Conquering Your Fears

Characters
Taeyeon, Tiffany, Yuri, Jessica, and appearances from other K-pop idols
Description
Taeyeon and Tiffany are in a successful duo called Pax based in LA.
Will their relationship survive under the spotlight?
Yuri has a dark past while Jessica has finally started loving herself and her choices.
Will Jessica be able to break through Yuris walls and start something spectacular?
Foreword
Authors note:
1
st
Fic :)
Rated M for the mature content in later chapters.
Im merely an avid reader, but I decided to try something new and write a story. Enjoy (?)
reading.




Chapter 1
Flashback (20 years ago)
A small girl walked in between her mother and father, holding each of their hands tightly. The
family was walking through the halls of an elementary school, making their way to a classroom.
Taeyeon, are you excited for your first day of kindergarten? asked Mr. Kim.
Umm, not reallydo I really have to go? Cant I just stay at home with mom? asked Taeyeon
softly.
Sweetie, dont be afraid. School is going to be fantastic. You are going learn so many new
things and youll make tons of friends. Youre going to love it. And recess! You cant forget
about recess! said Mrs. Kim, trying to encourage her daughter.
But I dont want to go, whined Taeyeon.
I guess its too late, chuckled Mrs. Kim.
They were already standing in front of Classroom T, aka Kim Taeyeons new home for 4
hours a day. A woman noticed them at the door and approached them. Taeyeon stared at the
woman and then glanced at the interior of the room, looking for any signs of danger.
Hi, nice to meet you, Im the kindergarten teacher, Mrs. Lee, the woman introduced herself
and shook hands with Mr. and Mrs. Kim, And who might you be little one? Mrs. Lee crouched
down to Taeyeons eye level and asked.
Taeyeon, surprised at the eye contact, quickly hid herself behind her mothers legs.
Im sorry about that. Our daughter is a bit shy, explained Mrs. Kim.
Oh, no, dont worry about that. I understand. It wouldnt be a normal first day of kindergarten if
a child didnt cry or hide from me, said Mrs. Lee, Well, class is about to start in five minutes,
so youll have to say your good-byes for now. She walked away, leaving the family alone.
Please, please, please dont leave me here! She looks like shes really, really interested in me.
What if she decides to keep me here forever and ever?! What if she tries to take me to her house?
You told me not to talk to strangers. Shes a stranger! exclaimed Taeyeon when she saw the
coast was clear from this Mrs. Lee woman.
Taeyeon, dont be ridiculous. Youre going to be fine here. Besides, your mother will pick you
up in 4 hours. Now, behave and go join your classmates, said Mr. Kim, putting his foot down as
he noticed most of the children were gathering on the rainbow colored, oval-shaped rug in the
front of the class and parents leaving the classroom.
Mrs. Kim slightly nudged Taeyeon with her hand while doing that little nod in which she lifts up
her chin toward the children, hinting her to join the others. However, Taeyeon refused and
grasped tightly on her mothers legs as if she was depending her life on them.
Mr. Kim, enough with all the nonsense, grabbed Taeyeons arm and attempted to pull her away
from her mother. However, it was the wrong move as Taeyeon suddenly burst into tears and sob
uncontrollably. Mr. Kim, bewildered at what was happening, just looked at his wife.
Mrs. Kim shook her head at her husbands inattentiveness, and crouched down to hold Taeyeon
by the shoulders.
Sweetie, can you please stop crying and listen to me? asked Mrs. Kim softly.
Eventually, after a few moments, Taeyeon stopped crying, but had the occasional hiccup and
sniffle. Mrs. Kim removed the small hands that were covering the beautiful face of her daughter.
She used her thumbs to wipe away the tears and stared into the eyes that mirrored her own. She
saw fear and uncertainty. Taeyeons eyes were telling her to stay. But, no, she couldnt stay. If
she stayed, then she would not be able to let go later in the future. This is the first step. This very
tiny step her daughter must take towards independence, towards growing to become a young
woman, and towards living a life of her own. But it was also a tiny step away from her. Was she
ready for that? Was she ready to let go? Was there even a choice? As a mother, she was
supposed to protect and take care of her daughter until her very last breath. As a mother, she was
supposed to guide her daughter to the right path. What was too much? How much freedom and
free will should be given? What was too strict and what was not? But she also knew she must let
her daughter make her own mistakes. Her daughter must fall and learn from her mistakes and
become an even greater and better person than she was before.
Trust. She must believe in her daughter and hope that all ends well.
Sweetie, I know this is scary. Youre usually with me or your daddy or with grandpa and
grandma, people youre familiar with. But this is life. Youre going have to meet new people and
make strangers become friends. Life isnt easy. You have to tackle your fears and conquer them
because that is the only way to become free and move on. The only thing you have to fear is fear
itself. It is only what you create and allow in your mind, silly. I know you can do this. You are
inherently strong, so get going to class and be brave because you are my little hero. Okay? said
Mrs. Kim.

Taeyeon, did you hear me?
Can I have ice cream for going to class? Taeyeon innocently asked.
Mr. and Mrs. Kim chuckled, Yes, well go for ice cream when I pick you up.
Mr. and Mrs. Kim both kissed Taeyeon on the head as they said their good-byes.
I love you. Ill see you later, sweetie, said Mrs. Kim as she and Mr. Kim left the classroom.
When Taeyeon no longer saw her parents, she went to join the other children.
Alright kids, the first exciting activity we will be doing this year will be coloring!!! said Mrs.
Lee, Now, youll need to find a partner and both of you have to work on coloring one butterfly
and one fish, okay? Use whatever colors you wish and the crayons and color pencils are over
there on that table as well as the coloring sheets. Now, go!
Most of the children scrambled and squealed as they were trying to find a partner.
Taeyeon just sat at her little spot, confused about what was going on. Did she have to interact
with these kids? Couldnt she just color at home? Her mother said she was going to learn new
things, now when was that going to happen?
As she was lost in her thoughts, someone poked her on the shoulder to grab her attention.
Taeyeon turned around and saw a little girl in pigtails; all dressed up in pink, pink, pink, and
even more pink.
What on earth is this creature? Taeyeon wondered to herself.
Hi, my name is Tiffany Hwang. Want to be my partner? asked the little pink (?) girl.
Chapter 2
Flashback (20 years ago) [continued]
Hello?
The little girl named Tiffany waved her hands in front of the spaced out Taeyeon. It seems that
Taeyeon was lost in her thoughts yet again.
Who is this girl? What is she doing here?
Hellooooooo?
What does she want from me?
Yoooooo-hoooooooo.
More importantly, why is she dressed from head to toe in pink? Of all the colors in the world,
why pink?
Cry baby!
That woke Taeyeon up.
She frowned, Im not a cry baby.
Whatever you say. I just wanted your attention. Now, I think you have no choice but to be
partners with me because everyone else is taken. Lets go! Tiffany excitedly grabbed Taeyeons
wrist and pulled her to the table to get the supplies.
Once they were settled in their seats and with all the coloring materials spread out on the table,
Tiffany grabbed the pink color pencil.
Okay, so the fishy will be..pink? asked Tiffany.
Taeyeon raised her eyebrow.
Pink? A pink fish?? Why not darker colors like blue or purple? Does this girls world revolve
around the color pink or something?
Not wanting to argue, Taeyeon simply nodded her head slightly, letting the other girl do
whatever she pleased. She was thankful the teacher didnt allow the children to use paint or else
by the end of this day, she would be covered in pink.
Awesome! exclaimed Tiffany. She immediately started to color what was soon to be in her
mind, the worlds most perfect pink fish.
You know, you never told me your name. And youre pretty quiet, she bluntly said.
You never asked.
Taeyeon, she muttered.
What did you say?
Taeyeon, she said a little bit louder.
Taehyun?
Taeyeon.
Taeyoon?
Taeyeon.
Taeyan?
TAEYEON!! screamed Taeyeon, enough with the mispronunciations.
Taeyeon, dear, remember were inside the classroom, so we have to use our inside voices, said
Mrs. Lee, looking at the very frustrated Taeyeon.
Taeyeon huffed and scooted her chair a bit further away from the girl, who Taeyeon is now
calling in her mind, pink monster.
Im sorry. Your name is in Korean, so I have a hard time saying it. You know what? Ill just
call you Taetae! Thats much easier for me! Hehe, itll be my special name for you because you
are now my best friend, grinned Tiffany, obviously happy with the name.
She scooted her chair toward Taeyeon and pushed the coloring materials near the other girl.
Taetae?! Thats not my name! This pink monster And best friend? I just met her!!
Taeyeon turned her head away from Tiffany and ignored the latter, waiting for recess to come.
Tiffany pouted. She already apologized, yet the latter did not accept her apology and still gave
her this mundane silent treatment. She decided to finish coloring the pictures before recess came.
Maybe Taeyeon would feel better by then and would play with her.
After what Taeyeon felt like it was an eternity, Mrs. Lee called the children to give her their
colored fishes and butterflies, and then they could go out to the small playground to play around
for half an hour.
Taeyeon glanced at Tiffanys papers and as expected, the butterfly was also colored in pink. She
rolled her eyes and headed out to the playground.
Wait for me, Taetae! said Tiffany when she saw the latter was already leaving without her.
When Taeyeon heard Tiffanys voice, she quickly ran to hide somewhere nice and quiet, and
away from the pink monster.
Unfortunately for Taeyeon, Tiffany was quick on her feet and managed to follow Taeyeon to her
hiding spot.
Hehe, so Taetae, what do you want to do today? asked Tiffany, smiling brightly.
Taeyeon merely shook her head from left to right and plopped herself onto the patch of green
grass below her and stared at the sky, an activity in which she enjoyed daily. Tiffany followed
her actions and sat next to her.
It was a beautiful day. It was a day where there was an abundance of white, fluffy clouds up in
the sky just passing by and dispersing at the same time. It was a perfect day to watch the clouds
and use your imagination to see different shapes and forms that clouds unconsciously make.
Clouds are high up in the sky that no human being could touch them and therefore, could never
hurt them. They come and go as they please. One day, youll see them and on another day, they
are nowhere to be found. Clouds are sort of like people you meet. People walk in and out of your
life. They appear for a while and then disappear for an indefinite amount of time. It doesnt
matter if you want them to stay forever or not because it is simply not your choice to make.
Things just happen.
Look, Taetae! That cloud looks like a heart! shouted Tiffany, pointing at a particular cloud in
the sky.
Taeyeon looked and indeed it was a heart-shaped cloud.
Moments passed and silence still ensued. Tiffany was getting a bit restless. She never could
stand silence in general. Silence had an aura of loneliness, a state in which Tiffany never wanted
to be in. She was itching to open her mouth and have a conversation with the interesting,
mysterious, and quiet girl beside her but she did not want to anger her in any way as it seems the
latter was in a comfortable silence.
What does a best friend mean to you? Taeyeon asked suddenly, surprising Tiffany.
Well a best friend is someone who I can talk to about anything and share all my secrets to.
Best friends dont keep secrets from one another because they trust each other so much. A best
friend walks into your life when the rest of the world walks out on you. Is this you agreeing to be
my best friend? asked Tiffany, giving Taeyeon her best eye-smile and puppy eyes.
Taeyeon pondered for a moment. She never really had an actual friend. The other children she
met would play with her for a while, but then leave because they found her too boring and quiet.
This Tiffany Hwang girl, the pink monster, continued to follow her even when Taeyeon ignored
her. Thats a good sign, right? Her mothers words echoed into her mind, You are inherently
strong. If she was strong, then no matter what the outcome was, she would make it out alive,
right? She decided to take a leap of faith.
Yes.
A best friend is the opposite of a cloud Tiffany Hwang, will you continue to be a best friend or
change into a cloud?
What Taeyeon or Tiffany didnt realize at that point was that there was one thing best friends
were never supposed to do. Best friends are not supposed to fall in love with each other.
Chapter 3
Flashback (12 years ago)
Its Monday! Taetae! Wake up! TAE!! Tiffany screamed at the girl who was still sleeping on
the bed.
Taeyeon opened her eyes but quickly closed them back as she groaned and pulled the covers
over her head, protecting her from the bright rays of sunshine coming through the windows.
Tiffany had graciously pulled apart the curtains for her.
5 more minutes, she mumbled.
What about NO? Come on, were going to be late for school. I asked my mommy to drop me
off at your house instead of school just so we could walk to school together. Graduation is in 2
months and the dance is just a week before that! Were going to be in high school real soon! Be
excited, Taetae! Tiffany proceeded to climb onto Taeyeons bed and jump up and down.
Excited? Why should I be excited?
One name came to Taeyeons mind, Nichkhun. The seemingly perfect boy, who Taeyeon thought
was oh-so-NOT-charming, had asked Tiffany Hwang to the dance as his date and she had said,
Yes
Taeyeon ignored the bouncing girl on her bed and tried to continue her precious sleep.
Taetae!! Dont go back to sleep!
Tiffany stopped bouncing and plopped herself right on top of Taeyeon and pulled the covers
down. Taeyeon opened her eyes wide as she realized the distance between her lips and Tiffanys
lips was not that quite far apart. Her heart was pounding rapidly and she really hoped Tiffany
didnt notice. She stared into Tiffanys beautiful eyes and thought she saw something but before
she could process it in her mind, Tiffany quickly kissed her cheek and got off of her.
Your breath smells stinky. Hurry up and wash up; Ill wait for you downstairs, Tiffany quickly
said and left the room.
Taeyeon, dazed and confused, was touching her blushing cheeks. She got up to go to the
bathroom and splashed the icy, cold water onto her face. She looked at the mirror, staring at her
13 year old self.
Youre crazy.
She quickly finished washing up, dressed, and made her way downstairs.
Finally, slowpoke. Lets go, Tiffany grabbed her hand and dragged her out of her own house,
BYE MR. AND MRS. KIM! She didnt forget to say her good-byes to the people whom she
saw as her own parents.
Bye, kids. Have a good day at school, chuckled Mrs. Kim, watching her daughter being pulled
away.
Taeyeon and Tiffany were walking to school, still holding hands. It wasnt exactly a far walk, so
Tiffany often enjoyed being dropped off at Taeyeons house so she could walk together with the
latter.
Getting uncomfortable with the silence, Tiffany asked, So, are you going with anyone to the
dance?
She just had to bring that up, huh?
No, I dont think Im going at all.
What?! Why not? Itll be fun, come on. You still owe me that dance that you chickened out on
my 10
th
birthday just because you didnt want to dance in front of everyone. Dont think I forgot
about it Kim Taeyeon! glared Tiffany.
Wont you be too occupied with Prince Charming? Ughh.
Ill pay up for the dance some other time. Just not at this dance, please.
Tiffany pouted. Knowing Taeyeon since kindergarten, she knew once Taeyeon made a decision,
she would be adamant about it.
Fine Tiffany softly said.
Taeyeon gave a small smile and patted Tiffanys head. They were already in the courtyard of the
school.
Hey, after school, do you Taeyeon started but was interrupted.
Tiffany!
Well, lookie here. Isnt the oh-so-NOT charming prince walking towards us?
Hi, Tiffany, Nichkhun said, while giving his best (worst, Taeyeon thought) smile, You look
lovely today.
Hehe, thank you, replied Tiffany, slightly blushing and showing a shade of pink on her cheeks.
Blushing?? Why is she blushing? I can make her turn RED, forget about pink!
So, the dance is coming up pretty soon and I was wondering if you would like to practice
dancing with me after school.
Oh, umm, I dont know. When and where? asked Tiffany, while she secretly and quickly
glanced at the girl beside her.
How about today after school? There is a dance studio close to here and we can practice there.
Most of my friends are coming, so we can teach and show you some moves.
Tiffany hesitated before answering. She was waiting for anything, anything, but it didnt come.
She gave a small sigh before smiling brightly at Nichkhun and said, Yeah, sure. Meet me here
after school.
Great! Ill see you later then! Oh, hi Taeyeon, bye Nichkhun ran off to join the rest of his
friends.
Jerkface.
Hey, umm, we should get to class, said Tiffany softly.
Yeah, we should, muttered Taeyeon. And with that, she walked towards their classroom.
School finally ended. Most, like 99.9% of the students, were relieved except for this one petite
girl. She was actually dreading the end of school, a first for her. Throughout the day, she was in a
bad mood, giving another certain girl the cold shoulder and answering in short responses.
Taeyeon and Tiffany were now standing in the courtyard as Tiffany was waiting for Nichkhun to
arrive.
Im going to head home now, Taeyeon said, turning to the direction of her house.
Wait, Tae! Werent you going to ask me something this morning?
Now you remember?
No.
Really? Im pretty sure I heard you say something about after school.
You heard wrong; Im leaving now.
Tiffany scoffed and rolled her eyes. She has had enough with this nonsense when it was so
obvious and clear to the both of them.
Kim Taeyeon! Stop. Just stop it. Stop keeping things to yourself. Stop being so defensive when
it comes to feelings. Stop bottling up your emotions inside. Stop building a wall surrounding
your heart. Let me in. Were supposed to be best friends. We shouldnt be keeping things from
each other! shouted Tiffany, being fed up with her not-so-open best friend.
I should when it concerns you
Im fine, really. I have no idea what youre talking about. Im just tired, okay? Well talk later.
Really, tired? This attitude has nothing to do with me going to hang out with Nichkhun?
Of course not, lied Taeyeon, Youre free to do whatever you please, which includes hanging
out with the prince and his little minions.
Wow, okay. Obviously someones not jealous.
Jealous!? Why in the world would I be jealous?
Obviously because you like me and have feelings for me!! screamed Tiffany, getting red in the
face as she was beyond mad and frustrated.
Taeyeon paused momentarily.
No, I love you, but I cant.
I do not like you! Youre being delusional. Youre just my best friend, nothing more!
Tiffany froze. Tears started to form from the beautiful, brown eyes that Taeyeon loves to get lost
in. It hurts. It hurts to hear your best friend denying everything. It hurts to see your best friend so
afraid to fully and completely love a person. It hurts to see Taeyeon not allowing Tiffany to fully
and whole-heartedly love her, Taeyeon.
Coward, muttered Tiffany, before she walked away towards her own house.








Chapter 4
Flashback (12 years ago) [continued]
Coward
Coward
Coward
The word has continually echoed in Taeyeons mind since Tiffany said that to her in the late
afternoon. It was now nearing 1 A.M. yet Taeyeon was stilling lying on her bed, unable to sleep.
Her mind was blank of everything except for that one word. What was even the definition of a
coward? Taeyeon opened her laptop and googled the word.
Coward
Noun
1. A person who lacks the courage to do or endure dangerous or unpleasant things.
Adjective
1. Excessively afraid of danger or pain.
I am a coward
The word perfectly described who Taeyeon is. Shes afraid. Afraid of pain. Afraid of being alone.
Afraid of being hurt by the person she loves. Afraid of losing the person she loves. She lacks the
strength and courage to make the person she loves hers because shes afraid.
What she didnt realize when she agreed to becoming Tiffanys best friend on the first day of
kindergarten is that essentially, lovers are best friends. There is only that one fine line that
separates best friends and lovers; lovers kiss and touch each other in intimate ways. There has
been more than one occasion where Taeyeon wanted to do all that to Tiffany. It seems like an
easy line to cross, especially when Taeyeons feelings have been growing for the girl for years
now, but, in actuality, it is a huge step. Once taken, there is no going back. Once the line is
crossed, it is nearly impossible for them to go back to being best friends or even simply as
friends. Taeyeon didnt want that. She didnt want to lose Tiffany Hwang, not ever.
As Taeyeon closed her laptop, her phone vibrated. It was a message from Tiffany.
From: Fany
And FYI, if you are too dense to notice, I have feelings for you too. But not like you, a
coward, Im ready to face my feelings, not run away from them. Cross that line, Taetae. Ill
wait for you on the other side.
That hit Taeyeon hard. She always suspected the younger girl to have feelings for her, but for
Tiffany to actually say it to her, Taeyeon was even more scared than before. There really was no
turning back. She could even lose Tiffany as a best friend now. Tiffany was thinking along the
same lines as her, and she was already on the other side of the line, ready and waiting. Was
Taeyeon ready? Could she do it? Could she taken that big, yet at the same time small, step
towards Tiffany? Her mom lied, she wasnt strong at all.
Morning came. Taeyeon eventually had fallen asleep, but she knew it was only for 2 hours or so.
She woke up and opened her eyes briefly, and then closed them back again, feeling the physical,
mental, and emotional exhaustion. She had stayed up, thinking about what to do.
This was going to be a hell of a day.
She sat up, rubbing her eyes. As she did so, a voice scared her.
Youre finally up. Dont worry; we have time before school starts. Take your time; Ill wait for
you downstairs.
Taeyeon stared at Tiffany going out of her room.
How long has she been here?
Taeyeon did her morning routine before doing downstairs.
Ready? Tiffany asked. Taeyeon looked at her in the eyes and noticed it was a bit puffy and
swollen.
Yeah, she said, feeling guilty, knowing she was cause of the tears.
Tiffany grabbed her hand, intertwining their fingers. The walk to their school seemed like a long
and awkward one. Neither of the girls said anything.
What is she thinking in that mind of hers?! Pink, right? Arghh, if only I could read minds
They had just entered the courtyard when Prince Charming came running towards them.
Hey, Tiffany! Whered you go yesterday? I thought we were going to practice dancing.
Oh, sorry about that. I suddenly had something to do.
Thats alright. What about going to practice today then? asked Nichkhun, giving his best
puppy eyes.
Stop doing that before I punch you in the face.
Actually, I cant go to the dance with you. I have something to do on the day of the dance as
well, so sorry.
And with that, Tiffany dragged Taeyeon away from the poor (?) confused boy.
When they were well away from Mr. Jerkface, Taeyeon asked, Why arent you going to the
dance anymore? You love dancing and parties.
Because youre not going, Tiffany simply said without looking at her.
It was true. From the day Tiffany declared Taeyeon as her best friend; they never went or did
things without each other.
Days and weeks passed. Graduation was just a week away. Both did not attend the dance;
Tiffany went to Taeyeons house to watch a movie. Taeyeon and Tiffany were going to be
freshman students in high school. They were growing up. Time sure does fly by. Within a blink
of an eye, they were transforming into young women and the world was waiting for them,
whether they were ready or not.
Taeyeon was lying on her bed, listening to music. It was a beautiful Saturday, but Taeyeon
decided to stay in since Tiffany had said she was going shopping for a dress for graduation with
her mother. Taeyeon and Tiffanys official status was still at Best Friends. Tiffany never
brought up the topic again. She acted as if their argument never happened; she was simply
waiting while Taeyeon was still thinking. She was debating with herself whether or not to take
that step. Taeyeon felt bored, so she decided to send a text to Tiffany.
Sent to: Fany
Hey, did you get your dress yet? Can you send me a picture so I can see? :)
Hours and hours passed, but Tiffany never responded which was unusual.
Arghh, why isnt she replying? Sooo bored!!
She decided to send another text after dinner.
Sent to: Fany
Why arent you responding, Fany? I miss you. :(
She tossed her phone on the bedside table and plopped face down onto her bed. She was startled
when her phone started ringing. She quickly picked up her phone and noticed the caller ID,
Fany, and smiled widely. She answered.
Fany!! I missed you. You didnt send me the picture!!
A loud sniffle was heard.
Fany? You okay?
Taetae? Tiffany croaked.
Fany!? Why are you crying? Whats wrong?? Taeyeon was bewildered why the younger girl
was crying. Everything seemed okay and fine, what was happening?
M-my mother W-we were on the way back from shopping w-when t-he truck was s-speeding
towards h-her side. S-she couldntIt h-hit our car and we-we kept on r-rolling over. S-she c-
covered me with her a-armsS-shes gone, Tae. My m-mothers gone And with that, Tiffany
started to cry uncontrollably.
Taeyeon felt time stop. She didnt know what to say. What could she say? The pain and what
Tiffany was going through was beyond her imagination. She never lost anyone close to her, so
she didnt know what it felt like. But she did know her best friend needed her by her side right
now.
Where are you now? asked Taeyeon, trying hard not to let her voice break.
Clouds Hospital, the latter managed to answer.
Ironic
Ill be right there.
Taeyeon rushed downstairs and asked her mother for a ride to the hospital, briefly explaining
what happened.
She ran through the halls of the hospital, looking for a certain girl. Taeyeon turned a corner and
there she was. She was sitting on a chair outside a room with her hands covering her face as she
looked down.
Fany?
Tiffany looked up and saw her. She saw the person she actually needed the most at this moment.
She saw the one person who she would actually believe when the person said that everything will
be okay, that everything will be alright. Tiffany believed in her.
Taeyeon noticed some bruises and cuts all over Tiffany, but other than that, she looked okay. But
she knew that Tiffany wasnt actually okay. She may be fine physically, but mentally and
emotionally, she was broken. Her eyes told Taeyeon so.
Taeyeon silently sat down beside Tiffany and wrapped her arms around her. Tiffany burst into
tears again when she felt being pulled towards Taeyeons body. Tiffany laid her head on the
crook of Taeyeons neck and let out all her tears, her anguish, and despair. Taeyeon just held
onto the fragile, shaking body, hoping to give Tiffany some form of comfort, love, and support.
The funeral was quick. Everyone gave their condolences to Tiffany and the rest of her family.
Tiffany merely nodded at each person who talked to her, feeling nothing. She could cry no more
because there were no more tears left to be dropped. Taeyeon simply stayed by her side. In fact,
she has been staying by Tiffanys side for the past week ever since the accident. They both
missed graduation and plainly received their diplomas from the principal in his office, but neither
of them cared as they only needed each other to make the occasion special.
Taeyeon and Tiffany were in Tiffanys room, lying on the bed. Taeyeon had her left arm
wrapped around her as Tiffany put her head on the left side of Taeyeons chest, listening to her
heartbeat. Tiffany had said Taeyeons heartbeat calmed her since it was the sound of life.
How are you feeling? asked Taeyeon softly, as she started to stroke Tiffanys hair.
Fine.
Fine?
Yeah, F.I.N.E., Freaked out, Insecure, Neurotic, and Emotional, Tiffany chuckled bitterly.
Taeyeon didnt say anything after that. For the past week, she was deep in her thoughts. Tiffany
didnt talk much, which was understandable, so Taeyeon was left in a comfortable silence.
Although Tiffany never liked silence, she now somehow felt comfortable in that state with
Taeyeon. She just left her mind blank void of all emotions and thoughts. Meanwhile, Taeyeon
has wanted to say something ever since the accident but felt like it was an inappropriate time.
Therefore, she just waited for the right time.
A few months later, Taeyeon and Tiffany just started attending high school. It was chaotic at first,
but they soon adjusted. Their summer was, of course, spent together. Tiffany was feeling better
as each day passed all thanks to a certain girl by her side.
August 27, 2002
It was the evening. Tiffany finished dinner and was in her room, finishing up her homework.
CLACK
Startled, Tiffany looked around and noticed the source of the noise came from outside her
window. She cautiously walked over and looked out. Down below was Taeyeon.
Grab your graduation dress and meet me out here! shouted Taeyeon.
Graduation dress? mumbled Tiffany.
Why!? she shouted.
Just do it for me, please!
Ugh, Kim Taeyeon. You better be up to something good, said Tiffany to herself. She grabbed
her dress and put it in her backpack.
After informing her dad where she was going, she met Taeyeon outside her house.
What are you planning, Taetae? asked Tiffany, raising her eyebrow.
Hehe, youll see. Come on, Taeyeon said, as she intertwined her hand with Tiffanys and
started leading her somewhere.
As they were walking to somewhere Tiffany hoped was not some creepy place, she noticed a big
bulge coming from Taeyeons own backpack.
Whats in there? she asked, pointing at it.
Surprise~ chuckled Taeyeon.
A few minutes later, the area they were walking in became more familiar to Tiffany.
Hey isnt this the way to our old elementary school?
Maybe~ said the latter in a sing-song voice.
Indeed, they did come at a stop at their old elementary school.
Climb over, Fany.
What!?
Ill help you, lets hurry.
No! Thats breaking and entering!
Please~ said Taeyeon, giving her the puppy eyes that Tiffany could never resist.
Fine, grumbling, Tiffany climbed over the fence with the help of Taeyeon. Taeyeon climbed
over as well, and led the way to the playground outside their old kindergarten classroom.
Okay, can you go change into the dress and here wear this as well, said Taeyeon, giving her a
pair of beautiful red heels that matched her dress.
What?! What are you planning? And if you havent noticed, theres no bathroom or even a
room to change in. Were out on the open!
Hehe, you can change around the corner over there. I wont look; I promise, winked Taeyeon.
Confused, yet curious at the same time, Tiffany just did as she was told.
When Tiffany finished changing, she went back around the corner and her jaw dropped.
Taeyeon was wearing semi-formal clothing. She wore a white button-up shirt, black skinny jeans,
and matching heels that made her the same height as Tiffany.
She was standing on a certain patch of green grass. It was the exact same place where Taeyeon
agreed to be her best friend.
Hi, would you like to join me?
Tiffany just mindlessly walked towards her.
Surprised, huh?
Tiffany just did a little cute nod.
Taeyeon chuckled. She drew in a huge breath, gathering herself to say what she has to say.
Tiffany, a couple months ago, you told me I was a coward. And I admit it. I am a coward. I am
so afraid of losing you. Words cannot express how much I need you in my life. I need you to
keep me sane. I need you so I wont be lonely. I need you to brighten up my day when I hear
your voice or see your bright smile. I know Im a pain in the ass sometimes. I do like to keep to
myself because I dont want to be a burden. But I also dont want to be hurt. Im afraid of you.
You have the power to either build me up or tear me down. I am so affected by you that it drives
me crazy. But for the past few months, I realized life is too short. Life is too short to keep
worrying about the future, thinking about each and every possible outcome. I want to live in the
present now, and I want to start living my present with you. If you allow me, I would like to join
you on the other side of the line.
Taeyeon finished her speech and looked at Tiffany. Tiffany looked teary, but had a wide smile.
Taeyeon, I wont make promises that I cant keep. I may hurt you in the future, but I am sure it
will be done unintentionally. However, I will promise that I also do need you in my life and I
will do everything in my power to keep you there.
Hehe, so can I cross the line now? asked Taeyeon excitedly.
What are you waiting for? Tiffany asked playfully.
Taeyeon grabbed Tiffany by the waist. She leaned her forehead against Tiffanys and they both
drowned in each others eyes.
I love you, whispered Taeyeon.
I love you too, Tiffany whispered back.
Taeyeon closed her eyes and leaned in as Tiffany mirrored her actions. Their lips brushed against
each other.
Dont ever let me go, Tiffany mumbled against Taeyeons lips.
Wouldnt even dream of it.
And with that, they shared a long, passionate kiss under the moonlight.
Breaking away from the kiss for air, they shyly smiled to each other. Taeyeon had finally joined
Tiffany on the other side.
Taeyeon cleared her throat, So, would you care to dance? She offered her hand to Tiffany.
Finally paying up, huh?
Haha, I guess. Its better late than never, right?
Well, theres interest added onto that dance. I want more kisses, Tiffany was smiling brightly.
Ooooh, Ill gladly pay up on those kisses.
Taeyeon played a song on her phone. It was Vanessa Carltons A Thousand Miles.
The two lovers held each other and danced late into the night, not wanting the moment to ever
end.
Thank you for letting me in, Taeyeon.
Tiffany, youre my everything. Youre my best friend and now my lover. But youre also a cloud,
my pink cloud. I dont know what will happen in the future, but I do know youre a pink cloud I
wish to stay with me forever.


Chapter 5
Flashback (9 years ago)
TAETAE! TAETAE! WE DID IT!! WE DID IT, BABY!! Tiffany excitedly pounced on the
shorter girl who was sitting on the couch inside their waiting room. Tiffany straddled the girl and
started raining kisses all over Taeyeons face, not minding the company they had. The staff
looked at the two lovers with smiles and, understanding their excitement, left the room to give
the two some privacy.
Taeyeon and Tiffany had both entered as a duo, naming themselves Pax (A/N: Roman goddess
of Peace), in the popular American reality-singing competition, Looking for Stars. (A/N: Yes, I
made it up.) When they passed the preliminary round of auditions, they couldnt believe it. When
they were sent to Hollywood, they really couldnt believe it. But, both Taeyeon and Tiffany
started to gain more confidence and hope with each week passing. Tons of talented people fell,
while they remained standing.
Tonight was the finale. After 3 months worth of hard work and effort, it was left up to the
public to decide their fate. A whopping 800 million votes were cast and nearly 55% of the votes
went to Pax. It was safe to say that Taeyeon and Tiffany crushed the runner-up. As the
competition went on, the public fell in love with the relationship between Taeyeon and Tiffany,
giving them the couple name, Taeny.
Taetae? Tiffany stopped her kisses and cupped Taeyeons face with both of her hands, You
there?
Taeyeon was lost in her thoughts.
We won I cant believe it We actually WON.
We won, babe. Our dream is coming true, Taeyeon said, smiling widely, showing Tiffany her
cute dimple on her chin.
Hehe, you were spacing out again. And we wouldnt be here if I didnt keep pestering you on
auditioning, huh?
It was true. Taeyeon initially didnt want to audition because she was too shy and afraid. But
Tiffany knew Taeyeon has a great voice and knew she could do it if they did it together. Tiffany
had faith in her. So Taeyeon finally went along with; it wasnt like she had a choice though,
Tiffany had declared no more kisses until she agreed.
Yeah, so what would you like as a reward? Taeyeon asked while wriggling her eyebrows.
Tiffany giggled. Hmmm, I dont know. How about we worry about that tonight? She gave a
wink. Taeyeon gulped.
The door suddenly opened and the family members of Taeyeon and Tiffany came bursting
through. Tiffany got off of Taeyeon.
Congratulations!!
Im so proud of you girls!
You guys were wonderful!
Flowers, chocolate boxes, small bags of gifts, and letters were tossed towards them.
Those are just a little bit of what your fans gave you girls. Theres a lot more outside, said Mrs.
Kim.
You guys are going to be superstars! I guess I can retire earlier, right Tiff? Mr. Hwang joked.
Daddy~ whined Tiffany, We just started. Dont jinx us!!
Pshhh. You guys get a record deal with RCA Records, one the biggest record labels in the
world. Of course youre going to flop, Leo, Tiffanys older brother, said sarcastically.
Before Tiffany could retort, a man walked in.
Hi, my name is Jason Chang. Im from RCA Records and Im going to be your manager from
now on. Sorry to interrupt your little celebration, but I just wanted to inform you girls that your
debut single A Thousand Years (A/N: Christina Perris A Thousand Years) will be released
2 weeks from now. Well start filming for the music video when it is released so take these 2
weeks as a break. Well also start working on your debut studio album soon, so if you girls have
any suggestions or ideas, feel free to contact me, Jason said and gave his business card to the
both of the girls, Ill leave now. Ill keep in close contact. By the way, congratulations, girls. I
have never seen such chemistry between two artists before. Were going to make some great
music in the future; I can feel it. Jason gave a smile before leaving the room.
A slight pause.
TAETAE!! Tiffany jumped on top of Taeyeon again.
Hehe, calm down, Fany. Youre going to squish me!
The Kim and Hwang family members laughed at the two, enjoying the moment.
Tiffany decided to stay at Taeyeons house although it was not a surprise to anyone. She has
been sleeping with Taeyeon since the beginning of the competition because it was easier for
them to practice and go to places they needed to go together.
The two girls were all showered and ready to sleep, yet they couldnt. Tiffany still had this wide
smile on her face, still digesting the fact that her dream of becoming a singer was coming true.
Meanwhile, Taeyeon was thinking about what Tiffany had said when she asked about the reward.
How about we worry about that tonight? she had said. She even gave me a wink. A wink!
What did that mean? Weve only been dating for 3 years but were just 16 years old Dont get
me wrong, the past 3 years have been great, not much trouble, unless you count those
douchebags in high school that wanted to get in her pants. That certainly wasnt going to happen
with me here. Ive been falling in love with her more and more each day. Am I ready for that?
Are we ready for that?
Moments passed, both lost in their thoughts. Taeyeon decided to break the silence.
Uhh, Fany? What about that r-reward we were talking about earlier?
Huh....? OH! Right, I forgot.
Tiffany turned on her side to face Taeyeon. Taeyeon did so too.
Hmmmm. I want.a DATE!
WHAT!?
A date? We havent been on a proper one since the competition, Tiffany started then
realized why Taeyeon was shocked and smirked, What were YOU thinking?
N-nothing, Taeyeon chuckled nervously.
Sure, sure, byuntaetae.
Im thinking too much.
Im so happy our first song together is going to be our debut single. I mean it holds so much
special memories; itll be one of those songs that Ill never forget, said Tiffany while closing
her eyes.
Yeah Taeyeon trailed off as she was reminisced the memories of making A Thousand
Years.
Both Taeyeon and Tiffany loved music since they were young. Taeyeon learned to play the
guitar while Tiffany learned playing the piano. One day they were just playing around and
somehow made the instrumental version of A Thousand Years. They later wrote the lyrics to it,
expressing their feelings for each other. The week before the finale of Looking for Stars, the
judges asked the contestants to bring an original song to perform, so Taeyeon and Tiffany chose
A Thousand Years to perform. Now it was going to be their debut single; they couldnt pick a
better song to officially launch their careers as singers and a duo.
Flashback (4 years ago)
Can I get a pin, please!? shouted Tiffany.
Here you go, babe, said Taeyeon who was sitting right next to her.
Thanks, Tiffany replied without looking at her.
Things were chaotic backstage. Make-up artists, stylists, bodyguards, and managers all together
cramped in a room, trying to organize and move things along. Taeyeon and Tiffany were getting
ready for the encore stage for the last concert of their 2
nd
concert tour, This is Us, supporting
their 2
nd
studio album, You and Me. Their debut single had topped the Billboard charts as well
their debut studio album, Into the New World (A/N: GG reference), the year after. Their 1
st

concert tour was only limited to North America as Taeyeon and Tiffany decided to go to college
and focus on their studies for a bit. Because their 2
nd
tour was a worldwide one, fans of Pax went
crazy and the girls could hear the audience chanting, Taeny! Taeny! Taeny! as they fixed a few
details. They were currently in Paris, France and Taeyeon noticed Tiffany wasnt exactly herself
but she didnt want to pry any further.
The concert wrapped up well and Taeyeon and Tiffany were in the hotel room, getting ready for
a well-deserved rest. At least thats what Taeyeon thought.
Tiffany was showering while Taeyeon was sitting on the bed, with her phone in her hands, and
tweeting to her fans to say thank you and good night. Once done, she put her phone away and
started to watch a random channel on TV, waiting for Tiffany.
The door clicked open and Taeyeon turned to look. Her jaw dropped.
Tiffany was wearing a revealing nightgown and Taeyeon could clearly see her lingerie.
Holy crap.
H-hey, w-whatcha doing t-there, F-fany? stuttered Taeyeon.
Oh, I think you know, winked Tiffany as she sauntered over to the bed. Once she climbed onto
the bed, she straddled Taeyeon.
She cupped Taeyeons face with her hands and leaned in. They were in a long, deep passionate
kiss but when Tiffany started to thrust her hip, Taeyeon gently pulled Tiffany away.
They were looking in each others eyes as they caught their breath. When Tiffany started to lean
in again for another kiss, Taeyeon moved her head.
Whats wrong? asked Tiffany, her voice nearly breaking. Taeyeon noticed her eyes brimming
with tears.
N-nothing. We should go to s-sleep
Tiffanys anger got the best of her. She pushed Taeyeon hard until the latters head hit the beds
headboard, but she really didnt care at that point. She got off of Taeyeon and stood up.
Sleep!? SLEEP?! You thinking Im wearing these clothes just so I can SLEEP? Are you
kidding me, Kim Taeyeon!? EIGHT YEARS! We have been dating for 8 years and not ONCE
have you made a move. Ive been patient, but I really cant take it anymore. All we ever do is
cuddle or make out. Dont you want to take it to the next level, Tae!!?
I-I dont know, she mumbled.
Yeah, you dont know. You dont know if you love me as much as I love you. You dont know
if you want me or not. Were in Paris, one of the most romantic cities in the world, and all you
want to do is sleep? You want to sleep? Then, sleep all you want! Youre not letting me in
anymore. You blocked me out, Tae, Tiffany grabbed a pillow and blanket and left the bedroom,
not forgetting to slam the door.
Taeyeon, Taeyeon, Kim Taeyeon. What am I doing?
Its not like Taeyeon didnt want to do that with Tiffany. Ever since they debuted, things have
just been hectic. If they werent making music, they were performing. When they werent
performing, they were doing interviews, photo shoots, and filming for commercials. When they
werent doing all of that, they were in school studying and trying not fall behind in their classes.
The past few years have been a great success for their careers but it took a toll on Taeyeon. She
was exhausted by the end of the day and wanted nothing but to go to dreamland.
I guess somewhere along the line, I forgot to pay attention to Tiffany
She sighed.
You suck.
She got out of bed, rubbing the back of her head. She left the bedroom and headed towards the
living room. Tiffany was lying on the couch with the blanket covering her. Taeyeon squatted in
front of the couch, facing Tiffany.
Fany? Taeyeon asked hesitantly.
What do you want? replied Tiffany with a cold tone as she pulled down the covers.
Im really sorry I think you misunderstood me. I do want you. Its just weve been pretty
busy with everything else.
You dont think I know that? If were going to be singers, then well always be busy. But our
professional lives shouldnt be getting in the way of our personal lives! If we want to make this
work, if we want us to work then we have got to start communicating again. Youve been quiet
again, shutting me out. What happened to not letting me go, Tae?
Taeyeon sighed exasperatedly and covered her face with her hands.
I am not letting you go. Im scared, okay? As always, Im the coward. Have you seen the news
lately? Celebrity couples breaking up left and right. This job, this lifestyle, the entertainment
industry is not exactly an ideal place for relationships to work. They always give the excuse of
irreconcilable differences when the actual reason is they just dont have time for each other.
There are 24 hours in a day when what celebrities need is much, much more. I dont want us to
separate; I just cant live without you
Tiffany smiled. Taeyeon was opening up to her again.
Babe, we both knew this wasnt going to be an easy journey. Fame comes with a price, but you
know what? We have an advantage over the other celebrity couples. We work together, Taetae.
We go to work together and come home together. And I have no intention of that ever changing.
I agree we have to work hard on our jobs, but Ill admit that Ill put in 10 times more the effort in
our relationship because fame and money wont make me truly happy. Its you, Kim Taeyeon.
You make me the happiest person in the world.
Tiffany wiped the tears that Taeyeon shed during her little speech. She planted a short, sweet kiss
on her forehead.
Thank you. Thank you for saying that. I promise Ill work harder. Ill try to express myself to
you more often.
Well, thank you too. Thank you for letting me love you.
I love you, whispered Taeyeon, But you should know I dont want you just for your body.
Tiffany laughed loudly while clapping her hands.
I know, babe. Believe me, I really know that. But its nice if you want me for my body once in
a while.
Taeyeon stood up and opened her arms wide.
What are you waiting for? Taeyeon looked down and asked, smirking all the while.
Tiffany quickly got up and jumped into Taeyeons arms while wrapping her legs around
Taeyeons waist. Both were kissing each other feverishly as Taeyeon started to make their way
to their bedroom, but she bumped into a table, causing a lamp to crash down onto the floor.
They both looked down and then looked at each other
Oops, guess well have to pay for that, said Taeyeon.
They both giggled and continued their way to the bedroom.
Lets just say, Paris is indeed one of the most romantic cities in the world.







Chapter 6
Present Time
[Breaking] Taeyeon and Tiffany of the duo group Pax are getting engaged?
You heard it, Locksmiths! Is one of the most beloved couples of the world finally getting engaged?
The girls of Pax shot themselves to the top of the music industry through winning season 3 of
Looking for Stars in 2005. After winning 3 Grammy awards for their debut studio album, Into
the New World, and a whopping 6 Grammy awards for their 2
nd
album, You and Me, the duo has
made headlines all over the world. The girls have previously stated they started dating at the
sweet age of just thirteen years old! After more than a decade of dating, is Taeyeon finally
popping the question? She is currently in Seoul, South Korea for a photo shoot, but it seems like
she has other business to attend to as well. Photos have been uploaded on multiple social media
sites, showing the singer and an unknown man (most probably her manager) at Soshi Jewelry
Shop, looking at various engagements rings. The photos are spreading rapidly and Locksmiths
are getting excited as they wait for confirmation of the news. Stay tuned for official statements!
So whens the wedding? A voice snickered.
Jessi!! Its not funny!
Arent you going to ask me to be the maid of honor?
Jessica Jung!
Oh, no are you demoting me to be a bridesmaid!? Thats a low blow
IM NOT GETTING MARRIED!
Yet I mean, Taeyeon is just getting the ring.
Jessica, youre being a horrible best friend right now. I am FREAKING OUT!!
Tiffanys seemingly good morning turned into a surprise and panic when she opened her laptop
to look at the news.
Okay, okay sheesh, just trying to have a little fun. Dont have to go busting my eardrums.
Silence ensued
Tiff, you there?

Hellooo, Tiff??

Soon-to-be-a-wife Tiffany?
IM NOT GETTING MARRIED!
Jessica cracked up, laughing uncontrollably, and Tiffany rolled her eyes. How did she ever get
Jessica Jung as her best friend? Oh right their mutual love for fashion. She cursed her mini
obsession for clothes, but how could she not love them? Theyre so pretty and well, fashionable.
Are you going to help me or not? I can call someone else.
Okay, okay, Some last minute laughing died off, Why dont you just call her?
Duhh, you think I didnt try that? Its past midnight in Seoul! Shes asleep.
Oh, well Then just wait for like 7 hours or so
WAIT? You want me to wait!? Are you kidding me, Jess? This is my future were talking
about!!
Calm down, girl. Dont you want to get married to Taeyeon? You guys have been dating since
forever.
I well, yes I do want to get married to her someday. But this is just too sudden. We rarely
talked about getting married, but now shes off supposedly buying me a ring!?
Duhh, ever heard of a surprise proposal? But then again I guess its not much of a surprise
now
But..but she could have at least gave me some signals or talked to me about it first! Marriage
is a BIG thing. I mean, were going have to look for and buy a house. Well have to look at the
exterior and interior design. And rooms! How many rooms are we looking for? I mean, we need
the master bedroom, then the guest rooms, then the kids rooms KIDS. Oh my gosh. How
many kids does she want? Does she want onetwothree?
Nine!
NINE!? I CANT HANDLE THAT MANY KIDS!! Im not good with kids! Ill lose one of
them and Ill be named the most horrible mother in the history of mothers! Then Ill go to jail! I
cant go to jail; they dont like pretty people in there!
HAHAHAHA, Tiffany! You need to chill out. Youre thinking way too much. If she is proposing,
then thats good! You guys are totally ready for marriage. Itll be a piece of cake for you guys.
Seriously, no one in the world gets along as much as you and Taeyeon do.
Awwww, thank you! Youre finally being a proper best friend!
Ive always been the best of best friends!
Not exactly
Whatever anyway, Ive been meaning to ask. The guy in the picture with Taeyeon, do you
recognize him?
Tiffany opened her laptop again and looked at the photos closely.
WellI cant tell. Most of the pictures have him with his face turned away and the pictures
arent exactly taken with a professional camera.
Oh, well, I tried to actually to help. Anyway, I have to cut the conversation short! I have to meet
some famous photographer whos going to take the official pictures for my next fashion show
collection.
Ooooh, THE Jessica Jung, one of the most recognized fashion designers in the world is bringing
in the big guns this year, huh?
Yeah, yeah, yeah. Look whos talking Ms. 9-time Grammy award winner. Theres a rumor
going on that Pax will be putting out an album in a few months?
My lips are sealed.
Some best friend you are. Im hanging up now! Love you. Make sure you say, Yes when
Taeyeon pops the question!
Jessica! You are so getting it when I
*Beep*Beep*Beep*
Jessica didnt hear the rest of what Tiffany was going to say as she hung up. She smiled to
herself, feeling happy if Taeyeon was actually proposing.
They deserve to be happy. When is it going to be my turn?
Jessica sighed as she got her coat and car keys. She left her apartment and went to her car. Her
assistant had told her to meet this famous photographer at a caf not that far from her apartment.
She could have walked, but why walk when she has a car?
When she arrived, Jessica walked into the caf, then suddenly realizing that she has no idea what
this photographer looked like. She simply asked her assistant to find a capable photographer but
never bothered to ask for a picture. She mentally face palmed herself.
Oh, well, Ill just sit and wait in a booth. The photographer will recognize me. The photographer
agreed to the job, so he or she should obviously know me. Wow, that sounded conceited of me.
Jessica sat in a booth, which was somewhat out in the open so the photographer could easily spot
her, but she also tried to not attract any extra attention as she didnt want to deal with any fans so
early in the morning. Oh, the dilemma.
I want my bed.
Jessica was in the middle of a wonderful dream where she was sleeping on a big fluffy cloud, but
was rudely awakened by her phone and a very loud, hysteric Tiffany.
She started to play with her phone while waiting. A few moments passed when she noticed the
time.
11:30 A.M. The meeting time. Where is this photographer?
Excuse me?
Jessica looked up and saw a tall, tan, black-haired woman.
Jessica Jung, right?
Jessica simply nodded.
Hi, Im the new photographer you hired. Yuri. Kwon Yuri.








Chapter 7
Oh, yeah Hi. Nice to meet you.
When they shook hands, Jessica felt a tingling sensation shooting from her hand to all over her
body and her heart was beating slightly faster.
Whats going on with me?
She cleared her voice and said, Please, sit down.
Thanks. Well, your assistant told me to bring some samples of my work to show you, so here
you go.
Yuri pulled out a portfolio from her bag and handed it over to Jessica. As Jessica flipped page
after page, her eyes became bigger and bigger and her jaw slightly dropped.
I take it from your expression that Im very good? Yuri let out a small laugh.
Jessica blushed. Yeah, theyre so amazing and breathtaking. Its as if I can feel the emotions
coming out from them. And there is a variety of photos; I dont think you took all of them within
the United States.
There was a moment of silence. Wondering why the other girl isnt talking, Jessica looked up.
Yuri was looking at the portfolio, but her eyes werent actually focused on it. Its as if she was
reliving memories of her past in her mind.
Yuri? You okay?
Yuris head snapped back up and she locked her eyes on Jessica.
Uhh, yeah, sorry about that. And youre right. I was 18 when I spent about 3 years travelling
around the world, taking random pictures of things and people I thought were interesting.
Really? You didnt go to college and learn photography?
No I didnt think c-college was right for me
Hmmm, I guess youre a natural then. Jessica smiled brightly.
Yuri stared at Jessicas smile for a moment, then suddenly coughed, shook her head, and looked
down at her lap.
Haha, non-not r-really
Jessica smiled even more widely at the stuttering girl.
Anyway, I just wanted to meet you today and let you know that my new fashion show
collection will be debuting next month. Well be heading to New York, so make sure your
schedule is clear.
Umm, okay.
Ill be having an interview with Vogue magazine and the pictures you take will be used there, so
do your best. But after seeing your work, I guess I dont really have to say that.
Thanks.
Jessica saw an uneasy expression on Yuris face.
Is this your first time taking pictures for a fashion show?
Y-yeah. I usually only take pictures of objects or places, not really people, professionally.
Then whyd you agree to this job? asked Jessica, raising an eyebrow.
To be honest, initially, I wasnt going to take the job when your assistant called me. But I was
with my friend at the time, and shes a huge fan of yours. So she sort of pushed me to accept the
job when she overhead the conversation.
Jessica frowned. Thats not a good reason for accepting a job.
W-well, yeah. Haha, I sort of o-owed her a f-favor, if thats what you call it. Yuri awkwardly
rubbed the back of her neck.
Well whether you want to do it or not, you dont have a choice now. You signed an agreement
with my assistant when you met her, so still, do your best, please.
Of course, of course.
Good, now if you excuse me, I have some other work to do today. Ill see you in a month, said
Jessica as she picked up her bag and got up, starting to head to the door.
Wait!!
Yuri stood up, looking very red in the face.
C-can I have your number? You know, so I-I can contact you about the information for the
show and stuff
Jessica narrowed her eyes.
Sorry, I dont just hand out my number like that. If you have any questions, you can contact my
assistant and shell contact me. Bye, have a nice day.
And with that, Jessica walked out the door, leaving behind a very flustered and embarrassed Yuri.
Damn you, Im Yoona, making me look like an idiot. Muttered Yuri to herself.
Late morning in Seoul, South Korea
A girl was lying on her bed, sleeping very peacefully. Her face looked calm and happy, happy
with everything that has been happening in her life so far. She had no idea about the chaos and
for Locksmiths, excitement that was happening back in her home country. She also had no idea
that with every passing minute she continued her beauty sleep, she was making a certain love of
her life more hysteric.
Finally, after deciding she had enough sleep, Taeyeon opened her eyes. She blinked repeatedly,
feeling a bit cold and lonely without a cuddly girl she was so used to sleeping with.
I miss you, but Ill see you very soon.
Taeyeon grabbed her phone and unlocked it. Her face turned into shock when she saw 81
messages and 39 missed calls.
Have I been sleeping for an entire week!?
Taeyeon scrolled through the messages and found that more than half of the messages as well as
missed calls all came from Tiffany.
Is something wrong!?
Taeyeon hurriedly called Tiffany, hoping nothing happened to ruin her happiness.
After one ring, the line connected.
KIM TAEYEON!!
Tiffany!? Whats wrong? Are you okay!?
Am I okay!? Am I, me Tiffany Hwang, okay!? Its nearing the evening and I cant even put one
foot outside of our apartment without being swarmed by reporters and the paparazzi! My phone
keeps blowing up every other minute with messages and calls from our friends and family,
asking whats going on, but I cant reply to anybody because even I dont know whats going on!
And I cant browse my Twitter and Instagram because our fans are blowing up those sites as well!
I cant watch TV or open my laptop now because were all over those too! Jessicas too busy to
talk to me! I cant cook and theres no food in the house so Im starving! Ginger and Prince peed
and pooped all over the apartment because I cant go out to walk them! Youre in Korea and I
miss your hugs and kisses! And I dont know if you were buying an engagement ring for me so
Ive been freaking out since this morning! And Im hungry, hungry!! So, no, I am NOT OKAY!!
At some point during Tiffanys little speech, Taeyeon had decided to put her phone on
loudspeaker and slightly cover her ears with her hands. She didnt fully cover them to completely
block out Tiffanys hysteric and loud voice, but just enough to slightly muffle the volume.
Her eyes popped wide open when she heard the last part of what Tiffany said.
Wait repeat the last part again?
Im hungry!! H-U-N-G-R-Y, Tiffany spelled out the word for her, Tiffany Hwang needs
FOOD!
No! Not that. Before the hungry part!
You dont care that Im hungry!? What kind of girlfriend are you? Oh, wait, are you my fianc
now? Wait! I didnt even say, Yes yet and you didnt even propose to me Tiffany
rambled and mumbled.
What on earth is she talking about?
TIFFANY HWANG MIYOUNG
That shut Tiffany up. Taeyeon rarely calls her by her full name.
Yes? Tiffany replied hesitantly.
Taeyeon sighed. This was a very confusing and hectic morning shes having.
What engagement ring? What fianc? What are you talking about!?
You went to Soshi Jewelry Shop yesterday, looking at engagement rings.
Huh? Howd you know about that?
WHAT!? Oh my gosh, its true. Oh my gosh. Oh my gosh!
Whats true!?!?
YOURE PROPOSING TO ME!!
WHAT!? NO I AM NOT.
YOURE CHEATING ON ME AND PROPOSING TO SOMEONE ELSE!? WHO IS IT!?!
ILL KICK THEIR ASS!!
IM NOT PROPOSING TO ANYONE!!
SO YOURE CHEATING ON ME??
IM NOT CHEATING ON YOU EITHER!
OH! OKAY, BUT WHY ARE YOU YELLING AT ME!?
BECAUSE YOURE YELLING AT ME!!
Oh, sorry Tiffany nervously chuckled and lowered her voice, So what were you doing at
the shop if you werent looking for an engagement ring?
I was with my brother, Jiwoong. HES the one planning to propose to his girlfriend.
Oooooooooh, so that was him His face was turned in all the pictures so I couldnt recognize
him.
Pictures? There are pictures of us?
Of course, it explains how I know you went to that shop yesterday. Theyre spreading
everywhere. The worlds going crazy, thinking youre going to propose to me.
Taeyeon groaned. Bad morning. A very bad morning.
Okay, Ill go call our agency and manager to explain everything. Sorry about all of this.
Its fine. Weve been in the industry for 9 years; Im nearly used to everything. Although I was
nervous about the idea of you proposing to me, I sort of liked the idea too. Tiffany blushed at
her statement.
Taeyeon grinned.
I like the idea too.
Hehe, so when are you planning to pop the question? asked Tiffany,
Soon~ replied Taeyeon.
How soon? Tiffany playfully responded.
Youll know when I get down on one knee.
Im expecting something big, Taetae!
Of course, my girl deserves nothing short of the best.
Aww, you sweet talker! Anyway, hurry and call our manager to clear up the confusion. And tell
him to pick me up from our apartment so I can go eat! Ginger and Princes dog food is looking
mighty delicious to me right now
Eww! Okay, okay, Im going to hang up and call now. No need to resort to eating dog food!
Hehee, okay. I love you~ Come back soon. I really miss you.
I miss and love you too. Im coming straight to your arms very soon!
They both hung up and Taeyeon made the call to explain everything. After she was done, she
started packing her luggage to go back home aka to Tiffany.



Chapter 8
Taeyeons plane from Seoul to L.A. finally touched down. After being on a plane for over half a
day, Taeyeon was dead tired and wanted nothing more than to cuddle with Tiffany. She wanted
to immerse herself into smelling Tiffanys intoxicating strawberry scent and after a well-
deserved nap; maybe they could drown in each others eyes without needing words to be said
because no words are needed when you are with the love of your life.
Taeyeons manager drove her to the apartment she shared with Tiffany. After helping Taeyeon
carry a few bags to the apartment door, they said their good-byes. Taeyeon turned to face the
door.
Im home, Tiffany.
She punched in the passcode to the apartment and opened the door.
Silence~
It is the morning Is she still sleeping?
Taeyeon carried her bags to the bedroom and slowly opened the door and peeked inside.
She saw a lump in the bed which she assumed was Tiffany.
After dropping her bags at the end of the bed, not bothering to unpack, Taeyeon lifted the covers
and her facial expression shifted to surprise. All she saw was a bunch of pillows.
What the?
She heard a giggle behind her, so she turned around. As she turned, she was also tackled to the
bed, locked in a bear hug. The only things Taeyeon registered in her mind were seeing black,
glorious hair covering her vision and smelling that scent she loved so much.
Hehehe, got you, Taetae!
Tiffany buried her head on the crook of Taeyeons neck with her arms still around Taeyeon. She
occasionally squeezed the cute, petite girl just because she could.
F-fany, I c-cant breathe.
Tiffany lifted her head to look at Taeyeon and she pouted, but nevertheless, released her arms
from Taeyeon. Before Taeyeon could say anything else, Tiffany grabbed her hand and pushed
her to lie on the bed. Tiffany then proceeded to climb on top of her as well as pull the covers
over them, and once again, burying her head on the crook of Taeyeons neck while her hands
reached Taeyeons hair and stroked it lovingly.
I missed you a lot, Taetae.
Taeyeon smiled to herself. Tiffany was being unbelievably adorable and cute right now. She
wrapped her arms around Tiffany, hugging her tight, and kissed Tiffanys head.
I missed you too. I thought you were still sleeping.
Hehe, no, I heard the front door open and knew it was you, so I hid in the closet for a bit to
surprise you.
Awws, you little prankster. She ruffled Tiffanys hair, making it a complete mess.
Taetae! Youre ruining my hair! Tiffany whined.
Hmm, I dont think you even did your hair today.
I DID! I, you know, combed itwith my fingers right before you came in.
HAHAHAHA Taeyeon burst out into the laugh that Tiffany loved so much to hear. It was the
sound of pure joy and happiness. Tiffany knew celebrity life has not suited completely well with
Taeyeon. She knew Taeyeon would rather much sing without having all the media and fans
following them everywhere they go and invade their precious bubble that surrounded the two
lovers. So hearing that particular laugh made Tiffany feel warm inside, knowing she was the
reason for it.
When the laughter died down, Taeyeon suddenly took a very long and obvious sniff of Tiffany.
Hey! Why did you smell me?
You smell stinky. Did you shower yet?
Well, you dont smell all that great either, Kim Taeyeon. And no, I did not. I was lazily rolling
around on the bed before you came into the apartment.
Hehehe, we both smell stinky. Imagine if the media gets a hold of this!
Two words for you then: Image Ruined.
The two burst into laughter. When the laughter was slowly died down, Taeyeon decided to have
a little fun and tickled Tiffanys sides and they both burst into laughter once again.
TAE! AHAHA I CANT BREATHE. HEHEHE. TAETAE STOP!
Taeyeon obeyed the order and just hugged Tiffany again.
I just want to be in your arms forever, babe, said Tiffany.
And I would like to hold you forever, replied Taeyeon.
After having a few moments of comfortable silence, Tiffany heard light snores coming from
behind her. Knowing that it was Taeyeon, she simply stayed still and quiet, hoping her lover
would get some rest from the flight.
A few hours later, Taeyeon awoke, feeling groggily and hungry. She did a mini stretch with her
eyes closed.
What time is it?
She heard a few quiet giggles behind her, so she turned around on her side and nuzzled into
Tiffanys side.
Hi, Taetae! You awake now?
Mmmmm groaned Taeyeon.
Good! I was dying of boredom! Do you want to do anything today?
Mmmmmm.eat.mmmm why do you still smell?
I didnt feel like showering, Tiffany bluntly said.
Were going out to eat, so you should.
You should too.
Hmmm, why dont we shower together then? asked Taeyeon, raising her head to face Tiffany
and giving her a wink.
Are we just showering? asked Tiffany while giggling.
Of course. That and a little more Plus, well save water.
Yeah, yeah, yeah, whatever byuntaetae. Tiffany got up and held out her hand for Taeyeon to
take.
When they entered the bathroom together, they started attacking each others lips and helping
one another stripping their clothes off. Taeyeon paused their make out session to turn on the
water. When she turned around to face Tiffany, she asked, Ready for me to rock your world?
Oh, Im ready for you to rock my world more than once, babe, Tiffany said seductively.
Hehehe, now what would happen if the media gets a hold of this?
Well, lets just say, there will be some very, very happy Locksmiths.
They both laughed as they got into the shower together, showering each other with love and
kisses.
After taking a shower, Taeyeon and Tiffany decided to go on a late night date, something that
was rare with their busy lives and all.
They stopped by a famous Italian restaurant for dinner. They were seated at a secluded corner to
avoid any unwanted attention. A waiter gave them the menus.
Ill come back in a bit to take your order, ladies, he said as he gave Taeyeon a bright smile,
and then left.
Taeyeon started to scan the menu when Tiffany said, He looks charming.
Huh? Taeyeon was confused with the sudden compliment of the waiter.
The waiter. Charming guy, huh? He looks about our age.
Okay? Do you want to start dating him then? Taeyeon joked.
No but Im sure he would like to date you.
Taeyeon stopped looking at the menu for a moment and glanced at Tiffany. She saw Tiffany was
scowling as she was reading her own menu.
Cute
Well, too bad for him then. Im taken by someone named Tiffany Hwang and I have no plans of
running away.
Tiffany gave a small smile when she heard what Taeyeon said.
She cleared her throat, Well, I dont think this Tiffany Hwang girl plans on letting you go.
Hmm possessive Say, do you think I should have a tattoo somewhere on my body that says,
Property of Tiffany Hwang? Would that make her happy?
Tiffany chuckled, I think Tiffany Hwang thinks tattoos are cool and all when they have a
meaning to it, but I dont think she would like anything permanent covering her lovers milky
white, precious skin.
Oh, okay, then what would make her happy then? I want to do something special.
You dont have to do anything special for her; you just have to be by her side, loving her and
letting her love you.
Hehe, I can do that until my last breath and even after life too.
Good, now can we please stop referring to me as third person? Its getting a bit weird.
Taeyeon let out a laugh, I just wanted to cheer you up because you were jealous.
I was not jealous.
Was so
Was not
Was so
Was not
Was so
Was n-
Excuse me?
The two stopped their little argument and looked up to see the waiter looking at them weirdly.
Are you ladies ready toorder?
Taeyeon let out a nervous chuckle, Yeah, yeah, we are.
After taking their orders, the waiter left and the two burst out laughing.
He must have thought we were kids, laughed Taeyeon.
Tiffany nodded while grinning.
The two finished their dinner and decided to take a relaxing stroll through a park while holding
hands. It was late at night so there werent so many pedestrians walking around. After being a
duo for 9 years, they endured lots of screaming and noise from fans and others. Silence was
something they enjoyed once in a while.
Fany, didnt you say you hated silence when we were kids?
I still do because it reminds me of loneliness, but now I like it sometimes, especially when Im
with you.
Mmmm, ever think about what would happen if we werent celebrities?
Sometimes. But I would like my life either way because I know I would be with you. Tiffany
gave an eyesmile.
Taeyeon grinned, Youre being incredibly cheesy and adorable today, you know that?
Psshh, Im always adorable, said Tiffany while flipping her hair.
They stopped beneath a small tree and under the light of the moon.
Hey this seems familiar right?
What? Tiffany asked confusedly.
Remember that night when I asked you to be mine? Lets dance again!
Hahaha, okay. But this is so unexpected from you. Youre still shy about dancing with me in
public after all these years.
Well Im full of surprises, baby, winked Taeyeon. She grabbed Tiffany by the waist and they
started a small dance under the moonlight. Tiffany put her head on Taeyeons shoulder and
closed her eyes, enjoying the dance and moment.
~How can I love when Im afraid to fall, but watching you stand alone/ All of my doubts
suddenly go away somehow/ One step closer/ I have died everyday waiting for you/ Darling
dont be afraid/ I have loved for you a thousand years/ Ill love you for a thousand more~
Tiffany moved her face to be against Taeyeons neck and gave small pecks repeatedly as
Taeyeon was singing.
When Taeyeon finished singing the song, Tiffany sighed contentedly.
Lets go on for a long time, Taetae.
There is no doubt in my mind that we will, Fany.








Chapter 9
A tall, slender woman was sitting on a black leather couch in Yuris apartment, quietly fulfilling
her quite large of an appetite. There were macrons, popcorn, chips, sodas and other junk food.
Yuri had lured her here to this apartment in the middle of the night with all the food that was
currently in front of her on the small table in front of the TV. The woman didnt even mind if she
was led to a death trap. If there was food, she was there in a blink of an eye.
Yuri was pacing in front of the TV, yelling about something. Honestly, the woman was only
half-listening. To her, it was the usual complaints and death threats to a certain famous actress
who was a longtime mutual friend of theirs. The woman knew she was only there just so Yuri
could vent out her feelings to someone and she was glad to be that someone.
Its never good to bottle up your emotions.
Seriously, shes Im Yoona!
Yuri letting out her thoughts and feelings = Good
Shes a star! Cant she get her manager to get her to meet Jessica Jung!?
Keeping everything inside until one day you explode; the damage is tremendous.
Memories of the past flashed in her minds eye quickly, an image appearing every second. She
gave a small sigh.
She says shes shy to do so. She thinks its not the same for me!? Gosh, that was so
embarrassing. Jessica might have thought I was some sort of creep!
Good, good. Let it out.
And my pride! Oh my gosh, she flat out rejected me! What am I going to do!? I cant face her!
~Let it go~ Let it go~ Cant hold it back anymore~ Let it go~ Let it go~
Yuri was trying to call Yoona while the woman was singing in her head.
Shes not picking up! Ooooh, youll see. Once I get a hold of her!
The woman looked up just in time to see Yuri making violent motions with her hands.
Its going to be World War III! Sooyoung, you better get ready to dig her grave!
Now, now. Theres no need for things to be taken that far. Sooyoung finally spoke up.
Yuri stopped her pacing and looked at Sooyoung dead in the eye.
No need? No need? My pride and self-esteem, Sooyoung! The two things that I have been
trying to rebuild after all these years! Yes, I have failed repeatedly but Im trying now! Harder
than ever before! What was Yoona thinking? Asking me to ask Jessica Jung for her phone
number!? Yoona, of all people excluding you, should know that was a risky move! But no,
Yoona just had to pull out the favor card!
Relax! You know Yoona. Jessica Jung is one of her all-time favorite person in the world. What
do you think she felt like when she heard you had a chance to work with her role model? Shes
younger than us so its guaranteed that she can be nave some times. Yoona and Jessica work in
two different professions so its difficult for them to run into each other. And even if they did,
Im sure the kid would freeze up and not know what to say. Besides, she told me that you might
like Jessica. Yoona says Jessica fits perfectly in your ideal type.
Still She shouldnt have pushed me when I wasnt even ready
Sooyoungs eyes softened when she saw the hurt eyes Yuri was showing.
Yuri it has recently passed a year. You made some great improvements and strides toward
becoming the true you. Yoona and I both know that. I guess Yoona thought it was time for you
to know that as well, so she gave you a little push.
I-I dont know if Im ready.
You are. And you know that.
What if things dont work out and I go back to that?
You wont because youre stronger than ever before.
Yuri scoffed.
I thought I was stronger than ever before when I came back from travelling around the world.
But then again, I tripped up a year later.
Thats why they say, Practice makes perfect. Look, just go out, mingle with other people.
Believe in yourself. Seriously, its a bit depressing to see you just go to work then back home.
You cant be a loner for the rest of your life. Sooyoung joked.
That doesnt sound like a bad idea though
Sooyoung frowned.
Love is a wonderful thing. Everyone needs some love in their life. Yes, it is risky. You can
either stay on cloud nine or be burned into ashes. But in this world you cant have the good
without the bad. I, personally, think the awards of love outweigh the rest.
When Sooyoung finished talking, Yuris phone rang.
Its Yoona, she said.
Sooyoung got up from the couch and walked to Yuri. She patted her friends back.
Answer it. Talk to her, without all the death threats, please. Tell her how you feel. Ill leave
now, thanks for the food.
Sooyoung winked and let herself out of the apartment while singing
~Let it go~ Let it go~ Cant hold it back anymore~
Yuri shook her head and chuckled.
She answered her phone.
Yuri!! I missed you~
Hi, Yoona.
How was meeting THE Jessica Jung!? Did you get her number??
No I didnt. She flat out rejected me.
Oooh, Im sorry. Didnt you say it was for business?
Yes, she told me to contact her assistant first.
Ouch. Hmm, dont worry. You two will get closer and then you can ask her for it again!
Yuri sighed, remembering what Sooyoung said.
Look, Yoona. I have to tell you this. I dont appreciate the fact you pushed me into doing
something I wasnt quite ready to do yet.
I know, I know. It was a big step. But honestly, I thought it could be some sort of wake up call.
You cant stay alone, cooped up in your apartment forever. You have to get out there. Socialize,
get to know people. Let people get to know you.
I told Sooyoung just before you called. I dont know if Im ready.
Oh, I think youre more than ready. Youre just afraid.
Yuri contemplated for a moment. Maybe Yoona and Sooyoung were right. She was ready but
just afraid.
Yuri, you just have to trust yourself to not let yourself fall back into your old ways. Get past
your fears and youre all set to go. You can rock this world and maybe someones life too.
I-I still dont know
Its okay. Just take it one step at a time. Im sorry I rushed you. We can do this at your pace.
Thanks, Yoona. Thanks a lot.
No problem. I just thought Jessica Jung fitted your ideal type, so I just wanted you to meet her
even if it was work-related. It was a great opportunity in my mind.
I think I need a little more time. I should focus on myself for now before I attempt to take
responsibility for someone else.
Okay, its your call. Believe in yourself and stay strong okay?
Yeah, will do.
I think its midnight in L.A. You should get some sleep. Ill come to visit in a few days after Im
finished with filming.
Stay safe, dont overwork yourself.
Hahaha, Ill be fine. Bye, Yuri. And thank you for sharing your feelings about the whole
situation to me.
Yeah, it feels good. Bye.
Yuri hung up the phone and slumped onto her couch. She was staring at the ceiling, going
through memories in her mind.
Im really glad to have you as my friends, Yoona and Sooyoung. Thank you so much.
It was late in the morning the next day.
Tiffany wrapped herself in a robe and left the bedroom, not forgetting to kiss the sleeping
Taeyeon on the forehead first and grabbing her phone.
She made a call.
Hello?
Hey, Jess. You awake?
Obviously or I wouldnt have answered the call.
Tiffany rolled her eyes.
Youre being mean. It was a question to start the conversation.
*sigh* Sorry, Im just a bit stressed about the fashion show collection.
No worries. Youll do fine, like you always do.
Thanks for reminding me. No pressure, no burden, Jessica sarcastically said.
Im being serious.
Whatever. Anyway I heard the news. It was a misunderstanding about the whole proposing and
engagement thing.
Yeah. I got a bit flustered for nothing I guess.
A bit flustered? Girl, you were being hysterical.
Tomayto, tomahto.
Haha, were you disappointed?
A bit. But we both agreed we would wait a little bit more before we get married so its all good.
Awws, but you made so many Locksmiths excited and cry for nothing. They were crashing the
social media sites, all happy about your supposed engagement.
I know. I feel bad. But when we do get engaged, Im sure wed like to tell it to our fans
ourselves and not have some article written about it first. Itd be more meaningful, dont you
think?
Yes?
Why does your answer have a question mark in the end? Anyway, Taeyeon was saying how her
proposal is going to be something big. Im actually excited and looking forward to it! Oooh,
imagine! She proposes to me in front of all our fans. Thatll be pretty romantic, right? Its like a
declaration of her love, publicly! But I dont know if she would she is still shy about all the
PDA, but then again, fans have caught her just staring at me or more like my butt but my
butt is still a part of me so I guess thats okay. Its hilarious because I found a picture of her
actually with a little bit of drool! HA! As expected of my byuntaetae. What do you think her
proposals going to be like?

Jessica?
Oh, Im sorry. I was puking rainbows and unicorns while you were off daydreaming and
rambling something about Taeyeons declaration of love.
Hey! Cant a girl daydream about an ideal proposal?
Yes, but I prefer not to know about it.
Youre just jealous. Right now, if you could see, Im sticking my tongue at you.
Real mature. Arent you halfway to 50 now? Keep your tongue in your mouth.
Yes, I am. And no, I cant do that. My tongue has a nice warm place it likes to wriggle around
in.
Eww, I did not need to know that.
In fact, just before I called, my tongue was wriggling in a certain place for quite a while.
Tiffany
My tongue made poor Taeyeon knocked out from all that wriggling.
Tiffany Hwang
But not before her tongue was wriggling in my certain place for a while as well. Now that was
an amazing morning! I think I reached Heaven and back like 4 or 5 times.

Jess?
Oh, sorry, now you made me puke my breakfast.
Tiffany burst out laughing and Jessica rolled her eyes.
TMI, Tiffany, TMI
Eventually Tiffany stopped laughing and said, That is what you get for teasing me the other day
about the engagement thing.
Whatever, I still dont deserve to know that.
Oh, but you do, Ms. Jessica Jung. Hmmm, I wonder if Taeyeon is awake; I would love to have
her put a digit or two in me, or maybe even three, if you know what Im saying.
Ugh, Im hanging up.
W-wait, n-no! yelled Tiffany while laughing, I actually have something to ask you!
Make it quick, you horny little bunny.
I just wanted to ask about that meeting you had with the photographer.
Thats it?
Thats it.
O-kay. Her name is Kwon Yuri. She usually takes pictures of inanimate stuff, so this is her first
time photographing models professionally. But I saw her work, so Im not that worried.
Oh, its a woman. Is she cute?
What? I didnt notice if she was cute or not. It was a business meeting for Petes sake.
Then you meet with her in a non-business meeting and then find out if shes cute or not.
And why would I do that?
Because you need to get laid, Tiffany bluntly said.
WHAT!? Where is this coming from?
Oh, come on, whens the last time you got laid? Youre over working yourself and stressed out.
Sex helps with that, you know, speaking from experience.
Ugh, Tiff, no more sex talk, please. I have had enough for a day with all your innuendos.
Im just saying you need to get back out there. Youve been my friend since college and I have
never seen you with someone. I know about your past and all but you should move on from that.
Youre stronger than when you were a teen and youre better than those people. Youve
obviously proven that by placing yourself at the top of the fashion industry.
I know, I know. Im just not ready to get into a relationship yet; I want to focus on my career
first.
You can have both. Look at Taeyeon and me.
Thats because you two work together. Its a bit different when youre in the industry Im in.
Thats why I told you to check out the photographer. I just googled her while you were talking.
She looks hot.
You have a girlfriend. Should you be saying that?
Well, obviously, Taeyeon is cute and cuddly: My type. Kwon Yuri is sexy and tall: Your type.
Ugh, I am not going out with someone I am going to be working with.
But you wont be working with her after the fashion show collection. Just think about it. I have
a feeling she is your exact ideal type.
Will do, Mommy. Now, if you excuse me, I am going to work.
Okay, okay. Love you, Jess.
Love you too.
Tiffany hung up the phone.
You deserve to be happy, Jessica.
She then got up and walked to the bedroom to see if Taeyeon had enough rest so they continue
their activities from before.
Chapter 10
Fany? Babe, wake up. We have to go film our music video today.
Taeyeon patted Tiffanys head and tried to pry the covers away from the girl. Tiffany groaned
and roughly pulled the covers over her head.
Five more minutes; let me rest my eyes, she mumbled.
I already gave you some time to sleep while I showered. Times cutting short; our manager is
going to be here soon. Hurry for a quick shower.
No~ We did it way too much yesterday. Im tired~ Tiffany whined.
And whose fault is that? You were the one who kept coming on to me.
Well, I knew we were going to be busy for the next few months so you know, had to get
everything out.
Taeyeon chuckled. It was true; they were going to be extremely busy for the next few months.
They were planning to release their 3
rd
studio album, which was kept a secret from the public.
Although there were a few rumors going around here and there, no one confirmed it or a date for
the release. They were coming back to the music industry after a long hiatus, so it would be a
nice surprise for all their fans, the Locksmiths. Although Taeyeon and Tiffany kept themselves
busy with acting, musicals, and fashion stuff, it wasnt the same when they werent singing
together in front of their fans. After all, music is the one thing that connects everyone.
Im glad you got everything out. Now, please shower before our manager yells at me.
Ugh, fine~
Tiffany literally rolled out of the bed and fell to the floor with a thud.
Fany!?
Taeyeon rushed to the other side of the bed and saw Tiffany, looking like a mess.
You okay?
Mmm, yeah Im fine. It wasnt even a big fall anyway.
Taeyeon helped her to get up on her feet. She tried to give a good morning kiss to Tiffany, but
the latter moved her head away.
No kisses right now. I had more than enough yesterday. Im not even remotely attracted to you
right now.
Tiffany stuck out her tongue at Taeyeon and went to the bathroom to shower.
Taeyeon shook her head, believing that Tiffany may have a body of a 25 year old but had the
actions of a 10 year old. She started packing their things they needed for the day.
Pax will be releasing a total of 5 singles out of the 13 songs on the album, each with their own
music videos. It was a lot of work but it was the least Taeyeon and Tiffany could do after the
fans have given them so much love and support for nearly the past decade.
Their 3
rd
studio album was called Tae + Ny = ?
Taeyeon had decided on the title of the album. Tiffany had asked the girl what the question mark
meant but Taeyeon simply ignored the question or brushed it off.
Tiffany soon gave up so she went with the decision of the older girl.
Also, as Taeyeon had requested, the albums lyrical content mainly explored the themes of love,
love, and love The songs werent overly cutesy or would make the listener puke rainbows;
they were mature with deep meanings to it.
Both of the girls enjoyed composing and writing the lyrics together. Nearly all of the songs were
of them expressing their feelings toward each other. They didnt really notice as the lyrics came
flowing out of them; they were simply writing from their hearts.
The albums lead single was Mirrors (A/N: Justin Timberlakes Mirrors) and it was the song
they were filming for the music video today, which will be released next month.
The filming was going smoothly until Taeyeon heard something she didnt know about.
Okay, girls! Time to film the kissing scene. Everyone, gather over here! yelled the director.
W-what!? What kissing scene?? Taeyeon bewilderedly asked and looked at Tiffany.
Tiffany simply shrugged her shoulders.
The duo went over to the director and asked him what was going on.
It was a last minute decision, girls. We discussed it and think a small kissing scene will portray
the right emotions.
B-but we didnt agree to t-that! Taeyeon was becoming a nervous wreck.
Tae, I directed a few music videos for you girls and they all came out well, or in some cases,
extraordinary, right? Besides, even the old couple already filmed their kiss scene. It was quick,
no biggie. Trust me alright? The director gave them a smile and went to check if everything was
in order.
Taeyeon was shaking inside while her stylists were fixing her hair, makeup, and clothing.
Holding hands in public was alright with Taeyeon, but kissing!? Taeyeon sometimes gave
Tiffany a peck on the cheek as a fan service for their fans, but that was it. This was kissing on the
lips, no less, in front of 50+ staff members.
Taeyeon and Tiffany were now in a room; the staff members were all set to go.
Okay, so Taeyeon youre going to lean in to kiss Tiffany. Just a sweet kiss on the lips, okay?
Nothing rated like the stuff you girls would do at your home. The director joked and the room
exploded with laughter while Taeyeon and Tiffany blushed.
Taeyeon was turning into a bright red tomato, and she closed her eyes to calm her nerves down.
While she was breathing in and out, she felt someone take her hand and gave it a light squeeze.
She opened her eyes and saw Tiffany looking at her with so much love and affection.
Relax, whispered Tiffany, Just pretend its just the two of us here.
Taeyeon nodded, O-okay.
Alright, you girls ready?
They both nodded their heads softly.
Action! yelled the director.
Taeyeon looked in Tiffanys eyes. It was amazing to her how she could find strength and
courage when she saw her eyes. Tiffanys eyes were showing love and that was all Taeyeon
needed. With her love, Taeyeon felt like she was invincible and could conquer anything.
Taeyeon took a deep breath and started to lean in, closing her eyes. Tiffany stayed still and
slowly closed her eyes.
When Taeyeons lips touched Tiffanys; it was true. Both girls felt like they were in their own
little world, absent of the staff members, absent of all other emotions except their love for one
another.
They were moving their lips a bit, enjoying and losing themselves in the sweet kiss.
I love you so much, Tiffany.
Cut!
The girls got startled and hastily moved away from each other.
That was fantastic! Wow, you girls are truly each others halves. I guess thats what you girls
meant while writing the lyrics! And~ Its a wrap! Thank you everyone for their hard work! This
will be an amazing and heartfelt music video! The director and the staff members clapped their
hands.
Taeyeon and Tiffany followed along and went to each staff member to personally thank them.
The duo was in the waiting room, taking off their makeup and changing into more comfortable
clothes, getting ready to go home. The filming took over half a day, so both were glad to get
some sleep.
You ready? asked Tiffany.
Taeyeon nodded softly, stifling a yawn.
Awws, my baby, lets go home and sleep in our nice big bed.
Tiffany linked her arm around Taeyeons and started walking to their managers van. They
entered the van, sitting side by side, with Taeyeons head on Tiffanys shoulder.
Taeyeons phone rang and when she looked at the caller ID, her eyebrows rose.
Hello?
Hey, Taeyeon. Are you busy?
Hayeon, what are you doing up so late? Dont you have school tomorrow?
Taeyeon, are you so busy that you dont even know its a Friday?
Oh right. Im pretty tired, sorry.
Its fine. So, busy?
No, Im actually heading back home.
Our home!?
Huh? No, Tiffanys and my apartment.
Ohcan I sleep over?
Uhh, why? And where are you at now?
Somewhere.
Youre not at home!?
No, I sneaked out.
Hayeon, what are you going to do when mom and dad find out?
Chill, I left a note on my bed. Please? Im just outside of my high school, actually.
Ohand where exactly is that? Taeyeon asked.
Hayeon gave the address and Taeyeon told her manager to make a detour before going home.
Hayeons staying over? asked Tiffany, looking uneasy.
Yeah, dont worry about her, replied Taeyeon, patting Tiffanys thigh.
Taeyeon knew exactly why Tiffany was feeling nervous about Hayeon. The two girls used to be
close. Hayeon had always said she liked Tiffany because she was more girlish than Taeyeon.
However, over the past few years, Hayeons attitude changed towards Tiffany. She would ignore
the girl and if needed, only gave short responses to her. Taeyeon assumed it was because Hayeon
was going through puberty and the change was normal.
When they reached the school, Hayeon was standing outside, wrapping herself in an over-large
hoodie. Taeyeon went out to greet her. When they got back to the car, Hayeon let Taeyeon sit in
the middle between her and Tiffany.
Hi, Hayeon, said Tiffany.
Hayeon simply nodded her head at her, causing Taeyeon to pinch her arm.
Ouch! What was that for!?
Oh, so you can talk. Use your words; just dont nod at Tiffany.
Even if it was dark, Taeyeon could see Hayeon rolling her eyes.
Hi, Tiffany, Hayeon stiffly said.
There was silence on the way to the apartment.
When they reached, Taeyeon and Tiffany bid goodbye to their manager and went up to their
penthouse.
Hayeon, the guest room is over there. You want to borrow some of my clothes so youre more
comfortable sleeping? asked Tiffany, knowing Hayeon likes to wear more feminine clothes to
sleep than Taeyeon, who simply slept in baggy clothes.
No, wouldnt want to ruin your expensive and precious clothing. Ill just sleep in what Im
wearing now, said Hayeon as she started making way to the guest room.
Hey! Taeyeon stopped Hayeon, That is no way to talk to Tiffany. Apologize right now. Ive
had enough of your disrespectful attitude toward Tiffany!
Tiffany, Tiffany, Tiffany! Thats all who you talk about! Sheesh! Dont you think about me
anymore!? Or mom? Or dad? Or Jiwoong!? You nearly ruined his surprise proposal because fans
are always taking pictures of you wherever you go. You should be glad his face wasnt captured!
After Jiwoong decided to live in Korea, IM left alone at home. I can understand him not calling
all the time because of the time zone difference but you! YOU live in the same city as me!
Whens the last time you visited or called home? And not this stupid penthouse you call home.
OUR home. The place where you grew up in before you became this hot-shot star. Im starting to
think you let fame and money get into your head! You care about your fans and Tiffany more
than me and our family!
Hayeon shouted at Taeyeon and stormed away to the guest room, slamming the door.
Taeyeon was left speechless, digesting what Hayeon said.
When was the last time I went home?
Taeyeon?
Taeyeon just shook her head and went to their rooms bathroom to take a shower.
Taeyeon was staring at the ceiling when she heard the bathroom click open. She soon felt the
side of the bed next to her dip with the added weight of Tiffany.
Tiffany lay on her side with her elbow on the pillow and head on her hand. She stared at Taeyeon.
Tae, talk to me, please.
Taeyeon didnt respond. Its not because she didnt want to say anything; its because she didnt
have anything to say.
What have I been doing these years?
Look, Tae, Ive said this before. This isnt going to be an easy journey. And youre not the only
one at fault here. I havent been calling my family and keeping updated with their lives either. As
we grow older, we get busier. But when we do take a break, we can go spend time with our
families, and make up for the lost time. I think the memories we will make together will be even
more special.
Taeyeon still didnt respond; she just thought about what Tiffany said.
Try to get some sleep? We dont have anything to do tomorrow, so maybe you could visit your
parents.
Knowing Taeyeon would like some silence to think, Tiffany kissed Taeyeon on the nose and lay
down comfortably, snuggling close to Taeyeon.
Good night, Taetae. I love you.
Fame comes with a price. Tiffany said those words 4 years ago. I was afraid of losing Tiffany;
Ive always been afraid of losing Tiffany. I never thought about losing my family
What if I actually do lose my family?
Eventually, exhaustion reached to the point where Taeyeon knocked out.
The next morning, Taeyeon awoke to find the other side of her bed, empty. All there was, was a
note on the pillow next to her. It read,
Taeyeon, Im going to spend the day bothering, and if I want to, help Jessica. Go home; spend
time with your family. Ill talk to you later, love you, babe.
Taeyeon smiled, Tiffany has always been thoughtful and caring toward others.
She got up and did her morning routine before heading out of the bedroom, only to find her sister
sitting on the couch in front of the TV, eating a box of very expensive chocolates she had gotten
from a friend of hers.
Chocolates not good for you in the morning. Taeyeon said.
I know that, mom. But, these looked too expensive not to eat. And it was just sitting in one of
your cabinets. I thought they would feel lonely, not in anyones stomach. So I did the honor.
Taeyeon rolled her eyes.
I was thinking of gifting that to someone. Youve gotten sarcastic over these past few years.
Youve gotten distant over these past few years. Hayeon argued back.
Taeyeon sighed.
Hayeon, youre my sister. Youre my family and nothing is ever going to change that fact. Yes,
I have a job as a singer. Yes, I have a girlfriend. Yes, Im usually busier than the average person
who works. But all of those things do not mean that I love or care for you and the rest of the
family any less than I do. In fact, those things make me love you guys even more because of how
much I miss you guys. Im sorry I havent been keeping in touch with you guys and I promise I
will do that more in the future. But you do have to realize free time doesnt come by that
frequently in my line of work. I just hope you understand
Taeyeon looked at Hayeon. Hayeon had stopped eating and was looking at her lap.
Sorry she mumbled, Ive just been feeling a bit lonely at the house. There are some things I
cant talk to about with mom and dad Its just weird. I miss those times when everyone was at
home, together
Taeyeon walked over to sit next to Hayeon and wrapped her arms tightly around her sister.
Jiwoong told me the weddings going to take place next summer. Youll be out on break from
school and Im planning to spend a whole week in Korea. Well have some sister-bonding time
and itll be a blast with the whole family together. I promise.
I guess Hayeon still looked sad.
BUT, for now, lets have a little family bonding time. Im free for the day, so lets go back
home. Our home.
Really!? Hayeons eyes lit up but then she frowned, What about Tiffany?
Shes out for the day. So its just you, me, mom and dad.
Taeyeon frowned when she remembered about last night. She unwrapped her arms and pointed a
finger at Hayeons chest.
And! You, young lady, need to apologize to Tiffany. Your words probably hurt her feelings!
Hayeon rolled her eyes, I willthe next time I see her. Lets go home!
She got up and pulled Taeyeon with her to the door.
Taeyeon parked her car on the driveway of the Kim familys home. Its been years and Taeyeon
felt like nothing changed. It still looks the same when she was living here.
Instead of having Hayeon open the door, Taeyeon decided to ring the doorbell to surprise her
parents.
*Ding Dong*
Taeyeon heard footsteps come closer and a second later, the door opened, revealing a woman in
her late 50s.
The womans eyes bulged when she found out who was standing in front of her door.
Taeyeon!! Mrs. Kim enveloped Taeyeon in a tight, and suffocating, hug.
Taeyeon was struggling to breathe and tried to pry her mothers arms away from her body.
Mom, Im not going to have a sister anymore if you keeping hugging, or in this case, squishing
her.
Mrs. Kim released her arms and held Taeyeon by the shoulders while Taeyeon was taking in
deep breaths.
Oooh, my daughter. I missed you so much!
Mrs. Kim proceeded to rain kisses all over Taeyeons face.
Ugh, this is too much in the morning. Hayeon said as she pushed the two older women to the
side so she can get in the house and also called for her dad.
Mrs. Kim stopped her kisses and pulled Taeyeon to the living room where Mr. Kim was.
Mr. Kim got up from the couch and gave her a quick hug.
Hey, kiddo. Surprised to see you here.
Well, yeah. I thought of spending the day with the family.
And it took Hayeon to visit you to realize that, huh? Mr. Kim joked.
I-I, uhh, yeah. S-sorry, Taeyeon sheepishly said.
Its okay, sweetie. We know you and Tiffany are busy. By the way, where is Tiffany? asked
Mrs. Kim.
Shes out for the day with a friend. She wanted us to spend some quality time together.
Oh, shes a sweet girl. But shes practically part of the family already. Next time, invite her
over for dinner, okay?
Okay, mom.
The Kim family spent the whole day, catching up, playing games, and even cooked dinner
together. It was nearing night time, and Taeyeon had to go back to the apartment, because of a
schedule early next morning.
Taeyeon, before you go, can I talk to you privately? asked Mrs. Kim.
Taeyeon raised her eyebrow, O-kay?
Mrs. Kim led Taeyeon to her bedroom.
What do you want to talk about that you cant say in front of Dad and Hayeon?
Mrs. Kim ignored the question and went to a drawer to pull a big box out. She sat on the bed and
patted the space next to her. Taeyeon got the hint and sat next to her mother.
A few days ago, an article appeared, speculating you were buying an engagement ring for
Tiffany in Korea. I would have been sad if I forgot your brother was living in Korea and he had
already spoken to me about buying a ring and proposing to his girlfriend.
You would have beensad? asked Taeyeon in disbelief.
Yes, not because I disapprove of Tiffany, but because I had been keeping something for a while
now and have contemplated whether to give it to you or not.
Uhh, what is it?
Mrs. Kim gave Taeyeon the box. Taeyeon looked at her mother confusedly, but she did open the
lid of the box. Inside was a bunch of materials that were meant to make something that Taeyeon
had no idea about.
Umm, thank you?
Mrs. Kim chuckled, Sorry, its a bit messy.
Mrs. Kim moved the materials around and found a red, heart-shaped box.
Taeyeons eyes widened.
Mom dont tell me thats what I think it is
Why dont you open it and see for it yourself? Mrs. Kim handed the box over to Taeyeons
open palm.
Taeyeon slowly opened the box and a beautiful engagement ring was sitting inside it.
Taeyeons jaw dropped open.
Its a pink radiant cut diamond engagement ring set in platinum. Its set with 34 round
diamonds with a total weight of 1.05 carats and the center pink diamond of 1.25 carats. I made it
myself
You what!? asked Taeyeon, staring at her mom in amazement. Her eyes were brimming with
tears.
It took a while since it was my first time, but I did have some help Im sure you have enough
money to buy a better ring, so if you dont like
I love it! Taeyeon yelled and hugged her mom tightly.
Mrs. Kim chuckled and returned the hug.
Thank you, mom. This this means so much to me. When I propose, Tiffany will love this!
Mrs. Kim broke the hug and looked at her daughter.
So you have been thinking of proposing!?
I-Iuhh yeah. Ive been thinking of a proposal ever since we started preparing for our 3
rd

album.
Im so proud of you, Mrs. Kim.
They both hugged again.
I gave you my trust on your first day of kindergarten and let you take that tiny step. Im glad I
did or else I wouldnt have witnessed you growing into a beautiful, young, and strong woman.
Youre leading a wonderful life, my daughter. Continue what youre doing. I cant wait for you
to take the next big step in your life.





Chapter 11
The next month came by quick. It was time for the showcase of Jessica Jungs new fashion show
collection in New York.
Honestly, it was pure chaos. Yuri was waiting backstage with the rest of the staff members.
There were so many people, running around and shouting that Yuri felt suffocated. She
mindlessly checked her cameras over and over again, waiting for time to pass by quickly so she
could just get the job done and go back home.
Yuri had briefly met Jessica in the middle of all the chaos. She still felt embarrassed about asking
Jessica for her phone number and could barely look at her in the eyes. But Jessica seemed to
neither care or was too busy to notice, and told Yuri to wait for a bit, then rushed to check on the
models.
It was show time.
Yuri was at the front of the stage, prepared with all the equipment she needed to do what she did
best. Yuri assumed Jessica was still backstage, doing some last-minute checking.
It was an exclusive show case, so the venue was not overwhelmed with hundreds of people,
much to Yuris relief. She was always used to working in quiet and remote places.
The lights shown bright and the background music started to play, cueing Yuri to start working.
As Yuri started to snap away picture after picture, she also noticed the clothing the models were
wearing. She was never into fashion but she knew amazing pieces of work when she saw it and
she did.
Jessica Jung Youre a natural as well
Halfway through the showcase, Pax came on stage to perform Mirrors. It was a well-known
fact that Jessica, Tiffany, and Taeyeon were all friends so it was no surprise when Jessica had
asked them to perform at the showcase and they agreed.
Truthfully, Yuri did not know much about Pax or any modern music for that matter. She liked
silence and enjoyed nature. Instead of listening to music to calm her nerves; her preference lied
in exercising to relieve the stress or going to a quiet place, taking in natures beauty.
But what Yuri did know was that Taeyeon and Tiffany had been dating for more than a decade
and they looked, if not even more, in love with each other than ever.
Yuri was still taking pictures and noticed the small smiles Taeyeon and Tiffany gave each other
throughout the song. She can feel the love radiating from both of the girls. They were singing the
song to each other, singing their love for one another.
Would I ever feel what love feels like?
Or who am I kidding? Love is never found in the damaged ones.
Yuri shook her head, trying to get rid of the negative thoughts, the same thoughts that drove her
downward in a spiral.
The showcase was soon over and Yuri was yet again in the less noisy but still crowded backstage.
She was sending all of the pictures she took to the magazine editor that Jessica had told her about.
While she was working and deciding on which pictures to send, a tap on her shoulder caused her
to turn her head around.
Hey, Jessica gave her a tired smile.
Hi, responded Yuri, still not being able to look in Jessicas eyes, so she decided to do the old
trick and looked at her eyebrows.
Jessica moved closer to look at the pictures.
Wow, you didnt disappoint. These look great.
Yuri felt uncomfortable with the close proximity between her and Jessica. She could smell
Jessicas perfume and notice all the features of Jessicas face.
She gulped, her eyes scanning the face next to hers, taking in Jessicas beauty.
Youre going to the after party, right? asked Jessica, causing Yuri to come back to reality.
I-I..uhh what party?
The small after party I hold with all the staff members, models, and everyone who was invited
after every fashion show collection.
Ohh, uhh, I dont know Yuri trailed off, not wanting to be in another room full of noisy
people again.
Actually, it was a rhetorical question. Hurry and finish up; well take a car together along with
some friends of mine.
Jessica left after saying that and Yuri was confused but still a bit amused.
There was so much authority and control in Jessicas voice, both of what Yuri lacked, and still
lacks, in her younger days. The people around her had no authority and control, and not being
able to help herself, Yuri followed suit. Thats what got Yuri in all the mess she is in now.
Yuri soon finished with her work and packed her things to go. When she left the building, Jessica
was there with the girls of Pax, standing by a van.
Yuri! Over here, come on! Jessica yelled.
Yuri sighed and made her way over to Jessica.
Jessica, I dont really thi
Yuri couldnt finish her sentence when Jessica grabbed her by the wrist and pulled (shoved) Yuri
inside of the car and followed after. Taeyeon and Tiffany, both looking amused, went right in
and closed the door.
During the car ride to the venue, there was a bit of an awkward silence until Jessica broke it.
Yuri, these are my friends, Tiffany and Taeyeon. And girls, this is Yuri.
Hi, Yuri, Taeyeon said politely.
Oh, hi, Yuri. Youre that hot photographer Jessica was talking about.
Jessica talked about me? And Im hot?
HEY! Why are you calling her hot? asked Taeyeon, blowing up her cheeks and pouting.
Hahaha, Tiffany poked Taeyeons cheeks until there was no more air, and then kissed each
side, She may be hot, but I love someone cute and she just so happens to be sitting next to me
right now.
Taeyeon smiled widely and started pecking Tiffanys lips repeatedly. The two were giggling and
were soon in their own little world again.
Jessica rolled her eyes when she heard the noises behind her.
She turned to Yuri and said, Sorry about them. Theyre two little horny bunnies everywhere
they go. You even have to prepare a few barf bags when youre with them.
Yuri laughed, after knowing what superstars are like behind the scenes. She was starting to feel
more comfortable with Jessica. Jessica acted like a whole different person when she wasnt
working.
They soon arrived at the venue, and Yuri was surprised to see so many reporters and paparazzi
standing outside, waiting. She saw bodyguards and the security team pushing and trying to keep
the more than enthusiastic people from jumping over the railings on each side to keep the middle
lane clear.
Sorry about this. Inside the venue is quiet so you wont have to be worried about these people.
Just stay close to me, alright?
Jessica opened the door and stepped out, soon followed by Yuri, Taeyeon, and Tiffany.
Quite used to everything by now, Taeyeon and Tiffany held hands and walked through the
middle and into the venue.
Flashes, yells, screams, and shouts overwhelmed Yuri all at once.
Jessica!
Look over here!
Jessica, whos that?!
I LOVE YOU, JESSICA JUNG. MARRY ME!
She closed her eyes, trying to calm herself, and did everything in her power to just not run away
from the scene. She focused on one thing, the one thing that made her feel happy, calm, and at
peace all at the same time. She thought about the beach. The feel of the sand in between her toes;
the waves of the water moving towards her, and then running away; the feel of the air blowing
her hair away from her face; the place she labeled as her freedom.
Yuri concentrated hard, isolating her mind from the scene. She was brought back into reality
when a soft hand grabbed her own. She opened her eyes and found herself staring at the
concerned eyes of Jessica.
Lets go, whispered Jessica.
Yuri felt dazed and followed along the pull.
Moments later, she was inside the venue, safe from the outside.
Im sorry. You okay? asked Jessica.
W-were those a-all for y-you? asked Yuri, ignoring the question.
Maybe. But Taeyeon and Tiffany were with us as well, so you know
Oh
Silence.
Hey! What are you guys doing here when the partys in there? shouted Tiffany from afar.
Yuri and Jessica looked at each other for a moment and then simultaneously walked toward
where the party is.
Jessica was immediately flocked by many people, congratulating her on a successful showcase.
Yuri avoided the crowd and went toward the sides. Her whole body froze when she saw what
they were serving. Temptation everywhere.
No, this is not where I need to be.
Yuri turned around and was about to leave, when she abruptly stopped.
No, this is where I should be. Its been a year, Yuri. You can do this.
Yuri took a deep breath.
I can do this.
Hey! Yuri!
Yuri looked toward the voice and found that it was Tiffany who was pulling along Taeyeon.
Hi, Yuri said.
Awws, poor you. How could Jessica leave you here all by yourself? Lets go find her!
Tiffany then grabbed Yuris wrist and pulled both Taeyeon and Yuri behind her.
Hi, Yuri. Welcome to the club, Lets be dragged by Tiffany, with the member count of 2 now,
said Taeyeon, giving a small smile.
Uhh thanks. Does she do this a lot?
Only whens she excited. She really likes you, you know?
She l-likes me? Yuri asked confusedly.
Taeyeon narrowed her eyes when she realized what Yuri meant.
NO! Shes mine! I meant she likes you with Jessica. She thinks you guys would make a great
couple.
Oh, I-I, umm Yuri trailed off, slightly blushing and had no idea what to say to that.
Didnt Yoona say that as well?
Their mini conversation stopped when Tiffany stopped. She had finally found Jessica.
Jessi! You left your guest all by herself!
Oops, Im s-sorry, umm. Busy with everything right now. Jessica mumbled, looking
everywhere else but at Yuri.
Well, I think we need some drinks! Tiffany yelled and called one of the waiters walking
around.
Yuris eyes widened and slightly started trembling.
Each of the girls except Yuri picked up a shot.
Jessica grabbed another one and offered it to Yuri.
Here, she said, Celebration for our hard work. We all did great today.
Yuri stared at the shot of alcohol. Part of her wanted to knock it off from Jessicas hand and run
away to some place far away, but another part of her wanted to take it and gulp it down. Then,
she wanted to drink more and more until she puked; an all too familiar situation quickly formed
in her head and then passed by just as quickly.
Yuri slightly shook her head, trying to rid the temptation.
RESIST, RESIST, RESIST
I-I N-no t-thank you, Yuri quietly whispered.
You dont drink? asked Jessica, confused.
S-something like t-that.
Oh, Im so sorry. My parties have nothing but alcohol, you know, to celebrate the days work
and relieve all the stress.
Yuri looked at Jessica, who was staring at the floor.
I shouldve asked you before I dragged you along. Sorry.
Tiffany looked at the two, saw an opportunity, and took it.
Bad Jessica! Now, you have to go make it up for Yuri. Go grab dinner or something.
Tiffany grabbed both of the shots Jessica was holding and downed them both. She then pushed
Yuri and Jessica out towards the exit door.
Have fun, kids. No drinking. Tiffany giggled when the two were out and returned back to
Taeyeons side.
Jessica and Yuri had to rush back into the van they were in before because of all the reporters
and paparazzi still surrounding the outside of the venue.
When they were safe and sound, Jessica kept glancing at Yuri. Yuri noticed, but she did not want
to say anything.
So~ I never asked, is this your first time in New York?
No I lived here for a while.
Really? What did you do?
I, uhh, you know, went sightseeing, took photographs, and some other t-things
Other things you dont need to know. New York City is called The City That Never Sleeps for a
reason.
Well, I dont know if you tried it yet, but theres a really good steakhouse around here. Want to
grab dinner there?
Sure, I guess.
Cool. Driver, could you take us to XXX Steakhouse, please?
When they entered the steakhouse and ordered, Jessica decided to find out more about the girl
sitting across from her.
So why do you like photography?
I like taking pictures, Yuri simply said, Why do you like designing clothes?
Jessica frowned at the answer and answered the question in the same way, I like clothes.
They sat in silence for a while and when their food came, they started eating quietly.
Are you going to ask me for my number again? Jessica asked suddenly.
Yuri nearly choked on her piece of steak and hurriedly gulped down her water.
Damn, I thought she forgot.
I-I, umm, actually, i-it was for that friend of mine. She w-wanted it.
She? Who exactly is this friend of yours?
Im Yoona.
Jessica dropped her fork.
Im Yoona? THE Im Yoona? Youre friends with the Hollywood star actress, Im Yoona!? I cant
believe shes a fan of mine!
Yuri stared at her, amused.
Well, youre friends with the international superstars, Taeyeon and Tiffany, of Pax.
Pshh, like I said, I only see them as two little horny bunnies.
And I only see Yoona as an annoying, deer-faced pig, who eats everything in my apartment but
she doesnt eat at her mansion where she has chefs who could cook her gourmet food.
The two burst out laughing until tears started forming.
Celebrities are not so glamorous behind the scenes, Jessica commented.
Definitely not.
The atmosphere suddenly changed into a lighter one. The two chatted as if they have known each
other for years. Soon enough, they finished eating, but still continued talking late into the night,
getting to know one another.
Yuri and Jessica both noticed the other girl wasnt actually telling everything about their past,
but both decided to not go any deeper, perhaps waiting for the right time to do so.
Yuris flight back to L.A. was in the morning, so they decided to call it a night.
As they were both staying in the same hotel, Yuri walked Jessica back to her room.
Well, this is me, said Jessica, standing outside of her room.
Yeah, I guess. I had a great time tonight, thank you.
Youre welcome. It was the least I could do seeing how I dragged you into a room full of
alcohol, Jessica chuckled.
It is; it is, agreed Yuri, Goodnight, then.
Goodnight.
Yuri started walking to the elevator when a voice stopped her.
Yuri, wait!
Yuri turned around and Jessica came walking towards her, holding a piece of paper.
Heres my personal number. Give it to your friend, or you know, k-keep it for y-yourself.
Jessica shoved the paper in Yuris hands and ran back to her room, unlocking it, and rushed
inside, slamming the door behind her.
Yuri stood still, looking at the piece of paper, when the ding of elevator cut off her stare.
She walked into the elevator, with a smile on her face.













Chapter 12
When Yuri returned to her apartment in L.A., she was in for a (not so) surprise. In her apartment
were Sooyoung and Yoona, who were eating her snacks and raising her electric and water bill.
Yuri sighed.
Girls, I didnt give you a spare key to my apartment just so you could then leave me starving in
my own apartment with nothing but expensive bills to pay.
YURI! Both girls shouted and dropped what they were eating, running towards Yuri,
enveloping her in a tight embrace.
I missed you! yelled Sooyoung.
I missed you more than Sooyoung! Yoona commented.
No, I missed her the most! You were busy eating everything in here!
Look whos talking! You practically cleared out her cabinets! If the cabinets were edible, you
would have eaten that too!
Why you little! Im older than you; respect your elders!
Pshh, its only a year difference. Besides, this is the United States of America, not Korea! You
hear me? A-M-E-R-I-C-A. Its a free country!
Ill show you a free country! With my fist!
With poor Yuri in between, the two girls started to throw their hands out at each other, not even
bothering to form them into fists, but they continually slapped one another, lightly. To Yuri, it
was a futile attempt at a fight. If there was not going to be any pulling hair or bloodshed, Yuri
was so not interested.
STOP!
Yoona and Sooyoung did stop attacking each other and looked at Yuri. Yuri walked away from
the two and sat on her couch, trying to relax.
If you guys are going to be noisy, get out. Seriously, each of you own a mansion, what are you
doing here in this tiny apartment?
Because youre not in my mansion, said Sooyoung and Yoona at the same time.
Jinx, you owe me a soda! they both yelled again simultaneously.
They both got into a small fist fight, only it was quieter this time.
Wow, I cant believe the current two top actresses in the industry are like this. Celebrities are
really something else behind the scene, Yuri said while shaking her head.
Correction. Im unemployed right now. Im on a hiatus, remember? Sooyoung said. She
pushed Yoona away and sat next to Yuri.
So that means Im the top actress right now! Make may! Yoona yelled, rushing over to push
Sooyoung off the couch and sat in the exact same spot.
Ugh, can you two stop being yourself right now? I need to tell you something.
Sensing the serious tone in Yuris voice, Sooyoung got up and sat on the other side of Yuri,
while Yoona sat up properly, ready to listen.
Yuri sighed.
I almost slipped up
Yoona and Sooyoung looked at each other. They knew it would be hard for Yuri to go back to
New York even if it was only for a short while. But then they smiled at each other.
Yuri, the key word is almost. Sooyoung said.
Yeah, you almost did, but you didnt, Yoona chipped in.
Yeah, but still, its been over a year and I still have that stupid, itching urge!
Okay, okay, why dont you tell us the story of how you even became around alcohol first.
When Yuri finished recapping the events of her short stay in New York, but left out some details
of her and Jessica, Sooyoung was nodding her head.
First of all, Im proud of you standing up against your fear instead of running away. Second of
all, you handled that situation really well. Youre progressing immensely well compared to the
other times, Sooyoung said, looking at Yuri with all the care in the world.
Yeah, like Sooyoung said. You can do this, Yuri. We both know you can and you proved to
yourself that you can by declining that shot of alcohol, Yoona added.
Still Im afraid. I always start doing so well but then all of the sudden I fall off the wagon
again. Yuri buried her face in her hands.
Yuri, the fact that you keep falling off the wagon, yet you want to get back up and try again and
again, shows that you want to get better. It shows you want to get rid of this addiction. We
always said, Practice makes perfect, right? Who knows, maybe, this will be the last time. You
wont ever have to go back to the way you were and itll be smooth sailing from here on out,
Yoona said.
I sure hope youre right, Yoona, Yuri whispered.
Okay, enough with this solemn atmosphere. I want to know how things went with Jessica Jung!
Sooyoung said with a wink.
Yuri suddenly remembered the piece of paper with Jessicas phone number on it in her jacket
pocket. She reached into her pocket and was about to pull it out to give to Yoona, but then she
stopped halfway.
Maybe I should keep this for myself
Yuri smiled at the two pair of curious looking eyes staring at her.
Nothing really happened. It was a business trip, not some sort of small vacation.
Yuri got up, intending to go take a shower, and then rest.
Sooyoung and Yoona both grinned at each other as they looked at Yuri walking away.
Before Yuri could enter her bedroom, both of them said in a sing-song voice, We know youre
not telling us something~
Yuri stopped dead in her track.
Damn, they know me too well.
She quickly entered her bedroom and shut the door behind her, not wanting to answer any
questions or look at their teasing smiles.
Taeyeon and Tiffany were currently doing an interview and soon performing at The Ellen
DeGeneres Show.
So, the song youre about to perform in just a few moments is called Mirrors. Can you tell us
how you two thought up to write the lyrics?
Well, while we were writing this song as well as the rest of the songs on this album, we were
thinking of each other. Weve been together for so long and I believe we are each others true
love. True love is a reflection of yourself, a mirrored version of you, replied Tiffany.
Yes, and like a mirror, everything I do reminds me of Tiffany. And everything she does reminds
her of me, added Taeyeon.
Its really a beautiful song that reflects the beautiful couple you are, Ellen complimented.
Thank you, both Taeyeon and Tiffany said, smiling brightly.
And Tiffany, you said you two have been together for so long, how long exactly?
Its been over 12 years, hahaha. This August will mark our 13
th
year together.
Wow, but your engagement was just a rumor. When exactly do you think you two will be
finally tying the knot?
Uhh, ask her, replied Tiffany, pointing her finger at Taeyeon.
The whole studio erupted into laughter.
Feeling slightly embarrassed and surprised by being on the spotlight, Taeyeon stuttered, I-I,
ummm, soon, but just n-not y-yet
Okay, okay, Taeyeon. Calm down; its not like Im asking you to propose to Tiffany right this
moment or are you planning to do that right now?
Taeyeon slightly jumped in her seat in surprise while Tiffany was staring at her wide-eyed.
I-I NO ummm, sorry, n-not now.
The studio giggled at the very red and stuttering girl right now.
Hahaha, Im sorry. I was just teasing. But when you do get engaged and married, Im expecting
an invitation and well have a dance party at the reception. We have to take a break, but when we
come back, the girls of Pax will be singing their hit song, Mirrors!
Taeyeon and Tiffany said their thanks to Ellen and quickly made their way backstage to prepare.
After their performance, Taeyeon and Tiffany were in their van on their way to a photo shoot.
Taeyeon was planning to take a small nap, but Tiffany wasnt going to let her do that.
Taetae?
Hmmm?
For a moment back there, I really thought you were going to propose to me.
Really?
Well, yeah, I mean Ellen was our first daytime show we performed on after we debuted, so it
holds special memories.
Oh, thats right. But, dont worry; Im planning something even bigger than that. You deserve
the best of the best.
Tiffany smirked. She caught her. She turned her head to face Taeyeon.
So~ You are planning to propose to me real soon, huh?
Hmm, its only February right now. So we have a long, long, long way to go, Taeyeon made
an evil laughter.
Tiffany pouted, You make it sound like youre going to propose to me in like never.
Patience, little one. Good things come to those who wait, Taeyeon patted Tiffanys head.
But, but, I cant wait! Im not getting any younger, Taetae. Im turning 26 this year. Oh my
gosh. The wrinkles! The flabby skin! The decrease in energy! Whats going to happen to our sex
life!? I cant live without doing that with you! Oh, the horror!! Tiffany proceeded to cover her
face with her hands and then slowly drag her hands downward.
Taeyeon looked at Tiffany weirdly. It was as if she was watching some dramatic drama live in
action.
Taeyeon removed Tiffanys hands and replaced them with her hands. She kissed Tiffanys
forehead, then nose, and finally her lips.
She whispered, Youre beautiful at any age, in any clothing, and in any place. I love you just the
way you are, and not mainly because of your face or body, but because of your kind heart and
personality.
Tiffany smiled; her eyes turning into the shape of upside down moon crescents.
Thank you. I was fishing for a compliment, hehehe. And just for the record, I think Im the most
beautiful when Im by your side.
The two giggled and enjoyed each others presence until they had to work again.
Jessica was sleeping in her bed back in L.A. Her interview finished up nicely and she was taking
a well-deserved rest for the crazy past few months she had from working on the show case.
A girl opened Jessicas apartment door and walked in with some of her belongings. She opened
the bedroom door and found Jessica peacefully sleeping.
The girl walked towards the bed and lay beside Jessica. She fidgeted a little to get into a more
comfortable position. She then closed her eyes and fell asleep.
Jessica nearly had enough sleep. She turned to her side and flung her arm out and leg out,
thinking that was a nice position to finish up her rest. She was preparing herself to go back to
sleep when she frowned. Her arm and leg were not on a flat surface where her bed was supposed
to be, but it was on a lump that felt like a body.
What the hell?
She opened her eyes a little, but when she saw the color red covering her vision, her eyes opened
wider.
She quickly sat up and realized that a girl was sleeping right next to her.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH Jessica let out a dolphin-like scream, causing the girl next to her
wake up and sit up as well.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH replied the girl.
Jessica thought her eyes popped out when she realized who she was looking at.
KRYSTAL!?!?!
JESSICA?!!?!
WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE?
WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE?
I LIVE HERE!
IM CRASHING HERE!
WHY!? AND STOP SCREAMING AT ME!
YOU STARTED IT!
Jessica and Krystal looked at each for a moment before bursting into laughter.
When they finished, Jessica asked, Seriously, what are you doing here? Youre supposed to be
in college.
Its fine; my current grades are good enough for me to skip a few classes.
Krystal, Jessica said in a stern voice.
What?? Im stressed and tired, okay? Let me relax for a few days.
Krystal lied back onto the bed, pulling the covers over her, and let out a sigh of content.
Jessica followed suit and raised her hands to stroke Krystals hair.
When did you dye your hair red?
About a month ago. Tiffany influenced me.
Well, Tiffany has her normal black hair again. Use that influence.
Krystal turned to face her sister and pouted, You dont like it?
I like it, but mom and dad sure wont.
Ugh, screw mom and dad. I dont even plan on going back to that place after I graduate. Ill live
with you. Youll let me, right?
Jessica chuckled when she saw the puppy eyes of her sister. But even though they looked cute
and all, Jessica still saw sadness and pain in those eyes.
Of course, youre my sister. You still seem tired; go to sleep.
Krystal nodded and closed her eyes.
Jessica sighed, reliving memories of living with her parents in her mind.
Her thoughts then trailed to a certain person.
She reached over to her bedside table and grabbed her phone. When she unlocked it and strolled
through her messages and calls, she sighed.
Guess she gave my number away.
The next morning, Taeyeon and Tiffany decided to visit Jessicas place where they were
surprised by the appearance of Krystal.
Krystal! squealed Tiffany in a loud voice.
Tiffany! shouted Krystal in an equally loud voice.
Wow, you are rocking that red hair, girl!
Thanks! Your response is better than a certain someone else in this room.
Hey! I said I liked it, replied Jessica, frowning.
Lame response. Lame~ replied Krystal, sticking her tongue out.
Oooh, careful, Krystal, your sister doesnt like tongues out all in the open.
Jessica glared at Tiffany, making the latter go hide behind Taeyeon for protection.
Taetae, help! Big bad monster is staring me down like a prey to be hunted down, toyed with,
and then eaten alive!
Jessica! No hurting my precious girlfriend. Shes a fragile diamond!
Fragile my ass! We were play fighting one time and she took me down within seconds!
Jessica, you are weak as a stick. In conclusion, even a toddler can beat you up, replied Krystal.
The three girls, excluding Jessica, laughed loudly while pointing at Jessica.
Oh, I see. All of you are against me, huh? Well, jokes on you, Ive been working out like crazy
to try and relieve some stress. I am as strong as an ox now. Now, prepare for war. Its on!
Jessica let out a war-like scream and grabbed a pillow in each hand from her couch. She
proceeded to attack all three of them.
Krystal was the quickest to react and grabbed a pillow that was near her and tried to defend
Taeyeon and Tiffany to give them some time to grab their own pillows.
Their pillow fight went on for some time before they all called it quits. They decided to go out
for a movie and then dinner. It was quite a while since they all last hung out, so it was an
enjoyable day.
Jessica and Krystal were back in the apartment and lying side by side, ready to sleep.
Thanks for not kicking me out. I had a fun day, very relaxing, Krystal mumbled.
Youre welcome. But, please go back to school soon before they know.
I know; I will. Good night, Jess.
Night.
Jessica was about to close her eyes to sleep when she saw her phone light up.
She took it and her jaw dropped when she read the new message.
From: Unknown Number
Hi, its me, Yuri. Kwon Yuri. That photographer at your showcase? Umm, I was
wondering if you have time to hang out or something. This is my number, so reply or not?



Chapter 13
Jessicas POV
Honestly, I didnt know how to respond. I assumed she had given away my number to Yoona,
but here she is now, texting me. Moreover, shes asking me to hang out with her.
During our conversation at the steakhouse, we talked about a lot of things, but the topics werent
really deep or personal. I didnt want to get into that when I was just getting to know her and Im
sure she felt the same. We were talking so freely yet keeping a distance at the same time. She
was hiding something and I was too.
I guess I fell asleep while thinking of ways to respond to Yuri. It was the morning and I heard
noises in the kitchen. I assumed Krystal was cooking us breakfast so I took the time to send a
message to Yuri.
To: Yuri
Hey, I have some time later today. Want to meet up for a late lunch at the mall?
Lunch. It was the perfect meal for two friends because it wasnt asking for us to meet up so early
just to see each other and neither was it a dinner, indicating a romantic atmosphere. Friends? Are
we even friends? What are we?
I was nearly at the bathroom door when I heard my phone beep. I quickly made my way to the
bedside table to pick up my phone and it was indeed a message from Yuri.
From: Yuri
Yeah, thatll be great. Ill meet you at the entrance door.
To: Yuri
Okay, Ill see you then.
I went into the kitchen and there was a plate of bacon and eggs waiting for me on the table.
Krystal was already eating hers and looking at her phone.
Good morning, I said.
Morning, her voice sounded sad, yet it was only the morning.
Anything wrong?
Mom texted me. She asked what Im planning to major in.
Oh.
Thats all I could really say. Ive been in her position before so I could imagine the thoughts
running through her mind right now. Our mother was a successful neurosurgeon while our father
was a successful lawyer. Both professions required a lot of time, commitment, studying, and
resulted in big egos. They wanted the best for us, and that was great and all but sometimes, that
was too much when there were the times when we couldnt live up to their expectations.
From the time we were born, both of our parents tried to shape us into a younger version of
themselves. We were taught manners, posture, study habits, guidelines to making the right
group of friends to strengthen our connections, and a bunch of other crap that neither of us gave
a damn about. We were young and we wanted to be normal, not some perfect human that our
parents were creating us to be. After all, no one is truly perfect, including my big-headed,
prideful parents.
Im five years older than Krystal, meaning I got the worst treatment from our parents. Im the
oldest, so they expected big things coming from me and that would influence Krystal to try and
become better than me. It was pathetic to be honest. Putting sister against sister? Krystal and I
are related by blood. Our blood was thicker than water and it was definitely thicker than the
blood we shared with our parents.
Im turning 26 this year, and it would mark 5 years of not properly talking to my parents. They
really never did forgive me for pursuing a career in fashion design. They thought that it was not
intellectual enough. I would occasionally be required to attend one of their gatherings at the law
firm or at the hospital, and the press would snap a few pictures of us, showing us as a happy
family, but we all knew that was not the truth. We were broken, fractured, and I dont know we
were beyond repair or not.
Resentment
That was a perfect word to describe how we felt about each other.
Now, it was the time for Krystal to make her decision. It wasnt exactly the question of what to
major in. The question was whether to disappoint our parents or not. Regardless of her decision
though, she had my support no matter what.
I was already at the entrance of the mall, waiting for Yuri. I said my good bye to Krystal who
was going back to college. It was a bittersweet good bye because the next time I would be able to
see her was during the summer. By that time, she would already have made her decision, but I
would be ready to accept her choices and tears all the same.
I was scrolling through Instagram when I heard her voice.
Jessica!
She came running towards me, wearing a leather jacket over her tank top and a pair of black
skinny jeans. Casual. Im glad I decided not to wear a dress or anything that screamed Fancy!
or Date!
Hey, youre here, I said.
Yeah, sorry to keep you waiting. Were you waiting long?
No, I just got here a few minutes ago myself.
Cool, lets go in. What do you want to eat?
We were making our way through the crowds of people. I havent answered her question yet
because I actually didnt feel hungry. Honestly, I just wanted to spend some time together, get to
know each other more.
Sica? she asked, seeing how I didnt respond to her yet.
My eyebrows raised and my eyes widened in surprise. Sica? A nickname?
She probably noticed my expression because she started stuttering, I-I its just a n-nickname.
S-sorry, I wont call you that if you d-dont l-like it.
I laughed at her expression and her stuttering. She looks cute like that. I noticed she stutters a lot
around me.
No, its fine. I like it. A lot of friends call me Jess or Jessi, so its new and fresh.
O-okay. Sica her voice trailed off in a whisper when she said the new nickname.
I stifled a laugh or else she would continue to stutter for the rest of time we will hang out today.
Since I wasnt hungry yet and neither was she apparently, we decided to watch a movie first.
So, what do you want to watch? asked Yuri.
Anything you want to watch.
But I want to watch what you want to watch.
Why? I asked her confusedly.
Because that way, Ill know what movies you like to watch, she replied, giving me a smile that
somehow made my heart skip a beat.
Well, I want to watch what you want to watch but if you watch what I want to watch then I
wont know what you like to watch because youll being watching what I watch which may be
different from what you like to watch, I rambled on, intending to confuse her, which I did.
She titled her head to the side, and I almost let out a squeal on how cute she was looking right
now.
I dont follow, she chuckled.
That was the plan. Now, how about we find a movie we both like to watch?
Okay.
We ended up deciding to watch a comedy movie because who doesnt love a funny movie?
Throughout the movie, we were laughing at the funny moments. But I noticed Yuris laughter
were small, quiet, and composed. Her laughs werent like Taeyeons which was like an old
ladys uncontrollable laughter nor was it like Tiffanys which wasnt actually considered a laugh
because she just claps her hands all the time.
We decided to go eat pizza at a place near the movie theaters.
While we were waiting for our pizza to come, my curiosity got the best of me.
So~ Did you like the movie?
Yeah, it was hilarious.
I raised my eyebrow, Hilarious? I didnt see you laughing that hard; it was quiet.
Yuri also cocked an eyebrow. She leaned forward from her seat and her face was right in front of
mine. I held my breath and held onto her gaze as her gaze held mine.
Yuri suddenly broke out into a teasing smile.
Why were you watching me when you should have been watching the movie? she asked in a
low, husky voice.
I dont know if it was a reflex, instinct, or what, but I shoved her face away from me with my
right hand and she toppled over her seat and fell to the floor with a loud thud.
Ouch! Hey! she yelled, rubbing her bottom.
I blushed and rushed to help her stand up and sit back in her seat. The incident caused some
people in the restaurant to stare at us and I smiled apologetically to them.
I-I, so s-sorry. I was umm, yeah, s-sorry, I stuttered badly and avoided looking at her.
She didnt respond yet, and if she was going to, I wouldnt know because the waiter suddenly
came towards us.
Here is your medium pizza. I saw you falling over, miss. Are you okay? He asked politely,
looking at Yuri.
Im awesome, she replied.
The waiter left us and we each grabbed a slice of pizza and started eating it.
It was a bit of an awkward silence and I didnt know what to say. I was determined to remain
quiet until she said something first and she did.
So~ Were you that amazed by my face that you couldnt watch the movie? she asked teasingly.
I glared at her and usually people would be frightened, but she still looked at me with that damn
teasing smile.
No, and I wasnt watching you. I have ears which cant be closed, so I reluctantly heard your
laughs and I simply noticed they were small and composed laughs.
Her smile went even bigger, and she said in a sing-song voice, Why were your ears focusing on
my laughs instead of the characters talking?
I mentally face palmed myself. I wasnt going to get anywhere with this girl, but nevertheless, I
tried one more time because I wanted to see her smile more.
Gosh, my ears cant control what I hear and what I dont hear, I said, curious to know what her
response would be.
It turns out she did have a response, But you did say my laugh my quiet. Compared to the
movie, the movie was probably 10 or 20 times louder than my voice, yet your ears still focused
on my tiny, quiet laugh.
She grinned, waiting for my rebuttal, which never came. I simply rolled my eyes and put on a
nonchalant attitude to act as if I was annoyed, but in actuality, I came to a realization in the
inside and it scared me, but it was exciting at the same time.
Yuri was right. I was focusing on her more than the movie. Her actions and laugh did not escape
my eyes or ears. Its been a long time since I last cared or even focused my attention on someone
else other than Krystal, Taeyeon, and Tiffany. This was new and although I was afraid I liked it.
We finished with the pizza and we were out at the entrance of the mall once again.
So, Ill talk to you some time later? I asked her carefully, wanting to see her reaction.
Yeah, Ill text you, she replied.
I smiled to her and waved my hand as a good-bye sign. I was happy, at least both of us wanted to
talk to each other again. I made my way to my parked car and got in. I was about to start the car
when I got a call from Tiffany.
Hello?
Hi, Jessi! Whatcha doing?
Hey, Tiff. I was just about to head home.
Ooooh, you dont have any work as far as I know. What were you doing~?
I heard her teasing, sing-song voice. I rolled my eyes; I felt like everyone was analyzing all my
actions today.
Youre being nosy~ I said to her in that same sing-song voice.
Youre my bestie. We tell each other everything~ she whined.
I thought Taeyeon is your best friend.
She is, but you see, I fell in love with her. I need another best friend so I can talk to someone
about her and other stuff.
Well, that defeats the purpose of a best friend. Youre only supposed to have one. Besides,
you fell in love with your first best friend. What if you fall in love me? Ugh, just the thought of it
gives me shivers.
Jessi~ her whine made me laugh.
My friendship with Tiffany may have been one of the best things in my life. It was her who
knocked some sense into to me during college. Even when she was busy with her celebrity life,
she always found time to talk to me. She wasnt naggy and she didnt push me to do things that I
didnt want to do like my parents. She was the one who told me to follow my heart. In her mind,
the heart was stronger than the brain and it truly knows what it wants, unlike the brain because
logic complicates things for the brain. I took her advice to heart and that was how I decided to
pursue fashion designing. I honestly was on the verge of heading towards a career of becoming a
doctor like my mother because I had the brains for it, but it wasnt what my heart wanted. It
wasnt my passion. I wouldnt be where I am right now if it werent for Tiffany Hwang and I
love her to bits for that.
I heard her scoff.
Hmph, you know what? You are so not my type. You dont have to worry about me falling in
love with you. Besides, Im already with the love of my life right now and I have no plans to
replace her.
Eww, you love making me puke rainbows, dont you?
Just tell me what you were doing~
None of your business, I said in a firm voice.
I didnt know why but I didnt feel like telling her about Yuri just yet. I would have if our
hangout was nothing but simply a hangout, but I didnt feel that way. It was a little bit more
than that because after all, Yuri was the one who invited me out, unless Im thinking too much. I
had no idea how Yuri thought of this day so I was determined to find out how she feels before
telling anyone and making our relationship a bigger deal than it should be.
Tiffany seemed to realize the tone of my voice because she diverted the topic away from me.
So~ As you know, it is Taetaes birthday in 2 weeks and Im planning to throw a party for her,
like always. But I was thinking of having a themed party. What do you think?
Is Taeyeon turning 26 or 6? Shell be happy with a simple party with close friends and family.
I know she will, but there should be something that makes the party simple, yet amazing and
unique.
Hmm, fine. What about a sort of like fondue party? Im actually craving for some.
Oooh! Great idea. We can have cheese and chocolate fondue, but that wont be enough to fill
stomachs, so probably hot pot as well?
Yeah, sure throw some meat and veggies in there. Youre going to need a couple or more pots,
you know?
Yeah, yeah. The party is going to be at some venue. Dress code?
Umm, thisll be a great time for you to see Taeyeon in some clothing she wouldnt normally
wear. So you have to come up with that on your own.
Youre right What would I like my Taetae to wear?
Nothing inappropriate! I yelled, full well-knowing of what goes through that mind of hers.
Hahaha, relax! I wasnt thinking of that. No one can see my Taetae in lingerie but me.
Im glad you think that way.
Oh! Suits! Itll be a formal event. Everyone, including the girls, have to wear something suit-
like. My Taetae will look so handsome in a suit!
Sure, whatever you want. Are you sure this is Taeyeons birthday party or yours?
Oh, the partys all about Taeyeon. Im doing a small event for her towards the end of the party.
Im sure shell love it. Anyway I need to get home; its getting late, I said as I looked out the
car window and saw the darkening skies.
Oops, youre still out. Sorry, Ill talk to you later and text you the time and place soon! And you
can have a plus one!
Mhmm, talk to you later, Tiff.
I hung up the phone and started my car, heading to the direction of my apartment. I was driving
down a street when I happened to look at the side and noticed someone looking extremely like
Yuri sitting at a bench near the bus stop. I pulled over and reversed so my car was right in front
of the woman. I honked and the woman quickly looked up in surprise. It was really Yuri.
I gestured her to come closer to the car as I rolled down the windows.
Uhh, Hi? she looked confused.
Hey, what are you doing here? Shouldnt you be home by now?
Oh, no, the bus hasnt come yet.
I was surprised.
You dont own a car?
I-I, uhh, n-no. I use p-public transportation, she said while stuttering.
Seriously, why does she stutter around me? Is it me or am I asking the wrong questions? My
questions are pretty simple though.
Why dont you get in? Ill drive you, I offered.
You really dont have to. I dont want to trouble you.
Well, youre not troubling me since Im the one who asked, so get your butt in here right now,
I said in a stern voice.
Yuri quickly opened the door and got in, buckling her seatbelt. I glanced at her before I put the
car in drive and saw a small smile on her face. I let out a small smile of my own while telling her
to put her address in the GPS.
It was a pretty quiet ride to her apartment. I was planning to find out some of her thoughts or
feelings about today, but I decided to hold my tongue. It wouldnt help me if I pushed the topic;
it would have to be her meeting me halfway.
We arrived at her apartment and it didnt look shabby. Yuri mentioned she gets a lot of work
photographing for science and nature type magazines. That would mean she should be pretty
well off and could afford a car. I wonder why she doesnt have one.
Good night, Sica, she bid me good bye.
Night, Yul, her nickname that I made up while we were eating back at the restaurant slipped
out of my mouth before I could realize it.
Yul? she looked shocked.
I, uhh, yeah, you have a nickname for me so you should get one to.
She smiled that smile that made my heart skip a beat earlier in the day. This time, the smile was
wider and made my heart skip two beats.
I like it, nights.
I was about to ask her to go with me to Taeyeons birthday party but I decided to hold it off. Im
still not quite sure if whatever this is, is leading into something spectacular or to a dead end.
I got to my apartment and it was quite late. I was longing for my bed so I took a quick shower
and dried my hair thoroughly before I got into bed.
My phone beeped and I quickly grabbed it.
My face split into a smile when I saw who messaged me.
From: Yul
Today was fun. We should do this again.
To: Yul
I had fun, too. And yes, we should.
From Yul:
Do you like hiking?
I didnt but I said Yes anyway because this time, it was her suggesting us to do something, and
I wasnt going deny her of what she wanted to do.
We texted each other late into the night and I forgot all about going to sleep. Maybe this wasnt
going to be a dead end, just maybe.
For the next two weeks, Yuri and I saw each other more. We hung out, usually alternating what I
wanted to do and what she wanted to do. None of us complained if it was an activity we didnt
particularly enjoyed so I think it was a mutual feeling of enjoying each others presence.
Tomorrow was Taeyeons birthday and her party. I still havent asked Yuri to go with me yet
because I was honestly nervous. I didnt like being rejected, I mean who does?
I was looking at my phone. My finger was hovering over the call button.
I took a deep breath and closed my eyes. Then, I pushed the button.
It took 3 rings for her to answer and her melodious voice entered my ear, sending goose bumps
all over my arms and shivers down my back.
Hello?
H-hi.
Damn, why was I stuttering?
Hi, Sica. Whats up?
I am usually a blunt and straightforward person, but I couldnt get the question off my tongue.
Im j-just wondering what y-youre doing.
O-kay? Im editing some photos I took earlier today.
Cool, pictures of what?
Nature-related stuff. You know, like the scenery, clouds, trees, etc.
You really enjoy nature, huh?
Yeah, the best beauty the world can offer.
Hmmm
It got silent for a little bit. I couldnt blame her. I was fighting with my inner self. Part of me told
me to hang up the phone and run to my bedroom to hide under the covers but another part of me
told me to just ask her and get it over with.
Umm, Sica? Im a bit busy, so you know
I quickly chose the latter part of me when I knew what she was going to say.
PARTY! I unintentionally shouted.
Ouch, my ear~ she whined.
Sorry, I said in my normal tone of voice.
Did you say party?
Yes, Taeyeons birthday party tomorrow. Im invited and w-wanted to know if y-you want to c-
come?
Stop stuttering! I seriously couldnt help it.
Ohh, a slight pause, and then, Sure.
It took all the strength left in my body to not squeal out loud. I was doing a mini dance and
pumping my fist before I composed myself.
Okay. Party starts at 6 P.M. Ill pick you up at 5. Oh, and theres a dress code, formal. Wear
something suit-like.
Suit-like?
Yeah, Tiffany wanted to see Taeyeon in a suit.
Thats.weird?
I laughed.
Trust me, the two passed weird a long time ago. This is normal for them.
I guess nothing is weird when youre in love with each other.
Her voice sounded sad but I brushed it off.
I guess, so Ill see you tomorrow?
See you tomorrow, Sica.
Bye, Yul.
I hung up, excited for tomorrow.
Even though its been two weeks since we started to really get to know each other, I can already
see the S in Spectacular.







Chapter 14
Tiffanys POV
I woke up early this morning. The sun wasnt even out yet. Taeyeon was still sleeping soundly.
Exactly my plan.
I got up and grabbed my phone, careful not to wake her and went to the kitchen.
I made a phone call to my manager.
Hello?
Hey, can you bring the surprise up? I whispered because I really do have a loud voice and
didnt want to ruin the surprise that I havent even set up yet.
Yeah, sure. Give me five minutes to come up.
Okay, thanks.
I quickly went to the door and looked outside by using the screen which showed what the
security cameras were monitoring.
After waiting for a few minutes, I saw him covered by the surprise.
I quickly opened the door and helped him carry the things.
Thank you so much. Im sorry you had to wake up early to drive all the way over here with all
of this.
No, its fine. Its her birthday. Shes really lucky to have you.
Were both lucky to have each other, I replied with a big smile on my face.
Hahaha, yeah. Ill see you two later at the party, okay? Need to catch up on some sleep.
Okay, bye. Thank you again.
My manager left and I was left with the surprise.
I had to make two trips to get all the things inside the bedroom. We had a big bed for just the two
of us so I thought it would be nice for me to wake her up while sitting on her lap and have the
surprise surrounding us.
I placed each one individually all over the bed surrounding her and leaving a space for me to
straddle her. They were dangling and I had trouble making them face the right way.
Done. Now time to wake up the birthday girl.
Taeyeons POV
I was in dream land when I felt a weight over on top of me. I tried to move and turn to my side
but the weight on top of me limited my movements.
I slightly opened my eyes and squinted at the figure.
Tiffany
I opened my eyes wider when I saw what was surrounding us.
I scanned around the dozens of red, heart-shaped balloons hanging over the bed. But there was
something else to them.
There was a picture of us hanging from the end of the string from each balloon.
She started singing.
~Happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you, happy birthday dear Taeyeon, happy birthday
to you~
My facial expression must have looked funny because she giggled that sweet giggle of hers.
Close your mouth, Taetae.
But I couldnt. I was too busy looking at each picture which held a special memory, depicting
our love story.
There are 42 balloons in case youre wondering. Weve known each other for about 21 years, so
I picked out two pictures of us for each year.
Indeed she was right. I saw pictures of us when we were kids, teens, and now adults.
I was overjoyed with the surprise. I dont cry often, so I was surprised when I let out a few tears.
Tiffany hurriedly leaned forward and wiped away my tears with her thumbs.
Hey, its your birthday, dont cry, she chuckled.
I grabbed her hands and kissed both of them, and then I looked at her.
These are tears of joy. Thank you so much. Theyre beautiful. Youre beautiful.
She leaned forward until her nose was touching mine.
Happy birthday, Taetae. I love you, she said it with so much conviction that I could feel more
tears welling up inside of me.
I love you, too, and without missing a beat, I crashed my lips onto hers.
We made love on that bed, with the balloons hanging above us, each with a picture holding a
priceless memory.
People say a picture is worth a thousand words. There were 42 balloons above us, making that 42,
000 words, but that wasnt enough words to describe our love for one another. In fact, there are
no words to describe us, Taeyeon and Tiffany. No one could understand our love except for us.
Only we understand each other.
We went at it for a while until we exhausted ourselves.
We lied on the bed, holding each other, chatting until it was time to get ready for the party.
You know, I had a hard time picking out the pictures, she whined and pouted.
Why? I asked.
There were so many good ones. I couldnt just choose TWO for each year. Do you know how
many pictures we have together of just us? Thousands! she looked at me, smiling.
I smiled back; she was looking all cute with her eyes curved into crescents and the messy bed
hair.
Then maybe you should have tied all the pictures to thousands of balloons.
She gasped.
That would have taken YEARS! I already took a few days and a lot of time to tie them to only
42 balloons!
Oh~ Is that what you were doing when you told me you were practicing?
I made the air quotes with my hands.
She laughed.
Yeah, youre so clingy. I had to tell you something to get away from you, she teased.
I pouted and showed my adorable puppy eyes she never could resist.
You dont want Taetae around you~? I asked in a child-like voice.
She laughed so hard and I knew she was because she started clapping her hands.
Oh my gosh! That was SO cute! Stop it before I ravish you with kisses again!
I raised my eyebrow, I thought you were tired?
Hmmm, yeah, but I can go another round or two, she winked that killer wink of hers, nearly
sending me to the emergency room.
Save it for tonight, I chuckled.
Hahaha, okay, then.
We stayed in a comfortable silence before I broke it because I was really thankful for the surprise
and gesture.
Thank you, Fany. This was really awesome; blew my mind away.
Theres still more to come~ she said in a sing-song voice and hid her face on the side of my
chest.
More? I asked.
Mhmm, this is only part 1 of 4, she mumbled.
Fany, you really dont have to do that. Im satisfied with this morning surprise and youre all I
need to have an awesome birthday.
I know, but youre, you know proposing. I want to make your birthday extra special.
I stayed silent after she spoke.
There was still a while before I would propose to Tiffany. It was going to be an event so grand,
extraordinary, spectacular, and amazing. I want to attempt showing her how much she means to
me. Although I knew I cant do it all in one day; I was planning to show her with my lifetime on
earth and then life after death.
It was nearly time for my birthday party. We had to go to the venue earlier than the guests to
check on a few things.
Tiffany told me that the event was going to be formal, and that everyone was required to wear
something suit-like, including the girls. She was so excited that I let her do whatever she wished.
Part of her wishes was to have a matching suit.
As I didnt want to wear anything pink, she settled for her second favorite color, red.
We were wearing jeans, boots, a light blue shirt with a white collar, and a red blazer on top.
Tiffany also decided to tie up our hair under a red fedora to go with the blazer.
She told me to change in the bathroom first so I did.
When I came back out, she squealed and ran to hug me.
Oh my gosh you look so handsome! And adorable and sexy at the same time!!
She squished my cheeks together with her hands, making my lips pucker up.
Mwah! She kissed me, making a loud kissing noise at the same time. Wait for me!
She grabbed her clothes and went inside the bathroom. While I was waiting for her, I started to
do my makeup.
The bathroom clicked open, and my jaw dropped on how sexy she was looking right now.
We were wearing the same clothes but it was fascinating to see how two people wear it
differently.
I thanked her mentally for picking out skinny jeans for us to wear. Her butt was outlined so
perfectly that I had to restrain myself to march towards her and squeeze it.
Tonight. Wait for tonight.
I told myself mentally.
Y-you look g-great, I stuttered, amazed by her beauty.
Why thank you, she gave me a seductive smile.
Gosh, cant we just skip the party?
Even though we went at it this morning, I could feel my hormones raging inside of me. Im not
too sure if I could hold it in during the party.
Someone help me.
Jessicas POV
I was on my way to Yuris apartment. A wave of emotions was crashing over me as I sat in my
seat trying not to crash and listen to the music to calm me down. I was happy, nervous, excited,
and anxious. Some of the emotions were the same, so I was the synonym of all the words related
to those feelings.
I finally arrived at her apartment, and texted her to come down.
I checked my straightened hair and my outfit. I was wearing all white from head to toe with a
salmon-colored blazer over me.
I hope she likes my outfit.
This wasnt exactly a date, but it sure felt like one. I was taking her to a social gathering and I
wasnt necessarily friends with Taeyeon and Tiffanys friends but I was acquainted with them. I
was wondering if they would ask who Yuri is to me and I didnt know how to respond. Should I
say friends? It was the safest term to use, I suppose.
My thoughts were interrupted when I heard a knock the window. I looked and there she was.
I quickly unlocked the door and she let herself in, putting a wrapped present to the side of her
foot.
We both looked at each other, supposedly scanning each other from head to toe.
She looked handsome, yet feminine at the same time. This was the first time seeing her dressed
up like this, and I was really glad to see the result.
Guess we had a similar idea, she chuckled.
Yuri was wearing all black from head to toe and a yellow blazer on top.
I gave a nervous chuckle, nodded slightly, and started to blush a bit.
We really were wearing similar clothing just the colors were different. Was it a coincidence or
maybe even fate?
Lets go, I tried to keep my voice steady.
I was driving steadily towards the venue when she spoke.
You look beautiful by the way.
I would have crashed into someone elses car, but thankfully, there were few cars around.
O-oh, t-thanks. Y-you too.
She laughed a little and then stayed silent.
One of these days she was seriously going to kill me with nothing but her own self.
I noticed she was wearing perfume, the same one I smelled from our hangouts during the past
two weeks. Maybe it was her favorite perfume or maybe she just wears that perfume when shes
out with me.
My delusional mind decided to go with the latter. She smelled fantastic and I had to resist a small
urge in me to go ahead and bury my nose on the crook of her neck and inhale the oh-so-sweet
smell of Kwon Yuri.
We finally reached the venue and I quickly got out of the car to smell the evenings air so I
didnt go insane with Yuris perfume.
I gave my car key to the valet boy and reached the entrance with Yuri by my side.
The security guard asked for my invitation letter and I pulled it out while telling him Yuri was
my plus one. He nodded and let us in.
A staff member led us through the halls to the room the party was going to be held in.
Fancy, I heard Yuri mumble.
I smiled a little. I concluded based on Yuris actions and words that she preferred a quiet, simple
life. She didnt need anything fancy or own anything luxurious; she simply needed the
necessities in life and she was happy. I liked that about her.
We came a bit too early, so there werent many people around. I never understood why some
people wanted to be somewhere a little later than the scheduled time. Fashionably late; they say.
Well, I say theyre attention-seekers; just like my parents.
I realized where my thoughts were heading to, and I quickly shook my head to get off from that
stupid, familiar train track.
Yuri seemed to notice.
You okay? She looked so concerned for me.
Im fine; its nothing, I smiled to rest assure her.
I finally found Taeyeon and Tiffany, so Yuri and I walked towards them.
Hi! Jessica Tiffany trailed off when she saw who was beside me and she let out a smirk,
And Yuri! Im so glad you both could make it.
I rolled my eyes while Yuri greeted Taeyeon and Tiffany, while giving her present to Taeyeon.
I saw Tiffany scanning me and then Yuri from head to toe.
Happy birthday, Taeyeon! I sort of raised my voice a bit to stop Tiffany from looking at us and
divert her attention to just me. I gave her the oh-dont-you-dare-say-anything look.
Thanks, guys. Did you coordinate your outfit with Yuri like me and Tiffany? Taeyeon asked
me innocently.
She sounded innocent, but that didnt stop me from wanting to strangle her, even if it was her
birthday.
I saw Tiffany give Taeyeon a kiss on the cheek, probably as her way of saying thank you for
asking the question she wanted to ask, even if Taeyeon didnt know.
No, it was just a coincidence, replied Yuri.
Yuri was looking around the place and I noticed Tiffany mouthing something to me.
Or maybe it was fate. I read. She was smiling widely at me and tilting her head to the side.
I felt like grabbing the fedora off her head and suffocate her with it. But there were too many
people here now, and Yuri was also here. Maybe later.
I nodded to myself, liking my idea.
I know you dont drink alcohol, Yuri, so there is water and black tea around here if youd like.
We have cheese and chocolate fondue and hot pot for the more hungry people. Excuse us. I think
I saw my parents walking in. Enjoy the party and see you later! Taeyeon grabbed Tiffanys
hand and walked towards her family near the entrance.
Now it was just Yuri and me. I noticed there was a stage at the front of the room where I
assumed that would be where Tiffanys little event for Taeyeon was going to take place.
Want to eat some food? asked Yuri.
I nodded. We went to grab our own plates and decided to eat from the hot pots first before
digging in the fondues.
We sat at a small table and started eating. But, Yuri was too busy looking all over the place to
concentrate on eating.
Whatcha looking at? I asked, a bit annoyed she wasnt paying attention to me.
H-huh? Nothing, just there are a lot of celebrities in here
I briefly glanced around and she was right. Taeyeon and Tiffany were close friends with some
top stars in the entertainment industry.
I didnt understand why Yuri was so interested in them. She was the simple and plain kind of girl.
Maybe she felt uncomfortable?
Im a bit thirsty so Ill get a glass of water. You want anything? she asked me.
I I trailed off. I actually wanted a glass of wine but then I remembered I drove here and I
had to take Yuri back home. I didnt want to take a risk, so I said, Glass of water for me as well.
Yuri looked at me intensely as if she was trying to figure me out.
And she did.
You can have alcohol around me, you know? I just dont drink it, but you wont make me feel
uncomfortable.
I, well, I have to drive you and myself home.
Oh she paused, I-I can d-drive you home, I-I guess.
I stopped myself from smiling. Yuri wasnt really good at lying or hiding her nervousness for
that matter. Heck, I wasnt even good at it either. We both stuttered like crazy when we were
with each other.
Its fine. I can drown myself in alcohol back in my apartment, I laughed at my own little joke.
Yuri didnt find it funny though.
You shouldnt say that, she said in a small voice.
She gave me a small, looked like a fake, smile and went to get water for the both of us.
When she came back, we started eating quietly.
Tiffany, with her loud voice, finally broke the long silence when she came over towards us,
pulling a perverted Taeyeon, who was staring at her bottom, behind her.
Hey guys, having fun? she asked.
Yuri and I murmured a few things and Tiffany seemed to notice a tense atmosphere.
Hey, Yuri, sorry but I have to borrow Jessica for a little bit. Taetae, why dont you sit with Yuri
and get to know her?
She pulled me from my seat and pushed Taeyeon into the same spot.
She then linked arms with me and rushed over to somewhere quiet.
So~ Whats going on with you and hot stuff? she asked.
Nothings going on. I sighed.
The evening wasnt going exactly the way I wanted it to go.
Oh, come on. Tell me. I can help you.
Ugh, okay. Maybe, just maybe. I like Yuri
Oh my gosh! she squealed and I had to clamp her mouth shut with my hand.
Shhh! I said maybe!
She shoved my hands away from her face and said, Still. Its a maybe! This is the first time
youre sharing your feelings with me about someone else!
I rolled my eyes. She looked like a kid who just found out that Santa Claus gave her a Christmas
present on Christmas day.
Look, Im not entirely sure about my feelings about her. And besides, I have no idea how she
feels. For all I know, she thinks were just friends.
Oh, she pouted, You guys are like Taeyeon and me when we were little. You just have to
closely look at her actions, gestures, and listen to her words for any hidden meanings. Also, pay
special attention to her eyes.
I scoffed.
Your Taeyeon isnt exactly being subtle. She gawks at your butt openly.
And thats why we know shes attracted to me. Lets look at her.
We both looked over at the table where Taeyeon and Yuri were sitting at. I think it was for a split
second where I thought I saw Taeyeon and Yuri looking intensely at each other. But that thought
slipped out of my mind when Taeyeon turned towards us and smiled widely and Tiffany moved
in front of me, facing me.
Watch this.
She moved back a little and dropped something. She bent down and got back up while doing a
wave with her body. Her butt was sticking out and obviously, Taeyeons eyes were glued to her
butt.
I shifted my attention over to Yuri and she was looking at the opposite direction. I felt happy she
wasnt the type of person to stare and goggle unlike a certain pervert in this room.
Where was Yuri looking at? she asked when she fixed herself.
The opposite direction of your big butt.
She chuckled.
Well, you see the point right? Pay attention to her eyes. They can tell you what the heart feels. I
have to go prepare for the event so Ill talk to you later.
She patted my shoulder and rushed off.
Yuri. Oh, Kwon Yuri. What are you feeling in that heart of yours?
Taeyeons POV
Jessica came back to the table and I asked her where Tiffany went, but she joked and asked me
why my eyes didnt have GPS on Tiffanys butt.
I was about to get up and look for Tiffany when I saw her walking up on stage. Tiffany raised
her glass and clinked on it with a spoon, which got everyones attention.
She talked into the microphone, Excuse me, if I could have everyones attention.
The guests stopped what they were doing and looked towards the front of the room.
Thank you. Now, if the love of my life and also the birthday girl could make her way to the
stage that would be great.
I got a bit nervous when everyone looked at me and cheered for me. I quickly passed by people
to stand on stage with Tiffany. There was a chair on the middle of the stage and she told me to sit
on it. The chair wasnt facing the crowd; it was facing her, which I was glad for.
She smiled to me and although she was addressing to the guests, she was looking right at me.
So, today is Taeyeons 26
th
birthday and I planned this small event for her. This is part 2, babe.
Ive been composing and writing this song without you knowing. Listen to the lyrics, Taetae.
This is how you make me feel.
The lights dimmed and the spotlight was solely on us. Music started to ring in my ears in the
background. And then, she started to sing and I solely focused on her voice. [A/N: Hedleys
Top of the World]
~Heart beat, cant speak, words walk away from me/ You are my thoughts/ You are my prayers/
First touch, head rush, trust with the weight to crush/ You are my breath/ You are my air/ oh
whoa [x4]~
You are my world.
~You take me to the bottom of the ocean/ you take me to the depths of your beautiful eyes/ Im
on top of the world, flying, flying~
Ill take you to a place of eternity.
~A shake, hurricane, mountains crumble, you remain/ You are my rock/ You are my feet/
Shooting star next to me, diamond shine, ecstasy/ You are my fortune/ You are my fame~
You are my everything.
She finished singing and walked over to me leaning close to my face. She kissed my cheek,
knowing well I wasnt exactly comfortable with PDA.
I love you, Taetae. Happy birthday again, she whispered into my ear, sending shivers down my
spine.
Thank you. I love you, too.
It was all I could and needed to say.
Jessicas POV
The party was over and Yuri and I had told Taeyeon and Tiffany good night.
I was driving Yuri to her apartment while lost in my thoughts.
Tiffanys special event for Taeyeon really touched my heart. Their eyes had nothing but love,
care, and affection for each other. Both of them were radiating pure and innocent love, while
they themselves were basking in the glory of it.
I honestly was envious of what they have. Of course, they were strong when they each stood
alone, but when they were together, they were like a proton and neutron too close together. Their
bond was unshakeable, unbreakable, surviving even when all odds are against them.
Their bond wasnt easy to make. They have built it over the past decade by giving each other the
best thing they can offer to each other.
Themselves
Fully, wholeheartedly, and willingly.
Im 26 next month and I was starting to think if it was too late for me to have something like that.
I spent my teen years hating myself, then I spent my early 20s forgiving myself, and now Im
beginning to love myself. Those were all the reasons I wasnt interested in a relationship until
she came along.
But a relationship takes two to tangle. So the question really was how Kwon Yuri felt about me.
And if she did feel the same way, would we be able to accept each other? What we were, what
we are, and what we will be.
We reached her apartment. Shes been pretty quiet ever since I made that joke.
So, Ill talk to you later? I asked, not sure what we were or heading to.
Yeah, sure, her tone was flat.
She got out of the car and slammed the door. That somehow set me off.
I quickly got out of the car and slammed the door as well, catching her attention.
Hey! Look, if its about that stupid joke I made earlier, then Im sorry. Okay!? Is that what you
want to hear? Me apologizing!?
Yuri marched to where I was standing and stood right in front of me, looking at me with eyes I
never saw her show me before.
Her eyes were fierce but nonetheless showed sadness, pain, and regret. If Im not mistaken, her
eyes were a bit teary and red as well.
No, I dont want you to apologize. Thats not even remotely close to what I want to hear at all
right now! Just, leave m-me a-alone, right n-now, she started to hiss but then began to break
down.
She started to walk towards the apartment door, but I quickly ran after her.
I wrapped my arms around her with my head buried on her back.
P-please l-let m-me go, she was sobbing at this point.
Her sobs broke my heart and it pained me to see her this way.
I admit it now. Im sure I have feelings for Kwon Yuri.
I found the P in Spectacular.
Shhhh, let it out, Yuri. Im here for you and Im not letting you go. From now on, I said it in a
firm voice.
I meant it.
After a moment, she must have realized I wasnt joking because she turned around and buried
her head on my shoulder. Her tears flowed freely from her eyes and soaked my blazer not that I
minded.
I was stroking her back, trying to comfort her.
What she said next made me freeze momentarily.
I-I miss h-him s-so much.
Who was him?




Chapter 15
[Breaking] Jessing Jung dating?
Calling all Gorjess Spazzers! Jessica Jung, one of the top fashion designers in the world, caught
dating? Jessica Jung rose to fame nearly 5 years ago when she designed two beautiful dresses
for her close friends, Taeyeon and Tiffany of the duo group Pax, when she was still in college!
After graduating, the young prodigy officially entered the fashion industry and has risen to the
top of the industry, capturing the eyes of many top stars in the world, earning love calls from
many to design something for them. At Jessica Jungs fashion show collection in New York last
month, she was pictured holding the hand of an unknown woman. Back in L.A., the two were
again pictured together on what seemed to be dates in various places like the amusement park
and even enjoying a hike. Now, last night was Kim Taeyeons birthday party and the two were
photographed entering and leaving the venue together. Jessica Jung drove her friend home
and two were caught in an intimate hug! Whats more is the two entered the apartment and
Jessica Jungs BMW is still parked outside. Guess we know who spent the night together! Mind
telling us who your friend is Jessica? Stay tuned for updates on this juicy gossip!
Jessicas POV
I was fuming.
I woke up this morning in Yuris apartment and didnt want to wake her up since she had a long
night. When I checked the news this morning on my phone, mine and Yuris face was
everywhere.
I didnt mind my face everywhere because whether I like it or not, I am sort of a celebrity and
people are always taking my picture, which is the price to pay for pursuing my passion. But I did
mind for them to not even have the courtesy to blur out Yuris face. Sure, all the pictures showed
her side profile, but if anyone has seen Yuri up close, then you would immediately recognize her.
I decided to take care of the situation before adding on to the stress Yuri was having right now.
I posted a picture of clouds I took a while back on Instagram and wrote a caption telling
everyone that the woman in the pictures was simply a friend and I decided to crash at her place
because I was too tired to drive back to my apartment late at night.
That seemed believable so I hoped everyone bought it.
It was a white lie though. Indeed, I was too tired to drive back, but there was another reason why
I stayed.
Tiffany told me the eyes tell you everything what the heart thinks and feels. When I looked into
Yuris eyes, she didnt have to use words; I knew she wanted me to stay with her.
Why?
That Im trying to figure out, but I cant. Shes confusing; complicated. I found that ironic
because she seems like the simple and plain type of girl. Simple yet complicated.
I laughed at my thoughts as I looked around her apartment. It looked like mine. Modern furniture,
electronics, magazines, and personal belongings, all scattered here and there. But I can see why
this is just an apartment and not a home.
Home
I left mine a long time ago. I left after I graduated high school and I never came back after that.
Was it even a home? Or was it even a home to start with?
To me, home was a place not only where I find shelter and food in, but I find love and support.
Its a place where I can be comfortable and relax in; a place to get away from all the crap the
public and society throws at me. I never felt at ease in my parents house. I felt like I always had
to tip toe around them. I was afraid even in my own home. Scared. Imprisoned. Restricted.
This apartment doesnt scream Home! to me. It was simply a place for Yuri to sleep, eat, and
work in. There were no pictures. Absolutely none. Not even a friend.
I looked next to me and Yuri was, thankfully, sleeping soundly.
She woke up a few times during the night, screaming and crying. I went back and forth from her
couch in the living room to her bedroom trying to comfort and calm her down from her
nightmares.
The last time she woke up was only an hour and half ago, and I decided to just stay on her bed,
observing her.
I still dont know who was him. I heard her shouting, Im sorry during her nightmares, but that
was it.
What do you have to be sorry for, Yuri?
Tiffanys POV
I woke up, feeling cold. I looked around me and saw nothing was covering my body, absolutely
nothing.
I looked beside me and saw that the dork hogged all the covers. I grabbed the sheets and roughly
pulled them, causing Taeyeon to roll over very close to me. I must have woken her up.
Fany? What are you doing? she mumbled.
You hogged all the sheets. I was feeling cold.
Oh, sorry. Ill make you warm, she said as she got on top of me.
I blushed because there was nothing between us; just bare skin on bare skin.
We had skipped part 3 and went straight to part of part 4. I was supposed to put on some things I
had bought a few weeks ago to go along with part 4, but I couldnt. The sole reason being
Taeyeon couldnt get her hands off of me from the moment we entered our apartment. I tried to
tell her to give me five minutes to give her part 3 or put something on for part 4 but her answer
was to close my mouth with hers. I relented because I supposed I could give it to her in the
morning.
Last night was fun, she whispered into my ear, giving me goose bumps and not because I was
cold anymore.
It wouldve been more fun if you get your hands off of me for a few minutes so I could put on a
few things, I pouted because I really wanted to show her what I had bought.
Why put on things that are going to be soon taken off? You wouldve made me wait longer and
Ive been waiting since after you put on the suit.
I gulped. I was feeling something I shouldnt have been feeling so early in the morning. We had
done it countless of times last night but I always somehow craved for her more and more.
I had to hold it in because I still needed to give her part 3.
Get off me. I have to go get your present, I said while trying to push her off of me, which was
a bad idea because her lower part brushed against mine.
No, youre my present, she whined.
I smiled. She was older than me for a few months and acts like the leader of our group, but when
she was with me alone in our own little abode, she was cute like a kid, showing me sides not
shown in public.
I mustered all the strength in me and flipped her onto her back.
I shook a finger at her and said, Wait just a moment, please.
I laughed as she tried to bite my finger but I pulled it away quickly enough.
I got up without covering myself and went towards one of the drawers that held some of clothes.
~Girl look at that body, girl look at that body, girl look at that body~
She started singing and I chuckled. I found the flat box and moved back to the bed.
~Youre sexy and you know it~ She looked straight at me and had a seductive smile.
I know Im sexy, I said it with full confidence and gave her a wink.
She blushed and looked away. That was another thing I loved about her. She can be all confident
at one moment and then all shy and cute the next.
Here, open it. Part 3, I held out the box.
She took the box and lifted the cover. Her jaw slightly dropped.
I giggled. I felt proud for making her jaw drop the whole day and night yesterday. Now, even
this morning, I still did it. She did it so many times in the past and now it was my turn to pay the
favor.
Fany, this this is beautiful, she immediately put the gift on.
I got her a simple, silver bracelet with a heart tag on it. On the heart was a photo of us on our 10
th

anniversary together. Engraved on the inside was a simple sentence that meant a whole lot to the
both of us. Inside was written, Lets go on for a long time.
I realized after our 10
th
year together that that statement could become true.
It was our goal. It was our new dream.
Lets go on for a long time defined not my life or Taeyeons life.
It defined our life.
Jessicas POV
Awkward
That was the only possible word that could describe how Im feeling right now.
I was relaxing on Yuris bed and waiting for her to get enough rest when I heard the front door
open. I panicked and quickly woke Yuri up.
She looked surprise when she saw I was on her bed, but that quickly went away when I told her
someone might have opened her door. She ran out of the bedroom to check but she quickly ran
back in.
I heard two separate female voices yell out her name but she closed her bedroom door shut.
She had quickly whispered to me, Please, dont tell them what happened last night. Just say you
were tired and crashed over at my place. Thats it.
I merely nodded, finding it odd that our thinking was the same as well.
Now I was sitting on her couch. She told me to buy her some time and she went off to shower.
Her two friends, apparently, were sitting on each side of me. I stared at the TV, trying to
concentrate on what it was saying rather than the two stares I was getting.
Yuri had already told me she was friends with Im Yoona, but she didnt tell me she was also
friends with Choi Sooyoung, another top actress. I wonder how they all knew each other.
I was trying to find the Discovery Channel interesting when all of the sudden, the screen went
black. I looked for the remote and looked to my right, realizing that Yoona was holding it.
We didnt get to properly introduce ourselves, said Sooyoung.
I looked to my left.
Hi, Im Choi Sooyoung, actress and Yuris friend.
I looked to my right.
Hi, Im Im Yoona, actress and Yuris friend.
I looked to Sooyoung and back to Yoona a few times. They were looking at me with expectant
eyes. Their smiles. The smiles seemed familiar. They looked like Tiffanys smile when she was
up to no good.
Hi, Im Jessica Jung, fashion designer. I simply said.
And Yuris Yoona trailed off, smiling at me widely and tilting her head at me.
I looked at Sooyoung, and she was doing the same thing.
Weird
Friend? I wasnt 100% sure where they were going with this.
The two giggled to themselves.
Okay, Yuris friend~ Whatcha doing here so early in the morning? asked Sooyoung.
I noticed she stretched out the word friend. I sighed. They probably saw the news and were
trying to get me to confess something.
Theres nothing going on with me and Yuri. I was too tired to drive back home and she offered
me to crash at her place.
That wasnt entirely a lie. I like to believe that there is something teeny, tiny going on with me
and Yuri.
But we saw you coming out of Yuris bedroom. Whatcha doing in there? asked Sooyoung.
I felt like I was being interrogated. I didnt like it. My parents did that.
I closed my eyes to try and not feel irritated.
She was waking me up because she got scared someone was randomly opening my door, a
voice behind us interrupted, making us all jump in surprise.
I looked over and saw Yuri, freshly showered and drying her hair. She must have put makeup on
because the last time I saw her, her eyes were red and puffy.
Sooyoung and Yoona jumped up and hugged her.
We missed you~ they both said.
Youve always been out these past two weeks, but I guess we know why now~ said Yoona.
What are you guys talking about? I didnt get a chance to tell her.
Yoona pulled out her phone and showed the news to Yuri.
Yuris eyes widened in surprise and looked over at me.
Its fine. I told my followers on Instagram that you were only a friend. The word will spread
soon.
Her eyes seemed sad when I said that but I assumed she was still thinking about last night.
Thanks, she mumbled.
No problem. It was my fault, anyway, with my status and all, I got up while getting my bag, I
should be getting home now. Thanks for letting me crash here.
Ill walk you down, she said.
We were in the elevator going down to the lobby when she started to talk.
Thanks for last night also. Im sorry you had to see me like that.
She was looking down at her shoes.
Its fine I told you I would be here for you from now on. So whatever you need; just give me
a call, I smiled at her.
T-thanks, youre a really good f-friend, she stuttered.
The elevator brought us down to the lobby, and I was about to walk out when she grabbed my
wrist and turned me around.
I froze as her arms went around my waist, hugging me tightly.
We didnt say anything for a while, and eventually my arms looped around her neck. I was glad
it was still early in the morning so no one was watching or walking around.
My heart was pounding like crazy and I hoped she didnt feel it. These were one of those
moments where I wished to stay in forever, but wishes dont always come true.
She pulled away and murmured her thanks again.
I didnt know what to say or do, but for some reason, I used my right hand to pat her left cheek.
I thought it would be comforting to her, and maybe it was because she closed her eyes at my
touch.
I cleared my throat and pulled away.
Talk to you later, I said.
She didnt say anything but just looked at me. Her eyes told me she may be fighting with herself
on the inside. For what, I didnt know and I may never know. I gave her a last smile and started
to head out the door.
I got into my car and started to drive back to the apartment, while listening to the radio. [A/N:
Justin Biebers Fall]
Immediately, I thought of Yuri.
~ But she was already broken, and it made her blind/ But she could never believe that love would
ever treat her right ~
Are you broken, Yuri?
~ I know you got your wall wrapped all the way around your heart/ Dont have to be scared at all,
oh, my love/ But you cant fly unless you let yourself/ You cant fly unless you let yourself fall ~
Lower the walls just enough for me to come in.
~ I will catch you if you fall [x4] ~
Ill definitely catch you.
I like Yuri. I really like her. It wasnt to the point of love yet, but the way I feel when Im around
her, I knew it wasnt going to take long.
I was honestly scared. This was the first time I felt this way about someone. The feeling was
strong and overwhelming. It was exhilarating, new, but it was also painful at the same time.
Yuris feelings for me were still a mystery. She doesnt talk a lot about herself and I felt like she
had a lot of things to hide.
I wasnt sure if I was going to like what she was hiding.
I dont even know if shell tell me things or not.
But I was hoping shell give me a chance.
Give us a chance.
Tiffanys POV
We had finally managed to get out of the apartment without Taeyeon all over me. It was a fun
and romantic two days, but I felt like we needed to get back into society.
I persuaded her to go out with me to watch a movie and grab dinner after.
Taeyeon was driving us in her Porsche to the mall while I checked the news. I was surprised to
see the news about Jessica and Yuri, but then I frowned when the update stated that Jessica said
Yuri was just her friend. Taeyeon seemed to notice my expression.
Whats up? she asked.
There are pictures of Jessica and Yuri together. People thought the two were dating, but Jessica
said she was just a friend, I replied while putting my phone away and focusing on her.
Taeyeon simply nodded. I looked at her expression closely and I realized something.
Taetae, Ive known you for over 2 decades. I know when youre hiding something from me.
She tried to hide her surprise and compose herself but it was useless. Who does she think I am?
Im waiting~ I said it in my sing-song voice.
Im not hiding anything from you. She said it in a steady and firm voice.
Ooooooh, that was good! If I wasnt your best friend, girlfriend, the love of your life, soon to be
fianc, and soon to be wife, then I would have believed that.
She made an obvious gulp and licked her lips.
Spill it~ I had all the time in the world with her, so I had no problem being patient and wait for
her to tell me whats going on in that mind of hers.
Hey~ Lookie here. Were here. Lets go! she exclaimed.
She had already parked and was attempting to get out of the car, but I pulled her back by holding
her wrist. I simply stared at her, raising my eyebrow and tilting my head.
She gave a deep sigh when she realized I wasnt letting this topic drop.
Look, I-I made a promise, okay? I cant tell anyone.
She was telling the truth. As much as I disliked not telling each other everything, she said she
had made a promise. And one thing for sure about Taeyeon is she keeps all her promises.
Okay, I said. I grabbed my bag and got out of the car. I dropped the topic, but I was still
curious about that promise.
I put on sunglasses and hat to try and keep the attention away from us. It was always hot in Los
Angeles, so we couldnt wear scarfs or other clothing to cover our face.
However, I did think it was a futile attempt on our part. The paparazzi and our fans seemed to
recognize us just by looking at our body parts, which I found weird and creepy.
Taeyeon grabbed my hand and we walked into the mall, trying to blend in with everyone else.
Youre not mad, right? She looked scared.
No, not at all, I said as I laughed at her expression.
Who could ever be mad at Kim Taeyeon? Shes just too cute to be angry with for long.
After a quiet bickering on what movie to watch, we compromised on a comedy movie. I would
have screamed my lungs out if we watched a horror movie and she would have fallen asleep
watching a romantic movie.
Honestly, we were quite different from each other: our personalities, likes, and our dislikes. Im
not entirely sure if opposites always attract but Id like to think that we worked well together
because we made us work. We put in the effort to hear each other out and talk about any
problems. We came a long way and I was going to make sure we go all the way.
Unfortunately, fans spotted us and we had to go back home before we attracted more attention
and one of us could potentially get hurt.
There were moments where I doubted if I made the decision to become a singer. Sometimes the
attention was too much when all I wanted was to be alone with my lover. A celebrity life
demanded a lot from you, including sacrificing a few things that all human beings should
normally have.
Taeyeon. She was the reason that all of this was worth it.
Weve been together for so long that one would normally think if we ever get tired of each other.
It was the complete opposite for us. I love every single second, minute, and hour of time that I
spend with her. The more time we spend together makes us want to spend even more time with
each other, if that was even possible.
She was cooking something for us to eat and I stared at the bracelet she was wearing. She told
me she was never going to take it off and I couldnt help but think it was as if I had proposed to
her. A wedding ring symbolized a promise between two people to commit to each other and like
the usual vow, Till death do us part. Wasnt the bracelet sort of like that?
My mind wandered to her proposal that was going to happen in a time I had no idea when. After
the engagement, it was going to take another few months until the wedding. That, to me, was a
very long time to wait until I could be married with the love of my life. And I already waited for
over a decade so I wasnt so sure I could wait even longer. An outrageous idea came to my mind.
How about we elope?
Yuris POV
I finally got rid of Sooyoung and Yoona after hearing them throw a bunch of questions at me
about Jessica.
I didnt feel like telling them about my breakdown last night because it was a story they have
heard a thousand times before. The same thoughts and feelings ran through my mind and heart.
I wasnt so sure if I could control myself last night. That urge. That desire. That need. They all
crashed over me whenever I thought about him.
It wasnt Jessicas fault though. She pretty much made a harmless joke.
But for me, the joke had a much deeper meaning for me.
She took the joke figuratively; I took the joke literally.
When she wrapped her arms behind me last night, I didnt know what to think.
When she told me she was going to be there for me and wont let me go, I felt a feeling I never
felt before.
Sooyoung and Yoona told me those words countless of times to me, but when Jessica said them,
it felt different.
It felt better.
I was lying on my bed, staring at the ceiling. As it had been for the past two weeks, my mind was
clouded with thoughts of Jessica.
I love my minds eye. I could picture Jessica in my mind when I couldnt see her in person.
Her face. Her eyes. Her smile. Her hair. Her beauty.
I had a feeling that I felt something more for her. More than just as a friend.
But I wasnt so sure if I could take that step. It was hard enough taking care of myself, so how
was I supposed to take care of someone else?
And even if I managed to take that step, I wasnt sure if Jessica would still want to be with me
when she found out the person I was in the past. Heck, I didnt even know where to start about
my past.
Jessica Jung, Jessica Jung, what am I going to do about you?
Chapter 16
Taeyeons POV
I was sitting on my side of the bed in a hotel room after a long day. We were currently in New
York for a performance and our flight was tomorrow morning to go back to L.A. so we can be
there in time for Jessicas birthday.
Tiffany had brought up the idea of eloping a week ago. I was on a roller coaster of emotions and
still am. At first, I was surprised because the idea of elopement never crossed my mind. Then, I
was a bit annoyed and angry that Tiffany was pushing the marriage topic when I had already said
that I would propose to her soon. But then after hearing her yell at me, I felt sorry for Tiffany.
Tiffanys dream was to be a singer. But after being in the industry for 10 years, that dream of
hers was changing. She wanted to have a family. She wanted kids running around her. She
wanted to be a wife. She wanted me.
Priorities
Priorities were hard to set when youre a celebrity. What is supposed to be on the top of your list?
Your career? Your lover? Your family? Your friends?
The list changes so frequently, but one thing stays the same: The fact you will hurt whatever is
not at the top of your list.
Tiffany yelled at me about her priorities. She told me her career was at the top of her list a few
years back, but it took a toll on her relationship with her family. So, she put her family at the top.
Now, everything was more or less okay with them, and she wanted to put her career back on top
of the list. However, the same passion she had for performing wasnt as strong as before. Of
course, she loved music and the fans, but sometimes, the spotlight and everything was too much.
She said I was her first priority now.
What were my priorities?
I honestly didnt know. I sort of just went with the flow. I decided at some point in my life that
whatever came to me, I would just put in all the effort I had on it. Then something else comes,
and I would put my effort in that.
I was waiting for a particular day to propose to Tiffany. I thought it would be romantic and she
would be proud of me for it. But now, I was thinking, what was the point in that? Why wait for
one particular moment to ask her to be mine when she has been mine for all of this time?
We had already said countless of times that we wanted to spend the rest of our lives together. Im
sure she would say, Yes to whatever proposal I planned but wasnt she the one who said she
was expecting something big?
I was getting a bit angry again as I waited for her to finish showering.
I heard the bathroom click open and she walked out. I glanced at her while she was checking her
things were in her luggage before climbing onto the bed. She turned so her back would face me,
without saying anything.
This was nothing new in the past week. Weve been ignoring each other, and when it was the
time for the performance, we put on fake and loving smiles while singing a love song just so
people would not expect anything going on with us.
Fake smiles. I hated it. I hated pretending in front of the camera and hiding my true feelings just
so there wouldnt be thousands of articles printed the next day because people are always hungry
for any piece of gossip in the entertainment world. Then, the spotlight would be on us all over
again and we would be bombarded with questions, worried fans, the flickering lights of the
cameras, the sounds of the cameras clicking away, and our faces would be all over the internet,
TV, and streets.
I couldnt take not talking to Tiffany anymore. We needed to talk this out once and for all, and I
was starting to lean towards elopement because I knew our engagement and marriage would only
cause us more than enough attention to last us 10 lifetimes.
Tiffany? I asked hesitantly because I knew she was angry and an angry Tiffany was one not
to be messed with under any circumstance.
I heard her sigh.
What is it?
Can we talk about the elopement thing?
No, I already know your answer, so Ill just try to be a little more patient and wait for your
proposal thats been taking over a decade for you to plan.
She sounded sarcastic and mad. I dont blame her. Weve been together for nearly 13 years.
Were 26 this year, so weve been with each for half of our life. If that didnt show we were
committed to each other, then I dont know what would. People usually get married after 4 or 5
years dating; some even 1 or 2. But we were different. We dated since we were early teens, so I
was never quite sure when would be the appropriate time to propose. But it was because we were
different from others that I should have realized we could have gotten married when we were in
our early 20s. We were more than ready.
What if I said I changed my mind, I asked. I was feeling happy and excited about my new
found thoughts and revelations.
Tiffany sat up quick and turned her head to face me. Her eyes looked surprised and expectant.
What do you mean? she asked. I could tell her she was holding back her excitement.
First, I would like to ask you something. Werent you the one who said you were expecting a
big proposal? I asked, feeling confused as her words from months ago and now were different.
I-II did. But not now, she said, frowning, I always imagined a grand proposal that would
sweep me off my feet, but the more I thought about it, I started to not want it anymore.
I frowned too. Tiffany was always a girly-girl so I had thought of a proposal that would sweep
her off her feet.
Why?
She sighed while combing her hair with her fingers.
Because we both live a luxurious life. Were celebrities, Tae. Cameras on us. Eyes on us. Heck,
the world is on us. Imagine what our wedding would be like. Thats too much attention for an
event that should be private and intimate, just between the two of us. I want to get married in a
way that contrasts what our usual life goes through.
I loved the fact that Tiffany and I thought the same way. It made me truly believe we belonged to
each other.
I was breaking out to a huge smile because the time when Tiffany Hwang would be entirely mine
in all possible ways, Kim Taeyeons, was getting nearer. Mentally. Emotionally. Physically.
Spiritually.
With that ring on her left ring finger, it would tell the world that Tiffany Hwang was only mine
and the chance of her being taken away by someone else would drop down from 0.0001% to just
0%.
Marriage
It would seal the deal. Seal her heart with mine.
I jumped out of bed and rummaged through my luggage.
Taetae? What are you doing?
I ignored the question as I tried to find the small box I had hidden in my luggage for weeks now.
Finally, I found the red-heart shaped box.
I squatted there, holding the box close to my heart, as I closed my eyes to try and quickly think
of some words to say.
Heart. I decided to go with my heart and let the words spill from my mouth using my heart.
I opened my eyes when I felt her hand touch my shoulder.
Tae? You okay?
I took a deep breath.
This was it. This was the moment.
In this hotel room, in our PJs, with nothing fancy going on. Romantic or not, both of us
wouldnt care.
The best proposal was the simplest proposal.
You and me. Thats all we need for this proposal and marriage to happen.
I turned around and dropped down on one knee while opening the box.
She gasped as her eyes widened, staring at the ring my mother made for me, for her, for us.
T-Taeyeon?
Tiffany, I have nothing to say except this: We have already spent half of our lives together so
would you do me the honor of spending the rest of your life with me as my wife?
I waited for her answer while slightly trembling.
I watched as her eyes brimmed with tears, and her mouth curving into smile.
Yes. A thousand times yes!
I broke into the same smile as I picked up the ring that was snuggly fit in the box, and stood up.
I held her left hand with my own, and put the ring on her left ring finger with my right hand.
The ring fit perfectly on her finger. Perfection. Just like us.
We hugged each other tightly and pulled away quickly as her lips crashed onto mine. We were
lost in a passionate kiss as we were falling deeper and deeper into our pool of love for one
another.
We pulled away to catch our breaths. She leaned in again but I had another idea than she was
having. I stopped her by using my hands to cup her face.
Lets go! I said excitedly.
Go where?
Elope!
What!? Now!? she was staring at me in disbelief.
Yes! That is the definition of elopement. Running away from everything, from everyone, and
getting married.
I know that! But right this moment!? Where the hell are we going to go to get married!?
Las Vegas, duh!
Were still in New York, Taetae!
Then well catch a plane that goes to Nevada. Come on, Tiffany. Were losing time!
Tiffany stared at me, probably thinking it over. I was slightly jumping around, pumped up and
ready.
She burst out laughing and looked up at the ceiling, probably thinking of her mother.
Okay! Lets go to Vegas and get married!
I cheered and quickly pecked her lips.
We moved around the hotel room and gathered all of our belongings, giggling and feeling giddy
that this was actually happening.
Taetae, we need a marriage license.
Yeah, yeah, I know. Its easy. Its online. Well print it out and fill everything in while were on
the plane.
We managed to find a plane going to Las Vegas, Nevada. We had rushed out of the hotel without
informing our manager and quickly got our tickets at the airport.
We had quickly got our marriage license and in just a few minutes, we were going to be
officially married. Thinking about Tiffanys preference of religion, we were in a small wedding
chapel and a priest was going to perform the ceremony. We both wore a white dress that was
somehow in our luggage, so it made the event somewhat formal.
The piano started playing. I stood at the front with the priest, waiting for Tiffany to walk towards
me. There were 2 women sitting in the front row. They had graciously agreed to be our witnesses
and promised not to tell anyone what happened tonight.
I saw her coming. No one else and nothing mattered. For me, it was just her and me in this
chapel.
She finally reached and we faced each other.
Both of us were staring into each others eyes.
We decided to say our own thing instead of the traditional way.
Taeyeon, no words can express how much I love you and how much you mean to me. You are
my first love and my last love. My first everything, to be honest. When I saw you crying on the
first day of kindergarten, I wanted to befriend you, take care of you, protect you, and love you. It
turns out you do all of these things for me as well, better than me sometimes. Its fascinating how
I realized my feelings for you at such an early age. I guess it was fate. Im, uhh, not that great
with words, but you know how I feel, right? So, Ill stop for now and ask that you continue to
love and protect me. I love you.
Tiffany finished with a small, shy smile.
Tiffany, you are the sole reason I am who I am today. You push me to get out of my shell and
embrace the adventures of life with you. I cannot imagine myself with anyone else but you to
take on lifes challenges because I have no fear when I am with you. I told you that you have the
ability to raise me up or break me down. These past 13 years, you have done nothing but raise
me up and I hope you continue to do so. I love you, too.
We finished our speeches and moved on to our vows, and put on the rings. We had decided to
use our couple rings for now until we could buy the wedding bands.
I, Tiffany Hwang, take you, Kim Taeyeon, to be my lawfully wedded wife, to have and to hold,
from this day forward, for better, for worse, for richer, for poorer, in sickness and in health, until
death do us part and even after.
She grabbed my left hand and slid the ring onto my ring finger.
I, Kim Taeyeon, take you, Tiffany Hwang, to be my lawfully wedded wife, to have and to hold,
from this day forward, for better, for worse, for richer, for poorer, in sickness and in health, until
death do us part and even after.
I grabbed her left hand and slid the ring onto her ring finger, touching both the ring and the
engagement ring.
I now pronounce you wife and wife. You may kiss the bride, said the priest smiling to us.
Tiffany and I smiled to each other. We both leaned in. Our lips pressed together, in a simple,
sweet kiss.
Lets go on for a long time, Taetae, she mumbled.
To eternity, I responded.
And this was it. We were now officially married.
Simplicity at its finest.
Jessicas POV
After the night of Taeyeons birthday and the morning after, Yuri and I saw each other more
often. I thought we were getting closer and managed to find the all the letters in Spectacular
except for R. I spent 3 incredible weeks with her. We got to the point where we would each
kiss each other on the cheek as a way to say goodbye and we would always link arms or even
hold hands during our hangouts.
I was starting to think Yuri may have feelings for me, so I wanted to ask her out on an official
date and complete the word Spectacular.. However, those incredible 3 weeks stopped
altogether. In these past 2 weeks, Yuri kept our contact to a bare minimum. Short responses, not
responding to calls, and it was always the same damn response, Im busy.
I went over to her apartment to see what was wrong, but she never answered her door.
I felt irritated and frustrated. I thought we had something going on, but I guess I was wrong?
Pushing and pulling.
I hated it. It was too damn confusing.
I was determined the next time I see her that I tell her about my feelings for her. No more hiding.
No more playing around. No more tip toeing around her. No more kissing on the cheeks, I
wanted to feel her lips on mine.
I realized the chance of her rejecting me, but that was why I was going to use my heart. No logic
was going to stop me. My feelings and heart were going to lead me straight to Yuri.
Im going to confess.
Im coming for you, Yuri.
Its my birthday today. I was going to hold a small, private party in my apartment later in the
evening. I had sent out all the invitations a week ago; they all said the same thing.
For Yuri, I had decided to text her last night to invite her.
I had said that if she was not going to my party, then she can forget about seeing me ever again.
It was extreme, I know. But I was confident that she was going to come.
All of my guests had come except for her. I was trying to focus on the conversation I was having
with some friends, but I couldnt.
What if she really doesnt come?
My eyes kept on glancing at the door, hoping I would hear the doorbell ring.
My eyes then lingered over to where Taeyeon and Tiffany were at. Taeyeon was sitting on the
couch, while Tiffany was sitting on her lap. They kept giggling like theres no tomorrow. They
were extra happy and clingy than normal, so I made a mental note to ask them later.
Tiffanys POV
I was happily giggling on Taeyeons lap. She kept on whispering random words and sentences to
me. Ever since we got married, we were a little bit too giddy. We were laughing at everything
and everyone.
We had made it back to L.A., safe and sound, well, not without our manager scolding us about
not informing him that we went back to L.A. without him.
We had decided to keep quiet about our marriage for a little while. It was exciting to be honest.
The public usually knows everything about what was going in our lives, so it was nice to keep
something from them, only if it was for a short while.
Our rings were in our pockets and I had to resist pulling them out and putting them back on my
finger while admiring them. Taeyeon had told me that her mom actually made the engagement
ring.
I was shocked and grateful at the same time.
I felt a little bit sorry for our family members and friends. They wouldnt be able to witness
Taeyeon and me getting married anymore. And my dad, he wouldnt be able to walk me down
the aisle and hand me to Taeyeon. And now, knowing Taeyeons mother made the ring, I felt a
bit guilty.
However, I didnt have any regrets. It was a decision best for the both of us, what we wanted. I
thought about it. Even if we held a small, private wedding with just family and close friends, the
public would not stop pestering any one of us to get information and pictures. News on our
engagement and marriage meant money, and people in this industry had their eyes on nothing
else but gold.
When the time was right to tell others, I hoped they would understand our decision.
After all, I wasnt going to marry any of our family members or the public, I was marrying
Taeyeon.
And I wasnt marrying Taeyeon for publicity, money, or anything other reason except for love.
We didnt have to show off our love in a grand proposal or wedding.
We just had to show our love to each other and that was all that matters.
Jessicas POV
I suddenly heard the doorbell ring and banging on the door.
There wasnt any music playing, so it was loud and clear. Everyones attention was on the door.
I quickly excused myself and went to open the door.
Yuri
She was leaning on the doorframe, eyes barely opened.
She reeked of alcohol.
Hey~ Shika. Im here~ she slurred her words.
I clamped my hand onto her mouth and hissed at her, What the hell? Did you seriously show up
here drunk?
She removed by hand with much force and shouted, Im here~!!
That got everyones attention again. I tried to keep Yuri steady so she wouldnt collapse, but I
heard people bustling over asking what was going on.
This wasnt going to do.
I turned around while slinging Yuris arm over my shoulder.
Hey, sorry guys, Im going have to cut the party short. Thanks for coming anyway. You can
show yourself out.
I saw some people looking at me weirdly and looking at Yuri in disgust. If I wasnt so busy
trying to carry Yuri to my room, I would have done something. But at the moment, I really didnt
care about what they thought of Yuri or me.
I managed to put Yuri on my bed, which was difficult to do because she kept resisting. I was
looking at her rolling around, giggling like crazy when I heard the bedroom door open.
I looked behind me and saw Taeyeon and Tiffany.
Unlike how she looked just before I opened the door for Yuri, Taeyeon looked livid. Her eyes
dark, her hands tightly balled into fists, and she was staring at Yuri with so much hate and
disappointment.
You shouldnt have brought her in, Jessica, her tone of voice could make ones blood run cold.
I looked at Tiffany and she looked just as confused as me.
Why? I asked. I had a feeling that Taeyeon was hiding something from me about Yuri.
You just shouldnt have. Ill carry her out of the apartment, she moved and grabbed hold of
Yuris arm but I grabbed her wrist to stop her.
Shes drunk, Tae! I cant leave her alone like this!
THATS EXACTLY WHY YOU SHOULD LEAVE HER ALONE, she yelled, making me a
bit frightened because she never usually yells. Nonetheless, I held my ground and tightened my
hold on Taeyeons wrist. I glanced at Yuri, and she was now passed out.
What do you know? I hissed at her.
She stared into my eyes as she breathed heavily.
You like her, dont you?
I stared back, wondering what my feelings have to do with everything.
No
Taeyeon seemed to relax and I could see relief wash over her eyes, but then I continued my
sentence.
I love her.
Taeyeon tensed and I could see anger rising up in her eyes again.
You cant.
I scoffed, Who are you to tell me who I can and cant love?
No one. But Im asking, no Im BEGGING, you cant love her, she said her with so much
venom in her voice.
I was done with all of this ambiguity. I was fed up with it.
I harshly pulled Taeyeons hand away from Yuri and pushed her until her back hit the wall hard,
not that I cared at the moment. I had my right hand grab hold of her shirt, crumpling it as I
tightened my hold.
Jessica! Taeyeon! Stop, both of you!
Tiffany attempted to intervene between me and Taeyeon, but I shoved her away.
This is none of your business, Tiffany. This is between me and Taeyeon. Stay out of it! I said
all of this, not breaking my stare with Taeyeon.
Tiffany, stubborn as she is, tried to push me away from Taeyeon again.
I sighed on the inside as I pushed her away, only harder this time.
Dont hurt her! Taeyeon shouted, eyes blazing with anger.
I wont have to if you just tell me what the fuck you know about Yuri!
She knew something about the woman I love and I was going to find out right here and now, at
all costs.
FINE! You want to know; then fine! I was hoping for Yuri to tell you herself because thats
what she told me but I guess she was just too much of a coward not to tell you! Or maybe, she
wasnt even planning to keep her promise, seeing her current state and situation right now!
Stop with the useless rambling and get to the point, Tae! Im not playing games with
She cut me off before I finished my sentence and her next words were words that really did make
my blood run cold.
Shes an alcoholic!
My hand loosened on her shirt and I took a small step, while slightly shaking my head.
W-what? N-no, you, s-she
I stared into Taeyeons eyes to see any indication of her lying but I found none. Instead, her eyes
looked apologetic and sad.
Im so sorry, Jessica. I shouldve told you, but Yuri said she could handle herself. Im sorry, I
shouldnt have trusted her.
H-how do y-you even k-know?
Your party after the showcase. I was looking at Yuri when she first came into the venue. Her
eyes saw all the alcohol and I noticed her turning around, like she wanted to leave, but then she
stayed. I brushed it off. But then you offered her a drink, and again, I noticed she was just staring
at the alcohol while trembling, like she was fighting herself to not take it. I had my suspicions, so
when it was my birthday party, Tiffany took you away and I confronted her about it. She told
me.
Tell me the whole conversation you had with her and dont dare leave any details out, I said.
Flashback (Taeyeons birthday party) Authors POV
When Tiffany dragged Jessica away, Taeyeon decided to either make her suspicions true or false.
She raised her hand to call a waiter over and grabbed a glass of white wine.
Sorry about this, Im just thirsty, she said as she took a sip while looking at Yuri.
Yuri was looking not at her, but the glass of wine.
Its fine.
So~ if its not too rude to ask, why dont you drink?
Yuri gave a chuckle. A fake one.
Why do I have to drink? she answered with a question.
Taeyeon shrugged.
Drinking is good for social events like these.
Well, I dont go to a lot of social events.
But you are at one right now. So why not have a drink? Its not going to hurt you, Taeyeon
said as she offered her glass of wine.
Yuri licked her lips and gave a small smile, again fake.
I just dont drink, Taeyeon, Yuri said in a firm, stern voice, hoping to end this topic of
conversation.
Or maybe you cant just stop at one glass. Youll keep drinking out of control, Taeyeon said it
nonchalantly.
Yuri froze as her eyes widened and her whole body stiffened.
I-I have no i-idea what y-youre t-talking about, Yuri stuttered.
Your words are different from your expression right now. Im right, right? Youre an alcoholic,
Taeyeon stated, staring at Yuri.
The word, alcoholic, swam in Yuris mind. She started to get angry of the fact when people
hear the word, alcoholic, they assume they know everything about you.
Dont you dare tell Jessica or anyone of this, Yuri spat in a whisper, her voice low, trying to
prevent anyone from hearing their conversation.
And why shouldnt I? Taeyeon spat back.
Because you dont know me. Ive been sober for over a year now.
Taeyeon scoffed, So? Youre still an alcoholic. Youre going to hurt Jessica.
Yuri grabbed each of her thighs as she dug her nails in. She breathed in and out harshly, trying to
prevent herself from exploding with rage.
I am not.
And how do you know that? You say its just been a year. How many times did you fall off the
wagon?
None of your business.
See? Im guessing its a few times. And when you fall off the wagon again while youre with
Jessica, youll hurt her with a pain you wont be able to imagine. Not to mention, Ill have no
hesitation to beat you into a pulp.
Yuri chuckled dryly.
Celebrities are really different behind all the cameras, huh?
I guess they are. And let me tell you now, I dont give a damn about my image if the person
youre hurting is Jessica. Shes practically my sister and I will not let an alcoholic ruin her life.
Yuris nostril flared.
I will not ruin her life. Stop assuming you know me and blabbing about things that are not
going to happen.
Oh, but they will. You see, alcoholic never change. They have an addiction to alcohol. Theyll
go back to it at all costs. And when you slip up in the future, not only will you hurt yourself, but
youll hurt Jessica as well.
I care about Jessica! I know. I know I am an alcoholic. Ive hurt my friends in the past, I admit
it. But this is different. Jessica is different! When Im with her, the feeling to drink is not as
strong compared to when Im alone. You dont know me. This is my best year yet. I can handle
myself. Ill tell Jessica when Im ready and I wont disappoint her.
Taeyeon sighed. Yuris eyes told her nothing but determination and truth.
You can make a promise on that?
Promise?
Yes, a promise. You promise to not hurt Jessica. If you ever feel that youll fall off the wagon
or you actually do, then youll never look for Jessica again. You leave her alone. Disappear from
her life.
Yuris eyes flickered with hesitation.
Yes, I promise.
Jessicas POV
I didnt know what to think. I didnt know what to feel.
Yuris secret, what she was hiding from me, this was it.
Alcoholic. Yuris an alcoholic.
Jessica? asked Taeyeon.
Get out, I was surprised to find my voice full in anger.
Im sorry I didnt tell
DONT! Dont apologize to me. Apologize to Yuri, I momentarily closed my eyes and then
opened them back just to see Yuri sprawled out on my bed.
What!? Are you seriously taking her side? I told you everything and you still want to be by her
side!?
I CANT HELP IT! Tae, you love Tiffany. You know that feeling. The ups and the downs, I
want to go through everything with her by her side! I love Yuri and I am not walking away from
her just because shes an alcoholic. She can get through this. I will help her.
And what if you cant help her? What if shes a loss cause!?
Dont you dare talk about her like that! Yuris right. You dont know her. You dont know
anything about her!
YOU DONT EITHER! Jessica, Im just trying to protect you. Listen to me. This is for your
own good or else youre going to end up with a broken heart!
That was it. She crossed the line.
I marched to where she was standing and jabbed my index finger towards her chest.
YOU, you do not have any right to make decisions for me! Youre acting just like my parents!
You dont know whats good for me and whats not good for me, Kim Taeyeon. No one does but
me! Now, get out before I throw you out, I hissed the last sentence.
She stared at me angrily before turning towards the door and she left the apartment, not without
slamming the door.
I stood looking down at my feet, breathing heavily, and holding back the tears that have been
welling up inside me ever since I heard the secret.
I felt arms going around me, embracing me in a tight, protective hug.
Shes just looking out for you, Jess. She loves you. Ill go talk to her. Take care of Yuri and
good luck. Call me if you need anything, Tiffany whispered and kissed my head.
She soon left after.
I looked at Yuri who was still passed out.
I took off her shoes and removed her clothes except for her undergarments. I threw her reeking
clothes into the laundry basket and grabbed a wet towel to wipe her exposed skin.
Luckily, I had clothes that were bigger than me and I put them on her. I positioned her in a more
comfortable way so she can sleep better.
I went to the bathroom to get ready for bed and when I came back out, her eyes were barely
opened but I knew she was staring at me.
Her eyes followed me as I got onto the other side of the bed, getting under the covers.
I froze as she cuddled against me with her arm over my waist.
Her lips close to my face.
Im sorry, she mumbled, kissed my cheek, and fell into a slumber again.
Dont worry, Yuri. Ill help you.
Let me help you.


Chapter 17
Tiffanys POV
We got back to our apartment safe and sound because I insisted on driving rather than a very
pissed off Taeyeon. I was waiting for Taeyeon to blow off some steam before coming back to the
bedroom so we can talk.
I honestly was disappointed in Taeyeon. She continued to talk about Yuri like she knew the
woman for years. Not all alcoholics are exactly the same. There are things you dont know about
a person so its never safe to assume anything before you do. Dont judge a book by its cover.
I was staring at the rings on my left ring finger when I heard the bedroom door open. She walked
in, still looking a bit angry, and climbed onto the bed. She turned her back against me.
Taeyeon, we need to talk about tonight.
Theres nothing to talk about, she hissed.
I didnt like her tone of voice. I closed my eyes to calm myself before it was my turn to get angry.
Tae, can we talk like normal people here? Dont take your anger out on me when its your fault.
She sat up in a heartbeat, and turned to face me, glaring.
Oh, so youre also on their side? My own wife!? she held up her left hand.
Dont be ridiculous. Im on no ones side. Im just pointing out you handled the situation
wrongly.
She scoffed, Oh, really? Do tell me so.
First of all, when you had your little suspicions, instead of telling me or Jessica about them, you
went off by yourself to confront Yuri. What if it wasnt true, huh? Yuri would have been mad
and told Jessica about it and then Jessica would have been beyond livid with you!
Well, that doesnt make a difference because if you didnt notice back in Jessicas apartment,
shes already beyond livid with me!
Thats not the main reason shes mad with you, Tae! You heard her! You acted just like how
her parents treated her when she was living under their roof. You controlled her! You made
decisions that you thought was the best for her. Youve been friends with her for years now and
you know all about her past, so why would you make the stupid decision of trying to run and
shape her life!? Shes a woman, old enough to make her own choices, good or bad. You are in no
place to make Yuri disappear from Jessicas life!
I lost it. Jessica is a dear friend of mine. We were practically sisters, only better. Her past was a
horrible one and all I want for Jessica is for her to be happy. If Yuri was the one who could do
that, then by all means, I would help Yuri stay in Jessicas life, even if it meant going up against
with the love of my life.
You people dont understand! Yuris an alcoholic! What if she gets violent, huh? Shell hurt
Jessica; I have no doubt in my mind about that. Sure, she could stay sober for a while, but shell
always go back to alcohol! Thats what the definition of addiction means!
I didnt know what came over me, but the next thing I knew, my right handed landed on her
cheek.
She stared at me, eyes widened, holding her cheek. My jaw tensed and I bit my tongue, trying to
ignore the fact this was the first time I ever physically hurt Taeyeon.
Stop, just stop Taeyeon. Until you know Yuris past and present events, thoughts, and feelings,
then do not, never ever, talk about her like you know her. Dont assume things about the future
because we both should know that we all dont know what the future holds. Youve never been
an alcoholic so you dont know what Yuris going through right now and in the past. I didnt
know you were this type of person, Tae. Youre better than this. I know you love and care for
Jessica; I do too. But we cant make choices for her when its her life. Sure, we can give advice
but thats it. Anything else is crossing that invisible line.
My words seemed to have stuck with Taeyeon as she was no longer glaring at me but looking
down at her lap. I sighed inwardly, feeling the guilt starting to creep in, but I held my ground.
Taeyeon could get too overprotective sometimes, but it was only because she loved and cared for
the people close to her. She didnt like seeing anyone get hurt.
Im sorry I slapped you, Tae, I mumbled.
I looked at her, still lost in her thoughts, but she did manage to give a light nod. I moved closer to
her and took her hand away from her cheek. Her cheek was a tad bit red but nothing serious. I
was glad that I didnt put much strength into the slap. It was a slap to wake her up; make her
realize that she went too far.
Hey, lets try and get some sleep, okay?
I helped her lay down onto the bed and pulled the covers just beneath our chins. I cuddled
against her, hoping everything will be fine the next morning.
I gave her a kiss on the cheek.
Good night Taetae. I love you.
It wasnt the ideal way to spend our first day as a married couple, but that was what we are, a
married couple. Even if we fight and yell at each other, it didnt matter because we both know
everything will be okay between us sooner or later. We said our vows, meaning we gave our
word to each other, a promise, and we had no intentions of backing down on that.
Through thick and thin, Ill always be by your side.
Jessicas POV
I woke up the next morning, nearly dying because of the lack of oxygen. Yuri, somehow during
the middle of the night, had rolled on top of me, putting all of her weight on me.
She was snoring softly as I carefully rolled her back to the other side of the bed.
I got out of the bed to do my morning ritual and when I got back out, she was still sleeping.
Realizing the hangover shell be experiencing soon enough, I went to the kitchen to make coffee
and grab the bottle of painkillers just in case. I wasnt awesome in cooking, so I decided on the
simple American breakfast: bacon and eggs, maybe some toast as well.
I blankly stared at the sizzling bacon as I thought about what happened last night. Taeyeon is a
fantastic friend. She, along with Tiffany, comforted me at my times of need and gave me the
strength to carry on with my passion and standing up against my parents. But I found it ironic
that Taeyeon once told me that I shouldnt aim to please people and to do what I love, make
decisions that I believed was the best for me. Now, here she was, telling me the exact opposite. I
am making the decision that I believe is the best for me, yet shes telling me to make a different
one.
I started flipping the bacon on the pan when all of the sudden, I heard a large crash and thud in
the living room. I switched off the heat and ran to see what happened.
Yuri. She must have knocked over the chair that was now lying on its side and she was on the
floor, groaning and holding her head.
I rushed over to her and tried to help her up.
Hey, you okay, there?
She stared at me and started stuttering, I-I, umm, s-sure.
What are you doing over here? Didnt you hear me in the kitchen cooking?
She avoided my eyes and licked her lips.
N-no?
I suddenly realized why she was acting like that and a pain shot from my heart throughout my
body.
Were you trying to leave without me knowing? I asked in a small voice.
Yuri kept her head down and softly nodded.
Why? I was hurt to see her trying to keep running away from me when all I wanted was for her
to stay.
Y-you k-now, dont you?
I do, how do you know that I know? You were passed out last night.
She cleared her throat.
Not entirely, I woke up time from time and heard you and Taeyeon shouting
Although Yuri wasnt looking at me, from her body language, I could tell she was embarrassed,
hurt, disappointed, and a tad bit angry.
I decided to not talk about this so early in the morning with her hangover bothering her.
Lets have some breakfast first okay? I have some painkillers for you.
Without waiting her response, I started to pull her towards the kitchen, and helped her sit on the
chair.
Relax for a moment, breakfast will be done soon. Heres your coffee.
I placed a hot mug of coffee in front of her and proceeded to finish cooking.
I sat across from her and pushed a plate of food towards her.
Eat, youll feel better soon. I gave her a small smile.
She didnt return one and Im not sure if she even saw mine because she continued to look down
at her plate and started eating, quietly and slowly.
We finished breakfast and she accepted the painkiller pills that I offered her.
I should go, umm, thanks for breakfast, she stood up to leave.
Wait, Yuri. Please, just stay okay? I pleaded, which was unusual for me.
She gave a deep sigh while closing her eyes and shaking her head.
Why are you being like this, Jessica? Why are you being so nice to me? Im an alcoholic.
Taeyeons right. Im going to hurt you sooner or later. I have nothing to give you.
I gritted my teeth. I was getting angry at Taeyeon again and for Yuri to actually start believing
those nonsense words, I was hurt. I remembered yesterday about how I was so determined to
confess my feelings to Yuri. It wasnt a romantic setting at all but after what happened last night,
I really didnt care at this moment. I needed to tell her my feelings. Right now.
Your heart, her head shot up and faced me, You can give me your heart and Ill give mine in
return. Actually, you already do have my heart right now. Yuri, Im going to be straight-forward
with you. I have feelings for you; Ive had feelings for you ever since my showcase in New York.
Kwon Yuri, I love you. And yes, I found out youre an alcoholic, but that has in no way changed
my feelings for you even in the slightest. Dont you, even for a second, believe what Taeyeon
said. Shes wrong. Even if, IF, you hurt me in the future, Ill be more than happy to be hurt by
the woman I love.
I held her gaze as she held mine. I spoke nothing but the truth from my heart.
Yuri was a nut in a nutshell. Her shell protected herself from being hurt, but it also protected the
people around her so she wouldnt hurt them. But I didnt care. I was going in and nothing could
stop me.
You dont break the shell using force or violence. You dont even need to break down the shell
because itll open itself up for you. You use love and kindness to open it up.
That was exactly what I was going to do to Kwon Yuri.
Y-you l-love me? she asked in disbelief.
Yes, a simple short answer, backed with the most conviction I have ever used in my life.
Im not sure if I can return the same feelings just yet. I have a lot going on, her voiced
sounded full of sadness.
I slightly smiled because she said yet, at least I finally knew she had some feelings for me too.
It would only be matter a time before she returned the same feelings, and I was willing to wait.
Its okay. Im not asking you to. We can take it slow. But I do have a favor to ask of you.
What is it? she asked hesitantly.
All I ask is that you open up to me. Tell me things about your past. Ill do the same as well.
Okay, she agreed, making me feel warm inside.
And if its not too much, I would like to help you only if you want my help. Im not pushing
you to take it, but if you want it, then all you have to do is just ask.
People with addictions are all different. Some things worked for some, but those same things
didnt work for others. I dont know if Yuri goes to AA meetings or if she goes to therapy for it.
All I do know is that a trigger set Yuri off to start drinking after being sober for over a year. If I
wanted to help Yuri, I had to find that trigger and I hoped her mysterious past would help me
help me find it.
She walked over to me and enveloped me in a tight hug.
She was slightly shaking and I heard a few sniffles but decided not to comment on it.
Thank you, Sica. Youre all I need.
Youre all I need as well.
We stayed in silence for a while, simply hugging each other.
I couldnt help but feel curious and I really wanted to know more about Yuri.
Umm, do you want to talk now?
I can tell she was hesitating, but then she said her simple answer, Yes.
We decided to talk in my bedroom. Yuri said she felt a bit groggy and needed to close her eyes
and get away from the bright sunshine of the sun of this morning.
We were under the covers, facing each other, with Yuris eyes closed. She surprised me when
she held my hand and intertwined them, but nonetheless, I was happy.
What do you want to know? she mumbled.
Anything you want to tell me.
Should I start talking about my childhood? her tone of voice was a mixture of anger and
sadness.
Only if you want to.
I suppose I should. Thats the time when everything started to go to the shithole for me.
I didnt say anything and merely stared at her beautiful face, waiting for her to gather her
thoughts. When she was ready to tell me, she would.
I heard her sigh.
My parents, if thats the correct title for them, are just like me. Theyre alcoholics, only
theyre worse than me. You see, I tried to stop drinking, I dont think they have ever tried to quit.
I didnt want to continue hurting the people I cared for, so that was my reason for quitting. But
them? They didnt give a damn who they hurt as long as they had alcohol. They didnt give a
damn about me
Yuri seemed to choke on her words.
I held her hand tightly as I rubbed her hand with my thumb.
Hey, you dont have to finish if its too hard for you, I said softly. I kissed her cheek, hoping to
calm her down.
N-no, you should know.
I smiled slightly. I used my free hand to caress her cheek.
Whenever youre ready.
Im an only child. I lived in thatthat house with just my parents. Other family members lived
in South Korea or some other country. I practically took care of myself while growing up. Under
that roof, there was no authority. No control. Absolutely nothing. Some kids might have loved it
because you could do whatever you want, but for me? No, it ruined me. I was 14 when I first
started drinking. I was depressed for a while, thinking it was only me in this world and no one
would ever love me, so I turned to alcohol. When I go to sleep, it takes me a long while to fall
asleep. My brain just wont stop thinking about things that keep me awake and make me feel
horrible about myself and my life. Alcohol. When you drink too much, you just pass out,
skipping that step to fall asleep. I loved it. And you know what the most fucked up part is? My
parents, surprise~, didnt give a damn about me drinking. In fact, they encouraged me to keep it
up. They would try and get me to play some idiotic drinking game with them. I-I just couldnt
stop drinking after the first sip
I saw that Yuri was trembling. The poor girl was trying to stop herself from crying in front of me,
but she didnt have to do that.
Hey, Yul, dont keep it in. Just cry, let it out. I said I was going to be here for you now on,
remember? I meant it, so if you need to cry, then you have my shoulder, I said softly and
carefully.
Yuri lunged forward and was slightly on top of me with her head buried on the crook of my neck.
I can feel my shirt and neck becoming increasingly wet with her tears. I gently pat and rubbed
her back but with not too much strength because Yuri was extremely vulnerable and fragile right
now. I didnt dare to try and hurt her.
I was angry, pissed off at her so-called parents. What sort of mother and father would do that to
their own child, their own blood? Did they really not care about Yuris future!? If I ever saw
them with my own two eyes, I would march up to them and give them a piece of my mind.
Maybe after, I would give them a proper greeting with my fist as well.
They simply didnt care. They didnt give a fuck about anyones welfare except for their own.
But Im not even sure if they had a proper welfare seeing how they were drunks throughout
Yuris life.
Alcohol does not make you happy.
I found it weird though. My parents cared too much about me and my future, while Yuris
parents cared too little.
There was never a middle ground in life. Even if there was, it was too hard to find. It was either
too much or too little.
Where was the balance?
Yuri managed to stop crying. There was the occasional hiccup and sniffle, but she seemed to be
fine. I remembered during Taeyeons retelling of their conversation back at her birthday party
that Yuri had said the urge to drink was not as strong when she was with me. Im guessing she
fell off the wagon during those 2 weeks that I was not able to contact her.
An idea popped in my mind and it was a bit embarrassing to ask so soon, but if I wanted to help
Yuri, then I should forget about my pride, just for her.
Yuri?
Yes? her voice sounded really hoarse.
Perhaps, do y-you want to s-stay with m-me for a while?
Stuttering! Ugh.
She lifted her head to look at me with her tear-stained face.
I chuckled lightly and moved my hands to dry her tears away.
Only if you want to. I mean, you live alone, so I thought it would be better to have someone
around. Someone like me.
Wont I be a burden? she asked.
No! Not at all. Itd be fun, trust me, I flashed her a smile.
She seemed to hesitate for a moment before she gave a small smile, Okay.
We were now in front of her apartment door so Yuri could grab some clothes and personal
belongings so she would feel more comfortable in my apartment.
I waited in the living room while Yuri was in the bedroom gathering her things.
I looked around and saw a piece of paper sticking out underneath the home phone. Curious, I
picked it up and read the contents.
Dear Yuri,
If you are reading this, then it means youre alive, which is very good. Now, I would like for you
to call me (Sooyoung) and Yoona. Well then gather at someones place where well make sure
youre dead!
KWON YURI! Youve been avoiding our calls and youre never at your apartment! Where have
you been? And dont use the excuse, Im busy or Im hanging out with Jessica because we
all know thats not true! Call us ASAP before we decided to hire bodyguards to find and bring
your ass to us. And you know we have the power and money to do exactly that!
Love (We really do despite the content above),
Sooyoung and Yoona
I quickly got up and went to Yuri.
Hey, I found this note outside. Your friends seem pretty worried.
She took the paper and scanned the letter. Her eyebrows furrowed and she looked guilty.
Ill call them later. I haventtold them I fell off the wagonagain.
She said again with so much disappointed in herself.
I went and cupped her face with my hands. I had a firm hold so she would not be able to look
away from my eyes.
Youre going to try again, right? At being sober?
Of course.
She had so much determination in her eyes, and what she said next nearly made my heart jump
out of my chest.
For you, for me.
She removed my hands from her face and wrapped her arms around my waist and pulled me
closer to her.
She was taller than me so I looked up into her eyes.
Her eyes showed love, care, and affection.
She leaned in towards me as I unconsciously leaned towards her as well.
Right before she gave me the kiss I have been waiting for weeks, she mumbled,
For us.
Chapter 18
Taeyeons POV
I had my eyes on my lap because there was honestly nowhere else I could put them. Heck, I
could barely even lift my head ever since I entered the apartment. Its been about a week after
my little tantrum as Tiffany so nicely put it so as to not make me feel even guiltier or sadder
about what I had said about Yuri and to Jessica.
I love Jessica. Shes my friend, my wifes best friend, and most importantly, shes my sister. I
treat her as if we were blood-related, but sometimes as Jessica thinks, were better than blood-
related relatives. Our bond is stronger than that. Blood was not always thicker than water.
Jessica had a rough time living under the roof of her parents. At a moment of weakness, she fell
into her parents trap and lost all positive-thinking about herself. It was when she met Tiffany
and then me where she started to become the young, confident woman she is and always will be.
It took her time to figure that out and rediscover herself, but she did and now shes out searching
for love. After all, you must love yourself before you can love someone else.
Jessica deserves everything good in life. She deserves someone who can love her for all she is,
all she was, and all that she will be. I still had my doubts about Kwon Yuri but I was willing to
give her a chance if she is the one who can make Jessica happy, which she seems, for the most
part, is currently doing. I admit I was wrong to judge her before I actually got to know her but I
couldnt help myself from being overprotective. If Jessica is really serious about Yuri, then she
would be Jessicas first love. First loves dont always work out, but if they do, then it becomes so
spectacular and unimaginable; almost like a fantasy but still real. I was rooting for the latter aka
for Jessica happiness.
It had registered in my head after Tiffanys slap and speech that I was indeed acting like
Jessicas parents. Her parents were nothing short of selfish, thinking nothing about what Jessica
wanted but their own image and reputation. By manipulating and making choices that I thought
were the best for Jessica, I acted just like them and I will never forgive myself for that.
Jessica came out the bedroom, looking haggard.
Hey, how is she feeling? I asked in a soft voice.
Shes sleeping now, which is good, but she still has a fever. I was thinking of taking her to the
hospital to get her checked out, Jessica sat down next to me and leaned back onto the couch,
closing her eyes.
Jessica informed me when I entered the apartment that Yuri was experiencing some withdrawal
symptoms. Yuri had not excessively drunk a lot during those two weeks apart from Jessica, but
she had enough to give her nausea and a fever after stopping.
I fidgeted because I had not officially apologized to neither of them. But I guess its better late
than never. I wouldnt want to lose Jessica as a friend over my stupidity and prejudice.
Jessica?
Hmmm?
I-Im really sorry about what I said to Yuri and to you. I didnt intentionally act like your
parents; I was just worried about you. I want you to have the best that you deserve to have. But I
went the wrong way doing that. I went way over the top by accusing Yuri when I didnt know
anything about her. If you say shes the one, then Ill trust you. I-Im just really sorry
I trailed off as I didnt know what else to say apart from being really sorry.
I was staring at my lap with my eyes closed, waiting for the worst to come, but it never did.
Instead, I felt a light kiss on my cheek. I turned around to find Jessica smiling at me.
Its fine, Taeyeon. I know you were just protecting me and I appreciate that, but I would
appreciate it more if you just let me handle this myself and just trust me.
My face brightened, relief showering over me.
I trust you. 100%, I gave her the brightest smile I have had this past week.
She patted my head and resumed her previous position.
You still owe Yuri an apology, you know, she mumbled.
I know. I will. How about a double date? Ill treat you guys.
Her eyes popped open and cheeks turned a tad bit red.
Whats up? I asked, sensing something weird going on.
I-I, w-we, were not d-dating, Jessica whispered the last word.
My eyebrows furrowed.
Youre not?
N-no. I mean, w-were i-interested in each other. But she said she wanted to deal with some
things before t-taking r-responsibility for m-me, Jessica turned bright red and got up to walk
towards the kitchen.
I smiled at the very uncommon sight of a shy Jessica Jung. She usually puts on the cold front to
protect herself, but I guess Yuri got through that and is now making Jessica similar to a love-sick
teenage girl.
Responsibility. Lovers take responsibility for each other. They can rely on one another at any
time in any situation. But you have to take responsibility for yourself before taking care of others.
If Yuri was cleaning herself up to be a better person for Jessica, but she was doing it for herself
first, then that earned a point in my books.
I walked to the kitchen where Jessica was leaning on the counter drinking a glass of water.
Okay, it doesnt have to be a double date. Just dinner, then, I didnt want to push the topic any
further.
Okaydinner, she agreed.
Tomorrow night. Tiffany and I are free.
Call, she simply said.
I left her apartment shortly after and I left feeling free of the stress and burden that has been on
my shoulders the past.
Kwon Yuri, a chance has been given. Dont waste it.
Jessicas POV
After I saw Taeyeon out, I returned to the bedroom. The past week has been hard for Yuri, but
its been pure joy and happiness for me. Disregarding the fact that Yuri didnt feel well for a
moment, I loved the feeling of her living with me; to have her so close to me. I insisted on
sleeping on the same bed as I didnt have any guest rooms in the apartment and I certainly wasnt
going to let her sleep on the couch.
I had always preferred nighttime over daytime and Yuri was another reason why. At night, we
would cuddle, basking in each others warmth. I felt safe and loved in her strong arms and I
didnt want her to ever let go. When she did because it was time to get up, I would long for
nighttime to come quickly so I can experience the warm, tingly feelings all over again.
We werent officially dating, but I was fine with that. As long as I know I have her and she
knows she has me, labeling our relationship didnt matter much.
I lied down next to her, tracing the feature of her face with my eyes. I used to always think it was
weird to just stare at people. Like Edward from Twilight, he didnt have anything better to do
with his life as a vampire and just stared at Bella while she was sleeping. Creepy. But I get it. I
get it now. When you love someone, you dont necessarily have to talk or do an activity; you can
simply be in each others presence and enjoy the moment. Nothing boring about that for me.
I havent been able to find much more about Yuris past after our first honest conversation. I had
an inkling though. Yuri had said she stopped drinking because she couldnt stand hurting the
people she cared for. I first had thought of Sooyoung and Yoona, but then I thought they werent
the main reason. The main reason would have been a big wake up call, one that changed Yuris
whole outlook on life.
Yuri suddenly stirred in her sleep and slowly opened those beautiful eyes of her.
Hey there, sleepy head, I smiled and teased her.
Sica~ she whined.
I yelped when she suddenly pulled me closer to her. My breath hitched as our faces were
millimeters from each other. My lips brushed against hers.
I pulled away a bit just to see her teasing grin.
Did you like that~? she asked in a sing-song voice.
No, I didnt Kwon, I huffed in annoyance.
It only took a week living with Yuri to figure out shes the teasing, but still sweet and adorable
type of woman in a relationship.
She was going to be the death of me with her constant teasing and touches such as the ones she
was doing right at this moment. I tensed and tried so hard not to pounce on her.
One of her hands was slightly underneath my shirt, slowly tracing a circle on my skin with her
feathery and warm touch.
Sica, its your turn to talk, she mumbled.
I wasnt afraid to talk about my past since I already overcame them, but I was afraid of what she
would think of me after knowing.
Please dont think of me any different after I tell you.
She stared at me like she was looking into my soul.
I would never dare.
I smiled a little and couldnt resist pecking her on the forehead.
After I saw her smile, I closed my eyes, my mind going back to my adolescent years.
I was 16 when my mom entered me into a beauty pageant during the summer. I didnt want to
do it because I felt shy and honestly didnt care for the dresses, the glamour, or the title. The
whole concept and meaning of the beauty pageant was bullshit to me. But I still did it; its not
like I had a choice. Trust me, I wasnt trying at all but I somehow made it into the finals, top 2.
Because youre beautiful, Yuri interrupted.
I opened my eyes to see her looking at me like I was the only person she could see in the entire
world.
If only that was the reason why I had entered the finals, I chuckled bitterly. But what she said
made me feel tingly inside and I couldnt help but kiss her on the forehead again.
I won that beauty pageant and words couldnt express how happy I was. I started to overthink
things, you know, getting cocky and believing I was the best out of all the other girls. I couldnt
help myself. I was young, stupid, and not at all humble because thats one thing my parents
certainly did not teach me. I went back to high school during the fall and believe me; it was not
pretty at all. Word had spread that I won that beauty pageant and some of the contestants were
girls at my school. People started to talk shit about me, but I assumed it was because they were
jealous and envious of me.
Whoahhh, you really were conceited, Yuri chuckled.
I smacked her on the forehead. She frowned at me but lit up when I kissed her forehead again.
I really like you doing that.
Likewise. Can I finish talking?
Sorry, she kissed my forehead.
I continued despite my slight blushing.
It was about a month since school started that I started to lose it. I usually dont care for people
talking shit about me, but when you constantly hear it every day, you just explode, you know? I
was in the bathroom, washing my hands, when the girls who were contestants burst in. They told
me I didnt deserve to win and that my beauty was the last thing the judges thought of. I yelled
back at them how they just couldnt stand someone more beautiful than them win. And they said
something that made my entire self-esteem, confidence, and any bit of love for my body and self
to go down the drain. They told me my mother paid the judges to give me high scores
I unconsciously tensed and my hand on Yuris back tightened into a fist, accidentally grabbing
hold tight of Yuris shirt along with her skin.
She didnt complain though, instead her hand went further up inside my shirt and started
caressing my back. I closed my eyes at the new sensation; her touches giving me the strength to
carry on.
I went straight to the hospital where my mother worked. I made a bit of scene yelling,
screaming, crying, and asking if it was true she did what she did. The whole floor probably heard
me. She took me to her office and locked the door while telling me to never embarrass her like
that again. She also admitted she paid the judges because she knew I wasnt going to win. That
hurts, you know, your own mother not believing in you like she knew I was going to be a failure.
I went back to the house after that and I started to feel like shit. That the whole summer was just
a big fat lie. My thoughts about myself werent exactly pretty. I started to doubt about my
appearance and every little thing about myself. I somehow concluded that I was bigger than the
other girls. In short, I stopped eating, only small, tiny amounts. I was an anorexic for about 2
years until I met Tiffany and Taeyeon.
Yuris hand immediately stopped all actions. She took out her hand and used both hands to
squish my cheeks together.
You. You, Jessica Jung, are the most beautiful woman in the world. Beautys not all on my
mind when I think about you. I love your smile, your eyes, your hair, and you personality, just to
name a few things. But most importantly of all and what really matters is I love you because you
are you. You are Jessica Jung.
I felt my whole body freeze as I realized what she said. She seemed to realize it to as she quickly
took her hands off my face and just stared at me.
W-what did y-you just s-say?
There was silence for a moment as she seemed to be contemplating on what to say, and then she
seemed to have made up her mind.
Jessica Jung, I love you.





Chapter 19
Jessicas POV
Like a writer with writers block, I didnt know what to say or even do.
Brain fart. Mind at a complete blank.
I grew up rarely ever hearing the words, I love you to me. I dont think those words were ever
uttered in the household.
Thats just the way my life went.
Now, to hear someone whom I, myself, loved and cared so much for, say those exact words to
me, I just didnt know.
Tiffany and Taeyeon said those words to me, and I reply the same because I do love them. But
the love I felt for them was so much different than the love I felt for Yuri.
Different but good, really good
Jessica? Yuri asked, bringing me out of my thoughts.
Yeah?
You okay?
Yeah.
Yuri giggled, You dont look okay. Did I say something wrong?
What!? No!! You said everything just right, I was extremely flustered at this moment.
Good; youll continue hearing those words from now on.
Its really nice to hear them I never heard it as much growing up.
Me neither. I dont say it often either. But you, Jessica Jung, youre one exception Ill gladly
allow.
My heart fluttered at Yuris words.
This This is what it feels like to be in love.
I love you, too, I whispered, leaning forwards to capture Yuris lip with my own.
We lightly nibbled each others lips, and I felt the exhilarating sensation coursing from my head
to my toes.
We eventually pulled away and continued to lie in a comfortable silence as our arms wrapped
each other tightly and securely.
Taeyeon invited us for dinner tomorrow night, I said, remembering Taeyeons appearance in
my apartment.
Oh Thats surprising? Yuri said it as a question, as if she was not really sure if it was a good
or a bad thing.
She just wants to apologize to you. She apologized to me earlier while you were asleep. I tried
to assure her.
Cool, a free dinner.
My eyebrows rose. Now that I thought about it, Yuri never seemed to be angry or even sad at
what Taeyeon said about her.
You know you seem pretty indifferent about everything with Taeyeon.
She chuckled, Thats because I am indifferent about it. I might get annoyed, but itll pass sooner
or later.
Really, why?
Why should I worry about what others think about me when I only care about what you think of
me? she asked, leaning over so her face was right above mine and our eyes connected.
I blushed furiously.
Kwon Yuri, youre going to be the cause of my early death.
Hehe, you look so cute and adorable when youre shy and embarrassed. I love it, Yuri caressed
my pink cheeks, which made my cheeks turn into a shade of red.
I was looking quite similar to a red tomato now.
Thanks a lot, Yuri.
I cleared my throat, Anyway, so youre okay with going tomorrow, right?
Its fine as long as Im with you. If youre not by my side, I think Ill get my head torn off by
Taeyeon, Yuri pretended to shutter.
I laughed, Shes just being too overprotective over me.
I know, but I think that should be my job from now on.
I smiled as I closed my eyes. Everything more or less was going great. I cuddled closer to her, if
it was even possible, and relaxed in her warmth.
This is going to be one spectacular journey.
We were sitting at a table for four in this fancy Italian restaurant that Tiffany had apparently
chosen. I tried with all my might to not smile at Taeyeons uneasy expression and actions.
Shes the type of person to admit shes wrong but its hard for her to voice it out to others. And
Yuris expression and gesture wasnt helping at all.
Yuri sort of slouched on the chair she was sitting on with her arms crossed across her chest. Her
poker face was on, eyes glancing here and there.
I knew she didnt feel comfortable in this type of luxurious style, but she was too nice of a
woman to say anything about it and make the two women in front of us feel bad.
I placed my hand on top of her knee trying to comfort her in silence. She looked at my hand and
then to me. She gave a smile to reassure me she was alright.
What do you want to eat? I whispered.
Whatever youre eating, Sica.
I heard a small squeal in front of me and I glared at Tiffany.
She pretended to cough, Sorry. I saw that they had Carbonara, my favorite.
I rolled my eyes at her lame excuse.
The waiter came and took our orders, and then it was pretty much an awkward silence.
I grabbed Yuris hand under the table to play with her fingers, but it turned into sort of a Catch
me if you can game. Yuris hand avoided mine so I ended up pinching her thigh, causing her to
jump slightly and quickly put her hand in my own. I smiled in victory as I took my time to caress
each and every finger.
Tiffany suddenly dropped her napkin and had to duck down to pick it up, Oops, Im clumsy.
Excuse me.
I would have gladly kicked her under the table if it wasnt for the risk of kicking her face. I
didnt feel like having millions of Locksmiths come and wreak havoc in my life and possibly,
my own body, so I kept it in.
She came back up and sat properly in her chair. Her mouth formed into a very satisfying smile,
so I assumed she saw Yuri and me holding hands.
Yuri, Taeyeon stated.
Everyone at the table looked at her. This was new. I expected her to wait until the end to
apologize.
Yes? Yuri asked, giving Taeyeon a smile which purpose is to encourage the girl.
Taeyeon drew a deep breath and blew it out.
Im sorry for being, well, an asshole to you at my birthday party and although, you may have
been unconscious a week ago, I said some things to Jessica about you that I regret. I do not know
anything about you and I dont know what its like to be an alcoholic. We got off on the wrong
foot, so I hope tonight can be a new start for us, as friends, Taeyeon extended her right hand
towards Yuri.
Yuri grinned, Well, thank you for your apology and I do accept it. To us, as friends, she
grabbed Taeyeons hand and they shook hands.
Aww, would you look at that? A new friendship has been formed! Its just like kindergarten all
over again! Tiffany said, a little bit too excitedly for me.
Now, that thats over, it wont be as awkward. Still awkward, but not that much, I said
chuckling.
The whole table laughed and soon our food came and we started digging in.
Halfway through our dinner, I saw the two girls in front of me giggling and being all sweet to
each other. That triggered a memory in my mind.
Hey, Ive been meaning to ask. You two have been awfully a bit closer than usual since my
birthday party. Whats up with you two? I asked.
I noticed their faces slightly fell when I asked them the question. They looked at one another,
probably talking via their eyes. I always wondered how they do that, but I guess if youve been
with a person for over a decade and known them for over 2, then you two know what the other
one is saying without verbally speaking.
Jess, we, uhh, have something to tell you Taeyeon started.
I nodded my head, hinting them to go on.
Were married We eloped a week ago, Tiffany said.
What? I asked, trying to believe that my ears and mind were deceiving me.
I was at a blank again, not like the one like yesterday, but a very different one.
I didnt know exactly what emotion should I be feeling.
Should I feel happy because they finally tied the knot?
Should I feel sad because they didnt invite me to their wedding?
Should I feel disappointed that I couldnt be a part of that special moment?
Should I feel hurt because Tiffany had always said I would be her maid of honor, and now I will
never hold that position for her?
Or should I feel angry that it looked like they rushed their marriage without any or little
consideration for the people around them who care and love them, for example, me?
I sighed while Yuri said, Congratulations!
I glared at her and she looked back at me with a face saying What-did-I-do?
I shook my head slightly and said, Yeah, congrats.
Jessi, please understand. We really wanted you to be there, but we felt like the wedding
should just be me and Taeyeon. The publicity and hype leading up to our wedding wouldve
made the wedding feel like it was just for attention and there would be no special meaning to it.
Please, please, understand us, Jessi, Tiffany said.
I ran my hand through my locks of blonde hair.
I do understand, Tiff. But, Im sorry, I just cant help to feel hurt that I missed out one of the
most important moments in your and Taeyeons life.
I know, I know. Thats why were planning to hold a small, private party with friends and
family to celebrate the marriage. Itll have the same meaning we intended our wedding to be,
okay? Taeyeon responded.
The wedding is not the main thing, you guys! The process to plan a wedding was always a
dream of Tiffanys and she wanted me a part of it. Along the way, even I started to get excited
about helping plan and pick everything out.
Instead of the process to prepare a wedding, youve been in the process leading up to their
marriage. And you will also be in the process after marriage because you guys are friends, sisters
even, forever. Isnt that the most important? Not supporting each other for just one particular
moment, but to support them throughout their whole lives together? Yuri suddenly spoke up.
I sighed as Yuris words ran around my head.
It still hurts, and itll take some time to get over, I carefully said, But nonetheless, I really am
happy for you two. It was about time.
The two girls beamed and Taeyeon wrapped around Tiffanys shoulders.
Thanks, Jessi, and you too, Yuri. Thanks a lot, Taeyeon said.
Do you guys have wedding rings? I asked, suddenly noticing they werent wearing any.
Yeah, we bought them a few days ago. But we take them off when were in public; we need to
tell our family first before the public, Taeyeon replied.
Really? You havent told your family yet? I laughed, You two are going to face Hell.
Theyll understand eventually, Tiffany said.
Do you have them on you? Can I see?
Yeah, theyre in my purse. We decided to have the same engraving because it fits us perfectly,
Tiffany handed me her purse.
I looked in and saw a white little square box. I opened it and stared at the two simple, silver
wedding bands. I picked one up and looked at the engraving on the inside.
A cloud to stay, TT
Tiffany had once told me about Taeyeons whole philosophy about clouds; how they come and
go as they please. I didnt give it much thought then, but now, I was taking it to heart.
I wanted Yuri to stay with me. I needed her in my life.
I needed her because I love her.
Tiffanys POV
Taetae, get back up here, I giggled as I felt her tongue keep poking me.
Im not done, her voice was muffled.
Letting Taeyeon do whatever she wanted with me, I put both my hands behind my head as I
relaxed on the bed, occasionally twitching in pleasure here and there.
We went straight to bed when we got back to our apartment, feeling a bit free and without a
burden on our shoulders.
Over the past few years since our first time together, I noticed Taeyeon had an increasing thirst
for me, not that I was complaining. I enjoyed it, in fact, I loved it. It didnt mean she continually
wanted me just for my body; she wanted me more because she loved me more and more with
each passing day.
To know she has her eyes set on no one else but me, I felt special, like I was the only one who
existed in her world. It was just her and me.
Sex?
It was never about sex. It was about making love. A term that most people would cringe at, but I
begged to differ.
Sex is mainly about pleasuring each other and reach that climax. Thats it.
Making love? Now that was a whole different story. Its beautiful; its a masterpiece; its about
expressing all of your emotions to your partner, the good and the bad, but eventually ending up
with the good because after all, love, the good, wins in the end, no matter the downs you have to
go through to get to it.
People say sex is fun, but why cant making love be fun, too?
It is for us. Me and Taeyeon.
I looked down to see some movement under the sheets that were covering the both of us, and
finally, the love of my life popped up leaning over my face, grinning.
Why hello there. You have fun down there? I teased her.
I always have fun with you. Did you?
I chuckled as I raised my hand to wipe off the remnants of our activities off from her chin, Do
you even need to ask? Gosh, I feel like jelly right now.
I totally rocked your world.
I snorted, Whatever. Im going to sleep; can you get off of me, please?
Wait Dont you want to go again? I looked at her eager expression.
The thirst is real.
Maybe later if I wake up? I, you know, need to recharge.
She laughed, Okay, I should too.
She got off from on top of me and lay besides me. We cuddled close to each other, bare body on
bare body, feeling the warmth radiating from our bodies.
Good night Taetae, I love you, I mumbled sleepily.
Good night. I love you even more, she whispered into my ear.
I drifted off to sleep, smiling and happy inside and out.
Our love continues to grow each day, so the question is how big can it get? I guess were going
to find out, together.
Jessicas POV
It was still early when we separated from Taeyeon and Tiffany, so Yuri and I decided to walk
around the streets of LA to relax.
I spotted a new caf that opened up and I always wanted to try it out but havent found the time
to do so.
Yul, want some coffee or something? I want to check out that caf over there.
Anything you want, Sica.
I pulled her along with me to and inside the caf. We sat near the back and a woman came to
take our order.
Hi, welcome to Invincible. We just opened up about a month ago, so thank you a lot for
coming and supporting us. My name is Hyomin, the co-owner, and Ill be your waitress today.
Thanks for the welcome, this place looks great, I complimented.
Thank you! My wife, the other co-owner, and I designed it. Were sort of coffee freaks, so we
decided to open a caf, haha.
I smiled at the woman and glanced at her wedding ring. It looked beautiful on her finger.
It seems like everybody is getting married around me.
When was my turn?
My eyes wandered over to Yuri.
Does Yuri want to get married?
So, what would you like? she asked.
Ill have a caf Au Lait. What about you, Yul?
Ill have a cappuccino.
Excellent choices. My wife will be the one making your drinks, so I hope you enjoy! Hyomin
smiled at us and walked away.
Im starting to like this place more and more. It has a good vibe, dont you think? I asked.
Yuri nodded, It has a heart-warming, homey feeling to it.
We continued to chat until Hyomin came back with our drinks.
Enjoy! She left to attend other customers.
I looked at the design on top of the drink and it was the shape of a heart. I almost didnt have the
heart to drink the coffee so I wouldnt mess up the perfect shape, but I was eager to taste it, so I
went ahead and brought the coffee to my lips.
It was amazing. Not too sweet, not too bitter.
Exactly my taste.
Hows yours? I asked.
Delicious, want to try?
We both taste each others drinks and the cappuccino was equally amazing.
Hyomin skipped towards us.
So? Whats the verdict? she asked excitedly.
Amazing, I said.
Hehe, thanks! My wife will be glad to hear it.
Is she busy? Can I meet her? I wanted to see the woman who was capable of blowing my taste
buds out of their minds.
Yeah, sure. Ill go get her! she skipped away again.
She seems to be a little too hyped up on coffee, Yuri whispered.
I aimed a kick at her leg.
Be nice. She has a bubbly personality, sort of reminds me of Tiffany.
Im just saying, she pouted and I had an urge to peck her on the lips, but I saw in my
peripheral vision that two women were walking towards us.
I looked over and smiled at the woman who Hyomin had linked her arm with. She was shorter
than Hyomin and her long brown hair was tied up in a ponytail.
I, then, proceeded to look at her facial features and that was when I frowned.
Her lips were formed in a tight, straight line while her eyes were dark and narrowed. Her eyes
were piercing in one direction and one direction only.
I followed her line of sight and saw she was staring straight at Yuri. Meanwhile, Yuri had a face
similar to the one I saw after Taeyeons birthday party. Her eyes widened in fear, her lips
trembling, actually her whole body was shivering.
S-sunny

Chapter 20
Jessicas POV
Get out.
That was the only thing the woman named Sunny said.
Yuri quickly complied and slapped down some money onto the table before grabbing my wrist
and pulling me out of the caf.
We were now walking side by side towards my apartment.
I was confused about who this Sunny woman was and why Yuri seemed to be so afraid of her.
I glanced at her stoic expression and I could tell she was trying not to cry.
We were still out in public so I understood her attempt, but when we were safe in my apartment
where it was just me and her, then I hoped she would let it out.
I sighed as I reached for her hand to hold.
Theres so much about your past that I dont know about.
When we got back to my apartment, she headed straight towards the bathroom and locked the
door. She did not and could not fool me. I could hear her muffled sobs resonating from inside the
bathroom. I sat down beside the door and ran my fingers through my hair.
When everythings going so well, something just has to come up.
Thats life for you
I must have been so tired that I dozed off with my head leaning on the door.
I jerked awake and stopped myself from falling when the door opened.
Uhh, Hi I said hesitantly.
Her eyes looked puffy and tired.
Hi, she croaked, Did you stay out here because of me?
Of course.
She gave a smile. A sad yet grateful one.
Thank you. You can shower now.
Umm okay, I replied and went to get my clothes.
When I was about to enter the bathroom, she stopped me. I looked at her confusedly.
Can I stay in the bathroom with you?
My eyes widened as my cheeks furiously started to turn into a shade of red.
She quickly added, I wont look I just need to be near you right now.
My brain went into a rapid mode as I recalled that my presence near her helps her with her
addiction. Then, I realized when I wasnt with her with those two weeks, she fell off the wagon.
And if she was asking to stay with me now, did that mean Sunny had something to do with her
wanting to drink again?
I shyly nodded my head.
She followed me into the bathroom and closed the door behind her. She then sat on the closed
toilet seat. She laid each arm on each thigh and intertwined her fingers. She then bent her body
forward so her forehead rested on top of her hands. She looked as if she was praying or maybe
she was begging for forgiveness
You can change and shower. I promise I wont look, she mumbled.
I trusted her words because she didnt look like she even had a heart to attempt to be perverted
and peek at me naked self.
Not that I want her too. Well, maybe
Wait, what am I thinking?
I shook my head to get rid of the bad thoughts that shouldnt be here in this type of situation.
I quickly shed off my clothes and stepped into the tub and pulled the curtain closed.
When I finished, I stepped out and wrapped a towel around me.
I looked at Yuri who was still in the same position.
I assumed she was waiting for an all clear. I changed into my sleepwear and threw the dirty
clothes in the laundry bin.
Hey, Im done, I softly said.
Her head snapped up and looked at me. She got up and did some stretching.
Okay, lets sleep.
I followed her into the bedroom and she climbed into bed as I did the same.
She wrapped her arms around me and hugged me close.
Good night, she muttered.
I knew I wasnt going to get the answer I wanted but I just had to ask anyway.
Whos Sunny?
She seemed to flinch at the name, but she soon relaxed again.
Can I tell you later? My head hurts right now.
Okay, good night, then, I planted a kiss on her forehead.
She hummed in response and it was silent as we both tried to fall into dreamland.
Sunny, Sunny, Sunny. Just who are you and whats your connection with Yuri?
Taeyeons POV
I sighed exasperatedly as I read the article in front of me again and again.
[Breaking] Taeyeon and Tiffany of the duo group Pax are now officially MARRIED!
You heard it Locksmiths! Taeyeon and Tiffany are now officially married!
No, they did not have a secret wedding ceremony; they ELOPED!
Oh, so romantic, right!?
The two were in New York a few weeks ago before they secretly headed to; you know it, LAS
VEGAS where they eloped in a small wedding chapel!
Although the news hasnt been officially confirmed, we all know this is the hottest news of 2015!
As we wait for word from either Tiffany or Taeyeon, hopefully, both, we can all enjoy the
pictures from their simple yet beautiful elopement!
Pictures and the news of the two were given to us by an unknown source; to whoever you are,
thank you very much!
We hope to hear more in depth details about their elopement from the girls in future interviews!
Congratulations Taeyeon and Tiffany!
Taeny lives on as a now married couple!
Locksmiths, celebrate!
I buried my face in my hands, shouting a muffled scream.
Why cant they leave us alone?
Our marriage was news that we were going to eventually to announce, but we needed to tell our
family first, which we couldnt find the time in our busy schedule to do so. In fact, we were
about to go visit them TODAY to tell them. Peoples timing really does suck.
I had received a call from my shocked mother this morning and she told me she was going to
come to our apartment and that we better stay put.
Tiffany came out of the bedroom after talking to her also shocked father.
She walked over to the couch and straddled me with her arms around my neck. I wrapped my
arms around her waist tightly.
This is annoying, she mumbled against my neck.
Thats the price for a celebrity life, I said, offering the only excuse possible.
I stroked her hair as if to get rid of the stress.
My familys coming here today as well. I guess this is an early family get together, she
laughed softly.
I chuckled too, Only its not going to be that loving because theyre coming here to give us their
wrath.
Theyll understand sooner or later.
I knew they would. After all, it is our life, not theirs.
At least we get to wear our rings freely now, I said.
She pulled away slightly and admired the rings on her left ring finger in front of my face.
They look so beautiful on my finger, dont you think? She caressed her wedding band as well
as the engagement ring.
I think youre the one who makes the rings look beautiful, I replied while grinning.
She giggled and leaned forward so her nose slightly rubbed against mine.
You are just too cute.
Not as cute as you.
Youre such a sweet talker.
Only to you.
Stop it; youre making me all giddy this early in the morning.
Is that bad? I gave my best pout.
She pecked my lips; my lips instantly turned into a smile.
Nope, not at all.
We stayed quiet for a while as we enjoyed being close together.
My thoughts wandered to our future and everything that has to do with it.
Should we start looking for houses to buy? I asked randomly.
Whoahh, what!? She pulled back to look at me.
House? Us? Buy?
She chuckled, Sorry that was just really sudden.
We should think about it. Were married now, I stared rubbing her back in a clockwise motion.
Hmmm, youre right. What kind of house do you have in mind?
I shrugged, I dont care as long as you live with me.
She gave a short laugh, Youre seriously being too cute this morning.
Cuteness comes out naturally when Im with you.
Okay, okay. And I think the question really is how many rooms are we looking for, she
asked me and it sounded hesitant.
I pondered for a moment.
Well, we definitely need a master bedroom and like two guest rooms would be nice.
And? she raised her eyebrow.
And? I repeated.
We had a staring contest for a little bit until she sort of exploded.
Kids rooms!?
Oh, I replied in surprise.
I wasnt really thinking that far into our future. We were still young and I wanted to enjoy
married life with Tiffany before adding on the responsibility of taking care of our children.
You dont want any? Her face fell tremendously.
I quickly said, I do! I just thought that the topic would come up in our early 30s
Hmm, but dont you want to be a young parent? That way, well be able to spend a lot of time
with them and watch them grow up.
True but shouldnt we have more Taeny time before the kids take up our time?
She looked amused as I referred to our couple name that fans had given us.
Well always have our Taeny time and itll be better if we had kids.
I hummed in response. Kids would be nice to have around; they would run around the house and
Tiffany and I could watch them do so.
Such a perfect and beautiful life.
How many kids do you want? she asked suddenly.
I frowned; I never thought about that. A memory, more like a text, popped in my minds eye as I
remembered one of Jessicas text a few weeks ago.
Nine, I said confidently.
She would have fallen off the couch and onto the cold and hard wooden floors if I hadnt been
holding her waist tightly.
WHAT!?
I put on my best puppy eyes and pout face.
Nine kids. We could make our own little baseball team. Team Kim!
She blinked rapidly.
Youre joking, right?
No.
She slapped my chest harshly.
9 KIDS ARE NOT GOING TO POP OUT OF MY VAGINA, KIM TAEYEON!!
I laughed hard and proceeded to push her so she could lie on her back on the couch. I lay on top
of her, loving the feeling. She wrapped her legs around me, squeezing me tight.
You are joking, you jerk, she frowned.
I chuckled a little more before I replied back, Sorry, I remembered Jessicas text about us
having 9 kids and I couldnt help to tease you a bit.
I kissed her on the lips as we soon got caught up in the passion of our love for each other.
We pulled away after a while, catching our breaths.
I leaned my forehead against hers and smiled contently.
2 kids would be nice, I said seriously.
She hummed, A boy and a girl.
Mhmm, I pecked her cheek.
My enjoyment of our little time together vanished as I heard the doorbell ring.
I think the wrath of Hell is here, I mumbled.
She laughed as she softly pushed me away from her, Go get the door, Taetae, its probably your
family.
I grumbled but nevertheless got up from the couch and went to get the door, opening it up to
reveal my frowning parents and a scowling Hayeon.
Welcome to the Kim apartment. After all, Tiffany is a Kim now, I tried to joke which
obviously did not humor them in any way.
They pushed me to the side as they walked to the living room. I followed behind them as I saw a
fidgeting and nervous Tiffany. I had to smile at the sight.
Hi Mom, Dad, Hayeon she said hesitantly.
She had been calling my parents Mom and Dad for over a decade. Now, they were officially
her parents, well, in law, to be exact.
My mom sighed, I assume your family is coming here as well, Tiffany?
Yes.
Okay, well wait for them to come so you girls can explain yourselves. Taeyeon, would you be
a dear and get us some drinks?
I nodded as I moved towards the kitchen. I could hear Tiffanys quick feet following close
behind me.
I decided on coffee for my parents and lemonade for Hayeon as Tiffany helped me.
Ugh, its so awkward. I feel like were teenagers about to be lectured or something, she
whispered.
I laughed softly, Its like theyre giving us the sex talk.
She giggled, Well, we didnt need that talk, did we? Besides, we managed to figure out things
and how it worked by ourselves.
I smiled as the memory in Paris came rushing into my head, my cheeks slightly blushing.
She suddenly booty bumped me, nearly making me knocking the glass of lemonade over.
Hey! What was that for?
Why are you blushing? We did it like a million times after our first, she sounded amused.
Cant a girl blush about her first time? I replied back with a question.
Hmm I guess, you little byuntaetae.
Just for you. And we should get back with the drinks.
We carried the drinks back to the living room and handed it to each of them. I sat down on the
couch and Tiffany was about to sit next to me when we heard the doorbell ring again.
I guess thats the signal of your wrath of Hell, I whispered.
She hit my arm while saying, Shhhh, your family is right here, she scolded.
She left to get the door as I glanced at my family. They sipped on their beverages, either ignoring
what I had said or had not heard what I said at all.
A minute later, Tiffanys father, sister, and brother walked in the room. My family got up to
greet them with smiles. I guess thats a good sign.
I got up from the couch again to pour the drinks again and came back.
There wasnt much space left to sit and Tiffany waved me over to come to her. She got up and
gestured me to sit down. As I did so, she lightly plopped on my lap and there we were.
My family. Her family. Us.
Our family
I looked at everyones faces. Most of them were eying Tiffany and I, more specifically, our shiny
rings on our fingers. Hayeon, however, was still scowling as she looked at her glass of lemonade
with anger. I thought that at any moment she would break the glass with her bare hands.
So I attempted to start the inevitable conversation.
You girls are finally married. Congrats! Leo brightly said.
Michelle slapped him on the back of his head.
Tiffany and I stifled our laughter at the scene.
What!? What was that for?
Youre just being an idiot, like always, Michelle rolled her eyes.
Arent you guys happy for them? I thought we came here to celebrate.
They eloped, Leo. Sheesh, I wanted to be a part of their wedding and see the lovely scene of
them saying their vows and I do, but I guess thats not going to happen now, she frowned.
Michelle and everyone else please understand. We wanted to get married with just us there.
You may think its insensible on our part, but we didnt want a big fancy wedding to celebrate
the day we when it should simply be just about Taeyeon and I, no one else, Tiffany said.
I didnt get to walk you down the aisle, Tiffanys father spoke up.
Tiffany sighed sadly as she looked at her father.
We can do a mini, mini wedding this summer back in South Korea. Well be having a vacation
there so why not do a small celebration wedding-type thing at the same time, I suggested.
Its still not the same, Taeyeon, my father gruffly said.
My annoyance level slowly rose. Why cant they understand that we wanted to get married
simply, purely, and just about love?
I think you girls made the right decision, my mother suddenly said.
My face broke out in a wide smile as I looked over to her direction, Really?
Yes, you girls have spent enough time in the spotlight from the media and public. Your
announcement of engagement and wedding would have driven everyone crazy and they would
never leave you alone. Your wedding would have lost all of its simple, but powerful meaning. I
understand your decision.
I grinned. I knew I could count on my mother.
But you did suggest a mini wedding when were on vacation, so I am holding you accountable
to your words, Taeyeon, she gave me a playful glare.
Yes, mam, I saluted.
I looked to the rest of our family and they seemed to be nodding and agreeing with what my
mom said. I sighed in relief as it looked like they accepted our decision.
Well, except for one person. I could still see Hayeon not even looking away from her glass.
Why dont we all have dinner together? Tiffany suggested.
Murmurs of approval were heard as we said our good byes for now as we will reconvene in the
evening.
Tiffany stood in front of the sink, washing the empty glasses. I stood behind her and wrapped my
arms around her waist.
So Mrs. Kim what are we going to do until dinner time? I asked.
She pretended to shudder, Eww, that name makes me sound like a grandma.
I started to nip her neck as my hands roamed around her flat stomach.
Then what would you like to be called?
I noticed she started to react to my light kisses and touches.
I dont know, maybe, Ms. Kim? I know were married but Mrs. Kim is for your mother.
I chuckled, Okay, Ms. Kim. What would you like to do?
She wiped her hands on a towel and turned around to face me and hang her arms around my neck.
Not at all what youre thinking, babe. Im on my period, remember?
My face fell when I recalled her telling me started her period last night.
Damn, I muttered.
She giggled, Lets do something else instead of making love.
I frowned, Why do you have to be a girl?
She raised her eyebrow, You want me to be a guy and have stuff hanging down and swinging?
Maybe, I said with a serious face.
Wow if anyone should be the guy, its you. After all, you are the man in this relationship.
No you would still have your period which means I cant have you for one week every
month.
Oh, wow, I think youre the horniest person in the world. You beat out all those perverted guys
out there. Congrats, babe.
I snorted, If anyone was in my place, they would want you as much as I want you. I mean,
seriously, look at you.
I pulled away and held one of her hands as I made her twirl around a little.
She snickered, Hmm, youre being oh-so romantic and sweet today. I would be on you like
theres no tomorrow, but sadly; Im on my period so no funny business this week.
I sighed in disappointment.
Lets just watch a movie in bed and cuddle until the evening, okay? she asked as she cupped
my face and gave me a kiss.
I hummed to show my agreement and we were soon in bed, watching a movie and in each
others arms.
I love you, I muttered simply because I wanted to tell her that.
I love you too, babe.
Yuris POV
From: Sooyoung
I know it was hard seeing her again and hearing her say those words to you, so I
understand why you fell off the wagon. However, please dont take her words to heart;
shes just still angry and mourning. Ill be by your side through this; dont hesitate to call
me if you need anything. Love you, Yuri. Remember that.
From: Yoona
Dont listen to that woman. You have got to stop beating up yourself over this. It wasnt
your fault, not at all. Things just happen, the good and the bad, and we just have to take
everything in because thats life. Maybe with Jessica by your side now, thisll be the last
time you fall. Youre already back on your feet and fighting; Im proud of you for that.
Love you, Yuri. Call me if you need anything.
I read the two text messages from my friends over and over again. I had finally told them
through text about me and my disappearance for two weeks. I couldnt tell them that to their face
so I resorted to using technology. A bit cowardly and pathetic of me, but then again, the reason
why I fell off was one they heard many times before, so I hoped they understood which they
seemed like they did.
I could sense Jessica fidgeting around next to me. I knew she wanted to know about who Sunny
is but I couldnt quite bring myself to tell her.
Hows your salad? she asked.
An awkward question for an awkward situation.
I looked at my nearly finished bowl of salad.
Its good, I replied.
We resumed watching TV in silence.
Whos Sunny?
I froze as I heard her name come from Jessica. Jessicas not the type of person to continually
push and force you, so I was surprised to hear her ask. She must be very curious like a cat.
I mean Im not forcing you to tell me, but I would just like to know for future reference, she
added hesitantly.
I sighed deeply. It was now or never. I guess it was time to tell Jessica about my past.
I grabbed the remote to turn the TV off and faced her.
Promise me, you wont hate me or leave me when I tell you what Im about to tell you, I
pleaded.
Meeting Jessica has probably been the greatest thing in my life. It changed my life drastically, in
the most positive and fantastic way possible. I didnt want to lose her over what happened in the
past.
I could not lose Jessica.
She scooted closer to me and held my hand in her own soft and warm one. She intertwined our
fingers and they fit so perfectly well together.
I will never leave you. No matter what happens or what you tell me, she whispered.
I nodded my head as I gathered my strength to tell her about my dark past. I was going to reopen
an old wound that I have tried to heal time after time, but nothing worked.
Lee Sunny I knew her ever since we were kids. We were neighbors to be precise. Were the
same age but I didnt exactly get along with her that well. I got along with her older brother
much easier. His name was. H-Henry. We were best friends and I felt so comfortable telling
him everything: my parents, my life, and school, anything that happened. When I started
drinking, he tried to get me to stop, but I couldnt. We fought so many times over that
eventually, we sort of drifted apart. He was two older than me, so when he went off to college, I
didnt have anyone to talk to. I was so lonely and I started hating my life so much. It was just a
week before my high school graduation. I fought with my parents this one night. I didnt apply to
any colleges and they were telling me that I was a useless piece of shit that was going nowhere in
life. I felt so angry and in so much pain so I took their car keys and stormed out of the house
with a few bottles of alcohol. I drove and drank and I drove to the only place I could think of at
that moment. I went to his apartment and he was furious with me being drunk on his doorstep.
He dragged me back to the car and started driving me back. I-I was drunk and wasnt thinking
clearly and I certainly didnt want to go back to that fucking place. As he drove, I kept messing
with him. He told me to stop, but a fucking drunk person does not stop being a fucking idiot
when shes fucking drunk out of her mind. I dont know why, but I got angry because he wanted
to take me back to the origin of where my life went to shit. I-I leaned forward and r-roughly
turned the steering w-wheel and we c-crashed into an oncoming t-truck. I-I blacked out and w-
when I w-woke up, I was in a h-hospital with bandages all over m-me, feeling like shit. A police
officer came to question me and I-I a-asked him about H-Henry
I blinked rapidly as the tears clouded my vision of reality.
He said H-Henry d-died from the impact.
He was killed in that car accident.
I caused his death.
I killed him.
And there they were.
The words that I have kept a secret from Jessica.
The words that revealed my dark past.
The words that made me a murderer in my eyes.
The words that made me stop drinking for the very first time.
My best friends death was the reason.
I decided to stop being an alcoholic at the expense of my best friends life.
I would give anything for the reason to be something else, but sadly, that was not the case.
The pain, the heartache, and the torture: I had to carry and feel all of that because sketched
forever in my heart, my brain, and all throughout my body was this one idea.
My best friend died because of me.








Chapter 21
Yuris POV
I killed him.
I killed my own best friend.
Im a murderer.
Its all my fault.
I kept mumbling with my head down as I rocked my body back and forth on the couch.
I closed my eyes tightly as I viciously shook my head to get rid of the images and memories that
bombarded my mind of that awful night.
I could see myself as well as Henry in front of me. I was sitting in the backseat. I could see my
idiotic face and hear my slurred words and that insane, drunken giggle. I could see his face. His
eyebrows furrowed, eyes on the road, his hands gripped onto the steering wheel so tightly that he
was slightly trembling.
I wonder what was going on through his mind at that moment. I was the one who did all the
talking. He just sat there, concentrated on driving me back to Hell.
STOP!
I heard his stern voice shout at me.
You stop it! Lets go back to your place and party!
I heard my response and a high-pitched laughter.
Stop it, Yuri. Just stop it. Youre going back home and then to your room. Sleep this off. Ill talk
to you tomorrow when youre sober.
I saw the change of expression on my drunken face. It shifted from a goofy look to pure anger.
That was the moment when I asked myself why he wanted to take me back to that place. Home?
It was never and will never be a home to me.
I thought you were my friend.
And that was the last thing I ever said to him. What happened after that was a blur. I saw myself
lunge forward and violently turned the steering wheel to the right and that was it.
I felt a huge impact.
And then darkness.
A state of oblivion.
That was my last memory of Henry. I couldnt even bear to attend his funeral and Im sure
Sunny would have done absolutely anything to not let me, the murderer, attend it anyway.
His last sentence has been stuck on my mind every single day and probably for the rest of my life.
Ill talk to you tomorrow when youre sober.
It was stupid of me, really. I knew he was dead, gone from this world. But I still did it; I still
tried. I travelled the world to get away from the bad influence my parents had on me.
I stole a huge amount of their money and just left. My first stop was New York, across the
country, which was enough distance away from them I had thought. But I learned distance didnt
matter at all. The temptation of alcohol was everywhere, especially in New York. I did a lot of
things that I am not proud of there but I managed to sober up a tiny bit before I decided to get out
of the country and live in rural type places.
There were countless of times where I woke up and wondered about Henry.
Here I am sober, but where was he?
He said hell talk to me yet he was nowhere to be found.
It was as if he lied to me and thats when I fall off the wagon. I felt cheated, betrayed.
I soon realized years later that he was the wrong reason to sober up. Of course, Ill be sober for a
little while, but then eventually, inevitably, Ill go back to alcohol to numb the pain.
I then tried to sober up for myself. But that wasnt exactly a strong enough reason. I had no future
to look forward to. Kwon Yuris life was nothing but a long, empty road with no destination or
prize in sight.
That was before she came along.
My fuel and desire to become sober fired up immensely when she came into my life. I imagined
my future with her and I knew that wasnt possible if I was still a deadbeat drunk. Kwon Yuri
and Jessica Jung. I dont care if it sounds cheesy, but I already see us two as only one.
I wanted and needed to beat my alcoholism before it completely ruins me first.
I was going to sober up.
For us
I stopped shaking and opened my eyes. I looked up only to see Jessicas loving and caring eyes
on me as she was on her knees in front of me.
Hey you okay now? she softly asked.
I merely nodded.
You sure? You looked pretty shaken up there for a moment.
I tried to smile as best I can, Really Im fine.
She laughed softly, Dont force yourself if you dont feel like smiling. Your expression is
similar to someone trying to get their shit out.
Her comment made me burst into laughter, a real one, as my lips were curved upward in a smile.
She chuckled, Now that wasnt a fake one. Want to go to the bedroom?
I nodded and followed along the pull as she led us to the bedroom. We lay under the covers with
our arms wrapped around each other. This position was increasingly becoming one of my
favorites with Jessica. It felt safe, comfortable, warm loving.
Her head was tucked under my chin as we stayed silent for a moment, listening to each other
breathing and heartbeats.
I will never leave you, Yuri, she broke the silence.
I hummed in response as I closed my eyes.
Im serious. Im not going anywhere.
I know, I decided to respond so she wouldnt think that I thought she was lying.
That accident, and yes I believe it was an accident, it wasnt your fault. You were drunk. You
werent yourself. You cant blame yourself for something that happened when you were drunk.
Those were words I have heard many times before from Yoona and Sooyoung. Yes, I wasnt in
my right state of mind, but it doesnt change the fact that the accident could have been
prevented. I didnt have to drink. I didnt have to go over to his place. Im pretty good at keeping
my emotions in check and not burst out when Im drunk, so what happened then?
Yuri, did you hear me?
Loud and clear, but its hard for me to not blame myself.
I know. Itll take time and Ill be right by your side.
Thank you, I whispered. I kissed the top of her head.
She pulled away and then looked into my eyes as if she was looking for confirmation. She
seemed to have found it because she leaned forward as she closed her eyes. I stay still, waiting
for her lips to arrive as I closed my eyes as well.
We shared an innocent kiss that contrasted so differently with my past. I dont know how I got so
lucky with Jessica coming into my life but it was a blessing I was going to hold onto as long as I
can, forever hopefully.
She pulled away first and I saw her crimson-colored cheeks. She then put her head back under
my chin as we fell back into silence.
Yul, I think you havent had the chance to properly mourn overhis death. You need closure if
you want to move on.
I nodded to myself. It was true and I did want to move on instead of continuing to go back to the
same reason of why I fall off the wagon all the time.
But I needed to be forgiven by one person to have my closure.
And I wasnt sure if she even wanted to forgive me.
Lee Sunny, is it too late to be forgiven?
Tiffanys POV
Last night, dinner was pleasant?
It was great seeing the family all together and Im sure this summer would be even better with
Taeyeons brothers wedding.
We were all talking and laughing but I knew one person wasnt happy.
Hayeon
I had a feeling why she stopped being friendly with me. I had the feeling ever since Taeyeon
repeated the conversation she had with Hayeon the last time she visited our apartment. My
suspicions were confirmed by her expression last night. I sighed as I thought about how to
handle the situation.
Hey, whatcha doing?
Taeyeons voice pulled me out of my thoughts as I looked up and smiled at her.
Not much.
We were at the beach doing a photo shoot. Summer was coming up and we were modeling
clothing to fit the upcoming hot season. I finished my individual shoot first so I took a break, and
I assumed Taeyeon had just finished hers.
Taeyeon draped a big blanket over me and I looked at her weirdly.
What are you doing?
Covering you? she asked a question back.
Are you trying to give me a heat stroke? Babe, its like 95 degrees Fahrenheit today.
Los Angeles is way too freaking hot. I shrugged off the blanket and folded it nicely so I can put
it on the table. I went back to looking at my phone and drink my water to keep me hydrated.
Taeyeon sat really close to me as she put her arm around my waist. I sighed inwardly. We both
were wearing bikinis so I could feel her sticky skin on my sticky skin.
My mood wasnt good because of Hayeons glares at me last night and todays heat wasnt
helping at all. Taeyeon adding her own body heat to mine was sort of the last straw.
Babe, could you please get your arm off me?
She looked at me in disbelief.
Why?
I rolled my eyes, Its hot, Tae. I really cant stand the heat right now and your body heat is
making me sweat even more than I already am.
She frowned but still retrieved her arm and moved away from me a little bit.
Thank you, I said as I went back to my phone.
A minute hadnt even passed when she spoke up again.
Can you put some clothes on?
I looked at my attire. It was a bit revealing, but its a bikini, what do you expect?
Do you want me to wear a parka jacket? I asked sarcastically.
Yes.
I mentally face palmed myself and I was about to respond when a voice stopped me.
Hi, Tiffany.
I turned around and saw a man walking towards us.
Hi, I simply said. I worked with him before but I forgot his name so I decided to wing it,
hoping he doesnt catch on.
I just wanted to say you did a great job earlier, beautiful as always.
I slightly raised my eyebrow at his compliment but said Thanks nonetheless.
I was still sitting down and he standing. I saw his eyes wander from my eyes down to my
cleavage. Uncomfortable with his line of sight, I stood up so his stare on my melons would break
off. I glanced at Taeyeon and she definitely noticed where he was looking at as well.
Her eyes showed nothing but jealousy. Cute
You going somewhere? Hungry? We can go grab a bite to eat before the shoot starts again, he
gave acharming smile? I couldnt really tell.
And was he hitting on me? In front of Taeyeon? In front of my wife?
No, I ate already, sorry. Im just going to talk to the director.
The director? Ill walk you to him.
I mentally rolled my eyes. He wasnt going to stop, was he?
I looked at the fuming Taeyeon and grabbed her hand. She looked at me with anger in her eyes.
Actually I have to use the restroom, you know, girl problems.
I took my bag off the table and tried to leave, but once again, he stopped me.
What kind of problems? Do you need to go to the hospital? I can drive you there.
I huffed. Is this guy some sort of an idiot?
I turned to face him and glared at him. I saw his eyes wander downwards again and I exploded.
Hey, pervert! My eyes are up here not down there on my breasts! And are you fucking dense?
Girl problems as in Im on my period and I have to change my fucking tampon which Im sure
you have no fucking clue on how to do that. If I do need any help, Ill ask my WIFE for it. So,
please, leave me alone.
I waved my left hand where my engagement ring and wedding ring proudly sat on my ring finger
in front of his stupid face just so he can clearly get the message before I turned on my heels and
pulled Taeyeon along with me.
When I had finally found an empty restroom, I pushed Taeyeon in and locked the door behind us.
I searched my bag for a clean tampon before I threw the bag at Taeyeon for her to hold and
entered a stall.
I ripped opened the wrapper when I heard her sneer remark.
Soyou need any help there, wifey?
I chuckled softly as I shook my head to myself.
Babe, Ive been doing this for over a decade. I think I got this one all under control. Thanks for
asking though.
Just making sure. I wouldnt want that man helping you with this type of thing.
I sighed as his face reappeared in my mind briefly.
Please dont mention him and dumbass.
I heard her chuckle, He seems to know you personally. Who is he?
I flushed the toilet and opened the stall and walked over to the sink to wash my hands.
No idea. I forgot his name.
I was about to dry my hands when she pushed me to the wall and attack my lips with hers. I
moaned as she moved down to my neck and I weaved my hands into her hair to grab hold onto.
I was enjoying her feasting on my neck but then I felt her teeth on my skin.
TaeTaeyeon, I said in between my gasps, W-We still have a-a photo shoot.
I gently pushed her away as I stared into her lustful eyes.
Im really sorry. Ill make it up to you when my periods finished, okay? I cupped her face and
gave her a light peck on the lips.
She laughed softly, Okay. You should clean up. My, err, saliva is all over your neck.
I giggled and grabbed a few paper towels and went over to the sink so I can clean myself.
I stared at the mirror to see myself. Taeyeon came up behind me and wrapped her arms around
my waist as she smiled at the sight of our reflection on the mirror.
You know, if you had listened to me and put some clothes on, that guy wouldnt have stared
down at my property.
Your property? I raised my eyebrow.
Mhmm, your melons belong to me, Kim Taeyeons property.
I aimed an elbow at her side but she moved too quickly.
Hehe, I didnt say anything wrong, did I? she asked and proceeded to nip at my neck.
Ugh, Taeyeon, please stop. Youre turning me on when you know Im on my period, not fair at
all.
Thats what you get, she replied.
I looked at her quizzically.
What did I do wrong?
Youre too hot and sexy.
I gave her a weird stare through the mirror.
Is that really my fault, babe?
Yep, and thats why the guys in this photo shoot are just gawking at you.
I turned around and looped my arms around her neck.
Theyre just horny men, babe. The only horny and perverted woman I want to see gawking at
me is, of course, you.
I am, she said, smiling.
I laughed softly as I leaned forward to rub my nose against hers. It was still extremely hot in this
air-conditioned restroom, but I ignored it the best I could.
Hmm, lets go and finish the shoot so we can go back home, I mumbled.
She hummed as she intertwined our hands and led us back to the set.
Her smiling face automatically put a smile on my face as well.
I love you, Taeyeon.
No one will ever take your place next to me.
Thats your rightful place.
For eternity
As soon as I entered our apartment, I kicked off my heels and walked bare feet over to our room.
I turned on the air conditioner as I stood there for a moment to cool me down.
Babe, youre going to catch a cold like that, I hear Taeyeons voice behind me.
I ignored her comment as I allowed the cool air to blow against my skin.
I let out a loud squeal when Taeyeon suddenly carried me bridal-style.
She gently put me down on the bed and got on top of me.
She nuzzled her nose on the crook of my neck.
I know its hot but lets stay like this for a while. Itll cool down soon anyway.
Okay, I replied as I smiled and wrapped my arms around her small waist.
I really wish I wasnt on my period right now, I suddenly said after a while.
I felt her body shake with laughter, Me too, but your cycle is going to let us have our way, is it?
I guess not. Imagine the future when were in our 50s. Well go through menopause so we can
do it every day, I laughed at my own thought.
She lifted her head and stared at me with a frown, Eww, youll beold and wrinkly.
I gasped as I shoved her face away from me so she fell on her side of the bed. I folded my arms
across my chest with a frown on my face.
Haha, babe, I was just joking, she tried to get on top of me again but I kept shoving her away.
Ill love you always, she said.
My lips slightly curved upwards.
Even if youre flabby and your assets are sagging down low.
Again, my mood turned for the worst.
I moved quickly and straddled her as I used my hands to hit any part of her body that were
exposed. She used her hands to defend herself but it was useless. HellFany was unleashed.
No one talks about my assets like that.
Ouch! Ahh! Fany, stop it!
I stopped momentarily to take my shirt and bra off.
She gaped at my large melons. Her hand reached out to touch them but I smacked her hand away.
Hey!! What was that for!? she shouted.
Since you think my assets are going to sag in the future, you can forget about touching them in
any way now!
Joking! I was joking! Please dont take your melons away from me!
I stared at her for a moment before bursting into laughter.
Taeyeon, what in the world are we arguing about?
She chuckled as she pulled me down so I can lie on top of her.
Were arguing about your melons; its a normal fight for newlyweds.
We laughed a bit more but we didnt know someone else was there with us.
Are you guys going to have sex or not? I can come back, you know?
Taeyeon and I both looked at the doorway and were shocked to see Hayeon standing there.
Shit!! Taeyeon exclaimed and pushed me off of her.
Unfortunately, the midget has a lot of strength for someone her size and I ended up on the other
side of the bed. On the hard ass floor.
Ouch I mumbled and rubbed my bottom. Then I remembered I was topless and reached on
my side of the bed to wear my clothing again.
W-We werent d-doing anything! H-Hayeon what are y-you doing here? And howd you get in?
Taeyeon stammered.
You told everyone the password in case of emergencies, I heard Hayeon say.
Stupid, I mumbled to myself.
O-Oh, I, uhh, how m-much did you exactly h-hear?
I came in when you started begging Tiffany not to take her melons away from you.
I laughed softly. Although I couldnt see her right now, Im sure Taeyeon was bright red.
You know, sis, you have melons too, right? I mean, you just look down and voila! Melons.
Your very own ones. You can touch them yourself all you want.
I cracked up as I started clapping my hands and lay on the floor. I saw Taeyeon standing over me
with hands on her hips.
Y-you, you just got totally owned! I pointed at her face as I held my stomach.
Youre 26 not 6 years old, babe. Come on, Hayeon went to raid our kitchen, she pulled me up.
Im still 25; its not my birthday yet, I pouted as I followed her.
Yeah, yeah, yeah.
I lay my head on Taeyeons lap as my legs stretched out on the couch.
I stared at Hayeon who emerged from the kitchen with a box of macarons that I was planning to
indulge in after the photo shoot today. I let it go because I didnt want to start anything
unnecessary.
I kept staring at her as she sat down on another couch, watching the TV and eating those
delicious little bastards. I worked out like crazy and had a healthy diet for 2 weeks for this photo
shoot. Now, those bastards were going into someone elses stomach. I made a mental note to go
buy junk food tomorrow.
Babe, could you massage my shoulders? I think theyre a bit tense. Taeyeon asked.
I looked up to see her beautiful face. How can I refuse?
Sure, babe.
I got off of her as she lay front-faced on the couch. I straddled her back as I reached forward to
grab each side of her shoulders. I put pressure as I massaged and rubbed the tense spots I felt.
Is the pressure good? I asked.
Mhmm, she sighed contently.
So, Hayeon, you were here yesterday. You came back today because you missed us already?
Taeyeon asked as she chuckled.
No, I just missed you, sis.
I could feel Taeyeon about to get up but I pushed her back down.
I leaned forward and whispered, Relax. Let it go.
I heard her huff.
Hey, Hayeon. Remember when you were here last time? You said you would say something to
Tiffany, Taeyeon tried again.
I dont remember saying that.
Again, Taeyeon tried to get up and again, I pushed her back down.
Relax. Ill talk to her myself when the time is right. Dont involve yourself, I whispered yet
again.
Fine, she grumbled.
I listened to the two siblings chat about their lives and I smiled at their playful bickering.
I glanced at Hayeon and shook my head at her.
I would never take Taeyeon away from you.
Shes still Kim Taeyeon. Your one and only sister whose love for you has never changed no
matter how much I changed her life.
Chapter 22
Taeyeons POV
I lay in our bed as I stared at Tiffanys face, her beautiful, peaceful face when shes sound asleep.
I admire her in all kinds of way: Her bravery, her courage, her independence, her easygoing and
social personality. She was everything I am not, but we fit so well together.
I saw her start to stir and I stifled a giggle at her attempt to wake up and open her lovely eyes.
Finally, with much effort I could tell, she opened her eyes, and glanced at me, but then closed
them back.
You know, it was really cute when you watched me sleep when we were younger, but now that
were older, Im a bit creeped out, she mumbled and yawned.
I stayed quiet as I kept staring at every little detail of her face and movement.
She cuddled closer to me and I could feel her bare skin on my own.
And when you dont say anything, I dont know if I should be worried or not.
I laughed softly and gave her a kiss on her head.
Im just too memorized by your beauty. And dont deny it. You love me watching you sleep.
Sometimes~ she said cutely.
Her phone beeped indicating she received a text.
When she didnt move to get it, I said, Your phone.
Ill get it later.
What if its important?
Then why dont you get it? She moved so she can lie on top of me and gave me a peck on the
lips, Good morning by the way.
Good morning, you lazy bum.
I reached over to grab her phone and unlocked it. Her background picture was a small picture of
us smiling at each other in front of a large crowd. I think it was from the end of our first concert
in our 1
st
world tour. Underneath was a quote that read, Happiness is found along the way, not
at the end of the world.
I proceeded to click on her messaging app to see the new text.
From: Dad
Are you sure were all meeting at LAX at 8:00 PM? I dont want you girls ditching us.
I laughed softly and replied back to her dad, agreeing to the meeting time.
It was the middle of June and my brothers wedding is going to be in the middle of July. Tiffany
and I figured itd be nice to take a months break before the start of our 2
nd
world tour which
would take at least a year.
I put Tiffanys phone back on the table and brought my arms around her waist.
Are you excited to see your brother? she asked.
Mhmm, its been a while.
Our entire family will be together at one place at the same time. We should take a picture
together.
Thatll be lovely. We could hang the picture in our future home.
Tiffany propped her elbows on each side of her head and stared at me.
Is this vacationsort of like our honeymoon? She pouted.
Would that be bad? I felt like teasing her for a little bit in this glorious morning.
Iwell; I dont really care as long as Im with you, but come onSouth Korea? What about
Rome, Paris, Bali, Maldives
She continued to list these romantic places so I tuned her out. I simply smiled at her.
I started listening again when she leaned down to bite my lower lip.
Yah! Are you listening to me?
Sorry, I was memorized by your beautiful face again, I gave her a cheeky smile.
She made a whiny voice, I was asking for your opinion. Where would you want to go for our
honeymoon?
I have a place in my mind I trailed off.
She tilted her head in confusion but soon squealed when I flipped her onto her back as I lay my
body on top of hers. I immediately attacked her lips, nibbling on her upper lip as she captured my
lower one. I moved on to her neck and sucked on her most sensitive spot. I felt her grab my hair
which only made me more encouraged.
I moved my hands around and caressed the places where I knew she would get aroused from.
After being with her for so long, I knew exactly what worked and what didnt by experimenting.
I was proud to know that I was the only one in the world who could make her feel like what Im
about to make her feel, no one else but me.
And I was going to do everything in my power to keep it like that.
I soon moved and peppered butterfly kisses all the way down below her waist. I gave a smooch
on her inner thigh and was pleased with her moan.
Pleasebabe.
I dont remember the whole thing properly but we both sure were on Cloud 9.
We were cuddling on the couch and passing time until it was time to head to the airport. On TV
was a show about updates about celebrities and their lives as well new gossip for the public to
indulge in. A report came on about a celebrity couple who announced their divorce because of
irreconcilable differences. They had 2 kids together and they planned to share custody which
meant the kids were forced to travel back and forth to their mom and dads separate houses.
My hold on Tiffany tightened as my mind created all kinds of What if scenarios about our
future together.
What if we drifted apart?
What if our busy, hectic work style caught up on us one day?
What if our love suddenly wasnt as strong as it was now?
What if, one day, it became our turn to announce to the public about our divorce because of
irreconcilable differences which translated into We just simply fell out of love because we
didnt have enough time for each other?
What if it was our kids who had to shuffle back and forth to separate houses because we couldnt
get our shit together and spend the time to continue what we have?
A sudden suggestion popped in my head and before I thought about it thoroughly, I ran with it.
Do you have any regrets about our professional life? I asked.
She turned her head towards me and raised her eyebrow at my random question.
Uhh, no? I mean, not to be conceited and arrogant or whatever, but we really are at the top of
the music industry. We already left our mark in this world so Im pretty content with that.
I smiled. Maybe we can do this.
Then, what do you think about retiring?
Jessicas POV
I was watching the morning news while doodling in my sketchbook about some new ideas that I
had in my head for a while.
I heard the front door open and didnt bother to check who it was since it was the time Yuri
usually comes back from her morning jog.
I smiled when I felt her presence behind me and soon a kiss had landed on my head.
Hi, Im back, her soft voice made my mood better than it ever was this morning.
I missed you, the words seemed to roll off my tongue naturally.
I heard her chuckle and shout, I know you did! before she disappeared into the bathroom to
shower.
She came back out for a while and plopped down on the couch right next to me. I saw her lean
towards me and peeked at my sketchbook before shifting her attention on the TV in front of us.
Theyre pretty.
My eyebrows furrowed and I looked over at the doodles I had already drawn.
Theyre supposed to be chic and cool I trailed off, checking the details over and over again
and imagining them in my mind.
I-Iumm, she looked at my doodles again, I meant chicI didnt know the right word for it.
I rolled my eyes and ripped off the paper and crumpled it. I aimed for the waste basket and
scored.
HEY!
I stared at her as she ran and retrieved the crumpled paper out of the basket.
Whyd you throw it away? She sat back down as she tried to smooth the crinkles out.
I chuckled, Youre right. Theyre too pretty, doesnt fit with what I was going for, so I threw it
away. Relax, I do this a million times before I get it right.
Still, you shouldnt throw it away as trash, she stuffed the paper in her folder she had on the
table in front of us.
I simply shrugged and start my new doodles.
After a moment of silence, she spoke up again, Do you want to get some coffee?
I frowned at the suggestion. Since the beginning of May, she has been going to the caf,
Invincible, every single day. She always ordered a cup of coffee and sat at the exact same spot,
right in the line of sight of Lee Sunny. She was forced to leave the caf a few times at first but
was allowed to stay after though Im sure it was Hyomin who had asked Sunny to let her stay. I
couldnt accompany Yuri all the times but I didnt have to to know Sunny wasnt going to
forgive Yuri any time soon. Sunny always brushed Yuri off and ignored the womans attempt to
start a decent conversation. Yuris not giving up. She was determined to be forgiven, but I never
had the courage to tell her this:
Sometimes, people dont want to forgive. Because forgiving meant letting go of the past. I
wasnt sure if Sunny was ready to let go of the past.
But then again, Yuri needed to hear shes forgiven before she can fully move on.
Therefore, the situation was this: One of them has to make the sacrifice.
Either Sunny will forgive Yuri whom she believed killed her brother and continue to live like
that for the rest of her life, which sounds simple but actually is complicated, or Yuri will never
hear the words Youre forgiven and will never get the chance to fully move on.
It was a huge responsibility and burden, and it was all up to Sunny to decide.
Sure, I replied.
I really did want to find out more about Sunny and Hyomin.
Soon, we arrived at the entrance of Invincible.
Yuri opened the door for me and I smiled as thanks for her kindness.
We moved towards the table we usually sat at and Hyomin walked towards us with a wide smile.
Hey, girls. I havent seen you in a while, Jessica.
Hey, yeah, Ive been busy with work, I smiled back.
Well, Im glad you can come by despite being busy. What would you like to drink?
Hyomin was extremely friendly towards us and I was thankful Yuri had her to talk to when
Sunny gave her the cold shoulder. We all talked often when Hyomin wasnt busy with the caf.
Uhh, Yuri told me about a drink she really likes a while ago. Was it ayuanyang? I didnt
know if I pronounced the name correctly.
Ahh, the Yuanyang. It refers to the Mandarin ducks. The male and female ducks look very
different from each other but they work well together, like the coffee and milk tea thats used to
make the coffee.
Great, Ill have that, feeling slightly giddy because I thought about Yuri and me as the pair of
Mandarin ducks.
And you, Yuri? Hyomin turned to look at the woman.
I, umm, Ill just have a shot of Ristretto.
Hyomin laughed, Yeah, you could use a bit less caffeine because you come here every day.
Your drinks will be here soon.
Before she left, she leaned close to my ear and whispered, The Yuanyang seems to be Yuris
favorite drink here. Its the symbol of conjugal love in Chinese culture. Yuris a bit of a romantic,
hmm?
She gave me a wink before leaving and left me blushing.
2015 seemed to be the year of marriage with Taeyeon and Tiffany getting married, Taeyeons
brother is about to, and some friends are already or planning to get married soon.
I glanced at Yuri who looked suspicious about the earlier action of Hyomin and I gave her a
smile to reassure her.
Taeyeon and Tiffany may not have wanted to hold a wedding, but I certainly wanted to. I wanted
to walk down the aisle as my loved one waits for me.
I wanted to say my vows and say I do.
I wanted everyone to know Kwon Yuri was mine.
.??
I turned my head away from Yuri as my eyes widened at the image of Yuri and me exchanging
vows and rings. I had the same idea the first time I came in this caf; what is up with this caf
and marriage and me?
Yuri and I got caught on one of our little dates again a few weeks ago and this time, I simply
told the truth. I told the public we were close friends with an interest in each other and getting to
know one another before taking our relationship to the next level.
We were unofficially together in my eyes but I was across the line already. I was simply waiting
for her to take my hand and join me. It may or may not take a long time, but I didnt care. If we
were close together, then what else matters? However, when we are official, thatll be the time
where Ill be at a point of no return with only marriage and a future with Yuri in mind.
Here are your drinks, Hyomin happily said.
I turned back to face Yuri and smiled gratefully at Hyomin as she left to attend other customers.
I picked the cup and brought it to my lips. I inhaled the sweet and intoxicating smell of the coffee.
I slightly opened my lips as I allowed the liquid to encounter my taste buds and move down in
my throat.
It was perfect.
Like Yuri and me.
A perfect harmony
Are you sure youre not going to Taeyeons brothers wedding? she asked.
No, not if youre not going.
But you should. You can spend time with them and their family.
It wont be fun without a date, I shyly said.
She kept quiet so I added, Are you sure you dont want to go?
I saw her frown.
Im not that great at social events and Im not too comfortable with too many people in one
room.
Its fine, then.
We resumed drinking our coffee and when we were done, Yuri got up and did what she always
did for the past month and a half.
She walked to the counter and stared at Sunny who was busy making coffee.
Sunny? May I talk to you? I heard her soft voice.
And like always, the shorter womans response was a cold, No.
I saw Yuri nod and say, Okay, Ill be back tomorrow.
She came back and put some money on the table.
Lets go, Sica.
I grabbed her hand and we left the caf, not forgetting to wave at Hyomin.
We walked to the end of the block and stopped, waiting for the signal to change.
Suddenly, we heard a womans voice, WAIT!
We both turned around were surprised to see Sunny running towards us with a book in her hand.
S-Sunny? Yuri said.
She breathed heavily and stared at Yuri. Her eyes had anger in them, but there was sadness and
pain in them as well.
But what stood out the most in her eyes was this:
Pity
Look, Yuri, I know youve been coming every single day to ask for forgiveness, but Im sorry, I
just cant. At least not now, just not right now
She trailed off and Yuris face grew sadder if that was even possible.
Its okay
ButI have a reason for not being able to take that first step in forgiveness.
Yuri and I looked confusedly at the woman as Sunny fiddled with the book in her hand.
ThisThis was HenrysI found it in his apartment when he was in college. Its his diary.
Yuri stared at the book longingly.
I dont know if I should give you this book. It contains all his thoughts and emotions. I read
through it all and thats why I cant forgive you. I just cant forgive you for making my brother
suffer in his short lifetime.
Yuris hand on mine tightened, I-I dont know how else I can e-express how s-sorry I am.
You dont have to. I think time heals all wounds. Mine just takes a lot longer than average.
I noticed Yuris jaw clench and she gave a bitter smile, I understand.
We all stood in silence as Sunny and Yuri both looked at the book.
DoDo you really want this?
Yes, I do.
Sunny extended her hand to give it Yuri and Yuri held grabbed ahold of it.
But before Sunny completely let go, she said, Im warning you because I actually do know you
pretty well. This may change whatever image you had of Henry. This may change the course
your life is on track right now. This may change whatever you have going on withher.
She looked at me with pity as well. I suddenly became nervous about whatever was written along
those lines in that book.
Theres an address and directions on a piece of paper behind the front cover. Its the place
where Henry was buried. If you want to finally mourn and say good-bye, then be my guest. If
you want to read the diary, then be my guest as well. Im just giving you a fair warning right
now.
Sunnys hand slowly let go of the book and Yuri held it with trembling hands.
You dont have to come by every day now. I think Ill see you later, not talk, because Im still
angry.
And with that, Sunny turned on her heels and walked towards the caf.
In silence, we walked back to my apartment. When we got back, Yuri simply sat down and
stared at the book. I didnt and couldnt say anything.
I wasnt so sure if I even wanted her to read the contents because of Sunnys warnings.
If that book had the potential to break Yuri away from me, then it was a book I never want Yuri
to open.
But I knew she was curious. I knew she wanted to open it and immerse herself in whatever
Henry thought and felt.
The situation had changed.
It was now Yuris responsibility and burden to carry.
She didnt need Sunnys forgiveness to move on; she simply had to read Henrys diary.
But for Yuri to move on, she may have to sacrifice someone I never thought she would have to.
Me
I wanted Yuri to get better and move on so she could be sober without the past holding her back.
But I love Yuri.
I want her in my future but more than anything else, I want Yuris future to be free of her dark
past.
I couldnt be selfish.
Or could I?





Chapter 23
Yuris POV
I stared at Henrys diary that was on my lap. I looked at it with curiosity, with sadness, with
anxiety, with fear.
I was itching to know Henrys emotions and thoughts because most of the time when we were
younger, it was I who did all the talking. He just sat there, staring at me, and offered any advice
he had.
That was it.
Now that I think about it now, he didnt share much. Yeah, maybe a general overview of how his
day was, but there wasnt anything personal.
It was all about me. My problems, my thoughts, my feelings, my everything.
Im selfish.
I used him. He was simply an outlet for me to pour everything bottled up inside of me. I never
bothered to continually ask and pry into his personal life.
But maybe he didnt even want me to?
Well, here was my chance now, the chance for me to get to know Henry better, on a more in-
depth, emotional level. I may be invading his privacy, but I didnt care.
I needed to find out whats in this book.
But what Sunny had said scared me.
Henry was like an older brother to me and was the one person in my adolescent years that made
sense to me.
If reading this book made Henrys image change in my heart, then I wasnt so sure if I wanted to
read it.
And above all, this book may change what I have with Jessica.
I wasnt so sure if I could let her go.
I sat on the bed with my back against the headboard. The book, lying on my lap, stared back at
me as if taunting and teasing me to open it and read its secrets.
Those secrets could change my entire life, my future, yet I still was tempted to let them.
The bed moved as Jessica climbed onto bed and sat in the same position as I was; her eyes on the
book.
Are you going to read it? Her soft voice rang in my ears.
I dont know.
Do you want to read it?
I couldnt lie to her.
Yes.
A moment of silent ensued as we both stared at the one thing that could change our future
together. The book that seemed to be innocently lying on my lap, but it was a murderer in
disguise.
A murderer of what we have together.
Then read it.
Tiffanys POV
I relaxed onto the couch I was sitting on and smiled at the scene of Taeyeon chatting with her
brother.
I was shocked at her suggestion of retiring. Were 26 this year, still young and fresh, but we had
already been in the industry for nearly 10 years. We gone farther than most artists and weve
received more love than we deserved.
Basically, not to sound conceited but simply stating the truth, we conquered the world.
Awards, recognition, money, fame, etc. You name it, we already got it.
There wasnt really anywhere we could go now since were already at the top. All there is left to
do is to embark on a steady, inevitable decline down the hill.
Lets face it. The public gets bored easily. Soon, theyll be tired of Pax, of me and Taeyeon, and
find another new, fresh meat to feast on.
Wouldnt it be better to leave this industry on a positive note and not be like those pathetic
celebrities who try and milk every last ounce of their popularity?
Retiring didnt seem such a bad idea after all.
Yuris POV
Was she giving me her encouragement?
Was she letting me potentially ruin what we have together?
Does she really love me?
You do know what the contents of the book may cause right? I asked bitterly.
I heard Sunny loud and clear. Im not deaf you know?
My jaws clenched as I heard her cold tone. I didnt like it one bit.
Im not checking whether youre deaf or not! Im checking to see if you realize what the
consequences may be when I read everything!
She turned to face me, her eyes full of anger and pain.
You dont think I realize what Sunny meant!? You dont think I know that we may have to
separate when we havent even officially started dating yet!? Whatever is in that book, itll
change everything. You, me, US. But this is not my decision to make. Its yours; your choice.
My anger surged upwards as I grabbed the book and chucked it hard to a random direction.
A loud crash followed as the book had hit her mirror and shattered in pieces.
But neither of us cared.
MY choice!? Of course it is! Its my choice so when everything fucks up, youll have me to
blame like everyone else in the world does!
I am NOT going to push all the blame on you! Yuri, I want you to move on. I want you to have
a happy future without the past holding you back and for you to not blame yourself over Henrys
death. If that means we cant be together then so be it.
I felt my heart sting as my eyes immediately brimmed with tears as I let Jessicas last sentence
run through my brain, my heart, through my veins, my whole being.
Y-you dont care, do you? You dont want us to be together as much as I do.
I could tell she was fighting with herself not to cry.
I do want us to be together, to have a future together. You have no idea how much I do. But
things just happen. Things dont always go our way, Yuri. They just dont.
I stayed quiet as I looked over to the shattered pieces of the mirror. The book was lying in the
middle of the disaster that it had caused on impact.
I was the catalyst.
The catalyst for disaster and for everything to fall apart.
I wont blame you for reading his diary. I wont blame you for anything thatll happen after you
read it. Maybe were just overreacting. Maybe everything will be just fine after and youll be
able to get the closure you need, she said in a soft voice, whisper-like.
She got up and grabbed a jacket, moving towards the door.
Where are you going? I asked softly.
Just taking a long, long walk. You could read it with a peace of mind when Im not here.
Before she closed the bedroom door, I heard her whisper, Goodbye.
Now it was just me and the book.
As my future waits to be changed.
I was sitting on the floor of Jessicas bedroom with my back against the wall. Henrys diary was
lying on its back with the last entry opened.
I stared at the opposite wall, getting lost in its nothingness.
Thats how I felt as of right now, simply nothing, or I may be feeling multiple vast emotions but
I didnt fully come to terms with them yet.
My brain couldnt process it.
My heart couldnt take it.
I want to believe my eyes deceived me but I knew they were perfectly clear.
I looked over to the diary and stared at Henrys handwriting.
Sunny was right. Everything written along those lines of the diary has changed my image of
Henry, changed the course my life was on track, changed my future, and changed everything else
in my life.
I got up from the floor and started packing my things. When I finally stuffed all my belongings
in simply two suitcases, I walked over to pick up the diary off from the floor.
I grabbed my suitcases and left the bedroom door with a photograph in hand. I saw Jessicas
sketchbook on the living room table and put the photograph in between two random pages.
I moved towards the apartment door and opened it.
As I look around inside of the apartment for one last time, I couldnt help but to tear up.
I walked out of the apartment and faced the door as my hand rested on the doorknob.
Slowly, I pulled the door towards me so it would close shut, never to be opened by me again.
Before I gave the final pull for the door to click in place, indicating it was closed, I whispered,
Im sorry.
I have made a decision; I have made my choice.
A choice that will surely make my future more blurry than it already is.
I leave with a heavy heart yet I know the reason is one I must stick by because it is the one
reason that will help me finally move on as I try to redeem myself for the faulty choices I have
made in the past and pain I have imposed on others.
One month later
Jessicas POV
I was sitting next to Taeyeon and Tiffany at Jiwoongs wedding. They told me they were retiring
from the music industry to pursue a new dream of theirs after their 2
nd
world tour.
I felt happy for them. Their future was bright and clear while minenot so much.
I came back from my walk after about 4 hours to a silent and empty apartment.
Before I closed the bedroom door to shut me away from Yuri, I had an ominous feeling. I had a
feeling when I got back, she would no longer be there.
And I was right.
I stood up and smiled as the bride came walking down the aisle with a bright smile on her face. I
looked at the guests, the families, and the groom. Everyone was happy on this special,
memorable occasion. I seemed to have been affected by the atmosphere too as I couldnt help but
feel happy which I havent been able to feel much ever since Yuri left.
I didnt know why she left, but I knew she had a good reason to.
We were at the reception now and everyone was chatting or dancing happily.
I was sitting down at my table, sipping on champagne.
My phone beeped and I took it out to read the new text message.
From: Krystal
Im bored. When are you coming back?
Smiling, I replied back to her. She was living with me now. She had made the decision not to fall
under the chains and commands of our parents. But what surprised me was she didnt pick a
different major; she simply had dropped out of college. She said her reason was college was not
for everyone and I couldnt help but to agree with her. Shell figure something out; I know she
will because shes Krystal, my little sister.
I grabbed my purse and pulled out the nicely folded photograph that I have been keeping with
me for a month now.
I unfolded it and traced my finger over the outlines of the picture.
It was a simple photograph of a clock with no hands. Instead, there was a question mark in the
middle.
On the lower right hand corner of the photograph, there was a handwriting that I recognized very
well now.
Our time together may not be here right now, but hopefully, itll be in the future. Dont you
agree?
I agree, Yuri. I do.
The End~