Prologue

We meet people. Know things about them, befriend them, they become
part of our lives. They change us. They steal part of our hearts; they
might hold onto that part and stay with us. But sometimes, they just
leave. Once you believed their words, you give away your trust. And in
my case, if only I had known better, I shouldve stopped those people to
even get close.

Look, the person in front of her held her hands. Please dont cry. Its
going to be alright. Please. Dont do this.

Her eyes and throat hurts from the hours of crying and screaming but
her hearts going through much more indescribable pain in that
moment. And now she couldnt cry more.

Tiffany? Talk. Please. Come on. I hate seeing you like this. Its been
hours. Its getting late. Jessica tugged her friends arms. Ill take you
home, lets talk about this there. I-Ill sleep there. She looked up to
stop her tears from falling. Tiffany has been her best friend for years,
and seeing her in that state breaks every piece of her heart.

Jess- Tiffanys voice cracked. Just leave me alone. I need this. I-I-I-
she started sobbing again. Maybe things will change and everything
will be alright. And were going to get back together. Right? she looked
at Jessica, who in return just inhaled deeply.

Tiff, lets go. Please.

I said- Tiffany let go of Jessicas grip No! Leave. Now! I dont need
you so back off.

Jessica was taken aback by what her best friend told her but didnt react
badly. Okay I understand. But please call me when you need
something? Ill come running. You know that. She enveloped Tiffany
with her embrace before getting up. They were sitting in one of the
benches outside their favourite caf for almost five hours. She was dead
tired but couldnt leave Tiffany alone. She thought maybe this time its
best to let her friend be. Okay, Ill go. Please go home? she convinced
Tiffany.

The latter only nodded.

An hour passed and Tiffany was still there, hoping things will
change. Yes, things will change.

And another hour passed.

And another.

And another.

...............

Excuse me? the waiter patted Tiffanys shoulders.

She didnt budge.

Hey miss. The shops closing.

He was about to carry Tiffany when a man in his corporate attire

showed up and stopped him. Shes my date. I was late so- he
signalled the waiter to leave them alone.

Okay sir. The other man mouthed silently.

Hi. He gently smiled at the girl with jaw length hair, red nose and
puffy eyes.

Chapter I

Forever

Thud. Thud. Thud.

Damn, whats that? Tiffany pried her eyes open. She was sleeping soundly
due to the weeks hectic schedule. She is a fashion designer known all over
Asia and America. Her designs are of top calibre. Tiffany is the youngest in
the most successful designers in the industry. For the past week, shes been
busy preparing for the next Victorias Secret fashion show thatll be held in
Seoul seven days from tonight. She hasnt even changed clothes. She slept
with her silver dress wrapping her perfectly curved body.

Its only eleven forty five for crying out loud! she hissed when she looked
around her beautifully interior designed pad to find the digital wall clock. She

sat on the corner of the bed leaning her head on her hands. She stood up
gently and looked through the window where the sound came from.

What the hell is going o- What the hell is going on? What is this?

Hi. He smiled shyly.

Hi. What are you doing?

Brian cleared his throat, fixed his tuxedo and kneeled in front of his girlfriend,
whos watching from the window. I know youve been so busy lately. I know
this isnt the right time. But I couldnt think of a better moment.

He paused, gazed at his watch. Seven minutes from now, itll be our fourth
anniversary together. Remember when we first met? You were crying so
hard in front of that caf. Tonys isnt it? he chuckled.

She gave him a questioning look. What are you talking about?

Let me finish first. Help me out please.

Okay okay. Go on Bry. She smiled reassuringly.

He felt relieved. Okay, so yeah. You were there. I dont know but I found you
beautiful with your short hair, stressed out look, puffed eyes and all. I was
drawn to you. I think I fell in love with you that day. They both beamed at
the memory. I followed you around. You even told me Im a creepy
stalker. But I didnt stop from there. You went to the river, I was there. You
went home, I was there. Behind you. From then on, I stood behind you,
always. Because I hate to see you crying that hard. I swore to myself never
to see you on that devastated state, ever again. When I confessed my
feelings for you, I told you I dont want us to be just another could have
been. I want us to be together. I need you to be with me. We are meant to
be. And you said yes, you love me too. He bowed his head, hiding his
brimming tears.
From that moment on, I changed my wants. From then on, I wanted us to be
together, forever. I am so lucky to have been here with you for Brian
again, gazed at his watch. Oh. Its twelve already. Happy anniversary, baby.

Happy

He raised his hands gesturing to a halt. Let me finish first? Youre ruining the
moment.

She laughed and nodded at the seemingly nervous guy.

Im gonna stand up now cause my knees are freaking hurting. He chuckled.

Moving on. Four years. These years have been the best of my life. With you,
here with me, breathing the same air, looking at the same sun and moon,
walking the same streets, holding the same hands and kissing the same lips.
We all did these together. Stephanie Hwang, I wanna do these things with
the same woman for the next four years, and for the next and for the next
and for the next. I want you to be the first person I see when I wake up, and
the last when I fall asleep. I want you to be the person wholl make me

oatmeal at midnight; I want you to be the person I talk to everyday on the

bed, which we will buy together until we doze off. I want you to be my
person. And I want me to be your person.

Tiffany looked at his boyfriend with wide eyes. He knew she has absorbed
everything by now. Tiffany is an intelligent lady.

I know you know what Im talking about. You know it by now. He knelt once
again, took out a simple yet very elegant diamond ring from his pocket and
smiled as wide as her eyes in that moment. Stephanie, will you marry me?
Will you grow old with me? He closed his eyes, not knowing what to do now,
or what to expect.
She on the other hand, inhaled deeply and stared at the wonderful man
below.

You have always been my person, Brian. And to tell you, honestly, you
never failed at your goal. I never cried that hard again. Thank you for
understanding me, thank you for not prying when I cant answer you why I
cried back then. Thank you for keeping this broken girl in your life, and
somehow making me whole again. Thank you for loving me. She rolled her
eyes. Can you wait for me? Ill be right back. She ran hastily across the
room, went for the door, opened it and hopped to the stairs. Her hearts
beating so fast. She doesnt know if its from the running or from happiness.
She stopped before opening the wooden door to catch her breath. She laid
her hands on her chest. You can do this. Just say yes to the love of your life.

Tiffany opened the door, walked towards Brian and knelt too. She cupped her
boyfriends face and she looked him at the eye. I will make you oatmeal and
talk to you all night during the weekends only. Remember, we both have
work. She stretched her left hand in front of him. What were you asking
again?

He grinned like a fool and stood, took Tiffanys hands and hugged her.
Tightly. I love you. Marry me?

Yes, yes. I will marry you. She grinned.

She squealed when Brian carried her back to her room. They kissed
passionately. She was happy. Both of them were happy. Future Mrs. Song,
three to four months from now, Ill see you at that altar with your beautiful
white dress. Yes?

In a hurry, arent we? she playfully asked.

If I can marry you right now, I would baby. But, you have a fashion show to
think about. And I have a business meeting tomorrow, so yeah, three or four
months. Okay? He smiled. I just cant believe youll be my wife, Tiffany.

Okay. Such a control freak. Tiffany sulked.

He embraced her and landed a kiss on her forehead. Thank you. Ill see you
tomorrow night. I have to go. Please let me be in your sweet dreams?
She chuckled. Shoo shoo! Go. Now.

He beamed once again and started to walk away. She closed the door, and
stood just behind. Staring at the ring wrapping her finger, she smiled
unknowingly. Finally, I can have someone to keep. Forever.

Tiffany woke up to the sound of her alarm. She rubbed both her eyes before
prying them open. She felt an unfamiliar thing around one of her
fingers. What's this?

And the memory of last night's proposal came rushing through her mind. She
widely smiled while staring at the diamond ring. Her early daydream was
interrupted by a phone ring.

"Hello?"

"Good morning beautiful. How's your sleep? I just called to remind you that
last night wasn't a dream. You are engaged to me."

"Yes sir." she chuckled. "I miss you."

"I miss you too." he paused. "Oh Im gonna be late. Have to go babe. I love
you."

"Okay. Take care and don't forget to eat. I love you too."

She stood up as soon as the call ended. Tiffany took her towel to the
bathroom and bathed herself. After she put her white blouse paired with
ragged skinny jeans on, she looked at the reflection of a happy woman in the
mirror. Finally, Tiff. Youve waited for this.

Chapter II

Memories

"A pleasant morning, Miss Hwang. You looked happy today." The woman
behind the table smiled.

Tiffany smiled back. "I am happy today, Juhyun. So please don't give me
bad news?"

"I'll try maam." she chuckled. Juhyun took out a few stacks of paper
from the drawer. "But first, you have to check on these." she looked at
her boss apologetically.

"You're bad." Tiffany eyed her assistant with piercing look. She took the
papers and patted Juhyun's shoulders. "Thank you."

"You are very much welcome."

Tiffany remembered something. "Oh and how's the job I gave you?"

Juhyun stopped typing. "On it, maam. Three models negotiated with us
but we're still waiting who'll confirm."

"Good job." She flashed a warm smile to her assistant who she
considered her friend. Juhyun nodded reassuringly.

Tiffany took her way towards her office. Sitting down on her swivel
chair, she took out her phone and dialled her best friend-slash-business
partner's number. At the third ring, the other girl answered groggily.
Hey, what's up?"

"Jessiiiii!" Tiffany shrieked at the sound of her friend's voice.

"Aw!" Jessica withdrew her phone away from her ears. "Too loud and
too early Tiff. Spare me. You woke me up from my beauty rest." she
hissed.

"You just woke up?! It's late! Aren't you coming here today? "

"Ugh. Please stop. So what's the news?" the latter asked rather irritably.

Tiffany put her phone between her ear and her shoulder to scan the
papers and photos given to her earlier. "Well, I need to see you before I
drop the news. So, lunch at Sbarro? Before we go to the studio."

"Okay. See you." Jessica hung up.

.......

"Jessi, look!" Tiffany flashed her diamond ring as soon as she saw her
best friend.

Jessica's jaw dropped at the sight of her friend's finger. "Oh. My. God! Is
this for real?" she took Tiffany's hand and eyed the ring.

Tiffany nodded excitedly. She smiled with her eyes shaping crescent.
Her bestfriend hugged her tightly. "I'm so happy for you. Jessica
released Tiffany and gestured her to sit. "How? When? Where? Tell me!"

Tiffany laughed at her friend's excitement. "Relax, will you?"

"How can I relax when my bestest best friend is now engaged? When
the person I thought would never find love agai---" Jessica stopped.

"It's okay. I'm over that, long time ago."

"Really?"

---

2008

"If I ever ask you to marry me, will you say yes?"

"Ask me first."

"No fair!"

"Yes fair." Tiffany smiled victoriously. "Anyway, do you plan to?"

"If its you, I would love to."

"I'll wait for that then."

Both of them grinned.

----

"Hey. Earth to Tiff?" Jessica snapped her fingers in front of Tiffany.

The latter retorted from her daze. She stopped browsing random
pictures from her iPad and raised her head to meet her friend's gaze."Yyeah?"

"What can you say?"

"It's all good. I suppose."

Leaning on the wooden chair, Jessica rolled her eyes. "I was asking what
we will do with the model that got sprained during the rehearsal
yesterday."

"Oh, that. Sorry Jess."

"Are you okay? Like really? You seemed bothered." Jessica asked
worriedly.

Tiffany waved her hand. "Yes, I'm fine." She set her gadget aside,
reached for her iced tea and drank. "Anyways, about the model, I asked
Juhyun to find a replacement. We're still waiting for confirmation."

Her best friend nodded in agreement. Minutes passed and awkward

silence enveloped the both of them.

Lets go? Jessica finally broke the silence.

Tiffany nodded. Shes quiet for the past couple of minutes and she
knows that her best friend knows whats going through her mind at that
moment. She couldnt bring herself to full awareness after the memory
of the event shes been suppressing for a long time resurfaced again.

They went their way to the parking lot. Both were quiet, one wasnt sure
what to say and the other wasnt sure what to feel. So uh, see you at
the studio then? My car is parked this way so- Jessica looked at the
bemused girl walking beside her questioningly.

Tiffany met her eyes as she raised her head. Jess, Im okay. I was hurt,
yeah. But when one person walked away from my life, another came.
He took me in when I was broken. And I am really happy now. But then,
when I remember how hurt I was, I-I she paused, her voice trembling.

Sssh. Jessica rubbed Tiffanys back to console her. This is a big

change in your life. A really big change. A positive one. Hes there. Hell
always be there. Hm?

The other girl rubbed her nose and dabbed the tears from her eyes. She
finally smiled at the thought of Brian, who shell marry months from

now. Yes. Yes, of course. Thanks. You really know what to say dont
you?

I know you too much Tiff. She looked at her watch. Oops. At this
point, were gonna be late. Miss Hwang, we have a big client to talk to.
She started walking away.

Tiffany rooted at her spot for a few seconds. She inhaled deeply to
soothe her feelings. She rummaged through her bag to get her phone.
She dialled her boyfriends number as she walks towards her car parked
not far from where she stood.

Babe, whats up? he answered immediately. Brian was in his office

looking through the reports hell present to the meeting.

Is it bad to ask hows my future husband doing? she pressed her

electronic key. She opened the car door when the beeping sound
subsided.

Brian chuckled. Of course not, you sensitive one. Im just rereading our
quarterly report for the meeting. I want to avoid bashing later.

Tiffany smiled, put the phone on speakers and started the engine. You
can do that with no sweat Bry. Im heading to the studio now. Well
discuss with the representatives of Victorias Secret. Her boyfriend
stopped, put the papers hes holding on top of the table. Do you know
how proud I am when it comes to you?

How? she asked.

Very. Tiff, youre a wonderful woman, outside and especially inside.

Youre gorgeous, astounding, intelligent, and talented and youre a good
person. Im more than happy to be the person wholl put a warning sign
around your finger and tell guys wholl hit on you to back off. He
laughed at the thought.

---2009

Wow, this is so pretty. It really fits me! Thank you. She kissed the
person who gave her the ring.

I. Have. One. Too. the other person said in between the kisses.

Tiffany stopped. Really? Let me take a look? she grinned.

The person showed another box and put on the ring similar to Tiffanys.
Ta-da! These will threaten people away. With these rings, no one will
ever get close to me and no one will get close to you. Im all yours and
youre all mine. Understand, Miss Hwang?

Tiffany smiled while tears started to well in her eyes. I love you. And
yes, Im all yours.

I know. I love you too.

They laced their fingers together and talked under the moonlight just
about anything. Tiffany was happy and she knows that, with the person
she is with now, shell always stay that way.

---

Stephanie? Brian asked. Hey.

For the second time that day, she was woken up by people from her
travel to memory lane. Uhm hey, I gotta go. I love you!

Sure. Take care. I love you too. Brian noticed how easily Tiffany got
distracted. But he chose to dismiss the thought.

.....

"So, what do you think about the pink wonderland theme?" Tiffany
asked the women around her in fluent english. "Once the girl group,
Girl's Generation confirmed, they will complement the show."

The group nodded in agreement while scrutinizing the plan that was
given to them. "This is a good idea miss Hwang. The whole plan is very
promising. I even saw the designs and the actual pieces you and your
partner here made. Wonderful." one of the representatives of Victoria's

Secret said while eyeing Tiffany and then Jessica. Both of the girls
flushed at the compliment.

"Oh why thank you Miss Browne. It's always been a pleasure to work
with you. And now that our designs will be showcased under your name
made it more of an honour rather than pleasure." the blonde girl went
at Tiffany's side to pat her best friend.

"It's also an honour for us. You know that. Ah, I can't believe it you two
are the youngest of your kind. Very talented young lasses." Another
woman in corporate dress beamed at the two fashion designers in front
of her. "Not to mention you both are beautiful and you can speak
English really well."

Tiffany giggled. "Oh stop praising us so much. We're just two people
enjoying and loving what we do. Glad to help Miss Meyers."

"Anyway," the youngest representative cut. "When will Soshi confirm?

We don't have much time, do we?"

"Soshi?" all of them asked.

"Girl's generation. Short for So Nyu Shi Dae?"

Everyone except the young woman shook their heads. Then they start
snickering.

"Okay so yeah I'm a fan. Sure, go on. Laugh."

They all laughed at her. And she just pouted in reply. The talk was
interrupted by a phone call.

"Yes, hello?" Tiffany answered. "Yes, yes. Good." she looked at Jessica
and to the group with a big grin. "Thank you. Job well done."

"Girl's generation confirmed their schedule even with the short notice
we gave them. They will go here for the rehearsal tomorrow." she
paused. "When they knew about the model that got injured, they said
they are willing to replace her. Nine of them want to."

"That's great! Then all of them will walk on that runway then. This show
will be awesome." miss Browne muttered. "So I think everything's
settled here. We are now going."

"Sure maam." Tiffany motioned for the exit. "This way."

"Another job well done for our partnership." Jessica mumbled through
her red head friend's ear. The latter smiled proudly.

Meanwhile, on the other side of the world.

"Congratulations." the MC shook hands with the Dr. Jackson Bailey

awardee.

"Thank you."

The physician took the award and stood on stage. "Thank you. Thank
you."

"Being a good doctor doesn't always mean pure skills and intelligence.
Even if you have both if you don't have the heart to stand for your
decisions, you don't have the right to treat people. I see dozens of
people die every day. It hurts. But as a doctor and as a person, I have to
be strong." the awardee paused for a thought. "A family member of the
first patient who died in front of me talked to me after her father died.
She asked me what I did to kill the patient. And I said, oh no, I didn't do
anything."

The audience kept silent while the physician in front shares the story.
"And then she told me, that's exactly the point. That I waited too long
for my mentor's decision about the case that I forgot I am a doctor too. I
didn't have a heart to decide for myself she blatantly said to my face. I
was surprised of course. I was surprised that she was right. So for the
next patients I handled, I made my own medical judgement." another
pause. "I give everything that I know to prevent families to lose their
loved ones. I don't stop until we don't have any choices. And I see a lot
of people who get to live with that approach. But when it comes to
those who don't have a chance, I stop. As a person, stopping is not an
option. But for a physician, I have to do what I got to do. Even if it
means... letting go." the doctor bowed 90 degrees and went off stage.

Everyone in the hall stood and clapped at the person walking down the
stage.

"Bravo!" one shouted.

Chapter III

Excited

The night everyone especially two best friends have been waiting for
had come. Fashion designers known over Korea, the rich and famous
people were arriving one by one. The lights were blinding, the media
was overwhelming and the fans were so many.

Tiffany wore a black and silver knee length dress she co-designed with
her best friend complemented with stilletos. She looked very beautiful.
She waited for the valet service inside her car. She tapped the steering
wheel with her fingers as she watch the busy entrance of the Ritz
Carlton hotel.

Ring! Ring!

"Jessi! I'm sorry. Yes. I'm outside waiting for valet. Yes. Just give me a
minute." she explained. As soon as she ended the call, it was her turn.
She jumped from the driver's seat and hurriedly gave her keys to the
man who approached her. She walked on the red carpet. She stopped in
the centre to greet the media and the fans, a customary in events. Few

reporters went to her. The red head hissed under her breath. Oh come
on. Not now.

"Hi Miss Hwang", one of the reporters smiled. "You looked gorgeous!"

The latter faked a smile. "Thank you!"

"So what inspired you to do this pink theme for the VS show?"

"I loved pink since I was a child. And I swore to myself that I will use
pink in my first showcase and in my most important one." she replied
keeping her cool.

"Your first fashion show was two years ago. So this is the most
important one then?" asked another reporter.

Tiffany nodded. "So when they called me and Jessica Jung, we decided
on pink immediately." she added.

A few more questions were asked until Tiffany excused herself. She was
half running when she arrived back stage.

The blonde turned her head to See Tiffany. "Jeez, Tiff! Where were
you?"

"I'm sorry!" she bowed her head to Jessica and to the models. She went
straight to her best friend. "I'm sorry reporters outside literally
ambushed me."

"Okay. Just go do your job. Shoo." Jessica smiled. "You look hot, girl!"

The red head laughed. "You too. I'm gonna look for Brian first."

"Listen everyone," she clapped her hands to get attention. Everyone

turned to her. "Everyone's out there to see you. So give them one hell of
a show!" she shouted as she excused herself.

Tiffany was about to enter the VIP room when someone gripped her
hands. "Hey beautiful."

Brian was wearing a pair of silver coat and slacks, matched with a blue
necktie and black shoes. "And you are stunning, Mr. Song." Tiffany
kissed Brian's cheek.

"Thank you. This is for you." he handed her a bouquet of pink roses.
"They are beautiful but sorry, they don't compare to you." he beamed.

"Cheesy." she smelled the roses.

"I know you're busy so I'll head back to my seat now. Good luck. Make
me more proud Steph."

Tiffany went inside the room to meet the Girl's Generation members.
"You guys ready?" she asked as she shook each member's hands. "Who
would've imagined? You guys are goddesses in person."

The girls chuckled. "Yes we are ready."

Tiffany clapped her hands. "Okay then! Let's go and break a leg!"

The show started smoothly. The models looked great with Tiffany and
Jessica's designs. The audiences were dazed with the show. Fans were
ecstatic when the members of Girl's Generation walked down the ramp
while singing their hits like Gee, Tell me your wish and Dancing Queen.

The whole events place was filled with applause and shouts of
amusement when Tiffany and Jessica stepped into the stage together
with the Victoria's Secret bosses. They bowed and said their thank
yous to everyone. When Tiffany met Brian's eyes, her boyfriend
mouthed "Good job" and lift his two thumbs up. The red head smiled at
him.

The last of the models waved goodbye at Tiffany, Brian and Jessica. The
three muttered their goodbyes as well.

"Hey. I gotta go too." Jessica patted both of her friends hands. "And
congratulations to you both."

"Thanks Jess." both Tiffany and Brian flushed.

"You are cute!" The blonde chuckled. "See you love birds."

Tiffany looked at the empty stage for a couple of minutes.

"What's wrong? Brian asked.

"I'm just-" she looked at Brian. "Happy. Did you see our designs? They
looked, wow."

"Yes babe. You and Jessica are great designers." he kissed his girlfriend's
forehead. "So what's next for you?"

"I don't know."

"I have an idea. Why don't you get busy with our wedding? That
wouldn't be so bad right?"

Tiffany pinched Brians nose. "Clever."

Brian laughed and Tiffany earned another kiss on her forehead. Lets
go? Do you wanna celebrate with me first?

What are we gonna do?

Eat!

Lets go then. She smiled.

......

This is crap, pure crap Tiffany. Jessica grumbled. You look like a four
hundred-year-old bride. Look at these ruffles! Oh come on. Even you
think this is ugly.

Well yeah. Hmm. Tiffany turned around in front of the mirror to look at
her bridal gown. It does look old.

See? Please undress that. Ugh. She groaned.

I swore myself not to make my own gown. The future bride replied.

What am I doing here? Dont I look like a designer to you? And I

am your best friend for crying out loud!

I can make it for you. Four days Tiff. This freaking gown burns my
eyes.

You have a project to think about. I dont want to bother you, Jessi.

Youre not. Youre my best friend and Im willing to postpone anything

just for you. Come on. The other girl exclaimed.

Tiffany exhaled in defeat. Youre sure?

The hell I am! Come on lets go out before I rip this gown apart.
Jessica threw the white ruffled gown on the couch. They walked past the
gown designer at the shop.

So hows- the designer was about to ask.

No. Its ugly. Jessica interjected flatly.

They left the dumbfounded woman in a hurry. Tiffany laughed out loud
as they closed the glass door. She gently hit Jessicas arms. Thats
rude, you know?

What? Its true! the blonde laughed too. Come lets grab coffee.

......

So, whos planning your wedding? Jessica put her coffee cup on the
table.

Victoria unnie. Our senior at Hongik U. responded the girl behind the
papers she was reading.

Oh.

What, you dont like her too?

Oh no. Shes great. Ive seen weddings she planned. They were good.
She rubbed her chin. Jessica wanted to ask Tiffany about something
shes been keeping for a long time. But she couldnt. Shes afraid she
might ruin her friends awaited moment.

Tiffany stood up to answer her phone. Its fine. Jessi didnt approve.
Yeah. She said shell make my gown. Okay bye, I love you too.

Brian. He asked about the gown. He knew you wouldnt agree with the
idea. She said as she took her seat.

Which, you should also assumed. The other girl squint her eyes.

Im sorry.

......

Two months have passed and the preparation for the wedding was going
pretty well. Tiffany loved the gown her best friend designed just for her
and Brians suit matched with hers.

They have disseminated the invitations to their families and friends.

Some celebrities, businessmen and women were also invited. The
country has been anticipating for the wedding of the year. It was a
beach wedding in Jeju. The visitors were asked to wear anything white
and pink during the wedding. The colours were the couples favourite.
Jessica will be the brides maid while Andrew, Brians best friend will be
the best man. Tiffanys nephew will be the ring bearer and Brians
nieces are the flower girls.

Parents of both parties together with their relatives are very happy and
excited about the marriage.

Tiffany! You are indeed the most glorious bride to be! the old woman
embraced the shy girl.

Thank you, umma. Tiffany embraced back. She looked around the
expensive restaurant to look for her groom to be. Uhh, where is Brian?

He called a while ago. Hell be late. He said we should eat first.

Okay umma. She mumbled. She saw Mr. Song approaching them.
Hello, appa. She reached the old man for a hug.

Mr. Song hugged her back. Hello Stephanie. Come join us. Your father is
inside.

The three adults walked their way towards the private room they paid
for the day. Hi Daddy! Tiffany shouted from the door.

Hello princess. Mr. Hwang stood up. He kissed his daughters cheek
when Tiffany went close to him. Lets eat?

The red head nodded and all of them took their seats.

---

January 15, 2013

Top Designer Stephanie Hwang and Business Mogul

Brian Song Finally Decided to Tie the Ropes.

After four years of steady going relationship, Song and Hwang

announced that theyll be getting married. The date of the big event is
on March 6 this year..

A deep sigh.

---

The laugh brought by Brians cousin subsided when the old Mr. Hwang
cleared his throat. Everyone looked to his way. Two months. And my
little princess will be taken away from me.

Daddy. Tiffany tugged his fathers sleeves.

But I am really happy. Because the person who stole my babys heart is
certainly a prince. Brian is a good man. Ive always wanted to have a
son, and now God has given me one.

We also found a daughter in Tiffany, Robert. The Song couple replied.

Ring! Ring! Ring!

Tiffany got startled when her phone rang. Yes?

She stood there at her fathers side shaken. She couldnt speak. She
couldnt feel. Her heart stopped beating and her world stopped turning.
The unknown caller mustve dropped an anchor that crushed her mind
and heart. She once again felt a familiar feeling that almost killed her
four years ago. And now Tiffanys once again broken.

Chapter IV

Again

NOOOOOO! Tiffany shouted which surprised the guests. She dropped

her phone and she cried like a little girl.

Stephanie, what happened? Mrs. Song asked worriedly as she went

beside Tiffany.

Umma. Brian, he- she wept.

......

Found Mr. Brian Song inside his car unresponsive. His car jolted into
another car along the highway. He is tachypneic and breathing has
become shallow. Found bruises and lacerations on his face, arms and
legs. Cervical collar and oxygen was given. No further interventions
were applied. The paramedic announced while he took Brian inside the
emergency room.

Well take him from here. The doctor took Brians assessment data.

Brian was taken inside one of the trauma rooms. He was given first line
treatment until he was transferred to the intensive care unit. Just then
the Hwangs and the Songs arrived.

You are the relatives? asked the nurse.

Yes, yes. We are. Tiffany tried catching her breath.

Follow me then maam, sir.

Dr. Im, the nurse called the woman in scrubs. These are Mr. Songs
relatives.

The doctor turned around to meet them. Thank you.

The nurse bowed and left.
How is he? Mrs. Song asked, tears brimming from her eyes.

He is now stable. Vitals are okay. We treated and dressed all his
wounds, gave oxygen, fluids to replace the blood loss and meds to
reduce inflammation especially in his brain and antibiotics to avoid
infection. She paused, looked through the glass door of the ICU. But
hes not conscious yet. We still have to wait until then.

Oh, thank God. Thank you, doctor. The old couple said in unison.

Dont mention it. Do you have any more questions?

I think were fine. Tiffany responded, flatly.

Okay then. Ill go ahead and check my other patients. But please if you
need anything, call for me. You can ask for me from the nurses. Dr. Im
tried to smile softly.

Mr. Hwang nodded and the doctor took her way out. Tiffany was still
shocked from the accident. She went near the glass and peered through
to see his boyfriend attached to a beeping machine, to an oxygen
supply and a lot of other contraptions. Baby. She cried as she leaned
her hand on the door.

Miss? You can use these if you want to go near him. The nurse offered
a hospital gown, a mask and a cap.

Tiffany smiled and took the garments. She slid the glass door and
entered the isolated room. He took Brians hands and kissed them. Hi.
She greeted him bitterly. You only said youre gonna be late. You never
told us th-that youll get into trouble. Look at you. She looked at the
sleeping man from head to toe. You look bad, really bad. Please wake
up.

She started weeping. The doctor said youre stable. So wake up.
Please?
Tiffany stayed beside her fianc for the next twenty or thirty minutes.
She doesnt know. She doesnt care.

Maam? Im sorry but you have to go. As much as I want to let you
stay, the hospital only allows thirty minutes of visit inside the ICU. The
nurse patted Tiffanys shoulder.

Oh. Right. Of course. Ill just- Tiffany pointed at Brian.

Oh sure, maam.

Babe, I have to go now. Ill see you tomorrow. Ill stay outside though.

Tiffany went to the ICU every day for three days. She didnt leave her
boyfriend alone. She suspended all her upcoming projects to focus on
Brian. If shes not allowed inside, shed stay behind the glass door,
waiting for him to wake up.

On the fourth day, Tiffany told Brian how their lives changed when he
got into the accident. She was into her stories when she heard a knock
from the door. Oops, its time. I have to-
The machine started beeping frantically. She doesnt know what was
happening but shes sure the situation has gone bad. She stayed rooted
in her spot with the lights and beeps clouded her mind.

"Code blue! Code blue!" a male nurse called out from behind. Three
doctors and three other nurses came rushing in. The female nurse
opened the drawers of the small cabinet near the window and took out
tubes and ampules of medicines Tiffany couldn't recognize.

She saw them put on gloves. Another nurse opened the wrapping of the
tube and gave it to the doctor on the upper part of the bed. He tilted
brian's head backwards and inserted the tube. It was traumatizing for
her. But she couldn't move her feet.

"In!" the doctor shouted. He connected the tube to a bag, which the
nurse pressed. Brian's chest rises with every press and falls upon
release. Another doctor listened to his chest and raises his thumb. The
nurse continued pressing.

Push one of epi. The head doctor ordered. And the nurse gave a liquid
medication through Brians IV line.

One epi, given!

Tiffany felt someone pulled her out of the room. She wanted to stay but
she has no strength to fight back. It felt like forever when the nurses
pulled the curtains together.

........

"He is now again stable. We don't know what happened. His whole body
CT and MRI scans were both clear but every organ in his body started to
fail." Dr. Im explained.

"So what are you saying?" Mrs. Song's voice started to rise.

"Maam calm down. Dr. Im shook her head. We very are sorry. We did
our best but we don't know what we are dealing with."

"S-so what a-are you planning to do?" Tiffany's voice shaken.

"I have an idea. But it requires him to be transferred to the US." she
looked at the bemused relatives. "I personally know a doctor in
California. Shes known over the states and she was trained under the
best internal medicine physicians. I think she could help."

"We will see her. We will do whatever is needed." Mr. Song responded
instantly.

The doctor nodded. She wrote something on the piece of paper and
handed it to them. "This is the hospital in San Francisco. I will endorse
everything to them. Just take Brian there."

"Look for Dr. Erica Kim. She's the only Korean senior resident physician
there. You'll find her easily."

Chapter V

Whatever it takes

"Everything's okay now maam. The patients been transferred to our

ICU. We'll just wait for your physician, who is?"

"Hm. We are here for Dr. Erika Kim." Tiffany replied.

.......

She sipped her fourth coffee that morning. "The nurse paged me. The
patient has arrived and prepped in the ICU."

"Are you sure about this Taeng? It's Tiffany. She might reject your offer."
The other doctor asked.

"I'm hopeful."

"You left her, in the middle of the day. At your favourite restaurant." she
pointed out each detail. "You basically broke every piece of her heart."

"Yes, and I-" Taeyeon put her coffee aside. She leaned forward. "Look
Soonkyu, this is the least I could do. I brought her pain. The guy took
that pain away. And now she's in that position again. Can't I at least
help?"

"What if he dies? You'll be the one to blame! Her anger will escalate
again. And oh, don't call me Soonkyu, not here. Not ever again." Dr. Lee
Sunny rolled her eyes while leaning her back against the chair. "You're
still in love with her, aren't you?"

Taeyeon drank the last of her coffee and hurried out. "Gotta go. I have a
patient to treat. Go back to your hospital."

"Taeyeon! Answer me!" the latter dismissed her and went out the cafe.
"Ugh. Frustrating!"

.......

Taeyeon entered the ICU room where Brian was confined. She read the
patient's history, assessments, diagnostic and lab procedures, progress
notes and doctor's orders. She also assessed the patient herself. She
couldn't find any reason why Brian's body's failing. "This is way more
complicated than I thought." she sighed. The doctor looked at the
patient gently. "You look better than the pictures. You seem like a nice
guy. No wonder Tiffany fell for you. What is she like with you? Hm? Is
she still sweet and bubbly? Did you change her?"

"You shouldn't do this to her. She's happy with you. You should wake up
and get through this. I'll help you. Let's make her happier okay?" she
stood up and went to the nurses' station to order a CT and an MRI scan
and blood tests. She doesn't want to miss anything.

"The relatives are in your office Dr. Kim." the Korean intern informed her
as she read the orders given to them.

"Thank you, Dr. Kwon."

Yuri smiled at her. "No problem doctor."

......

She inhaled deeply before she opened the door. She doesn't know what
to say or what to do in front of Tiffany. She last saw the girl four years
ago. And the last memory she has with her was the drama they caused
at Tony's.

"Good afternoon Mr and Mrs Song." she greeted the couple once she sat
on her chair. She has light brown hair at breasts length. She wore a nice
dress covered with her white coat. A name was embroidered on the
pocket on her chest: Erica Kim, MD. She holds her own copy of Brian's
chart. She hesitated at first but she obliged to look at Tiffany. "And to
you, too."

Tiffany didn't reply. She sat there, mouth agape and eyes wide.

Taeyeon cleared her throat. "I am Dr. Erica Kim. But you can call me
Taeyeon." she spoke with her native Jeonju accent. She stood up again
and bowed to the old couple.

"Please take your seat, Taeyeon. And thank you so much." the older
woman interjected.

"Glad to help, Mrs. Song." the doctor smiled. She opened the folder she
was holding. She explained what each test mean, the interventions
given to Brian and how complicated the case has gotten. "Honestly, I
don't know what this is. And I need more time to figure things out.
Please bear with me."

"You can get all the time. Just help him." Mr Song begs. "Right,
Stephanie?" he gazed at the silent girl.

"Y-yes of course. Please, Tae- Dr. Erica." Tiffany almost choked at the
sound of Taeyeons name.

The couple stood up and excused themselves. "We have to go first; we

will just fix our things. If you have updates, just tell it to our daughter-inlaw, Tiffany. We will return immediately."

"Yes ma'am, sir. Take care."

Mr and Mrs Song left the room. Taeyeon and Tiffany couldn't move or
say a word. It was awkward for them both.

Tiffany sniffed and sneezed. She covered her nose and looked for a
handkerchief inside her purse. She didn't find any. Taeyeon noticed. She
took out a box of tissue and gave it to the other girl. The red head
bowed a bit. She took two pieces and patted her nose with them.

"You knew he was my fianc?" she straightforwardly asked the girl

across her.

Taeyeon was shocked by the sudden question. "I didn't, at first. When
Yoona asked me to help her with a patient, I immediately said yes." she
took a breath. "And then she said it was Brian Song, the businessman. I
asked her if he has a wife. She answered he'll get married to you. I
wanted to back out. But I couldn't just say no when I already told her
yes. And I wanted to help too."

"Ah, okay."

Taeyeon awkwardly fiddled her fingers. "So uh, how are you? With all of
these? With me as his primary consultant?"

"Taeyeon, don't. We're not friends. Just do what you have to do. I don't
care about whoever treats him, as long as he's fine and as long as he's
got to live. And I don't give a damn even if it was you."

The things which came from Tiffany's mouth left Taeyeon with no words
to say. She kind of expected to hear harsh words from her ex-girlfriend
but surprisingly, to hear it from the Tiffany she used to know was more
hurtful.

"And can I ask you a favor?" Tiffany intensely stared at her.

"What is it?" the wide eyed girl replied.

"Could you not fail me this time? I beseech you." Tiffany didn't wait for
Taeyeon to answer. She stood up, took her purse and jolted out of the
room. Her heart was beating rapidly. She couldn't contain her anger
against Taeyeon. Every memory, every bit of the broken feeling came
back with just one look at her ex. She started crying as she walked
along the hospital's corridor. Tiff, you're not crying over her again. Stop
your tears!

On the other hand, Taeyeon swallowed a big lump in her throat. A tear
escaped her eye. She wiped it with the back of her hand. She could see
the anger in Tiffany's eyes. She couldn't blame her though. What she
did to her was unforgivable. It was the worst.

---

Somewhere between June and July of 2009

"Beep! This is Kim Taeyeon. I am busy right now. Please leave your
message! I'll call you back. Beep!"

"Taeyeon-ah. What went wrong? Don't you love me anymore? Did I say
something that might hurt you? Did I do something bad? Please talk to
me." the sobbing girl from the other line appealed.

Taeyeon cried hard while preparing her things. She looked at the plane
ticket stuck inside her passport.

Incheon-Los Angeles, July 2, 2009

She sat on the edge of the bed, weeping.

Another few rings came from her phone. The nineteenth call was
transferred to another voicemail.

"Please just talk to me. I love you. We're going to get through this, I
know. I'll wait. At the same place on the same time, everyday Taetae,
every single day. Call me?"

She started crying harder at her love's pleading. It breaks her heart to
cause Tiffany so much pain.

......

"Taeyeon-ah, we'll be leaving in a few hours. Wake up now! Prepare

yourself. You don't wanna be late." her mother shouted from the first
floor of their house. Taeyeon was awake. She was in her room upstairs.
The digital clock read 7:16 AM. She stared at the blinking numbers for
God knows how long. Black circles surrounded her eyes. She barely
slept. She didn't move until it was ten. She took a bath, put on her jeans
and shirt and ate one fourth of her meal.

"Umma, I just need to go somewhere. I'll meet you at the airport. I won't
be late. I promise." she hastily grabbed a cab outside their gate.

Tiffany was wearing a pink top and ragged pair of jeans. She looked
tired and sleepy. With nothing else to do, she just played with the bagel
she ordered. She didn't even touch her coffee.

She has never been lifeless before. Taeyeon thought at the sight of her
ex from across the street. Stop waiting for me, Fany-ah. It's been days.
And once I board the plane, it'll be years.

She watched at the tired looking girl for a few more minutes before she
decided to leave. She closed her eyes hoping it'll stop her from crying
again.

---

Taeyeon had her nth coffee for the night. Her heads hurting. She read
five books to look for an answer. She couldnt find a treatment, let alone
the reason of Brians situation.

Ugh! Come on. Give me the answer! her notes flew on the ground
when she leaned her upper body on her table. She sneezed.

Oh shi- she ran out and looked for Tiffany.

......

Tiffany was sitting next to Brian. She was crying hard. I saw Taeyeon
today. Shell be your doctor. Was I wrong to walk out on her like that?
But I was angry.

The day you saw me at Tonys, I was crying for her. Shes the reason
why I was so hurt before. If youre here, what will you do to her? she
sniffed. She looks good though. Shes prettier no-. The hell I was
talking about?

I know youll get mad if you knew I did that. Ill just say sorry. I miss
you.

......

Taeyeon came running towards the door.

Tiffany!

What?

I have a question. She sat facing the girl. Before he got into the
accident, had he had colds?

Tiffany paused for a thought. I-I think so? Why?

Did he take any medications?

He has pills.

What pills?

Acy-acy- she shook her head. I dont know.

Acyclovir. Thats it! I think I know what happened. She took Tiffanys
hands. Fany-ah, I think I know.

Tiffany felt familiar warmth with the name she didnt hear for four years.
She conceded at the slight tug from Taeyeon.

......

The Songs together with Tiffany sat around Taeyeon. The doctor cleared
her throat. Brian has a history of colds. Noone knew. He has been
taking Acyclovir, an antiviral. It can be toxic to the kidneys-

What are you talking about? Mr Song interrupted.

Taeyeon inhaled deeply. Due to the accident, his kidneys were injured
and on great stress plus the Acyclovir he took and the medications
given to him at the hospital. They overworked thats why they failed.
The failure of the kidneys caused the failure of the other organs.

Why didnt they know back in Korea? Why did all of you gave him more
medicines when you know his kidneys are stressed? anger from Mrs.
Song escalated.

He needs the meds, maam. And, like I said, no one could expect the
reason for this mess. She looked at the couple with remorse. Ill be
giving him a medicine that could help. But his antiviral induced kidney
failure has been way too long, so Im not sure if it could help.

Okay. Please do. The old man mouthed while consoling her wife.

---

Meds were given. Well just have to wait. So, coffee? Taeyeon handed
Tiffany a cup of brown coffee. They were sitting on the seats across the
ICU rooms.

Thanks.

Two interns gave me coffee. Theyre kissing my ass. She chuckled.

Tiffany smiled a bit.

The other girl awkwardly cleared her throat and sipped from her cup.

Taeyeon, thank you for taking care of him.

Dont thank me yet. She raised her brows. I dont know if my solution
helps.

No, its fine. You took him in even if its complicated. Thank you for
that. And Im sorry for what I did.

You have all the right to get mad. I would too. And it was my fault so,
yeah, I kinda deserve that. She smiled bitterly. Im sorry Tiffany. I
really am.

I forgot about that when I met him. Therefore I forgave you Kim
Taeyeon. Tiffany pointed at Taeyeons eyes. You havent slept, have
you?

I dont want to miss anything.

Still the obsessive one, I see. Tiffany looked at Taeyeon.

Its related to you, Tiffany. I cant miss a thing.

I want him to live, Taeyeon-ah. Tears started to fall from her tired
eyes. Tiffany leaned over Taeyeons shoulder.

Ssh. I know. We all want that. Taeyeon rubbed the red heads back in
circular motion. She felt a pang of jealousy to see how Tiffany cared for
Brian. But she dismissed the feeling and just soothed Tiffany. In that
moment, all she cared about was Tiffany.

She wanted to let go but she couldnt. Tiffany missed having the
comfort the other girl gives her. Brian, dont get jealous, alright? Were
just two people who used to know each other.

Uhm, Dr. Kim? a tan girl in scrubs called from behind.

The two instantly let go of each other. Tiffany fixed her face and
Taeyeon straighten up. Yes? she raised her head.

Can you see a patient in room 501 at west wing?

Taeyeon stood up. Tiffany, I have to go. If you need anything, the
nurses are right here.

She took two steps and looked back at the sitting girl. Are you going to
be okay?

Tiffany smiled. Go. See the patient. Im okay.

The other girl creased her forehead. Sure? As in really sure? I can stay,
you know.

Taeyeon.

Okay, okay. Ill go.

Tiffany couldnt help but smile as she watched the disappearing girl.
She sighed loudly as she realized she lost the battle against herself. She
finally admitted she missed the petite girl.

---

Knock. Knock. Knock. No response. With a coffee on her left hand, she
gently opened the door with her right. Taeyeon?

The nurse said shes here. Tiffany mumbled. She pouted at the coffee
she was holding. Hey coffee, I think youll stay here alone.

She placed the cup on Taeyeons table and left. The door from the wash
room and opened and Taeyeon came out. She creased her brows on the
cup on her table. Those interns.

She was about to throw the plastic cup when she saw the small note
affixed on it. She unknowingly smiled.

Sorry. And thank you.

T.

Chapter VI

To Hesitate

"Vitals are doing well. Blood tests that shot up before are now slowly
going down." Taeyeon smiled.
"So, you're saying, he's getting better?" Tiffany inquired.
"Well, that's the plan."
The old couple who haven't smiled for two weeks beamed.
"We'll continue the treatment, watch out for his delicate organs and
monitor his progress. Every day." The doctor gave a reassuring look to
Brian's loved one.
The couple hugged Taeyeon. While Tiffany, who's standing behind them,

smiled at Taeyeon, the smile Taeyeon missed the most. She could see
the sincerity behind those tired eyes. She smiled back.
After the short hug, Mr Song turned to Tiffany. "We will head home first.
Stay with him tonight, Stephanie."
"Of course, appa."

Tiffany and Taeyeon were left alone in Taeyeon's office. The red head
stifled a yawn before standing up.
"Where are you going?" Asked the sitting girl.
"Out. I'll watch over Bry." Tiffany answered tiredly as she reached for the
door knob.
Taeyeon hurriedly stood up and blocked the door. "No. You're staying."
Their faces were just two inches away. Tiffany could feel the warmth of
Taeyeon's breath on her right cheek. Blood came rushing up in her face
which made her blush. "Why?"
"Because I wanted to." Taeyeon's breathing became ragged when she
saw Tiffany blushing. She looked at the other girl's forehead, down her
nose, her slightly opened lips and up to her eyes.
Tiffany turned around as soon as Taeyeon met her gaze. "Noone's gonna
look after my boyfriend."
"The nurses are out there, just across Brian's room. I told them to
specifically call me when something's up." Taeyeon opened the
refrigerator and took out a glass of milk. "Look at you. You've lost
weight. You haven't had a nice rest. Here, drink."
"Milk?"
"Yes. And here, eat this." Taeyeon gave Tiffany a lunchbox with rice and
mixed vegetables inside. "You have to eat real food Fany-ah."
Tiffany took the box. Deep inside, she's gratified by Taeyeon's care for

her, after all these years they've been apart. "Thanks."

"After you eat, sleep here in the couch." Taeyeon said more of an order
than an offer. She laid a blanket and a pillow, setting her stuffed pea
aside. "I'll just make rounds on my patients. I'll be back and I expect to
see you here."
Tiffany could only stare at Taeyeon. But her hearts swelling with
appreciation.
"Eat. Now." The doctor pointed at the lunchbox. She put her coat on and
head out.

Tiffany was surprised that she was really hungry. She emptied the glass
and the lunchbox. Opening her bag, she took out her toothbrush and
went inside Taeyeon's wash room.
After cleaning herself up, she snuggled on the couch Taeyeon prepared
for her. Fixing her position, she accidentally laid her eyes on the peas
with eyes looking back at her. "A respected physician, and this?
Seriously?" She unconsciously smiled. A few minutes passed and she
dozed off.

--2008

"Yay! We won!" Taeyeon shouted while doing weird dances. For the past
two hours, they've been playing games at the amusement park.
Tiffany laughed at the shorter girl's dorkiness. "Taetae, people are
looking at us."
"I want the peas Fany-ah! The peas!"
"But I want the pink one."
The other girl pouted. But the peas?

Tiffany took the stuffed toy and gave it to Taeyeon. Very mature of you
Kim Taeyeon.

---

Dr. Kwon, hows Mrs Robins?

Shes been doing well. Her appetites increased and she passed a stool
five hours ago. The tan intern answered.

Good. And how about you?

Doctor?

Youre not focused. Did something happen? Taeyeon asked in Korean.

Just had more coffees than usual, I guess. Dr. Kwon Yuri shook her
head and hands.

Okay. So thats the last for tonight. The shorter doctor smiled. She
handed the pile of patients charts on Yuri. Rest.

Thank you.

---

Taeyeon saw no one inside her office when she opened the door. What
should I expect? she mumbled. Oblivious of the girl sleeping soundly
on the couch, she took out her coat and lied on the floor. Very tiring!

Tiffany moved a bit and Taeyeon heard it. A wide smile has shown on
her face upon seeing the red head sleeping. Taeyeon crawled near the
couch. She knelt in front of the sleeping girls face. You got prettier. I
can say even if you look tired.

She inched her face closer to Tiffanys. And the latter slowly opened her
eyes. Tiffanys eyes widened when she saw Taeyeons face near hers.

The shorter girl scooted instantly and cleared her throat. I was just- I
was just about to wake you up.

The surprised Tiffany swallowed and decided to stand up. Anyway,

thank you for the food and the couch. Ill just, uh visit Brian.

Sure. Sure. Go on.

Taeyeon grunted when the door closed. What the hell was that?!

--Brian Song. Its been a month! We both know the prognosis weeks ago
and you didnt even tell the family about it? Brians not there anymore!
You know that! the older doctor exclaimed.

But-

Once those machines were disconnected from him, hell die.

I know Dr. Anderson. But we are hopeful. She explained nervously.

Do you see this?! Dr. Anderson threw the electroencephalogram

papers on Taeyeons face. Flat! No brain activity for a month! And
youre still hopeful?

Where is the Erica I know? Youre not his friend. You are his doctor for
Petes sake. Fix this. The head physician eyed Taeyeon. Or you are off
the case. And frankly you may lose your job.

Yes, sir. She sighed.

---

With no one to talk to, Taeyeon went straight to the cafeteria. She
ordered a cup of coffee and a pack of Caesars salad. She looked for an
empty seat. Never in her life has she fought for a patient. She barely
knew the man. But because of Tiffany, she risked her job and her career.

Hi doctor. Seat taken? Yuri smiled.

No, no. Take a seat. She gestured at the chair beside her. I need to
tell Brian Songs family about his prognosis.

Not good, eh?

No. she frowned.

We have to do what we gotta do. Thats what you told us, a thousand
times. So, what do you got to do?

I dont know, Yuri.

If hes someone you dont know, what would you do?

Tell them.

Exactly. The intern drank her apple juice.

Taeyeon and Yuri were talking about med school, career and
specialization when Taeyeon noticed a red haired girl paying at the
cashier. For a month, theyve become more comfortable with each
other. They started talking casually and they started joking around.
Tiffany even introduced her to Brian during a visit to the ICU. Taeyeon
saw how Tiffany loved the man. It hurt her. But she was fine with that,
as long as she has Tiffany again in her life. But how would she ruin a
good start with a bad news?

Tiffany looked around for a seat. She caught sight of the short doctor
and was about to go to her when she saw Taeyeon talking animatedly
with another doctor she was familiar with. She was a bit disappointed
but dismissed it. Finding an empty table, she rushed towards it and
acted like she didnt see Taeyeon at all. Upon seating, she couldnt help
but side glance at the two girls. She opened her meal and started
chewing. Then she felt a pull on her hair.

Hey. The brown haired girl sat next to her. You didnt see me?

Hi. Huh? Where were you? Tiffany lied.

Taeyeon chuckled a bit when she recognized Tiffanys look. She knew
then that the other girl was lying. I was with Yuri. She pointed at the
tan intern. The latter waved her hand to them.

Why are you here?

Youre alone. Thats unhealthy.

Youre the boss now? Tiffany mocked.

Taeyeon laughed. Okay, okay. Should I leave now?

Go on.

Youre supposed to say no. The doctor pouted.

Act your age. Tiffany shoved a slice of bread in Taeyeons mouth. For
the both of them, it felt familiarly comfortable. They started to gain the
friendship they lost. But Taeyeon was scared. She might lose Tiffany
again.

Youre gaining weight now. Thats good. And youre eating more.

Well, how couldnt I eat when a doctors always there to bug me?
Tiffany chewed a spoon of rice.

She cares. She paused. All doctors should. Not only for the patient,
but for the family as well.

Oh, come on. You never talked to the relatives for more than ten
minutes.

You noticed? Okay, so youre special. Taeyeon smiled, which

immediately disappeared when Tiffany awkwardly cleared her throat.
Taeyeon tried to remember every moment theyre okay. I might miss
this.
She decided to leave. I gotta go. More patients and more family
members.

Sure.

Tiffany enjoyed Taeyeons company. But it was Brian who stops her from
enjoying. It felt like cheating, she reasoned. Why does it feel like
cheating when we dont do anything bad? No, the one I love is Brian.
This is not cheating.

A phone ring snapped her out of her daze. Hello, Jessi?

Erica Kim.

What about her?

She is Taeyeon.

Jessica gasped as she covered her mouth with her hand. You little~
why didnt you tell me?!

I was busy and-

You kept it from me! Jessica cried. So how was it?

Brians getting better. Tiffany nonchalantly replied.

I know that. You email me about him almost every day. What I wanna
know is about you and Taeyeon.

Tiffany sighed. She closed the box of breakfast she was eating and
leaned on the chair. While contemplating, she massaged her temple.
Jessi, I was so mad when I saw her. I walked out on her while we were
talking. But I felt guilty. I dont know why. I-I couldnt seem to stay mad
at her.

You dont say-

Jessica Jung. Stop. Dont even get there. Tiffany interrupted.

But-

I have to go. Talk to you later. She pressed the cancel button on her
phone. No, that cant be right.

---

Sunny passed an ampule of nalbuphine, an analgesic to the sloped

doctor in front of her. Should I administer this to you?

The other girl nodded.

Stop overthinking. Kwon and Anderson are right. You are a doctor. They
deserve to know the truth. Sunny explained. She opened the ampule,
aspirated the medicine with a syringe and injected through Taeyeons
deltoid.

Taeyeon hissed when she felt the injection. Im hopeful about this one,
Sunny.

Because he has a chance or because of Tiffany? the short haired

doctor pulled the syringe. I know you Taeng. She added.

Okay, okay. I cant hurt her anymore. Shes been through a lot.

You can never decide on whos gonna live and whos gonna die. Youre
no God. We all have limitations. Even you.
Thats why I told you to back out. You shouldnt have been on that
case.

A knock on the door interrupted the talk. Taeyeon?

Hi Tiffany! Sunny stood and side hugged Tiffany. Remember me?

Yes of course. Look at you! The two of you became doctors. I

remember when you talk about med school way back in Korea. Tiffany
warmly smiled.

Sunny went to Taeyeons side and wrapped her arms over the other
girls shoulder. We should go out sometimes, grab a meal or whatever.

Taeyeon elbowed Sunny.

What? the shorter girl asked.

Thatd be great! Ill bring Jessica when she gets here.

Jessica? Youre overly cold and rude friend? Sunny asked. And she
earned another nudge from Taeyeon.
Aw! Sunny rubbed her belly. Well, anyway I have to go. See you
around Tiffany. Its really nice to see you again.
She took her hand bag and went out the room.

Taeyeon and Tiffany nodded.

What were you two talking about? The read head asked. When I
came in, you suddenly tensed.

Oh nothing, just hospital stuff. Taeyeon answered coolly.

Okay. You okay? You look in pain.

Nah, just a headache. No worries.

Did you take a medicine for that? Tiffany stared at Taeyeon worriedly.

Yes maam. She showed Tiffany the shot of nalbuphine she had earlier.
Sunny gave it to me.

Good. I dont want to worry about two people at the same time.

So. What brought you here? Taeyeon discharged what Tiffany said.

The latter was saddened but understood the shorter girl. Its the
headache.

Taeyeon was happy that Tiffany still cared for her. But the thought of
telling her about Brians condition clouded her mind plus the headache
shes been tolerating. If itll hurt me or hurt her, I better start acting
professional. I should expect for the worst.

Nothing, I thought maybe you can join me for dinner before I go home?
Appa and ummas going to look after Brian tonight. Ill get home later.
Have you eaten yet?

I couldnt go with you. I have patients to see.

Oh. Okay. I-I think I should go now.

See you later Fany. I would love to Fany-ah. But I couldnt enjoy these
moments with you if I know Id hurt you again.

Chapter VII

Letting Go

Ill tell it to them sir. I called the family members to talk about this.
Taeyeon was in Dr. Andersons office again.

I know you would do the right thing Erica. But thats not the reason I
called you in here. The older doctor took out a stack of papers from his
drawer, which he passed to Taeyeon. Look into them. Kim, they need
organs. And they matched with your patient.

Taeyeon couldnt utter a single word with her boss idea. She opened
the files and scrutinized each case. The patients needed a cornea, a
heart, bowel and nerves. B-but-

I can tell them if you cant. Thats an easy job. Dr. Anderson
threatened.

I-Ill do it myself.

The head dismissed the younger doctor. Taeyeon went out of the room
with a heavy heart. Her hopes were crushed. The thought of seeing
Tiffany happy again has disappeared. I thought we could make a new
start even as friends, even with Brian around. Why?

---

For the past months, shes been under great stress. She has cried a lot.
Life has been unfair to her, she always thought. Tiffany sat down on one
of the benches outside the hospital. She dangled her feet like a child.
She missed the times when she was the happiest. Reminiscing the joyful
moments, she thought of Brians proposal. She tried to relive every
moment when another memory came rushing in. It was the memories
she had with Taeyeon.

---

Fany-ah, saw this one today and I thought of you. Taeyeon handed her
girlfriend a pink unicorn. So I bought it. I know youll love it as much as
I love the peas you gave me.

How fluffy! the girl took the stuffed toy excitedly. Thank you.

Anything for you. I love you Fany-ah.

I love you too Taetae. I am the happiest! she hugged Taeyeon tightly.
I will keep this.

You should! Taeyeon pouted. Tiffany kissed her lips.

---

Tiffany opened her eyes and it was dark. She grimaced when she looked
around. She remembered she put the light in the kitchen on before lying
on her couch. After turning on the lights, she had a glimpse of Taeyeon
sitting on a chair with a letter on hand.

Whats that? Tiffany asked.

You know Im not a good talker. I stutter, I get nervous and I get all
blanked out. So I wrote what I wanted to say. She cleared her throat,
straightened herself and stretched the paper in fron of her. Fany-ah, a
few nights before this night, I couldnt sleep. I was thinking what to give
you on our first anniversary. And I thought, I gave you a lot of material
things and Ive surprised you a lot. So, what should I do?

Tiffany stood there and just looked at Taeyeon questioningly.

And then, I saw a piece of paper on my desk. I started writing. Here it

goes:

Happy first anniversary to the love of my life. Im sorry I could only offer
you words that my heart holds. But they mean like a lot for me. These
are the words I couldnt tell you because you tease me about being so
cheesy.

Fany-ah, I may run out of gifts or surprises but this- she pointed at her
chest. This wont run out of love for you. Tiffany, I love you. Every
waking moment of my life, I love you. And every day, I love you even
more because you made every day a Valentines day. You never asked
me who you are to me. Ill answer it for you. You are my girlfriend, my
best friend, my love, my heart and my everything. And Im kinda hoping
youll also be my future. Taeyeon wiped her tears and chuckled softly.
You never asked what I loved about you. Ill just tell it to you then. I
love it when you tease me. True. I love it when you take care of me, I
love your mood swings, I love how you opened yourself to me, I love
what you do to me: you make me happy, you make me cry, you make
me jealous, you make me mad, you make wanna kiss you all day- and
Fany, I love the way you love me. Our relationship is an accident, we
never meant to fall in love but hey, we did. And if I die and theres a
part of my life where I can go back, I wanna go back to the part where
you are there. She stood up and cupped Tiffanys face. Because thats
where I became so happy. You are my happiness and I thank God every
day for giving you to me. How about planning a family of two? Taeyeon
smiled at the girls whose tears are steadily flowing.

Oh, Taetae, what did I do good to deserve you? Tiffany kissed

Taeyeon. Happy anniversary.

---

Tiffany. Taeyeon sat near the crying girl. Whats wrong?

The other girl looked Taeyeon in the eye. What really went wrong
Taetae? Was it me?

What are you talking about? Taeyeon asked. She felt a familiar surge
of pain and guilt.

Was it me? What happened to the family of two we planned?

No, no. Please. Hush now.

I-I have to go. Tiffany stood up and disappeared through the crowd.

Fany-ah, what happened? Why the sudden questions?

---

She rushed through the corridors looking for a red head. She looked at
the cafeteria, at the ICU, at her office and at the comfort rooms. Where
are you?

Dr. Kim! Yuri called out from the nurses station.

Yes? What is it Kwon?

Ms Hwang is in the lobby. Saw her a while ago.

Thanks Yuri. Ill tell Dr. Black to let you assist him in his surgery.

Yuri punched the air. Thanks, doctor!

---

Tiffany I have something to tell you. She said while walking towards
the girl.

What is it? If its about what I behaved-

No. Come. Taeyeon took the other girls hand. Tiffany relented.

They stopped at the glass window of one of the rooms in the medical
ward of the hospital. Adrian Aickman. 26. A husband to a fine young
lady and a father to a pair of beautiful twins. His hearts tremendously
failing. Hes on the transplant list for 7 months now and hes dying. He
needs a heart.

Whats- before she could finish her question, Taeyeon dragged her to
the next room.

Jesse Harris. 17. A painter and a musician. She got into an accident
which ruined her right hand, her dominant. Her nerves got burned and
now, she cant move her hand, the one she uses to play and paint.

Helen Walker. 49. Has bowel cancer. Shes a mother of three and a
grandmom of two. She still works to support her growing family.

And finally, Jensen Foster. 12. Blind since he was born. Never saw the
beauty of the world.

Tiffany raised her hands to interrupt Taeyeon. Whats this?

Tiffany, they all matched Brians organs. She exhaled.

I dont understand.

Tiffany got pulled to Brians room. Taeyeon closed the curtains and
locked the door. Look at this. She pointed at the
electroencephalogram. This determines Brians brain activity, the
major organ of our body. And this flat line showing here means his
brains not working anymore. Its been for a month.

Tiffany took her time to digest what Taeyeon was talking about, still she
couldnt understand. What are you saying?

Hes brain dead. And once these machines were unhooked from him,
hell stop breathing, and every organ in his body will die. The only
things that are keeping him alive are these machines. She thoroughly
explained. I hate to do this Tiffany.

So youre saying--

The doctor nodded.

No, no! Hes there. I know, Taeyeon-ah.

Im sorry Tiffany.

I thought were friends! I thought youre doing your best?! Whats this
all of a sudden? Tiffany argued. Luckily the room was soundproof and
no one could hear them.

Its been weeks Tiffany. I couldnt bring myself to tell you because I was
hopeful too. But Im not just a friend, Im also a doctor. And I should
decide. Your time, effort and money have been going to waste. Tiffany,
hes been long gone.

Now thats rude! You dont know how much he means to me.

Tiffany, you have to learn how to let go. He has to go.

Oh yes please, tell me about leaving and letting go. Youre an expert on
that. Tiffany hissed. You left me four years ago and he took me in. He
had me at my worst while you, you selfish ******* had me at my very
best. You took away everything when you left. I was empty. He filled
that emptiness you caused. And now, youre telling me I have to let him
go? she sobbed. Who are you anyways? Youre just someone whos so
bent in ruining my life! I wish I never met you. I wish youre the one
whos lying on that bed. Because you deserve that! Hes a good person
and youre not.

Taeyeon started crying. Fany-ah, stop. Please.

Stop calling me Fany. You dont have the right! And no, I wont stop. I
begged you. I waited for you! You never came back and you didnt even
have the decency to at least explain! You are heartless. Just why in the
world did I see you again? And why did I let you in after what you did? I
hate myself for even thinking we could start again. You always gave me
false hope. This is your entire fault. If you never left-- leave. Just freakin
leave! Now!

Taeyeon left the room crying. Tiffanys words stabbed though her fragile
heart. She wished she could undo things. She wished she could go back
in time and make things right for them. Yet, a wish is just a wish.
Everything has gone wrong.

She took out her phone and dialled a number.

Hello whos this? the person on the other line answered.

This is Taeyeon. Im sorry to bother you but can you please go here?

Kim Taeyeon?

Yes.

Chapter VIII

Denial

Why?

I told Tiffany that Brian has to go. She sniffed Help me clear her
mind. Shes really mad at me.

Okay Taeyeon. Ill just settle things out here. And Ill come. Are you
crying?

Im fine. Thank you.

Its totally okay. I was planning to go too.

---

What?! H-he cant-

Dear, your blood pressure. Mr Song soothed her wife.

Im really sorry maam, sir. Taeyeon looked at the couple alternately.

Its been a month and theres no brain activity thats seen. I was as
hopeful as you are. Other doctors, even the head of our department told
me to let this one go. I was hesitant, yes, but theyre all right. Once the
machines were unattached from him, he wont survive even for an hour.
I hate to say this but, I think we should let him go.

Stephanie, what do you say?

Tiffany started crying again. Taeyeon could only avoid looking at

her. She doesnt want to see how hurt Tiffany is.
You can have all the time you need. And please can you consider
donating his org-

No. Hes still there and youre already killing him!

Im sorry. Ill just-- go ahead. Taeyeon bowed and took her way from
the grieving loved ones.

---

Kwon Yuri was taking notes from the charts Taeyeon left. She has her
coffee with her. She yawned and slightly closed her eyes, hoping for a
quick sleep. Doctor. Are you done with the charts? a nurse asked.

No not yet. She opened her eyes. Lisa, you ruined my sleep.

The brunette nurse snickered. Yuri took her cup and sipped. Her world
stopped and everything went slow when she saw a glimpse of a blonde
girl looking at different direction as if lost.

Holy crap! My scrubs! Hot. Hot. Hot! she yelled when she accidentally
released the cup of coffee. She took a bunch of tissue from the table
and wiped her scrub suit.

Excuse me? Im looking for uh, Dr. Erica Kim. Is she here today? the
blonde asked one of the nurses.

Korean? She looks like a doll. And crap, she speaks English well. Why is
she looking for Dr. Kim? Yuri swallowed as she smelled the scent of the
mysterious girl just beside her. Vanilla, isnt it?

Wait for a second maaam. Ill call her office to check if shes there.
The nurse replied. Whats your name again?

Jessica. Jessica Jung.

The nurse turned around to phone Taeyeons office. After a few rings,
the nurse looked at Jessica apologetically. Im sorry but no ones
answering. But shes on duty today. Maybe shes out to see her
patients. Would you like to leave a message?

Oh no, Ill look for her myself. The blonde shook her hands in the air.
Thank you.

Yuri, on the other hand, used all her confidence and talked to Jessica.
Though ashamed with her wet suit, she went close to the other girl.
Shes my boss. I come with her during rounds. So, I know where her
patients are.

Oh, great! Can you tell me where they are? Jessica smiled.

Good lord! Her smile- I cantI-I can take you there, if you want, that is. She hopefully offered.

Jessica weighed her option. Less effort and less stress, she thought.
Okay! Lets go! she took Yuri by her arm and walked.

But my scrub suit, I need to change first.

Nope. Were gonna look for your boss now. N. O. W. the blonde
demanded. Where are we going first?

The dumbfounded doctor pointed at the elevator. Third floor. She

answered dejectedly.

Okay! Jessica hopped towards the elevator, still dragging Yuri. She
press the button number three and waited. She crossed her arms over
chest and tapped for foot like a boss.

Yuri couldnt help but stare at the beauty beside her. She unconsciously
smiled to herself.

Are you staring at me? Jessica asked sarcastically.

I- uh no of course not. Uh, the uh- Yuri stuttered.

The other girl raised her one brow.

T-theres bug in your hair and I got distracted. Here let me just get it.
Yuri reached out her hand and picked an imaginary bug. This one.

Huh. The blonde scoffed.

Due to nervousness, Yuri put both her hands in her pocket.

Ew. Did you just put the bug in your pocket? Thats. Just. Gross. Doctor Jessica squinted her eyes to read Yuris name tag. Kwon. Did I
say ew already? Because I wanna say it again. Ew.

No t-theres no-

Ding! The elevator opened and the two immediately went in. Jessica
was again tapping her feet. Yuri mentally face palmed. The hell was
that?

The elevator door opened at second floor and visitors hurried in. Yuri
noticed Jessica winced at the sight of the noisy people. Why is she so
grumpy? Its too early yet.

Yuri stood stiff on the other side of the small space, again looking at
Jessica.

What? Jessica silently mouthed at her.

Nothing. She replied.

---

Good morning Dr. Kwon. Do you need anything? a woman in green

scrubs greeted. She looked at the soaked tan girl.

Oh, dont mind this. The coffee slipped so- yeah. Did Dr. Kim go here
for rounds?

She was here a little less than ten minutes ago. Do you have scrubs? I
can lend you one. The nurse smiled.

Im fine. Yuri flashed a warm smile back.

Are you sure because-

Jessica rolled her eyes. Ugh this is taking us so long. Uhm, excuse me,
but we have to go. Right, Yuri? she took the tan girl by the hand and
smiled sweetly. She turned to the nurse and shot daggers through her
look.

The blonde girl draw Yuri away the nurses station. Flirting? Seriously?
Go get a room you guys.

No were not flirt-

Yeah, yeah, go on. Lie. You lied about the bug. Im not as dumb as you
think. Dr. Kwon. She rolled her eyes.

Hi Dr. Kwon! another person greeted, this time its a female intern.

Hello. Yuri awkwardly replied. She earned another mocked chuckle

from Jessica.
What now?

What are you, like a heartthrob here?

No, Im not.

You have quite a number of fans.

You think so? Why, do I make your heart throb? Yuri teased.

Ha. Ha. Ha. In your dreams.

---

Yuri and Jessica went to four wards Taeyeon usually do her rounds. But
they didnt see the doctor.

Okay, so we are left with the last. Yuri stopped in front of the nurses
station. Dr. Kim, have you seen her? she asked a male nurse.

Dr. Kwon, Im sorry but she just left. The latter answered.

Did she tell you where shed go?

W-well, she did mention to call her from her office if we need her. The
nurse scratched his head.

Oh okay, thank you.

A-and, Dr. Kwon? You look good today even when youre soaked. The
shy guy blushed.

Yuri chuckled. That didnt sound good, Jason. But thank you.

Jessica frowned. Fifth ward and what, ten fans? Psh. she thought.

Were heading out now. Thanks again. Yuri took the blondes arm and
led her to Taeyeons office.

So uh, this is her room.

Youre not coming with me?

No. Ive helped you enough. Yuri replied coolly. She swiftly looked at
the girl shes been glancing since they met. She couldnt help herself
but admire the blonde.

Jessica didnt speak until her awaited moment, Yuri looking at her.
Gotcha!

H-huh? What?

Youre always looking at me. Jessica crossed her arms and stood a few
inches away from Yuri. And whenever I confront you, you stutter like
that. You seem confident with your fans out there.

Wow, you analysed me? Im good Ms. Jung. I wasnt looking at you.
Okay- so I have to go. She raised the long list of orders she has to do.
A lot of patients, see?

Jessica turned her back from the leaving tan girl and smiled. Stop your
cool, Kwon.

---

A knock and the door slightly opened. Taeyeon raised her head from
leaning on her arm.

Hi. The blonde waved her hand.

Sica? Taeyeon scrutinized every part of Jessicas face. Wow. Look at

you. Youve changed a lot. You and Tiffany got even better.

Thank you, Taeyeon. You looked even prettier too. And wow, youre a
doctor now. Can I? she pointed at the seat in front of Taeyeons table.

Go on, have a seat.

Jessica noticed how tired and stressed Taeyeon is. Add the sadness in
her eyes. Hows Tiffany?

I dont know. I dont get any chance to talk to her. She avoids me. The
doctor sighed.

That bad, huh? That I needed to come here myself. The blonde played
with the figurine of an angel on top of the table. You know, theyre
getting married. She was happy, really happy Taeng- wow that felt so
familiarly comfortable calling you on your nickname.

Yeah, for me too. Taeyeon smiled bitterly.

Anyway, you couldnt blame her. You know her words can be so nasty
when shes mad.

I know. Im fine. I deserve that. But Brian; he doesnt deserve to be in

this situation. Hes been through a lot. His physical bodys been
tortured, literally. I wanted to him to live, thats why I fought for him. Im
losing my job and my promotion Sica. Taeyeons voice got sadder.

You what?

My boss. Hes the head of the internal medicine. He almost took me

out of his case. I tried to postpone everything, because I want him to
live. But Sica, I-I couldnt do it. A-and those patients I talked to you
about, they really need those organs. Its rude to ask this but, they have
a chance to a better life.

The blonde understood the short doctors dilemma. She realized

Taeyeon wasnt as bad as she thought she was. Taeng, Ill try to talk to
her. And thank you for keeping with this mess. Im sorry I judged you
before. Youre still the good old Taeyeon I know, which is good.

Shes in the ICU, I believe. Thank you Jessica.

---

Tiff?

Tiffany looked up. She hardly recognized the person who called for her
because of the tears welling in her eyes. It took her a while to clearly
see Jessica. Jess? Oh my god! she hugged the girl tightly. Youre here.
Youre here. I thought Im all alone.

Oh Tiffany. She hugged back Youre never alone. The Songs are here
right? And Taeng-

Tiffany cut her friend off. No. Shes not a part of this.

Tiff, cant you see? Shes always been here. Shes the one who asked
me to go here. She took care of him. And, and Brians been sleeping for
more than a month now. Dont you think we-

No, Jessi. Stop! Dont even go there. Hes there. He listens to me. And
you think Taeyeon really cared? She doesnt Jessi, she doesnt. Why
does it always have to be about her? Im the one in pain here. the red
head started crying again.

Shes in misery too. She almost lost her job fighting for Brian, Tiffany.
But Brians tired and he couldnt fight more. And shes right; Brian can
help a lot of people if you decide to-

The red head looked questioningly at her worried friend. She what?

For a whole month, she risked everything just to look after him
because she cares for you. I dont know if its guilt or what, but Tiffany,
she cares a lot.

Tiffany stood up and ran, as fast as she can. She wanted the world to
just end at that moment. She despised Taeyeon, with all her heart, she
wanted to blame her for everything but she started doubting her anger.
She started thinking every good thing Taeyeon did for her and Brian.

---

The blonde girl stood in front of Brians glass door. Brian, is this your
plan? Did you know about them? Did you ever think that Tiffanys still in
love with her? I cant figure things out.

Jessica went up to Taeyeons office and peered through the door.

Noones there. Where did everyone go?

Chapter IX

Acceptance

Tiffany ran towards the stairs. She sat down one of the steps and
whimpered. She didn't expect life would get harder as it is. First she lost
Taeyeon and now she's losing Brian too. What have I done to deserve
this kind of punishment?
While she pities herself, Tiffany heard a sob upstairs. She wiped her
eyes, fixed her clothes and stood up. "Hello? Who's there?"
Thy cry has become louder by the minute. "Should I come up?"
"N-no. Stay there." The female voice said.
"Are you alright? What happened?"
The other person sniffed and exhaled loudly. "My h-husband. We were
up at the transplant list. But I got a call. They said, they've had a batch
of people who need hearts and they should be prioritized."
Tiffany remembered the patient Taeyeon talked to her about.

Adrian Aickman. 26. A husband to a fine young lady and a father to a

pair of beautiful twins. His hearts tremendously failing. Hes on the
transplant list for 7 months now and hes dying. He needs a heart.

"So what happened to your husband?"

"We will wait. Again." Another sob. "My twins, they're still young. We
love their father so much. He's a good person. He has plans for us. But,
there he is fighting for his life. I don't know what to do. Where can I get
the heart? How can I make him live?"

"What did your doctor say?" Tiffany asked.

"Dr. Kim said she'll try to put my husband on top. She's been a great
help to us."
Tiffany sighed at the thought of Taeyeon and why did she coax her and
Brian's parents to donate. I was so busy putting all the blame on her
when all she did was to make things right for all of us.
"Can I come up? I'll walk you to your room." She offered.
"Okay."

Tiffany slowly took the steps towards the woman. She looks more tired
than Tiffany. The ebony haired woman aged almost ten years more. Her
eyes are lifeless, she's skinny and sadness is all over her face. "You look
so tired. Are you alone?"
"Yes. And, the twins, they go to school. I have to go home before they
wake up each morning and help them prepare and check their
assignments. Then I have to go back here to take care of my husband. I
barely sleep and eat. I'm only 27. Do I look in my 40s?" She chuckled
bitterly. "I'm Irene. And you?"
"Tiffany." She helped Irene stand up and the latter led the way out.
They walked silently as Tiffany side hugged the other girl for support.
"Mommy!" Two little girls came running from the patient's room. "Where
have you been? We are hungry!"
Irene knelt and embraced the two kids. "I'm sorry. Was I too long? How
about the biscuits I gave you?"
"We ate it all." The short haired girl said.
The other one with a longer hair covered the other one's mouth. "You
ate it all. You didn't give me any." And she started to cry.
"But mommy has no penny in her stash right now. She used them for

daddy's medicines."

Tiffany cleared her throat. "I can take them to the cafeteria. I'll just buy
them food."
"Oh no, Tiffany it's fine."
"Really?" The two excited girls asked Tiffany in unison. Their eyes
sparkled.
"Candace, Carina!" Their mom scolded as she stood up.
"Irene, it's okay. You can come. Let's eat together. Please." Tiffany
persuaded.
The woman contemplated for a moment and she gave in. "Okay. I'll just
pay for our meal when I got money."
"Lunch is on me. Please don't pay." Both the children took Tiffany's
hands.
Tiffany smiled at Irene, the latter nodded and smiled back. "What are
your names?"
"Carina!" The girl with a shorter hair beamed.
"Candace!" The one with a longer hair hopped in place. "How about
you?"
"I'm Tiffany. Nice to meet you, little ones."
"Us too! Wow, you have a nice name and a nice smile too." Candace
praised.
The read head chuckled. "What do you want for lunch?"
--"Okay guys, sit here and mommy and I will buy food. Behave you two."
Tiffany assisted the two kids to sit. The chairs are a bit higher for them.

"Yay!" They cried.

The two adults went to one of the food carts. Tiffany looked at Irene.
"Do you work?"
"Yes, I'm a preschool teacher downtown. I took an indefinite leave." The
other woman explained.
"Are you still paid?"
"Luckily, my bosses are good hearted that's why they still pay me. Only
half of my salary though. But it's good enough."
Tiffany paused. She realized how many people out there have suffered
or are suffering worse than her. The woman beside her is just a year
older than her but she looks like ten years older than her age. Taeyeonah, why didn't you tell me about their lives earlier? I should've
understood.
After paying for the meals, they took their seats. Tiffany passed a cup
of coffee to Irene and two cups of milk to the two kids. Here you go
kiddos."
All of them ate silently. The family enjoyed their meal for they have
never got the chance to eat a complete meal since the father was
admitted to the hospital.
"Tiffany, thank you! This is delicious." Candace smiled.
"Let's have this meal again next time." Tiffany smiled back.
"Daddy will come with us then, right?" The other girl asked.
"We don't know yet, baby." Irene soothed the two girls.
"But Dr. Taetae said she'll treat daddy."
Tiffany's brows shot up at the familiar nickname. "Taetae?"
The woman across her chuckled. "Dr. Kim. When these two kids were
younger, they can't pronounce the letter R. They can't say her name

since it has R in it. So Dr. Kim allowed them to call her Taetae. She said
it's her Korean name?" Irene sipped from her cup. "I don't know. It's cute
though."
"Yes, and she told us noone's allowed to call her Taetae other than her
mommy and the love of her life." Carina said with mouth full. "We're the
only exception."
"Chew and swallow first, Carina." Irene ordered.
"Then you are very special kids." Tiffany unconsciously smiled. Taeyeon
has indeed kept her words when she told Tiffany about noone else
calling her Taetae other than the read head and her mom. "Where is the
love of her life? Are they together? I'm Dr. Kim's friend. She's treating
my boyfriend too, like your daddy."
The two kids mumbled to each other. "She seems trustworthy."
"But it's Dr. Taetae's secret."
"She's a friend."
"Okay." The other one sighed in defeat.
They both looked at Tiffany. "Promise you're not gonna tell anyone?"

The latter nodded.

"They're not together. Dr. Taetae made a big mistake!", said Candace
exaggeratedly.
"What's that mistake?"
"We don't know yet. We have to wait until we get older, she said."
Carina crossed her arms. "Until now, she's in love. I hope that person
loves her too."
"Dr. Kim is a good person-" the older woman butted in. "I don't know
what happened or what she did. But I'm sure she is a good person."
Tiffany nodded.

--They walked together towards Irene's husband's room. Tiffany left as

soon as the family said their thank yous and goodbyes.
She went to the other room and overheard another crying woman.
"Mom, don't talk like that. Your bowel's gonna be fine. You're not leaving
us yet."
She left immediately and peaked on the other room. The room Jess and
Jensen shared. One was trying to write with his hand, but can't. The
other one's reading something on brail.
She left with a heavy heart. The faces of the patients and their families
were stuck on her mind as she walked through the corridors. Brian, is
this what you want?
She went out to the restaurant outside the hospital to meet Brian's
parents.
"Umma." She kissed Mrs. Song's cheeks.
"Appa." She patted and rubbed Mr Song's shoulder.
"Stephanie."
"Umma, appa. About Brian."
The adults talked for about an hour. They've decided to let him go. And
to allow donation. The couple cried while Tiffany sat there with no tears
to cry anymore. Her tear ducts are exhausted as well as her heart and
mind.

--The blonde grunted as she took her way around the hospital corridors to
look for the cafeteria. She just arrived a few hours ago and she has seen
much drama for a day. She bought a sandwich and a coffee. Jessica
found a seat in the corner. When she dropped her meal on the table,
another tray was put. She looked up to see Dr. Kwon rummaging her

waist bag for something.

"Uh, excuse me. This is mine. I got here first." Jessica exclaimed.
"W-what? This is mine." Yuri coldly replied.
"I said this is mine!" The blonde yelled which gathered attention.
"Yah! What's that for?" Yuri hissed in Korean.
"To gain attention. Leave. This is mine." Jessica took her seat.
Yuri mouthed sorry to everyone and sighed loudly. "You're such a *****."
"I know." The blonde raised one of her brow. "Go on now, take your
seat."
"You little- why make such drama a while ago?"
"Because I wanted to. Got a problem with that?"
Yuri took her seat and growled. She stuffed her mouth rather irritably.
The other girl's enjoying the moment.
"Do you know Brian Song and Tiffany Hwang?"
"Yeah. Song is Dr. Kim's patient and Ms. Hwang is the fiance? Why?"
"They are my friends, and this has gotten worse. I'm stuck in between
Tiffany and Taeyeon."
Yuri digested Jessica's problem. "My mentor said, you have to do what
you gotta do. Follow that, and you'll be fine."
Jessica paused. "And who's your mentor?"
"Dr. Kim Taeyeon." She smiled. The other girl smiled back. "Hey. Wait.
Are you like bipolar or something?"
"Why?"
"At one moment you're like a villain in soap operas and the next you're

okay. You are indeed bipolar." Yuri tilted her head at one side.
It took a while before Jessica got the point. She laughed hard.
"You're weird Jung." The doctor shook her head.
"You don't like weird?"
Yuri chewed a spoon of veggies and thought for a second. "I like weird."
Both of them beamed.
--They were seating around the doctor. Mr and Mrs Song called for
Taeyeon to talk about Brian.
"First, we would like to thank you for taking good care of our son." Mr.
Song said. "And we were sorry for the times we demanded so much and
for the times we blame you."
Taeyeon shook her head. "I understand sir."
"We wanted to talk about Brian." Mrs. Song sighed.
"Maam, about his condition and about the organ donation, we can-"
"Take him out of the machines and let those people have a better life.
We're saying yes for the donation."
Taeyeon was happy for the recipients of the organs but is sadder for the
old couple's lost, especially Tiffany's.
"You can have your time to be with him sir. And call me if you decided
to-"
"Yes, yes. Thank you Taeyeon." The couple started sobbing. Taeyeon
took out a box of tissue and handed it to them.
"It was Tiffany, who talked to us about it. She said if Brian was here,
he'll gladly donate what he can donate."

"Your son's a good man, maam, sir."

The couple nodded and prepared themselves to head out. And

Taeyeon?

The latter raised her brows.

Dont blame yourself. Youve done so much more for him. We are
grateful for that. Mrs Song added.

Chapter X

Fly Away

March 16, 2013

1:15 PM.

The two best friends stood side by side. The sky seemed sympathizing
with Tiffany. It rained hard that day. They viewed the raindrops and
umbrellas passing by each other. Tiffany wanted to cry but nothings
coming out from her eyes.

Early that morning, she brought a white flower outside Brians room. Her
inside gets tighter whenever she remembers that two days from that
day, her fianc; Brian will be taken away from her.

Are you really taking him? she asked, looking up.

Huh? Jessica looked at Tiffany.

Did you just lend him to me? I wont stop believing hell open his eyes
though. Hes good to me, he loves me. He stood by me all the time. He
took care of me. Brian- hes the reason I wanted to live again. Dont
take him yet? Im begging you. Tiffany wiped the tear escaping her
eye.

The other girl rubbed Tiffanys back, her tears started brimming.

You know what, I have all the right to get mad at You. She continued,
still looking up. You always take everything away from me. Please
spare me this one. Were getting married. I have to make him oatmeal
at night, well talk about our jobs, about the people we know till we
sleep, well have kids. Well have kids. She started sobbing.

7:51 PM.

Jessica sat beside the sleeping man. She heaved a sigh. From head to
toe, she viewed Brian.

Hey Bry. In all fairness, youve been unfair. She loves you and shes
willing to give you her hand, her forever. I hope youre happy out there.
Its hard, but well take care of her. Well take care of your parents.
Thank you for giving four years of love and care to my best friend.
Thank you for being a good friend to me too. You still have two days
though. Will you wake up? I hope you do. She stood up, fixed Brians
blanket and walked out of the tiny hopeless room.

The blonde cried gently at the side of the corridor. She felt the familiar
ache seeing her best friend suffer again.

From not so far away, another girls sadly looking at her. She went
beside Jessica and offered her handkerchief. Im sorry, I just heard.

Its okay, Dr. Kwon. You couldnt do anything to stop their decision,
could you?

The tan intern shook her head.

Thank you anyways. I dont have a friend here other than Tiff and
Taeng. Youre the closest one.

Hey. Yuri sulked. So were not friends yet?

The blonde punched Yuris arm as she chuckled softly. Seriously? At

this kind of moment?

I just wanna see you smile. I know its hard for you. But you know, at
some point in time, sooner than you could ever think, everyone will
move on and everything will be okay. She paused and held the other
girls hand. Everything happens for a reason. And as hard as it seems,
youll understand the reason in due time. Do you get me?

Yeah, I think I do.

March 17, 2013

11:02AM.

Dr. Kim Taeyeon was avoiding Brians room for the past days. She cant
look at him nor go near him because of guilt. People around her told her
its not her fault. But her mind and heart say otherwise.

Dr. Kim, isnt he your friend? Yuri inquired.

No. Hes Tiffanys fianc, and Tiffanys my friend so thats how were
connected.

I dont know whats your story but doctor, youve been taking all the
blame when in fact no ones blaming you here. He has to go. The intern
tried to enlighten Taeyeon.

Taeyeon shook her head, sipped her coffee and sadly stared at her cup.
I shouldve fought more.

But theres nothing you can do. We all know that. Youve done more
than enough. Yuri took Taeyeons coffee and put it away the doctor.
Go. See him. He might knock some sense into your hard head. And talk
to Ms. Hwang.

Taeyeon glared at Yuri but the latter didnt flinch. Go. Now. Yuri silently
mouthed at Taeyeon.

12:44 PM.

Taeyeon stood in front of Brians bed. She couldnt speak, she couldnt
breathe inside the room, her insides clench in pain. The doctor just
stared at the sleeping guys face for about ten minutes.

Here I am again. This time its not to check on you, but to talk to you.
She paused. Why? Why did you give up? Youre very lucky you have
your loved ones with you. But you chose to leave. I know youre tired
but dont you think youre becoming unfair? I want to thank you
because of you I saw her again but, but to have you sacrifice yourself?
Its totally not cool.

Taeyeons eyes were blurry because of the tears welling up in her eyes.
You caught her before she totally broke down. And now shes in the
verge of breaking apart again. One day more Brian, you have to wake
up. Shes happy with you. Ill let her go, for sure as long as its you.
Please. She needs you.

She wiped her tears as she took her way out. Taeyeon leaned her back
at the glass door outside the ICU room.

Taeyeon-ah? What are you doing here? Are you crying? Tiffany thought
when she the shorter girl in front of the ICU door.

Taeyeon? she called out. What are you doing here?

Taeyeon wiped her tears. Nothing. Rounds.

Should we talk?

Yeah, I think so.

They went for a short walk at the hospital garden. The atmosphere of
sadness enveloped the two.

You decided to donate, why? the doctor asked.

Whatever it is, it has nothing to do with you. Tiffanys voice started to

rise.

I know. Taeyeon replied calmly. She expected this kind of talk with
Tiffany. I was surprised. The people he was able to help, theyre really

happy. I would like to be happy too, for them. But I cant. Because it was
Brian. Im sorry to have put you in this position. I didnt have a choice.

I know that too. You did what you think is right. Tiffany said.

I thought was right. Did you think of it as a right thing too?

No. the red head replied coldly.

Okay, look. I am mad, over the top mad. But, in all honesty, you did
your best so dont blame yourself. Im grateful for that. I just cant
accept things right now. Its hard.

Time

Tiffany, Jessica and the Songs were seated at the lobby. They silently
prayed and hoped for a sudden change.

Its time. Jessica announced.

They slowly get up and went to the ICU room. When they get there,
Taeyeon together with two interns, Yuri included and two more nurses
were already gathered around Brian.

Jessica went straight to Yuris side and clung to the tan girls arm. Her
eyes are swelling.

On the other hand, Tiffany wrapped her right arm around Brians mother
and her left hand held his hand. She gripped harder, hoping to wake
Brian up.

This machine aids in his breathing, Taeyeon pointed at one machines,

and started explaining the others. This one serves as a replacement for
his damaged kidneys. It cleans his blood. These monitors show his brain
and heart activities. Dr. Kwon?

The tan intern looked at Jessica who in turn, let go from her hold. Yuri
took a few steps forward. When we disconnect the contraptions, the
zigzag line in the ECG machine, will slowly go straight. And his
respiratory and heart rate will go down until they hit zero.

Just tell us when youre ready. Taeyeons voice trembled.

Mrs Song hugged her husband tightly and started weeping. Tiffany let
go of her and she dragged her feet near to Brian. Hi. She whispered in
his ear. I love you so much. You know that, right? Youre my man, my
person. I still hate you for leaving me here alone though. You shouldve
stayed or took me with you. You can go now. I dont want to but you can

go now. Up there, be my angel okay? her tears wont stop from falling.
She kissed Brians forehead and nodded at Taeyeon.

Seeing how Tiffany loved the man broke Taeyeons heart twice. But she
has to do what shes got to do at the moment. She, together with her
team disconnected the tube from Brian. The machines beeped
hysterically. The EEG and ECG flatlined. Heart rates decreasing to zero.

Tiffany let go of Brians hand and started doing CPR on him. No, no.
Youre not. Come on. Fight!

Taeyeon rushed towards her and tried pulling her. Tiffany.

No, dont touch me! She pushed Taeyeon.

She stopped when the interns and the nurses pulled her away. She
sobbed hard at the sight of her fianc getting away from her. You
promised me, Bry. You love me, you said.

Korea
March 23, 2013

Tiffanys body was soaked with the rain falling above her. But she didnt
mind. The pain shes feeling couldnt compare to any sensation in the
world. To lose someone who loves her more than anyone else in the
world suffocates her. She wanted to die right there and then.

Brians burial took place two hours ago and she refused to leave. Her
tears are brimming. Her bodys trembling and her insides got tight as
she watched Brians grave. I suppose Im all alone now. Are you happy?
It would be so hard for me but Ill try to be happy. Ill try Brian, just give
me some time.

Chapter XI

Life after Everyone Moved On

California

Good morning, Dr. Kim. Yuri beamed. Welcome back.

Good morning Yuri. Taeyeon smiled back. How are you?

Im good. Im really excited for my last year. Ill work here again after all of
this. I want to learn from the best. The tan intern patted the shorter doctors
back. And congratulations in your exam. Heard you aced it. Yuri raised her
hand for a hand shake.

The latters brows shot up. She looked at Yuri with full of doubts. I didnt ace
it Kwon. And enough sucking up with me. All of you passed in my
evaluation.

Doctor, Im not sucking up. You know, I looked up to you as a doctor and I
treat you as a friend.

Code blue! Code blue! a nurse shouted from one of the rooms.

Taeyeon grunted.

A nice way to welcome you back huh, doctor? Yuri mischievously snickered.
Lets save a life?

Sure Kwon. Prep yourself. Its going to be a long day. Taeyeon took the
gloves the nurse offered, put it on and swiftly went to the patient.

---

Wow, youre great out there. You really learned. I almost did nothing, Yuri.
Taeyeon proudly said.

I learned from you.

So, how are you and Jessica?

Yuri spit the water from her mouth. D-doctor?

Taeyeon let out her dorky laugh. Jessica, the blonde?

The tan intern took out all the patients chart and dragged Taeyeon away
from the crowd. Dr. Kim, the voice, keep it down. What are you talking
about?

Oh come on. I overheard you two talking before they went home.

---

March 19, 2013

Taeyeon was doing her rounds as usual but her mind and heart are still
grieving for Tiffany. After their short talk at the park, she never had the
chance to talk to her again. When they bumped into each other, Tiffany
wouldnt talk or she acts like she didnt know Taeyeon.

She was about to call for an intern whos around when she saw Yuri talking to
a blonde girl. Yuri? Sica?

She sneaked and listened to the two.

Youre going home? the tall girl asked.

Yes, I should. I have work there. And Tiffany, she needs me. The shorter
one replied.

Yuris tone got sad. You take care, okay? Just do what you have to do.

Jessica took out her phone and gave it to Yuri.

Whats this?

Duh, your phone number? Save it there. You dont want to miss me, do
you?

Yuri excitedly saved her number and her email address on Jessicas phone.
She returned the phone and smiled seemingly.

Woah, there. You made sure Ill contact you huh?Jessica took the phone
and disappeared through the hospitals hallway.

Yuri! Taeyeon yelled and acted cool.

Y-yes d-doctor?

Why are you stuttering?

I-uh. How long have you been there? Yuri nervously asked.

Just now. I was passing by and- why are you asking? Taeyeon pulled one of
her patients chart. Look at a page and wrote something. Yuri on the other
hand was dumbfounded.

Yuri-yah. What now? Taeyeon asked in Korean.

Nothing. What can I do for you?

---

Oh crap! You didnt tell me! You heard everything?

About the number thing? I did.

Yuri shook her head. Lets talk about this somewhere else. Shall we?

They went straight to the doctors lounge. They settled on the sofa bed when
they saw no one else in the room.

Okay, so yeah I gave her my number because she basically asked for it. I
also saved my email ad for crying out loud. And I stupidly waited for her call.
And she didnt even message me! Yuri grumbled. That littleshe played
me. I shouldve known.

Taeyeon snorted. She didnt call? Oh my poor Yuri. And she started
laughing again.

Doctor! Stop it, please? Yuri covered her face with a chart.

What? I was just sympathizing with you.

I hate her! When I see her, shes no one. And I mean it.

Lets see. Taeyeon swiftly took the charts and held a laugh. Both of them
went out and walked towards the first ward theyre supposed to do their
rounds.

How about you doctor? Yuri anxiously asked.

Hm?

How are you? After Mr Songs demise?

You never talked about it. You got cold to patients and their families. You
were never like that. Then you just disappeared. Yuri added.

That was the first time I felt so guilty letting go of a patient. Considering his
fiancs my friend and all. I got scared to open up to my patients again. I
didnt know how bad Ive gotten, So I decided to take a break, review for my
qualifying exams. Taeyeon paused to open the glass door to the patients
room. She took a chart, read it. And then I got the time to think things out
and here I am, getting back on my feet again, treating patients.

Hello there, Ginny. How are you doing? Im Dr. Erica Kim. Taeyeon greeted
the patient. Yuri stood there and assisted Taeyeon on her assessment.

Good to know doctor. And off the professional record, I missed you when
youre gone.

Me too Yuri-yah. Taeyeon smiled.

---

Korea

Hi, youre going to Brians grave? Jessica asked Tiffany.

Nope. Work. Tiffany sat up, took a pile of designs and posted them on the
cork board.

Youre not going there as often as before. You really want to move on, arent
you?

Tiffany looked at the blonde and smiled. Its been what, six months? Im
moving on. And I know Brians going to like it this way. Right?

Right. And you look good on your bangs and black hair. Suits you.

Thanks. I still miss you Brian. I still do. Anyway, I would like to give you
this. Tiffany handed her friend a letter.

Whats this? Jessica glanced at her for the nth time that day.

I would like to request for a leave. Tiffany looked at Jessica. Youre always
looking at your phone. Waiting for someone?

No, its nothing. Anyways. Youre a boss too. Why make such a request
when you can do it anytime you want. Jessica asked.

Like another common employee madam. I just want a break from work. Ive
been killing my time with these designs. Look, Im getting old. Tiffany
sulked. Thats why, Im finishing everything, and I want a nice long
vacation.

But I also want to give you this. Jessica also handed Tiffany a piece of
paper.

Wow, youre taking a leave too?

Yeah? Break from work. Vacatioooon! the blonde squealed.

Where to?

No ideas yet.

Okay then! Lets have a break.

California
One month later

Yuri had her fifth coffee for the shift and her heads still pounding from pain.
She relieved for another intern who got sick. Ugh. This is a pain in my butt.
That intern, I shall get sick too and shell relieve for me.

Lisa, Ill just take a rest. If someone looked for me except Dr. Kim, tell them
Im not here.

She sipped the last of her cup and leaned over her arm to take a power nap.
She was dozing off when she heard a familiar voice.

Is Dr. Yuri Kwon around? the female voice asked.

Oh uh, she is not around I think, miss. The nurse replied.

Are you sure, because I saw her buying coffee at the vendomachine a while
ago and she went here. Jessica glared at Yuris back. Tell her if she wont
talk to me, shell regret it.

Yuri immediately raised her head which caused her head to bump at the
wooden edge of the elevated nurses table. Who-

Hi! the blonde in a blue trench coat excitedly waved her hand.

Im sorry but I think youre looking at the wrong person miss. Yuri
nonchalantly greeted.

Wow, is that a new way to welcome people? How cold. So not like you Yuri.
Jessica raised a brow.

Yuri scratched her aching head and hurriedly went out.

What is her problem? Jessica growled.

Sica? What are you doing here? And was that Yuri?

Jessica heard Taeyeons voice. She suddenly tensed and did not turn to the
doctor talking to her. She ran and disappeared through the hallway.

Taeyeon was surprised. Wasnt that Yuri and Jessica? Oh, somethings going
on here. She snickered. What happened? she asked the nurse.

The latter could only shrug.

Oh, just give me that chart right there.

---

Hey Taeng. You look happy. Sunny noticed.

Soonkyu, I saw Jessica a while ago. Im sure of that and Kwon just walked
out on her while theyre talking. Taeyeon laughed. Just what happened
seven months ago?

Sunny joined Taeyeons laugh. Really? Thats cool. Oh wait, does that mean
Im the only normal person around here? All of you are into girls now.

Sunny earned a nudge from Taeyeon.

Is Jessica with Tiffany? What do you think?

 Taeyeons mood suddenly changed. I honestly dont know.

Have you talked to her since?

Taeyeon shook her head. Oh, anyway. I almost forgot. How are the patients I
endorsed to you when I went for a leave?

The transplant patients? Theyre doing fine. Adrian and Helen, theyre
consciously taking their medicines and they follow all precautions. So far, the
organs are hanging in there. Jesse started painting again. Lastly, Jensens out
there, visiting the whole America. Theyre all fine. They are looking for you
actually.

Ill try to see them soon.

You should.

They both enjoyed their pancakes and coffees. Taeyeon was gone for about
three months. She took a vacation and on her last month, she took her
qualifying exam in her sub specialization.

---

Somewhere between the second and third month after Brian died

But doctor, you told me you know someone who can help my husband. He
needs the operation now. The old lady was whimpering in Taeyeons office.

Taeyeon stared at her coldly. Theres nothing we could do. He cant do the
operation because it has gotten so complicated. I told you to come to him
when it was less severe but you said your husbands fine. And now, youre
going back here saying he needs the operation? Hell he needs it.

Please doctor. Youre his only chance.

Im sorry. You can go now.

The wife of Taeyeons patient took her bag and silently exited the room.
Taeyeon grunted. It was the tenth patient she rejected for the day. She was
tired. She changed when Tiffanys fianc died. The old Taeyeon who gives
hope to patients transformed into a cold apathetic doctor.

She massaged her temples as she tried to relax herself. A knock on the door
startled her.

What is it? Taeyeon grumbled.

Do you really have to do that? I overheard everything, Taeng. Dr. Lee came
bashing in.

Its their fault.

Taeyeon, what happened to you? You arent like this. Sunnys voice
softened.

Taeyeon shrugged.

Taeng, you should take a break. I beg you. All these patients, theyre losing
their trust on you. They loved you. And now, Sunny paused. Just go, leave
for a while. Think about things, get yourself together. I told you, its nobodys
fault Brian has died.

Taeyeon stopped for a moment and thought. You wont stop until I agree.
So, yeah maybe I need time.

---

Korea
Present time

Tiffany sat down the green grass surrounding his grave. She put the bouquet
of different white flowers atop the cemented tombstone. Brian was buried on
a hill with a tree above him.

Hi. Missed me? I havent had the chance to visit you because of work. And
because Im trying to move on. I know its what you like. I stopped crying at
night a month ago. I also stopped preparing a meal for two in the mornings. I
miss you. Are you okay there?

She looked up the sky and sighed. I took a leave, effective a month ago. But
I spent the month waking up, eating, sleeping and waking up again. It was a
cycle. I felt so empty. After you died, I never felt the push to live.

But this morning when I woke up, I realized, maybe I need to look at the
different side. I woke up thinking whats there for me after this?

Tiffany gently touched Brians tombstone and smiled a bit. Im here to ask
for your permission. Ill leave. Just to see the world, see people. Will you
allow me to?

The wind started to feel a bit stronger and a flower from the tree fell on
Tiffanys hands. I think, thats the permission Im asking for.

The weather was and fine and Tiffany felt lighter that day than the past days.
Thank you.

Chapter XII

Everyones Okay except for Us

Finally. Jessica grunted after she used the stairs up to the fourth floor. For
the past two days, seems like shes playing hide and seek with Yuri, who
never talked to her. She patted the tan interns shoulder. Are you hiding
from me?

The blonde heaved a deep sigh. What? You dont know me now? Speak!
Stop the games Yuri. Come on.

You never called nor messaged me. Yuri replied.

So thats what this is about?! And woah there, I did message you. Liar.
Jessica crossed her arms over her chest.

You didnt! I waited for you. Yuri sulked.

Jessica rolled her eyes in defeat.

March 19, 2013

LAX, Los Angeles

Jessica went out from the cab. Ugh. Shouldve been brought here by my
cousin. That little rascal! she hissed. The taxi driver opened the
compartment and took out her luggage.

How long did you stay here, maam?

A few days. Jessica replied coolly.

The driver looked at her with eyes wide. He took out three huge bags and a
small box.

What? Jessica growled.

Nothing, maam. Take care.

And the cab sprung away. Jessica delved into her bag to check her phone for
any calls or emails. She looked at the side pockets, none. She searched
inside, none. She got frustrated and took out everything from her handbag.
No phone.

Oh what the?! she held her head with her two hands. Seriously? Now?!

---

That happened? Yuri asked eyes wide.

Yes. That happened. Jessica answered, her voice is rising.

Really? You honestly thought Im gonna believe that?

Oh come on! Look at this, this my new phone. I bought one when I get back
to Korea. She took her phone out and showed it to the other girl. Luckily I
saved your email on my PM list. And look, I emailed you like a lot of times.

Yuri looked at the screen of the phone. It did show Jessicas email and sent
items. Ten messages were sent six months ago, then another five for the
succeeding months. She laughed when she returned the phone.

Whats so funny? Jessica hissed.

kwonyuri1989@ymail.com? Seriously?

What? Thats what you saved on my phone. I copied it. Stop laughing! Its
not funny. Jessica fussed.

Yuri caught her breath before she finally spoke. It should be yurikwon1989.

Jessica looked at her sent emails. And she laughed too. Such a stupid
mistake.

I know. Yuri smiled. Then why did you go here?

Just because- Jessica couldnt think of any reason.

Yuri raised her brows. Go on.

I just needed a break from work and-

Okay, thats it. Im sorry I saved the wrong email. Im sorry I thought you
intended to fool me. And yeah, I waited for your call. I was frustrated. I
planned to go to Korea once I finish my last year here.

Why are you planning to go there? Jessica gently asked.

I needed a break too. The tan girl smiled mischievously.

Kidding aside, I felt like I left something here.

Me too. I felt like I needed to find something in Korea. Yuri couldnt fight the
butterflies in her belly, having Jessica with her at the moment. Our start
ended soon. So lets do it again. Hi, Im Yuri Kwon, a medical intern. And
you?

Jessica scoffed. Really?

Yuri raised her hand for a hand shake.

Im Jessica Jung. A fashion designer.

Wanna grab lunch, Jessica?

The blonde took Yuris hand and they went down at the cafeteria. Both of
them were happy. If Jessica didnt decide to go to California herself, both of
them couldve been believed the wrong idea. Yuri on the other hand, thought
Jessica played with her. And that she was a fool to believe they could be
close friends.

After they ordered, they sat down, both beaming.

How was Taeyeon?Jessica chewed a spoon of veggies.

Yuri thought for a while. Fine, I guess. She just came back a few days ago.

The blonde stopped eating. Came back?

Yeah. She took a three-month leave. She also took her qualifying exams on
her sub specialty and she aced it, which is really cool. Yuri pompously spoke
of her idol.

I should congratulate her then. Jessica smiled. So she took a break to

review?

Uh, no. Actually, after Mr Songs death, she changed. Like a lot. The old Kim
Taeyeon just vanished. The tan intern shook her head at the unsightly
memory. She has become arrogant, distant and cold. She never gave
chances to patients anymore like she used to. Its good she decided to have
that leave. I finally enjoy a decent sleep when she got back, I was worried!

Jessica laughed at how exaggerated Yuri acted. Dont over react Yuri. But
whatever she did on that vacation, it was good for her.

Hm. How about Ms Hwang? Yuri asked.

Shes been doing well too. Like me, she took a leave from work, which is
also good. For the first two months, oh my God. Shes like a zombie. Shes
lifeless. It was like dj vu. Shes that lifeless when she and Taeyeon broke
up.

The tan girl dropped her spoon together with her jaw. So you mean,
they were together? And then Ms. Tiffanys fianc got into an accident and
they took him here, to be treated by Dr. Kim? Woah, thats quite
complicated.

Yeah. Jessica reached out for Yuris face. She pushed the tan girls jaw up.
And stop exaggerating, please.

Oh poor Dr. Kim. She tried to treat the fianc of the love of her life.

What? Love of her life?

Dr. Kim never had any relationships when she got here. A bunch of guys,
and even girls in and outside the hospital asked her out. And she rejected all
of them. If theres a heartthrob here, shes the one. Not me.

Jessica got interested in what Yuri just said. Then what else did she do here?
She left Tiffany in Korea. Just, broke up with her and poof! Shes gone.

Studied and focused on her career, I guess. She always looked at the same
picture every day. I never saw whos at the photo though. It has a T. at the
back. So maybe, its T for Tiffany? Yuri creased her forehead. All these
years. Omo. When she saw Ms Hwang with Mr Song, that mustve been hurt
a lot.

Jessica on the other hand only nodded.

---

Yuri and Jessica were talking animatedly at the nurses station in that fine
morning. Jessica bought a cup of coffee and a sandwich for Yuri, which the
latter accepted gratefully.

Thank you.

Sure. Eat more.

You look cute today. I like your shirt and jeans.

Jessica blushed.

Taeyeon was passing by again and she saw a glimpse of the tan and the
blonde girl.

You two. Stop. Dont you dare walk out on me again. Taeyeon threatened
behind Jessica. Yuris mouth was agape. Jung, turn around and face me.

The latter slowly turned around.

Stay right there. Taeyeon walked pass Jessica and whispered at Yuri. I
thought you said you dont know her. Then why are you flirting inside my
hospital?

Dr. Kim, it was mistake. In which she earned a snicker from Taeyeon.

Hey, what are you two mumbling about? Jessica asked.

Nothing. Doctor stuff. Taeyeon nonchalantly replied. Dr. Kwon?

Yes, maam?

Hows the patient from room 07?

07, 07. Wait. Yuri looked at Jessica whos also waiting for her. The uh- she
was breathing fine.

And?

And then she uh- her stool- she then uhm vomit- over her bladder- she
paused. That didnt sound right.

Jessica and Taeyeon laughed. Try again next time, Yuri.

Sica, coffee? Taeyeon offered.

Sure.

Review you patients, Kwon. And stop flirting! Taeyeon laughed.

Bye, see you later. The blonde smiled at Yuri.

Yuri face palmed as soon as the two left.

---

Congratulations on your exams. Yuri told me about that. Jessica took a bite
from her croissant.
You call each other on first name basis now? Taeyeon smiled playfully
which progressed to a laugh.

The blonde glared at the doctor.

Well, thanks. Taeyeon nonchalantly replied after Jessica shot daggers on

her through those scary eyes.

How are you?

Im fine. Getting back on my feet again. She sipped her coffee. And you?

Are you not gonna ask about Tiffany? The latter changed the subject.

Taaeyeon shook her head.

Why? Dont you wanna know about her? Or see her?

Lets leave everything from behind. The last time I saw her, everything
literally went wrong. Maybe we shouldnt see each other anymore. Taeyeon
sounded like she meant what she said, to convince herself that it was true.
But deep in her heart, she yearns to see Tiffany. She looked at her watch. I
have an appointment today. Dont wanna be late. Thanks for the time. Are
you staying here for long? Lets go out some time.

Yes, sure. Take care.

The other girl took her satchel and put some cash on the table. On me.

Jessica watched Taeyeon as went out the cafeteria. She dialled a number on
her phone. With a single ring, the person on the other line answered. Sica?

Yah, Yuri. Come down at the cafeteria. Now. No excuses.

---

Kids! Careful at going down the stairs. Dont run! Candace and Carinas
mother yelled from the kitchen.

Yes mommy! the girls slowed down.

Is she there yet? Carina asked Candace.

Nope, her cars not yet around.

Dr. Taetae swore she wont be late. Carina sulked.

She wont.

The girls closed their windows and helped their mommy prepare lunch. It was
Sunday and they expect to spend the meal with Taeyeon. They never saw
the doctor after their fathers surgery. And now the familys excited to see
her.

Beep! Beep! a car honked from outside.

Yay! Dr. Taetaes here! the two girls jolted out of the house to welcome
Taeyeon.

Their father went for the door to help the girl get out. The two kids stop at
the sight of her. Both of them smiled. Hi!

Hello. How are you?

Chapter XIII

This Time its Different

Irene hurriedly put the plates on the dining table. She wants to see the
doctor too. She went out the porch to greet Taeyeon.

She smiled widely when she saw the girl. Good morning. It is a
surprise.

Good morning Irene.

Come in, come in. Irene guided her inside. After the surgery, I never
saw you and thanked you enough. My husband heres doing well.

Yes, I am. Its my second chance to life. Adrian proudly spoke.

We needed to head back to Korea for Brians wake and burial. Tiffany
replied.

Miss Tiffany, thank you, really. You are our miracle. And our deepest
condolences for your lost. Adrian patted Tiffanys shoulder.

Its fine. If hes here, hell gladly help you out. And Im really happy his
heart went to a good man. Tiffany warmly smiled at the couple. She
looked at the two little girls. Hey, I brought you chocolates and
biscuits.

The two girls gladly took the food and ran towards their room.

Irene sighed. Those two girls. She went near the stairs. Were going
to have lunch later so dont eat them all, youre going to be full.
Understand, Candace, Carina?

Dont worry mommy, were just hiding them in our stash! Candace
shouted back.

The three adults giggled. Theyve grown faster than I thought. And
they look healthier. Tiffany noticed. She sat down on one of the chairs.

After Adrian was discharged, theyve been eating a lot. Again, thank
you Miss Tiffany. Irene handed Tiffany a glass of juice which the latter
drank.

Tiffany shook her hand in the air. Dont mention it.

I prepared lunch. Eat with us, okay? This is the meal we will share
again, remember?

Of course. Tiffany smiled. Id love to. The turkey looks delicious, I

wont miss that.

Were not eating yet. The girls suddenly interrupted. Until she
comes.

---

What? the tan girl grumbled while catching her breath.

Taeyeon left and I needed company.

What?! You told me its an emergency!

Kidding. Jessica flashed her sweet smile. Croissant?

This little kid, she even smiled like that. No. thanks. Yuri leaned on the
edge of the table and crossed her arm.

Why arent you sitting?

You fooled me. I was with a patient!

Then why come here if you were with a patient? Jessica asked
casually. She poked her head at one side.

Because- Yuri paused for a reason. I thought it was an emergency.

Thats it? the other girl raised her brows.

Yuri heaved a sigh. Let me have that croissant. She sat down and took
a big bite.

Ugh. Just tell me, now. Yuri.

---

Oh yes, of course. Irene said. She took out another plate while Adrian
added a chair around the table.
Would you mind if we wait for another visitor? he added.

Of course not-

The front door slightly opened and everyone looked at its direction. The
short girl appeared. She was looking down to fix her shoes. Im sorry, I
was late. I didnt bring my car and I just took a cab. Do you have a
visitor? I saw another car and- she looked up and instantly met a pair
of wide eyes on her. Oh. You do.

Still, Tiffany couldnt utter a word. Uh- hi?

Ti-

Dr. Taetae! the girls ran towards the doctor.

Candace hugged Taeyeons thighs. I thought youre not coming.

We thought youre breaking your promise. Carina held the doctors

hand.

Of course, I wont. Here, I even brought you chocolates and biscuits.

She took out a paperbag and handed it to the two girls.

The girls looked at Taeyeon and Tiffany alternately.

What is it? Taeyeon asked.

Tiffany also brought us these. One of the girls raised the bag. Now
we dont have to share a single bag. We have each! They giggled and
jolted upstairs.

Taeyeon and Tiffany watched the kids disappear and chuckled. They
accidentally met each others gaze. Taeyeon stared with no idea what to
do. She doesnt know if shell smile at the other girl or not.

But Tiffany already flashed a gentle smile on Taeyeon. The latter smiled
back.

Adrian cleared his throat and clasped his hands. Were complete. So
lets have lunch then!

The couple together with Taeyeon and Tiffany prepared for lunch. They
called out for the kids afterwards. Adrian, Irene and the kids sat next to
each other, which left Taeyeon and Tiffany at the other end of the table.
Taeyeon assisted Tiffany before she sat, without saying any word. The
lunch went on smoothly. The talked about the kids, their studies,
Adrians progress and anything they could think of.

Tiffany, do you know Dr. Taetaes love? Carina asked.

Oh no, can you tell me? The latter asked playfully. And she looked at
the dumbfounded girl beside her.

Carina, I think you have something on your face. Taeyeon took the
little girl by the hand and guided her to the living room. Dont talk
about that in front of Tiffany. She whispered.

But why?

Because shes not supposed to know. Do you want ice cream next time
I visit? Taeyeon bribed Carina.

Yes, yes! the girl beamed.

Okay. Taeyeon smiled back. Just be quiet.

The two returned at the dining room, Taeyeon smiling like she won a
bet.

They told me your love calls you Taetae too. Tiffany welcomed
Taeyeon.

Oops! Candace and Carinaran towards the yard.

Taeyeon face palmed and heaved a deep sigh. Uh, Irene can I have
water please?

Irene gladly went to the kitchen where their refrigerator was placed. She
took out a glass and filled it with water. Taeyeon sat down, completely
ignoring Tiffany. In a swift, she emptied the glass. Ill just go out, play
with the kids. Call me out when you need help cleaning these up.

Tiffany decided to follow Taeyeon outside. Me too.

Sure, we can clean this mess ourselves. Adrian smiled warmly at the
two.

Taeyeon went out with Tiffany awkwardly following her from behind.
Then Candace took Tiffany and Taeyeons hands and stood in between
them.

We will play a game! We will go in circles with no letting go of our

hands! Candace paused and looked around. Oops, Carinas nowhere
to be found. Im gonna look for her. She weaved Taeyeon and Tiffanys
hands. Dont let go!

Taeyeon could feel the surge of blood up to her face when her hand held
Tiffanys. It felt like it was her first time holding the delicate and soft
hands. She wanted to let go right there and then but instead, her grips
still there.

Tiffany saw Taeyeon blushing. Unconsciously, a warm smile crept on her

face. She held the hand tighter and led Taeyeon outside the door. It felt
like the two kids were playing on us because they knew something
about us. She giggled.

Taeyeon chuckled too. Yeah, I feel you.

Adrian opened the door from behind to take out the garbage. The
comfort of holding each others hand disappeared and they both swiftly
dismantle their perfectly weaved hands.

They smiled at each other and slowly walked towards the long wooden
chair Adrian made for his family before he got sick. Tiffany led the way.
As they sat down, cold breeze touched their skin, yet overpowered by
the warmth brought by each other. Only the sound of the giggling girls
resonated at the peaceful yard. Taeyeon inhaled the air, bringing crisp
feeling inside her. She smiled and she side glanced at the other girl.
"You dyed your hair black. And the uh, bangs-" she said, her hands
doing weird actions in front of her forehead. "They look good on you."
"Thank you." Tiffany fixed her hair.
"How are you?" Taeyeon bowed her head and started fidgeting. She

doesn't want to start this kind of conversation but at this moment, her
mouth spoke first before her mind started to think. When she didn't
hear a response, she started apologizing. "I'm sorry I was just-"
"No, it's fine. And right now, I'm okay. I think. There are times I still miss
him or I feel empty. But before was worse. I wake up crying, I go to his
grave every day, I couldn't work just- I was so depressed." Tiffany took
in a mouthful of air and started looking at the blue sky above them.
"And recently, I woke up thinking, what would be my life after this?
What's there for me? So I took a leave, take a break and when I started
feeling more okay, I decided to go on a vacation. And suddenly my feet
brought me here."
"That's good. I'm happy for you."
"How about you? How are you?" Tiffany asked back.
"Well, I'm okay. I just got back. I also took a three month break."
Taeyeon waved a hand to the girls who are playing not far from them.
Candace came running towards them.
"Do you wanna play with us? You're just talking and it looks boring." The
little brown haired girl tugged the adults' hands.
Taeyeon shook her head. She gestured the girl to come closer. "Tiffany
and I are talking about a really important matter." She winked at the kid.
"Okay!" And Candace ran once more to go back at her play ground with
her twin.
Once the kid was gone, Tiffany saw Taeyeon smiled a bit at the sight of
Candace playing with Carina. Do you know that you're a good person
Taeyeon?
"Three month break? What did you do?" Tiffany asked Taeyeon once
more.
"Sunny, Yuri and some of my colleauges asked me to. I changed for the
worse after Brian's death, they said. I didn't know that I did though. And
I also reviewed for my qualifying exams. Luckily I passed, with a high
grade." Taeyeon beamed.

"Really? Congratulations Taeyeon." The now ebony head smiled,

bringing out her crescent shaped eyes, which is contagious for Taeyeon.
The other girl punched the air exaggeratedly. And both of them laughed.
A laugh that came from their hearts, a laugh that even both of them
knew that they never had for months.
A flower of the tree covering them from the violent rays of the sun fell
on Tiffany's head. She might have not felt so Taeyeon took the initiative
to get the blossom. "Look, it fell on your head."
Tiffany took the flower and almost gasped. Brian? What's this?
---

"Sica!" Yuri was catching her breath. She picked up the paper bags of
what Jessica bought and ran again. It was early afternoon, luckily for
them only a few people were roaming around the mall.
"What?! You're too slow." Jessica sulked.
"What? You made me leave my post in the hospital and you made me
carry these bags. And now you're getting mad at me?" The tan girl
argued.
Jessica was about to speak when Yuri interrupted her. "You know what,
that's it! I'm done. I'm not your personal assistant or something." She
dropped the bags and left Jessica in the midst of the spacious place with
people watching her.
"Yuri!" She shouted.

Yuri didn't turn around. Serves you right. She smirked.

---

The clock read six in the evening. Taeyeon heaved a sigh. She took
Carina and Candace by their hands and took them outside. She already
said her goodbye to their parents. And now she'll be bidding her
goodbyes to the kids.
"I'm going now, you two." She said, almost a whisper. She looked at
Tiffany who was still animatedly talking to Adrian and Irene. You looked
happy, Fany-ah.
"Really? It's early yet." One girl cried. Taeyeon couldn't recognize who
that was because her mind's been obscured by Tiffany.
"I have to go. I'll visit you again. Soon. And I'll bring you food." Taeyeon
promised, still her eyes locked at the girl not far from where they were
having their small meeting.
"Okay."
As soon as she got the permission from the girls, she grabbed her bag
and opened the front door. She rushed at the side of the road hoping
she'll get a cab that easy. She was breathing heavily and her heart's
beating fast. She uneasily swung her satchel bag over her shoulder.
"You're not gonna say goodbye to me?" A voice startled Taeyeon. She
turned around and saw Tiffany, eyes potent with disappointment.
"I-I have to go."
Tiffany ignored the lame excuse Taeyeon just said. She pulled the strap
of Taeyeon's bag. "Come, I'll take you where ever you have to go."
"No, I'm fine."
The ebony head forcefully yanked the bag and in a swift move, she
caught what she intend to get. "I have your bag." And she half ran
towards her car.

Taeyeon mentally face palmed. She realized how frail her heart is when
it comes to Tiffany. And in all these years, it was still Tiffany.
She hesitantly took her steps towards the passenger seat's door. Ever
so slightly, she opened it. Upon locking herself in a comfortable
position, Taeyeon looked at Tiffany, who's in return looking at her too.
"Comfortable?" Tiffany smiled. She started the engine.
"Yeah." Taeyeon awkwardly answered.
"Where to?"
Taeyeon pointed at her bag. "Can I? Take me to 145 Westwood
Boulevard."
"And that is?" Tiffany looked at Taeyeon questioningly.
"My house."
The travel to Taeyeon's crib was quiet, in majority. They would talk on a
certain topic and then they end with an awkward smile to each other.
"We're almost there." Tiffany mumbled. "Hey."
Taeyeon turned her head instantly to Tiffany. "Yes?"
"I'm sorry."
"For what, exactly?" It was sincere though. Taeyeon couldn't think of
anything Tiffany should be sorry about.
"For blaming you, for asking you to do impossible things. I was wrong.
And for the record, I'm really grateful and proud of you." The red light
turned to green and Tiffany pressed the pedal. The car roared to the
other side of the road. "You're a good doctor, Taeyeon."
"No need to be sorry about that. I should be sorry." Taeyeon replied.

"You just did what a loved one would do. I'd do that too, honestly. And
thank you for the credits." She smiled.
"So uh, can we like start again? This is killing me you know. The two
moments of my life where you are there turned out to be bad. I consider
meeting you again as my third. Let's be... friends." Tiffany looked at the
houses they were passing by. "And please, let's make this time different,
shall we?"
Taeyeon chuckled as the warmth emanated from Tiffany's word filled
her cold stoned heart. "Yes, of course. Let's be friends."
Tiffany missed Taeyeon's dorky laugh. She stopped the engine in front of
a beautifully crafted bungalow.
Taeyeon pointed at the house Tiffany also thought as Taeyeon's. It is
very likely of her to have this kind of home, small and just enough for
her to move around. Taeyeon never wanted a big house or an
extravagant living. "This is it. Thanks for the ride Tiffany."
The other girl kind of hesitated to ask Taeyeon something. But, her
vocal cords went ahead of her. "Are you on duty tomorrow?"
"Yes. Why?"
"M-my daddy left a jar of coffee powder at home. It was the best he
said. I tasted it this morning, and he's freaking right. And I'm thinking
maybe, we can share a drink? I swear, you'll love it."
Taeyeon opened the door and leaped outside. She wanted to just say oh
yes of course, I'd bring hotcakes and eggs too, because it's your
favorite. But she stopped herself. Being friends after all that happened
is the closest thing to heaven she can think of. And ruining it is the last
thing on her mind. She stooped to look at Tiffany. She smiled
immediately after seeing the girl. "Sure. I'll see you."

Chapter XIV

Back to Square One

Dr. Erica Kim entered the large electronic gliding door of the hospital
entrance with a smile on her face. Albeit the lack of sleep, she looked
like she had a nice rest. The guards, the nurses and other physician
greeted her and she greeted back. She even jokingly bowed ninety
degrees in front of them.
"Good mood?" Dr. Black asked.
Taeyeon nodded as she smiled from ear to ear. New batch of interns
welcomed her. Usually she'll roll her eyes or hide from everyone's sight
when there are new interns in her service. But today, she didn't. Two
interns gave her coffee.
"Dr. Kim, coffee?" One of them asked.
Taeyeon shook her head. She handed the cups back. "You two might
need that."
The rejected interns went back to their positions and the others laughed
at them.
"The charts?" The smiling doctor demanded. One intern gave it to her.
There were fifteen patients and seven interns. She divided the job
equally. Write your plans and orders in a sheet of paper and give it to
me later. Ill check on them if you guys did a good medical judgement.
Go, now.

The seven aspirants ran to check on the patients.

Thats new, you rejected the coffee. Dr. Yuri Kwon tapped her foot
behind Taeyeon.

What? She turned around to face Yuri.

Its coffee. You loved coffee so much you ask every intern to give you
one.

And you? You look so sulky.

That blonde. Shes really- I dont know. Yuri scoffed. She shook her
head hoping shell get rid of that someone who somehow managed to
fill her mind.

Lets talk about this over a meal, okay? But no coffees.

Both of them walked towards the cafeteria. They treat each other as
friends when Yuri reached her third year as an intern. Taeyeon was
harsh and strict when it comes to the job. A lot of interns gave up on
her. But Kwon Yuri is the only intern who stayed in her service. Thats
when Taeyeon started looking after the tan girl. Aside from being both
Korean, she saw a huge potential on Yuri.

On the other hand, Yuri was so scared at Taeyeon when she started. She
despised the doctor. She stayed on her service because her mother
threatened her to stop the whole internship thing if she cant handle
things with her senior. But when she spent most of her time with
Taeyeon, she saw the different side of the doctor, which she really liked.

They sat down as soon as they found a free table. Taeyeon volunteered
to buy them food.

So, what happened? Taeyeon asked when she put the tray on the
table.

She boss me around, she does what she wants-

Taeyeon could only smile. Maybe she likes you.

Like? In that way?

The latter nodded. Why dont just ask her?

Im not talking to her.

Woah. Really? That bad? Taeyeon creased her brows. You see Yuri,
Sica has a different way to handle her wants. Do you get me?

Yuri didnt understand what Taeyeon was trying to convey. All she can
think of is how the blonde treated her for the past days. She was really
a bipolar, she thought. But the thought made her smile. She went out
with a few people and she never felt as enticed as she is with Jessica.
Her daydream was interrupted with a loud ring.

Hello? Yes? Youre on your way? Im in the cafeteria. She paused,

listening to the person on the other line.

Yuri looked at Taeyeon suspiciously. Whos that? she mouthed at

Taeyeon carefully with no sound.

Taeyeon stuck her tongue at the other girl.

Actually, seven interns are in my service today. But I left them missions
to do. So theyre busy. Yes, the coffee is still on. Taeyeon smiled. She,
on the other hand never felt happier in the past five years of her life.
Starting anew with Tiffany is something she has hoped for. But the thing
is, shes stopping herself from hoping too much. Its not her purpose to
replace Brian in Tiffanys heart.

Last night, Taeyeon couldnt sleep. She felt like a child wholl go on a
trip. It isnt a date, Taeyeon-ah remember that. Act professional. She is
just your friend.

Yes. No problem. Leave me a message. Taeyeon ended the call, still

grinning like a fool. What? she asked the other girl whos still looking
at her.

Whos that? Yuri asked.

Tiffany.

The Tiffany Hwang? Yuri gasped. She sipped from her cup. She
beamed. Sica told me you guys used to date.

The doctor rolled her eyes. Oh sure she did.

So you mean, shes really here? In L.A? How did you two meet?

Taeyeon nodded. She went on how they met at the Aickman recidence.
She looks fine. She dyed her hair black.

So youre friends now?

Yep. Thats the plan.

Good luck with that. With all due respect doctor, I know you still love
her. Please, be careful. Yuri gazed at Taeyeon worriedly.

I will boss. Im going up to my office now. she patted Yuris shoulders.

So we both have our dilemmas now huh?

---

Jessica left Yuri tons of messages that day. Shes pissed at the girl but
more likely pissed because shes worried about what Yuris been

thinking at that moment. She meant no harm, she just like the other
girls company. Its with Yuri where she can act freely without
hesitations. And the only way she knows to get what she wanted is to
be the spoiled brat she used to be.

Her tenth ignored call went to voicemail again. She pressed cancel and
she pounced her pillow with all her annoyance.

She slouched on her bed for a few minutes before she decided to grab
her tote bag and go out for a drive to the hospital.

Jessica looked around the lobby to look for the tan intern. Might be the
nurses station again.

She saw a glimpse of Yuri reading an adult magazine while sitting

smugly on one of the chairs in the nurses station. She scoffed at the
sight of the tan girl.

Yah! she cried, which startled Yuri. What are you doing?

Uh- reading? Yuri replied sarcastically.

I was calling and texting you.

You were? My phones left in my locker.

Jessica walked pass the nurses and took Yuris hand. Shes now plain
angry on Yuri. She led the way towards a random room she saw, which
is the doctors lounge. She harshly opened the door. Doctors who are
inside were surprised.

Excuse me, but can you guys get out now? she glared at each person
in the room.

Yuri bowed her head to hide her face. This is appalling, ugh. With
question marks on their faces everyone left the room for the two
people.

So- Jessica started. You plan to ignore me? Like really?

Youre bossy, youre noisy, you like things your way. What do you
expect me to do?

Then just tell me! Dont leave me hanging like that. Especially when
you left yesterday. It was embarrassing! she sulked.

Wasnt it embarrassing for me too? Im a doctor for crying out loud!

And there you are bossing me around. Yuri argued.

You shouldve told me!

How would I tell you if all you cared about is what you wanted? Yuri
raised her voice.

Jessica closed her eyes, breathe in and out air. Are we arguing? Again?

But you started it!

Okay, lets stop. I dont wanna fight with you. Jessica paused. Say
sorry. Now.

What?! Yuri stomped her feet away from the annoying blonde girl.
Youre impossible!

---

Tiffany was holding two cups of homemade coffee when she entered the
hospital lobby. She went to the center of the spacious ground and spun
around to look for the short, light brown haired doctor.

She messaged Taeyeon twenty minutes ago but the latter didnt
message back. Tiffany assumed the girl was sleeping or busy, so she
didnt wait for her reply and just went straight to the hospital.

She walked pass the doctors lounge when she heard two people
arguing. The voices are familiar, she thought. Slowly, Tiffany grabbed
the knob and slightly opened the door. She saw a hint that tells her it
was Yuri inside. She was about to pry the door open when someone
pulled her from behind.

I dont have anything on me! Please dont kill me? Tiffany yelped. Her
eyes were closed. The culprit is still not speaking. She was dragged and
pinned on a wall. Please, please! What do you want?

Taeyeon smiled at the sight of Tiffany at the verge of panic. Again, they
stood there really close. Taeyeons vital signs were off the roof upon
catching the scent of Tiffany. She shook her head at the realization that
she cant be thinking like that. She laughed, cupping her mouth with
hand.

Tiffany immediately recognized the laugh. She instantly opened her

eyes. You? You scared me Taeyeon-ah.

Im sorry. Someone told me she saw you at the lobby. So I looked for
you. Didnt mean to scare you there. Taeyeon apologetically grinned.

Tiffany grinned too when she saw Taeyeons childlike face. Wow, you
didnt even age a bit. She felt another surge of emotions, this time its
not anger. Its something she didnt know. Its something that made her
heart bounce and her insides lurch. Standing so close to her old love
didnt feel weird for her. She enjoyed the moment. Was that Yuri there?
Is she fighting with someone?

Taeyeon widely smiled. Yes. And youre going to like who she is with.
Taeyeon grabbed Tiffany by her hand. She led the way to her office.

Woah there- Tiffany mused. This office never changed a bit. Taeyeon,
this is boring.

The latter chuckled. I told you, I just got back. And yeah, I dont have
the time to reorganize things. Being a doctor is lonely.

Youre exaggerating again Kim Taeyeon. Tiffany walked around the

room. She stopped in front of the wooden cabinet and wiped the dust
with her finger. Creasing her eyebrows, she faced Taeyeon and raised
her hand. Look! Its dirty even.

Tiffany, the coffee. Its getting cold. Taeyeon dismissed her.

Tiffany leaped towards Taeyeons table. She put the cups atop the table
with a smile from ear to ear, again bringing out the eye smile Taeyeon
missed.

Why are you grinning? Its driving me nuts. Taeyeon incredulously

stared at the girl.

You see, I know you know that aside from fashion my second love is
interior design, right?

Oh no, Tiffany, for the love of Christ! Taeyeon quivered at the thought.

Why? Tifany pouted.

Your coffee is so good, but come on, every place you tried to design,
you always include pink! Pink, Tiffany, pink! Dont you see?

I dont see whats wrong with pink and I dont see the reason why
youre acting like that Taeyeon. Tiffany pointed with potency.

"Do you remember when my cousin allowed you to design HIS room?
You did know that he's a he. And you filled his room with pink!" Taeyeon
snorted. "He literally cried when he saw his pinkified room. Even I
almost gagged when I looked at it."
Tiffany also laughed at the memory Taeyeon just said. It was early 2009
and they were still together. Taeyeon introduced her to her family as her
best friend. The Kims loved her. She's invited in parties and gatherings.
Tiffany knew every person Taeyeon is related to.
The familiar feeling of missing the old times came in a bliss for
Tiffany. What really happened? She wanted to ask the other girl but she
couldn't. It is best to just leave the past behind them and start another
beginning with Taeyeon.
The laugh they shared ended rather awkwardly. Taeyeon made a mental
note not to mention anything from their past again. Like going back to
square one, no memories of the past, just making new memories of the
present. She cleared her throat. "You can help me re-design this place,
but! Do not pinkify me please?"
Tiffany pouted again and it made Taeyeon's heart skip double beats.
"Okay. But can I just put a tiny bytie of pink in here? Please?"
The other girl shook her head in defeat. "Okay. Tiny bytie."
Tiffany smiled. "Oh, hey. Yuri?"
Taeyeon grinned playfully. "She's arguing, yeah, with your best friend."
"Jessi?" Tiffany's eyes shot open wide. That's why the voices are familiar
to her. It was a shock to her that the two knew each other. As shocking
as it is, she's also pissed that she didn't know anything about them.
"Why?"

Taeyeon leaned her back on the chair. She's looking at Tiffany, weighing
her options considering that the girl can be too loud and argumentative.
But gazing at those eyes made her judgment blurry again. "I don't really
know what's happening but they seem to be more than close friends, if
you know what I mean."
Tiffany nodded with mouth agape. Then Taeyeon told all the things she
knew about Yuri and Jessica. By the minute, the distance between her
upper and lower jaws is increasing. "Y-You mean, they're a thing?"
"That, we don't know yet. Let's just wait and see."
"That brat, why didn't she tell me?"
The other girl shrugged. "Don't argue with Sica about this. Remember,
right now, she's fighting with Yuri. Don't let her handle two people.
You're coffee's good. Can I have the jar?"
"Yes, ma'am. And no to the jar." Tiffany paused. "Can we go to them
though?"
--"What now? Yuri, sorry is just a word." Jessica mused.
"That's the point! Why can't you tell it to me then?" Yuri who's on the
other side of the room argued. She's pacing from right to left alternately
in annoyance and frustration. She has never met a person who's so
difficult to handle.
Without Kwon Yuri's knowing, Jessica Jung's pride is higher than the
hospital's roof. Jessica sighed. It is hard for her to say sorry at times of
argument. "Okay! Okay! I'm s-"
The door jolted open and the two stopped bickering. An ebony head and
a brown haired girl came in.

"Tiff?! Taeng?!" Jessica yelped. "What are you guys doing here?"
As soon as they closed the door, another one opened it. "Taeng, let's
grab lunch-" Dr. Lee Sunny stopped on her tracks when she saw the
crowd inside the room. "Tiffany? Jessica? Kwon? And Taeng? What are
you guys doing here?"

Chapter XV

Friends, Feelings, Jealousy, Guilt

The day was fine but Jessica and Yuri's mood aren't. Sunny asked all of
them to join her for lunch. Question mark's all written on their faces as
they went their way to a restaurant across the hospital.
Sunny, Taeyeon and Tiffany sat close to each other. Yuri went next to
Tiffany but Jessica stayed standing. She just can't go near Yuri, her
appetite's going to decline. Sunny heaved a sigh. "Okay," She pointed at
Taeyeon and Tiffany. "You ex lovebirds, evaporate. Now."
"What? I'm comfortable in my seat." Taeyeon pouted. Well in fact, she's
enjoying the proximity she and Tiffany share. She earned a glare from
the short haired doctor.
"Come on, lazyhead. Move." Tiffany smiled while pulling Taeyeon from
her seat. The latter smiled back, again loving the feeling Tiffany's hands
give her.
"Good." Sunny smirked. She pointed at two seats near her. "Tiffany,
Kwon sit here."

The two awkwardly sat together.

"I'll sit next to Kwon, while you Taeng will sit next to me and Sica, in
between Taeyeon and Tiffany. Are we clear?" Sunny ordered, hiding her
snicker when she saw how disappointed Taeyeon, Yuri and Jessica were.
"Let's order, shall we?"
The meal started and ended with silence. Each person could only glance
at their prospect.
"Okay! That's it." Dr. Lee Sunny finally broke the stillness. "First, I'll ask
you-" she squinted at the black haired girl. "Tiffany. When did you get
here?"
The wide eyed girl stuttered. "J-just five days ago."
"And why?" Sunny continued the interrogation.
"What?"
"Why did you go here?" She cleared her question.
"I uh, took a break from work and I decided to go on vacation. My feet
led me at Aickman's home where I met Taeyeon, if you're all interested."
Tiffany paused. "Which reminds me, Jessi why are you here?"
"I uh- the uh-"
Tiffany, Taeyeon and Sunny laughed at the girl. They are not used to
Jessica talking like she doesn't know what she's talking about. Jessica is
a wise girl. She speaks and acts like one.
"Stop laughing." Jessica glared at them. "I needed to clear an issue with
Dr. Kwon right here. That's why."
"You spent a few thousand bucks to clear your issue?" Taeyeon playfully
asked. Tiffany raised a thumb, signalling that Taeyeon did a good job.
Yuri sensed the game the others are trying to play. "Dr. Kim, how about
you? You were in a good mood this morning. You bowed ninety degrees
to all the staff. Some new interns handed you coffee, you rejected them.
You also took me out for a meal and told me you're a no-no for coffee

today, which is really new because you love coffee so much." She
glanced at the fidgeting doctor. "And you entered the lounge, with a
cup, and a coffee in it, which you still carry until now. Who gave you
that?"
Tiffany unknowingly smiled at Yuri and then at Taeyeon. "I brought the
coffee but I didn't know about her story earlier today."
"Fany-ah, why?" Taeyeon defeatedly cried out, including Tiffany's
nickname to persuade the girl.
"Sorry Taetae." She stuck her tongue out at Taeyeon. The latter could
only smile lovingly at the girl.
While Kwon Yuri won the battle, she and Jessica felt relieved. Jessica
grinned at Yuri and muttered a silent "sorry" to her.
Yuri's heart got swollen with happiness when Jessica apologized to her.
"Oh come on!" Sunny scoffed. Among them, she's the only one who
doesn't have a pair in the moment. "Am I the only normal person here?
You guys stop looking at each other lovingly. Please! I have to go now.
Fix your issues. It's driving me crazy." She stood up, patted Taeyeon and
Tiffany's back. "It's nice you started a new." She mumbled.
The four were left still in awe of the incidences that happened that day.
As soon as Sunny disappeared from their sight, Taeyeon hopped
towards the seat next to Tiffany, which is occupied by Yuri. She timidly
smiled at the tan girl, indicating she wants to sit with the ebony head.

Yuri stared at Taeyeon like provoking another battle. And the resident
doctor threatened the intern with a glare. Yuri immediately stood up and
even bowed to Taeyeon.

Jessica saw how the two interacted which made her smile. Yuri, just sit
here next to me. The latter gladly relented.

When Yuri sat next to Jessica, both of them felt relieved. The tension
they had at the doctors lounge seemed to dissolve. Were okay now?
the tan girl asked.

The latter nodded.

Im sorry too. But you- Yuri stopped midsentence when she felt the
other girls hand brushed against her.

Were okay now. Jessica reassured. She gazed at two people

awkwardly watching her and Yuri and almost instantly laughed at the
memory of the chaos they brought just a while ago. Tiff? You shouldve
told me. We could have gone here together, you know.

Tiffany chuckled. You didnt tell me too. And you didnt tell me about
Dr. Kwon here. She gestured at Yuri with her crescent shaped eyes
flashing. Yuri suddenly tensed.

Taeyeon stood which left the three quiet. She realized her circle of
friends has gotten bigger. Shes used to having only Sunny and Yuri by
her side for the past years. She does have other people around her bit
she consider them only as acquaintances and colleagues. It warmed her
heart to see four of the most important people of her life knowing and
befriending each other. Why dont we introduce ourselves to each one,
and please clear our issues?

Tiffany stood up excitedly. Im Tiffany, Jessis my bestfriend. And

Taeyeon is also a good friend of mine. Nice to meet you Yuri.

Yes, and of course Im Taeyeon, an old friend of Jessica and Tiffany. A

superior and a friend to Yuri as well. added Taeyeon. When they were
done, both sat down and waited for the other two to speak.

Jessica here. Best friend of Tiffany, an old friend of Taeyeon and a new
friend to Yuri. She saw Taeyeon and Tiffany snickering. Yah! Stop
laughing. We met when I went here to help Tiffany out seven months
ago. Thats it.

Yuri. An intern under Dr. Kims service, also a new friend to Sica. Nice
to meet you Ms. Hwang.

Tiffany shook her hands. I feel old with that. Just call me Tiffany,
please.

Tiffany. Yuri smiled.

Jessica looked at her watch. I think I have to go home. Im going out

with my cousins later.

Ill go with you. Yuri said. Dr. Kim, can I leave for a while?

Taeyeon nodded eagerly. You may go. And Sica?

Hm? the blonde raised her head from rummaging her bag for her car
keys.

Dont let Yuri take too long. You might do something that-

Oh my god, Taeng. I can only think of your perversion. Jessica rolled

her eyes. Tiffany chuckled. Lets go Yuri. Why did you stick to this
shorty here?

Oh, so youre tall now? Taeyeon grumbled. Look whos talking.

Bye! and Jessica and Yuri walked their way towards the hospital
parking lot.

So, were left again. Why do they always leave us alone? Tiffany
dramatically asked.

Do you have something to do after this? Taeyeon gently asked, hoping

she could spend more time with the other girl.

Tiffany shook her head.

Do you want to come with me on my patient rounds? Taeyeon

continued.

Is that even allowed? the other girl asked back.

I have extra white coats with no name tags. You, Miss Hwang will be a
doctor for today. The shorter girl answered. Im sure youll be a good
one.

Really? I would love to! Tiffany again, eye smiled which melted
Taeyeons hoping heart right there and then. Having the ebony head
around her like that is heaven for her. She doesnt mind the possibility
of hurting herself on the process. She just wants Tiffany, nothing more
nothing less, even if it means beingfriends.

---

Jessica turned off her cars engine as soon as they reached their
destination. Their house is one of the largest houses in the city. Yuris
jaw dropped at the sight of the mansion-like house.

A man bowed to them and took the keys from Jessica. The car was still
rooted in the mansions gate, which is still at least a hundred meters
away from the house itself. Yuri looked at Jessica curiously.

Mind to have a walk? Jessica asked, tranquillitys written all over her
face. It was the first time Yuri saw her angel like face, very far from the
spoiled brat she knew. She was left speechless and could only shake her
head.

Lets go. They went out the car and started strolling. Green luscious
shrubs and colourful flowers surrounded them. Both are walking ever so
slowly, enjoying the view and most especially enjoying each others

company. I like it here. Whenever I go home, I choose to walk from the

gate up to the house.

Beautiful. Yuri answered.

I know. Jessica gazed at Yuri, who is again staring lovingly at her. She
smiled.

Uh- the garden. Its beautiful. Yuri nonchalantly said.

Sorry for my attitude.

Well yeah, thats something I wanted to ask. The taller one asked.

Hm?"
"When you're around your friends, you're not acting the way you're
acting around me." The intern said. "You like bossing me around, and
your mood Sica, it is driving me nuts."
"How would I answer that?" Jessica stopped on her tracks. Thinking of
an acceptable answer because even she doesn't know why. "I don't
know either. You see, when I want something, I get it with the only way I
know, being a spoiled brat."
"Want. You mean you want me?" Yuri shyly asked, her heart's beating so
fast. Butterflies are scattered in her belly.
"I don't know. Really. But I do like having you around that's why I
demand time from you. I'm sorry?" Jessica pouted. "You do everything I
ask you though. Why?"

"Same as you are. I do not know. Maybe I like having you around too."
The tan girl smiled at Jessica.
"Okay, let's just see what will happen then." The blonde wrapped her
hands around Yuri's arm and led the way towards the mansion.
Both of them are beaming. The feelings they have are mutual, they are
aware of that. But both are afraid to admit or get loose to the feeling,
especially Jessica.
She hadn't had any experience in relationship, let alone love. Aside from
herself and her family, the only thing she loved is her pet gold fish when
she's nine years old. She named it Cassidy. The fish died when her
sister's cat ate it. And the only person she thought she loved is her Math
professor in high school who turned out to be gay. After those
unfortunate events in her life, her heart seemed to close to anyone or to
anything.
Jessica is a beautiful, talented and intelligent young lass. Every place
she go, all of the guys' heads even girls turn towards her. A lot asked
her out but most of them are rejected. When she goes out with some,
after a date or two, she'll eventually leave them. That's why the thing
she shares with Yuri is something new and refreshing to her.

---

"Okay, let me see if it suits you." Taeyeon moved her finger in a circular
motion, signalling Tiffany to move around.
Tiffany was standing in front of the mirror inside Taeyeon's office. She
wore one of the coats the doctor has. She swiftly turned around with a
wide smile on her face. "Do I look like a doctor now?"
Taeyeon squinted to scrutinize Tiffany. She stood up and grabbed
Tiffany's elbows. "You look like more of a doctor than I am."
"Oh stop it you!" Tiffany slightly punched Taeyeon's arm.
The latter gestured for the door. "Shall we, Dr. Hwang?"

Tiffany excitedly nodded and leaped towards the door.

--Taeyeon and Tiffany went inside room 201 at the medical ward, which
two patients shared.
"Good afternoon, Andy. I'm Dr. Kim and this is Dr. Hwang." The shorter
girl greeted the patient. "So, Dr. Hwang this is Andy. 32. Male. He has
chronic asthma."
"Hi, Andy." The ebony head said.
"Hi doctors." Andy smiled. "This is the first time I saw you Dr. Hwang.
You are beautiful. Do you have a boyfriend?"
The latter shook her head.
"When I come out of here, can we go ou-"
"Okay!" Dr. Kim interjected. "Dr. Hwang here is going out with someone.
She's just shy to tell."
"Uh-oh. And who's that?" Andy asked, looking at Tiffany.
The girl was so surprised and dumbfounded to even react. She looked at
Taeyeon incredulously.
"Me." The doctor replied flatly. "So, going back to you, Andy."
When they closed the door, Tiffany grabbed Taeyeon's hand. "What was
that a while ago?"
"He's flirting with you! It's unethical." Taeyeon excused.
"But he's cute."
"Oh no Stephanie Hwang. He is not cute. If you go out with him, you'll
be stressed! You'll carry his medicines, you can't do things that may
overexcite him, you can't go out to places that may trigger him. You'll
die of stress, Tiffany. I swear with my doctor's license!" Taeyeon

explained rather exaggeratedly. It was jealousy in its own form. Tiffany

smiled as she recognized the behaviour Taeyeon was showing.
"So whoever I go out with, I need your permission?" She teased.
"Yes." Taeyeon replied with potency. If she can't have Tiffany, it's better
noone ever will. Yes, she knows loving the girl is wrong considering the
things both of them has been through. But as much as she wanted to
keep herself from falling deeper to Tiffany, her heart and mind do
otherwise. Tiffany is just your friend, come on! She mentally scolded
herself.
"Okay, next patient is someone Dr. Black endorsed me. He's out for a
seminar later so I'm gonna check on her today. Let's go to uh, ICU room
number 3-" Taeyeon stopped when she saw Tiffany stayed rooted on her
spot. That room was Brian's before. It's where he died. It's where
Tiffany's forever was taken away from her. Taeyeon felt the overflow of
guilt and remorse. Even she can't move nor go near the room. "W-we
can skip t-this room."
Tiffany nodded and they turn their feet to escape from the isolated
room.
"Doctor!" A woman yelled. She was catching her breath from running
towards Taeyeon when the doctor turned around.
"Yes, ma'am?" Taeyeon asked.
"Dr. Black told me to talk to you."
"Why? Is something the matter?" Taeyeon raised her brows.
"Help my daughter. Sh-she's not getting well. Every doctor we go to tells
us they do not know her condition and she's not gonna make it." The
helpless looking mother pleaded. Please, please!
That was one of the rare moments that Taeyeon was left speechless. It
was like everything she studied for med school vanished. Another
patient is asking for her help. Another person is asking for another
chance to life. Th-then why come to me if all of them told you shes not
going to make it? My answer would be the same.

Tiffany looked at Taeyeon worriedly. Her behaviour was far from the
Taeyeon she knew, from the Taeyeon she met when Brian got into the
accident. Did I do this to you, Taeyeon-ah?

Im sorry maam but we have to go. Taeyeon walked pass Tiffany. She
never turned her head back, like not caring at all. Deep inside her was
only fear. All she can see is Brian in that hopeless room, how the
machines beeped frantically when they took out his support. No, I cant
do this.

Chapter XVI

Worth a Try

She needed serenity, but every room, every corner of the hospital reminded
her how she failed. She was never afraid to face death with her patients. She
hates her self for feeling that way, she hates the hospital for not having a
good place to hide and she hates the world for bringing a lot of pain to
people. She let out a frustrated grunt when she reached the end of the third
floors hallway.

Taeyeon leaned her back against the cold, pale-painted wall. Staring blankly
at the window, she started to cry.

Tiffany looked at the weeping mother in front of her. She sees herself through
the woman, crying and begging to keep her loved one alive. And the only
hope she sees is Dr. Erica Kim.

Doctor, shes just ten years old. Shes a top performer at school, shes myour one and only child. I- I cant get pregnant anymore. And- the mother
kept on sobbing. Please help us.

The words that came from the woman lingered on her mind. If she was the
girls daughter, shell do anything to help. And the idea of looking for
Taeyeon came to her mind.

She started running, from different wards to the lounge until Taeyeons office.
She saw no short, light brown haired color doctor in white coat. She ran until
the ends of all the floors she went into.

Tiffany was about to give up when she saw a glimpse of a woman crying at
the end of a floor she doesnt even recognize. Taeyeon? Is that you?

The sobbing continues.

Why did you run away like that?

I-I dont know. I cant treat her and I cant see her mom crying like that.
The doctor replied.

Tiffany sat close to Taeyeon, cupped the other girls face with her hands and
wiped the trickling tears on her face. Dont do this to yourself. Stop taking
the blame.

I cant do it, Fany. I cant. Lets just accept it. Taeyeon took Tiffanys hands
away from her face. Other doctors dont even know what has gotten into
her.

But you can, I know.

Tiffany, stop.

Taeyeon-

No! The last patient I tried to help died, Fany. Brian died! she almost
shouted.

Noones blaming you, please forgive yourself. You didnt do anything to kill
him, what you did was to make him alive. And I thank you for that. Tiffany
couldnt help her self but to give Taeyeon an embrace. Taeyeon-ah, shes
only ten. Give her a chance; Ill help, no matter what. Im sorry. Please, hush
now.

For a couple of minutes, they stayed there at the corner, holding each other.
All Taeyeon could hear is herself sobbing. She thought she already moved on,
especially now that Tiffany has forgiven her. It was a whirlwind of mixed
emotions and thoughts which left herself drained.

Unconsciously, she found the sound she was looking for when she
repositioned herself to lean her head on Tiffany's chest. Every beat, every
thud of the other girl's heart was a tranquilizer for her bothered mind. She
hid and suppressed the pain and guilt she had for Brian's death through all
these months, and never actually expressed what she felt. As much shame
as she feels breaking down like that in front of the love of her life, she just
couldn't help.
"F-Fany-ah." Taeyeon sobbed. "I'm sorry."
Tiffany tightened her hold of Taeyeon. Seeing the shorter girl on the edge of
breaking is one of the scenes she would never want to see. "Ssh. You are a
good doctor, I told you that right? They need you, your patients- they need
you."
"Can we stay like this for a while? It's serene." Taeyeon closed her eyes, still
enjoying the calmness of the moment.
Tiffany nodded and leaned her cheek over the other girl's head. "I'm here."
Few more minutes passed and Taeyeon went back to her consciousness. She
stealthily raised her head and slipped off her arms around Tiffany, she had
the chance to look at the sleeping girl's face. "I'll try Fany. As long as youre
with me."
She gently woke Tiffany up. "Tiffany. Come on, go get some rest. Tomorrow,
let's see the patient"
The other girl's eye shot open. "Really?"
"Yes. You told me you're with me in this case right?"
Tiffany rubbed her eyes and nodded.
"So stay, yes?"
"Yes." Tiffany stood up. She reached for Taeyeon's hands. "Okay, let's give
ourselves a good rest before treating the girl."
--"Unnie!" Krystal Jung greeted as Jessica and Yuri walked up the stairs.

"Don't call me unnie. What are you doing here?" Jessica asked coldly.
"I'm not talking to you, Jess. I'm talking to your friend." Krystal dismissed the
blonde. "I believe you're Korean too. Hi, I'm Krystal, this short brat's little
sister. And you are?"
"Kwon Yuri, an intern at Huntington. Nice to meet you. Just call me Yuri if
you're more comfortable. Besides we're in United States." Yuri smiled
warmly.
"Okay, Yuri." The young Jung smiled back while earning a blazing glare from
her sister. She dismissed Jessica, and hopped her way towards one of their
family cars.
As the young lady disappeared from their sight, Yuri mischeviously snickered.
"What?" The blonde irritably questioned.
"She can out power you, old Jung."
"Shut up." Jessica let her grip go from Yuri's arm. "Would you like to come in
first?"
Yuri looked at her watch. She wanted to stay and be with the blonde more,
but work is calling up on her already. "I'd love to but you know, work."
"Oh okay."
---

Tiffany was in her deep thoughts while waiting for her best friend to arrive.
She sat near the cafe's window with her coffee and jellies. Randomly, she
watched people passing by.
She hadn't had a decent sleep, thinking what will happen to her or to
Taeyeon. She's supposed to go back to Korea in a few days and she's still
stuck in wanting to stay. After seeing Taeyeon so frail and after promising to
be with her on the case, Tiffany couldn't think of anything else but to keep
her word. And it was something she's so confused about.

"Tiff. You okay?" Jessica's voice snapped Tiffany from her daze. She sat on
the chair across the bemused girl.
"Y-yeah." Tiffany sipped from her cup. "When will you go back to Korea?"
"That, I don't know. Why?"
"I have to go back in a few days. But-"
Jessica expected this. "You want to stay. Right?"
"Yes. There was patient and I swore Taeyeon I'd stay with her on the case."
The ebony head creased her brows. "Is it right? Me, staying?"
"Was it because of the patient?" The blonde asked casually. Even with all the
years Tiffany and Taeyeon were away, even when her best friend was with
Brian, Jessica could feel Tiffany's love for the short girl.
"What are you talking about?"
"It's time we talk about you and Taeyeon, Tiff."
"What's there to talk about?"
"Do you still love her?" Jessica couldn't help her curiosity anymore. "Tiff, we
know each other for fifteen years now. I recognize when you have to poo, I
know what your deep sigh means. That's how close we got. And I know when
you couldn't forget something and someone."
Tiffany was dumbfounded. She genuinely doesn't know. She loves Brian,
that's for sure. But the question that's been hanging was does she love him
more than Taeyeon?
"Jess-"
"You know what, the thing you guys have to do right now is to fix the issue
you should've settled years ago." The blonde flatly replied. "Talk to her, Tiff."
"Should I? We talked about not making things complicated. You know I can't
handle another messed up-ness right now." Tiffany paused, contemplating if
she'll say the next words. "A-and I don't want to lose another important
person in my life."

"But what if you gain?"

"I don't like where there is going, Jessi."
"Tiffany Hwang, jeez. And here I thought you're smarter than me." Jessica
scoffed. "Listen to me, okay?"

But, if I talk to her, two things might happen right? Either we settle this and
we both really move on or we wont and well separate ways, still hating each
other. Tiffanys voice got sadder by the moment.

Either way, you deserve to know the truth and she deserves a chance to
explain herself.
The other girl knew she was defeated in the debate. She made a mental note
to do what her best friend told her to do. "Okay. Ill try. But tell me who Kwon
Yuri is?"
The latter laughed. "Oh, you got an issue right there."
"Answer me, Jess." Tiffany glared at Jessica.
"Okay! I don't know. What we shared is special but until now, I still don't
know."
Tiffany looked at her friend with smile that hints sarcasm.
"Oh Tiff, don't give me that look. I don't have any experience on this. And she
has like an army of admirers. Who knows she flirts with them too?" Jessica let
out a sigh.
"You are one overthinking girl. The fact that she's keeping up with your
attitude is something." Tiffany pointed out. "Just let yourself be loved and be
in love."
It was one of the best moments they have with each other. They are like
sisters from different mothers. They talk about all the things they could think
of over meals, coffee and work. And in times that both of them are in trouble,

they were there for each other.

"So, when are you coming home?" Tiffany asked Jessica, who is now playing
with her leftovers.
"Remind me what do we have to do there?"
"Work, Jess, work."
"Can't the work come for us?" Jessica grinned.
"You're really into Yuri, aren't you? But I like that idea."
They laughed.

---

Taeyeon was getting worried Tiffany's words aren't real. She was waiting at
her office for three hours now and no Tiffany came. She has the girl's phone
number. A cycle of type-a-message-delete was all she had done for the past
hours. She doesn't want to look like she's too clingy.
A few more minutes and Tiffany came rushing through her door. Her heart
leaped at the sight of the girl signalling an apology.
"You're late." Taeyeon nonchalantly greeted.
"Sorry. I had to go somewhere else first. Did you wait?"
Yes! I did! For three freaking hours Fany-ah. "Not too long. Just got here too.
You ready?"
Tiffany sensed the displeasure in Taeyeon's tone, but rather dismissed it.
"Yes, what shall we do first?"
"Visit her and take a look at her chart." Taeyeon stood up. As much as she
wanted to hide her annoyance with all the waiting, she just couldn't.
"Hey, I said I'm sorry." Tiffany remained sitting.

The shorter girl turned around to look at the pouting girl, and her heart for
the nth time she is with Tiffany melted again. She squatted in front of the girl
and took her hands. "Tiffany, come on. I'm not mad. And yes, I waited."
Taeyeon chuckled. "Sorry I lied."
"I know you too well, Taeyeon." Tiffany smiled. Sorry?

Its okay. the latter smiled back.

Chapter XVII

How

"Good afternoon, Margarette. I'm Dr. Erica and this is Tiffany, my uh-"
Taeyeon awkwardly glanced at the girl beside her. "Consultant. Yes,
consultant."
Tiffany got the signal to act as the doctor's consultant, even if she
doesn't know what that means. "Good morning." She smiled.
The weak looking girl slightly smiled. Tiffany felt a stab on her heart at
the sight of the patient. Standing in front of a very sick person is

difficult, let alone treating them. She stood there rooted while Taeyeon
assessed Margarette.
"Tiffany?" asked Taeyeon, who is stooping to auscultate the child's
heartbeat and breathing.
"Y-yes?"
"You okay?" Taeyeon stood up, went close to Tiffany and held her arms.
"You're shaking."
"Taeyeon, I-"
"It's okay, I feel you." The doctor gently rubbed Tiffany's back. When the
latter relaxed, she turned to the patient and her family. "Okay,
Margarette, Mr. and Mrs. Harrow, we will go now. We will inform you of
any progress. As of now, we will continue with the treatment until we
know what we are dealing with."
"Thank you, doctors. We couldn't thank you enough." Mr Harrow said
with gratitude.

Its okay. We will do our best. Tiffany gently smiled.

They went outside the room and stopped at the nurses' station. Taeyeon
studied every detail Margarette's chart offered her. "Tiffany, this is really
something new. I've never encountered anything like this."
"Taeyeon, she looked so frail. How could you be so strong in front of
patients like her?"
"Doctors have to, Fany. If they're weak, we should be strong for them.
I'm sorry you got shocked." Taeyeon stopped flipping through the pages
and looked at the other girl worriedly.
"It's fine. I should be sorry I acted that way." The ebony head gently
rubbed Taeyeon's creased forehead. "Don't worry now."
Taeyeon's lips slowly twitched up. "I see sleepless nights ahead Fany-ah.
You okay with that?"

"Oh, I am very much trained with that." Tiffany beamed.

"Okay, if you say so."
---

Kwon Yuri slouched at the lounge's couch when her shift for the week's
over. She looked at her phone disappointedly. She got quite a lot of
messages and missed calls from different people but not from the
person she expects. The blonde even did not visit her at the hospital.
"Jung, what are you up to now? Playing games with me? Game on." She
scoffed, still looking at the screen.

She's fighting the urge to give Jessica a message or even look at her
phone, but after a few minutes, impatience is getting into her. "Ugh! Are
you that busy to even greet me?" Yuri started typing a message on her
phone.

Good evening. How are you?

Delete.
Were you busy today?
Delete.
Hi.
Delete.
"Ugh! I hate this!" She sulked. She threw her phone inside her
backpack. Yuri had a glimpse of the clock hanging on the wall that read
6:45 PM. "I should go ahead."

---

Taeyeon, Tiffany and Sunny were at Taeyeon's office. Tiffany is making

coffee for the two doctors while Sunny and Taeyeon study Margarette's
case.
"Taeng, I'm not supposed to be here. I have patients at UCLA." Sunny
muttered.
"Help me out here. This is just something I can't figure out my self."
Taeyeon reached out for the coffee Tiffany was giving her. She mouthed
a silent "thank you", and the latter smiled.
Sunny grinned at the sight of the ex-couple. Their magic, the feeling of
warmth they emanate were still there. "You have Tiffany here."
"Oh yes, she's a great help." Taeyeon proudly said.
Tiffany chuckled. "I'm only good at making coffee."
Their conversation was interrupted by a phone ring. It was Tiffany's. She
stood up and went outside the room to answer the call.
As soon as she closed the door, Sunny went towards the girl across her.
"I see you're really getting back to treating hopeless patients." She
whispered on Taeyeon's ear.
"Tiffany. She-"
"Oh, it was Tiffany." Sunny concluded, she is rubbing her chin while
pacing behind Taeyeon.
"What are you trying to say?" The other doctor looked at Sunny
sarcastically.
"I know that you know what I'm talking about, girl."
Taeyeon laughed. "Don't call me GIRL. It's annoying." She paused for a
thought. "I don't want to, at first because I was afraid. I can't let another
patient die in my service. But Tiffany, she gave me hope, the hope I
needed to say yes on the case."
"You're still in love with her, Taeng. Admit it."

"In the first place, did I even deny it?"

Sunny stopped pacing. "Oh yes, that's right. Will you give yourselves
another chance?"
"That's not for me to answer. And, we were long over, Sunny. You know
that. Let's just keep it this way."
"What if she goes out with someone else? Will it be okay?"
"Of course not. It'll freaking break my heart to bits!" Taeyeon let out a
defeated sigh.

"Hello, Jess? What's up?" Tiffany closed the doors behind her.
"Tiff, I called our office in Korea. I told them you and I will be basing here
in LA. Our managers will be sending us the project themes." Jessica
smiled on the other line. She never left the Korean office since they
started. But this time, she has a reason to stay.
"Really? That's good!" Tiffany grinned. She on the other hand,
occasionally leave their office back home but never really stayed out
long. Like her friend, she also has a reason.
"Are you with Taeyeon?"
"Yes, why?"
"Talked to her yet?"
"Nope." She has forgotten about the issue she has to settle with her ex.
"We're really into this case. Might as well talk to her after we treat the
child."
"Okay. Did you see Yuri though?"
"No. Why?"
"She never called nor messaged me. She's really getting in my nerves
now." Jessica grumbled through her gritted teeth.

"Why don't you do it first?"

"Uh, excuse me? Why should I?"
"You two love playing games, don't you?" She laughed at how immature
her friends are. Someone patted her back and she turned her back. It
was Sunny.
"I'll go ahead." The short girl whispered.
Tiffany nodded and went back to her phone call. "Hey Jessi, I have to go.
Talk to you later."
"Sure, bye!"

---

Tiffany opened the door and she had a view of the overworking doctor.
Taeyeon massaged her temples with her right hand while absently
playing with her pen with her left. It was one of habits Taeyeon does
when she's in stress and when her head aches.
"Migraine again?" Tiffany asked as she sat across Taeyeon.
"I guess. The cups of coffee and chocolates we had are killing me."
Taeyeon grimaced at the pain her head gave her when she moved a bit.
The other girl took Taeyeon's hand and started massaging the space
between the thumb and pointer finger. "Still works?"
"Never had that in years."
"Why?"
"Noone has touched my hands."
Tiffany looked at Taeyeon with much surprise on her face. "That's quite
impossible. I bet people line up to go out with you."
"Never said yes to any of them though." The doctor smiled bitterly.

Somehow, the words which came from Taeyeon's mouth made Tiffany
smile. "Why?"
"Never had interest." Taeyeon replied. "How about you? How many
relationships did you have before Mr. Song?"
The idea of putting Brian in the picture distracted Tiffany. As much as
she enjoyed Taeyeon's company, it was again Brian who stops her. Was
it guilt? She thought. If it was, but why?
"None." She answered flatly.
Taeyeon immediately got the signal from the other girl's cold reply. She
silenced herself from the questions she already formed on her mind.
"Thank you, anyways."
"Hm? For what?"
"For this." She pointed at the area Tiffany was pressing ever so gently.
"And for staying. Shouldn't you be somewhere else? Don't you have
work back in Korea? You can always go, you know. I'll handle everything
here."
The ebony head was disappointed add the drop in her mood earlier
when Taeyeon mentioned Brian. She let go of Taeyeon's hand, which
surprised the doctor. "You want me to leave? Is it because I can only
offer you coffees instead of answers?"
Taeyeon sighed. She reached for the other girl's hands and stroked
those gently. "You're mood Fany-ah. It's not what I meant. What I'm
trying to say is you shouldn't be pressured to stay here because of the
drama I caused."
"You think it's only about that? I want to stay here Taeyeon-ah. For the
patient and for you." Tiffany bowed her head.
"I know, I'm sorry." Taeyeon stretched her hand to lift Tiffany's face. "My
head's hurting so damn much. Can you massage my hand again? It still
works if you're the one doing it." And the latter gladly relented.

---

Jessica Jung spaced out yet again. She was counting the leaves of the
tree outside her huge room when Yuri came into her mind. Playing
games, Kwon? Okay. Okay, Ill give you what you want.

Chapter XVIII

Impatient

Taeyeon woke up the next morning to a loud thump of a large thing, shes
not sure what it was, but it was huge. She tried to lay the sound off her head
and continue with her slumber. She did, fortunately. Yet after ten minutes or
so, she woke up again. This time, its not because of a bang or a thud, but
because of two people arguing.

She creased her brows trying to recognize the voices. Tiffany? Yuri?

Yuri, what are you doing? Ive already put that board in front of Taeyeon! a
voice almost shouted, who Taeyeon knew was Tiffany.

But this is like a conference. Everyone should see the board. Yuri argued.

But the angle, its not good.

Taeyeon clasped her ears with both of her hands; still they have no use
against the ebony heads voice. She slowly opened her eyes and saw Yuri
and Tiffany standing at both sides of a white board playing a tug of war.

This should be here! one disputed.

Oh no, this should be here.

The half-asleep girl couldnt take the noise anymore that she shot her eyes
wide open. She raised both her arms in the air. Woah, woah! Whats
happening here? Whats with the board?

Tiffany cleared her throat. Since you always flip pages back and forth, why
dont you write your data on the board? Less stress.

Taeyeon smiled at the other girls sweetness towards her. She cut glance at
the tan girl. And?

I was just fixing the angle for everyone to see. Yuri explained.

But it was better- Tiffany continued.

No it was-

Hep, hep! Stop it you two. Jeez, its so early. Taeyeon stood up to reposition
the white board herself. This should do.

Uh, doctor, its not early anymore. Its already twelve noon.

What?! Why didnt you guys wake me up? the short doctor jolted to her
wash room. A couple of minutes passed and she came out of the small room.
Have you eaten yet?

Yes we did, youre too immersed in your sleep we decided not to wake you
up. Tiffany calmly said. She took out a meal box and opened it in front of
Taeyeon. I brought you lunch.

The intern took a seat near Tiffany, picked up a piece of meat from the box
and jostled the piece in her mouth. Woah, thats one hell of a meal there.
You can cook Tiffany?

Thats not for you! Bring that out! Tiffany playfully reached for Yuris
mouth.

The immature game Yuri and Tiffany were playing was interrupted by
Taeyeons unique laugh. What are you, kindergarten?

The other two fixed themselves and beamed at each other.

And no, Tiffany cant cook. She cant even open a can of sardines nicely.
Taeyeon added, which brought laughter to her intern.

Seriously? You have to tell that? Tiffany moped.

Tiffany, you cant take the credits for someone elses masterpiece. Taeyeon
said. She nodded in agreement to Yuri that the pork was delicious while
chewing.

The wooden door opened and a high pitched wail startled everyone inside
the room. Its so freaking hot outside, Im gonna melt!

Jessica looked inside the room and the three were sharing stories and
laughter.

Yuri tensed and just bowed her head. Only one person can do that irritating
sound. Jessica only rolled her eyes.

Tiffany and Taeyeon sensed a strain between Yuri and Jessica. Did they
fight? the short doctor mouthed silently. The latter could only shrug.

Tiff, why did you call me? Jessica asked coolly. Tiffany took her outside the
room to talk for a while.

Were you two fighting? asked the worried Tiffany.

No, of course not.

Jessica Jung dont you lie to me! Its obvious.

I swear to my nieces life! How can we fight if we dont even talk? Jessica
grumbled.

Tiffany scoffed. Teenagers are even more mature than her friend. Is this still
about her not texting or calling you? I told you, you shouldve done those
first!

Nope. Not gonna happen.

And here I am thinking that you might inspire her to think. A patients life is
at stake here bratinella, so you guys better fix this. Tiffany petulantly
yanked her best friends arm inside the room, while faking a smile to the two
dumbfounded doctors.

Ah, Tiffany? You do know that you didnt close the door? Taeyeon gently
asked.

Huh?

We heard everything you said. Everything.

Yuri laughed on the background.

Oh, Im sorry I was just worried! Tiffany explained herself.

Jessica stomped her feet towards the couch. You are too loud, Tiff.

Okay, okay! Taeyeon clasped her hands. Sica, have you eaten yet?

I have, before coming here. Jessica said, while tapping randomly on her
phones screen, just to divert herself from looking at the tan girl.

Okay. So lets start reviewing, shall we?

Tiffany abruptly stood next to the white board she and Yuri prepared a while
earlier. Ill be you secretary. Tell me anything I need to write. She took out a
couple of board markers.

Youre really prepared for this, arent you? Taeyeon grinned.

Okay, Margarette Harrow, 10- Yuri started their so called case presentation.
It was like studying yet again for med school. Tiffany transcribed the words
that came from Yuri. Unknown diagnosis, admitted five days ago. Doctor?
she motioned to Taeyeon, who in return nodded.

Taeyeon cleared her throat. Blood pressures dropping drastically while we

talk right now. Temperatures going up and up. She vomits, shes bleeding,
and her fluids are going down. She shook her head.

Anemia? Yuri guessed.

Yes, she has anaemia. It is haemolytic though. Taeyeon added. Her spleen
is over working; add the kidneys and her liver. If we cant get this puzzle
right, her organs will fail and the child will die.

What is haemolytic? Tiffany shyly asked.

It came from the word haemolysis, Yuri started explaining. which means
destruction of blood. In her case, her red blood cells are the target.

Red blood cells? continued Tiffany. She scratched her head.

Its a component of blood which, yeah, theyre color red. And they are
responsible for transferring oxygen and other nutrients our body needs. So-
the intern stood up, took a marker from Tiffany, she drew lines that are
interconnected to each other on the board and wrote words that only
Taeyeon could understand. If these blood components are destroyed, what
happens to our body organs?

They could die, right? Because you said the blood cells bring food and
oxygen to them. Tiffany stated what she comprehended from Yuris lecture.

Excellent, Tiffany. Yuri smiled. Youre a good listener, unlike other people
out there who do not know the word: listen.

Jessica, who is slumping on the sofa knew right then than Yuris talking about
her. But she chose to act cool despite her rising annoyance at the girl.

Being said that, Yuri continued. What we should focus on is this. She
pointed at a large question mark written at the top of her drawings. The
reason why her RBCs or the red blood cells are being destroyed. So we have
to fix the unknown issue before everything gets destroyed. Everything. She
purposely increased her volume to get the blondes attention. Still, Jessica
didnt budge.

Taeyeon patted Yuris shoulder signalling not to do what she was doing to
Jessica. The latter heaved a deep sigh and sat down to calm her self.

Jessica was unhappy with whats happening. All these petty fights with Yuri
are taking its toll on her. Yuris like a drug to her, a drug that makes her high
with freaking happiness and side effects of disappointment and anger will
come kicking in after some time. She really, really, really wanted to talk to
Yuri and patch things up. But she couldnt or she doesnt want to, shes not
clear which it is. Youve done so much for her. Your pride! Let her do things
for you too.

Yuri on the other hand misses Jessica so much. She wants to hold those soft
hands, gaze at those cold eyes but melt through hers and smell the scent
that entices her in every breath. But its not her fault, she excused. But
staying in one room, sitting just a few feet away from Jessica makes her
insides lurch in anticipation. No, dont talk to her until she does.

Taeyeon interrupted Yuri and Jessicas self-musings. So I think thats it for

today. We will continue the present treatment. Ill just go check on
Margarette.

Can I come? Tiffany asked. The latter nodded and took her hand. Jess, you
coming with us?

Jessica shook her head and went back to her phone.

Yuri?

No, Ill be checking on someone else too. Yuri replied flatly.

Taeyeon and Tiffany took their way towards the ICU. It was a comfortable
silence they shared. Taeyeon was still holding Tiffanys hands. And Tiffany
didnt mind though, she even relished the moment.

Thank you for that board idea, it helped a lot. Taeyeon said, smiling from
ear to ear.

No problem. I said Id help you out right? Tiffany tightened her grip on
Taeyeon, reassuring the shorter girl.

After this case, can you start renovating my office?

I thought you forgot! Of course. Jessica and I decided to base here in our LA
office, so yeah Im gonna stay here for long.

Taeyeon turned her head with eyes sparkling with genuine happiness.
Really?

Yes, really. Tiffany smiled and playfully patted the latters cheek.

Do you also think that Kwon and Jung are like high school lovers?

Tiffany chuckled. Oh, you dont say.

Taeyeon laughed as they entered ICU room. I got a good feeling about this,
about Margarette. She paused. Not with Yuri and Jessica.

The latter hid her snicker upon seeing the family.

Yuri almost fell asleep because of the awkwardness of the room. She slowly
repositioned herself to look at what Jessicas doing with her phone. When she
couldnt find the right angle, she stood up silently and went behind Jessica to
take a peek.

Jessica sensed a movement behind her and turned her head. Yuri awkwardly
stooped. My phone, I-I think I dropped it here. Yuri mumbled while uneasily
bending towards the floor. She mentally face palmed.

The latter rolled her eyes while hiding her mischievous grin. Lame as ever.

The tan girl grunted as she stood up. Not being sure of what has gotten into
her, she snatched Jessicas arm and pinned the shorty on the lime-painted
wall of Taeyeons office. It was not like her to act assertive and all but she
just couldnt refrain herself from doing what shes about to do.

Jessica was taken aback by Yuris behaviour. Her heart started beating so
fast, breathing become ragged and her bowels are moving rapidly while
Yuris eyes are locked on hers. Wh-what are you doing? she swallowed a
lump of thickened saliva in her throat.

Keep quiet. They might hear us. Yuri erotically whispered as she was the
closing the gap between her lips and Jessicas.

The blondes mouth went dry. Her pupils are fully dilated, providing her a full
view of Yuris I-want-sex-right-here-right-now look. Y-Yuri, I havent had-

Ssh. I missed your scent. And dont you know no one has made glaring and
eye rolling so damn sexy other than you? Yuri stroked Jessicas arm down to
her fingers. And then she wrapped her arms around the short girls waist
trapping the latter within her hold. Yuri playfully sniffed Jessicas cheek down
to her jaw line down to her neck.

Oh my god. It was new to her; she doesnt have any idea what to do.
Unconsciously, Jessica lifted her arms and snaked them around the interns
neck. She adjusted her neck for Yuri to have a full access on it.

They were now locked within each others grip, teasing, making every cell of
each body excite.

Yuri smirked under the blonde hair thats been covering her. She gently
planted a soft wet kiss on Jessicas collar bone. The latter cringed but didnt
let go.

She suddenly let go of her hold and undid Jessicas wrapped arms around her
neck. She looked at the blonde with tease written all over her face. I have to
go. I have patients to see. See you around, Jung.

Yuri turned her heels and leaped towards the door, leaving the frustrated girl
leaning on the wall.

What the f- Jessica let out a mouthful of air loaded with anger.

Chapter XIX

Clear as Crystal

Days have passed. Dr. Erica Kim couldnt give Margarette an answer.
Same treatment was given to her and none happened. Her family has
stopped hoping, theyve accepted the fact that no one can help the girl.

Doctor, let her go home. Mr. Harrow said. Let us take care of her in
our home.

Taeyeon and Tiffany held each others hands. They wanted to help; they
wanted to keep the child to get home safe and healthy. Taeyeon cleared
her throat. Are you sure about this sir?

Yes, yes we are. Look at her- Mrs Harrow gestured towards the thin,
emancipated-looking girl, with countless contraptions on her body.

Taeyeon could only nod in agreement. Then, we will be giving you a

paper later. You have to sign on it. It says there you chose to discharge
the patient despite of your doctors advice not to. Do you understand?

Yes, the nurse kind of explained it to me a while ago.

Tiffany interjected the conversation about Margarettes condition.

Wait!

The doctor together with the parents looked at her with raised
eyebrows.

Maam, sir can you give another day to figure things out? Just one day.
Please. After twenty four hours and none happened, y-you can sign the
paper. Tiffany nervously asked.

Fany-ah. Taeyeon shook her head.

The couple in front of them thought for a while. Okay. Agreed.

Okay. Taeyeon gently smiled. She pulled Tiffany gently out of the
room. Tiffany, a days not gonna change anything.

But I know you can do it. Give this day a chance Taeyeon.
Sometimes, Tiffanys perseverance was too much for Taeyeon. When
they were still together, they would get into a fight when Tiffany overly
persists on something she doesnt want to do. But today, just a look on
the latters eye dissolved the exasperation thats building inside her.
Okay, but this is the last. Okay?

Thank you. I know that look. Tiffany noticed. Youre stressed and
irritated. Wanna grab some ice cold drinks?

The shorter girl nodded.

---

Taeyeon and Tiffany bought two cups of tropical fruit shake a stall in the
hospitals cafeteria. The sudden brain freeze helped the doctors
blurring mind. They were walking towards the hospital park and she
stopped to fully feel the comfort of the frozen shake.

Helped a little? Tiffany, whos standing ahead of her asked.

This is good. Thanks.

The latter smiled. Tiffany spent most of her time in the hospital, from
going with Taeyeon during her rounds up to doing nothing in the
doctors office. She enjoyed her time though. She got to know patients,
their diagnoses and their treatment. And doing nothing while waiting for
the doctor is way more okay to her than do nothing at home. The
difference between having someone to wait than none is that the latter
is lifeless.

I remember my dad had an explosive diarrhoea when he ate random

native food and drinks in Thailand. Tiffany muttered as she waited for
Taeyeon to catch with her pace. It was the worst.

Taeyeon took two steps towards the ebony head and abruptly stopped
upon hearing Tiffanys story. Wait.

She jolted away from her spot and ran like theres no tomorrow en route
for the hospitals electronic library. She hastily mounted her
identification card on the machine that reads ID barcodes. She entered
the room and looked for their computer that provides their database.

She typed something on the keyboard and a lot of pages, cases and
patients charts loaded almost instantly on the screen. Taeyeon sprinted
yet again towards ICU room number three and saw a glimpse of the
couple who hopelessly watched their daughter outside the glass door.
She took out her phone and dialled the ebony heads number.

Hello? Where are yo-

Fany-ah, I think I know the answer.

Really? Tiffany squealed with glee.

I have to ask something on the parents first. She paused. Can you
look for Yuri and you guys go at my office together?

Sure.

Taeyeon hung up. She patted Mr. Harrows back. Sir?

Yes?

May I just ask did you happen to go on vacation before she got sick?
the doctor casually asked while silently praying that they did.

Oh, yes. We went to Philippines for a three-day vacation. Why?

One more. Help me out Margarette. And where specifically?

It was Palawan.

Gotcha.

---

Yuri opened the door to Taeyeons small office. She hesitated at first
because she might see the blonde inside her crime scene. She inhaled
deeply and slowly opened the door, wishing shell see no one inside.

Yuri! a female voice yelped. Finally.

Tiffany? You called me out here?

Yes, Taeyeon said so. I believe she knows the answer to the mystery of
Margarettes case! the shorter girl stated in excitement.

Really? Thats good! Yuri faked her enthusiasm. She looked around the
room and as much as she wanted to avoid Jessica, she felt a pang of
disappointment when the blondes not around. They didnt talk after the

stunt she pulled four days ago. She couldnt try to communicate with
Jessica because she was appalled by what she did, and also the blonde
might be so mad at her after that incident.

You okay, Yuri?

Y-yeah. Just tired. I guess. The tan sat down and fiddled with the
edges of the silk cover of the couch.

Have you seen Jessi around?

No.

Tiffany creased her forehead. You still dont talk because both of you
are so stubborn to start a conversation?

We kinda had a situation after that.

And that is?

Yuri nervously glanced at the curious Tiffany. She sighed and told the
story about the whole teasing thing she did.

YOU DID WHAT?!! Tiffany yelled in a pitch that can easily break ones
ears.

The other girl flinched. Im sorry okay! I was surprised too. I didnt
know what happened but all the teasing, the fights, I just-

You are so gonna pay for what you did to my best friend. The ebony
head glared at the nervous intern across her.

Okay. I know I was wrong. Im feeling guilty as hell, Fany. I called her, I
emailed and texted her too. Her phones off and she hasnt replied to
my emails. Yuri was genuinely sad from Tiffanys point of view. She
rested her head on her hands and wailed like a suspect who got in jail.
I like her, I really do.

Taeyeon opened her door with so much glee from her discovery.
Everyone, it is Malaria!

Neither of the two black haired girls reacted. What happened?

Someone died? Without me, the doctor, knowing? she tried to joke.
Still, zero reaction.

Tiffany started telling the story Yuri shared a while ago, with much
disappointment in her tone. Yuri on the other hand felt her heart
quashed with more guilt.

SHE DID WHAT?! Taeyeons voice roared from her room out until the
hallways of the floor. Yuri, why!?

We had the same reaction. Tiffany shook her head. She took out a
piece of paper and scribbled on it. She handed it to the heartbroken girl.

Yuris eyes shot open at the unfamiliar numbers. Its Krystals. Ask her
if she knows Jessicas whereabouts. That brat might be doing something
stupid.

Taeyeon nodded in agreement. But first, we should save Margarettes

life.
Malaria? Did they go somewhere in Asia? Yuri absentmindedly asked
her boss.

Yep, Philippines. I ordered a malarial blood smear on her and I got the
result instantly. Shes positive for Plasmodium falciparum.

Plas- what? Tiffany grimaced at the unrecognized medical words. You

know I somehow hate it when you guys all medical on me.

Taeyeon chuckled at the cute behaviour. Plasmodium falciparum. A

parasite that kills our RBCs. She looked at Yuri. What are we going to
do?

So were going for a primaquine therapy.

Good. She handed Yuri the patients chart. Write your diagnosis and
your treatment and sign your name below.

Yuris jaw dropped. She has never written anything on her patients
chart because Taeyeon was so uptight about interns writing on medical
papers.

Go on. You deserve it.

The tan intern excitedly took out her pen and wrote everything she has
to write on the papers she was holding. She has waited for this moment.
Taeyeon smiled at her intern and at Tiffany whos grinning too.

---

The three gave the dose of primaquine to the patient. Yuri ordered an
increase of 3000 ml of fluids on the patient to redeem the liquids
Margarette has lost. The nurses were happy that Yuri was finally giving
them the orders. They also knew that the tan intern deserves it. A pat
on her back snapped her out of her daze. You were good at this case,
Yuri-yah. But when it comes to your personal case with Jung, you totally
suck! Taeyeon whispered in Korean. Call Krystal. Now.

Yuri took out her phone and the paper tiffany has given her a while
back. She walked away the station while mouthing a silent thank you
to her resident physician.

Hello?

Krystal, this is Yuri. Jessicas friend. Are you by chance with her?

No. Im at school. Why?

Where is she? Yuri asked the younger girl rather hurriedly.

She did mention before I went out this morning that shell go to this
fancy restaurant at Vermont. Krystal Jung tried to remember what
Jessica told her earlier today. Just look for her there, I cant remember
what restaurant was that.
Thanks! Yuri hung up instantly.

What was that?

Chapter XX

Free Fall

Kwon Yuri roared her car's engine en route for her destination. A long list of
restaurants at Vermont Avenue came into her mind. She excluded small time
restaurants because it's very unlikely for the blonde to go there.
As Tuesday rush hour traffic delays her, her mind was filled with unpleasant
scenarios of their meeting, knowing that the other girl wouldn't give up a
fight. But she didn't care. All she wanted to do is to make up with Jessica.
She went out with bunch of guys and even girls before. She's a natural,
they'd say. She'd normally feel butterflies on the early days of her

relationships but disappears on the consecutive days.

But when it comes to Jessica, it was different. Totally different. Was it
because of the teases? The blonde's attitude? The glaring? The eye rolling?
Yuri doesn't know. But there's one thing she was sure of, she had it bad.
She could see the sign board that says Vermont Avenue a few meters away
from her. She was about to step on the gas pedal when the street light went
red. "Crap!" She cursed as she slammed her steering wheel.
Jessica Jung walked her way to an Italian restaurant. Her car was parked at
the end of the street. She'll be on a date with a businessman she met two
days ago at the bar.
She was never the clubbing type. But for the past days, she'd rather go out
and do things she never did than stay at home and drown her mind with the
thoughts of the tan girl who left her hanging the last time they met.
She grimaced at the memory. Why did I freaking give in! She thought. I hate
her.
The blonde roamed around the avenue before going to their meeting
place. Dont want to look so eager.
After a few paper bags of dresses and signature bags, she entered the first
class restaurant. A young looking lad in coat stood not so far away from the
door greeted her. "Hi, Ms. Jung." He took the paperbags and led her to their
table.
"Hi, Alex. And thank you." Jessica warmly smiled. "Wow, you look different
from the Alex I met. You look-" she scrutinized the latter's suit. "Very
businessman-y."
"Well, work is work and socializing is socializing." Alex Degraw flashed his
manly, crooked smile. "You look stunning. Shall we order?"
Alex is a good looking gentleman. He is one of the most sought after
bachelors in town. Every girl will go stupid over him. But in the weirdest way,
Jessica Jung was the only one who wasn't interested. He's handsome yes,
he's rich, he's everything good in the world but to her, he is nothing special.
And even in front of her is a god, her mind's still clouded with the tall, tan
intern.

Their talk over their meal was casual. They conversed about anything they
could think of. The guy was really enjoying but the girl was bored. She rather
bicker with Yuri than fake a laugh every time her date tries to joke.
"Wow," Alex paused. "This is refreshing."
"Huh?"
"It's my first time to meet someone like you. Am I not attractive? Or funny?"
Jessica could only stare at the guy in front of her.
"You space out, you fake everything. I don't know if you're plain bored or
you're preoccupied with someone."

Yuri parked her car on the nearest spot she could see. She jumped out of the
driver's seat and roamed around to look for her prospect. Where the hell are
you?
She looked at every restaurant she walked by. She walked pass Chinese,
Spanish, Thai, and English but no Jessica caught her eyes.
She was about to give up when she saw a glimpse of a fancy Italian
restaurant in the corner. She peeped through the glass barrier and saw a
blonde talking animatedly to a handsome guy. She squinted to focus her
eyes on the girl.
Jessica turned her head to ask a glass of water to the waiter. And Yuri on the
other hand, saw the face she's longing to see. A mixture of gladness and
jealousy crept through her veins and arteries. Without second thoughts, she
rushed towards the girl, not caring who or what she stumble into.

"You know what, you should talk to her." Alex finished his dessert.
"I don't think"- before Jessica could finish her sentence, someone pulled her
hand.
Alex was surprised; he stood up to pull Jessica back. "Wait. That's
harassment."

"Back off." Yuri shot knives and axes to Alex with her glare.
--"Where'd Yuri go?" Tiffany asked, panting. She was holding a cup of coffee
and handed it to Taeyeon.
"Looking for happiness." The other girl gladly took the coffee. Acquiring a
paper, she fanned the sweating girl.
"Oh!" Tiffany squealed in delight. "I think I know."
Taeyeon smiled at the happy girl in front of her. The curve on her child like
face vanished when the idea of not having Tiffany around popped in to her
mind.
Tiffany was full aware of the doctor's change in mood. As if having one mind
and a heart, she understood what's on Taeyeon's mind. "I'll miss you." She
muttered.
"I'll miss you too. But, we still have to re-design my office." She smiled.
"Of course." Tiffany hooked her arms on Taeyeon's. "Do you think Yuri will
find happiness?"
"If they'll put their pride aside, both of them will." The shorter girl answered,
knowing Tiffany understood what she's talking about.
After a long yet comfortable silence, Tiffany tightened her grip around the
latters pinky finger. "I'm happy."
Taeyeon looked at the eyes that are gazing at hers lovingly. "Really?"
"Yes."
"I'm happier." The doctor beamed.

---

It was early evening. Couples and group of friends go on dates with laughter
and smiles on their faces. But among the horde of people on Vermont
Avenue, only two were rooted in a dark alley within an unknown corner of the
place.
Both are glaring at each other with all of their anger and frustration.
Seconds, minutes passed and still words that are gathered at the edge of
their tongues were left unspoken.
"What did you do?! We were having a good meal for heaven's sake!" Jessica
broke the silence.
"What did YOU do?! Why were you going out with some guy out there?"
"The hell you care." The blonde crossed her arms on her chest. At least hes
gentleman enough not to play with me.
"I messaged you! I called a lot of times. You never gave me the chance to
explain or apologize. It was bad, I know. I-I wanted you right there and then. I
want all of you. But I got scared."
You left with a teasing face, you idiot!

Its a front! After I closed the door, my mind went blank! I wanna go back
but I know youre mad. So I didnt. Im sorry please! Yuri pleaded.

"Dont care. Its nothing.?"

The latter sneered with irritation. "So I'm nothing now? We're nothing?"
"There's no we nor us! So. Stop. Acting. Like. A. Jealous. And. Pathetic.
Girlfriend!" Jessica's voice vibrated through the narrow path, which caused
the insects and rodents running everywhere.
Yuri gripped the blonde's arm tightly. "You are so frustrating."


"Darn it Jessica! I'm not your girlfriend but freakin' yeah, I'm jealous. I'm so
jealous I could kill that guy at that very moment! And Im pathetic to imagine
what weve done in Dr. Kims office every single minute and what if we really
did it and what if youre mine now." Yuri inhaled a year's amount of air. "Stop
the games. I don't know anything about love or anything related to it."
Jessica's brows were raised. "What are yo-"
The latter lifted her hands in the air. "Wait for me to finish. That's what's
wrong with us. No one ever listens to what the other one says."
"..."
"But if thinking about you brings out all of my serotonin and dopamine inside
my brain-"
"Is that how you express your feelings? You go all medical?" The blonde
ridiculed the seemingly frustrated tan girl.
"Shut up! Okay. I'll start over. I think of you 24/7, I miss you even when we're
together, I want to hug you, kiss you, I want to hold your hands all freaking
time! I get jealous. I-I get so frustrated when I don't see you." Yuri's gaze
softened. All her thoughts and feelings went all out right then in front of the
person who occupies her mind and heart. "If that's what others go crazy
about, if thats what they call love, then yes Jung Jessica, I'm in love with
you."
She stroked the shorter girl's cheek. "I love you. All of you."

Chapter XXI

Finally

I love you. A pause. All of you.

Jessica Jung heard it those words clearly. It was new to her. Guys told her
those three words before, but not as sincere and not as heart swelling as how
Yuri expressed them. The cocoon of butterflies in her bellies burst open, her
vital signs wen high and her mouth just want to say I love you too.

The day before this bitter to sweet encounter with Yuri was the day she also
realized that shes in love with the tan intern. She always wake up thinking
about the scene they had in Taeyeons office, missing Yuri and thinking about
talking to her. But her pride stops her from doing so.

Sica. What now? No answer? Yuri waved her hand in front of Jessicas
dumbfounded face.

Instead of replying a sweet I love you too, the blonde got pissed again. Is
that how you ask for an answer? Youre mad? Really, now Yuri? And to think
that you confessed in this dangerous alley with your freaking angry tone.

Ive been standing here for minutes! And youre just there staring at me. I
just said those three words I have never said in my whole life and you space
out? Help me out please! She rolled her eyes and rested her hands on her
waist with all the frustration in the world. And you are spacing out-

Yuri felt the blondes wet lips against hers. Her eyes which are shot open at
the touch closed when she sensed a slight opening in Jessicas lips. Love and

longing overtook her. She wrapped her hands around the hips that are
against hers tightly. She kissed the blonde like she never did before.

Jessica couldnt take just looking at those lips. She stepped forward and
tiptoed to reach the tall girls lips. It was her first kiss; she has no idea on
what to do. But as soon as their lips met, it was as if hers has a mind of her
own that controlled every smack and caress she gives Yuri. She snaked her
arms around the interns neck and pulled Yuri closer and closer to her body.

It was addictive, intoxicating that they couldnt let go of each other. Seconds
have long gone turned into minutes but their lips are still locked. In their
minds, they could just kiss each other for like forever.

Jessica felt something crept on her back. She dismissed it thinking that it was
Yuris hands. But it felt different. She slowly withdrew her one hand and
touched whats sneaking from behind.

AAAHH! she yelped as the cockroach flew away from her.

What? Yuri inquired worriedly.

A-a roach! Its your fault! If you just chose a more decent place to confess-

The tan girl pecked Jessicas lips and snatched the girl away from the dirty
place. They were both smiling when they walked through the crowded
avenue. Yuri enveloped the blonde with a side hug. You never had an
answer.

The latter cupped Yuris face. I love you too.

"You're mine then?"

"Hm."
The tan girl looked at Jessica with persuasion in her eyes.
"Yes. And you're mine."

----

"You what?!" Tiffany almost yelped.

"Tiffany, too much." Taeyeon patted the delighted girl's lap. She is happy to
see Yuri and Jessica finally meeting at the center of their feelings. Everyone
knew they love each other except for the two of them. "Happy for you Kwon,
Sica. Finally. We can have a normal peaceful life in the hospital." She
exaggheratedly shook her head.
"Taeyeon, too much." The ebony head who was playing with Taeyeon's pinky
finger said coolly.
"Thanks Taeng. You couldn't imagine the scene. It was the sweetest
confession ever in the sweetest place." Jessica sarcastically stated. She
earned a slight nudge from the girl who sits beside her. "What?" She
mouthed at Yuri.
"Why?" The resident doctor looked questioningly at her intern. "Did you like
rented a whole fancy restaurant or a pavillion with flowers and balloons in it?
Oh, you little-"
"You don't say." Jessica laughed.

"She did?" Tiffany asked excitedly.

Yuri can't handle her girlfriend's teasing. She interrupted the talk. "No. She
was on a date with a rich handsome guy. While I was there panting and
catching mouthfuls of air because I was so busy looking for her."
"Oooh. Then?"
"I yanked her towards the narrow alley with rats and cockroaches." She
continued rolling her eyes. "And I was so angry I let all my feelings out." Yuri
saw the surprised look on the ex-couples' faces. "Yes, dark, narrow, smelly,
dirty alley. Got a problem with that?"
"None." Tiffany answered.
"But, here we are." Jessica held Yuri's hand. "She got all medical on me.
That's how she caught my heart."
Tiffany, Taeyeon and even Yuri curled their fingers. "I didn't know you're that
cheesy Jess."
Jessica glowered at Tiffany. "No one can ever replace Taeng here. Right Tiff?"
Taeyeon suddenly tensed and Tiffany awkwardly sipped her drink.
They decided to have a nice dinner at a Japanese restaurant three nights
after Margarette got discharged. It was the night when everyone in their
circle is available.
"Congratulations again, Yuri." Taeyeon casually interrupted the awkwardness.
"That's because I got over my fear of admitting I love her." The intern stated
with a challenging look at her senior.
The latter widened her eyes as if threatening Yuri.
"It's true. All we have to do is talk. And when I said talk, I mean talk about
the unspoken words, not the obvious ones." Kwon Yuri added, still looking
alternately at Taeyeon and Tiffany.
"Lee Soonkyu! You are late." Taeyeon yelled at the incoming short doctor.

"I'm sorry I was-" Sunny stopped when she saw the new couple. "Oh so you
two together now?"
"Yeah, in a shocking way we're both not surprised." The other doctor
grinned.
"Who's still surprised? They're like elementary couples even before." Sunny
took her seat next to Jessica and dismantled their intertwined hands. "Don't
hold hands, it's annoying."
It was a good night for all of them. The talk was fun and casual over a nice
meal. They cheered and drank for Taeyeon's discovery of Margarette's case,
for Yuri and Jessica's newly found love and for their friendship.
"Hey guys, I have to go." Sunny started gathering her things. "Surgery at 9
PM."
Four of them waved her goodbye as she stood up. She planted a friendly kiss
on the cheek on each one of them except for. Best friend, Taeyeon.
"Yah! What's that?" Taeyeon moped in her seat. "Not gonna kiss me too?"
Sunny grimaced. "No, Taengoo. It's awkward and weird and yeah, awkward. A
pat on the back is more acceptable."
Everyone laughed at how the two treat each other. The short haired doctor
then took her way out after actually giving Taeyeon a pat on the back.
Jessica leaned in and whispered something inaudible on Yuri's ears. Taeyeon
and Tiffany were just there, brows raised at the scene.
The tan intern's face got serious all of a sudden. She stood up and took her
bag and Jessica's.
"We need to go too." Jessica coolly said. Yuri nodded in agreement as she
handed the blonde her bag.
Taeyeon chuckled suspiciously. "Oh I think I know. I understand that you're in
your honeymoon stage. Yeah you may leave."
Tiffany joined the doctor's laughter.

The blonde raised her hand in front of Taeyeon. "No. You perv. We just have
to go somewhere else."
She went to Tiffany and again whispered something. Even Tiffany's face got
serious. Jessica patted her shoulder and went on to leave.
"What was that?" The shorter girl asked.
Tiffany in return exhaled. She took out a few bucks and put them atop the
well covered table. "Want to take a short walk?"
"Why does it feel so weird?"
"Yeah. We need to talk." Tiffany stood up.

---

ICU Room number 3

Before Brian died.

Seems she only has work, Sunny and Kwon here. Aside from her family of
course. Tiffany took the chair intended for visitors next to Brian, who was
still lying unconscious. So, what do you think is her reason for leaving me
that way? I mean, theres nothing so special here.

She spaced out for a while. Her mind was filled with questions she wanted to
ask Taeyeon. Maybe I could really like you know, move on if we talk. And
then Ill marry with no more baggage on my back. Because frankly, youre
the one whos carrying it for me. And its unfair.

But right now, lets get you fixed first. Okay? I miss you.

---

Four years ago

Soonkyu! Taeyeon leaped towards her bestfriend. I missed you shorty!

Yah. Too loud! Sunny smiled.

The two best friends met after two years of separation. Sunny went to LA for
her med school earlier.

So how did Tiffany react on you leaving? I bet you had another major fight
before she agreed on this. Sunny helped the other girls pull the bags. She
slightly elbowed Taeyeon when she heard no answer from her friend.

W-we broke up.

What?

Taeyeon started sobbing. She laid everything that happened to Sunny.

What?! Youre stupid Taeng! Really, really stupid!

Chapter XXII

Revelations 101

It was Sunday night. The street wasnt as crowded as the other nights. Few
people were going about. Some just ate out; some just wander around with
friends, families and loved ones. In general, the night was quiet and
peaceful.

As placid as their silent walk may seem, in Tiffany and Taeyeons minds are
endless questions and thoughts. They went towards a nearby park with only
unspoken words in their hearts.

It was the night Tiffany has been anticipating for. But she wasnt sure if the
other girl feels the same or if she could get the peace she wanted to have a
long time ago.

A number of people were there. No honking cars, no chasing children and no

busy folks can interrupt them. Tiffany stood in front of a bench under a tree
they cannot identify due to the dimness of their spot. She chose the place
because she doesnt want see Taeyeons face.

Is it okay here? Tiffany asked as she sat down.

Yeah.

An awkward silence succeeded the short question.

We need to talk. The ebony head continued.

Albeit the awareness of the situation, Taeyeon chose to act innocent.

About?

Us. The other girl answered potently.

Shoot.

As prepared as she thought she would be, Tiffany couldnt find the words to
start with. It took her days, weeks and even years to wait for this final
moment. She wanted to just back out, continue with what theyve started.
But her best friends right. She has the right to know the truth and Taeyeon
has the right to explain herself. Did you ever love me? When we were still
together?

I did. Never felt it? she asked flatly.

I did. Or I thought I did.

Taeyeon slightly sneered. I loved you. You know that.

Then why? I wanted to know Taeyeon-ah.

Do you really wanna know?

In Tiffanys much surprise, the other girl sounded infuriated. She could only
nod, hoping Taeyeon could see her.

I loved you. With all of me, Fany-ah. B-but- Taeyeons voice started to
shudder. How about you? Did you ever love me?

Of course! the ebony head got defensive. I was miserable when you left. I
was so-

Taeyeon bitterly chuckled. So thats how you loved me, huh?

What are you talking about? the other girl started feeling frustrated;
having no idea where Taeyeons going with the words shes saying.

Tell me, how many times did you lie to me? Your promises, your I-swears,
did you mean them?

Wh-what?

Taeyeon could not hold it anymore. I overheard you and Jessica, a lot of
times.

December 2008

I got home, early this morning. Tiffany gulped her almost cold coffee. My
head now freaking hurts!

Where did you and Taeyeon go? Jessica asked.

Every Saturday morning, Taeyeon pays Tiffany a visit in her apartment. Due
to busy schedules, they could only meet three to four times a week. So the
petite girl never misses a day. Even for a days separation, Taeyeon would
miss the short haired girl so bad.

The door was open when she arrived. Wanting to surprise her girlfriend, she
tiptoed towards the sound she was hearing. She saw Tiffanys behind. She
stopped on her track at the topic the two girls were talking about.

I wasnt with Taeyeon. Tiffany replied rather coldly.

Oh. Where did you go then?

The latter crossed her arms and leaned on the backrest of the chair. At the
new bar my friend opened. It was totally cool.

Jessicas face got serious. Did Taeyeon know?

No. Its okay. She doesnt have to know where I go every time.

Taeyeon who was silently listening was shocked.

Youre a badass. So what happened?

Oh, and I met this guy. I cant remember his name though. We shared a
couple of drinks. But- she lifted a finger. It was just a friendly drink.

Uh oh.

Tiffany chuckled. And then it was getting late so I said my goodbyes.

Taeyeon felt a bit relieved. Shes jealous and disappointed but still, her
Tiffany proved that shes faithful.

He walked me out of the bar. Before I get into the cab, he kissed me.

The world crumbled beneath Taeyeon. Her heart was crushed and her mind
was boggled with dismay, jealousy, anger and disgust.

I dont know. It was hot. So I- kissed back. Tiffany continued.

That was it. Taeyeon could no longer hold her tears back. Once a tear
escaped her left eye, more tears started brimming. It hurts. It hurts a lot for
Taeyeon. She loves Tiffany so much she couldnt even look at anybody else,
she couldnt even have a drink of liquor when her girlfriends not around, and
she couldnt even think of cheating. She balled her fists; her nails sank into
her palms. But the pain doesnt compare to the pain the love of her life
caused her.

Tiffany, thats- Jessica shook her head. How about Taeyeon?

She doesnt have to know. Besides, we will never meet again. So relax.

The girl behind the kitchen wall restrained a sob but failed to do so. Her
throats aching and her chest felt like a thousand tons.

Did you hear that? Tiffany asked Jessica. The latter shrugged.

Taeyeon ran as fast as she can. She ran passed the elevator and chose to
use the stairs. Her leg muscles and her lungs cried for a rest, but she didnt
stop. She wanted to die just then. She wanted to numb everything in her
body.

Hearing Tiffany talk about her with no love or guilt at all is what hurt her the
most. No, it was the alcohol. She loves me. I know. I-it was a
mistake. Taeyeon tried to reason against her mind.

She ran until her legs gave up. She stumbled and fell on the side street.
People saw and tried to help her but she declined. Taeyeon remained seated
there for minutes with blocked out mind and rumpled heart.

After regaining her consciousness, she stood up, fixed herself and went to a
nearby minimart. She bought a piece of cake and ice cold coffee that she
decided to give Tiffany. Her minds judgement was defeated by the love she
has for the girl.

Taeyeon inhaled deeply and with one last look at the mirror, she opened
Tiffanys door. Hi Fany-ah. Cake? she smiled like nothing happened.

---

Taeyeon-

You see, I was that stupid to let that one go." Taeyeon was at the verge of
breaking down yet remained her calm. One of the things she hated the most
is getting furious at the girl. "I let that one go because I'm so in love with
you. I-I forgave you even if you weren't even sorry for what you did." She
paused for a sob. "I went through that hell alone. I smile in front of you when

all I wanted to do was cry. No one knew about what you did, I couldn't tell
anyone even Sunny because I don't want people to think that my girlfriend is
a *****. I loved you so much I even cared about your dignity."
Tiffany was too taken aback to even react. Flashback of that damned
moment came rushing into her mind.
"It was so painful Fany. It really was. And you know what's amazing about
you? You act in front of me like nothing's happening behind my back. Didn't
you like have a conscience or something?" Taeyeon chuckled insensibly.
"Twice? Thrice? Ten times? How often did you go to bars without me
knowing? My friends tell me they see you there drinking and dancing with
random people and I was just awkwardly standing there telling them you are
with me the whole time. Did you know how much that hurts? I took it all in
Fany. I willingly hurt myself, which is stupid. Really stupid.
"Did you hear anything from me? No. Because I loved you." Taeyeon's tears
are overflowing with anguish. It was her turn to let her feelings go. The
agony she hid for a long time came in like an aftermath of a disaster. The
painful memory of what Tiffany did stabbed double, triple times at her heart.
"Tae-Taeyeon-ah." Tiffany's words couldn't come out. "I was young and I was
stupid. But I swear I never-"

"I never thought of doing anything close to what you did to me. If I was so
bent in revenge, I should've went to bars too, make out and have sex with
random guys. Even thinking about it makes me gag." Taeyeon added.
"I'm sorry, I-"
"You were only sorry because I knew about it, you were only sorry because I
caught you." Taeyeon sobbed, this time it's not anger that's creeping inside
her. This time it's loneliness. "I could live with your lies about these things.
And I thought that was the only thing you've done."
"What?"
---

June 2009

"So, what, you're breaking up with her now?" Jessica asked her best friend
with wide eyes.
"I don't know. She's just you know, has no direction?" Tiffany mumbled. "We'll
be putting up our own fashion design firm and she's still studying for med
school with grades that are barely hanging in there."
"Tiff, don't you think you're being too much? I'm your best friend but I don't
think this is right. I didn't push about your clubbing thing. But this time, I
really think you're going beyond acceptable." Jessica creased her brows.
She's feeling guilty and sorry towards Taeyeon for the past months. Tiffany
has already gone worst.
Taeyeon did nothing but love and care for her best friend. And the latter has
been totally being unfair. "Don't you love her anymore?"
"I do. I really do."
Taeyeon was there standing again behind the living room wall. Tiffany's
apartment has been Taeyeon's house of horror. She sees and hears things
she doesn't want to every time she enters the damned house.
Her heart was beaten to death, for the nth time she is with Tiffany. She went
out of the apartment calmly. It was like she was already trained to act cool
whenever she hears anything bad.
Taeyeon blankly walked at the side streets. A tear escaped her eye but no
more tears followed. She wiped her cheek with the back of her hand. That
was it. She's done.

Beep!
Fany-ah, I won't be able to see you today. I'm sorry. I miss you and I love you
so much. Can we meet tomorrow at Tonys maybe, twelve? Are you free?
~taetae

Beep!

Really? ): I miss you too. Okay I'll meet you tomorrow. Let's have ice cream! I
<3 you too.
Beep!
Okaaaay. Please don't be sad, I'll be sad too. See you tomorrow. Sleep tight
my love. ~taetae

Tonys
12:45 PM

Tiffany was worriedly fidgeting. Taeyeon never got late when it comes to
their dates, let alone not replying nor answering calls. Where are you?
The hour hand of the clock stroke at one and still no Taeyeon came. She
waited for a few more minutes and a panting Taeyeon came in.
"I'm sorry I was late." Taeyeon was catching her breath. "The traffic, Fanyah!" She pouted.
Tiffany chuckled. "It's a first time. But I forgive you. Ice cream?"
The shorter girl nodded excitedly. She had pistachio-flavored and Tiffany had
strawberry. They ate in silence, which is really weird. Because by that time,
they would bicker about what flavor is better or gossip about their friends.
"Taetae, are you okay?" Tiffany couldn't hold her curiosity anymore.
"Tiffany, I-I" as many times as she rehearsed for what she's about to say, she
couldn't blurt her feelings out. "I think we should break up."
"Not funny at all."
"It's for the best." Taeyeon gently looked at the uneasy girl across the small
round table. "I agreed to my parents. We'll go to California. My credentials
and my papers were already processed in the university I'll be transferring
to. It was incredibly fast." She bitterly chuckled. "We'll just wait for the

confirmation."
Tiffany was still in denial. "Taeyeon, I'm telling you. Don't push it."
"Fany-ah, do I look like I'm joking? This isn't me planning for a petty surprise
for you anymore. We're done. I'm sorry." She stood up and left the
dumbfounded Tiffany alone.
--California

Sunny leaned in for a tight embrace. She couldnt help but feel hurt and
sorry for her best friend who loved no one else in her life other than Tiffany.
"You should've talked to her about this. It wasn't you sole fault. The majority
was hers. I should've known." Sunny hissed while rubbing Taeyeon's back.
"Sunny, it's okay. I'm fine. I'm just relieved that I'm away from hell now."
Taeyeon mumbled between her sniffles.

---

Tiffany's mouth was left agape. Everything came crushing into her. She
couldn't react, no words can describe how hurt she was and how she hated
herself for what happened.
All this time she blamed Taeyeon for everything. All this time, she thought
that the other girl never loved her. It's the pain of knowing her own fault
which left her lungs with no air.
"Why didn't you tell me?" Tiffany cried, hard enough to turn the heads of
passers-by.
"I was afraid. I was afraid that we might fight and you apologize and I'd
forgive you and well be back together. I had enough Fany-ah. I had enough
and I don't want to go through that anymore." Taeyeon paused. "That's,
that's why I ended it up earlier."

"I didn't know-"

"I took all the blame for you. I was stupid. Everyone hated me for leaving but
no one hated you for what you did. God, that's how much I loved you."
Taeyeon sobbed louder. Her body's trembling. I loved you even if the only
thing you did is ***** me around. When I left you alone, I thought Id be
happy. I thought Id get the revenge Im hoping for. But in the end, you still
won and Im still the one who got hurt so damn badly. Now its crazy because
Im still in love with you.

The Fault in our Decisions

Taeyeon was long gone from the park wherein she and Tiffany finally
talked about their past. Yet, the ebony head stayed seated on the
bench. To her, it felt like forever. Her tears are still falling. She's angry.
But not with Taeyeon, not anymore. Her anger's within herself.
She was frustrated too. Because still, Taeyeon never got furious on her.
The other girl was still calm even if the pain was too much. "Why don't
you just get mad? Why are you so good to someone like me?"

--"One week, Sica! One week. She's gone AWOL." Yuri said.
"Even I can't find and talk to Tiff." Jessica fiddled with her bag. She's
worried about the two. "No one's answering my calls and texts."
"What do you think happened?" The intern drew an imaginary circle on
top of her tea cup.

They were at a burger shop waiting for Sunny. It was exactly a week
after they left Taeyeon and Tiffany at the Japanese restaurant.
Taeyeon never went to work. She informed no one of her absence, the
reason and especially her whereabouts. Which is very unlikely, because
even with so much stress, work is the doctor's outlet of everything and
the hospital's her sanctuary.
Tiffany never visited the hospital. She never called nor texted anyone
even her only best friend.
The silence Yuri and Jessica shared was disrupted by the panting Sunny
who just arrived. "What happened? What's so urgent about this
meeting? Where are the ex-lovebirds?"
"Exactly our point Dr. Lee." Yuri motioned for the chair to let the short
doctor sit. "Do you want anything? Juice? Tea? Coffee?"
"Juice will do. What's your point again?" Sunny glanced at the two faces
scarred with worry and fear.
Jessica exhaled. "We don't know where they are. We can't contact
neither of them. It's been a week. We're getting worried." She gently
held Yuri's hand. Even though it's hidden, the tan intern was really
worried about Taeyeon. She only had the resident as her friend through
all these years.
The short haired girl gasped. That's why she hadn't heard anything from
her best friend for days. Usually Taeyeon would call her every night or
every other day. Sunny was also busy with her research to even notice
the change. "When's the last time you saw them?"
"Last week." Both answered. "At our dinner." The blonde added.
"What happened after I left?" Sunny inquired with investigative voice.
Yuri closed her eyes, trying to remember the events of their last
encounter. "We also left."

---

Jessica leaned in and whispered something inaudible on Yuri's ears.

Taeyeon and Tiffany were just there, brows raised at the scene.
"We should leave. Let's give them time to talk."
The tan intern's face got serious all of a sudden. She stood up and took
her bag and Jessica's.

She went to Tiffany and again whispered something.

"We will go ahead. It's your time. Talk to her."
Even Tiffany's face got serious. Jessica patted her shoulder and went on
to leave.

--"Since the case of the young girl was closed and they don't have to
think about me and Yul here, I thought that was the time that they
should talk." Jessica explained thoroughly.
"About what?" The girl across her asked.
"You know, their past, the break up."
Sunny's face changed abruptly. From calm to somewhat furious or
anything in between. She glared at Jessica. "What?! They shouldn't!"
"Huh? Don't you think they should?" The blonde was taken aback.
Nothing seems wrong with the idea.
"No."
Jessica palmed their table. "What's your problem? They should. Tiffany,
she-she has to know the truth about why your best friend just picked a
random date to break things up with my best friend."
"Woah there, random?" Sunny was now at the verge of hurting anyone
because of pure anger.

"Yes! Random! With no decent explanation. Don't you know Taeyeon's

fault here?" The other girl defended her idea and Tiffany's rights on the
matter. She doesn't care if yelling is the only way to make Sunny
understand her point.
"Oh so we are talking about faults now? You don't want to get there
Jung." With a threatening voice and glare, Sunny crossed her arms.
Yuri was not comfortable with Sunny's intimidation, especially towards
her girlfriend. "Dr. Lee with all due res-"
"Shut up. Kwon. Do you know anything about the matter?"
"What?" Yuri and Jessica have no idea what was happening or what
Sunny's talking about.
Sunny couldn't hide the truth anymore. And she thought, she's gotten
infuriated just by remembering what Tiffany and Jessica did to Taeyeon
what more could her best friend feel the moment she and her ex talked.
As far as she knows, Taeyeon was always the silent and I-can-keep-it-allin type of a lover. If she could accept everything, she'll willingly do. But
the problem is, when she had enough, she'll be like a dormant volcano
that'll explode with damage at its greatest extent. The ultimate example
was her leaving Tiffany with no why's.
All these years after she left Tiffany, Taeyeon never really talked about
what happened. The first and the last time Taeyeon talked about her
past was when she and Sunny met on her arrival to Los Angeles.
It feared Sunny that Taeyeon has done something stupid again.
"Sica, you knew about Tiffany's clubbing thing right?" The short doctor
flatly asked the blonde. She didn't wait for a response and fired another
question. "Are you informed that she kissed a guy she doesn't even
know? That's what you should call random."
"Sunny-"
"What? No harsh reply now?" Sunny scoffed. "You wanted to talk about
faults here so might as well tell you your own fault. You are Tiffany's

best friend for Christ's sake! And all you did was to dismiss the issue?
Didn't you think about Taeyeon's feelings? You didn't do anything! You
were there Sica. Then now you're putting all the blame on my best
friend when the ones who should be paying were Tiffany and you."
Sunny looked at Yuri. "Sorry Yuri but it is the truth."
The other girl lifelessly nodded. Even she believed that Taeyeon was at
fault at what happened. She slowly removed her hands from Jessica's
grip.
"H-how did you know?" Jessica stuttered.
"Taeyeon overheard everything Sic. Even about Taeyeon having no
direction in life."
"But it was a mistake! We all do mistakes. Tiffany loved Taeyeon!" The
blonde's voice got louder. She earned another sneer.
"Explain this one: if it's a mistake then why did Tiffany repeat the same
mistake over and over again? If she didn't mean the first one, she
shouldn't have repeated it. Think Jung!" Argued Sunny.
"Shut up! Shut up you two!" Yuri yelled and everyone inside the shop
looked at them. Luckily only a few people were there.

---

Her head hurts. She wanted to sleep it off but her body's shouting "I
don't want to sleep anymore!"repeatedly. One of the signs linked to
depression is oversleeping, she thought. She chuckled but immediately
stopped. "You oversleep and now you're laughing alone? Crazy."
"Taetae? Are you up yet? Breakfast is ready." A middle aged woman
came in to her room. Taeyeon didn't move though. She stared at her
mother for a minute or so.
"You've gotten older, umma."
"I did? It's because my children gave me so much things to think of."

Mrs. Kim smiled. She stood up as she patted Taeyeon's behind. "And
look at the mirror to see who really aged. Breakfast, okay?"
The short girl stood and walked towards her closet, which she missed so
much after she moved into her bungalow in Los Angeles. The closet has
its built-in-life-sized mirror. She stared at the reflection.
What she saw was a small girl who got thinner, whose eyes were
swollen from the hours of sleep, and who got more lifeless. She took out
a pair of jeans and a shirt from her folded clothes and went straight to
the bathroom.
It was refreshing, the bath, the complete meal and the sight of her
family... Or so she thought. I should've visited Sacramento regularly.
"Umma, Appa I'll just go out for a walk." Taeyeon embraced her mother
while staring at her father lovingly.
"Okay. Take care."
She started to walk briskly away from her folks. The walking became
running. She ran, again with all her energy and strength.
Taeyeon hid all her pain for a long time that it dumbed her from head to
toe. The feeling of not feeling anything kills her. She waited until her
lactic acid dissipates all throughout her body. The pain crept through her
veins.
That's more refreshing, she thought.
Taeyeon stopped for a powerful breath. She remembered their talk at
the park. "Fany-ah. You shouldn't have pushed it. I was okay. Really
okay. I am happy with what we had again. But right now that all the
feelings came back, I feel like- I don't know." The anger, the angst over
powered her love for Tiffany.

---

For a few days now, Sunny would stay outside Taeyeon's house to check
if the girl was there. But she saw no Taeyeon. She heaved a sigh.

The other doctor didn't leave her family's address somewhere else in
California, even their phone number. Maybe Taeyeon had foreseen a
problem like this and she needed somewhere to run to with no other
people running after her. "You're a smartass."
Ring! Ring!
"Hello?"
"Can we talk?"
Sunny hesitated but did say yes though. "Okay. See you."

Revelations 102

Youre not going talk to me? Jessica muttered. Its been days since Yuri
started acting cold towards her. And they havent reached a month yet in
their relationship. Its frustrating her. Did I do something?

Yuri felt weary. It was as if she was the one who got betrayed. Taeyeon was
the only person whom she got very close to and Jessica was the only person
she loved. And knowing what past they shared is a shock to her. Why did
you do that to Dr. Kim?

Yuri- the blonde tried soothing Yuri with her touch but the latter flinched. It
surprised Jessica. Im sorry. I know it was wrong. If I did the right thing
before, none of these couldve happened. She slumped against the backrest
of her chair.

Would you do that to me too? Betray me? Yuri asked. The truth scared her.

No. Oh my god. Tiffanys my best friend but it doesnt mean Ill do what she
did and it doesnt mean shes a bad person. The blonde explained; tears are
trying to escape her eyes. It hurt her. It hurts to know that the one she love
doesnt trust her. I love you. And whatever mistakes Ive done before, I
learned from them already. It is my first time in a relationship. But I promise I
wont hurt you. Please, help me out.

Yuri saw the sincerity in her girlfriends eyes; the eyes that were once cold
towards her. She could feel the warmth in her words. And thats all she
needed to have to keep her mind from negative thoughts. She slowly
reached for the crying girl and moved closer for a hug. Im sorry. Dont cry. I
trust in you. I was just sad and all these adverse things came into my mind. I
love you too.
Jessica sniffed. As shy as she was, she couldnt hold the fluid thats coming
out of her nose. She tugged the hem of Yuris plaid polo and wiped her nose.

Yuri creased her brows. She was curious what the other girl was doing. What
are you doing?

My nose, it runs. Jessica answered childishly.

The tan girl broke into laughter. She looked at her polo with wide eyes. This
is my favourite! And in all honesty, you really know how to ruin every
moment we have. She continued, still snorting.

The blonde slightly punched the other girls forearm and pouted.

Yuri planted a kiss on her lips. Why are you so cute?

Jessica reached for the taller girls face and the latter tilted her head for an
upcoming kiss, but Jessicas phone rang.

What? Jessica hissed while she took out her phone. Her eyes were wide at
the screen. She looked alternately at Yuri and her phone.
Hello?

Lets meet.

The person on the other line explained all Jessica needed to know.

Okay, Ill take Yuri with me. She gripped her girlfriends hands. Lets go.

Where to? Yuri sulked.

---

Tiffany nervously looked out the glass window of the restaurant. She doesnt
know what to think of. For days, all she did was replay the dreadful event
four years ago. Guilt and shames been toxic to her mind and heart.

She has become thinner and more tired. Her minds clouded with what-ifs
and maybes. What if she didnt do any of her mistakes, is everything okay
now?

She should not have met Brian and maybe he didnt die. Maybe she and
Taeyeon are still together, and happy.

She realized a part of her always loved Taeyeon even after all the years
theyve been apart. She knew how unfair she was with Brian and to herself
for making both of them believe that she is in love with him. I should be the
one who died on that accident Bry. Not you. Ive been bad. Really bad.

Tiff. Jessica patted the lethargic looking girl. You okay?

Jess, Yuri. The latter tried to smile.

Yuri took her seat and crossed her arms over her chest. She cant hide her
disappointment at the ebony head across her. Jessica embraced Tiffany.

She missed the girl, and she was worried sick.

Weve been looking for you. Jessica calmly stated.

Im sorry. Her voice cracked. Tiffany bowed her head, as soon as she saw
her best friend, she just wanted to break down and cry.

Its okay. We understand. Jessica glared at Yuri, whose disapproving eyes

are on her best friend.

What? Yuri silently mouthed.

Jessica dismissed her. She came back to consoling Tiffany. Tiffany, what
happened?

We talked. Its my fault, Jess. Its my entire fault. The ebony head wept
beneath Jessicas tight hug.

No. Of course not. You didnt mean anything then right? We didnt mean to
do those things to Taeyeon. the blonde replied with remorse.

Y-You know?

We kinda talk to Sunny about you and she went berserk on me. You
shouldve not talked about your past, she said. At first, I didnt understand.
And then thats it. She told me that Taeyeon knew all along. She paused.
And she couldnt handle the truth th-thats why she- left.

Oh, Jess. She sobbed, harder. She doesnt care about her shame anymore.
I shouldve known. If I could, Id bring back the time. Ill make things right
Jessica. I will.

Jessica exhaled. Unfortunately, we cant do that. But right now, what we

should do is-

Find Taeyeon first. Sunny interjected from behind. Her face was flat.

Tiffany and Jessica fixed themselves. One straightened up and one went back
to her seat next to Yuri.

Sunny. Im really sorry. Tiffany wiped her tears.

"Don't, Fany. You don't need to apologize to me." Sunny took her seat. She
looked at the blonde girl consoling Tiffany and at the tan intern.

"Sica, Kwon I'm sorry about last time. It's the rush of stress hormones."
Jessica shook her head. "It's okay. I understand."
"S-so, Taeyeon knew all along? How bad I was?" Tiffany's voice trembled,
together with her hands.
Her overworked eyes gazed at Sunny's.
The latter nodded, sadly.
"Those were my stupid mistakes. And she took them all in. Now, I couldn't
blame her for leaving me like that. I deserved worse actually." Tiffany took
the glass filled with water and drank. She was thirsty, she realized, with all
the crying. "I thought she never loved me."
Sunny chuckled in return. "She did. Like a hundred times more than Juliet's
love for Romeo." She sighed. "I'm sorry but I was also really mad at you at
that time."
"I understand Soonkyu-yah."
"No, no. Not that." Sunny raised her hand.
The three looked at her with question marks on their faces. "Taeyeon." She
bowed her head and contemplated. "She went back for you."
"What?" Tiffany's eyes widened.

"After two months of her stay here, that shorty missed you a lot. She was
ready to talk to you and forgive you Fany-ah. Really." Sunny couldn't hide her
sadness in her tone. She was there in the darkest hours of Taeyeon's life.
"She remembered you said you'll wait for her?"
Tiffany nodded. She doesn't remember a single moment she talked or she
saw Taeyeon back then.
"She went back to Tony's."
"She did? When? I don't remember."
"And Taeyeon saw you happily talking to Brian Song. So, her plans, she all
dismissed them."
Tiffany's world crushed again. Another hurtful truth drained her energy and
hopes. No words came out of her mouth.
"She returned to Korea with a heart full of hope, Fany-ah. And she went back
here in LA with a broken yet again heart." Sunny's tears fell from her eyes.
What Taeyeon went through also broke her heart.
Yuri sniffed. Even she could feel the pain her friend felt. She reached for
Jessica's hand and held it tightly. The latter squeezed hers in return.
"Oh my God." Tiffany sobbed. "Why? Why didn't she come to me?"
"She thought of it, coming back to you and clear things up." Sunny smiled,
sadly. "But it was me who stopped her. Fortunately, she listened to me. I was
disappointed in you. And I can't let you hurt her again."
"B-But she should've talked to me! Even if I was with Brian, if she asked me,
I-I'll come back to her. Because I love her so much." Tiffany looked at her
friends with so much remorse and self-pity. "Until now, I think."
"But you're going to marry Mr. Song, right?" It was Yuri's turn to speak.
"Yes, and I realized now it was a mistake if I did." She assumed another
disappointed look on the faces of her friends. "I know, I did another stupid
thing and if Brian lives, hell be the one struggling because I wasnt sure of
the marriage itself. And I hate myself for it."

"Oh, Tiff." Jessica rubbed her best friend's back. "Yes, you made the wrong
decisions but what's important is the lesson you learned."
Yuri sighed. She can never understand Tiffany's logic but she can feel for the
poor girl. "We will find Dr. Kim, Fany. And let's pray everything will be fine.
Hm?"
Tiffany and Jessica smile at Yuri. The withdrawn behaviour she shown has
now melted.
"That's our problem." The short haired doctor interjected. "Taeyeon took an
indefinite leave from Huntington. The head wouldn't want to grant her
request but Taeyeon is a brilliant physician the hospital would do everything
to make her stay. So, the head said yes. She's on leave."
"Where is she now?"
"That" Sunny raised a finger and withdrew immediately. "I don't know."
"Her house?" Jessica asked.
"Nope. She's not there. I've been spying her house for quite a while now.
Never seen her." The short girl replied.
Tiffany silently nodded. She knew Taeyeon's not in her bungalow because
she checked it too, every day.
"Family's?" Yuri asked rather excitedly.
"That again," Sunny thought. "Is my second choice. But I don't know where
they are."
"You're her best friend right? Why don't you know?" Jessica inquired,
scratching her head.
"Taeyeon's a smartass. Maybe she thought she might need a place no one
could come looking for her if she needed some time alone." Sunny said.
It's like a hopeless maze of unending sufferings for Tiffany. She lose Taeyeon
because of her stupidity, she lose Brian while she was doing better with
Taeyeon and now she's losing the girl again.

Time's a *****, it screws everyone along the way. And Tiffany's its favorite
victim. She stared blankly at the meal Sunny ordered for them. She can't eat,
the pain decreased her tastebuds' function.

---

"Hi Mr Smith! How's business today?" Taeyeon greeted the old man behind
the counter.
The man replied with a warm smile, his voice became more like
Dumbledore's. "Ah, Erica. You're back! I'm happy to see you again. You look
tired. Being a doctor drains you out huh?"
"Yes, yes. Mr. Smith. It is really hard. Can I have a mango pineapple shake
please?" Taeyeon took out a few coins.
"No, no. It's on me." Mr. Smith glanced behind him. "Tina, mango pineapple
please! And add crme brulee for my special guest here."
"Thank you."
"Go on, take your seat and I'll bring your food to you." Another smile.
Taeyeon took her seat near the counter. She doesnt want to tire the man
who once became her patient.
"Here you go." Mr Smith put their meal on the table, pulled a chair and sat
next to the doctor. "You looked bothered or unhappy or I don't know.
Something wrong? Did your patient die?"
"No Mr. Smith." Taeyeon voluntarily placed the straws in their drinks. "How's
your heart? Still going strong?"
"Of course! It was all because of you." The man opened two buttons of his
polo shirt and shown Taeyeon his chest. After Taeyeon saw his scar, which he
basically boast around with, he buttoned hi shirt again. "You're good with
treating people, and their hearts too."
"How did you feel when you knew about your disease?" Taeyeon asked, she
sipped her drink.

"It is painful, physically and emotionally. But I don't know, honestly after a
few months of waking up to the same feeling every day, I got tired? Is that a
good metaphor? No, I felt nothing. I didn't care if I get to live or die. I just,"
he paused.
"When you are in pain, chronic pain, there will come a time when your body
can tolerate it. And you just can't feel it." she continued with a bitter smile on
her face. "I didn't know it can also happen in emotional pain. How do we
treat this though?"
"That is a hard question." The old man leaned his back against the backrest
and squinted at the short and fair girl in front of him.
"I want to treat mine. I can't find a way."
"Sometimes, the treatment we've been looking for is also the reason why we
hurt so much." Mr Smith leaned in; hoping that latter got his point. But the
only reaction the doctor could give is a questioning look. "Like me. My
problem's my heart. But the only treatment I could have to survive is another
heart. So, if you couldn't find any means to treat yours, maybe you should go
back to the reason of your pain."
A picture of Tiffany popped into Taeyeon's mind. It saddened her, how much
she misses the girl and how much she wanted to forget her. "What if I can't?"
"Of course you can. What did you tell me when I was about to give up? Never
run until the only choice is to run. You still have a choice, and that's to go
back to where you started." Mr. Smith smiled. "Is this a love problem? You're
too old to go away, Erica. You might end up being a cat lady."
Taeyeon smiled back that progressed to a laugh. "I don't want to be a cat
lady Mr. Smith, thank you."

Realized

Tiffany grunted as she carried Candace on her right arm with effort. Her left
hand holding Carina's. She's gotten weaker, she realized. It was early
morning when she got at Aickman's humble home. She suddenly missed the
place where she and Taeyeon first met after the unfortunate event of Brian's
death.
As days passed, she realized how wrong she was when her mind decided to
love Brian when her heart still shouts Taeyeon's name. Yes, she missed Brian
when he's gone, but it wasn't missing Brian alone. Majority of the feelings
she felt was fear. Fear of being alone again. Because even if Taeyeon left her
four years ago, she never felt alone because Brian was there. And when he
died, she faced the hardship alone.

I am the most stupid and unfair person in the world, aren't I Brian?
Sometimes, we ask ourselves and we ask God what have we done good in

our past lives that we deserve all the good things in our present.
Tiffany, she had everything and she let it slip away for the first time. And
now nothing's left for her.
"It's good to see you again." Irene smiled. "You look exhausted. Straight from
Korea?"
"No, I haven't gone to Korea since I went here. I just want to see if you guys
are doing well." Tiffany smiled weakly. She brought chocolates and knick
knacks for the kids. She was happy to see them, but a pang of sadness crept
when she saw no Taeyeon. She hoped that she might find the girl she's been
looking for.
"Dr. Taetae went here." A girl interrupted, Tiffany didn't recognize for her
mind was boggled by the thought of the short girl.
"She did?" She asked while blankly staring at the house's porch.
"Yes." Irene took Candace from Tiffany, sensing the tiredness from her. "Last
week? Maybe? I can't remember clearly. She also checked on us and said her
goodbye. She'll be leaving for a while she said. Come on in." She led the way
towards the house.
Tiffany stood in front of the photoframes on the wall. She noticed a new
picture added with the hanging ones. It included the two kids, the couple and
a short woman in a floral dress paired with cardigan. Her smile was half
meant, sadness is written on her eyes.
"That's taken when she went here." Adrian thought for a while. "Ah, that's
why your look when you came in looks familiar. Dr. Kim had the same uh,
what do you call it? Anguished look."
"..."
Irene looked questioningly at Adrian, signalling her curiosity why Tiffany
looked sad. "Talk to her." She mouthed in a low voice so that Tiffany couldn't
hear.
"Do you want some tea, Ms. Tiffany?" Adrian asked.
The latter only nodded, eyes still locked at the picture of Taeyeon.

"Come by the porch then when you are uh, ready. That is." The man hastily
walked towards the kitchen and left Tiffany and his wife in the living room.
"Did you two use to date?" Irene's voice cracked due to nervousness.
"Huh?"
"You and Dr. Kim?" Her brows rose.
"Why did you ask?" Tiffany put her bag on the sofa and sat nonchalantly.
"When both of you got here last time, it's weird and awkward. Do you call her
Taetae too?"

---

Irene sipped her tea. Still, eyes locked at the girl across her. Minutes of
silence went on. She asked Adrian to play with their kids while she and
Tiffany talk about Taeyeon.
"Yes, we did. I was the one calling her Taetae."
The latter smiled. "I knew it. I thought you're friends now? You fought?"
"Kind of."
"So, she left you years ago? That was the mistake she did?" The mother of
the twins asked, now more sincerely. "She seemed so guilty and regretful."
"She shouldn't." Tiffany replied, flatly.
The latter didn't respond, waiting for Tiffany to continue. Sometimes we don't
need to always speak to be able to communicate. And sometimes people
needed only silence to get the liberty to speak out themselves.
"I, was-" she paused. "Unfaithful. I didn't know that she knows about it. She
hid it from me and when she had enough, she left me. She just can't take it

anymore." Her tears threaten to fall, she tried to fight it but they won. They
started falling.
Irene took out the unused handkerchief in her pocket and handed it to
Tiffany. "Why?"
"What why?"
"Did you love her?"
The latter nodded while wiping the tears on her face.
"Then why? Why did you do that?" Irene asked with no buckles.
"I-I don't know. I was so stupid, Irene. I loved her but I wasn't contented."
Tiffany sobbed. "I was the worst."
Irene shook her head, not in disgust but in empathy. "I can't-"
"I know. It's unimaginable."
"No. I understand you. Sometimes we tend to take what we have for granted.
We are confident that we won't lose anything in the process. So yeah, we do
stupid things." Irene paused, thinking of words that would fit her point. "It's
our natural flaw."
"..."
"But she forgave you? You've become friends."
"That was before we talked about our past. When we met again, she was like
a newly reprogrammed computer, with no memories and willing to make new
ones." She smiled at the bittersweet memory she and Taeyeon shared when
she went back to LA. "But I insisted on putting an old memory back and she
can't handle it and she exploded."
"Oh." The woman accross her muttered. "Well, that's hard. Another thing
though."
"Hm?"
"Do you love her? Until- now?"

Tiffany looked at Irene with eyes full of agony and regret. "I think I do."
Irene smiled again. "As Dr. Kim always says, do what you got to do Ms.
Tiffany."

---

Okay, so you have to take your meds every after main meal. Breakfast,
lunch and dinner. Dr. Sunny Lee prescribed her patient. Okay?

Yes, thank you doctor. The middle aged woman replied.

Ring! Ring!

Excuse me, thats my phone. The short doctor excused herself. The latter
bid her silent goodbye as she walked out of the room.

Yes?

Soonkyu. Its me, Taeyeon. the person spoke in a tired voice.

Taeng! My goodness, where are you? Were worried sick! Sunny yelled on
the speaker. What the hell did you do again?

Taeyeon withdrew her phone from her ears. She chuckled as she spoke
again. Im fine. Im with my family.

How are they? Where are they?

Its a secret. Taeyeon smiled, knowing her best friend is on segue mode.
Ill be back soon. Just give me some time. I know that you already
know what happened to us. How is she?

Are you forgetting about her so you went AWOL on us? If yes, then dont ask
me about Tiffany. The latter muttered.

I was just checking on her, you know. Taeyeon excused, hoping the other
girl wont push the issue.

Sunny let out a sigh. Youve forgiven her, we know that Taeng. If you dont,
you shouldnt have done all those things to Tiffany. The saving Brian Song
thing that almost caused you your career?

What?

I think yeah, I forgave her. But all these memories, when they came rushing
to me again, they threatened me. Im scared Soonkyu. Taeyeon said.

---

Jessica was pacing back and forth inside their LA office while waiting for Yuri
to answer her phone. She was stressed and excited and happy at the same
time.

Sica? Did something happen? Are you alright? Yuri worriedly answered.
Where are you?

The blonde smiled. Im okay. Relax please. Tiffany and I got an offer to
design for a brand.

Really? Yuri replied in so much joy. Woah, congratulations! We should like,

celebrate right?

Yuri! Too delighted, arent we?

Of course. Im so proud of you, you know that. Thats why Im working my

ass of here. I want you to be proud of me too. The latter said,
meaning every word she just said.

Jessica contemplated, she was not sure if the other girl was just trolling on
her. But the latter sounded sincere. I am proud of you, Yuri. Youre a doctor!

A sneering sound came from the door behind Jessica. The blonde turned
around and immediately saw Tiffanys eye smile. She smiled back.

Stop flirting. I have something to tell you. Tiffany sat down and put the
stack of papers on the space beside her.

Jessica nodded and went back to her phone call. Hey, Tiffanys here. Well
just talk about our offer. Ill call you later. And yes to the meal as long as its
your treat.

What? Im not-

Love you! Jessica Jung hung up. Tiffany laughed on the background.

After the short laugh subsided, Tiffany handed the blonde her papers. These
are my designs.

Instant?

Tiffany looked at her with uneasy expression on her face. I have another
project to do. It is very important.

Jessica glared at her friend. Without telling me, let alone leaving me in this
project?

I wont. If my designs do not pass your requirements, Ill change them. And
for the other matters regarding the offer, I know you can do well.
Besides, Tiffany leaned on the couch and crossed her legs. Look at the
people around you. They are all competitive.

The other girl didnt answer. Still, not considering Tiffanys idea.

Okay, do you want me to be happy?

Jessica nodded, not looking at Tiffany.

Look at me. the ebony head said and the blonde hesitantly followed. Let
me do this one. Please?

Why?

Just because. Love you Jess, thanks! Tiffany didnt wait for a reply. She
knew well her best friend will support her, no matter what. She left the
dumbfounded girl sitting there with scattered papers beside her.

---

A day before

A middle aged man greeted Tiffany as soon as she opened the door. Good
afternoon. So you are theTiffany Hwang Ive been hearing about.
He gestured for the seat across him.

Good afternoon. Tiffany on the other hand flashed her smile as she took
her seat. She spoke in English fluently which impressed the man.

What did you hear about me?

Well, Ericas patients were sending their thanks yous to the hospital, to
Erica and to another doctor called Tiffany Hwang. And I was there
asking who Tiffany was.

The ebony head chuckled. Im sorry. Dr. Kim is my friend and I went to her
rounds. So maybe these patients thought Im a doctor too.

The latter waved her off. No, no. its alright. Thank you for being there. He
clasped his hands. So, what can I help you with?

Tiffany looked from right to left hesitantly. Dr. Anderson, I need Dr. Kims
office.

Why? the head of Taeyeons department asked, leaning over his table.

I have to do something. Please? the girl poked her head at one side.

Dr Anderson rubbed his slightly bearded chin while thinking his options.
Youre not going to plant a bomb or something, are you? he smiled.
The latter shook her head.

Okay.

Sanctuary

A brunette nurse came running towards the tan intern. She was panting and
catching for air when she stopped beside Yuri, who was writing patients data
on her mini notebook.

Dr Kwon! she almost shouted.

The latter put her index finger on her ear and grimaced.

Will Dr Kim resign? the nurse asked, worry and fear all over her face.

It surprised Yuri, she turned to the nurse and clasped the latters head.
What? No. Why are you asking?

The nurse looked everywhere nervously; she came closer to Yuri and
whispered. I went pass her office and saw some of her things and its like
theyre going to change everything. Will she be replaced now?

The intern shook her head. She ran towards Taeyeons office. No. You are not
leaving.

---

Tiffany Hwang! These things are so heavy! And youre not helping. Sunny
taunted as she carried a few boxes of paints, brooms and dustpans inside
Taeyeons office while Tiffany held a single paper, which served as her
blueprint.

The ebony head didnt respond and just continued with her self-musing on
her design. Sunny dropped the boxes with much frustration.

The thudding sound made the latter looked at Sunnys direction. Im sorry.
Im thinking, can we like, place the wooden cabinet there- Tiffany pointed at
the corner near Taeyeons table with the pen on her hand. She tilted her
head at one side in consideration of her idea. Nah, I think it should be better
there. She now pointed beside the glass window.

Sunny didnt respond a thing. She knew well that when it comes to interior
design, no one can argue with the Tiffany Hwang, otherwise, prepare for a
war. But she reacted as soon as she realized a thing. Wait, what? We?

The ebony head nodded. She was busy re-drawing her blueprint.

The latter waved her hand at Tiffany. Wait, wait. What we? There is no we.
Fany, dont you see how huge and heavy Taeyeons things are?

They are huge and heavy but- Tiffany bit the edge of her pen and looked at
Sunny. Enough for us to carry. You said youre helping me?

Sunny heaved a sigh in defeat.

Tiffany called her earlier that day asking if she can help her friend on
renovating Taeyeons office. She said yes without thinking because she has
just woken up. And now, she cant back out. Cant we like ask for help?
Kwons just here in the hospital and Jessica, she-

Jess is busy on our latest project; I just excused my self to get this done with
first. Tiffany cut her off. I dont want to add another work for her. And Yuris
dating her, so yeah, its only the two of us.

The short haired doctor pouted as she placed the boxes on the corner. Gonna
be a long day. Oh wait, we can finish this today right?

Today well move the big things, stack her papers and clean. Tomorrow,
she paused looking at the paints she bought. There were cans of sky blue
colored paint. She took out one. We will paint! Then the day after tomorrow,
we will place everything in their designated positions. Totalled to three days.

Sunnys jaw dropped and her eyes shot open. She asked for a four-day leave
at UCLA hospital to take a break but it seems her break will be spent on
Tiffanys Operation: Make-Taeyeon-Realize-Im-Sincere thingy.

Tiffany smiled widely. Okay then Dr. Lee, lets start. Lets move the cabinet
at the center.

---

Yuri half walked when the chief of residency is also walking towards her
direction. She greeted the doctor and ran as soon as she walked pass him.

Her hearts racing; shes not sure whether its because of the running or
because of Taeyeon leaving.

At the end of the floor, she saw a glimpse of the folders of Taeyeons
patients, her rubiks cube, her pod of peas and
her macbook. She ran again, nervously.

Soonkyu! No! Put it there. A woman almost yelled in Korean.

But its too big, we cant go through here! another one answered.

Whats that? Yuri slowed down her pace and sneaked behind the door. She
propped her head at one side and looked at who are inside the room. Her
eyes were shot open at the sight of two familiar females bickering over a
chair.

Tiffany? Dr. Lee?

The other two stopped their discussion to look at Yuris direction. What are
you doing here? Tiffany asked, letting go of the chair which a foot dropped
exactly at Sunnys.

Aw! Fany-ah! Careful! Sunny jumped in place. The other girl looked
apologetically.

Yuri snorted. What are you guys doing here? she walked towards the two
girls who look at each other with wide eyes. A nurse asked me if Dr. Kims
leaving because she her things outside. I got worried, so I went here.

Sunny cleared her throat. Tiffany here wants to prove shes sincere while
Taeyeons not yet around. And she promised shell design and renovate this
office, so yeah, we are working. On. My. Vacation. Leave. She side glanced
at Tiffany who was still silent.

Yuri nodded. She looked at Tiffany, waiting for a response.

Dont tell Jessi. Please? Tiffany bowed her head.

Why? Well gladly help you know.

Shes busy right now. With our new project and all. I dont want to burden
her or you. Tiffany pointed at Yuri who started repositioning things.

But you want to burden me. Sunny interjected with potency. She shoved
Yuri away to carry the smaller things while Yuri will carry the larger ones.

Tiffany chuckled a bit. This is one of the moments that she miss Taeyeon the
most, the shorter girl would probably be joining the commotion and make
Sunnys life more miserable.

Yuri why are Taeyeons things outside- A blonde suddenly pushed the door
open.

The three stood frozen at the sight of Jessica who was also surprised, seeing
the three so busy.

What the hell is going on behind my back?! she clasped her hips and
weighed her self on one foot.

Baby- Yuri stepped towards the furious Jessica.

The blonde waved her off. Dont baby me. she then looked piercingly at the
other two. Tiff, Soonkyu whats happening?! Why dont I know this?

Jessi, let me explain- Tiffany started.

Jessica stomped her way towards one of the chair. She slumped. Oh yes
Tiffany Hwang, you should explain. Is this the project youre busy with?

The latter nodded. Well have another project soon and I know youre
stressed.

We have a few more days Tiffany. I can help you out here you know. She
exhaled in disappointment. You always do this to me. You didnt ask me to
make your gown; you didnt tell me youre coming here in LA, and now this?

The ebony head looked at her with repentance. Im sorry. The last person I
wanna burden is you. Please dont be mad? she moved closer towards the
petite girl and side hugged her.

Tell me please. Okay? Dont keep things from me. the latter pouted.

I promise. Were okay, yeah?

Jessica let out a bunch of air and nodded.

You two looked like more of a couple than you and me, Sica. Yuri
interjected while putting her arms over her chest.

You dont want to talk to me now?

No.

Why?! Yuri yelled.

Because you kept things from me. Jessicas face turned flat.

I just knew a while ago. The tan tried to explain.

Tiffany on the other hand signaled her friend to stop. Jessica, Yuris right.
She just knew. Accidentally. She was also trying to convince me to tell you
because she knows youll get mad.

Still, no response.

Tiffany slightly nudged Jessica. She leaned in for a whisper. You are being
too much. Everything she says is true, Jess. Dont make her suffer every time
you get mad.

Then Jessica stood up and went in front of Yuri. Okay, I believe you. Sorry?
she tugged Yuris hands.

The other girl pulled Jessica for a tight hug. Dont be mad okay? I miss you.

I miss you too. The blonde smiled. We just went out for a date last night.
You miss me already? she teased more.

Yuri nodded beneath Jessicas hair.

Okay! Sunny interrupted. Dont make Taeyeons office a make out room!
Give some respect will ya? the short haired doctor pulled Jessica away from
the tan girl.

Tiffany, Jessica and Yuri burst in laughter as soon as they remembered that
the couple used the office once for a steamy yet interrupted scheme.

The person who suddenly got out of place started moving things and the
others followed.

Theyve positioned Taeyeons things on their temporary places and put old
newspapers on the floor for the painting of walls.

Jessica, Yuri and Sunny attended Tiffanys project the next day to help the
ebony head. Theyve finished painting the walls in the morning. They went
out for a meal while waiting for the walls to get all dried up.

Has anyone here talked to Taeyeon? Jessica asked, mouth filled with
nachos.

No one responded. The only person who talked to Taeyeon was Sunny but
decided to keep her silence.

So, still no news then? the blonde asked again.

Yuri only nodded blankly. I hope shes fine.

I hope so too. Sunny lied. Tiffany was just musing in her own world. Every
time she hears Taeyeons name, she dies a little bit inside. She misses the
girl, so much. She wanted to apologize and make up with all the pain she
brought the short girl. The lack of Taeyeons presence left her with only hope,
a hope that someday theyll meet and maybe, yes maybe, therell still be a
chance for them.

Theyve finished the whole renovation job on the same day. Everything was
neatly placed inside the office. A lot of changes happened but the four
decided that the newly designed room became better than the last. They
were sure Taeyeon would love it. Tiffany didnt add a touch of pink and
painted the office sky blue with a hint of darker blue at some corners.

Very Taeyeon-y indeed. Sunny mumbled. She patted the ebony heads
shoulder. Good job interior designer
Hwang. This is far from the disastrous designs youve made when we were
younger. She smiled.

Tiffany blushed and chuckled. Yeah, fortunately. Shell like it?

The three nodded unanimously with smiles on their faces.

Oops, one last thing. Tiffany picked up a rectangular cork board on the
floor and dangled it on the wall.

Whats that? Jessica asked.

She tends to forget a lot of things so yeah, she might need this. She
replied, eyes still looking at the wall.

Jessica, Yuri and Sunny bid their goodbyes to Tiffany who chose to stay for a
while. It was getting late and as much as the three wanted to stay, the three
have their own things to do.

Minutes have passed and Tiffany was still sitting on a chair across Taeyeons
while cuddling the pod of peas. She could still remember their first meeting
in LA. A tear fell from her eye. She took out a few colored memo papers from
her bag. And one by one, she posted it on the cork board.

Day Five
Taeyeon-ah,

This is five days after we talked at the park. Im so sad right now. I cant
keep my self from crying. I barely eat and sleep. All I could think of is you
and how stupid I am to have cheated on you.
I dont know what I did good to deserve someone like you.
Im really sorry.
T.

Day Nine
I went by AIckmans today. I saw a picture of you with them. You look sad.
Adrian told me we have the same look on our faces. They said you bid your
goodbye to them because youre leaving for a while. How I wish I could be
there too, where you are right now of course.
I really want to talk to you. I want to see you. I want to wipe your tears and if
I could, I want to heal your wounds.
I miss you.
T.

Day Eleven
I talked to Dr. Anderson. I asked if I could use your office. Hes a good man.
He likes you a lot. He said youre hardworking and a lot of patients love you.
While he was speaking of the good things about you, I was like, I know all
about that because I was the only person who wasted it.
He did permit me though, so yeah. Im gonna renovate your office. Yay!

Renovation day (:
I asked Soonkyu to help me. Shes very sulky. It was her vacation leave and I
used it! I didnt ask for Jessi and Yuris help. Jessica and I received an offer

from a clothing line to design for them. So my best friend will be busy. I dont
want to add work on her busy schedule.
But! The couple accidentally knew. Yuri knew first followed by Jessica who
got furious on us. But we made up. So they helped.
I really really really miss you Taetae.
Am I allowed to use that nickname on you? I miss calling you that too.
Please come back. Lets talk. I am thinking of things to say to you but, none
comes to mind. I wanted to explain my self, but unfortunately even I have no
explanation as to why or how did I do those things to you.
T.

Taetae,
Ill be leaving. Ill go home to Korea. But I swear Ill be back. Please do wait
for me when you get here and Im not around. Ill just try to settle things.
I hope youre eating well and I hope that youre taking care of your self. I
know you. When youre upset, you dont care about your self anymore. And
its not good.
Whatever happened between us and whatever pain I brought you please
dont let it change you. You are a good person, please keep it that way.
You, leaving me years ago was the best decision youve made. Honestly. I
deserved worst actually.
Youve been the best lover, partner, friend and everything you could think of.
I deserved less but you gave me your best. Ive been unfair to you. You loved
me wholly and all I did was hurt you.
But please keep in your mind that I love you. Even if I did those stupid
things, even if I almost got married, it doesnt change the fact that I love
you.
T.

Once the papers were pinned on the board, she messaged Yuri, Jessica and
Sunny.

Hey, Ill be leaving for a while. But Ill be back. If Taeyeon comes, tell her that
Ill come back and talk to her. And can you tell her that Im really sorry too?
Thanks. Loves!

Looking for You

"Taetae, are you sure about this?" Mrs. Kim asked, her face filled with worry
and hesitation. "You can stay."
"I'd love to, umma. But I have to go back to LA." Taeyeon replied, stuffing her
bag with her newly washed and folded clothes. "My patients need me."
"Don't you want to stay here? Davis is leaving a position only for you. They
want you Taetae." Her mother tried to coax the decisive girl.
Taeyeon exhaled. She sat down and soothed the middle aged woman, who's
already in the verge of crying. "Umma, I already pledged my job to
Huntington's. I keep my word, you know that."
Mrs Kim patted Taeyeon's arm. "Okay then. Be careful. Okay?"
"I will umma." The latter smiled.

---

Korea

"Miss Hwang!" Seohyun greeted her boss. She misses the woman who got
close to her heart dearly.
"Hey." Tiffany smiled, showing her crescent shaped eyes. "How is
everything?"
The secretary's eyes sparkled. "Totally fine."
Tiffany smiled once more as she opened the door to her office. Before totally
closing it, she propped her head beyond the door. "Job well done, Juhyun."
So, what to do first? Tiffany dropped her bag on her table, sat down and
swirled in place using her swivel chair. She missed Korea, her office and
everyone around her. But the person she missed the most was not in Korea.
She's back in the States.
She inhaled. She closed her eyes and immediately dozed off. She hadn't had
enough sleep from her flight. Her body needed rest but her mind and her
heart needed to be preoccupied and work is her only way to do that.
A knock on her door woke her up. She opened her eyes. "What is it?"
"Sorry to have disturbed you, Miss Hwang. But, uh- " Seohyun hesitated
when she saw the tired look on Tiffany's eyes.
"Go on." The latter gave her a reassuring look.
"Paper works?" Tiffany's secretary smiled apologetically.
Tiffany stretched her hands and the latter handed her the papers she should
do. It was some designs she made for Jessica which her best friend sent her
for some tweaks she needs to fix. Some are contracts she needs to read and
sign if she agrees. She sighed and waved Seohyun off. "Okay. Thanks."
At exactly three in the afternoon, she finished everything. She sent her new
designs to Jessica and among seven offers, she only signed one.
She massaged her temples. She reached for her cup of coffee and sipped, to
her disappointment, the cup's empty.
Her belly gurgled. She hadn't had a decent breakfast and lunch.

Tiffany fixed her self, took her bag and went for the door.
Her secretary stood up immediately. "Leaving?" She asked.
"Yes. I'll grab lunch and go home. If you need me, just call or text." The
ebony head answered. "Don't overwork Juhyun." She fixed the latter's hair
clip. And headed for the elevator.

Tiffany dined at a restaurant near their office. She ordered korean food,
which she also missed. Unknowingly, she ate everything on her bowl. She
chuckled at the thought of her being so hungry. For the past months, she
never had the appetite to even look at her food. And it surprised her that it
was her first time having the feeling of hunger and fullness after a good
meal.
She ordered a piece of rice cake for a take-out. After paying her bill, she
drove off, headed to the other person she misses.
Tiffany pulled over to the nearest spot she could see. She stepped out of her
sedan and walked slowly toward Brian's tomb. She trembled beneath her
thick trench coat as December wind touched her cheek. She immediately
smiled at the sight of Brian.
Ever so gently, she sat down and put the rice cake over the tombstone. "Hi. I
miss you."
"I wanted to say sorry. First because maybe if I did things right before, we
wouldn't have met and maybe you're still alive right now. Second is, of being
unfair to you. I loved you. I swear. B-but, when I saw her, I became unsure of
everything. And I'm really really sorry. You are a good man." Tiffany paused
for a sob. "I'm such a bad person. I hurt everyone who loves me so dearly
and after losing you, now, I'm losing Taeyeon."
Another batch of chilly wind hit her. It sent shivers on her spine. She wiped
her tears. "Is it right to fight for my love even after everything that
happened? Will you allow me to? Won't you get mad?"
Trees and shrubs have gone bald in preparation for the upcoming winter. So
it surprised Tiffany that a tiny fully blossomed flower fell in front of her. She
picked it up and smiled. "You really are my person. Thanks."

---

Tiffany tightened her jacket. It was really getting colder by the minute. She
stood in front of a high school class room for thirty minutes, waiting for
someone she needed to talk to.
Students pass by her with dumbfounded and amused faces, especially guys.
She politely smiled but didn't really pay attention to them.
The bell rang and bunch of teenagers went out of their rooms. She didn't find
the girl she's been waiting for. She looked at the wooden board atop the door
and saw II-A, she nodded making sure she is right.
A few more minutes passed and the crowd slowly evaporated. She turned her
heels and looked some more.Where is she?
"Unnie?" A soft voice asked behind her. She turned around and saw the face
she's been trying to look for.
"Jiyeon-ah." She mumbled and smiled warmly at the girl. The ebony head
forwarded to get a hug from the younger girl. "How are you?"
"I'm fine. And you?" She gestured for the stairs at the end of the corridor as
she started walking. The older girl followed her.
"I'm okay. So how's school?"
"Hanging in there, unnie." Jiyeon chuckled. "I saw your fiancs accident on
TV. I'm sorry about that." She faced the girl, with a sad smile.
"It's okay. He's happy now." Tiffany wrapped her arm around the girl's waist.
Jiyeon has gotten taller than her. The last time she saw her, the girl was
three inches shorter than her. She realized how long it has been since she
spent time with Jiyeon. "I miss you. Did you miss unnie?"
"I do, of course! But it was you who never visited us. I thought you've
forgotten about me." Jiyeon sulked.

The ebony head smiled and soothed the younger girl. "I'm sorry. Here I am.
You've gotten prettier by the way. That brace you had on your teeth way
back helped a lot."
Jiyeon blushed. "Have you eaten yet? My treat if you haven't, that is." She
stopped on her track to wait for Tiffany's reply.
"Your treat then!"
They both beamed.
They went their way to the school's cafeteria. As soon as they got their meal,
they sat at one of the tables outside the noisy hall. They ate their food while
talking about their lives, random things and people.
"So, what really brought you here unnie?" Jiyeon asked, out of the blue. She
saw the questioning look at Tiffany's face. "I know there is a deep reason of
your visit. Jeonju is quite far, you know."
The latter awkwardly cleared her throat. "Jiyeon-ah." She hesitated.
"Is it about my cousin? Taeyeon unnie is not here, in case you're looking for
her." She tilted her head.
"I found her, Jiyeon. And I lost her." Tiffany mumbled.
"So, how can I help you?"
"Can you tell me their address in California?" The older girl asked, hoping
she'll get the answer she's looking for.
"But unnie-"
"Please?"
The younger one swallowed, anyone could never say no to those eyes.
"Okay, give me a pen and paper."
Tiffany handed her what she needs and she started writing down. "I don't
know if they're still living there. But the package we got three months ago
has a returning address from Sacramento so, yeah there's a big chance that

they are residing there still." Jiyeon said, head bowed. She handed her the
paper. "Unnie. Given the chance that you'll be back together again-"
"What?" Tiffany's eyes were wide open.
"We know. She never tells us, but we know. The way you look at and treat
each other says there something more between you two. I was young then,
yes, but I could feel it." Jiyeon paused. She shoved a piece of bread in her
mouth and chewed. "We love you, unnie. So even if you two both are girls,
and even if there's no way Taeyeon unnie would bear a Kim, it's fine. As long
as it's you." Jiyeon chuckled, also having the unique sound that Taeyeon has.
Tiffany had to smile.
"..."
"Until now, we don't know what happened to you guys." She added. "She
flew to US and you got engaged. But we will be happy if you get back
together. Another thing?" She asked.
"What is it?" Tiffany replied, still surprised.
"Don't tell anyone you got the address from me. Okay?"

---

"Taeyeon. Be careful and visit us more often." Mr Kim hugged her daughter
who's bound to leave them again.
"I will appa. I'm sorry I got so busy." Taeyeon said. She released from her hold
from her father and put her bags in her SUV's compartment.
A younger girl appeared from the door and poked Taeyeon's behind. "Unnie,
buy me a Chanel bag for my birthday. Okay?" She smiled teasingly.
"Brat." Taeyeon mumbled as she poked her sister too.
They stopped teasing when they both heard a sob from their mother who's
been silent.
"Umma, stop crying. LA isn't that far. You can go visit me or I can go visit you

like this. Oh come on." Taeyeon rubbed Mrs Kim's back. She leaned her head
on the woman's shoulder.
"Oh my Taetae. You have grown so fast."
The doctor snorted. "Umma, you've been saying that after I finished my
singing lessons, which is seventeen years ago, by the way."
The older woman playfully spanked Taeyeon. "Just be good and everything
will be alright. We will miss you."
Taeyeon leaped towards the driver's seat. Before she stepped in, she waved
her hand. "I'll miss you too. Visit okay?"
She closed the door and drove off, not looking back. She's been fighting her
tears for an hour. She doesn't want her family to see her so fragile. But as
the distance grew wider between her and her family, her tears started
falling. She found the peace she needed during her stay with her loved ones.
And leaving hurts her.
It was a long drive but Taeyeon didn't notice the hours. Her head has been
busy thinking about her situation and the reason of why she's in agony.
A part of her just wanted to see Tiffany but a larger part of her doesn't want
to. It's been a battle in her brain.
Her original plan was to drive by the hospital first. But her eyes are getting
tired so she decided to just head home.
Her humble house hasn't changed. Leaves from the trees and shrubs
surrounding her house were scattered. There were no new letters for her in
her mailbox. She lazily dragged her feet towards her house.
Taeyeon sat down on her cozy couch, closing her eyes. She had fallen asleep.
Two hours passed and she slowly opened her eyes. It was already seven in
the evening.
She grunted as she saw the bags she needed to unpack. I still have a few
days.
She took her towel and clothes from her room, and bathed herself. After
feeling all new and refreshed, she pulled a plastic bag from one of her bags

which contains food packed by her mother. Putting the bag in the oven, she
reheated it.
For a year, never did she felt lonely for living alone in her house. But tonight,
she felt empty. Taeyeon dismissed the thought and tried to enjoy her meal.
She still has a week to enjoy her leave. But no plans came into her mind. So
she just decided to spend her remaining time at home.

---

Umma, appa. Good afternoon. Tiffany softly smiled at the old couple who
greeted her on the gate.
Ah, Miyoung. Mr Song smiled. Its been months. Come, have a late lunch
with us.
Mrs Song side hugged her. You look tired. Are you okay?
Yes, umma. Im okay.

The three adults ate over stories of experiences they had for the past
months. It was peaceful even if they occasionally put Brian as a subject.
Have you met anyone yet? The older woman then asked, which surprised
the eating Tiffany.
U-umma?
Have you met anyone? Dated? Mrs Song repeated, a smile on her face.
The latter shook her head.
Oh, my poor child. Are you thinking about how Brian would feel? Or how are
we going to feel? The man butted in, in which Tiffany did not answer. The
old couple looked at each other with sad expression on their faces.

For all they know, Tiffany went through a lot. And they could only wish a
better life for the girl.
Slowly, Mrs Song reached for Tiffanys hand. Stephanie, you should go out
and meet people, my dear. Im sure my son would like to see you happy, not
like this, all tired and sad. She paused as she waited for Tiffany to look at
her. You are our daughter, no matter what happened with Brian. And the
only thing we hoped for is your happiness.
Tiffany never expected to hear those words from Brians parents. Yes, she
considered how they would feel should she decide to give her self a chance
to be loved and be in love again. Umma, appa, you are both close to my
heart and I cant possibly-
No, no. Mr Song shook his head. Just go and be happy. We will support you
all the way. You understand?
Tiffany nodded and smiled. She lightly squeezed the old womans hands.

--Tiffany slowly stepped out of her car. She eyed the two storey house in white.
A beautiful garden surrounded it. The gate wasn't that high. She tiptoed a bit
and saw the family that's missing a member eating a meal outside their
house.
She pushed the doorbell on her left. And stepped backwards.
A woman wearing a blue apron welcomed her. "Miyoung?" Her eyes widened
in surprise but changed immediately in a soft, smiling look. "Miyoung-ah!"
Mrs Kim hugged the ebony head tight. "Honey," she called out for her
husband. "Miyoung is here. She visited us."
Hayeon, Taeyeon's younger sister leaped towards the older people. "Unnie!
Woah, this is a surprise." She beamed and gave Tiffany a big hug. "You look
prettier than last time I saw you."
"Ah, Miyoung-ah." Mr. Kim smiled. "Come on in. Have you eaten yet?"
On the way towards the house, Tiffany meticulously looked for her prospect.

Taeyeon wasn't around.

This is way harder than hide and seek, Taeyeon.
"You should've come earlier unnie," Hayeon interrupted her from her selfmusing. "Taeyeon unnie stayed for like a month here."
Tiffany's expression saddened. Albeit the disappointment she felt, she smiled
a bit. "I am too late then."
The older woman sensed Tiffany's true feelings. "Honey, Hayeon, could you
fix our snack? Prepare one for our Miyoung."
"But umma-" Hayeon was still clinging to Tiffany.
"Hurry!" Her mom replied.
Mr Kim sighed and pulled her younger daughter. "Come on, help me out
there."
After the two got busy on their work, Mrs Kim patted Tiffany's arm. "Come
inside. They'll be pretty busy out here."
They entered the house with silence. After looking around, Tiffany could only
think of Taeyeon, of what has she done for a month in this house.
Pictures of Taeyeon dangled on their wall. Tiffany smiled at each one.
"How are you Miyoung?" Mrs. Kim asked, her face full of sincerity and longing
for the girl she treated as her third daughter.
"Umma-" Tiffany stopped. Regretting what she just said.
The older woman chuckled. "I am still your umma."

Destiny

You and Taetae looked totally the same. Mrs Kim recognized the expression
on Tiffanys face. They were sitting on the living rooms sofa.

Umma?

Both of you looked lifeless. You smile, you giggle and laugh but none of
them were truly meant. She narrowed her eyes. Why?

Miyoung-ah.

Umma, did you know? Tiffany asked. Me, and Taeyeon?

Yes. Of course. It was easy to easy. Right from the very start, dear. The
woman shook her head with a soft smile. We really didnt like the idea but
we love you. We did accept your relationship eventually because you,
Miyoung are a good girl.

Tiffany started crying on Mrs Kims remarks about her. The guilt was pouring
in again. Im sorry.

No, dont cry. Taeyeons mother scooted near the ebony head. I though
both of you were doing well. Thats why I was surprised when she agreed on
going here because knowing my daughter, she wont let herself be apart

from you. I was happy at first. She paused. But when I saw how lonely she
was, I got sad. What happened?

As much as she wanted to stop her embarrassing cry, her tears failed her.
Umma, Im really sorry for hurting your daughter. Its my entire fault.

No, Miyoung. Stop crying. Whatever it is youve done, shell forgive you. She
keeps her feelings and then explodes but shell definitely forgive you. You
know that.

I hurt her. She looked straight to the womans eyes. W-will you forgive mme too?

The latter smiled sadly, feeling empathic to the girl. Ive seen how hurt she
was. It broke my heart too. Whenever I asked her about you, shell just stay
silent and sometimes, shes about to cry. But I know, you didnt mean
anything so yes, I forgive you. Youre a good person my dear. She wiped the
brimming tears on Tiffanys cheeks. Stop crying now. Do you like red velvet
cupcakes?

Tiffany chuckled a bit and nodded.

---

Taeyeon sneakily took her way from the hospitals parking lot towards her
office. She doesnt want anyone to see her.

She took out her key and opened the door. To her surprise, the room was
totally different from the room she left more than a month ago. She closed
the door, thinking what couldve happened. She looked around, making sure
she was in the right room. She mentally smacked her head when she realized
that the key she holds opened the door, so it was really her office.

Hesitantly, she withdrew her hands. Taeyeon tried to remember if she has
received any mails or messages from her boss that shes fired or replaced.
But none came into mind.

Dr Anderson, am I fired? she asked the doctor who was concentrating on

his new iPad. The latter repositioned his glasses to look at the person who
didnt even knock the door before entering. It was Taeyeon.

Ah, Erica. I am delighted to see you. Come take your seat. He motioned for
the chair across him. Youre not fired.

But the office-

Dr Andersons eyes shot open at the memory of Tiffany who asked if she can
renovate Taeyeons office. Have you seen it? Do you like your reinvented
office? I havent seen it. I forgot to do so every time.

Taeyeon couldnt understand a thing. Reinvented?

Yes! Tiffany Hwang asked me if she can do-

When the middle aged man mentioned the girls name, she ran back to her
office, not caring if she just disrespected her boss. She just wanted to see her
room.

Taeyeon slowly opened the door again, after making sure the umpteenth
time that the room was right. She saw blue, lots of blue. Newly repositioned
cabinets, tables, couch and her plushies.

She doesnt like the idea of someone touching her things. But when it comes
to the love of her life, everythings okay.

Taeyeon smiled as she touched her hands on her things. She stood in front of
the wall, where the rectangular cork board was placed and where Tiffanys
notes were pinioned.

But please keep in your mind that I love you. Even if I did those stupid
things, even if I almost got married, it doesnt change the fact that I love
you.

Love? Shouldnt it be loved?

Oh.

OH.

Her smile transformed into a wide grin. It was unconsciously done though.

If what I was thinking right now is right, then no, no, no. This isnt right.
You are hallucinating Kim Taeyeon.

She wagged the idea of off her head. She took the note from the board and
slid in her notebook. She doesnt want anyone other than her reading
Tiffanys notes.

Taeyeon sat down and a smile was plastered on her face while lazily spinning
her swivel chair. She liked what Tiffany had done. No, that was an
understatement. She loved what Tiffany had done.

After a bliss, sudden rush of sad emotions came running through her. She
doesnt really know if shes ready to face the person she missed the most.

She thought of Brian. If Tiffany still loves her, then Brian is another victim of
this mess. It squeezed her heart.

The reason of this ****ed up-ness was the person she and Brian Song loved
the most. But can she blame Tiffany? No, she thought. Never. We share our
own faults here.

But Brian, the only thing he did was catch Tiffany. He didnt do anything
wrong but he suffered the worst.
It hurt her.

Why should these things happen to us?

Before she can get melodramatic again, she stood up and looked for her
intern, Yuri.

Eat well, okay? the blonde was holding onto her girlfriend lovingly. I dont
wanna leave yet.

But you have to work. The tan intern replied, pouting. Ill miss you so
much though.

Jessica instinctively wrapped her arms around Yuris waist and pulled the girl
closer to her. Yuri kissed the blondes forehead in response.

Taeyeon who was purposely walking behind them was resisting her laugh.
Still flirting in my hospital, I see. She spoke.

The two turned their heads at the familiar voice.

Taeng? Jessica asked in awe.

Dr Kim! Yuri dove herself to the short girl and gave Taeyeon a tight hug.
She was genuinely happy to see Taeyeon.

We were so worried about you! How are you? Gosh, youve gotten thinner.
This isnt good. Did you see your room? We helped Tiffany fix it! her words
were unending due to overexcitement.

Yuri.

Oh, I miss you! But you should eat well. She was still swaying the girl in her
arms. Jessica was smiling from behind. Shes happy to Taeyeon again.

Yuri! Taeyeon wiggled to escape from Yuris hold. Im fine. Okay? How are
you guys?

They shared a good conversation over a good drink at a caf near the
hospital. The couple really missed the girl. And they couldnt deny that a part
of them want to ask the Taeyeon what really happened and what will happen
next to her and to Tiffany.

Youve seen your office? Jessica nonchalantly asked.

Taeyeon nodded with gratitude. I liked it. Thanks.

You should thank Tiffany. The other one replied.

The doctor smiled. Yeah, I think I should.

Taeng, Im really sorry for what happened. I f I did the right thing as
Tiffanys friend, Jessica mumbled but Taeyeon waved her off.

Sica. Its okay. Its done. Taeyeon draw a circle on the table cloth. I share
my own fault too. If I chose to talk to her sooner then maybe everythings in
its rightful place now.

Will you forgive me? And Tiffany?

Another smile. I already have.

What will happen to you- Yuri paused. Both?

Were going to talk and lets just hope we could start over again. Taeyeon
looked at Jessica. And I mean no grudges. Youre aware that I could never
stay mad at her, arent you?

The latter shook her head with a smile on her face. But why did you leave?

I needed some time to think things through. Going through that alone is hell
you know. And somehow, I found peace. The peace in my self I needed to
make the peace with Tiffany be possible. Taeyeon nodded in agreement to
herself. Where is she now, by the way?

None of us could have known. You too loved playing hide and seek. Its
really disturbing. Yuri chuckled. The other two also giggled. She cleared her
throat in realization. Given the chance, will you be able to open up your self
for the both of you?

Hm?

I dont know. With the past weve shared and Brian, he-

Jessica exhaled. If Tiffanys happy, hell also be happy.

Hope so.

---

Umma, appa, thank you for the accommodation. I shouldve gone home
yesterday but the way you treat me makes me want to stay longer. So Im
still here. Tiffany smiled. She wrapped her left arm at the womans shoulder
and her right on the mans waist.

The old couple was walking Tiffany towards her car. Tiffany stayed the night
at their home. She felt like the earlier years, having a second family in
Taeyeons.

She missed the feeling. And it shouldve been better if Taeyeon was there.

Tiffany slept in Taeyeons room. She couldnt deny it was her exs because
the same scent still lingers there. Taeyeons diplomas and graduation
pictures hanged on the wall.

The girl was all smiles on those photos. Tiffany ended up sleepless that night
thinking what if she was there in Taeyeons glorious moments? Will the girl
be happier?

Miyoung, youre always welcome. You know we love you like our own
daughter. Mr Kim chuckled. Tell your daddy to come visit too. A chess
game wont hurt.

Ill surely tell him that appa. She replied.

Do you know how much we missed you, Miyoung-ah? the old man looked
at the girl. Me and Hayeon always asked Taeyeon if she could bring you
here. That little lady just dismisses us.

That tore a part of Tiffanys heart. Well, Im here.

Should be better if unnies here too. Hayeon suddenly showed up from

behind. Thank you for staying the night unnie. I enjoyed our movie
marathon.

It was Tiffanys turn to chuckle. I did too. And oh, she remembered a thing.
Your birthdays coming up. What do you want for a gift?

Hayeons face lit up. I knew it. You should be my sister instead of that
shorty. Anything from you would do. She pulled Tiffany for a tight hug. Visit
here often, okay? And bring Taeyeon unnie too.

I will.

Tiffany bid her goodbyes to the family. With the hope of seeing Taeyeon back
in LA, she drove off.

---

With a shoulder bag and a cozy trench coat, Taeyeon opened the door to her
favourite coffee shop. December is her favourite month of the year. One is
because of Christmas and another is, the temperatures cold, like in Korea.

She stood in front of the counter, contemplating on what to order. She bit her
lip as she realized shes torn between two coffees.

A soft chuckle came from a woman behind her, whom Taeyeon never realized
was there. Undecided, arent we? she asked, eyes locked at Taeyeon.

Yeah. Taeyeons eyes still on the list. She noticed a woman stood alongside
her with a smile Taeyeon could not recognize from her periphery.

The woman on the other hand was excited and happy. Unfortunately the
short doctor was too busy to even notice how delighted she is. Any top
choices?

Hm, caramel macchiato and chocolate hazelnut. Taeyeon rubbed her chin.
Yup thats the two.

Knowing you, go for the latter.

Knowing what? Taeyeon turned to her side and saw a beautiful girl. Her lips
voluntarily curved to a wide smile. The other girl was smiling back at her.

She wanted to pounce on the girl right there and then. A tight hug and a lot
of I miss yous wouldnt hurt, she thought. But instead, she stayed rooted in
place, still mesmerized by the view.

Taeyeon? You okay?

Tiffany. H-hi.

The ebony head chuckled at the stutter. Hi. She went to the counter. Two
orders of chocolate hazelnut please?

Extra sweetness? the woman behind the machine asked. Tiffany shook her
head. The orders were given to her immediately. She looked at Taeyeon once
again and flashed a warm smile, with a hint of longing.

Taeyeon-ah.

Hm?

Close your mouth and come have a seat with me. Tiffany gestured towards
a table far from other customers.

Start On

On Taeyeon's mind, maybe Mr Smith is right. The treatment she really

needed will be found on the same reason she was hurt.

Just by seeing the other girl made her heart mend a little. And she liked it.

After a long time of blankly sipping her coffee every morning, finally came
the day she was able to savour her drink because Tiffany was with her.

"Sorry." Tiffany finally spoke, when she couldn't take Taeyeon's stare
anymore. But the thing is, her heart swelled at how she looked at her. The
small smile and sincere eyes meant everything to her.

"Hm?"

"For everything. I wanted to somehow defend myself but I can't, because

what I did is not worth defending for." Tiffany bowed her head in shame. "I'm
really sorry. You were hurt and I was there doing those things with no guilt at
all. I was so full of myself. I took you, and us for granted."

Taeyeon stood up and went beside the crying girl. She reached for Tiffany's
chin and wiped the tears that are brimming from her eyes. "Fany-ah. Stop
crying now. It's okay, it's okay. What's important now is we learned from what
we've done. I can't stay mad at you that long, can I?"

"..."

"I was hurt."

"I know." She sobbed again.

"But, I was wrong to ignore the issue. If I had talked to you about it, maybe
all of these couldn't have happened." Taeyeon said. "And I'm sorry for leaving
you like that. It's rude."

"No, what I did was ruder."

"Nope, mine was."

"No."

"No."

They both chuckled. "This is childish." Tiffany wiped her tears. "You forgive
me?"

"Yes, yes I did. I always do Fany-ah." Taeyeon pinched her cheek and smiled.
The latter beamed in return.

"Friends?"

"Friends." Taeyeon patted Tiffany's arm. "Smile now. I hate to see you crying.
These weeks of going AWOL on our friends including you made me realize
things. And on the process, I forgave you and I forgave myself."

The ebony head wiped her tears and inhaled softly. She looked at Taeyeon
and her insides relaxed on their own.

"Thanks for the whole office renovation." Taeyeon sat back down. "It's
beautiful."

"Don't mention it. I promised you, right?" Tiffany replied. "We should've done
it together though."

"My bad then, I left." Taeyeon snickered. "You look good by the way."

"You miss me, don't you?" The latter teased.

"Ha. Ha." Taeyeon silenced a bit. "Yeah I do."

Tiffany beamed. "I missed you too."

---

"So you two are really doing okay now?" Jessica asked, eyeglasses hanging
at the tip of her nose.

"Yes. Great, actually." The ebony head replied.

Jessica snorted.

"What?"

"Why do I get this feeling that you love this?" Jessica pulled her glasses off
her face and stared at Tiffany.

The latter's eyes shot open. "Really? That obvious?"

Both of them laughed at her exaggeration.

"You're like a high school student Tiffany."

Another laugh.

Beep!

"Fany-ah, one of patients offered me food. Would you like to join me in?"

And another.

"I'm kinda expecting for a yes. :)"

Tiffany casually took the cup of coffee beside her and hid her grin behind it.

"I can see that, Tiff." Jessica stated matter-of-factly. "Was it Taeyeon? If she's
asking you out, go."

Tiffany didn't respond as she excitedly pulled her bag not far from her.

"And one more thing?"

"What is it?"

Jessica paused. "Hm, can you check on Yuri too if she's really at the
hospital?"

Tiffany hid her snicker with a pursed lip. "Jessica Jung, seriously?"

"Just do it."

"Oh, you insecure little brat. Fine."

"You don't know what it feels to have a good looking and smart intern as a
girlfriend Tiff." Jessica glared at Tiffany. "Not to mention, she's also hot."

With that Tiffany broke into laughter. "Oh my god. You can ask her yourself
you know."

"How would I know if she's telling the truth?" Jessica asked while adding
colors on her sketches.

"Oh come on. You don't have to know, because you can feel it."

The latter only shrugged. "I'm serious. If only I could go at the hospital every
freaking hour, I'd do it. She has tons of fans out there. I might kill each one of
them."

"Did you tell her that?"

"No." She said with a flat tone.

"She's not doing anything Jess. I think Yuri has no intentions on hurting you."
Tiffany said truthfully. "Be a detective if she started acting otherwise."

"Just go." It's not that she doesn't trust Yuri. At first, everything's going fine
between them. But those people inside the hospital don't stop hitting on her
girlfriend and it's bugging her. Jessica exhaled.

---

"That was good Taetae." Tiffany collapsed on her chair.

Taeyeon put their plates inside her washroom for her to fix later.

"Why are you silent?"

She smiled at Tiffany. "I missed you calling me that. It's very childish, but
when it comes from you, it's totally fine with me." Taeyeon casually flip the
pages of her patient's chart in hopes the other won't notice her flushed
cheek.

"Taetae?"

"Hm?"

"Taetae?"

"Hm?" This time Taeyeon looked up. Once more her heart jumped up and
down at the sight of Tiffany staring cutely at her. "What is it?"

"Nothing. I missed calling you that too." Tiffany stood up and went in circles
as she studied every detail of the doctor's office. She particularly stopped at
the corkboard only to find it empty. "Where are my notes?"

"I figured you'd ask." Taeyeon watched the ebony head in amusement. "You
see, I'm not the kind of person to just give away important things. I want
them for my self." She smirked at the sight of Tiffany being coy all of a
sudden. She took her way in front of Tiffany. She lifted the latter's chin to
look at those mesmerizing eyes. "I wanna do something."

"Hm?"

Taeyeon lunged in for a tight embrace. As soon as she felt Tiffany's body
against hers, all the insecurities, all the mistrusts, all her adverse thoughts
dispersed in thin air. She tightened her hold. She buried her head on the
girl's chest, feeling the thud of her heart. It was a melody to her ear.

On the other hand, Tiffany wrapped her arms around the short girl. A tear
escaped her eye as the familiar feeling of having Taeyeon in her arms came
in bliss for her. It was the gesture she misses the most.

At random nights, Taeyeon would ask if she could be cuddled by Tiffany. Just
a tight embrace was enough. No kissing, no make out and no sex. Just a
serene moment of having each other on the bed until both fell into slumber.
Tiffany would not ask nor demand for more. She loved those kinds of nights.
And today, once more, she finally felt the happiness she had before. "Tired?"

"Yes."

She hesitantly let go of Taeyeon. "Lie on the couch then."

The latter huffed and rubbed her tired eyes. Tiffany had to smile at the child
like Taeyeon. Taeyeon pouted though.

It was the pout Tiffany knew well. The pout the short girl does everytime her
requests were not granted. "I'll hug you."

"Yey!" Taeyeon yanked Tiffany towards the couch on the center of her office.
Calmly, with smiles on their faces, they positioned themselves and held each
other snuggly.

"Sleep tight there, Taetae."

And just like before, the tranquillity led them both to deep sleep.

After an hour or so, Yuri, decided to enter the Taeyeon's office quietly. The
door cracked open slowly, as she pushed it. She found no one. She walked
towards the table with creased brows. "Where could she be?"

She turned around to see Tiffany cradling Taeyeon in her arms while her
senior was peacefully sleeping. Yuri unconsciously smiled while she leaned
her behind on the edge of Taeyeons wooden table.

Before she could straighten up and leave the two alone, Tiffany eye's pried
open. "Hi." She said huskily.

"Hi. Go on sleeping. I'll be leaving now." Yuri replied.

Tiffany gestured her hand to a halt. "Wait for me." She steadily and slowly
lifted Taeyeon's head and withdrew her arm. She stood up and fixed herself.
She rummaged for a pen and a pink paper.

Taetae,

I just went out with Yuri. Message me when you're already awake.

T.

Tiffany posted the short letter on the tea table beside the sofa.

---

"How did you two found each other?" Yuri asked, leaning herself on the
backrest of the chair with a grin.

"I needed caffeine one day so I pulled over a coffee shop. There she was."
Tiffany answered. "Very random, I'd say."

Yuri snorted. "Don't tell me you also believed it was destiny?"

The other girl laughed too. "Keep quiet."

The tan intern smiled softly. It made her feel everything will be alright
between all of them. "I'm happy."

"Me too." Tiffany casually sipped from her drink. "Anyways."

"Hm?"

"Since I've become busy with my own life, I never got to talk to you about my
best friend."

"Oh. Okay." Yuri leaned in. "What about her?"

Tiffany took out a paper wherein she wrote all the issues she wanted to clear
with Yuri. "First, are you faithful?"

The girl was taken aback at the sudden question. "Of course!"

"You're quite popular."

Yuri's brows raised. "Ah, so?"

"I just dont want to see her get hurt. Please dont do what I- Tiffany had to
pause at the memory of what she did years back.

The other girls brows shot up but immediately repositioned themselves as

Yuri realized what Tiffany was about to say. She wont be. Trust me here,
Fany.

The latter nodded blankly.

Hey.

Y-yeah?

Yuri exhaled. Guilt can really be seen on Tiffanys eyes. Both of you are okay
now. Why not try put the past behind and start anew. Im sure Dr Kim would
like that.

The ebony head awkwardly fiddled on her seat. What if I do something

stupid again? And shed go away and never come back? The very thought of
Taeyeon leaving stabbed through her heart. I cant afford to lose her.

You wont lose her. Yuri patted Tiffanys fist over the table. It was shaking
due to tightness. This aint young love anymore. Both of you are grownups
now. You know what you are doing.

Tiffany nodded in agreement. She cleared her throat. Thank you. And I know
it isnt much since youve been dating for months but, Im giving you my
blessing. Im happy she met you, Yuri. Youre a good person and a good
friend. It was a sincere statement. Tiffany was too immersed in her own
dilemmas that she didnt bother giving her best friend the support she
needed. She missed a lot, she was sure.

I love her.

Another smile escaped the other girls mouth. She knew Yuris words were
true. She loves you too. So yeah, if you hurt her, Ill be the one to hide her
from you. And youll never find her Kwon Yuri. I swear with all my pink stuff.

Yuri had to laugh. Okay. She nodded, wiping her eyes. I wont hurt her. I
swear with all your pink stuff.

And please do assure her that you wont do anything. The brats a little bit
insecure with your fans.

Add them all up, Yuri sipped the soda from her glass, leaving only pieces of
cube ice in. she propped her head on her palms and looked at Tiffany dead
straight to the eye. But they would never compare to my baby.

Tiffany rolled her eyes, so hard that they might pop out soon out of her
sockets. Couldnt believe youre as cheesy as your boss.

----

Taeyeon sat up groggily once she felt the need to wake up and go to the
bathroom. She smiled at the thought that that was the best sleep she had for
years but frowned when she realized Tiffany wasnt there beside her. She
looked around to find a small note posted on the table.

She was about to stand up and give Tiffany a message when the door
creaked open and there she saw the ebony head quietly entering the room.
Taeyeon unconsciously grinned. No need to be silent Fany-ah. Im awake.

Tiffany was obviously surprised by hearing Taeyeon speak. She straightened

up and smiled back at the shorter girl. Hey. Thought youre still asleep since

you didnt text me yet. She took out her phone and showed the screen at
Taeyeon.

The latter did the same. I was about to. See?

Oh.

Taeyeon slouched back at her couch and put her feet on the table in front of
her. So, what did you do with Yuri? she patted the space next to her
conveying the other girl to sit down.

Tiffany relented. I kinda gave her the talk about my best friend.

The talk?

Yeah.

You mean, the dont-hurt-her-or-else-Ill-hurt-you-too talk? Taeyeon looked

at Tiffany with an amused face. It was natural for Tiffany to give that kind of
words to people who get involved with her friends.

It was late though because theyve been dating for months and its only
now that I was able to talk to Yuri.

Why?

Tiffany turned her head and looked at Taeyeon with sincerity. I was busy
looking for you, thats why.

---

What?! The two woman in flushed cheeks exclaimed in unison.

The short haired blonde smiled in spite of the menacing looks her friends
were giving her. Jessica and Yuri just exchanged glances at each other.

Soonkyu, just what in the world are you trying to do here? Taeyeon finally
said after regaining her calm.

Tiffany nodded. This is- I dont know, very immature.

Her friend shook her head, still a wicked smile plastered on her face. I will
let you calling me Soonkyu pass this time since Im sure you were quite
surprised with what I have done. But tell me, Sunny looked at the other
confused couple beside her, hoping for a response she wants them to give
her. It is a good idea, right?

Jessica pouted and looked at Yuri, who in return slightly shook her head.
Excuse us. The tan intern stood up pulling Sunny behind her. Once they
closed the door behind them, Yuri frowned at her friend. Dr. Lee, what is
this? We should be keeping them together, not taking them apart! she
whispered irritably.

I am doing the former Kwon Yuri. A calm but a sure reply.

What?

Trust me on this one, kay? Sunny smiled and walked pass the
flabbergasted intern. She stood proudly in front of her other friends. So,
she clasped her hands together. Tomorrow night, you two will be on different
blind dates. She looked alternately at Taeyeon and Tiffany. Youll like these
guys. Theyre good looking and rich and all the best in the world.

Elope

"So uh," Taeyeon lightly nudged the girl walking beside her. "What do you think about Sunny's idea?"
It was late at night. Taeyeon and Tiffany decided to take a short walk after their dinner with their
friends.
Tiffany shrugged. She pulled her coat tighter as the chilly December wind touched her skin.
For hours after Sunny told them what she'd planned for the two, Taeyeon and Tiffany couldn't figure
out what to decide on.

If they weren't too preoccupied by their own musings, it would be easy for them to notice that neither
of them loved the idea Sunny blurted out just a while ago.
As safe as the distance they have between them, an accidental brush of their fingers could still give
them the butterflies.
"Would it be a bad idea?" Tiffany asked, silently hoping that the shorter girl would say yes, it would.
"I don't know." Taeyeon said, praying to the stars that the other girl would also think that none of
this is right.
"Would you like to try?"
Poof. That was the magic question both of them avoided in the first place. It was only Tiffany who
had the heart to ask first.
"The whole dreamy guys thing is tempting, but-"
The ebonyhead didn't let Taeyeon finish her question in fear that she might get hurt. "Okay. Let's try
it then."
Taeyeon was shock and hurt at the same time. "Are you sure?" She asked, disappointment very
apparent.
"You said so yourself it is tempting." Tiffany tried hard to sound nonchalant. "So let's try."
Taeyeon exhaled, finally feeling defeated. And here I thought we would have another chance. "Okay."

---

Tiffany collapsed on her swivel chair with a deep sigh. She looked around not quite sure of what to
think of first. The mistake of one of her staff caused the collapse of their ongoing project and they
had to start again. She rested her forehead on her table. And then the blind date later that day came
in her loaded mind. She regretted that she said they should try.
"So you're really going to that date?" Jessica said, startling the former.
"H-how did you get here?" She sat upright.
It was either Jessica came in without a sound or Tiffany was just too preoccupied to notice her friend
coming in.
"I opened the door, walk in and sat down." Jessica stated the obvious while glaring at her friend. "So,
my question? Kindly answer me Miss Hwang?"
The other girl nodded lifelessly.
"Why?" Jessica scrutinized Tiffany. "I thought you and Taeyeon were doing well?"
"She said that the dreamy guys are tempting."
The blonde scoffed. "So?"
Tiffany looked at her with brows raised.
"Doesn't mean she meant it. Doesn't mean she really wanted to go onto that date." Jessica said,
shaking her head in disappointment.

"Let's just give it a try, okay?" Tiffany smiled sadly. "Maybe it's for the better."
"Naive."
"What?"
"Nothing. Coffee or hot choco? The season's killing me." She stood up and went for the door.
"Hot choco please. Thanks."
Tiffany went on with her supposed to be work for the day pushing the dreamy guys at back of her
head, where she couldn't find the idea anymore. Or so she hoped.
She reached for her phone, looked for Teayeon in her list of contacts and tapped on text message.
Tiffany looked up at her peach colored ceiling thinking of what to say. None came to her mind so she
pressed on the home button instead.
A ring came right after she put the gadget on her table. It was Taeyeon.
She cleared her throat then tapped on the green button. "Hello?"
"Fany-ah?"
"Yes."
Taeyeon hesitated before saying what she is supposed to say. "It's five in the afternoon. Are you
excited about your date?"
"Oh. Haven't noticed the time. I don't know. It's just a date." Tiffany said with a flat tone.
"Right. I'm getting ready. Good luck!"
Taeyeon deflated on her bed as soon as she ended the call. She went home earlier than usual to
prepare for her blind date and two hours passed but she still wore the same pair of clothes she wore
at the hospital. "I hate this." She muttered.
She just then picked up a random dress. She went for the shower to freshen up and took only five
minutes to check herself in front of the mirror.

---

"You're going on a date with that?" Sunny nearly ripped Tiffany's plain shirt and pair of jeans off of
her.
"Yes." Tiffany looked down from her chest to her toes. "Why? What's wrong?"
"You are a fashion designer and you're wearing that?"
Tiffany silently agreed. But she isn't in the mood to even look good in front of a man she never met
before. "Yes." She turned her back to Sunny as she gathered her stuff.
The latter victoriously smiled behind her. She knew she'd get this kind of reaction from either of her
friends. A little bit more and her plan to get these two love sick puppies together again will be well
executed. She mentally high fived her self. "Okay."

---

"Do you think this date's gonna help them realize they still love each other? Their both stubborn
Yuri-yah." Jessica said in worry.
Her girlfriend sat up from the light massages she was giving her and smiled. "I believe so. Dr. Lee is
smart as she is."
"Honestly, I want them back together. They've been through a lot for Pete's sake."
Yuri nodded. "Me too. I hated Tiffany's guts at first but I've seen how much she loved Dr. Kim." She
reached for the glass of water on the table and sipped. "They do love each other. Their past just
continuously pops up everytime and it stops them from getting back to the game again."
"Tiffany's not a bad person Yul." Jessica brushed off the creases on Yuri's forehead with her thumb.
"I know." She pulled Jessica by the waist and craddled the petite girl within her hold. "She gave me
the talk." She said against Jessica's hair.
Jessica knew well what that talk meant. She smiled. "Sorry."
"It's okay. I appreciate what she did. She cares for you." Yuri mumbled. "She told me about someone
being insecure."
The blonde turned her head abruptly. "Am not!"
A chuckle.
"But you know what I told her?"
Jessica looked at Yuri questioningly.
"Add them all up. My fans, my exes and my celebrity crushes,"
"You still have crushes until now?!" Jessica pushed the tan intern away.
Another chuckle from Yuri. "No no no. Just add them all up and they won't ever compare to you."
She kissed Jessica passionately, which the latter relented to. "I love you. You're my one and only."
"I love you too."

---

The nervous man in his long sleeves and khaki pants pulled the chair and smiled slightly at the
beautiful fashion designer who took the seat willingly.
He looks manly and handsome, much to Tiffany's surprise. She cracked a fake smile.
"Hi, I'm a friend of Sunny's. I'm David. Your name's Tiffany. Right?" He started. Albeit the
confidence he was trying to show, the girl could see well how naervous and shy he was. It made her
think of the coy Taeyeon more.
"Yes." She politely lifted her hand for a handshake. "Nice to meet you David."
He swore he could've died with the light touch and blindingly beautiful smile. "Nice to meet you too."

Tiffany nodded and acted as if looking through the menu the waitress handed her a little while ago.
"I personally picked this restaurant." The guy started.
"Why?"
"Because Sunny said you loved Italian. " he smiled.
"O-kay." She grimaced a bit. She only loved Korean and American food.
"You don't seem to love the place though." He noticed. David's smile disappeared.
Tiffany shook her head. She realized giving him the cold shoulders on their first date is too much to
bear. "No, it's fine. Cheer up. What shall we order?"

---

"Good evening, gorgeous." The man wearing a suit and tie greeted Taeyeon.
The girl disapproved of what she just heard. Should a man in his first date be all suave like that? She
asked herself. "Good evening." She smiled, faker than her overly fake friend in high school.
The man sat down immediately, not caring to at least pull Taeyeon's chair. The girl frowned.
Nothing came of neither of their mouths for the next ten mintues until the waiter came in to get their
orders.
"Excuse me, sir, maam, can I take your orders now?"
Taeyeon was about to say something when the man spoke. "We're going to have baby back ribs in
honey."
Taeyeon frowned once more. She unfortunately found herself a less of a gentleman.
"I'm Chris by the way. Erica, it is?" He said with a smug.
Taeyeon just nodded. Where could he be getting his guts? "Working?"
"Yes. I'm lawyer. "
Ah so, that's why. "Nice."
"You?"
"Physician. At Huntington's." She said, mimicking the guy's smug.
They spent the next hour talking mostly of their accomplishments. Chris started the whole
conversation and Taeyeon wouldn't back out. She got bored though.
She took out her phone and tapped on Tiffany's name. She wanted to ask whether the girl was having
fun. Taeyeon realized it was rude to interrupt her friend's date.
Her phone lit up followed by a vibration. She received a text from Tiffany. Unconsciously she smiled.
"Who's that?" Chris asked.
"My intern." Taeyeon replied coolly. She hovered over her list of conversations in her inbox.
"Hey. Still on your date?"
Taeyeon tapped in reply.
"Yes. You?"

"Me too."
Before she could type in her response, another message came in.
"I'm bored."
"Same here. What do you suggest we do?" Taeyeon smirked. The idea of fleeing away from this guy
made her excited all of a sudden. Add the fact she'd be with Tiffany.
"Elope. :)"

---

"What's your excuse?" Tiffany chuckled, her hand over her mouth.
"An emergency came up."
The ebony head laughed harder. "Emergency? Really?"
Taeyeon lifted her chin with pride. "Acceptable because I am a doctor Fany-ah." She smiled. "And
yours?"
"Well, I told the truth. I'm not interested."
"Cool."
Tiffany quivered under the coldness of the night. She regretted that she didn't bring a coat or a
jacket.
Taeyeon saw it and pitied the girl for having only a thin shirt on her, even how hot Tiffany looked.
She took of her trench coat and handed to her.
"Wh-what?" The other girl was surprised.
"You're cold. Use mine. I have a cardigan beneath it so I took it off." Taeyeon said nonchalantly.
Tiffany took the ciat and guiltily put it on. "Sorry." She paused. "And thank you as well."
"It's okay." Taeyeon replied. "Where do we go now?"
"I think I need a drink. The postponed project and this date took their toll on me." Tiffany said.
"Know a place?"
"Yes." She held Tiffany by the hand and dragged her to bar nearby.
They took their way towards the bar counter. They sat down laughing at how smug Taeyeon's date
was.
"I hate his guts, really." Taeyeon said, lifting a finger to get the barista's attention.
The guy raised his brows in response.
Taeyeon poked Tiffany's side. "What do you want?"
"Margarita would do." The other girl said.
"Two margaritas."
The guy got the order and prepared the margarita for the two ladies.

--The two cuddling individuals were startled by a sudden ring of the tan intern's phone. They were
comfortable in their respective positions that noone wanted to get up to pock up the phone.
"Yuri. It's annoying." Jessica mumbled beneath Yuri.
"But we're cuddling baby."
"We have all night. So please. Answer the damn phone." The other replied sternly.
That was her cue. Yuri finally stood up and answered the call.
"Hello?"
"The gods have listened!" The woman said.
Yuri didn't recognize who it was and thought she was noone but a crazy delusional woman. "And who
the hell are you? At this time of the night? Really?" She hissed.
"So that's how you answer your seniors now, Kwon Yuri?!" Sunny's voice raised.
Her eyes widened and mumbled her apology at least ten times. "I'm really sorry Dr Lee. I thought
your one of the crazies. You should've thought of a better welcoming remark."
"I'll let you pass this time." Sunny's too chuffed to scold Yuri. "They called me."
"Who?"
"David and Chris."
Yuri nearly laughed. "Since when did I have a say on your live life?"
Sunny rolled her eyes. "They are Taeng's and Fany's dates. They called me that the girls excused
themselves from their dates. And the revelation was theh both bid their goodbyes at the same time. "
It took the tan intern a minute to digest what happened. And yes, she got ir right. Her eyes bulged in
surprise and her mouth twitched up joyously. "So, so-"
"Yes. Taeng and Fany wnet for a great escape."
---

"I miss you." Taeyeon said without buckles. Well thanks to lack of inhibition the alcohol caused, the
words just eluded her mouth.
The other girl grinned. "We're basically always together Taetae."
"Not that one." She had a reminder at the back of her mind to scold herself later, vehemently. Good
to know that she has alcohol as an excuse for her behaviour.
"What is then?"
"I miss you. I miss us."
Tiffany smiled genuinely. She feels the same way everyday. If it was a part of the norm of two exes,
she would've hugged and kissed Taeyeon every single time. "I miss us too Taetae."
That made Taeyeon grin like a rabid dog. "There something I'm dying to do you." She paused, her
eyes became darker. "But you might get mad at me."

Tiffany took the hint. "You won't know until you try. You might get surprised that I won't get mad at
all."
The shorter girl gulped the remaining liquid in her shotglass, ignoring the burn in her esophagus.
She leaned in and closed the gap their faces shared.

Over Again

With one last kiss on the girl's palm, the other girl slumped on the bed.

Taeyeon occupied the half end of the bed, and same goes for Tiffany. No one
said a thing for the minutes that passed. They were just there boring holes
on the ceiling with things going through their minds.

It wasn't just sex. It wasn't just lust. It was something more, more than
anyone could ever think of.

(Author: Seems like it wasn't just a kiss after all haha)

It was awkward. They are satisfied but equally guilty as well.

Taeyeon looked at the digital clock next to her. It was dawn. She tried to
remember when it all started. Because as far as she remembered, it wasn't
minutes. Did they last for hours? She doesn't know.

She then turned her head to the quiet girl beside her. You're so beautiful. She
thought.
"I'm sorry." it was all she could utter.

Tiffany met her gaze. "For what?"

"For this."

The ebonyhead let out a sigh. "You didn't force me. I consented it Taeyeon."

She deflated. The coldness of those words dropped an anchor on her throat.
Taeyeon swallowed hard.

"Besides," Tiffany continued. "If we both meant what we did, we shouldn't be

apologizing. And yes, I won't apologize to you. To you, was it just lust? Is that
why you are saying sorry?"

"N-no. I thought you just went on with me, you know, you just didn't want to
reject me." Taeyeon shifted. She didn't know what to say. "I get back my
apology. I meant everythinging too. Even the cursing part, you're just too
good." Taeyeon stopped her mouth from saying more inappropriate words.
She chuckled how stupid and how delighted she sounded.

Tiffany chuckled along with her. "Pervert."

"Am not!" Taeyeon turned around with a defensive look on her face. It
immediately changed to a soft gaze when she looked at Tiffany's eyes.
"You're beautiful." She finally had the courage to tell those words to Tiffany.

"And so you are." Tiffany replied. She lifted her hand and brushed the strands
of hair away from Taeyeon's face. The gesture made the other girl tear up.
Tiffany leaned in for a kiss but the girl budged.

Taeyeon gulped, trying to suppress her tears to endlessly roll down. She
could just remember the last time they had that kind of moment. She
remebered the last time they made love. It was weeks before she finally
broke things up with Tiffany.

With the knowledge of her ex cheating on her, she ceased to give Tiffany the
satisfaction.Because everytime they kissed, she felt like choking, like a huge
lump stuck in her throat that she couldn't breathe. Because everytime
Tiffany would initiate something that will lead to that, and as much as she
wanted to force herself, her body will automatically disobey.

Because most importantly, she felt like a thrash. A thrash that Tiffany spits
out when she tasted bad and swallows again when Tiffany didn't have a
choice. She felt like she could only have leftovers of the girl because other
guys had already a taste of her girlfriend.

Instead of sinking herself into that misery again, she thought of the past
days that gone by. And so far, it was the best she had in years thanks to
Tiffany.
She cupped the dejected looking girl's face and kissed her fervently.
"Breakfast?" she asked, smiling.
Tiffany couldn't hide her glee. She nodded.

Taeyeon was the first to stand up; she awkwardly covered her body with just
a random piece of cloth lying on the bed. It made Tiffany grin because it was
a cute sight.

The other girl stumbled upon Tiffany's heels. She chuckled when she
remembered how she struggled to take those off. "Don't use this again." she
said, picking the footwear.

Tiffany laughed. "Why?"

"Just. Don't." The former answered while putting on a more comfortable pair
of garments.

"You could've asked me to help you, you know." She said, teasing.

"How could I ask you if you're giving me those-" Taeyeon blushed. Very
inappropriate. She thought. "Gonna go prepare our food. Hotdogs or
bacons?"

"Bacons please. And can you like add an egg?" Tiffany requested, which
Taeyeon said yes immediately. After the shorter girl disappeared from the
room, Tiffany happily went back to bed. She was tired but couldn't feel any of
that because her feel good hormones were raging.

She knew she has another chance. She'll just have to wait for the right time,
and they can be together again. She squirmed against the mattress giddily.
She didn't notice that she already fell asleep.

---

"See?" Jessica sulked. "No replies at all!"

Yuri laughed at her girlfriend. She called Sunny on the phone a little while
ago but the latter didn't know the girls' whereabouts. "Maybe they had a
good night." She grinned against her spoon of kimchi.

The short girl's eyes almost popped out of their sockets. "Kwon Yuri, please
stop following the footsteps of your boss."

"Come to think of it, we haven't exactly done that-"

"Eat please." The seemingly nervous girl swallowed hard that she almost
choked.

Yes, Yuri was right. They haven't made it pass kissing, hugging and cuddling.
She never had the experience at all and looking it up on the internet would
be such a shame. She tried to replay what happened between the actors on
a pornographic movie she and Tiffany watched when they were still
highschool but it was too long ago that she can't even remember how the
guy stripped the girl's clothes off. Was he gentle or not. She creased her
brows.

And to think that they're both girls, how can they possibly do that? Now that
Yuri suspected that something happened to her friends, should she ask
Tiffany how it is done? Or Taeyeon? Because she's much more mature than
her best friend. She regretted that she watched a straight porn before. She
should've looked for a lesbian one.

Breakfast was long done and it surprisingly silent since Jessica was so into
her own dilemma. She took the dishes and utensils since Yuri has to prepare
for work early that day.

She was blankly staring at the running water from the faucet when Yuri
sneakily draped her arms around the girl.

"Holy mother of eggs!" Jessica yelped. "Yuri!"

Yuri found it unusual since the short girl loved those kinds of gestures.
"What's the matter?" she whispered worriedly on Jessica's ears. Instead of
making the girl relax, her warn breath made her brain malfunction.

Trying to wriggle her out of the Yuri's hold, she dropped the spoon on the
floor. She was very fidgety. Just when you needed your bestfriend, she's not
freaking around!

Hey," Yuri picked up the spoon, dropped in on the basin and looked at
Jessica with a bothered look. "Come on, why do you look so afraid of me?"

"W-what?" She was taken aback. "Am not."

"Should I bring a mirror here?"

Jessica gulped. Now it was really obvious. She finally realized that before
talking to her friends, maybe talking to Yuri first would help her more. She
pouted.

Yuri instinctively wrapped the girl for a hug. "What is it? Tell me please.
You're scaring the hell out of me."

"Would you leave me?" She asked, looking away.

"What?" the tall girl asked, still nuzzling her nose on Jessica's hair. "Why all of
a sudden?"

"I couldn't give you what you want."

"What are you talking about?" Now she faced the girl with raised brows. The
look on Jessica's eyes spoke in behalf of the girl. "Oh." She smiled.

"Why are you smiling?"

"If this is about that, don't worry please. That's not an emergency case so
why bother?" She hugged Jessica once more, now swaying gently from left to
right.
"I've been thinking about that lately. I'm afraid you might leave."

Yuri let out a sigh. "I won't. And besides I enjoy this." Her hold got tighter.
"And this." She kissed the side of Jessica's head. "Whatever you can give me;
I'm happy about them 'kay? I'm not going anywhere Sica. I won't force you to
do anything. We still have forever to think about that right?"

Jessica giggled softly against Yuri's chest. Forever, that's a nice word to share
with you. She thought.

"If you want to do it after marriage, then let's do it. I will wait." She cupped
Jessica's small face and kissed her gently. "It can wait."

They held each other for the longest time but none of minded.

"Thank you Yul. I'm so lucky to have you." Jessica finally cut the silence off.
"I love you."

---

Tiffany woke up to the pain that originated from her shoulder. She could feel
the weight on her side. She didn't move a muscle for two hours with her
earlier position. She shifted her body without opening her eyes. She also
realized that she needs to emoty het bladder. Tiffany grunted as she sat up.

Taeyeon chuckled.

She heard it and sound around to look at the girl. "Been there for how long?"

"Two hours?" Taeyeon nodded towards the wall clock that dangled on the
wall.
Tiffany's head perked up. "I slept for that long?! And you didn't wake me up
for breakfast?" She hurriedly put on the clean clothes that she assumed
prepared by Taeyeon on the bed and ran towards the bathroom.

Taeyeon waited and after ten minutes, Tiffany went out with a wet face and
toothpaste on her cheek.

"Why?" the other girl asked once again.

"You were sound asleep. And I enjoyed watching you." Taeyeon said. "Now,
shall we eat?"

They had what Taeyeon prepared earlier. Thankfully the food still tastes well
even if it took them to hours to get eaten.

It was quiet, very quiet. Not the eerie type, but the sad one. "You're alone?"
Tiffany asked.

The doctor looked up from her plate. She nodded.

"It's a little big for a bachelorette, don't you think?"

"It is. And it feels lonely sometimes. But I don't mind. Let's just hope I could
share this place with someone." Taeyeon spoke in a low voice. "Someday."

Tiffany nodded and resumed eating, the clang of utensils and plates clashing
was the only sound.

"I'll take a bath later." Tiffany said, hesitating. "Then I'm afraid I have to go.
Jessica and I will be working on something. And I have to get my car at the
bar."
"I'll drive you there." Taeyeon said.

"Okay."

--"Where the hell did you go last night?" Jessica glared at her friend who
arrived an hour before she got to the office.

Tiffany calmly sipped her coffee. "Home." She answered, still looking blunt.
Even if Jessica is her best friend, what happened last night is something she
should keep to herself, for the time being.

Jessica shook her head. "Very disappointing. I texted you."

"My battery was dead. I'm sorry."

"Okay." She palmed the table that's in between them and looked dead
straight to Tiffany's eyes. "Sunny called us saying you two escaped from your
dates. What's this? Coincidence? Huh." She tapped the floor with her foot,
conveying impatience. "Coincidence my butt."

It took Tiffany by surprise. She never thought they knew about the two of
them leaving last night. "How did you know?"

"Pff. Guilty as hell huh?"

"Jess." Tiffany said with potency.

Jessica grunted. "Don't Jess me. I'm the one who's mad here. So, was it
true?"

Tiffany exhaled. She knew she couldn't deny that fact anymore. "Yes. We left.
We met, had a few drinks and that's it."

"That's -" The blonde smiled wickedly. "It?"

Tiffany got the point immediately and couldn't hide her blush.

"Oh. My. God!"

The ebonyhead pressed her pointer finger in her lips and shushed the noisy
girl across her. "Tone down!"

"What did you two do? Tell me!"

"Well," Tiffany docked her head a little and whispered. "She kinda told me
she wanted to do something and that I might get mad."

Jessica listened well and nodded, telling her best friend to go on.

"And I said," Tiffany shook her head with exaggeration. "This is embarassing
Jess!"

"Stop acting like a child! We're adults and I am just your best friend. And
could you stop whispering! It's only the two of us here." the blonde hissed.
"We look stupid."

Tiffany realized her friend was right. Add the fact that her room's wall was
sound proof.

"You said?"

"I said I won't get mad." She pursed her lip in embarrassment.

Jessica laughed while banging the poor table. "What the hell, Tiff! That's
epic!" She didn't stop until her lungs ran out of air. "Okay, okay." She inhaled
and wiped her eyes. "What did she do?"

Tiffany rolled her eyes. "..."

"Come on, Tiff. Sorry. It's was so funny."

"She kissed me."

Jessica's eyes widened. "You kissed?" She clapped her hands and smiled
proudly at her best friend. "Wow Tiffany, this is a leap, a milestone."

"You think?"

"Yes!" The blonde held Tiffany's hand as her expression changed to

something softer. "This is the start you might have with her."

"I hope so."

---

"Dr Kim!" A blonde nurse came running towards the short doctor. "Dr Kim!"
Taeyeon turned around. She was holding a hot coffee that almost spilled
thanks to the nurse's loud voice. "What is it?" She pouted. "This one should
be a matter of life and death that it's worth spilling a cup of hot coffee over
me."

The nurse stopped abruptly. She tried catching her breath. "Do you
remember what Dr. Stevens referred to you last time?"

Taeyeon creased her brows. "Is that the meningitis patient? I'm sorry I don't
know the name."

"Yes. And Dr Kim, it is worth spilling a cup of coffee over you." The nurse
said.

Taeyeon put the hot cup on the nurses' station. "Hey, I'm going back for
this." She told the busy nurse who was sitting there. The doctor came
running with the blonde. "What happened?"

"He got restless then her vital signs just went down. Quickly."

"Okay. Let's save this one." She said as she entered the room with interns
flocking around the poor man. She got irritated with what she saw. "What are
you doing?! You're gonna watch him die?"

Taeyeon shove the younger doctors away. "Nurse?" she asked.

"Yes Dr Kim?"

"Call Yuri Kwon. Stat!" She yelled.

It took the nurse a few seconds to respond. Taeyeon's vouce echoed in her
mind. The doctor ttend to be scary sometimes. "O-okay doc."

---

Yuri came in time and they revived the patient together. Dr Kim Taeyeon took
off her mask and threw it away. With one last threathening look at the new
interns, she walked away.

"It's pretty early to get mad Dr Kim." Yuri casually remarked. She grew
immune of the doctor's attitude towards work.

"They are plain stupid."

"They're students too." Yuri simply explained. "Like me."

Taeyeon nodded but shook her head afterwards. "You have something they
don't unfortunately possess."

"And that is?"

"Initiative, Kwon." She said flatly. Taeyeon couldn't take her thoughts
anymore as she stepped back towards the students.

"Dr Kim!" Yuri called out but ignored.

Taeyeon stood there and crossed her arms over her chest. "Who teaches
you?"

"Dr Stevens." One replied.

"Dr Black."

"Dr Gomez."

Taeyeon's brows furrowed further. "Where are they?"

Everyone shrugged. It escalated her anger. She lightly pinched her sinuses.
"Look for them and ask them to teach you even how busy they are! Go!"

At that very moment, the people evaporated. Left were she and a nurse who
was looking at her, frightened.

"How was that?" Taeyeon asked the nurse with an amused smile.

The nurse shrugged in response. "Still the same Dr Kim huh? Would a
husband change your scary behaviour?"

The doctor pretended to throw her pen at the nurse who was chuckling.

"You know what, she's right."

Taeyeon git startled by the small voice behind her back. "Never noticed you
there. You're too small."

Yuri laughed and Sunny glared at them. "Look at you."

"What is it?"

"Where were you and Tiffany last night because I swear, your dates bugged
me the whole night."

"None of your business." Taeyeon said, hiding her mischievous grin.

"Stop playing with me or else I'll ask from Jessica myself. I'm sure Tiffany
already told her where you've been." The blonde doctor said, earning thumbs
up from the intern.

"Let's go somewhere else." Taeyeon finally relented.

---

It was a long day for Tiffany. She only got a message from Taeyeon telling her
to eat well for lunch. Abd she badly misses the girl. "Jess." she said while
adding details to her designs. The moment she and Taeyeon parted, she
could only think of getting her back.

"What?"

"Should I ask her back?"

"Taeyeon?" the blonde spun around using her swivel chair and thought for a
second.

"Is it the right time?"

"I think so."

"Then listen to what you're heart and mind were saying" She smiled."Given
the chance, please please don't make the same mistakes again. I won't allow
you this time." She added, serious.

Tiffany stood up and gave her best friend a hug. "Yes. Thanks Jessi."

Chapter 32

Already Known

Tiffany showered the remaining space with colored origami shaped into
flowers. With one last look at her designated part of the room, she smiled. "I
think I'm good."

Jessica huffed in annoyance. "Why do I have to this?" Yuri nudged her and
glared. "What? It's true!" She added.

"The last time I didn't ask for your help, you got mad at me and Yuri. And
now, you're sulking?" Tiffany said. Yuri smiled at her then both laughed.

"Whatever." She pointed at the box of origami next to her girlfriend and the
latter gave it to her.

"Really, your mood swings are something."

"You're right Yuri-yah." Tiffany agreed. She put down her small basket aside
and crossed her arm, eyeing what theyve done so far.

Jessica puffed her cheeks while trying really hard not to listen at them. "This
stunt is usually done by that shorty. What's the change of roles?"

Tiffany looked around more to make sure she's done everything right. She
used the vacant room in their office. It was small and easy to set up and as
well as clean afterwards. Besides, she couldn't just drag her best friend with
her should she choose a farther place.

She was nervous, yes, but she got a good feeling about this one. They've
been cautious and they've took things very very slow. If one wouldn't initiate,
she and Taeyeon couldn't be together again. And she thought it was her.

"I'm saying sorry and asking for another chance Jess. Sincerely. And I want
her to see that I'm serious and that I'm willing to change." She said.

"Dr Kim is really lucky. You're romantic Fany." Yuri said in account of making
Jessica be one.

"No, never gonna happen. The blonde casually said. She inched her hands
around the tan intern's waist and hugged her snuggly.

Tiffany giggled. "You two are cute enough. No fancy things needed." She
paused. "So what do you think, shall she say yes?"

The couple nodded with an encouraging look on their faces.

"Thanks." She mouthed at the two.

---

Taeyeon was knocked down tired from the day's work. She intubated half of
her patients. Three went dead.

She had met the interns she left when she went to Sacramento and to her
judgment; none of them learned anything while she was away. None took the
initiative to at least learn the basics of the training it got to her nerves.

The students faced her wrath and even Yuri couldn't even say a word to keep
her calm. She collapsed on her couch and exhaled.

"Dr Kim, don't you think you're being too hard on them?" The tan intern said,
heaving a sigh.

"How would they learn?"

"There's this funny thing called positive reinforcement."

Taeyeon opened her eyes and glared at Yuri. "Don't you use that on me."

The latter only shrugged. "The nurse was right. Find a husband now."

"Thanks but no thanks." Taeyeon said, again closing her eyes. "A husband
won't help."

Yuri clasped her hands and abruptly stood up with a wide smile on her face.
"I was wrong I'm sorry." She faced Taeyeon, who was looking at her with
questioning eyes. "A wife it is then!"

"Psh. What's about being someoane's wife anyways?" Taeyeon asked. Her
eyes widened at her realization. "Omo." She exclaimed in Korean. "Are you
going to ask Jessica for marriage?"

Yuri coughed, choking in her saliva. "Dr Kim! That's absurd." Then her face
flushed and her heart beat faster.

"Then why are you talking about this?"

Yuri sat down at the other end of the couch where Taeyeon was slouching.
After regaining her composure, her face turned serious. "Dr Kim."

Taeyeon turned her head. She sensed that something was bugging the
intern. "What?"

"Are you planning on going into a relationship again?"

Taeyeon was taken aback. She and Tiffany were doing well even after what
happened between them the other night. She loved it. But she never has
foreseen their future. "Why?" She asked instead of answering the question.

"Could you please answer me?" Yuri said, her eyes almost pleading. She was
talking as a friend at the moment. She was well aware of Tiffany's plan and
she's happy about it. But she fears for their future. She fears that the past
won't let them be.

"Honestly?" Taeyeon bowed her head. "I don't know. Sometimes I think I am
ready and sometimes I don't."

"Why?"

"Fear?" Taeyeon said more to ask herself than ask Yuri. "I don't want to go to
that position anymore. Where I give my all and I get trashed in return. Do
you know what I'm saying?"

Yuri slightly nodded, now feeling more afraid for Taeyeon and Tiffany. "What if
it's you and Fany again? Do you think both of you will be okay?"

"I can love her." Taeyeon paused, carefully thinking of her words. "But I am
not sure if I can ever be the same again, even if she changes for the better. I
don't think I will still be the same old Taeyeon."

"..."

"I wanted to try Yuri. Really. Because years of hurting each other is just too
much. We need to step up and try again. But I'm afraid."

Taeyeon got silence in response. Yuri could only feel empathic for her teacher
and friend. But she understands Tiffany too. "I see. So whatever it is that
happens, you can always come to me or Sica or Dr Lee. Hm? Don't keep
things to yourself you might explode again. And if that happens, I honestly
don't know if you'll come back here as a doctor or as a psychiatric patient."

Taeyeon patted Yuri's hand with a genuine smile on her face. "I will." She
chuckled a bit when she imagained herself so depressed.

---

Sunny rushed where Yuri was thinking of an emergency she should address.
The tan intern was just outside of the hospital's ER, sitting all by herself.
"Hey!" The blonde doctor called out while half running towards the disturbed
looking girl.

Yuri raised her head and felt lighter when she saw Sunny. She stood up and
bowed. "Dr Lee. Thank you for coming."

"What happened?"

"I believe you already know Tiffany's plans?" Sunny creased her brows and
Yuri felt the need to elaborate. "About her proposal?"

"Oh. Okay." Sunny exhaled to get rid of her accumulated carbon dioxide.
"How about it?" Before Yuri could utter a single word, she spoke once more.
"Why are you out here? I thought it was really an urgent thing!"

"Sorry. I can't let Dr Kim see us." She started walking away from the busy
hospital and her senior went alongside her. "I fear about this one. Not that I
don't want them to be together. But Dr Kim said so herself that she might
never be the same if they'd be together again."

Sunny exhaled wanted them to be together too but she feared the same
thing as Yuri. "I know this would happen. But wouldn't it be worth a try?" she
asked, hope in her voice.

"It is worth a try." They spotted a bench and shared the seat. "I am just afraid
that they might end up hurting each other again."

"That's something they have to figure out themselves should Taeyeon give it
a chance."

---

"Tiffany, you're gonna be fine. You're gonna be fine." Tiffany mumbled to

herself. She inhaled deeply to calm herself down. She stood awkwardly by
Taeyeon's living room while waiting for the doctor to get dressed for
their friendly date.

She rehearsed her proposal for a hundred times that day and a few hundreds
more for the past two days. She had to take Taeyeon back, she always
thought.

"Fany-ah?" The doctor looked at her with worry in her eyes. "Are you okay? Is
something the matter?"

"N-nothing!" Her voice voluntarily raised itself. She hissed. "I mean nothing.
Ready?" She flashed her eye smile to divert the girl's attention.

Taeyeon nodded and led the way outside the house. She wore a nice and
comfortable loose shirt under her blue-ish cardigan and a pair of skinny
jeans. As simple as she was that night, Tiffany found her the most beautiful.
Taeyeon never forgets to open the door for Tiffany, hold the girl's hand when
assisting her and flash that chin dimple of hers that made Tiffany's heart
swell for love.

"Thanks." The ebony head muttered when Taeyeon opened the car door for
her. They used the shorter girl's car on their date.

"No problem Fany-ah." the doctor walked towards her seat and buckled her
seatbelt. She smiled at Tiffany, who was staring lovingly at her for the
longest time that day. "Is there something wrong with my face?" She asked.

"Nothing." Tiffany looked away, blushing. "Come on. Let's get going."

Taeyeon didn't pry. She turned the engine on and the car roared on its way.
"Hey." She said softly amidst the silence inside her vehicle.

"Hm?"

"Two days from now, it's already Christmas. Do you want something?"
Taeyeon paused for a while as she turned the steering wheel. "As a gift, I
mean."

Tiffany was surprised. She couldn't think of anything she wanted aside from
the girl just inches away from her. What if I want us to be together for
Christmas? Is it plausible? As much as she wanted those words to come out
of her mouth, she stopped. "None that I could think of." She replied instead.

"I insist."

"Okay. I'll think about it. I'll tell it you later, yes?" She shifted to face the
driving Taeyeon.
The other girl felt victorious and she grinned like a fool beneath the darkness
of the night. She nodded. She turned her stereo on and a love song played.
Without noticing it, she started to hum. Taeyeon heard a soft chuckle from
Tiffany. "What?" She asked.

"You're humming." Tiffany replied. "Haven't heard you sing lately."

"I don't sing anymore."

"But you love singing Taetae." The ebony head pouted. "You always sing back
then."

"The last time I sang was when we went out with your sister."

Tiffany laughed and threw her head back. "Oh I remember that! Unnie was
trying to hit the note but she can't, unfortunately then you took the mic and
belted the notes well. And then unnie was really surprised. Her face was so
epic!"

The doctor laughed along with her as she stopped the engine when they
arrived at their destination. "I know, right?"

After their laughter subsided, they fixed themselves. Tiffany re-did her make
up, so did Taeyeon. The shorter girl finished first and went out immediately.
She circled around her car towards Tiffany's door. She stood there humming
the song earlier. After a minute or so, she heard the door unlock and she
immediately opened the door for Tiffany.

"You don't have to do this always, you know." Tiffany said, grinning. She
stepped out gloriously. Every man at the parking lot turned their heads at the
beautiful ladies.

"I want to." Taeyeon replied, glaring at each man looking at them in attempt
to scare them away. "What is this, a fashion show or something?"

"Hm?"

Taeyeon pointed at the gloating eyes with her chin. Tiffany saw it and
chuckled. "Taeyeon, what can we do, we're both head turners."

"You are a head turner." The doctor clarified. She pressed her electronic car
key and lights flickered instantly. They started walking towards the fancy
restaurant with smiles on their faces.

It was Taeyeon who usually helps Tiffany to take her seat but this time, the
ebony head refused her. She remained standing beside Taeyeon who was
looking at her questioningly while holding the chair which is supposed to be
the ebony heads seat. "Why?"

"Let me do these things for you." She then pulled Taeyeon's chair and
gestured for the shorter girl to sit.

"What are you doing?" Taeyeon asked but took her seat instead.

"Just let me return the favour." Tiffany spun her heels and walked around the
table. "It's fun serving you."

Taeyeon's brows shot up.

"So far." She continued, chuckling. "Kidding aside, I like this."

"Okay." Taeyeon said, appreciating Tiffanys efforts.

They had that long talk about their lives, their careers, their long lost friends
and just everything they could think of.

"Taeyeon?"

The doctor stopped scooping her ice cream and looked at Tiffany. "Hm?

"I know what I want for Christmas."

"And that is?" She leaned against her chair and raised a brow. "Don't tell me
it's another signature bag?"

The ebony head shook her head. "Nah. Better than that."

The former squinted. "Oh. Interesting. Okay, tell me then."

"Finish your desert and then you'll see."

Taeyeon ate her ice cream in a flash. She had been excited by Tiffany's wish.
Whatever it could be, she'd be willing to give it to her.

---

"Seriously, this thing we are doing is creepy." Taeyeon sulked while blindly
walking with Tiffany inside the girl's office building late at night. "Where are
we going? It is so dark! Didn't know your wish would be this hard to find."

"Hush! What, you're louder than me now?" Tiffany shushed Taeyeon's

ramblings behind her. "Just keep quiet and follow me."

"..."

They had tiptoed towards the corridor of the third floor and it was dark. Only
a few lights were on. Taeyeon was getting impatient, and well, afraid. She
kept tugging Tiffany's shirt. But the girl ignored her.

"Fany-ah. Let's go home."

"Okay, where could that room be?" Tiffany kept talking to herself in each
attempt to look at the room she prepared.

"Fany-ah."

A knob clicked and clasped her hands in delight. "Finally." She yanked
Taeyeon inside the dark room. Tiffany reached for the switch, an arm stretch
away from her and she nervously turned the lights on.

It was blurry at first but when her eyes were fully adjusted to the light,
Taeyeon could then clearly see pink, blue, and a lot more colored papers on
the ground, a huge board with a collage of their pictures together and Tiffany
slowly walking towards the center with an unknown expression on her face.

They stopped at a clean space at the middle of the ocean of papers and
Tiffany locked her eyes at the baffled Taeyeon. "This is what I want for
Christmas." She smiled.

"Papers?" Taeyeon asked, confused.

The other girl hissed. "Yah. You're too old for being so slow."

"You drag me out here and then you're getting mad-"

"It's you." Tiffany then said, cutting her off.

"What?"

The former held her hands tight and she stepped close to Taeyeon. "I want
you for Christmas. I want us for Christmas Taetae."

"..." The short girl was surprised at the confession.

"I know I made mistakes from the past. And I swear I regretted everything. It
was crazy because I loved Brian but when I saw you, my heart just yearned
for you again. We had the worst experience before. But can we at least try to
do better this time?" Tiffany went down to her knees.

Taeyeon gasped. "Hey. Stand up."

"Not until you answer my question."

"You didn't ask anything yet." Taeyeon replied, her eyes sparkling with joy.

"Will you give me another chance Taetae?"

At that spur of the moment, all her thoughts went blank and all she could
think of was Tiffany. All she wanted was Tiffany. "Stand up and just kiss me."
She pulled Tiffany and just like it was aimed, their lips met.

"I love you Taeyeon." Tiffany said; gasping for air.

"I love you too." Taeyeon teared up. "Wow, I finally said the words. And you
know I would say yes again."

The ebony head smiled widely at her. "I was nervous. Thought you'd reject
me." She brushed the tears away gently. "I will be better Taetae. Everything
will be better. I promise you."

"We're okay, we're okay."

Once more, they shared a fervent kiss and nothing mattered more in the
world. Both of them thanked the heavens for having a chance to live, be in
love and be loved. They had made mistakes but they still end up together.

"I love you." Taeyeon pecked Tiffany's lips. "I love you."

Chapter 33

First Day

"Good morning Taeyeon." Tiffany greeted the just woken up Taeyeon with a
huge smile on her face.

Taeyeon never had this kind of morning for the longest time. She almost
forgot how it felt. The moment she woke uo, she smelled Tiffany's scent
inside her room, she could hear rustlings and footsteps outside. She went out
to see Tiffany at her kitchen, preparing them sandwiches. Her heart couldn't
contain its joy that grinned wider. "Good morning Fany-ah." She said, her
voice hoarse and eyes still half open. She felt a pair of arms around her
waist.

"How's your sleep?" Tiffany asked while sniff kissing the short girl. "Still not
fully awake huh?"

Taeyeon giggled but kept her eyes closed. "Mmhm. My sleep? It was the
best."

"Then wake up now. " Tiffany went to the counter and continued preparing
for their breakfast. "I prepared sandwiches. I can't cook, you know that. So I
think these would do." She turned around, her eyes asking for approval.

Taeyeon stepped in closer. "They totally look fine and I am guessing they also
taste great." She pecked Tiffany's lips and snuggly hugged her. "Thank you."

"Taetae. Your morning breath." Tiffany giggled. She playfully pushed the
shorter girl away.

Taeyeon, on the other hand held Tiffany tighter and rained the poor girl with
kisses.

"Taetae! No!" Tiffany wriggled to escape and failed to do so. "Since when did
you become a morning person?"

Taeyeon snickered, still holding the ebony head. "Since today." She chuckled
and silenced soon after. She hugged Tiffany and just like that, she enjoyed
the warmth and comfort that she longed to have over the years of being
alone. "I like this." She muttered.

"You like what?"

"Waking up to this." Taeyeon took one of the sandwiches and ate. "This is
delicious." She sat down, back facing Tiffany. She was really happy she could
just cry right then.

"Taetae?" Tiffany called but there was no response. She glided next to
Taeyeon and saw the shorter girl tearing up. She instinctively wrapped her
arm around her shoulders. "Why are you crying? Hey."

Taeyeon shook her head. She bit another chunk. "Nothing."

Tiffany rubbed her back. "Hey. Tell me. Is there a problem?"

"I'm just happy." She sobbed. "Never thought this day would come."

Tiffany kissed Taeyeon's temple and she went on with soothing the girl. "I
promised you everything will be better, right? I intend to keep it."

"I know." Taeyeon said. "And I am really thankful for that." She wiped her
tears and inhaled deeply. "Stay with me. Move in."

"What?" Tiffany's eyes widened.

"I said it. Move in with me. Don't tell me we only just begun." She grinned.
"We are each other's half basically."

"..."

"What? Do you want me to kneel down?" Taeyeon asked.

Tiffany pounced Taeyeon with all her might. She only asked for a chance and
now Taeyeon was giving her more. She knew it was then that the time was
right for them. "You sure about this?"

Taeyeon nodded. More than ever. "We lost a lot of time and we are getting
older. If I hadn't left, who knows, we might be married by now."

A wide smile split on Tiffany's face. "I'd love some pink in here."

"Oh, right. Can I think this through?" Taeyeon joked and she got a fake punch
in response.

"Fine." Tiffany sulked. She started walking away and crossed her arm.

Taeyeon smiled. She can wake up every day seeing Tiffany prepare them
breakfast, sulking like a baby, joking with her and just having her presence.
Nothing could be better than this. "I love you."

"..."

"Fany-ah."

"No." Tiffany stomped her foot like she was about to do tantrums.

Taeyeon sneakily enveloped the girl with her tightest hug. "I was joking!" She
exclaimed. "Of course you can add pink in here. Paint the whole house if you
want." She bit her lip. It would not be so nice to have her bungalow painted
with Tiffany's favorite color. She hid her laughter. But come to think of it, she
could also live with pink as long as it comes with Tiffany. "I love you."

"..."

"I said I love you." Taeyeon reiterated.

Tiffany sensed that the girl was serious that's why she turned around. But
her expression still conveyed doubt. She pouted.

"Hm?"

"Okay."

Taeyeon took a step back and frowned. "That's it?!"

Tiffany laughed. "I love you too."

---

Taeyeon didn't buy herself a single cup of coffee for the day or an energy
drink and surprisingly, she didn't feel the need of those. She had toxic
patients, her interns almost killed a patient and a nurse misread her writing
but never did one of them hear her shout or get mad like she used to.

Everyone speculated about her behaviour as something that concerned her

love life.

And it was true. She just had Tiffany back again in her life, she just had a
very nice breakfast, Tiffany just had agreed on moving in and before coming
inside the hospital, she just had a sweet kiss.

Sunny knocked the door and slowly opened to find her friend swirling in her
swivel chair. "Don't you think you're too old for that?"

"Don't you think youre being too nosy again?" Taeyeon retorted with a grin
on her face that never seemed to disappear since morning.

"Look at you." The blonde sat down and stared at Taeyeon.

"What?"

Sunny smirked. "Did you just have sex?" She asked feigning an innocent
expression.

The other girl almost jumped out of her seat. She immediately tensed up.
She fanned herself before speaking. "What the hell are you talking about?"

"I was just asking. You're too obvious. Keep it down, will ya?" Sunny teased
even more. She knew something good happen. Taeyeon was shining, literally

shining. She was different. And mostly, she was happy. Not the usual
happiness, but different. "I sense you are going to tell me a very interesting
story."

"How do you know?"

Sunny chuckled. "On my way up here, your subordinates asked me what

exactly happened to you. Because you," She pointed at her friend with an
amused smile on her face. "Are in a good mood today, in the best mood, I
might say."

Taeyeon widened her eyes. Really, her best friend is a smartass. She knows
exactly how to connect dots.

"I know." The blonde doctor smirked. "I am smart. I can figure things out,
huh? So, tell me. What happened that makes you feel so good?"

Taeyeon felt defeat instantly. "She proposed to me."

"Fany?"

The former scrunched her nose. Maybe her friend wasn't that smart at all
because she knew about Tiffany's proposal from the very beginning. "Ah, so
you knew all along?" She crossed her arm and stared at Sunny with scrutiny.

Still with the same smirk, she mimicked what Taeyeon had done, crossing her
arms. "Let's say I had an idea. But not the whole plan. So, how did it go?"

"Would I be this happy if I rejected her?" She pointed at her temple. "Brains,
Soonkyu. Brains." And she giggled.

Sunny nodded and thought for a while. Then fear suddenly rushed through
her mind and it got her thinking about the future of her friends. "Are you
ready though?"

"For what?"

"Going into relationships again. I know there's also apprehension right there."
As if she read what was at the back of Taeyeon's mind, she spoke with
certainty.

She was shocked to hear what her friend said, nit because Sunny knew her
growing fear. But because it was true. Her smug front came crashing as she
bowed down to look at the ground with an uneasy feeling. "We are worth a
try, you know." She said in a low voice.

"What I am asking is if you are ready."

"I believe so."

"Okay." Sunny exhaled. "I want you to be happy, Taeng."

"Me too."

A silence that lasted for almost five good minutes passed and their minds are
still boggled with so many thoughts.

"When are we going to celebrate this?" Sunny then asked, trying to uplift the
mood.

Taeyein gathered herself together and flashed a smile. "How about tonight?
Let's also celebrate Christmas together."

"Sure. I'll message the two love birds then."

---

"Taeyeon?" Tiffany asked, she situated her phone between her ear and her
shoulder as she rummaged her bag for a lipstick. She faced the bathroom
mirror and did her make up. "What is it?"

"Sunny was asking if we could go out tonight, to celebrate us getting back

together. And Christmas too." Taeyeon said.

Tiffany chuckled. She wiped the excess lipstick and pushed the door open.
"What time?"

"Around eight? We'll just have dinner and maybe share a drink or two." She
waited for a reply but there was another voice on the background.

"Wow, Tiff you are gorgeous as ever." A man, maybe in his late twenties
spoke. Taeyeon frowned once she realized it was flirty.

"Who's that?" She asked.

"Thanks Damien." Tiffany said, answering the compliment. She returned to

the phone. "Sorry. That was our client. I am on a meeting right now. Eight?
That won't be so bad. I'll text you later, will that be okay?"

"Okay." Taeyeon said, disappoint apparent in her soft voice but Tiffany was
too busy to even notice.

"Bye. Love you."

"Bye. Love-" And the call went dead. She looked at the screen and she knew
then Tiffany ended the conversation. "You too." She continued, almost a

whisper. She turned around to see her best friend playing on her phone and
she thought of what she said again.

A simple compliment from a guy caused her to feel belittled again. She
heaved a sigh. She had to fight this kind of feeling because she decided to
take another chance. Besides, it was just words and she trusts Tiffany. Trust .
It was kinda heavy, it is a word with a lot to bear. And it was something she
lost long time ago.

"Taeyeon, are you okay?" A voice suddenly pulled her back to reality.

"Huh?"

Sunny clucked her tongue. "You were staring at the parking lot for quite long.
Something came up?"

"Nothing. Tiffany said it would be nice. She'd text me later." She tried to
sound casual. She thanked her acceptable acting when her friend didn't pry.

"Okay." Sunny stood up and took her bag with her. She held the knob when
she turned around to say something more. "Don't keep things to yourself.
Tiffany should know if you're uncomfortable or if you have something in your
mind. I know you too well." She pushed the door and she was gone.

---

"Hi. I'm done with the first meeting. Here comes another. Have you had lunch
yet? Please eat, okay? I don't want my Taetae working away her hunger. I
miss you. I love you."

Taeyeon was busy talking brainstorming with other doctors when she
received Tiffany's message. And like a high school student, her cheeks
turned pink in front of her colleagues. She was disappointed a while ago but
Tiffany managed to dissolve her down feeling.

"Dr. Kim, would number two be alright?" A neurologist asked, snapping her
out of her daze.

She hid her phone and studied what was on the board. She squinted and
rubbed her chin in contemplation. "Okay. Let's try option two. It is safer."

The other doctor agreed and the patient's management was settled.

"Okay then. Happy holidays everyone." The eldest doctor greeted them.
They shook hands and took their respective ways out. Taeyeon took out her
phone and read the message at least five times before tapping the call
button.

"Taetae!" A cheerful voice greeted her at the third ring and she smiled.

"Fany-ah. I was also in a meeting a while ago. I'm headed to the cafeteria to
grab some food."

"Good. Eat well."

"I miss you too." She whispered to the microphone of her device. "And I love
you."

"What?" Tiffany pretended not to hear. "What did you say?"

Taeyeon repeated her words a little bit louder but the other girl said she
couldn't still hear. She chuckled once she realized Tiffany was playing with
her. "Fany-ah I am not alone. Some people might hear me."

"So? I want you to say it out loud." Tiffany sulked.

Taeyeon took a detour and passed by a comfort room. She retraced her steps
and opened the door. To her relief, no one seemed to be there. She went
inside a cubicle. "I love you Tiffany. And I miss you." She said out loud
making the latter giggle.

"My Taetae is the sweetest. I love you too. I want to see you already."

"Me too. Eight, okay? Soonkyu will text you the details. This is our
celebration, remember that."

Tiffany nodded. "Okay. Now, I want you to eat."

"Can't we just talk more?" Taeyeon pouted.

"I wish we could but my team is coming and I want you to eat now. Please."

"Okay. Bye." Taeyeon ended the call. With a wide grin on her face, she
unlocked the cubicle and opened it. "Omo!" She almost jumped out of her
place when she saw a tall woman standing right in front of her with a smirk.
"Yuri! How the hell did you get in here without any sound?"

"You're too preoccupied with your cheesy talk when I came in." Yuri answered
with an annoying innocent face. She went to the side to give Taeyeon her
way. "Merry Christmas."

The latter went to the sink and washed without a word.

"I'll pretend I didn't hear that." Yuri cringed. "Can't believe the scary soon-tobe chief resident becomes a teenager when it comes to love." She pursed
her lips but failed and ended up in laughter.

"Kwon Yuri." The senior said with potency.

Yuri didn't stop though. "What? You can't scare me anytime you want or else
I'd tell thd whole hospital that my boss is in love." She smirked.

Taeyeon shook her head and slapped the intern from behind. "Try it or else
you'd be an intern for another ten years." She threatened.

Yuri winced. "I was joking!" She let out a fake laugh. "I just wanna know how
it went!"

Taeyeon smiled. She was victorious. "Buy me a sandwich and a salad and I'll
tell the whole story to you."

---

"Where are you?" Taeyeon asked over the phone. She had missed the girl the
whole day. And Tiffany wasn't able to be with during dinner. They had pasta,
turkey and salad, which Sunny prepared for them. It should've been the first
time they celebrate Christmas together. "You missed dinner."

"Can you go on without me?" Tiffany said apologetically. "The clients asked
me to join them for dinner too and I just can't say no."

Taeyeon creased her brows. "And you can say no to us?" She asked in a calm
tone.

"Taetae."

"How about the drinks? Can you come by then?"

Tiffany heaved a deep sigh. She really wanted to come but it wasn't really
that plausible to go. The client she was with was a huge one and she might
lose them once she declined the offer.

"I take it as a no?"

"I'm sorry Taeyeon-ah."

"You know what, it's okay." Taeyeon cut her off. "Just take care, okay?" She
then ended the call.

As much as Taeyeon tried to sound cool, Tiffany could sense the

disappointment. She also missed the girl and she wanted to see her. But
under the circumstances, she wasn't able to. They had dinner and also

grabbed a few drinks but she didn't enjoy any of those things because all she
wanted was to be with her friends and Taeyeon.

---

"So?" Yuri looked at Taeyeon with anticipation. She noticed the disappointed
look and didn't pry.

Taeyeon shook her head. "You were with some clients too right?" She looked
at Jessica, who was sitting beside her intern.

"Yes."

"Did they ask you for dinner?"

Jessica hesitated. "Uhm, yeah."

"Then why are you here then?" Taeyeon's voice raised.

"I said I have plans. It's the holidays after all." She paused, knowing where
this is going. She mentally slapped her face when she realized what she just
said.

"That's it." Taeyeon collapsed on her seat and drunk her tequila in a shot.
"She's with the client. She said she can't say no."

Sunny, Yuri and Jessica looked at each other.

"She met bigger clients Taeng. We don't usually meet people during this kind
if season. But since some of our possible clients do not have time for the rest
of the year, we have to meet them now." Jessica tried to explain. "Knowing
Tiffany, she won't ever do something to lose them."

Taeyeon didn't reply as she went on with drinking. The gathering was
supposed to be a celebration for them but she cannot celebrate without her
girlfriend around.

She tried to make herself believe that maybe Tiffany was just up to
something yet somehow two hours passed and still Tiffany didn't show up..

"Hey." Sunny patted Taeyeon's shoulder. "You okay there?"

"This is our celebration. I even told her to remember that."

Sunny puffed her cheeks. "Jessica said the client was a big one. If it was you
and the patient was in the brink of death, would you leave him or her?"
Sunny asked. This was just a small issue and she can't just let her friend
make it big because she was upset. The two love birds also came closer to
soothe Taeyeon.

Yuri nodded at Sunny and knew that her senior was trying to put some sense
into her resident's head.

"You know her more than this Taeng. She was just thinking about the
company." Jessica added, getting worried about her friends.

Taeyeon exhaled. "Now what, you're siding with her?"

"Dr Kim, we're just helping you realize Tiffany's situation." Yuri explained.
"We're not siding with anyone."

"Fine." She handed them her shot glass and stood up. Taeyeon reached for
her bag, clutched it tight when she felt something hard inside and fixed
herself. "I should go home now. I still have work tomorrow. Lucky for you
two," She pointed at Yuri and Sunny. "Tomorrow's your day off. Thanks for
celebrating with me." The last word came in with a low voice.

"Okay." Sunny said. "Take care."

The doctor went out. And there left the three ladies with boggled minds.

"This is what I don't want to happen." Sunny blurted out.

"Why?" Jessica asked.

"She changed." Yuri answered. She has the least time spent with Taeyeon but
she knew something has changed.

"She used to be trusting and very understanding with Tiffany's hangouts and
whereabouts." The shortest among them remarked.

It was then when Jessica realized what they were talking about. Just by
thinking about what just happened; maybe Taeyeon has really been different.
She witnessed how Taeyeon was when they were younger. "So we still end to
the past?"

Yuri shrugged.

"Jess!"

The three turned their head and saw a panting Tiffany who opened the door
without knocking. She was still in her corporate attire and was obviously in a
hurry.

"Tiff." Jessica stood up and gave her a friendly hug.

"Hi. Happy holidays." She greeted Yuri and Sunny with relieved smile. "Where
is Taeyeon?"

"Uhm."

The three exchanged glances. Tiffany sensed the discomfort but asked away
nonetheless. "Soonkyu, where is Taeyeon?" She looked around the living
room and found none.

"She's gone." Yuri answered. "She went home just before you arrived."

"Is she upset?"

Sunny uncomfortably turned to Tiffany. "Well, a bit?"

"According to how you guys looked, she's not just upset. She's mad." Tiffany
let out a disappointed sigh. She slouched and put her hand over her aching
head. "I told them I have to go with the lamest excuse ever and she's not
here?"

"Understand her Tiffany. It is your celebration, she's just sad that you are
busy." Sunny said, trying to sound inoffensive as possible.

"I was sad too." Tiffany muttered.

"Go home Fany. Talk to her." Yuri suggested.

---

Tiffany slowly opened the door and peeked through the space. It was almost
twelve. She wanted to celebrate her first Christmas with Taeyeon but it
looked like she couldn't.

She saw Taeyeon reading a medical book with reading glasses hanging on
her nose. She gently tiptoed towards the girl who was obviously ignoring her
presence.

Tiffany sat next to Taeyeon and hugged her. "Taetae." She cooed.

The doctor didn't move a muscle.

"Taeyeon." She whined. "Sorry."

"..."

"I went at Sunny's. You already left. I have this bad headache because I didn't
eat much at the dinner. And you're mad and I am tired." Tiffany spoke
nonstop.

Taeyeon covered her face with her book because she can't help but smile.
Tiffany noticed it and she knew she was already forgiven.

"Taetae. I love you. Come on." She grappled the poor girl.

"Tiffany!" Taeyeon yelped. She tried hard to win over but Tiffany was already
on top of her.

"Forgive me first."

"Can you like take a shower before tackling me?"

"Forgive me first."

"You smell!"

Tiffany chuckled. "I won't get off of you until you forgive me." She tickled
Taeyeon and left the girl breathless.

"Okay! Okay!" Taeyeon said in defeat.

Tiffany took the initiative to kiss her. At first, the shorter girl was very
hesitant but Tiffany's soft and sweet lips drew her closer. They were this
close to getting each other naked when Taeyeon stopped.

"What?" Tiffany sulked.

"Get a shower first."

Tiffany jumped off the bed and hurriedly finished showering. She went out of
the bathroom less than twenty minutes only to find Taeyeon rummaging
something from her bag. "What's that?"

"Wait, hold your steps." Taeyeon replied. She then took out a box wrapped in
a fancy paper and stood in front of Tiffany. She looked at her watch to wait
for the striking of twelve. She handed her gift to the girl. "Merry Christmas,
Tiffany."

The other girl smiled widely once she got a hold of the box. "A gift?"

Taeyeon nodded.

"Can I open it?"

"Sure."

Tiffany put it down and also brought out her gift that was well hidden inside
her bag. "Merry Christmas Taetae."

The latter gratefully took the box and grinned. "Oh, wait. Let's not open
these gifts yet."

"Why?" The ebony head's brows raised.

"I think I have cups of ramyun in my stash. Let's celebrate Christmas and our
first day together."

Tiffany grinned. It wasn't much but she can enjoy Christmas just by being at
Taeyeon's side. She can enjoy a cup of noodles as long as she shares it with
the girl. She can have this kind of life, every day, forever. "Okay. Let's have
those."

The shorter girl cupped Tiffany's face and gave her a quick peck on the lips.
She took her hand and pulled her towards the kitchen.

"Wait." Tiffany said.

"What is it?"

The ebony head gripped Taeyeon's hand tighter. "I love you."

"I love you too."

Other Way Around

What?!" Tiffany's voice reverberated in the air. She was still wearing her
make-up and her tight fitting dress for the party Taeyeon's patients threw for
her.

Taeyeon walked pass her and dropped her bag on the cabinet. "You're late.
You are always late. And you have this same excuse of being with your
clients."

"It wasn't an excuse at all, because it was true. Even Jess was there!"

Since getting back together, Taeyeons house had never been quiet for that
long. They always fight about small things and mostly, it was because of
Tiffany. Petty reasons or huge ones, it's always because of Tiffany.

"You promised me that this time you won't ever be late."

"I was stuck on traffic." Tiffany said when she gathered herself up. "We talked
over the phone."

"Everyone's waiting for us. They even postponed the buffet."

Tiffany hissed. "I told you I couldn't go because we have a meeting.. But you
insisted and I granted your request. And now you're getting mad at me? I
even get dressed. In the car. While I was trapped in the traffic."

Taeyeon was about to retort when she got interrupted by a phone ring.

The ebony head stomped her feet to reach for her phone. She glared at
Taeyeon before answering the call. She turned around, back facing Taeyeon,

as she changed her expression. "Good afternoon Damien." She greeted in a

very friendly voice. "Of course. Now?" She looked at her watch. "Okay. I'll be
there say, in ten?"

"You're going out again with him?"

"Why do you make it sound like I am going on a date? Damien is a client."

Tiffany started packing her things up.

"We are still talking." Taeyeon grabbed Tiffany's arm and it was surprisingly
tight. She was really getting frustrated these past few days because of their
arguments. "Don't go yet."

"This is stupid." She yanked her arm free. And she went out.

Taeyeon then lay down on her bed with her face buried in her comforter. She
doesn't know what to do anymore. It was like high school all over again,
where everything is an issue and everything is a reason to fight.

Yeah. This really is stupid.

---

"I am going to guess this one. They fought again." The blonde doctor said.
She bit the tip of her celery and looked at the intern beside her after seeing
how Taeyeon was doing earlier that day.

Yuri nodded. She studied her short senior who was holding a tray that
consisted of her lunch. She was next on queue. The cashier was calling out
for her but she stood still in her place until the nurse behind her nudged her.
She went back to life and paid for her meal. Yuri shook her head. "What's
happening?"

Sunny shrugged. "It's been months. This is going beyond control."

"Why?"

"Last time, they fought about who should buy their food." The shorter girl
pursed her lips. "Instead of acting their ages, they are doing the other way
around."

Yuri mulled over the situation. She heaved a deep sigh. Even her
conversations with her own girlfriend mostly consist of Taeyeon and Tiffany
because Jessica was so worried about their friends.

Taeyeon sat down and put her tray over the small table. "****." She hissed.

"What?" Sunny asked.

"I forgot to buy my soda." She looked at the line before the cashier and it
was too long. She can't even find any of her interns who can do her a favor.
"What did I do to deserve this?! I always buy my can of Coke and now I forgot
about it. Where are my interns when I needed them?" She pushed her food
slightly away.

Yuri and Sunny saw how cranky the girl was. "Hey, are you okay?" The blonde
asked.

"I can't drink my soda because I forgot about it and now I am not in the mood
to eat anything." Taeyeon said flatly. "Of course I'm okay, Soonkyu." She
added in a disdainful tone.

Sunny didn't respond. She was totally taken aback because that was the
rudest statement Taeyeon has ever made in her life.

"Are you two fighting again?" Yuri asked. Even she was offended how
Taeyeon talked back to her concerned friend.

"Why?' The doctor asked.

Yuri rolled her eyes. "Dr Kim."

"Yesterday, she arrived at the party late. She was so late, the only person
who was there was me." Taeyeon frowned. She slumped on the backrest of
her chair. "Everyone went home already."

"..."

"And of course, that was because she was with her clients. We were in the
middle of our fight when she had to go to this Damien guy."

An unsurprised "oh" came out from her friends' mouths. Yuri puffed her
cheeks and Sunny stopped paying attention. "What, aren't you going to nag
me about growing up again?" She asked, furious.

"You already know what to do." Sunny stood up. "And we are your friends.
Not your stress ball or something." She took her back, waved a hand to Yuri
and walked away.

Taeyeon only watched her disappear. She's just too pissed off about the
whole world because she fought with her girlfriend and because she can't
have that stupid can of her favorite soda.

"You should say sorry to her." Yuri said. If she didnt understand her, she
would've left too.

"Why should I? It was too obvious I am not okay and she's going to ask me if
I was."

The tan inhaled. Taeyeon was too stubborn for a twenty seven year old
doctor. "She's just concerned. Do remind me I am talking to my senior
please. Because I hated talking to children."

"Then leave. No one's asking you to stay here with me."

"Okay. I'll pretend to not hear those words." Yuri tried hard to lose patience
because at the top of it all, she still respects Taeyeon. "If you got problems in
your life, don't drag them with you wherever you go. Keep them at home if
you want."

"Whatever."

---

Yuri listened carefully to Jessica. The girl told her about how Tiffany worked
and how everything went wrong during their models' rehearsals because her
mind was too out of reality.

"Because they fought." Yuri said.

"I know! I can't believe it."

"Dr Kim was so grumpy too. She offended Dr Lee and she even whatever-ed
me."

"What did you say she did?" Jessicas eyes widened.

Yuri grimaced. She didn't want to remember anything about Taeyeon's

behaviour earlier that day. "It's really unnerving. You should be there when
she talked like that."

The blonde clucked her tongue. "And she told you whatever? The next time
she'll do that to you again, tell me. 'Kay? I'll be the reason of her
hospitalization. I swear." She said as she scrunched her nose. Yuri, for all she
knew, was a good hearted person and she doesn't deserve to be treated that
way.

Yuri only smiled at Jessica.

"What?"

"Can you like stop doing things that make me want to kiss you?" Yuri said
with gratitude written all over her face.

The blonde blushed. "Why?"

"You're cute. And you always said you're not born sweet. But I can see that
you are." She said, her heart squirming for so much love and happiness.

"Oh, really?"

The tan girl nodded. She sat next to Jessica and kissed her forehead. "You
are. And I am lucky." She gave her a hug and it felt so comfortable, full of
love and just everything she wanted in the world. She could go on a day by
just looking at Jessica's face or listening to her voice or just by holding her
like that.

"Let's not be like that." The blonde said, out of nowhere

"Like what?"

"Taeyeon and Tiffany. Let's not be like them." Jessica felt weary when she
tried to imagine them yelling at each other or them fighting over a small
reason. She can't do that. She wanted them to always be in love and in
peace with each other as much as possible. Breaking up with Yuri is the least
on her to-do list. "We can argue sometimes. But not to the point of hating

each other. I don't want us to go as far as that. If we have problems, let's sit
on it and talk it out."

Yuri had the same thoughts. She loved Jessica so much. "We won't. I'll
understand even if I hated how your mood shifts from one to another." She
giggled when she earned an elbow to her stomach.

"I am not!"

The other girl laughed. "You're not so sure about that Sica." She smirked.

"I hate you. Don't sleep beside me later." She sulked.

Yuri laughed again. "See? You wanted to protect me from Taeyeon earlier and
now you're sulking at me."

Jessica realized it and can't help but giggle. "No."

"I heard that." Yuri wrapped her arms tighter on Jessica's waist. "Moving on,"
Her voice turned serious. "I can always listen to you sulk and whine without
getting tired or irritated. I love all of those actually."

Jessica could feel her heart bounce inside her ribcage. Surely, Yuri could only
make her feel like that. No one else. "Okay. I'll try my best to keep myself

from getting jealous. But promise me, you'll be in your best behaviour
always."

"Promise!"

"Love you."

"Love you too."

---

Tiffany went home to a silent and cold house. She used to love going home
because she misses Taeyeon after a very long day. She used to look forward
for her off hours just to see Taeyeon. But that night, she could swear she
would love to stay in a hotel because she needed some rest and a nice sleep.

She took off her shoes, put them on the shoe rack and looked around.
Seemed like nobody was there. "I'm home." She said.

Taeyeon came out from their room, with her after shower look, messed up
hair and bare face. Tiffany would normally find it cute and provocative but
tonight, she felt nothing. "Hey." The shorter girl walked towards the sofa and
collapsed on it.

"Hey." Tiffany said while watching her. She missed her. She wanted to come
next to Taeyeon and cuddle but, she can't and even if she can, she won't.
She inhaled and went straight to the closet, got some comfortable shirt and
shorts and took a refreshing shower to get rid of all her negative vibes.

She went out and sat on their bed while drying her hair. She stopped herself
from going out because she didn't to see Taeyeon again. Because having a
glimpse of her childlike face will force her walls to crumble.

She heard Taeyeon chuckle from the living room and it got her curious. She
stood up, put her casual face on and headed to where Taeyeon was. She sat
down at the other end of the sofa.

Taeyeon was watching a comedy series when Tiffany came in.

The girl was so sexy. Suddenly, Taeyeons heart raced when she felt the sofa
foam dipped. Tiffany was just two and a half feet away from her. She side
glanced at the serious-looking girl and she almost regretted it because that's
when she finds Tiffany the hottest. She bit her lip and tried to concentrate on
the TV show.

Taeyeon missed Tiffany. Having her in a grasp is too much for her pride.
"How's your day?" Before she knew it, her mouth opened. Damn it.

"I don't think it was fine. And yours?

"Same as you are." Taeyeon said, her breathing has become more relax after
hearing Tiffany's voice. "What did you do?"

"I couldn't decide on what to do with the models and got furious to all my
staff." She chuckled. Her people would hate her by now. "And you?"

"I scolded my interns, I fought with a patient and I kind of pushed Yuri and
Sunny to their limits." She said with a light chuckle.

"Wow. What did you say?"

"I mocked both of them and I think it was really offensive that Soonkyu
walked out on me." She explained.

The girl shook her head. When they fight, a lot of people are affected too.

"We can't quite function well when we fight, don't you think?" Taeyeon asked.

"Yeah." Tiffany replied, feeling a bit weightless because of talking to Taeyeon

again. "And maybe I missed you."

"Maybe?" Taeyeon pouted. "I have to admit I missed you so much."

"Okay then, I miss you too. It's killing me." Tiffany didn't look at Taeyeon but
she felt the girl scooting. She smiled because she knew they're going to be
fine again.

Taeyeon pulled Tiffany's waist and at that touch, she could devour the girl
whole. "Sorry for getting mad at you." She whispered in Tiffany's ear.

"You're doing it in purpose. I am not falling for your seduction styles Taetae."

Taeyeon was challenged, indeed. She kissed Tiffany under her ear. She felt
her shudder and she kissed her on her neck. She waited for the girl to crane
and she felt victorious because Tiffany gave her an instant access. "Not
going to fall, huh?"

"Shut up." Tiffany pulled Taeyeon's collar and kissed her. She definitely
missed this encounters with Taeyeon. And she definitely missed everything
about her. "You're all I've been thinking of. I hate you for it."

"Hey. That's no fair. You were also in my mind all the freaking time." Taeyeon
replied, still pecking Tiffany's shoulder.

"I am sorry too." The other girl said. "But I am still offended that you made it
sound like Damien was my other man." She glared.

Taeyeon smiled and pulled Tiffany's chin to face her. "I love you."

"I love you too." She pouted.

Taeyeon had no choice to kiss her once more. She was just too alluring.

"You should say sorry to Yuri and Sunny, Taetae." Tiffany pushed her slightly
away. Even though how much she wanted Taeyeon too, there are still things
they have to talk about.

The shorter girl groaned in disappointment. "We'll talk later, yeah?"

Tiffany shook her head. Taeyeon sighed and leaned her back on the sofa. "I
was sad. They should've understood me."

"Yes. But they are your friends. They are worried. You excuse yourself if you
don't feel that well. You don't offend them."

Taeyeon knew she was right. "Okay. I'll talk to them soon." She was about to
lunge in for another kiss after seeing the ebony head smile, a phone ring
interrupted her. She rolled her eyes and Tiffany giggled at her. She tapped
the answer button of her smartphone. "Yes?"

"Unnie!" She heard a familiar voice.

She furrowed her brows as she stood up. She walked inside their room to talk
more freely. "Hayeon-ah?" She asked in Korean.

"Yes, unnie. I think you are forgetting something."

She scratched her head because she doesn't know what her little sister was
talking about. "What are you saying?"

"Omo." The youngster gasped.

"Just tell me, I don't have time for this." Taeyeon smiled a bit because she
knew well her sister would be pouting right then.

"It's my birthday next weekend." Hayeon said, frowning. "You forgot and you
won't come. I know." She let out a disappointed exhale.

Taeyeon really forgot about that because she was too preoccupied by Tiffany
anf well, their endless fights. She was sure her sister was hurt. Yearly, she
always phones their home in Sacramento to ask what Hayeon wanted a week
before her birthday. And she never fails to give the gift to her sister in
person. "Ah. I didn't forget." She lied expertly. "I was just busy that's why I
can't call earlier. And I already have a gift for you that's why I didn't ask this
time." She remembered the Chanel bag her sister wanted. And she has to
buy it for her unless she wanted a third world war.

"Really?" An excited squeal.

"Yes." She felt relieved. She has to ask Tiffany to help her.

"Yay me!" The girl yelped in English. "Have Tiffany-unnie here too, okay?"

Speaking of her girlfriend, how come Hayeon knew that Tiffany was there
with her? "Fany-ah?"

"Yes."

"How did you know she was here?"

Hayeon narrowed her eyes. "You didn't know?"

"Know what?"

Her younger sister hesitated before explaining. Taeyeon was on

speakerphone and their mother was beside Hayeon. The woman shook her
head because it was supposed to be a secret.

"Umma, if you're there don't ask Hayeon to lie to me. I know you two." The
other girl warned.

Mrs Kim tensed and she urged her daughter to just speak.

Hayeon exhaled. "Fine. Unnie went here before Christmas."

"Why?"

"She went looking for you."

Before Christmas. That was the time she went AWOL to everyone. That was
the time she hid from Tiffany. Taeyeon tried to remember the notes the girl
written for her. There was an entry there where Tiffany said she will do
something so she had to leave. Maybe that was it. She went looking for her.
"How did she know where we live?"

"I talked to Jiyeon last week. Tiffany unnie went to Jeonju to look for you and
our dear cousin gave her our address."

"Can I talk to you later? Bye." Taeyeon immediately hung up. She realized
the extra mile Tiffany had to take for her. She stood in front of the door,
looking at her girlfriend with so much adoration.

Tiffany really grew up and she loves Taeyeon. She always did.

Tiffany noticed it. "What? Who is that?"

The shorter girl shook her head. She sat down next to Tiffany, embraced her
and suddenly her eyes were watering.

"Hey." The ebony head said soothingly. "What happened? Tell me." She
rubbed the girl's arm.

"I knew something. Just now."

Tiffany tensed. She doesn't want another fight and mostly, she doesn't want
Taeyeon to get hurt. "Did I do something?"

Taeyeon nodded.

"What is it? I'm sorry if I hurt you."

A soft giggle came out from Taeyeon's mouth. "Hayeon's looking for you. It's
her birthday next weekend."

She realized what Taeyeon knew then. "Oh, that."

"You came for me. You looked for me."

Tiffany instinctively wrapped her arms around her tighter. "I did. I have to
find you."

"Why?"

"Because I wanted you back. And I have to find you no matter what. Don't
get mad at Jiyeon. She told me your address. "

Taeyeon smiled. She wiped her tears and looked at the other girl. "Why didn't
you ask me back right after we met at the coffee shop?"

"Because I was too happy just by seeing you. And that's more than enough."

"You love me that much huh?"

Tiffany giggled. "That's why it should be a secret. I know you'll be so proud."

"It was an innocent question!"

"Whatever."

"So, you're going to Sacramento with me?"

Tiffany nodded. And she felt Taeyeon's hands under her shirt. She rolled her
eyes because the other girl never forgets about her perverseness.

"Why aren't you moving?" Taeyeon kissed Tiffany's cheek down to her jaw. "I
miss you." Her voice was almost pleading. She heard the latter chuckle. She
exhaled. "No?"

"No." Tiffany said. "Let's watch the show. It's interesting." Her eyes locked on
the wide screen.

"Fine." Taeyeon withdrew her hands. The steam went off in an instant.

"Hey! Why did you let go?"

"You didn't want to."

"But I want a cuddle." Tiffany finally turned her head and pouted at the
sulking girl. "Please?"

Taeyeon rolled her eyes. Tiffany can really be such a tease by pushing her
away and then pulling again afterwards. "Fine."

---

"This is a good idea." Tiffany said. It was an early Sunday morning drive.
They woke up at the wee hours of the day in preparation for Hayeon's
birthday. They brought the bag Taeyeon promised and a pair of clothes
designed by Tiffany.

The party won't start until the evening so they decided to pay the family
they didn't see for a while a visit.

"The kids probably missed us." Taeyeon said, smiling. Her last visit to them
was when she was really depressed. She didn't get the chance to play with
the kids and she didn't even talked to Irene and Adrian that much. All she
wanted then was something to feel and some people to make her do that.

"I saw your pictures there on their wall. God, you looked so doomed. Was it
because of me? You really love me." Tiffany casually replied, pulling out some
candies and cookies from the paper bag.

The shorter girl chuckled. "And says the one who went to Korea and back
here just to find me."

Tiffany pouted. She knew she'll lose the game. "Whatever."

They have arrived in thirty minutes time. The house was still the same. Two
young girls were playing with their small bicycles outside. They both smiled
at the familiarity of it all.

Taeyeon excitedly stepped out of the car first. She took the packs of knick
knacks they made and hung them in the air. "Who wants some candies and
cookies?" She asked, loud enough to catch the attention of the girls.

Both turned their hands and huge smiles were on their faces. "Dr Taetae?"

Taeyeon nodded.

"Dr Taetae!" The girl with shorter hair came running towards her. While the
other one ran inside the house. "Mommy! Daddy! Dr Taetae is here!"

Tiffany was happy to see how Taeyeon beamed when she saw the kids. Her
heart also jumped for joy. She came out and the girl, who was walking out of
the house saw her immediately.

"Tiffany!" She also hopped to the ebony head.

"Hi!" Tiffany waved her hand. She went close to Taeyeon. The kids literally
then jumped on them. They laughed at them. "Wow, you've gotten bigger
and bigger."

The girl with bangs and longer hair smiled. "Of course!"

"Sure you are, Carina." Taeyeon guessed the name because they looked
really alike.

The other girl pouted. "She is Candace. I am Carina."

The two adults giggled. "I was just kidding." Taeyeon stooped down.
"Candies?"

"Kids, you snatched some food treats again, huh?" Adrian stood behind the
kids. He looked much healthier and his body got leaner. "Good morning Ms
Hwang, Dr. Kim. Come on in."

Chapter 35

Sooner or Later

Candace and Carina enjoyed their own candy and cookie party at the
backyard. Adrian was so happy to see Tiffany and Taeyeon. He called for
Irene and once more, they gave their sincerest thank yous to the two. Irene
prepared some bread and coffees for them to share. But the only man
excused himself from the three ladies when he had to get one of his jobs
done.

"Too bad, I can't join you." He looked at them apologetically. "But hey, at
least you can talk about girl things." He smiled.

"Silly." Irene said as she tiptoed to give her husband a kiss on the cheek.
"Okay go now."

He shook hands with Taeyeon and Tiffany. "See you again soon. Enjoy."

"Take care." Tiffany said.

"You looked prettier the last time I saw you." Taeyeon remarked at the
housewife. Tiffany nodded in agreement.

Irene blushed. "I get a lot of rest these days." She narrowed her eyes at the
two. "Wait, I think you two have some explaining to do."

"Huh?"

"The last time I saw you, both of you were miserable." Her eyes sparkled
when she realized that something happened. "We're going to talk about this
over coffee!" She squealed.

It was Taeyeon and Tiffany's turn to blush. Taeyeon asked Tiffany in a whisper
when Irene went to the kitchen. "Does she know?"

Tiffany nodded. "Yeah. I'm sorry."

"No, it's fine." Taeyeon snatched a quick kiss at Tiffany's lips.

"Yah! We're not alone!" Tiffany hissed in Korean.

Taeyeon chuckled. Then came in Irene with three cups on a tray. "So, how did
it happen?" She sat down, her eyes focused at them like she was watching
her favorite TV series.

"Well, we met at this coffee shop. I saw her looking at the menu board and
yes, that's it." Tiffany said, blushing.

Irene silently digested the words and hoped for a continuation. But nothing
came after. "That's... It?" She raised her brows. "It only took a sip. This is
supposed to be a story sharing. Come on, you're no fun."

Both of them laughed. They thought they should've visited earlier.

"There's nothing much to share." Taeyeon smiled.

"So you're back together?" The housewife asked, blowing some air on her hot
cup.

Tiffany glanced at Taeyeon, gave her a reassuring smile and nodded back at
Irene.

"It actually reminded me of me and Adrian."

Taeyeon and Tiffany looked at her with questioning looks.

"Adrian was my first love. We met back in high school. You know what
happened, the clich. We fell in love and we dated for nearly a year until we
broke up because of fights and jealousy." She giggled.

Tiffany Taeyeon somehow understood Irene. They shared almost the same
story. She looked at her girlfriend because she knew well how it feels. She
held her hand tighter.

"We broke up. We went to different colleges. We didn't see each other for
years. I had a boyfriend and he has a girl. Then our school held a reunion and
we saw each other again. It's crazy because after all those years of being
apart, we still love each other. We forgave each other." She paused, looking
at the couple. She was trying to tell them her story in hopes to make them
understand her point. "It would really be hard at first because of your issues
from the past but with love, I know both of you can overcome everything.
Look at us. We're happily married and we have two wonderful kids."

Taeyeon listened well. She knew exactly what Irene was telling because
honestly, sometimes, it gets lonely when she can't get her whole trust back.
It gets really frustrating when she remembers the old Tiffany.

"You guys will be fine. As long as you stick together." Irene added in sincerity.

"Thanks." Tiffany replied with a gratified smile on her face. She looked at the
girl beside her, who was looking at her too.

"Mommy?" One of the little girls suddenly appeared behind them.

The three women turned to see Candace with so much chocolate spread over
her small shirt. Then Carina, with same state came in giggling.

"Sorry mommy, we made a mess of ourselves."

Taeyeon and Tiffany snickered. Irene heaved a sigh.

"Go get changed. You little girls owe me one." She said. The sibl8ngs came
running upstairs to get new pairs of clothes. "Sorry about that."

"Oh no. We should be sorry. We brought those snacks." Taeyeon said, waving
her hand.

"It's okay, Dr Kim. They really missed you two."

"We miss them too."

---

"Oh hi." A man in his casual raglan shirt, jeans and aviator shades greeted
his unexpected guess. He furrowed his brows. "You aren't Tiffany."

The blonde smiled apologetically. "I am sorry Mr Oh. I am Jessica, Tiffany's

co-designer. She was in an important event today so she couldn't come."

"So, you are Jessica. Hello. It's really nice to finally see you." The man
grinned and shook Jessica's hand. He gestured for the seat across him to let
the girl sit down. "She didn't give me a message beforehand. I should've
postponed this meeting. Sorry to bother you." Restrain

"No, it's fine Mr Oh. I don't have plans anyways." Jessica said.

"Just call me Damien. Calling me mister makes me feel older." He replied,

chuckling.

"Okay Damien." The blonde nodded. She took out the sketches of their
designs and tried to show it to him but the latter waved her hand.

"Let's eat first, shall we?"

Jessica put the papers down beside her. "Sorry for that, I am quite straight to
the point."

Damien shook his head as he took the waiter's attention. He took off his
shades and Jessica could see that aside from his well-built body and well
sculptured face, his mesmerizing eyes were also to-die-for. So that's why
Tiffany told her to avoid staring at his eyes. If Taeyeon was to see him, she
will most probably drag Tiffany away from him. "Their steak is the best in this
side of the city. Would you like to try it?"

"Sure." She averted her gaze.

After giving the waiter their orders, Damien leaned back to his chair and
looked at Jessica. "You two are very different."

"What?"

"You and Tiffany." He said. "She never gets down to business instantly. She
would talk and talk and eat first. I love food fortunately. So maybe that's
because I agreed to get you guys."

Jessica creased her brows on that. Not because Damien compared her to her
best friend but because of the way he described Tiffany. It seemed to her
that this guy liked Tiffany.

"Do you know if," Damien paused and leaned in closer. "She's dating
anyone?"

And her gut was right. She mentally rolled her eyes. "Sorry, Damien but we
are all professionals in our company. So you know what I am saying, right?"

The man's eyes shot up, impressed by how Jessica reacted. "Of course. Sorry
about that."

If they weren't in a public place she could've punched him in the face.
Taeyeon and Tiffany were always fighting because this douche was always
calling out for her best friend. They all thought that it was just purely
because of business. But now Jessica knew it wasn't. "So, let's get back to
our designs?"

---

"Unnie!" Hayeon ran towards the gate when she had a glimpse of her older
sister outside. Mr and Mrs Kim came behind her with smiles on their faces.

"Hayeon-ah, aside from squealing, can you open the gate for me too?"
Taeyeon said while giggling. She waved her hand to her parents.

"Oh, right." The youngster said as she unlocked the opening.

Taeyeon came in empty handed. Her youbger saw it and frowned. Mrs Kim
noticed the change in her daughter's face immediately. "Hayeon, you were
excited earlier. I thought you missed your unnie. It seemed like you only want
your gifts." She remarked.

The older man laughed. "Aigoo, my youngest daughter didn't really want
unnie here." He added the tease.

Taeyeon pretended to be hurt. "That broke my heart." She acted as if her

heart was really wounded.

"Yah! Umma, appa, stop it." Hayeon glared at her parents and she stuck her
tongue out at her only sister. "I hate you."

The older one pinched her sister's cheek lightly. "I love you too." She breezed
pass her and she gave her parents a very tight hug. "Appa, umma, how are
you? I missed you." She let go after a minute of smothering them.

"We're fine." The man answered. He petted his daughter's head. "And you?"

"Same old, same old."

"You should also watch out for yourself Taetae." Mrs Kim said with a wee of
worry in her tone.

Taeyeon had to smile. Her home visits will never be complete without her
mom telling her to do this and to do that. She missed her family and she was
happy to be with them again. She turned around and smirked at her sister.
"Sorry, didn't bring you any. Is that okay?"

Hayeon tugged her lips in a weird angle and she rolled her eyes.

The three other people laughed. Then Taeyeon went back to her car and was
likely to get something. She went back, again with nothing on her hands.

"Are you kidding me?"

"Fine. I have the gifts for you." Taeyeon looked at her car. "Come out!" She
yelled for the person she was with to hear.

After a few seconds, a very pretty Tiffany came in with paper bags on hand.
She handed it to the youngest among the three dumbfounded people.
Hayeon took them but she wasn't still speaking a thing.

"Miyoung?" Mrs Kim said after regaining herself. "Oh, Miyoung-ah. You're here
with my Taetae!" She went to her and gave her a big hug. "You look
beautiful." She then turned to Taeyeon, who was as blooming as the girl in
her hold. She knew that something good happened.

"Miyoung, it's good to see you again." Mr Kim smiled. "You got back together,
I presume?"

His casual question made the two girls' cheeks blush. "Yah appa. What are
you talking about?" Taeyeon asked in a raised voice. She didn't know what
her family knows about them.

"You didn't see each other for years. What I was saying was you saw each
other again." Mr Kim replied calmly, when in fact, he was really referring to
their relationship. He forgot her daughter didn't know that they were aware
of her and Tiffany's affair.

Taeyeon's vital signs returned to normal. Her parents couldn't know aboyt
them just yet. "Ah appa, you always say the wrong words."

"I know." The old man laughed heartily. It was still a bit painful knowing her
daughter, despite being successful in her career was still different. "So, shall
we?" He gestured towards their garden.

All of them nodded and they headed happily to the prepared table. It wasn't
much. Aside from Tiffany, Hayeon's closest friends were there too. It was just
a small gathering to celebrate the youngest among the family's birthday.

"Where is your daddy, Miyoung?" The man asked once more.

"Still busy, Appa. But I'll try to call him for his schedules. He is also excited to
see you again."

"Good."

---

"Thank you for the stake and for your approval." Jessica bowed her head and
flashed a smile.

"It's nothing." The man grinned back, staring at Jessica with an amused look.
"Didn't realize you are also beautiful."

Jessica should've blushed but then, she wasn't the type of girl to receive
compliments from guys she didn't trust nicely. She faked a gratified smile.

"But I still like Tiffany." He said in a much lower voice but Jessica heard it and
she almost puked.

She was about to say a nasty reply but a car honk interrupted her. Jessica
turned her head to see a black SUV at the side of the road. She smiled
widely. "I'll see you Damien." And she hopped her way to the vehicle.

Upon opening the unlocked door, a frowning Yuri welcomed her.

"Hey." Jessica kissed her cheek.

"Hey."

"Something the matter?" The blonde asked.

"Who is he?" Yuri asked, pointing at the man with her chin. She didn't like the
vibe he was giving.

Jessica looked to see who it was. "Oh that's Damien. The client Tiffany
supposed to meet."

"I don't like him." Yuri said coldly.

Jessica couldn't hide her glee. "Jealous?"

"Yes." The tan girl replied, no buckles. She received a chaste kiss on her
cheek.

"I don't like him either." She said reassuringly. "And-" Jessica stopped. If she
told Yuri that this man has a thong for Tiffany, her girlfriend might tell it to
Taeyeon, which will really turn out bad. She thought she should talk to her
friend first and foremost.

"What?" Yuri asked.

"He's nothing compared to you." The blonde replied. "Let's go."

---

"Okay! Its time for pictures!" Hayeon clasped her hands while grinning at
her guests. It was their custom to have pictures whenever there's an
occasion or whenever their whole family was complete.

She and her friends positioned themselves and flashes from the camera
came in. When they had enough, it was time for the family portrait. Tiffany
was about to step aside when Mr Kim took her hand. "You should come." He
smiled at the dumbfounded girl.

Taeyeon saw the interaction and smiled. She went behind Tiffany and pushed
her a little closer to her family. "I think you really should." He looked at his
father and the man nodded at her.

How lovely it made Tiffany felt. After all that's happened; she still got
Taeyeon and a family to come to. "Thanks appa."

"That's nothing." Mr Kim said. Youre family Miyoung.

The man stood at the center, Mrs Kim and Hayeon were at his right side and
at his left were Taeyeon and Tiffany. The camera was able to capture their
smiles, their dorkiness and how they cherish the moment together. To
Taeyeon, she never felt this alive for years.

"Okay, last photo." Hayeon's friend said.

Tiffany's phone vibrated inside her pocket and she instinctively brought it
out. It was a call from her client. She sighed. It might be very important. She
had to excuse herself from the last shot.

"Yes, hello?"

"Tiffany." Damien's voice sounded in her ears. "I met your partner today."

"Is that so?"

"You didn't tell me you're not coming." He added.

"Oh, right sorry." Tiffany shut her eyes. She might get scolded for this.

The man on the other line smiled. "Don't be. I was just used to seeing you
and it was different."

"O-kay." Tiffany didn't understand what those words meant because

honestly, she didn't care. She had to excuse herself from the last photo with
Taeyeon's family just for this nonsensical conversation. "Is that all?"

"Are you busy?"

"That, I am."

"Sorry, see you soon then." He said with an apologetic tone.

"Okay." Tiffany hung up. As she turned her head, her eyes had a glimpse of
disappointment in Taeyeon's eyes. She went to her, ready to apologize but
Taeyeon turned her back and walked away instead.

She exhaled all her displeasured air inside her lungs. She knew this could be
another fight. She knew that she was again in trouble.

---

Both of them had to work the next day so they needed to go back to LA right
after the dinner was done. They wanted to stay for the night but it wasn't
feasible for them to do so.

They arrived home not later than two in the morning. And the drive was too
quiet, it was the type of quietness that can be drowning and suffocating.

Tiffany sat down tiredly on the chair and Taeyeon slouched on the sofa.

"What was that?" The shorter girl asked, agitated.

"It was just a phone call."

Taeyeon scoffed. "Exactly. Just a phone call. My family asked you to join us
and you left us for a phone call? And please," She raised her hand. "Don't
give me that same lame excuse of your client calling. Because first, it is
Sunday and you promised me that youre off the work for Hayeon's birthday."

Tiffany couldn't contest that because Taeyeon was right. "He was asking for
something." She lied to stop the argument.

"Was it that important?"

No. "Yes."

"I don't believe you." Taeyeon stood up and left Tiffany, who was trying not to
cry.

---

"Stop acting silly, Jess." Tiffany rolled her eyes because what she heard was
just absurd. She was obviously having a bad morning. Well, bad mornings
and days to be correct. She and Taeyeon weren't still talking and the news
didn't make her feel any better.

"I'm not being silly, Tiffany. That Damien guys likes you. The blonde made
her point.

Tiffany stood up from her working table and took a piece of cookie from the
jar. She realized she hadn't had breakfast.

Jessica on the other hand picked a dress from their summer collection of
designs and looked at each detail. "You might want to get a safe distance
from him." She put it back and took another pair of clothes.

Her friend stood beside her and silently scrutinized what Jessica was holding.
"Why?"

"You might get into trouble again."

Tiffany shook her head. "I am not doing anything wrong and I won't." She
stated firmly.

"I didn't say you are."

The ebony head understood her best friend's point. She and Taeyeon have
been fighting a lot lately and she should really do things right this time.
"Okay." She then said, almost hogging the cookie jar for herself. "But I didn't
know he liked me and I don't give a damn either."

"Good." Jessica replied, convinced. She furrowed her brows as soon as she
realized something. "Why arent you on the phone, making cheesy
conversations with Taengoo?"

The former's shoulders collapsed at the memory. And the blonde knew just
what happened again. Fighting over small things has been their habit.

"What did you fight about this time?" Jessica took a cookie from Tiffany's
hands and munched it.

The other girl shut her eyes because she was a bit ashamed of the reason. It
was too petty, she might say. "We were taking photos with her family. And it
was so nice to be able to join them, like I am really a part of the group. But
then, Damien called. I thought it was an emergency so I answered it. I
excused myself from the shoot and she was upset about it. It was nothing
but," She bit her lip. "I did promise her that I am hers for the day and work
was off limits."

"That's it?"

Tiffany nodded. "And it's been days since we talked. I don't really know
what's happening right now."

And just when you thought everything was doing fine, that's when you
realize that some are not, and that a lot has really changed. You experience
happiness again after the longest time of being so idle and then it was only a
glimpse, a taste of the emotion. Because sooner or later, you'll realize that
happiness will never be permanent. Things will go rough and you just want to
regret the very fact that you stepped in to the unknown for the second time
around and now all you can feel is uncertainty.

"Tiff, don't say that."

The girl looked at her friend with sad eyes. "Why are we like this?"

"I don't know. Don't blame yourself, okay?"

"I am always the reason." Tiffany stated matter-of-factly.

Jessica pushed her wheeled chair to Tiffany and held her arms. "Maybe this is
just you guys adjusting. Give it time, yeah?"

Tiffany nodded but deep in her heart, she knew it wasn't just a phase.

---

"Stephanie, dear." The man on the phone said happily.

Tiffany smiled. Hearing her father's voice somehow made her feel a whole lot
better. "Daddy. How are you?"

"I'm fine. What's with the sudden call? Did something happen?"

"Dad, how did you do it?" She asked, hesitation was obvious in her voice.

"Did what dear?"

Tiffany let out her nervous air in big puff. "How did you gain back mom's
trust?"

The man was taken aback. He didn't know what to think of. "Tiffany I-"

"Daddy, I knew. I was young then but I knew you cheated on her." She said,
giving her old man a reassurance that she's not mad at him and she didn't
hold any grudge against him. "I just want to know how you managed to bring
her back. Completely."

Chapter 36

Beginning of the End

Yuri stood by the door, crossing her arm over her chest. She watched
Taeyeon watching over the parking lot which one can overlook from her
office windows. There was nothing much in there, only a bunch of vehicles

lined in a parallel manner. She heard her sigh. "Are you okay?" She asked in
Korean.

Taeyeon wasn't surprised because she sensed Yuri's presence. "Yes." She
answered but being not was more evident.

Yuri walked in and sat across Taeyeon. "Jessica told me you fought again?"

"Oh. I kind of forgot her best friend is your girlfriend." The shorter girl said,
frowning. "This is what happens when the people you are closest were also
close to her."

"Dr Kim."

"We did fight. Again." She spun her swivel chair to face Yuri. "And we always
fight about her work and her client. She always put them first."

"Client?"

"Was the name Damien? I can't remember but that's pretty much it."

Yuri's eyes shot up. She thought of the man she saw with Jessica last
weekend. "I think I already saw him. Sica met him last weekend. And she
said she couldn't stand a meeting with him." Yuri chuckled when she

remembered how her girlfriend talked about him and his annoying ways. "So
what happened?"

"We were in my sister's party and we were having pictures with my family.
My appa even asked her to join us. My father wants her in. Do you get what I
mean?" She asked.

"Okay, go on."

"And this Damien called her. She said she has to take the call. What are a
few unanswered calls? She can't think of me you know. Maybe a little respect
to my father is good." She added, exhaling. "She said it's important. Did his
meeting with Sica go wrong?"

"No. It went smooth Jessica said, even if she really wanted to punch him on
the face."

Taeyeon has now this nagging curiosity. If Jessica hated him and she couldn't
stand a meeting with him, how come Tiffany was able to meet him regularly
without any complaints about this guy? "Then what's that important thing he
needed to ask Tiffany?"

The tan intern shrugged.

"Damn it. How can I get her to quit this job?"

"Dr Kim." Yuri said sternly. "He is originally Tiffany's priority client. Maybe she
hates him too but she has to endure it because she needed him for the
company."

"Why won't she open up to me? Why doesn't she tell me everything?"

"That's the question you should ask yourself."

---

After minutes of waiting for Tiffany, the girl finally emerged from the tinted
door of the small restaurant. He smiled after seeing her. A lot has changed to
his daughter for the past months. After that phone call she gave him, he took
the earliest flight he could get to L.A, considering his busy schedule back in
Korea. He stood up and gave her daughter the same eye smile she got from
him. "Stephanie."

The ebony head spread her arms wide to embrace her old man. "Daddy.
Welcome home."

"Yes." Mr Hwang let her Tiffany go to get a look at her. "You looked good but
are you okay? You also look sad."

They took their seats and Tiffany just stared at him with those lonely orbs. "I
am okay daddy."

"Where is Taeyeon, by the way? I thought she'd be with you." The man
looked around then back at the girl across her.

Tiffany furrowed her brows. "Taeyeon?"

Mr Hwang nodded. "Oh come on, you think your father is dense?"

"What are you talking about?"

If it was his old habit to roll his eyes, he could've done it. But then, he just
heaved a sigh. "I know too. His father and I won't be close if we didn't know
about your relationship with Taeyeon."

"B-but-" Tiffany was flabbergasted. She didn't know what to say. So everyone
knew about them and it seemed like no one complains about it. "You guys
didn't tell us."

"Because we were waiting for you. I also got shocked when she left. I felt
relieved when you met Brian but it was never the same." He held her
daughters hand and squeezed it lightly. "I am okay with it. When you
decided to stay here, I think I knew the reason." He smiled.

"Daddy, I uh, am sorry." Tiffany bowed her head.

"It's okay." He inhaled a bunch of air and let it go soon after. "I am the one
who should be sorry. I hurt you and mommy."

"Daddy. I think I understand." The girl answered. The man gave her a
questioning look. "Taeyeon left because I cheated too. She knew all along but
she didn't tell me anything. She took everything in and when she exploded,
she left me."

Mr Hwang nodded and felt sorry. He thought of being guilty because cheating
was what Tiffany saw from him. "I am sorry Miyoung."

"Daddy, don't blame yourself. I knew better than doing that but still, I did it."
She looked on his father's eyes and she had to smile because he missed him
and after everything, her love for this man didn't falter. "You were able to
bring her back. How did you do that?"

"Does she doubt you?"

Tiffany nodded. Like a lot of times.

"I wanted to prove her that she's the only person I loved every day. I told her
everything after that, my whereabouts, my company. I didn't do the same
mistake again. I am lucky because your mother was very forgiving. And when
I got the second chance, I made sure not to put it to waste."

"But she couldn't give me the chance to do what you did, Daddy." Tiffany
said.

"Then don't get tired. Prove her you've changed, baby." The man answered.
"If you love her, you'd do anything. Do you understand?"

Tiffany nodded and smiled. She was grateful. For the past months of her life,
she wasn't able to talk to him. And it felt like being his princess again.
"Thanks dad."

"Let's just eat. This is getting cheesier."

Tiffany giggled. "You're right.

---

"You're home late." Taeyeon said with a question tone. She stood by the
kitchen counter when Tiffany came in. She went home early only to find no
one at home.

"You noticed this time, huh?" Tiffany said curtly. When they fight, none of
them notices the other one when at home.

The older girl breathed out because once more, the air has become heavier
and her lungs couldnt take it. Lately, these kinds of moments have been
happening more often. And there they are, tolerating each other. One whole
day is too long when they are fighting, but this fight took them three days.
And she didn't realize that fact until earlier that day. "Where did you go?" She
asked instead. She swore another war would ignite if she hears Damien's
name again.

"I met my daddy earlier." Tiffany said coolly.

"He's here?" Taeyeon's brows went up in surprise.

"You don't believe my words again?" The former asked, mocking was evident.

Taeyeon bit her lip. "I was asking nicely. I was just surprised. Thought he's in
Korea?" She replied, trying to calm herself.

"He just arrived." Tiffany breezed pass the doctor to get some water from the
fridge. She emptied a glass in one gulp.

"You didn't tell me."

Tiffany bowed her head. She wiggled her toes. "How can I do that when all
you did was ignore me?" She said softly.

That lilting voice made Taeyeon's stone heart melt in a matter of seconds.
She stepped in closer, took the glass from the girl's hand and put it on the
counter. "I'm sorry." She turned her head to the side, pretending not to say
that.

Tiffany lifted her head and saw how shy Taeyeon was and it made her smile.
"Did you mean that?"

"Mean what?"

"You told me you don't believe me." Tiffany sharply inhaled some air. It still
stings whenever she remembered Taeyeon's words.

"I'm sorry. I said that because I was mad." She pulled Tiffany and their bodies
were too close and she missed having the girl in her hold. "Come on, forgive
me."

Tiffany snaked her hands on Taeyeon's neck. She planted a soft kiss on her
lips. "I am sorry too."

"So, we're okay?"

The ebony head nodded. "Daddy looked for you."

"Really?"

"Yup. Didn't know what to say though." She chuckled. "One day, I'll take you
to him."

"And?"

"You'll ask him if you can date me of course."

Taeyeon let out a nervous chuckle. "That's," She exhaled. "A big step."

"It is." Tiffany paused. She looked at Taeyeon's eyes. "Will we be able to get
to that point?" She asked in sad voice. Honestly, she doesn't know until when
they'll endure this adjusting stage they were having at the moment.

"Why are you saying that?" Taeyeon kissed her again from her lips, to her
cheeks and to her eyes. She wanted to take that pain in her girlfriend's orbs.
It hurts her.

"I want us to last. Can we do that Taetae?"

Taeyeon hugged her tighter. "We can. We will."

She didn't know why but she easily believed the girl easily. She didn't want to
lose Taeyeon. She'll keep her promises and she'll do better. "Don't worry. I
won't get tired of this."

"Of me?" The doctor asked.

"Never." Tiffany said reassuringly. "You became more jealous and restrictive."
She chuckled at the sad fact but she accepted it. "I love you still."

Another ring from Tiffany's phone interrupted them. Taeyeon groaned. Tiffany
had to smile wider because it was another evidence of the girl's jealousy and
possessiveness. "Would you want me to turn my phone off?"

The doctor smirked. She nodded excitedly.

"Okay."

---

Jessica and Tiffany's presentation of their summer collection to theirs and

Damien's team went smooth and flawless. The client loved the designs and
colors. Tiffany was in her best mood thanks to Taeyeon. She spoke in front
with a lot of confidence.

Funny how one person can do things to you, your mood and your day. And
Taeyeon could do a lot to this ebony head.

"That's all. So we are open for more comments and suggestions after this
meeting. Thank you everyone." Jessica finished off. She turned to Tiffany and
grinned.

"We can't find any flaws in these." One woman said.

Damien butted in. "Our team is the best." He stood up and wrapped his arms
over Tiffany and Jessica's shoulders. The light brown haired girl winced a
little. Her eyes, which were still locked on Tiffanys, signalled to excuse
themselves. She walked further from the guy and pretended to talk to other
people. She looked back to find Tiffany still standing there, smiling widely at
the guy and Damien obviously liked it.

Jessica exhaled. This is why he's taking all the opportunity to get Tiffany
closer to him. She's allowing it and she's not complaining at all.

Tiffany's jaws were stiff due to endless faking of her smiles. The simple
rubbing of Damien's hand on her shoulder was way too beyond their
professional relationship. She gave him a smile and she tried to excuse
herself. "Okay, so I'll help Jessica for a while."

"Wait. Do you have any plans after this?" The man asked, hopeful.

"Why?"

"I uh, heard you have a knack in interior designing. This would be the last
time I am going to ask something from you. I swear." He said.

Tiffany looked at him apologetically.

"No?"

"I can't." Tiffany replied. Should she agree and Taeyeon knew about it, they
would fight again and she had a lot of that lately. Plus, she said she'd go to
the hospital after the meeting.

Damien frowned a bit. "I just needed someone. My house was newly
renovated. It's small so I wouldn't take much of your time. Please?" He
coaxed Tiffany. "This is the last time."

"But I-"

"Please?"

Tiffany would like to poke those pleading eyes. They have two more seasons
to spend serving for Damien's company. She can't ruin their relationship just
as early. But Taeyeon, she would get mad. "Can we do it in two hours max?"
She asked instead.

The man's lips curved upwards. "Sure!"

She nodded and went to Jessica. She puffed her cheeks. Her best friend saw
their talk and by the way Damien lit up, she kind if concluded he was up to
something again. "Now what?" She asked the ebony head with furrowed
brows.

"He asked me to help him with his house. It needs interior designing." Tiffany
lightly scratched her chin.

"He has a lot of money and there's a swarm of talented

and experienced designers out there, why you?"

The younger girl shrugged.

"I told you to get a distance from him."

"I tried. But what if I offended him? We'll lose him." Tiffany defended herself.

"I appreciate your effort to keep us running. But even if your intentions are
good, in the eyes of other people, especially Taeyeon, it looks like you're not
being professional at all." Jessica explained which is actually right. Tiffany
has been very accommodating and it's already unacceptable. "For once,
think about yourself. And Taeyeon too."

Tiffany nodded. "This will be the last. I already said yes so." She looked at
Jessica with hopes of her friend's understanding. "Can you tell Yuri and
Taeyeon that we ended up late? I can't afford another fight with her."

Jessica shook her head. "This will be the last time." She turned her head at
the man. "And I don't trust him."

"Thanks Jess."

---

"I thought we're going to your house?" Tiffany frowned. She stood by the
cahair offered to her by Damien. Instead of a house, they were at a fancy
restaurant downtown. "This place doesn't look like a home to me."

The man laughed a bit. "Youre always clever. I used my house as an excuse.
I just want to have a date with you." He sat down, crossing his legs. "It's
effective." He smirked.

If Tiffany wasnt professional at all, she could've tripped his chair and leave.
She was offended and she felt like Damien went underhand on her but she
smiled instead. "We can't do this."

"Why?"

Tiffany exhaled. She's a sucker for rejecting people. "I am not into you. I
mean, you're good looking and all but I-"

He was hurt, yes but as much as she wanted Tiffany, he can't push her into
something she wont be happy with. Damien gave her a reassuring look. "I
just thought that maybe we can, you know." He blushed. "You know what, it's
fine, don't be guilty or whatever."

Tiffany's brows rose because he wasnt the man she thought he was. "..."

"Hey. I said it's okay." He cracked a smile. "Thanks for being honest with me
too."

She smiled because it felt better to tell him the truth. And her burden and
how heavy it was lessened in an instant. "I am sorry."

Damien gestured for the seat across him. "Go on, have a seat. This isn't a
date. Just plain lunch."

Tiffany gently pulled the chair and sat down on it. All the awkwardness she
felt for him was gone and she thought she had gained a friend.

"Is there someone in your life?" He asked casually. "You don't need to answer
the question if you're uncomfortable about it." He added when he saw the
discomfort on her face.

"Well that," The ebony head paused. "Yeah." She bowed her head.

"I see." He nodded as he pressed his pointer finger in his lips while studying
the girl. "He's lucky."

The he part wasn't true but she hoped that the lucky part would be, because
she herself felt fortunate to have Taeyeon in her life. "I hope so."

"Oh don't say that. You're not perfect but you sure are close to that." He
chuckled in his cheesy line.

Tiffany had to chuckle too.

---

"Sorry for last time, Soonkyu. I really am. I was just having a bad time."
Taeyeon lightly elbowed her friend, whom she missed for the couple of days.
The last time they talked was when she and Tiffany fought and the other girl
walked out on her.

Sunny elbowed her back. "Do you really have to call me Soonkyu when
apologizing?" She laughed.

"To add a more formal feeling." She smirked. Taeyeon opened the door and
let Sunny in first. "Hey at least I'll be treating you for a nice meal here."

The blonde scoffed. "Whatever." She looked around to choose a table. "How's
Tiffany by the way?"

"Fine. Their presentation is going pretty well. Shes still on that meeting." She
said, rummaging her bag for her wallet.

"Meeting? Where's that?"

Taeyeon raised her head to meet her friend's eyes. "At their office, of
course."

Sunny's eyes widened for a second but she tried hard to act casual. She
racked her brain for reasons to take Taeyeon away from the place. She
turned her head in a different direction. "I don't feel like eating Italian today
Taengoo." She said, quite nervous.

Taeyeon frowned. "You said you wanted it here." It was her turn to look
around, feel the place's ambience and see if it was nice too.

Sunny grasped the other girl's hand to stop her but it was too late. Taeyeon
saw what she's not supposed to see. Just like her friend's, her eyes shot up
like theyre going to pop out anytime soon.

Tiffany.

She was seating at the far end of the restaurant with a guy. She was smiling.
They were laughing. While Taeyeon stood there, feeling like she was
stupefied, feeling like she was at Tiffany's apartment once more, hearing the
revelations back then. The only difference was, she was now actually seeing
what Tiffany was doing behind her back.

Her heart was racing and her breathing was sloppy. Her heavy feet were
making their way headed to them but Sunny held to her tighter. "Taeng, no.
Not here." She said sternly. She didn't know what was actually happening but
whatever Tiffany's reason was, what they are seeing was definitely not right.

"W-what, what are they doing?" Taeyeon asked, her voice was already
shaking in anger.

"Listen to her first." Sunny tried to explain. "We don't know what is this."

She didn't respond. She took out her phone and texted Tiffany.

Hi. How's the meeting?

She saw Tiffany look at her phone and replied. At least this time, she
instantly took the time to give her a god damn reply.

Good. Have you eaten yet?

About to. Good luck. I miss you.

She saw her smile a bit. But it didn't suffice Taeyeon. She crudely hid her
phone inside her bag and turned to Sunny. "Come on, let's go home."

Sunny heaved a sigh but she relented immediately. She knew better than
argue with Taeyeon at this time. They sat silently inside the car for the
longest ten minutes of their lives because Taeyeon couldn't even hold onto
her keys steadily due to her trembling hands.

She stifled a sob but she failed. She was crying, for the same reason she
cried hard five years ago. And she had enough of it. She always helped other
people but why can't she help herself from getting hurt this much? "What
just happened?"

"We don't know." The blonde said, rubbing her friend's back. "Ask her first."

"But she lied to me."

Sunny bit the side of her cheek. "Maybe because she didn't want to fight with
you. Give her some benefit of the doubt, Taeyeon."

Taeyeon took in a mouthful of air and started the engine. It hurts. Because
she smiled at him like she smiles at her. She was happy. She was carefree.
Have their fights gone beyond the acceptable that Tiffany had to do that?

Already gave her that.

---

"We are in big trouble." The short doctor threw her bag on the couch and she
walked back and forth. "Tsk."

Jessica furrowed her brows. She couldn't understand what her friend was
doing there inside her office at this hour of they when the doctor should be
working. "What are you talking about?"

Did you know?

Now she was confused. Know what?

The other blonde shook her head. The meeting didnt end late, did it?

Jessicas face scrunched up in confusion.

Taeyeon saw her. Tiffany, She shut her eyes. She was having a date with
your client.

Jessica almost stumbled upon the carpet when she stepped closer to Sunny.
What?! Her eyes widened in fury and worry at the same time. She told her
best friend to get away from him but she didnt listen.

You didnt know?

I knew she was with him. But I never knew that shes out on a date. She
rolled her eyes and hissed. I told her to get a distance from him! Why didnt
she listen?! I knew it was a game.

What should we do? Shes really angry right now. Sunny said.

I dont know. The designer leaned her palms on her table. I honestly dont
know.

---

Taeyeon went home later that afternoon, feeling devastated for the nth time
in her life. And unfortunately, Tiffany was always the reason. The girl couldnt
deny the fact that she just saw.

There she was, hoping that they could start anew. But Tiffany had to ruin it
again. She blankly stared on the glass window. She didnt know what to feel
or think. Her heart was thrown away in a dark, dark universe of endless pain.

She trusted her. And what she gave wasnt reciprocated yet again.

Taeyeon took out her phone and looked at her wallpaper. It was their picture
together. They looked so happy and in love. Where did I go wrong, Fanyah? And her eyes watered because the pain was too much. It was just too
much.

She looked up, and the skies are turning grey. It was like her mind at the
moment.

The door creaked open after a few more minutes and in went a happy Tiffany.
Taetae? She called out.

Taeyeon wiped her eyes and put on her casual face as she turned around.
Her eyes were darker than the skies. As soon as she saw her girlfriend, heavy
rain showered. And the feelings inside the house were as bad as the weather.
Since we got back, have you ever lied to me? She asked, trying to sound
cool.

Tiffany pouted a bit. Uhm, no?

Are you sure?

Tiffanys heart was already racing because she could feel Taeyeons wrath.
Taeyeon, whats happening?

Just tell me the f*cking truth! The doctor slammed her phone on the
floor.The poor thing broke its screen.

The ebony head was totally taken aback. She never saw this girl get this
mad. W-what?

Is there a presentation that takes place in fancy Italian restaurant? Taeyeon

saw the shock in Tiffanys face and it made her scoff. I saw you. She
added, furious. And youre gonna tell to my face that you never lied to me?

Tiffany could feel her whole soul was dipped into the darkness of a deep well
with no escape. I, I-

You never changed after all, huh? The shorter girl crossed her arms. You
were cheating on me again.

Chapter 37

Back and Forth

All she could hear was the rain against the roof, the window pane and the
ground. All she could see was Taeyeon's cold and dark eyes on her. All she

could feel was pain, pain so strong that she could hardly feel anything else.
How she wished the rain would stop anytime soon. Maybe that'll make her
happy because she hated rain, ever since she was a child. She hated rain.
And now, she hated it more because the sky seemed to know when to
sympathize with her every time she's hurt.

"What did you say?" She asked. She didn't mean to let those words out curtly
but she's just too hurt to feign understanding of the situation. She loves
Taeyeon. But up to what extent? She didn't do anything, she let her world
spin around Taeyeon and yet what she got in the end was still doubt.

Taeyeon heard and felt the anger on that question but she didn't budge. She
was way angrier than Tiffany, that she was so sure. "You are cheating." She
repeated, still not backing out.

Tiffany's ears perked up. Her nails dug into her palm when all she could was
clenched her fists. "I was?" She asked, more to mock the doctor. She closed
her eyes. She cursed and asked why is the rain still pouring and why does
she have to love the same girl in her existence.

"Yes you were. I saw it." Taeyeon said. She tried hard to ignore Tiffany's silent
fury against her. She wouldn't stop without putting up a fight. It was hurting
her.

She couldn't stand Tiffany talk to him with that freaking smile on her face.
She couldn't bear countless phone calls from him wherein Tiffany had to say
a joke or a compliment and she had to smile widely after. She couldn't take it
when her texts weren't replied to instantly or when her calls weren't
answered at the second ring. And the fact she just went out on a date with
him was killing her too. All she could was get mad, really mad at Tiffany.

She couldn't understand why she had become like that. But she couldn't help
it. She has changed for the worse.

"I wasn't. He was a client. He told me he needed help in his house. I was just
too shy to reject him. But then it turned to be a mean to ask me out but I told
him I cant date him because I have somebody else." Tiffany managed to say
her side calmly albeit the disappointment and creeping anger.

Psh. Taeyeon averted her gaze.

Please, believe me.

You always lied to me about him. How could I believe you?

Hes just a client, Taeyeon. I was just trying to accommodate him, like you
do to your patients. Please, I didnt do anything. Tiffany tried to reason
more.

"Mine was different." She knew it would lead to another huge fight. She
almost dug a hole beneath her for her to just disappear in sight. Her words
were surely below the belt. She would stop if she's in her right mind but
unfortunately she wasn't at the moment.

"How so?" Tiffany asked, her words went out dryly.

How she wished she could sew her mouth shut because she couldn't stop
blurting the words out. Taeyeon weighed her body in one leg as she spoke. "I
don't have a history of disloyalty and unfaithfulness."

That was it. That statement went beyond the line. She was outraged. "What
are you implying here?" She raised her voice purposely, it rung through the
air, louder than the raindrops.

"I'm not implying anything. I was just stating a fact." She mentally smacked
her head for speaking nonstop.

What Taeyeon said hit her hard that she couldn't utter a word. She felt her
hands become wet and then she realized she was crying. Her tears fell
together with the raindrops and it made her despise the rain the most.

Taeyeon took a step towards Tiffany but instantly withdrew that small single
step. She had already poured out all her love and she had already been so
forgiving that she left nothing to herself and maybe being selfish for once
wouldn't be that bad.

She wanted to scream, argue with Taeyeon and finally let her feelings out.
But she knew she couldn't. She knew fighting won't do any change since she
won't ever win. Because she will let Taeyeon have the last say, because she
hurt her, she started this turmoil between them and because she's just she
when they were younger. "So it all comes back to what I did before?"

"Yes."

It was cold. Those words. And the atmosphere. And she shivered. She felt
that her blood was drained from her vessels. Will you ever forgive me?"

"I don't know." They weren't words of argument, their words become softer
but they convey anger, they convey so much feelings that both drown in
them.

"I thought we're ready." Tiffany said faintly. She just felt like she lost a war.
Her trembling body collapsed on the coldness of the floor. She hugged her
knees so she could feel warm but contrary to what she believed in, she felt
nothing. "Guess we're not?"

"Yeah."

"I'm sorry." Tiffany finally said. She could just say they're over but she
couldn't. She loves Taeyeon and she'd give up a lot for her. "But I swear I
didn't do anything. I swear I won't do the same mistake again. Please forgive
me Taeyeon. I can't do this anymore." Her voice was pleading. She looked at
those eyes and all she sees was darkness. She couldn't see Taeyeon. And it's
killing her. "I love you."

"I'm lost Stephanie." It was serious, the other girl knew. Taeyeon calling her
with her given name is beyond serious. Taeyeon looked at her with no
emotion to muster. "I'm lost."

"What do you want me to do?" Tiffany cried. They are nearing the inevitable
end but she refused to accept it. "Everything seems wrong to you."

"Since we got back together, this fear in me grew bigger. I look at your eyes
and all I could see was your lies. I could remember how your eyes lied to me
back then. And I hate it. I really hate it. I taste your lips but all I could taste
was someone else's lips like I'm not sure if I was the only you kissed."
Taeyeon said. She knew those words would hurt Tiffany but she couldn't care
less.

Tiffany repositioned herself as she kneeled down in front of Taeyeon. "I

changed Taeyeon. I promise. What do you want me to do? Id do it."

"I don't know if that helps." She looked down at Tiffany like the girl has some
sort of a disease. She never thought her pain could do that to her. She never
knew she could stare at the ebony head that way. She never knew that anger
could surpass her love for Tiffany.

"Taeyeon-ah."

"I'm not the same person you fell for Tiffany. I'm not the Taeyeon you used to
know."

"I accepted that fact right?" She looked up and Taeyeon could see how
swollen her eyes were.

"You'll get tired and sick of me." Taeyeon's lips quivered.

Tiffany couldn't deny that she's an inch close to breaking down and give up
on what Taeyeon was showing her since they got back together. But she
always reminded herself of love and sacrifice, that it was her fault after all
and she has no right to complain at all because she deserved it. "I love you
and it's enough for me to accept you. And I'm sorry for making you this way."

"You only say that now but one day you'll find yourself seeking attention and
warmth from somebody else like you did before." Taeyeon once more jabbed
straight to Tiffany's heart.

Tiffany sobbed. She felt guiltier by every word. She stood up because she
couldn't take Taeyeon's stare and words anymore. She lifted her hand to slap
the girl's face but she stopped. She covered her face instead. "Is that how
you think of me, Taeyeon? Is that how your memories of me made you
think?" It hurt her a lot but she couldn't give up.

Taeyeon took two steps back. She wanted to fight the urge to embrace
Tiffany and utter thousands of apologetic words. She was too angry at her
and at herself. She inhaled for air and surprisingly she didn't feel any relief.
The air was so dry her lungs wanted to take it out immediately.

"I'm sorry. Why can't you see the Tiffany that I am now?"

".."

"Are you thinking of," She choked on her words. "Leaving?"

"I thought we'll be okay. But it shows that nothing gets better." Taeyeon
paused. "I think we should-"

"No!" Tiffany almost yelled. "Please, don't leave me. I can't be without you. I
can't leave without you Taeyeon. Please." She sobbed. Taeyeon has become
too much. After she said those harshest words, she told her to break up. It
was too much of a treatment. She held Taeyeon by her arm like a child who
doesnt want to lose her mom.

Taeyeon suddenly felt the urge to get angry by hearing Tiffany plead. "Why
did you do that?" She asked her the same question before, she could
remember. And the difference is that, this time, her voice raised and she is
not crying at all and she doesn't feel anything.

"Did what?"

"Why did you freaking cheat on me when all I did was love and understand
you?!" She removed Tiffany's hand as her voice rung on the air.

Ironically, Tiffany felt relieved. Taeyeon finally spoke about her true feelings.
"I'm sorry."

Taeyeon stomped her feet away from Tiffany. "Sorry? Is that all you can say?
You put me in the worst position and all you can say is sorry? I left you but

before I did that, you already left me! Then I came back and I saw you with
Brian. And it just showed how much you didn't love me." She said straight
from her wounded heart. She cried and sobbed hard. And now, youre doing
it again? I am not a toy, god damn it!

"Do that." Tiffany replied. "Get mad at me!" She went in front of the
quivering Taeyeon and took her hand. She lifted it and slapped it on her own
face. "Hurt me Taeyeon. Bash everything you want." Her body started
collapsing again, she can feel the pain on her cheek. "Just don't leave me. I
love you so much. Please don't leave."

It was too much. She wanted to blame everything to Tiffany, step on her
heart a million times to make her feel how painful everything was. She sat
down next to the girl she was supposed to love the most. "Nothing's going to
be the same Tiffany. We both know that. I can love you but it doesn't mean I
can forget the pain you brought me."

"We can do it. Nothing's going to change but we're going to be okay." Tiffany
sobbed. The rain stopped but it didn't make her feel better. Because only
Taeyeon could make her better. "Just don't leave."

"Let's break up."

"Taeyeon."

"But were not leaving." She paused, hoping Tiffany got her point. But she
sensed the girl being confused all of a sudden. You can stay, its your
choice. But were not each others anymore. She added, coldly. She felt

guilty by what she has said throughout their fight but she had to do what she
has to do. Honestly, she can't live without Tiffany too but she can't possibly
love her that way. She just can't continuously hurt Tiffany even how much
she wanted to, because she loves her to death.

Tiffany blankly nodded. She understood what Taeyeon meant and she prayed
to God that she just didn't. Taeyeon was being selfish, too selfish. "So we're
not-"

"Yes."

"So we now have the liberty to do anything we want?"

Taeyeon was caught off guard. "Yes."

"Will you," Tiffany paused for air. She's being that a lot lately. It's as if
Taeyeon was inhaling all the air and leaves nothing for her. "Find someone
else?" The words came out so faint.

"I don't know." Taeyeon answered.

"Okay." Tiffany just said. She doesn't know what to say or think. It's just
painful as hell. She missed the Taeyeon she used to know and the one who's
holding her, kissing her and the one beside her wasn't the same Taeyeon and
she knew it was her fault. "But always remember that I love you. Please."

She stood up and fixed herself. She'd do anything just to let Taeyeon stay.
"Let's go to sleep. I'm tired."

Taeyeon was left there sitting with too much to bear. She could hear the
shower turning on, and it felt like forever until it was turned off. After minutes
of staying there, she heard Tiffany called out for her.

"Taeyeon. Stand up please. It's cold."

She nodded and lifelessly stood up. She took a shower, brushed her teeth,
put on her moisturizer and just that. She saw Tiffany struggling to keep
comfortable at the other side of their bed, leaving her the larger space. She
clenched her jaw. "Move a little bit closer to me. You might fall." She said and
she laid down.

Tiffany relented but grew stiff when their shoulders accidentally brushed to
each other. "Sorry." She muttered.

"It's okay." Taeyeon bit the side of her cheek. She suddenly felt like crying
again. She suddenly felt the weight on her heart. She pushed Tiffany away
too far.

---

Both barely had slept. Their brains fired a lot of things that they couldn't
even follow through each. Tiffany was just crying. Taeyeon looked at the
ceiling and swallowed the lump on her throat for the fiftieth time that night.
They stayed like that for a ver, very long time.

The doctor looked at her bedside clock. It read five AM. She was surprised
time flew that fast. She stood up as quietly as she could to avoid waking the
other girl up. She put on her slippers and started walking towards the door.

"Don't run away."

Taeyeon turned her head just to see Tiffany sitting atop the bed; her eyes
were red, swollen and dead tired. She looked at the mirror across her and
she saw two different pair of eyes. They were tired but they are not swollen
and red. She knew she had cried last night. It just showed that she didn't cry
as much as Tiffany. She silently studied how numb has she become. "What?"
She asked with the same flat tone.

"Don't run away from me ever again." Tiffany said. "Even how hard it gets,
don't ever run. We're in this together."

"Wouldn't you?" Taeyeon asked.

The ebony head shook her head. She was sure she wouldnt do that. Thats
what her father told her.

"I won't. I'll cook breakfast. Fix yourself. You're a mess." And Taeyeon took
her way out.

Tiffany stared at the half opened door for minutes until she heard the sound
of busy kitchen. She hears the same sound but it gave a very different. I am
a mess Taeyeon.

---

They usually sit beside each other, tease and talk the same stories during
breakfast and they felt they couldn't get tired of that kind of mornings.
They'd smile and end up giving each other a quick peck.

But this morning wasn't that kind of morning. Tiffany sat very far from
Taeyeon. She hung her head low since she got out of their room. She can't let
Taeyeon see how she struggled, she couldn't let her see the lies rather than

sincerity and she can't see how lifeless Taeyeon's stare was. She ate the
omelette, she cried on every bite because it tasted so bland. She already
tasted the doctor's omelette before and what she's eating was not the same
food.

She heard a chair pushing backwards. She lifted her head to see Taeyeon
standing up, taking with her the plate with a barely touched meal. She bit
her lip and resumed eating.

"It tastes bad." She heard her say. "Don't force yourself in eating it."

"..." She didn't answer. She resumed eating. She has to get used to this life if
Taeyeon would plan to keep this treatment for long.

Taeyeon watched Tiffany and it ripped her heart. It tore her soul apart. But
she doesn't know how to bring herself to go back to the old Taeyeon. "Just
leave it at the sink. I'll wash the dishes later." There was nothing in response
and she took it as her signal to go and prepare herself for work.

She once again entered her to be welcomed by a very neat bed. Usually the
mattress would be wrinkled, their pillows scattered everywhere because
Tiffany can be very ceaseless when sleeping. She smiled and she felt a bit of
longing. She wagged the thought off.

"Taeyeon?" Tiffany called out from behind. She stood like a petrified human
just a few feet away from Taeyeon.

"Yes?" Taeyeon asked.

"I won't give up on us. Okay? I love you. And even how stupid and selfish this
sounds, you are bound with me forever. You can do whatever but I'll still
stay." Tiffany said wholeheartedly. "I'll stay."

It was then Taeyeon cried once more. She hit her head hard against the
wooden cabinet. "I thought I've already forgiven you. I thought we're gonna
be okay. I'm sorry I've changed and I hurt you a lot lately. But I couldn't, I
couldn't help it." She sobbed and Tiffany felt the need to embrace her but
she stopped from doing so.

"I understand. I know. It's tiring, it numbing. But that's because you love me.
And someday," She paused, unsure if what she was about to say is true.
"Somehow, you'll look at me and see that I love you. And see that I'm
different. And see that my smile is a reflection of yours. Like, like you used
to."

Taeyeon had to smile a bit. At that spur of the moment, she felt being
Taeyeon again. But her thoughts darken again like the very core of her head
doesn't want her to be her again.

"I will always believe in love and I will always believe in us. I, I won't leave. I
won't find somebody else. I won't." Tiffany cried harder. Every word she said
was true and she hoped that Taeyeon could feel her. "I will never get tired of
you always getting mad at me. I won't complain on how possessive you've
become. I won't get sick of you. I will never stop loving you. And if having a
different Taeyeon in my life is the price I have to pay, then so be it. I will love
you still the same."

Taeyeon spun around to give Tiffany the tightest hug she could give. They
cried against each other's shoulders and they stayed like that for a long time.

"You are always free to leave Tiffany. You don't have to stay with someone as
messy as me." Taeyeon said, close to a whisper as she planted a deep kiss
on Tiffany's hair.

---

Jessica stood in front of her working table with a lot in her mind. She was
worried because none of her calls to Tiffany were answered. She refused to
think the worst case.

She heard the door creak open and she knew by then that it was Tiffany. The
girl would be enthusiastically greeting her good mornings during normal days
but today, she heard nothing but muffled sobs.

Then she felt her friend embraced her. She furrowed her brows and muttered
a "why". Then she felt that the girl's body trembled against hers. Her heart
raced. She knew last night went wrong. "Why?" She repeated and all she
could hear was sobs and sniffs. She wanted to pry. She wanted an answer

but what she wants doesn't apply for the moment. She let go of the
fragments of cotton and rubbed Tiffany's wrapped arms around her waist.

Tiffany hated giving Jessica that kind of hug when she's sad and she hated
the girl's soft voice when she's asking why or what happened because both
give her the reason to cry more. The comfort of having her best friend with
her makes her cry her heart out.

"It's okay. It's okay." Jessica whispered.

"She'll leave me, Jessi. I could tell she will." Tiffany finally said. It made her
best friend turn around and look at her. "She will."

"Why?" Jessica was worried. She couldn't hide it behind her brown orbs. She
could see how tired and sleepless Tiffany was. And it broke her heart. She
loved Tiffany like her own sister and seeing her like that is something she can
never handle for long. "What happened?

Tiffany's grip slackened. She looked for the nearest seat and slumped on it.
"We had a huge fight last night. And she said things." Tiffany went on with
her story with an urge to whimper every time she mentions the words that
came from Taeyeons mouth. Jessica's jaw dropped lower while listening.

The blonde embraced Tiffany. She felt her shirt being drenched but she didn't
care. Tiffany was the only thing that mattered as of the moment. Shes been
through enough.

Yes, she made huge mistakes when they were younger but she already made
up for it. And now, the only mistakes she did were being the responsible
owner of their company and a girlfriend who wanted to avoid fights. "You
don't have to do this Tiff." She said, sullen.

"I have to."

"Why?" She let go of her best friend and frowned. "You're going to keep this
up? If she doesn't want you then-"

"No." Tiffany jerked. "She still wants me. She's just confused."

Jessica saw how desperate Tiffany was and it was too much. She cant do
that to you if shes just confused. Her voice cracked because she was crying
too.

I love her so much, Jess. Tiffany said with her eyes pleading her best friend
for some support and understanding. I love her.

Chapter 38

Glass Hearts

"What the hell is this?!" Everyone in the hallway could hear her angry voice. And
they flinched because it was too scary even if they only accidentally heard her.
"Have you ever seen a pathophysiological process like this?" Taeyeon threw the
pieces of paper in the air.
The intern gulped and her eyes were getting wet. She stood in front of her resident
doctor with bowed head and interlaced, trembling hands. "Dr Kim, I am sorry. I'd
make it better."
Taeyeon stood up. "Make it better?! All of you always say that. But in the end, you
all end up doing the wrong things and then you," She inhaled deep. "Hurt people."
The last words came out as a whisper. Tiffany promised her to do the same thing
and look at what happened to them. "You don't do that. You don't make promises to
just break them."
The intern, instead of getting afraid, turned sympathetic to the doctor. "Dr Kim, are
you okay?"
"Of course I am." Then she came back to the reality. "Did I tell you to meddle with
my life? Do the report again." She sat back down.
The other girl squatted to pick up the papers on the floor. The door opened and
came in Sunny and Yuri, who helped the poor girl. They allowed her to excuse
herself. Yuri even mouthed sorry to her before leaving. They have heard everything
from outside Taeyeon's office.
Sunny sat across Taeyeon and Yuri remained standing. Both of them looked at the
suddenly quiet girl.
"Taeng, you're outraging again. The girl barely had mistakes." Sunny said gently to
avoid another outburst.
Taeyeon stayed mum. And none of them spoke for the few minutes until Yuri did. "Dr
Kim, don't do this to everyone around you."

"Why?" Taeyeon asked. She spun her chair and she looked at her intern blankly.
Sunny and Yuri glanced to each other. "Because being like this won't do any help."
She then said.
"How'd you know?" Taeyeon's voice rose. "Have you ever loved somebody and you
ended being a plump in the end?"
None of the girls was able to answer back. The pain from her words was just too
much.
"No one would understand how hurt I am. Not you." She pointed at Sunny. "And not
you." She then looked at Yuri. "I don't deserve this."
"And so does Tiffany." Sunny replied, not being faltered by Taeyeon at all.
"Really?" Their blank eyes stared at each other for a long time until it was Taeyeon
who averted her gaze. She looked at Yuri instead. "Jessica lied, didn't she?"
"What?" Yuri's eyes widened.
"So you didn't know too." She stood up and leaned her palms on her table. "Great!
Our girlfriends are liars."
"Taeng!" Sunny pushed her chair backwards as she abruptly stood up too.
"What?! Isn't it true? Jessica covered up for my girlfriend's ass so she had to lie to
me and to Yuri!" Taeyeon raged. Her eyes met Yuri's once more. "You didn't know."
"I-I-"
"Yuri, don't jump to any conclusions." Sunny said. "And Taeyeon, stop doing this.
Please!"
"You should tell Tiffany to stop being a b*tch for once and just stay faithful to me."
Taeyeon said harshly, with no hesitation at all.

Sunny gasped. She never heard her friend say that before, ever. She loved Tiffany
too much that whatever the girl would do, she'd still have a respect for her. "What
did you just say?"
"You heard me."
Yuri was surprised too. This war then has gotten this far. Taeyeon's mind was
already closed that no matter how they try to explain to her, there will only be a
slim chance for her to listen to them. And then again, she has to ask her girlfriend
about what really happened. "Dr Kim, don't you think this is too much?" She asked,
forlorn.
"What?"
"Did you ask her what went on yesterday? Or you did but you never listened to her
answer?" She sat at the edge of the couch while crossing her arms. "I would never,
ever stand up to you because you are my idol and superior and my," She paused.
"Friend. But call Sica a liar again, and I swear I might look down on you." Her voice
was soft but the threat in it was apparent.
"Fine, whatever. Do what you guys want to do." Taeyeon replied but her eyes were
welling up. "This time, I am going to think about myself. This time, I won't let
anyone hurt me again." She reached for the tissue paper at the near end of her
table.
"So hurting Tiffany is an answer?"
"Maybe." She stood up and left. Wow, that was refreshing, she thought. She never
knew revenge could be so good.

---

"You lied." Yuri stared at her girlfriend who just arrived home. She stood, weighing
herself on one foot. She wasn't mad at her. She just wanted clarification because

this mess had come too far for her understanding.

Jessica was surprised. "About?" She took off her shoes and went near Yuri.
"The meeting yesterday."
"Oh, that." Her eyes averted its gaze. Thanks to her busy mind last night, she forgot
to explain everything to Yuri.
The tan girl stood up. "Did Tiffany date him for real? And you helped her?"
The sudden accusation made Jessica's head to perk up. She narrowed her eyes on
her girlfriend. Her voice was soft but the underlying meaning on her words was very
much apparent. "Tiffany didn't do anything, Yuri." The blonde said in the same
voice.
"It's what Dr Kim said."
The former shook her head as she let go a bunch of air. "Yes," She then admitted. "I
lied. And it's not what you guys think."
Yuri's brows went up in question. "I don't know, you never told me anything. All I
knew is what Dr Lee told me."
"Damien asked her to help him with his house. She couldn't say no because he's a
client. Tiffany," Jessica raised her hands and moved them synchronously to
emphasize her point. "She doesn't want to fight with your resident again so she
asked me to lie about the meeting. I swear she never meant to hurt anyone. And
then this stupid guy set up that poor girl for a date. She didn't know. But, she was in
the right mind to tell him she's not interested at all."
Yuri exhaled. Her cool and mad front collapsed. Yes, maybe the two best friends did
something wrong but it was just a misjudgement of things. And Taeyeon just jumped
into this conclusion of her girlfriend cheating on her. But then again, could she
blame her? She had experienced worst before. "Dr Kim's mind is already closed. I
really don't know what's happening."
"Yuri-yah, I'm sorry." The blonde stepped in closely.

The tan intern looked at her with soft eyes. "I knew you're just being a friend. I am
not mad."
Jessica smiled a bit as she felt relief came over. "She's hurting her."
"I know." Yuri embraced Jessica.
"What should we do? Taeyeon cannot do this to my best friend. She loves Taeyeon."
The latter started crying. She can never bear seeing the girl suffer for her past
mistakes. It was totally unfair for Tiffany. "And the sad thing is she wants to keep up
with what Taeyeon wants to do."
"And that is?"
"They broke up."
"What?" Yuri was surprised. "All I thought is that Dr Kim's just being her usual self
after they fight."
Jessica shook her head. "But they'd be staying together, without commitment."
The other girl creased her forehead. Her face showed confusion. "If that's the case,
then... No, she'd hurt Tiffany." She looked at her girlfriend with sad eyes. Yes, their
plan won't do any good to the two of her friends.
"And my friend's fine with that."
Yuri wiped Jessica's tears and hugged her once more. "We'll be alright. They'd
realize the right thing soon."
"Hope so."

---

Taeyeon locked her car as she stood beside it and had a view of her bungalow that
she shared with Tiffany for the past months. Silly because she couldn't feel anything
even if she had already poured her anger on Tiffany. She should be melancholic. But
then, her heart was definitely stoned and she didn't know when she will have it
back.
The lights inside the house were turned on and Taeyeon guessed Tiffany was inside.
It was too easy to say that they're done but it wasn't easy to let the girl go. She still
loves Tiffany, she was sure of that. But she still needs to find something, to do
something before she can say she had forgiven her. What was that? She has still to
find out.
Slowly, she lifted her legs towards the house. She opened the door and she smelled
something nice. She hadn't had anything for that day except for that failed omelette
this morning. She should be calling her girlfriend's name in a sweet manner but she
didn't. Taeyeon walked to the kitchen and she saw the back of the busy Tiffany.
She watched her and it was quite amusing to see. As quiet as she can be, she took
the stool and sat down. Maybe watching her could change anything.
"Ouch!" Tiffany hissed when she got burnt by the hot pan.
Taeyeon's eyes widened and her foot started to step in but her other foot didn't
follow suit. Her hands were actually trembling. She couldn't do anything.
The other girl turned around while blowing her hand. And she also flinched when
she saw Taeyeon with an unreadable face. It saddened her that the only thing that
was apparent in her usually warm and sweet eyes was emptiness. And she brought
it to Taeyeon herself. "How long have you been there?"
"Just arrived."
"Oh." She regained herself and she blew her injured hand once more.
"Use running water instead." Taeyeon said, meaning to care but she sounded

otherwise.
Tiffany would've been happy to hear Taeyeon care for her but the tone in hee voice
didn't let her. "Thank you."
Taeyeon stopped. Her eyes were stinging again. She could see how Tiffany was
suffering at the moment. "Don't you want to leave?"
"No." The latter was stern on her word. "I said I am staying, right?"
Taeyeon nodded as she walked again. She locked the door in their room and she
slumped on the floor, weeping. She grasped the hem of her top quite hard because
honestly, she doesn't know what to feel anymore. It was painful to hurt Tiffany but
her mind and heart were planning to stay hard on the girl.
She stayed like that for ten more minutes until she wiped her tears and decided to
stand up. She took a shower and it frustrated her that she couldn't find it refreshing
at all.
She went out and she felt how gloomy the house was. It would've been lively,
thanks to Tiffany's loud voice. It would've been noisy, thanks to their petty fights.
"I baked some cupcakes." Tiffany interjected Taeyeon's thoughts. "Umma thought
me how to do it." She added in a low voice.
Taeyeon turned her head to face the girl. She stared at her with blank eyes. Her
eyes shifted from Tiffany's eyes to her lips, to her cheeks and honestly, she couldn't
find a way to forgiveness. She bit her lip before nodding lifelessly.
Tiffany saw it, the uncertainty in the girl's face. And her already-tired heart broke
into a million more pieces. She tried to convince herself that this was just one of
their silly fights and that after a day everything will be okay. But by the looks of it,
nothing's going to be okay. She'd rather choose their usual fights than this cold war
they were having. "Do you want me to get you one? It's not burnt." She asked,
wanting to hear the soft voice of Taeyeon. She missed her, everything about her.
"No, I'm fine."

"Okay." She heard the voice she wanted to hear but then, it wasn't the way she
expected it.
Taeyeon breezed pass the other girl headed to the kitchen where the smell came
from. Red velvet cupcakes were splayed on the counter. She took one and had a
bite. It was extraordinary. She smiled a bit.
"How was it?"
"Good." Taeyeon said. And off she went to their room.

---

Tiffany inhaled deep. She has been walking back and forth outside the room where
Taeyeon went in hours ago. She's been thinking if she'd stay there for the night or
not. Earlier that day, she prepared the guest room without Taeyeon knowing. She
considered sleeping there until everything cools off.
She knocked the door three times before opening it. It was weird because she was
used to just barging in and surprising Taeyeon.
Taeyeon, on the other hand, was sitting on her chair with her back facing the door.
She was reading a novel, which she couldn't really understand because her mind
was clouded with the situation she had with Tiffany.
"Taeyeon?" The ebony head gently called out.
The girl raised her head. "Yes?"
"I," She fiddled with her fingers. "I'll just get my plushie and my pillow."
"Why?"
"I think it's best for me to sleep in the other room." She answered regretfully.

Taeyeon was taken aback. "Oh." But then, maybe it was a good idea afterall. "Fine."
Tiffany didn't expect that, actually. Taeyeon let her sleep in a different room just like
that. How much easier for her to let her out of her life, then? "You, you're not really
going to forgive me, are you?" When it comes to Taeyeon, her tears would spill
instantly.
Taeyeon stood up. "I wanted to." She said. "But it still hurts. I look at you right now
and I should be feeling in love over again, like I always do whenever I do this. But
honestly, right now, I don't."
Once more, Tiffany's world crumbled beneath her. Taeyeon was there with her but
she couldn't feel her presence. It was like she was too far to reach. "I'm sorry."
The shorter girl shook her head. "Don't. Just, go. Sleep wherever you want." Taeyeon
sat back down while closing her eyes. She's just too numb to feel anything.

---

"How are you holding up?" Sunny asked the forlorn Tiffany across her.
The latter look at her and heaved a deep sigh. Lately, she's been in a condition
wherein all she wanted to do was find a corner and cry. She was lifeless as she is.
She couldn't eat and sleep much at home. She had to work hard when she's in their
office because her mind needed diversion otherwise she'd go mad. "I go home to a
place that's barely a home. I see her, she sees me and all we shared was an
awkward greeting. I want the old us back."
"It's been days, Tiff." Jessica could see how tired Tiffany's eyes were.
"I know." Tiffany munched on her sandwich and she almost puked the thing out
because it tasted nothing. She stared at the food and smiled bitterly. "Even if she
doesn't talk to me, even if she hates me, I'm still happy that we're sticking

together."
"This isn't sticking together Fany-ah. This is torture." Sunny glanced over the other
blonde and the girl just shook her head. "You did wrong when you guys were
younger but it doesn't give Taeyeon the right to hurt you this badly."
"I deserve it, Soonkyu."
"No." Her best friend said sternly. "You don't. I am saying this not as your friend.
Have you lost your pride?"
Tiffany's brows shot up. Sunny and Jessica didn't see how prominent the circles
around her eyes until then. "I think I have. I told her I am staying even if she is
trying to push me away."
"Tiffany, how long are you going to do this?" Sunny asked.
"Until she tells me she doesn't love me anymore or until she found someone else."
She looked up at the ceiling as she avoided her tears to fall down. It would tear her
apart if one of the two things happens.
The two other ladies pursed their lips. Hopefully Taeyeon was able to see how
Tiffany was doing. It would break her heart seeing the girl being miserable at its
best. None of them contested though.
"Okay." Jessica finally broke the long silence. "You're free to stay at my house when
you had enough and when you're too lonely to stay alone in your house."
"Don't say that." Tiffany replied. "I will not leave her."
That statement made the blonde's eyes roll. "It's just a possibility, Tiff. First, she told
you things and she even accused you of cheating. Then after that, she wanted to
keep you. For what exactly? To slowly kill you?"
Tiffany heard her best friend say the words. They were true and even she doesn't
know what Taeyeon was all about. All she cared about and all she knew was she
wanted to stay. "I have something to ask you." She asked instead.

"What is it?"
"I would like to cancel the contract with Damien." She said boldly. "If it's okay with
you, then I'll ask the team."
Jessica frowned. "A little distance is enough, Tiffany."
"She's right. You don't have to do this." Sunny added, getting worried about how
Tiffany was being unreasonable at the moment. "You'll lose too much."
"I've already lost the biggest thing, Sunny." She answered with a heavy heart. "This
won't hurt. If Taeyeon was mad because of him, might as well get rid of Damien
now."
"This is infraction of the contract." The other short blonde said matter-of-factly. "We
still have fall and winter seasons fashion collections to do."
Tiffany sipped from her tea. She looked at the brownish liquid in her cup before
speaking. "I'd pay for it. The company wouldn't lose anything. Don't worry."
Two pairs of eyes almost popped out from their sockets at the decision that's been
obviously done in a hurry. Sunny and Jessica glanced at each other.
"Fany-ah, this is absurd."
Jessica flared her nostrils. "No. If you want to end the contract now, fine. It's okay. I
hate his guts too. But, don't shoulder this alone. It was you who said that the
company is a family. So let us help you."
"Our name will be disgraced." Tiffany said. "So it's better if I take the blame."
Sunny collapsed on her chair and she stared at the girl. "That's exactly the point.
You always take the blame. For once, don't do that."
Tiffany was ready to retort but she stopped. Because again what Sunny said was
true.
"We'll talk to the team and then to Damien." Jessica said in finality. She was decisive

about the contract too. She just hoped that it would do something good to Taeyeon
and Tiffany. Her best friend was willing to do anything for the doctor. She should be
merited for her sacrifices.

---

It was the third night that Taeyeon didn't go home. The house she loved going home
to was never the same house anymore. When she ran out of clothes in her locker at
the hospital, it was then she only had the need to go home.
Tiffany's car was parked, so the girl was probably inside. Taeyeon let out a mouthful
of air before going inside.
The house was too quiet for her liking. There were muffled footsteps from the other
girl, but that was just it. She slowly emerged from the foyer and she saw Tiffany
dialling digits on her phone. She tilted her head in curiousity.
"Hello?" She heard her say. "Damien, hi. Can we talk? Yes, yes. Tomorrow. Thank
you." And then she saw her smile. Unconsciously, she felt her jaw clenched hard
and her nails dug into her white palms. Her breathing was ragged.
She retraced her steps and she went out of the damned house before Tiffany could
see her. If that happens, she might do something bad to the girl. She rummaged her
bag for her phone and she hovered over her contacts.
She tapped call on one of the resident physicians' names.
"Hello?" The woman said on the other line.
"Hey, Davids. Where do you say we should go tonight?"
"Oh!" Dr Davids squealed. "You're coming?"
"Just tell me the place. I am in a hurry."

The doctor told her the place and with one last look at her own abode, she roared
the engine of her car to life and she drove off.

Chapter 39

Beyond Unlucky

"Can we talk?"

"Of course. But I am quite busy right now. Maybe, say, tomorrow?" The man
said.

Tiffany contemplated. It would be better if she could talk to him today so that
if Taeyeon goes home, she could tell her immediately about the contract. But
she didn't have a choice. "Yes."

"Is there a problem with the contract?"

Damien seemed like a psychic. He already knew. "Yes." The girl answered
truthfully.

The man heaved a sigh. He knew his unprofessional actions would lead to
this. "Okay. So, tomorrow?"

"Tomorrow." Tiffany said. "Thank you."

She hung up after finally putting up an appointment with Damien. She looked
at the papers over the table. She was a bit sad that the company would lose
a lot because of her. She has talked with their team, the board and everyone
that would be affected and she was grateful for the support she got. Though
some of the members didn't like what she and Jessica were about to do
about their contract with Damien's company, majority did give her the go
sign.

It was a big disadvantage for her and her best friend because should the
minority talk back and win the argument soon, Tiffany and Jessica would be
in big trouble. So she had to do it right.

Her musing was interrupted by a loud engine outside. She thought of how
reckless the driver was for doing that and shrugged it off soon after. She
looked at her phone's calendar and she was kind of surprised that it has
been three days since she saw Taeyeon.

The house felt so empty and so does her heart. As long as she can see
Taeyeon, as long as she can be assured that the girl won't leave her, she'd
be able to live in a roof with her even with less talking. She smiled bitterly at
her own stupidity. She just loves the shorter girl too much to just give up just
like that.

---

Taeyeon grimaced at the booming sound of the bass, at the smell of smoke
and the number of people around her when she and her co-resident
physicians entered the high end bar. She was used to small and quiet
drinking bars, very far from this kind.

This kind of place never had an appeal on her even when she was younger.
So, she never understood Tiffany why the girl loved going to bars with friends
before. This is the first time she actually gone into one and obviously, she
hates it.

She earned glances and turned heads because she was very beautiful in her
own simple way. All of them were ignored though.

If she didn't hear Tiffany talking nicely to Damien again, she will never do
this or anything close to rebellion. She was way mature than that. But then,
trying something new wouldn't be bad.

"So, Erica?" One of them asked while they found themselves their reserved
table and seats. "How do you find it here?"

"Okay, I guess." Taeyeon answered purely out of goodness when actually, it

wasn't really okay at all.

"You'll have fun." Another female doctor said. She raised her hand and
snapped a finger to catch the waiter's attention. The man came in. "Give us
tequila shots. Don't stop until I say so." She said and the man walked away.

Taeyeon looked around the dance floor and she could clearly see how the
some out there fished random people just to get laid for the night. She
winced it. It was too explicit for her liking.

"What brought you here?" One doctor asked. "You never go with us. You stick
with that intern and that blonde doctor from UCLA."

"Nothing. Just getting some change of view, I think." Taeyeon said. She felt
guilty for going with these people she never really knew by heart instead of

confiding in her own friends. But then, she realized they'll just nag her for
being bad at Tiffany. They wouldn't understand her at all.

"Well, that's good news."

Soon, their requested drinks came in. One male doctor handed Taeyeon one
slice of lime and a shot glass of tequila in it. "Go on. This is your initiation."
He smiled and the other three female doctors cheered loud.

Taeyeon took the glass and drank the whole liquid. She sucked the lime
afterwards. The drink came into her throat and it was so noxious. She closed
her eyes to savor the sensation because it was the only time for days that
she actually felt something. Her eyes opened and her lips tugged into a big
grin.

"Yeah!" All of them cheered.

---

"Fany-ah." Yuri smiled. She let go of Jessica's hand for a bit to give the ebony
head a chair. "Glad you came. Jessica here missed you." She awkwardly lied.

Tiffany chuckled weakly. "Little liar. We just met at the office earlier today."

Yuri chuckled along. "Nah, we just want to spend some time with you."

"So, what is the reason for this urgent meeting?" Tiffany dismissed Yuri. She
knew her friends too well.

The couple looked at each other. The tan girl moved her head gesturing for
the blonde to speak. The other girl frowned.

"You remember Alex, right? The uhm, leader of the minority group who
opposed to our plan?" Jessica started. "I overheard her talk to Mr Kim earlier.
She wanted to boycott us and they wanted to take us," She pointed at the
ebony head and to herself. "Down."

Tiffany's eyes widened. "What?!" She abruptly stood up, which called the
attention of the other customers of the small coffee shop. "She can't do
that!"

Yuri pulled her hand down for her to sit. "Fany-ah."

"She can't do that. We still own sixty per cent of the company. They don't
have the right to take us down Jess." Tiffany never faltered even if people
watched her rage.

The blonde flared her nostrils. "I know. But we're still in trouble if, if they're
going to push with this issue."

The other girl slumped like all her energy was drained. And again, time was
being a b*tch at her again. She's going to lose Taeyeon and she's going to
lose the company she worked hard for. "I-I,"

"Don't worry, I am your back up here." Jessica rubbed Tiffany's hand gently.
"We can surpass this."

Tiffany absentmindedly nodded. She was running of means to fix everything.

She closed her eyes as she massaged her aching temple.

Yuri and Jessica glanced at each other with sad eyes. What was happening
with Tiffany was unbearable. If Tiffany was a weak person she would've broke
down. But then, she wasn't. She's been through deaths and losses and even
if this situation was hard, they knew Tiffany won't ever give up.

The tan intern cleared her throat. "So, why didn't Dr Kim come with you?"
She asked to divert their attentions.

Tiffany opened her eyes. "She's staying at the hospitals these days." She
answered dejectedly.

Yuri scrunched her nose. "She went home today, didn't she?"

"No, she didn't."

"But I heard her say that-" Yuri stopped talking midway. She was sure the
resident went home. And she was sure she heard her say that she
would. Where could she be? "Okay. Maybe I misheard her."

"Let's eat then, shall we?" Jessica said. Yuri's attempt for diversion was
effective, in a worse note.

---

Tiffany had cried hard on the way back to Taeyeon's house. She pulled over
by a random area and she silently cried her heart out. She has no one to
confide with because she and the love of her life were not in talking terms
and her best friend would probably need Yuri more. She can't just pull Sunny
out from work because of her personal issues. The fact strike her that,
tonight or for more nights of her life, she'd be alone.

She thought of her company's sake at first and Taeyeon was at stake. Now
that she chose Taeyeon, she was losing both. She didn't know what to do or

think at the moment. She believed that after she had managed to talk to her
team, they'd be okay. But then at the end, they weren't.

Leaning her head over the steering wheel, she whimpered like a hopeless
child.

Brian. Are these the things I need to go through to repay my mistakes? For
hurting you and for hurting Taeyeon? I'm sorry, I am really sorry.

She sobbed hard in the confines of her car until she couldn't cry any tear
anymore. It was two in the morning when she finally had the strength to turn
her engine on. She smiled bitterly because she left the coffee shop at eleven.
Time has been very irrelevant in her life since that fateful night with Taeyeon.
She despised it. She will always do until maybe; it turns itself back to where
she and Taeyeon were still okay so that she can make things better.

Tiffany was disappointed to go home to a place where again, there is no sight

of the girl she really missed. She walked very slowly because doing otherwise
won't do any change. She unlocked the door and turned the light on by the
foyer. She was surprised to see Taeyeon sitting by the floor and lean8ng her
back on the wall looking wasted.

"Taeyeon?"

The girl turned to her with a sloppy grin. "Ah my unfaithful girlfriend is home.
Where did you go? Enjoyed the freedom much?" She said sarcastically.

Tiffany bit her lip. These accusations about her were just beyond the line.
"Are you drunk?"

"No." Taeyeon tried standing up but almost fell if Tiffany hadn't caught her.

"Taeyeon, how did you go home? Where's your car?"

"Stop acting like you care."

Tiffany painstakingly pulled Taeyeon headed to the sofa. She gently laid her
there. "I care, Taeyeon-ah."

The drunken girl scoffed. "Right."

She sat aimlessly on the floor as she watched Taeyeon fall deep into slumber.
She pursed her lips to stifle her sobs. She was crying again. "I love you.
Nothing will change. I'm sorry for hurting you so much." Her tears wouldn't
stop brimming. She wanted to leave, go back home in Korea and be busy
with work. She wanted to leave her. But she can't. She can't do that because
of the hope she had in her heart, and especially because of the love.

Tiffany was in big trouble with the company and she went home to a drunken
Taeyeon. She wiped her tears when she stood up to get a wet towel and a
dry one. She also got a pair of clean and comfortable clothes.

She pitied herself then. She has been doing everything for everyone except
for herself. But looking at the innocent face of the shorter girl, she couldn't
help but believe that she was still the one for her. She will always be.

---

"Okay." Damien sat down the chair with a disappointed expression on his
face. "Have a seat, Tiffany." He pointed at the chair across him. He waited for
the girl to find her comfort before continuing. "Are you planning to cancel the
contract? Or whatever's remaining with it?"

Tiffany nodded, not looking at his eyes. Her reason wasn't valid after all.

"What's the matter?" We were okay, right?" He rubbed his chin as he raised a
brow.

"..."

"Tiffany." Damien said with potency.

"It's personal and-" The girl couldn't continue with her explanation. She
couldn't just simply tell him that she just had the worst fight of her life
because of him, that she's about to lose the most important thing because of
him.

The man heaved a sigh. He leaned to his seat with so much to consider. "Was
it because of my inappropriate actions?"

Tiffany looked at him apologetically.

Damien nodded as he wetted his lips. "I'm sorry, Tiffany. I shouldnt have
done that."

"It's okay. It's just, some people didn't like it." She winced at the fact. "I'm
sorry too, really."

"How about the contract then?" He replied, scratching the back of his neck.
"This is breaching."

"I know." Tiffany laid the papers on the table that put a fair distance between
them. She explained her plans, how she was going to pay it, what Damien's
company would gain and more of the legal issues.

He listened though he wasn't amused at all. He will have all the advantages,
which left the girl and her company nothing. Tiffany was a nice person and it
irked him why she'd go that far just to get rid of him.

"That's all." Tiffany smiled a bit. "I hope this won't be taken to court. I am
giving you everything."

"Why?" He asked.

"Because you deserve it?"

Damien shook his head. If he was one greedy businessman, he'd take
Tiffany's offer at a snap of a finger. But under their circumstances, it was
unfair. "Is he," He bit his lip. He looked at her eyes with understanding
written on his own. "Making you do things like this? Is he mad at you because
of what I did?"

"He?" Tiffany tilted her head at one side.

"Your boyfriend."

"Oh." The girl bowed her head. "It's not that. This is my sole decision. This is
what I should do best."

"Should do? You are already in your right age to know what's best from
what's not. This is," He lifted the papers from the table. "Too much for a
girlfriend should do, Tiffany."

"When you already did a huge mistake, everything changes Damien and
there are things that you can't ever take back anymore." She said in verge of
crying. But she fought the urge to do so.

He thought about it. The girl had a point. "But it doesn't mean you had to live
sacrificing everything just to make up for that mistake. Mind you, even how
huge that was. You also have a life to think of, not just him." He said,
meaning everything.

"But he gave me another chance to love him." Tiffany argued. She

used he though because Taeyeon being a she would be another issue.

"To love him, yes. But did he give you a chance to live? To have a life that's
not just made just for him?" Damien asked, contesting Tiffany's argument.

"..."

He exhaled. He knew he had pointed out his idea on the matter well. He
never meant to tell her to leave the person Tiffany was with. He just wanted
her to realize the loss she'd be having if she continued doing this stupidity.
"Think about it. But, okay, I'll let your company go." He then said. "And give
me time to ponder on your proposal."

"What?" Tiffany's eyes widened. "Isn't it enough?"

"More than enough." Damien focused her eyes on the papers. "I just have to
reconsider things."

"Okay."

---

"Honestly, I don't really care if I won't see her." Jessica said with a sigh. She
propped her head on one knuckle and her other hand held the magazine she
was reading. "Because if ever I see her, I might hurt her." She added.

"Sica-yah." Yuri mumbled. "She is our friend."

"As far as I remember, the one she is hurting badly right now is my best
friend." The blonde reasoned. "So no, she's not my friend anymore."

Sunny shook her head. "She's not presenting herself to us. What is she up
to?"

Jessica shrugged. "You should know what. Especially you, Yuri." She looked at
her girlfriend with scrutinizing eyes.

"No, I don't know anything about her whereabouts lately." The tan intern
answered truthfully. "The last time I saw her, she was with Davids."

"Oh, the *********." Sunny realized. "But why?"

"I don't know." Yuri exhaled. She sipped her glass of iced tea. "She's been
ignoring me too. I don't want to think of it as accidentally. She's doing it on
purpose."

"She's keeping the distance, huh? And worse, she goes out with that jerk."
Sunny concluded, exasperated. As Taeyeon's best friend, it really hurt her to
know that the girl chose to spend these dark hours of her life with other
people. She was there when Taeyeon had her very first heart break and she
never left, at all.

Sunny never asked for anything in return because they were the best of
friends and she knew Taeyeon would do that for her too. Yes, maybe she was
biased every time Taeyeon gets mad at Tiffany. But that was because of her
best friend's irrationality, not because Tiffany was always right. They are two
different things and Taeyeon never understood that at all.

Suddenly, Jessica's phone rung and it interrupted everyone from their own
thoughts. She mouthed a silent sorry before picking the gadget up. "Tiff?
What's up?"

"Jessi, Mr Kim wanted to talk to us." The girl sounded worried and unsure. If
Jessica wouldve known, she was pacing back and forth as she bit her nails.

"Why?"

"I-I don't know." Tiffany paused, trying hard to regain her composure. "Is this
about Damien? Did Alex finally have him? Is he-"

Jessica clucked her tongue. "Tiffany, can you please relax?"

The other two girls looked at Jessica with curiosity. The blonde held up her
hand to gesture for them to wait a bit.

"I am trying." Tiffany replied. And no one could've believed her in her tone.

"Don't jump into conclusions."

"Okay, okay. He's meeting us up later. At 8. In our office. Be there, okay?"

"I will. See you. Bye." Jessica hung up. She looked at the two girls and shook
her head. "We're in big trouble." She said before propelling her poor phone
on the table. It made a loud sound and the glass had a small crack in it.

"Is this about the contract thing?" Sunny asked. She looked at the damage
Jessica made. Thankfully, it wasn't that visible not unless one would squint
hard.

Jessica nodded and Yuri pursed her lips.

"What happened?"

"I don't know yet. We will meet the vice president later."

---

The three top stockholders of the company bowed to each other before
taking their respective seats. The first five minutes of their meeting was
awfully silent. Tiffany was fidgeting, Jessica was zoning out and Mr Kim was
unsure of what to say.

The man inhaled deep. "How did your meeting with Oh go?" He asked the
ebony head.

"He agreed to the cancelation but he was still considering some things."
Tiffany answered in a low voice. Her heart was racing. She could lose the
company right then. And she can't just imagine her life without it. She
glanced at her friend, who'll be losing a lot too.

"Is he asking for more?" He clasped his calloused hands and situated them in
front of his lips.

Tiffany opened her mouth but couldn't straightforwardly utter a single word.
That could happen. He could ask for more than what she intended to give.
"I'm not really sure, Mr Kim."

"Then make it sure." Mr Kim's low and husky voice rose a bit. It also
frustrated him. "Alex and her followers were talking to other members and I
am telling you, it's not going to be good on your parts." He said to the two
nervous girls in front of him. "Tell me," He leaned in closer. "Was he really
beyond the point of being professional?"

"Mr Kim, don't you believe my partner?" Jessica asked coldly. The man
sounded accusing and it irked her.

"Of course I do. If he asks for more, take the contract back and let's work
with him again."

"What?!" Jessica stood up with eyes burning with ire.

Mr Kim flinched on his seat. "We have no choice!" He raged back when he
gathered himself together.

"We won't work for him anymore." The blonde said. She sat back down.

"Tiffany, listen. I will always be by your side because it was you who worked
hard for this company to keep it going. And I won't listen to someone who
was just jealous of what you guys achieved." He said, shaking her head. "But
we won't know what the others might think. They will bring you down! And I
can't let that happen. Don't get me wrong. I am just helping out." He
explained.

"So we don't really have a choice then?" Tiffany asked, bewildered.

"I'm afraid we don't."

"Tiff, don't." Jessica held her arms tightly.

The other girl dismissed her with a nod towards the man in front of them.
"Okay."

Mr Kim stood up and straightened his suit. His gaze turned to something
softer and Jessica and Tiffany never missed it. "You are like my daughters
and I don't want them to hurt you. As much as I wanted Damien out of our
faces, I'd rather have him than lose you both."

Jessica's ice cold facade melted at the fatherly words. "We're going to win
this one if we fight, right?"

"I hope so. I really hope so." He smiled bitterly and took his leave.

---

Taeyeon never goes home. And when she does, she arrives drunk.

Tiffany was sitting by the kitchen counter, like she always does to wait for
the short doctor. If she'd stop doing something in her life, hoping for Taeyeon
to come back wouldn't be in the choices at all. The house was dark. She
didn't turn any lights on. She got comfortable in the lack of luminescence.

Her ears instantly perked up when the door unlocked. She straightened up
with a smile on her face.

Taeyeon came in and switched the lights she passed by on. She was still
tipsy from the alcohol she had consumed uncontrollably earlier that night.
She stopped once she had a view of Tiffany's beautiful face. Yet, what struck
her most was the sadness in those eyes. But she didn't pay attention. "You're
still up?"

"I am waiting for you." Tiffany answered when she stood up to step closer to
Taeyeon. She could smell the scent of alcohol and cigarette. She turned away
because she knew exactly where the girl went. "I see you've been having fun
lately." Her voice was low and soft you could feel the pain in them.

"Yeah. You didn't tell me going to bars give you the high. It was fun." Taeyeon
replied.

Oh, the anguish it brought Tiffany. "Are you really having fun?"

Taeyeon was taken aback. Her eyes shifted because her brain suddenly went
into a frenzy to look for an answer. Honestly, she didn't know if she really did
have fun. She hated her companions, she hated the place, she hated the fact
that she neglected her true friends and of course, Tiffany. "Of course."

The ebony head tear up a little. She inhaled. "Do you want to share your
experiences? New things?" She asked instead in attempt to strike a
conversation.

"There's nothing to share." Taeyeon suddenly turned around. Looking at

Tiffany would totally melt her heart.

"Taeyeon-ah." Tiffany almost said a plea. "I don't know if I have to say this. I
uh," She gathered her courage. "I am missing you so much."

It touched Taeyeon's heart but not as much as the words did before. She
blankly nodded without looking back.

So her heart broke once more upon the lack of response. "Just do anything
you want. You'll always find me here, yeah?"

"What's up with you?" The shorter girl said with an annoyed voice. "You can
just leave me you know. Why take the extra mile? Isn't it obvious that I am
just hurting you?" She turned around and saw the tears on her love's face.

"I don't want to look at it."

With the frustration she had, she walked away. "You're stupid Fany-ah!" She
said once she locked herself inside her room. She was crying hard. She
appreciated the effort but she can't push herself to go back to her and start
over. Because it still hurts that every time she sees her, she remembers all
the pain. "You're too stupid."

Tiffany, on the other hand was weeping too. "I miss you. I am losing the thing
I've worked hard for and I am losing you." She said a little louder like she was

really talking to someone. "I don't have anyone else. I only have you but
you're not really here." She sobbed.

She pulled her phone from her pocket and dialled her best friend's number.
The blonde picked up after the third ring.

"Tiffany?"

"Jess." Her voice cracked and it was pretty obvious that she was crying.

"Oh my god, are you crying?" Jessica got worried. "What did she do this
time? Tell me."

"No, no. This is nothing." Tiffany wiped her tears and took in a bunch of air to
calm her nerves. "Is Yuri there?"

"She just left. She'd be on duty for twenty four hours." And like she already
read Tiffany's mind, she sighed. "Come on over. And stop crying."

"Thanks."

Chapter 40

Unlove Me

Yuri was beside Taeyeon when they walked through the hospital hallways
during an early morning rounds. She should admit that it was the most
awkward meeting she had with her superior.

They were walking silently and even the younger interns noticed the tension
between them. Even their friendship has been strained.

Yuris phone rang. She pulled the device from her pocket and creased her
brows.
Taeyeon side glanced but never really looked interested at all.

The tan intern walked slowly, and others left her behind. Jessica?

If your friend still cared enough to look for Tiffany, shes with me. Tiffany will
be staying here for the night. The blonde said with no buckles.

Yuri nodded. Okay. I am on rounds right now. Talk to you later. Love you.
Both hung up. She half ran to catch Taeyeon and the group.

Was that important? Taeyeon asked once the girl stood beside her.

Yuri frowned at her resident doctor. What, you are Tiffany-ing me now? She
answered sarcastically because she was very much disappointed by how she
treated Tiffany.

I was just asking. The short doctor replied with curt.

It was Jessica. And if youre still interested, Tiffany would be staying with her
for the night.

Taeyeon let out an impartial oh. So thats why she woke up at dawn without
any Tiffany in her house. Are they planning for another nasty thing?

Yuris jaw tightened. She grasped Taeyeons collar with one of her hands and
her eyes fixed on the doctors. I used to care about how you feel. But right
now, I dont give a damn.

The interns behind them were gasping at the turmoil they were witnessing.
They nudged and pushed each other to stop the seniors.

Both of them didnt do anything. They never intended to hurt you or

anyone. The taller girl continued.

Taeyeon managed to pull a flat face despite the pain she felt by
watching her friend rage on her like that.

Maybe thats what you got from hanging out with those douches. So, if you
dont have anything nice to say, then just shut the f*ck up. Yuris hold got
tighter before she finally let Taeyeon go. She stepped backwards and fixed
the doctors collar. Shall we continue with the rounds, Dr Kim?

Taeyeon blinked once before resuming their walk. She has gotten too far. And
how come no one understood her side? Tiffany hurt her. Why cant they see
that?

She then realized she was really alone from the start. No one needed friends
and lovers anyway, she thought to herself.

---

Do you want anything? Jessica asked worriedly at Tiffany who was still
crying.

The ebony head shook her head as she wiped her tears with the back of her
hand. Im sorry. She said. She knew she had put Jessica into a lot of
trouble. I dragged you down with me. Sorry, Jessi.

The blonde rubbed her shoulder to comfort her. No. We are into this,
remember? She smiled weakly at Tiffany. We couldve dated if you never
met Taeyeon and if I never met Yuri, you know.

They both chuckled at the absurdity of the idea. Jessica pushed herself back
and looked at her best friend with soft eyes. We did mistakes. We did a lot of
things together and were going to pay for them. Yes, we. The both of us.

Jessi, this is too much.

I know. If we lose the company, lets build up another one. The slightly
older girl thought, which is actually plausible. They couldnt stand up
without us anyways. We can also get Mr Kim to join us and some of the team.
They love you, they love us.

Tiffany curled up like a ball and cried harder. I dont deserve any of these at
all.

Yes, you do. Jessica argued. Everyone does.

Jessica leaned in and put her head over the crying girls curved back. Tell
me, cant you really live without her?

W-why?

Because I am planning to ask Yuri for a sedative, administer it on you and

take you away. She said, chuckling softly. Her tears were also brimming. I
hate seeing you like this, Tiffany. I feel limp when youre this weak.

Tiffany smiled in between sobs. Thanks but I want to pull this through with
her.

Now, I am more convinced that I should do that.

Jessi.

Then at least, leave her house. I know it was hell for you.

Tiffany straightened up and Jessica followed suit. Shes been going home
drunk lately. I cant see my Taeyeon in that state every time she arrives. And
she says things that really hurt me.

See? Jessica clasped Tiffanys shoulder and shook them lightly. Just leave.
Maybe then, youd realize that you can really live without her.

I, I-

The blonde only looked at her with empathy. She couldnt live without Yuri
too maybe even if she hurt her that bad. But she was aware that everyone
has a breaking point. Talk to her. She wanted you to leave to, right?

But thats because she doesnt want to hurt me.

Exactly.

Ill think about it first. Tiffany replied, her chin propped on her knees.

---

Taeyeon sat on an empty stool by the bar. She eyed the different variety of
booze in front of her and she couldnt think of anything to drink on that night.
Unlike her earlier bar hopping, she wasnt with the douches as her friend
called them. She was alone and it kind of made her feel better.

Got nothing on mind? A femininely soft voice asked her and she nodded,
not looking at the person in front of her.

I am experimenting on this one. She heard her say again. Taeyeon

furrowed her brows. She shifted her gaze and found a small shot glass in
front of her. The fluid in it has a weird color and she thought twice before
holding the glass to study it more.

Well, thats the downside of it. It looked really awful and if I altered the
color, it would alter the taste. The bartender shrugged.

The doctor looked at the person who was talking to her. Her eyes met a pair
of bright eyes looking back at her. The girl smiled at her and her eyes were
nowhere to be found. Taeyeon couldnt help but smile back. It wasnt as
alluring as Tiffanys but it was contagious and uplifting.

Go on, try it. She urged Taeyeon. She could see the doubt in her eyes. It
wont kill you. Just have a taste.

Promise? Was all Taeyeon could say.

The girl nodded excitedly.

Dying by intoxication to this liquid would not be that bad. Honestly, she,
herself thought of dying because of the pain she and Tiffany were going

through. She drank the liquor and it surprised her that it tasted light and
crisp but she could feel the hardness on it. Wow.

See? The bartender said with a proud grin.

That was good.

But be careful, it is a traitor. It is hard booze in disguise. She said with a

wink. She glided to a customer at the other end smoothly like she had an
inborn knack for bartending.

Taeyeon watched her in awe. She never looked like that at anyone else other
than Tiffany. She felt guilty but wagged the thought out of her mind because
she should be enjoying herself, not drowning with memories of her.

Hey! She shouted against the loud noise.

The bartender looked at her direction with that same smile. Yes?

Can I have another?

Sure! She turned around, took some liquor Taeyeon couldnt recognize and
mixed them together. She went back with a shot glass. Here. Remember, be
cautious.

Heres my car key. She pulled an electronic device from her pocket. Take
it.

Youre gonna trust me with that? The girl sounded amused.

Taeyeon smiled. Of course. I am quite sure you wont do bad news. Whats
your name?

The girl was hesitant at first but Taeyeons irresistible charm finally made her
tell her name. Jamie.

Taeyeon lifted a hand. Nice to meet you. Im Erica.

Jamie knitted her brows as she remembered something. She struggled but
somehow managed to shake hands with Taeyeon. Are you by chance a
Korean?

Why?

I am Korean too and I think I saw you before. Are you a scientist or
something?

Taeyeon chuckled. No, a doctor.

Suddenly, Jamies face lit up at the memory. You are Kim Taeyeon! She
squealed in their native language.

How fortunate. Taeyeon thought. She was totally taken aback at the
behaviour. Jamie seemed like she met a celebrity. Chill.

Chill? No one should just chill if they met you. Jamie said. Wait for me,
okay? Ill just do my job here and we should like, you know talk. She giggled
as she frantically took the other customers orders.

Taeyeon was really amused. Somehow, in that moment, she forgot that she
had a bad day, a bad love life and yes, basically a bad life. She spent her life
focusing on what seemed to matter the most that she forgot that theres a
lot of chances outside her circle, like meeting new people.

Maybe Jamie could really help her. It was not hard for her to befriend this
person because she was Korean too, and well the girl was too friendly.

She had only six shots of the cocktail Jamie mixed and her world was already
spinning. She underestimated its effect thanks to its sweet taste. She had to
go home but she remembered she handed her key to the girl.

Her senses were already getting disordered and she cursed when she tried to
lift her head and got dizzy at the movement.

Are you okay? Jamie sat next to her with a glass of water on hand.

Taeyeon recognized the voice. She giggled and clumsily sat up. Oh God,
what was that, really?

I told you to take it slow. Jamies normally lively voice turned low and weak.

Im okay. She replied in Korean. Taeyeon was a bit guilty for not listening.

Ill take you home.

The words were final. Taeyeon felt like she was being carried by the wind
when she closed her eyes. She could still smell liquor and cigarettes but she
was too high to even mind.

Whats your car?

White BMW near the elevator. She answered. Then there was the wind
again, taking her somewhere she didnt know. She was dropped off
somewhere and she thought she heard doors closing. She easily found a
comfortable position on a leathered seat. Her mind was ready to doze off.

Where do you live?

145 Westwood Boulevard.

You are filthy rich. Jamie bemusedly chuckled and roared the engine to life.

The drive was long or Jamie purposely slowed down her driving to avoid
aggravating Taeyeons status. She was totally worried.

She stopped at the red light.

Taeyeon stirred and her brows furrowed before opening her eyes. She was
still tipsy and she could still see birds flying above her head but she was
feeling much better. Ouch. She muttered under her breath when she tried
to lift her head.

Yah, dont move too much.

It was Korean and Taeyeon writhed in remembering the voice. Im fine. She
closed her eyes and opened one to take a peek at her driver. Oh. Jamie?
What are you doing?

I am taking you home, you drunkard.

Taeyeon had to laugh dorkily. I am not.

Whatever.

Thanks.

For?

Looking after me. I dont really drink so my tolerance was low.

Jamie nodded as she pressed on the gas pedal. Its okay.

How can I thank you?

Jamie didnt answer and Taeyeon was too drunk to pry. With the steady hum
of her cars engine, her brain cells seemed to relax a bit and then soon after
she fell to deep slumber again.

After twenty minutes, she was woken up by gentle shakes and nudges. She
huffed before sitting up, her eyes still closed.

Were here.

Here?

She could hear a gentle chortle and it was really adorable.

Your home.

Right. She opened her eyes and looked at the girl in the drivers seat. She
smiled a little before unlocking her door. Taeyeon jumped out of her car. She
tried hard to stay steady even if her body really wanted to collapse.

A hand grabbed her wrist. Can you stand?

Of course. She wriggled her head before cracking another grin. Slowly, she
stepped closer to Jamie. She thought she saw someone else in those eyes
and it drew her closer. Im sorry.

Its okay-

Taeyeon grabbed the girls waist. Her eyes were closed and her mouth was
slightly opened when she pulled Jaime closer to her. It was sloppy and
awkward but still, it was a kiss.

Jamie was taken aback and all the kind of surprised when Taeyeon kissed.

Thank you, really. Taeyeon said when she pulled back. How will you go
home?

T-taking a cab, I-I guess.

Take care.

---

The board has finally decided. A rail thin woman said. Her voice was
intimidating and it was really annoying.

Jessica was holding Tiffanys hand beneath the covers of the long table. They
were called for an emergency meeting and somehow, the atmosphere was
uncanny negative.

Are you ready? She asked at the two ladies.

Jessica glared with her head bowed and Tiffany winced. Their hearts were
racing. So, this could be the end. They thought.

Tiffany was nearly in tears but decided to keep her head up. She never knew
going through this alone was too much. She missed Taeyeon telling her
words of encouragements. She missed her shoulders when she needed
something to lean onto. She missed her but all Taeyeon did was go home
drunk.

Just tell us what it is, Alex. Mr Kim cried.

As you can see, our president had done something beyond the line. We lost
a huge project because of her. We talked about it, and most of us supported
her. Alex, who own twenty per cent of the company walked back and forth.
But with deliberate meetings with the group-

Secret meetings. Jessica corrected.

Alex rolled her eyes. We have decided to take you down Ms Hwang and of
course your accessory, Ms Jung.

Tiffany stood up, her breathing was a mess. Take me down but dont drag
Jessi into this.

We-

Alex was interrupted by a sudden knock on the door. Everyone turned to the
direction and waited for the secretary to come in.

Sorry to interrupt but Mr Damien Oh wanted to come in and have a part of

this meeting. The brunette in corporate attire looked at each person with
questioning eyes.

Alex grinned and clasped her hands together in delight. How thoughtful of
Mr Oh. Let him in.

Tiffany was stupefied. Of course Damien would let her down.

Good morning. The good looking man entered with his coat and tie. He
looked professional to Jessica and Tiffanys vision. He stood beside Alex. He
was smiling and it irked Jessica and Tiffany.

Good morning. Thank you for coming. Alex said.

Damien shook his head. I just want to say something, if you dont mind.

Go on. A middle aged woman in her glasses urged him.

I heard about this meetings agenda. And- Damien looked at Tiffany with
sympathy. I personally disagree.

The two nervous girls looked at him with surprise.

I mean, this is your company but I am also involved.

Mr Oh- The opposing woman beside him tried to interject.

Do listen to me. He dismissed Alex and beseeched the other members. He

gained nods and it was enough for him. Ms Hwang was all professional. She
cared about the company too much. She never disappointed me. It was me,
His voice was apologetic. Who became unprofessional, tricked her into a
date with me and all. She wanted for our companies to work but yeah, its
my fault. Dont demote her or something.

Everyone was flabbergasted at the sudden confession. Why didnt you tell
us, Tiffany? One asked.

We shouldve acted on it. Another one butted in.

I-I- Tiffany couldnt answer. This was totally different from what she was
expecting. She stared blankly at Damien who was looking back at her
encouragingly. Sorry. Was all she could manage to say. Her heart was still
beating fast.

I agree on ending the contract but I refuse the compensation. Damien

added.

Things happened so fast. There were a lot of issues they talked about. Tiffany
was still in daze when she heard the good news. They will not be taken down
and the company they worked hard for was still theirs.

Jessica hugged her tight. That snapped her out of whatevers occupying her
mind. Then everything came sinking in. She smiled while crying. It was
blissful.

Tiff, were okay. Jessica said repeatedly.

Yeah. She sniffed. She looked around and found Damien by the door. Jessi,
I need to thank him.

Jessica smiled. Sure. Thank him for me too.

Tiffany wriggled her way among the crowd headed for the man who helped
her and her best friend. Damien! Wait, wait.

The man turned around. His face automatically turned gentle at Tiffany.
Hey, you.

Thank you.

He grinned. It was actually what I had to consider. You deserve better,

Tiffany.

Wow. I didnt think-

Damien let out a chuckle. I am not a jerk, mind you. Go celebrate with
Jessica and your staff. And fix things with him.

Tiffany nodded. She remembered that she still has Taeyeon to think about.
Jessi wanted to thank you too.

Its okay. Now go!

---

Taeyeon woke up late in the afternoon with a throbbing headache. She hissed
under her breath when she felt the heaviness when she tried to sit up.

She looked at the wall clock that dangled on the wall and it read six. She
knew it was already late. She stood up to wash her face. She will never have
that drink again. Taeyeon chuckled at how vulnerable she was against that
cocktail.

She remembered meeting a super nice girl. She was so excited to know that
she was Taeyeon Kim. Then, Taeyeon couldnt remember anything. But the
girl who she remembered named Jamie was sweet and alluring in her own
way. Her smile was really something too.

What a shame though, she only loved Tiffany and even Jamie can be a
girlfriend-material, she couldnt and she shouldnt care.

With a mini towel with her, she went out of the room and looked around.
Tiffany? She called out. No one answered. She shrugged the idea that it
was Saturday and Tiffany was out. She had grown used to her absence
anyway.

She opened her refrigerator, saw some hotdogs and eggs and fried them for
her to eat. Her stomach was growling. She had never eaten a single meal
since yesterday.

After washing the dishes, she went straight to the living room. She slumped
on the couch and flipped over channels on the television. It was boring and
she had nothing else to do.

It was already turning eight and Tiffany wasnt still around. She sighed.
These are the kinds of moments she hated the most because her mind would

be clouded with so much thoughts. And even they dont talk; Tiffanys
presence still calms her nerves.

They were really drifting apart and she didnt have any idea as to where will
they go from here. She got numb to the pain and even the worst things
couldnt make her recoil. She could only see in red and blue and it was
saddening. She wanted to feel something again. She wanted to be happy
again. But how? Her past wouldnt let her.

There was a door bell. Tiffany? But she didnt have to use the doorbell
because she still had her own keys. Taeyeon stood up and headed to the
entrance. Without even peeking at the peep hole, she opened the door.

Hi.

Jamie? Taeyeon looked at the woman with a surprised look.

The sullen looking girl stepped in and cupped Taeyeons face with her warm
and delicate hands. And she leaned in for a kiss.

Taeyeon pushed her slightly away. She was gulped at the sudden maneuver.
Sure her lips felt soft and cool against hers and it was kind of hooking, but
she was still in her right mind to stop. What are you doing?

I want to feel something. Jamie said and it was like Taeyeons own words.
Taeyeon needed that too. Let me feel something.

Taeyeon blinked and she didnt know why or how the words took her heart.
Jamie kissed her once more and she gave in. She was pushed backwards and
backwards and she felt weak to even fight back.

Her mind went blank when desire took over her sanity.

---

Jessica didnt totally agree when Tiffany told her that shes going to stay at
Taeyeons and that she will never leave.

Are you sure? A hundred per cent sure? The blonde asked.

Tiffany nodded, smiling. Yes. Now that were okay, I can focus on getting her
back. I can stay by her side. I can be there when she wakes up until she goes
home and rest.

Jessica sighed. Fine.

The ebony head couldnt help but feel grateful at her best friend. For the past
days, she had never felt lighter. And shes gonna go home to her love, sit on
the couch and have the courage to tell her the events that happened that
day.

She was going on a eighty kilometres per hour speed and a lovely romantic
song was playing on the radio. She was smiling on her way back home.

When she stepped off her car, she could see the lights were on and she knew
Taeyeon was there. It made her grin more. She bought doughnuts for her
because Taeyeon has a sweet tooth.

She stood by the foyer, taking off her shoes when her whole world stopped
turning and the clock stopped ticking.

Taeyeon wore an oversized shirt and it was obvious that she had nothing
beneath it. She was with a girl. The girl was pretty and she also looked
Korean, yes she definitely is Korean. They were kissing and by the looks of it,
something already happened. Taeyeons lips used to be hers. She used to be
hers.

Tiffany gasped and it was too audible that the two other girls turned to her.
The girl was surprised and Taeyeon frozed.

Sorry. Tiffany muttered. You shouldnt be sorry for catching them

redhanded. I was just- Her breath caught up with her words. She couldnt
think of anything to say.

Jamie straightened up, feeling uncomfortable. The tension was too much to
bear. I have to go. She said, getting her bag and scarf off the hangers. She
bowed at Tiffany and the other girl looked at her blankly. She walked out
right after getting nothing in response.

Left were only the two of them, staring at each other for a very long time.

Doughnuts? Tiffany asked in trembling voice. She walked straight to the

kitchen. She silently prepared the food.

Tiffany-

I bought these on the way here. She turned around. You love them, right?
She smiled amidst the tears she was shedding.

Taeyeon stepped in. Tiffany, dont do this. She felt oblivious at the girls
absence and yes she was too selfish at that moment to even remember that
there was someone she could hurt.

Tiffany stopped. She set the doughnuts aside and just cried. Her heart was
shattered and her soul was tattered. Are you happy?

What?

Are you happy that you had sought revenge? That you already made me
feel what I made you feel before? She averted her gaze when she couldnt
take the scene a while earlier out of her sight.

I am sorry. I wasnt thinking-

Are you happy? Tiffany asked again, not faltered by the apology Taeyeon
asked her.

Taeyeon bowed her head. No, she wasnt.

Did you think of me? The younger girl asked again. Her voice was still
melodious despite the pain beneath it. Still, Taeyeon couldnt answer. Is she
nice to you? Is she worth it? How long has this been going? Is this the first
time? Is-

Taeyeon stomped her feet. Her teeth gritted. Stop it, Tiffany! Stop it!

The girls jaw dropped. Her mind was boggled. She didnt know what to feel
already. It was just too painful. A lightning strike at her would be best at the
moment.

Stop doing this. You can go. You can just leave me and despise me for the
rest of your life. The girl dead pans.

I wish I could. Tiffany answered in a very pained voice.

What?

I wish I could just leave. I wish I could just say goodbye and never go back.
But I cant and I wont. The cracking sound of her heart was as loud as her
sobs. She fiddled with the hem of her shirt. You dont know how much I
tried, Tae.

The agony broke Taeyeons already wounded heart. She hated herself for
being so selfish. She hated Tiffany for what she did but now she hated
herself for reciprocating. She looked at Tiffanys eyes seeking for hatred but
she didnt find anything and it frustrated her.

Everyone knows. Hell, even I know that were better off on our own. Tiffany
continued. Do you think it was that easy? I am dying here. I also wanna be
free. She pointed at her chest too hard thats he actually felt her nail dug
into her skin. But when I think of it, I cant be alone because I will always
look for you. Even if it gets darker by the moment you arrive, I can, I can
never leave.

Tiffany, just- just leave me. I already made a huge mistake. Her tone was
already begging Tiffany to just go away.

It doesnt matter. Her voice peaked from the floor to the ceiling. Her eyes
were shut to welcome the pain inside her. It doesnt matter because I hurt
you too. So if youre happy and contented that you had a taste of what I did,
maybe you can, Tiffany swallowed her saliva together with her pride. You
can go back to me.

Taeyeons mouth opened and then closed. It happened thrice and stills he
couldnt find the words to say. God, she really had hurt Tiffany. She suddenly
felt disgusted at herself. This is,

I cant let go because I love you. And I hate myself for loving you this much
and for believing that youre still the one for me. Tiffany looked straight at
Taeyeons eyes. But if, if you really want this, us to end right now, dont ask
me to leave. Because I really cant.

Im sorry. It was Taeyeons turn to spill her heart out. I am so sorry. I dont
deserve you.

Unlove me, Tae.

The short girl took a step back. She couldnt decipher what the words mean.

Ill go if you unloved me. I am tired too but- Tiffany sobbed. I cant just
unlove you so please, unlove me.

Chapter 41

Flatline

She slept with somebody else.

Tires screeched on the asphalt road as she pressed on the gas pedal. She
was reaching the cars top speed when she realized it was getting
dangerous. She slowly let go of the pedal and wiped her tears. She always
witnessed Tiffanys devastation.

The girl barged in her apartment early this morning while she was alone
contemplating on their project and the suddenness startled her. Tiffany was
crying hard. And this was worse than what happened years ago. What
happened? Tiffany didnt respond instead she pulled her into a very tight
hug.

Jessi- And thats how the girl started telling her what happened. And shes
so ready to kill someone while waiting for the final streetlight to turn green.

The broad daylight didnt give much light to her senses when she coldly
stared at the hospitals security guards and the people who smiled at her as
a greeting. She needed to find Taeyeon, not to socialize with anyone.

Her footsteps were as heavy as her chest and nothing felt bitterer than what
she felt. It was her best friend. Her sister. And no one has the right to hurt
her thrice, not even Taeyeon.

She didnt bother to knock when she pushed the door open. Taeyeon was
sitting on her chair, a cup of already cold coffee on hand and was staring
blankly at the wall. Their eyes met for a second and Jessica gritted her teeth.
Why? Her nose flared.

Taeyeon looked at her and closed her eyes soon after.

Why?! The blonde repeated.

The other girl stood up, placed the cup on her table and went in front of
Jessica. Im sorry, Sica. Was what she said in a low voice. She kind of
expected it but Jessicas slap on her face was surprisingly painful that she
almost cowered. Im sorry.

Why did you do that? She loves you! Jessicas voice rose.

Taeyeon clenched her fists. I dont know! I was mad and confused and she
came into my doorstep and-

Thats it? Youre confused? She pushed Taeyeon by the shoulders. Youre
mad? Did you ever think of my best friend, huh?

The last question bothered her too much that her ears perked up. You are
asking me if I ever thought of Tiffany?

Jessica glared.

Yuri came in rushing just so she could stop a war thats about to unfold
before them. And the last thing she wanted to see was her friends hurting
each other. Sica, Dr Kim. She held Jessicas wrist and gripped it tight.

Taeyeon didnt falter by the arrival of the tan girl. Did she ever think of me
when she did the same back then? Her eyes turned red.

What?

Dont act as if you didnt know! When she did the same mistake, it was
okay. But when I did, it wasnt?

What are you talking about? Jessica was totally confused.

She kissed random people and slept with them! Taeyeon raged.

Jessica hissed. She was taken aback by the outrage but what surprised her
were the last three words of the statement. God, Taeyeon! She ran her
hand through her hair. Her tears fell again. God! She never slept with
anyone! Yes, she kissed random guys but she never- come on! She wasnt
like that!

It was Taeyeons turn to get flabbergasted. She took two steps back and her
whole body wanted to collapse. She got it wrong, all wrong.

You should know better. Jessica cried. Even Brian didnt get the chance tobecause Tiffany couldnt do it to anyone but you. But you, you- She flailed
her hand in the air in frustration. Did it. How dare you? She looked straight
to Taeyeons eyes but the latter didnt look back.

I thought she-

Of course you did! You never asked. You just left her alone. I bet you didnt
even know that Tiffany almost lost the company she worked hard for
because she wanted to save your relationship.

Taeyeons eyes shot up and her face was unreadable. What do you mean?

She cancelled the contract with Damien because of you. And everything
went crazy. She never had anyone because you loathed her.

 Every bit of Tiffanys effort and love for her nearly crushed her whole
being. It was too painful. Tiffany shouldnt be the one loathed. It was her.
Im sorry. Im sorry.

If all you wanted to do is hurt her, just leave her alone. Dont ever come
back. If she cant turn her back away from you, then do it yourself. Jessica
said faintly. I beg of you Taeng. Give her a chance to life thats worthy and
happy.

Yuri stepped up and hugged her crying girlfriend. Everything was a mistake.
Just everything. And that simple stupid mistake hurt all of them.

Taeyeon wasnt able to speak as she sat down on the couch. Her mind was
boggled and her heart crushed. She looked at Yuri with pleading eyes. What
have I done?

The other girl shook her head. She took Jessica away from the room and left
the doctor in misery.

She buried her face in her warm hands and cried as much as she could. How
did all of this things happened? How did they end up to this pulp? They were
happy. They were being envied by other couples.

Tiffany was a jolly and lively person. Her smiles meant something to
everyone. She was the sweetest and kindest thing on earth. She was her
everything. But Taeyeon ruined the Tiffany she loved and always knew. And
she didnt know how to bring Tiffany back because she cant even bring
herself back.

She pushed herself back on the sofa as she felt the sting of pain run through
her veins and arteries.

---

Tiffany thought she had the worst part of her life when Taeyeon left her a few
years back. She was wrong when Brian died on her arms. And she was wrong
when Taeyeon broke up with her the second time around. Now she was
proved wrong again when Taeyeon slept with somebody else.

She was a good daughter, a good friend and a good boss to her
subordinates. She did mistakes as a girlfriend but nonetheless she was a
good one. What has she done to deserve all of these? Every time she
thought life would get better, fate would ruin it for her.

She sat beside the door with her head hung low. She promised herself not to
go back to this house for the time being but there she was, still hoping for a

better outcome for whatevers left for her and Taeyeon. It was stupid, yes.
She clearly knew that. But there was still hope and she was still clinging on
that.

Tiffany? The familiar voice brought Tiffany back to life.

Taeyeon was as messy as Tiffany. She stood there with wide eyes and
wrecked heart. Where have you been? Her tears slowly pooled. She slowly
sat next to Tiffany. The only thing she heard from the girl are muffled sobs
when Tiffany hugged her knees. I heard you nearly lost your company. She
added.

Tiffany merely nodded. But we managed to take it back. She smiled

bitterly.

You shouldnt have done that, you know. Taeyeon sobbed. For someone
whos unworthy.

You are worthy, Taeyeon.

She shook her head. I am not. Lets face it. She turned her head to Tiffany.
She wiped the tears on the girls face. Did I ever say that you are so
wonderful?

Tiffany couldnt help but cry harder. For the past weeks, that was the most
heartfelt words that came out from the other girls mouth. Taeyeon-ah.

Precious, beyond amazing Fany-ah. Im sorry for not seeing that. I am stupid
to look at your mistakes. We shouldve been happy together. Taeyeons
heart swelled for the first time in days. She loves Tiffany, and that was
always the truth she tried to conceal because she was mad. I always loved
it when your smile reaches your eyes. Taeyeon slightly brushed Tiffanys
eyes. I love it when you get loud and talkative. I hate it when you never
speak because it only meant that youre hurt. I never wanted to hurt you; I
just wanted you to go away because I am already a mess.

I dont care-

No, listen to me.

The front door creaked open and both of them heard the sound it made.
Taeyeon was the one who stood up to check. Her jaw clenched to see who it
was.

Tiffany stayed there listening. She was too weak to even get up. She hadnt
eaten nor slept.

Erica, I brought some snacks- oh my god, are you crying? She heard a
familiar voice and her stomach lurched.

Get out, Jamie. Taeyeons voice was stern.

But I-

Get out! I am losing the love of my life because of our stupid mistake so get
out!

There were lowered sounds of begging, footsteps and doors closing. She
closed her eyes because she hated hearing Taeyeon snap like that. It
reminded her of that dreadful night when they fought.

Tiffany? Taeyeon tried to touch her but she flinched. Hey, its me.

Even the softness and Taeyeons tone didnt change her fear.

Im sorry, Fany. The girl sat back. I love you, okay?

I love you too.

I am leaving.

What? Tiffany sounded too desperate but she didnt care. Her whole world
shattered. No, it cant be goodbye. No, it shouldnt. No, no.

Shh. Taeyeon cupped the girls face. You deserve a better life. I cant give
you that because I cant even fix myself.

Stop running away, Taeyeon.

Leaving meant not coming back, Tiffany. Taeyeon burst into tears at her
own words. She couldnt imagine life without Tiffany but it was the best for
everyone especially for the girl she loved. I bet a lot told you that youre
better off without me. And they are right. I am no good to you. I was being
selfish when I gave you the choice to stay or not. I shouldve just pushed you
away. Taeyeon smiled a bit. Thats because I was afraid to lose you too.

Then why are you leaving me again?

Are you even listening? Stop being stubborn and listen to me. She shushed
the persistent girl. You deserve something better than this. Look at you.
Taeyeon paused. I want you to keep smiling again. I want you to be happy.
Youre young and you have a good life ahead of you. Let go of me, of
everything that hurt you.

Tiffany knew what Taeyeon was saying and even she thought of it too but
she didnt want to understand at all. All she believed was: loving Taeyeon
was enough.

Their relationship was lovely as the daisies in the spring, as strong as the old
trees and as beautiful as the sunrise in the morning. But the thing is, was, is

the term used. Because that point of their love was already history. It was too
long ago that they could forget the last time they both felt loved and
secured, that they felt wonderful.

Every relationship, or most, or some, have a breaking point as they say. Like
what doctors go through almost every day in their lives. They fight for
patients even if it meant more pain, wasted time and effort. They wont stop
until they wont see that electrical sequence shown on the cardiac monitor to
stop, to flatline. It was death then.

When they see that, hear alarms go frantic and if reviving didnt do much of
a difference, then it meant letting go and giving up. But it doesnt always
mean sadness and agony. It also meant maybe new beginnings.

---

So whats your plan Taeng? Sunny asked the quiet doctor across her. They
were at a mini caf in Sacramento. Its been weeks since they saw each
other.

Taeyeon shrugged. After we talked, I never had the confidence to even look
at my own future.

The blonde pursed her lips. Where is she now, by the way?

I dont know. I think she requested for a shift back to Korea. Taeyeon
grunted as she stretched her hand to reach for her coffee. Thats the last
thing I heard.

Have you talked to Yuri? Shes been bugging me about you.

Taeyeon sipped from her drink quietly. She looked around her and savoured
the quiet morning and the early sunshine. The last time I talked to her was
when I gave them my apologies.

Were they okay?

Yuri, she understood. Jessica was still furious but she wished me luck in the
end. Not sure if that was sarcastic though.

Sunny couldnt help but chuckle. Oh you know her. Shes being sweet.

Im gonna miss them. Taeyeon then said, sullen.

They will miss you too. You didnt have to leave, you know.

Aw come on, you know its for the best. At least this time I didnt run without
notice. Taeyeon smiled, regaining her mood.

Hows Davis by the way?

Its good, actually. I happen to like my interns. And I am planning to finish

my residency here. Umma was ecstatic about it.

No more devilish Taengoo on interns? Sunny teased.

Taeyeon shook her head. Nah, Im good.

---

I hate you for finally deciding to leave. Jessica sulked while she was helping
Tiffany pack her things in her office.

What? You dont need me here anymore Jess. Youre going to be fine.
Tiffany stuck her tongue when her best friend glared.

Fine. Send uncle Robert my regards, kay?

Sure. Tiffany smiled as she put her last piece of fashion magazine inside
her bag. Youll be a good boss here.

I am not as good as you when it comes to people, you know that.

The ebony head exhaled. She pulled the blonde for a side hug. Stop saying
that.

Yeah, right. Jessica cupped Tiffanys face and pouted. Im gonna miss you,
you stupid best friend of mine.

Should I be happy? She giggled.

Should I be jealous? Yuri came in, smiling at the two women. She gave
Jessica a quick peck and Tiffany a ruffle to her hair.

Yah! Tiffany faked a whine.

Will miss you too, Fany. The tan girl teased even more.

The girl sat on her swivel chair and inhaled. Ill miss you guys.

We will miss you too. Take care and dominate the world with your fashion.
Yuri beamed. She knew it was Tiffanys dream to actually dominate the
world.

Thanks. Good luck on your residency training. She smiled. The couple
nodded at her.

---

A few months before the second break-up.

Taeyeon was playing with her phone and Tiffany was across her, reading an
English novel. The latters legs were spread over the formers back. They
were bumming together on a lazy Saturday afternoon.

The romantic story got Tiffanys full attention when the couple in the story
reached the point of breaking up and letting each other go. She furrowed her
brows and tried to imagine herself and Taeyeon going through the same
thing again. Tae? She gently asked albeit the worry in her heart.

Yes? The other girl answered without looking at her girlfriend. She shifted
from a role playing game to a medical quiz.

Have you once thought of our future together?

Taeyeon frowned. She steadily sat up and Tiffany moved her legs. Our
future?

The girl nodded. There could only be two things. We could break up for the
second time and it could be for real this time or we could be together
forever.

Is this about your novel again? Taeyeon pouted. Her focus on the fifth
medical question, gone.

Tiffany shook her head lightly. Thirty per cent was about her novel and the
other seventy was truly about her feelings.

With a sigh, the shorter girl took Tiffanys hand and squeezed it a bit. We
will never know what will happen, Fany. But right now, what I am hoping is
that, we could be the latter because honestly, I cant find anyone better than
you and especially, I cant imagine myself loving someone else.

The words brought a small smile on Tiffanys lips.

Is that the right answer?

What if, She bit her lower lip. God forbid, we break up again? Thinking
about it hurt Tiffany.

Taeyeon paused and it brought them silence for a couple of minutes. She
cant think of things that might happen. If we broke up again, youd still
have the most special place in my heart. Life might get us separated but, I
wont forget about you and I will always hope for your happiness. She hung
her head low. I dont really know what to say but thats much I think Id do if
you go away.

Hm.

Wont you? I mean, hope for my happiness too?

I will, of course. Weve been through that and even if I hated you for leaving
me, I always wanted you to be happy. The other girl swallowed. It was the
first time she and Taeyeon actually talked about breaking up and in all
honesty, shes not amused at all. But we wont, right? We wont break up, I
mean. I cant imagine my life with somebody else too.

No. Taeyeon said. Wed stick to forever. She pulled Tiffanys head and
she planted a lingering kiss on the girls forehead. Breaking up isnt a part of
my plan.

Finale

Time

They say love will never be enough reason to stay, give all your time and
effort into something that seemed to be unworthy anymore. It was true
though. What is love when there is no trust? What is love when there is no
happiness?

Two people will meet, fall in love, fall out of it and drift apart. But no one can
deny that whoever that person was, or whatever happened to the both of
you, you will end up smiling because you learned how to love and live as
well.

Tiffany sniffed the scent of freshly brewed coffee while looking down at Seoul
from the high rise building she was in at the moment. It never failed to
amaze her, the view of the morning sun peeping and the slow awakening of
the city.

There was a buzzing sound that came from her phone and she lazily dragged
her feet to her desk. Jess, whats up? She grimaced when she heard her
best friend squealed. Yah, shush it.

I am just- oh my god!

Calm down! Tiffany hissed. She sat down and put her coffee aside. There
were papers on her desk than usual and her organizer was fully booked.

The Korean office has totally changed thanks to all the offers given to her
and to the advancement of their own clothing line. After all these years of

working hard, everything paid off. She was young, rich and famous. World
domination could come true. She smiled at that.

After their last talk, Tiffany went back to Korea to focus on her work and to
spend more time with her father. It was rough at first, being home with a
broken heart. But work preoccupied her mind and somehow her dedication
and unaltered focus brought her to the top.

She tried to go to dates but none came appealing to her. Maybe waiting is
whats best for her at the moment.

Tiff, still there? Jessica asked.

Yes. So what now? Make sure it is worth my time. She joked.

I am getting married.

What? Tiffanys eyes widened. She grinned from ear to ear as soon as she
realized what just happened. She?

Yes! Finally! Jessica said in too much excitement.

Tiffany smile turned to something bitter once she realized she almost had
that and now she still hope to have that kind of future with someone. I am
happy for you Jessi.

Thanks, Tiff. Jessica sensed the sadness in her friends voice and prying
wont do good. Anyway, lets talk about is soon. I am kinda busy. She tried
to excuse herself.

I know what youre doing, Jess. Tiffany relied, quite pleased on how Jessica
handled her. Thanks.

Youll be fine, Tiff. Okay, got to go! Love you. Bye!

Tiffany put down her phone and smiled. She was totally happy for her friend.
Jessica had been a good friend and she deserved being this happy. She will
have the chance soon.

Ms Hwang, phone? Her assistant came in.

Tiffany sighed, for now, work will be her partner. Okay.

---

Guess you already told Fany about it. Yuri sat next to Jessica while drying
her hair with a small towel. She took the girls hand and stared at the
diamond ring. She couldnt believe how they finally got into this. It fits
perfectly fine.

Jessica cringed a bit when she tried to remember how Yuri asked her for
marriage. Does it?

The taller girl nodded. And you will look great on your dress. She said,
feeling the butterflies in her stomach.

I hope so.

Hey, of course you will!

I think I am having wrinkles already. Jessica whined. This work and Tiffany
being busy too, its driving me insane. When Tiffany went back to their
homeland to supervise their Korean office, it was Jessica who took over their
LA branch. Their name has been the talk of the town and their projects kept
coming. Indeed, Jessica was able to do things on her own with Tiffanys and
her fiancs encouragements.

The other girl leaned closer to check her face. I dont see anything wrong.
Youre beautiful.

Jessica smiled. After all these years of being together, Yuri never failed to
knock her with her actions and words. Thank you, Yul.

Its true. And she planted a chaste kiss on Jessicas lips. Besides, if youre
not contented, you still have two years to prepare.

Time flies so fast huh? You were just an intern when I met you.

Yuri smiled at that. That was four years ago and everything happened so
fast. It amazed her that she was able to love the same person for the past
years. Shes this close to finishing her residency. It was her turn to teach and
supervise younger interns and it was fun.

There were times when she misses her senior, Taeyeon. She will always have
the respects she had for her. Yeah.

Thought of specialty yet?

Internal medicine or paediatrics, I think.

Jessica inhaled and gave Yuri a soft smile. Youre planning to be like her,
huh?

She went for the former. Maybe me too. Yuri grinned. I miss her. I heard
shes now an attending physician. Im really glad.

The girl averted her gaze.

Hey, she did a mistake. It was done. Lets all move on. Yuri lifted Jessicas
chin.

When I was younger, Ive always wanted Tiffany and Taeyeon to sing for my
wedding.

Dr Kim can sing? Never knew that.

Yes, she can. Jessica smiled proudly. How she missed her old friend.

Lets invite her too.

Okay. Lets find her first.

---

Im sorry. Taeyeon said as she bowed her head. Her hands trembled
against her cup of coffee.

The man deeply inhaled. He propped his chin over his knuckles. I dont see
the reason why you came to me.

You are her father, Mr Hwang.

I cant do anything for-

Taeyeon cut him off. She cracked a sad smile. I am not asking you to bring
us back together. I just wanted to apologize for what I did. You knew all along
about our relationship. You let us happen and you didnt meddle. And I ruined
the trust you gave me. I am really sorry, Mr Hwang.

The man smiled along with the young girl. He didnt exactly know what
happened between the two and by the looks of Taeyeon, it has gone worse.
But he could also see the remorse in her. Thank you for considering my
feelings. I dont want anyone hurting my baby girl, He raised a finger. But I
am happy you have the decency to show up to me. He stood up and bid his
goodbye. I have to go, good luck, Taeyeon.

That was the last time she talked about Tiffany. That was the last time she
talked to someone with a Hwang in his name.

She finished her residency and made it as an internal medicine physician.

She helped and treated more people with her acquired capability, she lives
with her family and shes successful with more awards and recognition from
her seniors. She was happy. But she couldnt deny the fact that something
was missing.

That was the reason she was waiting for another hospitals directress for an
interview. She was fiddling with the hem of her blazer. She hated interviews
and she hated talking, worse, waiting for this to finish already.

Her credentials were in doubt the best so far and experience wise, no one
can also contest that. She was assured of a position in her new hospital and
somehow she felt hopeful of how things will turn out in her life.

Good morning Dr Kim. The woman in her early fifties went inside the room
with a huge smile. I cant believe youre really here.

Taeyeon stood up and bowed. Good morning too, doctor. Its an honor to be
able to work here.

The woman pressed her hand down gesturing for the younger girl to sit
down. She took her seat and clasped her hands together. I am curious about
one thing though.

What about?

You had a good career back there. What made you change your mind?

Taeyeon looked outside the window and thought about the question herself.
The truth was, she didnt know. Her mother opposed to this decision of hers
vehemently, her seniors in Davis did everything to make her stay but she
already made up her mind. Honestly, I-

Unnie! A slender and beautiful girl in white blazers came in with a huge
grin on her face.

Taeyeon, who was sitting abruptly stood up and grinned back to the younger
girl. Yoona. They hugged and patted each others shoulders.

How are you unnie? When I heard your transfer here, I got really excited
that Id be able to work with you. Yoona said.

Thanks, Im fine and ecstatic too. She looked back to the directress and
she got a nod in response.

Well anyway, lets catch up later unnie. Yoona spun her heels and before
closing the door, she peeked once more. And unnie. Welcome back to
Korea.

---

This long distance call should better be important because I am busy right
now.

Taeyeon clucked her tongue at the warm welcome of her best friend. I got
the job.

Not new. Of course youre going to get that. Every hospital would bid for
your service, stupid. Sunny rolled her eyes. But then, your rival will be
arriving soon. She giggled mischievously.

Taeyeon heaved a sigh. Dont tell me youll follow me all the way here?

You might kill people, Taeng.

Yah! Of course I wont!

Sunny laughed. She missed teasing her best friend.

Really, are you planning to go here?

Yup. Sunny said. Its not about you Taeng. My parents will be retiring soon
and they wanted to go back.

I didnt say it was because of me. How about oppa? Youre going to leave
him behind? Taeyeon asked, her eyes narrowed.

There is no us so why bother? That was what, only three dates. Nothing
really happened.

Fine. Well, Ill see you soon Ms Cardiologist.

See you.

---

Tiffany woke up to a rainy day on a summer season and she grimaced when
her back joints cracked. I am getting old, she thought with a smile. She went
straight in front of the mirror and got quite surprised how her hair turned out
to be outrageously copper brown. She blamed the stylist for it but somehow
it looked refreshing. Happy birthday Stephanie. She mumbled and scurried
to get dressed. A meeting is up for her even on a Saturday.

She went out her apartment complex with her coat. She hugged herself
when the wind blew. She muttered her good mornings to her neighbour who
came out of the huge glass door.

Good morning Fany. The girl answered back. Such a good day for hot
coffee and bagels isnt it? She smiled.

Tiffany creased her brows in contemplation. The suggestion wasnt bad at all.
Yeah, I think it is. She went to her car and decided to stop by Tonys. She
felt the surge of memories that came with the place.

She arrived after a fifteen minute drive. It was still early and it surprised her
that although the parking lot was kind of empty, the caf was jam packed
itself. She sighed but went in nonetheless.

Ah, Ms Hwang? The woman behind the counter grinned. Its been a while.

Yes Mrs Paek. She bowed and smiled back. She leaned her elbow on the
marbled counter. This place really changed a lot.

Like you. Mrs Paek commented. Look at you. From that young girl with
short hair to this. She pointed at the girl in front of her. Gorgeous.

Oh, stop it Mrs Paek. Tiffany blushed. She buried her face in her gloved
hands.

The woman chuckled lightly and sighed. Youve grown up. So, She clapped.
Anything you want, on the house.

The younger girls eyes lit up in excitement. Really? The woman nodded
and Tiffany looked at menu board atop them. Caramel macchiato and uhm,
She scratched her chin. Blueberry cheesecake, please.

Okay, then. Wait for a second at the side.

Tiffany stepped aside and tapped her shoe. She looked around to check for
free tables and found none. Some are with friends and some are alone She
sighed and took her meal courtesy of Mrs Paek. Thank you. She slightly
bowed and went off with paper bag on hand.

She slouched on her cars drivers seat and looked at her watch. She still had
a few hours and she didnt want to spend them inside her office. Maybe a
short walk along Han River wouldnt be that bad.

Time had been the worst of her enemies. Everything went in a wrong path at
the wrong time and it chagrined her that at the end of it, she was alone and
suffering. All she wanted was just a piece of a happy life.

This was what she feared when she had free times. Her mind always think of
how miserable she was and it hurts.

She heard the ferry boat roared and her eyes were fixed on it. There small
kids running around its covered walks. They were laughing and teasing. They
stopped and waved their hands at her. She smiled and waved back. Then
they continued playing around.

Tiffany looked down the ground and heaved a sigh.

I told you to keep smiling.

Huh? Tiffany lifted her head and her eyes widened at the person who was
standing nearly three feet away from her. Suddenly the girls scent clouded
her overworking brain and that chin dimple was all she could see. The girls
hair was dyed back to black and she looked much younger. Taeyeon?

Hi, Tiffany.

---

The bench felt longer as they sat down at both edges. They were still in
shock to actually see each other again. It has been years. And it was the first
time in their lives that they felt light and comfortable.

Fancy meeting you here. When did you get back? Tiffany asked as she
sipped on her caramel macchiato.

Two months ago. Taeyeon nodded. Yes, two months.

Vacation?

This time Taeyeon shook her head. For good.

What did umma tell you? I bet she went melodramatic.

Both giggled at Tiffanys funny but correct deduction. Yeah. She opposed
but I told her I want to get back here and work.

Good for you. So youre finally an attending now huh?

Yes. And I am happy being one. Appa wants me to become a diplomate and
it meant more studying and exams, oh my god, no. I am so through with
those.

But youre smart! You can do that.

I am lazy. Taeyeon grinned cheekily.

I shouldve been there with you when you took your oath if you didnt push
me away. A nonchalant statement from Tiffany.

Taeyeon pouted and faked a glare. I had to. You are so persistent!

Tiffany soon laughed. Cant believe were gonna argue about this.

You started it! She replied with a glint in her eyes. Taeyeon watched the
steady flow of the Han River and she really missed the whole Korean
experience. She never thought Tiffany would show up again. Are you
planning to change your hair color every time we bumped into each other?
She asked casually.

It was Tiffanys turn to grin. Coincidence. You dyed your hair too. She
remarked, pointing at Taeyeons hair.

Yeah, change of view and change of look. Cool, huh?

You actually looked like a prep schooler with your bangs, Tae.

Hey no bashing! Taeyeon sulked. I like my hairstyle.

Tiffany felt the familiarity of it all. There was no hatred or bitterness. She
knew then that both moved on just fine. Hows Soonkyu?

Shes fine, still loved to tease me about anything. I think shell be back here
too.

For good too?

Taeyeon nodded.

Jessica and Yuri are getting married by the way.

Really? Taeyeon grinned. Wow.

Yes, wow.

How about you? Any luck? The shorter girl asked, her voice turned serious.

Tiffany exhaled. Puff of vapored air came out of her mouth. Nah. You?

Same here. I pledged to be a cat lady. She giggled and Tiffany slapped her
lightly on the shoulder.

And then there was silence again. They both looked at some passers-by.
Among them and amidst the coldness of the environment, they were able to
find each other and they were able to keep each others hearts warm.

Taeyeon pushed a small box to the girl beside her with a shy smile.

Whats this?

Been keeping that for years. Taeyeon opened the box and an elegant
necklace with lock and key design appeared behind the cover. Happy
birthday, Fany-ah.

Thank you. There were flutters in her heart that made her smile reach her
eyes. Thank you, Tae. As much as she wanted to stay, her free time was
up. She didnt know when or where shed meet Taeyeon again but this one
was really memorable.

Tiffany?

Hm?

How are you?

Tiffany had to laugh a little. Isnt it a bit too late for that?

Im fine, Tae.

Happy?

Tiffany thought of how true her answer was. Of course there were times she
wanted to give up and stop believing in destiny and everything that
coincides with it. There were times she gets tired of waiting. I would lie if I
say I completely am. But Im happy. She smiled.

Taeyeon nodded for she felt the same for the past years. Im glad.

The other girl looked at her watch repeatedly. Taeyeon was able to notice it
because her senses were all focused on Tiffany. Do you have to go? There
was an element of sadness in her voice.

Tiffany nodded. Meeting.

Okay, take care. Taeyeon stood up and helped Tiffany carry her things.

The younger girl thanked her and started walking away. Taeyeon watched her
slowly go further and further away from where she stood, and how it
depicted how Tiffany walked out of her life hurt her to bits.

She started running and running before Tiffany and grabbed the girls wrist.
Wait.

Tiffany was startled that some of her coffee spilled. Wh-what?

I, Taeyeon stuttered and her eyes uncontrollably shifted. Her grip on

Tiffanys hand slackened when she realized she didnt have an idea as to why
she stopped her from walking away. Nothings changed Tiffany. Nothing.
She said like it was the best thing to say. And her eyes gazed at Tiffanys
lovingly.

There was a long silence before the baffled girl replied. Silly.

Tiffany gave Taeyeon a simple smile. And Taeyeon could only mimic her. They
were smiles they both knew they hadnt had for so many years, smiles that
they truly missed and smiles that meant new beginnings and new chances.