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Don’t miss the breathtaking short story that connects the first two novels in the Starbound trilogy, These Broken Stars and This Shattered World.
Tarver still has nightmares about the night, six months before the Icarus crash, when he rescued a group of civilian researchers being held hostage by brutal mercenaries. Now Tarver and Lilac must reconcile his memories of that fateful night with the truth that they uncovered on a mysterious planet after the Icarus crashed.
Includes THREE bonus preview chapters from This Shattered World.
Don’t miss the breathtaking short story that connects the first two novels in the Starbound trilogy, These Broken Stars and This Shattered World.
Tarver still has nightmares about the night, six months before the Icarus crash, when he rescued a group of civilian researchers being held hostage by brutal mercenaries. Now Tarver and Lilac must reconcile his memories of that fateful night with the truth that they uncovered on a mysterious planet after the Icarus crashed.
Includes THREE bonus preview chapters from This Shattered World.
Don’t miss the breathtaking short story that connects the first two novels in the Starbound trilogy, These Broken Stars and This Shattered World.
Tarver still has nightmares about the night, six months before the Icarus crash, when he rescued a group of civilian researchers being held hostage by brutal mercenaries. Now Tarver and Lilac must reconcile his memories of that fateful night with the truth that they uncovered on a mysterious planet after the Icarus crashed.
Includes THREE bonus preview chapters from This Shattered World.
Copyright 2014 by Amie Kaufman and Meagan Spooner Excerpt from These Broken Stars copyright 2013 by Amie Kaufman and Meagan Spooner. Excerpt from This Shattered World copyright 2014 by Amie Kaufman and Meagan Spooner. All rights reserved. Published by Hyperion, an imprint of Disney Book Group. No part of this book may be reproduced or transmitted in any form or by any means, electronic or mechanical, including photocopying, recording, or by any information storage and retrieval system, without written permission from the publisher. For information address Hyperion, 125 West End Avenue, New York, New York 10023. ISBN 978-1-4847-2419-4 CONTENTS Title Page Copyright Page One Two Three Four Five Six Seven Epilogue Letter from the Authors Preview of These Broken Stars Preview of This Shattered World Heyi ts okay. Shhh. I m r i ght here. What? I sor r y, beauti ful . I was dreami ng. No ki ddi ng. Are you okay? Do you want to tal k about i t? Mmm. Youre war m. You ve been steal i ng the bl ankets agai n. Stop tr yi ng to di str act me. I thought I was supposed to be the one wi th the ni ghtmares. Youre not goi ng to l et thi s go, are you? Do I ever? Good poi nt. Whos Sanj ana? SIX MONTHS BEFORE THE ICARUS CRASH... ONE THE SUNS WARM ON THE BACK OF MY NECK, bird- song fltering down from the trees lining the edges of the walking track. Unlike my last posting on Avon, surrounded by mud and swamp, this part of Patron is all blue skies and grassy hills. This far from the nearest town, I could almost forget Im not home, that my parents cottage isnt just beyond the next rise. Almostexcept for the gun at my hip, the dim outline of Patrons rings faint across the afternoon sky, and Private Gil Fisk crunching along behind me. Listen, I tell him as we crest the hill, sweating a little under the heavy carbon fber composite of my fak jacket. All Im saying is theres an argument to be made for coming in a little gentler. You lead by saying you miss her, not that you miss gettinglook, its about poetry, Private. Her eyes, her lips. Didnt you ever do poetry in school? Gil snorts, coming up alongside me, scratching behind his ear. Yeah, but it was all roses and clouds, and if I start comparing her to a fower, shes gonna think Ive lost it. You really get girls to go for you by talking bout their lips, sir? I hide a grin. This patrol takes almost as long by hover as on foot and isnt usually sought afterbut now I know why Gil traded two days of mess hall duty for this patrol shift: to get me to help him win back his girlfriend. I know, its a mystery. Listen, when we get back from patrol, Ill show you a couple of poems, and you can try something based on those. Cant you just write it for me? Cole said you wrote his whole letter to his boyfriend on Babel. I wrote Coles letter because he cant write, I point out. At this rate Im going to have to start charging my men a fee. What about you, Captain? Gil kicks a rock half buried in the road and sends it skittering off into the grass. Nobody in particular, I reply. I cant see myself settling down. Im about to continue when the comm patch on my vest crackles to life. We both slow as we listen. Patrol three-six-fve, this is HQ. Do you read? Over. Fisk raises a brow as I thumb the talk-patch and reply. HQ, three-six- fve. Go ahead, over. Patrol, just a heads-up. VC-Delta opened a comms channel a few minutes ago, but we got no broadcast before it shut off again. Theyre not responding to hails. We think their system is glitching, but they may not be aware. Request you have them run a systems check on arrival. Will do. Thank you, HQ. Three-six-fve out. Fisk is pulling a face as we set out again. How longs a full systems check gonna take, sir? Long enough, I reply, trying not to grimace myself. I had a card game tonight. Thats shot now. Fisk shades his eyes against the setting sun, surveying the hill ahead of us. I can go check it out if you want to start heading back, sir. No reason you gotta miss your game. But something about this doesnt sit right, and the prickle down my spine is one Ive learned not to ignore. No, I say slowly. No, lets both go check it out. Its probably nothing, but if its not, better to have two of us. You sure, sir? Gils impatient, and I suppress a smilehe really wants me to write that letter to his girlfriend. Those things are always breaking. Scientists got their heads in the clouds, dont bother with main- tenance. Call it my punishment for being late to the yard this morning. I snicker. Youre learning to recite a sonnet for being late to the yard, I tell him, setting off to move a little quicker than before. And then you can write to your girlfriend and tell her it reminds you of her. He curses under his breath, and jogs a few steps to catch up with me. Were still at least a quarter hour on foot from VC-Delta, the VeriCorp research facility were checking on this evenings patrol. What dyou think well fnd there? Probably some idiot who spilled a drink on the comm set, I reply. But thats what I think, not what I know. There are other reasons their comms could be down. And however long a shot, those reasons are why were here. We circle around to come in toward the base from the westthe approach up the road is completely open, and if anythings up, wed be sitting ducks. Theres no reason it should be anything other than faulty equipment; Patrons been peaceful for years now, but for the occasional incursion by raider ships, and these patrols are more a courtesy than anything else. Part of the governments contract with the corporations that terraform these places. This isnt Avonno rebels lurking in the wilderness, no discontented townsfolk to wrangle. Its supposed to be an easy posting, so I can recover from my time on the front lines. Were both silent as we work our way through the scrub, climbing along just below the ridgeline to avoid our silhouettes showing, until we can get a better look at the valley below. It dips down to a gentle bowl, trees scattering the slopes of the hills around the facility itself. A long mound bisects the valley and curves back around through the hillsits the research facilitys particle accel- erator, a layer of earth and grass concealing whatever manner of science they keep inside there. Not my feld of expertise. All I know is that they build their facilities out here because the lands cheap and they can make their equipment as large as they want. Fisk starts to stride down the hill toward the compound, but I reach out and snag his sleeve, pulling him back. I know Ive spent too long on the front lines, that the caution Avon drilled into me is still too fresh, but somethings still warning me not to walk in blindly. We stop instead at the edge of a copse, crouching between the tree trunks to get a better look at the compound itself, the large courtyard visible within the walls from this height. I pull up my goggles from where they hang around my neck, blessing my commander for insisting we patrol in proper gear, and thumb the button to magnify the view. Two fgures walk out across the courtyard, taking a curving path between the tables and chairs set out there to catch the sun, an old satellite dish dumped in the open space. The wind in the trees around me melts away, my world turning silent. Theyre in ftted body armor, but though its almost like military issue, those arent soldiers. I know every face on my base, and these two arent among them. Gil, I murmur, looking across at him to fnd hes staring down at the compound too. Those look like our guys to you? Not so much, sir, he replies. We But he gets no furtherhes cut off abruptly by a scream from the courtyard below, carried only faintly on the wind, followed by the quick, sharp shriek of a weapon rending the air. Dammit. Call it in, Fisk, use the sat phone. They could be monitoring our comm frequencies, we cant risk that. Ill try to get a better look at the approach. Yes, sir. Suddenly hes all businessno longer the guy who tries to wheedle poems out of me, who can never get anything quite right no matter how hard he tries. In this, at least, hes sure of himself. He swings his pack off, dropping to one knee to pull out the sat phone, reaching up to adjust his goggles where they sit behind his ear. Try the southwest entrance, I think the trees come in closest there. I nod, using hands and feet to make sure I dont slide down the slope, keeping to the shadows of the trees. My minds scrambling, compet- ing thoughts and questions all shouting for attention. No sign of their vehicle; no military hovers, no chopper. Either they came on foot, like Fisk and me, ormore likelythey were dropped here. Theyre too well organized to be raiders looking to strip the facility, and since theyre not military, that means theyre mercs. Theres a reason hiring mercenaries was made illegal decades ago: no regulation. No way to stop the people hiring them from forming their own private little armies on the edge of space. Itll be impossible to know who hired thema rival corporation after VCs tech, probably, but which one, I doubt well ever know. Theyll be covering their tracks. People like these dont leave witnesses behind. Assuming our commander mobilizes units the second he hears Fisks call, theres only three ways the cavalry arriveson foot, which will take an hour we dont have; via road, which will take even longer thanks to the winding roads of Patrons hilly countryside; or via air, which will give the game away completely. The facilitys staff will be dead before our guys can land. Which means its on us. Me and a private I like just fne, but a guy I wouldnt choose to partner me in a game of cards, let alone a two-man military operation. I almost wish I was back at my last posting on Avon, with half a dozen soldiers Id choose over Gilmore Fisk, whos never seen action like this. Hes just setting down the satellite phone and turning an anxious gaze on me as I return a few minutes later. I make my voice sound steady when I speak, completely sure of myself. Okay, good news is there arent many of them in the courtyard. Bad news is that shot was an execution. One of the civilians. We cant sit here and watch them take out the others while we wait for reinforcements. Fisk nods, swallowing hard, and stows the sat phone before coming to his feet and pulling his Gleidel from its holster. Yessir. I draw my own gun and check its charge, then take point. We work quickly and quietly down the hillside, using what cover there is to get close to the wall, then easing in along it to make our way to the gate. My brother Alec was caught alone, when he died, and Ive wondered countless times what he was thinking. Whether he knew hed screwed up, getting himself cut off like that. Whether he kept trying or knew he was done. Whether he was scared. But Im not alone, I remind myself, looking back at Gil, whos white as a sheet but gripping his Gleidel in a steady hand. And this is our duty. We cant sit up there and watch them executed while we wait for backup. With my brothers face before my eyes, I ease in through the gate. I ts too l ate to shout at you now for goi ng i n there, i sn t i t? You ve shouted at me for pl enty of other reasons. Wel l , you do i nsi st on bei ng br ave a l ot. Of the two of us, Li l ac, I thi nk you sti l l wi n i n the categor y of doi ng stupi dl y br ave thi ngs. He was on your mi nd a l ot, wasn t he? Who, Fi sk? Al ec. He was on your mi nd when you were del i r i ous, too. I don t thi nk somethi ng l i ke that ever changes. TWO THE COURTYARD IS EMPTY NOW, except for the white-coated fgure sprawled on the far side, blood slowly trickling away from him to pool in a dip in the paving. Oh God, Gil whispers behind me. Oh God, hes dead. When I look back, his normally olive-tan features have paled a few shades, and hes got that same pinched expression I saw half a dozen times on Avon. No amount of training prepares someone for the frst time they see combatfor the frst time they see death. Lets concentrate on the live ones. My spines pricking all over again that theres nobody out here keeping guard, but I allow myself just a sliver of hope that theyre amateurs. That theres a chance were going to catch them unawares. The back doors unlocked, and that sliver of hope widens a little. Guns drawn, we make our way silently down a long, empty corridor leading into the heart of the station. Ive been here only once or twice before on a patrol; usually we stay outdoors. But Ive got a rough idea of the layout, and I keep scanning for any sign of the intruders. Voices rise at the far end of the corridor, and exchanging a glance with Fisk, I keep low and creep further along toward the source of the sound. I crouch to get a look through the crack where the door sits ajar better to avoid eye level, where theyre most likely to spot youand take a beat to absorb the sight of three white-coated researchers backed up against a wall, with half a dozen armor-clad mercs standing between them and us. Their clothes are good enough to pass as military, unless you know what youre looking for. Their posture tells me more, though. Theyve clearly had combat trainingI can see it in the way they stand, the way they hold their weapons. That shooting outside wasnt amateur hour, it was a deliberate decision, and judging by the way the researchers are pressed against the wall, they know it. The mercs are carrying the latest in cutting-edge combat rifes, the kind whose shots arent stopped by armor or metal, like those from my sidearm are. For the frst time, my Gleideldesigned for use in space, where an errant shot could trigger a decompressionseems inadequate. Even if I were in full armor, like them, theyd still have the edge. The leaderobvious from the way the others are looking at himis a sandy-haired guy in his late thirties with the edge of a tattoo climbing up out of his uniform collar. Hes just fnished speaking, and is looking expectantly at the trio clad in white. Its the woman who answers. Shes in her early twenties, with a dark ponytail and a light brown complexion, and attitude enough to make up for her fearful coworkers. Arms crossed, brows crowded together in a frown, shes leaning forward to argue with him. Even that posture, though, cant hide the fear tensing her frame and making her voice breathy, close to cracking. Theres nothing like that here. This is a par- ticle accelerator, pure research. Theres nothing here raiders would A woman dressed as a lieutenant backhands her, sending her stum- bling back to crash against the wall. Were not raiders, she hisses. I adjust my grip on my Gleidel, shifting my weight, ready to ease up to my feet. And then something cold and hard presses against the back of my neck. Sorry, Captain. Fisk speaks loudly enough that every head turns, though when he reaches past me to push the door open and expose us, nobody looks surprised except the white-clad researchers. My brain stutters and simply stops for a moment, trying and failing to latch on to whats happening. Fisk? Gil Fisk? Hes been in my platoon for months. Hes barely competent. This is some sort of misunderstanding. Private, I try, keeping my voice low, calm. You havent done this yet. You dont have to. Theres a soft sigh from behind me, but the pressure of the gun against my neck doesnt waver, and I know his answer in that moment. Its already done, Captain. Did it years ago. Put your gun down on the foor, slowly, two fngers. I comply, though it kills me to ease my Gleidel down and set it on the foor, where Fisk kicks it far enough away for one of the mercenaries to pick it up. I clench my jaw as the man inspects the weapon and, grinning, tucks it into his waistband. I take another careful look around the room. The other mercenaries are herding the three scientists into the far cor- ridor and out of sight, and only the leader stands watching us now. Ill have your fak jacket please, Captain, Fisk continues, all traces of his corn-fed country accent gone. He sounds like a completely different guy, hard-edged and competent. I grind my teeth as I unzip the vest and then yank open the straps along its side. Keeping my movements slow, I shrug it off my shoulders and let it slide to the foor. With it goes my comm patch, and all hope of signaling for reinforcements. When he speaks again, hes once more Private Fisk, pressing his thumb to the transmit button. HQ, this is three-six-fve. Please acknowledge, over. The patch crackles to life. Three-six-fve, go ahead, over. I want to shout a warning, I want to fght. But one wrong move wont get just me killed; every hostage in this place will die if these mercs decide they have to burn and run. Weve run the comms check here, Fisk continues. Just a glitch. The locals have invited us to stay for chow, so well be a little late, over. No problem, three-six-fve, enjoy your meal. HQ out. The comm crackles and falls silent, and my lifeline is gone. Where are you holding the others? Fisk asks the tattooed leader. Room for him there, too? The other man shakes his head. Just take him out back. My gut knots. All three of us know what out back means. In my minds eye, I can see the trail of blood from the dead researcher slowly seeping across the pavement outside. Only now does the pressure of the gun barrel against the back of my neck lift. Not enough for me to risk trying something, but I can feel Fisks hesitation in the way he shifts his weight. We might need him yet, he says, giving me a fash of hope that hes thinking twice about shooting me. If they ask for him on comms and hes not there, what do we do? Then again, perhaps hes just hoping someone else will handle the execution, when the time comes. The blond man looks us both over, gaze measuring, and I feel my pulse thump-thump-thump as I wait. Half a dozen tactics and appeals fash through my mind, but I can read the man well enough to know that the smartest thing I can do right now is keep my mouth shut. After a lifetime, he nods. If you think its worth the risk of keeping him alive, hell be your responsibility. The others are in offces down the hall, there should be plenty of room. Fisk prompts me to stand with a silent nudge of his gun barrel, and I keep my hands out to my sides as he walks me down the hallway. I wait until were alone to speak again. Nothings done until its done, Gil. Well say these mercs mistook you for their contact and you went along with it to get the jump on them. Keep it familiar, try and draw up those months of memories, all the times Ive looked out for him. Weve trained for situ- ations like this, you and me. Just shut up, sir, Fisk repliesand despite everything, theres still a note in his voice thats at least a distant relative of respect. We reach the open offce doors, and I glance right, then leftI like the offce on the left better. Theres a paperweight on the desk, a vent high up on the wall, an extendable pointer on the windowsill. Weapons, ways out. I turn left, and he lets me. I stop in the doorway, spinning to face him in the faint hope he wont follow me in. Theres still a way out of this if you want it, I say quietly. Im not pretending when I search his features, registering the way the lines of his mouth have hardened, his jaw has squared. How could I have mistaken him so badly? Fisk meets my gaze without finching, without any sign of regret; a rueful half-smile fickers across his face. Im not some kid they bribed with a pack of cigarettes and the promise of a promotion. He gestures with the gun for me to keep moving, and my heart sinks as he follows me into the room. This isnt what you think it is, Tarver. Hearing my frst name from Private Fisks lips is a jolt nearly as tan- gible as when he pressed his gun to my neck. I dont need to know what youre doing here, Fisk. Youre breaking your oath, and thats exactly what I think it is. You think Im some sixteen-year-old fresh off Paradisa. Bad with girls. Impatient with books. Never quite good enough at drills. Endear- ing. Like someones kid brother. He shrugs. Not your fault, just means I did my job. But Im twenty-three, and Ive been doing this a hell of a lot longer than you have. He tried to get me to turn back, to return to base rather than investi- gate the call that led us here. I search his face for some sign of that boy, the one who didnt want me dead, but hes utterly blank. We used to play poker in our off hours, me and Gil and a few others; Gil lost every time. Even off duty everything about him was a lie. When I dont answer, he squares his jaw and shrugs again, the gesture so familiar and, at the same time, so out of place on this new, warped version of my friend. Just stay quiet, and Ill try to keep you alive. He doesnt speak again. He yanks the cord from the desk lamp and gestures to the chair, and this time I dont bother hiding my frustration. Coming back from being tied up is going to be a lot harder, and we both know it. I focus on keeping my wrists as wide as I can, but by the time hes done, the cord circles them and binds them to the bar at the back of the chair, already cutting into my skin. He conducts a quick sweep of the room, pocketing a pair of scissors and a metal ruler, shoving the paper- weight down between the desk and the wall, where Ill never get to it. Once hes fnished, he looks back at me from the door, slowly replac- ing his gun in his holster. He reaches up to scratch behind his ear as Ive seen him do half a dozen times today. But this time he peels away a small skin-colored patch: a transmitter. Dammit. That explains the empty courtyard, the easy way in. They were laying out the welcome mat so they could take me without a fght. Dont try to escape, he says quietly. You cause problems, hell shoot me frst, then you. Hes not playing. Got it? Day Im having, theres no way Im lucky enough that hed shoot you, too, I mutter, drawing a quick, mirthless grin. I force myself to hold still, without testing my bonds. I understand. Get this done, get out, and hope we never meet again. He seems to take me at my word, nodding slowly. All the worlds a stage, sir. So much for the kid I thought hadnt read so much as a sonnet. Not time for either of us to make our exits yet. He shuts off the lights and locks the door behind him. You l ook l i ke your heads about to expl ode, Li l ac. But that. . . I coul d ki l l hi m. He was i n uni for m. He saved my l i fe. I t shoul dn t have been i n danger i n the fi rst pl ace. No, but he sti l l i ts more compl i cated than that. Ever ythi ng about thi s stor y i s, i sn t i t? THREE I ALLOW MYSELF THE LUXURY of a full thirty seconds of silently mouthing curses that would horrify my parents, and then I get to work. Standing with the heavy chair strapped to my back is out of the question, but its wheels allow me to move around the offce. I try strain- ing with all my strength to see if I can stretch the lamp cord. I try angling forward to see if I can catch the knot on the sharp corner of the drawer handle and loosen the ropes. A faint scuffing sound comes from the other side of the vent, and I remember: the researchers are locked in offces, too. I raise my voice as loud as I dare, hoping the guard, if there is one, is out of earshot. Can you hear me? Theres a muffed clatter from the room next door, and a long silence. Then comes a womans voicequite clear, like shes up close to the vent. Yes. But you shouldnt talk. They shot Nico because he was trying to talk them down. Its the dark-haired one who was standing up to them before; I recognize her voice. Good. If I had to choose one, shes the one Id pick. Worth a try, Nico, I mutter, then lift my voice a little so she can hear me. Theyre going to shoot us, too, unless we do something about it. Their faces are on the security cameras, but they can wipe those. They cant wipe our memories, so we have to go. I promise you, the only thing you can do from here is improve your chances. Silence from the room next door. I take a deep breath, realizing too late that telling a civilian shes about to get shot might not be the best way to encourage her. I try a different tactic. Whats your name? Sanjana Rao, she replies, so quietly I can barely hear her. She pro- nounces her name with the same infection I heard in Little Bangalore, on the northern continent of Corinth, when I was there on leave. I won- der, feetingly, if thats where shes from. If she has a family there, waiting for her, the way mine is for me in the little garden cottage in our valley. Im Tarver, Sanjana, I say, hoping conversation will ease her fear enough that I can enlist her help. Captain Tarver Merendsen. Youre military? Her voice rises with surprise. Why arent you with them? Because theyre not military, theyre mercs. As was the guy I was on patrol with, it turns out. Im the only real soldier here. Well, she replies, no offense, but your track record so far doesnt fll me with confdence. Against all the odds, her quip makes me laugh, and my breath comes a little easier. Not my fnest hour, I allow. But the days not over yet. Still time to redeem myself. Look, she says, I have no intention of sitting here and waiting for them to shoot me. Underneath the fear in her voice, theres a note of resolve. That hint of steel means she hasnt given up, and that means Im not out of cards to play just yet. You sound like youre up near the vent, are your hands loose? I am, but its sealed down, the windows, too. But Im nearly out, I can go for the comms panel in the main offce. A pause, as my words catch up with her. Your hands arent loose? Short, choppy sentences try to hide the shake in her voice. Tied up, I tell her. Theres just no trust in this world, you know? From the other side of the vent theres a soft huff of laughter. Thats good. I need her to breathe, to think. How are you nearly out? I ask. The doors got an electronic lock, she replies. Not my specialty, but Ive nearly got it. You werent the only one with a partner who turned on you. Michaelas with them. She must have reprogrammed the locks, because mine wont recognize my thumbprint. Can you do mine, if you get out into the hallway? If there arent any guards. It takes about ten minutes. I can hear the nerves creeping back in, and frankly, I dont blame her. Listen, I continue, before she can start to panic. We cant use the comms. I guarantee theyre monitoring the military frequencies. In any event, the lead time on a rescue mission is too long, especially if they hear us calling for help. We need to do this ourselves. But we can do it, I promise you. I wish I felt as certain as I sound. Sanjana doesnt answer me, but I hear her exhale, the tension in that single breath carrying through the vent. I dont have to strain my imagi- nation to picture her fear. Hell, Im scared myself. You know, when we get out of this, you and I are going to have to seriously review our choice in companions. I try to smile, hoping itll carry through my voice. Unlock my door, though, and I think I could really get to like you. Easy, buddy, Ive got a girlfriend. But it workedher voice is a little lighter. Okay, let me get it open and check for a guard. Ill tell you through the vent, or else if this doesnt work, I guess youll hear me being shot. Youre a real comfort, I whisper. Theres a muffed thud as she climbs down from whatever shes standing on to reach the vent, and pre- sumably she gets back to work. And so do Ifor all Im getting nowhere trying to untie my hands, Ive got nothing else better to do, and this is no time to be without a Plan B. Its about twenty minutes later when I hear her at the vent again. Tarver? Still here, I tell her. Though the service is terrible. Im seriously considering complaining to management and trying a different hotel. Youre telling me, she mutters. My doors open, but theres a guard out there. He had his back turned, but itll take me at least ten minutes to get yours open, and if he turns around... She doesnt have to fnish the sentence. We just had to be taken hostage by professionals. I hate well-organized opponents. Okay, I reply. Shes not going to like whats coming next, and I know it. I force my voice to stay low, calm, confdent. Ill try calling him in here so you can slip in after him and come at him from behind. Youll need to hit him, and hard. Can you fnd something in there thats heavy enough? Her hesitation speaks volumes. Its one thing to think about violence or see it on the HV, and another entirely to commit it. I wish I didnt have to ask a civilian to get involved, but Ive got no other choice. Sanjanas voice emerges from the vent, fnally: Yes. Yes, I can do that. Good. Well make a soldier out of you yet. No, thank you, Sanjana replies, her voice dry. Then she falls silent before I can think of another joke to lighten the mood. Sanjana, I say quietly, abandoning my attempt to fnd humor in our situation. If we dont get ourselves out of this, theyre going to kill us, your colleagues, and anyone else whos seen their faces. Soldiers choose to accept the risk of taking a life when they enlist, and I know you never asked for this. Truly, I wouldnt ask you if there was another option. She takes a long, slow breath in, then exhales audibly. Okay. Her voice frms, and I know shes made up her mind. Call him in. I reach for the version of myself that knows how to keep a raw recruit moving, that doesnt finch when missiles fy overhead. Theres a head- space for that kind of thing, and I need to fnd it now, because what comes next is going to demand a lot of her. Just think about the actions, put everything else out of your mind. Still not alone, Alec. Still fghting. I push my chair over to the door, using one foot to stomp at it, hoping the sound will carry down the hallway. Hey! Is anyone out there? I need someone in here. I count to ten, then stomp again. I repeat this six times before a shadow passes across the strip of window in the door, followed by the fuzzy outline of a head as the guard peers through it. Fisk said youd try something, he barks through the door. I recognize the voiceits the same guy who took my Gleidel. Im not buying. Im tied to a chair, I reply, trying not to let anger color my voice, and push back from the door. Ill stay on the other side of the room if it makes you feel better. But you need to take a look outside, because theres someone out there, and its not one of your people. If my guys worked this out and try to start something, Im not interested in dying in the crossfre. You take a look, and if its them, you get on the comm and tell them you have a hostage, right? He hesitates for a few more seconds. Other side of the room, he echoes fnally. And turn your back so I can see your hands. I turn, and a moment later I hear the lock on the door open with a pop, then the sound of his footsteps. Trying not to think of the gun thats probably aimed at my head right now, I talk, hoping I can cover Sanjanas footsteps as she moves. Just between the trees out there, there are two thick tree trunks, I thought I saw someone between them, but I cant stand up on account of Im tied to a chair. Fisk did a good job, I have to grant him that. I turn my head to catch a glimpse of the door. Its spring-loaded, swinging closed way too fast. Dammit. But an instant before the door closes, Sanjanas fngers appear in the crack, and rather than closing and sealing, it slams on her hand. I wince and force myself to keep talking as she starts to push it open Thing is, if I were you, Id be asking myself this: if Fisk managed to fool me for months to get ready for this raid, if hes that good an actor, then how can you be sure Will you shut up, he mutters, leaning over to look out the window as Sanjana slips into the room and out of my line of sight. Fisk didnt mention you like the sound of your own voice so Theres a crash, and I swing the chair around, the cord biting into my hands. The guards on the ground, and Sanjanas standing above him, a desk lamp hanging from one hand, chest heaving, eyes closed. My own relief threatens to overwhelm me, my mind coming up with half a dozen jokes Id use with my platoon to keep them groundedbut they never look this traumatized. I let my breath out in a rush, then try to sound as gentle as I can. Well done. Now weve got a chance. She only just stops herself dropping the lamp, instead setting it down on the carpet and walking over to crouch behind me. Nice to meet you, she manages, still shaky as she starts working at my bindings. You too, I say with a hint of a smile I dont expect. You might just be my favorite person on the planet right now. The lamp cord comes loose, and fre rushes into my wrists as the blood returns. I drop to my hands and knees, crawling over to the guard to retrieve my Gleidel and return it to its holster at my side. Such a slight weight, but with it, I already feel better. Is he okay? she whispers behind me. Bloods starting to pool underneath the guards head, and his eyes are staring vacantly at the wall. But I put myself between the body and Sanjana, reaching down like Im feeling for his pulse. Yep, I lie, trying to sound relieved. Hes out cold, but hell live to fght another day. Oh, thank God. She sinks down onto my chair, nursing her bruised fngers. Does he have a security pass? I check his belt, pulling aside his jacket to look for a lanyard around his neck. When I glance back at her, shes shaking her head. Its all thumb- prints, no passes. Makes it harder for outsiders to infltrate. Her gaze acknowledges the irony of that and confrms what Im realizingits going to be impossible to move unnoticed around the station. I could cut the mercs thumb off, but the scanners wont work without proper blood fow, and that would completely shatter the tenuous grip Sanjana has on her calm. I dont have much experience with civilians in life-or-death situations, but Im pretty certain that dismembering people isnt going to help. What do we do now? Her voice is soft, shaking. Now we take the fght to them. I l i ke Sanj ana. Me too. Remi nds me of another gi r l I know. Not afr ai d to do what had to be done. I s thi s stor y goi ng to end badl y for her? Somethi ng about i t gi ves you ni ghtmares. Just someti mes. I have them about that other gi r l , too. Oh, Tar ver. Were not goi ng back to sl eep, are we? I l l make us somethi ng hot to dr i nk. FOUR WE CAN SPARE ONLY A FEW MINUTES to make a plan. Assuming Sanjanas friend Nico is the only casualty among the staff, and Michaelas the only defector, there are probably ten others locked in offces along the hallway. Which means we dont have the hundred minutes it would take for Sanjana to hack all their locks. But if we leave them here, the mercs will bail and shoot the research team the moment were discovered missing. We need a faster way, a way to open them all at once. Sanjanas best guess is the administrative offce, at the end of our hallwaytheres a chance she might be able to reset security from there. We make our way down the hallway in silence. I take point, a fash of frustration passing through me as I think of the last time I did this, an hour ago. Whatever Fisk thinks hes doing, hes betraying the uniform. But alongside the frustration is the thrill that comes with combat, and knowing youre really alivefor the moment at least. Once we reach the offce, I take up a position at the door, Gleidel in hand, keeping watch. She hurries across to the console, her uninjured fngers fying over the keys. From the way the other hands starting to bruise and swell, I think the door might have broken some fngers. She brings up the projection display and settles in to work in silence, direct- ing fles and issuing commands with ficks of her eyes and swipes of her good hand, rather than hitting the keys. My gaze shifts from her to the time and climate display on the wall, before I return my attention to the hallway. Its well after dinner now. When was the guard scheduled to report back in? They knew what they were doing, Sanjana mutters, pausing in her work to study the streams of data in front of her. Only Michaela and I had access to this, I didnt even know she could shut me out. Just Michaela and you? I risk a glance across at her for a moment. Youre in charge? Past tense, Captain, I was in charge. Do you have any idea what VeriCorps doing here that would deserve a raid of this scale? These guys didnt come cheap. If we know what their motivation is, what theyre after, perhaps that could help us. Shes silent, staring at the lines of code. She lifts one hand to swipe down, and a red error message fashes up. With a grimace, she starts again. Its not VeriCorp running this facility. What? Its called VC-Delta. This is VeriCorp territory. The VC stands for I know what it stands for, Tarver. This place belongs to another cor- poration, one with no stake here. Which one? She hesitates; no doubt shes had to sign half a dozen nondisclosure agreements to work here. But a glance back at the lines of code for the thumbprint scanners makes her sigh. Its owned by LaRoux Industries. Why keep that undercover? What are they doing here they dont want people to know about? Theyre a prime target for this sort of thing. Masquerading as belonging to a less cutting-edge corporation would discouragewell, whats happening. They have to be here to steal LaRoux Industries intel- lectual property. Which means...they want me. As soon as they fgure out Im the one with the information. Michaela doesnt know? Shes the facility manager. She handles the logistics, not the science. Its my head that has the information they need. Well, theyll have to come through me to get to it, I say. That shouldnt reassure me as much as it does, she replies dryly, turning her attention back to the screen. Considering weve got one gun and three working hands between us. None of that defeatist language, I reply, easing my head out the door to check the hallway. In a few hours thisll be done, and you and I will be drinking and ensuring the story grows with every retelling. She snorts. Are you even old enough to drink? Who, me? Im grinning tooof all the times to be having fun. No, maam. I lied my way into the military at thirteen years old, they think Im thirty-nine by now. And I thought running this place at twenty-seven was impressive, she replies, wry. Im old enough, I replybecause beneath the jokes, I know what she really wants to hear is I know what Im doing. Old enough to command a platoon, but Ill take your doubt as a compliment to my beauty regimen. You getting anywhere at all? Maybe, she mutters, squinting at the screen. Im rebooting it, itll take another couple of minutes. Already the tensions creeping back into her tone. So, twenty-seven, and already this smart? I ask, reaching for a tease again. Too much for this soldier. I dont understand a thing about what your team does here. Its complicated, she replies absently. No kidding. She huffs a soft laugh, looking up. No kidding indeed. Were work- ing on a new, safer hyperspace drive. That makes no sense...who would hire mercenaries this good just to steal a glorifed seat belt? Youre calling my lifes work a glorifed seat belt? She rolls her eyes, causing the display to scroll backward as it registers the movement as a command. Its not that simple. Her shoulders are tense, her eyes fxed on the display, avoiding mine. Somehow I dont think youre telling me everything. She sighs, glancing back at me in the doorway. Look, its...classifed, to say the least. Its all theoretical right now, but if it works, itll be revolu- tionary. Still...well, I guess being fred is the least of my worries right now. Imagine a big electromagnet, whose feld envelops the hyperspace drive and prevents destructive forces from escaping. Theres a huge energy discharge when you use a hyperspace drive, and this stops it damaging the ship. Like a ground wire. Its a brand-new way of doing it, much more effcient. Okay, I say dubiously, still waiting to hear something worth stealing. Now imagine a ship with that new magnet in place passes too near another ship with the same device. The felds would interfere with each other. And...? And...anything. Without proper safety precautions, hyperspace travel is unpredictable. Maybe nothing would happen. Maybe the entire ship would be ripped apart. I exhale slowly. So a rival corporation with this technology could use it to sabotage or even destroy LaRoux Industries spaceliners, leaving absolutely no trace of tampering. Thats tech worth stealing. Sanjana nods, glancing at me again, her expression sober. Ive been trying to tell them about this faw for months. Its not just ships. If a ship outftted with the new drive came too near this facility, for example, when weve got the Ring up and running The Ring? Thats our name for the electromagnet. Big metal ring, keeps the energies contained. LaRouxs had the technology for at least a genera- tion, but this is the frst time weve tried applying it to a hyperspace drive. She sighs. Its too fragile a balance, too delicate. It gets disrupted by anything, and the results could be catastrophic. Well, nobody at LaRoux Industries will know about it if we dont get out of here, I say, then wish I hadnt. But shes staring at her screen. I cant get around their security blocks, she murmurs, turning that gaze on me. Theres already a bruise spreading slowly across her jaw, thanks to the blow she took earlier. I cant open the doors from here at all. We need another way. The faci l i ty. . . was my father s? I t meant nothi ng to me at the ti me. I assumed Sanj ana was r i ght, that some other cor por ati on was tr yi ng to steal thei r technol ogy i n order to weaponi ze i t. But now. . . Now you thi nk he sent the mercenar i es i n to l evel hi s own base. Oh, God. I thi nk that technol ogy came from what they used to contai n the r i ft back on our pl anet. Thats what your father was tr yi ng to hi de when Sanj ana star ted aski ng questi ons. What she was tal ki ng aboutthat potenti al catastrophe, thats what happened to the I car us. My father knew i t coul d. . . God, Tar ver, I can t Li l ac, he coul dn t have known. He woul dn t have l et you on board i f hed thought there was any danger. No. He woul d j ust murder a hal f a dozen i nnocent researchers to avoi d havi ng to answer questi ons. FIVE IM ABOUT TO REPLY WHEN I HEAR A SOUND up the hall- way. I hold up a hand and Sanjana freezes. I dont dare stick my head out the door to look, but closing my eyes, I slow my breathing and focus on my hearing. There it is again. Soft footsteps making their way up the hall. I point under the desk, and Sanjana slips off her chair, crawling beneath it as I crouch low, crossing the offce to cram in beside her. We wait shoulder to shoulder, and I force myself to relax my grip on the Gleidel, ready to move if I have to. Beside me her breath is shallow, shaky. The footsteps approach at an even pace, then stop outside the offce, and Sanjana closes her eyes. I take the advice I gave her earlier just think about the actions, not the reasons or the feelings. Then the light above us ficks off, and the footsteps recede. We both hold still until theyre no longer audible, then together we slump, exchanging glances in the dim light. Time to stop talking, start moving. For all we know, that patrols next stop could be the guard we left dead in the offce. Think, I whisper, easing the safety back on once more. Is there any other way to open the doors besides having a recognized thumb- print, hacking it, or physically breaking it down? Can you think of any other time when the door has ever opened? She closes her eyes, and I wait, nerves jangling. Eventually she shakes her head. I dontno, wait. Theres an emergency shutdown measure. Ive never seen it happen, but Ive been briefed on it. If the station loses power, like in the event of a fre or an earthquake, all the offce doors will unlock so nobodys trapped inside. Hope surges, and it feels like coming back to life. Were not done yet. But, she says, holding up one fnger, those soldiersor mercenar- ies, I guessare in the corridors leading to the exits. So we can get them out of their cells, but not out of the facility? But shes smiling, and though its only faint, theres a hint of some- thing there that I fnd I like. I didnt say that, Captain. We can go out through the tunnel housing the accelerator tubes. Its over twenty klicks long, but theres a maintenance hatch every few klicks or so. I can show you the way, if you can get us there. I know those tunnels like Michaela never will. I like the way you think, my friend. I get that a lot. Her smile widens, and I want to smile back, despite the desperation of our situation. Lets go get the others freed. Do you know where we go to cut the power? I do. She pauses, eyeing me as her smile fades again. But youre not going to like it. The fuse box is in the dining hall, on the opposite side of the courtyard. Well have to get out without being seen, and there arent many places to hide out there. And Ill have to get a good look at it once were thereit wont just be a matter of fipping a switch. There are too many backups for that. Shes right. I dont like it. Night is falling now, so well have darkness on our side, but I saw foodlights on my way in, and from what Ive seen of these mercs, theyre smart enough to have guards outside watching for any incoming forces. For the frst time, Im glad its just Sanjana and me as we slip through the corridors, ducking into labs full of computer banks and unrecogniz- able equipment every time a merc rounds the corner. By the time we make it to the doors, its several hours past sundown, but as I feared, the mercs have put the facilitys foodlights to good use. Their coverage isnt as thorough as theyd be on a military installation, and shadows still gather along the edges of the courtyard. Its not quite dark enough for me to pull up my goggles from where they hang around my neck and switch to night visionthe foodlights would fare too bright, though it would be useful in the shadows. Its from the dark of the shadows that were making our move. Theres a guard patrolling, fashlight in hand, making a long, slow loop around and through the tables and chairs, the satellite dish, the vari- ous debris strewn around the yard. Sanjana and I keep to the shadows, inching along with agonizing slowness, only able to move when hes fac- ing away from us. On the far side of the courtyard, brightly lit, lies Nicos body, still facedown, arms reaching. As the guard continues the remainder of each loop, we crouch together against the wall, faces turned away from the light. Sanjanas left her white lab coat behind, and we stick to the shadows. I can tell her hand is hurting her badly now, cradled against her chest, but she keeps moving without complaint. The guard reaches the point in his loop where were out of his sight, and together we creep forward as silently and quickly as we can. Were just one more run from the dining hall and the fuses when the loudspeakers crackle to life. We freeze in place as they hiss and spit, then broadcast a voice. It belongs to the blond, tattooed leader of the mercs. Captain Merendsen, Dr. Rao, I see youve declined our hospitality. Not to worrywe have Dr. Stewart here to explain your mistake. Sanjana! Its a mans voice, ragged and high with fearhe can barely speak, gulping for air in quick, short gasps. Sanjana, hes going to The world slows and I know, an instant before it happens, whats coming next. As Sanjana starts to leap to her feet in horror, I lunge for her, clapping a hand over her mouth and pressing her back against the wall as a gunshot shrieks through the speakers, sending them crackling and whining with feedback in the aftermath. I pin her to the wall so she screams against my hand, the loudspeakers drowning her out, and I crowd in after her to press my forehead to hers, one hand over her mouth, the other wrapping around her. Im praying my dark uniform and dark hair will hide us in the shadows, praying she falls silent before the speakers do, fghting the way my pulse wants to leap up my throat, the pounding in my temples. Theres no whats next, theres only now, and this moment lasts forever. She buries her face against my shoulder and muffes the sound of her breathing, though I feel her whole frame jerking as she hyperventilates. Im holding on to her just as tightly, trying not to let my own shock show. This isnt how its done. Hes supposed to give us the chance to turn our- selves in before he starts killing hostages. But the man with the tattoo is a professional, and he knows that what- ever it cost me, I wouldnt have surrendered. Not when it meant giving up the lives of all ten hostages. So he went for Sanjana. To take such a piece out of her that shed give away her location, or just hand herself in. And Im afraid she will, as she grabs a handful of my shirt, still hiding her face against my shoulder. The speakers crackle again, and I hold her tighter. Now, Dr. Rao, he says. We understand each other. Whatever Captain Merendsen is telling you, he is wrong. He is a soldier, and is not permitted to surrender in such a situation. But you are a civilian, and no such rules apply. All you need to do is assist us with the information we require, and we will leave. Weve been instructed to allow you to live if possible, and we have no wish to harm you. Nobody else needs to die, unless you insist, Dr. Rao. She lifts her head, and my heart sinks as I look down to make out her features in the dim light. It takes me a moment to realize shes not trem- bling with fear, or even distress. Shes shaking with fury. Dr. Rao, if you will not cooperate, I will go fetch another hostage, and we will have another conversation, he says, sounding a little weary, as though hes a disappointed parent. I drop my head so I can whisper in her ear, barely a breath. He said fetch. He doesnt have anybody there. We have a minute. She nods, and I duck my head further to hear her reply. We need to cut the power. I know my way in the dark. My hearts racing as I squeeze her shoulder, easing away from her to look across the stretch of half-lit courtyard between us and the dining hall. Still not alone, Alec. And nowhere near done. The newsvi ds di dn t say anythi ng about hostages getti ng shot. They never broadcast the defeats. Onl y the tr i umphs. Al l those medal s, your promoti on to maj or, the publ i ci ty tr i p on the I car us. . . For show. Meant nothi ng. Stop that. You sur vi ved, and you got at l east hal f a dozen hostages out. Di d they make that up too? Just because you coul dn t save ever yone doesn t mean youre any l ess of a A what? A hero. SIX WE CANT AFFORD TO WAIT FOR THE GUARD to start moving again, not with his boss walking toward the row of offces this very moment, heading for Sanjanas team. We stay low, heads down, and run as quietly as we can for the dining hall doorand were just a couple of feet short when the guards fashlight swings across our bodies. Stop, he shouts, and I yank the door open, every nerve in my body on fre. Sanjana throws herself through it, and I stumble after her, pull- ing it closed but for a crack so I can see whats happening in the yard. Go, fnd the fuses, I shout, and she runs across the room, pull- ing open a closet that looks like it should hold coats. Instead I see row upon row of switches and levers, a tiny automatic light illuminating her. She gets to work, and I position myself by the door, scanning the yard for the mercenary. Hes smart, hes turned his fashlight off, but I catch a glimpse of him as he runs under one of the spotlights, and I loose a warning shot over his head. No point hiding where we are now, and per- haps I can slow him down. He dives behind a table, pulling it onto its side to act as a shield with the combat refexes of a seasoned soldier, and I hold my fre, watching him, willing my hands to stay steady. Behind me, I can hear Sanjana frantically pulling at wires, swearing in a tone thats half frustration, half entreaty. Theres backup upon backup herejust switching these off isnt going to trigger the release protocol. Weve got thirty seconds, I call as the guard starts to climb to his feet, and the door on the other end of the courtyard fies open, half a dozen mercs pouring out of it. I suck in a long, slow breath, lifting my gun, bracing it with both hands. No other choice left. If I want any chance of getting the rest of the research team out of here alive, I have to make a statement that will slow down the raiding party. I breathe out, and once Im totally still, I sight down the barrel and squeeze the trigger. The fgure at the front of the group running down the courtyard staggers, crashing to the ground a heartbeat later. Chest shot, straight through the joint of his armor at the shoulder. Game over. The rest of the group drop, but it doesnt stop themthey scramble for cover behind the tables and chairs, darting out unpredictably, that much harder to hit. Come on, Sanjana. I fre again, and this time they return fre, shots screaming across the courtyard. Theyre blowing holes in the shutters along the length of the dining hall, pinpricks of light illuminating one after another, like theyre painting constellations on the wall. Now, Sanjana! I shout as I duck down low, returning fre through the doorno longer aiming over their heads, no longer sure what Im hitting. There are too many shots incoming, and I havent got time to aim. Id trade anything for one of their rifes, or just to get my fak jacket back. Its not as good as full body armor, but itd give me some protec- tion. Right now Im a sitting duck. Im trying, she screams, hoarse, ripping at wiresbut the lights are still on. I risk turning my head for a moment, in time to see her wrench the covering plate off the whole setup, using both hands. At least one of the gunshots has hit the circuitsnot enough to cut power, but enough to set the mass of wires sparking and fzzing, fames starting to lick at the control box. She tries to reach for the wires feeding power to the facility, then jerks her hand back with a cry of pain. Theres a deafening roar from the other end of the dining hall, and a mercenary comes leaping through one of the closed shutters, splintering the shredded plastene, landing with a crash in a pile of chairs. I stand, lift my gun, and fre at his face, the only part of him Im sure isnt covered with armor thatll stop my Gleidel. Sanjana screams something at me, but I cant hear her over the gun- fre. She stares at me, then looks back at the cabinet. With a wordless cry, she plunges her good hand into the tangle of wires and sparks and fame, grabbing a handful of wires and hauling with all her might. The world goes black. Was she. . . ? I l l get us some more tea. SEVEN EVERY SOUND IS AMPLIFIED now that were blinded so com- pletely. I hear Sanjana cry out again, this time in pain, her breathing quick and sharp. I pull up my goggles and switch them to night vision, and suddenly the world springs to life before me, lit a dim green. At the other end of the room, the mercenary is groping around in the dark, and near me, Sanjanas lying still. She moans as I drop to a crouch beside her. She just thrust her hand into an electrical fremy mind shies away from her injuries. I slide my arm around her and haul her up to her feet, praying she can still move, and together we make our run for it, out into the courtyard. Its pitch black out there now, thanks to Sanjanatwo of the mercs have fashlights, beams swinging around wildly. A shot rings out, and theres a cry, and a roar from the blond man that sounds less collected now. The next man who shoots blindly in the dark, Ill damn well shoot him. Find them! An instant later the emergency alarms start up, and beside me San- jana staggers forward with renewed haste. If we dont get back inside the main building before they get organized, well be playing a game were guaranteed to lose. We abandon stealth completely, and I make the most of the fact that Im the only one who can see the layout of the court- yardwe run for the far end together, praying the fashlight doesnt fnd us. A mercenary rises to his feet from behind an overturned table with no warning, and instinct takes over as I knee him in the jaw and send him sprawling. I pause only long enough to grab his rife, stowing my Gleidel in its holster as I start running again. Beside me Sanjanas moan- ing now, but shes still moving. We tumble through together, and she leans against the wall as I slide the doors shut behind us with a loud clang. Perhaps theyll give us a few seconds of protection against a bullet in our backs. The emergency sirens, mounted out in the courtyard, are muffed now. There are win- dows along one side of the hallway, and enough light from Patrons rings makes it in that I can pull my goggles down around my neck once morethey mess with my depth perception, and I can discern shapes along the walls without them. I automatically check the charge on my new weapon; nearly full, plenty of power to make it through this. If we can make it through. Were a few steps down the hall when I spot a fgure sitting inside one of the offces, and my rife swings up before I even think. Its a woman in a white coat, slumped back with a bullet between her eyes, her stare unblinking, blood trickling down her face. Michaela, Sanjana says, and theres not an ounce of sorrow in her voice. I guess they were fnished with her. Sanjana stumbles as we turn the corner to make for the offces. I dont think I can She gasps, muffed, as she stops by the frst door, leaning in against the wall. In the dim silvery light of Patrons rings, her whole left sleeve is soaked with what looks like ink. The offce door nearest us opens, and a silhouette emergesits a man, holding something with a faintly illuminated screen. An e-fler, maybe. It outlines his features as he steps forward, hesitant. Sanjana? Jacob, she whispers, hoarse. He hurries forward, lifting the e-fler so he can get a look at us in its glow. The light gives me my frst good look at Sanjanas hand. Bile pushes up my throat, like Ive been punched in the gut. The burns on her hand are a mass of raw, glistening blisters, and bloods pouring from a cut on her wrist. Oh my God. He backs up, and I dart out a hand to catch him, and pull him in. Hold it where I can see it, I snap, as Sanjana sways. I cant imagine how she managed to run even this far. She wont last another minute. I cant lose her now. He shines the light on her hand, and I yank my T-shirt off over my head, wrapping it around her wrist. She screams, and the other offce doors fy open, scientists emerging armed with desk lamps and other implements I cant make out in the dark. The man with the light calls out to them to stand down as I pull off my belt, wrapping it around her wrist and hauling the tourniquet tight. Another woman hurries up to take up position behind Sanjana, brac- ing her as I fasten the belt in place, and together we catch her as her knees give. Whats happening? she asks, wrapping an arm around Sanjanas shoulders. Why are you helping us? Because Im not them, I reply, taking a quick head count. Nine researchers, plus Sanjanaeveryone we were expecting, with Dr. Stew- art dead. Were getting out of here. The researchers just stare blankly at me, like animals lined up for the slaughterhouse. I bite back a curse. This was always going to be the hard- est partwhich is saying something, the day Ive had. Sanjanas ability to keep moving made me think that maybe I could get them moving too, but shes one in a million. The terrifed civilians in front of me just heard their colleague shot over the loudspeakers, Sanjanas covered in blood, and theyve clearly been promised they wont be hurt if they cooperate. Their offces must seem like the safest place to hide right now. But the one we thing we dont have is time to argue. I start with Jacob, who was at least game to come out of his offce when we arrived, and the woman with her arm around Sanjana, meeting each of their gazes in turn in the dim light. Spending precious seconds locking eyes with them, letting them take my measure. Weve got to go, I say quietly, and slowly, each of them nods. I move along the row of researchers, who stand along the wall as though theyre lined up for inspection, clutching their makeshift weap- ons with white-knuckled hands. I read their names off their coats, I cajole, I harden my voice and issue orders, and over the longest minute of my life, one by one they step forward, ready to go, until theres just one man standing in his doorway, clutching a jagged piece of plastene ripped from a printer. He refuses to budge even when I shout at him to follow us. I cant leave him behind. I have to leave him behind, or everyone else will die, too. Then Sanjana is beside me, supporting her own weight and straight- ening her back, white with blood losseven swaying, shes in command, and I know by the way his eyes lock on to her that he feels it. Malcolm, if you dont get your ass out here and with the group right now, you can die under your desk, she snaps. Move it. And miraculously, he does. Apparently sometimes threats do work on civilians. Two of Sanjanas colleagues take her by the arms once more, and though she cries out in pain at the contact, she clings grimly to con- sciousness. Were turning to head down the hallway when abruptly the sirens cut outour footsteps are suddenly amplifed, and voices raised just to be heard ring through the halls for a moment too long. And in return I hear shouts as the mercs pick up our scent. The tunnel, I snap, and several arms lift and point the way we need to go. And so we run. I push the herd ahead of me, bringing up the rear with my gun at the ready, every nerve in my body screaming at them to hurry up, run faster, outpace the attack I know is coming. We round the frst corner in the near darkness, then the second, running along a stretch of corridor and beneath a sign that reads Maintenance Tunnel Entrance. Every second Im expecting a merc to catch up to us and open fre, and I keep my gun pointing the direction weve come. We round the next corner, pouring into an abandoned staff room, tables overturned, a plate smashed in the middle of the foor. The people ahead of me stop short, and in the dim light through the window, it takes me several frantically drumming heartbeats to work out why. Then I see it. Theres an armor-clad fgure leaning against the far wall, gun pointed straight at my chest. Its Fisk. The researchers stop, a couple ducking behind tables, most simply standing, waiting for what has to come next. His throat is covered in blood, and it glints darkly down his chest plate, his skin white, hair matted against his forehead with sweat. Either he was one of the mercs I shot in the yard, or else he was hit by one of them while they fred blindly in the dark. But his gun doesnt waver, the sights fxed on me, despite the blood gluing his hand to the grip. Too much blood. Hes done, and we both know itour gazes acknowl- edge it as they meet. But my guns still pointing back the way we came, and he could drop me in the time itd take to swing it back toward him. He could shoot me now, and their missionwhatever it iswould suc- ceed with no survivors. Our eyes lock, and all I can see is the kid who kept losing at cards and fretting about his girlfriend; all I can see is the kid I trained to stay alive. And then he drops his arm to his side. He cant speakthe wound in his throat is too severebut he jerks his head toward the door beyond him, and I take his meaning nonetheless. Go, I snap over my shoulder, and the surviving researchers startle forward, pouring past the dying mercenary and through the door. Gil lets his knees buckle, armor scraping as he slides down to sit against the wall. The only sound is the rasping, bubbling sound of his breath in his throat. My own throat feels tight. He doesnt look like the hard-edged, competent mercenary anymore. He just looks like Gil Fisk, the farm boy from Babel. And now theres nothing I can do for him. His hand moves, fngers clumsy with pain; hes gesturing toward the tunnels. Go. So I do the only thing I can, breaking into a run until I catch up to the others at the tunnel entrance, blocked by a massive metal hatch. Sanjana is gasping instructions in a voice gone hoarse with pain and shock, shaking violently now. Malcolm follows her instructions, pulling at the arm-length levers and straining to muscle the hatch open with- out any power supply to its hinges. I can hear an argument breaking out behind her, a blond woman whose name I cant remember gesturing back the way weve come, on the verge of panic. Weve got to call the base, or try to reason with themone soldier versus a dozen mercenaries? Its suicide to stay with him! The blond woman doesnt even look at me, too frightened to care that Im well within earshot. And I dont blame her. Theres no going back, Sanjana snaps. Theres no negotiating with them, trust me. And you think running down here with guns on our tails is safer? The womans voice is shrill. Hes a teenager, why are you listening to him? I can hear shouts growing nearer, and the scientists crowd in against the wall for shelter as I take up position by the corner of the corridor the mercs will come down, weapon at the ready. A few of the researchers are listening to the blond woman, torn by indecisiontwo of them join Malcolm, and inch by agonizing inch they pull the tunnel hatch toward them. Were not going to get the hatch open in time. Ill buy them as much time as I can, but without armor and without cover, its not going to be enough. Before I can think of a distraction, a white-clad fgure bolts past me. Its the blond woman. I grab for her coat, but she rips away from my grip, voice raised as she runs back around the corner. Wait, dont shoot, I can Her voice cuts off in a hail of gunfre. From behind me, I feel a tickle of breeze. The hatch is open. I swal- low hard, trying to suppress the thought bubbling up: the womans death bought us the few seconds we needed. Go, Malcolms hissing, and one by one the team crams through, pulling Sanjana with them. A hand grabs my elbow to guide me backward so I dont have to lower my gun, my eyes streaming with the effort of focusing in the dark corridor. The frst of the armor-clad fgures comes barreling around the corner, and I lift the rife to return fre, squeezing the triggerand nothing happens. The guns jammed. I try again, my brain too numb to understand; but even at full charge, the fancy new weapons locked up. A bullet clangs off the hatch cover an instant after I duck behind it, and I throw the rife down and reach instead for my Gleidel. It might not pierce body armor, but its never once locked up on me. It just needs a good arm and a good eye. I wait half a breath for my hand to steady, then lean out around the hatch to aim for the joint in his armor at his shoulder. The merc drops with a scream as two others round the corner and lift their weapons. Half a dozen pairs of hands grab at the hatch to haul it closed behind us, and I fre once more before staggering back. Then the last little sliver of light from outside is gone, and we heft the heavy levers to lock it in place behind us. It wont take the mercs much longer than it took us to get it open, and I swing around, taking in the tunnel ahead of us. It must have its own backup power source, because theres dim emergency lighting stretching away into the distance, until eventually the tunnel curves out of sight. The ceiling is an arch, covered in rows of pipes, and a waist-height tube runs down the center of the tunnel. But theres a pathway alongside it, and a bunch of small motorized carts to convey maintenance crews through the accelerator housing. I dont have to instruct the research team to get them started; theyre piling in before I even register what the vehicles are. Theres a loud clanging as the mercs grapple with the levers on the far side of the hatch and start to pull it open, and I pause to shoot out the wheels of the carts were leaving behind, then climb up onto the back of one driven by Sanjanas friend Malcom. I keep my gun trained on the door behind us as we take off up the tunnel. The access door a kilometer down the tunnel takes three of us to wrench open, sending cool night air washing over us. Theres a copse of trees not far away, and the man who drove my cart helps me move Sanjana to where she can lie down. The remainder of her team sets to work wedg- ing a fallen tree against the door to make sure nobody can climb through after us. From here, I can jog to the base in no more than a quarter hour, leaving the research team tucked safely in the shadows of the trees. I know that by the time my commander gets a team back to the facility, the mercenaries will be long gone, but right now I cant bring myself to carethe ten of us made it out. I look down at the woman who made it possible, her eyes closed as I check the tourniquet once more and then cover her in my coat. What now? she whispers. Now I go get the cavalry. I might just stay here. Shes trembling in shock or pain or both, but she opens her eyes, tries to bend her mouth to a smile. You take a rest, I agree softly. Just not too long. You still owe me that drink. EPILOGUE LILACS STARING AT ME, her mug of tea forgotten and left to cool beside the mattress. Shes got her lower lip between her teeth; she does that when shes thinking, and it gets me every time. I lean toward her, moving before Ive registered the impulse to kiss her, but she pulls away, frowning at me. Tarver, she says slowly, how come youve never told me about this before? Damn. And I was hoping maybe we could skip the debrief and go straight to the comforting. Because its not...Why would I have told you? I tried to tell the brass for two months that this wasnt something they should give me medals for. I got used to ignoring it whenever anyone brought it up. Yes, but LaRoux Industriesmy father I never made the connection until I started dreaming about it. The tech was theoretical, and to be honest, I didnt pay much attention to it then. I didnt have any reason to. I was more concerned with getting out of there alive, with as many researchers in tow as I could drag. Well, I guess I have Sanjana to thank for preparing you for dealing with civilians in life-or-death situations. Lilacs voice is dry. I reach for her to pull her in against my side, putting my own mug down on the empty box serving as a temporary nightstand until we get the rest of our furniture in. Beautiful, an entire year of training couldnt have prepared me for dealing with you. Lilac laughs, the sound easing the bands of tension wrapping around my rib cage. Why, Major, you do know how to fatter a girl. Her grin fades a little, brows drawing together. What happened to Sanjana? She lost her hand. Of all the images my dreams have been dredging up, the one I cant dismiss is the sight of that hand, burned and bloody. Too much nerve damage for them to repair. LaRoux Industries gave her a cutting-edge prosthetic, though. As far as I know shes still work- ing for them. Still? Why? Lilacs blue eyes are softer in the lamplight, fxed on my face. She doesnt know that LRI is the one who sent those mercs. Hell, we dont even know that...not for sure. She drops her head down onto my shoulder. I know. Her whisper is feather-soft against my chest. I squeeze her gently, reaching for her hand and lifting it to my lips. Youre rid of him now, Lilac. She takes a long time to reply, long enough that Ive almost started to think shes fallen asleep. You know thats not true, right? I know. I close my eyes, trying to sear this moment into my mem- ory. Are you still having your dreams? She nods, her cheek rubbing my skin and hair tickling my face. I dont know where they are, or how theyre still here, but I can feel them, Tarver. Somewhere out there. I know shell be able to hear my heart pounding with her head on my chest, but I try to keep my voice even anyway. Whispers. This thing...with my father, with our planet, with us. Its not over. It terrifes me, this connection she feels with the creatures who gave her back to me. My world used to be full of certainties, of steps to be followed, orders to be given. Even betrayed by Fisk and tied to a chair, I knew what my next moves were. Now I feel adriftexcept for the tether binding me here, to this girl at my side. I gather her in against me, exhaling slowly as she presses her lips to my throat and then reaches past me to turn off the lamp. You should call her, Lilac whispers in the darkness. Who? Sanjana. She should know the truth about my father. About LaRoux Industries. I know. Maybe we can fnd a way to contact her without drawing attention. I shift so I can kiss the top of her head. We havent spoken since the medal ceremony. You just drift apart, once the dust settles. Theres nothing to bind you together, it happens to everyone. Except for us, she murmurs sleepily. Beautiful, I whisper into her hair, were an exception to every rule there is. LETTER FROM THE AUTHORS A note from Amie and Meagan... Thank you for reading This Night So Darkwe hope you loved it! Com- ing up next, youll fnd chapters from These Broken Stars and This Shattered World, the frst two books in the Starbound trilogy. These Broken Stars tells the story of what happens to Tarver and Lilac when they are shipwrecked on a mysterious planet, and This Shattered World follows the mystery they uncover there to the planet Avon, where we meet a soldier and a rebel whose lives depend on fnding out more. If youd like to receive behind the scenes peeks at our stories, exclusive news and giveaways, writing tips and book recommendations, you can sign up for our monthly newsletter at www.thesebrokenstars.comwell make sure you never miss out! And of course, if you enjoyed this story, or any other, please think about leaving a review online, to help other readers discover it too! To pre-order a copy of This Shattered World and receive a limited edition poster of the cover, click here. See you next time! When di d you fi rst meet Mi ss LaRoux? Three days before the acci dent. And how di d that come about? The acci dent? Meeti ng Mi ss LaRoux. How coul d i t possi bl y matter? Maj or, ever ythi ng matters. ONE TARVER NOTHING ABOUT THIS ROOM IS REAL. If this were a party at home, the music would draw your eye to human musicians in the corner. Candles and soft lamps would light the room, and the wooden tables would be made of actual trees. People would be listening to each other, instead of checking to see whos watching them. Even the air here smells fltered and fake. The candles in the sconces do ficker, but theyre powered by a steady source. Hover trays weave among the guests, like invisible waiters are carrying drinks. The string quartet is only a hologram perfect and infallible, and exactly the same at every performance. Id give anything for a laid-back evening joking around with my pla- toon, instead of being stuck here in this imitation scene from a historical novel. For all their trendy Victorian tricks, theres no hiding where we are. Outside the viewports, the stars are like faded white lines, half- invisible, surreal. The Icarus, passing through dimensional hyperspace, would look just as faded, half-transparent, if someone stationary in the universe could somehow see her moving faster than light. Im leaning against the bookshelves when it occurs to me that one thing here is realthe books. I reach behind me and let my fngers trail over the rough leather of their antique spines, then pull one free. Nobody here reads them; the books are for decoration. Chosen for the richness of their leather bindings, not for the contents of their pages. Nobody will miss one, and I need a dose of reality. Im almost done for the night, smiling for the cameras as ordered. The brass keep thinking that mixing feld offcers with the upper crust will create some sort of common ground where none exists, let the paparazzi infesting the Icarus see me, the lowborn boy made good, hobnobbing with the elite. I keep thinking that the photographers will get their fll of shots of me with drink in hand, lounging in the frst-class salon, but in the two weeks Ive been on board, they havent. These folks love a good rags-to-riches tale, even if my riches are no more than the medals pinned to my chest. It still makes for a nice story in the papers. The military look good, the rich people look good, and it gives the poor people something to aspire to. See? say all the headlines. You too can rocket your way up to riches and fame. If hick boy can make good, why cant you? If it wasnt for what happened on Patron, I wouldnt even be here. What they call heroics, I call a tragic debacle. But nobodys asking my opinion. I scan the room, taking in the clusters of women in brightly colored gowns, offcers in dress uniforms like mine, men in evening coats and top hats. The ebb and fow of the crowd is unsettlingpatterns Ill never get used to no matter how many times Im forced to rub elbows with these people. My eyes fall on a man whos just entered, and it takes me a moment to realize why. Theres nothing about him that fts here, although hes trying to blend in. His black tailcoat is too threadbare, and his top hat is missing the shiny satin ribbon thats in fashion. Im trained to notice the thing that doesnt ft, and in this sea of surgically perfected faces, his is a beacon. There are lines at the corners of his eyes and around his mouth, his skin weather-beaten and marked by the sun. Hes nervous, shoulders rounded, fngers gripping the lapels of his jacket and letting go again. My heart kicks up a beat. Ive spent too long in the colonies, where anything out of place might kill you. I ease away from the bookshelves and start to weave my way toward him, past a pair of women sporting monocles they cant possibly need. I want to know why hes here, but Im forced to move slowly, navigating the push and pull of the crowd with agonizing patience. If I shove, Ill draw attention. And if he is dangerous, any sudden shift in the energy of the room could trigger him. A brilliant fash lights up the world as a camera goes off in my face. Oh, Major Merendsen! Its the leader of a gaggle of women in their mid-twenties, descending on me from the direction of the viewport. Oh, you simply must take a picture with us. Their insincerity is poisonous. Im barely more than a dog walking on its hind legs, herethey know it, and I know it, but they cant pass up an opportunity to be seen with a real, live war hero. Sure, Ill just come back in a minute, if Before I can fnish, all three women are posed around me, lips pursed and lashes lowered. Smile for the cameras. A series of fashes erupt all around me, blinding me. I can feel that low, stabbing pain at the base of my skull that promises to explode into a fully fedged headache. The women are still chattering and pressing in close, and I cant see the man with the weathered face. One of the photographers is buzzing around me, his voice a low drone. I step sideways to look past him, but my eyes are swimming with red and gold afterimages. Blinking hard, my gaze swings from the bar, to the door, the hover trays, the booths. I try to remember what he looked like, the line of his clothes. Was there room to hide anything under his dinner jacket? Could he be armed? Major, did you hear me? The photographers still talking. Yes? No, I wasnt listening. I disentangle myself from the women still draped over me on the pretense of stepping closer to speak with him. I wish I could shove past this little man, or better yet, tell him theres a threat and watch how fast he vanishes from the room. I said Im surprised your buddies on the lower decks arent trying to sneak up here too. Seriously? The other soldiers watch me head to frst class every eve- ning like a man walking down death row. Oh, you know. I try not to sound as annoyed as I am. I doubt they even know what cham- pagne is. I try for a smile too, but theyre the ones good at insincerity, not me. He laughs too loudly as the fash explodes in my face again. Blinking away the stars, I stumble clear and crane my neck, trying to locate the only guy in the room more out of place than I am. But the stooped man in the shabby hat is nowhere to be found. Maybe he left? But someone doesnt go to the trouble of crashing a party like this and then slip out without a fuss. Maybe hes seated now, hiding among the other guests. My eyes sweep across the booths again, this time examining the patrons more closely. Theyre all packed full of people. All except one. My gaze falls on a girl sitting alone in a booth, watching the crowd with detached interest. Her fair, fawless skin says shes one of them, but her gaze says shes bet- ter, above, untouchable. Shes wearing the same hue as a navy dress uniform, bare shoulders holding my gaze for a momentshe sure as hell wears the color better than any sailor I know. Hair: red, falling down past her shoulders. Nose: a little snub, but that makes her more pretty, not less. It makes her real. Prettys not the right word. Shes a knockout. Something about the girls face tickles at the back of my mind, like I should recognize it, but before I can dig up the connection, she catches me looking at her. I know better than to mix with girls like her, so I dont know why I keep watching her, or why I smile. Then, abruptly, a movement jerks my gaze away. Its the nervous man, and hes no longer meandering in and out of the crowd. His stooped posture is gone, and with his eyes fxed on something across the room hes moving quickly through the press of bodies. Hes got a goaland its the girl in the blue dress. I waste no time weaving in and out of the crowd politely. I shove between a pair of startled elderly gentlemen and make for the booth, but the outsiders gotten there frst. Hes leaning close, speaking low and fast. Hes moving too quickly, trying to spit out what he came to say before hes picked out as an intruder. The girl jerks back, leaning away. Then the crowd closes up between us, and theyre out of sight. I reach down to lay a hand on my gun, and hiss between my teeth as I realize its not there. The empty spot at my hip feels like a missing limb. I weave left, upsetting a hover tray and sending its contents crashing to the foor. The crowd recoils, fnally giving me an avenue toward the table. The intruder has grabbed her elbow, urgent. Shes trying to pull away, eyes fashing up, looking around for someone as though she expects help. Her gaze falls on me. I get one step closer before a man in the right sort of top hat claps a hand on the strangers shoulder. He has an equally self-important friend with him, and two offcers, a man and a woman. They know the man with the fervent light in his eyes doesnt belong here, and I can see they mean to remedy his presence. The redheads self-appointed guardian jerks the man backward to stumble against the offcers, who take him frmly by the arms. I can tell hes got no training, either formally or the rough-and-tumble sort they learn in the colonies. If he did, hed be able to handle these desk jockeys and their sloppy form. They start to turn him toward the door, one of them grabbing at the nape of his neck. More force than I would use, for someone whose only crime so far seems to be trying to talk to the girl in the blue dress, but theyre handling it. I stop by the adjacent booth, still trying to catch my breath. The man twists, breaking free of the soldiers, and turns back toward the girl. As the room starts to fall silent, the ragged edge to his voice is audible. You have to speak to your father about this, please. Were dying for lack of tech, he needs to give the colonists more His voice gives out as one of the offcers delivers a blow to his stom- ach that doubles him over. I jerk forward, shoving away from the booth and past the widening ring of onlookers. The redhead beats me to it. Shes on her feet in a swift movement that draws the attention of everyone in the room in a way the scuffe didnt. Whoever she is, shes a showstopper. Enough! She has a voice well suited to delivering ultimatums. Captain, Lieutenant, what do you think youre doing? I knew I liked her for a reason. When I step forward, shes holding them frozen in place with a glare that could fell a platoon. For a moment, none of them notice me. Then I see the soldiers register my presence, and scan my shoulders for my stars and bars. Rank aside, were different in every way. My medals are for combat, theirs for long service, bureaucratic effciencies. My promotions were made in the feld. Theirs, behind a desk. Theyve never had blood on their hands. But for once, Im glad of my newfound status. The two soldiers come reluctantly to attention both of them are older, and I can tell it rankles to have to salute an eighteen-year-old. Funny how I was old enough by sixteen to drink, fght, and vote, but even two years later, Im too young to respect. Theyre still holding on to the gate-crasher. Hes breathing quick and shallow, like hes pretty sure someones going to fre him out an air lock any minute. I clear my throat, making sure I sound calm. If theres a problem, I can help this man fnd the door. Without more violence. We can all hear how my voice soundsexactly like the backwater boy I am, unpolished and uncultured. I register a few scattered laughs around the room, which is now entirely focused on our little drama. Not mali- cious laughterjust amused. Merendsen, I doubt this guys after a book. Fancy Top Hat smirks at me. I look down and realize Im still holding the book I took from the shelves. Right, because this guy is poor, he cant even read. Im sure he was just about to go, says the girl, fxing Top Hat with a steely glare. And Im pretty sure you were about to leave, too. Theyre caught off guard by her dismissal, and I use the moment to relieve my fellow offcers of their captive, keeping hold of his arm as I guide him away. Shes effectively dismissed the quartet from the salon again her face tickles my memory, who is she that she can do that?and I let them make their enforced escape before I gently but frmly steer my new friend toward the door. Anything broken? I ask, once were outside. What possessed you to go near them, and in a place like this? I half thought you were aiming to blow someone up. The man gazes at me for a long moment, his face already older than the people inside will ever look. He turns to walk away without another word, shoulders bowed. I wonder just how much he had riding on this manufactured encounter with the girl in the blue dress. I stand in the doorway, watching as people give up on the drama now that its done. The room slowly comes back to life, the hover trays zipping around, conversation surging, perfectly practiced laughter tin- kling here and there. Im supposed to be here at least another hour, but maybe just this once I can skip out early. And then I see the girl againand shes watching me. Very slowly shes taking off one of her gloves, pinching each fnger deliberately in turn. Her gaze never leaves my face. My heart surges up into my throat, and I know Im staring like an idiot, but Im damned if I can remember how my legs work. I stare a beat too long, and her lips curve to a hint of a smile. But somehow, her smile doesnt look as though its mocking me, and I get it together enough to start walking. When she lets her glove fall to the ground, Im the one who leans down to pick it up. I dont want to ask her if shes all rightshes too collected for that. So I put the glove down on the table, then fnd myself with no excuse to do anything other than look at her. Blue eyes. They go with the dress. Do lashes grow that long naturally? So many perfect faces, its hard to tell whos been surgically altered and who hasnt. But surely if shed had work done, shed have opted for a straight, classically beautiful nose. No, she looks real. Are you waiting for a drink? My voice sounds mostly even. For my companions, she says, lowering the deadly lashes before peering up at me through them. Captain? She tilts the word upward, as though shes taking a stab at my rank. Major, I say. She knows how to read my insignia; I just saw her name the ranks of the other offcers. Her sort, the society girls, they all know how. Its a game. I might not be society, but I still know a player when I see one. Not sure that was smart of your companions, leaving you unattended. Now youre stuck talking to me. Then she smiles, and it turns out she has dimples, and its all over. Its not just the way she looksalthough that would do it all on its own. Its that, despite the way she looks, despite where I found her, this girls willing to go against the tide. Shes not another empty-headed pup- pet. Its like fnding another human after days of isolation. Is it going to cause an intergalactic incident if I keep you company until your friends get here? Not at all. She tilts her head a little to indicate the opposite side of the booth. The bench curves around in a semicircle from where she sits. Though I feel I should warn you that you could be here for a while. My friends arent really known for their punctuality. I laugh, and I set down the book and my drink on the table beside her glove, sinking down to sit opposite her. Shes wearing one of those enor- mous skirts that are in fashion these days, and the fabric brushes against my legs as I settle. She doesnt move away. You should have seen me as a cadet, I say, as though that wasnt just a year ago. Punctuality was pretty much the only thing we were known for. Never ask how or why, just get it done fast. Then we have something in common, she says. We arent encour- aged to ask why, either. Neither of us asks why were sitting together. Were smart. I can see at least half a dozen guys watching us. Am I making any deadly enemies? Or at least, any more than I already have? Would it stop you from sitting here? she asks, fnally removing the second glove and setting it down on the table. Not necessarily, I reply. Handy thing to know, though. Plenty of dark hallways on this ship, if Im going to have rivals waiting around corners. Rivals? she asks, lifting one brow. I know shes playing a game with me, but I dont know the rules, and shes got all the cards. Still, the hell with itI just cant fnd it in me to care that Im losing. Ill surrender right now, if she likes. I suppose they might imagine themselves to be, I say eventually. Those gentlemen over there dont look particularly impressed. I nod to the group in frock coats and more top hats. At home were a simpler people, and you take your hat off when you come inside. Lets make it worse, she says promptly. Read to me from your book, and Ill look rapt. And you could order me a drink, if you like. I glance down at the book I plucked off the shelf. Mass Casualty: A History of Failed Campaigns. I slide it a little farther away, wincing inwardly. Perhaps the drink. Ive been away from your bright lights for a while, so Im a little rusty, but Im pretty sure talking about bloody deaths not the best way to charm a girl. Ill have to content myself with champagne, then. She continues, as I raise a hand to signal one of the hover trays. You say bright lights with a hint of disdain, Major. Im from those bright lights. Do you fault me for that? I could fault you for nothing. The words somehow bypass my brain entirely. Mutiny. She drops her eyes for the compliment, still smiling. You say youve been away from civilization, Major, but your fatterys giving you away. It cant have been all that long. Were very civilized out on the frontier, I say, pretending offense. Every so often we take a break from slogging through waist-high muck or dodging bullets and issue dance invitations. My old drill sergeant used to say that nothing teaches you the quickstep like the ground giving way beneath your feet. I suppose so, she agrees as a full tray comes humming toward us in response to my summons. She selects a glass of champagne and raises it in half a toast to me before she sips. Can you tell me your name, or is it classifed? she asks, as though she doesnt know. I reach for the other glass and send the tray humming off into the crowd again. Merendsen. Even if its a pretense, its nice to talk to someone who isnt raving about my astounding heroics or asking for a picture with me. Tarver Merendsen. Shes looking at me like she doesnt recognize me from all the newspapers and holovids. Major Merendsen. She tries it out, leaning on the ms, then nods her approval. The name passes muster, at least for now. Im heading back to the bright lights for my next posting. Which one of them is your home? Corinth, of course, she replies. The brightest light of all. Of course. Though I spend more time on ships like this than planetside. Im most at home here on the Icarus. Even you must be impressed by the Icarus. Shes bigger than any city Ive been to. Shes the biggest, my companion replies, dropping her eyes and toying with the stem of the champagne fute. Though she hides it well, theres a ficker through her features. Talking about the ship must bore her. Maybe its the spaceliner equivalent of asking about the weather. Cmon, man, get it together. I clear my throat. The viewing decks are the best Ive seen. Im used to planets with very little ambient light, but the view out here is something else. She meets my eyes for half a breaththen her lips quirk to the tiniest of smiles. I dont think Ive taken advantage of them enough, this trip. Perhaps we But then she cuts herself short, glancing toward the door. Id forgotten we were in a crowded room. But the moment she looks away, all the music and conversation comes surging back. Theres a girl with reddish-blond haira relative, Im sure, though her nose is straight and perfectdescending upon my companion, a small entourage in tow. Lil, there you are, she says, scolding, and holding out her hand in a clear invitation. No surprise, Im not included. The entourage swirls into place behind her. Anna, says my companion, who now has a name. Lil. May I pre- sent Major Merendsen? Charmed. Annas voice is dismissive, and I reach for my book and my drink. I know my cue. Please, I think Im in your chair, I say. It was a pleasure. Yes. Lil ignores Annas hand, her fngers curling around the stem of her champagne glass as she looks across at me. I like to think that she regrets the interruption a little. Then I rise, and with a small bow of the sort we reserve for civilians, I make my escape. The girl in the blue dress watches me go. You next encountered her. . . ? The day of the acci dent. What were your i ntenti ons at that stage? I had none. Why not? Youre j oki ng, r i ght? Maj or, we aren t here to enter tai n you. I found out who she was. That i t was over before I even sai d hel l o. TWO LILAC DO YOU KNOW WHO THAT WAS? Anna tilts her head toward the major as he slips out of the salon. Mmm. I try to sound noncommittal. Of course I knowthe guys picture was plastered across every holoscreen for weeks. Major Tarver Merendsen, war hero. His pictures dont do him justice. He looks younger in person, for one. But mostly, in his pictures, hes always stern, frowning. Annas escort of the evening, a tuxedo-clad younger man, asks us what wed like to drink. I never bother to remember the names of Annas dates. Half the time she doesnt even introduce them before handing them her fan and clutch and skittering off to dance with someone else. As he heads to the bar with Elana, Swann follows them, after a long, level look at me. I know Ill catch hell later for slipping my bodyguard and getting here early, but it was worth it. You have to know to look for it, nearly invisible in the lines of Swanns skirt, but theres a knife at one thigh and a tiny pistol set to stun in her clutch. There are jokes about how the LaRoux princess never goes anywhere without her entourage of giggling companions that half of them could kill a man at a hundred yards is not exactly public knowledge. The Presidents family doesnt have protection like mine. I ought to tell them about the man who accosted me, but if I do, Swann will usher me out of the salon, and Ill spend the rest of the evening locked in my room while she verifes the man in the cheap hat didnt intend to harm me. I could tell he wasnt dangerous, though. Its hardly the frst time somebodys wanted me to intervene with my father. All his colonies want more than he can give, and its no secret that the most powerful man in the galaxy dotes on his daughters every whim. But thered be no point to Swann hiding me away. I recognized the particular slump of the mans shoulders as the major guided him out. He wont try again. I hope you know what youre doing, Lil. I look up, startled. Shes still talking about Major Merendsen. Just a bit of fun. I toss back the last mouthful of champagne in a way that makes Anna crack a smile in spite of herself. She erases her smile with an effort, summoning a scowl far more suited to Swanns face than hers. Uncle Roderick would be cross, she scolds, sliding into the booth next to me and forcing me to move over. Who cares how many medals the major managed to wrangle in the feld? Hes still just a teachers son. For a girl who spends more nights in someone elses room than her own, Anna is a prude when it comes to me. I cant help but wonder what my father has promised her in exchange for keeping an eye on me on this tripor what hes threatened her with should she fail. I know shes only trying to protect me. Better her than one of my bodyguards, with no reason to cushion the truth when reporting to my father. Anna is one of the only people who knows what Monsieur LaRoux is capable of, when it comes to me. Shes seen what happens to men who look at me the wrong way. There are rumors, of course. Most guys are smart enough to steer clear, but only Anna knows. For all her lectures, Im glad shes here with me. Still, something in me wont let it go. One conversation, I murmur. Thats all, Anna. Do we have to go through this every time? Anna leans in so she can slip her arm through mine and put her head on my shoulder. When we were young, this was my gesturebut weve grown, and Im taller than her now. Im only trying to help, she says. You know what Uncle Roderick is like. Youre all he has. Is it such a ter- rible thing that your fathers devoted to you? I sigh, leaning my head to the side to rest it on hers. If I cant play a little when Im away from him, then whats the use in traveling on my own? Major Merendsen was rather delicious, Anna admits in a low voice. Did you see how well he flled out that uniform? Hes not for you, but maybe I should look up his cabin number. My stomach gives an odd little lurch. Jealousy? Surely not. The move- ment of the ship, then. And yet, faster-than-light travel is so smooth its like standing still. Anna lifts her head, looks at my face, and laughs, the sound a delight- ful, well-practiced tinkle of silver. Oh, dont scowl, Lil. I was only joking. Just dont see him again, or you know Ill have to tell your father. I dont want to, but I cant not do it. Elana, Swann, and the faceless tuxedo return with a hover tray in tow, laden with drinks and hors doeuvres. The girls have given Anna enough time to chastise me, and theyre all smiles as they slide into the booth to join us. Anna sends the tuxedo back to the bar because her drink has a stick of pineapple in it rather than cherries, and she and the other girls titter to one another as they watch him walk away. Its clear why Annas chosen this onehed give the major a good run for his money in the flling-a-suit department. Anna begins describing the tuxedos enthusiastic attempts to court her, much to the amusement of Elana and Swann. Sometimes this kind of conversation is all I wantlight, easy, and not remotely dangerous. It takes the spotlight off of me and puts Anna at center stage, so that all I have to do is smile and laugh. Usually shed have me in stitches by now. But tonight it feels hollow, and its hard for me to let myself go. I glance at the door now and then, but though it swings open and closed dozens of times, its never to admit Tarver Merendsen. Im sure he knows the rules as well as I do, and theres not a person aboard who doesnt know who I am. That he spoke to me at all is a wonder. Though my father made a show of letting me travel by myself for my birthday in New Paris, the truth is that hes always there, in some way or another. There is one tiny comfort, though. At least he left of his own accord, and I didnt have to end him in front of all my friends. After all, on a ship carrying over ffty thousand passengers, the odds of ever encounter- ing again the majors crooked smile and distracting voice are next to nothing. The next two nights Anna and I skip the salon, and go straight to the promenade deck after dinner. We walk arm in arm, and talk out Annas gossip. I know shell still spend the entire night in our adjoining suites draped over the foot of my bed, chatting. Though she never seems to show the effects of not sleeping, I inevitably wake up with purple smudges under my eyes, standing out like bruises on my fair skin. Outside of these voyages, Anna and I never get to spend so much time together. Here, we can be like sisters. And so we walk. Swann is with us as well, of courseI can barely get out of bed without her at my elbowbut if she listens to us, she doesnt comment. Though Annas said nothing else about the major, he hasnt been far from my thoughts. Most of the lower classes, when they speak to me, try to pretend theyre on my level. They fawn over me, dancing attendance, so phony it makes my teeth ache. But the major was candid, genuine, and when he smiled, it didnt seem forced. He acted like he truly enjoyed my company. We turn into the broad sweep of synthetic lawn that curves around the stern of the ship as the lights, timed to the ships clocks, dim past sunset into dusk. The observation windows tint from their daytime image of sunny sky and clouds through gold, orange, pink, and fnally to a starry sky more brilliant than any you could fnd on a planet. Back home on Corinth there are no stars, only the gentle pink glow of the city lights refected in the atmosphere, and the holographic displays of freworks against the clouds. Im watching the window and listening to Anna with only half an ear when her arm in mine tightens convulsively. I nearly stumble as she stops abruptly, but thankfully I catch myself before I can face-plant on the syn- thetic lawn. Tripping over my own feet would land me in the headlines for a week. Annas eyes arent on me but rather fxed on somethingor someonesome distance away. I look over, and my heart drops into my violet satin shoes. Major Merendsen. Has he seen us? Hes speaking to another offcer, head bowed to listen to himmaybe hes distracted enough that he wont notice me. I turn my face away, willing him not to spot me. I curse my unusual hair, too bright to be fashionable or subtle. And why do I insist on jewel tones? If I was dressed like the other girls, maybe I would blend in. What awful backwater posting would my father have him reassigned him to, if Anna reported back that Id been associating with the infa- mous Major Merendsen, teachers son, scholarship student, classless war hero? If only the major realized hed be lucky to make it out with a reassignment. Good heavens, hes actually coming over, Anna murmurs in my ear through a fxed smile. What on earth ails him? I mean, does he suffer from some mental Good evening, Major, I interrupt, cutting off Annas stream of insults before hes close enough to hear them. I hope. The majors fellow offcer waits respectfully some distance back, and my heart sinks even lower. Anna knows the rules, so she and Swann make their excuses and walk some distance ahead, ostensibly to look out the window. Anna glances back at me once shes passed the major, both brows lifted in concern. Dont, her expression warns me. Let him go. I can see a momentary fash of sympathy in her gaze, but that doesnt change the message. They stay within earshot, providing only the illusion of privacy. Swann leans back against the railing, watching us closely. Still, she looks more amused than concerned. She may be lethal when Im in danger, but shes still right at home with the others, thriving on gossip and giggling and the intricate dance of society. Annas used to this rotating roster of body- guards, and she adopts them into our circle as readily as any of our other companions. My father chose well. Good evening, says Major Merendsen. Behind him Anna whis- pers something to Swann, who giggles loudly. The major barely finches, merely smiles a little. Im sorry, I shouldnt have interrupted your eve- ning with your friends. But I never got the chance to ask the other night if youd be interested in seeing the observation decks some evening. You mentioned you hadnt been there much. Anna is staring at me, her green eyes fxed on mine. Theres no sym- pathy there now, only warning. That not even my best friend will keep my secrets is a truth Id rather not face right now. Especially since the most painful part is that I cant even blame her. Theres no one my father cant rule. Not Annanot me. And certainly not Tarver Merendsen. How arrogant can this guy be? Maybe he thinks the rewards are worth it. Men will do just about any- thing for a rich girls attention. If he wont back off on his own, wellIve done this before. Nothing short of absolute annihilation will do. I have to choose my moment with care to maximize the damage. You remembered. I fnd my smile, feeling it spread across my face like a sickly grimace, and turn my attention back to the major. I think my friends will understand if I miss out on one evening. Behind the major, I see Annas face freeze, genuine fear fickering there. I wish I could tell her to wait, not to panic. But that would give me away. His face shifts, the cautious smile widening as some of the tension drains. Its a jolt to realize that he was nervous. That he really, truly, wanted to ask me. His eyes, the same shade of brown as his hair, are fxed on mine. God, if only he werent so handsome. Its a lot easier with the older, fatter men. Are you busy now? Tonight? You certainly dont waste any time, do you? He grins, clasping his hands behind his back. One of the things you learn fast in the service is to act now, think later. Such a change from the circles I travel in, the deliberate games and calculated slips of the tongue. Annas mouthing something at me, but I only catch the end of it. Something about now. Listen, Major Tarver, he corrects me. And you still have the advantage on me, Miss...? It takes me a few seconds to understand what he means. Hes watch- ing me, brows lifted, expectant. Then it hits me. He doesnt know who I am. For a long moment I just stare at him. I cant remember the last time someone spoke to me who didnt know who I was. In fact, I cant think of any time at all. Surely when I was little, before I became the medias darling? But that seems so far away from who I am now, like a movie seen in another lifetime. I wish I could stop, let it sink in, even revel in this moment. Enjoy speaking to someone who doesnt see me as Lilac LaRoux, heiress to the LaRoux Industries empire, richest girl in the galaxy. But I cant stop. I cant let this stupid, foolish soldier be seen with me a second time. Someone will say something to my father, and ignorant or not, Major Merendsen doesnt deserve that. Ive done this before. So why do I have to hunt for the right words to bury him? I must have given you the wrong impression last night, I say airily, summoning my brightest, most amused smile. I try so hard to be polite when Im bored out of my skull, but I guess sometimes that backfres. Theres little reaction to be seen at frst on Major Merendsens face, merely a subtle closing down of the amused eyes, a tightening of the frm mouth. Even so, theres an irrational surge of anger toward him, for being so ignorant as to talk to me at all. You smiled at him frst, a tiny thought points out. And let him retrieve your glove, and bring you a drink, and sit with you. Beyond him I see Anna and Swann about to collapse with laughter, and my jaw starts to clench. The anger shifts. End it now. Make him walk away. Before you break. Did you not understand me? I toss my hair back over my shoulder. I can only hope that if my expression shows how much Im hating myself right now, he reads it as disgust. I suppose its to be expected that youre a little slow. Given your...upbringing. Hes silent, his face utterly wooden. He just stares at me, as the sec- onds draw out. Then he takes a step back and bows. I wont take up any more of your time. If youll excuse me? Of course, Major. I dont wait for him to leave but brush past him to rejoin Anna and Swann, sweeping them up with me in my momen- tum. I want nothing more than to look over my shoulder and see if Major Merendsen is still standing where I struck him down, if hes storming away in anger, if hes following, if hes talking to the offcer he came with. Because I cant look, my imagination conjures a dozen possibilitiesI expect at any moment to feel his hand on my elbow or see him out of the corner of my eye at the elevators away from the promenade deck. Oh, that was brilliant, Lil, gasps Anna, still laughing. Was he actually asking you to accompany him to the observation deck? To see the stars? God, how clich! The faster-than-light vibrations, usually undetectable, are giving me a headache. He didnt know who I was. He wasnt after my money; he wasnt after my fathers business connections. He wasnt after anything, except an evening with me. Suddenly Annas hysterics are like sandpaper on my nerves. It doesnt matter that her laughter helped drive the major away, that she saw me hesitate and understood, that shes only doing her best to protect me from something unthinkable happening again. All that matters is that I had to slap that poor guy in the face, and now shes laughing. If youre jealous, get your tuxedo of the week to take you, I snap. Leaving her and Swann staring after me, I aim for the elevator. Theres a pair of techhead guys there already in their fashing, circuit-laden suits, waiting for the doors to close. When I sweep inside, one of them whis- pers to the other, and muttering something like an apology, they skitter out and leave me alone. In the sound of the doors rushing closed, my mind conjures up the techheads words. Its happened enough times that I dont need to have heard him to know what he said. Oh, spark it. Thats LaRouxs daughter. They catch us in here with her and were dead, man. I lean back against the synthetic wood paneling lining the interior of the elevator and fx my eyes on the symbol emblazoned on the eleva- tor doors. The Greek letter lambda, for LaRoux Industries. My fathers company. Lilac Rose LaRoux. Untouchable. Toxic. I shouldve been named Ivy, or Foxglove, or Belladonna. You next saw her when the i nci dent occur red? Thats cor rect. Di d you tr y to fi gure out what was happeni ng? Youre not mi l i tar y, you don t understand how we wor k. I m not supposed to ask questi ons. I was j ust fol l owi ng orders. What orders were those? We have a duty to protect ci vi l i ans. So there wasn t a speci fi c order that drove your deci si on? Now youre ni tpi cki ng. Were bei ng exact, Maj or. Wed appreci ate i t i f you tr i ed to do the same. THREE TARVER THE AIR LEAVES MY LUNGS WITH A RUSH, pain shooting up my back as I slam down onto the practice mats. The other guy falls with me, and I realize Ive still got a handful of his T-shirt. I suck in a quick breath as I shove my weight to one side, coming up to my knees in one movement so Im looming over him, instead of the other way around. I cant believe I made such an idiot of myself tonight. Everyone in the galaxy knows who Lilac LaRoux is, and I couldnt have glanced at one lousy newscast, watched one of those damn gossip shows, and learned what she looked like? I must be the only guy alive who doesnt know. Normally you couldnt get me near a girl that rich and entitled if you held a gun to my head. What was I thinking? I wasnt thinking at all. I had my mind on dimples and red hair and The guy underneath me pushes up against my shoulder, and I roll it back so he cant get purchase, planting a knee in his chest and draw- ing back my arm. My fst makes it halfway to the guys cheek before he catches it, gripping and twisting so I have to throw myself backward to break free. He scrambles after me, grinning and panting. That all you got, kid? Try harder. Thats all I ever hear. That all you got? Try harder. Be richer. Be smarter. Learn which damn cutlery to use. Speak like us. Think like us. Screw that all the way to hell. A ragged chorus of shouts and swearing in a dozen different languages erupts from the blur of fatigues and faces around us. The only offcer down here is the sergeant overseeing the sparring, and hes not about to tell us to watch our mouths. Wellthe only offcer other than me. But they dont know that. Its only upstairs that everyone recognizes my face from their magazines and newspapers and holovids. Still, I bet they would have recognized Lilac LaRoux. I cant get my mind off of her. Did she think it was funny to play with me like that in front of her friends? I lash out so quickly were both surprised, and theres a crunch, and then the other guys rolling away, hand up in front of his face, blood seeping through his fngers. I draw a breath, and before I can move, the sergeant is leaning down to stick his hand between us, showing me the fat of his palmbout over. I lean back on my elbows, chest heaving as he helps the other guy to his feet and hands him over to one of his buddies to head for the sick bay. Then the sergeant turns back to stand over me, arms folded across his massive chest. Son, one more like that, and youre off the mats, you understand? One more and Ill be speaking to your commanding offcer. Down here its all plain fatigues, khaki T-shirts and pants, and I can ditch my stars and bars and pretend Im a private. Down here Im just eighteen, not an offcer, not a war hero. He doesnt imagine for a moment that I could be a major. I prefer it that way. Some days I wish it was that way. That I could earn my stripes in offcial training, rather than out in the feld like I did, where mistakes cost more than marks on a piece of paper. Yes, Sergeant. My breaths still coming quickly, and I climb to my feet carefully. I want to stay a little longer. The military quarters are utilitarian, the metal skeleton of the ship showing, but Im more at home down here. The air is humid with so many bodies working and sweating, the flters chugging on overtime without much result. These guys are on their way to one of the colonies to put down the latest rebellion. Take away my medals and my feld pro- motion, and Id be traveling in military quarters too, waiting to see what terraformed wonders and pissed-off rebels were waiting for me. I wish. The sergeant sizes me up a moment longer, then turns his head to bellow, parade-ground style. Corporal Adams, front and center. Youre up next. Shes a few years older than me, a couple of inches shorter, blond hair spiked. She shoots me a quick grin as she shakes out her arms and readies herself, and I suck in a breath and square up. Im going to do this until Im tired enough to sleep. Turns out shes fast, shifting her weight nimbly as we circle each other. This is the sort of girl who suits me, quick and direct, none of that upper-decks intrigue. The way she moves reminds me of a line from one of my mothers poems. Quicksilver light and motes of dust. She smiles again, and for an instant I can see Lilac LaRouxs smile, and those blue eyes. But next thing I see is the metal grating across the roof of the deck. Corporal Adams has her bare foot on my throat, and its over. I lift my hands carefully, think about grabbing her ankle, and show her my palms instead. She got me. I should have had my mind on the job at hand. She lifts her foot and leans down to offer me her hand. I grip it, she hauls, and I come up to my feet. Now Miss LaRouxs getting my ass kicked on the sparring mats as well. Is there any part of my life that girl cant mess with? I lace my hands together behind my head, arching my back until the stretch tugs at sore muscles, looking over at the sergeant. He directs the corporal to the next mat over, and closes the distance between us. Son, I dont know what youre working off there, but you might want to try the weapons range, he begins. I dont want my gun. I want someone I can lay into, here in person. Please, Sergeant, I The ground bucks and heaves beneath me and we both stagger backward for an instant I think someones tackled me from behind, and then I realize its the ship herself shaking beneath us. I plant my feet wide apart, waiting to see if theres going to be another tremor. The sparring hall is eerily silent as everyone turns their faces up, waiting for information from the loudspeakers. The Icarus hasnt been anything but perfectly stable in the weeks Ive been on her. Nothing breaks the silence, and I exchange glances with the sergeant. Slowly he shakes his head, broad shoulders lifting in a quick shrug. Wheres the announcement? Therell be more information upstairs. For sure, someone will be tell- ing the rich folks whats going on. Theyd expect nothing less. I toss off a quick salute, and stomp into my boots. When I push through the doors of the silent sparring hall and out into the network of gangways beyond, its like entering another world. Its all soft luxury upstairs, but down here they dont waste an inch. The gangways crisscross over and under each other like spiderwebs, populated by techheads in suits that pulse lights in time with the music around us, emigrants heading for new colonies, tourists taking the cheapest route to other planets, folks making the long haul for family visits. I hear a snatch of worried Spanish on my left, and an Irish curse nearby. A cluster of missionaries bent on bringing comfort and relief to the unenlightened rebels on the new planets stands watching the bustle of humanity like its their frst time off-world. Amid all the sound and movement, theres not a top hat or a corset in sight. Footsteps clang on the metal gantries, voices echoing in a dozen vari- ations on Standard, lesser languages woven in. Everybodys wondering whats going on, but nobody knows. Brightly lit screens ficker nonstop advertisements at methey line the walls and the ceiling, blaring words and songs and jingles. As I work through the crowd toward the frst set of stairs, a 3-D holograph springs to life in front of me, a woman in a hot-pink catsuit throwing her arms wide open to invite me to a club at the aft end of the ship. I walk right through her. My stomach lurches as though Im in for a bout of space sickness. I notice Im not the only one looking uncomfortablethere are other faces in the crowd turning pale as well. I cant be spacesick. Ive been shunted around the universe on ships so badly tuned you could barely hear yourself over the chugging, and all that time I kept my insides on the inside. I must have overdone it on the sparring mats. I can feel the metal gangway beneath me vibrating to the hundreds of sets of footfalls banging down on it, but theres something else under thata tremor that doesnt feel right. Abruptly the vid screens all around me freeze, the jingles and voice-overs cutting out so a womans voice can broadcast up and down the hallways, smooth and professional. Attention all passengers. In a few moments we will be cycling the ships hyperspace engines. This procedure forms a part of our routine maintenance of the Icarus. You may notice some minor vibrations. Thank you for your understanding as we carry out this routine maintenance. She sounds calm, but I wouldnt use the words routine maintenance twice in one announcement myself unless I was trying to keep people from noticing its not. In two years of space travel, I only ever saw a ship cycle her drives once, about six months back near Avon. By the time we got that tub landed, she was more or less held together by spit and good luck. This is the Icarus. Newest, fanciest ship to come out of orbital dock, built by the one corporation in the galaxy big enough to terraform plan- ets all by itself. Im quite sure Roderick LaRoux made certain that spit plays no part in the way she holds together. I jog along the gangway, ignoring legs that feel like theyre weighted down after my sparring session, and start on the next staircase with one hand on the rail, just in case. Its a good callIm halfway up when another one of those minor vibrations hits. The ship shudders so violently this time that a ripple runs along the gangway beneath me. I can track its progress by the way the civilians ranged along it shout and grab at the handrails, knees buckling. The crowds growing frantic, and I turn my body to push through a gap and make for the stairs, then break into a run as I head for the next fight. At the top, I press my palm against the ID plate, and the door slides soundlessly open. I hurry through to the richly carpeted hallways of my own deck. Lilac LaRouxs deck. Its more crowded than usual as folks emerge from their cabins like theyre going to discover some kind of collective wisdom out in the hallways. Another time Id pause to admire these women showing off their unlimited sleepwear budgets, but just now Im moving. I turn for my own cabin as three sharp alarm blasts cut through the soft music that plays in the hallways. The womans voice comes again, this time high with fear, and tense with the attempt to conceal it. Ladies and gentlemen, your attention please. We have experienced diffculty with our hyperspace engines, and the Icarus has suffered substantial damage as a result of the dimensional displacement. We will attempt to keep the ship in hyperspace, but in the meantime, please follow the illuminated strips in the corridors and make your way to your assigned emergency pods immediately. The hallway comes to life. Its clear most of these people wouldnt know their assigned emergency pod if it bowled up, introduced itself, and offered to tango. Im frmly in the camp that reads up on all the safety information the moment they get a chance. You develop that attitude after your frst this-is-not-a-drill emergency evacuation, and Ive had more than one. We military types are all trained to travel with a grab bag. The things you need to take with you if you evacuate, survival gear. None of it is much use out here in deep space, of course, which is the only place youll fnd this ship. She was constructed in orbit. Like a whale, shed collapse under her own weight if exposed to real gravity. Still, Im doubling back before I have time to think about it. I jog up the hallway toward my cabin, fghting my way against the crowd, which is surging along in a panic. I palm my way into my cabin and unhook the bag from where its hanging over the back of the door. Its a basic hiking pack from my cadet days, designed to fold down small. I hesitate, then grab my jacket as well. I need to get three hallways along to my right, then take a left and keep going, though with the crowd growing louder and more unstable by the minute, its going to take a while. I make it to the frst hallway, pass- ing by the doorway that leads out to the observation deck. I glance out sideways through the door. I know what the views meant to beand its not like this. The stars beyond the clear screens blur, then lurch, then come back into focus. Theyre not the long, graceful lines that should be visible in dimen- sional hyperspace. Theyre in focus for a moment, white pinpoints of light, then long blurs again. Ive never seen a view like this beforeits as though the Icarus is trying, and failing, to claw her way back into hyper- space. Im not sure what will happen if shes torn out prematurely, but Im pretty sure nothing good. For a moment something huge and metallic is visible out the corner of the observation window, and then its gone. I crane my neck, trying to catch sight of the object again. Its so massive that it would have its own signifcant gravitational feld, enough to pull the Icarus out of her fight path. I turn back to work my way through the crowd toward my pod. The press of bodies is too thick, and I duck to the side to slide along the guard railing. On these back passages, the railing is all that stands between us and a nasty drop, all the way down at least a dozen levels. As I turn the corner I collide heavily with someone smaller than me, and Im instinc- tively putting my arms out to keep the person from toppling over. Excuse me! says a breathless voice. Sir, watch where youre going! No. Oh, hell no. A pair of blue eyes meet mine, fashing shockthen outragebefore shes shoving me away with all her strength, staggering back against the walkway railing. I unclench my jaw with an effort. Good evening, Miss LaRoux. Drop dead, my tone says. In spite of everythingthe screaming of the crowd, the jostle of bod- ies, the blaring of the ships alarmsI take a moment to savor the shock and dismay on the faces of Miss LaRoux and her companions as they register my sudden reappearance. Im not expecting the surge of people that comes fooding from a side passage. They knock me off balance, but the crowd is so dense that I dont fall. As if Im caught in a violent river current, it takes me a moment to get my feet onto the solid foor again. I catch a glimpse of Miss LaRouxs friends as theyre swept down the corridor. One of them is trying to battle the crowd, make her way back toward me, shouting Miss LaRouxs name and slamming into people right and left. I realize shes had trainingnot just another pretty face. A bodyguard? But even she cant make any headway. The others are already almost out of sight. I see one of them screammouth open, sound drowned outin the same instant I realize Miss LaRouxs not with them. I shove my way through to the railing, trying to catch a glimpse of that brilliant red hair. This panicked crowd is enough to trample the unprepared. With a wall on one side and the balcony railing on the other, theyre channeled wilder and faster every moment, like beasts in a canyon. I see people lifted off their feet, slammed against the wall. Shes not here. Im about to stop fghting the crowd and follow the current when a cry pierces the chaos. I shove my way toward the sound. Im in time to see a fash of green dress and red hair and white face vanish over the railing, as some frantic man twice her size goes barreling down the walkway. Im moving before I have time to think. I swing out over the railing, shifting my grip so I can angle my momentum toward the foor below mine, and jump after her. The girl is standing on a battlefield, and it
s the street she grew up
on. The people here don
t know there
s a war coming, and every
time she opens her mouth to warn them, the city called November drowns her out. A car screeches past, a siren wails, children laugh, a holoboard starts playing its looped ad high above. The girl screams, but only the pigeons at her feet notice. Startled, they fly upward and disappear into the bright patchwork maze of laundry lines and lanterns crisscrossing overhead. No one hears her. ONE JUBILEE THERES A GUY STARING AT ME from the other end of the bar. I can only see him because Im in the habit of leaning forward, elbows on the plastene surface, so I can see past the row of heads. From here I can keep an eye on the whole place by watching the bartenders mirror overhead. And the guy Im watching is using the same trick. Hes new. For one thing I dont recognize him, but for another hes got that look. Defnitely a recruit, with something to prove, like they all do at frst. But hes still glancing around, careful not to bump into the other guys, not too familiar with anyone else. Hes wearing a uniform T-shirt, jacket, and fatigues, but the clothes are ill-ftting, the tiniest bit too tight. Could be because hes so new, they havent ordered them in his size yet. Could also be because the uniform isnt his. Still, the new ones know by the end of their frst week not to hit on Captain Chase, even when shes at Molly Malones. Im not interested. Eighteen is pretty young to take yourself off the market, but its safer to send them all the same message from day one. But this guy...this guy makes me pause. Makes me forget all of that. Dark tumbly hair, thick brows, dangerously sweet eyes. Sensuous mouth, tiny smirk barely hidden at its corner. Hes got a poets mouth. Artistic, expressive. He looks oddly familiar. Beads of condensation form around my fn- gers as I hold my drink. Scratch thatId remember this guy if Id seen him before. All good? The bartender comes between us, leaning on the bar and tilting his head toward me. Its a crappy bar on a crappy makeshift street, wistfully named Molly Malones. Some ghost story from the Irish roots claimed by this particular cluster of terraforming fodder folk. Molly is a three-hundred-pound bald Chinese man with a tattoo of a chrysanthe- mum on his neck. Ive been a favorite of his ever since I landed here, not least because Im one of the only people who can speak more than a word or two of Mandarin, thanks to my mother. I raise an eyebrow at him. Trying to get me drunk? I live an dream an hope, babe. Someday, Molly. I pause, my attention returning to the mirror. This time, the guy sees me looking and meets my gaze unapologetically. I fght the urge to jerk my eyes away, and lean closer to the bartender. Hey, Molwhos the new guy down at the end? Molly knows better than to look over his shoulder and starts rinsing out a new glass instead. The pretty one? Mmm. Said he was just posted here, trying to get a feel for the place. Hes asking lots of questions. Odd. The fresh meat usually comes in herd form, entire platoons of wide-eyed, nervous boys and girls all shuffing wherever theyre told. A little voice in my head points out thats not really fair, that I was meat once too, and only two years ago. But theyre so woefully unprepared for life on Avon that I cant help it. This ones different, thoughand hes all alone. Wariness tingles at the base of my neck, my gaze sharpening. Here on Avon, different usually means dangerous. Thanks, Molly. I fick the condensation on my fngertips at him, and he finches away and grins before turning back to his more demand- ing customers. The guys still staring at me. The smirk is not quite so hidden now. I know Im staring back, but I dont really care. If he really is a soldier, I can say I was sizing him up in an offcial capacity, looking for warning signs. Just because Im off duty doesnt mean I can leave my responsibili- ties behind. We dont get much warning when were about to lose one to the Fury. He doesnt look much older than I am, so even if he enlisted the day he turned sixteen he wont have more than two years of service under his belt. Enough to get cockynot enough to know he should wipe that grin off his face. A few weeks on Avon will do that for him. Hes chis- eled, with a chin so perfect, it makes me want to hit it. The shadow of stubble along his jaw only emphasizes the lines of his face. These guys invariably end up being assholes, but from this distance hes just beauti- ful. Like he was put together by an artist. Guys like this make me want to believe in God. The missionaries should really start recruiting guys like him before the military can get to them. After all, you dont have to be pretty to shoot people. But I think it probably helps if youre trying to spread your faith. With my eyes on his in the mirror overhead, I give a deliberate jerk of my chin to summon him over. He gets the message, but takes his time about responding. In an ordinary bar on an ordinary planet, itd mean he wasnt interested or was playing hard to get. But since Im not after what people in ordinary bars are after, his hesitation makes me pause. Either he doesnt know who I am or he doesnt care. It cant be the former everyone on this rock knows Captain Lee Chase, no matter how freshly arrived. But if its the latter, hes no ordinary recruit. Some stooge from Central Command, trying to lie low by dressing like us? A feld agent for Terra Dynamics, come to see if the militarys doing its job in preventing an all-out uprising? Its not unheard of for a corpo- ration to send in spies to make sure the government is holding up its end of the terraforming agreement. Which only makes our job harder. The corporations are constantly lobbying to be able to hire private mercs, but since the Galactic Council doesnt exactly relish the thought of privately funded armies running around, theyre stuck petitioning for government forces. Maybe hes from the Galactic Council, here to spy on Avon before their planetary review in a couple months. No matter who he is, it cant be good news for me. Why cant these people leave me alone and let me do my job? The dark-haired guy picks up his beer and makes his way over to my end of the bar. He puts on a good show of eager shyness, like hes surprised to be singled out, but I know better. Hey, he says by way of greeting. I dont want you to panic, but your drink appears to be blue. Its one of Mollys concoctions, which he sometimes gives me for free as an excuse to actually mix drinks instead of flling pitchers of beer. I make a snap decision. If he wants to play it coy, I can do coy right back. Hes not exactly hard on the eyes, and this curiosity is tugging at meI want to see what happens if I go along with it. I know he cant be interested in me. At least not the way hes pretending to be. I fsh out the plastic swordits hot pinkfrom the martini glass and suck the cherries off of it, one by one. The guys eyes fx on my lips, sending a brief surge of satisfaction through me. Molly doesnt get much opportunity to mix drinks hereand I dont get much opportunity to firt. I let my lips curve in a smile and lean in a fraction. I like it blue. His mouth opens to respond, but instead hes forced to clear his throat at length. Got a touch of the swamp bug? I feign concern. Mollyll take care of that for you. His drinksll cure anything, from wounded feelings to appendicitis. That so? Hes found his voice again, and his smile. Theres a gleam behind the aw-shucks new-boy persona hes wearing: pleasure. Hes enjoy- ing himself. Well, so are you, points out a snide little voice in my head. I shove it aside. If you give it a second, well fnd out if itll turn my tongue blue, to boot. That an invitation to make a personal inspection? I can see some of my platoon at a table in the background, watch- ing me and the new guy, no doubt waiting to see if I rip off something important. Play your cards right. He laughs, leaning sideways against the bar. Its a bit of a capitulation, a pause in the game. Hes not so much hitting on me as feeling me out. I set my drink down on the bar next to a set of initials scratched into the composite surface. They were here before I ever showed up, and their owner is long gone. This is the part where youd ordinarily introduce yourself, Romeo. And ruin my mystique? The guys thick brows go up. Pretty sure Romeo kept his mask on when he met Jubilee. Juliet, I correct him, trying not to finch at his use of my whole name. He must be new, not to know how much I hate that. Still, hes given me a valuable hint. If this guy knows Shakespeare, hes got to have been educated somewhere off-world. The swamp-dwellers can barely read an instruction manual, much less ancient classics. Oh, a scholar? he replies, eyes gleaming. This is a strange place to fnd a girl like you. So, whod you offend to get stuck on Avon? I lean back against the bar, propping myself on my elbows. One hand fdgets with the plastic sword, weaving it back and forth through my fngers. Im a troublemaker. My favorite kind of girl. Romeo meets my eyes with a smile, then looks away. But not before Ive seen it: hes tense. Its subtle, but Ive been trained to notice the invisible currents, the ebb and fow of a persons energy. A muscle tic here, a line of tension there. Sometimes its all the warning you get before someone tries to blow themselves up, and take you with them. Adrenaline sharpens my senses as I lean forward. The air in here smells of spilled beer, cigar smoke, and air freshenernone of which is strong enough to drown out the invasive smell of the swamp outside. I try to shut out the sound of my platoon laughing in the background and look more closely at Romeo. I cant tell, in the low light, whether his pupils are dilated. If hes new to the planet, he shouldnt have had time to succumb to the Furyunless hes been transferred here from some- where else on Avon. He shifts his weight under my scrutiny, then straightens. Listen, he says, his voice getting brisker, let me settle for your drink, and Ill leave you to your evening. Somehow hes gotten a read on me. He knows Im suspicious. Hang on. I reach out to lay my hand on his arm. Its a gentle touch, but frm. Hell have to jerk away if he wants to leave before Im ready to let him go. Youre not a soldier, I say fnally. And not a local. Quite the little puzzle. Youre not going to leave me so unsatisfed, are you? Unsatisfed? The guys smile doesnt ficker a millimeter. Hes good. Hes got to be a spy from one of TerraDyns competitors. Nova Tech or SpaceCorp, or any one of the neighboring corporations with space staked out on Avon. Thats unkind, Captain Chase. I abandon pretense. I never told you who I was. Like Stone-faced Chase needs an introduction. Though youd never catch my platoon calling me that, at least to my face, the nickname caught on like wildfre after my frst few days here. I dont reply, scanning his features and trying to fgure out why he looks so familiar. If hes a criminal, maybe Ive seen his picture in the database. He makes a small attempt to free his arm to test how badly I want to hold on to him. Look, Im just a guy trying to buy a girl a drink. So why dont you let me do that, and then we can go our separate ways and dream about what mightve been? I clench my jaw. Listen, Romeo. My fngers tightenI can feel the tense muscle beneath my hand. Hes no weakling, but Im better trained. How about instead, we go to HQ and chat there? The muscle in his forearm under my palm twitches, and I glance at his hand. Its emptybut then he shifts his weight, and suddenly theres something digging into my ribs, held in his other hand. He had a gun tucked inside his shirt. Goddammit. Its ancient, a tarnished bal- listics weapon, not one of the sleek Gleidels Im used to. No wonder hes wearing a jacket despite the heat inside the bar. The long sleeves are concealing his genetag tattoo, the spiral design on the forearm that all the locals get at birth. Sorry. He leans close to me to conceal the gun between us. I really did just want to pay for your drink and get out of here. Beyond him I can see my guys, heads together, laughing and occasion- ally peeking our way. Though half of them are well into their twenties, they still act like a bunch of gossips. Mori, one of my oldest soldiers, meets my eyes for a momentbut she looks away before I can convey anything through my gaze. Alexis there too, his pink hair gelled up, looking way too interested in the wall. From their perspective, Im let- ting this guy drape himself all over me. Stone-faced Chase, getting a little action for once. Troops cycle in and out of Avon so often that all of those here have only known the past few months ceasefretheir senses arent battle-sharpened. Theyre not suspicious enough. Are you kidding me? My own weapon is on my hip, but were close enough that he could easily shoot me before I reach it. You cant actu- ally think this is going to work. You havent really given me much choice, have you? He glances down at the holster on my hip. You seem a little overdressed, Captain. Leave the gun on the stool there. Slowly. I roll my eyes toward Molly, but hes leaning back drying glasses and watching the holovid over the end of the bar. I try to catch someones eyeanyones eyebut theyre all carefully ignoring me, all too eager to tell stories later about how they saw Captain Chase get picked up at Mollys. My abductor shields me with his body as I reach for my Gleidel and set it down where he indicates. He wraps a hand around my waist, turning me toward the door. Shall we? Youre an idiot. I clench my hands, the pink cocktail skewer digging into my palm. Then I turn a little, making a token struggle to test his grip and the distribution of his weight. Therehes leaning a little too far forward. I tense my muscles and jerk, leaning back and giving my arm a twist. It hurts like hell, but He grunts, and the barrel of the gun digs more sharply into my rib cage. But he doesnt let me go. Hes good. Damn, damn, DAMN. Youre not the frst person to say so, he says, breathing a little faster. Fineow, Im going, okay? I let him steer me toward the door. I could call his bluff, but if hes stupid enough to bring a gun onto a mili- tary base, he might be stupid enough to fre it. And if this blows up into a frefght, my people could get hurt. Besides, someone will stop us. Alexi, surelyhe knows me too well to let this happen. Someone will see the gunsomeone will remember that Captain Chase doesnt leave the bar with strange guys. She doesnt leave the bar with anyone. Someone will realize somethings wrong. But no one does. As the door swings closed behind us, I hear a low sound of whistles and catcalls in the bar as my entire platoon starts jeer- ing and gossiping like a bunch of old hens. Bastards, I think furiously. Im going to make you run so many laps in the morning, youll wish YOU had been carried off by a rebel. Because thats who this is. I dont know how he knows Shakespeare, or where he got his training, but hes got to be one of the swamp rats. They call themselves the Fiannawarriorsbut theyre all just blood- thirsty lawbreakers. Who else would dare infltrate the base with nothing but a pistol that looks like its from the dawn of time? At least that means theres no danger of him snapping into mindless violence, since Avons deadly Fury only affects off-worlders. I only have to worry about the average, everyday violence that comes so easily to these swamp-dwellers. He tugs me off the main path and into the shadows between the bar and the supply shed next door. Then it hits me: Im not going to be mak- ing anyone run laps in the morning. Im a military offcer, being captured by a rebel. Im probably never going to see my troops again, because Ill be dead by morning. With a snarl, I jam my hand back and down, sending the blade of the pink plastic cocktail sword deep into the guys thigh. Before he has time to react, I give it a savage twist and snap off the hilt, leaving the hot-pink plastic embedded in the muscle. At least I wont go without a fght. The boys are playing with firecrackers in the alley, stolen from the strings in the temple. The girl watches through a hole in the wall, her face pressed against the crumbling brick. Yesterday it was the Lutheran priest
s turn in the temple, but tomorrow is a wedding,
and it
s her mother
s turn to convert the tiny box of a building at
the end of the street to match too-distant memories of traditional ceremonies on Earth. The boys are lighting the firecrackers and seeing who can hold on to the red sticks longest before tossing them away to snap like gunfire in the air. The girl squeezes through a gap in the wall and runs to snatch a lit firecracker from the biggest boy. Her skin crawls with the hiss and heat of the fuse, but she refuses to let go. TWO FLYNN PAIN SEARS DOWN MY LEG, and my grip loosens for an instant. Shes away like a fash. I have only a split second to act, and if I miss, shes going to kill me. I leap back as she swings at me, and the night is shattered by the sound of a gunshot. My gun. She goes sprawling into the mud with a gasp of pain, but I dont have time to consider what damage I might have done. Everybody on the base will have heard the shot, and even with the echo bouncing around the buildings, theyll fnd me soon enough. I start to reach for her, but shes already moving; shes not badly hurt, or else adrenaline is holding her together. She kicks out, her foot con- necting with my arm and numbing it from the elbow down. The gun goes sliding along the wet ground. We both lunge after it. Her elbow jabs at my solar plexus, missing it by an inchIm left wheezing rather than half dead, dragging in air as I force myself to move. She scrambles ahead of me and I grab at her ankle, scrabbling in the mud to drag her back again before she can grab the gun or shout for backup. She may be trained, but Im fghting for my family, my home, my free- dom. Shes fghting for a goddamn paycheck. For a long moment theres only the harsh staccato of our breathing as we fght to get ahead of one another. Then my hand fnds the famil- iar grip of my grandfathers pistol. I jab my elbow back at her face; she dodges it easily, but it throws her off enough for me to roll over and end up with the gun pointed between her eyes. She goes still. I can only see the dark, furious glitter of her eyes meeting mine. I cant speak, too winded, too shell-shocked. Slowly, she lifts her hands, palms out. Surrender. I want nothing more than to collapse in the mud. But I can hear the shouts of soldiers looking for intruders, hunting for the source of the gunshot. Ive got no time. I need to get her to my currachif I leave her here shell be found too quickly and I wont have enough time to vanish into the swamp. I give the gun a jerk, silently ordering the soldier to her feet. I stagger up myself, then grab for her arm to turn her around and twist it behind her back. I rest the barrel of the gun against her lower spine, where she can feel it. My fngers are wet and sticky with her blood, but its too dark to tell how much there is. I know I hit her; I saw her fall. But shes on her feet, so the wound isnt slowing her down that much. I must have only grazed her side with the bullet. I try to calm my breathing, listening for the soldiers. Getting off the base is going to be a hell of a lot harder now; I wish I had time to cam- oufage myself with the mud at our feet. Her skins brown and more diffcult to see in the low lighting, but mines the pale white that comes from living on a planet with constant cloud cover. I practically glow in the dark. Well? Shes panting. Whats it going to be? You could at least have the decency to aim for my heart and not my head. Ill look prettier at my funeral. Theres something very wrong with you, Captain, I tell her, keeping her close. Her black hairs escaping her ponytail, tickling my face and getting into my eyes. You dont invite a thing like that around here. As if you need an invitation, she growls, and though shes com- pletely still, I can almost feel her humming with anger. I cant let her go. Shed never let me go. She shoves back roughly, sending pain spearing down my leg. I shift my grip on the gun, letting it press against her a little harder. It was easy to get the new recruits talking, but their security clearance is way too low to have any useful information. But trying to get close to Captain Chase for information was another matter entirely. What was I thinking? Sean would laugh if he could see me now: the Fiannas biggest pacifst holding Avons most notorious soldier at gunpoint. Ill recognize your pretty face anywhere now, you know that. Theres a smug satisfaction in her tone, underneath her anger. Like winning the point is what matters, even if it means she ends up dead. You have to get rid of the problem. Pg mo thin, trodaire, I mutter, tightening my grip. Kiss my ass, soldier. Captain Chase lets off a string of what sound like insults in return, though I dont understand the language. She doesnt look like shes got any Irish in her, probably has no idea what I said. But she recognized my tone, as easily as I can tell shes cursing right back at me, speaking... Chinese, maybe? She looks like she might have that ancestry in her blood somewhere, but with the off-worlders its hard to tell. She gives a savage twist and then gasps as the movement wrenches at her wound. Its lucky I managed to graze her, because I wouldnt be able to keep hold of her otherwise. Shes even stronger than she looks. My mind races. This isnt over yet, and I can still turn it to my advan- tage if I think quickly. The recruits in the bar may not have known about the hidden facility to the east, but now I have a captain, and one whos been on Avon longer than any other soldier. Who better to get me that info than the militarys golden child? That facility scares me too much to ignore. Until I saw it a few hours ago, Id never clapped eyes on it. I dont know how they hid the construc- tion. It appeared out of nowhere, surrounded by fences and spotlights. From the outside, theres no way to tell whats in there: weapons, new search drone technology, ways to destroy the Fianna we havent thought of. Until we know why the facility is there, every minute is danger. I give her a shove and start moving toward the perimeter of the base, keeping to the shadows and away from the surveillance cameras. Ever seen the beauty of the outer swamps? I suppose out there they wont fnd my body at all. Smart. Does your platoons psych attendant know about this obsession with your own death? Just trying to be helpful, she mutters through gritted teeth. Were not far from where I snuck in through their fencing. Im sure on a more high-tech world, the perimeter would light up with lasers and six kinds of alarm bells, but out here beyond the edge of civilization, the soldiers are stuck with wire fences and foot patrols. Central Command spends as little as it can get away with to supply them, and it shows. On top of that, the last few months of ceasefre have made them lazy. Their patrols arent what they should be. I can hear the search parties on the other side of the base, but here where it butts up against the town, its quieter. They always think the rebels will come from the swamp. Like were not smart enough to walk around to approach from the town, where theres less protection. I can tell she starts thinking about those search parties about the same time as I doshe draws breath to shout, and I dig the barrel of the gun into her skin in warning. Were both still for a long, tense moment as she decides whether to call my bluff. Im praying she doesnt. She lets the air out of her lungs in a furious capitulation. I kick at the wire until the place I wound the severed ends back together gives way, and then were outside her territory and into the swamp beyond. The marsh stretches out before us into the gloom, mudfats and bare rock interspersed with a thousand winding creeks and streams. The waters as muddy as the land and half concealed by reeds and rotting algae, so nobody but the locals can tell where the solid ground is until they put their feet down. The foating clumps of vegetation mean the waterways are constantly shiftingdeeper, shallower, interconnecting in different ways each week as mud and algae fow sluggishly. Most of the swamp is a murky black right now, the permanent clouds above us blocking any hint of light from the stars. We were taught there are a couple of moons up there too, somewhere, coaxing the waters to fow this way and that. But Ive never once seen themonly the clouds, always the clouds. Avons sky is gray. My currach is pulled up and beached on the mud by the fence, her fat-bottomed hull of sturdy plastene a battered contrast to the military patrol boats. I dont mind her, thoughshe can go places they dont even see, without making a sound. I push Jubilee ahead of me, down toward the waters edge, and she growls a wordless protest. You know, most people fnd me charming. I keep talking in her ear, hoping to keep her too distracted to think of a way out of this. Even you looked keen on me for a sec there, Jubilee. I hear her huff. Using her name annoys her for some reasongood. One more way to keep her off balance. Maybe you just need to give me a second chance. I shove her forward into the currach and knock the lid off the fuel can with my foot. The crude gasoline were forced to use is so toxic, I can smell the fumes from here, but I grab her collar to shove her face down against the can. With an indignant protest she sucks in a lungful of vapor. It takes her a few seconds to push past the pain and work out what Im doing, but shes inhaled enough that her limbs dont work. When she tries to push me away, her legs give out and she slips, wrenching free of me to thump down into the bottom of the boat. For a moment our eyes meet in the dim light. Her gaze is furious as she struggles to stay conscious, trying to push up on one elbow. Then shes gone, her head falling back to thunk against the plastene hull. I lean in carefully to peel back her eyelids, but shes out. Shell have a screaming headache when she wakes, but its better than hitting her over the head. Too easy to misjudge the blow and end up killing her instead. Without wasting another second, I fick on the safety, stick my gun into my waistband, and shove off with my foot. The currach glides swift and silent through the water. I cant risk a light, not when I can see the lights of the base security forces dancing behind me, still searching for the intruder. I navigate by feel, unclipping the pole from the gunwale and using soft, quick touches ahead and around me to make sure Im keeping to the channel that will lead me away from danger. By the time they get searchlights sweeping the stretch of swamp beyond the fences, Im too far away for the light to reach. I keep expect- ing to feel a hand on my ankle, or the captains fst meeting my gut, but she doesnt stir. As soon as the sounds of shouts carrying across the water begin to fade and I can no longer see the distant lights of the base, I stop long enough to fnd my lantern and light it. We use algae to coat the glass, giving the light an eerie green-brown wash; occasionally the soldiers spot our boats or our signal lights, and the camoufage can make them dis- miss what theyve seen as the will-o-the-wisps so feared in this swamp. What they dont know is that anyone whod seen a real wisp could never confuse it with one of our lanterns. I hang the lantern on its spur rising from the bow and turn back to the unconscious trodaire in the bottom of the currach. Theres no way out of this now. Whether or not she can shed light on whats happening in the stretch of no-mans-land east of the base, she knows my face. She may not know my name yet, but if she manages to connect me with my sister, shell personally lead the hunt until she has my head on a platter she wont need their so-called Fury as an excuse for taking me apart piece by piece. Taking out Captain Chase would be a huge blow for the trodair, and a triumph for us. I know at least two dozen Fianna who would shoot her without hesitation and sleep just fne tonight. If I came back with her body, my people would love me for it. I let my breath out slowly, and my thumb hovers over the safety on my grandfathers pistol tucked in my waistband. But that way is a pit, one my sister couldnt escape once she fell into it. Ive heard more stories about this girl than any ten other trodair put together. They claim shes the only one unaffected by what the soldiers call Avons Fury. Probably because she doesnt need to fall back on that thin excuse to commit violence against my peopleaccording to the sto- ries, she practically embraces it. They talk about how she single-handedly cleared out the resistance cell on the southern edge of TerraDyn territory. How the soldiers under her command are the fastest to respond, the frst on the scene, the fercest fghters. How she skins rebels alive just for fun. I wasnt so sure about that last one until I saw how she looked at me after I pulled my gun on her. But at least one of the stories is true. My cousin Sean nearly got his head blown off by her platoon a week after she took command, and when I asked him what she was like, he said she was mind-twistingly hot. He had that part right. If only she werent a murderer-for-hire. My best hope is to force her to tell me what she knows about the facility maybe even get me inside for a look aroundthen split. At least Ill have a head start when the hunt begins. I tear my eyes away and concentrate once more on the pole. The cur- rach glides true through the water, my path lit only a few meters ahead by my dim green lamp. I ought to feel better, lighter, with every minute I put between us and the bright lights of the base, but I know this is not a victory. The soldier in the bottom of my boat will stop at nothing to kill me and escape when she wakes; and if the rest of the Fianna discover I have her, theyll stop at nothing to kill her. Our ceasefre will be over, my people forced once more into a war they cannot hope to win. I have to work fast. This time the dream is fragmented, arriving in razor-edged shards that don
t fit together and slice at her memory. The girl is on
Paradisa, and she
s trying to climb a wall. Time
s up, yells the ser-
geant, making her arms shiver with exhaustion as her toes scrabble for purchase against the plastene. She wants to let go and drop to the ground. But when she looks down, her mother is there, with that always-tired sigh, that soft- eyed hint of disappointment. Her father is there, hands grimy in grav-engine grease, a bullet hole in his head. The sergeant shouts at her again to give up and this time she screams back, using a word that will later earn her a week digging trenches. There are too many ghosts down there to let go. THREE JUBILEE IVE GOT THE HANGOVER FROM HELL. My heads pound- ing; how much did I have to drink at Mollys last night? Except thats impossible. I havent had a hangover since the morning after I was fnally accepted into basic training. It was technically three weeks shy of my sixteenth birthday, and therefore illegal for me to drink. But after I tried to get into the military for three years running by lying about my age, they fnally caved and bent the rules. What was three weeks? Odds were Id be dead within the year anyway. Might as well let the cannon fodder have a few beers frst. But once was enough. It wasnt the drinking or even really the hang- over that got meit was being less than capable on my frst day of training. There, all it meant was that I didnt make the best frst impres- sion on my instructors, and let my sparring partner pin me in less than a minute. No big deal. But out here, being at less than one hundred percent could mean death. And Ive never had more than a few drinks at a time since then. So why do I feel like tossing the contents of my stomach all over the foor? The ground sways under me, and I force my eyes open, ignoring the way my eyelids feel like theyre lined with sandpaper. The frst thing I see is the blank, slate-gray expanse of Avons unchanging night sky. I try to sit up and fall over sideways, making the foor shudder and sway; my hands are bound and tied to something. A fash of agony rips up my side, carrying with it the memory of a bullet splitting my skin. Bad idea, Captain, says an infuriatingly cheerful voice somewhere above and behind me. If you capsize us, I dont really fancy your chances of swimming to solid ground while tied to a sinking boat. I lift my head, squinting at the guy standing backlit over me. Romeo. At least if I drown, I wheeze, my voice sounding like gravel, your friends wont have the pleasure of stringing me up from the rafters at your little hideout. Romeo narrows his eyes at me, brows drawing in as he pushes us off a clump of vegetation with one of the long poles the natives use. We dont hang soldiers, he retorts with exaggerated outrage. We burn them at the stake. It takes ages to collect the fuel, given the landscape. Its quite a special occasion. I snort, using the sound to disguise the creak as I test the strength of the boat rib Im tied to. Despite how shoddy-looking the boat is, the rib doesnt give. But being tied up is the least of my problems. Avons perpetual cloud cover means theres no navigating by starlight, the way were trained to do in survival situations. The swamp stretches as far as the eye can see, giving me no reference points, no way to tell what direction were going. Even the occasional spires of rock thrusting upward look alike. Theyre sharp as razor blades; Avons only had wind and water to erode them for a few generations, barely a heartbeat in geological time. The waterways between islands and foating masses of vegetation shift so rapidly that from day to day, the same patch of swamp can look entirely different. I have no idea where we are. And being lost, on Avon, is deadlier than being a soldier in the middle of a pack of bloodthirsty rebels. Theres a dingy lantern hanging from a pole in the bow, casting a dim light over the water. We must be far enough from the base that Romeo feels safe using light. I strain my eyes, trying to get my bearings, but all I get are spots swimming in front of my vision. My soldiers some- times claim they can see things out here, lights that seem to lead off into the swamp. The rebels call them will-o-the-wisps, out of some fairy tale from ancient Earth. In all my time here, Ive never seen anything but my own mind playing tricks on meand, I suppose, the occasional rebel lantern bobbing through the marsh. But when youre surrounded by nothingness, your eyes will create anything to keep you from feeling alone. I blink hard to clear the spots dancing in front of my eyes. Why do this instead of killing me on the base? I say fnally, twisting my wrists, trying to see how much give there is in the rope. Not much. Its thick from repeated soakings, and stiff with age. Are you planning some public execution? Romeos lips press together more tightly, but this time he keeps his eyes on the swamp ahead of us as he poles through the clumps of foat- ing algae. You really are insane. My mind is racing, taking stock of my injuries. My head aches from the gas fumes, sending spikes of nausea rippling through me, and my side hurts. But there doesnt seem to be much blood, so he cant have wounded me that badly. I dont see why its crazy to want to know exactly how you plan on murdering me. Im not done yet. All things considered, Im in decent shape. I can still get out of this. I dont plan on murdering you at all. Romeo still wont meet my eyes. That might be your frst instinct, but its not mine. Youre going to get me inside the facility youve been hiding from us and show me exactly what youre doing in there. My frst instinct was to arrest you, I snap. Youre the one who brought a gun to my bar. I keep staring behind us, but theres no sign of the lights from the military base. What facility? The secret base to the east. It wasnt there last week, and now theres a full setup. Buildings, security fencing, the works. Ive seen it, you dont need to pretend. I want to know how you got it set up so fast, and with- out anybody knowing. I want to know what its for. My hands go still, my attempt to escape momentarily forgotten. Secret base, I echo, trying to quell the dread rising in my gut. Its one thing to be captured by a rebel. Its another to be taken into the swamp by a delusional madman. Act as surprised as you want, he replies with a shrug. But youre getting me inside that facility. His face is impassive, but hes not as good at concealing his hand as he thinks he is. Theres a thread of white-hot desperation in his features, a tension pinching his lips and eyes Ive seen before, countless times. For the frst time, I wonder if he was telling the truth before, that he really was in the bar looking for informationand not a target for that antique gun of his. My mind races. Theres no base to the east of useven if the military had the funding to expand to a second base in this part of TerraDyns territory, which we dont, thered be no reason to keep it a secret. But he believes it. I can see that as clearly as I can see his desperation. This is a good thing, I tell myself. Even if hes mad, hes still only one guy. If Id ended up in their rebel hideout, Id be dead for sure. But here...theres still a chance I could escape. For now, my only hope is to play along. So what is it you think youre going to fnd in this secret facility? Romeo doesnt answer straight away, leaving me watching as he poles the boat through the swamp. Though there is an engine hanging off the stern, he hasnt touched it since I came to. This poling technique is one a few of us have campaigned for training on from HQ, but to no avail. Were forced to navigate the swamps with noisy engines that get clogged every fve minutes with swamp debris, while the natives slip through the narrow corridors soundlessly. A military patrol could pass not ffty yards away from us and never know we were here. He pauses, withdrawing the pole and laying it across the boat so we merely drift along with the sluggish current. Hes favoring his leg, which has a makeshift bandage tied around it where I embedded that plastic cocktail sword. It gives me a surge of satisfaction to think that he prob- ably doesnt have the tools out here to fsh out the broken piece. He drops down onto the bench, letting me see his face more clearly. He still looks oddly familiar, though Im sure I would have remembered him if wed met before tonight. What am I going to fnd? he asks, reaching for a canteen stowed underneath the seat and taking a long drink from it. You tell me. I cant tell you, I say, trying to hide my irritation. And my thirst, watching him swallow. Play along, I remind myself savagely. Earn his trust, such as it is. Use it to get out of this mess. I would if I could, but Ive never heard of a facility to the east. Romeo rolls his eyes. Right. Well, there could be anything in there. Weapons, maybe. Some new tool to fush us out of the caves, for all I know. It has to be out of the ordinary for you to get it set up so fast, and with such secrecy. I peer through the fog. Its growing lighter, which means I mustve been unconscious for at least a few hours. Dawn is approaching. Thats what you risked capture for, snooping around on my base? We already have weapons that outmatch yours ten to one. Weve already tried every state-of-the-art technology to fnd your hideout. This swamp of a planet makes it impossible. Romeo grins at me, a smile that would be charming if there werent something darker behind it. All that effort to fnd me, and you say you dont like me? He winks, holding the canteen up to my lips like its a peace offering. I could kick at his kneeshe didnt tie my feet, and hes within reach now. I could knock him from his seat, have him in the swamp before he knew what was going on. But then what? I give in to my thirst and lean forward to take a pull from the canteen. I watched him drink from the same fask, so its not going to be poisoned or drugged. Avons muddy-favored water never tasted so good. Romeo sighs, setting the canteen back down when Im fnished. Look, Captain. He regards me with keen, thoughtful green eyes, as casual as if he were chatting with a friend and not interrogating his enemy. I want a way out of this war for all of us. But frst I want to know why Avon is generations behind where it should be on its terraforming schedule. You say that facility out there isnt military; if thats true, then it belongs to Terra Dynamics. Im tired of them keeping secrets from us. The plan- etary reviews coming up, and if someones deliberately slowing down Avons progress, our side wants to know how. Surprise robs me of any clever retort. You think theres a secret facil- ity in the middle of the swamp where were controlling the climate. His eyes cloud over, and without further warning he gets back to his feet, bracing them against the ribs and reaching for the pole once more. I wouldnt expect one of their hired guns to care anyway. Hired gun? I swallow down the impulse to lash back at him. If all I wanted was money, there are about a thousand careers I could have cho- sen instead of volunteering to get tossed onto this mudball and paid next to nothing to keep the peace. I grit my teeth. Why would we want to stop Avon from developing, even if we could? What could the military or TerraDyn possibly stand to gain from that? If Avon stays like this, too unstable to support a bigger popula- tion, well never have enough leverage to pass the planetary review and be declared independent. We should be farmers by now, not fghters. We should be leading our own lives, earning wages, trading, able to come and go from Avon as we please. Instead were stuck here. No voice in the Galactic Council, no leverage, no rights. Hes got a surprising grasp of the politics of the situation, for some- one who probably stopped going to school before he was ten years old. You really think TerraDyns goal is to sit here and oppress a bunch of backwater terra-trash? They paid good money to create this part of the world. I dont see how they start making that money back until Avon starts producing enough goods to export. Romeos jaw tightens. They must. Otherwise, you tell me why nobodys trying to fnd out why were all still algae farmers and water testers. Not all of you are, I point out dryly. Some of you are thieves and murderers and anarchists living underground. Why, Jubilee, he says, grinning when the use of my full name makes my cheek twitch with irritation. I had no idea you admired me so. I refuse to dignify that with a response, and fall silent. I have no answer to his question. Terraforming experts come and go, but Avon never changes. And its true that while Avons lack of development prompts a new investigation every few years, the results are always the same: cause unknown. If Romeo would stop asking so many questions, he and his so-called Fianna would be a lot better off. Dawn has well and truly broken now, as much as dawn ever comes on Avon. In the thick, cold fog, the edges of the world slip away, leaving only our little boat and the sloshing of the water as the pole dips in and out. Romeos breath catches with each effort, hitching and stopping as he strains against the pole, then exhaling the rest of the way as he eases back and lifts it for another stroke. Hes not using a compass. Compasses are useless on Avon anyway, which doesnt have the right kind of magnetic feld, and Avons weather patterns make satellite signals as unreliable as our broadcasts on the base. Even when they do work, with the way the canals shift and vanish due to foating islands of vegetation, the SatNav can get us into as much trouble as a compass would. But Romeo seems to have an innate understanding of the world he lives in. Like hes got a receiver hardwired into his brain, getting signals directly from Avon. We never run aground, we never get stuck on the foating islands. As far as I can tell, we never have to double back or change course. I keep watching him, trying to understand how he does it. If I can learn the trick of it, maybe I can fnd my way back to base if I get free. He turns to navigate around a denser clump of vegetation and I lower my eyes, studying the way he shifts his weight to compensate. I lift my eyes only to realize hes turned back around and is watching me watch him with one eyebrow raised. Im not sure which would be worse, him thinking Im eyeing the gun at his hip, or him assuming Im staring at his ass. I jerk my gaze away and give up on trying to study my captor. We move through the waterways in silence for the next half hour or more, my head pounding and his expression grim. Abruptly, the bottom of the boat scrapes along mud and reeds and gravel, splitting the quiet with a screech. Ah, says Romeo, bracing one foot against the bench and leaning down to clip the pole back to the side of the boat. Were here. All I can see is fog. He moves around behind me, brows drawing together in a silent warning against an attack as he bends to untie me. I clench my jaw so hard a line of pain runs up behind my ear to join seam- lessly with the throbbing at the back of my skull. I could probably disable him, but we both know that without some idea of where we are, his people are just as likelymore likelyto fnd me than mine. I have to wait for a better chance. If only he were right, and there were a base here, Id have the advantage. But a base means peopleand where is the air traffc, the patrols, the static defenses? Theres only silence. His fngers tug at the rope, warm as they brush the skin on my wrists, and with a sudden release of pressure, Im free. I press my lips together hard against the bolt of agony that comes as circulation returns. He gri- maces in reply, as though hes actually sorry for the pain, and curls his hands gently around my bare wrists, fngers massaging the blood back. I shake his hands off, too irritated to accept any gesture of help. He rolls his eyes and climbs out of the boat, landing on the marshy ground with a squelch. My fngers tingle with pins and needles as I grasp the gunwale and climb out after him. The fog is too thick to see anything, but hes still acting like he knows where hes going. So? Where is this place? I ask. Its up here. I was here a couple of hours ago. Hes utterly confdent as he moves, keeping his voice down. His guns on his left hip, but he keeps me on his right with a vise-like grip on my arm. I fnd myself step- ping softly, like I really might fnd myself on the wrong end of a sentry challenge, which is ridiculousexcept after surviving this long on Avon, Id hate to go down under friendly fre. He leads me forward a few steps, but we havent gone far when even I know somethings wrong. His hold on me is tense, his face void of all smugness. Then the fog clears, just for a moment. Just long enough for us to see that the stretch of solid land ahead of us is empty, barren of everything but weeds and rocks and untouched mud. The far side of the island dips back down into the water, which stretches on, uninterrupted but for the occasional distant outcropping of bare rock. We both stare, though I dont know why. I didnt believe himI never believed him. And yet, standing on this empty stretch of island, my stomach sinking and ears ringing, Im surprised. I jerk my arm away, stumbling backward with the effort. Why did you bring me here? I spit the words, fsts clenched against the urge to strike out at him. What was the point? Why not just dump me somewhere out there in the swamps? But hes not looking at me. Hes still staring, though the curtain of fog has closed again and theres nothing to be seen. It was here, hes saying. This is exactly the place. I dont understandit was right Stop! My shout brings him up short, and he turns on his heel, blink- ing at me. I want an answer. Why did you bring me here? Jubilee, he murmurs, one fst relaxing and reaching toward me, palm up. So charming, so open, like were friends. This guy oozes cha- risma from his poresif hed been born on a legitimate planet, hed have been a politician. I swear it was here. Im not lying to you. Your promises dont mean much to me, Romeo, I snap. They cant have left without a trace, he says, clearing his throat and striding past me. There was an entire facility herefences, buildings, crates, aircraft. Help me look, theres got to be a sign. Footprints, foun- dations, anything. While his eyes scan the mud, searching for his so-called signs, it gives me a chance to scan his features. Hes frustrated. More than frustrated hes scared. Confused. He really believes there was something here. Ive got to humor him if Ive got any hope of returning to the base alive. Its a large island, and Romeo drags me through the mist, along the edge of the vegetation. Hes too cautious to let me out of his sight, but Im not stupid enough to make a bid for freedom here. One wrong step and itll be a long, slow sink beneath the surface, with plenty of time to think about what a pointless way that is to go. Humor him. Play nice. Talk him into sending you back. The after effects from that gas can are still with me, long after they shouldve dissipated. My mouth tastes oddly metallic, like blood, and my pulse rushes unnaturally loud in my ears. I take a deep breath and try to focus. I fnd myself longing for the stars, the openness of the sky you never see on Avon. The fog has closed in again, and its impossible to see more than a few yards ahead, leaving me suspended in a world of gray and white. I have to keep my eyes on the ground to keep my balance, because looking out through the fog tricks my eyes into thinking Im foating. Luckily, Romeo doesnt seem to have noticed. Maybe he chalks my stumbling up to the fact that he keeps jerking me along by the wrist. Weve covered about half the shoreline when Romeo halts and lets go of me, gazing around with confusion. Abruptly, a light blossoms in front of my eyes. Pale green, swaying gently from side to side, its no more than a few inches across. It dances there for a moment and I freeze, and as Romeo turns to start moving again, I realize he doesnt see it. Then the world slides sideways. My vision fickers, the taste of metal in my mouth growing overpow- ering. Suddenly Im not seeing fog and mud and emptiness; Im not even seeing the wisp. An entire building fashes into existence, and between it and me, a high chain-link fence. And just beyond it, a fgure in black clothes and some kind of mask, staring expressionlessly through its visor at me. I drop to my hands and knees, blinded, choking on metal and finch- ing as the impact jars the wound in my side. When I lift my head again the vision is gone, but my hand encounters a sharp object digging into my palm. My fngers close around it. All around me rises a quick, fren- zied susurration, like the wind through grass, or aspen leaves quivering in a storm. But Avon has no grass, and Avon has no aspen trees. Everything goes black, and then the whispering is gone as abruptly as it started. Suddenly I hear Romeo shouting at me, his voice urgent. I open my eyes to fnd his face close to mine, gripping me by the shoulder. Whats going on? Get up! Hes drawn his gun; he thinks Im faking. Dont know. I slide the thing I found into my boot with a shaking hand. I cant stop to examine it now; whatever it is, its regular, plastic, man-made. Theres no reason this would turn up here on its own. Stay here, Ill get you some water. He starts to release me, but I grab at his chest, gripping a handful of his shirt. The canteen. You drugged me, I gasp, my vision spinning away like the fog eddy- ing around us. My bodys shaking, shivering in his grasp like Im on the verge of hypothermia. Iwhat? Romeo peers closer. Why would I Stop, calm down. He grabs hold of my shoulders again and gives me a tiny shake, my head snapping back as though Im too tired to lift it. Something in my mind is screaming to be heard, something something about his hands, gripping my arms, supporting me. Both hands. If both hands are on my shoulders, then where is the gun? There, on the ground by his feet. I fail out for the old-fashioned pistol, only a few inches from my fngertips. My shaking fngers fumble with the grip, clumsy with whatever drug is coursing through my system. Romeo spots the movement. Somehow, despite drinking from the canteen himself, hes unaffected; he gives an inarticulate cry and lunges for the weapon. Goddammit, Jubileegive it a rest for fve seconds! Never, I gasp, dropping to the spongy, wet earth, too weak to stand without his support. Whatever he did to me, its getting worse. Slowly, the sound of whispering is overtaking my hearing once more. I reach for Romeo, but I dont know if Im trying to get the gun back from him or hold myself up. He shoves the pistol into his waistband, out of my reach, and my vision clouds again. It isnt until I feel arms wrapping around my waist and a heartbeat by my ear that I realize Im slipping out of consciousness, and Romeos carry ing me the rest of the way back to his boat.