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Voice on the Radio
It all started with a dream.
A dream that I never thought would turn into reality.
I never thought Id feel this way.
I didnt know that this would bring me dismay.
How would I know if I what I feel is true?
What if this is just a joke?
What would I do?
This feeling sucks, I know.
I didnt know why this happened but I just felt it.
I hate this feeling but
I fell in love with the voice on the radio.

00.
The sun was shining so bright and the wind caresses my face. I never knew this day would be so nice. I
assumed that the heavens were guiding me and helping me in finding the person that Ive been looking for.
They set up this mood to liven up my spirits.
I walked through the streets and found nothing. I searched high and low and just wasted my time and energy.
I kept on looking at the signs but hes nowhere to be found. How am I supposed to find him if I dont know
where to start? I wanted to know how to find him but if I dont have even a single source, I guess Im looking
for nothing.
My feet started aching when I reached a park. Its a very beautiful park but I think theres something wrong.
No one else is here besides me. Are other people too blind to see the beauty of nature or what?
Anyways, I decided sit on a bench in that park. I took out my ipod but instead of listening to the saved songs
in there, I tuned into the radio. Maybe, just for a change. I didnt know what went into my mind but my
world seemed to stop when I heard his voice. His voice that made my heart skipped a beat. His voice that
made me smiled foolishly.
What kind of fool I am? Why am I acting this way? Ugh. This is insane. I think I searched too much.
I turned off the radio and played the first song in my playlist.
Hey. This isnt funny anymore. Of all songs, why did this player choose this one? I told myself.
I tried to act as if everythings normal but his voice and certain lines from the song kept on repeating in my
head. Could I really be feeling that way? What am I supposed to do? Does this thing really happen? Well, I do
not know. But I hope this is just a result of confusion or desperation of finding my one true love.
I left the park with a question that boggles my thoughts.
Do I really feel the same way as the song said?

I never saw it coming, the way a voice can make me feel

And I fear that I am falling
I should be old enough to know
Not to fall in love with the voice on the radio.

01.
I went home and tried to avoid the radio in my apartment. As much as possible, I want to clear things up. I
want to know if Im just hallucinating a while ago or something. I mean, come on! Is a normal person even
allowed to fall in love with just a voice? Thats just insane, right?
I sat on the floor and tried to think deeply when suddenly, the door banged and I lost my focus. When I
looked at the person who caused that little commotion, I was irritated.
Oh, its you again. What a pleasant surprise? I said and then rolled my eyes.
Come on Carrie. My presence is better than listening to some folks on the radio right? Woah. That hit me.
I dont think so Vince. Id prefer being alone than being with you. Vince sat down beside me.
Is that really your way of welcoming me back?
No. Not really. I missed you. Then I hugged him.
Aww. Thats better and thats more I like it. Vince winked at me then hugged me as well. By the way, Vince
is my quasi boyfriend. So hes my boyfriend but hes not my boyfriend. Lets just say were somewhere in
between. I know its kind of complicated but what can I do? Hes always leaving and he doesnt want me to
wait for him forever.
By the way, why are you so serious when I arrived a while ago?
That was nothing. Im just thinking thats all. Is thinking already illegal or what?
Nice try, Carrie. Tell me, what were you thinking about?
Things? I answered him then bowed my head down.
What in particular? He lifted my head and made me face him.
Nothing important, promise. Then I forced a smile.
Okay. I wont push it any more. Do you want to eat or watch a movie? Come on, I miss the old times.
Well, lets go then. And we headed down to the nearest mall from my apartment. I missed the old times as
well. I missed Vince so much. I know hes not my real boyfriend but I still love him. This kind of thing sucks
right? *sigh*
Our first stop was a restaurant. The ambiance was good and all but I guess there should always be something
that makes everything wrong. The restaurant tunes in to the radio station where I heard his voice. His voice
that gave me chills. His voice that makes my heart skip a beat. Ugh. I hate it.
Hey. Are you alright?
Uhm. Yeah. Ill just find a seat. Just order me the usual. I told Vince and sat down in the chair farthest
from the entrance of the restaurant.

When the crew of the restaurant changed the music, I was relieved. I mean, is his voice haunting me or what?
Its so creepy already. I cant help but think of why this thing is happening to me today. Is this a jinx or a
punishment? Err. I dont know. But one things for sure. I need to disregard my thoughts about his voice.
Heres our order. Come on, lets eat. Vince took the seat in front of me and placed our orders on the table.
I was about to eat when he suddenly grabbed my hand with the fork and took the fork away from me.
Hey! What do you think youre doing? I want to eat already. I told him and then made my famous pout.
I just want to be the one who will feed you today.
Im not a child anymore. I can handle eating all by myself.
Yes. Youre not a child but youre as special to me so please let me do this even just for now. Vince told me
and then he turned somewhat reddish. Wait. Is he blushing?
Okay then. But dont do this all time okay? I might get used to this and Ill surely miss this if youll leave
again. Vince twisted the noodles of the pasta and slowly placed that inside my mouth. After which he
grabbed his own fork but I stopped him.
Wait.
Why?
So that it would be fair, Ill be the one to feed you. I told him and then smiled. Vince smiled as well.
We continued feeding each other and we didnt even notice that most of the people in the restaurant are
looking at us. Oopsies. Were sorry for being sweet. Hahaha.
Vince, I think we need to go now. I cant stand all these people staring at us.
Okay. Lets watch a movie then. Vince winked at me again and we left the restaurant silently.
We proceeded to the cinema and watched a romantic film. Vince held my hand all throughout the movie. He
kept on glancing at me every time. Im not used to all the sweetness that hes showing today. I think theres
something thats going on.
After watching the film, we went to my apartment and sat on the couch. We were silent for minutes until I
decided to ask Vince a question.
Vince, is there something thats bothering you right now?
Nothing I guess. Whyd you ask?
Liar. I know you too well. Tell me, whats wrong? I said while facing the wall.
Okay. Ill tell you the truth.
Go on. Im listening.
Im leaving.

Well, youre always leaving. Whats new?

This times different. Im leaving. Im leaving for good. I didnt know what to say. But one things for sure,
my tears said it all.

02.
Vince tried to wipe my tears away but I moved farther from him. I cant stand the fact that he came back just
to tell me that hes leaving for good. How I wish he didnt bother to show up anymore. *sigh*
Carrie, please dont be like this.
Dont be like this? How come you are like that? After so many years, youll show up then what? Tell me that
youre leaving me for good? Thanks a lot Vince. Thanks for ruining my day and my life. I stood up from the
couch but then Vince reached for my arm.
What do you want?
Carrie, please let me explain.
You know what, I already got it. Youre leaving and youre not going to return. Theres no need for
explanations.
You dont understand.
Its such a simple thing. I fully understood it.
No you dont. I was shocked to see Vince kneel down on the floor. He looked me in the eyes and got a
small box from his pocket.
I know we dont have a formal relationship or whatsoever but Im sure about this thing. I love you, a lot and
I wont be able to live another day without you. So I want you to be with me forever. Carrie, will you marry
me?
Wait. Are you freaking serious?
Does this seem like a joke to you or what?
Uhm. No. Its just that Due to embarrassment, I cant look at Vince properly. Earth, swallow me now.
This is so embarrassing.
Hey. Look at me.
No way.
Carrie, listen. I want you to look at me and answer my question a while ago. I looked at Vince slowly. I saw
him still kneeling in the floor. Ugh. I dont know what to do. I mean I never expected it to be this way.
So, Carrie, will you marry me?
Yeah. I said softly.
Wait. What did you say?
Uhm. Yeah?
Is that a yes?

Yeah. Gosh. Im like a robot here already. Why cant I say anything else besides yeah? Err.
Vince inserted the ring in my finger and then he stood up and faced me. He caressed my face and then kissed
me on the lips. I kissed him back and then he carried me and started spinning around. Eventually, he fell out
of balance and so we stumbled upon the floor.
Hahaha. We both laughed.
I love you Carrie.
I love you too Vince. He kissed me again on the lips.
After a while, we stood up and watched a movie, again. I dont know what went into my brain that made me
say yes even if theres still a thing that bothers my brain right now. Maybe this is really whats meant to be. I
dont know what would happen in the future but I know what matters most right now is the present.
I love Vince and I know this is true. I know he loves me as well and Im holding on to that. I just wish that
well stay this way forever. I smiled to myself at the thought of being with him all the time.
Hey, why are you smiling?
Its just that Im so happy that finally, well be together.
Yeah, finally. Now, you better go to sleep for we will go somewhere special tomorrow. Vince brushed his
fingers through my hair. Then I hugged him and closed my eyes.
Good night, sweetie. My eyes are still closed but I know that he kissed me in the forehead. Im too
conscious about his kisses. Haha.

Morning came and Im surprised to see that no one is lying beside me. Where did Vince go? I stood up at
once and went outside my room.
Good morning sleepyhead. Vince said while putting the pancakes in the plates.
Good morning. I replied and then smiled at him.
I know pancakes are your favorite and so I tried my best to cook some for you. Forgive me if they dont
taste that well. This is my first time, err, to cook. I laughed at the thought of the taste of the pancakes but
then I ate at once the moment he placed the plate on the table.
So, how does it taste like?
Aww. Their awful. Vinces face turned into a frown. It seems like I cant control my laughter anymore so I
laughed it out loud.
Hahaha. You should have seen your face Vince. Its just so funny. Hahaha.

Hey, dont tell me you were just playing with me a while ago.
Alright. I wont tell you. I promise. Hahahaha. I kept on laughing and so his face turned red. So much for
playing tricks, huh? Hahaha.

03.
Vince and I spent the day as he told me to be. Indeed, it was very special. We packed our things and went to a
rest house. We stayed there for two days and made the most out of it. Its as if those days would be our last
days together even if we have lots of time ahead of us.
We were on our way back to my place when Vince suddenly stopped driving and parked his car somewhere.
Sure, I was asleep when that happened but I felt the sudden stop of the car which caused me to wake up.
Vince, whats wrong?
Nothing.
Dont try to fool me Vince. You wont stop the car if everythings alright.
Lets just talk about it later. Lets just go home, okay?
Fine. But be sure to tell me whats happening the moment we arrive at my house. Vince just nodded for an
answer and started to drive again. I guess theres really something thats going on here. I just cant seem to
figure out what it is.
The moment we arrived at my house, I sat down at the couch and waited for Vince to start talking. But guess
what, he didnt talk. He sat on the couch as well and we were silent for a couple of minutes. It seems like he
doesnt want to talk about it so I assumed that I could just go to sleep and pretend that theres nothing
wrong.
As soon as I stood up, I started walking away from Vince. I didnt bother to look back at him since its very
obvious that hes not into chit-chatting right now. But to my surprise, he hugged me from the back and its as
if he doesnt want to let go.
Hey, whats going on?
Nothing. I just want to hug you. Is something wrong with that?
Well, theres nothing wrong with that but its just that youre acting a little weird today.
You better get used to it. Im really like that. Hahaha.
Yeah, right. Im going to sleep now. Are you going to sleep as well?
Hmm. I dont know but Ill go with you already. Lets just see what would happen. Vince smiled at me and
I felt butterflies in my stomach. He smiled a lot of times before but I dont know why I felt this way today.
I shrugged the thought away and changed into my sleeping attire. Vince did the same and we lied on the bed.
We stayed quiet for a couple of minutes, again and after a while, I decided to kiss him good night. But to my
surprise, he kissed me back and dozed off into another dimension.
Just kidding. Hahaha. Yeah, we did something else besides sleeping but we were conscious about every action
that we make. In other words, we know what we are doing. ;]

After doing the you know what thing, I suddenly realized something. I want to ask this to Vince but I dont
know how to say it. But I guess he knew something was boggling me right now cause he asked me even
before I got the chance to ask him.
What are you thinking about?
Uhm.
Let me guess, its me right? Why do you keep on thinking about me when Im already beside you? Cant you
get enough of me?
Hey! Dont be too full of yourself. Pssh. I told Vince and smirked.
Then what are you thinking about?
Its just that after doing what we did, I realized something.
And what is it?
Is this the thing that youre thinking about a while ago?
What if I say yes? I blinked at him as if I was astonished or something.
Hey, whats with that look? Does this seem to be a joke to you or what?
Its not. Its just that I cant believe you were thinking this while youre driving and Im asleep. I laughed
out loud and kept on doing it as if theres no tomorrow. Vince turned red due to embarrassment and I even
laughed some more because of that. Hahaha.
Stop laughing will you?
Okay. Im sorry. Hahaha.
Hey! I said stop laughing. I tried to stop laughing and good thing I was able to stop. I just stared at Vince
and did not even realize that I fell asleep already.
I love you Carrie. How I wish we could stay like this forever.

The next morning, Vince prepared breakfast again. He cooked pancakes again, and they are not awful just like
what he did a couple of days ago. How come I didnt know that he has a talent in cooking? I would have used
his skills a long time ago. Hahaha.
We ate breakfast and he told me to start packing my things for were leaving by 4 pm. I packed almost all of
my clothes and personal necessities. I placed my gadgets on a separate bag and by 11 am, Im done packing all
of my stuff.

To kill time, Vince and I watched a movie from my dvd collection and after that, we went to the airport
already. I plugged my earphones in and started listening to the radio. I dont know what has gotten into me
that made me do that but I just did. And surprise, surprise! Its not his voice that I listened to. It was from
another artist. Well, that relieved me.
We were waiting for our flight when I noticed that there was a commotion thats going on right in front of us.
A group of girls were screaming with banners and all. I cant understand whats going on and who theyre
rooting for but that made me remember something from the song I listened to before.

Last night I, fell in love with a stranger

Behind the glass house, he came walking out the back door
Into a crowd of screaming girls calling his name

04.
Girls were still screaming out loud when something unusual happened. The person they were screaming for
stopped from walking. He looked at my direction and so I turned to Vince. Vince looked at me as well and it
seems like he thinks Im acting a little weird so he asked me a question.
Are you alright?
Uhm. Yeah. I think Im just thirsty. Right. Im just thirsty. Thats all. I forced a smile and it seems like he
believed me. Whew. That was close.
Okay. Ill just go and get you a drink. Stay here, alright? I just nodded in reply.
I was eager to know if the guy was still looking at my direction and so I faced the place where I saw him. I
guess that was a wrong move for he was still looking at my direction. He was looking at me.
He looked straight in my eyes. It's as if we've seen each other before. His eyes were speaking to me, telling me
not to go.
I was left alone and that became a chance for him to go near me. I didn't know what to do or what to say but
I just let him sit beside me. People kept looking at our direction. Some were jealous. Some were pissed off. I,
on the other hand, was clueless with what's going on.
He looked at me intently and asked me a question.
"Excuse me miss, but have we met before? You seem so familiar."
"I-I don't know." That was all that I could say. Now tell me, why do I feel this way? My heart is beating
unusually. This is the first time that I felt this way. What is with him that made me like this? Ugh. I hate it.
I really think I saw you before. Its just that I cant remember when or where. Do you believe in
reincarnation? Hey. What is it that hes talking about? Reincarnation? Is that for real?
Uhm. No? Why?
I think I met you in my past life or what. The moment I looked at your direction, its as if I knew you for
years. Yes, I maybe a popular personality today but I really think that we have this certain connection. Dont
you feel the same?
Stop it. I dont care if youre famous or what. For Petes sake I barely know you! Stop this non-sense will
you? My voice trailed off when he kissed me on the lips. I felt that pictures were taken from all sides of the
place. Gahd. This is so embarrassing! Vince, where are you?!
After kissing me, I started to talk again.
What was that for?! People are starting to gossip already. We are so making a commotion here. I hate
getting this kind of attention. Ugh.
Nothing. I just wanted to know if I really met you before. With that kiss, I think Im mistaken. Sorry for the
trouble that I caused you. What?! He kissed me for that stupid reason?! I hate him!

*Pak* Oh, I slapped him in the face. People were shocked with what I did. But I guess it served him right,
right?
Now, what was that for?
For the kiss that you gave me and for the trouble that you caused. Seriously, I think you need to go to a
doctor and have some check-up.
You! Youll regret doing that to me! He was about to get a hold of me when Vince arrived.
Hey! What are you doing to me fianc? Mr. Not-so-nice was shocked with what he heard.
Fianc? This girl? I pity you dude! She doesnt know how to kiss. Why dont you look for another girl to
marry? Vince got mad with what he heard and so he punched Mr. Not-so-nice.
The people that were watching us a while ago werent able to control their emotions anymore and so they
started to curse me and Vince. They were so mad with what we did with Mr. Not-so-nice. Are they blind or
what? He started it!
I was about to say something to him when an announcement stopped me from doing so.
Passengers of Flight ABC123, bound to New Orleans please proceed to Gate 5 now. Passengers of Flight
ABC123, bound to New Orleans please proceed to Gate 5 now.
Lets go Carrie. Dont waste your time with this kind of person. I smirked at Mr. Not-so-nice and picked
up my things. After which, I walked away with Vince and proceeded to Gate 5.
I can feel that the people are still looking at us but I didnt bother to look back at them. I dont want to create
another commotion. Ive had enough.

We sat at our seats at the plane already. Im still shocked with the commotion that we caused a while ago. I
cant believe theres still a person that believes in reincarnation and was brave enough to kiss a normal girl n
public even if hes a popular person like what he said.
Vince noticed that Im not talking. Im not listening to my ipod as well. I guess he knows that Im thinking of
something.
Are you alright?
Id be lying if I say yes.
What did he do to you?
Could we just stop talking about it? I want to forget that thing already.
Im sorry but did he really kiss you?
Yes. Now, could we stop this conversation already? Im really tired.

Y-yeah. Im sorry. Just take a nap okay? I closed my eyes and tried to sleep. But the scenes that happened a
while ago kept on playing in my head. Why cant I forget his kiss? Ugh. Did I met him before just like what
he believed in?

My mind tells me that Im mistaken but my heart says that its true.
Now, what would I choose?

05.
Vince and I arrived at his place. Yes, the place is good and all but I just cant seem to make myself
enthusiastic about this thing right now. Im too confused about my thoughts and my feelings. Why do these
people keep on bugging me like forever? I just want to be happy but why cant I seem to find my way to
happiness just yet? Im been through much already. Are those things not yet enough?
I dropped my things and fell flat on the couch. I dont know but I feel sick, really sick. Vince sat down beside
me and talked while I tried to listen.
Are you still not feeling okay?
Err. I dont know.
Im sorry. I shouldnt have left you there alone in the first place.
Im sorry for acting like that a while ago. I should have composed myself a little better.
Lets just forget about that okay? Hmm. Do you want to go to the beach or something? Aww. Vince really
do know how to make me feel better. Beaches make me feel better. Well, aside from cakes, chocolates and ice
cream. Hehe.
Sure. I love to. What do I need to bring? I said while my eyes glitter with happiness.
Just bring some clothes and Ill take care of everything else.
I started unpacking my things and chose the clothes that I would bring to the beach. I decided to bring a
loose shirt and shorts. I changed my travelling clothes into a simple dress and then I wore my swimming
outfit inside. I let my hair down and brought my sunglasses along.
I went out of the room that Vince gave me and looked for him. But I cant seem to find him or am I just lost
in the house or what? I kept on roaming around the house when suddenly, a person hugged from the back. I
gasped and looked at the person whos hugging me. It was Vince.
I hate you!
Hey. Why?
You scared me! Ugh.
Im sorry okay? Vince said and kissed me on the lips. He kept on kissing me and I kissed him back. Then
we stopped kissing when he told me something.
What if we just stay here and do something else huh?
Err. I want to go to the beach so bad. I told him with a pout.
Fine. Lets go?
Yup. I answered back and we left the house.

The moment we reached the beach, people looked at our direction. Were not stars or something but why are
they looking at us?
Carrie, why are they looking at us? Ive been here a lot of time already but this is the first time that this
happened.
I dont know. How am I supposed to know? Duh? I told Vince then rolled my eyes.
Vince just shrugged and we continued walking. I know thats kind of harsh to say but come on! Im not a
mind reader or a psychic or whatsoever.
When Vince stopped walking and put down our things on the sand, I stopped walking and helped him fix our
small place there. I laid the mat on the sand and started bringing out the food that Vince brought. He, on the
other hand, fixed the big umbrella so that the sun wont shine on us that much.
After fixing everything, I wore my sunglasses back and lied down on the mat. Vince stood up and went
somewhere else. Unfortunately, he didnt tell me where he was going. I think he got mad at me. *sigh*
I was about to close my eyes when suddenly, I heard an unfamiliar voice.
Excuse me, miss. I looked at the person who talked and raised my eyebrow.
Okay. I know its kind of weird to go over here and talk to you when in fact, you dont me at all. Its just that
you look familiar.
Oh. Not again. I said while rolling my eyes.
Pardon?
Never mind. What do you want?
Are you, in any case related to Jerry Choi?
Huh?
Wait. Dont tell me you dont know Jerry Choi?
Fine. Pretend like I know him even if I really dont know him for crying out loud!
Okay. Im sorry. Let me introduce him to you then. Jerry Choi is a famous singer here in the country and in
other countries as well. From his surname, it is quite obvious that he is a Korean. Oh, by the way, in case you
still dont know him, you were all over the news with him.
What?! Me, on the news? That cant happen.
So are you telling me that youre not the one in this picture? Then he handed me a newspaper. When I
looked at it, gosh, it really was me and the guy hes talking about in the cover. Great, thats why the people are
looking at us a while ago, huh?

Okay. Fine. Thats me and I dont care.

Oh, you really have to care. Im just here to warn you that since this is all over the news, youll really be
connected to Jerry Choi whether you like it or not.
I cant be connected to him. I have a fianc whom I love so much. So please spare me from all this nonsense.
As much as I want to, I cant. I dont have the power to stop all those people who might want to contact or
interview you because of the kiss that Jerry Choi gave you. All of them are thinking that you and Jerry have a,
you know, romantic relationship.
Eww. I swear, I never thought of having a relationship with that arrogant man.
But the reporters wont believe that.
I guess they will when they see me and my fianc get married in a few months or weeks time.
Err. I dont know.
Carrie, is everything alright here? Whos this guy?
Oh, Vince, where have you been? Yeah. Everythings alright. Hes just a guy asking something which is full
of non-sense. Hes actually leaving now.
Are you sure? You look kind of doomed or something.
Yup. Im sure. With that, the guy whom Ive been talking to a while ago left the place without a word.

Now, Im really clueless onto what I should do. The thing about our wedding? I made that one out. We really
dont talk about that thing for days already. Vince is kind of giving me the cold shoulder for days actually. Im
trying so hard to make him happy and be the Vince that I once knew but its not working.
It lasted for weeks already and I dont know what to do anymore. So when I finally had the courage to talk to
Vince, I did so.
Vince, could we talk?
Alright.
What is wrong with you? Youve been giving me the cold shoulder for weeks! I dont know what to do
anymore. Ive been doing everything to fix this even if I dont know what the problem is. You asked me to
marry you and to go here with you then what? Youll leave me here alone in this house and make me feel like

Im invisible. You know what, if youre not even sure of what youre feeling for me, just say so. I dont want
to be a fool wholl be waiting around for you all over again. Im so tired of waiting and if you dont want to
continue this thing, it would be better to tell me straight to the point so that I could go back to my normal
life. Vince didnt say even a word.
With that, I exactly knew what to do. I went straight to the room that I occupied for weeks. Removed all of
my things in the cabinets and drawers and placed them in my bags. After doing it, I opened the door of the
room again and went to the front door of the house to leave. Guess what, Vince was just there. Sitting in the
couch like he was doing when I talked to him.
I opened the door and carried my things and waited for a cab. I just cant stand the fact that he didnt even
bother to stop me from leaving. I hate it. I hate him!
After a few minutes, I finally managed to hail a cab and instructed the driver to go straight to the airport. I
took one last look at Vinces house and still, theres no sign of him showing up. So I went in the cab and went
to the airport.
I bought one ticket and waited for my flight. As much as possible, I dont want to cry and so Im really trying
my best to stop the tears from falling. But I guess, its too much. The pain that Im feeling is too much and so
I broke down there at the airport and cried.
Hey, dont cry. Youre wasting your tears for something that is not worth it. Here, take this and wipe away
your tears. I took the handkerchief and after wiping my tears away, I looked at the person who gave me that.
You?!

06.
Oops. It seems like youre not expecting me to be here to help you huh? I let out a sigh before answering
his question.
Obviously. But thanks. He became silent for a while then smiled foolishly.
So you know how to say thanks? How come I didnt notice that when we met in the airport before?
If you went all the way here to insult me then you better leave me alone. I dont need more headaches and
heartaches. Both of us remained silent for a couple of minutes. We were back on our senses when I heard
my flight. I stood up, grabbed my things and talked to him, hopefully for the last time.
Thanks again for the help. I wont say see you next time or see you around for Im hoping that this would be
our final meeting. Youve given me so much trouble already and Ive given you an equal amount as well. Lets
just pretend that we dont know each other. I guess were better off that way. After saying those words, I
looked up at him and he looked amused with what I said.
Well, this is it. I have to go. Bye! I smiled at him and left.
I gave my ticket to the person in charge of checking the tickets and started walking to go to the plane that Ill
be riding. But before entering the final door, I looked back at the people in the airport, somehow still hoping
that Vince made up his mind and went after me. Hes not there. I guess this is really the end.

Why does it hurt so much?

Why does it hurt continuously?
Except for the fact that I cant see you anymore, and that youre not here anymore otherwise, itll be just the same like before
Without a word, you made me know what love is
Without a word, you gave me your love
Made me fill myself with your every breath
Then you ran away
Without a word, love leaves me
Without a word, love abandons me
Wondering what to say next
My lips were surprised

Without a word, tears start falling down

Without a word, my heart is broken
Without a word, I waited for love
Without a word, love hurts me

Ive become transparent, Ive become a fool and I cry just by looking at the sky
Without a word, separation finds me
Without a word, the end comes to me

These words filled up my mind and my heart as I bid my last goodbye to the place where Vince lives. To the
place where my heart thought it could be happy. To the place where my heart was broken. I know Ill never
be the same without him but Im hoping that I could start anew and that Ill find the person who would really
love me in return.
I continued walking even if I think I heard someone calling my name. I pretended that I didnt hear a thing.
My heart is too crushed and I dont think I could manage another heartache. The moment I sat down at my
seat, my heart sank down as well. This is it. I just need to wait for a couple of hours and I could be a new
Carrie. Ill let my heart heal and wait until this heartache ends. I know that I could do this. Just wait and see.
I think I managed to stop myself from crying during the flight. I just slept and wandered in dreamland.
Hoping that my prince is there. But unfortunately, I didnt find him because I was awakened by something
rather someone.
Miss, the plane has landed. Youre the only passenger left here. You need to go down now.
Oh. Im sorry. Ill be leaving now. I carried my bag silently and went down the plane.
Sure, it was a sunny day around here but I guess I cant enjoy this day like what I used to do. I walked inside
the airport and waited for my other things. The moment I got everything, I hailed a cab and went straight to
my apartment.
For some reason, I wanted to go away from this place. Every corner and every little thing in this place
reminds me of him but it seems that I just cant let go. I guess Im on my way there. Ill take things one step
at a time. Who knows, I might be over him tomorrow or the day after.
I dropped my bags on the floor and sat on the couch. Then I started thinking. Thinking of ways on how to
move on and forget everything that happened in the past. Then I found myself calling people.
Hey Claire, its me Carrie.
Hey! Wait. I thought you moved in with Vince?
Dont even remind me about that. I just called to ask if you know an apartment or a house that is for lease or for sale. I want
to move out of my apartment already.
Oh. Heres the deal. I know a perfect place for you which is actually near your workplace but the thing is, I need to know
everything that happened. Well, if its alright with you. I was hoping that Claire wont ask anything about it but I
guess I need to blurt out everything that Im feeling right now so that I could feel better.
Fine. When and where are we going to meet?
Hmm. Are you in your apartment right now?
Yeah.
Okay then. Wait for me. Ill be there in about 10 minutes. Then Claire hanged up.

After waiting for 10 minutes, Claire came and I told her everything. Whats funny is that for an unknown
reason, I didnt even cry when I told her what happened. Am I out of my mind already? For one moment,
Im crying my eyeballs out then now not even a single drop of tear fell down.
We talked and talked and after talking, she accompanied me to the house that she was talking about. It was
fully furnished and I really find it very comfortable. I gave the payment to the landlady and went back to my
house to get all of the things that I think would be of good use for my new life.
I thought everything would be normal. I honestly do. But I guess NOT.
Carrie, could we talk?

07.
Whats the talking for?
I want to explain. I want us to be together again. Please give me another chance.
Guess what, you blew your chance away. Its too late now Vince. I dont want to waste another freaking
second in my life wondering if Im really important to you. Now if youll excuse me, I need to get my things.
Carrie, wait.
What? I asked him. This time, my voice is louder and more annoyed.
I love you. I really do. Please give me a chance.
Stop it Vince. I cant afford another heartache. Waiting for you was never easy. It caused my heart to break
little by little. But the mere fact that you cant show or tell me what you really feel for the past weeks caused
my heart to shatter into pieces. I cant let that happen again. Im sorry but I guess this is whats best for us. I
need to go. Bye.
I opened the door of my apartment and closed it at once. I know Ill be falling apart any minute now. I sank
down on the floor and started to cry silently. I honestly thought I could finally move on. Why did all of the
heartaches come back in just a snap?
After regaining the strength that I need to fix my things, I gathered everything that I need. I put them in
boxes and brought everything in my car. I know Vince is still there watching me from afar. But I just
continued doing what I started.
The moment I gathered all my things, I started my car and met Claire in a restaurant. I know Vince is still
following me and I cant manage letting him know where Ill be staying. I need to find a way on how to make
him stop following me around.
Carrie, why did you want to meet here? I thought were going to meet at your new house.
Ssh. Keep your voice low. Vince is following me around. I dont want him to know where Ill be staying. So
heres the thing. I need to stay here for a while or stay somewhere else first before I could move in at my
house. My eyes glittered as I look at Claire.
Hey. Hey. I dont like what youre thinking.
Claire, please?
Aish. Fine but just for a couple of days alright? You need to move out after finding your own place okay?
Claire said those words out loud. I know shes just doing it so that Vince would hear those things.
We just ate and talked for a couple of hours. I saw Vince went out of the restaurant and left. Claire and I left
as well. We went straight to her house but I didnt bother removing my things in my car.
You know what, I didnt know youre so mean Carrie.
Me? Mean? Are you kidding? Hahaha. We just laughed away our, rather my, problems and after which we
slept.

Days rather weeks have passed and I havent since any glimpse of Vince. I guess thats a good sign. I moved
in at my new house and I love every bit of it.
I guess I could say that my life is back to normal. I mean, I do what I love and I am happy. Jerry Choi is not
bothering me anymore. I guess this is really the start of my new life.
Once again, I turned on the radio and listened to whatever song it has to offer. Look. What a surprise? I
thought he wont be bothering me anymore but its his voice that Im listening to. But to be honest, I cant
believe that his voice still makes my heart melt. Theres really something about him that makes me like him
even if we had an awful start.

Ugh. Curse you Jerry Choi for making me fall in love with you.

08.
I was walking alone in the park when I heard a crowd of girls screaming. I laughed all by myself remembering
the time when all of this happened months ago. I cant believe that is how were supposed to meet. All along
I thought he was a good guy with a good voice and a good face. I guess the good guy thing is not in his
personality.
I continued walking until I noticed the person who the girls are screaming for. It was him. The person who
made my heart skip a beat. The person who made my heart melt. The person who made my heart confused. I
looked at him and once again, my heart started pounding.
The moment he looked at my direction, I looked away and continued walking. I dont want him to think that
I like him. Wait. Did I just say that I like him? Oh no. This is really too much. o.0
Carrie! Carrie wait up! Hey. How come he knows my name?
Carrie! I stopped walking. Well, honestly, I didnt stop because I want to. Jerry Choi stopped me from
walking. He held me in the arms and made me face him.
Carrie, could we talk? He said while catching his breath.
About what? Oh, wait. How come you know my name? He was shocked with what I asked.
Lets talk somewhere else. Please? Ill explain everything to you there.
Fine. But I dont have much time okay?
Alright. Lets go? I just nodded. He held my hand and we went inside his car.
The moment he let go of my hand I felt that the spark that I felt when he held me was gone already. Ugh.
Why do you have this magic effect on me? I hate you!
We went to another park where there are only 2 people found. Me and him. I dont know what this is for but
Im feeling a little uneasy right now.
Now, what do you want to talk about?
Well, Ive been thinking.
About what?
About the things that happened between you and me. Especially the ones in the airports.
So? Argh. I have a feeling that this is going somewhere else.
It made me realize things I never thought of before. It made me open my eyes to the beauty around me.
You became an inspiration for my new music and I want to thank you for that. Then he stopped talking.
Okay. So we went this far so that you could thank me? Come on! You could have practically said all of those
things a while- I never got the chance to continue what I was supposed to say because he started kissing me.

After that kiss, we became silent. I dont know but Im wishing that he doesnt hear how loud my heart beats
right now. I have to say that this kiss is way different than the kiss that we shared before back in the airport.
This one is full of emotions. Wait. Dont tell me?
What was that for? I finally muttered.
My way of thanking you. What?! Way of thanking me? Argh. This is too much.
Are you really out of your mind huh? There are tons of ways on how to thank someone and why on earth
did you do that to me?! Im really furious right now. I hate him!
I did it because I want to. I want to kiss you okay? The moment that I kissed you at the airport before, I
dont know why but I felt something. But that something was really good. When you told me that we should
pretend like we dont know each other, I dont know why but I was hurt. I wanted to see you more thats why
I even followed you in New Orleans. I cant control my emotions anymore. My heart is beating for you and
for you alone. So are you willing to give me a shot? I was shocked with what I heard. How come this is
happening?
I-I dont know what to say.
You dont have to say anything. He said with a smile. What does he mean with those words?
But-
But what?
But dont you want to hear my answer?
Oh. I forgot about that. Hehe. So, whats your answer?
Its a yes. I told him with a smile. He hugged me after that and I just found myself hugging him back.

OMG. I dont want to go around and hurt myself anymore.

So as early as now,
if this isnt love, please tell me what this is.

09.
After that meeting, my life became better. Im happier and Im more inspired. I guess this is really a good sign
that our relationship would be resulting into something good.
Courting me was not supposed to be that difficult but since Jerry is a star and Im just a normal person
figuring out what my role in this world would be, it became very difficult for the both of us. He courts me
privately for he doesnt want people to make more issues about me.
Well, yeah. I like it that way too. I mean, our first encounter made a big fuzz around the country and I dont
want to be an instant star just because Jerry and I are going out. Another thing why I agreed to that format is
that if ever, I dont want to be the reason why Jerrys career would be tumbling down. Im here to support
him and not destroy him.
Jerry continued courting me for about 3 months and then for some reason, he stopped. I was scared that he
stopped because I made him wait for too long. But I guess Im wrong because a person texted me asking me
to go to the park where Jerry brought me before.
From: unknown number
Hey. Jerry asked me to text you.
I know youve been trying to keep
your relationship to yourselves
but he asked me to do this.
He told me to tell you to go to the
park where he brought you on the
day that he confessed to you.
To: unknown number
Hey. Thanks for the info and please
try to keep this to yourself. Aryt?
I went to the park as instructed. When I got there, I was surprised because theres a dinner set-up right in the
middle of the park. I didnt go there first. I watched from afar while the people there are making the last
minute preparations for that special dinner.
After a few minutes, a car arrived. I know that it is Jerrys car. I saw him go out while carrying a bouquet of
roses. Even if I love roses, I still managed to keep myself from going near him. I want to know what would
happen next.
Minutes have passed and still, theres no sign that Jerry is looking for me. I dont know why but Im kind of
feeling nervous already. I hate this kind of feeling. :|
So, to make myself less nervous, I tried calling him up. After a few rings, he picked up.
Jerry, its me.
Hey. How are you?
Uhm. Fine but kind of bored. How about you?
Im good. By the way, where are you?

At my house. Why?
Uhm. Nothing. Upon hearing those words, my heart tightened. I dont know what to say or what to do. For
Petes sake, is he cheating on me? I wasnt able to reply to him after that. Im trying my best not to cry or be
hysterical.
Hey. Are you still there?
Uhm. Yeah. Uhm. I was wondering if we could talk personally. You know, if its alright with you.
Of course its alright with me. When would you like to meet?
Uhm. Are you busy tonight?
Not really. But I still have to meet someone. Maybe after that we could talk. So, the dinner was not for me after all.
How stupid of me to believe a simple text.
Uhm. No. Lets just meet some other time. I dont want to cause any trouble on your part. Uhm. I have to go. Im kind of
hungry already. Bye. I hanged up without even waiting for his reply.
Still, I watched him from afar. After a couple of seconds, another car came and a girl went out from it. I
wasnt able to see her face but based from her clothes and all, it seems like shes a star as well. Jerry stood up
from where he was sitting and walked towards the girl. He gave the flowers to her and he kissed her on the
cheeks. Little by little, my world starts to fall apart.
Was the text a sign for me to stop dreaming that a person like him could really like or even love someone
like me? I told myself.
I looked at them again and they look so happy together. I guess that was my cue to leave. I walked to the
place where I parked my car and went home half-broken.
Why did I fall so easily? Now, Im the loser again. I guess, love is really not for me.

I guess Im better off alone.

10.
Days have passed and I didnt bother calling or texting Jerry. I dont know why but I still cant get over what I
saw that night. I know I should at least let him explain or what, but I guess I still have this trauma in love that
makes me scared to know what he really feels.
As much as possible, I wanted to act as if everythings alright. I wake up early in the morning, drop by at a
drive thru to get breakfast, go to work, eat lunch, work again, drop by at a drive thru for dinner and go home.
That became my routine for the past few days. I know it sucks but what can I do? Theres nothing left for me
to do besides those things.
This day seemed to be exquisitely normal but I guess Im wrong. The moment I got home, I saw someone
outside my house as if waiting for someone. As if waiting for me. When I parked my car at the garage, the
person straightened up and waited for me. I approached the person and acted as if everythings fine.
Hey. What are you doing here at this time?
I just want to see you. Is that wrong?
Yes. Especially if youre seeing someone else. I mumbled.
Pardon?
Never mind. I said while rolling my eyes. I know he hates it when I do that, but I want to do that right
now. Im irritated.
Why did you do that? You know I hate it when you do that.
Because I want to. Yes, you are courting me but that doesnt mean that you could say what I should or
should not do. Its still MY life and so its my prerogative if I want to roll my eyes. He was kind of shocked
with what I said. This is one of the few times when I answer him back in a rude manner. I know its kind of
wrong for me to do but thats how I feel right now so he cant do anything about it, right?
Hey. Whats wrong? He asked, this time, holding me in my hands. I pulled back my hands and answered
him.
Nothing. I just want to rest. Lets just talk some other time.
I walked past him and inserted the key on my door. He was still there. Standing like he cant believe what I
just said. But after some time, he followed me and stopped me from going inside my house. He let me face
him and I can see that he is really serious this time.
Can you just please tell me whats going on? Ive known you for months already and I know that you dont
act like that whenever youre tired. You have a problem and I want to know what that is.
Yeah. Youve known me for months but that doesnt mean that you really know me. Yes. I have a problem
and even if I do, that doesnt mean that you need to know every little thing in my life.
Please Carrie. Lets talk about this. I like you. A lot. I cant imagine my life without you.

If you think Id fall for those cheesy lines of yours, well, youre mistaken. You even stopped courting me.
Remember? We havent seen nor called each other for days even weeks already. I guess that just shows me
where were supposed to be.
And that is?
Dont you get it? This sort of relationship that we have is going nowhere. We might as well stop this thing
before we get to hurt each other more.
But Carrie.
No more buts. Besides, I think youre happy the way you are living right now. You can actually get anything
you like.
Not anything because if I can get anything I like, then why cant I get you?
You know what, Im not a thing at all. I swear. Maybe thats the reason why you cant get me. I walked
inside my house and before I shut the door close, I told him the thing that Ive been meaning to tell him.
Oh, by the way, if you didnt lie to me the night I called you weeks ago, we could have been a couple right
now. Too bad you lied and you were with someone else. Oh well, past is past. Good night. After saying
those things, I closed the door and once again, I fell apart and cried my heart out.

11.
Just like what I said, Jerry and I didnt meet anymore. He kept on calling me after our little confrontation but
that didnt last for he just stopped. Well, I guess hes really not that worthy e?
Anyways, Ive been working so hard for the couple of months already. Its not that Im being workaholic or
something but since I moved on and focused on my career, my boss noticed my potential, at last. She
promoted me to an administrative position and so Im doing lots of things already.
Ms. Carrie, here are the papers that you need to sign. My secretary, Alice, said.
Oh. Alright. Just place it on top of my table. Thanks. I told her while still looking at the scene thats
happening on the building right across my workplace.
Is there anything you need Ms. Carrie?
None. Thanks. After telling her that, she went out of my room silently.
I cant help but notice the room across my room. Ive been noticing that for a couple of weeks already. I
dont know what has gotten into me but it makes me look at it every single day.
Every day, the thing that covers the windows in the room across mine changes. It seems like its telling me
something. Something that I cant figure out. I hate guessing games and so I cant think of the message that
whoevers behind that thing wants to tell me. But one things for sure. Every little thing thats written there
makes me happy.

After my work, I immediately went home to get some sleep. I badly need it. But the moment I closed my
eyes, its as if I understood the message that the things on the window wants to tell me. I dont want to
believe it. I dont want to fall for that trap again. I dont want to get hurt again.
Morning came and I decided to listen to the radio. I know it would be much safer if I just plugged in my ipod
on a speaker and listen to it but I dont know. I just feel like listening to the radio once again.
For a moment, my world seemed to stop. I know I should not be feeling this way but theres really something
about him. I know he had hurt me a couple of times already but this is something that I never expected him
to do.
He talks to me on the radio. He tells the whole country maybe even the whole world our little love story that
never came to the happy ending for it was always cut in between. He expresses his feelings that I never
thought he felt towards me. He explains all the wrong things that he had done.
Yes. Its Vince thats talking in the radio. I didnt know he was a DJ before. But I didnt know that he had the
courage to tell all these stuff on air.
Good morning to all the listeners out there. Yeah. Its still me, Vince. I know most of you are wondering
why Im doing this thing for a couple of months already. I dont know if this is the right time but Im going to
say the real reason now.

Im doing this to get the person that I love the most back.
I dont know what has gotten into me to do this silly thing. Im not even sure if she heard what I said for the
past few months already. But as long as Im not yet with her, I know I should continue doing this thing. This
is the least that I could do to win her back. Well, aside from the daily messages that I post on the window
right across her office.
I know Im putting my career on line here. I dont even know if the supporters that I have before still
supports me but I just know that I need to do this. I need to do every little thing to be with the one I love.
I know Ive made a mistake. But dont you think, you should have at least given me a chance to explain? Well,
I know you wont listen to me if we meet face to face but Im really hoping that youll listen to me this time
and spare me some of your precious time.
Carrie, I love you. So much. I dont know why Im feeling this way but ever since you closed your door that
night and when you didnt answer any of my calls after that, I felt miserable. Remember the time that I
brought you on the park? I told you that you became my inspiration. And now that you left, my world fell
apart. Its not just you that is hurt in the process. Im hurting as well. I dont what I do without you.
Please listen to my explanations. The night that you called me, I didnt exactly lie to you. I told you I was
going to meet someone right? Funny as it may seem, but shes not what you think she is. Shes one of the
most important girls in my life. Yeah. I admit it. She became my girlfriend but were done. Weve been
together way back when I was in college. She always had this special place in my heart and no one could
remove that. But above all of that, she became my bestfriend. I could even treat her as a long lost sister.
Please believe me Carrie. Its just you and you alone. I want you back. Please tell me that I still have a chance.
Please let me show you how much I love you. Please Carrie. I love you so much. Ill wait for you no matter
how long it takes. Remember that Carrie. I love you.
Now, let me leave you with this song after which well have a short break.
*music starts here*

You say you've seen too many things,

that turn out to be too good to be true.
Against your better judgment, opened up your heart,
'til you found the joke was on you.
Looking out on the rest of our lives,
If we're gonna be together or apart.
About the only way that I know how to come,
is right straight from my heart.
I want you now,
I'll show you how
I can be the man you need me to be
I've been around, but now I've found
that you're the only one for me.
Say you'll never fall again
You won't subject yourself to such pain
If you give me half a chance I will
Never leave you standing out in the rain

But if you think that i could look you in your face and lie right
through my teeth
then turn around and walk away
Cross my heart, girl I care for you and when I look into your eyes
I must say...
I want you now
I'll show you how
I can be the man you need me to be
I've been around but now I've found
That you're the only one for me
I need you so
I can't let go
Gonna be all that I can be
I want you still
I always will
cause you're the only one for me
I want you now
I'll show you how
I can be the man you need me to be
I've been around
but now I've found
that you're the only one for me
I need you so
I can't let go
Gonna be all that I can be
I want you still
I always will
cause you're the only one for me
*music ends here*
After all the things that I heard and hearing that song, I just found myself crying and picking up the phone.

Epilogue.
I dialed the number of the radio station. Im still crying but I dont care. All I know is that I need to tell him
what I feel. I want to tell him what my thoughts are. I just need to hear his voice once more and tell him
everything .
After a couple of rings, the person in charge of the radio station answered my call. I didnt tell them my real
name. I told them I am poor little Ann who was moved by all the things that Jerry said. They believed me and
transferred my call to Jerry which will then be heard on air.
Welcome back. We have our first caller for the day. Hello Ann? Vince said. I didnt answer back.
Ann? Are you still there?
Uhm. Y-yeah.
So would you like to share something or maybe request a song?
Uhm. I-I w-want t-to s-share s-something.
Hey. Relax. Now, what would you like to share?
I just want to tell you that I almost gave up. I wanted to give up so bad. I never thought someone would do
such thing to me that made me happy again. I didnt know what to believe in anymore but the moment I
heard youre piece or speech or whatever you may call it, suddenly, I believed again. I know it may sound
absurd but my faith was renewed just by hearing your voice once again.
Im so stupid for believing the gossips and other stuff that got in the way. Im feeling sorry because I never
heard youre explanations. Im sorry for closing my door. Im sorry for being so harsh and didnt even bother
talking to you. Im sorry. Is there even a chance that you could forgive me?
I want you to know that I still have feelings for you. I never close my heart. I just closed my eyes and made
myself believe that I could go on without you. But I lost. I love you. I still do. Now, could we start a new?
Without even noticing, I cried once more.
Hey. Ann. Dont cry. Uhm. Is it alright if we name the person whom youre giving youre message?
Jerry. Lets stop pretending. Its me, Carrie.
C-Carrie?
Yeah. I just called to tell you how much I love you and that Im willing to give you a chance.
I-Is that for real?
Yeah.
Uhm. So, shall we meet again?
Yes.
Are you free later?

Not really but I could my schedule for you.

Do you really love me?
Do I have to repeat it again and again? I love you! Then I laughed. He laughed as well and then Jerrys
show took a break.

Jerrys show ended and we met afterwards. We explained our sides and we ate. We talked all day and stayed at
my house. We ate dinner and after which, we kissed and made up.

I heard him for the first time on the radio.

I met and knew him because of the radio.
We explained our side and we got back together because of the radio.
I fell in love with the voice on the radio

and Im so glad that I did.

Fin