Were always having a problem with self-esteem.

That would define you really

well, you have to face all of the bad things about that. Your past story continue to
grow up without you happily as what he want to be. With you or without you
everything is going well because you worth nothing, you are replaceable, and
you are far to meet his standard. Ok. We have to breath again after those bad
times with no cheers these past days. The weirdest thing is you can easily forget
it, for many times that you have believed could delete it, you only find yourself
being mad and finding a lot of substitutes that could not replace him. Yes he get
much better, i am not, for the same variable, yes i am not. I could not be grateful
for what I have got here and now, i am growing up not for such kind of growth. I
am growing up to more lenient, humble, and warmhearted self that help people
much, waited everytime, stronger, but i have never realized and go on every
single psychological depression about how worth am I to those people. Well, if
the best love i can give to them is not enough. I am the loser in love, and that is
ok, i decide to no more concern about loving. I will find something that can help
me to be loved, to be waited, to be remembered from people who is purely
seeing me as a respectable human.