay for more photos and multimedia slideshows to further your creative experience.
EDITOR // Alex Garrison ASSOCIATE EDITOR // Kelci Shipley DESIGNERS // Laura Fisk, Liz Schulte CONTACT // Lindsay Cleek, Leslie Kinsman, Katy Saunders HEALTH // Adam Vossen MANUAL // Emily Johnson, Ben Sullivan NOTICE // Mary Henderson, Abby Olcese, Anna Sobering PLAY // Beth Beavers, Taylor Brown, Anna Kathagnarath CONTRIBUTORS // Mike Anderson, Jason Charney, Molly Martin, Landon McDonald CREATIVE CONSULTANT // Carol Holstead CONTACT US // jayplay10@gmail.com
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Contributed photo Surprise on the slopes: Matt Cain, Overland Park senior, proposed to Lauren Byers, Overland Park senior, during a ski trip to Colorado over winter break.
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Recently it would have to be rainbow sherbet, just because of the tanginess and the variety you get three in one. India. I love Indian food. I love the music and I love the fashion. Id like to go over there and explore and see the origin of the stuff that I like. Metaphorically, if you get knocked off the horse youve got to dust yourself off and get back on dont get discouraged. Youll have to look this up, but Id buy a Nudie suit. Nudie is actually a fashion designer, not a nude-looking suit. Theyre based out of Nashville and theyre these really ornate custom-made suits with different details designed into them, like a phoenix on the back of the jacket made out of rhinestones. Itd be like my bling-suit, ya know? Its classy. I got into music at a really early age so I was obsessed with guitars and records. I remember playing with these battery-operated 4x4 trucks, and I liked playing with those because they could drive over anything.
What is your favorite flavor of ice cream? if you could travel anyWhere in the World Where Would you go?
Gold Medal Ribbon from Baskin Robbins because its vanilla, chocolate and caramel the best of all worlds. Scotland. It looks beautiful and there are castles. I love Scotch and my favorite movie is Braveheart. An investment in knowledge pays the best interest. Ben Franklin. Though he obviously didnt give me that advice personally. First, Id take a date out to a really nice dinner, then treat my best friends to a good-sized bar tab. I always like to share and celebrate with my friends and family.
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the project will have to the field. After being ranked, the proposals are sent back to the Honors Program, where awards are granted based on number of proposals, availability of funding and the quality of the projects. We strive to help projects that deserve funding. We also try to prevent all the funding from going to one discipline, Daly says. Daly says having a research project under your belt and developing a close relationship with a professor in your field of interest is great for future opportunities such as getting a job or seeking additional education. Rebecca Hughey, a December graduate with a degree in linguistics, received a UGRA and is using it this semester to finish her honors project by paying for forms and questionnaires. She also pays time compensation for subject participation in her study. She says she had a lot of consultation with her academic and research advisers to develop the project. She says she already knew her project well, but writing the proposal helped to compact roughly 60 documents and spreadsheets into a four-page paper. When graduate schools wanted writing samples, she used her UGRA proposal. There are also several travel scholarships available for students who want to attend academic or professional conferences or do research outside of campus. The Honors Programs J. Michael Young scholarship has 20 awards and is open to all students in the College of Liberal Arts and Sciences. The School of the Arts also recently announced a program that provides awards to cover travel expenses if a student wants to attend or perform at a conference. In an attempt to bolster student participations, the Honors Program hosts an undergraduate research symposium in April every year to recognize undergraduate research or creative work at the University. Small prizes are given to the best presentations, and Daly says the banquet has some of the best food of any event. The awards are an excellent springboard into greater opportunities. Daly says the University is trying to increase the number of students participating in active education or engaged learning. Information on awards and applications is available at www.honors.ku.edu. Jp
f youre strapped for cash and need to pay for a project youve been dreaming up or want to travel to a conference that pertains to your major, there are several programs across campus that can get you the funds. The Honors Program offers Undergraduate Research Awards (UGRAs) to undergraduate students who are driven to do independent research in their field, but need help paying for living, travel or material expenses. The awards are given across two six-month periods based on when the research will take place. There are two types of awards. The small award grants up to $750 and the regular award grants up to $2,000. A UGRA is a simplified grant, essentially a sum of money given to a researcher to carry out a public or academic project. A grant is unlike a loan in that you dont have to pay it back. A student looking for a grant will have to write up a grant proposal, as well as a document including a statement of purpose, the subject of the research or project, a budget, how the prospective grantee intends to carry out the project and why the project is of value. Mark Daly, an associate director of the Honors Program, advises and runs the UGRA program. Daly says UGRAs were designed to prepare students to apply for future grants while accomplishing academic work. Students dont have to be in the Honors Program to take advantage of the services offered. After coming up with an idea, Daly says the first step for students is to find a faculty member in their department to help develop the project. A secondary faculty member is helpful to evaluate and provide additional feedback. Alan Schurle, a Manhattan senior majoring in Chemistry and English, got a UGRA to work on a chemistry research project dealing with the structure of molecules. He says he needed the money to pay for lab materials and travel expenses to attend conferences where he wanted to present his project. Schurle says he tried to write the proposal on his own, but realized the benefits of collaborating with an adviser. Explaining the project to someone else really helps in clarifying your own thoughts, Schurle says. He says completing the UGRA process helped prepare him for more complex grant proposals later in life. After working with an adviser, the students proposal goes to a committee of professors in the respective field of study to evaluate and rank it based on the focus of the study and contribution
Photo illustration by Valerie Skubal Rolling in dough: Grant money may be available to students in a wide range of majors to help complete independent projects or undergraduate research.
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s the sun slowly begins to set on a cold February evening in Berlin, Miya Ando straddles a patch of snow in front of the Reichstag building. With luminous paint, she fills in an outline of numerous tiny cherry blossoms spread on top of the snow-covered lawn. The blossoms go unnoticed in the daylight and are only visible later on for just a few moments in the dark until disappearing into the night. What shes working on will never hang in a gallery and never go on sale. It wont be featured in a glossy book, or even be seen by more than a few people. It wont even last more than 24 hours. But still, Ando says, its a work of art. I dont think it would be possible to create this feeling with a painting, Ando says. The ephemerality of the melting snow and the people walking over the piece was something that was very important to the piece, as was the fleeting nature of the viewing time frame of the work. Mixed-media and installation art has never been more interactive and accessible because of the freedoms allotted to the modern artist. Spaces are being filled at an alarming pace, never being imagined to be occupied with an artistic intention. Artists are doing whatever it takes to fulfill their personal, artistic aesthetic while still, and more importantly, maintaining a connection with the viewer. Maria Velasco, associate professor of installation art within the School of Arts, says mixed-media and installation art emerged in the 1960s, when artists rebelled against the authority of museums by finding other venues to display and express their work. At the same, time this offered a more direct and refreshing way to connect with their audiences. They would question the power of the art establishments and museum curators. Because of this, the artists work was considered much more action- based and ephemeral, Velasco says. This generated a lot of energy thats been since ongoing, but has ended up being a little more polished these days. If you call an artist mixedmedia, you want to see that in his or her work is inter-disciplinary and offers an alternative viewpoint to what art is and can be. Nathan Hoffman, Oregon, Illinois, graduate student, is experiencing first-hand the potential effect and ever-evolving possibilities that mixed-
Mixed-media artists reach out to viewers by transforming ordinary objects and spaces into extrordinary art, making visual experiences more accessible
media art, including todays technology, can offer. For example, whereas images used to consistantly be just static, now artists such as Hoffman utilize video. Its a more photogenic process, he says. I dont think technology or multi-media has hurt the art world but only transformed it more. Aaron Storck, local installation artist, says the artists of the 1960s and 70s paved the way for modernizing installation art and helped mold artists like himself. I feel grateful to pioneering, twentieth century artists who made some of the first happenings, installations, performance pieces etc., Storck says. They really opened up a lot of new territory for artists to explore. Storck grew up in New York City. After graduating from the Bronx High School of Science, Storck came to Lawrence to attend the University to escape the East Coast pace. He completed a BFA in printmaking from the school of art in 2001. He returned to New York after graduating, but returned to Lawrence in 2006 for the easy living and inexpensive space so he could develop some art projects. Since his return to Lawrence, he has worked intensely with his collection and even helped find a local Lawrence alliance of artists called the Fresh Produce Art Collective. Storcks artistic livelihood is dynamic and hyper-evolving thanks to the technological advances offered to todays artist. Installation art is a young discipline and is extremely flexible and powerful way to think and work, he says. It can get the artist thinking spatially and architecturally about the viewers experience with the work. There becomes a time-based, programmatic unfolding of the experience for the viewer as they move through the space and discover their way through its intentions, Stork says. When developing his work, Storck says he deals with interlocking mediums. Within one piece of installation Storck has staged performances, which are photographed and videotaped, which then become the basis for more work. I take the photographs and arrange them in the computer, Storck says. I print them out and collage them to canvas and proceed to paint on them to make a new kind of hybrid painting. I write poems and speeches which become printed narratives for my
Photo contributed by Thomas Kruesselman Ephemeral art: Brooklyn-based installation artist Miya Ando works on a project in which she painted flowers onto snow. The outdoor exhibit only lasted a few hours, but the fleeting nature of the work was its core message, Ando says.
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Photo contributed by Nick Cave Tribe of many colors: Dancers, including Jessica Molina, 2009 graduate, in yellow, model soundsuits in an installation performance piece by Kansas City and Chicago artist Nick Cave. The performance was part of celebrations for the 125th anniversary of the Kansas City Art Institute and represented an emerging trend of art interactive experiences that break away from static, two-dimensional paintings and drawings.
shows or performance pieces which are done within the installations. Storck says he wants his art to reach people, especially those who care about art. In the long term, however, Storck wants his art to be able to communicate and connect with people in different cultures, present and future, about the qualities and issues pertaining to this culture. Art has a power like that, Storck says. When you walk through a museum and check out works from all over the world of all ages, you can get a feeling for what the people were thinking about, what they cared about. I want to take part in that cultural exchange. Kyle Davis, Alma senior, is a prime example of embracing the rule of no limitations. As an architecture major, Davis says his designing motivations can derive from artistic origins. Davis has always been interested in building furniture. After taking an independent study course focusing on tensegrity, non-gravitational based structures made from smaller parts that are suspended in tension apart from each other, he found that the separation between installation art and architecture can be pretty blurred.
Good architecture should excite and delight the senses, or at least cause some kind of emotional response, he says. Architecture can be considered a little more permenant of an installation. Nick Cave, graduate of the Kansas City Art Institute and director of the graduate fashion program at the School of Art Institute of Chicago, made the Kansas City debut of his Soundsuit performance art production at Bartle Hall on Feb. 20 for The Kansas City Art Institutes 125th Anniversary Gala. Raised in Folton, Mo., Cave says he always felt a satisfaction in performance, even at a young age. I remember feeling so much joy performing for my family at picnics when I was a little boy. I remember feeling a family connection, even then. Cave says. It wouldnt be long until his feeling would drive him to apply for the Kansas City Art Institute where he studied painting, drawing, textiles, dancing and performance art. Within a few years, Cave has established himself in the art community with the introduction of his soundsuits. Cave initially built his first soundsuit
as more of a sculpture piece, collecting and compiling tiny twigs into a handmade, one-piece body suit. It wasnt until later, when he tried the suit on, that he realized its true capacity. I want people to associate something familiar with the sounds of the suit by making a direct connection or reference, not necessarily a western civilization connection, Cave says. Its more of a ritual, carnivorous dress. Cave says that he feels fulfilled in his mixedmedia collaboration of the Soundsuits and dance performance he directed. Ive done what I was set out to do, he says. I came here and allowed the community to build this show. The 32 performers and I bridged the gap together of gender, race and sexuality. It was an outreach process, as a medium, to exercise my expression. Cave believes the application of mixed-media art has always been fair game and artists are continuing to use what they will to best support a particular project.Nothing has changed in that sense. Artists are operating the same way as ever by opening themselves up to anything in order to complete a vision and express an idea. Were just seeing it in ever-evolving forms.
Jessica Molina, 2009 graduate, isnt shy about dipping her finger into too many projects. Molina graduated with a BFA in expanded media with a focus in dance and sculpture. While at school, she had installation and mixedmedia work shown in the art and design gallery as well as Murphy Hall. Molina performed as a dancer in Nick Caves Soundsuit performance in February in on of his hand-made, multi-colored suits, resembling a tribal dance. Working with Nick Cave was a ground-breaking experience for me, Molina says. The massive production scale and integration of different mediums he put together in just one show blew my mind. It also showed me how to put together a huge artistic collaboration into an amazing multi-media performance. Molina has not only had experience with performance art, but also dove head-first into her own interpretations of mixed-media and art installation. Molinas work can range anywhere from site-specific installation art to performance art pieces with interactive elements. In discussing installation art, Molina says it doesnt matter whether its a virtual reality or 800 pounds of human hair weaved into a massive braid, installation has the advantage of creating an interactive experience. Installation artists today are continuously embracing new technology and mediums to incorporate into their work, Molina says. Theyre always taking information in and utilizing their surroundings. Molina says she was drawn to mixed-media and art installation because of the artistic freedom. She tries to transform space and create an experience that the participant can embrace. My main goal is to get people to think in ways theyve never confronted before, Molina says. I try to avoid telling them what they should necessarily think or believe. I want people to use their brains to form their own opinions and thoughts. Jp
PLACES YOU CAN CONNECT WITH INSTALLATION ART Spencer Museum of Art, 1301 Mississippi St. First Fridays, various venues in the Crossroads district, Kansas City, Mo. Local artist Aaron Storcks work, Altar to magical thinking and garbage realities on imaginary slag heap (expressed as new kind of painting 2009-10), will be showing at the Dolphin Gallery, 1600 Liberty St. in Kansas City, Mo., through May 8th
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eoul-based artist Kim Jongku spent two weeks in-residence at the Spencer Museum of Art in February. After acclimating to his new environment, Jongku began to create a largescale painting. He manufactured his own tools to apply iron powder, which he used to write his calligraphy and lines of poetry on the canvas. In his conversation with the canvas, Jongku was very physically involved with the work, often standing on and running across the canvas as he laid down the calligraphy. Jongku continued to apply additional layers of poetry until he felt his conversation with the canvas resolved itself. Guests watched as Jongku created this work, which distorts viewers perception of scale through the use of closed circuit cameras and a live feed projected on the wall. The calligraphy that makes up the mobile landscape gives the impression of a mountainous terrain, which conflicts with the image of people walking past the work. Jongkus piece can be viewed at the Spencer Museum of Art, 1301 Mississippi St., through July 25.
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Photo by Chris Bronson On February 25, Jongku gave an artist talk at the Spencer Museum of Art. Immediately following his lecture, he created his mobile landscape installation piece while guests enjoyed the process from start to finish. His mobile landscape consists of a projected video feed of his iron powder calligraphy, which creates the image of a mountainous landscape on the wall of the gallery.
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Photo by Ryan Waggoner After applying a layer of calligraphy and a layer of dripping, Jongku added a second layer of calligraphy in his conversation with the canvas. Jongku spoke of how at a certain point in his work, the conversation between himself and the canvas became more of an argument. Upon completion, the conflict was resolved.
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JOaNNa NEwsOM HavE ONE ON ME (DRag KJHKs weekly guide to sonic consumption. City) Its fitting that this elvish California chanteuses
third full-length album be more than two hours long and recorded on three CDs. Her previous release, Ys, leaned towards epic, finely-tuned, orchestral pieces that one finds even more of on this album, all overflowing with Victorian lyrical flourishes and equally ebullient strange instrumentation. But interspersed throughout these tracks are short little gems of true, pithy songwriting, much more like her debut album, The MilkEyed Mender (2004). The harp is still the dominant instrument (on which Newsom is an unquestionable virtuoso), but there are simply stunning orchestral arrangements on many of the songs that dont overpower other elements (which happened a bit on Ys). The standout element of this album is the lyrics, which are pure poetry and could stand on their own without music. The meandering tune You And Me, Bess is both humorous and melancholy, while the simpler 81 is mysterious and full of clever wordplay. For those who have heard Newsom in the past and have been immediately repulsed by her unique, warbling voice, take another listen. She has certainly polished her singing technique, making it more versatile and palatable than on previous releases. But this album, like her others, is a grower. Give it a few listens with an open mind, particularly with the lyrics in front of you, and it will reveal itself slowly.
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It took 1800 miles of separation to finally bring me closer to my mother.
approval. When I announced Id been dating a guy for two months without her knowledge and that he was four years older than I, she tried to restrict me. Lucky for me though, she started dating a man a couple weeks later, which sidetracked her from any real parenting obligations. She started spending the night at his house, which had never happened before, and her neglect only lead me to question her priorities more. She became consumed with this man. She started missing dinners at Grannys and stopped asking about schoolwork. She even missed my birthday because she decided to go the Indy 500 with her boyfriend. The paradox in it all came when they broke up; she came crying to me. I hugged her, but rolled my eyes behind her back, because I was glad she was feeling what I had felt for the past six years, angry and alone. This is what I call Depression Phase III, when Mama and me hit rock bottom. Anger began to live where feelings of love and compassion were supposed to. By the time I was a senior, I applied to college without her input and then buried my fury towards her into planning my escape. In the months leading up to my departure for the University, Mama and I were just living side by side. I felt nothing when I saw her pull away from Oliver Hall on move-in day. I only went home twice that year to avoid the fighting, anger and resentment I had towards her. Through the next several years, we talked only when absolutely necessary. The distance between us helped, but our unspoken problem had yet to be resolved. When Mama decided to come visit for Moms Weekend spring of my junior year, I was skeptical about spending 72 hours alone with her. I had mixed emotions as I drove to the airport ,and when we saw each other we shared a forced embrace. A KU basketball game filled the silence of the car until we stopped at the Legends to eat dinner and watch the game. We started with small talk, but by half time the conversation turned to more serious issues. In a calm, but deliberate manner, Mama looked at me with tear-filled eyes and told me how sorry she was for everything. That was the beginning of the end of my anger. After the game, we continued our conversation in the car ride home. We both started crying when we both apologized for the pain our selfishness had caused each other all of those years. The tears didnt stop until we got to Lawrence and hugged each other for the first time in what seemed like 100 years. Our time apart allowed room for us to grow up and move on while also bringing us closer than weve ever been. Jp
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I dont remember much of my childhood before the age of 11, but I can recall everything from the day Daddy said he was leaving my mama and me. I was in the sixth grade, and it was as if a voice from above said, Its time to grow up. Mama and I moved into a small twobedroom house in the middle of our small town, Tappahannock, Va. I hated that house. It was old, stunk of mothballs and worst of all, it was painted some putrid shade of yellow with green shutters. It became our home, and for the next seven years that house would be the battleground for our fights, our tears and our struggle to raise each other. I always felt more like my mothers older sister than her offspring. As soon as Daddy left, Mama went into a downward spiral. She was trying to cope, but instead of dealing with her depression over him leaving, she avoided it with distractions. About a month after the separation, Mama started dating a townie shed known from high school. When that didnt work out, Mama went into what I call Depression Phase I, playing Mahjong on the computer for hours. Then she got into online dating. I can remember her calling me away from my homework and into our home office on countless nights so that I could look at bachelor #1 and bachelor #2. She wanted me to judge them with her and I guess, on some level, she was seeking my approval too. I always just rolled my eyes and thought she was desperate and embarrassing. When her first online date came to pick her up, I answered the door to a man wearing fake rubber hillbilly teeth. Nice try attempting to impress the 12-year-old. Whenever her relationships didnt work out, Mama went into what I call Depression Phase II, watching TV in the dark while eating popcorn, then man hunting on the computer for hours. A part of me felt sorry for her, but the selfish side of me didnt care what she was feeling. I was just tired of being pulled in so many different directions with no real role model to depend on. The tension worsened once high school started. Not only was I sharing a bathroom with my mother, but she was a teacher at my all-girls high school and my coach in two of the sports I played. There was no escaping her. At this point, our selfish attitudes toward life and each other only aggravated our situation. I wanted nothing to do with her. By my junior year, both of our hormones were raging and as I grew more into my teenage years, I thought Mama was entering into hers, for the second time. The problem was she wanted to play the teenager role, while also parenting one. I started to leave no room in my decisions for her
Contributed photo Mama played many roles in my life. My senior year, pictured here, as my softball coach, I couldnt wait to get away from her. But four years later, weve been able to reconcile our differences, and though separated by 1800 miles, were closer than we ever were living in a two-bedroom house sharing a bathroom and seeing each other every day at school and practice.
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