Guilty by Association

GUILTY BY ASSOCIATION
Damion Damizza Young and J. Marshall Craig
GUILTY BY ASSOCIATION
The Life and Times of a Hip-Hop Godfather
With Eddie Gurrola
Copyright 2011 by Damion young anD J. marshall Craig.
all rights reserveD. no part of this publiCation may be reproDuCeD,

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This book is dedicated to the loving memory of Bigga B and Wino Loks. You live on in the memory of all who knew and loved you both. May you rest in peace.
ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS
I think the easiest part of this book to write was this the list of people in my life I am forever grateful to, and for. Of course, so many of the important people who are a part of my story are, well, a part of my story and appear in the tales within; but there are many more who are just as important but whom I havent written specifically about. Id like to thank some of those people here. I have to again thank Granny, without whom I wouldnt be here with any kind of story to tell. And the story wouldnt have been told were it not for J. Marshall Craig, who I think is an incredible writer but dont let him hear that his heads big enough as it is. Id like to thank his Mom, too, Carolyn, who very obiously has been the greatest supporter of Jeff as hes chased his dreams and seen many of them come true. My love and thanks to my brothers, Nick and Jason and grandparents Harold and Millie. I need to give a special shout out to the amazing portrait painter Jeff Cornia in Palm Springs, who introduced me to J. Marshall Craig and to whom he and I are forever grateful. In no particular order, I need to thank, Steven and Jeremy, Chuck and Alison and Lao and Lev and Ronnie Blitz (Chuck is the coolest guy with the coolest friends, such as Ram Dass, whom he introduced me to ... Chucks also one of the sweetest and most generous people Ive ever met. I kinda think of him as a superhero, even if he doesnt have a cape!); Sergio and family, Joe Brewer, Kevin Carter, Evelyn, J.J., Nat Nat, Mr. and Mrs. Ramirez, Kameron, Mr. and Mrs. Solodon, Patricia Bock, Terry Anzaldo, Steve Smith, Michael Newman, Les and Betty Caroll, Pappa Wino and family, Shawn Baptista, Pauli and Holly Rockwell, John Quimby, Tucker Bodine and his incredibly gracious Mom and Dad, Theresa at Shell, Ryan Ford, Soren Baker,
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Overtone and Mrs. Overtone, Big Bams and Big Skips and families, Angela Morelli, Terry & Annette Reid and Chelsey Grady, Lorraine and Mike Martin, Big Bass Andy, Miss Gerry Moore, Michael and Marilyn Mileham, Miss Fran, the The Boo-Yaa T.R.I.B.E., Wilmer Barriza, Jen at Dreamworks, E. Sanchez, Jacob, Tone, Angel and Jesus, Eddie G. (whose help with this book was invaluable), Caz, Einztein, Terry Barnes, Darryl Clark, Vicki Abelson, Dave and Jamie Way, Sjoerd Koppert and Uru, P. F. Sloan, Bob Geldof, Nigel Grainge, Patrick Harrington, Dave Stewart and Nadirah X, Stanley Berhines, Mike Post and Aaron Postil, Big Boy, Debbie Jackson, Fontana/ Universal, Mari, Uncle Issac and Popps, The Don Muggsalini, Freddie, Stan Shephard, Gabe Osornio and family, Cilidh, Rick the Bass Player and Phil Jones, Marianna Proestou and her rockin hubby Eric, Michael Jackson (R.I.P.) and the former staff of Neverland, the Wailers, Jerry Blair, The Brooks Institute, Louis McNally, Frank Howson, Derek Goodall, Arlette Gomez, Morgan Carey, Jackson P. Muttley Gore 1, Michael Richardson, Wayne Newton, Vinny Clamente, Juan, Ernie and Angel, Anna-Boo, Anthony Mazza, Mikah, Kellen Henry, Godfather J., Boogie and Mama Boogie, the hilarious Kimmie Dee, Gena E. (thanks for teaching me callout), the Artist Capps, DJ Couz, Dask, Japanese Bishop and all my Japanese family, Dope, Miss Ruth, Mario and Sheri Salinas and Brad, Tim Feehan, the Grammy Award-winning Pete Novak, Adub, Marky G. and Cee, Earl Stevens, Abby Bonell and family, Duro and Clue, Mr. Cee, Gary Gaston, Down, Fingaz and Flossy, Cheeks (R.I.P.), Big Bear and Quay and staff of KCAQ, Chris Cutter, Dr. Kris-Tea, Dom Camardella, Dr. Clark, the Betty Ford Center (shout out to the Drunk Monk!), Dr. David Gafford, Dizz, Amber Brown, Rustys Pizza, Gabe and 805 Clothing, Cess and Tony the Bus Driver, and, finally, Chowdy-Tay. Im sure Im forgetting someone, but blame it on the brain, not on the heart.
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WHY THE HELL AM I WRITING A BOOK?

By Damion Damizza Young
From humble beginnings in a dysfunctional Santa Barbara family, no one could have predicted my meteoric rise to success from my first radio job at the age of 12 except, perhaps, for the amazing Grandmother who raised me. She encouraged me at every turn on the condition that I finish high school. It was her grounding force that paved the way for me to become one of the most influential power players not only in rap where I peaked at No. 4 on Source Magazines Power 30 most influential people in hip-hop but the music business as a whole. As award-winning senior director of programming/music director of landmark L.A. Hip-Hop station Power 106, I broke new artists like Eminem, Fat Joe and Jermaine Dupri, and helped troubled stars such as Janet Jackson and DJ Quik get out of career slumps and ruts, all the while befriending everyone from NFL Hall of Fame Legend Jim Brown (and getting involved in his world-renowned Amer-ICan/Unity One foundations) to West Coast icons Warren G, Bishop Lamont and even Notorious B.I.G. who, just hours before his murder, spent a laid-back morning in my office high atop Burbank. I never set out to dish a tell-all though thats what the media declared at first and, if you read on, youll find I havent. Hell, we even had the front page of the National Enquirer a year before this was published! I just want to tell you my story. I want to share with you
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my excitement for the music, tell a few of the cool behind-the-scenes stories you may not have heard and remember, first and foremost, Im a FAN stories that I love to hear from people who were in the studio, or on the stage when something incredible went down. I hope Im appropriately candid, but I hope I make some explanation of what I do and why, especially why Ive spent many years and hundreds of thousands of dollars coaching and encouraging emerging new West Coast talent. They wont all be rappers, or beat makers, but some may make great engineers, audio technicians, lighting designers, producers ... who knows. In some cases they were lost kids headed down the wrong path and I was blessed to have the good fortune of my Grannys teachings to share with them: her optimism, her generosity, love, acceptance and willingness to help anyone willing to help him or herself. So this books for you, Granny (even though I know theres a lot of stuff in it you wont like!).
Granny and me dancing in First Class on a flight to Hawaii.
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After all, when it comes down to it, its mostly about Granny, when we get to the root of the lessons taught, the lessons learned. Of course I acknowledge my family at large, brothers Jason, Nick and Bo, my maternal grandparents and my estranged father and mother, but my life wouldnt have been a life were it not for Granny. It was funny when she met my co-writer, J. Marshall Craig, who has become a lifelong friend during the journey of writing this book. Jeff asked my rural Louisiana-born Granny point-blank if she liked rap music. No, she answered. But that doesnt mean I dont appreciate it, the effort that goes into creating it and the fact that these young people are expressing themselves in a positive way to change themselves, and hopefully their situations, for the better.
Damion Damizza Young Santa Barbara, California (The 805!) 2011
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P R E FA C E
By Terry Reid
This is an account of a test, the test of a mans soul. To find oneself a messenger of a whole generation is a terrible burden. From my own ride with the 1960s British Invasion Ive watched it again and again like a movie on endless repeat, the casualties stacking up like quartertones. Inside social and ethnic street reality is to be found a bond to the people and the music we love. Grabbing the trapeze of that bond and holding on for dear life to embolden it is the hardest challenge. Damions story is a fast one, moving at speeds that are difficult to comprehend outside this little world into which some of us are born like it or not, navigating it successfully or not to create music in all of its forms.
Terry Reid and me on a break from recording Seed of Memory at his home in Palm Desert.
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I learned of the man through my longtime friend J. Marshall Craig as he was writing this book; but I met the man about two years ago through a song that I wrote and recorded more than 20 years ago. One phone call he made showed me a passion and sincerity and a love of all things good in music. With quite a bit of hesitation, he explained how he felt the need to flip my song on a loop and add his own new words; his understanding of my lyric of war (the song is Seed of Memory) was totally reflected in his talking blues rap. Same story, different time and place: Conflict and tragedy separated by more than half a century, with very few lessons learned along the way. We were each conveying the same message. As you read this book you will see the familiar, how the giddying heights of stardom and attention creates an intense burden that bears no resemblance to intention and creativity, and almost always exacts an unequaled toll emotionally, psychologically and even physically. Youll meet a man whos a survivor in a race that many run, yet so few finish with grace and kindness, heart intact, spirit unsoiled. Call him a talent, call him a maverick even risk calling him a genius. I call him a friend. Read on. And listen closely.
Terry Reid Palm Desert, California 2010
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By J. Marshall Craig
What in the hell is a white Canadian who knows nothing about hiphop doing at 4:30 in the morning, trying to catch a few Zs on a couch in Snoop Doggs and Warren Gs studio, in a nondescript industrial plaza in L.A.? Thinking, mostly. Yes, despite being amidst no, immersed in the impossibly low-frequency beat thundering through the bluish horizon of burning weed, I was thinking. About rap. And how I was about to get a crash course in hip-hop and find an ear for the beats that constitute the most popular, prevalent and influential music in modern Western culture, all the while chronicling the incredible life-so-far of one of the genres most important players. There is a lot to hip-hop far more than the bombast in the car next to you at the stoplight or the explosion of lights, dance and sound on your TV or that club downtown. Whether you love it or not, all music fans owe hip-hop a huge debt of gratitude: Fundamentally, it saved us from disco. I have conflicting caveats: I hope your name is in this book; and in some cases I really hope its not. No offense, its just that Damion Damizza Young has the often-unnerving habit of being blunt. Were talking uncomfortably candid. I found this out the moment we met; he put on no act and didnt make any attempts to be any more cordial or nice than he naturally is, which is very nice. Still, as refreshing as this honesty and lack of Hollywood pretense is, I
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tilted my head a little when he called me dogg. Where I grew up in Canada, you would have been hit across your buzz-cut skull with a lacrosse stick for calling someone that. But Damion speaks this way to everyone from the neighborhood kids to Dr. Dre, his beloved Gangsta Granny to Jim Brown and former Vice President Al Gore. Its because hes real. Check this out: Tommy Mattola? Yeah, the first time I met him he asked me about Mariah. So, you fuckin her? He was the president of Sony Music Entertainment, asking me if Im banging his ex-wife. Thats when I knew Id made it in the music business. Thats candor with a capital C. Damion likes to say hes guilty by association. No wonder. Stick around were going to lift the veil on his 30-plus-year, mostly behind-the-scenes involvement with the biggest stars in recent music history. Of course, people, politics and places have a huge role in the Damizza story: Theres Dr. Dre, Snoop Dogg, Puffy, Bishop Lamont, Warren G, the Central Intelligence Agency, Michael Jackson, Ja Rule, Ice Cube, gorgeous women, Eminem, nights when bulletproof vests were a very good idea, Jennifer
J. Marshall Craig and Damizza working on a draft of Guilty By Association.
Lopez, Al Gore, 50 Cent, Jay-Z, Nate Dogg, Kurupt, Layzie, Krayzie Bone, Pam Anderson, dreams achieved and dreams
tossed away, 24/7 (and 9/11) with Mariah Carey, the Federal Bureau of Investigation, scantily clad women, Jim Brown, tattoos, nights when bulletproof vests would have been a very good idea, a $200,000
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weekend at Alfred Hitchcocks Psycho house smoking dope, guns, millions of bucks gone missing, retirement at age 27, a two-year stay at the bottom of Absolut bottles and the requisite stint at Betty Ford, hanging with Biggie hours before he was murdered, naked women, gangs, sex with naked women and, since its not too early for dinner, a whole lotta take-out pizza. Oh, and the coolest Granny in the world. One dogg year later, Im guilty by association. Read on. You will be too.
J. Marshall Craig, Santa Barbara, California 2011
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From Doorstep to Damizza
I didnt start out at the top of the charts, which is to say that I didnt come into this world facing the greatest of expectations. Rather, when I was born, chances were that I, like millions of other children in similar circumstances, would live a life struggling against all odds, if not outright misfortune. In fact, October 10, 1974, very nearly came and went without me being born at all. My Dad was on the fast track to a questionable career running drugs with a California bike gang, and my mother was a kid just out of high school who, if she had early ambitions, saw them dashed by an accidental pregnancy. Dads mom, Granny Claudia, was the wife of a local businessman while my mothers parents were retired CIA operatives living under the guises of being an electrical engineer and housewife. The two families clashed and blamed each other for their childrens predicament, but either way the pressure of a marriage came to bear and, indeed, came to pass. My older brother Bo was born soon after. But my Dad wasnt going to hand over his leathers, cut his hair and get a nice shiny job in an office or bagging groceries, so he was soon out the door, taking whatever chance the marriage had two-wheeling north on Californias coastal Highway 101 with him. My young mother was left with more than the infant Bo she was pregnant again. This time, an abortion was the plan. As fate would have it, Granny stepped in and said she would take
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care of the baby if nobody else would. I came that close. In the space of one sentence I went from an about-to-be-aborted fetus to a human being who would be blessed with the fate of living, loving, and being both witness to, and participant in, the heights and depths of the music business. Granny saved my life. And from what Granny has told me, those first months were rough, as I was bounced between grandparents. It all came to a head, she says, before my first birthday. The rumble of Dads Harley had long faded northward. My mother bundled me up in a bassinet and packed a little metal suitcase with what few things were mine and, like the worst childrens book clich, left me, literally, on Grannys doorstep. As Granny recalls, my ribs were showing from malnutrition, my eyes were sunken, and my diaper hadnt been changed in days.
The early days always the happy kid because I had Granny.
You were in a really sad state, she recalls. I took you straight to the hospital in Goleta.
I still have that little suitcase. I dont know why, beyond it reminding me of my incredibly humble beginnings. I notice it nearly every time I walk through the garage and if Im ever getting too cocky, nothing brings me back quicker than remembering I came into the world truly nobodys kid, and that every good thing that has ever happened to me can be traced back to the grace of Granny. I wish it was the last time shed have to rescue my ass, but...! Dads father Grannys first husband had split when
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Dad himself was a child. Granny had remarried a Santa Barbara automotive repair shop owner named Wally. Unfortunately, Wally failed to share Grannys devotion to me. In fact, he didnt even want me in the house. It wasnt a problem for long, however. An aviation enthusiast, Wally enthusiastically flew his Cessna into one of the picturesque mountainsides above Santa Barbara one day. If this were not enough challenge for Granny, Dad had gotten another woman pregnant. Within weeks of Wallys spectacularly unsuccessful aerobatics, the new baby died, only days after being born. Granny had been saddled not only with me, but the responsibility of burying her husband and a dead grandchild. To hear her tell it, she found strength in caring for me. Gotta love the gangsta Granny! I became her life and she became mine. She is the most amazing lady in the world. They dont make em like her anymore. Hers is an unconditional love. The day that she passes, a huge part of me will die with her. Thats why I always told her I will never be able to live in our house when she goes, because every single turn that I make here will remind me of her. I love that woman. Talk about a blessing my life would be nothing were it not for her. Thirtysomething years later, I do have a relationship with my extended family. (Or at least I will until this book hits the shelves, quite possibly.) Dad eventually left the biker world and settled down to have a family, fathering two more sons, Nick and Jason. Nicks great and were close, but we dont share many common interests, so I dont spend as much time with him as I wish I could. But I adore that child! Jasons a little younger and less athletically inclined than Nick (just as I am!), so we hang out a lot more. He is and always be my little buddy. Unlike Nick and Jason, however, I never lived with Dad and often went months without hearing from him or seeing him. In the ensuing years weve spent more casual time together, but it was more as drinking buddies than father and son. Ive found it kinda sad,
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but I couldnt help but notice that Dads interest peaks and he is a little more attentive whenever the subject of conversation is music or famous friends rather than anything else in my life. Maybe its his way of connecting. I mean, I love him. Hes my Dad. But I always wanted him to be my father. I call Granny Mom. Because she is. The woman who gave birth to me has played absolutely no role in my life, which I say without bitterness or regret. However things came down, I got the Gift of Granny. I won lifes lottery when it came to being raised, so I have nothing bad to say about my birth mother. I dont know her, although she moved back to Santa Barbara to care for my ailing maternal grandparents, and I respect her for that, but Ive only met her maybe 20 times in my life at this point. However it played out, I got Granny so Ill always have gratitude,
Dad and me at Disneyland ... a very rare occurrence, us doing anything together.
not a whiff of bitterness, toward my birth mother. I really stress I have a wish to be nothing but cordial but this book is about the truth. And the truth
is the first time I remember her reaching out to me was right after Id appeared in an interview on CNN. Id given my grandparents a credit card for Christmas and she called and asked me where hers was. She also pulled an emotional bribe on me, saying that I have two half-sisters living on the East Coast somewhere. That was a shocker. I still dont know anything about them. The woman who happened to give birth to me had little interest in me until I got a little famous. Hey, it happens. Im extremely fond of my maternal grandparents. My grandfather Harold is so sweet, a quiet, unassuming and extremely intelligent man. My grandmother Millie is a fiery Turkish woman who has always been loving, even if she can still scare the hell out of me as age and
dementia begins to take a huge toll on her. She speaks eight languages fluently and as long as Ive been grown up enough to be aware of my surroundings, remember her wielding a butchers knife as if she were a double-O. Until only very recently grandfather Harold never mentioned much about their past or what they did or where they have lived, though grandmother Millie would occasionally make cryptic remarks about having worked in some area deep in the Pentagon and there are plaques and awards on the wall of Harolds den supposedly off limits to the kids that make it clear theyve lead very secret lives. In only the few months before this writing Harold admitted to me they were very highly placed CIA operatives ... in fact, Harold was one of the founding members of the CIA. Not that hell tell me any more than that. It drives me nuts, but Im sure most stories will go with them to their graves. Man! I wanna know who killed JFK! I want the lowdown on Roswell! When Wally died, he left massive debt, unbeknownst to Granny, with his auto business. With the same determination and strength with which she protected me, Granny threw herself headlong into the business world. The local independent garage owners organization didnt want to have her as a member, yet a year later were so in awe of Granny that they voted her in as president. She pulled the garage out of debt and turned it into the biggest automotive place in town, with me by her side. No matter what she was doing work at the garage, Zonta International (a community service club), the Girls Club, whatever Id be bundled up at her feet in my playpen. It was an amazing way to grow up. Older people fascinated me by the things they said at the garage or in club meetings. Far better for a kid to learn about the world around him than suck his thumb in ignorance, I figure. Granny took me everywhere. I learned so much by just asking directions instead of driving in circles. She taught me that this too will pass and we do what we must common sense from a truly wise woman. When I was older, Granny fulfilled one of
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her life-long dreams and opened a Polynesian dress shop in the heart of downtown Santa Barbara. I worked part time at Michael Anthonys Pizzeria across the street and Mrs. Fields Cookies next door. I was a smart kid and they let me use the register, which was a gas for a 10-year-old. When they got really busy someone would come over to Grannys shop and ask me to help on the till or even pitch in making cookie dough. It was a great experience exposing me to the business world. Thats not all. Granny gave me the next in a long and continuing list of gifts: the gift of music. At home, there was always music in the air. Over the Rainbow from Wizard of Oz was probably the first song I remember hearing. I was in the local Peanut Gallery and Granny took me to plays because she wanted me to experience the magic of the arts. I was raised on Freddie Fender, the Ink Spots and Judy Garland. Id sit with Granny every Saturday night and watch Lawrence Welk. Wed watch concerts on HBO and I remember clearly having my brain washed by MTV Dire Straits and Money for Nothing. What an awakening, seeing visuals put to music. One of my first loves was Grannys old 78 record player. If you dont know what a 78 is, it means a record 78 revolutions per minute. Correspondingly, a 45 is a record usually a single song on one side of the record played at 45 revolutions per minute and 33 1/3 most vinyl
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with tape even in your camcorder faster is better. Thats because the less information you have to put in a condensed area the more breathing room it has and the more accurate it is. Some of the best music was done on half- or quarter-inch two-track tape, recorded over several times as tracks were overdubbed. Like on Beatles records and stuff like that, things are so well arranged, or placed. Thats why you hear one guitar in one place and drums in another and a solo in yet another. As technology progressed with the emergence of computer programs such as ProTools, the number of tracks became infinite, which is a mixed blessing. Look at a film like La Bamba and you see Richie Valens picking take 50 or something for a single; the band had to play it all the way through perfectly for that one performance engineers couldnt sit back and patch it all together like is possible today. Hell, even most live recordings these days contain studio touchups and overdubs. Say what you want in support of the pursuit of perfection, modern music will always be chasing the spontaneity of how it was the only way to do it when pop music was growing up. A lot of times people just over think what theyre doing. Sadly, vinyl isnt being used that much anymore, even if you think it is. A lot of DJs use a program called Serato, which plays MP3s with a fake piece of vinyl on the turntable that a computer accesses. One Christmas morning I awoke wide-eyed and gasped at one of my gifts: A boom box. My aunt gave me some cassettes to go along with it Hall and Oats H2O and Abracadabra by the Steve Miller Band. For the most part, the Steve Miller Band left me cold, but the song Abracadabra was dope. And the H2O stuff was so melodic, really good and something I embraced early on because it was basically R&B riffs with some pop-sensible lyrics, kind of like the Michael Jackson stuff of the time. Those two cassettes were the start for me. But the epiphany was when I turned on the radio. I flipped the switch on this boom box and on came this radio station at 97.5 FM. Every night, and I mean, every night, Id listen to this guy named Michael Newman.
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Then he gave out the phone number for the request line. Big mistake! I started to call nearly every time he was on the air. But I wasnt asking about music so much as I was grilling this poor bastard about radio. I wanted an education from him in broadcasting, over the phone, and I wanted it now! Finally, he said, Come down and Ill put you to work just so I dont have to talk to you anymore! I went to work nights at KHTY Y-97 Santa Barbara. I was 12 years old. At the time, Granny was doing six in the morning to noon at the garage and then going downtown to her dress shop until 7 p.m. Even after she retired she began a stint on weekends and holidays in the admitting department of the Goleta Valley Hospital. This was all to support me, Dad (those rare times he was around) and my aunt, who was in college in Louisiana. Granny worked her ass off another great life lesson for me. I applied myself earnestly at Y-97, filing records and CDs, pressing buttons on the console when Mike needed a bathroom break, and other little tasks. Granny, of course, was close at hand. She isnt the type to let her 12-year-old grandson work from 7 p.m. to 11 p.m. at a radio station alone, so she slept in the parking lot in the car. Ill never forget that. I really wanted to do the job and she supported me, as she always does. What a huge statement, to sleep in the car outside so I could chase a dream. Soon, I was more than just a gofer at the station. One night Mike asked me what I listened to and what was hot at my school. I became one of his assets. Thats when I first got an inkling of how radio works, how songs are picked and moved up and down playlists. He taught me call-out research. Thats when you take the top 30 records you have on your playlist and you play them over the phone for people and you ask them screener questions, like How old are you, what city do you live in? and you chart it according to zip code on whats called an Arbitron diary, radios equivalent of televisions Nielson
ratings. You play the hook of the song over the phone, and the person would say on a scale of one to 10 whether he or she was familiar with it, liked it or disliked. Youd take this information and pick the No. 1 test and that was the record you played the most on down through the top 10 or whatever. Its an amazing tool. Youd also ask what a listeners favorite TV show was and stuff, so the jocks could work that into their on-air patter what happened in last nights Snoops Fatherhood episode or whatever would best apply to the stations demographic. Mentioning local communities, hot meeting spots, top 10 TV shows this always breeds a connection to the listeners. So does taping callers and putting them on the air. I branched out at the radio station and began to hang with the morning guy as well. My pay? Free records! All right as far as I was concerned! I next got to know the program director, Steve Smith, who gave me stickers and T-shirts and took me to some of the stations promotions. Unfortunately, those rosy days were numbered. Soon after, Steve left and so did my mentor, Mike. The new program director was a guy named Jim Crow. He didnt like me hanging around the station and landed on me like a ton of bricks when I didnt quite do my first tape dub correctly. He came into the studio yelling and screaming, telling me to clean out my locker and leave, and that Youll never make it in this business. He said he was driving me home and yelled the whole way. Id never been yelled at like that. I was scared shitless that he was going to beat the hell out of me. He made me feel like I was half an inch tall because I screwed up tape dubs on my first attempt little wonder, since Id never been shown how to do them. He screamed that Id never succeed at anything, never amount to anything. I cried all the way home because I loved my gig at the station. What kind of asshole treats a kid that way? About two days later he was fired. He had really fucked with the station, changing the format to AlbumOriented Rock on a whim, without any of that all-important market
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research. This rocket scientist loved Led Zeppelin so much he launched the format change with what he called Zeppelin A to Z. It was a contest in which he played the entire Zeppelin catalogue a considerable block of tunes except for one song. The listener who could guess what song he didnt play won a collection of the bands CDs. It was like, Dude, are you stupid? Even Zeppelin fans called in complaining. The afternoon jock, Dynamite Darren Stone, took over the station and made two important decisions changing the format back to Top 40 and re-hiring me. He started introducing into the Top 40 some dance, Depeche Mode and stuff. One day he asked me to do a sort of rap intro for one of his features and I went in there and did it and he said it was pretty good. He was the first to teach me what a hook is. I didnt know it, but it was my first step in learning how to write hip-hop. A local mix DJ was another guy to come in and have a huge impact on me. DJ Wicked, who has gone on to a great career in radio, was the first to show me how to use a keyboard and make beats. He had an ASR keyboard and he used to leave it at the radio station. Sometimes, when he had time, hed teach me how to do loops and stuff. I really look up to him, a humble guy and a great dude who took a genuine interest in a wide-eyed kid. We had a fourtrack recorder in the station so I was making spots, dubs and doing weekends on the air. Id spend spare time on the four-track doing my own stuff, which was cool with everyone at the station since I was always around helping out wherever I could, basically for free. Just one year after I started hanging around the station at nights doing an increasingly important number of roles, things got serious: I was made the stations assistant music director and given a paycheck, heavy stuff for a 14-year-old. Stone apparently saw something in me and tapped me to work with him during his seven-to-midnight shift.
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My head ballooned. I was popular at school, running with the adrenaline crowd, and it didnt take me long to start fuckin up but only outside the station. I was getting perks, like being able to add a song every week to the rotation, which the record companies soon learned
In the production room at KHTY doing my very first rap jingle.
about and figured they could exploit by loading me up with free shit. But I was a purist outta the gate, man. If something was hot, Id do it. If it was whack it never saw the light of day. I had no desire to be schmoozed or bullshitted and paid no attention to those record company fools. Dont get me wrong, I was no golden child. I was getting into stupid stuff outside of work, running around with kids from school.
Getting one of the first tastes of being in front of a crowd, DJing a dance in Santa Ynez, near Santa Barbara.
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I dodged a few of the more serious of youthful transgressions well, getting caught, anyway. But Id found my lifes calling, music, and worked a hell of a lot harder at the radio gig than I did school. And it paid off. One day, the overnight jock didnt show up. Darren said, Youre on. Dont talk a lot. Keep it short. Youre on the radio now, kid. I was nervous as shit but did what he said. It went amazingly well and I soon became the regular fill-in guy. That led to regular Saturday night slots on the air. At home, instead of doing my homework or studying, I threw myself into practicing DJing and landed my first gig outside the station doing a dance. That exploded! I had more jobs than I could handle and just a few months later had enough money that I stopped renting sound equipment I bought the company that was my main competition, Santa Barbara Sound Productions. It was crazy but fun. I always had free CDs and radio promo stuff and the whole thing made me so cool at school. I understood the music, but didnt know anything about business, so with the excitement came a lot of frustration for a 15-year-old. If my dreams werent flying high and fast enough, the station next asked me if Id take over as the full-time night jock and be music director. I cant say it didnt piss off a few adults, this kid who sounded like a chipmunk leaping over their own careers. But no one could argue with the stations No. 1 ratings across the board, especially people outside the studio. The part I didnt like at first was the schmoozing and meeting a lot of people. But it wouldnt be the truth to say I didnt soon grow to like all the attention, and being treated like somebody important. Who wouldnt? Then a new program director came in, a guy named Stephen Jay. Total egomaniac, who did not like this kid me getting all the attention. But, from Granny on throughout my life, it seems Ive been blessed by guardian angels and the assistant program director, Abby Bonnell, was a total sweetheart and went out of her
way to protect me from Stephen. The owners of the station were clearly taking advantage of the situation, since I was so young and despite me carrying a huge responsibility they didnt have to pay me very much. Still, Stephen always had it in for me and never let up. One day he gave me a pair of tickets to a show and told me that if I didnt go hed fire me. I came in the next day and he asked me how the show had been. I said it was great, and began to leave his office. Then I stopped, turned around and told him that Id lied and that I was sorry I didnt go to the concert because, as I told him when he gave me the tickets, I wasnt able to go. Instead of appreciating me not being able to go through with lying to him, he pulled a sheet of paper off his desk and ran it through his typewriter. He wrote: I, Damion Young, lied to Stephen Jay. He pulled it out and asked me to sign it. It really sucked, but thats the kind of person he was. I could have gotten away with lying, but thats just not the way Granny raised me. Thank God. Ive seen that you can go all the way to the top running on deceit and dishonesty hell, Ive seen it many times over the years. But I love being able to sleep soundly at night and look at myself in the mirror in the morning. Sometimes my eyes are a little bleary and bloodshot, but my conscience is always clear. And thats something you cant buy no matter what color your American Express card is. By the time I was 16 I was making $30,000 a year. I traded my BMW in for a Range Rover, started hitting wild parties in the Hollywood Hills and meeting up-and-coming musicians and actors, some of whom have gone on to stardom, some not. I had tickets and backstage passes to every concert and my cool factor at school, when I was there, was off the dial. And girls? Well, it was the ultimate in every teenage boys wildest fantasies; lets leave it at that. I learned excess early.
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Practicing my DJing chops on Grannys dining room table.
My burgeoning life of music was not exactly curriculum-friendly when it came to high school, to little surprise. Granny knew the difference between true passion and hobby, thankfully, but shes also the smartest and most practical woman I am ever going to have in this blessed life: Not graduating was never an option. Since getting kicked out of school was a looming possibility, she allowed me to begin home studies. I cant pretend it was easy. But I hustled to get it over with and, well ... I took the easy way out. A friend at San Marcos High School, Debbie, was amazingly smart and I paid her to do my homework because I didnt have the time or the interest. I just wasnt feeling it. It was my own little combination of Risky Business and what I call Damion Youngs Day Off. And all good right up until exam time. The teacher said, You know you must pass this test to graduate. I was like, Well, I really suck at math. I really need some extra help. She said no. My brain started scheming: okay, how can I pull this off ? Then I remembered that the teacher had once told me she was a fan of James Taylor. My luck was on. Taylor was booked for the Santa Barbara Bowl and I told her I could get her front-row seats,
backstage passes and the whole deal, if I could get some extra help before the test. I got a high score and graduated. I even became valedictorian. Im not proud of how I went about it and now spend considerable time helping kids who are screwing up in school and in life and I absolutely insist that they do it the right way, not the way I did it. The lesson I learned, the redemption, at least in my mind, I guess, is that if you surround yourself with smart people who can help you, even the impossible dreams arent out of reach. As Granny taught me, It just might take a little longer. But Ive also learned that you dont want to hit the age of 35 with a bit of a lingering, haunting acknowledgement that ones passion for something whether its music or sports or being an accountant or auto mechanic is lessened if you get there with even the slightest dishonesty.
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The Rise and Fall of the worlds most influential Hip-Hop stations: L.A.s Power 106 and New Yorks Hot 97
Most of what I know about life Ive learned from Granny. The rest Ive learned from being in radio. From the first time I became aware of that magic little box, Ive been enchanted. I remember sitting up in my room, way late into the night, adjusting the knobs and wondering what might be found farther along the dial. Radio is the first thing I remember knowing I wanted to do in my life: Not being a fireman, an astronaut, doctor, movie star, but being, somehow, on the other side of that dial. And what a blessing that I would find myself there before I was old enough to drive. One of the surprises was that I had no idea how much I would fall in love with radio and how much it would teach me. By its very nature its not just music; its also equal part strategy and analyzing human nature. I had to learn programming, of course, but I also had to learn a lot about peoples behavior to be a successful programmer. Even to this day, 25-some years after I first walked into a station, people come up to me in Santa Barbara and say, Yo, I used to listen to you on the radio. Honestly, it happens almost weekly. I just love that those airwaves can have such a lasting effect. Learning radio from the ground up was part of the gift. When I was just 12, I was lucky enough to meet Michael Newman, who is now one of the biggest radio consultants in the world. At the time, he was the music director and night jock at KHTY in Santa Barbara and brought me in to board-op for him. Even back then, most jocks would
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run their own boards, but he gave me the job to help with his show because Id shown such interest in radio and had, frankly, bugged him so much by calling in every night he was on the air that he let me come in to the station to run errands. After learning the basics of engineering I tried to soak up as much as I could about programming, learning why certain records get played and, more importantly, why they get played over and over again. One day, Michael told me and another intern, Steven, that there was an opening on the morning show for one day. An on-air opening. Man! With that, Steve the Paper Boy and Damion the Devil Child were born. I had so much fun and I was just kind of natural at it. Michael said I could come back and do some bits from time to time, and I was thrilled. Sometimes when Michael needed a voice to call in and be all excited about something on his show, I would play the voice. In time, he had me start doing commercials, despite my squeaky pre-teen voice. When I was about 15, the station decided to give me a Saturday night mix show. That also evolved into DJing live at some of the local clubs during events. I still sounded like a chipmunk though, so they werent gonna put me on the air to talk yet. To practice, I started doing overnights, where I would only talk once an hour. At my house, I would record my mixes onto DAT files, and then play the mixes while I was in the studio and just sit back. My friend Peter Spiess, who helped build the radio station, and I would also go out to dinner during my shift. So I would start playing my pre-recorded show, and then leave and get something to eat while listening to myself on the radio. This gave me a different perspective on my own show because I could hear first-hand what would and what would not get reactions from listeners. After continually working these shifts, I started playing some of the syndicated programming, too. Eventually, I became the assistant
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always had an ear for music. I dont know how or why, but I could pick hit records. After I broke a lot of future hit records on the air during my Saturday night show, I started to develop relationships with the record companies. Along with my being
Taking phone calls and requests at KHTY in Santa Barbara.
able to pick the hits came credibility. When the night shift, from seven to midnight, opened, it was logical to give it to me. It came with a lot of controversy though, because 16-year-old kids never really had radio jobs. The child labor laws gave us a problem, too. We had to fudge a little bit of the paperwork because it was illegal for me at my age to work until midnight. But we said I pre-recorded the last couple hours and got past that. During that night shift, I could play whatever I wanted to. It really helped me to develop a sound. I could play Nirvana one second, and then play Tupac the next and no one ever said anything. I would also take calls on new records and see how the listeners reacted to it. That really helped me later on in life as far as programming goes. Ive always felt that the best way to start in any business is at the ground level, and thats exactly what I was doing here. A few years later, I became the assistant program director of the station. Then, one day, my boss came in and said, Im leaving. I said, Well, whats gonna happen? He said, Well, youre only 18. Do you want to become the program director of this station? Youre pretty much doing the job anyway.
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He was also the weatherman at the local news station, and he was moving to Vegas to take another weather job. He said, I can be a consultant if you still need the training wheels, but the only thing you dont do at this point is manage the staff. Now, managing a staff at 18 years old is a little hard. Everyones older some much older and most of the staff members have been doing their jobs for 10 years or longer. So there were times it was uneasy when I had to assert myself. But I found that everyone was comfortable with what I did, and they knew that I was capable, so they all just backed me up and let me do it. To this day, I cant say thanks enough to the staff of that station for supporting me. And primary thanks goes to the owner of the station at the time, Steve Engels. Before he gave me the job he asked me outright, Do you think you can do it? I said, Yeah. He then asked me what I would change. I told him I thought the station was abstract. Were playing Boyz II Men, The Cranberries, and rap records, all mixed together. But if we went hip-hop before I could even finish my sentence, he said, No! Hip-hops not big enough from a sales point of view. This is a rock town and there wouldnt be enough advertising. Were gonna go alternative. I said to myself, Well, OK, now Im at a crossroads. Im either gonna have to do alternative rock, which I know absolutely nothing about, or I could quit. I went to my Granny and I asked her about it. She said, Sweetheart, the best thing to do is to just hire some people who are smarter than you (again, a lesson shed taught me before) at what you do, and take the job. I said, OK, well how could I do that? She said, Well, who are the most knowledgeable people in alternative in Santa Barbara?
I said, Theres a cross-town alternative station and their music director is a lady named Deanne Saffran, who eats, sleeps, and drinks everything alternative. So I hired her as the music director. I basically programmed alternative like a Top 40 station, using all the same cookie cutter rules. On our first ratings book, we became the No. 1 station in Santa Barbara for 18-34 females, which was our target demo. We also hit No. 1 for 12+ and No. 1 18-34 males. I was lucky, and with Saffrans help, we just picked the right records. The radio station did really well, and what I quickly learned that alternative had a lot of local artists that were big. We had Toad the Wet Sprocket, Dishwalla, and a host of others. I started to notice that if these local acts, along with big-time producers and artists, were associated to our radio station, it would make us look big. The other priceless fact that I picked up on was that everything always comes down to personal relationships. That worked perfectly for me. My Granny always told me that if I was nice to everybody and respected other people, they would all want to do business with me. So I started to create relationships everywhere these bands would play or have interaction. Morning Glory and The Wherehouse were the big record stores in town. I made friends with everyone there, and everyone at the venues. I met Moss Jacobs and Sam Scranton as well, who were big concert promoters in the area. Moss was a young guy, too, and he thought it was hilarious that someone under 21 was programming this alternative station. It wasnt a cakewalk, however. I had a battle on my hands with a competing station, KTYD, that had been playing this format and some of this music since before I was born! Their motto was 15 Years of Great Rock-N-Roll. They were also, ironically, No. 1 for 15 years, until I came along at age 20 with the team I helped assemble and, in our first ratings book, knocked them out of the water. After being on top for a while, Steve Engels came to me and said,
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We need to make a change to the oldies station we have, and we need a new program director. You didnt know anything about alternative, and you pulled this off. Do you want to give this station a shot too? I said, OK. Why not? So I went to Granny again and said, I dont know anything about oldies. She said, Well, I do. Why dont you just apply what you did at alternative and just change the music? We had a great guy on staff named Jeff Miller, who just had a way with promotions. For instance, the local band Toad the Wet Sprocket was gonna do a charity show. After talking to Moss and Sam, we worked it out so our station presented the show. This was a real turning point for us. Our competitor, KTYD, had every local show at the Santa Barbara County Bowl. Although we got involved with the show, we werent the only sponsor. Everybody was involved. So Jeff and I sat down and thought, What would be the best way to really own this show? How could we get a huge buzz, generate news coverage, and make everybody in Santa Barbara think this was a KHTY show? Jeff had a crazy idea. Why dont we get a helicopter and a bunch of toads. We can staple some mini parachutes to them, attach some free promotional items too, and have someone throw them out of a helicopter over Goleta Beach. I said, Dude, we would get in so much trouble for that. The animal rights people would go crazy, and the news would go crazy. He said, Yeah, but thats exactly what we need them to do. Were not gonna kill a bunch of toads to do this. I have an idea So we went on the air the next day, announcing The Toad Drop. It was planned for Goleta Beach at noon on a Saturday afternoon. We said we were going to drop 97 toads from a helicopter and listeners catching them could win tickets to the concert, free gas, bumper stickers or CDs. It caused an instant commotion. People were outraged and we were all over the news.
When we got to the beach that day, news vans were there along with hundreds of listeners and, of course, animal rights people picketing and cops keeping an eye on the whole affair. When the toads started hitting the ground, the place went nuts and the cops moved in and tried to shut us down. It was great. All of the local news covered it. It even made statewide news! We realized that this was the way we needed to do things. We needed to step outside the box and come up with more creative ideas like this. And while I admit it upset some people, there was no way it would have worked if wed announced we were using rubber toads! People just assumed we were dropping real, live toads. It was one of the pivotal moments in the station getting a lock on
A highlight from my KHTY days, meeting Quincy Jones along with his then-new artist Tamia, Nancy Klugman, Warner Bros. West Coast promotions queen, who was a big supporter of me throughout my radio career, and the stations great PR director, Jeff Miller.
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Santa Barbara. After a while, we started getting more and more leverage with the concerts we got. And even if you didnt necessarily like alternative music, you would listen to this station just because of all of the craziness we were doing, and not just that, but we sounded like the young listener. We had a great DJ staff. This one jock Sammie the Gun was a total rocker chick who worked for KNAC in L.A. back in the day. We put her on for our afternoon drive. She had this sense of humor that was great, and she knew so much about the bands that the listeners could really relate to her. I also tried to find different things that would set us apart from the rest of the stations. When I was on vacation in England, I was looking at the Smashing Pumpkins Stateside CD, and I noticed that there was a song called Pennies that was a bonus cut only released in the UK. So I came back to Santa Barbara and put that record into rotation, and it became a huge hit. The record company was floored and no one else in the market knew where to get it. Soon after, I was at a Smashing Pumpkins show in Los Angeles, and the local Mercury Records rep Jim Stein came up to me. He said, Hey, Billy Corgans over here, do you want to meet him? I was like, Hell yeah! So Billy comes over and says, Man, youre young! Youre a programmer? I said, Yeah, KHTY in Santa Barbara. He said, Santa Barbara? Thats in between San Francisco and Ventura right? I said, Yeah. He said, Thats really cool, what do you play? I said, Well actually were playing this song of yours I found overseas thats doing really well. Its in power rotation for us right now. Its called Pennies. He said, Wait a minute. Thats hilarious! Hold on a second, let
me get my wife. He brought his wife back and said, Honey, remember when we were coming back from San Francisco and we heard Pennies on the radio? We pulled over and we sat there just to listen to that radio station! She said, Yeah, you almost drove off the road when you heard it come on! He said, This is the dude who played it! I started to realize that if we had exclusive material from artists who were huge, the listener would come to us first, which would make us more powerful in the marketplace. I started to notice that even KROQ in Los Angeles started following our moves. So we started having influence on the national scene in what people were doing. It was also a novelty that Jeff and I were kids running this station, and we obviously knew what we were doing. Eventually, record company execs would come in to meet with us and ask us to pick their next singles on a national level. One day, Tracy Skelley, a rep from Geffen Records, sent me a new CD by a band called Garbage. I noticed the producer was Butch Vigg, who produced for Nirvana and Smashing Pumpkins. Butch was also the drummer in the band. By then, I began to really like alternative, and I started to develop an ear for what was a hit. So we took three songs off that album and started playing them. We started it at seven to midnight and the overnights to get people familiar, but before I knew it, these records started to blow up. It ended up that we got credit for breaking Garbage. The record label called me and said, Thank you so much for playing Garbage, you were the first station to play it! We owe you one. Garbage went platinum that summer. They became so big so fast. When Smashing Pumpkins and Garbage went on tour together that summer, I called up the record label and said, Remember when I
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said you guys owe me a favor? I want to call in that favor. They said, Well, what do you want? Do you want to fly out to see one of their shows? I said, No. I want them to do a show in Santa Barbara. They said, Well, what, the Santa Barbara County Bowl? I said, No. I want an exclusive show in Santa Barbara, but I want to do it at a club. They said, Theyve got a No. 1 album on the Billboard charts right now. They cant do a club. Theres no way you can do it. I said, Well, you gave me your word that you owed me one. They said, Well call Butch Vigg and see what he says. So they called him and explained the situation. They said theres this kid in Santa Barbara who broke Garbage. He was the one who really started this thing. Butch told the label that if theyd said they owed me a favor, then they did. He told me later hed told the label, If you tell somebody youre gonna do something, youre gonna do it. I dont care if you guys have to pay out of pocket, were gonna do it. We put the tickets on sale and they sold out in one day. Shirley Manson, the lead singer of the group, said, Wheres the dressing room? when they walked into the venue. I said, Its a club. There is no dressing room. Butch said, Yes! This is exactly what we need before we go out on tour, as club gig! This is awesome! The show had caused a buzz all around Southern California, and one of the people who came was the music director of Power 106, Bruce St. James. I was never shy about my ultimate goal. I had told everyone, One day, Im gonna work for Power 106. It was hip-hop that I wanted to do. People would tell me, You have such a great career set up in alternative, and I would say, Look. Alternative is a great format, and I have fun doing it, but I dont want to do alternative. I want to do rap! Im gonna work at Power 106, and
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thats how its gonna be. So Bruce St. James came down and saw the show. He came up to me and said, How the fuck did you do this? I said, Well, you just invest with artists early and get the right relationships with people and the record companies. At the time, Power 106 didnt really have good relationships with the artist community or with the music industry. Bruce was very controversial. At one point, he put out a memo to all of the record companies saying, Were not even gonna take your calls anymore. Were gonna play what we want to play when we want to play it, and youre gonna do what we ask if we play your record. Bad move. A lot of the artists and a lot of the record companies didnt want to support Power 106 because the station didnt have a relationship with them. Everything in the music business comes down to relationships. Bruce said, Fuck record companies. I said, Im not sure thats how you should do it. He said, Well, its a different format that you do. I said, OK, whatever. He said, Are you staying in alternative? I said, My dream is to work for Power 106. If you ever have any openings whatsoever, I dont care if its washing vans, I want to work for Power. He said, Well, we dont really have anything open. I said, Like I said, even if its washing the vans, I dont care. He said, Dude, youre a program director of two stations here. Why would you want to give that up to work at Power? Its stupid. I said, Look dude, anything that comes up, let me know, and Ill decide whether its stupid. He said, Well, we have a Sunday night board op position open. I said, Ive been a board op before. Ill do it! He said, Dude, come on. I said, Seriously!
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He said, This is Sunday nights from seven to midnight. You really want to come in and get back to work in Santa Barbara every Monday? I said, I have a department meeting at 8 a.m. on Monday, but I dont care. I used to drive to L.A. every Saturday night anyway to go buy records and listen to Power. He said, OK, lets do it. Ill have someone call you if you really want to do that. I thought he was bullshitting, but two or three days went by and Cory, who was program director Michelle Mercers assistant, called me and said, Hey, I dont know if Bruce was joking or not, but I heard that you wanted to be a board op here. I said, Yeah! When do I start? She said, Youre a program director, right? I said, Yeah. She said, Are you sure about this? Youd just be a board op. In the back of my mind, I was thinking, what DJ could it be working with? Every DJ works his or her own board now. I told her, I dont care, I want to be on the team. She said, OK, well, come in Sunday night and meet with Ernie, the main board op. Hell tell you what to do. I guess they thought I was stupid. So, I showed up on Sunday. I walked in the door and I saw Kurtis Blow. I immediately exclaimed, Holy shit! Youre Kurtis Blow. He said, Hey, hows it going? Nice to meet you. This was right after Nas If I Ruled the World came out, which was sampled from Kurtis Blow and Whodini. Kurtis Blow did an old school show where he would play classic records and have Grandmaster Caz, KRS One, Run DMC, and all of these forefathers of rap come in as guests. Kurtis Blow was there when Def Jam started in Russell Simmons dorm room with Lyor Cohen. Rev Run was the son of Kurtis Blow.
It was like, Holy shit. I just walked in my first day and Im working for this guy? He said, Look dude, as long as you dont mess up, every week at the end of the night, Ill tell you a hip-hop story. I said, Done deal! Of course, the first couple shows, I screwed up. It was terrible. But eventually he started teaching me about hiphop and introducing me to the other legends that would come in as guests. We became good friends. After a few weeks of that, The Krazy Kids, who are now working in Phoenix, said they wanted me to do their seven to midnight shift on their Saturday Night Street Party show. I was excited as hell to do that too! I started going to L.A. Saturday nights, doing the show, go to a hotel and go to sleep. The next day, Id go see a movie at Universal Citywalk, visit a few friends, do the show Sunday night, drive back to Santa Barbara, and sometimes go straight to work at my regular job. Richard Humpty Vision, who was doing a show called Power Tools from 4 to 6 a.m. on Sunday mornings, asked if I could boardop for his show too. I started doing that too, and thats when it got really crazy. Michelle called me up one day and said, Hey, youre doing a great job. Were you ever on the air in Santa Barbara? I said, Yeah, I was, but I came off when we switched formats to alternative. Another thing I would do as a program director was go on the air every once in a while myself to see how everything flowed. She said, Do you want to be on the air here? I said, Thats been a dream of mine ever since I was a kid. Hell, yeah. She said, We have this spot open after Power Tools from 6 a.m. to 8 a.m. Would you want to do it? I said, Sure! Ill just stay after Power Tools and do it. Now I
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was an on-air personality at Power 106! As all this was happening, Kurtis Blow decided to leave. I came in one Sunday and Michelle said, The old school show isnt on tonight. Come by next week, and well have a new host. I said, Okay, cool. Who is it? She said, Itll be a surprise. I walk in next Sunday, and it was Ice-T. I was like, Holy shit! Basically, we formed the same relationship Kurtis and I had. I would ask him all these random questions and he would be like, How do you know about all of these records? Bruce ended up leaving his position as music director a couple months later, and when Michelle asked him who would make a good replacement, he said, Damion Young. To this day, I appreciate Bruce St. James for not only bringing me in to Power 106, but also for giving me my position. I was in my office in Santa Barbara at around seven one night and got a phone call, asking for Damion Young. This is Michelle Mercer. I said, Oh great, what did I do? Am I getting fired? She said, No, youre doing an amazing job! As a matter of fact, I want to talk to you about something else. Do you want to come in and interview for a programming job? Bruce is leaving, but someone he recommended was you to work in programming. I said, Wow. What position? She said, Well I dont know yet. Were talking to a couple people. We need to fill the music director position, the assistant music director position, and the programming assistant position. I was thinking, Okay, Im interviewing for the programming assistant position. Whatever it was, I was flattered. Regardless of whether it was a full-time job or a part-time job, I would leave all of it in Santa Barbara to come work at Power, because that was my dream. I sat down with Michelle for the interview.
She said, What do you think of Power 106? I said, I think its a great radio station. She said, Well, say you were the music director for Power 106. What would you do? I said, Well, I I thought it was a trick question. I said, Well, everybodys got an opinion. I like my job. I want to keep working here. But she said, Really, what would you do? I said, I dont want to answer the question. She said, Why? I said, Because I really like my job, I dont want to get fired, and I dont want anyone to take it personally. I just have a different philosophy on where radios going and what radio is. She said, Well consider this your immunity. Were not going to change your hours, Ill give you my word. Just tell me what you really think of Power. So, I went for it. Well, its kind of fucked up. She said, How? I said, Well, Power doesnt really have an identity. Were L.A.s Party Station, which is a techno moniker. Were playing a lot of techno, and then we go into Boyz II Men, and then Tupac and then Mobb Deep. The imaging is off. The artists and the record companies dont work with us anymore. What are we doing? She said, Thats interesting that you say that. You definitely have some strong opinions. Then I opened up for about a half hour about what was screwed up with the radio station. It was mostly the music that I had a problem with. I thought to myself, Oh, well. Im not gonna get a programming job here because I basically just told her that her station is trash. I said, Hey, by the way, what position am I interviewing for? She said, The music director position.
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I almost passed out. I was like, Can I change my answers? I was 100 percent honest, but maybe I was a little too blunt and maybe I said something that was out of line. Just because I feel this way doesnt mean that I wont do the job you give me. She said, No. You made some very valid comments and I appreciate your honesty. Well be in touch with you. I was like, Wow, I bit the big one. A week went by and I didnt hear anything. Then I heard that other people were interviewed for the job. She called me later that week and said, Hey, youre on the air this weekend right? I said, Yeah. She said, Well, when you get off the air, I want you to stop by my house. I want to have a conversation with you. I thought, She wants me to come by the house on a Sunday morning? Is this a good thing? I imagined that she was going to listen to me on the air that morning and then decide whether or not I got the programming assistant position. There was no way I was getting that music director position, because I totally put my foot in my mouth, I thought. So I showed up at her house, she opened the gate for me and asked me how my shift was. I said, It was good! She said, I wanted to talk to you about some of the things you said to me. I said, Umm well first let me apologize for what I said. She said, No, you were right on some of the stuff. Some of the stuff was a little harsh, and its really hard to hear, but you did have some good points. What would you do at Power 106 if you were the music director? I said, Well, I was reading this article in the R&R about attention to detail. And she said, Wait a minute. She walked in her house and
brought back that same issue of R&R. She opened the magazine and read, Attention to details, down to everything. Youre hired. I said, Huh? She said, Is fifty thousand dollars a year all right, plus benefits, plus a five thousand dollar bonus based on ratings for every jump? I looked at her and I said, Wait a minute. Did I miss something? She said, No, its just really weird. I was reading that exact article right before you got here. I said, Okay, so let me get this straight so I wont have a mental breakdown later. Youre hiring me as the music director of Power 106? She said, Yes! I looked at her and said, When do I start? She said, Can you start two weeks from Monday? I said, Umm hell yeah! She said, Call me this week, Ill send you all the research. I was stunned. I walked out of her house, got in my car and drove to the nearest gas station. I got out of my car and I started dancing. Holy shit! Im the new music director my dream just came true Im the new music director of Power 106! Im the music director Im the mu-sic-direc-tor. I started singing that shit. I called up Granny. Granny, guess what! Youre talking to the new music director of Power 106! She said, What? I said, Im the music director of Power 106! She said, No way. That was your dream! I said, Yes! She said, Well, what are you gonna do about Santa Barbara? I said, I dont know! But Im the new music director at Power 106! So I walked into my general managers office in Santa Barbara the next week. I said, Steve, Ive accepted and he said, Whoa,
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whoa, whoa. Accepted? There were rumors floating around that I had interviewed for the job. But he knew what this was about. He said, Well, at least let me make a counteroffer. And you cant start for at least a month or two until you find a replacement. I said, No. Im leaving in two weeks. He was not happy, to say the least. I started at Power 106 on Monday, February 3, 1997. I was really, really sick that day. I had this terrible cold. But I came in the Friday before so I could get acclimated to the office. The staff wasnt necessarily friendly to me, but they werent rude either. They always thought that Pete Manriquz, the current AMD, was gonna become the music director. Even Big Boy tells the story: The first day they said Damion Young was gonna be the music director, everyone said, the white boy from Santa Barbara that does alternative? Are you crazy? Were screwed! So I knew that I had my work cut out for me, on a lot of levels. I had to prove myself to the staff, I had to prove myself to the industry, and I had to prove myself to the artists. And somehow, before I got fired, I thought, I had to meet Dr. Dre and DJ Quik, and get some more of my favorite artists involved with the radio station. Ten minutes after I got there my first day, someone, who will remain nameless but became one of my best friends at the radio station, came in with a briefcase. He was an older guy in his 50s, and he said, Are you the new music director? I said, Yeah. He said, Well, theres only one thing you need to know to make it here. He opened up his briefcase, and there was a bottle of vodka sitting in there. He said, The bar is under your desk. Make sure you dont open the bar until Friday at 6 oclock. But everyone will come
to this office. I said, Huh? Im not even old enough to drink. He opened the cupboard under my desk and there was a full bar in there. Power 106, back in the day, was one big family. We had an awesome team. Everyone was friends, everyone went out to eat together. It was great. I also realized that our success hinged on getting everyone together. I would start my day by walking around the office and saying hi to everyone. I would ask them what songs they liked, which ones they didnt like, because a lot of the staff were really young. They were all in the demo. One office down from mine was Fernando Luhan, who is the promotions assistant. He knows everything thats going on in L.A., and has tickets and connections to everything in town. Hes basically the eyes and ears to the radio
ARNOLD TURNER PHOTO: The Dream Team The staff of Power 106 soon after the station became No. 1.
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station, in and out. I would spend about a half hour every day talking to Fernando about what the word on the street was. Fernando really schooled me a lot. Hes an incredible guy. Hes one of the most well-grounded, nicest people you could hope to meet, and hes brutally honest. Later down the road, he would pull me aside and say, Youre fucking up here. This is what people are saying in management. I dont know how he does it, but hes just one of those people who knows everybody. He proved the point that relationships are everything. If I was going to Hawaii for the weekend, I would say, Hey Fernando, Im going to Hawaii. Hed say, Let me hook you up with so-and-so at this hotel, take him a couple CDs when you go, and hell give you a better room. We also had the promotions interns, called the Flava Unit. It was a bunch of kids who liked music, and were typically from our target demo of 15-to 21-year-old Hispanics. Anytime we had new records coming in, I would play them for the Flava Unit first. There were always five to seven males and females in there, so it was an immediate source of market research. We found a lot of our on-air talent from the Flava Unit. That was the biggest success we pulled out of Power 106. Before I even knew a record was big, these kids would talk about it, so we could get an early jump on the hot new records. DJ Vice, DJ Echo, and Syphe and D-Lux all came from the Flava Unit. This is where we found all of this amazing talent. As the station started to grow I started to learn about research too. I always used the research as a compass, not a road map. Thats a motto I lived by, and it proved true later down the road. But as we really started having success I used the same cookie cutter format that I did in Santa Barbara to make it happen. But the key was creating relationships with the artists. I always said that the more street and the more West Coast we were, the better off we would be, which to this day they still argue about. Thats also
the reason why Power 106 is no longer No. 1 or even in the Top 10. They got away from what was hot in the street and went for the national outlook, which is the way corporate systems operate with anything. A radio station cant be corporate. You have to tailor it to your market. A lot of these radio stations that were regionally programmed have gone corporate. The cycle of anything in business starts off as a mom-and-pop, it turns into a franchise, and then from there it turns into a corporation. Now that radio became a huge commodity in business a few years ago, it went corporate. But back to when I first started, I would reach out to all of the artists and become friends with everyone. I would also invest in artists early. For instance, if Dre had a new act, I would support that act, which would only make his company grow, and make him love us more. I also noticed that with labels, if they had something new coming out, and you supported the new artist, it gave you leverage with the bigger acts. Just like I did in Santa Barbara, I started meeting the managers, the artists, and we put everything together. I knew that everything started on the street level, so I started to become good friends with street promoters first. Bigga B was one of the biggest street promoters in Los Angeles. He was known as the first guy any artist would go see after landing in Los Angeles. Bigga, rest in peace, worked for Loud Records. He took me under his wing immediately and showed me around all the studios. The very first artists I met were the RZA and DJ Muggs and B-Real from Cypress Hill. Then I met Mack 10 and I met WC. With Mack 10 being a Blood, and WC bring a Crip, they started teaching me about the streets of Los Angeles. Then I met Michael Conception, who was big in the streets. He took me around to every neighborhood and started teaching me about the culture of the ghetto. He showed me where all the hot spots were, which dudes were the hood bosses, and all that kind of stuff.
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A lot of the street research came out of our Knowledge is Power Foundation, which is Power 106s charity. The program funded the Puente Learning Center, which taught former or current gang members job skills and gave them employment opportunities. It would fund Homeboy Silk Screen or Homeboy Bakery, and Power would buy all of the T-Shirts or doughnuts, respectively, from these businesses. Thats where I started getting involved with charity, and it led to my work with the Amer-I-Can Foundation with Jim Brown and Bo Taylor, rest in peace. But, from my interaction with the streets, I would cross reference the information with the Flava Unit, the jocks and mixers, or the people I would meet at the Knowledge is Power Foundation. Compiling all of this together made us a hit radio station, because we always knew what was happening on the street level, which put us at least two weeks ahead of everyone else in the market. We always knew about the hot records first, so we got the credit for making them pop. Then came Big Boy. Big Boy was friends with Tha Baka Boyz, and Rick Cummings happened to be at their barbecue one day when he was there. Big Boy had him rolling, because hes hilarious! Rick said, You really need to be on the radio. He brought him in to do overnights, and he rose very, very fast. Tha Baka Boyz started to have some real problems around this time too. Every day started to become, How are we gonna deal with The Boyz. They had great ideas and a great brand, and they were hilarious. I had done my best to funnel a lot of the artists I knew through Tha Baka Boyz, and I invested a lot of my time into their brand. But they were causing a lot of inner friction at the station by running wild on the air, which left me doing damage control every day. When we brought Fuzzy in to do his show Curb Servin, everything changed. Fuzzy is the most well-connected street liaison that you could have. I really fought for this Curb Servin show he wanted to do.
It was straight West Coast music. You know, Dr. Dre, Daz, Kurupt. It was all about getting unreleased music from these artists. He had a relationship with Snoop, so he brought him in a few times. And when Snoop dissed The Beat on his show, it was a major turning point. If it werent for Fuzzy, none of that would have happened. Big Boy and Fuzzy also happened to be great friends. Fuzzy was another person I would ask for advice on a daily basis. Just by Fuzzys affiliation with Power 106, he brought the street to the station. My whole deal was, I didnt need to have the relationship with the artist, just as long as somebody else on the staff did. Fuzzy had that relationship with a lot of the artists. Another thing I wanted to do was bring back the Wake Up Show with Sway and King Tech. It was a travesty to me that The Wake Up Show didnt have a home in L.A., and that Julio G didnt have a show in L.A. Sway and Tech broke Craig Mack, Eminem, and Biggie. They were playing all these artists before anyone heard them, so why wouldnt we embrace them? It would put us ahead of the curve immediately. Next were the mix shows. Steve Smith had a great idea of having more mixing on the radio station, because it came back well in testing. I thought to myself about having a mixer on staff. E-Man was, bar none, the best DJ ever. Both technically and programming wise, the guy is just fucking incredible! So bringing him in as an assistant music director seemed logical to me. We took such a hazing at first from the industry for doing that. How the fuck are you gonna put a DJ in a programming position. Thats like giving a gun to a two year old! Putting a mixer in the programming department was totally taboo. But it worked. And now, it gave us another person in the music department, so I could focus on the relationships and the ideas for some of these big promotions. With everything in place Fuzzy handling the streets, E-Man, Big Boy, the Wake Up Show back the added bonus was that Sway
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just made it onto MTV News too! Anything that happened in hiphop now was coming to Power 106 first. Then Michelle Mercer left and Steve Smith came in. It was like, Oh
Jay Brown, Ja Rule and me backstage at the filming of the Hard Knock Life tour in Miami.
shit, my old boss from Santa Barbara? And hes got 30 stations he consults in the middle? And he owns
Radio Events Group with a couple of partners. This is great! Radio Events Group was doing most of the major concert promotions at the time, so now it wasnt even a question as far as events were concerned. We had it all connected. We were hitting on all cylinders. Then we started the Powerhouses and all of these huge shows. We really became everything for everybody. Naturally, the next phase was that Power took off, and over, everybody else. I woke up one morning, and we were officially the No. 1 station in Los Angeles! As a company, Emmis Broadcasting was also No. 1 in New York with Hot 97, and with Steve Smiths consultancy of all those other stations throughout the rest of the country, we could get anything done. Thats when we started doing these crazy promotions like the Dr. Dre Hawaii show. But then, Steve decided to leave. He went to our competitor, The Beat. When he was packing up, he said, Do you want to come to The Beat with me? I said, Well, I really like Power, and weve spent all of this time developing this station. Why do you even want to leave? He said, Theyre offering me a shitload of money. I needed to weigh my options. So I went to Rick Cummings and
told him about Steves offer. He said, Well, youre producing records now. Do you want to get into the record business more directly? I said, Huh? He said, Because youre the Assistant Program Director/Music Director, we cant offer you much more money. If we did that, youd be paid more than the program director and the general manager. But youre the key to Power 106. So what do we do here? Can we fund a record label for you? I was intrigued. He said, We dont want you to leave, so well give you $250,000 a year, with 75 grand of it being your salary at Power 106, and the rest going to fund your company. Without much hesitation, I said, Sure! I wasnt yet 21 and Id made the biggest mistake of my career. When Id begun DJing as a teenager I created a company called Baby Ree, in honor of Grannys childhood nickname. With Emmis behind me, I hired a staff: Sujit Kundu and Pablo Chapparo to run the business side of things, and a dude we call Triple to do A&R. It lasted only a few years and ended badly with me facing bankruptcy. I joke that at least I had a good time but the truth is it was the worst chapter of my life and Im grateful its over. When you mix radio and the record business, its just a clusterfuck. Our attorneys went through the FCC to do all of the deals and stuff like that, to ensure there was no question of payola. I wasnt the final say on any of the music going over the air, technically but the industry saw it as me having my hands in both pots. Plus, I was producing records, and not just that, but hit records! Needless to say, the hate started to brew. Power kept doing well though. I had co-produced a number one rap single (with the help of Kay-Gee of Naughty By Nature fame) with Where I Wanna Be from my Damizza Presents album. Then, our parent label, London, went bankrupt. But MCA Records came
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forward and offered us a million-dollar deal to do the Shade Sheist album. For a new artist, a million dollars? We had a huge back end, too. Clive Daviss son, Fred Davis, is the greatest entertainment lawyer in history, and he negotiated the deal for us. Two weeks into the deal, Rick got promoted to president of the Radio Division of Emmis Broadcasting. That was the kiss of death for Power 106, and me for that matter. When Rick Cummings was taken out of the day-to-day operations of Power 106 and Hot 97, it took his eyes off of our stations. Also, the only person who ever really understood me at Emmis was Rick. He was the one I orchestrated this whole deal with. And now he said, Youve got to deal with your new general manager, Sal Lackie. Sal Lackie is a super nice lady who came from Q101 in Chicago. The second that she walked in, she said, What does Damion do? Why is he being paid so much? How come he never has to be here? I have to be here every day! What the hell is this! So, we immediately clashed. Then, she hired a guy named Mike Tierney as the new program director, who was a great programmer. The problem was, Power was really my station. He was there to manage the on-air staff because I wanted nothing to do with that. When he came, he said, Look Damion, I know this is your station. Im just gonna stay out of your way, but tell me how the system works around here. The problem was, with me being there, he didnt have much power with the record community or the artists, so he couldnt really be my boss. I dont want to sound arrogant, but I was the go-to guy. When someone said Power 106, they would say my name. And even with the listeners, they all knew who Damion Young was. These new people who came in didnt get what Power 106 was. They tried to run it like a regular radio station. Mike said to Sal, What do I do? I cant manage Damion, because he does his own thing. And Big Boy is already a set brand.
Everything was already on autopilot. We had five straight books at No. 1. So this guy just stopped showing up to work and got another job. Sal came into my office one day and said, Have you heard from Mike Tierny? I said, No. Why? She said, Well, no one can get a hold of him. Then we read in the paper that he took a job at Sony. He called me up and said, Dude, I just cant work for Sal. Shes crazy. Shes gonna ruin that station. I said, Well, I dont really have any dealings with her, so I dont care. But I did start to clash with upper management, because Rick wasnt there to hold everything together.
Me with Shade Sheist, Irv Gotti and Ja Rule at the now-defunct Soundcastle Studios in Silverlake the night we recorded If You Were My Bitch for the Murderers album.
This was the beginning of the end. I started focusing on producing. When I was in the studio, I would always run into the artists, so it was easy to be in contact with them. But it got to a point where upper management (Sal mostly) really started to resent the fact that I didnt
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have to be there. But the way I did business, I couldnt do it sitting in my office eight hours a day. When the artists were at the station, we were playing craps in my office! Thats pretty ridiculous. It always looked like I was having a party. I understand why the upper brass didnt like it. Then they brought Jimmy Steal in from a Top-40/Adult Contemporary station in Dallas to be the new program director. I said, What are you guys doing? This is a rap station. You need to get somebody that understands what we do. I had been there since wed been a techno station, and I was the one who really grandfathered this whole format. But because I was so young, people really had an issue with my age. What, he doesnt have to be here, and I do? I have to be here, and I dont have any power? He makes more money than me too? So when Jimmy came in, he walked up to me and said, So, I hear youre the most valuable person at the radio station. I said, Well, Im only as important as anyone else on the team. He said, Ill just stay out of your way. But please teach me what you can because I want to learn. So I spent time teaching Jimmy the hip-hop format. No disrespect to Jimmy, but I had actually been in the business longer than him. It was just that I was half his age. As time went on, it created problems. He wanted certain things for the radio station, and I would disagree. He wanted to evolve a bit too. He wanted to sign his own artist on his new label, named King Arthur Clark. He asked me to help him set up his company, and I did that. I was going through hell with Shade Sheist at that time, and the business was crumbling. Arthur was good, but he needed about four or five years to be developed and put in the system. I put him on Shades album, and I was really trying to develop him slowly. The problem was, I wasnt able to devote a lot of time to him. And that made Jimmy a little mad, because heres this artist on his payroll, and
he hadnt seen anything in return as far as singles. But I didnt have the time, and Jimmy was doing some stuff that I felt wasnt in the best interest of the radio station. The Radio Music Awards and all of those kinds of things were really just crazy. Jimmy called me in and said, I want you to do some songs with Arthur. I agreed, and when I showed up to the studio, he wasnt ready. I took a pass. The Baby Ree deal was also ready to fall apart. I had the option, after I did Lights Out, where we could have signed Ice Cube. Michael Papale from The Firm called me up and said, Were on board. We want to be in the Damion Young business. If you want to sign Ice Cube, were ready to go! At the time, the budgets werent quite right, and we had failed with Shade Sheist. I went to Val and Rick Cummings to ask if we could do this, and they said no. I said, Well, my deal was for five years and to fund a certain amount of artists. They said, Well, after the Emmis stock prices fell and the economy changed, we want out of the deal. I said, Wait a minute. Contractually, you guys have to do the deal. And, Val being Val, she slid out of the deal, right when I could have signed Ice Cube. They still owe me a lot of money for that deal. But because of the way the accounting was done, and Val was a genius at accounting, she found a way to shift the books to show a loss, and that was it. Everything was falling apart on a national level at the same time. Radio was going through its worst time in history. September 11 just happened, George W. Bush went into office, and New York State Attorney General Elliot Spitzer was trying to prosecute radio DJs. With all these factors swarming around, Power 106 slowly became a conservative radio station. And we couldnt do that. We were a
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gangsta rap station! Then, Jimmys programming philosophy changed. He said, We want to be a top-40 station and go after KIIS-FMs audience. I said, Dude, were number one. Why would you want to change anything at all? He said, Well, you just dont know because youre never here. Emmis as a whole started losing money. They had to arranging something with the staff so part of their pay was in stock. For instance, half of my check was to be in cash, and half would be in stock. The company started to get hokey. So I said, Wait a minute. Im not even getting along with the staff here anymore. Now they pull the record deal out from under my feet, and they want me to stay on board, with my only bonus being a new title? Senior director of programming and artist relations? Oh wow. That one also pissed off Jimmy, because he was program director. He complained and wanted the title to be senior director of artist relations. He said I shouldnt even have a title in programming because we were catching heat from the press. Even though Im putting $5 million Pamela Anderson promotions on the air. Even though I cleaned up their Powerhouse mess with Ludacris (youll read about that later) and brought in another $7 million in bonuses from that. And theyre complaining about what I do? It came down to the fact that Power 106 was supporting the whole Emmis Broadcasting chain. We were the only ones who were still No. 1. Theyd tried to get me to run Hot 97 in New York and Id bailed on that gig after a short time, so they were mad at me over that. One day, Jimmy said, Hey, by the way, we found a way to generate some more revenue! They owned the tower that Power 106 broadcasted from. He said, Were gonna rent a place on our stick to another station.
I said, Well, what other station? He said, Its a new station. I said, Jimmy, I would advise against this. Any new station, unless its country or something polar opposite from our station, is gonna be competition for us. And this is a 42 percent Hispanic market. Anyone starting a radio station in Los Angeles that isnt aimed at Hispanics is stupid. He said, No. Its a great way for us to earn money, and we have a contract with them so well sue them if they do anything Hispanic. I said, Jimmy, come on man. Dont fall for this. He said, Youre not even here. What do you care? So they rented the spot to this other station, which turned out to be Latino 96.3, a direct competitor to Power 106. It immediately took between two and four points off our book. When they signed on the air, I looked over at Jimmy and said, I asked you to hire Julio G, and you said no. Hes their night jock now. I told you not to rent the spot on the stick, and you did that. You sued them and you lost. You did a five-year deal with them. What are you doing? He said, Well, its water under the bridge. Weve just got to do better programming. And then Sal looked over at me and said, Well its all about the music anyway, and if any change needs to happen, it needs to happen in the music department. I looked over at her and said, Ever since Ive been here, weve been number one. The only difference between then and now is that everybody listened to me. And now, all of a sudden, you guys are making these decisions just to say that you made a decision. To add more confusion to the mix, E-Man also got promoted to music director. Jimmy pulled me into the office and said, You know, E-Man cant operate in your shadow. No one from the record side wants to deal with us unless youre around. How can we re-work this
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situation to our advantage? Snoop Dogg told Michael Papale and Nino at Interscope that he needed them to have a meeting at Power 106, saying and if Damions not there, theres no use in having the meeting. Jimmy took extreme offense to that. He said, Im the boss. What does Damion have to do with this? He called me up and said, You need to come in Monday morning. Ill admit, at this point, I was pissed off. So, I was like, Fuck it. I said, My deal says that I dont need to be there. I dont want to come in. I also thought, These people dont even want me here. Theyre making these decisions on their own, and they wont listen to anything that I say. They offer me more money and a better title ... but it was obvious, by their actions, that they didnt want me. And E-Man was getting more pissed off because he wanted that spot. He was the music director, but he couldnt get anything done on his own with the artists because everybody wanted to talk to me. Then it all flashed into my mind. I remember one of the first times I met Dr. Dre, he told me, The reason why I left Death Row was because I came to work at the studio, and it was like a party at my house, where everyone was spilling beer on the carpet and putting cigarettes out on my floor. It just didnt feel like home anymore. Thats how it felt at Power now. I showed up Monday morning and sat down in the meeting room with Jimmy, E-Man, Michael, and Nino. I said, So whats going on? Jimmy said, Oh, well, we dont get to know until you get here. I was, like, five minutes late, so he was mad and being a sarcastic asshole. Michael looked over at me, and said, Damion. Im gonna deliver you this message from Snoop. He read off a piece of paper, Snoop Dogg would like to ask you,
Damion, if he can have a hall pass. Jimmy looked over and said, Whats a fucking hall pass? I said, Hold on, lets just hear the whole thing. Jimmy looked over at me like, Dont talk down to me. Michael continued, He wants a hall pass to do a KIIS FM show at Dodger Stadium. I looked over at Michael and said, Hold on a second, let me explain to Jimmy whats going on. So, like a translator, I looked over at Jimmy and said, Jimmy, basically what Snoop is saying is, I helped you guys build this radio station. Ive done a ton of free shows and never charged you. Im asking you to turn your head and let me go do this show with KIIS. Jimmy said, No way. Over my dead body. I said, Hold on. Michael, is he getting paid for this show? Michael said, Yes, hes getting 250 thousand dollars. I said, Tell him its okay. Jimmy said, Wait! Whoa, whoa, whoa. I didnt say it was okay. I said, Jimmy, well talk about it. He said, No, we wont talk about it. He cant do it. I said, Michael, tell him its okay. And Jimmy turned bright red. Michael said, Thank you. Ill tell Snoop, and Im sure hell call you and thank you himself. I said, Thanks, tell him thats not necessary. They walked out quickly. Jimmy looked over at me and said, What the fuck are you doing? You just gave our core artist a pass to become a traitor! I said, Hes not a traitor! Hes just somebody that needs to have his opportunity to make money for his family. And especially in this economy, the way record sales are going, you cant take 250 grand out of somebodys pocket and claim it on loyalty. Unless we can come up with 250 grand to offer him for one of our shows, theres nothing to talk about here. The last four shows hes done for us have all been for
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free. Lets also remember that if Snoop Dogg didnt diss The Beat, we wouldnt have been number one. But you werent here for that, so you didnt know. Theres a lot of history that you dont know about with Snoop Dogg. Hes been more than loyal to Power 106, and he made us number one by co-signing the radio station. Jimmy said, But we did the reunion with Dre and we put him back on. I said, Dude, it doesnt matter. It was an equal relationship. Jimmy, we have to let this go. Let him do the show at KIIS FM and make some money for his family. They dont even play his records over at KIIS. He said, But theyre gonna get credit and theyre gonna beat us. I said, Jimmy, the way things are going, KIIS is gonna beat us anyway. And these decisions like letting Snoop go do a show with another station would get him back on board with us. I typed up a memo and said: These are our problems with Power 106. Were not playing as many local artists, were catering too much to mass appeal. When we were more rap, we were more successful. This is not good. Were not gonna win if we keep this way. Jimmy answered, I beg to differ. Were number one and well always be number one. I said, Jimmy, what happened to the guy that came in and said, Were gonna be number one, but theres always gonna be some wars because thats the way radio works. He said, Well, weve got Big Boy, weve got Marconi Awards, and 10 books at number one. This is the way we need to run things. Were not gonna win by letting Snoop Dogg do something for our competition. Then it just got crazy. 50 Cent got offered a shitload of money by The Beat to do a show, and Jimmy wanted to take on all of Interscope to say that he couldnt do it. I said, Dude, thats not good business.
The way that we always kept a great relationship with the artists was that we never tried to own artists. Artists arent commodities. Just because you play a couple of records doesnt mean youre entitled to anything. We got lucky when Dr. Dre said that the two Up in Smoke Tour shows would be Power 106 shows. He did that out of loyalty. As long as artists did Power 106 first or showed us favoritism, wed be happy. But at this point with Jimmys new attitude, he wanted to own everything. It came to a head around Thanksgiving of 2002. I came in and I said, Jimmy, were really making some big mistakes. If we dont fix this, were seriously gonna go down. He said, No, I dont think so. I said, Jimmy, Im gonna have to leave, bro. This isnt gonna work. He said, Ahh, youd never leave! I said, Jimmy, you dont understand. Youre not making the right decisions with the radio station, and Im not gonna go down with the Titanic. Were not gonna win if we keep this up. I had just put Syphe and D-Lux on the radio, and we were having great success in the afternoons. Things were going great. I said, Please, Jimmy, just let me do my job. He said, Damion, its just not the same anymore. Youve got to let us do these things. I said, Okay, Jimmy. Im not gonna re-sign this year. He said, What? I said, Im not gonna re-sign this year. He said, Well, as long as Im here, youll always have a job here. I said, Jimmy, you dont get it. You really dont get it. Its not gonna work anymore. Power 106 is done if we keep going like this. Were playing techno and records like Intergalactic by the Beastie Boys again. With Latino 96.3 and KDAY coming back on the air, were not gonna be able to compete anymore.
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Any time youre in a war in radio, you strip down and do what made you successful in the first place. For Power 106, that was West Coast rap. So instead of sticking to our brand of playing rap records, we were trying to be more mass appeal and go after KIIS-FM, who wasnt even as successful as us. I walked out of the station that day. I went home to Santa Barbara and told my Granny about the situation. She said, Why do you want to leave? I said, Theyre making bad decisions. They also started doing crazy things like West Coast Wednesdays. We were the biggest West Coast hip-hop radio station. We were supposed to be West Coast, 24 hours a day, seven days a week. Do East Coast Wednesdays if you want, I said, but it gives the wrong signal to do that for the West Coast. It points out the fact that were not playing a lot of West Coast music. Were number one right now, but I project within the next six months, based on the trends Ive seen, were gonna fall out. I spent from Thanksgiving to Christmas thinking about what I was going to do. Should I stay or should I go? I tried to reach out to Rick Cummings, but he was on the road. Val was talking about budget cuts with the on-air staff and making stupid comments like, Why do we need to pay DJs? They should be paying us! I asked, Why? She said, Were gonna cut the mixers salary altogether. I said, You cant do that. Ill take the pay cut, but leave the mixers pay. She said, Why? They do clubs every weekend and make 300 dollars a night just because theyre associated to Power 106. I was sitting there going, Oh God, you guys just dont get it. After Christmas, everything took a downward spiral. Granny
was putting some stuff away above a cupboard, standing on a stool. I heard a loud crashing noise, and I ran into the kitchen. Granny was holding her head, sitting on the floor. I said, Mom, are you all right? She said, Take me to the hospital. Two days before that, my stepmom announced she was divorcing my father. My little brother Jason looked at me and said, Youre not here as much as you used to be. I took a hard look at what was going on and made a decision. I called the office and I said, I need you to write a press release. Im resigning from Power. I cant do it anymore. The station will fail. Granny hurt herself over the holidays, and my little brother is gonna be in a custody battle. So Im ready to let it go. Its over. The press release thanked all the artists that made it possible. We had a great run. Power 106 was an amazing radio station. My friend, my collaborator and one of my favorite artists, Butch Cassidy, was prophetic. He said that for whatever project we were to do next, he wanted to call it Back Before Youre Lonely. So at the end of the press release, I said, Im retiring from radio, but dont worry, Ill be back before youre lonely. Jimmy called me up. So I just saw this. Whats going on? I said, Did you read it? He said, Yeah. I said, Well, thats whats going on. He said, Youre really leaving? I said, Yeah. He said, Can we talk about this? I said, No. The stations going to lose. Theres nothing that can stop it now. He said, I beg to differ. I said, Well, youll beg to differ as you fall down the ratings chart. He goes, Youre really arrogant. Thats a very arrogant thing
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to say. I said, Jimmy, its reality. Power 106 cannot win. Not with the way its set up now. Then Rick Cummings called me up and wanted to have a meeting with me. I said, Okay. We sat down, and thats when I really realized what was going on. Rick said, What do you do at Power now? I know now, youre kind of the guy who can set things up through his connections with artists. I said, Is that really what people have been telling you? He said, Well, thats all I know. I guess Im just out of the loop because Im the president of the company now. I said, Rick, this is how your radio station is going to fall. And I told him exactly what was gonna happen. I said that company that rented a spot on the stick was gonna bite him in the ass. This new company, a country station he just bought was gonna cause problems too. He switched it to a Top 40 station that played rhythmic music, so it was gonna eat some of Powers market share. He said, Theyre not gonna interfere with each other. I said, Thats what you said about the Latino 96.3 station. But theyre gonna be neck and neck with us within six months. He said, I dont agree with you. I said, Well, congratulations. You, Jimmy and Sal are all on the same page. He goes, Well, well offer you more money if you come back. I dont want to lose you. I said, Rick, Im gone. The next summer I had a single out, Power started playing the record late, after everyone else added it. Jimmy called me up and invited me out to the station. I showed up, and it was my first time there in a couple years. I walked in and it looked like everyone had seen a ghost. I went into Jimmys office and he asked me what was
wrong with the station immediately. I said, Jimmy, I already told you what was wrong with the station, and I put it out there during my last memo to you. Six months after I left, you went from number one to number 12. What my team and I were fostering at that time was the growth of rap music. We were forcing these records out. If I werent constantly bugging Dre to play his latest songs, maybe some of them wouldnt have come out. We were an outlet that the artist could go to actually push these records. I dont blame Sal, or Jimmy, or any of these people. The current Power 106 position is flawed. Not only has it not evolved, but its regressed to worse than it was before I was there. Its ironic because if you look at these guys, Jimmy Steel and E-Man, theyre some of the best programmers in the country; but theyre not hip-hop urban
E. SANCHEZ PHOTO: Butch Cassidy and me recording our hit Cruzin at Area 51 in Burbank.
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program directors. Hip-hop is very aggressive and ahead of the curve. If youre not ahead of the curve as a station, youre not treating your listeners with respect. The famous line around Power 106 was, Everything shows six months later. This is absolutely true when it comes to ratings. If youre ahead of the curve at six months, youll be on schedule at the end of six months. But Power isnt being proactive any more. Power 106 was the biggest progressive, proactive radio station in the world. Im not kidding. It really was. And that was because we were, for a time, a team with focus and it was so organic. Im not trying to take credit, it was all of us, and it gelled. If any one of the people in that building werent there, at that time, it might not have worked. Sadly, now, it has flittered into the ether. Instead of being aggressive, theyre playing clean up, and losing. Everyones too afraid to make a move, because itll be someones ass on the line. I was always comfortable with taking calculated risks. Syphe said it the best, about six months after I left: When you were here at Power 106, I never understood what you did. And 95 percent of the people at Power 106, I bet you to this day, never understood what you did. Even when you hired us, I had no clue what you did. But thats a gift Ive been given. Ive been doing this for two decades. I know hip-hop. I might be arrogant, but when it comes to radio, I know what Im doing. And all the personalities aside, the numbers dont lie: Every year I was at Power it was No. 1. Every year since Ive been gone, it has been shrinking toward the No. 20 spot. I visited Power some time later. Butch Cassidy and I recorded a duet, inspired by what hed said earlier and we called it Back Before Youre Lonely and had a single, Cruzin. It is my biggest personal hit so far and was the song of that summer in California. I went up to see Big Boy and do the morning show to promote
the song. Big Boy said to me, on the air, Im still eating off of you. It stopped me dead in my tracks. I said, Wait a minute. Everybodys eating off of me, but Im not eating off me? It was a mind fuck. He said, Well, you built Power 106. A kid from Santa Barbara that Id been mentoring named Los produced the record Cruzin. Working with him gave me the realization that I could go back and work with artists, especially up-and-coming kids, who really appreciate what Im doing. They could be the future of eating off me. I could eat off of it myself too, not from a monetary standpoint, but from a happiness standpoint. Recently, I was listening to some of Los new music, and it was so flattering because it had that signature, tense, Damizza push and pull. A happy track with an undercurrent of sadness, in the key of C minor. Its so flattering that a protg has really caught on to all of that. Too bad Power hasnt had the same lasting legacy. Breaks my heart.
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You know, I really tried to think of the best way to start this, but its hard to know where to begin when it comes to Dr. Dre. Dre was the first rap producer that I ever heard. The song Gangsta Gangsta by N.W.A. changed my life. That was the first rap record I heard, and it was like water to me. When I heard that song, I knew in my mind that hip-hop was what I wanted to do with the rest of my life. I was at my friend Jacob Pikes house in high school and his little brother came in. He had a homemade cassette in his hand and he said, Oh my god, theyre cussing on the record! Theyre talking all kinds of shit! He put it on, and I heard Gangsta Gangsta. The tape also had some Too Short on it, but it was mostly Eazy-E and N.W.A. stuff. After I heard it, I stole the tape! I went home, put it in my boombox and literally, like the Biggie song, Played the tape until the tape popped! It was just so well put together. It was reality to me. People were talking, and it was rap, but it was in West Coast street terms. It was how I heard people speak about the things they knew, they saw, or they knew about: unrestrained, honest. Often brutally honest. For me, Dr. Dre was the one who started the wave. Listening to him, I got turned on to all other sorts of music. For instance, when he mentioned Compton, I went to the record store and I saw Born and Raised in Compton. That started me on DJ Quik and put my feet firmly on the path Ive chosen and couldnt help but lead me to become a producer myself.
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When I started at Power as the music director, I thought I was gonna get fired the first couple of months. I was making radical changes! I wanted all the techno and R&B off, and replacing it with Dr. Dres Aint No Fun and other cuts off The Chronic album that the streets loved. It was being a fan of that music that really gave me an edge at radio. But it was like I was taking radio penitentiary chances! So before my eventual termination, there were two people I wanted to meet. Those two people were DJ Quik and Dr. Dre. I met Quik and we had a couple of really cool conversations, but I hadnt met Dre yet. Luckily, my friend Nino from Interscope Records called me up one day and said, Hey, what are you doin? You wanna meet me over at this soundstage in Van Nuys? Dr. Dre is doing the video for Zoom with LL Cool J. I know you always wanted to meet him. I was like, Yeah, sure! I was trying to be all cool about it, but lets be real here. If someone calls you up and says, Do you wanna meet your idol? what are you gonna say? So I was on my way to the soundstage with Cherry Martinez, who was our night jock at the time. If that werent surreal enough, on the car ride over to meet Dre, Mariah Carey called me for the first time just to say Hi. Id only met her once before. It doesnt get crazier than that. I was sitting there thinking, theres no way to mask being a fan. As soon as we got to the set, I saw Dre, who immediately turned around to meet me. It was like meeting Henry Ford if youre in the car business. He said, So youre the new music director at Power, huh? Thanks for playing The Firms song Phone Tap. I said, The records great! But what you really need to do is put out that record with Foxy Brown (Fuck Somebody Else). He said, Id love to, but how would we make a radio version? I said, Theres gonna have to be some edits!
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Hes a perfectionist, so for his radio edits, hed have the artist come in and re-do the vocals. But he said, You think that records a hit? I said, Well, we could at least give it a shot! He goes, Damn dude! and looked at me like I was crazy. I said, Well, since were on the subject, can I get a copy of the original version of Zoom with Snoop Dogg? He said, Wait a minute. How did you even know about that? I said, Well, it was leaked a long time ago, and Ive always loved that record too. It was a cool moment and I wasnt about to let it go. I told Dre that Power had just hired Snoop to do weekends. Why dont you come on and DJ one day? I asked. Dre said, DJ? I havent DJd in years! I said, Well, you started the whole mixtape thing, right? He was a little stunned that I knew so much about him. I said, Dude, didnt you start making mixtapes so the guy could play the new stuff in the Rodeum Swap Meet? Dre just kind of looked at me like, what the fuck who is this kid? He said, Well, I dont know about the DJ thing, I havent talked to Snoop in a long time. But when the time is right, maybe Ill come out there and do something. So we shot the shit for a minute, then he said, Just call me and well hook it up. I said, Call you? Really? I pulled out my cell phone. He gave me his number, and then I said, What assistant is this? Dre said, This is my head phone. It rings next to my head, so dont call too early in the morning. I thanked him, and then took advantage of the opportunity to ask him about some of his music. Who wrote the verse for Natural Born Killaz? He said, I wrote the verse for that!
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Then he started rapping it like, Doomed to be a killer since I came out the nut sack! I was in heaven. Damn, Im having a conversation with Dre about records! I had so many questions I wanted to ask. But I had to remember that I was there on business. And my main objective was to attempt to reunite him and Snoop, somehow. Before I was hired at Power, I had my first conversation with Michelle Mercer, who at the time was the stations program director. What is one of the things you would like to do to make Power better? she asked. My response was, I want to align with the artists, and I want to do an N.W.A. show or a Snoop and Dre show in L.A. It would just be the biggest thing in the world! I knew it would be huge for the station and the artists but I also got the idea because Im a fan and honestly just wanted to see the fuckin show! A couple of days after meeting Dre at the video shoot, I called the house. It takes a bit of nerve to call your idol and its always in the back of your head if he was just being polite or if he was serious that it was cool to call. I mean, what do you say? His wife Nicole answered the phone. I said, Hi, this is Damion from Power 106. Im calling for Dre. Nicole is a total sweetheart. She sounded a little shocked that a radio guy would be calling the house, and that I had the home number. Honestly, even though Dre told me it was a direct line, I thought I was gonna get put through to some assistant. You get the image of Dr. Dre in your head, and you think youve gotta go through 12 people to get to the guy. But Nicole simply handed him the phone. Yo! he said. I told him, I was just sitting in the office and wondering if youre ever gonna do that Foxy Brown track, and if youre ever gonna come up and do the radio appearance.
He said, Well, Foxys in New York and shes hard to get a hold of. And the album isnt doing as well as wed hoped. I said, Thats fucked up. Let me see if I can do an edit of it. He said, Youre crazy. What? He said, Youre just nuts! I asked him about coming to do the radio show with Snoop and he said, Well I havent seen Snoop in a while, and I dont have any new records that I can DJ with. I said, Well I can put you on a mailing list to get the records, that aint nothin! Come on, man but lets keep in touch. Come by the studio some time and hear some of the new shit Im working on. I was ecstatic, but kind of skeptical at the same time. Sure! Ill call you next week. Any unreleased shit you wanna play me or anything else, Id be happy to hear it! I couldnt actually be getting invited to hear some new Dre shit, could I? He started laughing. Then I realized, Wow. This dude is really just a regular guy. Hes not Superman, hes just cool. A week or two went by and I call him back and he picked up. So whats up, I said. Whos this? he asked. I said, Its Damion from Power 106. Damn! he said. I thought, Oh shit. Did I call him one too many times? Dre said, Ill be over at the studio on Monday and Tuesday. Ill be at Larrabee West, do you know where that is? I said, Yeah, I was working with Kurupt over there. He sounded surprised and said, What? Thats a long story! I said. But Ill stop by. He said, Call me first so I can let everyone know youre coming.
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When the day rolled around I called and Nicole answered the phone. She said he was still asleep. But its all right, Damion, just call back later. I was shocked. So his wife knows who I am now? I learned, much later, that not a lot of people could call Dr. Dre directly at home. Jimmy Iovine, the chairman of Interscope Records, once asked me, How did you get in touch with Dre? I dont even have his home number. Dre called me back later, and said, Im running a little late, but meet me at Larrabee and Ill play you some of the shit Im working on. I jumped at the chance. So I went over there, and it was him, MelMan, and The DOC. I was like, Yo, DOC! Wow! I had grown up on these artists music. Whirlwind Pyramid and all those records from The DOCs The Formula album were all records that, in high school, I was bumping in my car in hot rotation. This was right after the Death Row era, right after the Aftermath Presents album and The Firm project. Dre was working on beats, and that was it. But they had just made the transition from the early sound of the Aftermath Presents album, that early Mel-Man/Glove drum sound, to something new. All this stuff that he was starting to play me was what 2001 would ultimately become. One of the first beats he played for me would later become FUCK YOU. He was just playing random beats/songs like that. He said, Its just some early stuff. Im gonna call the album Chronic 2000. Dre and I really hit it off, talking non-stop when he wasnt playing me beats. And what was really cool was that he didnt mind me asking a whole raft of classic fan questions: What was up with Death Row? Why did you leave? Ill never forget what he said. You know what its like when youre having a party at your house, but you look around and you realize you dont know anyone there? Everybodys partying, theyre
spilling beer on your carpet, theyre putting their cigarettes out on your floor? It just didnt feel like my house anymore. I couldnt work. There were always so many people in the studio that I couldnt focus. It just got to the point where I couldnt do it. I was like, Wow, thats crazy. You have to remember, I was like 20 or 21 years old at the time. This was some awesome stuff to be hearing firsthand at that age. After that session at his place, Id call him about once a week, and wed just shoot the shit. To me, it was cool because Id ask him history questions, or radio questions. What do you think of this record, what do you think of that record? He said at one point, Dame, you know why I fuck with you? I was wondering the same thing myself. Because you gave me a shot with Phone Tap. After the Aftermath Presents album didnt do what it was supposed to, and after Firm Biz didnt work out, you still gave it a shot. A lot of radio stations didnt. I told him straight up, I cant take the credit for that. That was already in play before I got here. He said, Yeah, but you still kept playing it even when you had the option to take it out. I said, Look dude. Your records speak for themselves. When are you gonna put a solo record out? He said, Well I dont know, I still havent figured it out. I said, Well, whats up with Snoop? He said, I just havent talked to him in a long time. I dont know where he is. I said, He works here at Power doing weekends. Why dont you come down, do an interview, and play some records. He said, I dont know if its the right time. I wasnt about to let that one go, so I started thinking, How can I get these two in a room so they can perform together?
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I just want to see the show. I just want to hear some new music from these guys. At the end of the day, Im the biggest rap fan you can find. For the radio station, it worked. For the record company, it worked. For me and the other fans, it worked. For Dre and Snoop, it worked. I could tell from the beginning that it wasnt a beef thing between them. Theyd been out of contact for long enough they simply didnt know where they stood with each other. So I said, All right. I waited a couple days, and I walked in on a Saturday during Snoops show. I kept it real casual. Well, I ran into Dr. Dre the other day. He goes, Ahh! Well, what did he say? I said, I asked him if you guys were gonna make records again, and he was like, I wanna make some more records with Snoop! Snoop said, Yeah, man, Ill put him back on! I started laughing and I was like, Okay, cool. Maybe I can hook yall back up. I was thinking to myself, Ive got half of it down. Now what am I gonna tell Dre? Fuck!
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So I called up Dre, still trying to be as low-key as possible. Its funny, I was in there talking to Snoop this Saturday Dre said, Oh really, what did he say? I said, He was talking about wanting to make records with you again. Dre said, Really? Man, Ill put him back on! They said the exact same thing! It was hilarious. Except that now, I had to figure out how I was gonna get these guys together, and how I was gonna get this together under the Power 106 umbrella. I needed to figure out a way to orchestrate that initial conversation. So I called up Nino, and he said, Dude, youre crazy. I dont know how youre gonna do this. Big help! I never bullshit to make stuff happen, even when Ive had to stroke egos to smooth the road, so I knew there was no other way than just being totally up front: I called Dre back and said, What about a show? Lets do a show in L.A. Lets do a Dr. Dre and Snoop Dogg reunion. I didnt know what to expect an uncomfortable silence, a fuck that or simply a well no. Instead, Dre hit back with an immediate Shit! If you can pull it off! I checked in with Snoop same reaction. He was down. I had the labels support, I had Dre and I had Snoop. Now I just needed to get Michelle and Power behind it without making them think I was turning the place into a gangsta rap station. I used my own enthusiasm as a fan and ran on pure hype. Hey, Michelle, real quick, I got Dr. Dre and Snoop back together. They said theyd do a show for us in L.A. She said No way! Right out of the gate, not even thinking about it. Whoa, I said. You dont understand. Nuthin But A G Thang is our biggest testing record. This is L.A. Dre and Snoop back together. They never really performed together here!
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Someone will get shot, she said. Tell them no. Besides, Dr. Dre is over. Christ. Not that line again. The next thing through my head was Now Ive gotta go back to Dre and Snoop and tell them we cant do it after all. I just put my foot in my mouth! Fuck! Im gonna look like an idiot! It just killed me, both as a fan and as an employee of the radio station, since I knew this would be the biggest thing in the world. Michelle was so afraid that someone would get shot that she just said no. Rick Cummings, who is the smartest man in the world as far as radio programmers go, was my biggest ally and supporter. I went to him about it, and he said, I dont think we can do it right now. I see her point and I see yours. But some things are happening That was a little cryptic at first but then I caught on: He was alluding to the fact that Michelle and Marie Kordis, the stations general manager, were on their way out. Give me a couple months, Rick said. Tell them to kick back. Well revisit this once some changes happen. So I called up Dre and I said, Look, Im working on it, but its gonna take a couple months to get it together on this end. He was cool with that and didnt need to know any more. A few days later he called me back and said, Yo, I need you to come to the house. I need to ask you something. I said, Oh, okay, Ill just head on over ah, Dre, do you think I know where you live?! I always joked around with Dre, because hes just like everybody else. Hes funny and hes a good guy. He gave me his address. When you pull up to the gate, ask for Miles Long. I said, Miles Long? He said, Yeah, thats great, huh? Im like, Yeah whatever, like thats really gonna be funny. So I pull up to this huge gated house, and it looked like the
Playboy Mansion. There was a huge lawn in front of it, and a longass winding driveway up to the house. One of his security guards was at the top, waiting for me. He said, Hey, Damion? Dres waiting for you inside. We walked in together through a side door in the garage, inside through another door and into this mindfuck of a studio. I was like, Holy shit! There was a mini 32-channel SSL G-Plus board and just about more gear than Id ever seen in my life. It was like a Larrabee West in this dudes house. As I got further into the studio, I heard the beat for what would later become Eminems My Name Is. Man, they really had it going when I came in. I saw Dre and looked inside the recording booth. There was this little white guy in there and he was goin Slim Shady you a bass head. Whyre face red man, youre wasted. He was saying it like Dre! This was before the bleach-blonde Eminem image. He looked a lot different. I kinda had a What the fuck? sort of reaction. Dre saw me and said Dame, what up! Hey, Marshall, come out here for a second. Hey, this is Eminem. I was like, Nice to meet you, man. Dre said, Sit down, I want to play you some stuff. Cool. I then asked him why the beat was only coming back on two channels. He told me that he only had one tape machine at the house and that he mixes as he goes. Let the lessons begin! Anyways, this is Eminem, hes from Detroit, and I just signed him. I looked at Dre a little wide-eyed. You just signed a white boy? From Detroit? Dre laughed. They played me a few records, like Brain Damage and My Name Is. And I said, Okay, Dre, so those are the parts he just recorded? Dre nodded his head.
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I said, Wow, thats crazy! Thats gonna work. Why? I said, Come on. Dr. Dre signing a white kid? Thats the ultimate co-sign, plus hes talking so much crazy shit that this might just work. Big. Dre smiled. Come out here with me for a second. We went into the hallway of the studio. How do I break the white boy? I look at him. Thats a good question. Hows this: You tell me the story of N.W.A. from the beginning to end, and Ill break the white boy for you. Dre thought I was nuts. I wanna hear where Ice Cube wrote Boyz In The Hood, I want to hear how you met Eazy-E, I wanna hear about the shows, I wanna hear it all! He said, Seriously? Do you have about a year? I said, I have as long as it takes! So I sat on his washing machine, he sat on his stairs, and he told me the whole story, from beginning to end. Its amazing, but its Dres to tell, so Im not gonna get into it here. Lets just say, it was light when I got there, and it was dark when I left. As luck would have it, the following night happened to be the 10-year anniversary of Friday Night Flavors with
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Tha Baka Boyz, and we were doing a show with Gangstarr at The Florentine Gardens to celebrate.
Right in the middle of Dres stories, I said to him, Wait, heres what well do with your white boy. Lets have him perform at the show tomorrow. Hes underground, his lyrics are really edgy. I think it will go over really well. Do you want to show up? Dre said, No, man, its late we just had a baby I need to finish the album. Thats cool, I said. In the morning, send him over to Power and well put him on with Tha Baka Boyz. Well announce that hes performing at the show, and then after that well start playing My Name Is, and well start branding him. After Dre had filled my head with the most amazing stories Id ever heard I said goodnight and left. I called up E-Man as soon as I got in the car. Wed recently promoted him from a mixer position to be my assistant music director. I said, Yo, check this out: Dr. Dre just signed a white boy, and were gonna put him on the Friday Night Flavors show. He goes, Did you tell Michelle this? I said, No, not yet. He said, Good luck on that one buddy! You know shes gonna say no. Youre gonna put a white boy on this show, whos signed with Dr. Dre? You know how she feels about Dr. Dre. Eminem showed at the station as planned the next morning, but I didnt tell Michelle that he was going to be performing at that nights show. Tha Baka Boyz were in on the plan and they thought it was a totally cool idea and announced it on the air. Bang! Im called into Michelles office with E-Man, who was givin me that Oh, fuck, thanks a lot kinda look. If you put that white boy on stage youre both fired, she said. Michelle, I tried to reason with her, Dr. Dre is our core artist. A lot of the songs on our entire playlist are done by Dr. Dre. This is a great thing! She wasnt listening. E-Man and I left her office and I turned to
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him. E, this is where we put our balls on the line. Youre either with me or youre not. Ill take the full blame. He said, Nah man. I love Dr. Dre, I feel what youre doing, and Im down 100 percent. I was goin into it fully figuring it was my neck but, unbeknownst to me, my star was on the rise at Power and throughout Emmis. I think E-Man saw this, and that Rick Cummings had my back, and that neither one of us was getting fired. There was just too much going on, and it was all good. It was so cool to have E-Man behind me. The show at the Florentine was my first in L.A., my first as the new music director of Power, and Tha Baka Boyzs 10-year anniversary. And, as far as I knew at the time, my last day at Power because I was about to launch a show with Gangstarr, Primo, WC, and walk out a white kid from Detroit to kick it all off. They were all lookin at me like I was nuts, but they were intrigued. This is Dr. Dres new artist? Gotta hear this one The kid gets on stage and just kills it. The first 10 seconds, everybodys like, Whats this? And then all of a sudden the whole crowd goes wild. I watched Primo and Guru lookin at this kid, with a total Wow look on their faces. But I got my N.W.A. history lesson from Dre. And we broke the white boy. After that, Dre trusted me and we stayed in close contact. Power started playing My Name Is in heavy rotation and Eminem blew up, becoming one of musics top stars nearly overnight. Over the course of the next year, I was virtually living at Larrabee West Studios doing tracks for Shade Sheist and Nate Dogg. It was cool because I was seeing Dre constantly he was in one of the other rooms working on 2001. It was a crazy time. Hed finish something and pop in and say Yo! You gotta come check this out! and Id wander over with him to listen to what he was working on. Or hed ask me over and show me the mockups for the cover art, which he
had to change after Suge Knight, co-founder of Death Row Records with Dre, used the title Chronic for a compilation. Damn, Dre said, Now Im gonna call it Chronic 2001. One day, I walked past his lounge and Dre said, Yo, Dame, can I talk to you for a minute? He pulled me in and told me that hed just signed Rakim to his label. What do you think of that? I was like, Thats crazy! Great move! Ive always been such a fan of Dre that its still a mind fuck to me to think that he was asking my opinion of whether signing Rakim was a good idea. Even when I was out on the road with Shade touring in support of our Where I Wanna Be hit, Dre and I would talk on the phone fairly regularly about what each of us was doing, offering constant support and advice. It has always been so cool, and continues to be, to count him as a friend. The next time we got together, he was getting ready to launch 2001. First of all, it was a highly anticipated Dre record hey, they all are! but with the bonus attention that hed attracted by breaking Em so huge, the timing just couldnt have been better. Id signed Eminem to play that years Powerhouse, and immediately saw my chance to finally get that Dre and Snoop reunion off the ground. Since helping put Eminem on the map, I had complete freedom at the station, an all-access pass to do whatever the fuck I wanted. So I said to Dre, Ems on the show Snoops on the show. Hey, why dont you come perform with Em? He said, Well, I only have a couple bars on My Name Is. Yeah, I said, but if you do that and Guilty Conscience (which we were just starting in rotation on Power) itll be the shit! Okay, he said, maybe Ill show up. So I thought to myself, If I get Dr. Dre in the building, and Ive already got Snoop in the building, all I need is to find a way to get Dre to come out during Snoops set. No problem. Except I had no idea how I was gonna pull that off.
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On show day, I was wandering around the Arrowhead Pond during set up and soundchecks and got a call on my walkie-talkie. Yo, Dres at the top of the ramp. Apparently, hed parked somewhere in the general public area and was walking backstage with his wife, Nicole, Mel-Man, and a few other people, bottle of gin in tow, ready to hang out and party. I walked up and met them and I said to Dre, What the fuck are you doing? Guess Id better explain as Dre and I became closer friends, it kinda turned into a big brother/little brother kind of relationship and ever since we talk a lot of shit to each other, which is fun in itself, but also a blast because it really freaks out people around us. Hey, whats up, motherfucker! Hey, asshole! Its just the way we talk. It was hilarious at the opening of the Farm Club, with Jimmy Iovine and all the suits hangin out and Dre saw me and said, Fuck you, Damion, you dont know what youre talkin about. And I responded, Fuck you, man, youre too old to know what the fuck youre talkin about! Hey, I dont know anybody who talks to Dre that way. Em and I are the same way, and he fuels it further because hes got such a great sense of humor. I loved to fuck with Dres security, too, because it always freaks everybody else out. The guys themselves were always, Ahh, thats just little Damion whatever. I remember there was a tense moment at a show with Dre and Snoop, and the Boo-Yaa Tribe showed up unexpectedly. I said to Giant (the biggest and coolest one), Hey man, you better calm down. Id hate to have to fight you right here. What a great ice breaker this little white boy from Santa Barbara calling out a 400-plus pound Samoan dude. The guys get it and are always so cool. I think they dig that it freaks out everybody around them, too. So Dre came up with everyone at the Pond and said, Hey, you little bastard, Im here. I said, Fuck you, youre late! I told him that Id arranged a private dressing room for him Just in case your
Hollywood ass wanted to show up. We had a great laugh. My adrenaline was pumpin a little while later when I noticed that he and Snoop had hooked up and were talking. I had my fingers crossed. Eminem went out on stage and began to absolutely tear up the place. It was wicked. Dre went out in the middle of the set and the crowd went absolutely nuts. Couldnt have been better. I caught Dre a few minutes later backstage and asked him what he and Snoop had talked about before the show had begun. Well, he said, The conversation started. I went out to DJ Jam, Snoops DJ, and said Yo, get the records ready! Dres gonna go out there. Jam said, I dont know, Dame, they were talking a little bit, but I dont know for sure. Im like, Jam, come on! He said, Yeah, I feel you! Well get this done. Maybe Dre and Snoop had it all worked out and Dre was just trying to blow my mind, but I dont think so; I think he made the decision at the last possible moment. He was sitting in the wings watching Snoop when I went up to him and said, Yo, so it would be really great if I told Jam to throw Deep Cover on and you go out there! Dre said, I dont know, man. I said, Look at all these people, dude. Everybody wants to see Dr. Dre and Snoop back together again. Weve got 17,000 people here, dogg. Its a perfect setup for a reunion. You can work together, do the album, everything will be great! Dre sighed, gave me a look and said, Gimme a mic. The first one didnt work, so I got him a second one and as he was checking it out, I walked over to Jam and said, Dude, hes got mics in his hands you gotta play Deep Cover now. Jam threw the record on, and Dre walked out with both mics
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in his hands and, like that, Dre and Snoop were together again performing in front of an L.A. crowd for the first time ever. I almost passed out! Its still hard to believe. My dream had just come true. They went into Nuthin But A G Thang and then Whats My Name and Dre said goodnight to the crowd and came off stage. I must have looked like an idiot standing there grinning from ear to ear. Is that what you wanted? he said. All right, fool, Im outta here. And he left. I dont think Ill ever have a night like that. Mariah came out with Da Brat and Krazie Bone to do a surprise performance of the I Still Believe remix that I produced, and we put her on one of those rising scaffolds. The girls in the audience absolutely lost it when they saw her. The show was magic and Power was the biggest shit in the world at this point. The next day, I called Dre at home and he asked me what Id thought of the show. Im sure he could tell from the excitement in my voice, but I told him I was absolutely amped. Yeah, dude, Snoop and I talked. Were gonna do some records. Dre called me at Power a few days later and said hed hooked up with Jay-Z and had decided to do some writing for him. He asked if Id drop into Larrabee to hear a track theyd done called Malibu Dre. After hed spun it, he said, I dont really like it. I told him it was hot, but he was like, Nah, thats not what I want to come with first. It just didnt come off right, so maybe Ill have him do something else for me. He then started playing me The Watcher, which Eminem had written. It was so sick hearing Knocs voice blend with Ems on that hook. Dre is fucking genius. Soon, I was back at Larrabee myself, working again next door to Dre, this time with Jennifer Love-Hewitt. On my birthday, Jennifer
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filled the performance room with a huge teddy bear and all these toys. What a great girl! Dre came in and was like, Its your birthday? Happy birthday, motherfucker! He looked at all these toys, looked at me standing there with a shit-eating grin on my face standing next to Jennifer, and laughed. Man, youre crazy. I said, Hey, by the way, Mariahs comin down. Would you do a record with her? Sure, he said. Ill give you some beats and let me know if she like em. I tried testing the waters a little further. Well, what about doing something with Michael Jackson? Nah, Id never do that. But Dre laid some beats on me and I played them for Mariah. She was into it and asked me to set something up. Unfortunately, I couldnt make it to the meeting. Not being there was a big mistake. The beat they decided on, I think, was what would eventually end up as Mary J. Bliges smash Family Affair. Mariah had told Dre that shed take the tape, head to Capri, Italy, and record her parts while on vacation. Dre doesnt work like that, and told her that if she was gonna work with him, shed have to actually work with him. Mariah told him she didnt work that way. After she told me what had gone down, I tried to talk to her. Just do me this favor, I said. Go back, do a rough cut of it with him in there, and well get a working relationship happening. No, she said, Im not gonna do it that way! Dre was done with her attitude after just one meeting and there was nothing I could do to salvage the project. After that, Dre called me up one day and said, Yo, come to A&M. I went down to the studio and he introduced me to a new producer he was working with, a dude named Scott Storch. They
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were working on beats, and Dre pulled up a track and said, Tell me what you think of this. Youre cool with Jay-Z, right? I said, Yeah, were real cool. He goes, Well I didnt like that Malibu Dre shit, but Im gonna give him another shot. Then he played me a beat and I said, Yo, that is straight up Jay-Zs alley. All it had on it at the time was the drumbeat and a bling-blingbling piano lick. Dre said, Well, Im gonna send it to him tonight. Ill call you when its done. A week or two later, he called me up and goes, Ive got it! I think Ive got the single now. Jay-Z wrote it. Ecstatic, I said, Whats it called? He said, Its called Still Dre, and Snoop is on it. I was like, What? Where do you want me to be, and when? He said, Come to Record One. After I dashed over there, he played the record, and when it was over I said, Give it to me now! He said, No, not yet, Ive got to master it first. I said, Well Im stealing it then. I looked over at the engineer and said, Make me a copy. Dre said, Look. Ill give you a copy. But you cant play it yet. I bowed my head down and said, All right. I think that was the test of all tests. He wanted to see if I would go against him and play the record at Power anyway. I didnt, of course, but I played the shit out of the record at home. A couple of days later, he called. What do you think? I said, Can I play it? He said, Im mastering the album this weekend. Meet me at Bernie Grundmans mastering on Saturday. Big Bass Brian is mastering it. Come by and you can hear the whole thing. So I showed up that weekend, and he was putting the finishing touches on everything. He said, Tell me what you think. Listen to
the whole thing, come up with some feedback, and well talk in a few days. I said, Youre really giving me a copy of this? He said, Yeah, just dont play it on the radio! So I went into my room at Larrabee West, turned the speakers all the way up, and continued to damage my hearing! I played the album, and everybody was trippin because I had a copy before anyone else. 98 Degrees was working next door. Nick Lachey came over and was like, Dude, that shit is crazy! Im a huge Dre fan. Let me get a copy of that. Nope. Sorry. Dre called me a little later and said, I dont like that copy of the master. Come check out this new one. So I went to his new house (he had moved from one crazy mansion to a new one) and I brought DJ Vice with me, who I was trying to brand as the next big DJ. I wanted to introduce him to the big names and start getting drops from them. Thats what they were doing on the East Coast and it was working so well. I knew we needed to get the West Coast started in the DJ/mixtape game again. Dre told me to give Vice my old copy of the album and he went to his car, pulled his CD out of the CD changer, and handed it to me. He said, Tell me what you think. I just wasnt happy with the EQ on a couple things. I was standing there thinking to myself, Ive got Dres personal copy of 2001 in my hands, right out of his car! Vice was floored. I dont know how you do this, Damion, but god damn! I couldnt tell the difference between the two copies myself. It must have just been some minor perfectionist stuff that Dres famous for. He called me up the next morning, and he said, What do you think? I said, Dude, can I just play a record on the radio? He said, Fine. You can play Still Dre. Nothin else yet.
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So the next morning, I put on Still Dre. Then I went over and saw him at Encore Studios, where hed moved from Larrabee. Encore just happened to be right around the corner from Power. Tha Baka Boyz had come up with this great idea, and I presented it to him. Lets do the Snoop and Dre reunion in Hawaii! We can have Eminem, Kurupt, Daz, Nate, and Warren G. We could do a huge Chronic show, with all the people on the album! He said, Wow. How much would it cost? Off the top of my head I said it would probably cost Interscope and Power 250 grand each. We would fly out 400 listeners and their guests for this show. Dre agreed to do it, but under one condition: he wanted to ship a low rider out to Hawaii, and then drive it out on stage during the performance. I said, Dude, if we do this in the ballroom in the Hilton Hawaiian Village, theres no way you can get a lo-lo up on the stage. He said, Im not doing the show then! I was like, Fuck. Now what do I do? I remembered he had mentioned something about wanting tickets to a De La Hoya fight in Vegas. So I went to Diana Overmeyer, Powers promotions director, and said, I dont know if you know any ticket scalpers, but somehow weve gotta get tickets to this De La Hoya fight. She was like, How are we gonna do that? Its gonna cost like 10 grand! I said, I dont care! Get it done! She found the tickets! (Love that woman). I walked into Dres studio and said, Hey, so are we doin this show in Hawaii or what? He said, I told you, not unless I can get a lo-lo on stage. I said, What about that De La Hoya fight? He said, I couldnt get tickets.
I pulled the tickets out of my pocket and put them on the table beside him. Well, you know what, whether you do the show or not, youre goin to the fight. He was pretty blown away. Really? Yeah, I said, really. I next talked to Larry Chapman, who was Dres assistant/ manager at the time and I was like, Dude, help me with this! He wanted to know what was in it for him, so I offered him five grand. Make it happen, man. Finally, Dre called me and said hed do the Hawaii show. He drew up the contract by hand on a sheet of paper. It said: Damion, Im gonna do the fuckin Hawaii show, but when we get there, the Chronics on you. Dre. Once we were a go, I had Dre record radio drops to play during on-air promotions. We caught a lot of outlandish shit for outtakes. We brought in Don Ho to do Hawaiian theme versions of songs like Nuthin But A G Thang and Gin and Juice but they didnt come off right, so we had to hire another guy to do it. I started the promotion right away: The 106th caller in after wed start spinning a Dre track with ukulele on it won two tickets and all expenses to the show in Hawaii. The drops were crazy. Eminem came in and recorded one in which he said, Hey, what about me? Can I come? and Dre said, Yeah, motherfucker, you can come too. Of course, we bleeped out the bad words, but we took it to the edge and everybody, listeners included, had blast. This was before that dipshit Elliot Spitzer from New York stuck his nose into the radio business as the states attorney general and started fucking with everybody with a sense of humor. (And, yes, we all got a collective laugh when, in 2008, his career was destroyed in a karma-perfect prostitution scandal. What an asshole. Beautiful!)
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We werent too far into the Hawaii promotion when I got my first panic call from Interscopes Jimmy Iovine. What the fuck is going on? Youre playing a record I dont even have yet youve got Dr. Dre doing a concert in Hawaii and I just got a bill for $250,000 in promotions? Yeah, pretty much, is what I told him. It was magical and like a dream right up until about five minutes before the show when one of the headliners came up to me and said Im not goin on. I said, What! Why? He said, We cant smoke weed in here I need some x or I cant go on. Everybody wants to get their mind right. I thought, Shit! I got no connections on the island. How the fuck am I gonna get some ecstasy in five minutes? I went up to one of the guys working for us and said, Yo, I dont care what you have to do. You need to get out there and find me some ecstasy NOW! He did! I rushed to the artist and he was like, Give me about 15 minutes. He emerged from his dressing room and said, Im ready. I felt like I was gonna have a stroke, but we pulled it off and it was probably the coolest promotion and show I was ever involved with. The next morning I woke up to my phone ringing. It was Dre, who was in a great mood. Yo, whats goin on? I said, Great show, huh? He said, Yeah, great show. Im gonna stay a couple of days. We want to party. After 2001 blew up, Dre told me he wanted to go on tour and do it through Magic Johnsons concert promotion company. Well, thats great, I said, But you really need to hook up with the Radio Events Group (which was co-owned by Powers Steve Smith).
I explained that all the stations under Powers parent company were the ones breaking 2001 across the country, and we needed to stay loyal to do a tour right. Thats cool, Dre said, but I already approached Magic to do this. I said, No problem. They can work together. Magic can take care of promotion, and Radio Events can take care of the equipment, buses, all that kinda stuff. Then I had a great idea: I was working with TQ and had just produced his single Daily, which had hit No. 5 on the charts. Why not put him on the tour with you, I said. Dre hesitated at first, but I told him that we could get a half million in tour support by putting TQ on the bill. Done! It was a great idea, though it caused some friction once the tour was under way. The Eastsidaz were the opening act, but they didnt like being followed by TQ. It was such a problem that at one point, I had to fly out and join the tour to smooth things out. But it was cool. Theres a great video clip of Snoop out on the road talking into the camera, saying, Damizza really put all of this together. If it wasnt for you, Dre and I wouldnt even think about doin all this. Very cool. And Dre, well, what can I say? The tour itself posed a bit of a twist for Power, since the show was scheduled to come through L.A. right around the same time as our annual Powerhouse charity gig, and would have drowned anything else we could have mounted. So I asked Dre if hed mind calling the L.A. concert a Powerhouse show. Well, its the Chronic 2001 tour, he said. I said, Yeah, but were not gonna be able to do a Powerhouse this year if you have Chronic coming through at the same time. Dre got it, and was so amazing about it. Oh, well, okay, you can call it that.
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At the time, The Beat was Powers direct radio competitor, and they were totally crossed out of the tour now. It was the ultimate move, though I didnt even think about it at the time I was just thinking about how big it was that Dre would extend us that courtesy. Heres another example of how much he supported us. When he was walking Eminem down the red carpet at the MTV Video Music Awards earlier that year, a reporter said, So I heard you and Snoop were getting back together. He said, Yeah, shout out to Power 106. Were doing a show in Hawaii, its gonna be off the chain! Look out for it. Chronic 2001 is coming. Things like this really made our station and me a big deal! When the tickets for the L.A. show went on sale, Dre called me up and said, Yo, dude, theyre thinking of adding a second show. I said, Well, theres a lot of tickets still available. Id hold off until this one sells out. Throughout the morning we stayed in touch. A few hours later I called him. Were here now were sold out. He said, Should we add the second show? I said Yep! By the way, Dre said, that will be a Powerhouse, too. I was blown away. Youre gonna give us both nights? All bullshit and my position aside, dude, you dont have to do this. Dre said, Damion, you didnt have to do everything you did for me. He gave us both shows. It was an absolutely amazing time. Then September 11 happened. Dre called me and said Im gonna give a million dollars to charity. Who should I give it to? Im like, Well, we have the Knowledge is Power Foundation that gets the Powerhouse money we can get it to people in New York. He said, I really want it to be anonymous. I said, What are you talking about? Youre giving a million
dollars to support New York and youre a West Coast rapper. With all the shit thats gone on about East vs. West and all that, giving a million dollars to help people in New York is something you should really take credit for. He said, No, I dont want that. This is bigger than that. I said, I wont say anything. Dre said, Who do I make the check out to? I said, The Knowledge is Power Foundation. An hour later, a messenger came to the office with an envelope. Inside was a check for a million bucks. I walked into Sal Lackie office at Power and handed it to her and said, This is from Dr. Dre for the Knowledge is Power Foundation, to help people in New York. But he wants it to remain anonymous. Sal said, No problem. Thank you. Like everyone else, I spent the next few days glued to the TV watching the fallout of the horrific attacks. Then an announcer on CNN came on and said Dr. Dre has given a $1 million to New York radio station Hot 97. Powers East Coast sister station played it up for all the publicity it could. I was fuckin livid! I immediately called Dre. Dude, I apologize. I fucked up. I thought I could trust my team at Power to be cool about this and keep it anonymous but they didnt. What the fuck? he said. Dre, Im sorry, I thought I could trust my people. We fucked you. He said, Dude, I know its not your fault. I know how greedy people work. Dont worry about it, Im not mad. I told Dre I felt like shit about it, but he tried to reassure me that all was cool. Thankfully, it was. Dre called me up and invited me down to the video shoot for Knoc-Turnals Bad Intentions. We were hangin out and I mentioned to Dre that Id just started the Shade Sheist project. I really like the song Where I Wanna Be, he said. I said, Thanks, man. It was the first record I really produced, along with Kay Gee of Naughty By Nature. And what a great
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experience that turned out to be. Nate Dogg was so cool to put in an appearance on that session. In fact, he and Fred Wreck and Kurupt came into the studio for that on the only day they had off during the Up In Smoke Tour. Always grateful to them. I asked Dre what he thought of the overall Shade project, and if hed be down to do a track for it. Yeah! Ill do a track for you. I immediately regretted asking, since hed already done so much for me. Dre, listen, you dont have to do this if youre really not into it. He said, Nah, its something Id like to do for you. Im a little busy right now, but when the first of the year rolls around, Im down. I never mentioned it again, hoping hed forget. I just thought the guy had done so much for me that it was a favor I shouldnt have asked for. I never mentioned it to Shade and Dre, thankfully, forgot that Id asked. Timbaland came in and did the first single, which was called Money Owners, which immediately started doing well on radio. I was hangin with Dre pretty regularly as he was working in his own studio on a record with Shaq, and kept asking me over to listen to their progress. It was a lot of fun, as Shaq and I got into a habit of playing craps every time we got together. One time, I broke the cat for 300 bucks! But the records they were working on were dope. Xzibit, Dre and Shaq were all rapping on one track and I loved it the first time Dre played it for me. Thats a hit, I told him. Give it to me and Ill play it today! Dre said, Dame, you know Ill give you whatever you want, but its not done yet. Chill, man! He then asked how things were going with Shade, and I said we were about to shoot the video for Money Owners that coming weekend. Do you wanna stop by? He said Yeah, Ill come. Ill do a cameo. I dont usually do em, but I like that record. The day of the shoot and everybody was
coming in. Dre called my cell, laughing, I just got off the phone with Jimmy Iovine. He told me I cant do the cameo. I said, Damn, well that sucks. As much as Ive done for that guy, he told you not to do the video? Well its cool, I dont want to get you in trouble. He said, Me? In trouble? Fuuuccckkk hiiimmm! Im on my way. I said, You dont have to do this, dogg. Youve been way too cool to me. I dont want to overstep my boundaries. He said, Nah man, just make sure theres two bottles of gin there. I wanna walk out like the Gin and Juice video. I thought, Fuck, this is the ultimate co-sign right there! The video theme was based on the movie Being John Malkovich, with undersized rooms and all that. Dre did a thing where the girls walk past him, he looks at them and then walks in with his two bottles of gin. It was awesome. With everything else going on in my life, I was spending considerable time with Mariah trying to patch up her image, which had taken a pretty bad bruising. Then she and Eminem had a dust up. Dre called me and said, Look, man, Ive gotta play you something. Em dissed Mariah. I was like, Damn, just what I needed. Its okay, its between them, has nothing to do with me. But Dre said, Well, man, out of respect, I wanna play this stuff for you because I know thats your girl and everything. We got together and he played the records and said, What do you think? I said, Dogg, its not even an issue. Its between them. Its her fault for getting involved with him. Im over it. I had been pretty pissed off at her at the time and we were having periods of not being on speaking terms, even though I was doing everything I could behind the scenes to help her. I had warned her to keep away from Eminem because I knew at some point there
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would be a backlash. I mean, thats part of his shtick and Ive always accepted that. Dre and I didnt see each other for a while as I immersed myself in my very complicated relationship with Mariah. The next time I saw him was
My first visit back to Power 106 after leaving, with Pitbull and Bishop Lamont.
long after Id left Power. I was sitting in Mortons in Burbank with my new manager, Aaron, and he said, Hey, Dres sittin
over there. Aaron had just met me and was still sizing me up and said, If youre such good friends with him, why dont you go over and say Hi? I said, Dogg, just chill out. You dont know the history. A few minutes later, Dre noticed me and came over. Hey Dame! Hey, whats going on, buddy? Dre said, So, how you been? I said, Good, man, you? Oh listen, let me come over and say hi to Nicole. Dre and I went back to his table so I could say hello to his wife. We were chatting for a few minutes and Dre said hed just signed Bishop Lamont, who has become one of my good friends. Hes a really good kid, Dre said. I said, Yeah, hes a great guy, and hes gonna make a lotta good records with you. Hes gonna be a star. Dre said, You think so? I said, Dude, he reminds me of Eminem. Why? I said, The guy makes me nervous! Dre laughed. Wow, thats crazy!
We said our goodbyes and I went back to finish dinner with Aaron. Some time later, Dre invited me over to the studio to hang with Bishop. It was like old times and we picked up where wed been before the whole Eminem/Mariah period. Hey, whats goin on, fucker? Old times again. He asked me what I was working on and I mentioned that Id been brought in on the Miami Vice movie with Mike Mann and might be working on some of the score. I asked Dre if he was down for that and he said hed love to be involved. Ill call you tomorrow, he said. I said, You motherfucker, you know you aint gonna call shit. Dre said, Nah, dude, I really will. I wasnt surprised I didnt hear from him the next day. Dre had his plate full workin with Bishop and doing his own Detox project. And, like I predicted, the dude really did have his hands full with Bishop. He called me and said, We need to go over to Dres. I said, For what? Bishop said, Ive gotta get the promotion started for my record. Capps/E had just done the cover for his mixtape N*gger Noise and he wanted to show this picture hed come up with of him in a Klansman outfit. When we arrived, Dre looked at me and I said, What, you too rich to pick up a phone? He laughed and said, Nah, I aint done spending N.W.A. money. Bishop pulled out the artwork and I immediately said, THIS is why Bishop Lamont makes me nervous! Dre kinda shook his head. A Klansman outfit? Okay, Dame, now I see why you said that. Wow, thats gonna be crazy. I asked Dre if hed hooked up with a MySpace account. Yeah, somebody got me one, he said, But Ive never looked at it or know what it does.
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I said, Dude, its the biggest promotional thing you can be on! You need to do something with it. Youre still workin on Detox, right? Dre goes, Yeah. Well, that would be a great way to keep up the promo on that. He said, What do you mean? I said, Do you know what YouTube is? He shook his head. Well, Ill tell you what. Heres what were gonna do. Stand right there Bishop, stand there. Well get you guys on video. Say youre doin Detox and that Bishops album The Reformation is comin. Well take a couple of pictures and whatever and get it posted. I had one of the people from my Baby Ree label with me and told him to film it and get some shots. You ready? Bishop, go ahead. The result was the YouTube video where Dre was seen for the first time in God knows how long. When we were leaving, I had a hilarious moment with Dres head of security, Mark. He came up to me and said, Damizza what are you up to? I looked at him and said, as innocently as I could, What do you mean? He crossed his arms and said, Every time you show up, something happens, he gets in trouble and weve gotta clean up the mess. I smiled, What are you talking about? We put the video up that night, and the next morning it had already gotten 100,000 hits. And just the story of Dre making a rare video appearance was picked up as a news item by the New York Times, the L.A. Times, MTV, VH1 man, that alone went around the world. I next ran into Dre again with Bishop and, like so many times before, we ended up playing ping pong for money. I swear, the dude wont go anywhere there aint a ping pong table close at hand! For years, that was the standing deal at Larrabee West studios $20 a game.
After, he started to tell me all about what he was doin with Detox sorry, Im not about to lay any spoilers on you, youre gonna have to wait for the record like everybody else, but he said hed call me when it was done and play it for me, which was cool. I was in a pretty dark space at the time, not working, and drinking really heavily and broke as shit. So whatcha doin, Damion? he asked. Nothin I said. Just helpin you and Bishop out, fucker. Dre said, This motherfucker is the only person I know that will come to my house and talk shit to me! It was pretty funny. As I was walking out of the room, he suddenly grabbed me and put me in a chokehold. Now, that motherfuckers big! And he is strong! Say uncle! Fuck I couldnt say anything! Dre let me go. Hey, you okay? Did I grab you too tight? I shook my head and laughed. But theres something Ive wanted to ask you, I said, for some reason getting serious. Whats that? So what really happened between you and The Game? Dre got a little more serious himself and shrugged his shoulders. Dogg, like Ive always told you, theres only two things about me: Treat me with respect, dont lie to me, and well be cool.
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Radio Guy Turns Superstar
I can honestly say I always knew Chris Lova Lova was gonna hit big. Who? In the late 90s he was strictly a radio host on Hot 97.5 in Atlanta, doing a morning show with Poon Daddy. And man, did he have drive success written all over him. Constantly, hed two-way me. I dont even know how he got my pager number but hed hit me up nearly every morning, asking if I had any openings at Power in L.A. I liked the energy, his relentless ambition, and I was genuine when I told him to keep in touch, even though there was nothing for him at Power, where roughly at this time Tha Baka Boyz had just moved out and we were set to put Big Boy on mornings. In an industry of fakers and mediocre talents, I had a great feeling about Chris and we maintained a distant communication. My prediction about his drive and talent was dead on. He went on the mixtape circuit and put out an independent album, selling it, literally, out of the trunk of his car. Timbaland had caught his radio show and the two connected. It wasnt long before Chris Lova Lova morphed into Ludacris. Whats funny is that I never put it together until one night when I was with Shade at a venue in Seattle and Ludacris walked by a couple of times. Hey, I told Shade, theres Ludacris. He came over, super friendly and energetic, and said Hey, Damion Young! Whats up, I said. He said, Thanks for always taking my pages.
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At first I thought he was being sarcastic but he jumped in No! Its me, Chris Lova Lova, from Atlanta, Georgia. I was like Jesus! What the hell happened! I was so excited for the guy, said congrats, and that I always knew was gonna be great. But it was a bit of a mind blower. Chaka Zulu, who I had known as a promotions guy, became his manager, and that was cool as well. Seeing him develop from being a radio dude who I always had an affinity for to this successful rap artist that made full use of his extraverted personality was really crazy just the kind of cool story that can happen in the music business. As times quickly were getting better for each of us, we began running into each other more often and ended up doing a couple of shows together. Then he really hit with his Back for the First Time album, which was his major-label debut with Def Jam. Hed been dropping into the studio fairly regularly and one night asked Will you do a record for me? I was happy eager to work with him. Especially when he told me he wanted to do something completely new, something from scratch. I jumped on it. I brought my guitar player Anthony Mazza in, I brought Howie Hersh in, and my percussion player Carl Butch Small, one of my first mentors, who played on everything from Parliament records to Dres stuff. My good friend and engineer Mike Sleshinger was hanging around at the time as well. We took the crew over to the famed Larrabee West studios, which at the time was like a second home to me. There was definitely a buzz in the air Dr. Dre was still working next door in studio B on some of the early beats that would end up as classics on his 2001 album. Luda came in and was like Yo, listen to this song I just did with Nate Dogg. It ended up being Area Codes for his Grammy-nominated third album, Word of Mouf. I told him, Yo, this record is gonna be huge! Congratulations!
As soon as you get it mixed, let me know and I will be happy to blast off on it for you on Power. He was already a step ahead of me, and said, Now, I want you to make the weed song for my new record. Well, I started to tell him, weve gotta go for a reggae type of sound I Yeah, he interrupted. But first things first. And then the guy whipped out a monster bag of weed and proceeded to roll nine blunts. There was a big glass in the middle of the studio control room and he put each blunt in as he finished it, one after another. It was a big session and there was a huge gang of people with him the lights were dim and the mood amazing. He didnt want anybody to do anything until the zone was right. No, just sit and relax. Id always wondered what the vibe at a Jimi Hendrix session must have been like I think I can imagine it now! We were sitting and standing around and Ill never forget what Luda said next. After he finished rolling the ninth blunt he said, Nine on deck, my niggas! Lets have some fun. Everybody, grab your own. I was like Okay. Every blunt got sparked at the same time and the room filled with a massive dark blue cloud of inspiration. Thank fuck there werent any smoke detectors and sprinklers. Now look: Ive seen Nate Dogg smoke. Ive seen Snoop smoke. Ive seen all of these guys go off the deep end with the chiba and have always enjoyed a cool buzz myself. But I soon had to step outside before I my brains were going to drip out my ears. It was that bad. Howie Hersh is a clean-cut guy who Ive always admired, and I looked up to him for the beat he did for Bell Biv Devoes Poison. He also played most of the instruments on If We, which I produced for Mariah Careys Glitter album. A veteran cat I can always count on. I mean, hed toured with Joe Cocker, so I assumed hed seen just about
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everything on the whole studio/road dope scene. But I looked over at him soon into that session with Ludacris and he was laying at the top of the staircase, staring up at the ceiling. Howie, what are you doin, man? He said, Im trying to stay low because smoke rises. The guy was blitzed out of his mind on a contact high. Howie, I said, the door keeps hitting you in the head! Wait I thought I was laying on the ground, he said. You gotta move, buddy! He was so wasted. Every time the door slammed into his head, he just figured it was the drums blasting through the studio monitors. Dont get me wrong, it was an amazing session. In the back of the room, Luda and I made the beat for the track. It was amazing because up until that point, I had never made the drum beat with someone I was working with. Finally, Howie got up and just started playing, sparking off a great jam session of this reggae groove where everyone was just mixing it up brilliantly. Ludacris then got up and started pacing back and forth in front of the soundboard and the massive monitors, which were puttin out like they were jet engines, singing Please excuse this interruption while I tell you that Im highhhhhhh! I love talking about capturing moments when I make records. That was one. And we literally pulled it off: The tune ended up being the track Im High. Sometime later, he called me up and said, Yo, Damizza, I heard through the Def Jam grapevine that you get like 30 grand a record. I wanna use this for my next album but thats a little expensive for my budget. At the time, I was just coming off Cry Baby with Mariah and Snoop Dogg and Where I Wanna Be with Shade Sheist, Nate Dogg and Kurupt and Ludacris was right, I was pulling in between 20 and 50 grand a record. But I told him, Well work it out. Let me
think about it and Ill call you back. Before I even had a chance to hit him back with a compromise, E-Man (the music director of Power) came to me about the stations annual Powerhouse show for the stations Knowledge Is Power charity foundation, which, for some odd reason that year, they hadnt asked me to organize. That was a first. We need to get Ludacris, he said. He hasnt confirmed yet we offered him $30,000 but he wont do it. Well, at that time, Luda was landing about 100 grand a show, so I simply told E-Man that they were lowballing him way too much. E-Man and Jimmy Steel went into panic mode. Its for charity, Jimmy pleaded. I gave in and called Luda to see what I could do. Come on, Dame, he said. Im not doing that. Theyre taking advantage of us. Theyre charging 35-60 dollars a ticket for 17,000 people. Were both from radio do the math. How much do you think theyre gonna make from sponsorships alone? Between five and seven million? Theyre not gonna give away that or anywhere near that from the 10 to 13 million they make from this. Come on. Hiphop is big business now. I tried to assure him that the whole idea for the Powerhouse shows was charity, but he brushed it off. He then asked me about my beat again and I was like, I dont care about the beat. You can have that for free. Just do the show. Ludacris told me hed think about it and call me back. By this time, just about everyone on the Power staff was in Hawaii for a Pamela Anderson promotion I set up. I hadnt been invited, despite orchestrating the whole thing, and was sitting in my office in Burbank when I got a basic do-or-die call from Jimmy. Dude, you dont understand. We need to get this Luda thing or we dont have a Powerhouse. I was kinda pissed off because Id offered to set up the gig and had
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Snoop, Nate Dogg, Warren G, D.J. Quik and Westside Connection on tap and Jimmy had said no. Now, he was calling me from Hawaii with the threat that if I didnt get Ludacris signed within the next 30 minutes he was going to cancel the benefit. Whats more, he told me, the station counted on Powerhouse as the biggest billing month of the year, generating millions in revenue and that wed all be fucked if it didnt come down. You have a relationship with Luda and Chaka, Jimmy said. And Kevin Lyles (then the president of Def Jam) is out of communication on a plane right now and cant block it. Get this done or were all done. Christ. So I called back Luda, and offered him 30 grand, and the beat for free. I asked him what else he needed. He said, I need you to break my artist I-20 for me. If you can get all this done, Ill fax you a confirmation letter within 15 minutes. I called up E-Man and asked him to get station boss Sal Lackie on the line. We had a conference call with Jimmy and I told them the deal: Ludacris was in, but E-Man had to play I-20. And he couldnt pull his usual shit of saying hed play something and then not deliver. He has to play this record. E-Man agreed, and Val and Jimmy weighed in saying all was cool. I called Luda back and said Its done. Fifteen minutes later I faxed his letter of confirmation to the people in Hawaii and got the usual round of thanks and praise and Damion, you saved the day kinda handjob. Ludacris did the show as promised and it was a monster success. Fast forward one week after the gig and I was sitting in the staff meeting when Val stood up and said I want to congratulate the sales department for a job well done our best month in Power 106 history. Seven million dollars in non-spot revenue from Powerhouse! Non-spot revenue means that there were no expenses attached to
it: Straight profit, just banners and on-air plugs, no commercials. I just about blew a head gasket. Fuck, I thought to myself, we just screwed Ludacris. After the meeting I went up to Sal and asked how much of the seven million went to the charity. None of it, she said, Actually, we may have to dissolve the Knowledge is Power Foundation. In other words, all the artists were shammed and misled. I dont think Power gave a dime of the money to charity and theyd fired the head of the foundation. Ultimately I dont know what came down, but it wasnt cool. After that, I cant say I was surprised when E-Man also reneged on his promise to play the I-20 record. Every week, for several weeks, I told him to play it. That record sucks, he kept saying. E-Man, we need to play that record. We made a deal with Ludacris and the Powerhouse money didnt even go to charity. His answer: So? I snuck the record in the call-out research, and it came back at No. 15 out of 30. At that point the station didnt have a choice but to play it, because it was proven. Problem was that we were already three or four months behind on it dropping and the record stiffed. This threw me under the bus to Ludacris. I had to call him and apologize. Whether this was by chance or whether he was just smarting from being so badly burned, he didnt end up using my record on his album, which could have made me 15-30 grand in advance money. Plus, his album sold four million units, so I would have gotten three percent of the royalties, which means I could have ended up with hundreds of thousands of dollars from that song alone. Ludacris got fucked. I got fucked. The charity and all the kids it was set up to help got fucked. But Vals bottom line must have looked pretty good.
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At first, I was in denial about the gravity of this one shitty situation. All along Id been under the spell that Power was a good company. In fact, when Id started there, Emmis was rated as one of the best companies in the country to work for and, in the beginning, I was seduced. When Jeff Sumolin started it, it was about music, and people; it was about helping the community as much as it was about helping itself. And we were making a lot of money, so theres no way they had to close or think about closing the charity. Finally, Sal admitted to me that Power alone was supporting the entire Emmis chain of stations. Sal is not a creative person with an imagination for anything but sales and business, which in itself is fine you need people like that handling all the mind-fuck finances and number crunching. I get it, cant knock the hustle, so long as its not hurting others. But in my opinion she sees any means as an end to hitting her year-end bonuses. The means-to-an-end meant burning me badly though: The bottom line was I unknowingly lied to Ludacris, exploited him, and went against everything that I ever believed in. I spent my entire career developing, cultivating, and helping artists and helping the community. And in one fell swoop, we, the people at Power ruined it all. It was absolutely the end for me and Power 106. Ludacris is such a standup guy and I will always have nothing but huge respect for him. I was honest and told him what had happened and naturally expected that would have been the end of any relationship with him. Hey, it was totally in his right to tell me to go fuck myself and I would have understood. But with all sincerity and humility he was like, Its not your fault. Thank you so much for all your help with everything else youve done for me. Count this cat as large. After Id bailed on Power, Luda asked me why Id left. I told him honestly that one of the reasons I quit was because of how badly theyd fucked him over. Luda was kinda shocked.
Why did you do that? No choice whatsoever, I told him. I will not work for a company, or for people, who arent doing business in an honest manner and for the right reasons. I need to be able to sleep at night, especially when it comes to music and the artists who create it. I dont care how much money somebodys willing to throw at me, Im not going to do something thats dishonest for a company or people who are not only raping artists, but run their show in a way thats not beneficial to the entire community. I believe that, in the radio business, if youre not serving the format and fostering and encouraging talent (which, if you have at least a two-digit IQ you should realize is also good for you and your continued success down the road) then you shouldnt be in that format to begin with. It aint nothing but negative energy and actions. Sal Lackie has absolutely no business being in hip-hop radio. To me, its about passion, respect, and a love for the music. Val doesnt respect it; she doesnt like it; she doesnt care about it and walks through the door every day simply to extort it. There was no way I was going draw a paycheck from her raping artists especially when she was doing so based on my personal relationships with them. I dont apologize for my pride in what we accomplished in my time at Power but, then again, I dont have to: The station was the top hip-hop station on the West Coast every book in the years I was there. First ratings period after I left it tanked and by the autumn of 2008 had fallen to No. 14 in Los Angeles. It lost its respect from the artists and community that put it on the map in the first place. It aint science: Poison the well and every sip will make you sick.
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Fuck Damion Young
Marshall Mathers and I got along from the beginning. We are about the same age and first saw each other ensconced at Dr. Dres basically the two white boys in the camp and both loving rap. No kidding, we hit it off like brothers. One day, he showed up at Power and I met him in the reception area. He said, Yo, I was just down the street mastering my album. I said, Cool, have you had lunch yet? We ordered in some Chinese food and while we were waiting he asked if he could see me in my office. I gotta ask you a question. We went in and I closed the door and asked him what was up. He said, I was at Interscope today, and someone came in and told me that Yo, youve got a Buzz Clip. Then everybody got all excited but I just nodded my head. Dame, what the fuck is a Buzz Clip? I laughed and put my hand on his shoulder. A Buzz Clip is a power rotation record at MTV. Youre gonna be a really big star. So anything that you want to do right now, go do it; because as soon as they start playing that on MTV, youve surrendered all of your anonymity. Marshall the regular guy is about to be gone forever, killed off by a dude named Eminem. He looked at me with disbelief and said, Damn. Really? Fuck! Of course, this happened fast. It always does under these situations. I ran into Em all over the place the next few years. And we maintained that brotherly fuck you, buddy how you been? kinda sarcastic relationship Dre and I have always had.
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Id be walking down a random hallway somewhere and hear some guy boom out, Fuck Damion Young! Id turn around (frankly not knowing who it could be at any given moment maybe even a big chick with a deep voice; hey, we all get around) and see Eminem. Wed run into each other at the oddest places and have the craziest conversations. He was interested in radio, so hed quiz me nonstop about details about placement, programming, promotion I mean, the dude wanted to learn everything he could and actually went on to buy a station on Sirius. I was always impressed because a lot of artists dont really give a shit and just see radio as an audio 7-Eleven, there to serve them when they get the new-CD munchies. Of course, I literally met this dude when he was in the studio with Dre back before he stopped being this Mathers cat and became Eminem so I was always interested in what he was doing in the studio, on the road or on video or whatever. It was a great relationship, but also, roughly the same age, there was always an underlying tension and hint of a feud. It worsened as fame began to really take hold of him. One of the times we were at his house in Detroit, he said, Yo, I want to play you some shit. Cool, I thought. He played me a bunch of his new records, and I started telling him about the songs I was working on myself. He said, Wait a minute. You rap? I said, Not really. kind of, just for fun. He said, Let me hear it! I played him a couple of my records, and then the beat for a song I later recorded with NUNE called Ill Do Anything. Em said, Wow, whoever gets that beat damn! Its too pop for me, but Id do that in a heartbeat. Do you have any harder beats? Hell yeah! I played him another harder beat and he loved it. But the timing was just never right and I ending up giving it to KnocTurnal for what would later become his Change This Game record.
We kept running into each other, like at the video shoot for Mariahs Loverboy single, which she wanted him to appear in. And I remember being shocked to see him at a Backstreet Boys and *NSYNC after-party for Jive Records at the Grammys. It was funny because this was right after he dissed the two groups. I was coming out of the party while he was coming in. What the fuck are you doing here, Em? He said, Well, its a party. I said, Its a Backstreet Boys party. He goes, Oh, they aint gonna do nothing. Yo, but on some real shit, do you know where Encore Studios is? I said, Yeah, its about a block away from Power. He said, Im gonna call you tomorrow. Im pretty much done with the album, but I dont think I have the single yet. I want to play it for you and see what you think. As I was leaving the party, I turned around and saw that Kid Rock, Eminem and Dr. Dre had commandeered the DJ booth and had started performing for the ecstatic crowd. This was at the peak of 2001 and right before The Real Slim Shady dropped and Kid Rock was coming off 10 million records. One though, problem, the DJ
didnt have a mic, so Dre unplugged the headphones, plugged them into the mic input and Kid Rock and Eminem were rapping their verses into the headphones.
ARNOLD TURNER PHOTO: Eminem and me joking around in Hawaii.
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DJ pointer No. 1: if you cant find your microphone or your mic breaks during a gig, your headphone speaker works just the same. The next day, I got a call from him at around 10 in the morning, and I headed over to the studio. When I got there, he started playing the records. He started off with Kill You. I said, That records crazy. Well start playing it tomorrow. He said, No, thats not it. Ive got to go national with this. Its got to be a Hi, My Name Is. Then he played me Stan. I said, Bro, theres your single. Lets go. He said, No, its not the one. I said, Are you nuts? He said, Thats a great second single, its on some crossover, top40 type of shit. But thats not the one. I just dont have that single. I asked him where he got that idea for the song. He said, Oh, its this singer Dido, and I heard her in a movie. A couple weeks later, I got a call from Dre. He said, Yo, you need to come to the studio. Come to Record One right now. I said, For what? He said, Ems got it. So I showed up to Record One and they played me The Real Slim Shady. Em was dancing around the studio screaming, Ive got it! I said, All right, give me a cassette. Dre said, No Dame, you aint playin shit right now. I said, Im not gonna play it. But I need it for the car. He said, No way. I said, Dude, part of this system is, you give me a cassette, I play it for a bunch of people, it starts to buzz within the industry, and then when the record comes, theyre fired up. So stop playin with me and give me the record!
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Dre and Em just stopped for a second and looked at each other. All right Damion. Heres your cassette. On my drive home, I popped it in and the tape was fucked up in the middle. So I turned around and went back to the studio. I said, Stop playin with me. Give me a good copy of this record! They were like, What are you talking about? I said, Em was playing with the drum machine while you were recording it, and it recorded on the cassette. Give me that shit the right way! Em said, Huh? I looked him right in the eyes and said, Yeah, you thought you were slick, you little punk. Bastard! After that, a couple days went by, and Dre said, Well have the single for you in a couple days. I said, Look dude. Im not just gonna play The Real Slim Shady. Im gonna play all those other records I love too. He said, Well, were not even done with the album yet. We have one more song to do. Come by the studio tonight. Its called Remember Me. So, I got there and Warren G was standing outside. I said, Whats going on? He said, Em and Dre are in there, and theyre going crazy! I walked in, and I hear Em doing the chorus. REMEMBER me! Dre said, Nah, youve gotta do it with a little more intensity. Youve got to be more angry. Em said, Dude, my voice is giving out. Dre said, I dont give a fuck. Its making your voice sound more intense. REMEMBER ME!!!! REMEMBER ME??? At the end of the night, I got a copy of The Marshall Mathers LP. Dre said, Go ahead and play the other records too, but please dont play Stan too much because we really want to save that for the second single.
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Unfortunately, my relationship with Em ended shortly after this. He decided to do a concert for a local rock station KROQ instead of Power, and considering that we were the station that not only broke him as an artist, but also were his biggest supporter, I would have thought that we could have at least had a conversation about this deal. This also happened right after the whole public romance fiasco between Em and Mariah. I was already done with the Mariah stuff. I told myself, It was her fault for getting involved, and I told them both I didnt want to be involved, so Ill move on. Em was in town, and he came to Power to do the morning show. When he arrived, I confronted him about crossing the street and snubbing Power. I said, Yo, I need to talk to you before you leave. He went upstairs and did the interview. He said a couple things on the air that were a little disconcerting. In fact, they were little jabs at me. Ironically, in the same interview, he also said, Yo, I need to find 50 Cent. That ended up being the catalyst for 50 being signed later down the road. Hey, cool. Glad something good came out of that day. Before he left, I told him I needed to talk to him. I wanted to clear the air. It was all about that KROQ show, but I think he thought it was about the Mariah stuff. When I walked in the room, I said, Look bro, everythings cool, but youre getting dangerously close to becoming an asshole. He said, Hey man, leave me alone. I just want to go home. I said, Dude, what are you talking about? Lets have a conversation here. Next thing I know, Eminems manager, Paul Rosenberg, came in the room and pulled him out by the hand like a little kid. They took off, and bodyguards showed up in my face. It really disappointed me because it was like, Yo dude, I dont know these other people. I didnt even meet Paul until years later when he became your manager
after you blew up. I met you the day you did My Name Is and I put a lot of work into making you a star. The guy is one of the most creative people in the world, but I think that at the end of the day, hes ended up being a corporate puppet. Its fine that he did that show. I get it. Everybodys got to get his or her maximum exposure. But if you spend a long time working with someone, you expect a certain amount of loyalty, or at least a heads-up. After that run-in, I never saw Eminem again, and I never talked to him again. No big resentment on my part, I am just disappointed about the lack of loyalty or at least him calling me ahead of time and talkin over and explaining why his team of people thought it was necessary to fuck Power over. I know it wasnt personal. But I took it that way at the time, from then on in I couldnt trust him, because of the suits around him. And I dont want to be around elements I cant trust. All the best to him personally and creatively. However, one-onone, I still consider the dude a friend. Its just the suits around him I hope get rabies. On a nice note, however, Ive got an amazing story to tell you about my experiences with Em. One time, his management called me saying that they were looking for singer Dina Rea. They said, Can you put an announcement out on Power 106 that were looking for Dina Rea? This was a little funny to me, given how Id met her in the first place. She was scheduled to come in to Power to work her solo single. One afternoon, I got into the elevator at the station and there was a hot girl in there. I said, Hey, how are you doing? She said, Hi! What floor is Power on? I said, Eighth floor. She said, Im a singer. Do you work at Power?
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I said, Yeah. She said, What do you do? I said, Oh, just a little bit of everything. She said, Well, you know I wanted to ask somebody this question. My name is Dina Rea, I sing on Eminems songs. I was having some problems in my life, and I wanted to know who made the decision to play the records with me on it. I said, What do you mean? She said, Well, I was living on the street, and I was sitting on the curb one night, contemplating ending my life. Then, a car drove by and it was playing Ems song Im on, Cum On Everybody. It was then that I realized I had something to live for. In tears now, she said, Whoever decided to play that song, I want to know who it was so I can say Thank you. I was speechless. The elevator stopped at the eighth floor. I said, Well, the door to Powers around the corner to the left. She said, Do you know how I can find this person? I turned to her and said, You just did. Ill never forget how she looked at me as I left. I marveled at another wonderfully weird moment in my life.
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One of the first people I met when I moved to L.A. and started working at Power 106 was Jay Brown. He lived about two blocks away from me in North Hollywood and we really clicked. At the time, he was working for Quincy Jones at his Qwest label as A&R director, helping artists such as Tamia and Tevin Campbell. Among his friends was Jay-Z, who had been making a big push in the industry. Having been ignored by the majors, he had started his own label, Roc-AFella, with Dame Dash and Kareem Biggs. They had some success with Aint No Nigga off his debut Reasonable Doubt album (a personal favorite of mine) after inking a distribution deal through Priority, which I found unusual since he was a New York-based artist sold through a label that was otherwise focused strictly on the West Coast. But stranger things happen. In fact, a really strange thing had already happened: Remember those singing and dancing R&B California Raisins? That was where Priority got its start and made all its early money. It was a concept dreamed up for a 1987 commercial for the California Raisin Advisory Board, trying to hype up some business for the states raisin farmers. Four Claymation raisins doing I Heard It Through the Grapevine, with actual vocals provided by Buddy Miles. It was a huge hit! Beyond commercials, it turned, however unlikely, into a massive franchise of TV specials, four studio albums and even a Saturday morning cartoon series. I dont know if it actually did anything for selling raisins, but it launched a record company. Priority set out to build its serious music cred with a young dope
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dealer/rapper from Compton named Easy-E who had parlayed his drug money into his own label, Ruthless Records, with veteran music industry manager Jerry Heller. The rest is hip-hop history: N.W.A., Ice Cube, Master P, Dr. Dre and the birth of gangsta rap itself. After Aint No Nigga, however, Jay-Z hit a serious dry spell and the deal with Priority ended. Thats when Jay Brown came to me and said he wanted me to meet Dame Dash and Jay-Z they needed their track Who You Wit to get some airplay. They were chasing a new deal with Def Jam and things were looking pretty positive. Only trouble for me was that I honestly didnt like the record. But I put it on the air at Power because its always been my credo to try and help artists when I can. And Jay Brown was really showing me the ropes around L.A., so I was glad to do anything I could to help him and his friends as well. Ill never forget the first night they came into Power to meet with me, running really late because Dame had stopped to get a tattoo. I could tell right away that Dame was the business side of the operation and Jay-Z was the artist. I mean, he was acting about as artist as he could totally arrogant. I cant say that I thought very much of him, but he was a friend of Jay Browns, so I was cool with him. We talked about music in general for a while, Jay-Z wandering around my office checking out CDs, and Dame explaining his plan for how Power could get behind them. Hey, when it came down to it, it was about the music. I got behind Who You Wit and then the In My Lifetime: Volume 1 album it came out on. The first single was The City is Mine, with Backstreet. I had told them it wasnt the single and I was right: it tanked. Look, I love you guys, but this just isnt a record. I know this was a particularly hard time for Jay-Z, as it was just after Biggie one of Jay-Zs best friends had been killed in L.A. But like I say, I was behind him; I pulled the I Know What Girls Like track with Puffy and Lil Kim, which to me was the logical single,
and started blasting it 40 spins a week (which is serious rotation backed up by big promo). In no time, the record was a hit in L.A. and I think, I hope, it helped them really solidify things with Def Jam. Either way, I know they got a more generous budget to do the Vol. 2 Hard Knock Life album, which was Jay-Zs bridge record the album that turns an artist into a star and, in his case, earned him his first Grammy. The single Can I Get A with Ja Rule made it onto the Rush Hour soundtrack and really started the ball rolling. Whats funny is, Jay-Z wasnt even on that record in the beginning. Irv Gotti, who was working as an A&R for Def Jam and had just signed DMX, had originally produced that track just for Ja Rule. But Jay-Z came into Irvs office, heard that record, and wanted it as his single. It ended up working out for everyone, as the association with Jay-Z and all the movie money behind it helped launch Ja. We were seriously pushing the single at Power, and it was getting some love from our sister station in New York, Hot 97. The next single would be the biggest of Jay-Zs career to that point: Hard Knock Life. But it didnt come without a fight. Ill never forget the day I was in the office with E-Man on a call with Steve Smith, the VP of programming for Emmis broadcasting. He came down with an order for all 30 stations to not put Hard Knock Life in rotation or to drop it immediately if it was already on the playlist, calling it a novelty record. And he wanted us to all pull Can I Get A as well, which had been out but still was working great with the audience. Steve said Jay-Z was over (I wish I had a dollar for every time someone told me that Jay-Z was over or Mariah was over Snoop was done ...). E-Man and I looked at each other in shock. We got off the phone and met up with Steve and Sal Lackie in Sals office. Wait a minute, I said. Can I Get A is working. Its still strong.
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And E-Man and I both think Hard Knock Life is a hit. Give this thing a chance. We can really run with it. Steve relented. He sent word out to all the stations to not drop the record, and for those that hadnt played it yet to add it. E-Man and I got it on all 30 stations. As a collective, Emmis got Hard Knock Life across the boards and seriously got behind Jay-Z as an artist, pushing the single to more than 300 spins in one week. Thats serious play. We then got Jay-Z on a conference call with all the stations doing promos. We pushed really hard and it worked. Im glad. I loved the record and it just made total sense to do everything we could to get behind Jay-Z. Im so happy it worked and sent him over the top. As it was skyrocketing, I booked Jay-Z for a show at The Palace in L.A. His record was doing great but he was really wary about performing in L.A. in the wake of Biggie being shot. He told me he was seriously nervous about being killed himself because of the same associations and asked to go on first so he could get out of the venue early. I convinced him that doing the show was the right thing to do in terms of exposure. This way I can really get behind you and support you as an artist and promote
ARNOLD TURNER PHOTO: Me and Jay-Z after dinner at Mortons in L.A. during which we put together the master plan for his reinvention.
your brand. Its all about branding, brother. I also knew that if he did the show it would give
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me additional leverage with Val and Steve in terms of continued support of Jay-Z, since even theyd see the logic in keeping behind an artist who had come out and done a show for us. Jay-Z was about security, but I assured him that I always made sure artists were taken care of. I hired two off-duty cops to shadow him the whole night, and I made sure he had a bulletproof vest if he wanted to wear it. Before the show, he was eating at a restaurant on La Cienega and got pretty tripped out and made a call for me to come and get him. I walked into the restaurant and he was visibly upset. Whats up, I asked. Is everything good? Wheres the security you promised me? he asked. I looked over to a guy sitting a couple of tables away and nodded. He nodded back. See, I told him. Theres one of your guys. The other ones waiting in the car behind your limo. This is how it works. Everythings good. From there on in everything was cool. Or so I thought. That night I learned that when it comes to Jay-Z, everything he does is with a bit of a backhand. He did the show an amazing show but he didnt perform any of his hits. I dont know whether he was secretly pissed off at me for something or what, but it was a real disappointment and while the crowd certainly got into the show, I could tell they were let down as well. The next day I called Jay Brown and asked him what had happened. He assured me that Jay-Z didnt mean any disrespect, but Brown didnt actually have an answer. I started to just think that as great a talent as he might be, Jay-Zs basically a dick. In the weeks and months to come he didnt do much to make me change my mind. He came in and did some more stuff for the radio station, but every time I saw him he was so arrogant, always acting like he was doing me this huge favor and getting nothing in return.
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One day I called him up and said, Power 92 in Phoenix is going to do a citywide billboard campaign lets get you on it. You can be on billboards all over Phoenix. Great exposure. He said, How much they payin me? Dude, I said, Im going to get you on billboards all over Phoenix. Get it? Youve never been on a billboard. This is fuckin free publicity. Well, he got it, thankfully, and did the campaign. With Vol. 2 Hard Knock Life taking off, Jay-Z was hitting stardom, which was great. I was happy for him and thrilled about whatever role we played in getting another artist and his music on the map. One of the coolest things I did at the time was with Power 106s promotions director, Diana Jason, who had come up with this great idea of doing an awesome concert at Universal Studios, in which acts performed at different locations all over the theme park. To me, it was a dream come true, because Ive always had a fascination with Universal and love going there anytime I can. We had Mack 10 perform at the Wild West Stunt Show (too bad he had hay fever sorry Mack!). I booked Cypress Hill at the Nickelodeon stage, which maybe wasnt such a good idea, I realized, after a Universal security guard got tossed down a set of stairs after trying to get B-Real to put the weed out. Oops. Money Aint A Thang had just come out and I thought it would be awesome to have Jermaine Dupri and Jay-Z perform it at the Conan the Barbarian Experience. Jermaine and I were always cool and Id always been solidly behind him, pushed him hard to get a solo record out and was a major supporter of Life in 1472. It was a great show and when Jay-Z came out, he brought along
Ja Rule to do Can I Get A . After the show was done, I walked over to the side of the stage to thank him (there really was no backstage at the Conan the Barbarian Experience). Jay Brown came over to me and said, Hey, I want you to meet a friend of mine. This is Irv Gotti. I was excited to meet him because I knew how he was involved with the signing of DMX and I was a fan of his production work and knew it inside out. I said, You produced Hot Spot by Foxy Brown! He said, How did you know that? I told him I studied producers and that I was starting to produce myself. Irv and I struck up a nice acquaintanceship and I always enjoyed talking to him when wed run into each other. By this time, I think Jay-Z finally realized, on a personal level, that I wasnt just some white boy trying to exploit hip-hop. For the first time, he started being a little more open and a little less arrogant and more trusting of me. We actually became friends for a while and when we were in New York at the same time would very often dine at Mr. Chows. Most nights it would be me, Funk Master Flex, Kevin Lyles (president of Def Jam at the time), Irv Gotti, Jay-Z, Biggs (the silent partner in Roc-A-Fella) and Dame Dash. They were great nights of socializing and plotting our next moves, which only made sense, since as companies Def Jam, Roc-A-Fella, the consultancies and Emmis Hot 97 in New York, Power 106 in L.A. and all the stations in between we were each others bread and butter. But, man, it was tough at first with Jay-Z, like pulling teeth trying to get anything positive accomplished. I mean, if somebody comes to me for help, and I see some innate talent someone who clearly has whatever it is to become a star, Im there, man. Ill do anything to help. Getting the music out and fostering the talent is what I love. So many people have always helped and mentored me and done what
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they could to boost me and Ill always be grateful for any chance to give back. I mean, count me in. I recognized amazing lyrics in Jay-Z and while I admit that I didnt much like his early singles, his Reasonable Doubt remains one of my favorite albums of all time. Funny thing about some artists is that even the most natural pairings dont come easy, and it takes a lot of hoop-jumping to make a little magic. Hell, to even get to the point of trying to make a little magic. And once youre there its still as unpredictable as lightning. Like my pairing Jay-Z with Mariah. I gotta tell you this about Mariah Carey: She is, and has always been, a huge fan of radio. I mean, she has just got it: She could program a station in her sleep and it would be one of the best things youd ever hear on the air. She knows that much about it and Ive always believed we can hear that on her albums. Truth is its probably one of the reasons she and I connected on a personal level: We could talk for hours on end about radio and music where things had been and where they might be going. The girl thinks ahead. Its something she doesnt get enough credit for. She was doing mixtapes for my Baby Ree label on the West Coast and started doing Clue/flex mixtapes on the East Coast at the same time. DJ Clue was one of the monsters at New Yorks Hot 97 and he ended up giving her the beat for Heartbreaker. Mariah loved the loop but told me, Yo, I need a rapper to get on this. To me, it was a no-brainer: Clue was signed to Jay-Zs Roc-AFella, the Hard Knock Life tour had just started it simply made sense. Jay was rising from the street, and Mariah was famous for crossing underground artists and producers into the mainstream me included. I saw a full-circle chain reaction: Mariah (pop), Jay-Z (street), Clue (underground), me, (radio and A&R), Steve Smith and
Mike Newman (the strength of Emmis 30 top stations) sending out a worldwide tidal wave. Its like throwing out a baseball the size of the moon for everybody to enjoy. Only one problem. Mariah said, I cant call Jay-Z! Sorry, two problems. Jay-Z said, Id love to but I cant call Mariah! So Damizzas back on the ever-fun cross-country flight to NYC to play creative matchmaker again. I called up Jay and said, Yo, lets have dinner tonight. Meet me at 7:30. He said, Ill be there. I called Mariah and told her the same thing Hey, lets have dinner at Chows how about 7:30? I got there around 7 and Jay-Z and his dudes were already seated. Look, I told him, I invited a friend of mine. Even before I could explain what was going on, he excitedly told me that he was planning to perform the single from the Ruff Ryders album at the Hot 97 Summer Jam in New York and since it had the Snoop influence he wanted Snoop to jump out on stage and surprise the crowd and perform it with him. Cool, I thought. Great idea. So I pulled out my phone and called Snoop. I got his machine and said, Hey, whats up, its Damion. Im here with Jay-Z and he wants to meet you. I handed the phone to Jay and he just looked at it and hung up. Im like, What are you doin? Jay-Z said I just cant be leaving a message for Snoop Dogg, what that look like? I said, Dude, lose the ego! Come on! About five minutes later, Snoop hit me back and I handed the phone over to Jay-Z. They kinda introduced each other and started talking when Mariah walked in. She saw us, but sat down a few
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tables away. Fuck. More of this ego game! So I walked over to her and said, Come sit with us! She said, Youre really doing this? And I said, Duhhhh! Artists can be like this. I mean, stars can be like this. Unless theres a big set up or someone personally does something elaborate and well orchestrated as a go-between, stuff just not gonna happen. It always has to be forced and, for some reason, I guess Ive been blessed with the ability to be a facilitator and make things happen. I think its Grannys influence, frankly one of her favorite sayings is The impossible just takes a little longer. God love her! Anyway, I got Mariah to sit with us and started playing kindergarten teacher Mariah, have you met Jay-Z? It was frustrating but its an easy role I learned to play. I moved to the other side of the table and made them sit next to each other so they would be forced to start talking. Oh, by the way, Clue just produced a single for Mariahs next album. Its called Heartbreaker. I said. Jay, Clues on your label wouldnt it be a good thing to jump on it? And not just that, but I guarantee its gonna be an international record, and you havent gone No. 1 pop overseas yet. Dont you think this would be a good idea? I didnt even give him a chance to answer. Plus, it will get you into markets you never even dreamed of. Singapore, Asia India the markets average artists cant touch. And Mariah, shit, she even slams Guam! It was a pretty good setup and they started talking. After dinner, we decided to keep it on and hit a club. As chance would have it, we all walked in and Puffy and Nas were there. Hate Me Now was just coming out and it was a total party atmosphere. We all got faded, arm in arm, dancing on the tables and wipin out Cristal like it was
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water. What are you doin? Puff asked me. Im trying to get these two to do a fucking record together! I told him. He laughed and said, You always hustling, Dame. They didnt end up in a studio that night, as Id wanted, but they did connect. Soon after we all met up again in Miami at a series of Super Bowl parties the same gang, and I kept up the push. I wasnt back in L.A. for very long before Mariah called me from a studio in New York and said that Jay-Z was on his way down to do the track. He loved it, and jumped on it right away. Mariah played me Jay-Zs part and I loved it. I told her, Hurry up and finish it so I can get this thing on the air! I had a copy of the finished record shortly after and was waiting for the go-ahead from her label to hit the air with it. A few days later a couple of Mariahs reps from Sony came into Power. Hey, Damion, do you have a copy of Heartbreaker? I was like, Yeah! We got the green light. You can play it. Youre sure? Yeah, its good to go. We got the clearances everythings done. Well, believe me, just about the next sound to come over the Power airwaves was Heartbreaker. Should have known the whole scenario was too good to be true. The record hadnt finished playing literally before one of the reps rushed back up to me. I just got a call. Sonys all pissed off that youre playing the record. Then my own phone rang. It was Weezy, Mariahs manager at the time. What are you doing? I just got a call from Tommy (Mottola)
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freaking out. What a fucking setup. Tommy had sent the reps in giving me the clearance but had the bus waiting around the corner to throw us under it as soon as the track hit the air. Yeah, right, Damion, back off a bit on the paranoia? Hey, Ive seen it all. As soon as the shit came down I knew what had happened. It didnt surprise me and Im fully convinced it was Tommys game. Tommy and Mariah had split but she was still signed to Sony, though not for long, and he was doing everything he could to sabotage her and anybody who dared go around her or, especially, try to help her. Despite his head-fuck games, the record got a good response and we lined up to do the video. We got Brett Ratner to direct, which was great. Everything else turned into the same old tooth-pulling game: Jay-Z was being a pain in the ass about showing up and Mariah was just generally freaking out as well because, I believe, of all the crap Tommy was pulling trying to destroy her. With Jay Browns help I got Jay-Z to the set. He was really hesitant because in his mind he was still a street artist and his records were hardcore and here he was with the pop queen Mariah Carey despite everybody, including himself, liking the record. Damizza babysits again. But we got the video done and I remain proud of it all. For some reason it made Jay-Z even more wary, though. It was harder and harder to get him to do anything. Part of it was the attitude shift of him becoming a Big Star. Not that he was outwardly hostile or returning to the arrogant personality that Id first met. Whenever we ran into each other he was like, I have your back, Mizz. No matter what you need me to do, Ill be there for you. Great. I hit him up to do the next Powerhouse. Jay, will you do our Knowledge is Power charity? Sure. I want 50 grand.
And the story continued. I had been doing everything I could to help out his career and get his music heard and when I ask him to do a charity show he wanted 50 grand. And nearly in the same breath he was asking me to get Snoop on the phone to do the Summer Jam surprise cameo theyd first talked about when Id first hooked them up on the phone. I totally get it: if it were a for-profit gig, but every other artist was doing the show for free. Not one even asked for money. I got pissed off and called Jay Brown and said, What is this guy doin? I made Steve Smith play Hard Knock Life all over the country things have come a long way and I got all this talk of havin my back and whats goin on? And he wants me to set this thing up with Snoop for him? Well, according to Jay Brown, Jay-Z felt that I wasnt being supportive enough of a new act he had called Rell. Well, I guess I wasnt. I didnt like the record but, I tried to explain to Jay Brown, it didnt mean I wasnt supportive of Jay-Z. Again, if it hadnt been for the charity I would have said fuck it. But I played along with Jay-Z. We gave him some money to do the show I dont remember how much, actually, though I know it was a lot less than the 50 large hed asked for. I set him up in the presidential suite at the Four Seasons, had the Cristal on ice for when he walked in, armed security, vests all that nonsense attention to detail to feed the ego. And I did hook him up with Snoop. Snoop said, Hell, yeah, Ill do it. Just send a private jet. I laughed my ass off. I expected Jay-Z to bail on that immediately, especially since it was for Snoop to do a cameo on just one song. But Jay-Z was down for it and sent the jet, which kinda blew my mind. They did a great show for Hot 97. When it came, a few months later, for the Powerhouse gig in L.A., I gotta say Jay-Z came through, at least for the fans. He did a really terrific job. Its not that there was anything really hostile going on between
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me and Jay-Z but we didnt have a lot to do with each other after that charity show until about a year later. I was out in New York right around the time the H-the-Izzo track came out. I did not like that song, either. When I saw him, I told him so. It just doesnt sound like Jay-Z to me, I said. He said, I want you to write down on a piece of paper that you dont think this song is hit. I was more than happy to oblige. Jay took it and said Im gonna hang that up on my wall! Sign that piece of paper and Im gonna put that shit up on my wall. Even though I didnt like the song, I told him Id play it and support it. Im the first to admit that nobodys on point 100% of the time and Ive been way off the mark before with records I thought would be huge but tanked and the other way around. I dont know anybody whos never been wrong. And I was wrong with H-the-Izzo, which went on to be huge and propelled the career of Kanye West as a producer. I was also wrong with a song called Ill Do Anything that I discovered hed released as a bonus track on a CD in Europe, which Id picked up while on vacation in England. I loved that one! Thats the song you need to go with, I told him. He said he didnt like it and that it was recorded only for foreign release. Fuck that, I thought. I went back to L.A. with it and spun it every hour, blasting it off big time. The feedback came back like a pissed-off rattlesnake. Nobody at Power liked it and, more important, the audience didnt like it. Hey, when Im wrong, Im wrong! Go big or go home, you know? Funny thing is that Id given it so much airplay it did take on a bit of a life of its own and they ended up shooting a video for it even though Jay-Z never liked it himself. It tanked. He was right. I was wrong. When he was first letting me hear the tracks around the H-the-Izzo
release, he asked me about my own production work. He wanted me to play him some beats. I was happy to, and played him a song Id just recorded with Bone Thugs-N-Harmony. Yo! I need one of those, he said. I kept going through some of the tracks I had with me and hit one that set him on fire. I want that, he said. I told him that I already had Nate Dogg on the hook. He said, Oh, thats cool. Ive always wanted to do something with Nate Dogg. Can you send it to me? When I was back in L.A., I sent him the track with Nates vocal on it. A few days Jay-Z called and said Yo, I wanna use this song, but I dont like what Nate Dogg did on it. Can you take him off ? I told him no way, Id given the beat to Nate first. If you want to do it, Im sure I could get Nate to sign off on it, but Im not gonna take Nate off just to give you the beat. The track was called Wet Your Lips. Jay-Z never did anything on it and its never been released. Just another gem that to this day sits in my vault. That night in New York when I was playing tracks for Jay I asked him if he was interested in hearing what Dre was working on with Rakim, whom hed just signed. Hell, yeah, Rakim is one of my favorites of all time! I said, Listen to this one, The Watcher Part 2. I played it for him and he was all over it. I have to get that record, Jay-Z said. He asked me to call Dre and hook it up for him to use on his next album. Gotta hand it to the guy, when he goes after something creative, it usually happens. The Watcher 2 with Rakim and Jay-Z ended up on his The Blueprint 2: The Gift and The Curse album. But when it comes to business, I think Jay-Z can (like us all) be his own worst enemy. Hes a great rapper, did a great job designing
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clothes for Roc-A-Wear and is clearly a smart guy. But his partner Dame Dash was, in my opinion, the true brains behind the biz of Jay-Z. Whenever Jay and I clashed, I went to Dash or Jay Brown (who really took Jay-Z into superstardom) and it would get worked out. But when they separated and Jay-Z took over as president of Def Jam, the magic, as far as Im concerned, went off into the ether. And thats when all the bitterness and in-fighting started. One day I was sitting in my office and I got a call from Rick Cummings, the president of Emmis. He said, Look, Tracy (the PD of Hot 97) is freaking out because Jay-Z jumped ship. He had begun doing drops for a new Manhattan hip-hop station, Power 105, which had begun competing with Hot 97. Exactly what happened Im not sure, but for some reason Tracy got pissed at Jay-Z and pulled his records, so Jay-Z got pissed off right back at her and after years of supporting the station, Jay-Z went across the street. Rick ordered me to go to New York to clean the mess up. My first call when I got into town was directly to Jay-Z. I said, Look, dude, theyre pulling me into Hot 97 because Power 105 is now a threat. I cant do this without you! You are New York right now. So what are we doing? Jay-Z went into a rant against Tracy. I said, Look, youve known Tracy for years. You guys have a problem and I will fix that. Trust me. Ill get the records back on the air. You just have to stop and get off 105. Please, stop cutting drops. Mizz, he said, Ill do that for you. I wont make any more drops. But fuck Hot 97. I was like, But Jay, I am Hot 97 right now. He said that didnt change things the station did not have his support because of Tracy and what had gone down. To this day, I dont know what happened. Neither one of them ever told me. But at that point, our relationship came to a standstill and we stopped
talking. Well, I should say we just didnt have any reason to talk any longer. He stopped the love for Power 105 as hed promised but as far as Hot 97 and I went, it was all dead air in his mind. I kept up my end of the bargain because it just made sense. It was stupid to drop the records and I immediately got them back in rotation. I mean, like I always say, its about the music, not the personalities. We played the shit out of Girls, Girls, Girls, the stuff he did with Pharrell, and the whole cascade of hits he had right up until he became president of Def Jam and I bailed from radio. But Jay-Z seemed to be keeping things personal, and not just with me. Mariah called when she was doing Shake It Off for The Emancipation of Mimi, which was on Def Jam. She said, I cant believe it. Hes the president of the label but he wont get on the remix because I did a remix to Its Like That with Fat Joe. At the time, Jay-Z had a beef with Joe so he turned Mariah down flat. After I left the radio business, Jay-Z sent me a platinum plaque in the mail. Out of the blue. Weird. Never, in any of his album credits, did he ever give me a shout out or thanks. But I got this plaque and thought, Shit, well, that was nice. Id better call him. I rang up Def Jam and asked for Shawn Carter (Jay-Zs real name). Whoever answered the phone asked who I was. Damion Young, I said, and got an earful of attitude. So I said, Listen, can I talk to Carlene, please. Carlene was Jay-Zs assistant for years, and she took the call. Damion, whats up? I said, Im just calling to thank Jay for the plaque. Jay came on the line and was really nice, as friendly as Ive ever heard him. How you been? I told him I was fine, and that I really appreciated the plaque.
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Yeah, man, thanks for everything. So what do you think of your girl Mimi (Mariah)? Shes doing pretty good, huh? Im like, Yeah! We did really good numbers, and I always knew she had it. My bullshit alarm went off because I thought he was staying arms-length away from her for no good reason, and that it just didnt make sense not to get on the remix. But I didnt say anything. It was Thanks for the plaque, see you sometime. Jay-Z brought up the inevitable question: So, youre not at Power anymore? I said, No, Im working with DJ Quik, consulting on his album Trauma. Yeah, he said. I just did a song with Quik called Justify My Thug for The Black Album. I said, Oh, well, hes doing this mixtape for Trauma and maybe you could do a drop for it. He told me that he didnt do that anymore. Come on, Jay, I said, This is DJ Quik. He just did something for you. Jay-Z said, Well, for you and Quik Ill go ahead and do it. Just email what you want me to say and Ill knock it out. I emailed the things, but never heard back from him. The next time I was talking with Jay Brown, I asked him, Whats up with Jay-Z? Its weird. One day were cool, one day were not. Is it me thats doing something wrong, or is it him? Jay Brown assured me that there were no problems, and that Jay-Z had always appreciated what I did for him. Well, okay, I thought. When the Jay-Z and Friends Tour with Pharrell rolled around, I decided to go. Backstage, Jay-Z saw me and said, Damion, how you doin? I said, Yo, Jay, whats up!
He said he was about to go on, but told me he was wanting to get back in the saddle and do some stuff. Get my numbers from Jay (Brown), he said. I thought that was a little cheesy, pulled out my cell phone and said, Ill just punch it in now, man, but he turned and said, Yeah, get it from Jay. After all those years of us helping each other, and admittedly, some tense times, hed totally gone Hollywood, I thought. Dame Dash was no longer around after an unfortunate public spat with Jay-Z, and Jay had become one of the hottest stars in the world and our relationship had suddenly become call my people. I saw him at a Clive Davis dinner a few months later and we slapped hands. Gone Hollywood, huh? I said. No, he said, Youre Hollywood. I kept on walking by him into the party. I wondered what the fuck Id ever done and basically settled on the idea that he was an asshole and thats all there was to it. But thats not all there was to it. I remembered back to 2000, when Jimmy Steel pulled me in his office and said, Look, were doing this Radio Music Awards thing. Its ABC, Arbitron its all to give awards to people whove had huge success in radio. Theres SoundScan, Billboard, you know . We need to get Jay-Z to come on the show. No way, I told him. Jay-Z doesnt really do award shows. Remember, I had trouble getting him to do billboards in Phoenix! Jimmy said, Well, let me get you on the phone with Vaughan Freeman. Hes the guy producing the show. Whole things his idea. I was shocked. Vaughan was the promotions director of KIIS-FM and Clear Channel the direct competitor for Emmis and Power in Los Angeles. Isnt that a conflict of interest? I asked him. Well, Jimmy said, Im consulting on it. Vaughan used to be my promotions director in Dallas. Big Boys gonna host it, and well get Shade Sheist (who was Emmis artist at the time) on it.
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It put me in a bad place cause I didnt have a whole lotta choice. Jimmy got Vaughan on the phone. Whats it gonna take to get Jay-Z on the show? he asked me. Theres this whole thing with the Internet where we can have someone in a studio someplace else accept awards. He can be the first one to do it. Well, that was true; it was the first time the Net was used on an awards show. Vaughan also upped the ante and said theyd give Jay-Z the Rap Song of the Year Award if hed participate in the show and accept it via Internet. If you havent noticed by now, a lot of those award shows are bullshit. Theyll make up awards to give to people so theyll show up. Higher star factor can mean higher ratings which means higher profit. Aint rocket science. I called Jay-Z and explained the situation. They guarantee youll win the award youll be the first to do this kinda Internet thing, and it will be on national TV. On top of that, all of radios gonna be there. Youll get Clear Channels support, Emmis support and the new program director of Power is a consultant on the show. Jay-Z came on board and said hed do it. Night of the show, he was sitting in a studio in New York. I was at the show, which was at the MGM Grand in Vegas. I ran into Vaughan and he said everything was gonna be great. I went up to the sound booth to watch. All of a sudden someone says, Now the nominees for The Song Bumped Most in Your Car are and then all of a sudden, Jay-Z! I was horrified. I looked up at the screen and saw Jays face. He was horrified. Vaughan told me he was gonna win Rap Song of the Year. I told Jay-Z he was gonna win Rap Song of the Year. Instead, they made up a bullshit award that sounded corny as hell. You could tell as he was giving his acceptance speech that Jay-Z was really uncomfortable. He
had a look on his face that said, I cant believe I just got punked on live national television. I dont think it was 30 seconds before I got a call from Dame Dash. What the fuck! What the hell is this! I said, Look, dude, I dont know whats going on. Thats not what was planned. I got screwed. You got screwed! Dame yelled. Jay looks like an asshole! Fuck, do I hate that feeling like your guts are going to sink down and settle in your Nikes. I said, Let me call you back. I walked up to Jimmy and said, Yo, what the fuck just happened? You said it was gonna be Rap Song of the Year. Jimmy said, I dont know, talk to Vaughan, and just walked away. I couldnt believe it. No way was he gonna own up to any responsibility for the show, despite raking in some huge coin as a consultant. The second somethin wasnt right, he had nothing to do with it. I found Vaughan and confronted him. Well, he said, you won Music Director of the Year well send you your plaque. I was like, Fuck, dude, what do you mean I won? I dont give a shit about what I won you just seriously screwed one of my artists! How do you think that makes me look? I look like the asshole! Vaughan didnt care. He got his show and got Jay-Z to do a guest spot and thats all he cared about. I explained it all to Jay Brown, to Dame Dash and to Jay-Z, and they seemed to accept that it wasnt me that fucked them over, and we never talked about it again. I still feel like the asshole in that one, even though theyd forced the lie out through me. That was the beginning of the end for me and Jimmy. People in hip-hop dont really look at it from a business point of view a lot of times. I mean, if it dont make dollars, it dont make sense, thats one thing; but if your boy tells you something and you
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guys are homies and some shit goes down, youre responsible. So when it came to Jay-Z, I was the one with bullshit on my sleeve and Im the one who shoveled it. But looking back, I realize that it was right after this that things had started to get a little weird with Jay-Z and me. This is when I thought he started acting like a dick, when he started asking for 50 grand to do the charity show and I thought he was being incredibly difficult, when I thought his ego was getting in the way of doing some great music and that getting anything done was like pulling teeth with him. Maybe I was the dick. As I look back, I realize that maybe it was my ego that was the problem. Look, he discovered Rihanna & yeah, I was trying to do everything I could for this guy to become a star. Yet at the same time I was telling him I thought his singles sucked even as they were selling millions of copies and he was winning Grammys; maybe it was me subconsciously fighting him all the way rather than the other way around because I was 21 years old, a powerful radio exec whod had almost nothing but huge success in the business and thought I knew better. Yeah, I was able to help the guy out a lot. But its pretty humbling all these years later to realize that when it came to Jay-Z, for the most part, I didnt know better. Maybe thats why I didnt get invited to his wedding!
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Dont Forget About Us
There is only one woman I have ever been in love with. And my love for her is exactly the reason I had to leave. Like most of us, Mariah Carey is a complex person. Theres the icon, the incredible performer and artist. And theres the Mariah most people dont get to see. Shes really down to earth. Shes brilliant. Shes extremely funny. Shes generous, outgoing, fun loving and so sweet. And shes so beautiful. She truly worships music and knows more about radio than I do. Before the hair and make up people get to her first thing in the morning, before she puts on the superstar mask, shes at her most beautiful, I think. Heres something you dont know: Mariahs got the prettiest freckles! Who would think, from all
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those videos and publicity photos, that those gorgeous high-boned cheeks are peppered with freckles. But throughout her life, people have not been honorable and not treated Mariah the way she deserves to be treated. The only thing shes ever been able to depend on is her talent. And make no mistake: Talent can rise above whether someone is commercially successful or happens to be fashionable at the moment. But since its been the one thing Mariah can always count on, rather than the people in her life, her personal relationships have always been tenuous. I think she runs hey, who doesnt, in his or her own way into a persona when she feels scared. As a result, anything that gets between her and her ability to retreat to what she thinks is her only safe place can quickly become casualty. Especially intimate relationships. Since shes a superstar, shes surrounded by people scurrying for her attention 24/7. Managers, lawyers, businessmen, assistants and, frankly, flunkies trying to catch some of the wave each compete to get, and stay, close to her. Thats the power of association, especially with such celebrity. Whether its in her best interest or not doesnt seem to matter to many of these people. To be fair, there have been people in Mariahs life who are genuine, but separating the wheat from the chaff aint easy. Especially when youre shoulder high in such a vast field. Thats where I found myself with her: Deeply protective of the wonderful woman I knew while clashing with the suits who I thought were most interested in protecting their own stake in her career. I tried so hard to protect her. Its one reason I refused credit on a lot of the stuff we did together: I knew if the industry knew how much I had to do with Mariah it would be nothing but bad. Radio would hate on stuff she did purely by virtue of my position at Power 106, and the music business would become highly suspicious of her ties as well. So we had a lot of fun coming up with aliases
for me. Mariahs a big movie fan, just one of many reasons we clicked, and our patter always included random quotes from some of our favorite flicks, like Ferris Buellers Day Off and Weird Science. If you look in the booklet for the Glitter soundtrack, theres a credit on the track Loverboy to Wyatt of No Fear of Chet Productions. Well, theres no such person or production company. Wyatts the character from Weird Science and Chet was his older brother in the film. To us, I was Wyatt, and Chet represented the music industry. One of our many cool inside jokes. It started when I was at Power 106. I was walking down the hall and Michelle Mercer said, Hey, by the way, Mariah Carey is gonna call in 30 minutes to say thank you for playing Allure. Allure was the first act Mariah signed to her Crave Entertainment label, and the track Head over Heals featuring Nas was, quite by chance, the first record Id officially added to the stations playlist after being named music director. If you wanna be on the call, come into my office, Michelle continued. I said, OK, sure. A couple minutes later, the front desk called me and said there was a package for me. I walked in, grabbed it, and I opened it up. It was an advance copy of Mariahs Butterfly album, along with a note from Liz Pakora at Columbia Records. I had known Liz for a long time, since her Priority Records day. Her husband, Frank Lazano, got me on the air for the first time at Power 106 during his guest DJ night feature. There was also a note attached which said Just in case some of these records leak, heres a copy of the Butterfly album. Please dont play anything yet! I was thinking, Mariah Carey? On a rap station? I loved her music, and remembered thinking back when I bought the Fantasy single that it was hard to believe somebody could be so beautiful and so talented. But as music director, I couldnt really see a logical
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fit. I went into my office and popped the CD in the player, and hit it to play random tracks. The first one was song called The Roof, which had a sample of Mobb Deeps Shook Ones Part 2 on it. I thought, Wow, what a crazy record! How are you gonna get a Mobb Deep sample on a record with Mariah Carey? I wonder who did that? So I looked at the credits and The Trackmasters produced it. I said, Those guys are incredible producers. They come up with the craziest shit! Mobb Deeps Shook Ones Part 2 is one of my favorite records of all time. Id kinda spaced out listening, but snapped to when Michelle buzzed and said, Mariahs on the phone. I got into Michelles office and heard Mariah on the speaker phone. I just want to thank you guys for playing this record. Its the first release on my label. Michelle started schmoozing right away. Oh, youre welcome, Power is I interrupted: Thats all cool, Mariah, but where did you come up with a Shook Ones sample? She laughed and said, Oh, you like that, huh? I said, Youre Mariah Carey! How do you know about Mobb Deep? She laughed again and told me she was from New York she had always been a huge hip-hop fan and knew all the music. That was my idea. I love Mobb Deep and love that record. I said, Well, then you know Survival of the Fittest? She said, Hell yeah! I love that shit. I grew up listening to WBLS, (a black music station in New York.) Who is this? I said, Im Damion Young, Im the new music director here. She said, OK, well its nice talking to you, and that was it. Next, I went to an industry dinner for the Butterfly album. A bunch of label brass was there, and they were trying to get all the radio stations to play Honey. I said, Look, I like the song, but Powers a hip-hop station and I dont think it would fit. They said,
Well theres a remix coming with Puffy, Ma$e, and The LOX. I said, OK, well get that to me and well talk about it! We started playing the remix in light rotation, and then we went to the release party of the album. I thought it would be funny if I had water shots while I got E-Man drunk off real vodka shots. I slipped the bartender a $50 bill and we were good to go. Even after two or three shots, E-Man was wasted. But my joke backfired. The place was filled with industry players like Donny Ionner, Charlie Walk, the senior VP of promotions, all kinds of people like that. E-Man, drunk out of his mind, goes, Yo, I love the record. But Damion is gonna drop it next week because he thinks its whack! Everyone looked at me like I was a jerk for the rest of the night. In the office the next day, I got a call from Jerry Blair, who is the senior VP of pop promotions for Sony Records. He said, So you dont like the record? I said, No, its not that, its just not testing. Youve gotta understand, were a rap station! He said, Well heres the deal. Mariahs gonna go to the Sony Studios in Los Angeles. Shes gonna do some interviews. If you want, we can have your DJs come down, interview her, and use it for whatever show you want. I said, You know what, well pass. He said, What do you mean? This is Mariah Carey were talking about! I said, If shes not gonna sit down and talk to the listeners one on one, then we dont want any part in it. Why would we want to go and tap on the glass and said, Hi, how are you? He said, You know what, let me call you back. Five minutes later, the phone rang. Hello, Damion. Mariahs on the phone. Tell her what you just told me. In my mind I was like, Shit! But I told her what was up. Heres the deal, Mariah. Were a rap station. If you dont come and at least answer calls and interact with the listeners, then theres no reason for us to do this. Jerry says, How are we supposed to do that with KIIS-FM, The Beat, and you, all in Los Angeles? I said, Well Ill tell you what.
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Do it on a Friday, and go to everyone else first. Come here last, for our night show. He said, What? I said, Go to KIIS-FM and do Rick Dees in the morning. Then in the afternoon, do Theo at The Beat, because hes the highest rated, and then come here at night In the back of my mind, Im thinking, Rick Dees is on his way out and hes boring. So hell ask generic questions. Theo is arrogant, and hes just gonna ask questions about himself. Then at the end of the night, shes gonna end up at Hot 97s sister station with Cherry Martinez, a female DJ, with our Ladies Night Show. Missy Elliot, Aaliyah, and all those types would always stop by that program. Jerry said, What do you think Mariah. Mariah asked me, Do you think that would be a good idea? I said, Yeah, it really would. She says, So Id actually go into the radio station? Yep. Why? Because people are sick of seeing that little girl in a glass box. You need to actually touch people. She goes, Hmm. All right. And they set up the date. When the night of Mariahs interview came, I was sitting in my office listening to Cherry. She set her show off with a bomb, telling listeners You know what question I want to ask Mariah Carey? I wanna know if she smokes weed! Wed been promoting Mariahs visit heavily, and I had the top Sony suits sitting in my office and we were all waiting for Mariah to arrive. I wanted to jump out the window. My phone rang. I really wanted to jump out the window. It was Jerry Blair. I dont know what happened, but what the fuck did Cherry Martinez just say? I just gotta call from Mariah she stopped the limo. Screwed. Maybe theyll just be nice and throw my ass out the window, I thought. I ran to the studio to find out if Cherry had lost her mind and
pleaded with her to cool it with the questions that would doom us all. Back in my office, I waited. About five minutes later, Blair called again. Shes back on the road. Shell be there in 15 minutes. About 20 minutes later, the phone rang again. Yo, shes downstairs. But shes not coming up until you, personally, come down and talk to her. I was thinking the worst: I am gonna get my ass chewed by Mariah and then shes going to slam the car door in my face and drive off. I walked downstairs to the back entrance to the Power building and there was a big black limo. Before I got close, Mariah stepped out and pegged me. Are you Damion Young? Yeah, I said. Ha! Lets go. We started walking together into the building not knowing what to say or do. How are you doin? She said, Wow, youre pretty young to be music director. I joked, I started when I was five. I was standing a little bit behind her, and all I could notice was how hot she was. I was like, Christ, she is incredible! I dont get star struck and simply like people if theyre nice and dont if theyre not I assume everyone deserves respect until they prove me wrong. But this woman was so beautiful I know I was blushing. I was probably radiating heat like blacktop in August. I was so embarrassed! Mariah, on the other hand, was so cool. So, do I smoke weed? Gawd. Im sorry about that, I said. Cherry didnt understand why that would be something outrageous to say. Please dont worry about it No, Mariah said. Its cool. No problem. When we got to the studio door, Mariah said, Im not walking
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in until the lights on and shes on the air. Power employees and Sony execs were buzzing around and everyone had an oh shit sort of expression they were trying very unconvincingly to hide. Michelle Mercer looked at me like, If this doesnt go right, Im going to kill you. Slowly. I longed for my office window! Mariah had a huge purse with her, which she picked up when the on-air light came on. She walked into the studio. So, Mariah Carey, how you doin? Cherry said into the mic. So, you asked a question on my way up here, Mariah said. Cherry was the one now on the spot. Im really sorry about that. Mariah said, No valid question. Do I smoke weed? No. It messes with my voice. But Ill tell you what I can do. Cherry says, What? Mariah says, I sure as hell can drink Dom Perignon! She pulled two glasses out of her huge purse, along with a bottle and quickly popped the cork. Have a drink with me. Its ladies night! I thought, Oh my god! That bitch is cool! After the interview was done, Mariah came out of the studio and said to me, Were there some drops you needed me to cut? I definitely wanted some, so we went to the recording booth. She told me she usually didnt like the way her voice turned out on drops, but I assured her it would be fun and that shed be happy with what we came up with. I went into the board op room and said over the intercom, All right, were the sister station of Hot 97. Just feel at home and say whatever you want. Mariah got into it and was soon laughing and having a good time. When wed recorded a few drops she said, Hey, thank you, Damion. You know what, youre really funny. I said, What do
you mean, funny! She said, Its cool its good to meet someone young. Hopefully, the next time Im in L.A. well hang out or something. In my mind, I thought, Yeah right. Mariah Carey is gonna call me up to go hang out. Right before she walked out the door, she turned around and said, The Roof? I said, The Roof is a great record. I just did a remix version, she said, and Mobb Deep actually raps on the record now. I said Really? I wanna hear it! She said, Well its not mastered yet, and tomorrow is Saturday. Monday or Tuesday, Ill get you the record. Tell me what you think. I was excited, but honestly, I thought this was the last Id hear from Mariah Carey. It was around my birthday, so I headed home to Santa Barbara for the weekend. When I got back into the office on Monday, there was a FedEx package on my desk from something Maroon Entertainment. I opened it up and there was a CD and handwritten note from Mariah. Heres the version of The Roof with Mobb Deep on it. Sorry theres no artwork. I had a great time, thank you so much. Hope you like the record, Mariah. Power had been playing her track Breakdown with Bone ThugsN-Harmony but it wasnt really working with our audience, so and I started pulling it out of rotation. Somebody at Sony told Mariah that Id abandoned her project, and it wasnt long before I got a call. One night, Jerry Blair rang me up and said, Yo, someone wants to talk to you. Mariah came on the phone and said, So, you dont like Breakdown? I said, Look, its just not working for us. I am playing The Roof, though, and theres only so much I can do. She said, Well, at least youre being honest with me. I said, Yeah, thats just what it is. Things got really relaxed and we started chatting. So, whats it like to be Mariah Carey, I asked. She said, Well, Im on the beach
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in Australia right now, walking around. I said, But its gotta kind of suck sometimes, with everyone comin at you with all the bullshit all the time. Nah, she said. She commented that there were occasionally uncomfortable times having her ex-husband the head of the label she was on, but she didnt elaborate. We ended up talking for about an hour and a half, about music, the station WBLS and her huge love for radio. She said, Keith Naftley broke my career. My first show was at KMEL and I was so nervous. Hot 97s my favorite station. I asked her how she knew so much about radio and she said, I just love radio. I totally grew up on it. At the end of what turned out to be an amazing conversation, she said, Ill call you the next time Im in L.A. A few days later, Jerry Blair called me again and said, Mariah would like you to go to Hawaii to see the show. Sony offered to fly me out and put me up, but I didnt want to get mixed up in any politics, so I told him that Id love to go, but that Id pay my own way. He said they were all staying at the Kahala Mandarin. Man! That hurt the pocketbook, but I sucked it up and booked myself a room. I got in and settled into my room, had a shower and headed to the show, which was great one of those things you can count on in life: Mariah Carey gives it her all for her audiences. Afterward, Jerry said, Lets go backstage and see Mariah. As soon as she saw me, Mariah came over and gave me a hug and said she was happy Id come, and wondered what I thought of the performance. I told her the truth it was amazing! She said she had to do a meet-andgreet and then film a thing for MTV at a nearby water park. Ill see you over there? I said she would. The shoot was being hosted by Bill Bellamy, with Lord Tariq and Peter Gunz and others performing. Mariah was doing a little
spot and when they cut for commercial, she noticed me standing watching from a little footbridge. She nudged Bellamy and gestured for me to come over. I walked over to the set and she said, Im almost done. Ill see you in a few minutes. I was kinda bored and tired and was thinking of heading back to the hotel. I ran into Jerry who told me Mariah had asked that I meet her in her trailer. I walked over and saw all this security and thought it would be a huge hassle, so I turned around. One of the security people called out to me, Hey, Damion, Mariahs expecting you, where you goin? I thanked the guys and walked up to the trailer. Mariah was inside, chillin with Tracy Wapels and her assistant. I sat down on the couch and Mariah put her legs up on my lap. I thought I was gonna have a stroke! There has never been a woman with more perfect legs! She invited me to join the entourage for drinks at the hotel to meet with a group shed just signed to her label. I freshened up in my room and then joined them in a hospitality suite theyd had set up in the hotel. I was glad Id dropped the coin to stay at the same place as Mariah and the tour staff, despite the cost. It was a nice, low-key get-together. Which made it all the more shocking when the room went silent except for a really weird sound, and everyone looked over at one of the dudes in the entourage who was passed out on the bed, pissing himself. Immediately, Mariah, Tracy and I headed for the door. Tracy headed off for her room and Mariah held my arm and walked me to my room. She said, Im so glad you came, it was so nice to see you. Im like, Oh my god, shes the queen of smooshing! This is great. We said good night and she went to her room. The next morning, I walked downstairs and I saw Jerry Blair. I said, Yo, Im about to leave, and then all of a sudden I was embraced by two arms reaching around from my back. It was
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Mariah. She said, Thank you so much for coming, and she gave me a kiss on the cheek. I thanked her for having me, and then she said shed call me the next time she was in L.A. In all, it was a pretty surreal weekend. Three or four weeks later, Mariah called me again. Hey, how are you doing? Ill be in L.A. next week. Ill call you. Whats your cell number? Things were absolutely nuts for me both at Power and the outside world. I was driving into Hollywood from Burbank to meet Dr. Dre for the first time and was pretty spaced out at the prospect of hanging out with one of my biggest heroes. I didnt even notice that my cell phone had a message on it. I picked it up and saw that Id missed a call from a 917 number. I didnt know anyone with a 917 number. I tripped the message and heard, Hey Damion, this is Mariah, call me back at and left me her cell number. I called and she picked up on the first ring. Hey! she said, excitedly. Whats goin on? Im coming into L.A. for a photo shoot. Why dont you stop by? She gave me the details and I agreed to meet her there a few days later. When I arrived at the shoot, the first person I was introduced to was Mariahs brother, Morgan. So, youre Damion, he said, shaking my hand. I knew right away he was a great guy. My sisters in there and pointed the way. I hung out and watched the shoot for a little while, and exchanged waves with Mariah. I then sat down in an area off the set for a little while as the circus was going on. Mariah came in, sat down next to me and put her legs up in my lap again. Where you been! I said I was trying to keep out of the way. It was great to see her again and we chatted for a while and then she said, Hey, I gotta go ride with me back to the airport. I said, Sure.
A few weeks later, I was in New York and Mariah called and invited me to dinner with Tracy. We were talking about all the various projects we were each in the middle of when my cell phone rang. I wasnt going to answer it, but looked down to see who it was and was a bit puzzled to see another 917 number I didnt recognize. I picked up. Hey, this is Steve Stoute. I said, Steve Stoute? Whats up? (He was the president of Black Music for Sony.) As soon as I said his name, Mariah looked at me in horror and gave me the cut-off-at-the-neck signal. I told him Id call him right back. Mariah was upset. Before I got a chance to say anything, Steve called again. Where are you? I said, What do you mean, where am I? I started to get a little pissed off at how pushy he was being. I mean, who the fuck did this guy think he was? Are you at dinner with Mariah? I said, Thats a little weird, man. Where are you right now? Well, there was no way I was telling this guy where I was or what I was doing or who I was with. This is a little weird, bro. Are you watching me? What the fuck? He said, No, I just need to talk to you. He obviously knew where I was. He told me he was in a restaurant just a few blocks away, and asked if Id get a cab and come and see him. I told him Id be there in a little while. Mariah was freaked. What are you doing? I told her Id deal with it and that Id be right back. I said, Dont worry. I flagged down a cab in the rain and got to the restaurant. The maitre d walked me to a private dining area downstairs and I walked through, seeing Steve and Tommy Mottola seated. Damn, I thought. Here we go. Tommy looked at me and said, Hey, your jackets a little wet. I took it off and handed it to the maitre d. So, you know my ex-wife?
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Yeah, I said. Ive met her. Are you fuckin her? What? What did you say?! He slowed his speech and repeated himself. Are you fuckin her? I said, Look theres no way Im gonna talk about her with you, understand? This aint cool. Tommy then said, You know, we have a lot of use for people like you. All youve gottta do is just move to New York. I said, Why would I want to move to New York? He said, Well, I could make you a lot of money. I said, For what? He said, All youve gotta do is tell me what she does. I said, Yo dude. Thats crazy. Come on. You cant buy me. He sharpened his stare and then wrote his cell number on the back of his card and slid it across the table. I said, You know what? Im not interested. I got up, and Steve Stoute grabbed me, saying, Look dude, you dont understand. You could make a lot of money, and you need to choose your friends wisely. I said, Ive already chosen, and this is some shit I dont want to be a part of. Then Steve says, Yo man, why dont you roll with me. I look at the dude like hes out of his mind. Roll with you? I turned back to Tommy and he said, Yeah. Spend the evening with Steve. We have a few things that you might want to see. Theres some records we want to play you. Reluctantly, I got into the car with him. He took me to The Hit Factory, we went upstairs, and Jennifer Lopez was standing there. After introductions, Jennifer goes, I just want to get played on Tha Baka Boyz show. I said, Oh really? They started playing me her songs. I said, Those are techno records. We dont play techno records any more. Jennifer glared at me with a total You son of a bitch! look.
I glanced at Steve and laid it out for him: None of those records is hot. What do you want me to do with that shit? Steve said, All right, lets go somewhere else. We got back into the car and he took me to another studio. I walked in to see Nas sitting there. Nas got up and said, Nice to meet you. Steve told us we should hang out for a while and he walked off. Nas said, So, whats up with you? I said, Ah, shit, you know, and gestured in the direction Steve had gone. Yeah. Tommy Mottola! Nas started laughing. I said, Yo man, this Sony shit is crazy. He goes, I know. I had a nice time with Nas and Steve came back in and offered me a ride back to my hotel. Kinda creeped me out that he already knew where I was staying. In the car on the way back, he said, You need to pick who your friends are. From the time I left Mariah and Tracy in the restaurant, my phone started ringing and Id turned it off. When I got back into my room, I turned it back on and there were several messages from Jerry Blair and Mariah. Hers seemed kinda panicked, Please dont not be my friend because of this. I need to talk to you, please call me back. I called Jerry first. Ah, dude, he said, you threw me under the bus! I said, What are you talking about? Tommy Mottola asked me why we didnt pay for your stay in Hawaii. I told Jerry again that Im not doin that. This is the kinda shit is exactly the reason I paid my own way. Im not gonna be hostage to anybody over some shit like an airline ticket or hotel rooms. Jerry said he understood, but explained that his Sony boss was mad at him for introducing me to Mariah. Well, Jerry, Im sorry, dude, but I dont give a shit about Tommy Mottola.
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I then called Mariah back. She seemed pretty freaked out. I tried to calm her down immediately, figuring this was a situation shed been through many times already and had lost several friends over. Yo, I told her, dont worry. Im on your side. I basically told them to fuck off. She was relieved but said, again, Please dont not be my friend because of this shit. Mariah didnt mention the situation again until one night we were out for dinner in L.A. Did Tommy scare you? she asked. Nah, its cool. Its all good. About two years later Mariah and I were having dinner in Mr. Chows in L.A. when she looked over and rolled her eyes at me. What? She gestured to another table, Its Tommy. He and Steve Stoute were there. Tommy came over and was all friendly, standing behind Mariah, rubbing her shoulder. It was super creepy, and Mariah was clearly uncomfortable. Do you know my friend Damion? she asked. Tommy said, No, weve never met, and extended his hand. I wasnt playing along. Yeah, right, I said. As time went on Mariah and I became closer friends. I really enjoyed talking to her because it was almost always about music what wed just heard that was great, or something wed heard about that we were really excited about getting to listen to: Were both enormous music fans and it showed. One day, I was in my car listening to some beats Id made when she called. We started talking like always when she asked me, Whats that in the background? I said, Oh, its a beat I just made. I just did it for Ja Rule and Irv Gotti. Its called If You Were My Bitch. Mariah started humming to it and said, I could sing over that! Send me some beats! Im like, Really? She said, Yeah, I really want to hear some
beats. I put a few beats down on a blank cassette and, by the last one, got a little impatient, figuring she was just being really nice to me and that she wasnt going to listen to the whole tape anyway, so I hit the stop button. The day she got my FedEx package, she called again. Yo, I listened to those beats and theyre cool but theres this one track at the end that got cut off. I really like it. I want it for the remix for I Still Believe. I was floored. It was something based on the Willy Wonka beat and she hadnt even heard very much of it! You know Krayzie Bone, right? she asked. Yeah, sure. Were talking about doin this Thugline deal, she said. I know Da Brat, and you know Krayzie. Why dont we get them on board and meet at Westlake Studios sometime next week and cut the record? Hey, I said, Im down. The next week, I was in the studio with her engineer, Dana Jon Chappelle. Mariah called and said she was delayed doing a video shoot for the original version of I Still Believe, but that she knew where she wanted to go with the remix, and that shed be there in a few hours. Cool, I said. It was a bit unnerving, but I was glad that I had some time with Dana before Mariah arrived, because I didnt have a lot of experience in this kind of setting. I dont know anything about this shit, I told him. He was really cool, and started showing me the ropes of what he did. This was the first time I got to experience Mariahs energy and amazing work ethic. The girl had spent all day and the evening on some Air Force base shooting the video, and she showed up at the studio at 1 a.m. to begin recording. And she was pumped and totally prepared. We spent all night recording and when she left, she
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was on her way back to the base to finish the video. Late that following night, Mariah had had a bit of a break but was back in the studio with us working on the I Still Believe remix. It was really funny she turned and looked at me and said, You need a name! What? I asked. As a producer, you need a producer name. What are you talking about? Mariah is one smart girl I hadnt thought about the big picture. You dont want anybody knowing youre doin this! A bit of an uncomfortable situation, what with being Powers music director and all. And, as she very astutely pointed out, If Sony knows about his, theyre gonna hate on it immediately. Oops. She was so right. So what do we call you? Mmm. Dame Dame Tracy was there and said Hey, Im gonna go over next door and say hi to RZA. Mariah lit up, RZA Damizza! Thats your new name! That was cool! Damizza, I said. OK, thats it! Thank you for that, Mariah and Tracy. I was havin a blast, but I had never produced a record before and wondered what I was doing here in the deep end. I called Carl Butch Small for advice. He said, Hey, chill out man, youre doin all the right things. You know the shit. This is what happens . A couple of days later I told some people at Power that I was going to New York for the weekend and that Id be back on Monday. Of course, I didnt tell anyone I was going to mix my first record. Mariah loved it and so did Sony. Back in L.A., I was getting worried about where this was going to go. Adam Favors, who had move over to Interscope, came into
my office. I said, Hey man, listen to this record. He said, Dude thats gonna be crazy! Oh my god! I did this same thing with E-Man and he goes, Yo, thats crazy! As soon as you get that, we need to play it. Yeah, great, I thought. But can Power really be playing my own remix? Then I heard the track on The Beat. There was no more hiding from this one. Sony had released it. I called a meeting with Steve Smith and E-Man and said, Look, I apologize, but this is a remix I did, and it was on The Beat first. Steve said, Fuck it! Put it in rotation. I did, and it immediately placed No. 13 with listeners. I dont remember how many days later it was No. 1 at Power and began popping internationally, while the original version was stalling. Mariah herself was really pushing The Damizza Remix. Aside from telling a select few at Power the story, I was trying to keep it under wraps. Then I got a call I wont forget. I was driving down Barnham Boulevard in Burbank and answered my phone. On the other end was Sonys Lisa Ellis, and said, Yo, youve gotta be feelin pretty good, Damizza! I didnt know what to say, except, What? We were wondering who Damizza was. I traced it back to the studio. Damion Young produced this record. Oh shit. Dont worry, she said. I wont say anything. Of course, there was no way this was going to stay a secret for too long. Im surprised I kept it quiet for as long as I did. Tommy and the whole Sony system ended up finding out that Damizza is Damion Young but it never came back to bite me in the ass. At least by them. No matter how pissed Tommy was at me, and as much as he was trying to torpedo Mariahs career, there wasnt much he could do about her having a record produced by me when it was
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screaming up the charts. A few weeks went by and Mariah called me to say that she wanted to do a video for the remix as well. She said shed pay for it herself if Sony wasnt on board. She just needed a low-rider, she said. And Power 106 had one! During shooting, I was in the back of the car with Krayzie, drinking Hennessy and having a blast. It was crazy. At one point, we were walking through the set and Mariah said, Hey, wheres Damion? I was just behind her, and she turned and said, Walk up here with me. She said, I love you! This song is great! Thank you so much. Very cool moment. I felt so happy and proud. This was even better than radio. I was hangin at Powers Christmas party and got a call from Mariah. What have you heard of Luis Miguel? she asked. I had no idea. Who is Luis Miguel? She said, No, really, what have you heard about him? I said, I dont know anything about Luis Miguel. Mariah started making fun of me, Well, Damizza, youre at a Latino radio station, figure it out! I asked one of the girls who worked in the office, and she said, Oh my god! Hes the biggest Latin singer! She also told me some rumors that didnt sound too hot. I called Mariah back up and I told her what I heard. She goes, Well hes asking me out to dinner tomorrow night. I said, Well have fun and let me know what happens! She called me the next day and said, Luis is kind of nice. He spent all this money to get a private room. What do you think? I said, Well, shit, I dont know. Enjoy yourself! Mariah had taken a bit of a beating in the press after her divorce and then her high-profile relationship with Derek Jeter. I dont know, she told me. After that I really havent been out with
anybody. I said, Mariah, come on! You gotta enjoy life. Fuck all the bullshit. Not long after she called me again to ask about him, saying that hed invited her to go on vacation with him. Thats awesome, I said. Mariah wasnt so sure. I dont know that much about him, she said, obviously still smarting from the way the press treated her while she was dating Jeter. Im not going to sleep with him, she said. Why are you telling me this, I answered. Well, youre my friend. Tell me what you think. Honestly. I said, You were cooped up in Sing Sing (her slang for the massive Bedford, N.Y. mansion she felt imprisoned in when she was married to Tommy) for so long go out and have some fun! She agreed. About three days later, her assistant called and said, Its Mariahs birthday comin up, and Luis is taking her to Jamaica. Will you go with them? I said, Why would I go with them? She said, She really doesnt feel comfortable with Luis yet, and she wants to have a couple friends there. I said, OK, Ill go. So we meet at LAX at this hangar the first time Id ever been on a private jet. Luis was cool as shit, and we turned into drinking buddies. One day I told Mariah I was working on a Damizza Presents record. She said, What am I gonna do on it? I said, Are you kidding? Theres no way that well get the clearance from Sony for you to appear on it. She said, Well, play me some of the beats at least. We drove to a convenience store by the beach, and Luis fell asleep in the car. We listened to the beat for what would later become If You Were Mine with Shade Sheist. We were going back and forth with it, and then she sang, Chickens will try and I went, To get at you. We ended up writing the whole hook for that song together. She said,
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Marilyn Monroe used to call herself Sugar Cane, so just say that Sugar Cane wrote it. And you keep the publishing. After this, she started calling me every time she was in L.A., and we became good friends. I went on vacation with Luis and her again later that week. This time we boarded the Gulfstream and went to Cabo San Lucas, Mexico. Mariah said, Well its one degree hotter in Acapulco, and thats where Luis lives, so lets go to Acapulco. I was like whatever, and we all got back in the G5. We were about 12,000 feet up, and a white mist started to fill the cabin. The oxygen masks fell out of the ceiling, and I looked at Mariah like, Oh shit! Then Luis and I look at each Wow, were really gonna die! The plane was going down fast, and I thought for sure we werent gonna make it. The flight attendant hit the deck, Mariah and her acting coach were crying, and it was total chaos. Luis and I shrugged our shoulders. I got up amidst the chaos and picked up a bottle of vodka. I handed him a glass, I took a glass, and we poured each other drinks as the stewardess yelled at me. We put the oxygen masks on our head like hats. As the plane was losing altitude, we were hitting the vodka. Hey, if were gonna die, at least were gonna die having fun, I thought. Thankfully, the pilot regained control, and we set down for an emergency landing. We went straight to a club and got really crazy. The next day, someone decided we could have even more fun at Disney World, so we got back in the plane and headed for Florida. Hey, what were the chances of two emergency landings in one week? The madness didnt stop. We were on someones yacht and Mariah decided she was going to cook dinner for everyone. That left Luis and me with nothing to do, or so we thought. The yacht was in its slip and I looked down and noticed a golf cart on the dock. Drunk as hell, Luis and I took off when we thought no one was watching which, when youve got security all around
you and youre faded out of your skull, is basically never. I was driving. Well, sort of. Damizza, turn right! I turned left and Luis went flying out of the golf cart. His security was in another cart right behind us and they stopped and picked him up and started screaming at me. Damizza, he said in his thick Latin accent, From now on I will drive! I returned to L.A. and was back to comparable sanity for a few weeks when Mariah rang me up. Yo, Ive got to go to Korea! Luis really wants to go and I dont want to go by myself. Its a Michael Jackson show. Hes sending a private jet for me. Will you please come? Hell, yeah! OK, Ill call Michael back and tell him were coming. I was certainly looking forward to meeting Michal Jackson, but all this flying around the world with Mariah and getting my ass back to Power in L.A. was taking its toll. I was exhausted, and I went straight to bed when we got to the hotel in Seoul, slept through the night and didnt hear my wakeup call the next morning. The call that woke me up was from one of her assistants, who said Yo, where are you? We need to leave in five minutes. Mariahs already in the car. She wont leave until youre down here. I threw my clothes on and rushed downstairs. I walked out of the hotel into Mariahmania. There were thousands of fans swarming, screaming her name. Mariah had never played Korea before, and it was nuts. Id never seen anything like it and, actually, it was kind of scary. We had a huge military escort to the venue. Someone backstage let me in on what had gone down and the real reason we were there Michael was booked into this huge 100,000 seat stadium, but ticket sales had been soft, and had plateaued at only a third of the venue. Hed called Mariah. Hey, smart business and PR decision. The place sold out right after her appearance was
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announced. We were all hanging out in Mariahs dressing room, talking, when she came up to me and asked if I wanted to meet Michael before the show. Yeah, I said, Id love to. We walked down the hall through a mass of security guards and we went into another dressing room. The only lights on where those around an old-fashioned vanity makeup mirror. Michael was standing in front of it, doing his shoulder-dance thing, practicing moves. I looked to my left, and there was this kid who looked exactly like Enrique Iglesias, dressed in an outfit that matched Michaels. He saw us and smiled. Mariah said, Michael, this is my best friend Damion. This is Luis Miguel, and this is Trey Lorenz. I was struck with how slight the superstar was. But he was so nice I cant begin to describe the feeling of finally meeting his majesty, the King of Pop. During his performance, Luis, Mariah and I stood at the side
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of the stage to watch. It was stunning. And one of the strangest experiences of my life after each song he came over to us and had an ongoing conversation with Mariah as if the performance itself was just this thing he had to get out of the way. Dont get me wrong, his performance was incredible and when he was in front of the audience he wasnt cheating them out of anything; he was giving it his all. But what was so bizarre was that hed come over when the lights went down. Billie Jean ended and he came over and went into a conversation that hed been having with Mariah. He walked back out and went into another song and spectacular dance routine, flinging his hat into the crowd. When that tune was over, he was back at the side of the stage. So, what Im saying is It was amazing. The only thing I can compare it to is a Broadway performer who knows his or her lines and routines so well its ingrained. Its like when he was performing, he didnt have to think about what he was doing. After the show, we were at the side of the stage, where he had a costume-change area, hanging out. I was getting kinda bored and excused myself to wander around and see what was going on. Ive always liked seeing what the machine is like on such huge productions. I mean, it takes hundreds of people to put on such extravagant tours, and sometimes its hard to believe such amazing experiences come out of such apparent chaos. I know the drill and was keeping out of the way, just enjoying the moment, when a guy on crutches came up to me and laid into me. Hey! Who the fuck are you! Im Damion. Im here with Mariah, I said, a little taken aback. Well, get the fuck outta here! I got pissed off and said, Fuck you. Who are you? Im Michael Jacksons head of security. So? He asked me again who I was.
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I told you who I was. He went nuts, and started really talking shit. Mariahs road manager saw what was going on and came over to tell the dude to lay off because I had access. But the douche bag kept up. I thought, Fuck this noise, and went to Mariahs dressing room to wait for the ride back to our hotel. Looking back, I started to laugh. I remembered that Id recently done an interview with the L.A. Times and theyd asked me about Michael. I said I was a big Michael Jackson fan, but that I thought his new album was whack. Then it dawned on me that somebody in his camp read that! Every two days after that trip, like clockwork, Mariah and I would talk on the phone. One time, we went outside to my car when we were at Luis house, and she heard the beat for Crybaby. She said, Im gonna do that! Ive got an idea. She recorded the song and she called me up. Ive got it done, but I want Snoop Dogg on it and we have to get it done by tomorrow because I have to turn in the album to Sony. In panic mode, I called up Snoop and said, Hey! Wanna do a record with Mariah? He said, Hell yeah. Im in New York but Ill be home tomorrow. Come over to the house. My trusty engineer Mike Schlesinger and I drove over to Tha Dogghouse the next afternoon. It was another one of those spontaneous experiences that Ive almost learned to expect. We walked in and there was legendary producer Battlecat. And Kurrupt, whom Id never met before. Battlecat said, Hey, man, what are you up to? I said, I did this record with Mariah Carey, and Snoops gonna get on it. Kurrupt said, Youve worked with Mariah? I said, Well, yeah, I did the I Still Believe remix and now weve got this Kurrupt broke in, The one with Da Brat and Krayzie
Bone? Thats one of my favorite records ever, cuzz! I was kinda blown away, not expecting Kurrupt wanting to be in on a Mariah Carey track. You know that record? He said, Yo, dude, Ive always wanted to do something like that. We have to get down, man! Whew! This is Kurrupt the greatest battle rapper, freestyler, gangsta rapper of all time in my book. Hell tear up anybodys ass. And he was sittin there telling me he wants to do an I Still Believe? Damn! We were on a tight deadline with the Mariah record, so we got down to work right away. I got her on the phone for Snoop, and I could hear them going back and forth on how they wanted the record to sound. Snoop was like, Yeah, yeah. Baby dont cry. Yeah, I get that. Cool. You fly, Mariah! I love you. When I was in jail, I used to listen to Vision of Love. That was my shit. Its an honor to work with you. All right baby, I gotchu! We started the session. Snoop was listening to the beat, over and over, writing verse. Battlecat came over to me and said there was a problem. The mics not working. We couldnt get it to work earlier. Shit! We had about an hour to get this down and mixed. Good luck, bro, he said. The room was full of chronic smoke and everybody was starting in on at least a contact high. Snoop was riffin Baby hear me when I say, a playa feelin good today. It was tight except for the fuckin mic! Mike was playing with the fader, Battlecat had a flashlight under the board trying to trace the chord and I was in the booth with the mic, all trying to figure out what was wrong. Battlecat finally found the problem and we got it working. Then Snoop nailed it in one take and Mike and I headed back to The Record Plant studio to mix it. When our brains had cleared from the smoke and our feet were back on the ground, we discovered that there was a lot of bleed on
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the track a low buzz in the background, dogs barking and homies yelling. Mikes a genius, though. He sorted it out and we took some of Snoops adlibs from the verse, sampled them and I flew them all over the track. By the end, the record was thumpin. It sounded like a Dr. Dre or DJ Quik song. It had a true West Coast mix on it. It wasnt compressed, it was big, bright, thick and sounded like a movie. Just what we wanted. These were the days before we had broadband Internet and were able to e-mail tracks back and forth. And nobody trusted the mail or even FedEx, so wed send somebody on a plane to hand-deliver CDs. I remember a few occasions where Id send somebody on a plane to Italy, where Mariah loves to kick back. The messenger would land, catch a boat over to the island of Capri, go up to the studio, give an engineer the package and then return to the U.S. It took off on radio & retail all over the world and got lots of critical acclaim and remains one of her fan favorites. Mariah called me and said, We gotta do a video for it. Snoop said he wasnt going to come to the set, but that we could send a crew to his house. Thats what I did, and they filmed him in front of a green screen to insert his scenes in the final cut. It was with Crybaby that I think there was a shift in my relationship with Mariah, though. I was still trying to do my gig at Power but she was increasingly relying on me more on the business side of her life. Every time she was in L.A., we were together around the clock. Whenever something happened with Sony, I would get a call asking how she should handle it. Mariahs assistant was great and God bless her. But shes no manager. Not many people can handle managing the swirling circus of that kind of star machine. But a strong manager is vital. At this time, Mariah didnt have one. When something came up, shed talk with members of her camp, talk with her head of security and then
shed talk with me and mull over what shed been told. Normally, she did what I suggested. Things were looking a lot better after she got out of her deal with Sony and away from the politics of Tommy Mottola and his friends. Virgin offered her a record-breaking deal reported in the media as $100 million to sign with them, which was groundbreaking and everything, but I advised her to turn it down. Thats awesome, I said, but the companys fucked up and they dont know what theyre doing. I know, theyre offering a lot of money and have a good marketing plan, but they need to have a better infrastructure. You gotta look at the label as a whole. There were rumors of management instability near the top, and I was very uneasy about it. I said, Listen, Clive Davis just started his own label. I think Clive is where you need to go. She said, Im not gonna go sign with Clive. Hell want creative input on my music, and no one is gonna have creative input on my music, ever. I said, You dont understand. If you sign with Clive, its a wrap. Screw the advance, itll be the right hands to be in. She said no. I knew what Mariah was up to: She always wanted to be in movies, and she had at this point been chasing the idea of doing Glitter. And it was being handed to her, along with Virgin Records golden carrot and plans to go wild with the films soundtrack as their first Mariah release. I did everything I could to talk her out of it. Whoa, wait a minute, I said. This aint the way to go. Youre gonna do the biggest deal of all time, then youre gonna put out a soundtrack as your first release? Thats creating a new brand. Its a major soundtrack of an indie movie . You expect Virgin is gonna know how to work this instead of a regular album? Its gonna get destroyed. Theres no way this will work. Please, Mariah, wait on
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the movie. Take this slow. Do a solo album first, at least. Theyve never worked a Mariah Carey record before. Its not what she wanted. I was frustrated that I just went back to L.A. It was the first time I walked away from her. I stopped taking her calls. She signed with Virgin. And thats when the shit storm started. Mariah flew to Canada to begin filming Glitter and started working on the album at the same time. Almost immediately, financing fell through on the film. She was working around the clock and I think she knew she was in way over her head. She was managing herself, A&Ring her record, and trying to deal with everything else at the same time. When she was with Sony, there was a team in place. But with Virgin, the record company was looking to Mariah and asking, So, how do we go about breaking this record? Shit. This time I hated being right. The next time she called I answered. I havent slept for two days, she said. I havent eaten. I have to shoot this video for Loverboy and finish the record and Im only three songs deep. I have to be done with the whole thing in a month, and Im still filming the movie. I just listened. She sounded desperately tired. Exhausted. Then she kinda surrendered. The label doesnt know what theyre doing. I said, I know the label doesnt know what theyre doing. Nancy Barry (then the head of Virgin) called me and asked me how they should release Glitter. On one hand, I thought, Why is everyone calling me? But Mariah was my best friend, and though Id been angry that she hadnt listened to me begging her not to sign with Virgin or do the film, I had to help her. In my book, everything else comes second when friends need my help. That being said, getting my ass to Canada wasnt so easy. Power was without a program director at the time and I was basically running the station. I was also at the
MARK SUDAK PHOTO. The only time I shared the stage with Mariah, here at the Universal Amphitheatre, performing What Would You Do with Nate Dogg.
time negotiating a new contract with Emmis, straddling Hot 97, working with Dre, Eminem, Bone, and all the other stuff Id gotten myself into. Thankfully, I struck a deal in which I wasnt required to physically be in the station eight hours a day five days a week. On the one hand, this was good. On the other hand, it wasnt because it let me kinda run wild. Its when my drinking started to escalate. I, too, was working myself way too hard, and sometimes when people do that, a surprising and nonsensical side effect is insomnia. Despite exhaustion. I needed to drink myself into a stupor at night just to fall asleep. When I finally saw Mariah, I was worried for her. She was spent. Yet, like me, wound up so tight she couldnt see the forest for the trees. I sat down with her and joked with her a little bit and she calmed down. But it got to the point where she could only fall asleep if I was in the room. So many different things were coming at her that I dont think she ever felt like she could let her guard down. An assistant, a lawyer, anyone, could walk in at any moment,
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24 hours a day, and it would startle her. So I would be there. I became that guard dog. I knew going in that it was a relationship rife with danger. There were times I thought I could drop my radio career and give up producing records and just be with her forever. But those feelings never lasted long. We talked about it. One time, Mariah said to me that This business ruins relationships for me. Dont let it ruin this for us. But I just knew it would. I had a gut feeling that at some point she wouldnt need me anymore. Besides, such a one-sided relationship wasnt healthy for either of us. But in the moment, I was willing to do anything for my friend. Mariah was scattered, understandably. Im having a lot of trouble putting this record together, she said. Loverboy isnt done. Ive gotta get Busta Rhymes to do a track and and, I just cant get it all done. I need your help. I said, Tell me what you want me to do. Ill do it. She said, Ill just cut you a check to oversee the project. Will you be the executive producer of the Glitter soundtrack? Whatever you need, Mariah. Im here for you, you know that. I tried to get a handle on what was going on in terms of the record. I went to see Ludacris at Westlake Studios a few days later. He was overjoyed to be appearing on the record. Dogg, you know youve made it when youre on a Mariah Carey record. I asked him to let me hear what hed come up with and he played me a sample from Cameo, which later did indeed turn into Loverboy. But the record, as far as I was concerned, was a mess. There was Ludacris appearing on it, and an artist he was trying to break, Shawnna. And Da Brat had a track, along with an artist she was trying to break, named 22. It was too much. I called Mariah and told her what I thought. OK. Youre going out on a new label. Youre doing a soundtrack for an independent movie, which no one is expecting. And you have two big artists and
two unproven artists on the record. She said she wanted to help break new talent. I appreciated that, but told her she was on fresh ground herself and that it was too much, too soon. Just like doing the movie and everything else at once. But its what Mariah wanted and I decided to just hunker down and do what I could. I went to New York to get Busta Rhymes on the Last Night a DJ Saved My Life track. It was no easy task, in terms of both time and money. But I took care of it. We were going back and forth like crazy. Id be in New York one day and then have to fly right back to L.A. the next. It was hideous. And, keep in mind, I was still working at Power and Hot 97. Chronic 2001 was blowing up, Im doing Powerhouses, plus I was working on Nate Doggs album. It was mind-bending the amount of things that were happening. A lot of shit was going on, and Mariah was exhausted. So was I! By the time we got to the Loverboy video shoot, something was clearly going to have to give. Mariahs stress level was redlining. She was getting one or two hours of sleep every 24 hours usually between takes. She wasnt eating or drinking. She couldnt, so she thought, take a five-minute break or the whole world shed created would come crashing down. At one point she said to me, I havent eaten since I dont know when. I sent an assistant to get her a sandwich, but Mariah was so stressed that she just couldnt eat. I was worried about her. Shed be all perky and come alive when she needed to in front of the cameras, but then collapse in a chair and continue on with something else. Ive got to get back to New York, she said at one point. Ive got to mix one last record. By the July 4 holiday weekend, she was back in New York and getting a little rest and nourishment and I was visiting my family back in Santa Barbara. I was out near the ocean flying kites with my little brothers and getting some much-needed downtime myself
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when my cell phone rang. It was Tommy Mottolas former righthand man Steve Stoute, who by then had moved over to Interscope. He said, Hey Damion, Eminem wants to meet Mariah Carey. Give me her number. No, I said. Immediately, I thought, This is not good. As soon as I see or hear from Stoute, its a red flag because of the whole history with Mariah and Sony and Tommy. Whats going on? I asked. Eminem wants Mariah to read for a part in his new movie (which would later be 8 Mile), he said. Shit. I knew that if I called Mariah and told her Eminem wanted her to read for a part in a movie it was going to be a nightmare. Steve, Ill call you right back. I called Mariah and told her that Eminem wanted to meet her. She, too, was cautious. For what? I dont want to end up as one of that guys diss songs, so if I talk to him, youre on the phone with me. I had to tell her the truth, knowing full well where it would go. I said, Listen: Up front, I dont think this is a good idea. I know him and hes a cool guy. But I cant control this situation. This is not gonna end up in a good place. Im telling you right now this is bad. And if you get into a relationship with him and it blows up it will be ugly and there wont be anything I can do for you. I dont want that responsibility. She told me to relax, and that it would be all right so long as I was on the phone with them. I called Steve back and told him how it was going to come down that Id call Em and hook him up with Mariah and that I wasnt letting him in on the call. Why, he asked. Dogg, get real. All those years at Sony youre one of Tommys best friends. No way. I called Eminem and told him that I was going to get Mariah on the phone. Shes one of my best friends, I warned him. Shes
been through hell and back and I dont want to see this end up fucked up and I wont be in the middle of it if it does. Em said, No, dude, its nothing like that. Its nothing personal here, I just want her to read for a part in the film. My little brother Jason was about 10 at the time and he asked me what was going on with this flurry of phone calls. I told him that I was hooking Mariah and Eminem up. He started laughing and said, Good luck with that one. The kids got it. Hes a little version of me. Only smarter he wouldnt have made the call. I got Mariah on the phone and introduced them. Eminem said he wanted her to go to Detroit. She said, Well Damion, when we do the album release party in New York, lets just stop in Detroit. I said, No, you can stop in Detroit. You guys should do a song together if youre gonna work together. I noticed the conversation was going OK, so I put the phone down and came back every five minutes or so. About 20 or 25 minutes later, they were off the line. Mariah called me back and said, Youre going with me to Detroit. Youre not leaving me alone with this dude. I said, What? She said, Well first things first, he said he wants me to play his mom in this movie. That immediately kicked into her insecurity. She was like, I want to play the love interest! The truth was that, once we saw the script, she wasnt young enough to play the love interest and wasnt old enough to play the mom either. It didnt take much imagination to know that he didnt actually want her for the film, but I couldnt convince her of that. Before anything else happened, we were gearing up for the release of Glitter and the big bash in New York. I was going through my mail and found a package from Virgin. It contained a 30-second clip of the rap version of Loverboy. I was furious. They truly were fucking this up, I thought. Heres how records work: Momentum.
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Dont let anybody hear shit. Drop the record to radio and push it to No. 1 by virtue of promo and massive spins. Get as many stations behind it as fast as possible even before the possibility of a negative radio programmer reaction, taking advantage of the sheer fact that nobody wants to be late to a party, and if a records truly going to soar, everybody wants to get in on it early. Thats what works. I called Virgin and said, What are you thinking sending out a snippet of Loverboy? The dude was all proud of himself. Yeah, its great, isnt it! That was my idea! Exasperated, I said, Why would you do that? He said, Oh, radio stations are going to loop it and play it. Thatll be great, wont it! Well, no, I told him. I am your radio station and I sure as hell wont play a 30-second loop of ANYTHING! I called Mariah. I really didnt want to upset her but she needed to know ahead of time that this thing wasnt going to work the way shed hoped. Keep in mind that your pop fans and radio are already mad at you because youve done so many rap records and here Virgins sending out a snippet of the rap version of Loverboy. Her head was in the clouds, however, and she figured it would all be as beautiful as roses filled with summer rain. We met up at the New York album release party and I told her that I was exhausted and really didnt want to go to Detroit with her. Ill meet you in L.A. Ive got to get back to Power. Next thing I knew I was on the plane with one of my business partners in my Baby Ree label, Sujit. To Detroit .... It was about 2 in the morning when we landed. Eminem picked us up at the airport himself and we headed toward his place. Everything seemed to be going great at first, at least between them. They were talking and laughing and had all sorts of ideas about
collaborating on music and, of course, the film. I told him to drop me and Sujit at the hotel because I was tired and needed to get some sleep, and he was just as wiped out. When I woke up the next day I called the security head and asked him what time Mariah got to the hotel from Ems. He said they were still at his house. I showered and tried to get my act together and Mariah called. Yo, Im still here. Everybody was tired so we all just crashed here. Why dont you come over? Eminem then got on the line and said, Hey dude, Ill send the limo for you. Ive got a studio here and Id like you to see the house. OK, I said. The car came and picked Sujit and me up. When we got to Eminems there were so many people around. In a way, it reminded me of our place in Santa Barbara sometimes all kinds of family and friends hangin out. I met his aunt and his uncle who live there, his nephew, and some other people. They were all terrific. Proof of Ems group D12 then came up the stairs from the basement with two girls. Hey, Proof! Hey Mizz, hows it goin? This did not look good to me. I thought to myself, Mariahs here. Eminems here. And Proof just came out of the basement with two girls. What does this look like? Bad. Even Mariah was getting the picture that Glitter wasnt going to be all golden and while I knew the lure of another movie role was welcome distraction for her, Im certain that she also figured she could get some good publicity mileage out of being associated with Eminem. We hung out in Detroit for a day or two and then headed for L.A. On the plane, I asked Mariah again, Are you sure about this one? Ive got a bad feeling. Youre gonna end up on the ugly end of this however it turns out. If I were you, Id get out of this situation
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now. Listen, look at it this way Em already tried to pull one on you by saying you could play his mother in the film. Theres not much respect there. She said, Oh, no, we had a really good talk. We went for a long walk and I can identify with him and what hes been through. There wasnt much else I could say. I warned her about Glitter and Id now warned her about getting in with Eminem. The record was in the can. It was time for me to back off again. A few weeks passed and I got a panic call from Eminems manager, Paul Rosenberg. Damion, what the fuck! Uh, whats up, Paul? Eminems in New York, he said. Hes there with Mariah hes on probation. He cant be in New York! I need to get him back to Detroit or theres gonna be huge shit. I called one of Mariahs people and asked what was going on. At first her assistant played dumb but then said OK, I know, Im trying to fix it. Ill figure it out and call you back. Paul called me again. For fucks sake! (It must have) leaked it to the press that hes there with her! Were gonna release a statement and were gonna fuckin demolish this bitch! I said, Paul, do me a favor, please. Ive done a lot of favors for you guys. Dont let him diss her please dont release anything. He calmed down a little and told me, OK, man, but tell her to shut up. As long as I dont see anything else, were good. I called Mariah. Im on my way to New York. We have a problem. When I got to her apartment, she was walking around with a smug smile. Oh, she said, Eminem left his CD case here. Hes on probation and had to go home fast. I said, Mariah, what are you doin? She said, Oh hes a great guy. I got a bottle of wine, opened it, and drank about half of it in
one gulp. I knew this was going to happen. I really wanted to help Mariah but she was lighting fuses all around her and I couldnt put them all out. I tried again to explain where this Eminem thing was going, that it had nothing to do with his movie, that she wouldnt be in it, and that the whole thing was going to be a train wreck. She acted like I wasnt even there. I had to get back to L.A. and spend some time at Power because I was scheduled to head to England for publicity with Shade Sheist on my Damizza Presents project. I continued to juggle the radio gig, my own album and Shades album, the single from which had hit the charts at No. 14 in England and was gaining momentum. But I started to realize that Id been neglecting a lot of my own responsibilities in favor of damage control for Mariah, which pissed me off because she wasnt appreciating what I was trying to do and wasnt even taking the advice I was giving her. I needed a break of heading overseas without Mariah for a change, so I headed to London with Shade to do some shows and some media for his album the full weight of which was resting on the shoulders of me and my Baby Ree company. Shade and I were in a BBC studio doing a live interview and I was pretty pumped; things were lookin good for us and the reception was very positive for the album. Hello, everyone, the host said. We have Damizza here with Shade Sheist talking about their single Where I Wanna Be. Hi, how are you
MARiAH CAREY So beautiful and she can cook, too! Mariah in the kitchen of a yacht we were vacationing on in Florida.
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guys doing? We thanked the host, and then he said, Before we start, weve just got news that Mariah Carey is acting erratically. Lets see that clip . I watched, with horror, a video of Mariah freaking out and swinging a pink Hello Kitty boombox at one of Howard Sterns people. So, Damion the host says, We know youre one of Mariahs best friends. What do you think of this? Ambushed on live TV, National British TV, when Im supposed to be promoting my own single with Shade. Well, I know shes been under a tremendous amount of pressure and thats really fucked up to do what you just did. Needless to say, that was the end of the interview. I was pissed. Shade and I stormed out of the studio. When I got outside, I called New York and asked Mariahs road manager what was going on. Damion, he said, you gotta get back here. Like NOW. There is some crazy shit going on. Shes not sleeping. Shes not eating. The next morning as I was packing and getting ready to check out of the hotel, the TV news had a report of Mariah stripping in front of the camera on Carson Dalys MTV program. I watched, and my heart sank. One of the first things to go through my head was deep guilt. I should never have left, I thought. But I couldnt just abandon my careers in radio and music to look after her. It was a mind scramble. I later found out that shed been with Eminem in Detroit, theyd had some sort of fight. I landed in New York and went to her apartment, but was told she had flown to L.A. looking for me, not knowing that I was in England. At this point, I was supposed to be in New York helping get Hot 97 back on track. It looked like that was going to be my next permanent move, running the station. After Power 106 in L.A.,
running Hot 97 was my next big personal dream. At first, I thought I just couldnt chase her to California this time and throw away that dream. But I weighed the importance of friendship and made my decision. I walked into program director Tracy Chloritys office and told her that I was going to have to go to L.A. for a while. But youre working here now, Damion. Youve been away in England youre finally back and we need you. You cant go to L.A. I told her I had to. Mariahs sick and she has no support. Damion Listen, Funkmaster Flex hasnt signed his new contract yet, and were screwed if he doesnt. I asked her for his contract and said Id do what I could. I walked down the hall to the on-air studio and put the envelope on the desk. Flex, are gonna stay here or not? He said, Man, I dont know. I pushed the envelope toward him. Times up. Are you gonna stay here or not? He shrugged his shoulders, said Fuck it, and he signed the contract. I walked back to Tracys office and put it on her desk. I said, Funkmaster Flex just re-signed his contract. Im going to LA. I got a cab and called Rick Cummings and told him what was going on. He sounded worried. Damion, this is your big thing. Youre in New York, where you wanted to be. This is a very big career decision youre making right now. You realize that? I said, Yeah, Rick. Im already in a taxi on the way to the airport. Rick was right, this was a huge decision. But it was the only way I was capable of going. Staying in New York for a job wasnt the option when my best friend needed my help. And for years Id pushed it as far as I could with Emmis. I was doing my job, but I was hardly ever at either station because I was on the road with Mariah or in some studio with Dre, Snoop Dogg, Shade or
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whomever. I got to L.A. and went looking for Mariah and one of her people said shed driven up to Santa Barbara. This was bad if she went all the way to my hometown in search of me. I finally found her at a hotel downtown. She looked so tired. Damion, its all fucked up, she said. The albums comin out but nothins right. It was a flurry of hypothetical disasters. It was clear she hadnt slept and hadnt eaten and was worrying herself sick. She was exhausted, plain and simple. I told her she needed to get checked out by a doctor and get some rest and nutrition. She agreed and we went to a prominent west side hospital. The doctors told me she was dehydrated and needed to be admitted for observation. I called her assistant, reached her security guys and assured them Mariah was safe but that she needed to be left alone for a few days. That meant absolutely NO ENTOURAGE of any kind. I also didnt want the media finding out she was being treated for exhaustion after the less-than-flattering stuff that had gone on over the previous few weeks. A few days later it was September 11, 2001. The phone woke me up. It was Sujit and DJ Vice on a conference call. Yo, Damion, turn on the TV right now. Some plane just crashed into the World Trade Center. I turned on the TV and watched the world change. I flipped around from CNN to Fox and L.A.-based newscasts. As the news escalated and all air traffic was being suspended and West Coast targets began to be speculated, Mariah called me. Come get me now! They say the hospital might be attacked. Come get me now! I whipped over to the hospital as fast as I could with her brother Morgan, and we checked her out. She was rested and had been given food, vitamins and fluids. The staff told us to take a back exit to avoid any attention, since there was paparazzi camped out at the hospital already. Great idea, I thought. Well no! It was a
BAD idea, as the back entrance the staff directed us to turned out to be the main psych ward entrance and of course there was a National Enquirer photographer camped out and got a bunch of photos of us and it looked SO BAD. Mariahs brother Morgan was with me and we decided to head to my Grandmas place in Santa Barbara, since in the days after 9/11 there was no way she was going to get back home to New York for at least a week. In all the panic, it nearly escaped us that the Glitter soundtrack was hitting stores that morning. And no wonder. Interesting how sometimes your priorities are so twisted it takes such massive tragedy to slap your ass smart again. I called my Dad, and we talked a bit about the terrorist attacks. Then I told him he should bring by brothers Nick and Jason over, because I wanted them to meet Mariah. She sat with my little brothers on the floor in front of the TV, watching the days events unfold and eating Rustys pizza. After a few days, we headed back to L.A. I tried to get myself back on track with Power. Eminem came out and dissed Mariah. If that wasnt enough of a shit storm, the next issue of the National Enquirer hit newsstands. One of my engineers came by and said, So, youre in the Enquirer! I said, What do you mean? and he put a copy on the table. My girlfriend picked up a copy. Mariah Carey had a nervous breakdown, and you went to pick her up from the hospital! There I was in a photo helping her into the car under the psych ward sign at the hospital. Fuckin paparazzi chasing Mariah on 9/11. That was messed up. I told everyone the truth that it was all bullshit, that Mariah did not have a breakdown, but that she was exhausted just like I was. Truth be told, I was the one who was starting to unravel. By the first of the year, I started to come undone. My drinking had gotten completely out of control and I freely admit that I was losing it. I wasnt showing up for work, I wasnt finishing my records, and had
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even blown $150,000 of my own money doing a rap-themed short film at the Bates Motel on the Universal lot which was sort of my own Glitter in a way: A really bad idea I wish someone had have talked me out of. At this point, I was the one who was lost, not Mariah. She was healthy and in a good headspace. There were plans for her to perform at the Super Bowl, so I stayed pretty close to her. She was my best friend and I wanted to keep her spirits up, and, I admit, I was leaning on her for support. She rehearsed in the stadium the night before the game, and she sounded awesome. I knew she was going to do great and that it would be just the thing she and all her fans needed. The next morning, she came in absolutely beaming. The golden goose has landed, she said. I said, Huh? The settlement check. Virgin paid me today. They bought out her contract after just one album. Critics and some fans obviously panned Glitter, both the film and the soundtrack album we produced but in hindsight, neither was the disaster many had predicted nor even hoped for in some evil way. The film made money, opening at No. 11, which is pretty good for an indie film. Roger Ebert gave Mariah a positive review for her performance. And the album was certified Platinum. That aint no bomb, no matter how you slice it. And now, she was officially a free agent. Mariah, said Look, sweetheart, get your own label this time. Get a hefty back end please dont take the front money. You dont need it. You need to own your shit. She told me she wanted to sign with Def Jam. Here we go again, I thought. I didnt want to risk upsetting her before the Super Bowl performance, which was seen by many people as her comeback. Since this was so soon after 9/11, there was rumor that all the
living presidents were going to attend the game in a show of unity. The Secret Service was everywhere, and we all had to submit our information for background checks about three weeks before the game. All the presidents didnt show, but Bill Clinton did an intro via satellite, and former President George Bush Sr., and former Vice President Al Gore were in attendance, as was Rudy Giuliani. Jerry Blair and I were walking around backstage talking about what the plans were for Mariah now that she was out from under Virgin. And already we had the idea that hed take over as president of her label, Monarch Records. It was so cool, since hed been with her since the Sony days and had had a falling out with Tommy. He knew how to work Mariah records. As we were walking, I saw Al Gore. Now, Mariah and I had this great inside joke going on between us because we were such huge fans of Gore and, like the millions of people who had voted him into the presidency, were so angry that he America had been swindled out of it. Since the sham election, Mariah and I had called each other Al. It was our nickname for each other and eventually, Mariahs security and the whole staff was in on the joke. When I saw the real dude, Jerry turned to me and said, Damion, dont do it! He was the vice president of the United States! Dont do it! Without hesitation, I walked up and tapped Gore on the shoulder and said, Hey, Al, hows it goin! Im Damion Young, Mariah Careys best friend. He said, Hi, Damion, how are you? I told him that Mariah and I were huge fans. He said he was a fan of Mariahs and that he liked Glitter. You saw Glitter? I asked. Yeah, Tipper and I really enjoyed it. My mission became introducing them! After all Mariah had
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been through that year, I thought it would be great for her. Do you think you could come back and say hi to her really quick before she goes on stage? He explained that he had his family with him and a lot of Secret Service protection. I said Bring em! Well, hold on a second. He said something to one of the detail. The dude looked at me from behind his Men In Black style sunglasses and spoke into his sleeve. He then said something to Al. Al came over and said, OK, Damion, Im cleared, lets go On our way to the dressing room, he asked me about Mariah being bought out of the Virgin contract. I was stunned. How do you know about that? He told me that he read a lot of papers every morning. If I dont know whats going on, reporters start saying things like I invented the Internet or something and I get caught off guard! The way he said it was so funny. I said, I know, dealing with press is kind of an interesting endeavor. He went on to offer his opinion that Virgin had really
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messed up the whole Glitter project by promoting it as a soundtrack and not an album! My mind was blown. I could totally picture him kicking back
in the vice presidents office, listening to Tupac or something. Al Gore is officially the coolest dude on the planet, and that was the icing on the cake. We were going down the hallway toward Mariahs dressing room and her head of security, saw us and ordered her door opened. Mariahs assistant then stepped in the way and said, Damion, youre not doing this! She has to sing in front of 150 million people in 15 minutes. I said, Louise, I understand youre a die-hard Republican, but do you really want to embarrass yourself, me, and her in front of the former vice president? I asked Al to wait for a second and I walked past Louise to prep Mariah. She turned when I came in and said Hi. Als here, I said. What? Yeah, I know. Im pretty nervous. I laughed and said, No, Als here. Hold on. I stepped back outside and returned with the former VP. He walked up and put his hand on her shoulder and said, So, I hear youre Al, too! Mariah started laughing her ass off. It was great. We had a quick picture taken and then left Mariah to psych herself up for her performance. Man, did she nail it! I believe that meeting the real Al just before took her mind off it and she was so relaxed and in such a good mood that it was magic. In the months to come our relationship deepened but also became far more complicated. Weve both have huge abandonment issues and are very needy when it comes to that sort of thing. But for roughly the next two years, we were inseparable. And I quite happily let everything become about her. Well, her and vodka. She would rely on me, and I would rely on the bottle. I had all of her problems to take care of, on top of Power 106 and all that. I had almost completely abandoned the stations, but it they were on auto-pilot anyway and for the time being I was still under the radar.
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It was No. 1 so things were all right. Sort of. I was slowly losing my grip on reality, though. Things between us became difficult and I became more demanding of her attention and resentful when I didnt get it, or what I believed to be enough of it. The L.A. Times did a hatchet job on me one morning, accusing me of having an conflict of interest by being a radio guy and a record producer at the same time. One of her security guards had a copy and told me that the paper was calling me one of the most powerful radio executives in the country. I started reading the piece and was devastated. Id almost always been out of the spotlight. And the only time Mariah and I had been linked at all in any context other than my being a producer of her material was the National Enquirer. Wed managed to keep it pretty quiet. But I didnt know how to handle this and was really upset. Mariah brushed it off, sort of like, Im glad theyre talking about somebody else for a change. She said, Welcome to the club. But it was a big deal
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for me, and perception can be everything. I hadnt done anything wrong, and, in fact, my
arrangement of being a working producer and a radio executive was explicitly approved by the FCC. There was no way Emmis or I would have risked that. Bottom line, I was never in on any programming decisions that involved any records I was involved with. Simple. But the Times seemed to make it their mission to try to destroy me. My drinking only got worse. And then it began affecting my personality, like it does with just about everybody who has a drinking problem. I became irritable and extremely unhappy and I was absolutely no fun to be around. I didnt give her enough credit, but Mariah was more stable than I was at this time. And then her Dad died, which was heartbreaking. I did nothing for a month but comfort her as she grieved and wondered what was going on with her life. My career was sinking fast, and I didnt care. She was rebounding, though it was pretty stressful trying to get Monarch organized and establish a solid management backing for her. Part of that process was easing out some of her staff at the time who, as Ive said, are amazing people but not up to the task of managing a superstar like Mariah. A lot of the time with Mariah was a blast. I mean, we had a lot of fun all over the world. But I was becoming resentful of the fact that everything was about Mariah. Even when it was something like my birthday party, our plans revolved around her and what she wanted to do. I understand now that this is the way it is in that crazy world of high celebrity and is really not that much a reflection on her, but the situation. Still, it didnt make it easier for me to handle. I had gone from being the nicest guy in the world to being a complete prick. I wasnt helping her as much as Id been previously, and we were clashing about everything. I tried to give her good advice and told her what she should and shouldnt be doing, but everything was becoming a wedge between us. I had started to hide
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my drinking and I isolated as much as I could. I began to make excuses why I couldnt go places with her. Mariah didnt know what was going on and the depths to where I was sinking. That wasnt her fault. As time went on, things with Jerry Blair didnt work out the way Id hoped and he faded out of the picture. Then Mariah came to me and said she was interested in talking with Benny Medina about management. I was taken aback and asked her why she was thinking of Jennifer Lopezs manager, but I was so faded most of the time and disinterested I didnt know that she was no longer with Blair. I was out of it, frankly. But I did start to think about where things were: What I needed to do, and what was best for Mariah. That alcoholic moment of clarity, as they say. Well, of sorts. I knew in my heart that things could not go on the way they had been. It was bad for Mariahs career, because she needed stable management, and my career was in a holding pattern that was about to crash and burn, due to the double whammy of my drinking and decisions Emmis was making at its radio stations without my knowledge. Benny, I thought, was a good solution. I decided that Id do what I could to get him on board, finish the work on her Charmbracelet record and then step out of the picture. Benny would be my ticket out and her ticket to stable management. As much as I love her, it was the last smart thing I could do for her as her friend. I started courting Benny, talking to him every day. I went to his office in L.A. and he asked me about exactly where I fit into the picture: We both knew the answer I didnt fit into Mariahs future. Because of me and my relationship with her, on all levels being one of the producers of her music as well as my position at Power and Hot 97, other stations such as L.A.s KISS and The Beat were beginning to boycott her records.
When that happened, it broke my heart but it was clear I had to NOT be in her life anymore. I was endangering her very career. And I was hitting the bottle hard, so I was losing my effectiveness as it was. I kept working with her on records already in production and we still had a performance at the Universal Amphitheater with Shade Sheist and Nate Dogg. After the show she told me she had an appointment that night with Benny (who pulled me aside and said he didnt even know I was performing with Mariah that night his point quite correctly being that I still had too much influence over her decisions. He basically told me that it was him or me. Mariah begged me to go to the meeting that night. I said Id be there. Its the only time I lied to her. I went straight home to my condo, turned my phone off and drank myself into unconsciousness. The last time I saw her was in her game room at her place in Manhattan. She was peacefully asleep. I looked around and knew in my heart it was the last time Id see her in that kind of setting. I actually said out loud, quietly, Goodbye. Youre gonna be fine. I love you. I went to the living room and looked around at the pictures of everyone. I looked in her bedroom for the last time and saw that photograph beside her bed of the two of us her bunching up my cheeks and felt sad. I retreated to Grannys for the holidays and didnt talk to anyone else. I didnt talk to
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Mariah. I stopped returning calls from my bosses at Power. I faxed a letter of resignation and issued a press release saying I was retiring. I next found out that just about everyone involved with my Baby Ree Records label had been embezzling my money and had stolen everything I had while I was off with Mariah and drinking myself into a stupor. I quite consciously made the decision to lock myself in my room and keep myself in an alcoholic haze for the next year and ignore the world. For a while, Mariah tried often to contact me. She sent me a package with a bunch of the old movies we used to always watch together, such
LIZ POKORA PHOTO: The first time Mariah and I met, in the on-air studio at Power 106.
as Weird Science and Sixteen Candles. She called Granny and talked to her and asked her why
I had gone MIA. Hey, that says everything about what a great person Mariah really is and why shell always be the best friend Ill ever have and Ill always miss that friend. But at least I knew that Mariah was doing great. She won a Grammy for Album of the Year and was, as far as I knew, happy and healthy. That gave me the greatest feeling. She was back. I was gone.
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You know theres always stuff you do that your boss just isnt gonna be all that happy about. Like, well, coming in on a Monday morning and explaining that youve hired Snoop Dogg. Its not something Id been planning. But the night I first met Snoop was at a show at The Palace in L.A. I was putting a show on with Daz and Kurupt from Tha Dogg Pound and when I saw him standing there I knew something was up. Damn! I said, Snoop Dogg! He said, Yeah, whats up? but there was no hiding the fact he wasnt doing great. Still, I asked how he was. No, not too good right now, actually, he said. The dude was wearing a blue Georgetown Bulldogs jumpsuit that was all wrinkled and dirty. He said, I just left Death Row (Records). They had me on salary, so Im doin bad now. Aint got no money. It hit me instantly. Really? Well, what are you doin on the weekends? He said, What do you mean? I explained Id hire him on the spot to work as a DJ at Power. Its 50 bucks an hour. Four hours a weekend, and four weekends a month. After thinking about it for a minute, he said, Yeah, Id like that. I told him to drop by the station and wed do the paperwork and get it done.
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Management wasnt thrilled with me not that this was an entirely new situation. Snoop having his own radio show? Out of the gate everyone knew that hed be playing whatever the fuck he wanted. Especially his own new music, which was unfamiliar with the listeners and unfamiliar music is a major no-no in anyones radio playbook. The next week, he showed up, ready to start. I walked him through every office at Power, and introduced him to everyone as our new employee, Snoop Doggy Dogg. It had been a couple years since Tha Doggfather had come out, and Snoop didnt really have a whole lot of other stuff going on at the time. Even though a lot of other people werent believing in Snoop at the time, I knew this was going to be a great move in the long run. A Power DJ named Fuzzy Fantabulous had started a show called Curb Servin around the same time. He invited Snoop to come on the program, and once he and Fuzzy hit it off, everything flowed perfectly. Fuzzy would go to Snoops house and get some songs that Snoop had recorded in his home studio over the weekend. He was even making the beats himself! Then Fuzzy would get on the air and do a segment playing what Snoop was cooking up. One time, Fuzzy brought in the song Midnight Love, featuring Raphael Saadiq and Daz Dillinger. I said, Wow! What is this? Get Snoop on the phone. We started playing the record, and we had Snoop start to play more of his records on his own show during the weekend. He said, By the way, Im pissed off at The Beat. I recorded a diss record going at em. Tha Baka Boyz played it, and that record just killed The Beat. It was bad! And I look at that day as a turning point for Power 106. When Snoop Dogg got on the air and said, not only This is my station, but That other station can eat a bowl of salty nuts, we won over the streets. It was the ultimate artist co-sign.
Then it was time for Snoop to launch his own show. The first night he showed up, he asked me, Where do I smoke at? I said, You cant smoke here. Its federally regulated property, so it would be a felony. He said, Dame, I cant do the radio show if I cant smoke. I called up Rick Cummings and told him my dilemma. He said, I totally get how big it is to have Snoop doing a radio show. We looked all over the building for a spot for Snoop to blaze up, and we even went up on the roof. Finally, I said, All right, how about the stairwell? Rick looked at me with a grin on his face and said, No smoking in the stairwell. There. Ive said everything I need to say. Im leaving now.
ARNOLD TURNER PHOTO: Snoop Dogg performing at the Shrine Auditorium in Los Angeles.
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From there, Snoop was off and running high, if youll forgive the pun. One time, he came and performed Lodi Dodi with Doug E Fresh during an old-school showcase, and I recorded the performance. We started playing that live version on the radio, and it was a hit! An old trick I picked up doing alternative radio had sure paid off. One day, I came in, and Snoop had a new Rolex on and some serious gold around his neck. He looked richer than shit. I said, Whats goin on with you Snoop? He said, Yo, man. Master P gave me some love. I was playing these records on the show and Master P heard em and called me up. Im signed to No Limit now and Im rich again! Snoop was with Power for a couple of years and it was great. Outside of the station, we did the Chronic 2001 reunion concert with Dre together, and all sorts of big moves. But one day when I dropped in during his show he came to me during a break and said, Yo, man, I cant do this radio show anymore. I said, Why? He said, Well, I got a memo in my box, and it says that I cant smoke weed no more. They said that Disney can smell the weed. Where the fuck is Disney? I said, Damn. They have an office right above us. So, after Disney snitched on us that day, Snoop said, XM radio is talking to me about the show. And Ive talked to some other people about how we can make it pop. I said, Well, let me help you. He said, Nah man, this is over your head. I thought to myself, Over my head? Didnt I start you in radio? Then Snoop said that he wasnt been valued at Power he was bringing in great ratings and that Val Maki (the general manager) didnt want to pay him anymore, let alone give him the raise he figured he deserved. Well, truth is that ratings for Snoops show were good at first, for
all kinds of reasons the novelty factor, the fact that he was doin some pretty cool stuff that no radio listeners could get anywhere else, and the undeniable truth that his star was back on the rise. But the ratings had slowly been declining because there was a lot of talking when there should have been music and, like that golden rule: no matter who youve got behind the mic, listeners will only stick around for so much unfamiliar music. Another truth is that artists on the radio wear out fast, which is not great for the station and, honestly, not an entirely good thing for the artists either, because it makes them too accessible. If you hear them every week on the radio, they become familiar. In terms of entertainment that may not necessarily breed contempt but its almost certain to breed something far more dangerous: Boredom. Lets say, for example, that your favorite artist is Jay-Z. If you see him at the coffee shop every weekend, instead of Oh my God, its Jay-Z, it becomes, Oh yeah, I saw Jay this weekend. The mystery drifts away. And thats what was happening with the Snoop Dogg brand. So when he wanted to take the show somewhere else, I said, Cool. See you later. Good luck, man. And he left. I didnt harbor any negativity toward Snoop and, like Ive said all along, Im ultimately a huge fan and supporter of music and when I can help em out like I did him, I sleep soundly at night. Since his departure seemed cool with both of us at the time, I was a little surprised when I heard hed taken a turn against me. After the Shade Sheist Informal Introduction album came out, my Baby Ree partner Sujit was over at the House of Blues and ran into Snoop. Snoop told him, Hey, you still fuck with Damion? Sujit said, Yeah. Snoop said, Well fuck Damion Young. Sujit said, Why? He said, Because he put Shade Sheist on, and Shade Sheist is whack.
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A couple of weeks later I ran into Snoop in Vegas at a 213 concert. When I walked in with Warren G and Nate Dogg, he acted all buddy-buddy and said, Hey Damion, whats going on! Are you gonna smoke with me? I was a little confused, given what Sujit had told me had gone down at the House of Blues, and had more expected to get a face full of shit about Shade. Sure, Snoop, why not, I said. Things kinda go back and forth with us like that, an experience Ive had with a lot of artists. Maybe it has something to do with the insecurities of some creative people in some weird way it makes them feel better if they know you one day, dont know you the next and then its like youre best friends again on the weekend. Or, fuck, maybe I just have that effect on people! Or maybe its the smoke. Nah! At a Shade show in Fresno one night, Warren G walked backstage, much to my surprise. What the hell are you doin here, Warren? Turned out he and Snoop were performing as well. We all got together before the show. Snoop took two blunts and attached them in the middle. The thing was huge, as thick as a Sharpie and I dont know how long. Talk about medical marijuana, this fucking thing was its own clinic! Snoop lit the thing up and after only one puff, the promoter walked up to us and said, Hey, Snoop, will you take a picture with a couple of people? Exhaling a big blue cloud, he said, Sure, who do you want it with? and took another hit. The promoter replied, The chief of police and the fire chief. Snoop let that billow of smoke out with one giant cough and said, Here, Damizza, hold this. For some reason, my dumb ass took the blunt, but then Snoop
must have seen the look on my face. Youre the only white boy in here, he said. They aint gonna bust you! I stood there kinda freaking out, wondering if I should find a way to ditch the blunt, when the promoter said, No, its okay. They wanted to know if you could hold a joint while they have their picture taken. They think it would be funny. Snoop said, Oh, Damion, give me that shit back. Im sure those dudes didnt hang that photo in their offices! And, damn, I didnt even get a hit off that monster. And Im sure it was fine, because Snoop is the weed guru. One time, I was in New York mixing the Money Owners record with Timbaland and I ran out of kush. Snoop was in town, so I called him up and said, Yo, Im dry out here. He said, Cool, stop by the studio. I went in and he pulled out a duffle bag. He said, I flew in private, and pulled out big freezer bags full of weed. There must have been at least five ounces in there. I said, I just need a nug and Ill be cool. He said, Oh yeah, all right Damizza. He started taking handfuls of the assorted weed flavors and throwing them into an empty bag. I said, Dude, Im only here for two days! He didnt even look at me as he kept shoveling the weed. Do you need papers too? I went back to my hotel that night, paranoid out of my mind, because I had God knows how much weed on me. Aside from my incredible bond with Bishop Lamont, who I think could be an absolutely huge star and is one of the most solid dudes on the planet, another great dude in the West Coast camp that Ive come to absolutely love is Warren G. Hes one of my closest friends in the music business. Sometimes I talk to Warren maybe twice or three
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times a week, and its been that way since about 1998. Warren is the coolest motherfucker on the planet. For someone to be as legendary as he is, I would strive to be one-tenth of this guy. I compare him to Bishop in that hes among the most humble, most creative, and the most responsible people on the West Coast today. If there were no Warren G, you would not have Snoop Dogg. If there were no Warren G, you would not have Nate Dogg. If there were no Warren G, you wouldnt have any of the G-Funk phase, period. And Ill tell you why. Warren G is the half-brother of Andre Romell Young, who happens to be Dr. Dre the Great. Dre was working with The DOC, Eazy-E, and all these things, and he didnt know where he was gonna go after all that stuff. Warren was at a pool party and handed Dre a cassette, and Dre was like, Im not trying to hear that shit. So Warren went over and put the cassette on. This cassette happened to be the group 213, which consisted of Snoop, Nate, and Warren G. Dre all of a sudden goes, What the fuck was that? Warren G said, That was the tape I wanted to play you. Who is that rapping? Thats Snoop Doggy Dogg. Snoop Doggy Dogg? I need to fuck with him! Whos that singing? Thats Nate Dogg. I need to fuck with him! So the next thing you know, Tha Dogg Pound, Kurupt, Daz, all these people become Dr. Dres team, and its from Warren G. Warren did a lot of stuff behind the scenes on The Chronic album. Nobody knows that. Warren G is an enabler and a consistent finder of talent on the West Coast. People dont realize how much he had to do with Bishop Lamont in the beginning. If you look at Def Jam and read Russell Simmons book, do you
know what saved Def Jam? Warren G. They were gonna go bankrupt! They put out Regulate A G-Funk Era and sold four million records, saving the company. And thats a New York label. Warren wasnt intimidated by the Death Row situation, he just didnt want to be like everybody else and be on the same place. He needed to be a priority. Warren doesnt care who you are or what status you have. Hes my OG, and all he cares about is the music. The other reason I love Warren so much is because hes just the most regular guy you would ever meet. He doesnt act like a star. Youll never see Warren say, Im running 20 minutes late to get my hair done. You give Warren a 12-pack of Heineken and a pizza, and hes straight. And when I say that, I mean it, literally. This is how we got down the first time: I met Warren through Tha Baka Boyz. The first time I really sat down with Warren, he signed up to do an All-Star Morning Show for us at Power 106. Tha Baka Boyz were on vacation, so we found celebrity guest hosts to fill in for them for the week. So Warren showed up and said, I cant go on. I said, Whats wrong? He said, I need a six pack of Heineken and a Dominos pizza. Keep in mind, its six oclock in the morning. Where the fuck am I gonna find a Dominos pizza at six in the morning? So we went on the air, and I got him his Heineken. I walked in the studio a couple minutes later and hes already drinking it on air. He announced to the listeners, I need to find a Dominos pizza. One of the managers from the Dominos down the street called up and goes, Im here early getting everything together and Ill bring it. As hes eating the pizza, I said, How do you do this for breakfast? I have no concept of time. I just got out of the studio. I havent been to sleep yet, he said. And from that moment forward, I said, Warrens the man!
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After he got off the air, we sat down and talked. I asked him about all the crazy records he put out like Regulate, and I realized there was just no star ego with this guy. Hes the most regular legend youll find. Hes not a celebrity. Hes a real person, who just happens to be a celebrity. Time goes on, and Im so honored to say that Warren became my very close friend. And talk about everything life, kids, music, beats, anything you can imagine. And I cant even tell some of the stories of being in the studio with Warren, because hes crazy! (And Granny would strangle me!) I started to notice that just about every time I was in the studio, Warren would just show up and hang out. So everything I was doing, I would just attach Warren to it. Any place we went, it was a party. Warren was so cool about it. For instance, when we were in Hawaii for the Dr. Dre and Snoop reunion show, Warren came up to me and said, Lets go get some of them motorized scooters and go cruising around on them. So were cruising around on the scooters, everyone takes off and I guess I was moving slow, because I got lost. I got back to the hotel, and Im like, Warren, where he hell did you guys go? He said, Oh cuzz, you missed it! Look at KnocTurnal, he just got back from the hospital.
SUJIT KUNDU PHOTO: Warren G. and me just getting the party started at Puffys restaurant Justins in Manhattan at a bash Puff threw for my 25th birthday.
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I looked over and see Knoc on crutches with a scraped up face. Later on the trip, we walked into a restaurant and people were freaking out. Oh, Warren G, can I get an autograph? Can I get a picture with you? Warren was just like, Its all good. Just sit down and have a beer with me. Warren is a person where, if all else fails, hell always be the same. There are mornings when I wake up and the first call is from Warren. Whats up, fool. Bishop is the same. The very first Up In Smoke tour stop was in San Diego. During the performances, Warren was nowhere to be found. I went looking for him after the show in the parking lot. I see Warren drive by, alone, in his van. I said, What the hell is going on? Why is Warren driving in the parking lot by himself ? I jumped in front of the van and I said, Yo! He rolled down the window and said, Whats up, cuzz? I said, What the hell are you doing? After fumbling around for a while, he said, Im trying to find the fucking exit. I said, Homie, you are faded and youre out here by yourself! Do you realize how many of these gangbangers are out here? He said, Fuck that, cuzz, and pulls out the biggest gun Id ever seen in my life. I said, Oh God. Warren, get in the back. Sujit and I got into the car and drove him to the exit. He said, It was time for me to go home, and I couldnt find nobody, so I said, fuck it, Im going home! Return Of the Regulator pops up in 2002, and he said, Damion, I need some help with this. I was at Hot 97 at the time, so I just put the record into rotation immediately. Universal screwed up that project big time. It was his chance to come back but they didnt understand how to promote a
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West Coast act. We were doing all this promotion, and Warren said, So are you going on the road with me? The next thing I know, Im on a tour bus, going up and down and through California. I hooked him up with Sujit, who started working his record, and before I knew it, we were on the same team. Bishop was a youngster in a group of cats before the New West wave. Sixx John, Bishop Lamont, and Ne-Yo were the dudes that I would always hear about in the streets while I was doing research for Power. All of those cats were in the up-and-coming circuit. Warren was working at the studio one night, and this young guy was walking around, handing out CDs out during the session. The guy handed me a CD, and I looked at it. I said, Whats your name? He said, My name is Titus. I said, Hey Titus, nice to meet you. Is this is your stuff ? He said, Yeah! I said, You know what you should do? I handed him a Sharpie and said, You need to go back to all the CDs that you just passed out to all these people and write your name and number on it. He said, Oh, thats a good idea! I said, Yeah, because you never know who youre handing a CD to. He said, Well, who are you? I said, My name is Damion Young, Im the senior director of programming at Power 106. He said, Oh shit! Warrens my big homie, and hes told me about you! Heres how the circle works around Warren. If somebody is talented, he doesnt care about claiming that he discovered them. It doesnt matter if its Snoop Dogg or Bishop or Titus, hes always trying to cultivate talent. So Titus handed me his CD that night.
I left the CD on the seat in my car and forgot about it. When I went to bed that night, I remembered, Shit, some kid gave me a CD. I dont know why, but I went back out into my car and got the CD. I took the CD out of the car, walked back upstairs, put it in my boombox and said, Okay. The third song on the CD I loved. It was past midnight, but I called and left a message for Big Boy anyway. I ran into him in the hallway the next morning and told him about the record. We had it all set up to premiere it the next morning on his show. I called Mariah and I said, Yo, youve got to hear this new song. She said, Hes not signed, and if youre gonna play the song on the radio, you should tell him to at least send it to himself certified mail, so at least it some form of copyright and no one can steal the song. Right then, Titus called my cell phone. I said, Yo, Im gonna play your song tomorrow on Power 106! He said, Really? I said, Hold on a second. I clicked back over to Mariah and said, Hold up, Ive got Titus on the phone now, Im gonna try to explain what you just told me so Ill call you right back. She said, Well, lets just call him back together on three-way! There was no Hollywood shit here! So we called up Titus together. Titus was like, Uhh Mariah said, Hey by the way, you should mail this to yourself This is the kind of shit that happens around Warren! I went up the next morning and played this demo which wasnt mastered and was recorded in Tituss room live on the radio. Titus and I would start talking on the phone from time to time and spit some game. One time he said, Yo, have you ever met Bishop Lamont?
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I said, No, but Ive heard of him. He said, Oh, well Ill bring him by your office sometime. Titus walked in a few days later with this youngster named Bishop Lamont. Bishop said, Yo! I heard what you did for Titus. That was awesome. Ive heard a lot about you from Warren too. Its nice to meet you! After we got to talking for a few minutes, Bishop said, Do you think I can come by sometime if I need some advice or if I have something to do? I said, Sure, feel free! You can come by and record in my studio, too. Later on down the line, Titus started writing for me. He wrote my verses on Top Billin and Back Before Youre Lonely on my last album. The school of Dre, Warren, and a lot of these cats is, if someone writes something hot, then let em do it! He wrote the records for me, and I felt honored to see how someone would see the world through my eyes. One day, Bishop came in and said, Yo, Im gonna meet Dr. Dre tomorrow. I said, Oh, thats great! He said, But I dont have a studio to record in and Ive gotta give him some new shit. I said, Well come in and record the shit here. Ill take care of the engineer. Dont worry about it. So he came in and recorded his demo. Two days later, Dr. Dre was on Power 106. The DJ asked, What new artists are you feeling right now? He said, This new kid Bishop Lamont. I laughed when I heard the backstory as to how Bishop met Dre. Bishop stole a golf cart with Glasses Malone at The Games Dreams video shoot and chased Dre down. Dre took his demo, and actually listened to it. One of the first questions Bishop asked me was, What should I do now?
I said, Dude, theres nothing I can tell you to do. Youre doing it right. Youre going to make it, just keep doing what youre doing. The next thing you know, hes signed to Dr. Dre on Aftermath! I saw him getting to know everybody, I saw him at the radio stations, and he was really doing it. When I got more heavily involved with Bishop, I also started working with Dae One, Pr1me, Taje, and the New West. Those dudes were already making a name for themselves on the websites like Dubcnn.com and Westcoastrydaz.com. I started getting behind them and talking about them a lot. A lot of the OGs in the game were like, Yo, what does this New West shit mean? They thought it was disrespectful. So I would step in and say that they were my homies. I wanted to empower them and give them a place to record. Theyd come and record at Mike Posts spot, and Id give them advice and start helping them out. I did some behind the scenes work on Tajes mixtape Hot Box 2. I really enjoyed working with these younger guys. On my Back Before Youre Lonely CD with Butch Cassidy, I featured Dae One, Taje, Roccett, and Bishop. We all started working together, and I became closer and closer to everyone involved. Bishop and I became really good friends. Before I knew it, Bishop and I were partners in crime.
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Then Bishop ran into the Aftermath system. He had been signed there for two or three years, and theyd only recorded a handful of songs. There wasnt much going on. Dre was kind of continuing his talk about Detox, but nothing was coming to fruition yet. They hadnt done any record for it. It was still a phantom project. Bishop showed up to the studio and told me, I need your help with something. Were gonna go over to the studio and see Dre. That night, we ended up taping the MySpace video announcing Detox and Bishops album The Reformation. Bishop called me up about a year later and said, So when are you coming back to L.A.? I said, What are you talking about? Im retired. He said, Dude, youre not retired. Im not gonna let you do this. Youve been involved since the beginning, and I need you here. Plus, look around. All of this stuff is stuff you set up. This is all your infrastructure, I need you here. I said, Bishop, you dont give yourself enough credit. This is all you now. He said, Nah. This is not how this is going down. I said, Well, well figure something out buddy. He said, No, were really gonna figure this out. I said, Youve got Warren, Dre, Busta Rhymes, Focus, all those guys on your side. Its not like I need to give you that much advice. He said, I need you to come back to L.A. I said, Dude, Ive been down there 100 times. Im going through family health issues. If you want to talk, I need you to come up here to Santa Barbara. He said, Im on my way. So he came up and he had the song Grow Up with him. He said, Do you think its a hit? I said, Definitely. He said, Well, what do you think? Im sitting on Aftermath. What do I do?
I said, Well, its a Dre thing, so youve got to kind of wait it out. He said, Dude, I cant. Ive been on the label for three years and I dont know where Ill stand after that. So I asked him how much of Detox was done. He said, Ive got one vocal performance done. I said, Youre screwed. Then, he gave me a plan he had. I said, Well, I dont necessarily agree with it, but if you do it, heres how you do it. The next thing I knew, Grow Up was all over the radio. Grow Up went on Power 106 first. The record immediately reacted. It was the No. 4 requested record the first week. It was No. 1 requested a week and a half later. The call out on it after two or three weeks was between No. 10 and 15. The problem was, Dre didnt like the mix on it. I told Bishop from the get-go, If we put this record out, itll be a cease-and-desist notice right away. And Interscope wants that Detox album out or an Eminem album. They spent almost 50 million dollars investing in Aftermath. If Dre doesnt turn that album in, there is no Aftermath. 50s last two projects tanked. For those reasons, Interscope wanted Grow Up to die. It was the first time in the history of radio, at least that Ive heard, where a record company has a No. 1 testing record and they sent ceaseand-desist notices holding it from being played. It got really messed up, and Bishop was very frustrated. The Dre machine isnt the easiest one to deal with. Look at it like this: Game
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wasnt going to even come out. Game was gonna get shelved, and then 50 came around and said, Ill put that shit out. Dre isnt famous for putting out artists. Out of all the artists, he put out Snoop Doggs album and Tha Dogg Pound back in the day. Even going back to Whats My Name by Snoop, Dre wasnt happy with that record and didnt want it out. It leaked to the swap meets and was forced out that way. So after this whole fiasco, Bishop called me and said, Look, you need to come by the studio and talk to Dre. The records out and hes stopping it. I didnt think it was going to work. But I went anyway. Dre! Dame! Hugs. I see The DOC. Bishop and Focus were there. But I looked around and heard no music. I went into the studio, and a new version of Grow Up was playing. Dre said, This is the how I envisioned hearing this record. It had Marsha from Floe try on the hook instead of Bishop, doing a Chicago two-step thing. I looked over at Dre and said, Are you serious? He said, Yeah, its the remix. Itll come out after the records already peaked. I said, thats great and everything but what are we doing with the original version of Grow Up here? He said, I just dont like the way it sounds. I said, All you need to do is put your stamp on it, and itll be fine. He kept going on about little things he didnt like about the record. It was the most indecisive Id ever heard him in my life. I finally said, Do you know what the problem is with Dr. Dre records? He looked stunned and said, What?
I looked at him and said, Youre too much of a fucking perfectionist. He said, Well, it works for me. I said, Lets go outside and talk for a second. We went into the lounge area and he said, Dude, its not In Da Club. I said, Did you know In Da Club was In Da Club when you heard it? You gave it to D12 and they said they didnt like it. But Dre, seriously, where do you see Bishop fitting into all of this? He said, I dont know. Thats the problem. I said, Well dude, how far are you on Detox? He said, 50 percent. I said, It took you eight years to get to 50 percent? He said, Yeah, but Im kind of on a roll right now! I said, Oh really? Cool! Whens it coming out? This was the fall of 2008 and he said, November. Im gonna turn it in this October, and its definitely coming out before Christmas. I said, Youre sure about that. Do you have a single? I got a blank stare from him. As of the summer of 2010, Detox is still nowhere to be seen, aside from a leak or two. I said, Well, whats Bishops role on Detox? He said, Well, hes on one record definitely, and he wrote about four or five of them. I just dont know where he fits in because Im gonna do Detox and then put out an Em record. I said, Yeah, and you know a 50 cent album is gonna come right after that. I looked at him like, Dude, you dont even know what youre doing right now. It was weird meeting, and it was the first time during any of our conversations where Dre was on the defensive. But I didnt realize that all the way through 2001, this was what I did. This was my job. But the tone had changed. I think he felt Bishop crossed the line with him by putting out
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Grow Up before he was ready. At the same time, this is what Id always done. Forced records out. I cant lie, I was stuck in the middle on what to do about it. Half of me was thinking about my loyalty to Dre, and half of me was thinking of Bishop. But my conscious told me the right thing to do was put that record out. Its a hit! If Bishop was gonna do it, I wasnt gonna let him do it alone. I said, I dont even think its him. Dude, its Jimmy Iovine. They dont care. All they want is the Detox album or Eminem because it means immediate billing for them. Interscope is in such a state of turmoil. They hadnt had a hit in a couple years. The Pussycat Dolls did great, but Nicoles solo album was shelved. Williams solo album tanked. Pharrells album tanked. 50 Cent tanked. G-Unit tanked. All the records Dre has done recently, like the Snoop record and Jay-Z stuff, arent on Interscope. None of this was benefiting Jimmy Iovine. I went to see Jimmy a few months before this. I took Tajes mixtape, I took a few songs from a very talented singer named Mike Anthony, I took Bishop records, all of it in there. I said, Yo, do you know what Bishop Lamont is doing? He said, Bishop Lamont? Hes signed to Interscope right? I said, Yeah. Did you hear his mixtape? Have you heard the song City Lights? He said, No. I said, Yo dude, the people around Bishop Lamont right now, it could be 97 again. Mike Ant, Taje, Pr1me, Dae One, Indef. Its like Tha Dogg Pound. He said, Oh, really? Well Ill check it out. Give me those CDs. By the way, are you still at Power? Id been gone for three years at that point. He was either fucking with me or he was really lost and out of touch. The key to the music business is following momentum. And when Interscope had momentum, like they did with Bishop Lamonts Grow Up, they torpedoed it because they didnt want to have to spend
money bumping up Bishop and promoting him when all their hopes and attention were focused on Dre, Eminem and 50. Thats when it hit me that nobody in the music industry Dr. Dre, Jimmy Iovine, anybody, knows what theyre doing at this point. In any event, this wont be the last you hear from Bishop, because he makes hot records, and hell continue to make hot records. He got himself away from Dre and out of his Aftermath deal and hes got his own label, Diocese. Hes recording like crazy, making videos and working his ass off. Hes been my primary focus for about a year now. In 2008 I met a young Santa Barbara man named Elijah AllanBlitz, who had dropped out of school to dedicate himself to writing music and establishing himself as a performer. I was so captivated by his passion which, of course I recognized from my own youth that he became my focus for about a year. It was a remarkable time in which I saw him grow from insecurity and waywardness about his craft to an astounding and deserved self-assuredness and meteoric leaps in the maturity of his talents. Elijah landed a spot on the soundtrack for the feature film Remembering Nigel with a song he wrote called Dont Let Me Die In Hollywood, inspired by Eric Burdon and the Animals hit Dont Let Me Be Misunderstood though certainly resembling it in no way. We got a budget to shoot a video for the song to go along with the film and had a blast for two days with a crew and cast of dozens of famous faces making cameos, including porn legend Ron Jeremy, who, I have to say, is one of the most down-to-earth and most pleasant dudes Ive ever met. Remembering Nigel writer/director Frank Howson was so impressed with Elijah he came on board, along with J. Marshall Craig, to direct the video, and Eric Burdon himself was so impressed with the song he made a cameo appearance and has declared he intends to record his own version of Dont Let Me Die In Hollywood! Thats how good Elijah got and how quickly he got there.
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Above: Chatting with Elijah Allan-Blitz on the sert of his Dont Let Me Die In Hollywood video across from Capital Records. Below: One of the things I love about Elijah his passion for performing, in this case at the Soho Club in Santa Barbara.
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On the set of Elijah Allan-Blitzs video for Dont Let Me Die In Hollywood with Ron Jeremy.
known him he has earned his diploma and is now booking shows with the band he has assembled and handling all his own publicity. He has truly stretched his wings and is finding his own way and its become my honor to now make the occasional guest appearance on stage with him. He has since made more music videos and appears on other artists records Elijah is a part of the New West and I predict will be enormously successful if the stars line up for him. Anyone will tell you that stardom can have more to do with luck than talent. So far Elijah has enjoyed both and I pray he continues to. Everyones on their own island again. Its kind what it was like before 2001 happened. In February of 2009, Dre and Eminem and 50 Cent leaked a track called Crack a Bottle which was for Eminems Relapse record. Most of the people know thought it was completely whack and a very, very bad sign of where things were going for all three artists. Eminems Relapse tanked, but his mid-2010 record Recovery is a hit and he seems to have salvaged his career. As of this writing there is still no Detox on the horizon. As a fan, I sure miss Dres music. Thats always been the point with me. Ive
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My work as a music producer started in my Grannys den on a W-30 keyboard. Because I was working at radio, doing the 6 p.m. to midnight shift at such a young age, I didnt have anything to do until school started in the morning when I got home. Heres what my schedule was like back in high school: I went to bed at 3 oclock in the afternoon when I got home from school, and then slept until 5 when I would go to work.
Damon Sharp lurks in the shadows at Larrabee West as I discuss direction with Krayzie Bone.
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I was a little workhorse at the station, and they took full advantage of my ambition. I would do commercials and dub work after I got off the air, because they knew I didnt have anything else to do. A lot of times, Id be at the radio station until 4 a.m. I was a good commercial producer, and was up for awards several times locally. One time, they wanted me to do a commercial in which an elf started rapping (bear with me ... you do just about anything when youre starting out and running on pure passion!). But I had to write a rap and perform it myself, and then speed it up to sound like a chipmunk. As I started going with that, I got into writing and other creative outlets to occupy my time late at night while everyone else was asleep. I didnt have a lot of normal friends, because they would all be asleep when I was awake. In fact, I didnt really even see a lot of people. As far as I can remember, Ive always been nocturnal. Granny and I share a lot of things, and one of those traits is insomnia. So I needed something to occupy my time by myself late at night. When DJ Wicked brought in that ASR keyboard one day to KHTY and showed me how sampling was done, I was hooked. I did some research, and the W30 seemed best for what I wanted to do. You could play keyboard and bass sounds on it too. I could sample whole loops and lay a loop on top of another loop just by touching a key. Thats where I learned how to make my own tracks out of beats and songs that were already out. A lot of it came from being a DJ, too. I would go and get these Cameron Paul break-beat tracks and filter out all the low ends, making my own little hooks for the records. Thats where it started, though I realized I didnt have anybody to get on these records. Early on, I started a group called Fresh Image, which was a group of guys I went to high school with. I used a drum machine, and because I only had a four-track recorder at the radio station, I ended up overdubbing. I didnt realize it at the time, but later when I went to Dres house for the recording of Eminems My
Name Is, they were recording using the same sort of technique that I was doing back then. Without knowing it, I was teaching myself production from the inside out. I was always a loner, so these were the things I did to keep myself occupied. It turned out to sorta be my time in a personal college. As I learned keyboards and built my equipment arsenal up, I slowly but surely moved my way into some local recording studios. There was a new studio that opened up in town called Orange Whip. Mark, the technical partner, and Brian, who was my first production partner, and with whom I did I Still Believe, took me under their wing and showed me how the recording process worked. There was a twoinch machine in there and a 24-track. Because I was in radio, some of the big wigs would want to come meet with me sometimes, and Id have them drop by the studio. When they were there, they would give me pointers as well. I met manager David Esterson at the station, and he said, I want to introduce you to an artist named Biggie Smalls. Hes a white kid from Whittier. I said, Biggie Smalls? Okay. He had a pop record called Hey Mr. Perkins, but it never really went anywhere. David said, Would you like to go on tour with this guy as his DJ? Before I knew it, we were at Disneyland opening up for Stevie B. Id go to studio sessions as well so I could learn more about the production of beats. It also helped me as a DJ because I knew where these samples they were using came from. Another DJ, named Bobby B, came into KHTY and taught me a shitload of stuff. When I got to Power 106 years later, some of the things I said, he took wrong, and I lost touch with him. Ive always regretted that and I feel bad about it, because he was like a father figure to me. But he taught me a lot about production. He had this studio named Milagro Sounds that he worked out of when he left
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KHTY. He started a mastering business and a survey business. There was something called Air back in the day that would let people test records and win prizes. They would ask programmers what they thought of records, and if they predicted hits, they would win a prize. Bobby started a company that rivaled that, and thats when I first saw how cutthroat the music business was. Basically, what the Air guy said was, If you support Bobby, were gonna cut all of your kickbacks. These record reps would hire Air to survey these songs and pay them an exorbitant amount of money, like 30 grand. Then Air would go to the programmers and give away a Ferrari to one of them, after getting all their opinions. But it was really a way for promotion guys to filter money through record companies to the programmers. Being around Bobby I saw all this stuff. But at the studio, I started doing demos of rap songs. I did the rap artist thing, and I thought that it was something I wanted to do at an early stage. Ive never had that extra drive to push it as my main focus, though. It is fun to do, and even to this day, there are so many times where I could put myself in a position to be a serious rapper. When What Would You Do with Mariah and Nate Dogg came out, even Mariah pulled me aside and said, Nows the time to strike. Youre up to 1,700 spins nationally, now would be the time to get a deal. But it was always a situation where my Damizza brand as a producer and a writer was stronger than it was as a performer. I admit its still a kick to get up on stage and do a tune or two and I enjoy doing short tours of Japan every year, where I seem to have a dedicated fan base for Damizza tracks. Truth is it is fun to get on stage every so often when youve got passion for music. Ive even managed to get my writer buddy J. Marshall Craig to pick up his guitar to back me at a couple of shows, which he says he hasnt done
since his college days back in Canada. I was, back in the day, though, so torn. Once Id entered the producing arena, launched Baby Ree and signed Shade and he had the No. 2 hip-hop single in the country with Where I Wanna Be, the record companies wanted to be in business with me because I had the power at radio, not because of my potential as a hook writer or producer or performer. I never had any illusions. I knew these guys put on a faade regarding their interests in me and my music. The rap thing and the production thing was always secondary in peoples minds to my position in radio. People would hire me to get a relationship going so they could work their record. For a while, it desensitized me to doing records, period, and I dropped out of making them for a couple of years. For example, I did a remix for Nappy Roots called Hoedown. After I submitted it, the label was pissed off because they had paid me to do this remix, and I wasnt playing it on Power 106. They called me up and said, We wanted you to do this remix as something that may fit on Power. But to me, as a producer, I wanted to accentuate that live element of the Nappy Roots that made them such an interesting group in the first place. It needed to be my vision of what that artist was, not necessarily what would fit on Power. Nappy Roots just wouldnt fit on Power. We were a West Coast gangsta rap station! So they said after the fact, Well, we just paid you all this money to get the record on Power. I said, Ill send the money back then. So I bit the cost of the studio time and lost money on that record. I had to do that a couple of times. One, I was not someone who could be bought, and two, I wouldnt go against my heart creatively.
Id spell this out for these guys at the beginning, and for legal reasons they would say, Oh yeah. Sure. But I started realizing that thats all people wanted me to do. They wanted to buy their way onto Power 106, or put some money in my pocket to create a relationship and get their other records played. I literally had people bring backpacks with 30 grand, 50 grand, into my office and just say theyd leave it there. I was offered cars, drugs, sex, you name it. All I can say is that I cannot be bought and it took a long time for these corrupt fuckers to get it. And it pissed them off that I couldnt be bought. Im not trying to be self-righteous here or boast, but in all honesty, all I can say is that my soul isnt worth any amount of money, and I dont care what other people do or have done. That kind of corruption is always the hound barking at the door of my passion for music because of what the music business can, and does, do to the music and how it can, and does, compromise artists. Thankfully, Ive almost always been surrounded by amazing people with the same ethics who were all about mentoring and who have the same passion for the music as I. For instance, through working with Biggie Smalls, I met a producer named Bronik who taught me how to work an SP-1200. He was really my mentor as far as production. We would get in the studio with Tricky Stewart, who years later did Rihannas Umbrella, and Sep. Another person who came out of the studio was Robin Thicke. Ive known him since he was 15. I did rap and he did singing, so we were the two white boys who everybody fucked with. But, if you look at those people now, theyre all stars. So I got to learn how to write songs from watching these types of people. Then, something strange happened. The Notorious B.I.G. had just come out, but his initial name was Biggie Smalls. The name was already owned by a teenage white kid. Big Biggie was on the air one
day with Julio G at The Beat, and he said, Yeah, supposedly theres some dude out here who has the name Biggie Smalls, whos being a bitch about letting go of the name. I had it first. So 15-year-old Little Biggie says to David, Take me to The Beat right now! And they went. He walked into the on-air studio and looked straight at Julio G. Julio announced to the listeners, Oh! Little Biggies here. Biggie points at The Notorious B.I.G. and said, You! I need to talk to you in the hallway. Big Biggie went into the hallway with him and said, Whats up little man? Little Biggie said, Why are you on the air talking shit about me in my own town? Big Biggie said, Well, who are you? Little Biggie said, Im Biggie Smalls. Big Biggie laughed and said, Dont worry. Im gonna call Puff and tell him we have to change my name. Im not gonna take the name of some little kid. He actually apologized to this kid! Talk about a standup dude who was all about respect, right out of the gate. But the next day, David Esterson got a call from Puffy, screaming at him, saying, Who the fuck do you think you are? There was nothing Puff s Bad Boy company could have done though, because Little Biggie had the name trademarked and had been operating under it professionally for years. And that was why The Notorious B.I.G. had to change his name. But learning stuff like that, and watching people stand up to these icons, were the seeds of right and wrong that were instilled in me when it came to production. I can say thats the one thing that I learned from Little Biggie. Never back down. Walk quietly, but carry a big stick, even if youre the small 12-year-old kid. I related to that.
I said to myself, Wait a minute. That took heart to walk up to The Notorious B.I.G. and say, Fuck you, dogg. Biggie Smalls is my name. I looked at it and said, If he can do that shit, thats what I need to be doing, too. So I took a page out of his book, and thats how I got the reputation of being a little pit bull. A few years before I was at Power, Brian and I knocked out the beat for what would become the I Still Believe remix in my Grannys den. We were watching Willy Wonka at the time, and I said, That line is so cool. He said, Youll never get it cleared. So we filed it away, and then when Mariah wanted to do the record, she wanted it done so bad that she called Leslie Bricusse and Anthony Newley, who did the original song Pure Imagination for Willy Wonka. She said, Look, well split the publishing with you. It helped that Mariah Carey was the one who wanted it, and that the music director at Power 106 wanted it. Radio is a publishing business, and lets be real: Everyone wants to get his or her song played to make money. So with Mariah behind it, and the prospect of me airing it, they knew they would be getting paid. But from that experience, I learned that if you can find a carrot somewhere, you can use that to leverage a deal getting done. At the same time, its what got me away from production, because I realized people always wanted something from me. I guess I can say that about Shade Sheist, who was really the first artist I took on full time. We were about the same age, and when we started, we would get together on Friday nights. I had just moved to L.A. and didnt know anybody. We were both big Bone Thugs fans, so there really wasnt much else to say. I started writing for him and making beats. The very first beat I ever did with Shade that was commercially released was If You Were My Bitch, which we wrote
together. Irv Gotti heard it and said, I need one of those for the Murderers album. Thats like my Aint No Fun for this record. Shade Sheists records fit Power 106. Thats what people dont realize. I didnt just make a bunch of records and put them on my radio station. I went to the people who were hot at the time and paid them to make records. I didnt use my position to get Nate Dogg or DJ Quik. I paid them abovemarket rates for their work, specifically so I couldnt be worked over later for a favor. And Nates hook for Where I Wanna Be really started the
E. SANCHEZ PHOTO: Learning what a comp sheet is from the legendary James Ingram at CanAm Studios in L.A.
snowball effect of his becoming the undisputed hook king. Then they put him on You Cant Deny It with Fabolous, Oh No with Pharaoh Monch, and so on. But after our deal was bought out from London Records for $250,000, we got an additional $750,000 to make the Shade Sheist Informal Introduction album. We ended up spending $600,000 of that to make the record. Whats funny is, there are only about two or three songs that dont have a feature on it. When we went to a studio to do a record, everyone would want to get on it. They knew it was coming out for sure, so that was a plus. But it almost got to the point where people were mad if I didnt call them to get on a record. Everyone thought Shade was gonna blow
up because I was behind him. And they thought that with me behind him, Power 106 was automatically behind him. Wrong! Timbaland gave us a record for free, and I agreed to that. The reason I did is because we were playing all his records anyway. It would be like if Dre came down and offered to do a record for free. Theres no money you can pay a Timbaland or a Dre that would make a difference in the quality of the record. So it was him doing me the favor, not the other way around. I think a lot of the other artists in the Shade Sheist project were thinking, Im gonna go work with Damizza so I can get my records played. Anybody that gave off that vibe, I wouldnt work with, unless I paid them. The first record I recorded with Shade was called Glam Lyfe. The other record we did was I Know She Wants Me with Krayzie Bone. I got the Krayzie collaboration to happen by saying, If you want I Still Believe for your album, I wont charge you a producer fee if you get on this for Shade. That first record ultimately got us signed to Red Ant. Shade actually had three deals before he even got to MCA. And I made Shade a shitload of money. He made probably a half a million dollars before a record even came out. He was on salary for 50 grand a year too, on top of all the advance money he got, which was easily over 100 grand. Thats what was so ironic about when our relationship fell apart and Shade wrote a public letter about me, trying to defame me. What the fuck was there to complain about? He was a star when he wasnt ready to be. And I cant blame him for anything. Because if you take somebody from Adams and Crenshaw or the suburbs and throw him into the music business where people like Jay-Z are walking up to you, saying Youre the next one, of course your heads gonna swell. You have to remember, I started at 12, so all this stuff was given to me in increments. I had time to think about every move. Shade didnt. He went from the ghetto to being on stage with Mariah Carey
in about a year and a half. So if that doesnt fry your brain, I dont know what would. I know mine would be downright crispy. I learned a lot about production from the Shade project. Shade was an artist, but he wasnt the only artist on the project. It really came down to the feature or what Id write. When Shade came into the studio, everything was usually already done for him. Mike Schlesinger, my engineer, taught me so much about the studio etiquette because he was a veteran. He did So Many Tears for 2Pac. He is another person without whom I really wouldnt know shit about production. While recording that album, I became friends with everybody, and I had money. People would come in, smoke a bunch of weed, have endless alcohol, and turn it into a party. I had Larrabee West, at $2,000 a day, rented out for a year. (I have to say, studio manager Jamie Way was my guardian angel throughout that whole time ... and still is!) So, for instance, we had Nate come by while we were recording the song Walk A Mile, and he just wanted to do a verse. He said, I like that hook, and I dont want to touch that. I just want to do a verse for it. Irv Gotti would show up and say, I love this song. What else do you have? We ended up getting the song Cali Diseaz with Shade and Nate Dogg on the Fast and The Furious soundtrack just because I played him the record one day. He also wanted another record for the soundtrack for Ja to get on. So I said, No problem. Thats really how it all happened. It wasnt a lot of money changing hands. It was all horse trading. If we actually used the records, I would make sure everyone got paid for it, regardless of whether we traded or not, because I didnt want anyone to have me over a barrel. I really didnt want to hear, I did this for you! Why dont you play my record? So through Mike and all these legends, then going in to see Quik
and see Dre, I picked up a lot of core knowledge about production. At the same time, I started making the records in a systematic, cookie cutter, not-really-about-the-music format. But by the time I had my first hit. I was like, This really isnt the music I want to make. I realized, two weeks into the recording of the Shade album, that he wasnt ready. I was putting a great compilation album together with all these artists, and if you go back and listen to the album, itll bump from beginning to end. Its an amazing record. But if I called it Damizza and Friends, it probably would have been a much bigger record. Shade had a lot of concepts. If you look at BMF, thats a complete Shade record. But if you look at Somebody Steals the Show, I wrote the hook, and I sang the reference for the hook and spent two days with Shade cutting three verses. Thats one that I began and ended the way I wanted. I remember when Dre came in when I was making that record, his head started to turn. He gave me some props for that one. But it took almost two weeks to do that record. Even back then, to spend $14,000 on the studio time alone was too much. I wasnt Dre! I couldnt afford to spend that type of money. But I also believe that Ive never produced a record completely the way that I wanted to. Im a perfectionist, but I kind of gave up. I said, I cant do it the way I want to do it, but I love making music and I dont want a pity party, so Ill just put out whatever Ive got. And hopefully, one day, Ill earn the spot to be able to do it the way I want to do it. But I found out that I didnt have the power as a producer to get these records to turn out the way I wanted them to. I was too far in on the business and radio end, but not far enough as a brand-name producer to even the two out. It really started to frustrate me. I kick myself now, because there were days that I would just sit in
the studio. I had this $2,000-dollar-a-day room and Id just be hanging out. Mike would give me a bunch of shit, like, Dude, do you know what its like to have this studio? Do you know how blessed you are? Just do something! But I lost the vibe. I think a lot of that came after working with Mariah. People work so hard to get to that point of working with a superstar like that, but thats where I started. The first record I ever produced was a Mariah Carey record. So production to me was a hobby. From a year and a half, I went from making music in my den to producing records that sold in excess of 30 million copies, and I hadnt really learned anything. I didnt know how to act and I didnt know what to do. Over the past three years, I spent so much time going back to learn some of the basics as Ive been tutoring kids here in Santa Barbara. One of the main reasons why I wanted to do (local Santa Barbara group) Guiltys project which ultimately collapsed, for a variety of reasons that I dont really blame anyone for was because it was something that Id started from scratch. I look back on it now as more of a summer camp experience of helping these kids find an outlet for their creativity. I am happy with a track I did with Dopey Loco from Guilty, however, called Crackin which has been quite popular and the video of which is a YouTube hit. I knew it would take four years to try to develop. By Year Three it had all fallen apart, for many, many reasons, but I tried. And for the most part the kids involved have done well in the direction theyve decided to take with their lives. Some of them have abandoned music. One of them became a Marine. Another got into retail and and has moved on to a different life entirely. Most significant in music terms is a kid named Los, whom I regard clearly as my production protg. In fact, working with him, and some of the newer kids whove come into my life since and Im tutoring, has helped shake some of the rust off me.
When my little brother came to me and said, My friends want to be rappers, I met them and saw their hunger and passion to begin exploring music. I saw how it could be mutually benefitical to become a tutor and scrape away some of the cynicism that had infected me. Its funny when you think of it like this, sort of like the residency portion of a doctors training. Thats the way Ive kind of looked at it working with people like Mariah, Ice Cube, Nate Dogg, Warren G, and so on. These people wouldnt let me make a huge mistake. It goes back to my theory on consistency and repetition and momentum. Ive consistently produced records, and Ive consistently learned from the veterans, whether it be Terry Reid, Warren G, Mariah, Dre, or Quik. Ive learned what makes a good record from these amazing people. And of course after my years in radio I have, quite simply, a built-in radar about what is a good record and what, no matter who might be featured or who may have done the beat, just aint gonna work. Now, from mentoring the kids, Im developing the repetition part for myself. Watching them fall, watching their mistakes, and helping them correct them. Theyre even teaching people around them. This has in some ways helped me more than its helped them. Granny taught me: You cant see things when its you. Always be very aware of that in a public life, because everybodys seeing it but youre not. During my last couple years at Power 106, I was self-destructing. But I didnt realize it. I just thought I was having a good time. I was drinking, smoking, off on boats and G5s, on beaches, and not really caring about anything. I didnt have time to appreciate it. It was given to me so fast, and at such a young age, I just thought I deserved it. I totally fell into that terrible trap of believing in such an over-inflated sense of entitlement. I dont think I fully realized it until very recently, years after my detoxing and beginning the journey down the long road of self-realization with my rehab stint at the Betty Ford Center. All of these experiences were gifts that were given to me, and I
didnt necessarily grasp that concept at the time. I thought, I worked hard. I earned this position. Fuck everybody else. Consummed by such selfishness is a decidedly dangerous place to be. I think it really came hand in hand with my alcohol issues. I was never like that at first. I was very appreciative. But after a while, I realized that I didnt care about the music I was putting out. I asked myself, What happened to that puritan? What happened to the guy who said, Fuck you, Im not doing your record unless its done right? You dont care? Who have you become? Thats when I said to myself, Go home. The thing that ultimately drove me away from producing was that I didnt have complete control over my own records. The song I produced for Westside Connection (Ice Cube, Mack 10, and WC) called Lights Out was the final nail in the coffin. The way that I looked at it as a producer, I had the best of the best on this record. Mike and I tracked the beat. I had Ice Cube on my record for the first time, Knoc-Turnal doing the hook, I had E-Man scratching on the beginning going, Wa-Wa-Westsiiiide! It was recorded at Soundcastle, the best studio, in my opinion. I had DJ Quik mix it. I had Ice Cube, Mack 10, and WC on the fuckin thing! It was a flawless record as it appeared on Mack 10s Ghetto, Gutter, and Gangsta compilation. It flew off the chart too. It was a single, and it got Westside Connection together again. Then I got a copy of the Westside Connection Terrorist Threats CD in the mail, and they used the wrong mix! They used the mix of the demo version without telling me. I was heartbroken. Truly. That record meant more to me personally than I can ever express on paper and having the wrong mix appear was like a death to me. I wish it had have made me angry, but it didnt it just simply stomped me emotionally and I still havent gotten over it. And why should I? I had EVERYTHING right with this record. I had Ice Cube and DJ Quik on the same track. As a West Coast fan, and as a West Coast producer, it just didnt get any
better than that. Ill never forget how that record came about. Mack 10 called me up and said, I need a single for Westside Connection. I said, Holy shit! A single for Westsiwait. Ice Cube is gonna get on one of my beats? I have a chance to get Ice Cube! So I played him the beat and Mack 10 said, Thats it! Thats it! Thats exactly what I need, Damizza. Im gonna get Cube on it. I already had Knoc on the hook before he heard it, and Mack 10 went to Can-Am and got Cube to record his verse. Then WC got on the record. I went back to Soundcastle and started editing the record. E-Man put the scratching on it. Conceptually, it was my dream come true. Those little samples in the beginning was my way of saying, This is why you love WC. This is why you love Ice Cube. This is why you love Mack 10. That is what makes this music legendary. This was my best foot forward. This was my shit right here my favorite record I ever produced. I grew up on Ice Cube. Next to getting Dr. Dre to spit a verse on your record, this is the fucking ultimate of where you go as a hip-hop artist. Then, I went to see DJ Quik, because I thought, If Im gonna put out a record with Ice Cube, I need to know what Quik thinks. Let me go ask the person who is the reason why I got into making beats. The reason I rap and do beats together is because Im a DJ Quik fan. Quik is the model on which I based my whole production style, the funk with the heavy hitting snares, with a little bit of rock and R&B. So I went to see him. First, I played him a song I did called Chip The Curb, which was a cover of his classic Dollaz + Sense. I wanted to make sure he was okay with it. After about 15 seconds of it, he said, Youre gonna be all right, Damizza! Then I said, Well, Ive got another one, and this is the one I really need an opinion on. He heard the kick and the snare, and he said, I love this record.
Whos on it? I said, Westside Connection. Bring me the Pro Tools and Ill mix it. Where the fuck did you get that snare? I said, Its a cross between two things. Mary J. Bliges Family Affair and Low Profiles Pay Ya Dues. He goes, Youre doing it right. Bring me the Pro Tools. Im going to mix this record tonight. I said, Quik. Its two in the morning. My Pro Tools engineer is asleep. Can he do it tomorrow? Quik said, Go wake that motherfucker up and bring me the ProTools. Quik went and took a nap for a minute. My team went and knocked on Florians window to wake his ass up to get the files. God bless the guy. He made a copy, we took it over to the studio and had it there by 3:30 a.m. Quik worked on it and had it done by 5 a.m. He said, You got one, Mizz, and handed it to me. Quik didnt even add anything to the record. He just refined it and mixed it. I couldnt even be in the room. I was pacing outside like an expectant father. It was the perfect record, and it was released as a single.
A PRODUCERS TA L E 227 E. SANCHEZ PHOTO: One of my favorite places to be: Behind an SSL board, in this case listening to the final mix of Cruzin at Area 51.
They shot a video for it to get the most out of the momentum that had been building. When I got the Westside Connection album though, I was devastated. Apparently, Cube didnt like the mix. He said it had too many samples in it. At least the original version is still out. But it felt that every hope and dream I had went down with that record. Right afterward, I had a chance to sign Ice Cube to my Baby Ree record label, and that fell through. Emmis didnt think it was the right move, and they shut it down. I also had a chance to do my solo rap career, after my record with Mack 10 and Fat Joe called Dirt caught on. Ironically, it was featured on the Ghetto, Gutter, and Gangsta compilation too. I followed it up with What Would You Do, with Mariah and Nate Dogg. Lights Out was the template of what I wanted my music to sound like in the gangsta world, and What Would You Do was what I wanted it to be like in the R&B, Mariah realm. I really hit my zenith of where I wanted to be as a producer. But I was like, I dont wanna be in this anymore, because I cant do what I want to do. There are too many people involved. That was the problem. I went from doing records in my bedroom the way I wanted to, to having to deal with these inputs that just got in my way. You may think Im being arrogant, but I want to capture what I hear in my head Im not gonna tell you its great, good, shit or anywhere in between; but I want to capture what I hear between my ears, right or wrong. If I could give any advice on what Ive dealt with during my career as a producer, Id say to let the music be what it is and the rest will come. If you hire a producer to do a record, let him produce it. For every artist I work with, I tell him or her that the beats make a story. Theyre a snapshot ... a photograph of whats happening at that moment. When it stopped being like that, when they took my musical camera away, if you will, I just stopped.
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I got a call from Stan Sheppard one day, who was managing DJ Quik at the time. Stans father, Bunky Sheppard, was one of the forefathers of urban music. He said, Damion, I want to have a meeting with you. Im involved with this charity, and theres a bunch of things going on that I want to get you involved with. Anything Stan did I was always down for. He said, I want you to meet me on Havenhurst Street. I said, Havenhurst where have I heard that? Thats the street the Jacksons used to live on, right? I learned that from watching the Jackson mini-series that was just on TV at the time. Stan said, Yeah, were meeting at the Jackson estate. I said, Hold on. What? He said, Yeah the Jackson parents live there; my office is located there now because Im co-president of Jackson Communications. So I pulled up to the gate at the Jackson estate a couple days later. A butler answered the door, we walked in and to the left was Stans office. He said, Im involved in a charity called the Amer-ICan Unity One Foundation. Bo Taylor and Jim Brown run it. You know who Jim Brown is, right? I said, Refresh my memory. He said, Jim Brown! Hes a Hall of Fame football player. I said, Stan, forgive me. Im not into sports. He said, Well, we have a meeting at Jims house in a couple days. Can you come?
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Why not! A couple days later, I drove up Sunset Boulevard and met Stan at Jim Browns house. When I walked in, it seemed like the general vibe was, Okay, heres another white music executive who thinks hes down. How is he gonna help the community? Jim Brown started speaking, and about half way through the speech, I thought, Wait a minute, this is the guy who went to visit OJ in prison! That dude was in Mars Attacks! Jim explained all of the things that the charity did. They went to prisons and gang-infested neighborhoods and worked with community leaders to get jobs and teach inner-city kids how to lead a normal, productive life. At the end of the meeting, I said to Jim, I really think this is a good cause. You cant have gang intervention without gangs. Jim said, Ive been waiting for someone like you. I didnt know when you would come, but Ive been waiting for someone like you my whole life. I said, Wow. Okay. Darren Bo Taylor had been a Crip since the age of 15 but had become a peacekeeper and founder of Unity One, grass-roots organization that attacked gang violence through life-skills training as well as through conflict resolution on the front lines. Bo was a consummate mediator, whose years as a Crip gave him credibility and insight into what had divided the community and law enforcement into warring camps during the 1992 Los Angeles riots. He bridged the gap and was respected by the cops and the streets. He asked me, Would you go through some of the neighborhoods with us and see what the communitys like? We need some help with the radio stuff, and any other way we can get you involved with the system would be great. The next thing I know, I was cruising around with Bo and he introduced me to everyone in the Amer-I-Can Foundation and Unity
One. I started getting involved with the cause and supporting it any way I was able. Bo and I became friends. He would bring some of the kids from the program into the studio. I was always around, and wed introduce them to Knoc-Turnal or Butch Cassidy or whomever I was working with at the time. He showed the kids, This is what a studio is. You can make something of yourself and just have a dream and pursue it. There are other ways than violence. A lot of these guys in the program had never before left their own neighborhoods. Doing little things like this were great, and I loved it. Every time wed go, somebody new would pop up. The first time, when we went to Wayside Prison, it was James Ingram. When we were in the parking lot, I said, Hey, theres James Ingram! Bo said, Yeah, hes part of the foundation. I said, Wait a minute. Now youre getting into people I know. That dude wrote PYT for Michael Jackson! Hes fucking incredible. Bo said, Oh, well Ill introduce you. I went up to James Oh, youre involved with the foundation? I said, Yeah, Im here to do whatever I can. As long as you can tell me some stories about working with Quincy Jones on the biggest selling album of all time! I was joking around, but that musta have been a little awkward. He said, Sure, young fella. Thats what they all eventually started calling me young fella. Amer-I-Can is a charity that has a relationship with all of the hood bosses in the different neighborhoods in LA. It goes through different neighborhoods and employs a lot of the people in the neighborhood. So when theres a conflict between neighborhoods, they can come in and mediate from a hood-boss level before it gets to the little homies hurting themselves. The Amer-I-Can Foundation was brought into Wayside Prison because there were a lot of gang-related fights there at the time. It was really bad there for a while. They brought in the foundation to sit
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down and negotiate in the prison system. On this day, we got a tour of the prison. We were walking through, and one of the guards, a Spanish lady, said to James, Oh, I love your music! James belted out, singing something in Spanish. Because the prison was just a bunch of cement and metal, you could hear everything throughout the whole prison. It was such a gift, because you saw how selfless it was. It was just about the music and making everyone feel good. Hes the real deal. From his era, you had to be real dope to make it in the industry. Seeing all of these figures donate their time to such a selfless cause, I thought to myself, This is what I want to do. Whatever Bo and Jim want, Im there. They took us into one of the holding cells and we all, one by one, introduced ourselves to the crowd. When it came to me, I didnt know what to say. I just made a total fool out of myself. I said, Im Damion Young, Im the senior director of programming and artist relations at Power 106. Im a white kid from Santa Barbara. I dont know much about gang culture or anything like that. Im out here to meet real people and help. Im also a record producer. If anyone has any questions about music or if youre trying to get started, Im here. But I was standing next to James Ingram, Jim Brown, and Bo Taylor, who dedicated his life to saving lives. Sheriff Lee Baca was also the one giving us the tour, so that was even crazier. He got up and said, Were gonna give the graduation certificates today, and I want to say that since the inception of the Amer-I-Can foundation at Wayside, there is almost a 100 percent success rate for this program. The curriculum, which was developed by Jim, teaches life skills and positive decision-making. A lot of mistakes people make are from having never been taught life skills. You dont learn any of these things gangbanging.
I started going to the meetings about once a month. When we did Powerhouses, I told Bo, Why dont you grab a few of the dudes in the program and well have a good time. Ill never forget one time Bo was walking down the ramp to come to Powerhouse. Mariah and I were talking in the back of her car, going over what was gonna happen in the show. Bo walked by and I said, Hey Bo. He walked up and said, Oh my God when he saw Mariah. Mariah said, Hey, Ive heard about all of the stuff you do in the streets. At some point, Id love to get involved. Bo was like, You told Mariah Carey about the program? Wow. One of my biggest frustrations with Power 106 came from their struggle with my getting Jim Brown involved with the station. We were dealing with an urban radio station, and Brown is an icon in the urban community. I told them, We should be involved in gang intervention, and we have the Knowledge is Power Foundation for the Latino community. Why cant we embrace some of the other areas? I typed up a memo about my involvement in the program and how it helps people. Station management above me just didnt want to do it. One day, I got a call from Stan saying, Will you please come to Cedars-Sinai. Jims in the hospital. I asked, Is he okay? He said, Yeah hes fine, he just had back surgery. But hed love to see you. I said, Oh, wow. He said, Yeah, you make him laugh. We sat around talking with his wife for a while. He said, Youre a big history buff right? I said, Yeah. He said, I have someone I want you to meet Harry Belafonte.
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I said, Whoa. Hes an icon in black music. He did Dayo! People dont just get to meet Harry Belafonte. I mean, Ive met some interesting people, but this guy just paved the way for urban music. Jim said, Well, I want you to meet him some time. A couple weeks later, before a holiday weekend, Lee Baca was honoring Jim at a luncheon downtown. I was invited to come with a few guests. Connie Rice, one of the biggest civil rights attorneys in the world, was a host. My little brother Nick was in town and I said I needed to take him back to Santa Barbara. Bo Taylor said, Look, if you can stop by for 10 or 15 minutes, just on your way out, it would mean a lot to Jim. At this point, I was still thinking, Yeah right. Its Jim Brown. Like he gives a shit if I show up. But I went. Triple, Nick, and a couple other people and I went to this thing. On an easel outside, there was a list of who was coming to the party, Harry Belafontes name was on the list. My jaw just dropped when I saw that. Nick looked over me and said, Dude! Ricky Watters is here! I said, Who the fuck is Ricky Watters? He said, Hes only one of the most famous running backs of all time. He won a championship with the San Francisco 49ers and hell be in the Hall of Fame. I was like, Okay, whatever. Harry Belafonte is gonna be here. Fuck what ya heard! So during the middle of Jims speech while he was accepting his award, he saw me and my friends in the back. He just stopped and pointed at me. I kind of waved a little and smiled, but Im sure it looked weird. Harry got up and said a few words, and he had to catch a plane so I didnt get to meet him. Jim was talking to a bunch of people afterward, and he looked over at me again and nodded his
head. He started walking toward us. I got up and started walking toward him, and he gave me a signal to just stop and sit down. He sat down next to me and said, Whats up, young fella? I said, Hey, Mr. Brown, how you been? He said, My name is Jim. I said, Yes sir. Hey, this is my little brother Nick. Jim said, Nice to meet you. I said, Well, Nick said theres some guy here named Ricky Watters. Whos Ricky Watters? Jim started laughing. He said, That would be the young fella over there, and pointed to someone who was surrounded by 15 or 20 people. I said, My brother is a huge fan. Is there any way we can get an autograph before we leave? He said, Oh yeah. Nick, walk over here with me. I said, Jim, you dont have to do that. He said, No, its cool. Jim took my brother over there to Ricky and said, Rick, this is the brother of one of the most valuable people in the foundation, Damion Young. My brother was just standing there like, Huh? After the three of them talked for a few minutes, Ricky said, What does his brother do? Jim said, Hes a producer. Ricky said, Oh, I want to do a rap album. So Jim came back and asked me if I wanted to meet him. I said sure. So before you know it, every once in a while, Ricky would show up at the studio. Ricky was getting more involved in the foundation so wed end up seeing each other pretty often. Ricky and Stan were gonna do a project, and we set up a time where we went in and did a few songs together for it.
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One day, Ricky was sitting on the back couch. He had one of his Super Bowl rings on, and I looked over and said, Damn dogg, youre blinding me with that ring! Put it down. Are you trying to kill somebody? You gotta floss on everybody? He showed me the ring and I put it on myself. I started walking around the room saying to everybody, Yeah motherfucker! Im wearing a Super Bowl ring! Butch Cassidy showed up and I said, Yeah man, you cant see me. I played in the Super Bowl with the 49ers. Everything was pretty surreal at that point. One time, I tried to set up a charity event with a senator, Ozo Motley and DJ Quik. The police shut us down because Quik was a Gangsta Rapper and they were concerned about gang activity afterward. A California senator called and apologized to us. When we got out of the thing, Quik looked at me and said, Damizza, youve really outdone yourself this time. I said, Why? You just got a senator to apologize to me. It was such a gift that I was involved with these things. Jim and everyone would never ask me to do anything but show up and talk to people and be myself. I had a ball. One time, Jim called me up and said, Hey, young fella. What are you doing tonight? I said, Nothing. What are you doing? He said, Im going to a party. Youre goin with me. I said, What do you mean were going to a party? He said, Just come and pick me up. We went to this party in South Central. It was Mongos place, and I had the best food Ive ever had in my life. There was Haitian food, Jamaican food, fried bananas, dirty rice, and all kinds of crazy food. I was in heaven. They had a studio in the back too! It was a regular house, but if you walked into the backyard it was like being
at a club in Jamaica. It had the lights and everything back there. It was great. At three or four in the morning Jim said, All right young fella. Im a 70-year-old man, its time for me to go home. Are you giving me a ride? I said, No problem. We got in the car and started to take off. Then I started to notice I didnt know how we got here. I said, Jim, how do we get back to the freeway? He said, I dont know. You drove. Just go that way. So here we were in the middle on the night, driving through all of these hoods in a blue car, and I start noticing that everybodys wearing red. Im sitting there just thinking, Oh, this is great. We both had no idea where we were going. We ended up driving around for an hour while we were lost, and we just started talking. He started telling me about the foundation. He said, Youre really important to the movement. Thank you so much for all that you do. I said, Jim, I really dont do anything. I wish there was more I could do. He said, Youre one of the most important people to the movement. I said, How is that? He said, Just by being there. You give your time and youre a good guy. I said, Thanks. I really appreciate that. Then we talked about his surgery. I said, What happened to your back?
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He said, Well you have to remember, they have pads now. All we had was leather straps. At least I got out before it really caused serious damage. A couple weeks later, there was another graduation at his house. The coach for USC was there, and Gary Dourdan from CSI was there. I asked Jim if I could bring some of the younger artists from the New West that I was working with such as Bishop Lamont, Taje, Roccett, Scipio, and Dae One. I said, This is the best way to get involved with new kids is to get the up and comers involved. Jim got up to make his speech and he said, There are so many people involved with this program who just donate their time. I can always count on them. If you look back there, theres Damion Young from Power 106. Hes always there no matter when I call him, or what we need. Hes always there. It was one of the few times I felt like I was a part of something real. With Jim and Bo Taylor, I felt a part of something. As we were leaving, I told Jim, My Granny just did a speech for the Santa Barbara Womens Club, and Im so proud of her. I had the speech in my pocket because I wanted to show it to him. Basically, she came from the deep South where everything was very segregated. She moved her family to California so her kids wouldnt be subjected to racism. She was an independent woman whose husband passed away, and she kept moving and ran her dead husbands auto repair shop. Jim said, Do you have another copy of this? I said, Yeah. As we were walking out, he pinned the speech up on his wall. And he kept it there. Ages later I saw he still had the speech on his wall. I said, Wow, you still have my Grannys speech up there. He said, Yeah, its inspiring. Now I know who you are. By the way, Harry Belafonte is gonna be in town next week. His daughter
is filming this documentary, and hes basically gonna tell the entire story of the civil rights movement on camera at the Amer-I-Can offices. Do you wanna go and take a couple of youngsters with you? I went back to my office at Power and found a couple of the unpaid interns who were working. I said, I know you guys arent making any money, but the least that I could give you is some knowledge. So they went with me to hear Harry Belafonte speak about the civil rights movement. At the end of it, Bo introduced me to Harry. With that really raspy voice of his he said, Hello, its very nice to meet you. I said, Its such an honor to meet you. I only have one question. I saw a picture of you in the Oval Office, standing in between JFK and Martin Luther King Jr. What was it like sitting in the office, working out civil rights issues and all of that? What were they like? He said, John Kennedy was a cool dude. But Martin? He was just cool. I was speechless. Harry said to Bo at the end of the meeting, Next time Im in L.A., make sure hes here. Ill sit down with him. He turned to me and said, Thank you for everything youve done. Ive heard good things about you. Shortly after that, Bishop Lamont called me and invited me to go to Miami with him to work with Scott Storch. I told Jim before I left, Im going to Miami! He said, Do you wanna use my place? I have a condo that overlooks the beach. Youre more than welcome to stay there. Ill call ahead and make sure that they open it up for you. Have fun! So my manager Aaron, Bishop and I went to Miami. The last time I saw Jim was at his birthday party. James Ingram had worked with Santa Barbara singer-songwriter Becca Solodon on her stuff (more on her later) and he had always asked me, Will you please bring me a copy of the song you did that day that I helped
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produce the vocals on? I really want to hear how it turned out. I walked into the party with a manila envelope with James stuff in it, just in case I saw him. He was there and said, You know what I like about you Damion? You keep your word. You came all the way out here to this party, and you brought the envelope just in case I would show up. You kept your word. I saw Jim and he said, You came all the way down here for my birthday party? I said, Come on man, were homies, right? He said, I want to introduce you to somebody. This is Mike Tyson. That was a mind-blower! Jim gave me a hug when I left, and that was the last time that Ive seen him, as my life soon took a turn and Id move back to Santa Barbara, away from being able to participate so closely with the foundation. I cherish the experience of meeting Bo, Jim, Harry, and being accepted by those guys. They are the keys to that history. Jim sat me down one time and said, The movement is in your hands now. Its up to you. You have a lot of good work to do, and you have no idea what youre gonna do in your lifetime thats gonna help a lot of people. You have the heart to do it and its in your hands to do it. I said, Jim, what do you want me to do? It was like he was telling me what my future was, and I wanted to know what I could do. He said, Youll know when the time is right. I feel so blessed that I have those guys as friends. I was so depressed after Bo Taylor died of cancer at the age of 42 in 2008. I think a part of the movement died with him. I know he and Jim werent on the best of terms in the end. One of my last conversations with Bo was, Its not about personal relationships. Bo really embraced me and introduced me to the streets of Los
Angeles and taught me what the ghetto was. Not what you read about or see on TV. Lets be real, Im from Santa Barbara. I live in the Truman Show. I moved to L.A., around rappers, singers, and milliondollar deals. It really grounded me, and I feel so blessed that I had the opportunity to, learn of the struggles of the civil rights movement, and also to learn about what life was really like on the other side of the coin. The foundation is going as strong as ever (www.amer-i-can.org) and doing incredible work. I am not directly involved anymore. But what Ive done is take what I learned and what I saw working with everyone there and Im letting it play out in my quieter life here in Santa Barbara. Im going to schools and meeting with parents of troubled kids, sometimes having them stay at the house for a while with me and Granny and, as much as I love music and am officially out of my self-imposed retirement or exile from the music business and have thrown myself back into it as deeply as ever, even producing rock legends such as Terry Reid and Eric Burdon and P.F. Sloan I still spend as much time helping troubled kids as I do in the studio. Thats a legacy that Jim Brown has given me that will last the rest of my life.
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DJ QUiK
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Ive always loved all the secret-agent shit that sometimes surrounds the music industry. Like meeting DJ Quik. Ive been a fan of his from the moment I first heard Quik is the Name back in 1991. The tracks Tonite and Born and Raised in Compton are pure genius. But from the very first track, Sweet Black Pussy, I was hooked. Especially when he stops and says hes on the wrong page the music stops and you hear him rustling papers and then he picks up again. Fuckin brilliant! Actually, of all the artists I love, Quik is one Ill never forget discovering for myself. Id gone to a local record store to buy everything I could of N.W.A. and happened to see the poster for Born and Raised in Compton. It was like I was on autopilot and I just had to buy the record. So when I was making my first moves at Power, working to really establish the station on a street level, I knew I had to meet DJ Quik. He was the streets. And Power needed his help. But the dude has always been very elusive. He doesnt meet a lot of people and at the time gang activity in L.A. was especially high, so he was even more isolated. So I was thrilled when his manager at the time, Stan Sheppard, who, as I say, I met through the Amer-I-Can Unity One Foundation with the late Bo Taylor and Jim Brown, called me up and asked if Id like to meet Quik. When I said, Yeah, of course! he gave me all these instructions
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about first going to a shopping mall where Id be picked up and then taken to another location he wouldnt tell me where after which Id meet Quik. All the mystery just added to the experience. When I was in his car he told me how reclusive, and quiet, Quik is. He wasnt kidding. We arrived at a house in Woodland Hills and went in. There wasnt a stick of furniture just plastic sheets on the floor. This is some GoodFellas shit, I laughed. Stan took me up to the master bedroom and there everyone was: Quik, AMG, Suga Free, El Debarge and a few other people. Quik was working on a track that would later become So Many Wayz. So, youre the new music director at Power, huh? So, youre DJ Quik! He said, Nice to meet you and shook my hand. Im doin some songs for a new album. Its called Rhythm-al-ism. He grabbed his headphones. Hold on a second. He started cutting vocals for the track No Doubt, singing, MGD is the brew for me. After he was done, he turned to me and said, What are you drinking? Jokingly, I said, Oh, Ill have some Booze Farm! But when he actually sent out for some Booze Farm, I felt like an ass. Later on, in the credits for Rhythm-al-ism, he says, Damion Young @ Power 106: You cant sip with the big boyz. Stick to wine coolers (ha ha.) Much love. When I got the album, I was like, Wow, I got a thank you on a DJ Quik album! But during that first visit, we kicked it for a while, and at the end of the night Quik said, Well be in touch. I said, When are you coming up to the station? Keep in mind, he was best friends with Theo, an on-air personality for our rival
station The Beat, so I didnt think he was actually gonna stop by. But Quik came in with Suga Free and did the morning gig it was a dream for me. After it was over, he said hed be willing do some drops. I was blown away. He and Suga had been in the studio all night and hadnt slept and were hilarious from being way over tired. When we got into the recording booth, they started doing Yo Mamma jokes back and forth. When I kicked one back to him, he said loudly, Oh, the white boys got jokes, does he? After that morning, wed run into each other once in a while. When Kurupt was gearing up to record his Space Boogie: Smoke Odyssey album, I was in early talks to executive produce the project. One of my first thoughts was to hook him up with Quik, who happened to be working in one of the other studios beside me at Larrabee at the time. I had Quik do a record with Mariah and we also did John Doe for Shade Sheists Informal Introduction album. Our relationship grew to the point where we truly became friends. When Quik was working on his Under Tha Influence album, I was honored that he bounced ideas off me. I never was so arrogant to think of myself as an adviser to someone as amazing as Quik, but I valued the friendship to be always honest with him when he asked for my opinion. One day I was in the studio and asked him what the snare was from one of his old records. He said, Ahh! Well, do you want it on a disc or do you want it from a DAT? I was like, Uh, Ill take it on a DAT! Another time I asked him if I could get the Bitch sample from Bitch Betta Have My Money for my voicemail. He thought that was funny, and pulled out his road case and loaded the sample for me. Quik was always teaching me things. I was recording a song called Hood Patrol with Tri-Star one day and he came into the studio. He said, Damizza, the one thing youve gotta rely on is your ears.
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Youre a great producer, but youve got to use your ears. Engineering is the next way you need to go with this. As Quik and I became closer, I became more friendly with his inner circle, too. One of the amazing dudes I met was the late Mausberg. He was a genuine, great guy. So funny. He recorded the song Ring King when I was there at Larrabee West. I remember when he was finished with the track he came over and said, Damizza, check this out! About a week before he died, he came into the studio just to say hello to me. When he died, I think a piece of Quik died, too. Maus was such a positive influence on everyone who knew him and he had a sense of humor like no one Ive ever met. Over the next few years, Quik and I ran into each other frequently in the studio. He then asked me to get involved in his album Trauma. Stan was no longer his manager by then and his new guy Benny approached me. Quik doesnt have a deal right now, he said. We need to get enough spins up so Quik can find another deal. Thats the kind of thing I was happy to use my influence at Power to achieve. We hired the people to do his radio promotion and took care of that wing of the project. The single Fandango featuring B-Real from Cypress Hill was the first track to hit. After that, I got involved with the artwork for the project. My pal Triple, who at the time worked for my Baby Ree company, contacted tattoo artist Mister Cartoon, and he and the terrific L.A. photographer Estevan Oriol did the artwork. I then got the vinyl pressed for Fandango. I thought it would be really cool to do a red see-through record, with a hand-written label by Quik. It was great. After that, management came to me again and asked for my advice on where I thought they should go for a deal. The timing was amazing. I had just struck a deal for my Baby Ree with RBC, which was the sales and marketing infrastructure for Priority Records.
RBC took me to Fontana, the independent arm of Universal Records. They offered me a deal there, which encompassed my second Damizza Presents project, the Butch Cassidy project and some other stuff I had in the pipeline. I took Quiks manager Benny over to Fontana to meet with Steve Prichard, who was the head of the company at the time. I said, Quik has this Soundscan history with platinum and gold records. They said, His last album didnt do that well. But, they did the deal. We were already at 1,700 spins with Fandango, so the low number they projected for Quik was between 25,000 and 50,000 records shipped. This would mean that, at eight bucks a record, Quik would be making a lot of money. Fontana was geared up and decided to go with the deal with Quiks new label, Mad Science. Baby Ree was promised to make anywhere from 50 cents to a dollar for every record for being the administrator, and I was told I personally was going to get five grand a month to oversee the project. It was great timing, as I had left Power by this time and was selling my condo in L.A. and retreating to Santa Barbara. From the letterhead of Mad Science all the way down to the logo, business cards, and everything, my company was doing everything. We negotiated the 80/20 deal with Fontana. Quik got 80 percent of the royalties, and got to own his masters for the very first time in his career. In my eyes, it was awesome because I could finally give something back to DJ Quik after all the times hed given his advice to me and inspired my life through his music. Robert and Brian from RBC know the independent game in and out. They started with Master P and all of those projects on No Limit. We linked them up with Quik, and our goal was to take this Trauma album to a new plateau. We were getting paid five grand a month to oversee this project, which actually wasnt that much, considering we had six people
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working on it. We were on the road with him. We did radio with him. I even had to coordinate getting Nate Dogg on board for live performances and work everything from security to transportation for him. I had to do some of the clearances for the record, too. This was all I did for several months. Benny was managing B-Real from Cypress Hill as well. B-Real and Quik were working on Bs solo album, and the music was turning out great. That was the project we were gonna do next. There was this one sampled record they did that was amazing. Im telling you, it was a No. 1 record. And after that, we were in negotiations to have Quik, B-Real, and Nate Dogg become a super group. For a brief time, everyone was on board, but then B-Real left Benny and the records never saw the light of day and the whole plan fizzled. Trauma came out, and it was the No. 1 independent record on the Billboard charts. Unfortunately, I never saw my royalties of 50 cents to a dollar a record. I was still working on the promotions for the project though and it got to the point where I told Benny, Look, until we get the final paperwork, were not going to do anything else with this. Youre dragging your heels. He called me back and said Well give 25 cents a record after our break-even point at 70,000 records. I said, We broke even at 25,000 records. What are you talking about? I ran the business end of the project, so I knew what was up. One of my Baby Ree people agreed with Benny to sell some autographed stuff on eBay to underwrite the costs of pressing the vinyl. Every step of the way, we were finding ways to underwrite costs. So saying that the break-even was 70,000 records was bullshit, because along the way we would book shows for him that would pay for the promotion costs.
But Benny said, No, this is how were gonna do it. Quik needs to make money on this project. I said, Dude, hes making eight bucks a record, and we shipped 130,000 records. This 50 cents to a dollar a record was originally only for the radio side of things. But we set up his MySpace, we got him an article in The Source, we handled press, and did pretty much everything except the music. Around this time, I was also doing my new Damizza Presents project. I wanted to have Quik do a record for it, and they wanted 15 grand in cash. We got together to do the record, and Quik was there for maybe 15 minutes and left. When he came back, the record didnt get done. I said to Benny, Well, its all good. We agreed I would get my choice of like two or three beats, and he only really did one record that never got finished. Ill just pass on the record now, since we cant work out our other deal anyway. I just want to be done with all of this. Once again, I did business with someone I held in high regard, and it had gotten messed up. When this whole thing started, I told Benny, This business has a way of fucking up relationships. I dont know if I want to do this with Quik because I know somewhere, itll get messed up. Benny went back to Quik and told him that I was holding up his project because I was trying to get more money than I was contracted for. Then he sent me an e-mail saying I was cut off and wouldnt get any more money. I was livid. I called Quik and I said, Look bro, I dont know whats going on, but this is what was initially agreed upon. Quik said, Well, what do I owe you? I said, Its not a question of what you owe me, because I couldnt really care less about the money. But this is fucked up how it went down.
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He said, Well, tell me what happened. I listed off all the things my company and I did for the project. He said, Wait a minute. You did the vinyl? You did the listening party? Thats why you were working with Estevan and came up with the ideas at the photo shoot? I said, Yeah! We got your deal at Fontana, too. He said, Okay. Let me call you back. I never had a thought that there was bad blood between us. In fact, Quik had given me the chance to be the opening performer for his entire tour, which I appreciated more than I can ever express. During a show in Calabasas, he even walked out on stage while I was performing. It was a dream come true having my idol out there clowning around with me while I was rapping in my home turf, with all my friends in the crowd. But Benny had Quik totally brainwashed and convinced him that I had nothing to do with his deal or anything. My heart sank when I was told that Quik had put something up on his MySpace that I was sabotaging him. I text messaged him saying that if he had a problem to call me, not put it on his MySpace. He got back to me right away and said he had no idea what I was talking about. It was Benny, or someone else in the camp, fucking with me. Shade saw Quiks MySpace and he got on the same bullshit wagon, penning a four-page letter about all the negative stuff I supposedly did to sink his career. Both public smears happened at the same time and then I discovered that people were embezzling money from my company and I was missing more than a million bucks. Overnight, I was broke. I did what any good alcoholic would do, and shut out the world for two years and the only reason I left my bedroom was to go buy more Absolut. I didnt really wake up until I found myself at the
Betty Ford Center. A few months later, I ventured out for the first time in more than a year, to go a party with Bishop for EA Games, which had featured one of our tracks in a Madden game soundtrack. One of the first people I saw at the gathering was DJ Quik. Yo! I said. What the fuck happened? I dont know, Damizza. Just dont go Hollywood on me. I said, Hollywood on you? What the fuck? He walked away. I havent talked to him since. I later found out that Quik had fired Benny. He told Bishop Lamont that he didnt have any problem with me, but that he just didnt understand what had gone wrong. I think I was a bystander caught up in whatever shit Benny had going on and now Im clean, Im choosing better friends and staying away from the sleazeballs for whom Ive become a convenient fall guy in the past. Guilty by association. As always.
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PUFFY AND BiGGiE
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Theres one thing you simply cannot tell Sean Puffy (or Diddy) Combs. And thats No. I have never met anyone with the drive that hes got. Its amazing. Its funny when I saw his TV show I Want To Work For Diddy because it was a perfect window into the drive and demand for success that made him the mogul he is. Sean started working for Andre Harrell as an intern for Uptown Records in the early 90s and shot up through the ranks from the mailroom to the executive suite within just a few years. Some people mistake Diddys passion for what he does as an overblown ego and attitude problem. Thats a mistake. Its one thing that makes me really identify with him. Well, that and his great, twisted sense of humor. Hes left some hilarious messages on my voicemail, and one of them I just couldnt resist using on one of my Baby Ree mixtapes. I think of him as a preacher of hip-hop. His personality is just so infectious. I find it impossible not to get caught up in it and if youve got any passion yourself, youll end up wanting to put your wallet on the offering plate to get involved with him. And thats the coolest thing. What better thing can you say about someone than he makes you want to get in the game and explore every aspect of your own passions? While hes got all this drive, Diddys also a very down-to-earth guy and extremely appreciative of the people around him. He sort
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of plays a character of himself on TV. Its the character that tells people to go get cheesecake for him unlike the real guy, who is very thoughtful. When my Granny was in the hospital after knee surgery, Puff kept calling and leaving messages. When he finally got me on the phone, he said, Yo, put Granny on the phone. The first time we met I was still working at 97.5 in Santa Barbara and was attending the Gavin Convention in San Francisco. I was a fan of the remixes he did with Total and groups like that, so I introduced myself to him and had a picture taken with him. We ran into each other over the next year or so, but really clicked after I made it to Power. It was our shared passion for the music that made us closer. It wasnt always smooth sailing, however, given that very passion. We clashed a few times over some 112 records that I didnt like and didnt put on the air. We had our testy moments but that was inevitable and our working relationship wouldnt have been honest if it had have been any other way. Id put together a show with E-40, Daz and Kurupt from Tha Dogg Pound, Mobb Deep, and WC and asked Diddy if he could come and do his single Cant Nobody Hold Me Down with Ma$e. He agreed. The day of the gig, a van pulled up and Diddy got out first. He was followed by Ma$e and then a pair of crutches attached to Biggie. Yo! Biggie, I said. Hey, whats up, little man, he said. Wed never met, so I introduced myself. Im Damion Young the music director of Power 106. He goes, Very nice to meet you. Where do you want me? As we were walking toward the stage, I asked Puff, Whys Biggie on crutches? He said, Oh, Lil Cease and him got in a car accident. My head was spinning. It was such an honor to meet Biggie. But the scene was tense. It was just after Tupac had been killed and the whole East-West rivalry was at an all-time high. I grabbed E-Man
and we went up to the DJ booth. I said, Yo, we gotta think fast. Biggies coming on stage. Right after Ma$e and Puffy are done, throw on (Lil Kims) Crush on You. It was amazing. He walked out on crutches and performed the hook. Then Snoop took the stage with Daz and Kurupt another huge surprise. I think this was the only time fans got to see Puffy, Biggie, Snoop, Lil Cease, Ma$e, Daz and Kurupt on stage the same night. This, I thought, is the formula. After the show, Puffy told me he was going to bring Biggie by the station in a few days. Hes almost done with his album and wants to play you some music. That night, I was kicking back listening to Powers rival station, The Beat. My heart sank when they premiered a Biggie/Bone Thugs song, Notorious Thugs. I went through the roof and called Puffy. What the hell? He said, What are you talking about? I told him that Weve always been a bigger supporter of your stuff, so what the fuck? Puffy stopped me in my tracks and said, Whoa, whoa. We havent made any alliances and we play fair. Dude, we did a show for you, then we went over there and played some shit. Now well come to you for the morning show. Its all love, but dont get crazy with me. I said, Im just letting you know, if were gonna form an alliance and were gonna play this game, lets play it. But no bullshit. It took a little time for Puffy and me to find our groove, but once we figured out each others styles, we were unstoppable. A few days later Biggie showed up and was so friendly. Whats up, Lil D? All good, I said, How you doin? Everythings cool. Me and (his wife) Faith got everything worked out, my kids are good. I just really want to get back to New York to see my daughter but I love it out here, man! After all that L.A.
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had put him through with this coastal rivalry it was hard to swallow that he actually enjoyed being here. Yall got the best weed! Im really happy about this album, too. I said, Cool, did you bring some of it? He said, Yeah, I brought the whole record. Biggie handed me a DAT, which had Hypnotize handwritten on it. I havent played this anywhere yet, he said. You guys are the first to hear it. I said, Well, thanks, man. We walked toward the on-air room, Biggie fumbling with his crutches. I told him that Id gone to a show he did for The Beat and he was surprised. You went to a Beat show? Of course its all love outside of the stations. We fight on the field but kick it and have beers afterward. I always like to see what the competition is like anyway, so I always buy a ticket and go to the shows. I told him how much I liked it when he did Big Poppa and Me and My Bitch. The crowd went nuts. You killed with that, I said. And that Roger and Zapp sample in Los Angeles really didnt hurt! He laughed and said, Yeah, man, I love that shit. That day, Power premiered Hypnotize. It was incredible. The first time where Biggies flow had changed from the shouting-type style to something more conversational. He went from the Party and Bullshit, high-pitched rapper to a laid-back, bossy flow. Thats what Ive always told rappers when they ask me why Big was such a great rapper. When you get to that point where its conversational, youve won. Biggie did the morning show that day and signed a bunch of 8x10s for the Power staff and seemed to enjoy hanging out. Near the end of his visit, he came back into my office and said, Yo, you got some drops for me to do, D?
I was trippin heres Biggie doing his own promo work. None of the record company suits pulling their bullshit. This dudes a star, I thought. Yeah, man, I got some drops for ya. Nick from Tha Baka Boyz came in and said, Yo, we want Big to do a freestyle for the Friday Night Flavors show. I said, Okay do you have a beat? He said, Yeah, well just do it over the All About the Benjamins record. Biggie was happy to do it. He said, Hey, I just wrote this verse for Puffys album. Its gonna be sick! Turns out he spit his verse from Victory on it. Biggie just went in and killed it. I was looking at him and he was leaning on his crutches over the microphone, just fuckin bustin his verse. I said, Yo, we gotta do more of these! I knew that this was exactly what was going to make our station look different. We walked out of the studio and slapped hands. He looked at me and said, All right, little man. Ill talk to you later. He patted me on the back and said, Thanks for everything. I appreciate you having me. I said, Any time, dude! The next night was a Saturday, March 8, 1997. I went to an Outkast platinum party at the Roxbury. My plan was to hit the Vibe party at the Peterson Auto Museum after, but I was stopped at the door because I was wearing tennis shoes. It had been a long week and I was tired, so I bailed on the evening and went home to sleep. At about 2 in the morning, my phone woke me up. It was E-One, whos one of the best street promoters out there. He said, Yo, dude, they just shot Biggie. I said, What? Who did? What the fuck? He said, I dont know. I was standing outside and I heard shots and saw his car take off. They took him to Cedars. Im goin there now.
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I said, Is he okay? E-One said he didnt know, but that there had been a lot of shots fired. I then rang up Joe Reichling from Arista. He hadnt heard yet, so he didnt know anything. It felt like it was only 10 minutes later E called me back from the hospital. Biggies dead. It knocked the wind out of me. Id just met him. Hed been hanging out in my office, playing his music and talking about how he really liked the West Coast but was eager to get back to see his wife and daughter and how life was good. Now the dude was just dead? I really didnt get it. Id come to Power shortly after Pac had been killed and didnt grasp the street life going on in Los Angeles. I was new. Gangbanging was a different world and I didnt understand how someone could get shot in the middle of an intersection on La Cienega after coming out of a Quincy Jones party. It didnt make any sense. The next morning I called Michelle at Power to brainstorm on what we were going to do in terms of programming and how we were going to handle Biggies murder. Tha Baka Boyz did a special on violence and how this is not what hip-hop is supposed to be. It was a terrible time. The atmosphere was very grim. Come Monday, I walked into the office and found a package on my desk from Puffys Bad Boy office. I opened it up and there was another DAT file. No note, just Going Back To Cali handwritten on the label. As I was looking at it, the phone rang and it was Joe Reichling. He said, Did you get what Puffy sent? I said, I just got a DAT from Bad Boy. He said, Thats a song called Going Back To Cali that Biggie did about California. This is how he felt about L.A. Puffy wanted you to have it, so the people of Los Angeles could know how Biggie really
felt about their city. This senseless violence in hip-hop has nothing to do with Biggie and L.A. It has to do with individuals. I put the tape in my DAT player, listened to it once and then took it straight into the morning show. Yo, play this. What is it? One of Biggies last songs. Here. The room was silent. The record was done so respectfully, from a California perspective, nonetheless. It had the Roger and Zapp sample, it had the sound of the West Coast, and the dude really nailed it. You could tell that not only did Biggie spend a lot of time here, but he really loved West Coast hip-hop and the whole West Coast vibe. I thought of his attention to detail, his love for music and doing what he did. I felt really fucked up about the whole thing. The whole industry was, too. It was a dark time in hip hop. Personally, it set me back. True, Id met Biggie only once but at this point Id truly invested my life in music and I was shattered, wondering what kind of fucking scene Id gotten no, thrown myself into. The vibe was very ugly for some time after Biggies murder. The media started their crap, suggesting that Puffy was trying to capitalize on Biggies death by putting out the Ill Be Missing You record. They
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Puffys marketing genius with his huge heart. Puffy introduced me to Biggie, and I can tell you that these dudes were brothers. As close as friends could be. They were always together, always laughing, always smiling. Puffy lost his best friend that night, and Ive always believed he put Biggies music out there to celebrate his life and make sure the world can learn something from such tragedy. And all those cold-hearted fucks of critics sitting back need to recognize that Puffy was there: He saw his friend gunned down in the street; he was at the hospital when Biggie died; and he was the one who had to phone Biggies mother to tell her that her son was dead. When Biggies album dropped, we played five or six cuts off it immediately and Power and Hot 97 completely got behind the record. I ran into Puffy a little while later when I was dining at Justins, his restaurant in New York. He was surprised to see me and came over. Hey, Dame, what you doin here? I told him I was just chillin. Im sorry to hear about everything, man, I said. He said, Well, thank you for supporting the records. We became really tight, me, Power, the whole Bad Boy organization. When Id come up with the idea for the Dre/Snoop reunion in Hawaii and Michelle told me I couldnt do it, I went to Puff and his manager at the time, Benny Medina (whom I later orchestrated coming into the scene to manage Mariah). I said, I want to do a show called Puffy in Paradise. Lets get Lil Kim, The LOX, 112, Ma$e, all of these people, and do a show in Hawaii. Puffy said, Hell, yeah! He was in the middle of editing the video for his Ill Be Missing You single and asked me to come down to talk about the show. When I got there, I explained the whole set up of the show, and Benny was like, How much is this thing gonna cost?
I said, 250 grand to you, and 250 grand to us. They agreed to that, and next I said, Well, how well announce this is, Puffy will come on the air and do the Bad Boy takeover. He can even do it from Hot 97 if he doesnt want to come to L.A. Everything ready to go, but I had a problem. I had to get it approved by Michelle, who was notorious for shooting down my plans. Of course, Michelle said no, just like she did with the Dre promotion. So I went to Rick Cummings. I said, Look Rick, its either me or her. He said, Why, Damion? I said, Because Ive got this Puffy thing wrapped up already! All Ive got to do is go to New York, cut the drops, and were golden. You see the news. Biggies on the news every five minutes. Puffys gonna ship a lot of records. Ma$e is gonna ship a lot of records. These guys are going to be huge stars, and if we want to own the brand of rap in Los Angeles, we have to attach ourselves to these artists like no one else. Snoop Dogg and Dr. Dre was a nobrainer, and we already said no to that. Now were talking about a mainstream artist. We can add Shaq (who had just signed with the Lakers), WC, and Lord Tariq and Peter Gunz. Itll take over the town! A lot of our listeners are from East Los Angeles and low-income areas. Theyve never left the city. Lets give them the opportunity to go on vacation in Hawaii. Think about this! He said, All right. Ill pay for your ticket to New York. Get the drops done. The next night, I was sitting in Diddys house studio in New York, cutting the drops. I said, Yo Puff, say it like this. From the booth, he laughed and said, Oh, so you want to be a producer now? The whole Damizza thing hadnt really kicked in yet, and I thought that was hilarious!
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On stage in Hawaii for Puffy in Paradise: Shaq, The Lox, 112, Puffy, me, Clark Kent, Ma$e, Lil Kim, Lil Cease and others.
The promotion started, and next thing you know, it took over L.A. Whats funny is, later down the line, when these albums dropped, they sold as many if not more records in Los Angeles then they did in New York! We, as Power 106, were more supportive of rap than any other station in America. It was for two reasons. If we were gonna be a rap station the rap station, I figured, we needed to play more album cuts rather than just singles. There just werent enough old records that were still relevant. Thats why we adapted a rock format called Album Orientated Rock to something called Album Orientated Rap. Bad Boy had a deep pool of records we could choose from that would fit into this format, so thats why it worked so well. On the downside, we got a lot of flak from the streets of Los Angeles for playing so much East Coast music. We went to Hawaii and everything went off without a hitch. It was blockbuster: Puffy, Ma$e, Lil Kim, The LOX, and even Shaquille ONeal, who was at his peak in Los Angeles and performed the DJ Quik-produced Straight Playin. Everyone went nuts. It was in the ballroom at the Hilton Hawaiian Village, so it was a really intimate setting. The audience of Power listeners, about 800 people, got the full stadium-level sound and lighting, yet with Puffy about five feet from the front row.
I was standing on a chair watching the show. All of a sudden, I was hoisted up to about eight feet off the ground. I looked down and saw the top of Shaqs head. Just like fathers take their kids and put them on their shoulders, there I was on top of Shaq. He walked me up to the front of the stage. This fuckers so tall all he had to do was lean forward and I was planted right there beside Puffy. Puff put his arm around me and said to the crowd, Yo, I want to thank Damion Young here for putting this whole thing together. His big-ass platinum Rolex was dangling to the side of my head as he started performing Cant Nobody Hold Me Down. I couldnt resist the prank and slipped the watch off his wrist and put it on he didnt even notice! When I look back at a picture I had taken of the whole crew on stage every kind of rap represented and all sorts of people from the industry and radio I think of a time when there was true unity in the game. As I walked down the stairs from the stage, Puffy was at the bottom, arms folded. All right, motherfucker, give me my watch back! With my best-possible shit-eating grin, I said, Oh, this? Puff said, Listen, Dame, thank you so much for everything and gave me a hug. He would pop into my office time to time to say hello and just kick it. One day he came in after hed started getting into the clothing biz and brought me a jacket. Thats the way Power was at that time: Artists would just come and
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hang out. That comfortable us-against-them vibe is what made us so successful at the time. The most touching encounter I had with Puffy was right after 9/11. Mariah and I were in D.C. for a big benefit and I ran into him backstage. Dame, where you been? What you up to? Before I could answer, Mariah came out of her dressing room and said, Hey, Puff. Come on Al, lets go, were leaving. Puffy smiled and looked at me. Everyone knew Mariah had been going through a rough time. Oh, he said. Youre here to help out a friend, huh? I said, Yeah. He said, Thats some really cool shit. If you ever need me for anything, Ill be there for you.
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Its autumn in 2002 and a sweet, shy and pretty 16-year-old girl in Santa Barbara is thinking about boys, learning to drive, getting good grades and enchanted by the magic she hears from music when her foot starts to hurt. Her mom takes her to the doctor. Then more doctors. For a year, they cant find anything wrong. Finally, a scan reveals a marble-sized tumor hidden deep in her foot tissue. Cancerous. Soft-tissue sarcoma. Deadly. Becca Solodon is told that even with a partial leg amputation, metastases are likely. Her family is told to prepare for the worst. The Teddy Bear Cancer Foundation is an amazing local charity in Santa Barbara that helps families with young cancer patients. One of the founders, Nikki, called a friend of hers in the music business and told him Beccas story. That friend was Sam Franko, who happened to be music legend Jerry Hellers attorney. Sam called me. Hey, theres this little girl from Santa Barbara involved in the Teddy Bear Cancer Foundation. Her chances arent good. But her dream is to record for an hour in a big studio. No problem, I thought. Has she ever sung before? Sam said, No, maybe in the shower or around the house, but apparently shes really shy. Whens this happening, I asked. Sam told me that Becca was at Westlake studios as we spoke. Its funny because Jerry is looked upon as one of the antichrists
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of the music biz for being such a ruthless businessmen (hey, Ruthless Records think about it!) but I dont think people give him enough credit. He was one of the godfathers of West Coast rap, no matter how you look at it. And if youre handed a really bad (or ruthless) contract and you dont read it and you sign it, well, youre the dumbass who signed a shitty contract. Jerry just happened to be the savvy motherfucker among hundreds who sat there and watched you sign it. Granted, Jerry and I have had our words in the past and not gotten along, but Ill always respect what hes done for the art form. Any excess negativity I felt toward him was cleared up on this day. When someone does something to help someone like Becca, that person cant be 100 percent evil. Thats one of the problems with the perception of a lot of people in the music industry: Business is never personal. Jerrys a businessman. Now, when he offered Becca a contract later down the road, it was crazy. And more angels were looking out for Becca when that happened and she stepped away, knowing it was too early for her to dive that deep into the business. Of course, I was excited to get involved with this project, so I headed over to the studio immediately. One of the bonuses was that Ronnie King was also invited in on the session and was there by the time I arrived. Hes one of my idols when it comes to music and percussion. He played keys on like 80 percent of the classic 2Pac album All Eyez On Me. I had a chance to work with Ronnie on my record Crybaby with Mariah and Snoop, so it was an honor and a pleasure to work with him again. Especially for this amazing cause. As soon as walked in the studio, I heard this little sheepish, angelic voice singing real quietly. I said, Hey Ronnie. Whats crackin dogg? He said, Damion! Whats up? I turned to the little girl and said, And you must be Becca. Hi,
how are you doing? She was just the most adorable, angel-looking sweetheart. She was bald from the chemotherapy. Her family was there to support her. The second you meet Becca, she will grab you by the heart. And from that point forward, whatever it should. I said, So, whats the plan for the day? Ronnie said, Well, we dont have a producer. Im just here playing keys, but I dont really produce like that. Will you produce the session? I said, Sure. So, Becca, let me hear your song! She said, Im not really a singer. I said, Dont talk like that. Thats the first step. Sing for me! She said, But I said, Becks! Sing for me. She said, Okay. She started to sing Simon by Lifehouse, real quietly. I said, Ahh youre bullshittin! She said, Excuse me? I said, Youre bullshittin. You can sing! Youve got the tone, and youve got the vibe. Kick that shit, lets go! She just stopped. I said, Becks, lets do this. So I walked in and we started to arrange the music. I decided
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we needed live drums, and then Nikki from the Teddy Bear Cancer Foundation informed me they only had a few more minutes at the studio. I said, Okay. Ronnie, how do you expect to do this halfassed? He said, I dont know, but work your magic. I looked over at Becca and I said, So Becks, youre from Santa Barbara? Politely, she said, Yes. I said, What school do you go to? She said, Dos Pueblos. I said, My little brother goes to Dos Pueblos. She said, Whos your little brother? I said, Nick Young. She looked over and said, Does he run track? I said, Yeah. She said, I know him! I looked over at my staff and said, Find me another studio. Were gonna finish this record. They said, How many days do we need? I said, As many as it takes. Get Anthony Mazza for guitar, get Bruce for percussion, get Mike Schlesinger, lets get everybody up here! Brian, the engineer, who I first met while working with Ashanti, volunteered to stay on to finish the record as well. This one-hour session ended up turning into four days. We moved over to Soundcastle, and I showed Becca and her family how records were mixed. I knew that in a couple of weeks, Becca was going to go through her surgery to have half her leg amputated. My friend Triple and I came up with ways to keep her busy and get her mind off this surgery. We did a fundraiser and got her a keyboard. We got her a DVD player to watch movies in the hospital. We taught her how to cut vocals.
Later on down the line, we brought in James Ingram to teach her some licks. Even Warren G. and Krayzie Bone came in and taught her a few things. Becca was the focus of the West Coast hip-hop world in those few days. Everyone put their personal bullshit aside and gave her their best. Working with Becca changed my life. I had decided that I was over producing records entirely after the fiasco that happened with my Westside Connection Lights Out song. But this little girl just wanted to record a song. She was facing death, and she just wanted to sing for an hour in a studio. Ive spent hours just looking at the ceiling of studios at $2,000 a day. Becca reminded me that this is why we do what we do in the music business. So I said to myself, Finally! Ive got something thats redeeming to my soul to work on. As the weeks passed after the session and she was back in hospital, it wasnt a very positive time. We always had this joke though: It was right when the rapper Chingy had just come out. We were always fascinated by that name Chingy. It just had a ring to it. We would always say, Oh, so you know Chingy? I even had Pam Anderson say it when I recorded the drops for the Baby Ree mixtape. So I went into the hospital and played Becca the drops. Becca started laughing her ass off while Triple and I sat there like a couple of court jesters. There was one really bad day when were leaving, and Becca was crying. As we left her room and headed toward the elevator, Triple said, Damn, what can we do to make little Becca laugh? After a couple of moments, he said, I know. Should I do it? I said, Do what? He said, Should I yell, Oh, so you know Chingy?
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I thought he was just screwing around. Triple is a big, 64 Mexican guy from East Los Angeles, and hes real mild mannered. Id never heard him yell before. We got in the elevator, and Triple screamed at the top of his lungs, Oh, so you know Chingy???!!! Now keep in mind, we were in a hospital. As the doors to the elevator shut, I looked over at him and said, What the fuck was that? He said, You said to do it! I said, Beccas family is never gonna talk to us again! He said, Oh, my bad. You said it was cool. Right then, the elevator stopped on the next floor down, and this older lady with an IV bag attached walked in. I said, Damn, did you hear that? She said, Yeah, it sounds like someones up there losing their mind! I said, Yeah, I wonder whos doing all that. Triple looked away and started whistling. So the next day, I called up Beccas mom and said, Look, I just want to apologize. We didnt mean to do that, and it was completely my fault. She said, No, you dont understand. The timing was perfect. Becca didnt want to cry when you guys were in the room, but
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several weeks after her surgery. I walked up to Becca and said, Hey Becks, you gotta get better. She said, Why? I said, Just weeks after your surgery, youre opening up for Mariah Carey, and thats your shot! She said, Could I really do this? At that point, the gravity of the situation hit her Mom and Dad. They pulled me aside and said, Look. Dont mess with our daughter. Shes very fragile. I said, Please believe me. Your daughter has what it takes to make it as a singer. Beccas mom said, Yeah, well, we get it. Shes a cancer patient and shes here with these foundations. But dont play with her emotions. If she cant really do this I said, Mom. Dad. Theres gonna come a time when I walk up to you and I say, Do you see what I was talking about? And youre gonna get it. But until then, just let me do my job. They said, Were gonna trust you, but we dont understand what you want from us. I said, I dont want anything. I just want to see her succeed and see her live. They said, Well, weve heard about the music industry, and its not like this. I said, Thats why people in the business dont like me. Because I am not that guy. Im this guy thats right here in front of you. And you dont understand how much you guys are helping me remember that Im this guy. She had the surgery, and everything went according to plan. I was there every day, though I think I blacked out a lot of them. To this day, her Dad will walk up to me every once and a while with tears in his eyes and say, There was this one moment. Someday, Ill tell you what happened. But my daughter was in so much pain
and said, I dont know if Im gonna make it. As a father, I didnt know what to say, and you were there and said something funny that diffused the situation. I said, You know, we all love her. She made it to the show to open up for Mariah. Mariah had a terrible cold that day, so at first we were told that it would be best if they didnt meet each other because Becca was very susceptible to infection. Two minutes before the show, Mariah called me and said, So, are you gonna go out there and introduce her? I said, No, shes just gonna go out there and do it. She said, No! Youre gonna go out there and introduce her. So I grabbed the mic and I went out there. I had never been on the stage at the Arlington Theater before, and this was my hometown. The lights were so bright that I couldnt even see the stage, no less the monitors in front of the stage. I started walking toward the front of the stage and almost ended up in the front row. I tripped over a monitor, and it was bad. After I regained my composure, I said, Ladies and gentlemen. Everybody knows the story, everybodys seen it in the local press. Ladies and gentlemen, a very special young girl. Becca Solodon. She walked out on stage, on crutches and she tore the house down! It was a standing ovation. When she walked off the stage, I gave her a hug. Rolling Stone was there, National Enquirer was there. It was big. After the show, Becca and Mariah met and spent about 10 minutes talking, which was so sweet. One of the best phone calls Ive ever received came from Becca about three months later. I answered the phone and she said, Guess what! I said, What? Did you go to the hospital today? She said, Yep. I said, Did you get your checkup today?
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She said, Yes. I said, Well? She said, Do you know what its like being told you dont have to go to a hospital again after youve lived in one for six months in your life? Im clean. No cancer. No more chemotherapy, and no more hospitals. I was shocked. What?! She said, Its a miracle. The doctors dont even believe it. So what are we doing now? Im clean. Lets do this. I thought this was gonna be a much slower process. But now I took it as a challenge to get her moving. I said, Okay, now you have to learn ProTools. She said, Okay. She came back and knew how to use ProTools. I said, Now youve gotta learn how to play the piano. A couple months later, she called and said, I can play. What do you think? She took a songwriting class, and one day she came and was a little upset, telling me, The teacher didnt like my song. I said, Dont worry about it, and made a joke. She laughed and wrote another song. I said, Hey, do this rap hook real quick. She killed it. I said, Yo, try rapping on this. She rapped better than Krayzie Bone, and we were all just blown away. Then I met Guilty, a group of rap hopefuls hanging around our native Santa Barbara, friends of my brothers, and I threw her in the studio with them. She taught Guilty how to write raps. She threw herself into it and Id get calls saying, Im performing with The Commodores today. Or, Im performing at Disneyland today. I woke up and looked at the paper one morning. On the front page, it said something like Local singer Becca Solodon to sing national anthem for Fourth of July .
I was just like, What the hell? There was nothing that this girl wasnt doing. So we started looking for a place for her to do a show. I said, You need to put together a press release saying that youre gonna put out an EP and do a show. She said, Im not ready. I said, Becks. Youre ready. She said, Okay. My little brother Jason and I were walking through the Paseo Nuevo mall in downtown Santa Barbara one day, and I asked him, looking at a sign, Center Stage Theater ... Jason, what is that? He said, looking at me like I were an idiot, Umm. A theater. I said, Thanks, smartass. He said, Lets go check it out. I said, You know what Im thinking, right? He said, Yeah. Becca. Jason and I walked in to find an intimate 130-seat theater. I called Becca and said, Guess what. Youre doing a show at Center Stage Theatre. She said, Like a selling-tickets show, show? I said, Yeah. She said, How do we do this? I said, Stop by my house. Ill show you how to do the press releases, and well send it out. The press release made it onto the front page of the local newspaper. Becca Solodon to Release EP. It was huge!
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She knew how to street team, so she had posters all up and down State Street. She had Sjoko master her EP down at Tantrum Studios. She and her Mom did a lot of the press. Then she put the band together with a bunch of kids from Santa Barbara City College, and with her professor Dom, who is also a great engineer. She put the
Becca Solodon doing what she does best, here at a Disney Make-A-Wish Foundation benefit.
whole show together herself, and it sold out! The night of the show, she walked out there and, as I like
to describe it, graduated. Now she does shows all over town. We got a four-camera DVD shoot out of the show at the theater, directed by my co-author J. Marshall Craig who also landed Becca a couple of tracks, one of them an unreleased P.F. Sloan song called Ginger Street she recorded on the feature film Remembering Nigel that he produced for director Frank Howson. Beccas now working on her first full-length record and she continues to perform at events all over SoCal, particularly in the Santa Barbara area. Shes awesome. Shes become my little sister, and I love her. She is now more than six years cancer free. A dying girls last wish has become has become a remarkably talented young womans dreams coming true.
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After meeting Irv Gotti during Jay-Zs performance at Universal Studios, we became really close friends. He called me his Yoda, because every time he was going to do something, hed call me first to bounce ideas around. Hold on. I need to call Yoda really quick! It was hilarious! Irv always gave me the credit of being the bridge that married the two coasts. He said my gift to hip-hop was that I opened up the door for East Coast artists to get played on the West Coast. Even with his artists Ashanti and Lloyd, Irv would joke around with them and say, When you meet Damizza, that means youre about to make it! Damizza, tell them. When Vibe did its big article on the launching of Ashanti, my quote is the first thing you read. In fact, Irv asked me how to break Ashanti. I brought her to the R&R Convention and introduced her to all the urban panelists and the tastemakers of the format. Anything that happened with Murder Inc., I was in the loop. When the Murder Inc. camp was in L.A., Irv, Ja, Ashanti, and I would all get together and go to dinner at Mr. Chows. Or if I was at Soundcastle Studios, Id have the front room and hed have the back room. I loved talking about strategies with Irv. I had a lot to do with Murder Inc. in the beginning, and a lot of it was in the building process of Ja and Ashanti as artists. If you read the credits of Ashantis first album, all of the instrument players were people from my camp, like Carl Butch Small and Anthony Mazza. I remember when Mike Schlesinger and I taught 7, the Inc.s in-house producer, how to work his MPC better when he was first getting started.
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I was doing a record with Mariah for Glitter called If We, and we wanted to get Ja on it. Ja had just released the hit single Put It On Me with Lil Mo, and Mariah said, I want a record like that, but I want to do it a little differently. I want to go back and forth, like Big Daddy Kanes Very Special. I like all the records hes done, and youre friends with Irv, so why dont you call him and do this thing? I facilitated the recording of the record, and everything went real smoothly. The next week, I was in New York, and Puffy had thrown me my 25th birthday party for me at his restaurant, Justins. Everybody came. Warren G and TQ were in town, Fat Joe was there, Big Pun was there, which was the last time I talked to Pun before he passed away. Lil Kim, Pras, and Jeff Burrows were there, and Janice Combs, Puffys mother, was playing matre d, greeting everybody as they walked in. It was a great birthday party! Puffy got us all faded. After the dinner, Ja, Irv, Fat Joe, Cherry Martinez and I all got together. We decided to go across the street to a club called Cheetahs. Ja was drinking Hennessy that night, Joe was drinking vodka. And I split the bottles with both of them! In the club I was dancing with Cherry, Ja was dancing with a whole fleet of girls because his record had just come out, and we had a blast. I dont remember anything else for the rest of the night. I dont even remember how I got back to the hotel, but apparently Fat Joe dropped me off. I woke up the next morning, and my head was pounding. I was throwing up, and I couldnt even see! I have never had a worse hangover in my life. I was sure paying for the amount of fun Id had the night before. I looked at my cell phone, and there were 10 missed calls. They were all from Irv Gotti. I thought, Wait a minute Irv was at the club too with his brother Chris, right? I walked into the other room of the hotel room to ask my friend Sujit what the hell happened. He was throwing up in the trash can.
I said, What the hell happened last night? He said, Dude, Shade and I had to carry you up the stairs. You fell in the elevator and the door was hitting you in the head, trying to close. At one point, Shade just started writing on your arm, trying to wake you up for like 15 minutes. Then I got sick and started throwing up. I looked around the room and there was vomit all over the place. It was one of those kind of scenes. It was bad. Then the hotel phone rang. I picked it up and I said in this halfgroan voice, Hello. It was Irv. Damizza! You can never come to New York again! What did you do to Ja? I said, What do you mean? Ja? He said, Jas in jail! Ja got arrested on a DUI. His brand new Range Rover got impounded. And my brother Chris ran from the police on the freeway. Ill call you back in five minutes, but answer the phone. I was trying to remember what had happened, but I just couldnt think. I looked at Sujit and he said, I dont know exactly what happened either, but it was wild! You passed out in the club. Me, Ja Rule and Fat Joe had to carry you out. And then Ja Then the phone rang again before he could finish. It was Ja, calling from jail. Im in jail, nigga, and I love it! I said, Ja? What? He said, Dude, we had a great time last night! But you aint never coming back to New York. I got a DUI last night, they impounded my car, and they cant even bail me out until I sober up. But Im here with all my homies! Then everyone from jail started screaming in the background. Irv, on the three-way, said, Yeah man, great fucking birthday party, Damizza. They had to carry you out of Cheetahs and Ja and my brother decided to drive themselves home.
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Oops. One time, there was an issue where Ja had dissed Snoop. I found out and was like, No way. I went into Irvs office, and I said, This isnt happening. I picked up the phone and I dialed Snoop. Irv said, What are you doing? and hung up the phone. I said, This is stupid, were gonna dead this right now. He said, You dont understand, theres more to it. I said, Well lets work it out. I got them on the phone together and they talked it out. Then I told Snoop, All right, now Ill get Ja on the phone and we can go through that. He said, Are you sure? Why are you doing this? I said, Weve gone too far in hip-hop to have this type of problem. So I got them on the phone together. Ja, this is Snoop. Snoop, this is Ja. Whatever issues you have, work it out now. Snoop said, So whats up man? Ja said, I heard this and this. Snoop said, You cant pay attention to what you hear. Ive been in this game a long time, and youre gonna be in this game a long time, too. You cant fall for what people tell you. They sat on the phone and worked out the whole problem. I called Snoop back and he said, Thats really good that you did that. Im really glad you did that, because theres no reason for us to be beefing. I said, Well thats why I did it. He said, Im glad we have you Dame. For Jas single with Christina Milian Between Me and You, Brandy was originally supposed to sing the hook. I had a Power 106 shirt on during my cameo appearance in the video, and I got a call from
Kevin Liles, President of Def Jam and Irv Gotti one night. They said, We have a really big problem. I said, What? They said, Youre in the video and you have a Power 106 shirt on. The Beat and Radio One took that as disrespect. You popped your collar in the video and they thought it was rude. It sure didnt go unnoticed! E-40 called me and said, Hey pimpin! I just want to tell you, I saw you in that Ja Rule video, and Ive never seen a more beautiful and precise collar pop! I was sitting here at the coffee table, having a conversation, and it was quite incredible. That goes down in the top five collar pops of all time. Your pimpin was strong that day. And what a statement was that? Collar poppin your Power 106 T-shirt? I love it! That was a pretty big compliment coming from E-40, who invented the collar pop. They have this effect in videos where they do everything in double time. When they slow it down in the editing, its in slow motion. When I popped my collar, it just gave the perfect ripple to the Power 106 logo. Just one of the reasons the other stations were so pissed off. So, Irv said, theyre going to drop our record across the board, which is gonna cost us 1,000 spins because youre in the video, collar poppin. What do we do? I said, Well, just cut me out of it. Irv said, Dude, Im not gonna cut you out of the video. Im just not gonna do it. Honestly, I never liked being in videos. I had a chance to be in pretty much every video with both East and West Coast artists. I got invited to all of them. But on the day of the shoot, I was on my way home to Santa Barbara, and Irv really wanted me to stop by and be in this video. I had on shorts and a Power 106 T-shirt, just because thats what I was wearing that day. Later on, we auctioned off that T-shirt for charity. Irv, Ja and I signed it, and Irv wrote on it, This shirt got
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me in a lot of trouble. That was cool because Dr. Dre gave me the suit from his VMA performance, and Mariah gave me one of her bras. We had a lot of things for that charity auction! As for the video, Irv said, I wont take you out of the video. Youve meant too much to this project. Youre the reason this single has made it. Youre one of the reasons Ja still has a deal. Im not just gonna bow down to people that want to hate. I said, Why dont you just blur my shirt out? All youve gotta do is tell BET and MTV. This video was in heavy rotation at the time. I was even at McDonalds and some dude came up to me and said, Hey, youre the guy in the Ja Rule video! Puffy called me and was like, Did you produce that new Ja Rule song? That collar pop was big, buddy! You were stuntin on that thing. My idea worked though the next time I saw the video on MTV, my shirt was blurred out. Years later, I can see why it did seem boisterous to be in a Ja Rule video with a Power 106 shirt on, but I didnt understand it at the time. Everyone thought I was being arrogant for doing it, but thats not the way I am. I just showed up to support my friends and unfortunately had a Power shirt on. Around the time when Glitter was gonna drop, I got a call from Irv. He said he needed to meet with me face to face, and that it was urgent. He came over to my hotel, and I was kind of nervous. What could be so important? I said, Whats the big deal, dude? He said, Look Mizz. You know theres a lot of politics with Mariah. I said, Yeah. Whats the problem? He said, Tommy Mottola called me. And this is where it gets weird. He said, I heard you just did a song with my ex-wife. He knew
exactly how the record sounded and everything, and he basically wants us to do the same record all over again. He said, I want you to do the same type of song with Jennifer Lopez, and Ill give you 250,000 dollars to do it. If you do two records, Ill give you half a million. I was really taken aback. I said, You dont feel like thats kind of shady? He said, Dude, weve never gotten 250,000 dollars to do anything. I cant just turn down 250 grand. And itll be a single for Ja with Jennifer Lopez. Thats guaranteed to be three-to-four million records. I dont want to say nothing against Mariah, but you know that this album doesnt look good. This If We record isnt even a single. If you can guarantee me that it can be the single, Ill tell Ja well slide on the 250 grand. I told him I needed to consult with Mariah. I called her, and she was pissed! I said, Dont worry, Irvs a good friend. I had a lot to do with Murder Inc. I feel safe. We werent sure on making If We the single though, because the Glitter project was supposed to be a retro-sounding record, and If We had a modern vibe to it. I went back to Irv, and he said, Dame, half a million dollars is a lot of money. I feel like a total scumbag, and I dont know what to do. But I could tell from the tone of his voice exactly what he was going to do. It was done. Mariah was mad as shit at me, Irv and Ja. Id never heard her that mad at me. Once again, I got caught up in other peoples bullshit. About a week before Glitter came out, they rushed Ja into the studio with Channel 7 and J-Lo. They recorded Im Real and Aint That Funny back to back, in two nights. I wasnt mad at him for it. Get your money. I completely respect that. I was just mad at the situation. Plus, in the very beginning, I told Irv that we may run into this problem. If it does, I need to know you wont switch sides on me.
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After that, we never really talked much. Our relationship turned into courtesy Sunday calls, like, Hey, this is what Im doing. How you been? Irv went through his issues and problems around the same time I did, so it wasnt like we werent messing with each other or anything. We just drifted apart. WILL SMITH One of my favorite Hollywood people has always been Will Smith another one of those few stars who is among the sweetest and most genuine people you could hope to meet. So I didnt think too much of it one day when I got what otherwise would have been a bizarre call from his assistant. Will was in the middle of shooting Wild Wild West on the Warner Bros. lot, not far from the Power 106 office in Burbank. Will wants to know if youll come by, the assistant said. Sure, whats up? He wants to have a discussion. About what? I asked. Well, Ill leave that up to him, the assistant said. That seemed a little weird, but, whatever. I headed over to the studio and was directed to Wills trailer. The assistant thanked me for coming and went to tell Will I was there. It was kinda hilarious as Will walked up, decked out in his western costume. I think those make everybody sorta act like John Wayne! Hey, Damion! Hey, man, how you doin? Whats up? Doin great! Hey, theres something I wanted to talk to you about. Will kinda hesitated. He said, My kids cant listen to Power 106 anymore. What? Why?
Its gotten too vulgar, Will said. My kids are at the age where they listen to Power all the time, and you guys are playing a lot of records like Aint No Fun and Dre records and Snoop Dogg the content has gotten to the point where I dont feel comfortable letting them listen. Whoa, I said. So let me get this straight youre a concerned parent asking me to censor Power 106? Im not asking you to censor it, he said, Im just asking you to be responsible and keep in mind that a lot of young people listen to your radio station. I really didnt know what to say to Will. I mean, one hand I get the protective parent thing. I get that he was the Fresh Prince and usually pushed a really clean, positive rap image himself aside from tracks like You Saw My Blinker, Bitch, which is about an old lady driving her car too slow. But part of the whole plight of every rapper in the world is freedom of speech, and one of Wills first hits, Summertime, is what made pop radio look at rap in the first place, and helped make rap radio accessible and now he was asking me not to play other rappers music? All I could do was try to explain that I was trying to get good music out there and that I wasnt in a position to judge, otherwise I wasnt doing my job serving our target audience. I thanked him for having me down and said Id see him around. He thanked me back. It was weird, man. As I was leaving the set, his assistant handed me a copy of Wills new single, which was the theme song for the film, also called Wild Wild West. Every time weve run into each other since the subjects never come up. To show how much respect I have for the dude, I gotta share this, however: Powers morning host Big Boy decided to do something about his health and made a public appeal, saying he was going to lose a lot of his 500-pound weight. Will came in and pledged to give a thousand bucks per pound to charity if Big Boy lost 50 pounds. Big Boy did a great job and out of the gate lost about 100
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pounds. Hed eventually shed about 250 pounds, which was so cool. I may not have agreed with Wills take on rap lyrics, but I sure have enormous respect for him. BILLY BOB THORTON One of the other radio stations Emmis owned was the countryformat KZLA, which was just down the hall from Power in the Burbank office. The morning host was a good friend of actor Billy Bob Thorton, and hit me up one day for a favor. Billys going to make an album, he said. Hed like you to produce it he liked what you did with Korn and Mariah Carey. Well, I thought, cool. Billy Bob had just bought Slashs house, which had an amazing studio in it, and he was having a whole host of friends like Eddie Van Halen and Slash come down and play on his tracks, I was told. I was looking forward to dropping in but the only night that was going to work for either of us at the time happened to be the same night Snoop was having a bash at his place in Beverly Hills to celebrate the release of Drop It like Its Hot. Famed jeweler Alan Friedman and Alfred from deLaCour watches was with me, and we were meeting up with a bunch of people at Snoops, but dropped in to see Billy Bob first. He greeted us and took us down into the studio, which was awesome the best and latest equipment and guitars and drums everywhere. Very cool. He played us some tracks, which I thought were kinda like a cross between Johnny Cash and Van Halen. Im pretty open-minded, but constantly shake my head when I hear another actor who wants to be a rock star. And the other way around. So, I said to him, where do you want to go with this? I thought you could throw some beats under this, Billy Bob said. There really wasnt much I could really do with the tracks, to be honest. They were all on hard disc, no Pro Tools files that I could take with me and play with even if I had some idea what to attempt. That
meant I would have had to work in his studio. But Im always game for anything musically creative and dont usually dismiss anything out of hand. But Billy Bob, Slash and a hip-hop beat? My gut feeling was this shit wasnt goin anywhere. But I said I could see what I could come up with Maybe youd like to come and do a mixtape at Power, sort of like Pam Anderson did. Billy Bob wasnt familiar with the mixtapes at all and said hed look into it. I asked if he wanted to come with us to Snoops party and he said thanks, but that he had a new baby and had to lay low. A few days later his business manager called me at Power and asked how we were going to pull something together. I told him that they could either pay me to produce some beats, or we could do a swap, my services for Billy Bob getting on a mixtape for me. Instead, I got the idea that they wanted me to get in on their project just to work with Billy Bob the Movie Star. It was all polite and cool but that was kinda the end of the conversation and I never heard back from them. Nice guy, though. Another night in the hood. AXL ROSE I was working on the Baby Ree mixtape session with Pamela Anderson in the front room of Can-Am Studios out in Tarzana the place probably made most famous by Death Row and Tupac. Usually buzzing with people and engineers and assistants and various artists, the place was like a ghost town. I asked one of the engineers why it was so quiet. Whos workin in the back room? I asked. Oh, Axl Rose is here working on Chinese Democracy. Well, he wasnt actually there. The engineer told me that Axl had booked the place for a month, and his staff had been in for over a week decorating and getting it set up for the former Guns N Roses frontman, who by that point had already supposedly been working on the then-mysterious album since 1994 and was otherwise in
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some sort of self-imposed exile. I was pretty curious and wandered back to have a look at the set up. Fuck! Ive never seen anything like it. The whole place was done up like a big Grateful Dead tie-dye explosion, and there were action figures and toys all over the producers desk and on the console was a Master P doll with a G-Unit spinner chain. The walls were lined with amps and drums and guitars all this kinda shit. I thought, This is crazy! When Axl does it, he does it big! Id never seen anybody decorate a studio like this. A couple of nights went by and I kept on working and the place remained quiet. Then, all of a sudden, the place went nuts. There were engineers and assistants flying around looking busy, getting drinks and snacks and tuning guitars, lookin like theyd been working really hard. Word came: Axl was on his way to the studio. I wandered outside for a smoke and it wasnt long before I heard a high-pitched whine and saw this green Lamborghini scream around the corner and into the parking lot of the studio, which is in an industrial park and quite inconspicuous. The car turned in and immediately scraped along a speed bump and came to a stop. Axl got out and freaked out, screaming at the car and kicking the tires, calling it a piece of shit, and just goin off. He got back in the car, backed it up and tried to make it over the speed bump by driving diagonally. When it again scraped along the speed bump he exploded out of the car again and began to walk around it, screaming and yelling. He then got back in, backed up, and tore out of there the way he came. The next day, his staff came in and cleared out the studio because, I was told, he refused to work there because he couldnt get his Lamborghini in the parking lot.
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About a year later, Luis Miguel was working at the Record Plant and Mariah and I went over to hang out with him. Randy Jackson showed up as well. He and I were outside talking about American Idol, which had just premiered its first season. Then, out of nowhere, Macy Gray stepped up. Hi Randy, hows it going? Oh, Damizza, how are you. When are we gonna do a record together? There was a distinctly uncomfortable silence before she realized what shed said. She said, Oops. I guess I fucked that one up, didnt I? Yeah, pretty much, I answered. DAVID LEE ROTH A buddy of mine, Craig, had been working as a bodyguard for Jennifer Love-Hewitt and then went to work for David Lee Roth. One day he called up and said Dave wants you to produce some records for him. Cool, I thought. A the time, Dave was in the middle of his summer 2002 Sam and Dave Tour, which had become music industry myth even before the two former Van Halen frontmen got together for what seemed like more arguing than singing. Craig said the show was playing Atlantic City and Dave wanted to fly me to New York for three days. It was first class all the way. Dave put me and my Baby Ree partner Sujit up at the W hotel, then called and told me to meet him a strip club that night. When we got there, one of the club bouncers said, Mr. Roth is expecting you and escorted us into a big VIP section in the back where there were about 20 naked women all over Dave. Sugit and I sat down and Dave laughed and said, Girls, attack! Strippers seemed to be comin out of the walls! Hey, for a strip club experience, it was the best ever when you show up with David
Lee Roth to a strip club you know it aint gonna be anything but the best! Dave came over to me and sat down and said, I really want to do some records with you, Damion. Lets have a meeting tomorrow morning and then head down to the show in Atlantic City. Tonight, you guys have a great night and Ill see you tomorrow. Dave got up and handed the manager a wad of cash and said Anything they want. He turned to the group of us and said, Everythings on me, have a great time! and left. The next morning I got called to Daves suite. Hes one of the coolest, nicest guys you could imagine and a blast to hang out with whether its in a room full of strippers or just chattin over coffee. I asked him what he had in mind for his next record some classic David Lee Roth shit? He said, No, no man, I want to do something new. I want to do a song with Snoop Dogg thats the kinda stuff I want to do. I said, Well, that can be arranged. I told him that Id mentioned him to Mariah and that she was down to do something with him as well, but Dave wasnt too excited by that prospect; he was definitely thinking a little more street than pop. Send me some beats, Dave said. I told him I would. We were then all off for Atlantic City and the show. On alternate nights on the tour, Sammy and Dave would swap headliner positions. That night, Dave was top of the bill. We were backstage amongst all the craziness when Sugit and I started to hear all this screaming. Craig walked by and said, Oh, they must have seen each other in the hallway. They do not get along. When Dave got out on stage he was amazing. Talk about energy and giving the crowd everything he had! Jumping, doing the splits, kicks like Elvis never imagined man, the guys in great shape. At one point, some fat chick got past security and ran onto the stage
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and planted a big kiss on Dave, screaming, I love you! before bodyguards managed to pry her loose and drag her off. Thanks, baby! Dave told the crowd. Ladies and gentlemen, give it up for Sammys wife! The guys nuts! After the show we returned backstage and Dave said, So, howd you like the show? I said Howd you like Sammys wife? He laughed and told us that the same crazy bitch showed up at every show and pulled the same stunt. Itll be great to making some amazing records, he said to me, and went off into the night. By the time I got back to L.A. Id given it a lot of thought, and realized that getting down with Dave just wasnt realistic. Anytime theres an artist with that much circus going on around him, Ive learned that it takes monumental effort to get a session off the ground. I thought of what it would take to get him and Snoop in the same room, at the same time, and actually get some positive work done and knew it just wasnt gonna happen. He never called me back and I never called him back. Great dude, however. Id hit a strip club with him anytime! 50 CENT See, I have a really twisted sense of humor, and sometimes I dont know if people understand when Im kidding and when Im not. Heres a great example. 50 Cent and a whole crew of famous Hollywood faces were at this bash in Beverly Hills. When we got to the party, I recognized some of the security they were all off-duty L.A. cops that Id hired in the past, moonlighters for rap security. One of them said, Oh shit, Damizzas here. The partys over! We all laughed and they let us through and Alfred from the deLaCour watch corporation was with us and he said, All I want to do is meet 50 Cent.
We made our way through the party, running into the likes of Leonardo DiCaprio and Justin Timberlake, and I immediately realized that this was one of those classic Hollywood parties that just so happens was at the rented house that was previously known as the Wu-Tang mansion, where they were hanging when they were in town recording their album Triumph. Now extreme Hollywood situations make my sense of humor overtly over the top. The mansion had a sprawling view of the Los Angeles skyline, high atop Sunset. I made my way to the corner by way of the bar, where I ran into Warren G. We proceeded to spark up a joint. My friend Nino from Interscope came up and said, 50 Cent would like an audience with His Excellency the Rap Radio Czar. (joking) I said, Come hither, my friend. 50 Cent walked up and immediately I noticed this Kevlar fashion accessory that he had attached to his torso, which I politely took my index finger, pressed it and said, Nice vest. 50 followed my observation and comment with, This is L.A., its hot out here! I replied, This is my friend Alfred from Milan, and my friend Alan of the Hills of Beverly. He said, Nice to meet you both, and a photograph was taken. Fiddy then turned to me and said, I have some records I would like you to play. I responded with a jokingly misunderstood comment of, Why, our ratings would go down. We all shared a chuckle and several days later 50 came to the radio station and I played Poppin them thangs. I love a good joke.
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TUPAC WANTS TO KNOW Every year the Grammys party that MCA Record threw was the shit. It was always at the Four Seasons and was the party to see and be seen at: ice sculptures, tie and jacket to get in, sort of like an Oscar party, back in the good old days when the industry had a lotta loot to throw around. One year, a bunch of us were hanging with Dave Grohl, Queen Latifa, and a whos who of record company and radio brass. We were in the very back room and a flood of people came in and said, Oh, shit, Death Row is here! as if they were scared. The first person to come through the door was Suge Knight, followed by Nate, followed by Snoop, followed by Tupac, followed by Kurupt, and then oddly placed, MC Hammer with a Death Row chain on, which we were all kind of puzzled by. The crowd just parted like the Red Sea and we thought, cool, lets go meet Tupac. I went up to Suge and introduced myself and said it was very nice to meet him. He was really cool, turned and said, Have you met Tupac? And I said to Tupac, Hey, I love your new album. He looked pissed, Whoa, hold the fuck up, how did you get my album it dont come out til Tuesday. He turned to Suge and said, Hey, man, this motherfucker says hes got a copy of my album. I said, Im in alternative radio and fuckers know I cant play that shit. He said, Right, then whats your favorite song? I said, First song, disc two, You Cant See Me, and I started with the lyric, A million pair of eyes looking hard but they will never realize that they will never see the P. I said, George Clinton killed that shit. Tupac started laughing his ass off, and said, My nigga, we
slapped hands and he gave me hug. From the second Tupac walked in that room, you just knew there was something different about that guy. By the way, much respect to Alfini Shakur and Moprene Shakur. Alfini was very nice to me following Tupacs death on an anniversary special we did at Power, which she did an interview for. Johnny J., his longtime producer, introduced us and Im forever grateful to Johnny and his wife for their early support at Power 106. We never coulda done it without them. And Moprene is simply the best; we need more people like them who are heavily involved in mentoring these kids to escape the perils of street violence. Hes been a great mentor of many kids, including Taje, whom Ive worked extensively with and who is a great talent in his own right. A KNIGHT WITH SUGE Suge Knight had just gotten out of the Mule Creek Detention Center in California and I was hosting that years Powerhouse concert at the Arrowhead Pond, featuring Snoop Dogg, Nate Dogg, Kurupt and others. In our planning meeting for the security, our wonderful promotions director Diana raised a red flag, no pun intended. Rumor was that Suge was coming to the party. The Anaheim police department stepped forward and said, If Suge Knight steps onto the property, your show will be canceled. So I said, Why dont we just invite him, then well know where hes at and at least we showed him the respect, and he wont cause any problems. Everybody but the cops said, Great, good idea. I said, Well, call whoever you heard the rumor from and invite him to the show. I felt the cold stare from everybody in the room, and Diana said, No way, you call him.
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I called the Death Row offices and asked for Suge. They put me through to Reggie White, who was then the head of Death Row security. Hey, Reggie, its Damion over at Power, can I talk to Suge? Yeah, right, he said and hung up. You see, nobody ever just picks up the phone and calls Suge Knight. I called right back and said, Reggie, this is Damion from Power 106. Call the front switchboard at Power and ask for me, and I hung up on him. He then returned my call and I said, Thank you. Now Id like to talk to Suge. He started laughing and said, About what? And I said, Reggie, please, just put Suge on the phone. He said, Hes at home. Hold on a second and Ill conference him in. Suge got on the phone. Whatsup? I said, Hi this is Damion from Power congratulations on your recent release. He had just done an interview in one of the industry magazines where he was flirting with the ever-so-beautiful interviewer and I said to him, I would have tried to nail that chick, too, and complimented his interview. He laughed. I said, Theres a rumor youll be attending Powerhouse this weekend. He said, Whats Powerhouse? I said, Come on, Suge, this is L.A. He laughed, and said, Okay. I said, If you do come, Id like you to be my guest. I have a suite where my family will be watching the show and I would be happy to accommodate you and your entourage as my personal guests. He said, Wow, no ones ever invited me to something like this before. Ill call you tomorrow and let you know if Im coming. Whats your home number, or where can I reach you? The next morning I got a call from Reggie saying it would be
Suge plus 10 attending. I said that was fine, to call me when they got there, gave them my cell number, and said Id escort them all personally to their seats. When I got there, I told the cops that I had a special guest coming and that it was one Marion Suge Knight. They said they were going to shut me down if he stepped up. I told them he was my guest and that hed be there at seven and they were not shutting shit down. Treat people with respect and they respond in kind. Suge arrived, I got a call from Reggie saying he had two extra people with him and was that all right. I said, cool, no problem. I walked Suge into the private suite, introduced him to my friends and various members of the staff. He and his friends sat and watched the show. At one point he was talking with another rapper who had asked to meet him, and I momentarily saw the other side of Suge, though no violence. After, I said, Hey, buddy, whats goin on. He said, You showed me respect and Ill show you respect. This is your house and Im not going to say anything. But he sampled Tupac without permission and we had some business to take care of. But I appreciate you inviting me, and he sat down. The next morning on my doorstep keep in mind that I never gave him my address there was a bottle of Cristal and several Cuban cigars and a note, I had a great time, thanks, with my compliments, Suge Knight. BUSTA RHYMES My second day at Power 106 happened to be around the time of the MTV Music Video Awards. Busta Rhymes was performing. Tha Baker Boyz were interviewing him and I was listening in my office. They said, What you got comin out? and Busta said, Rampage but fuck Damion Young. One of the many times I was to hear that from someone!
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They quickly moved on. I walked down to the studio, pressed the talk back button and said Nick, is Busta still around there? He said, Yeah, let me get him. Busta came on the line and said, Yo. Hi Busta, this is Damion Young. Why dont you come in tomorrow morning at 10 oclock and well talk. And then I walked out of the room. I dont know what he said after that, but could hear him yelling in the background. The next morning, I had forgotten that Busta was coming in. The receptionist called me and said, Damion, Busta Rhymes in the lobby. I said, Oh, shit, let him in. He walked into my office, shut the door, and started with Why the fuck arent you supporting my record? I said, Hi, Im Damion Young, nice to meet you, and extended my hand. He said, Yo, my record rep from Elektra says that you were shitting on the new Rampage record. I said, One, I havent had any record meetings yet, and two, they probably lied to you, because I havent been in contact with anyone in the record community about any records yet because Ive only been here for three days. Do you have a copy on you? He said he did, stuck his head out the door and asked his assistant for a copy and handed to me. I looked at it and said to him, Oh, yeah, I have heard this. I actually like this record. Five minutes later it was on the air. The record worked for us. We had a great talk afterwards. He explained his passion for breaking the Flip Mode Squad and introduced me to Spliff Starr. Busta is a genius of a businessman. He also is one of the most humble legends in this industry and one of the very few straight shooters who tells you exactly how he feels, when he feels it, and Im very proud to now be a friend of his. Rough start, but he definitely is a leader of the New School.
JANET JACKSON One of the great behind-the-scenes promo dudes in L.A. when I was at Power was Ricky Lee Mench, who worked for Hits Magazine. One of his keys to success was befriending every mix show DJ and getting in on the ground floor of what was coming down the pipe. Hed have weekly conference calls with all the radio players and also encourage burgeoning talent to join in a great first way to break them. Ricky doesnt get enough credit for being the person who married mix show DJs to the mainstream. He influenced me to get a mixer (E-Man) in the programming department at Power. Mixers are on the streets and see firsthand what is hot and can give programmers and music directors a huge advantage over competing stations. One Friday afternoon, Ricky called me and asked what I was doing the next day. We got together often, so I didnt think much of it until he got all cryptic on me and told me to be at a certain address at a precise time. Whats up, I asked. He said, Theres a superstar artist that wants to meet you. Theyre concerned about their record, which hasnt done that well. They need to be told the truth about why. I said, They? Youre not even gonna tell me if its a male or a female? Come on, Ricky! He said, Its a long story. Why dont you just come over tomorrow and talk? Hey, I was always up for an adventure. Ricky had done this to me before he arranged a meeting and it turned out to be with Laker forward John Salley, who was trying to start a rap career. Well, that was interesting. I didnt know what I was walking into when the next day I drove to the address Ricky had given me. This secret location turned out to be a regular residential neighborhood, although in a state of uproar:
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There was some sort of video shoot going on trailers, crew running around, and equipment everywhere. I rang up Ricky to let him know I was there, and he said, Come to the middle trailer, and just knock on the door when you get there. I walked up to the trailer and it said Janet Jackson on it. I called him up again and said, Dude, come get me! Im not gonna just knock on Janet Jacksons door. Ricky himself came out of the trailer. Hey! Damion! Since Power wasnt playing Janets record at all, I thought to myself, Oh, fuck, this is an ambush. Im gonna get thrown in the tank. I walked in with Ricky and Janet was sitting there with her manager and her then-husband, Rene. After we were all introduced, I said, So, whats going on, Janet? She said, Why isnt radio playing my records? I said, Uhh and kinda blanked out. Ricky jumped in and said, Damion, you can be honest. I already warned them you can be quite blunt. So I went for it. Well, Janet, you said fuck you to radio, and we heard you. She was like, What do you mean? Ive never said anything like that. I said, When was the last time you walked into a radio station? She said, Well, when I was working Control back in 1986. I said, There you go. You want us to play your records, but youre too good to hang out with us? She looked at me with this, you asshole! type stare. But no ones asked me to do radio! she said. I told her Id asked one of the heads of Virgin to get her to do some radio promo a few times and that hed shot me down, basically telling me that I was gonna play the records and like it. Janet was a little nonplussed. I continued. You dont cut drops for radio, and you never visit
radio, you never include our listeners in anything or do anything to support the DJs. She said, So what can I do? I told her, Youve just gotta get out there and touch the flesh. She said, How do I deal with these radio politics? I have a really specific problem with Hot 97. Tracy Chlority over there hates me! I said, Well, what can I help you with? She said, I need to figure out how to get my record on the radio. How do I do it? I said, Its real simple. Call radio. She said, Like myself ? Just dial the number and call in? I said, What? You dont know how to use a phone? I mean, I know youre a Jackson and everything, but jeez. Then she started laughing. I said, Dont worry about it. Get on Rickys conference call and talk to the mix show DJs. Then you can get on my conference call and talk to everyone in programming. Then, do radio. Cut some drops. Get a drop list, record them wherever you want in the world, and then send them to the DJs. At least make them feel that theyre a part of your project, and not just somebody whos playing your record. She said, Okay, but, what do I do about Tracy? I said, With the Tracy thing, all youve got to do is call her up directly and mend whatever bridge you guys have a problem with. She said, Im pretty concerned about doing that. Cant that be handled through the record company? I said, Janet. Its an issue with you. Its not an issue with your record, or your company. So after this, she actually got on the conference call with the mix show DJs, which showed me she was serious about getting the ball rolling. She called me directly after, which tripped me out, and said, I did the mix show DJ thing. What do I do now? I said, Weve got a conference call tomorrow with all the
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programmers. Even Tracy from Hot 97 will be on the call, so itll set things up and show that youre being proactive. Lets do it. She agreed. And sure enough, the next morning, she was on the line. This is where some of the resentment started to come back to me from the other programmers. Here I am saying, Im gonna put Janet on the phone now. They would think, Oh, Damions gonna put Janet on the phone. First Mariah, now this. He must think hes hot shit! But when she was on the call, everyone was just floored by how nice she was and how open she was to answering any questions. I thought to myself, Wow. Shes really getting involved. In between all of this, we had a few different conversations about music. We were talking about Timbalands productions, and her early work with Jimmy Jam and Terry Lewis, which I was a big fan of. She was a total, down-to-earth, sweet person. She was glowing with coolness and she was really nice. Unbeknownst to me at the time, she was also going through a divorce with Rene. I didnt know the dynamics of her circle, so I was walking on eggshells. I was wondering if it was her husband who was calling the shots, if it was her manager, or if it was Ricky. But we slowly started to make headway with her record, and it started to get played. It finally came down to the time where she was gonna do a radio tour. She came to Power, and when she showed up, I got a call from her manager. Were downstairs, but shes not gonna come up until you come down and get her. She hadnt done radio yet, so she was still a little bit nervous. In general, when a major artist whos had a lot of shit going on in the press, they never know what the DJ is going to ask on the air, and they immediately think the worst. But if I, the music director, come
down and walk that person in, then they feel safer, because Id have to be a complete asshole to walk them straight into hellfire. After Janet was done, she came into my office and was like, That wasnt too bad! Someone had just given me a pair of boxing gloves, and she said, Hey, those are neat! She put them on and started play-hitting me! You can keep those, I joked. You obviously have some pentup frustration. A couple days later, she was ready to make the call to Tracy. She called me first and asked what to do. I said, Heres exactly what you say. Call her up and go, I dont know whats happened in the past. I dont know how we got off on the wrong foot. It doesnt matter whether or not you start playing my record, but I just want to reinstate our relationship and let you know that theres no hard feelings. Everything went very well with Tracy, and she called me up after. Thank you so much for your help. I really appreciate it. I didnt hear from Janet for a while after that, but her manager called me up one day and said, Hey, Janets playing in Washington D.C. tonight, and its the first day of her tour. Would you like to come out and see her show? I said, You know what? Yeah, Id love to! She said, Janet will pay for you to fly out, and I immediately told them Id pay for myself. So I flew out for the show, but I only had the night to stay there, because I had to be back in the office the next day. Before the show, we were backstage talking. When she was ready to go on, she said, Okay, Ill see you after the show! I thought to myself, Sure. Yeah, right. But after the last song, her manager said, Hey, come back to the dressing room. Janet was like, What did you think of the show? I told her it
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was awesome. She said, Do you want to walk with me back to the tour bus? She looked fiery! She was wearing a wife beater with no bra. You could see that her nipples were pieced, and there were diamond studs in them that were glistening through the shirt. Im sitting there like, Oh my god! Shes so hot! I walked her back to the bus, and Rene was there. Janet said, Hey, do you want to ride with me in the bus to the next city? Ive got to go by myself and itd be nice if you could come along. I said, Well, Ive got all my stuff in the hotel room and Ive gotta go back to L.A. tomorrow morning. She said, Oh, dont worry about that. Ill send my security to pick it up and itll be there for you in the next city. When she said that, Rene glanced at me with a What the fuck are you doing here look on his face. It was a total weird vibe, and I didnt get it. But I still didnt know that they were getting divorced at the time, and now it makes more sense. In retrospect, it was probably a big mistake turning down that offer! A couple months later, I was cleaning out my desk and I found a letter that had been sent to me a while back. It was from Janet. Damion, Thank you so much for your support over the years. Happy holidays. I miss you. Janet I was like, Damn, I cant believe I missed this! So I called up her manager and I said, Im sorry I missed this letter. Tell her I said thank you so much. The last time I saw Janet, she was with Jermaine Dupri. They were standing around at the Power office. I said, Yo, my two favorite people! We exchanged warm welcomes and I joked to Janet that the way the music business was going, I might need to borrow those boxing
gloves I gave her! Shes a great lady and incredible talent. Ill always be proud that I was able to help her out. PARIS IN THE SPRINGTIME I got a call from Jimmy Steel, who is the vice president of programming for Emmis Broadcasting, one day. He said, Hey, were going to Clive Davis party. Get ready. Every year, Clive throws this pre-Grammy Awards bash at the Beverly Hilton where everyone who wants to be seen shows up and if youre in the industry, its not something you want to miss. I had forgotten about it, being jetlagged from a trip. And I didnt have any clothes. In fact, I remember that all I had with me was a white Gap T-shirt Id been wearing for two days, a dirty pair of jeans and a black jacket. I knew Id stick out like a sore thumb at the party and decided to spark a blunt on the way to distract myself. When Jimmy and I got to the hotel, we saw Steve Rifkind at the desk. He brushed past me with three great lookin girls with a snotty, Hey, Damion. Then the girl at the desk told him he wasnt on the list. Better luck next time, Steve, I said, patting him on the shoulder as Jimmy and I walked in past him. Clives party is great for not only the social and business aspect, but also for the performances. That night, Whitney Houston and Usher were amazing. I ran into Sharon Osbourne, who said, Oh, my god, nice to meet you! I listen to Big Boy my daughters working on her album. You guys need to hang out. When I was leaving the party, I ran into my friend Craig, who was with Warren G. and Jennifer Love Hewitts bodyguard. Weve known each other for years and have a great rapport, so I went up behind him and said, Hey motherfucker! It shocked the people he was with among them Nick Carter
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and Paris Hilton, which is one of the reasons I love doing that! Paris turned around and Craig introduced me. She said, Hey, nice to hmm. Wait a minute. You smell like kush! Busted, I thought. You dont know shit about no kush! I said. Paris gave me a No, buddy, you dont know shit about kush kinda look. Craig said, You know, Mizz, shes working on a record, and I told her what you did with Jennifer. Paris said, Yeah, Id love to listen to some beats. Cool, when do you want to meet up? She said, I leave for New York tomorrow afternoon. Why dont you stop by the house tomorrow morning? Well smoke one and talk. So the next morning, I went to her house in the Hollywood Hills, and I brought a friend of mine named Chief, who is a connoisseur of all things medicinal. We went in there, and she had this big huge mound of weed on the table. I asked her, Where the fuck did you get that? She said, Oh, I stopped over in Amsterdam and stocked up on the G5. Its a breeze through customs. I laughed quietly as she rolled the most perfect baseball bat of a joint. It was a surreal moment. She listened to a couple beats, and she said, I love that song you did with Kurupt. What is it, The Curb? She looked over at Craig and he said, Yeah, Chip The Curb. I played her some of your stuff. She said, Do you know Puff ? I said, Yeah, I know Puff. Hes crazy. When I come back to L.A., well hook up. Okay, I said. Great. To be honest, I was so busy with Power and all the artists I was working with and all the people I was meeting and then getting wrapped up with Mariah for those years I completely forgot about Paris no disrespect to her until a while later when she became much more
of a paparazzi target and was in the news and I remembered we were supposed to hook up and maybe knock out some tracks. But I never called her and she never called me. BIGGA B Bigga B, rest in peace, was one of my early mentors. He was a street promotion guy who really embraced me and helped me shape my character at Power 106. He taught me a lot about the streets and how L.A. worked as a whole. He and his cousin Chace Infinite taught me so much about radio, too. Chace actually was the first street promoter I met when I got to Power. One Friday night before leaving the office, Chace came at me with some promotion ideas. I said, Its Friday night, dogg. I really dont wanna talk about promotions. Lets get together some other time when youve got a blunt and some Booze Farm, and well shoot the shit. He said, Ill be back in 10 minutes. Sure enough, he came back, with a brown paper bag that he put on the table. He said, Heres the Booze Farm. Do you want me to roll the blunt here, or should we go someplace else? I said, You know what? Youre a cool motherfucker! Aside from Chace, Bigga B introduced me to a lot of amazing people. For instance, one day I walked into my office and I saw Xzibit. I said, Hey, whats up man! I love your song Paparazzi. That video was crazy! He said, Yeah, well now Im not doing that good. No songs of mine are playing on the radio. Im in the studio, but I dont know whats going on with me at Loud Records. I said, Well you know what? Ill put Paparazzi back into nighttime rotation, and at least you can hear your song on the radio and say youre in rotation. He said, Well, thank you very much.
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Years later, I saw Xzibit at the release party for his album Weapons Of Mass Destruction. He invited everybody all the artists he worked with, his friends, fans. But only a couple of the reps from Sony and a few of the street reps and I were the only people who showed up. He walked up to me and said, Dame, I really appreciate you. He got a little choked up and said, I invited all my friends, but nobody showed up. But it means a lot to me that youre here. Youve always supported me, and youve showed up. Thank you so much. I said, Hey man, its all good. Thats what were here for. Were the West Coast. Weve got to stick together. There were few people better connected than Bigga B. He worked for Loud Records, but he also had a lot of independent accounts. One of the people who was signed to Loud was Big Punisher. Kim Hughes and Bigga B came to my office at Power one day with a videotape. It was the music video for a record that would become a smash hit: Still Not A Playa. Big Pun was this really huge guy, but he was cha-cha dancing in the video and he seemed like such an infectious personality. I absolutely loved the record. I said, This is incredible. When do we get the record? Kim said, Well, were not gonna service it for another month. I said, Service it for another month? Im playing this record today! She said, Well how are you gonna do that? I said, Ill be back in a minute. I popped the tape out of the VCR, and I walked into the production room. We had it hooked up in there so we could rent movies and take sound bytes from them to play on the air. I took the video and recorded the audio directly onto a CD. I walked into the on-air studio DJ and said, Play this next. He said, What is this? I said, Its an artist by the name of Big Punisher, and the song is
called Still Not A Playa. The record went immediately to air, and I walked back in my office. By the time I got there Kim was already fielding a call from Steve Rifkind, owner of Loud Records. She told Steve, I dont know what he did, he just took the tape, and now theyre playing the record. Bigga B then immediately got a call from Fat Joe and Big Pun, and they were like, What the hell is going on? This record doesnt come out for another month. What are you doing? Stop! Were not ready for this. I said, Look. Youve already got the video done. Just put it out. Its already on the radio. What are you gonna do? I picked up the phone and I told Steve, Stop whining. The records a hit. You could have worse problems. I also said, Were doing our first Powerhouse concert, and weve got one slot available for an opening act. Lets have Big Pun do it. Just come to the station and do the morning show, and then later that night well just throw him on stage without telling anyone. Im that big of a supporter of this record. The guy is a star. About a week later, they sent Big Pun to Los Angeles to be on the Big Boy afternoon show. I walked past Pun in the station and I said, Whats up. He just walked right past me without acknowledging me. Kim said, Oh, dont worry, hes just tired. I shrugged it off, but when I went into the on-air studio, I said something stupid about the physical size of these guys. Damn, you and Big Boy are huge! Were you guys separated at birth? Pun turned around and looked at me. He said, Oh really? Well, youre white, and you dont know shit about hip-hop! I looked at him and said, Oh yeah? Big Boy jumped in and said, Whoa, whoa. Wait a minute.
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I just turned around and walked out. I said to Kim on my way back into my office, Hey! Im white and I dont know shit about hiphop! Did you tell him who just broke his record? About three minutes later, Pun stuck his head in my office door and said, Damion? I said, Yeah? He said, Im sorry. I just had a long flight, and they woke me up early. I didnt know you broke my record. Im from the street, and when a cat comes in and makes a comment like that, I react. I didnt know who you were. I said, It really shouldnt matter who I am. But I love your record. And I know enough about hip-hop to know to play your record. He said, Dude, I just got up on the wrong side of the bed. I said, Pun, its all good. Lord knows Ive said shit Ive regretted before, too. He said, Dude, thank you so much. I heard about how you took the song off the VHS tape just to play it. Im still new to this promotion thing. I said, Its cool. Its water under the bridge, forget about it. How are you doing? He said, Im just getting used to this stuff. Im meeting all these people, Im signing autographs, and I dont understand any of this shit. I said, Well, lets talk about it. People are gonna start coming at you. Youre about to blow up. Tonight, youre gonna come to Powerhouse and were gonna put you on stage. He said, Wait, Im doing a show tonight? I said, Yeah. Im crazy like that. He said, Youre friends with Joey, right? I said, Yeah! He said, Oh shit. Damn, I really fucked up then. Its great to meet you man.
Then Kim came in and said, We need to take a picture for Hits Magazine. I said, No problem. So we went outside and took a picture. As we were getting ready for the shot, Pun took his chain off and put it around my neck. Now, Pun was one big dude. And he had to have a chain that would fit him. He had a big Jesus piece on this long chain, and on him it looked small. But I put this thing on my neck and the Jesus piece hung all the way down to my knees! This thing was huge, and heavy. It was so big, when I put it on, I leaned forward. I was like, Holy shit, this is a big chain! As time went on, Pun did so many great things. What he did in Latin hip-hop was just incredible. To me, hes still one of the greatest rappers of all time. He broke down a lot of the stereotypes for Latin rappers. He also helped to launch Fat Joes career to a national audience. I had met Fat Joe a couple times before, through Steve Lobell, who is another great guy. We always just hit it off. Fat Joe is just an incredible dude. In fact, the day that Shades album came out, he called me up and said, Congratulations on the release of your record. I bought three copies. Thats what kind of guy he is. Fat Joe is a real dude. Every time I was in New York, Joe would offer to pick me up at the airport. Wed go to dinner all the time. One time I was there with Warren G. and Sujit. I heard Funkmaster Flex was spinning at a club called The Tunnel, so we rolled over there. There was no security with us or anything. I walked up to the DJ booth when we got there and said, Whats up Flex? He said, What the fuck are you doing here? I said, Me and Warren just showed up. He said, Who are you here with? I said, Just me and Warren.
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He said, You guys are here by yourself ? You better be careful. This place is gully! I said, Yeah right, were having a good time. I called Fat Joe up and I said, Hey, Im in town! He said, Where are you? I said, The Tunnel. He said, Wait. Who are you with? I said again, Its just me, Warren, and Sujit. He said, Youre there by yourself ? Stay right where you are. Dont move. You dont understand. Theres stabbings that go down at The Tunnel. Ill be there in 10 minutes. So 10 minutes later, Joe walks in with his entourage, and surrounds us. I said, Whats the big deal with all this? He said, Damion. What did I tell you about New York? Its not like L.A. Youll get cut up in a club. Youre a little white boy showing up with Warren G., an 80-pound Injun, and no security. Do you know what will happen at a place like this? We ended up hanging out and partying that night, and Joe gave me a ride back to the hotel. That was the type of awesome relationship we had. Heres another example. When an artist is late for a show, normally Im like, Fuck em. But I had so much respect for Fat Joe that I held Tha Baka Boyz over for an extra hour so he could come on. They said, You wouldnt do this for anyone else. Why now? I said, Its Joey! Joey is one of those guys that you meet the first time and you just love him. Hes so personable, and hes all about working! He showed up that day in a wife-beater. Sorry Im late dogg, I got caught up in traffic. This L.A. traffic is no joke! Big Pun became a huge star, and Capital Punishment was the first solo album by a Latin rapper to go platinum. Steve Lobell invited me to come by his house one day.
At this point, Pun was at his most obese. He was only about a month from when he passed away. They rented this big mansion for him in Beverly Hills, because he was nominated for a Grammy. This was serious for Loud Records. Up until then, they had the Wu-Tang Clan and all that. But to have Big Pun nominated for a Grammy was a big success. On the way to his place, Steve said, Dude, Im really worried about Pun. Hes getting really big. So big that he cant really move. He wanted to come to the station, but they just cant move him like that. He gets tired really easily, and the doctor told him that his weight is so major, he might break his leg if he puts too much pressure on it. I went over to the house theyd rented for him and the first thing I saw was a huge platter of crab legs and vat of butter. Ive never seen so much melted butter in one place. Pun was just dipping the crab in the butter and eating it all. I looked at him and I thought, Dude. This guy is not healthy. He was kneeling on the floor in front of a recliner chair with his elbows on the seat. He was wheezing really badly too. I said, Pun, are you all right? He said, Well, Im having trouble breathing. And Im just way too heavy. I said, Yeah dude, but look at what youre eating. What are you doing? He said, I dont know Dame. Im nominated for a Grammy. Im living the good life. His kids and his wife were there, and they were all really genuinely nice people. You could tell he was uncomfortable and embarrassed to be in this condition in front of guests. So I started putting his chains on, trying to cheer him up. I said, We traded in the gold. Weve got platinum now! He started laughing, and I could see that he was full of life. When we left, I looked at Steve.
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I said, Dude, hes not gonna last if he keeps this up. We all knew this, because we had just lost Bigga B. His heart just stopped, and he was only 32 years old. We could see it happening to Pun, too. Steve said, Everybodys just really worried about him. You should see Joey. Pun cant even travel like this. Hes taking up two seats in first class. It was really sad. Two weeks later, we were in New York at my 25th birthday party. Joey showed up, put his phone in my hand and said, Its Pun! I really wanted to make it, but Im the studio working on my album. I said, Oh, its all good! How are you doing? He said, I miss you buddy. I love you. Thank you for everything. Happy birthday. He started singing happy birthday to me over the phone. Two weeks later, he was gone. Ill never forget the morning I heard that he died. I had that common reaction, But I just talked to him. It was just a dark time in hip-hop. It was surreal, and I couldnt believe it. OPRAH Oprah is an amazing woman. Not only is she beautiful, talented, rich, with her own incredibly successful production company and now her own network obviously smart and a true visionary, shes, well, incredibly cool! Shes really an American success story, and I admire her tremendously. And when I met her, it brought her to a whole new level in my eyes. Right after Glitter, I went to Chicago with Mariah for her performance on Oprahs show. I was surprised that Mariah was doing it, because she had a terrible flu. I mean, really, you never realize how
human someone is until theyre yacking right in front of you. But she made a commitment, and Mariah always pulls through. She can be sick as a dog, but shes still gonna do the show and not let her fans down. We went into the studio and everybody on set was so nice. Is there anything I can get you? Would you like anything? they asked. I said, No, everythings cool! But I accepted a tour of the set and all the technical stuff of how they pulled off her show every day. When you walk in Oprahs realm, its just nice. Youre looking in the hallway, and there are pictures of her with everybody on her show. I walked back into Mariahs dressing room, and about two minutes later, Oprah came in. She said, Hey, whats going on everybody! I looked over, and I was star struck. Holy shit, thats Oprah! She was just being so nice. She came up to me and asked, Hi, whats your name? I said, Im Damion. She said, Very nice to meet you, Damion. I thought to myself, Ive hit a milestone in my life. Granny will be proud of me now. Its one thing to meet Snoop Dogg and Dr. Dre, but heres Oprah! She said, Ive got to change, Ill be right back. Less than two minutes later, one of the crew members came in and said, Shes ready, weve got to go. Oprah moves fast! We started walking to the side of the stage. I watched her film the show from the side entrance. Oprah was so calm and collected. Nothing was phasing her and she was very at peace, very comfortable and very much in her element. I dont know why that surprised me, I mean, really, look at all those years of amazing shows and interviews and specials: Thats her gig. On the way out, she walked with us back to the dressing room. She turned to me and asked, So what do you do, Damion?
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I said, Oh, I do radio. Im at Power 106 in Los Angeles. She said, Great station! I tripped out. Oprah listens to Power 106? I met her again the next time Mariah had an appearance on her show, and she greeted me very warmly, Oh Damion, nice to see you again. How are you? I thought, Theres no way this woman can remember me. This is crazy. Hey Oprah, how you been! Shes among the nicest people you could ever hope to meet. EAST L.A East Los Angeles has the most condensed Hispanic population in the SoCal area, and thats where our core market was at Power 106. Id never been there, though its not exactly the safest place for a white kid from Santa Barbara, lets be honest. Then, one night, my buddy Triple had a birthday party there. Some of my friends were a bit leery of me attending, but I said, Lets go! Gary, who had been Shades head of security, went with me, and he said, If we go to East Los, Im bringing my gun. I said, Huh? He said, Dude, thats a hot spot right now for gang activity. The most gangsters Ive ever met were rappers, and most rappers arent really gangsters. I said, Whatever, lets go to the party. I wanna party with my friend. So we went to the bash and had a great time. We were singing along to all the songs being played of course, we were listening to Power! Always paying attention, I was also taking mental notes of peoples reactions to the records. As well as it being Triples birthday, I looked at it as a great way to interact with core listeners and see
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what they reacted to on my station. I was a pig in shit, having a good old time. Then, all of a sudden, I saw a flurry of activity to my left. There were three or four people shouting and pointing at another group of three or four guys. Hey, I may be from Santa Barbara and was a little cavalier about being in a hood where I really shouldnt have been, but Ive got some pretty decent street sense. I looked over at Gary and I said, Yo, now would be a good time to leave. It looks like the partys heating up. Gary was tuned in ahead of me, Yeah, I see that too. One of the dudes then lifted up his shirt to show he had a gun. I thought, All right, the partys gonna get shot up now. I need to get the fuck out of here. Gary and I went out front on the sidewalk to quickly say goodbye to everybody and as we did so, a group of guys were gathering in the street, looking very pissed off. Gary said, Look dude. We need to go now. Seconds later the kid with the gun was waving it around, saying, Should I do it? Should I do it? and pointing toward the group in the street. By this point we were standing between this guy and the group he was getting down with. Then he started pulling the trigger, shooting into the air but in our direction. With the first shots Gary pushed me to the side, got behind the wheel well of a parked car, cocked his gun, and sat behind, watching the kid. Then, everyone just started running. I figured that was probably a damn good idea and ran, trying to jump a fence into another backyard. When I hit the fence, it had barbed wire on the top. When I tried to hop over, my pant leg got caught on it and I fell over, landing in the backyard to find a chained-up Rottweiler barking at me. I ran back toward Gary and we headed for our car but only made it about halfway there by the time the cops swept in. They pulled
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all of us together. Gary had a burner on him. This was not good. I looked at my clothes and I saw blood all over me. Im thought for a second, Holy shit. I must have gotten shot! When I threw up my hand to say, What the fuck? blood started shooting across the sidewalk. I looked at my hand, and there was a hole in it. One of the female cops came up to me and asked, Who are you? I said, Im a radio programmer that just came for the party. She said, Youre bleeding. I said, Yeah, I just cant figure out what happened. She said, Oh, its your hand. I said, Umm and Gary interrupted, telling the cop, I have a gun in my waistband. She asked, What are you doing carrying a gun? He said, Im security. Thats Damion Young, hes the music director for Power 106. Hes also a rapper and a producer. I brought it just in case, but it was purely for self defense. She said, Well were gonna detain you two guys for a second. And you need to go to the hospital, sir, she said to me. Of course, I hadnt been shot I cut my hand on the barbed wire, and it went deep. Another a cop walked us to our car and said, You guys shouldnt be down here. What are you doing? I said, I just came for a friends birthday party. The cop said, East Los, for a white boy, is not a smart move. He gave Gary his gun back. He then gave me his card. Get to the hospital. Next time you decide to do something stupid like this, take one of us as security. You can hire off-duty police officers for this kind of thing. From then on, thats exactly what I did.
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ELTON JOHN I was in Vegas with Mariah one year when she was doing the Radio Music Awards. I was just hanging with her and having a good time, since at this point I was with her nearly 24/7. I walked out of her trailer and spotted Jay Boberg from MCA, who had just signed my former artist Shade Sheist. I said, Hey Jay, whats going on? He said, Hey, what are you doing here? I said, Oh Im here with Mariah. He said, Oh, well Im here with Elton John. I said, Hey, we should get those two in a room together! Jay immediately went to get Elton and bring him back to our trailer. I had met Elton once before briefly at one of Jermaine Dupris parties in Atlanta. I went back in the trailer and said to Mariah, Hey, Elton Johns here! Do you want to say hi real quick? She said, Elton John? How do you know Elton John? I said, Oh, my friend from MCA was there and hes with him. Jay walked up and said, Elton, do you know Damion? Elton looked at me kind of funny like he didnt recognize me. I said, Of course, we met at Jermaine Dupris party in Atlanta. Elton smiled and said, Oh of course. Hows it going? We went into the trailer and after saying hello, Elton said, I heard that you just bought Marilyn Monroes piano. Mariah said, Yeah! Its awesome. Elton said, Thats so good that its kept with someone who respected her. Its just such a travesty that it was in limbo for that many years. I chimed in and said, Hey! You guys should write a song on that thing. They both looked at me like I was the corniest person on the face of the earth. Yeah, it was goofy ... but hey, wouldnt you like to hear that duet on that piano?!
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NEVERLAND Michael Jacksons death made me extremely sad. So did much of his life. I had the privilege of visiting Neverland several times in its heyday and it was spectacular, like no other private world Id seen or have seen since. Yet despite everything about it, the enormous expense and effort to make it a happy place, I never found it to be so. In fact, it made me feel sad for Michael. He stopped growing up at the age of five. When you talk about somebody in a superstar bubble, your reality is warped. You stop learning people skills and what the real world has to offer. Hed had a team of people around him at all times who told him what they thought he wanted to hear. Negative energy, to a superstar, is the antichrist. Stars are not used to hearing anything negative at all. Theyre used to hearing how great their record sales are, and how much everyone loves them. They dont know, most of them, in any really tangible way, that poverty exists. There is no reality. You have to remember, these are people who (generally) do not watch television. They live in a bubble, living in a straight line. They dont walk anywhere, order their own dinner, or do anything. They only see the straight line to their house, to a car, or to a hotel room. The only time they meet someone new is if someone comes up and asks them for an autograph. So they only see people who are enthralled with them. When they create their own homes, its usually a representation of their mindset. Youve got to think of the psychology behind Neverland Ranch. Michael Jackson had always been treated like a kid. What else would you picture a 40-year-old child having? An amusement park. Its all the things he never had as a kid that he equated to happiness. An arcade, an amusement park, a movie theater, candy everywhere. He made his own little town. Thats why
its so funny to me when people look at these artists and ask how they got like that. Dude, its a reality well, the reality of most superstars. A friend of mine, Wade Robson, who is a dancer from Australia, was one of Michael Jacksons best friends. I met him early on through Michael Jacksons label, MJJ Records. Wade was signed to the label at the time in a rap group called Quo. Hes an incredible dancer, choreographer, and musician. He went on to choreograph the Britney Spears Super Bowl performance, and produce Pop for *NSYNC. Hes a multi-talented, great guy. I met him when he was 15, and I was about 19. I had just gone to Power, and we were introduced by someone who thought, These are two young people from interesting backgrounds that both have a love for rap music. Maybe they can do some music together! After that first meeting, we kept in contact. A few years later, we found that we could really relate to each other. He was Michaels friend and I was Mariah Careys best friend. So wed get together and tell funny superstar stories. Here we both were hanging out all the time, but Michael and Mariah didnt know that we were friends. Whats even funnier is that Mariahs brother Morgan used to manage Quo. Wade also had all of the sounds and vocals from all of Michaels records. So he had the hookup whenever we needed to sample anything from a certain record. With both of our backgrounds, we found a lot of similarities relating to each other. We were both child prodigies behind the stars. For instance, the first time I met Justin Timberlake was at Wades house, when they were writing records together. I met Britney Spears while he was choreographing with her. Michael Jackson would give Wade the keys to Neverland Ranch for his birthday every year. Every year, Michael would be away somewhere else anyway, so why not? The first year he went, I couldnt go, and I was pissed off. The first time I got to go to Neverland was
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for a record party thrown by MJJ. It wasnt the private weekend tour; that would come later. Id wanted to get past those gates for a long time. It was such an alluring place full of wonder an island in and of itself. Back then when you got past the gates, it was like, Whoo hoo! From a small country road in the arid hills north of Santa Barbara all of a sudden you see a long log fence. From the start of the fence, you began to see green grass. It was an oasis. The first time I was there, we pulled up and the security guard pulled open the biggest residence gate Ive ever seen. The guard came up and said, Can I have your name please, and a photo ID. The guards searched the car. They searched for cameras, recording devices, and everything like that. Finally, we went inside the ranch. We drove by a pasture with horses inside huge stables. Along this dirt road there was a movie theater, which looked like a really big guesthouse, and right past that is where we parked. On the left hand side of the parking lot, there was a basketball court, and on the right an amusement park. Were talking the Zipper, the merry-go-round, a carousel ... everything. We went on the rides, and then we went down to the zoo. He had elephants! I forgot the name of the orangutan he had there, but I remember it liked Reeses Pieces. I would feed him candy and he would come up to me and slap my hand like he was my friend and give me a hug. It was really cool! All of the animals there, whether it was a tiger or a giraffe, seemed to have adopted Michaels sense of kindness. I know that sounds silly but its true. Even the damn tiger had a its nice to meet you kind of attitude. It makes the whole thing about Michaels final years and death even sadder to know that after his highly publicized trial in Santa Barbara he abandoned the property and all the rides were taken away and the animals shipped off to various zoos or wherever. The year after my first visit, Wade came again for a weekend at
Neverland and I was again invited. The first night, Wade stayed at Grannys house and the next morning we went on to Neverland. The guard immediately opened up the door for us when he saw Wade. We pulled up to the main house. Then, the chef, the gardener, the entire staff came out and introduced themselves to us. It was like a movie! We ran through the kitchen and saw a crazy supply of food and alcohol. Then, we hit the golf carts. Since Wade was there often, he knew everyone on staff. Hey! Thats the guy who runs all of the rides, hed say. All of the staff had a part to play. It was almost like they were 50 percent actors and 50 percent employees at Neverland. Wade said, So what do you want to do first? I said, Show me the movie theater! Then we went to the dance room. What a trip. You know when Michael Jackson leans forward in the Smooth Criminal video? Wade showed me how that was done. You needed a special pair of shoes, and there were these little things in the floor that would hold your feet down. The only rooms we were not allowed to go into in the house were Michaels office and bedroom. They were locked. But there was a room upstairs above his office where I swear there was every single movie and TV show ever made. This was before TV series seasons came out on DVD, too. So if I said I wanted to see ER Season 2, Episode 3, a librarian would go down to the end of the hall and come back with the copy, and youd check it out like a book. We all stayed in the guesthouse, and it reminded me of a hotel lodge. There was Neverland soap, Neverland toothbrushes, Neverland towels, everything! I had a king-size bed and my own bathroom. It was a high-end resort. One night there we had a bit to drink and went on a golf cart cruise in the dark with some girls we brought over. In the morning, a little hung over, I awoke to the thought, Fuck. Im in Neverland!
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Then a giraffe walked by my window. I thought, What the fuck was that? I went outside, and the giraffe was just grazing on a tree, right outside of the window. One of the caretakers was with him. He said, Good morning Mr. Young, how are you doing? Then he introduced me to the giraffe. The giraffe leaned his head down, which kind of freaked me out. Go ahead, you can pet him. So I pet the giraffe! The handler said, Later on, were gonna be taking the tiger for a walk, so make sure you stop by and say hi. I said, Ill do that. Thank you so much. I thought to myself, This is a mind fuck! I walked back into the main house as if it were my own home that was the entire vibe the staff and the place itself had and encouraged. Right at the front door was a plastic, life-size butler mannequin, and in the tray were hot cookies, straight out of the oven. I thought, Im in heaven here. When I went back outside they were walking the tiger in the middle of the field. The handler said, Hey, do you want to pet the tiger? Why not! I asked, If he just takes off running, what do you do? He said, You hold onto the leash, or else youll never see him again. A little while later, they took a chimp out. It was crazy. I was there multiple times and the same chimp would always come up and greet me. It was almost as if he remembered me. When the L.A. Times asked me what I thought of the Michael Jackson comeback record Invincible, I said I was disappointed, because I was. Im not gonna lie about it. I feel bad because Im a Michael Jackson fan, and I genuinely appreciated him opening up his home and letting us kick it. I would have been more than happy to do
anything I could for him at radio, but I just couldnt. He was the most generous, kind guy that I have probably ever met. Yeah, our personal encounters were a little weird but its because he was so shy when he wasnt on stage; however, his kind of niceness cannot be gauged. Professionally, his career was a clusterfuck for the last decade. I wish I could have called him up. I would have said, Hey Michael. I appreciate you opening your home up to me. I got to kick it, I got to meet your tiger, your giraffe, even the llamas were friendly. Thank you so much. I have had some of the best weekends of my life at your home. Now, the only thing I can tell you ... is that youre fucking up when it comes to your music. Get back with Quincy and cut some live tracks. Have James Ingram sing backgrounds for you, and write you another PYT. Go find the Picarro Brothers. You had the best team in the world working on your records! Go get what made you famous, and dont try to re-invent the wheel. Do what you did, because thats what your fans want they want you back. I wanted to have the conversation I had with him that I had with his sister Janet. It could have been such an easy fix. Who knows, there may be hundreds of songs in his vault some of them gems that return Michael to the top of the charts; his This Is It shows in London would have been spectacular, as we can clearly see from the DVD made of the rehearsals in the days before Michael died. But, now, it will always just be sad.
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Im the luckiest guy I know. Ive had the most astounding opportunities and experiences and having done this book has made me much more appreciative of what blessings Ive had in my personal and professional lives. More significantly, its made me more appreciative of the incredible people who have been, and who are, in my life. A lot has changed. Radio isnt the same. The entire music business isnt the same. Mike Post closed down Studio 9/Area 51, which, through the enormous generosity and simple love of music, Mike and his son Aaron made my own, essentially, for more than a decade. To you, Mike, I bow. You told me youd built Studio 9 so that people would have a place to create music a passion you and I share so intensely. But you went the extra 100 miles, staffing the studio with engineers and keeping the fridge stocked with sodas. I remember you telling me that you didnt understand what I was doing with rap and that you didnt like hip-hop, personally, but that this didnt matter: kids were staying up half the night and sleeping on the studio floor out of the sheer excitement of being able to lay down their tracks in a world-class facility, and thats what it was all about. Hats off to you, sir. That chapter of concluded, while my life is others are
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found myself again. Ive made incredible friendships and worked with new up-and-coming artists such as Elijah Allan-Blitz, Dopey Loco (from the Guilty project), Rokks, Fresh, Young De, Lil Skips and Lil Bams and of course my young protg Los and now have a newer generation of kids that hopefully Im inspiring as much as they inspire me. I have had some of the most incredible musical experiences of my life with engineer DJ Overtone and the multitalented Jedi Jared Moore.
On tour in Japan, where, thanks to DJ Couz and Big Boy I have a significant following as a performer.
Just as profound was my experience with Santa Barbara Eastside rapper Wino Loks, whom I will always, always remember so fondly and cherish having had in my life for the short time before darkness overtook him, and he committed suicide at my home in November of 2009. If only ... Ive spent time focusing my hip-hop efforts on Bishop Lamont and Indef and briefly took on the co-management of Bishop. As Ive said, Bishop has been the single defining artist who is also my best friend. When I left radio and left the music business, he was the
one man who called me at least once every week. He was the one man who called not because he wanted anything other than to ask how Granny and I were doing. Just checking on you, hed say. I have always been there for Bishop when he has graciously asked for my opinion, advice or help and I have the deepest faith that
In my Grannys House of Hitz recording studio in Santa Barbara producing some demos with legendary Seekers co-founder Keith Potger.
he and Indef are the heroes of the revolution to get our music back. Im also doing records with rock and roll royalty like Terry Reid and Eric Burdon, P.F. Sloan and Jack Tempchin, who wrote some of my favorite Eagles tunes. Ive also done some demos with Texas guitarslinger Widgeon Holland, who was discovered by the late old-school rock manager Chesley Millikin who not only discovered Stevie Ray Vaughan but also helped discover Terry Reid back in the day! Who would thought Damizza have in
rock n roll! I
My good friend Rokks works on a verse in my Grannys House of Hitz studio in Santa Barbara.
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Two dreams come true: Working with multi-Grammy Award-winning engineer, writer and producer Dave Way at his studio Way Station in L.A. producing the legendary P.F. Sloan recording his song Secret Agent Man. The production team: Rick The Bass Player Rosas, P.F. Sloan, Dave Way, J. Marshall Craig, me, and Phil Jones.
blame!) my co-writer J. Marshall Craig for introducing me to his world of rock and roll as Ive introduced him to my world of hiphop. And words alone dont describe the friendship and profound mutual respect that Jeff and I share as a result of fate having brought us together to tell my story. You really have to watch those Canadians, dont you! Heartfelt thanks to Terry for his incredibly kind preface, and for being my rock and roll father. You know theres a whole new musical experience coming from that, just as Animals and War frontman Eric Burdon and I are rewriting a few chapters of
Remembering Nigel writer/ director Frank Howson and me in my Grannys House of Hitz studio in Santa Barbara.
rock and hip-hop history. Im scheming with the incredible Jack Tempchin and recently started working with the legend-
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ary Nigel Grainge and Sir Bob Geldof on what I suspect will turn out to be more than one project. Im chasing other dreams as well, and am enormously proud to not only be the music supervisor of an international motion picture called Remembering Nigel but appear in the movie in a cameo as ... myself! I have enormous gratitude and profound respect for the films writer/director, the Australian genius Frank Howson. I hope its the first of many movie projects we work on together. I hope to do a lot more speaking at high schools and colleges. Im about to launch the first of what I hope is a series of Internet radio stations yeah! back to radio, new radio. And I have a dream of putting out a sort of manual on how to get into, and succeed in, the music business as I see it these days. A Damizza college course in a book, if you will. I dont know everything and maybe I dont even know a lot, but what I do know I truly want to share if theres even the slightest chance it helps even one artist reach his or her dreams to be able to share music with fans. Because, as Ive said all along, I am a fan thats what started this whole journey of mine. I want to hear every piece of new music I can! Im going to keep on making my own music, performing live
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occasionally, especially in Japan, where DJ Couz has somehow created a big fan base for me. I have a young staff member by the name of Wilmer Barraza who is sorting through my vault of hundreds of unreleased songs featuring everyone from Mariah to Snoop to Nate ... just about everyone Ive ever worked with and determine if theres some sensible way to package it up and release it all. Maybe sorta like the Bob Dylan Basement Tapes. I want to, and believe me, Im trying my hardest, be a catalyst of the return of West Coast music, not just rap, but rock and roll and R&B. The record companies are never coming back, just as I have my doubts that traditional radio is going to come back. And maybe thats a good thing. Were finding new ways to get the music out there and, with luck, reach a wider audience than we ever did before. So much has changed during the writing of this book, and among the most tragic events were Nate Doggs near-fatal strokes and then, in March of 2011, his passing. He had always been a true friend and of all the stars I know and have worked with, my strongest mentor and supporter. God knows, in my darkest times, HE was the one who pulled ME out. I want to thank Snoop, Kurupt, Warren, Butch and all of his real friends and family who had visited him and supported him since his stroke; I KNOW what that meant to Nate because, as I mentioned their names the last time I saw him, with his wonderful mother, Miss Ruth, his face lit up. I will miss him always. I want to thank Snoop, Kurupt, Warren, Butch and all of his real friends and family who have visited him since his strokes; I know what its meant to Nate because, as I mentioned their names, his face lit up. So, whats next? The courage, I pray, to cheerfully face life with dignity, honor, loyalty and honesty.
In happiness is to be found success, and I love what I do and as Granny has taught me, the greatest success is to be a man of value something not to be confused with wealth. As the saying goes, if you think you can ... you can. And if you think you cant, youre right.
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ABOUT THE AUTHORS
Damion Damizza Young has been called one of the most powerful people in hip-hop music for both his previous careeer as music director of L.A.s Power 106 and New Yorks Hot 97 and as the producer of hit records that have sold in excess of 30 million copies and spent hundreds of weeks on the Billboard charts. Damizza broke artists such as Eminem, Fat Joe and Jermaine Dupri and helped troubled stars such as Janet Jackson and DJ Quik out of career slumps all the while befriending everyone from NFL Hall of Fame Legend Jim Brown (and getting involved in his world-renowned Amer-I-Can/ Unity One foundations) to West Coast icons Dr. Dre, Snoop Dogg, Warren G. and literally dozens of others, most of whom hes ended up producing in his post-radio career. As a solo artist himself Damizza has a large following in Japan as well as Southern California. J. Marshall Craig is the award-winning author of Eric Burdons Dont Let Me Be Misunderstood; Chuck Leavells Between Rock and a Home Place, Growing A Better America:, Strong and Sustainable, also with Chuck Leavell; the highly anticipated memoirs Rocker: Scars & Strikes, of controversial former Atlanta Braves pitcher John Rocker; the novel Eh Mail and World War I history Youre Lucky If Youre Killed. His work appears in various literary collections with Tom Wolfe, Hunter S. Thompson, Jack Kerouac and others (The Outlaw Bible of American Literature); Hells Angels founder Sonny Barger, Che Guevara and others (Shes A Bad Motorcycle) and CNN talk show host Larry King (Remember Me When Im Gone). Following a long career as a writer and Entertainment Editor in the Canadianbased Sun newspaper chain, he has been a contributor to newspapers and magazines all over the world, including the New York Times, Globe and Mail, The National Post (Canada), The London Independent,
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People, Entertainment Weekly, and, for some odd reason, enjoys a large following in Singapore. Craig is also an award-winning feature film (Fabulous Shiksa In Distress) and music video director and produced Australian director Frank Howsons feature film Remembering Nigel. His next novel, The Excellent Victim, is expected in 2012. Eddie Gurrola is a highly regarded California-based hip-hop journalist known for his time as the host of the West Coast Grind Internet radio show, contributor to dubbcnn.com, as well as the editor and webmaster of the now-defunct hip-hop news site chronicvacation. com.
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WHY THE HELL AM I WRITING A BOOK?

Granny and me dancing in First Class on a flight to Hawaii.

WHY THE HELL AM i WRiTiNG A BOOK?

Damion Damizza Young Santa Barbara, California (The 805!) 2011

Terry Reid Palm Desert, California 2010

J. Marshall Craig, Santa Barbara, California 2011

From Doorstep to Damizza

these days is, well, you get the idea. Just as it is

Practicing my DJing chops on Grannys dining room table.

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Though I Have Walked Through The Shadow of Death

Jim Brown and Amer-I-Can Unity Foundation

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