T+ Letisha - The world of my own Part 1 of 11 Come yah gyal let me mek uh belly swell..

buddy come free pussy nuh fi sell - Co me breed me- Vybez Cartel. I was grinding to the tune on my bed.. a few minutes later i realised it was my phone, i quickly jumped up and answered the fone. 'What you sayin babes?' I started to clear my throat, this brehs voice was peng 'Umm.. whos this b?' i answered 'Its Marcu.... from last night' 'Ooo raah.. UMM you kool love?' 'Yeeh im bless still, here dis yeeh i dont usually do dis but i liked how you lo oked yesterday your peng still and i wanna get to kno you..' 'Awww thanks lool..Ohh klkl' 'Soo you orn linking up wid man 2day?' 'Yeeh course..' 'Ohkl... meet me outside primark.. bout 3 yeeh?' 'Yeeh babes kl' 'Bye babes' He locked off the fone..Just at the moment i clocked.. i didnt even kno wat the breh looked like or neting. I looked at my clock it was 1.30pm wtf. Well.. My names Letisha, im from London, im 16. Im Half jamaican and half Asian my dad whos in pen jamaican and my mums jamaican and asian. I got too olda brothers Raheem aka Skeng is pen for shotting, and my other broth er is Rico aka Kozzi who recently come out of pen. Most manz r shook of my brothers so no1 really ramps wid me.. Neways back to the story... I went out last nite wid d bezzies Lisha,Shaleena,Ashanti and Koti short for lak ota. I got bare drunk and i cnt really remember wat happend or how i even got to d ya rd. I jumped out the bed quick time.. i got a breh to meet. I jumped in the shower a nd brushed my teeth. I dried myself and creamed and d rest. I looked in the mirror in my bra and pants. I had wun peng figure D cup breast a nd and jamaican back off;) I didnt have time to be skanning myself. I had to decide what i was ganna wear t rue say it was summer time and it was hot i fote i shud show wat i got like wdh if you got it flaunt it.. I put on my tight white jeans with a red vest top and a white belt that went just under my D cups;) I put on my red dolly shoes dat had a white bowe on the front everyting had to m atch. I picked out my red hoops and put my nose stud in. Now it was time for my hair! I had cooli hair so it was a nice lenght it was by my shoulders i decided i was ganna have a front fringe and have it in a messy bun. I put on some mascara and eye liner and put my vaseline and cocobutter phone and 30 in my lil red side bag and my oyster card. I looked in the mirror woooow i looked nice and i wasnt tryin to I wanted to look nice but not too much like i was begging neting and for all i n o dis breh cud be a state. I quickly sprayed on my gucci and jennifer lopez perfume. i was looking and smel ling fine. My fone started ringing agen after i started bruking out to the tune i answered it. 'Yoow, aint you coming?' 'Yeeh im on my way babes, i aint even late boo' 'Boo? i like loool Letisha.. its 4oclock'

'loool ... 4oclock ..oo SHIIT!! my clocks rong init im coming now' i lied and locked off the fone. I ran down stairs and grabbed a whole pack of digestives and a bottle of water. 'IM GONEEE!!' i shouted and quickly ran out the door before newun askes me quest ions. As soon as i came out my house i jumped on the bus cuz it was just outside my ho use, lucky for my the bus stop is a few houses down. I jumped on the bus and made my way up stairs. Dere was a group of boys at the b ack of the bus, so i sat at the front. 'Oi tisha!' 'wtf.. my first name aint oi.. dont approach me like im some lickle sket' 'looool, loow it man tisha' i turnt round to see who it was.. it was jahrel one peeenngg bwoi, his bredrin w ere benning at him 'ooo wat yu saying jahrel' i sed shyly, and went to sit by him 'nuttin babe' he moved over so i cud sit down. 'where you goin' 'me and my mans i goin to wun gyals house' 'what all of you?' i looked at them and they were all scanning my tits 'ummm yeeh.. she got some friends round her house soo were ganna link up wid dem ' 'ooh kl have fun' 'loool.. i best cuz her house is kinda far.. i cud just come wid you and we cud go your yard' 'loool jahrel, your a joka but im goin to meet someone now so u can go link up w id your hoes..loool' 'next time init.. wats ur numba' '079.. lemmi type it' i cud see some of his friends taking down my digits so i t yped it in his fone. 'dis is my stop so see u later jahrel' i hugged him and sed bye to his friends t he all sed bye and started skanning my back off. it wasnt my stop but his friends were making me uncomfortable so i decided to wa lk the rest. I finally got outside primark and i started laffing i didnt no wat this breh loo ked like or neting so how was i ganna find him. I took out my fone and rang back the number he called me off. He answered 'Im behind yu babes' i turnt round to this pengg mixed race boy he had a shape up and slits in his ey ebrows wid boths ears pierced. He had on a era hat and black nike trackies on with black and red jus do it tshirt and red and white nike trainners. 'wooow' i looked at him shocked He was soo peng. 'lool.. wat' 'oo shyit i wasnt ment to say dat out loud' i started covering my face. i havent even been wid him for 5mins and i made myself look like a dick hed. 'your gwannin like you aint seen manz before' he sed while skanning me. 'your lo oking peng b' 'fanks babe.. so are you... trus' we both started laffin 'old on.. were both wearing red uh nah.. peoples ganna fink your my wifey and ti ng' he started smiling. 'soo wat dats a bad ting' 'naa dats a good ting babes,a good ting' i smiled at him and he put his hands over my shoulder. 'soo where we going den' 'first ima take you to get someting to eat and den we can go shopping' 'i only brought 30, dat aint ganna be enuff for me to go shopping' 'loool.. dont worry miss independant.. ima pay for you' 'awww ' i started smiling. 'where we ganna go eat den' 'mcdonalds?' 'ohk kl'

We went in mcdonalds and dere was a bag of brehs by the door. 'oo shit man' Marcus sed laffing 'wat?' i asked,den wun tall black boy walked over and d rest followed him. 'wooooottt u saying shaank.. whos dis sexy ting' he sed looking me up and down b iting his lip 'koool jamar.. wat you sayin man dem.. dis is Letisha' 'hi' i sed shyly and looking at the floor 'wat you sayin.. so shank dis is why you boyed us manz off.. i dnt blame you doh shes sexy' 'well shes mine init.. see you manz lata me and tisha got tings to do' he gave dem wun sexy.. but cheeky smile and he pulled me closer to him wid his h ands over my shoulder and we walked off. 'bye sexy tisha' jamar and 1 next boy shouted 'bye' i said laffing. Marcus screwed dem and dey ran out mc'ds. 'soo whys your road name shank?' 'long story babes come lets go get someting to eat.. you sit down here and ill g et you sumting' he pulleed out a chair for me. 'how you know what i want doh..' i asked and sat down 'ima guess.. its called getting to kno you' 'ohh k' i sed and gave him a smile. A few minutes later he came wid a 2chicken burgers wid 2 large chips tomatoe ket chup and two banana milkshakes. i looked at him shocked.. 'how did you kno?' he started laffin 'i dnt kno.. dere my favourite too' It was shocking he knew exactly wat i wanted. After we done eating and chatting for abit i found out thing bwt him.. he lived wid his mum sister and olda brothe r he was 17 and went college wen he cud be bovz.. kinda sounded like me lool we went silent and just started at me sipping my milkshake. i looked up 'wat..lool?' 'you ova pretty uno.. most gyal got someting rong wid dem like weird nose or eye s or sumting messed up.. but your just perfect!' 'loool i aint perfect boo.. but thanks' i started blushing trus if i was white i wud be bare red! 'i like it wen you call me boo..trus if i say you are you are lool' 'your not even bad yourself.. your sexy' 'yeeeh ino' we started laffin, we we stopped we both looked at each other and ou r heads went closer.. and closer and next thing ino were lipsing. His lips were soo soft.. we kissed for about 5mins and i slowly moved away. i wa s breath less. He still looked at me his eyes were a light brown he was actually perfect. His fone started vibrated and he answered it. it was a girl.. 'yeeh..' he sed bluntly 'heey baby' she sed 'dont call me dat.. wat you want' 'i wanna see you' 'for fuk sakes man how many times.. NO.. im busy BLESS' he locked off the phone. I looked at him wid my eyebrow raised a lil..'long story' he sed and he got up. 'come lets go shopping' he sed putting his hands out to pull me up. I grabbed his hands and he pulled me to his chest and kissed me. After we kissed for a few mins he pulled away we was both breathless. He put his hands over me and we walked out of Mc donalds. I started to walk me p rimark and he pulled me the oposite direction.. 'where we goin marcus?' 'to d ova shops i aint buying u nutting from primark.. were goin bank and bench and dem places deh' 'awww why you soo sweet?' 'well i gatta treat my future wifey good'

i smiled and he held my hand. Why is this boy so nice.. hes alot and i cud see a future wid us. After a few hours we finished shopping he brought bare things for both me and hi m.. i wondered where he got the money from but i neva asked.. cuz it was up to him how he got it. 'soo where we goin now?'i asked 'where you wanna go?' 'well we can go back to my yard...if you want' 'yeeh kool' he smiled i started goin towards the bus stop and he pulled me.. 'where you going?' 'bus stop.. i fote we was goin 2 mines' 'yeeh but not on d bus i gota whip' 'your 17,lool' 'yeeh??' he sed with his sexy cheeky smile i started laughing and we walked to his car. I was surprised it was a black,blac ked out vw and it was shinning clean. He opened the car door for me and i walked in the car smelt peng.. like air fres hioner it was clean. We drove off and he was playing some dancehall tunes.. i soo wanted to pruk out but now wasnt the time lol. We finally got to my yard. 'Letisha..is your fam in dere?' 'umm... well my bro's at his gyals yard and my mum mite be home but shes call in it' 'Your dad?'He asked 'in pen' i sed laffing 'oo rah.. soz' He looked kinda shook cuz he had to meet my mum and i jus smiled and hold his ha nd to assure him that things will be kool. I opened the door wid my keys and walked in. My mum was cooking some jamaican fo od even doh she was half asian she knew how to cook jamaican food. She was cooking my favourite curry mutton rice and coslaw. 'Letisha.. is dat you' 'Yeeh ma' I walked into the kitchen wid Marcus, my mum smiled and Marcus took of f his hat. I realised me and marcus was still holding haands and my mum smiled at that. 'Mum.. this is marcus.. Marcus this is my mum...Celine ' 'Hi Celine' and he took off his hat 'Hi young man.. aint he good looking Tish. and he looks like him gat manners' oo no my mum started coming wid d jamaican talk We all started laffing. (oo yeeh tish is anova wun of my nick names) 'So marcus you want someting to eat?' 'Yeeh dat wud b bless.. i mean good celine' 'Awww aint he a nice wun Tish.. you like curry mutton and rice?' 'Yehh thats my favourite.. espically wid coslaw' 'OOoo thats tishas aswell..aww aint this good! i got some coslaw too, you can co me help me dish out..' I was shocked my mum has neva bonded wid ne boys i brought home. I went upstairs and put black trackies and my fluffy slippers. I came downstairs to my mum and Marcus having a propa conversation, benning and ting I left them to it and put on the tv it was 6.30 already so i put on hollyoaks. Marcus came in wid my food and he sat down next to me wid his. Even doh we had mcd's we was both hungry. After hollyoaks was done, we took are plates into the kitchen. My mum came downstairs all dressed up. 'You look nice celine..and d food was alot still.. i mean the food was really ni ce' 'Thank you darling.. im goin out wid trisha, letishas god mother... you planning on staying over to keep tish company cuz im not ganna be home till d morning and her brothers at one of his gyals hou se'

'ummm.. its up to tisha...' 'yeeh course babes' i answered happily 'Well you kids have fun!' she kissed both of us on the cheek and ran out the hou se.. she looked peng too.. aww i love my mum I looked at marcus and he was still staring at me smiling. 'Wat, lool' 'Your jus too pretty i cant help it' I laffed and hid my face. 'Yoow wifeey.. i mean babes' 'Aww you called me wifey!' 'lool, well.. dats wat i want you to be' 'i wud love to be' 'soo dats it den your my wifey' He said proudly 'Yeeh' I sed grinnin bare teet. We kissed for abit, wen we was able to breath ohk he continued wat he was saying before.. '.. im goin home to get some new garms and my tooth brush and tings' 'ohkaay den babes dont be long' He came and kissed me and then left. While he was gone i tryed on some of the clothes my hubby brought me. I put on this dress i got.. it was black and short. it was tight around the stom ach and puffed out abit from the waiste and den went tight around my tighs. the top have was low cut and my breast was looking alot. it had tshirt type slee ves. It was peng and i looked peng. I herd d door knock and forgetting i still had the dress on i ran down stairs ex cited. 'DAAAAAMM.. watch my wifey looking peng' 'fanks babes..' 'where my kiss den?' I leaned to him and kissed him still kissing he shut the door behind him and we started lipsing making out way to the sofa. i pushed him on the sofa and we lipsed, he grabbed my batty.. w e was getting horny and we cud both tell where this was heading. I stopped kissing him and we was both breathing heavey. 'Ww-hy you stop?' 'umm..' 'we aint ganna have sex babes.. unless you dont wanna. i understand its are firs t time being together and ting so we can go at you pace' WTF this boy is unreal!! 'You are unreal baby!' 'Yeeeh ino' he sed boasting I continued to kiss him.He took out his ting and i was shocked 'dont worry we ai nt ganna have sex im jus showing you wat you wud be dealing wid' 'Yeeh ino we aint having sex but WOW! your loaded down deh b!' We both started l affing After having anova long session of kissing we stopped and jammed for abit and wa tched tv. We both fell asleep. I woke up and looked at the time it was 5 in d morning. There was a vibrating in the sofa.. it was Marcus's fone. I woke him up 'Marcus!' '... yeeh?' He was still sleeping 'your fone' 'answer it' still sleeping, I answered it 'Marcus?!' It was a girl

'Hello?' I asked confused 'Whos this?' She asked.. wtf who does dis gyal fink she is belling my mans fone! 'This is Letisha .. Marcus's gyal.. can I help you b?' I asked making sure it wa s rude 'Oo.......... This is Rakell' 'Rakell... whos Rakell?' 'I dnt like your tone.. tell Marcus I sed to bell me back cuz I need to talk 2 h im' 'wateva' and I hanged up. Fukin dik hed wat she take dis for! 'MARCUS! Wake the fuk up!!' I shook him and he woke up 'YEEH MAN!' 'WHO THE FUK IS RAKELL? He started laffin.. I didn't find this funny so I screwed him.. is he for real 1 day of goin out and hes taking me for a dik hed 'she start agen!' 'what you mean she start agen.. talk up Marcus if u got a gyal I wana kno, infac t.. i already kno' 'naa babes I dnt have a gyal' 'so who the fuk is Rakell?!' 'my sister' at that moment I felt soo dumb, he was talking like she was his ting . 'oh' 'yeeh' 'why does she talk like shes your gyal and ting den?' 'naa she dnt tlk like shes my gyal she talks like shes my mum.. she pregz init a nd shes carryin on like some fool every min shes ringing me cuz she wants someth ing like im some fuking slave!' we both started laffin 'Letisha.. I aint known you for long but these feelings I got for you are strong I feel were ganna last for long and dat were ganna have something strong I wudn t do neting to hurt you yeeh..' 'awww baby I feel the same' I kissed him and we hugged on the sofa agen, saw was on and I was shook, Marcus held me tight and I felt safe. THE NEXT MORNING... I woke up and I was in my room. I turnt around and Marcus wasn't dere. I went downstairs and he was jamming wid my mum watchin maury. 'Morning tish' Marcus sed 'morning baby' My mum sed still lookin at the tv 'Morning guys!! How did I get in my room last nite?' I asked confused but laffin . 'I carried u upstairs, cuz u looked tierd so I fote I shudnt wake u up..' 'Uh see this boy is so nice tish, hes a keeper' 'yeeh ino mum' I said smiling at him and he smiled back. He stood up. 'Im goin home to slave for my sis and im coming back... tish u wanna come wid me to mines so you can meet my fam?' 'ummmm... yeeh but your sister like hates me now' 'naa shes kool man' he sed laffin. 'lemmi get ready den ill come you can stay and watch maury wid my mum' I laffed and ran up the stairs. I got in the shower, I creamed and dried myself. It was still hot so I decided t o wear a blue long boob tube and black leggings, i decided to keep my hair wet a nd curly because it got wet in the shower I didn't have time to straighten it al l so I left it out and had a front fringe and put on a blue head band. I put on my blue plain dolly shoes dat matched my top. I looked fresh and now I had to sm ell fresh I sprayed my Gucci perfume and ran downstairs. Marcus jumped up we sed bye to my mum and we got into his whip he put on a funky house cd and we jammed we got to his house and my heart dropped. I quickly fixed up my hair and my clo thes and took a deep breath.We got out the car and Marcus took my hand we walked to his house door and I cud hear everyone from outside. Marcus opened the door the front room was opposite the front door and everyone looked at the door.

'Yoooo, wag1 peoples' 'What you sayin bro' this hench mixed race boy came over and touched Marcus's fi st I was guessing this was hi brother. He looked and me and smiled 'so dis your wifey yeeh?' Marcus nodded, 'Hi, im Mar cus's sexy brother Anton' he sed boasting. Marcus kissed his teef. 'Hi im Letisha' I sed shyly. We walked into the front room Marcus's mum was watc hin maury she was white with jett black hair she looked ova young .. she was pro bz round my mums age in her 30's (my mum had me and my bros young) and pretty. ' Hi, im marcus's mum.. Sally..you're a pretty one aint you' 'Thank you Sally.. im Letisha' She smiled at me. Then a pregnant girl came to me .. she really pretty was mixed race with long light brown hair she had a small b ump so she didn't look dat far gone. 'soo you mus be the girl I spoke to on the phone last night' 'ummm yeeh sorry bout that... I didn't kno you was his sister' She smiled 'don't worry about it babes' she hugged me. 'Im Marcus's sister Rakel l' 'Im Letisha' 'Ohk klkl.. im not gay or neting but you bare pretty' 'aww thank you.. have u seen yourself your really pretty' 'thankyou .. pretty and fat yeah?' 'Naa b jus pretty you rock the bump good .. you look good!' 'I like you! Your really nice.. bout time Marcus brought a decent gyal home!' Ev eryone laughed. 'Neways, I brought some baby clothes and I need you opinion cuz u look like you got style' 'Kelly, she dnt wanna be looking for no baby clothes man' Marcus inturpted (Kell y was Rakell's nickname) 'Yeeh I do, come show me' I said .. I actually like looking at baby clothes lol. We went upstairs and got talking, she was having a lil girl and she was due in 4 months. Rakells room was decorated pink it was soo cute. 3 weeks later.. Me and Rakell were ova close she decided she wanted me to be Tanisha(her babys) god mother I was really happy. Me and Sally Marcus's mum were close and his brot her Anton is my olda and Marcus and my brother are friends and go out on a regs. Each an everyday Me and Marcus was really close aswell but we just have had sex yet, well weve only been goin out for a 3weeks. Marcus has been the best. He's always treating me taking me out for dinner buyin g my flowers and clothes I really loved him. After a day out wid my girlies Lisha, Shaleena, Ashanti and Koti I went back to Marcus's house he was sleeping and I kissed him on the cheek. He turnt around an d smiled 'You kl baby?' 'Yeh im alrite' 'You want neting to eat, drink neting!' He's always thinking about me and just w hen he said that I knew how much we ment to each other and it was time I showed him how I felt in a different way, 'Na today im looking after you' I looked and him and he knew exactly what I ment and smiled. 'You sure you ready for this?' He asked 'Yeeh course.. I love you!' just wen I sed sed those word I cud see the happines s in his eyes he got up and stood in front of me and kissed me and pulled me ont o the bed, 'I love you too babes'. I took off his shirt and I took off mines and my bra he started kissing my chest and my kneck and I turnt him over caressing his body. After removing all ov our clothes we go down to it. He put a condom on and rubbed his tings on me. It felt good.. but he was teasing me. I managed to whisper in his ear 'put it in' and he did. He pushed but it cudnt fit, after lot s of attempts he got it in and I let out a sigh. He moved in and out of me slowl y I held onto his back and lightly scratched it. He started goin faster and it f

elt good. I was moaning but not too loud his fam was in the house. I was jus abo ut to come and so was he I could feel it coming we are both weak and tierd by no w and jus wen I was about to come...the door busses open! 'YOOOW! ....ooo raaah.. sorry blud!' It was Jamar, he ran out the room. Marcus collapse at the side of me and we are both breathing heavey. I look at hi m and he looks at me and we both start laughing. 'I sware ima fuc Jamar up!' I said still laughing. I laughed and got up and grab bed a towel. He was staring at me. 'Tish, move the towel a sec' 'ummm ohk' I moved it and he jst stared at my body 'DAAAM' he licked his lips and I laffed and covered my body again. 'im goin in the shower babes' I said walking to the door. 'Can I come?' 'You got Jamar downstairs, but I gota surprise for you lata.. we can finish wher e we left off and I gta free yard so be dere for 10.. PM okay!!' I got in the shower and creamed while I was in there. I walked into Marcus's roo m to find one next gyal in there it wasn't Rakell so who the fuk was it!!!! Marcus jumped up and i stood there i shock.. 'WHOS THIS MARCUS?' Part 2 of 11 'ummm... dis is shanakay' he looked as shocked as me 'yeeh? what she doing here?' i asked gettin bare pissed 'basically..' 'TALK THE FUK UP' he jus stood there looking at me and shanakay 'uno wat fuk dis' i grabbed my clothes and ran out the room i ran to Rakells room she was rubbing her belly and talking to the baby 'tish wats rong baby?' 'Marr-cuus' i started crying. she hugged me and her belly was resting on my ches t i cud feel the baby kicking me. ' awww.. the baby wants her god mother to tell her mummy whats rong' she sed smi ling at me 'whos shanakay kelly?' 'WHAT THE FUK.. what bwt her?' she got jumpin up she looked pissed 'sh-ees in his room'i said still crying kelly jumped up and bust through marcus's room. 'MARCUS WHAT THE FUK IS SHE DOING IN HERE?' kelly grabbed shanakay by her hair a nd the bitch was screaming 'yoo kelly low it man' marcus sed 'SHES MY BABY MUM!' jus when he sed dis i cme in the room. i was shocked by what i was hearing i looked at marcus and kelly and just ran out the house. Marcus ran after me and i slammed the front door in his face and ran behind his house so he cud find me he ran after me but the oposite direction. i laughed at him stupid dik head. when i seen he wasnt out of site i walked home. i looked behind me and it was re ally dark. i went to turn around and noticed that someone was infront of me. 'oo sorry' i said whippin the tears from my face. i looked up and it was jamar. 'its kool.. o Letisha what you saying? soz bwt earlier' i looked at him confused but then i realised what he was on about.. wen he walked in on me and marcus se xing 'ohh its o-o-o' i cudnt speak cuz i cudnt stop crying. 'come let me walk you home' he took off his coat and walked with me home. We was both quiet for the walk. when we got to my house all the lights were off, i forgot i had a free house. 'thanks jamar' i sed and i hugged it when i was jus bwt to go in the house jamar pulled me to him and kissed me! i looked at him shocked and he walked off. WTF! i walked into my room shocked and went to my bed. i woke up and looked at m

y phone, i had 25 miss calls. woow. 18 from marcus,3 from kelly, 2 from lisha and 2 from witheld. i rang back kelly 1st. 'TISH! you okay babes?' 'ummm yeh im alrite' i heard the door open downstairs 'hold on babes someones coming into my house' i looked downstairs and it was Marcus. i ran upstairs and told kelly ill ring her back. i went out my room ready to cus s and marcus was standing outside my room 'WHAT THE FUK U WANT?' 'you tish im sorry that you had to find out like that let me explain' 'EXPLAIN? 1st explain how yu go into my yard!' 'you left your keys in the door' ooh shit it mus of been from the shock of jamar s kiss. 'ooh now you explain bwt yesterday' my face was bare serious and i was pissed! 'i only found out i had a son yesterday when shanakay came to my house. me and h er broke you like 2 years ago cuz she cheated... yeeh i was 15 at the time, and the next ting ino shes at my yard telling me i gta a son.. i was bare shocke d and i didnt no wt to do.' 'and how uno its yours?' i said it tryna sound rude but he knew i was angry so h e lowed me 'he looks jst like me tish its shocking' i just looked at him, i didnt kno what to say. 'oo yeh theres anova ting.. shanakays got a new man and they dont want him and s hes left him with me' 'ummm.. ohk den' i was so confused everyting was happening to fast. he came and sat nextt to me. 'Letisha Alicia Brown i love you.. u know that dont you?' 'Marcus DICKHED daniel thompson i love me too' we both laughed and started lipsi ng. after a few mins he quickly jumped up get it the shower and get ready i gatta sh ow u sumting. i jumped in the shower and i cud hear Marcus cooking downstairs. i wasnt sure where we was goin, so i dressed dressy but not too much. i decided to my pink roca wear vest top and white mini skirt with my white and p ink dolly shoes. i put in my 2 pink diamond studs that marcus brought me with a pink nose stud. i did my makeup and put on my gucci perfume. i put my hair back in a messy bun and slicked down my baby hairs. i looked fly a nd i liked! i walked down the stairs to see Marcus cooking some food, he looked at me and bi t his lip and i smiled at him. i walked to the front room the tv i looked over to the sofa, there was one cute little boy there he was so cute and he looked just like Marcus. I looked at the baby and smiled he was so cute hw cud sum1 not want him. i looked at marcus and i smiled, he smi led i cud tell he was happy that i was ohk with everything. 'hello, aint you cute' i said to the little boy he smiled at me. 'whats his name Marcus?' 'Ramario' marcus shouted from the kitchen. I sat down on the sofa next to him and he climbed onto my lap. ive seen cute bab ys but this one was too cute. he had 1 ear pierced and he was mixed race.. both his parents are mixed race soo yeh that made him mixed race. 'awww, you are a cute baby Ramario i said tickling his belly he like it and star ted laffing. Marcus walked into the room and smiled 'Eat dis quickly im ganna take both my babys shopping' i smiled and put Ramario to sit on his own. he started moaning and came and sat on my lap agen. so i let him sit there while

i ate. when i finished eating we took Ramario to the car. After shopping and buying bar e things we went back to Marcus's house. We left Ramario with Marcus's mum and w ent upstairs. Kelly wasnt in because she was goin baby shopping, her baby dad di ed the day she found out she was pregnant so me and her fam always try help her, shes now 7months pregnant so she dont hav e long. We go into marcus's room and we start kissing at the time i am getting bare horn y and i can tell marcus was aswell. 'you wanna finish wat we started?' he asked smiling 'ummm..' i said tryna play hard to get even doh i wanted to bad 'dnt do dis to me tish' i started laffing i took off his top and started kissing his chest and his nice packs he started b reathing heavey to avoid distractions i locked the door. on my way back to the b ed i took off my top and dress and i was now in jst nt my my red thong and bra. i walked over to Marcus who was now in his boxers his tings were raising and i s miled. he took off my bra and i took off his boxers and he took off my pants while kiss ing my belly and breast. it felt bare nice i let out i sigh and shut my eyes and before i knew it Marcus pushed his big man hood in me. It felt soo cud 'Marr--ccuu-ss' i cudnt talk he was making me stammer. he started puting it in faster and faster and faster it was soo good den he slow ed down. We were both breathing heavey we both cummed about3 times I was satisfi ed and so was he. He looked at me and smiled and then whispered' I love you' 'i love you too baby' i sed catching my breath. he got up out the bed and went over to his coat pocket. 'this is for you baby.. its not a engagement ring .. its not time for that YET.. its a promise ring' i looked at him and smiled a tear ran down my face i was so happy! 'omgg baby,, i love you soo much' he whiped the tears from my face and put the r ing on my finger. It was perfect it gold wid a diamond. A month later - its my birthday.. Me and marcus was still close and so was me and Ramario.. he was like a son to m e and like a grandson to my mum my mum loved him off he even called her nana the first time he called her that it brought tears to her eyes. I woke up in Marcus's room and i was surrounded by balloons and presents. Awww I thought I went to the bathroom had a shower and brushed my teeth, I put on some clean pants and bra and put on one of Marcus's t-shirts I wasn't ready to dress up yet. I started to start opening my presents I got; shoes trainers clothes ha ndbags perfume and a new phone most of them from Marcus. I had plans to go out f or a dinner with Marcus and then go clubbing with my girls. 'Awwwww girl 17 at last!! Its like the ova day wen I was 17!' It was Rakell she wobbled when she walked now and her bump was big now. 'Whats my girlies saying I sed rubbing her belly, Kelly you carry on like your s ome old woman your only 18 babes' 'Yehh im 18 soon 19 and having a baby' we both laughed and she gave me a necklac e it said best friend I hugged her and thanked her, I was soo happy. Marcus came in with Ramario they both smiled at me. 'Happy birthday mummy' Ramario said, everyone looked at him shocked, tears came into my eyes he's never called me mummy before and this made me soo happy even t hough I wasn't his mum and I was 17 I didn't care this little boy was practicall y my son. He ran over to me and hugged me. Marcus smiled I could tell he was happy. 'come on Mario, lets go watch tv' Kelly said she was crying hormones.. everythin g makes her cry. Marcus shut the door behind them and kissed me. 'Thank you for the presents baby' I said hugging him 'Its kool neting for my baby... babes you look abit pale you kl?' 'umm do I, yeeh I feel fine just feel abit sick'

'oh kk.. well my mums cooked you breakfast soo you can go eat that get ready and then im taking you out for the day' 'you've treated me enough today babes look how much presents I got.' 'soo..' I laughed and kissed him. I put on one of his trakies and went downstair s and ate my breakfast from Marcus's mum, she gave me a box, I opened it and it was a locket with a diamond onit, I opened it and it had a picture of Ramario an d Marcus she also gave me a card that said daughter on the front. I gave her a b ig hug and thanked her. 'Tish your pale.. you pregnant?' She asked after hugging me. 'Umm.. no.. I cant be' I said confused she smiled and walked off. I got ready I wore a new dress it was just above my knees it was white and a boo b tube type dress, I wore a orange waist belt and orange high heels I straighten ed my hair and had a front fringe I wore my orange hoops and a diamond nose stud and I wore all my new necklaces and my ring from Marcus... I looked peng if I c an say. Me and Marcus went out for the day, we went for a meal and he took me sh opping again! After we got home it was nearly time for me to go out. So I quickly got dressed I picked another one of my new dresses it was a silver boob tube and it was puff y at the bottom because my necklaces were gold I wore gold ova high heels with i t. I put on my gold hoops and a gold nose stud my gold bracelet and my ring from Marcus I never took it off. I was ready I put on my new chanel perfume and I wa s ready Marcus dropped me at Lishas house and all the rest of my girls were i ga ve my presents to Marcus and after we kissed he drove off. 'Letisha you feeling alright?' Lisha asked worried 'Yeeh why wudnt i?' 'You look abit pale' 'ooo mus be my foundation I lied' We caught a taxi to the club, wen we got in there it was really hot the music wa s loud and my head was banging. I looked at my girl dancing and everything went blurry and then black. I opened my eyes and I was in a hospital. 'Whats going on?' Marcus, Kelly, Lisha and my mum and my brother was all there. 'Hi Lisha, im Dr Adams..could I talk 2 you please?' 'umm yeeh' everyone left the room Kelly wabbling behind last I laughed at her. 'Well miss Brown.. we took some blood test and the test revealed that you are 1m onth pregnant' 'Whh-att?' 'it may come as a shock and ill leave you to talk 2 your family and friends, con gratulations' the doctor then left I was in shock. Marcus came into the room. 'You okay babes' Marcus looked scared 'I- -m umm imm ....' 'whats goin on Tish?' 'im .... Pregnant!' Marcus looked as shocked as I felt . He then started smiling . He kissed me and I felt abit of relief, but I was still in shock but really ha ppy! im pregnant! After we told my mum, Kelly, Lisha and my brother Rico they we re all happy. Everything started to go blurry again and it went black again.. what was happeni ng to me? Part 3 of 11 'The baby??' I said with my voice sounding croaky ,I open my eyes and Marcus is in front of me, hes smiling at me i smiled back. 'The babies fine you were just suffering from concussion from when you fainted y esterday' The doctor said with a friendly smile. I looked at the clock and it was 6am. I looked at Marcus and he looked like some zombie mus of been tired I smiled and touched his face. 'If you feel up to it you can leave later on today' the doctor said I was happy I wanted to go home and see Ramario I missed him bare.

'Yeeh I feel up to it' The doctor smiled left the room I sat up and looked at Ma rcus he was just smiling. 'What you smiling at babe?' 'You, soon your ganna have my baby' I smiled at him and touched my belly wonderi ng what I was ganna have 8months seems so far away! After I ate I got discharged from hospital, I made Marcus get me some burger kin g cuz there was no way I was ganna have some of the nasty hospital food. As soon as I got to my house everyone started crowding me Kelly was there my mum and Ri co(my brother) and his girlfriend and my nanny and Marcus's mum and my lil baby Mario he ran over to me. The house was decorated with congratulations banners an d ballons. 'Mummy!' and hugged me 'Hey baby' I picked him up 'I missed you' I said while kissing his cheek and he smiled. I put him down and went to sit down, I didn't feel pregnant which was weird but my mum said it will happen in time. We was all sitting and jamming and then someone made there way through the door with a key, everyone with a key was here. We all turned around it was my brother Kadeem!! There was a silence for a few seconds. Then I screamed and jumped on h im! 'OMGGG KADEEM... W-w-w wen you come out?!!' my mum came over with tears in her e yes 'Hi mum' he answered his voice had gone deeper and he was ova hench! My mum brok e down and hugged him it was so emotional. My other brother Rico came and greeted him. We introduced him to the extended pa rt of the family; Marcus, Sally and Kelly and Ramario (who at first he thought w as my biological son). Kelly and Kadeem already knew each other from secondary s chool and he was shocked to see how much olda she looked. 'Soo wats the banners for?' There was a silence. 'Umm.. im pregnant....' He looked pissed he looked at me and then looked at Marc us I was shook at that time, then he started smiling. PHEEWW! 'CONGRATULATION SIS!!' he hugged me but not too tight and we all talked. Rico br ought me to a corner. 'Look at you all grown up man' I smiled 'Anyone hurt you while I was gone?' 'Noppee ive been fine' He smiled. 'Don't think I forgot your birthday' He handed me a box of chanel earrings I was shocked he remembered. I hugged him and we went back into the front room. Then I heard a scream.. it was Kelly her waters broke! I quickly ran to her. 'Shes coming Kelly!' She look soo worried and it made think about what I would b e like 'Its too soon! Im not ready, stay with me Tish don't leave me' she said while ta king deep breaths. Everyone was panicing including me. Marcus called a ambulance and 2 hours later Rakell gave birth to baby Tanisha Letisha(yeeh ino my name?) Rochelle Stephens(b aby dads last name) 4MONTHS LATER. Me and Marcus are still together I loved him and he loved me Ramario is now 3 an d goes nursery he loves it but cries when we leave him there lol, we live in our own house just between our parents house it was a 3 bedroom house so the kids c ould have their own room Ramario's room was decorated we just need to sort out t he babys room, who we didn't have a name for yet. I was now 5months pregnant and I am having a baby girl! Im so excited and so is Marcus, he wont let me do anyt hing but relax. One day was relaxing at Marcus's mums house looking after baby T anisha while Kelly and her mum went shopping (me Marcus and Romario) there was a knock at the door. I walked to the door and I got the shock of my life it was e nough to give me a early pregnancy. 'Ive come for my son!' It was Shanakay she pushed the door almost knocking it on to my bump. She looked at my belly and looked pissed I just smiled. She walked i nto the front room and tried to pick up Ramario.

'Get off me... Mummy' He said while kicking, he ran to me. 'Ro Ro.. it your real mum' She said upset.. bout ro ro his name aint ro ro! 'Nooo!' he should standing behind my legs. 'I SEE WHAT YOU'VE DONE BRAINWASHING MY SON INTO THINKIN THAT'S HIS MUM!' she sa id bout to hit Marcus! He looked pissed he took her hand and pushed it away from him. 'What the fuk you doing here?' He asked he looked bare pissed 'Ive come for my son!' 'He aint your son, you ditched him for your new man remember?' Shanakay came to Ramario and he started to cry, this got me pissed pregnant or n ot ima deal with this, my hormones are raging and im ova pissed who does she thi nk she is. When she came close enough I banged her in her face. She dropped to t he floor and I smiled. Marcus looked at me shocked but worried that she might tr y fite me. She got up shook and ran to the door. 'DON'T WORRY take the lil shiit I don't want him neways I just wanted benefits!' And she ran out the door. Ramario was crying and I assured him everything will be alright and he went back to his normal self. Marcus started benning. 'what you laffing at?' I asked confused 'the way how you banged her in the face was too much!!' he was laffing bare and I started laughing then Ramario started laffin even though he didn't know what w as funny! After goin out to buy me my burger king mcdonalds and subway and Ramar io his mcdonals Marcus went out to do sum 'business'. I had massive cravings and I was always hungry, I used co co butter on a regs so I never got stretch marks . I ate my mcdonalds burger subway chicken and sweet corn sandwhich and my burge r king chicken royal and chips and drank my large banana milkshake and a bottle of milk.. (it's the cravings) I relaxed and watch tv with Ramario, Kelly and Sal ly came back we all watched eastenders Marcus still wasn't back, I was getting r eally worried this is also what the hormones does! He came back when the bill wa s on, and I made him wait till it was done. He had pinkpaint on his evisu jeans. We finally left and got home. Marcus gave me some bags to put in the baby room it had clothes in them, I walked in and it smelt of paint I turnt on the lights and the room decorated it looked so nice! I started to cry cuz I was so happy. M arcus came behind me and kissed me. 'Whats rong wid you babes?' 'I dnt kno its hormones... I love this room and I love you!' I started crying ag en and he took me to the front room but on the tv and made me comfortable and pu t Ramario to bed.He set me a bath with candles around it. I got in the bath and Marcus walked towards the door... 'where you going Marcus?' 'ummmnm.. front room' 'don't u wanna join me in the bath?' He smiled and next thing I know hes backing off his clothes and got into the bath. We kissed and hugged he sat behind me an d rubbed my belly, then the baby kicked. 'omg she kicked!' He smiled and I smiled 'yeh ino babes it kinda hurt' I said laughing 'ay lil girl your getting rude before you come out yeh? I want you to be a good girl and pretty like your mummy! Oo yeeh and you got a older brother Ramario hel l put you into place.. ima take you shopping all the time and look after you wel l no wun will ever touch you! But while your in your mummys belly stop kicking h er so hard.. only if shes acting in d dumb moods' I looked at him and smiled and we kissed for ages. The bath started getting cold this broke our kiss. Marcus got out and got a towel for both of us. We put on o ur night clothes and got into bed. I feel asleep in his arms, he was breathing o n my neck it made me so horney but I was pregnant and we could have sex! It was hours in the morning and there was a knock at the door. Marcus was sleepi ng and I didn't wanna wake him up so I went down stairs and opened it. I opened the door and to my surprise it was Jamar. I hadn't seen him since he ki ssed me so I was shocked. 'Wat you saying Tish?'

'umm nuttin.. what you doin here?' 'rude! I need a place 2 cotch my wifey kicked me out' He came and rubbed my bell y! Wtf is this boy on. I stepped back from him. 'I didn't even mean to be rude but ok kl you can sleep on the sofa, ill go get y ou some blankets' I rushed upstairs and got him some blankets and gave them to h im. 'bless tish... o yeeh remember that time I ki..' 'don't worry bwt it im goin bed now' I intrupted him and walked towards the step s 'I don't wanna forget it' 'I do.. night Jamar!' The cheek of it kmrt! I walked upstairs and went into my b ed with my hubby. I woke up to the laughing of Marcus and Jamar. I turnt around to see Ramario sle eping next to me. It was a Tuesday and he shud be at nursery! 'MARCCUUSSS!!' I shouted, he ran up the stairs 'yeeh babe' 'whys Ramario still here? Hes menta be at nursery!' ' oh I let him off for the day, cuz I was late cuz I was catchin up wid Jamar' 'Hmmm..' 'whats rong babes?' 'nuttin.. how long is jamar planning on staying?' 'umm I dnt kno a few weeks a month..' I just kissed my teeth and went back to sleep. I was woke up by the baby kicking .. every min shes kicking, like some lil boy. After trying to sleep, but being woken up every 10mins by the baby kicking I dec ided to go down stairs for something to eat. The house was a state! Ramario's to ys were everywhere the tv was left on the kitchen had food and plates everywhere and Ramario was just watching tv on his own, where the fuk was Marcus? I sed in my head. I was soo pissed. After cleaning for about a hour! My feet were aching and my ba ck was hurting I had to carry a baby and I was not used to carrying weight, and clean up this place, my bump was really visible at this time. I looked at the ho use and I was satisfied but still angry I got in the bath while leaving Ramario to watch tv it was now 3oclock, even though I was still pregnant I had to look f ly so I put on some skinny white jeans, grey and white daps and a grey top that hanged off the shoulder I put on some grey hooped earring and put in a silver no se stud, I straightened my hair and combed it all out with a front fringe. I smi led at my self. I went downstairs expecting to see Marcus down there but he wasn t. 'ive had enough of this common Mario were going to see auntie Rakkel!' I said pu tting on his shoes and coat. 'Yayy' he said jumping up and down I rote Marcus a note in capitals: IVE GONE OUT WITH RAMARIO YOU REMEMBER WHO HE IS? I HAVE TO ASK SINCE YOU LEFT HIM DOWNSTAIRS ON HIS OWN. O YEEH AS YOU MAYB CAN SEE I CLEAN UP THIS FUKIN HOUSE AND MY BACK IS HURTING AN D MY FEET ARE TOO! IM GOING TO YOUR MUMS HOUSE ON THE BUS!! THANKS A LOT MARCUS!! OO YEEH IM HUNGRY TOO AND SO IS MARIO SO WE GATTA TRECK TO BURGER KING. HAVE FUN WID UR BREDRIN INIT. After jamming with Kelly and baby Tanisha and Mario it got late and Marcus still never came for us, he didn't even ring. 'Kelly he still hasn't rang you kno!' I said bare pissed and almost in tears, as I keep saying the hormones! 'That's what happens when dick heads are together! He pisses me off uno! Both of them its like he cant control his self when hes wid dat dik head Jamar!' I decided to call and taxi and it took us back home. There was a note on the tab

le from Marcus: Wat you saying baby sorry bout 2day I had to do sum tings wid jamar init cuz we aint seen each ova in time. Neways were goin clubbing tonight and I left my keys incase I loose dem or sumti n uno how I am. Ring me if you need anyting and I left 50 for you to buy food if you want. Night baby love you I kissed my teeth and I looked in the corner and it sed: If you get bored watch tv or sumting but try not mash up the sofa cuz I gatta sl eep on it 2nite. Ooo yeh dnt complain or my secret cud become sumting big into y our problem. Oo yeeh and you have 20 for food now.. Love Jamar PAAAAAPPP! I looked at it and stuffed it in my bag, I was soo angry I could hold it. 'WHAT THE FUK!! WAT THE FUK! IS HE MAD, ARE THEY MAD, NOOOOOO!!' I screamed 'mummy said fuk, fuk' it turnt round to see Ramario copying me and laughing abou t it 'ooh no.. shiit, don't say that Mario' 'shiit, shiit!'He copied me again, I rolled my eyes at him 'put your shoes back on were ganna go see nanny cee cee' I packed our clothes, tooth brushes and things and got to my mums house, i walke d and Marcus was in the buggy cuz it wasn't far. She was surprised to see me the re. 'What you doing here tish?' I burst into tears my mum never asked any questions. It was just me and her in the house she put Ramario to bed while I got into the bath, after I got out the bath I watch a horror on my own these times I was sho ok so I wouldn't move I ended up sleeping downstairs. It was about 4 in the morn ing and my phone went off. It was Marcus, I left it to ring he rang about 4 time s and then texted me: Where you 2 baby? Text me yeeh xxxxxxx Text you, I thought to myself and I started to laugh, I wasn't over reacting was i? I thought about everything and I started crying, I ended up crying myself to sle ep. I woke up around 10am and my back was killing cuz of how I slept. I wasn't ready to go home cuz I knew jamar would be there. My mum took Ramario out for the day and it was just me in the house. I was bored so I decided to text Marcus back: I aint coming home till Jamar leaves! A few minutes later he rang me: 'Yoow tisha wats going on why don't you want my bredrin here man?' 'he aint kno friend .. if he was your friend then why did he kiss me the day I f ound out bwt Ramario?' 'stop gassing man.. I know you don't want him here but don't chat shit Letisha i nfact ring me when you aint chatting shit !' LOCKED He hanged up on me! WTF! After a few minutes of crying, I decided that I was going to call Lisha, after e xplaining everything to her she ran to my house and came and conforted me she wa s so lovely she knew how to cheer me up. We came up with some baby names too; Na reesha, Nikota, Laraya and Tianna and Lisha came up with some next name.. Shandi ni! We laughed about it for ages, and the baby started kicking like she was tell

ing us to be quiet. Lisha started getting emotional, and then I asked her if she would be the babys god mother. After a while my mum came back with Ramario and Lisha left after eating some food and playing with Mario. As soon as Lisha left the door knocked again. 'What you leave now Lisha?' I said while opening the door. I was shocked it was Marcus... My mum quickly took Mario upstairs. 'can I help you?' I asked 'why did you lie bwt Jamar kissing you?' 'wtf?' 'you're a fucking sket! You came onto him and you wanted him to sex you but he t urnt you down, how u ganna do dat to me? You sure the babys mines?' 'who the fuk you chatting to like dat, of course the babys yours?' 'you fam!' 'don't fam me! Wait here a min lemi show you sumting' I ran upstairs and took th e note out of my bag and ran downstairs. 'Read that bottom bit' I said pushing t he paper to his chest. He read it out 'If you get bored watch tv or sumting but try not mash up the sof a cuz I gatta sleep on it 2nite. Ooo yeh dnt complain or my secret ....cud becom e sumting big into... your problem.' He looked pissed. 'Tish..im sor-' 'IM A SKET AND THE BABY MIGHT BE YOURS...YEEH? THAT'S EXACTLY WHAT YOU SAID!!' I shouted at him. 'GET OUT, GET OUUUUTTT!!' He walked out with his head held down . I watched him walk out the door and I burst into tears, how could he say the t hings he did, how could he believe Jamar over me and to say the baby might not b e his!! I went into my old room and once again I cried myself to sleep. The next morning I woke up feeling down, I couldn't face Ramario so I asked my m um to take him out for the day. I got in the bath and could be bovered to fix up and I dashed my hair in a messy bun and put on one of my trackies and a vest to p I had no makeup or jewellery. My belly looked over big I laughed, first time i n days. I went downstairs and just watched tv there was a knock at the door. I d idn't answer, then the person let their self in. I turned around it was Marcus. 'what do you want?' 'Tish im sorry babes, I shud of never doubted you, look at me Tish im hurting.. I miss you soo bad. I love you' I looked at him he looked bare stress and his ey es were red. I was hurt by what he did but I loved him. 'Marcus...' 'yeeh?' he asked looking at me with some puppy eyes. 'you look terrible' I laughed, he came over to me and hugged me and picked me up . We kissed for ages. 'Babes...' I said 'Yeeh baby' 'what happened to Jamar?' I asked kinda worried. He laughed. 'well jus kno hes dealt wid' he said smiling, it was one evil smile though. I di dn't bother ask any more I didn't really wanna kno. My mum came back with Marcus and he ran to us both. After everything went back t o normal. 'Daddy.. mummy said shiiitt!' Romario said laughing 'Ummm..' I said me and Marcus started laughing. 3 months passed and me and Marcus were back to normal at our own house and happy as ever. I am now 8month pregnant and I knew this baby was coming soon. We decided that w e was ganna call her Lahraya Shantaya Kelly Thompson. Marcus's friend Kadeem and Lamar were going to be her god father and Kelly, Lisha and I was home alone because Marcus was taking Ramario to school. I was jamming 2 so me dancehall and started bruking out.. it was Vybez come breed me. 'Marcus came and breeded me' I sang I joked. I bent down to pick up one of Ramario's toys and

I had a sharp pain in my belly. One turnt into 2,3,4,5,6 it was horrible I bent over and was taking deep breaths I went to get my phone to call Marcus but he c ame through the door. As soon as he came in a horrible pain came again I screame d he ran to me and held me up. 'take a deep breath baby ima call the ambulance' Just as he said that my waters broke. I looked at Marcus and he look shook! I started screaming 'It hurts Marcus, help me!!' I started panicking 'its too early!' 'its alright babes its alrite' he said and rubbed my back. I took deep breaths a nd not long after the ambulance came. Marcus rang my mum and everyone and told t hem I was giving bit I gave birth 7! Yeeh 7! Hours later. She was so cute and ti ny. She had grey eyes and she was light skinned and had nice hair like me ?. I l ooked at the my friends and family around me and it made me happy, it was jst pe rfect this is my world, the world of my own. Letisha - The world of my own Part 4 of 11 Back at home. We get home and I am in so much pain and soo tired. I decided to take a nap, whi ch turned into a 5hour sleep I was woke up by the baby crying. I took a deep bre ath and went to go see to her. She was red from how much she had been crying. 'Awww poor baby' I said hushing her and rocking her, after a while she stopped. I made her a bottle and gave it to her she feel asleep. Everything felt like a d ream.. this little beautiful thing is my baby I gave birth to her. 'MAARRCCUUSSS ' I shouted but there was no answer. I decided to phone him. 'Marcus where are y ou?' 'Im out wid the man dem for abit' 'Your what? I was sleeping I didn't even know you were gone... wheres Romario?' 'Well I didn't know dat and hes downstair s' 'Kmt you really get on my nerves.. when you coming back im tired' 'im back wh en im back' 'okay kool. You come back when your back and see what happens'. I ha nged up the phone and went downstairs to find Romario. Im still in pain from giv ing birth to my little baby girl Lahraya, everytime I think of her I feel happy. I go downstairs and I cant find him. 'Ricaarrddoo?' 'Yeeh mummy' I go into the kitchen to find him pouring water from the kettle. 'STOP' He put down the kettle slowly and I ran to him and put him to sit on the breakfast bar. 'Am I in troub le mummy?' 'No baby.. you gotta be careful boo, that is dangerous.. what you tou ching the kettle for?' 'I was making myself a hot drink because daddy wouldn't m ake me one cuz he was going out wid uncle Damar' 'Uncle who?' 'Uncle Damar' 'Dam ar?... don't you mean Jamar?' 'Yeeh him.. I don't like him mummy' ' I don't like him either, Ill make you a drink and then get you to bed it was your bedtime ag es ago' 'okkk' I was pissed now. After everything Jamar did I can't believe Marc us would still be friends with him. (Read part 3 to find out what Jamar did) I m ade Romario his hot chocolate and put him to sleep. I finally got to relax and t hen Lahraya started crying. I fed her and then put her back to sleep. By then I was exhausted, I looked at the time and it was 5oclock in the morning, so I went off to bed. I was woke up by Lahraya crying again, it was only 6.30 ive only ha d a hour and a half sleep. I didn't know looking after a baby would be so hard t o look after..espicially on your own. I got her and Romario washed and fed them, I put the tv on and we relaxed and watched cartoons. Its now 9am and Marcus sti ll wasn't home. I was drifting off to sleep and so were the kids and Marcus came staggering into the house. He stunk of grade and alcohol and women's perfume I could smell it from where I was. He went striaght to the kitchen without saying anything to us. I put the kids upstairs and went back into the kitchen. 'What th e fuk you take dis for?' I asked him. 'what you mean?' He said walking to me and holding my waist. 'Do you know what time it is?' 'Yeeh ummmm 10.30' 'Take your hands off me' I went to walk out and he pulled me by my arm. 'I aint finished ta lking to you' 'take your hands off me' He let go of me. 'whats wrong wid you' 'W hats wrong wid me? Whats wrong wid you.. your drunk and your just coming home at 10.30 in the morning.. you stink of grade and perfume and you got a love bite o n your neck' 'Im...' 'Can you go please?!' 'Go where?' 'I don't know I don't car e just go' 'I aint going no where' 'Well I am' I went upstairs and packed some c

lothes for me and the kids. I put their coats and shoes on and put Lahraya in he r pushchair. Marcus came up to me. 'where you think your going' 'Away from you' He pulled me by my arm again and I tried to break away but he pulled tighter. I slapped him in his face and he loosened his grip on my arm and slapped me across my face. My face stung but the shock was on my mind more. I looked at him with disgrace and he looked at me confused and shocked. 'I HATE YOU' I said through t ears I put my coat on and left with the kids. I didn't know where I was going bu t I had to go somewhere... I walked and ended up outside my mums house. She open ed the door, but her happy smile turned into a concerned one when she seen the l ook on my face. 'Latisha? Whats wrong? Come inside its cold.. the baby shouldn't be out the house yet' I went into the house and broke down in tears. 'Whats wro ng baby?' 'He... He hit me mum' 'HE WHAT? WHO HIT YOU?' 'Marcus' I started cryin g and my mum hushed me. The next thing I know I woke up on the sofa with a blank et over me. My face was stinging I got up and looked in the closest mirror. My c heek was swollen and red, gosh that lick was hard. I went into the other dinner room where my mum and my brothers were with the kids. They all looked at me. 'La tisha come outside with me for a minute' Kadeem my brother said. I followed him outside and he shut the door behind me. 'So isit true den?' He asked. 'Umm.. yee h' 'KOOL' he looked pissed and it even scared me. 'Watch when I see him yeh' 'Ka deem.. I don't want you to get into trouble just leave it pleasee' 'NO HES TAKIN G DE PISS!! He boxed you yeh and now you're here wid his yute?! And you had a ba by a few days ago! His baby!' 'Romario mite not biologically be my son, but he m ight aswell be. Infact he is my son whether me and Marcus are together. Can you just leave it Kadeem?' 'KMT' He walked out the house. The next day... I woke up, but this time not from a baby crying. I looked around my room and no one was there. I went downstairs to see the kids dressed with my mum. 'Morning d arling' 'Morning mum... Morning Romario' 'Morning mummy' Romario has been quiet from we left home, this was unlike him. 'Come here baby' He ran towards me and I took him to the kitchen. 'So whats wrong with my baby?' 'Nothing' 'Hmmm is some one lying.. whats wrong Mario? Do you miss your dad' 'NO I don't like daddy anym ore' 'Why not?' 'He hit you' I didn't know what to say.. I didn't know Ricardo s aw.. infact I didn't think. I had to go back home.. whether Marcus was there or not, I have two kids to look after and having them move from house to house wasn 't good. It was best they stay where their settled and Marcus go somewhere else. I told my mum my plans and went back home. The house was silent and I wasn't su re whether he was home. I took the kids to their rooms and went into mines. Marc us was is in the room sleeping, when I walked in her sat up and looked at me. He smiled at me and I screwed him. 'What you smiling at me for' 'Why not?' 'After what you did... come home hours of the morning after doing who knows what and th en boxing me in the face!' He looked at me shocked like he didn't know what I wa s on about. 'Did I hit you?' 'Yeh you did' 'Ohh shiit... Letisha.. im sorry I wa s bare drunk and I don't even re..' 'Save it I don't care what excuses you have. . all I know is you cheated on me and hit me 3days after having your yute!' ' I never cheated on you.. im sorry' 'Marcus you came home stinking of sex.. turn ar ound' He got up and turned around slowly and confused and my thoughts were confi rmed he had scratches all over his back. 'So what did a cat jump on your back wh y you got them scratches?' 'Scratches?' He turned around and looked in the mirro r at that time my heart felt like it was shattered into pieces and my eyes fille d with tears. 'I don't remember anything Tish I sware down' 'Yeeh well I do.. no w you can stay in Lahraya's room.. remember your 3day old daughter.. or you can sleep downstairs.. up to you' 'Cant we just sort things out?' 'I don't know Marc us.. im tired and pain up I wanna relax before the baby wakes up' 'Well come lay with me?' 'I don't wanna be near you right now.. can you just go'. Marcus reluc tantly left the room. 'Marcus wait...' 'Yeh babes?' He had a glint on happiness in his face. 'Romario is in his room watch him and Marcus if you think how im gw anning now, is bad.. let me see Jamar in this yard again and youll see bad'. Mar cus's hint of happiness dropped and he left the room. I finally got back to slee p after thinking and then I got woke up by a crying Romario. I slowly went downs tairs to see what was going on. 'What now?!' Romario ran to my legs and held the

m tightly. 'He wont come to me.. everytime I talk to him he ignores me.. and whe n I touch him he runs away' 'What you expect he seen you hit me' Marcus's face d ropped even more and he looked like he was going to cry. 'He- he seen?' 'Yup' Ma rcus knelt down infront of Romario and spoke to him softly.'Daddy is sorry I did n't mean to hit mummy I cant even remember doing it.. if I could turn back the h ands of time then I would never hit mummy but I cant and all I can do is make it up to you both. A tear fell from my eye and I whipped it to avoid him seeing my pain. 'Can you both forgive me?' 'Yeeh I can daddy.. can you get me that ben 10 bike and then we can be special friends?' 'Yeeh I will boss lol... Letisha?' He looked at me for my answer I was just about to answer and then Lahraya started crying. 'I better go see what she wants'. I got up and left the room.. should I forgive him or not? :S To bee continued... Tell me what you think.. or what you think Letisha should do Uno the drill ;)

- T + Letisha - The world of my own Part 5 of 11 I left the room in a fast speed and quickly called Andre. I left the phone hopin g he will answer and sat down like it was nothing. 'You need to go Jamar' I said . 'I told you no.. ive liked you for a while Letisha but you never wanted me.. I fink im quite sexy' He said looking in the mirror. 'I think your mad... Just le ave my yard init' 'You ganna give me what I want?' 'NO.. I THINK THERE IS SOMETH ING RONG WID YOU!!' Jamar rushed over to me and started squeezing my arms. 'Get off!!' He was standing infront of me so I kicked him in his tings. He feel to th e floor in agony. Just as he did Andre came bursting into the room. He started k icking Jamar on the floor and punching him. He stopped and Jamar was coughing bl ood. 'What the fuk you doing here?! Why the fuck you touching my wifey?' 'Your w ifey?... Im sorry blud I never knew' 'Well now you do.. If she says she don't wa nt you she don't want you... if she says she wants you out her yard she wants yo u out!! Let me catch you near Tish ... Infact let me catch you in these ends aga in and den youll know what time it is.DO YOU GET ME?' Jamar nodded. 'I ASKED YOU A QUESTION BLUD' Andre said raising his fist to him. 'Yeeh I get you' 'Now get the fuk out of here before I do something dat I WONT regret'. Jamar quickly ran out. I looked at Andre shocked but relived. 'I thought you was ganna kill him' I said 'Trus me I probley was' 'Thanks' 'You don't need to say thanks... you're m y wifey what else would I do?' He hugged me. 'Wheres Shilah?' 'In the car... im ganna stay here tonight I don't wanna leave you.. is dat kool?' 'Yeeh I was just bout to ask you that lol' He went outside and got Shilah. We put the kids to be d and then it was just me and Andre. I love this boy so much, hes there for me w hen I need him and he cares and loves me. 'Andre...' 'Yeh babes' 'Come upstairs' 'What you tired?' 'Nopee' He looked at me confused and then a smile gradually swept across his face. I held his hand and we both went upstairs. I gently laid him on the bed and unzipped his hoodie and started kissing his neck. I took of his tshirt to see his peng body. I started k issing all over his body and he let out a soft moan. He picked me up by one arm and lay me on my back. We both smiled and he took off my top and started kissing along my chest and my neck. He took off my bra and started kissing my neck agai n he moved from my neck towards my pum, he undid my trousers and slowly pulled t hem off. He came back to my face and continued kissing me while rubbing between my legs, He was gently massaging me. He slid down pants a slid one finger and th en two in, he moved it in slowly. I moaned heavily and quietly. 'Wow.. u sure yo u've had a baby?' 'Yee-' I was just about to finish answering but then I came an d he smiled as if he was satisfied. He then laid back on the bed and put his han ds under his hands. 'Show me what you got then' He said relaxing back. I climbed ontop of him and pulled his trouser and boxers down. I looked at his piece and my eyes widened. He let out a chuckle and a smile spread across my face. I did m

y thing and then he came. I went into my side draw and put the condom on him, wh ile doing that he became harder. I slowly sat on it and let out a moan. It hurt a little but as I went down the pain went. I did my ting on top and then we... t raded places ;). He put it in.. then out.. in then out.. I couldn't hold it any longer.. I came and let out a loud moan, just after he came and we both collapse on the bed. We were panting heavily and then I started smiling. He smiled and t hen we both bursted out laughing. 'Wow' Andre said putting his hands behind his head again. 'That was...just wow' He said we both started laughing again. I star ted singing best you ever had. 'You rah was' Andre said after I finished joking. I started smiling, I know he was my best but it doesn't mean I have to admit it . 'You don't need to tell me im your best.. I know it already' He said boasting. I tried keeping a striaght face but I couldn't help it and huge smile crept acr oss my face. 'Soo... ready for round two?' He said while pulling me onto him. >>The next morning<< Lahraya's started sleeping through the night now so I had a good night sleep. I turned over to see Andre sleeping next to me. I went to get up and put a dressin g gown on, because I was still naked. Romario and Shilah ran through the bedroom door. I quickly jumped back into the bed. 'Morning kids' 'Morning ' They said i n unison. They both jumped on the bed. 'Umm.. kids go downstairs and watch tv fo r a minute' Andre started to wake up he was about to get out of bed but I showed him the eye signal that he shouldn't. 'I wanted to stay in bed with you and dad dy' Shilah said. 'After we have breakfast yeh?' 'alrite then' They both ran down stairs. 'Woow.. that was close..' I said. 'For real' Andre answered. He then sta rted smiling. 'What you smiling at?' I asked confused. 'Just remembering last ni ght' We both started laughing. 'Muuummm' Romario shouted from downstairs. 'Comin g' I shouted back. 'I sware he thinks hes a big man now... he don't call me mumm y anymore' I said getting abit upset. 'Don't mean he don't love you anymore.. ju st growing into a man' Andre answered 'Lool, he's 4... big man my foot lool. Now shut your eyes' 'Huh why?'He asked looking at me confused 'Cuz im naked and I w anna get up' 'Its not anything I haven't seen before' 'I don't care... turn arou nd or close your eyes... please' ' Noopee' He said acting childish. I quickly ran to my wardrobe and grabbed my dressing gown. 'Come here a min' 'Wh at for?' He started smiling, and I knew what kinda smile it was.. 'Andre piss of f' I said while laughing. I went to the bathroom brushed my teeth and washed my face. I then went downstairs and made the kids breakfast got them in the bath. A ndre fed and bathed Lahraya. I jumped in the bath put on some skinny jeans and a plain tshirt, put on my fluffy slippers. Andre came out the bath and was creami ng himself. 'Some people are coming to start decorating ina min' He said while g oing to the cupboard to put on some clothes (He's got his own clothes at mines n ow). 'Ohh yeeh I forgot... where are me and the kids ganna go?' 'I can take you to my mums if you want.' 'Yeeh dats good.... Umm Andre...' 'Yehh baby?' 'You kno w you and Shilah's always round here...' 'Yeeh if you want your space den we can -' 'Noo.. I was thinking of you both moving in here.. if you want...' He started smiling. 'Yeeh man it sounds good' 'Seriously?' 'Yeeh' I jumped on him and hugg ed him. We the started kissing passionately, he pulled away. 'I love you' He whi spered on my lips. 'I love you too'. I got the kids ready put my coat and shoes on and put my hair in a bun. I opened the door and Marcus was standing in front of me. 'What you doing here?Dont you know to ring or ring before you come to peo ples yard?' I said both shocked and angry. 'Im here for Romario' I stood there i n total shock. 'What you mean?' 'I wanna take him and Lahraya out for the day' P hew I thought to myself. 'So now you wanna see them?' 'Yeeh I made a mistake.. i m sorry but I wanna make it up to you and the kids' 'Its too late for me and you ... but you might have a chance with the kids' 'Why cant we start again?' Just a s I was about to answer Andre came down the stairs he looked at us both then smi led at me then screwed Marcus and went into the front room. He brought the kids out with him. Romario looked at his dad and walked past him. Andre passed me Lah raya and walked towards the door. 'So hes the reason why yeh?' 'Yeeh and not jus t him.. you hurt me and ive moved on youll have to get used to that' I said with a strong tone of confidence. He went to pick up Romario but Romario stepped bac k. 'Romario.. aint you ganna say hello to your daddy?' I said shocked by Romario

's actions. 'Noo.. hes not my daddy' Romario replied. 'ROMARIO? That's not nice baby that is your daddy' 'He said he didn't want to see me.. I want Andre to be my daddy' I was shocked and I could tell Marcus was. 'Romario I spoke to you abo ut that already babes.. come on now are you going to talk to your daddy?' 'NO' H e said while running off. He was stubborn just like his father but this wasn't h is usual behaviour. 'Im sorry bout that I honestly never told him Andre was his dad I explained that you was his-' 'I know Tish.. its my fault' He said looking generally hurt. 'Maybe if you got to know him..' 'But he don't wanna know me' 'H e's 4.. he don't know what he wants lol' 'Truee' 'Shes gone big' Looking at Lahr aya 'Yuup shes 7 months soon' 'Ohh yeeh.. I cant get over how beautiful she is.. . just like you' 'umm.. thanks?' 'Can I hold her?' 'Yehh sure' I gave her to him and she started to moan abit. 'Don't worry it will take time she needs to get t o know you' I said reassuring him. 'Ohh.. kI am seriously-' He was cut by his ph one ringing. He handed me Lahraya and started talking. Him: Umm.. im at my friends yard.. Naa I cant... Well dere not dat important but im doing something wid dem.. Kmt what now?.. Im coming... I SAID IM COMING... y eeh me too.. I said me too.. Alrite.. Love you too(He mumbled) I looked at him both screwing but confused. 'Who was dat den?' I asked. 'Um...An tasia' 'Lool thought so.. so.. were not important yeh? And when since was I your friend? And whats with the secrets' 'Well.. you are important but I cant tell A ntasia about me seeing you because I got one next gyal pregnant so she don't tru st me..' I started laughing at him and he looked at me confused. 'You're a joke. . even though I would love to laugh at you I need to go out... speak to me when your kids.. infact the two kids ive got out of your million other kids are impor tant to you' I stepped out the house and locked the door and walked to the car w here Andre and the kids were leaving Marcus standing there. Some people just don 't ever change. I put Lahraya in the car seat and sat in the front. 'Sorry I too k so long' I said to Andre. 'Its kool' 'Aint you ganna ask me what happened?' 'N aa I trust you... even doh hes a fukin prik hes still your baby dad.. you got th ings to sort out' 'Aww thankyou baby.. that's why I love you' 'I love you too.. but if he ever tries make a move or touches you den ima get involved' Andre said wid a serious tone. 'Lool, you should see your face when you go into serious mo de' I said while laughing. 'Lool.. low me man' he said embarrassed. 'Umm shilah and Romario what you too say if we all lived together?' Andre asked them. 'Yaaaa yy' They both said. 'Now we can be proper brothers and sisters then!!' Shilah sa id. 'Well... You wanna move your things in today?' 'Yeeh man but you know I got bare things' 'Yehh.. don't worry ill dash dem out soon' I joked. 'You funny girl ' He said laughing. 'You funny little boy' I replied. 'Little boys don't carry m y tings' 'Loool shhh, the kids are in the car' We both started laughing and He t urned up the music and we drove to his mums house. 'Does your mum know were comi ng?' 'Yeeh shes cooking' 'Ohhkk' I kissed him and took the kids out the car. I k nocked on the door and Nicole answered. 'Tissshhh!!' She shouted. I hugged her a nd she took Lahraya from me. We went inside the house and waved by to Andre. I w ent into the front room to see a few other teenagers, the kids ran in the room a nd started playing. 'Guys this is my brothers girlfriend and my nephew Romario a nd nieces Shilah and Lahraya' Aww I thought to myself, its nice to know me and t he kids are accepted. 'Heey guys' I said to them and they all said hi back. I we nt to the kitchen to see Lidia I could hear Nicoles friends saying 'Awww there s o cute'. I went into the kitchen to see Lidia cooking. 'Smells good' I said. 'Oh h hello my dear' She moved from the food and hugged me. 'So what you cooking the n? Smells peng.. I mean good lool' 'Curry goat and rice and Im not that old I kn ow bwt peng and leng and weng and all the rest lool' We both started laughing. ' Where's Andre off to then?' 'Back to mines.. he's decorating the house for me' ' Aww that's my boy looking after his lady' 'Yeeh inoo' 'Hes changes quite abit.. I thought Shilah being born changed him for the best... but I didn't know he cou ld improve any more' 'Me? I don't think its me lool' 'Yeeh I know it is. I can t ell you mean a lot to him Tish' 'He means a lot to me too' 'Aww young love ay' S he said smiling. 'Foods ganna be ready soon, so lets just go into the back room until its finished' Lidia said leading me to the back room. We sat down and got talking and then Romario ran in. 'Hello' He said to Lidia. 'Hello little one. Do

n't he have manners' Romario started smiling. 'Are you my nanny too?' He asked. 'Romario..' I said embarrassed and shocked. 'Yeeh that does... can I have a hug please?' Lidia said smiling, Romario hugged her then came and came to me. 'Mumm. .' 'Yehh Mario?' 'Can I have a lollypop?' 'Were ganna have dinner soon' 'Yehh bu t ill promise ill eat it all if I have a lolly pop' 'Nope not till you eat your dinner and then you can have all the sweets you want' 'All the sweets I want?' ' Well not all only 2' 'Yaay and Shilah too?' 'Yehh and Shilah too' Romario went t o walk out. 'Romario.. why dot you call me mummy anymore?' 'Because im a big boy now.. big boys don't call their mums mummy'He then ran out. Wow he was growing up.. too fast. 'Woow.. you remind me of me... I had Andre at your age.. and then not too long after I had Nicole. I done it on my own.. I was living in a counci l flat with hardly any money. I worked but it wasn't enough and the bills starte d pilling up, I had no family and a few friends who were in the same predicament as me. As Andre became older he became aware of our money problems and he becam e providing for us ever since... you see without Andre I wouldn't have this hous e or anything.. it might not be the right way how Andre manages to get the money but he still provides for his family so I cant complain' 'Aww that is so sweet. .. I hope Romario would do the same thing for me' 'He probably will.. you're a g ood mum' 'Thankyou'. We carried on talking Nicoles friends went and Andre came b ack. We were all sitting at the table eating and talking. 'Im glad you 2's toget her im soo hapz.. All my friends are bare jelous. But they think your pretty' 'L ool do they?' I asked. 'Yuupp' She replied. 'Soo hows the house going Andre?' 'G ood still.. nearly finished' 'Already?' 'Yeeh quite a few mans there' 'Ohh kayy. . Did you bring your things over?' 'Yeeh.. im renting it out to one of my bredri ns' 'Ohkk'. We all continued having our convo's and me and Andre went and washed up. Andre was washing and I was drying and packing away. 'You didn't do this on e properly' I said while dashing one of the forks back into the water. The water splashed everywhere all over Andre's face. He looked at me shocked and I tried to keep a serious face, but I couldn't keep it striaght, I started laughing. 'Do you find it funny' He said also trying to keep a striaght face. 'Umm..yeeh' I s aid laughing hard. He whipped the soap off his face with his hands and grabbed s ome soap out the sink and dashed it in my face. I stood there in shock. 'O.M.G' I said as soap ran down my face. I grabbed more soap and threw it back at him. W e both started throwing water and soap at each other. Andre picked up a glass of cold water to throw at me I ran away from his and he chased me we was running a round the kitchen and I went to grab someone water from the sink but my feet sta rted slipping I reached for the nearest thing near me which happened to be Andre I dragged him and we both started slipping until we finally dropped on the floo r, Andre landed on top of me and the cup of water dropped over both of our heads . Even though it hurt I couldn't stop laughing at how funny it was. 'You heavy s hit get off me' I said tryna push his off me. 'Naa.. I kinda like being here rem inds me of last night' 'Lool Andreee you freak get off me' 'Kiss me first' 'Nooo ' I said struggling to get up 'Well you aint going anywhere for now' 'Alrite,Alr ite' I leaned forward to kiss him and when our lips were touching I bit his lip. 'AAAHHH' He screamed. I started laughing still my stomach was hurting. He was s till laying on me and he started sulking. 'Awww baby..' 'That hurt you know.. is my lip bleeding?' 'Loool no you big baby' I kissed him and we was just on the f loor lipsing. 'Eh umm! Wasn't you too meant to be washing up?' I looked up to se e Lidia look at us both. I hid my face in Andre's chest in embarrassment while h e was laughing. She left the kitchen and Andre got up and gave me his hand to he lp me get up. I sat on the chair. 'My back is hurting now and im all wet' 'Hmm.. Tish you dirty girl!' 'Lool I didn't mean it like that. You don't have that eff ect on me' 'Ohh is dat how it is now.. you wasn't saying dat when you was scream ing my name' 'Its called putting on a act' 'Seeenn!! Alright well see init' He w ent back to washing up while I mopped the floor. 'Andre can you get me something to wear till I get home im getting cold' 'Yeehm come upstairs' He took me to a room upstairs, I was guessing this was his room. 'Take off your clothes then' He said to me. I looked at him weirdly but I still took them off. I was now in my bra and pants and he was just staring at me smiling. 'Get me a towel den' 'Naa I got other plans'. He lay me back on the bed and started kissing my neck moving

down towards me stomach. 'An..dr..e.. st..o..p' I said slowly taking deep breath s. He went to my breast and started sucking my nipple. 'Andreeee...' I said once again. He stopped and looked at me smiling. 'I told you I make you say my name. I just looked at him and kissed my teeth. 'And I told you you were sad' I repli ed. 'Andre.. Andre' He said making fun of me. 'Shuuttt upp man and get me some c lothes' I said both embarrassed and agitated. He smiled. I was pissed aswell I w as getting into things aswell. He dashed me a top and joggers. I put them on and sat back on the bed. He changed his clothes and laid down next to me. 'You didn 't want me to stop did you?' He said smirking. 'Andre.. shut up' 'You wanted me to take you to the ramping shop init' 'I want you to shut up' 'mi cocky longa th an mi nine. Tell mi wah yuh like. Yuh wah mi try or yuh wah fi ride it like a bi ke (Ramping shop lyrics, if you didn't no) 'Your cocky is just about bigger than your little finger' I said. That was quite a good come back actually I said smi ling. Andre was just about to reply then his fone started ringing. 'Yo.. Yeeh.. Kool..' Then he hung up. He kissed me on my lips and carried my downstairs. 'Wha t you doing you freak' I said while slapping his chest playfully. He sat me next to Nicole, who was on the phone. 'Sit here while I go get the kids and then wer e going' 'Why couldn't you tell me dat instead of carrying me down the stairs' ' Don't know just wanted to get on your nerves' 'Well.. it didn't work cuz I enjoy ed it actually' 'Well you aint ganna enjoy dis' He grabbed me by my legs and tur ned me upside down. 'Put me down!!' I shouted. 'Whos the boss?!' 'Me' I replied. He started shaking me. 'YOU ARE MAN' I shouted, he turned me the right way arou nd and threw me back on the sofa. Andre looked at Nicole. 'Who you on the phone to?' He asked. 'No-one' She replied. 'Pass the phone so I can talk to this perso n called no-one' He said trying to get the phone. 'Noooo leave me man Andre' Nic ole said hiding her phone. 'It's a boy init' He said getting pissed. 'Andre just leave her man.. shes 15 soon 16 what do you want her to be a lesbian or somethi ng?' I said inturpting. 'No..' He said. 'Exactly just cause shes chatting to a b oy or cuz she got a boyfriend don't mean shes having sex or is ganna have a baby !' I said stating my point. 'Yeh but that's not the point' He said not having a come back. 'Noo the point is your too over protective.. now get the kids ready w eren't we menta be going' I said changing the subject. 'Kmt.. yeeh im going' He said walking off in a strop. 'Thanks... how do you do dat?' Nicole said. 'Do wha t babe?' 'Get him to listen to you?' 'I don't know.. hes probz pissed wid me now ' 'Naa he aint pissed at you, hes pissed dat your right' 'Oh..' 'You need to giv e me some tips man' Nicole said before going back on the phone. Andre walked bac k in with the kids. 'You ready?' 'Yuup..' 'Yow Nicole.. your lucky Tish talked m e into this boyfriend shit.. but I wanna meet him before I can say you both are def. doing a ting' 'Ohk den' She replied. 'Kool.. well im ganna be living with T ish now.. so I want you both round my yard 2moro yeh' 'Alrite then' They hugged and he gave her some money. We all said bye and then we left. Back at home We got home and the place looked completely different.. Its too long to explain but every room looked just as peng as Andre's old house. His things were in my h ouse too. 'Aww I love it' I said while hugging him. Bedtimee! Me and Andre got in the bath and got into bed. 'Soo you like your new room?' And re asked me. 'Yeeh I love it.. but I sware not everything in here's from your ol d house and they aint mines' I said curiously. 'Yeeh everything in here's new' ' isit.. how much did that cost' 'Don't worry bwt it..' 'I knew you was ganna say that.. but thanks anyways' I said before pecking him on the lips. 'Sooo.. you li ke the bed then?' He said showing me a cheeky and horny grin. 'Umm yeehh.. might go sleep its so peeng' I said getting comfortable . 'Or we can test it out.. yo u know what I mean?' He said. 'Umm.. naa I don't' I said pretending I didn't kno w what he was on about. 'You know what I mean.. we can do abit of exercise on it ' He said using codes. 'Ohh.. why didn't you say?' He said while leaning back an d putting his hands behind his head. I got up and started jumping on the bed. 'w hat are you doing?' He said looking at me confused. 'Exercising? I thought you w anted to do some exercise?' I said pretending I didn't know what he was on about . He pulled me by one of my legs and I fell ontop of him. 'You know what im on a

bout man' He said getting abit frustrated. 'I thought you wanted us to exercise' 'Not that way though' 'Ohh I get it.. you want us to go gym?' 'Lool come off da t tish and come fuk me!' I smiled at him and sat on his piece. I slowly started grinding on him while kissing his chest all around. He turned me back around and pulled down my top while gently caressing my breast. We were now both naked and he was just about to put his ting in me. 'NO wait!' I said. 'Whats wrong?' 'You need to put a jimmy on' 'Well.. cant I just put it in and take it out before I buss?' 'Yeh but what if you take too long to take it out?' 'I wont' 'You best no t.. cuz I aint having any more-' I was just about to finish my sentence and Andr e put it in. I let out a soft sign. About 15mins later. 'I TOLD YOU TO TAKE IT O UT BEFORE YOU BUSS!' I shouted. 'I couldn't hold it man' Andre said laying next to me. 'IF YOU THINK IM HAVING ANOTHER BABY YOU MUS BE MAD' 'Naa ill get you the pill' 'YOU BEST GO GET ONE NOW' 'ill get it in the morning the chemist aint ope n yet' 'You best' 'I will...Night baby' He said before kissing me on the cheek. 'Watever' 'Love you' 'Hmm.. Love you too' I turned around and went back to sleep . >>The next day<< I woke up Andre. 'Andre.. Rakell and Tanisha's coming round today and you need t o get me the pill' 'I get up in 10minutes' He said going back to sleep. 'GET UP' I said pulling the sheets off him. I still had a towel on cuz I just came out t he bath. I opened the towel 'Get up or not getting any of this for a month' He s lowly got up and went to the bathroom. He came back lively again. 'Im ganna take the kids out for some clothes and stuff and ill leave you and Rak ell to jam' 'Alright then.. but you might wanna leave Lahraya cuz she's teething so she might be abit moany' 'Alright kool' He had just his boxers on and was cr eaming his body. I started smiling and he smiled back. I quickly turned around a nd continued straightening my hair. I put out my side fringe and wore my hair ou t. 'You look nice' He said. 'Thanks' I replied. 'Why you acting so dodgy?' He as ked me. 'Cause I don't wanna look at you' I said still looking away. 'Why not?' He said sounding abit worried. 'I don't wanna look at your body' He started laug hing and stood in front of me creaming his body.. 'Do I turn you on yeh?' He sai d still creaming his body. 'Andre piss off!!' I said laughing he walked back and got dressed. >>Jamming wid Rakell. 'Your house looks peng!' Rakell said getting comfortable. 'Thank you.. Andre fix ed it up with his friends for me' I replied. 'Awww.. so you both together yeh?' 'Yeeh' I said awkwardly. 'Aww don't be afraid to talk to me about this.. I want you to be happy babe' 'Thanks' I said before hugging her. 'I know what we should do'. 'What?' She said getting excited. 'We should invite some of my girls and w e can all jam' 'Sounds good'. I called all my girls and they all came over; Lees ha, Laysha, Stacey, Melika and Neecey. We were all jamming and catching joke and the Andre came in with the kids. They all turned around and looked at him then me and then started smiling. 'Kool Ladies' 'Heey' They all replied. He said, he put the shopping on the floor kissed me on my forehead and then went back to the kitchen. 'O.M.G! What is Andre doing in your yard' Laysha said getting excited. 'Umm hes my hubby' I replied shyly. They all started sreaking. 'Omg.. don't get me wrong Marcus was sexy but Andre is seeexxxyyy!!' Stacey said. 'Lool.. low it man' I said still embrassed. Andre came back in the room. 'Umm tish I could bri ng the kids to my mums yard and I can invite some manz over?' Andre said. 'Yeeh that's kool.. but Rakell got Tanisha' I said. 'I could bring her to my mums' Rak ell said. 'Ohh kool.. Andre get some drinks while your dropping the kids off ple ase' I said and then me and my girls started fixing up our selves and my house. I put on a long tight white and black top with some black leggings and put on my black dolly shoes. Even though I was just in the house I still wanted to look a bit presentable cant have people think Andre's gyal is some state. I put in my h ooped earrings and my girlies sorted out their hair and ting. We turned on some music and not too long after Andre's friends were over. Ive seen a few of them b efore and I knew some of them so I was relaxed and so was everyone else. We all started conversating and drinking and some were bunning (Well everyone except fr om Leesha cuz shes pregz). Since Andre came I noticed Neecey was acting differen

t. 'You alright Neece?' 'Umm.. yeeh im good' 'You sure?' I said not convinced. S he forced out a smile. 'Yeeh im fine just abit tired' 'Ohhk' I said still unsure . We carried on jamming and before I knew it we were all knocked out sleeping. I woke up and I was in my bed on my own. I looked downstairs in the kitchen and s een Andre and Neecey talking. They stopped and looked at me. Andre quickly moved from Neecey and came and kissed me on the forehead. 'You alrite babes' 'Umm yee hh.. what you too talking about?' 'Ummm nothing Neecey just wanted me to drop he r home' 'Ohkk.. well aint you going now?' 'Huh... oh yeeh were going' I looked a t the both suspiciously and then went into the front room where Leesha was. 'You alright tish?' She asked concerned. 'Umm yeh' I said still in deep thought. 'Oh k.. I know your lying and I know when your upset' She said. 'Well.. I might be a cting stupid but remember yesterday when Andre came in I realised Neecey was act ing different.. I asked her why and she said nothings wrong with her and then th is morning I woke up and seen them both talking and when I was asking what they were talking about they both were acting dogy and said nothing' 'Doesn't surpris e me.. Neecey is a sneaky bitch!' Leesha said getting angry. 'So what you think smething is actually going on?' 'I don't know.. but I don't talk to Neecey after I caught her and Keroy lipsing' 'WHAT? Why didn't you tell ,me?!' 'You already had your own problems so I didn't wanna off load you with mines' 'Leesh you're m y bestfriend what hurts you hurts me and your problems are my problems. Don't ev er think that you cant tell me anything no matter what im going through.. so wha t you and Keroy done?' 'Aww thanks babe.. and yeh were done. But its alright me and my baby will be fine. I feel the same that's why WERE ganna get to the botto m of this problem' 'Thanks babe' We hugged and jammed while watching tv. Andre c ame through the door. 'Kool?' He said to us both. 'Hi' Leesha replied I just loo ked at him then turned around. 'Umm I better go' Leesha said while getting her s tuff then leaving. Andre came over to me and kissed me on my forehead, I didn't respond I just sat there watching tv. Shilah and Romario ran in and said hello t o Andre they went back outside and Andre said hello to Lahraya who was in his li ttle chair. 'You alright babe?' Andre said to me. 'Yeh' I said coldly. 'Whats wr ong?' 'Nothing' 'Seriously whats wrong?' 'Nothhing.. infact yeh there is! Why wa s you and Neecey acting so suspicious today?' I asked. 'Suspicious... we wasn't' 'DON'T CHAT SHIT ANDRE WHAT WAS YOU BOTH TALKING ABOUT?' I said getting mad. 'N othing Tish man... the kids are here you know' 'Don't you think I know that?' I replied. 'Nothings going on between me and Neecey' He said but avoiding eye cont act with me. 'Your lying to me' I said. 'Im not' He said still avoiding eye cont act with me and rubbing his head. 'Andre I can read you like a book you rub your head and avoid eye contact when your lying' I said simply, because if I didn't I would have got mad. He didn't say anything he just looked around, I laughed at him. 'KIDS.. COME TIME FOR BED' I shouted They ran upstairs to the bathroom whi le I carried Lahraya upstairs. I washed the kids and put them to bed. Lahraya an d Shilah share a room, I kissed them both good night and then kissed Romario goo d night. I got in the shower, turned on the tv and got into bed. Andre came into the room. 'Tish?' He said softly. I aired him and continued watching tv. He lef t the room and went to the shower. After he came back in and got into bed. 'Tish ?' Andre said looking at me. 'What?' I replied coldly. 'You know I love you init ?' 'No..' I replied. 'I do love you' He said. 'If you love someone you don't lie to them... like how you are. I tell you everything I never lie to you or ive ne ver been unfaithfull. So you don't love me' 'I do love you Tish' He said again. 'Kmt.. no I love you.. you don't love me' I got up grabbed a blanket and went do wnstairs. I was in the sofa and then there was a knock at the door. I slowly got up and answered the door, as I opened the door Andre came down the stairs I loo ked at Andre and screwed him and then looked at who was at the door. It was Neec ey. 'Neecey?' Me and Andre both said at the same time. I looked to the floor to see she had bags with her. 'Umm Tish.. I have no where to go and my man through me out could I stay here for abit?' She said. I looked at her then Andre, he loo ked at me with pleading eyes, as if he was saying 'Say no' I then smiled. 'Sure come in' I said while helping her with her bags. If Andre don't wanna tell me wh ats going on then I will have to find out for myself even if I end up getting hu rt, id rather find out for myself than being told or having to find out by mista

ke. I brushed passed Andre and brought Neecey into the front room. 'You can slee p in the front room theres some blankets here already make your self at home' I said while putting on a fake smile. 'Thank you Tish' 'Its alright babe any day' I lied. I walked upstairs and made my way upstairs as Andre followed behind me. I went into the room and got back into bed. 'Why didn't you ask me if she could stay' Andre asked. 'Ohh I didn't know we told each other anything' I replied. I turned over and went to sleep. In the morning, I woke up and once again Andre wa sn't in bed. The kids were still sleeping. I washed my face and brushed my teeth . I went in the kitchen and no one was there. I slowly and quietly made my way t o the front room door. I could hear them talking. Andre - Just take your bags and GO! Andre said angrily but quietly. Neecey - Im not going anywhere.. and what would I tell Tish if I go Andre - I don't give a fuk just go! Neecey - Im not going without getting what I want Andre - You can have what you want im not like how I used to be I love Tish and no sket's ganna get in the way of that!! Neecet - So are you ganna tell your precious Tish or should i?! I heard someone walking to the door so I pretended to just be walking in. 'Morning guys!' I said acting all cheery. I kissed Andre on the cheek and sat on the sofa. 'So what were you both talking about then? Im starting to think somet hings going on' I said putting on a fake laugh. They both laughed uncomfortably. 'So when you planning on leaving then Neecey?' I asked her. 'Umm im menta be ge tting my own place soon..' 'Ohk. Well hopefully its not too long because if it i s it will be three of us in this relationship' I said laughing again I got up an d went into the kitchen and once again Andre followed. 'Why do you keep followin g me.. Neecey doesn't bite you know.. well I wouldn't know if she does' Andre la ughing and rubbed his head (One of his signs of feeling uncomfortable or if hes lying). 'Why have you changed all of a sudden.. before you wasn't talking to me' 'Well I don't wanna fight maybe I was just acting stupid' I lied. 'I love you T ish' He said before kissing me on the forehead. 'I love me too' I replied, we bo th laughed and I looked into his eyes. I really do love him.. why is he hurting me so much by lying to me. I think he read my emotions through looking into my e yes because his smile faded slowly and he looked at me as if he was begging for remorse. 'Tish..' 'Yeh dre??' 'Ive got something to tell you' He said. 'Likee... ' I replied. 'Basically-' He was interrupted by Neecey walking in, we both looke d at her, she was only wearing a towel. 'I don't know how to use the shower.. ho w do I turn it on?' She asked. 'Press the on button' Andre said rudely. 'Oh I di dn't see it' She said 'Andre why don't you go show her?' I asked. 'Because its n ot hard to see.. unless shes as stupid as she looks' Andre said angrly. 'Andre.. don't be so rude' I said trying not to laugh. 'Its alright' She said before wal king out and going upstairs. 'What was you saying babe?' I said to Andre. 'I don 't want this to ruin our relationship.. but before I tell you anything just know that I love you and I never wanted to hurt you' My heart dropped as if I was on a roller coaster and I prepared myself to hear what he had to say through takin g a deep breath. 'Andre just say it' 'Before me and you got together me and Neec ey done a ting... well basically I sexed her and that's it. And then the next th ing I know shes in here cause your both friends. Then when you went bed she made a move on me and when I rejected her she was saying how shes ganna tell you bou t us and say that we both beat again.. when I never!' 'So.. that's what you want ed to tell me?' 'Yeh..' 'All of it?' 'Yeh' 'So why didn't you tell me from the s tart? I asked you what was going on but you lied and said nothing.. obviously I know that you've done a ting with other girls. You should have just told me' 'Ye h I know but I didn't want you to assume something out of something else' 'I wou ldn't have.. Andre when I said I love you I really mean it' 'I love you too' We kissed and then I went to walk towards the door. 'Where you going' Andre asked. 'You didn't really think she was ganna get away with this' I walked into the fro nt room and grabbed her bags and through them outside in the rain. 'Andre.. I ne ed you to do me a favour.. go knock on the door and pretend that you wanna talk to her' I intrusted Andre. He knocked on the bathroom door. 'Yeeh?' Neecey shout

ed from the bathroom. 'Its Andre open the door' She quickly opened the door and seen both of us standing there she had her bra and pants on. I grabbed her by th e hair and dragged her downstairs. 'Tish what you doing?' She squealed as I drag ged her by her hair. I through her out the house and she dropped on the floor. ' Don't come near any of us again your lucky this is all you got!! I said getting ready to shut the door. 'Well you cant keep me away from Andre for ever.. I wasn 't far from getting him the over night.. and I always get what I want' She said while smirking. My blood was boiling and I was getting angrier by the second.. I looked at her and laughed. 'Your pathetic.. the only reason why Im not fuking y ou up right now is because I got kids in the house and you don't get what you wa nt because I got him.. not you.. me' I replied. 'Yeeh but I had him before so wh at makes you think you I couldnt get him again.. and plus hell get tried of play ing happy families and hell leave you.. just like Marcus did.. who wants a gyal with 2 kids' She said while smirking. I was past angry and I wasn't ganna just s tand there and let her talk to me like that. She was still sat on the floor so I kicked her in the stomach. She held her stomach while gasping for air. I grabbe d her hair and started hitting her head on the pavement. Andre rushed over and t ook carried me inside. 'Neecey you might be a gyal but I aint fraid to fuk up a sket.. leave us alone' Andre said before slamming the door. I walked into the fr ont room and sat down with my head in my hands trying to calm down. Romario came to me, 'mum can I have a chocolate please' He said. 'Romario not now..' I said quietly. 'But I want a chocolate' He said starting to get into a tantrum. 'Romar io I said not now' I said firmly. 'I WANT A CHOCOLATE' He shouted. This was the wrong time and day to be pissing me off I thought. 'I SAID NO ROMARIO FOR FUK SA KE' I shouted at him. 'Romario go to your room while I talk to your mummy' Andre said, Romario made his way upstairs in a strop. 'Tish?' Andre said. 'Yeh?' I re plied. 'You alright?' 'Yeeh im over the moon' I said sarcastically. 'Don't tell me your listening to what that sket is saying' 'Its true though.. im 17 with kid s and you will find someone prettier more free and someone that tie me down and then leave me' I said bursting into tears, Andre came and hugged me. 'Tish.. the res so many girls out there that is not as responsible as you.. you took in you ex's child and made him your own even though your both not together. Your bringi ng up Lahraya on your own practically and you treat Shilah just like shes your o wn daughter. Your independent and you get on with life and your bareee pretty.. ive never seen someone prettier than you.. I would pick you over Ashanti any day and you know how I love her off' I started laughing abit. 'And trus you aint ga nna get rid of me.. me you and the kids are my future and I wouldn't change that for anything' He finished, I felt happier and reassured. 'Thank you baby... I l ove you' We kissed for abit. 'I better go make up with Romario' I said getting u p. I went into the kitchen and got a chocolate bar for him. I went into his room to see him sulking again. 'Romario.. I got you something' He looked at me and s lowly walked towards me. He took the chocolate out my hand and then sat back dow n. 'Are you my friend yet?' 'Umm.. yeh' He said smiling on a sly. 'Can I have a hug then?' He ran and hugged him. 'Im sorry and I love you' I said. 'Love you to o mummy'. >>2 WEEKS LATER- 18TH BIRTHDAY!!!<< Its my 18th birthday and the kids were at my mums and I was having a shubz at my yard. Ive started college and life is greeaatt at the moment. I got bare presen ts epically from Andre.. he said there was one more left but I couldn't see till later in the night. It was now 9pm and the house was pacccked out already. I ha d on a grey boob tube with some over high silver shoes with a silver necklace br acelet earring and ring set Andre brought me. I curled my hair in ringlets with a front fringe. I was dancing with my girls and Andre took me outside. 'Andre it s called out here' I complained. 'Well im giving you your birthday present' 'Ohh ' I said getting excited. I looked around to see what it was. 'Where is it' I sa id confused. 'Look around and you tell me' He replied. I looked around to see th e simplest and most noticeable thing but I just couldn't see what it could be. ' I cant see anything..' I said getting agitated but not in a angry way. 'Oh mayb this will help you find it' Andre said while handing me some car keys. A huge sm ile grew across my face. 'You serious..' I said smiling 'Yee press the button an

d the car that flashes is yours' 'Ohhk' I pressed the button and the lights to a black PEENGG!! BMW flashed. I knew he got me a car.. but I wasn't expecting a B MW! I jumped on Andre and started kissing him. 'Thank you thank you I love you s o much' He laughed and I ran to the car. I sat down in there the seats were whit e and leather and bare comfy. 'Omgg!!' I kept saying over and over again. 'You l ike?' Andre asked. 'Naa I LOVE IT' I said smiling bare. 'But hold on I cant driv e' I said abit disappointed. 'Well that's what this is for' Andre said while ope ning the glove compartment and putting a envelope in my lap. I opened it a lette r confirming paid driving lessons. 'Andre I actually love you so much man' I sai d kissing him again. We got out the car and went back to the party. After a very live party everyone went. 'Sooo...' I said to Andre giving him a horny smile, h e smiled back. 'You could either help me tidy up or we could go upstairs' I said . 'Upstairs' He said while pulling me upstairs. 'Anyways I hired a cleaner for t omorrow morning' He said while opening the bedroom door. 'Cleaner? Didn't even k now you could do dat' I replied. 'With me anything is possible'. He said. He too k off my dress, while I took off his clothes and we made sweet love. >>The next morning. << Andre was still sleeping I jumped in the shower and put on a tracksuit. Andre st arted waking up. 'You alright princess?' He asked while sitting up. 'Yeeh im gre at' I said smiling and then I clocked onto something. 'Andre! Memba when I told you to get me the pill the other day... did you get it' 'Ohh shiit sorry I forgo t' 'OMG I didn't take it and its been like 2weeks and the last night we had sex without a condom.. like I keep saying I am NOT having another baby' 'Well you co uld go doctors soon init' 'Yeh' I replied I then put my hair into a bun and went to the door to go downstairs. 'What don't you want us to ever have kids?' He as ked. 'Yeeh mayb in the future but now would be too much' I replied I then walked downstairs. The house was really messy.. I hope the cleaners coming soon I thou ght to myself. ' I was just about to start tidying up but then the door knocked. I opened it to see some random woman at the door. 'Yeh?' I said confused. 'Are you miss brown?' 'Maybe who are you?' I replied. 'Im Margret Jones.. from social services. Can I have a word with you' She said trying to take a step into the h ouse. 'Sorry.. what you here for?' I said blocking the door. 'I need to have a w ord with you about Romario' 'Well Romario is at my mums and the house is a state .. I had a party because it was my birthday so could you come another time?' 'Ye eh will later on today be alrite?' She asked. 'Yeh I guess' 'Ohk goodbye' She sa id I shut the door and slowly made my way to the kitchen. 'ANDRE!!!' I shouted. 'Yeeh?' He replied while coming downstairs. 'A woman from social services just c ame here?' 'WTF? Why' He said shocked. 'Something about Romario?? I don't know' I said still in shock. 'Its probz nothing babe.. are they coming back?' He asked . 'Yeh later on today' I said. 'Ohk.. well the person that's menta be cleaning t he house is coming soon ill go get the kids. You get everything sorted ' He said . >> Few hours later<< The house was clean, the kids were here and everything was ready the door knocke d, my heart dropped as if I was on a roller coaster. I opened the door and let t he woman in. We went into the front room. 'Soo why you here?' I asked her. 'Well .. we have had a call from someone of the name Neecey Renton... she has told us she has concerns about Romario' 'Concerns what type of concerns?' I said shocked confused and angry. 'She told my colleague that you neglect Romario' 'Neglect?! I have never neglected Romario or caused any harm to him. Neecey used to be one of my friends but we had a argument, so we now we don't talk. She is doing this for revenge' I said almost in tears. 'Ohk.. I have to ask these questions.. isi t true that Romario isn't your biological son?' She asked, but in a soft tone. ' No he isn't.. but I treat him just like my own' I replied. 'So he is your ex's s on' 'Yeh' 'Well I see you live in a stable home, with a good environment and you look as if you are coping well' She said. 'So who do you live with?' She said w hile writing down a few things. 'My boyfriend Andre his daughter and my daughter ' She started writing something else down. 'Quite a full house.. do you work?' ' No im at college at the moment' 'Does you partner work?' 'Umm yeeh' I lied. 'Ohk .. how old are you' '18' 'What yesterday?' 'Yes' I replied. She wrote down a few

more notes. 'Well that's all the questions for now.. you are quite young but yo u look as if you are coping well.. I can tell Romario is happy and there are no obvious or noticeable issues. I have spoken to you ex partner and he is happy to give you custody of Romario. It would be for the best that you adopt Romario to avoid any further complications. You are now 18 so it is possible' 'Ohh kaay.. I would like to do that then' 'Ohkay I will get that sorted for you. I will be d oing monthly for 4 months' 'Ohkay then' 'One more thing we will need Romario's b iological mother to sign Romario over to you too' 'Oh..' 'Well that's it for now .. I will keep in contact' She shook my hand and then left. Andre came back into the room. 'How did it go?' He said with a worried face. 'Well I think' I explai ned everything to him. >>The next day<< I woke up and got ready for college. I had on some black skinny jeans a red tshi rt and red dolly shoes with simple accessories. Andre takes care of the kids whi le I am at college. I kissed them all goodbye and made my way to college. I catc h the bus to college. Ive made a new friend while going there, shes call Keri sh e mixed race with peng curley hair. She's doing a ting with one of Andre's frien ds called Luke which we found shocking at the time lol. She has a baby too shes 3 and called Ciara. I met Keri on the bus because shes a few stops before me. We got to college and a few hours later we finished. After college we decided to g o Mcd's. It was packed out. We passed everyone and went to the line. We got our food and sat on a table. We were talking and catching joke and then 2 boys came and sat next to us on the table. 'Can I help you?' Keri said rudely. 'You alread y have' The boy sitting next to keri said. 'What you on about?' She said rudely again. 'Fiesty.. well me and my friend were like.. I haven't seen a proper sexy gyal in time! And then we just seen you' 'OMG ISIT' keri replied sarcastically. 'Your rude aint you' He said. 'Isit.. oops' She said before taking a sip of her drink. I started laughing on a sly. 'What you saying then sexy?' The boy sitting next to me said. 'Nothing' I said plainly. 'Soo... whats a sexy gyal like you d oing today?' 'Umm.. something your not mate' I replied. 'You gyal gwane too stoo sh, I cant tek gyal that act stoosh' The boy sitting next to Keri said. 'We cant take boys that love beg gyal' I replied seriously. 'We aint begging gyal' The b oy next to me said. 'If you say so' Keri said. We all sat there in silence for a bit. 'Well.. whats your names den?' The boy next to Keri said. 'I just wanna kno w we go to the same college so we might as well get to know each other' He said. 'We do?' I said confused. 'Yeh you gyal do the childcare course' The boy next t o me said. 'What you stalking us now?' Keri said. 'Naaa just seen you and some g yals told us' 'Oh.. well we got a man so theres no point trying' Keri said. 'Ohh .. sad times.. well we could be friends doh' The boy next to me said. 'Well I gu ess we can.. Im Letisha' 'And im Keri' 'Kool kool nice names' The boy next to me replied. 'Thanks.. so whats your names?' I asked. 'Well my names Jake aka Jay a nd his names Calvin aka Cal' The boy next to me said. 'Ohk den' I said. It was s ilent for abit, then I started laughing. 'Whats so funny?' Keri asked me. 'Don't you find it joke how we were boying them off and now were exchanging names' I s aid still laughing, they joined me. 'Well ladies... were off.. see you both at c ollege tomorrow?' Jake said. 'We only go once a week' 'Ohh kool well well ssee y ou next week?' 'Yeh.. well lets go Tish' Keri said. They walked us to the bus st op and we were catching joke all the way. We got on the bus. 'There quite joke i nit' I said. 'Yeeh man'She replied. 'So you going home now?' 'Yeeh' 'Ohhk you co uld come round mines with Luke and Ciara if you want' 'Yeeh sounds good lemi jus t ring him' Keri called Luke and we both made our way to mines. Andre was there with the kids Shilah and Romario ran to me and hugged me. I said hello and then gave little Lahraya a kiss. Shes now saying mummy she sounds soo cute. 'What you saying sexy' Andre said hugging me from behind. 'Hello baby' I said turning aro und and hugging. We started kissing. 'Ugghh guys get a room' Keri said acting ch ildish. 'Ohh shut up' I said. 'What you saying Keri?' Andre said to her. 'Nuttin g much Dre.. what you saying' She replied while taking the remote and getting co mfortable in the sofa. 'Nuttin man.. so is Luke coming over?' 'Yeeh hes just get ting Ciara from his mums' 'Oh kool kool'. Romario went over to Keri and sat next to her. 'Whats your name?' He asked her. 'Keri.. you know like Keri hilson' 'Ye

h my dad finks she peng.. do you know my name' Romario answered. Me and Keri sta rted laughing 'Yeeh Romario..your mummy tells me about you' 'Cause im special.. neway im gone bye bye' He said before running off. 'Yeeh that's my strange son' I said laughing. I then hit Andre in his chest. 'bout Keri hilson is peng' He ru bbed his chest and laughed. 'Ohh yeeh guess what Lahraya did today?' Andre said excited 'What..' 'She called me Daddy' He said grinning teeth. 'Aww my baby shes growing up!' I said getting emotional. Luke and Ciara came the kids played whil e we jammed. It got late so Keri and Ciara and Luke left. Me and Andre put the k ids to bed and jammed downstairs. We started lipsing and stuff then Andre starte d moving his hands around my body. 'Noo not tonight Dre' 'Whyy you on your reds? ' 'No.. I haven't been on this month' I said casually. I then clocked what I sai d and we both looked at each other with a small shocked face expression. 'Um.. I ll go doctors tomorrow' 'Why you going doctors?' Andre said. 'I wanna get the pi ll from there' 'You want me to come too?' 'Umm yeeh' 'Ohh yeh tomorrow Nicoles m ans coming over cause I forgot bout him coming Sunday' 'Ohk.. we'll go doctors i n the morning and then Nicole and her man can come over'. 'And my mum wants the kids over' 'What to sleep' 'Yeeh' 'Ohkaay.. Andre..' 'Yeeh' 'Carry me upstairs p lease im tired' He carried me upstairs and threw me on the bed. He started licki ng his lips seductively. 'Ohk thanks for that night' I said while >>The next day - At the doctors<< Doctor: So what's brought you here then Letisha? Me: I think I might be pregnant Doctor: Ohhk.. So you had unprotected sex? Me: Umm yeeh about 3 or 4 weeks ago I did and about a week ago Doctor: Is this your partner (He said looking at Andre) Me: Yeeh Doctor: Any signs that you could be pregnant? Me: No apart from not coming on my period this month Doctor: Ohk take this test and then we will see you results in a matter of minut es I took the test and sat waiting for the results. Andre held my hand. Doctor: Soo... your test results show you are... not pregnant I was relieved and I think Andre was too. Me: would it be possible if I could have the pill Doctor: Yeh sure ill right you a percription >> Back at home -Nicole and her boyfriend, Orayne round our house for dinner<< Since Orayne and Nicole came over Andres just been screwing Orayne. We were at t he dinner and Andre was just looking at Orayne giving him some evil screws. 'Umm soo.. Orayne what do you want to be in the future?' I asked him. 'I wanna be a footballer' He replied. 'Pfftt..' Andre said. I nudged him under the table. 'Is there a problem Andre?' Nicole asked Andre. 'Yeeh there is' 'Well it was your de cision to have this dinner ting so you could at least make an effort' Nicole sai d getting abit frustrated. Andre just kissed his teeth and carried on eating. It was just me and Nicole and Orayne talking Andre jus sat there in silence screwi ng. We finished eating and Andre collected everyones plates apart from Oraynes. I picked up Oraynes plate and followed Andre into the kitchen. 'You are pissing me off stop acting so immature man' I said. 'I don't care I don't like him' 'Hav e you given him the chance?' I hissed under my teeth. 'Kmt. I aint giving him a chance' He replied. 'Well don't then just know its ganna be you that suffers' I said while walking out the kitchen. 'How am I ganna suffer?' He said while follo wing me out of the kitchen. 'Wait and see' I sat in the front room with Orayne a nd Nicole and Andre sat next to me. 'I understand why you don't like me.. I got a little sister too and I don't want her to have a man. But I wouldn't hurt Nico le on purpose. You might think were too young but I do love Nicole and Im ganna make her happy... now and the future' Orayne said to Andre. 'Awww' Me and Nicole said at the same time. Orayne looked down embarrassed. Andre cracked a little s mile but tried not to make it obvious. 'Well.. you best look after her or youll have me to answer to' Andre said. 'So does dat mean you approve?' Nicole said ge tting excited. 'Ahh.. yeeh. But fuck about and I will kill you!' We all laughed except Andre when we realised he wasn't joking we stopped, Orayne looked shook.

'Naa I promise I wont hurt her' Andre and Orayne spudded each other. 'Awwwwww th is is so cute... soon its ganna be Shilah and Lahraya' I joked. Andre's face dro pped, he looked both scared and angry. 'Only joking' I said while creasing. 'Lah raya and Shilah aint having a baby till their 30!' He said, I could tell he wasn 't joking. 'What bout Romario?' Nicole asked. 'He can have a gyal when he wants I can tell hes ganna be a gyalis.. like me. Hes already got 3 girlfriends at nur sery' Andre said feeling proud. I lightly tapped him at the back of his head. 'G yalis my ass' I said. We all made convo until it got late Andre dropped Orayne a nd Nicole home. He came back into the house. 'Babes I gotta go out' Andre said. 'Where?' 'To sort out some business' 'Like...' 'Some business.. ill be back late r' 'Yeh whateva' He ran upstairs and came back downstairs all blacked out. He lo oked really sexy but scarey at the same time. 'Where you going like that?' I ask ed confused. 'I told you I gotta sort out some business Tish' 'So you keep sayin g but I don't know what kinda business your on about. You don't have a propa job to be doing business!' I replied. 'I cant talk about this now.. Well talk when I get home' He said while putting a balaclava over his mouth. He pulled it down and came over to me and kissed me on my forehead. 'I love you tish.. you know th at init' 'Hmm.. yeh' 'Do you love me?' He asked. 'Yeeh' 'Say it' 'What' 'That yo u love me?' 'I love you' He kissed me passionately and then kissed me on the for ehead and then left. I was sitting there both worried and confused. Why was he a cting so weird, where was he going and was he in any danger or coming back. >> The next morning<< I woke up on the sofa after waiting for Andre to come home.. which he never. I h ad to go get the kids from Andre's mums house so I got up washed and got dressed into a purple long cardigan with a black vest top under it and black tights and purple dolly shoes. I put in some purple studs and a necklace with a purple stu d. I combed my hair into a neat pony tail. I couldn't eat because I was so worri ed so I left out and went to Lidia's house. I got there and got the kids ready t o go. 'Wheres Andre then?' Lidia asked. 'I actually don't know.. he went somewhe re last night and he hasn't come back' 'Isit.. that's abit strange' 'Yeh I know' 'Have you tried ringing him?' 'Yeh and his phones switched off' 'Ohh..' 'Im sur e hes alright you know Andre' I said putting on a brave face. I left the house a nd was walking home. 'Mum can we see Auntie Rakell?' Romario asked. 'Umm that's if she's here.. only for abit though' I replied. We made our way to Rakell's (Sh e got her own house now) and thankfully she was there. 'Heey Kelly' 'Tiissshh!!' she said while hugging me. Rakell let us in and we made my way into the house a nd said hello to little Tanisha. 'Soo what you guys up to den' She asked me. 'I was going home... but mr Romario wanted to come here' I replied. 'Aww well he lo ves his auntie don't he' She said while rubbing his head. 'Kids go into the play room a minute I need to talk to your mummy' Rakell said. Shilah and Romario mad e their way to the playroom while Tanisha and Lahraya played together. 'Whats up babe?' I asked Rakell. 'Umm.. Marcus is staying here for abit' She said. 'Ohh.. why's he staying here?' 'Well.. basically Antasia's baby.. isn't Marcus's' 'What the hell..thats deep. How did he find out?' 'You know when you and him was toge ther and they was menta take a DNA test.. well she did take one and she found ou t the baby wasn't the dad.. but she told Marcus he was the dad and Marcus didn't ask for any proof. But Antasia didn't throw away the results like a idiot and M arcus found them' 'Ohh wow' 'Yeeh and Marcus is ina state bout it.. he keeps tal king about how he messed things up with you for good and how much money he spent on the baby and Antasia' 'Well.. wow... I don't even know what to say' I said s hocked. 'Don't worry you don't need to say anything...Marcus isn't your problem any more unfortunately he's mines now' 'Don't worry babe hell sort out him self soon. And your not the only one with a problem at the moment' 'What you mean?' ' Andre.. last night he went out to sort out business and he hasn't been home sinc e. And he was acting all weird and was telling me how he loved me and if I loved him. And ive tried ringing him but his phones off' 'Oh. Wow' 'I know' 'This bri ngs back memories of when Tanisha's dad died.. not trying to scare you but that' s exactly how he was acting before he left... and then the next day I found out he was dead' She said with tears in her eyes. I sat there in silence and shock. I was soo scared at the thought something could of happened to him. 'That doesn'

t mean anything has happened to him. Maybe he slept at his friends house because it was too late and his battery died' She said. 'I hope so' I said. 'Umm im gan a go home to see if he is back' I said while getting my things and getting the k ids ready. 'Ring me and tell me whats going on alrite' We hugged and then we lef t. I walked home in silence, while the kids had their own conversations. We got home and Andre wasn't there. I cooked dinned and then later on put the kids to b ed. I made a bed downstairs in case Andre came back home. I fell asleep and then woke up in the morning, It was around 6am and Andre still wasn't home. I sat up and started crying. I was really worried, everything Rakell said to kept going round in my head. I cant be with out him.. I love him and need him. I sat down c rying and drifted back to sleep. I was woken up by Shilah. 'Morning' I said whil e she climbed into the sofa with me. 'Morning.. wheres my daddy?' 'Umm.. hes jus t gone away for abit' 'Where?' 'It's a secret' I lied. 'Ohh' She said buying my lie. We drifted off to sleep and then Romario came downstairs. 'Wheres daddy?' H e asked. 'Hes gone away.. but it's a secret place' Shilah said. 'Ohh.. aint we g oing nursery school today mummy?' 'Umm yeeh go run the bath' I said they both go t in the bath and then I washed Lahraya and then took the kids to school. I got back home with Lahraya and just jammed and watched tv. We were both dozing off a nd going to sleep then there was a knock at the door. I got up lazily and opened the door. Andre was standing there. 'Andre?' I said surprised. I looked at him shocked and then slapped him in the face. He just hugged me tightly while I crie d in his arms. I pushed him off me. 'Why the fuck am I crying? And where the fuk have you been?!' I said. 'Ive been in a prison cell for the past few days' 'A w hat?' 'Prison cell..' 'I heard what you said why?' 'Ill explain everything to yo u when I come out the bath' 'Kmt' He went upstairs and no too long after he came back downstairs. 'Are you going to explain yet?' 'Yehh..basically.. the other n ight there was some beef with my man dem and some manz from some next ends. I ha d to go there and help init and one of my mans got shot. The police came arreste d me and some other mans and that's where I have been for the past few days' 'Oh k... hold on.. YOU went and left me and the kids to go fight some mans who had a guns and got arrested' 'Yeh..' 'You're a joke' I said while getting up and maki ng my way to the bedroom. He followed behind me. 'Im sorry Tish I couldn't help this happening.. you knew I was in a click when we got together... this is what happens sometimes' 'Andre I knew you was in a click but I didn't think you would be stupid enough to put your self in danger like that. I don't think you unders tand how worried ive been wondering where you were and what happened to you!' 'T ish im sorry..' 'Your not though' 'I am.. but Tish this is my life. This is what ive been doing since I was 13. This how I provide for my family. I cant even ge t a normal job cause I got a criminal record. But I wont never let anything happ en like this again.. I love you and the kids too much to let anything like this happen again' 'You promise?' 'Yehh.. I promise' He held his hands out for me to hug him. I hugged him and then we started kissing. We ended up on the bed and co ntinued kissing. He pulled away. 'You know you said you missed me' He said smili ng. 'Yeeh...' 'How much did you miss me?' He said while putting his hands behind his head. I started laughing. 'I missed you but your not getting what you want your still in my bad books for leaving me for 2days!! And Lahraya's still downst airs' He tried giving me puppy eyes. I just laughed and made my way downstairs. Andre went to pick the kids up from school. 'Ohh yeeh you went away to a secret place' 'Huh?' He said confused. 'I told the kid you went away to a secret place' 'Ohh' He started laughing and then left. He came back with the kids who were ex cited. 'Daddys back!' They both shouted. 'Look we got presents' They said bringi ng out two big toys. 'And heres one for my little baby' He said giving Lahraya a toy. 'And heres one for my wifey' He gave me a box. I opened it and it was a ne cklace with a heart pendant that said I love you tish on it. 'Aww thanks you' I said getting up and hugging him. He put it on me and then for the rest of the da y we all jammed like a propa family. 'Ohh yeeh I forgot I was menta ring Rakell' I started looking for it but I couldn't find it. 'I think ive left my phone at Rakell's im ganna go get it' 'Alrite kool.. could you do my hair when you come b ack?' I went and put on some shoes and a coat and then made my way to Rakell's. It was raining. I really cant wait to drive, thinking about driving I got my dri

ving lesson tomorrow. I thought to my self while walking in the rain. I knocked on the door and waited I was just about to knock again but the door opened. I lo oked up exspecting to see Rakell but it wasn't her it was Marcus. 'Oh shit' I sa id quietly. 'Ohh Tish..you alright?' 'Umm yeeh.. is Rakell here?' 'Naa shes gone out' 'Ohh..' 'Could I help you wid sumting?' 'Yeeh I left my phone dere but its alright ill come back for it later' I said while avoiding eye contact with him. 'You might as well come for it you already come all this way' 'Umm.. alrite' I walked in and he followed behind. I went into the front room and my phone was on the table. I went to turn around and Marcus was standing behind me. 'Excuse me. .' I said while moving away from him. He pulled me gently by my arm and our eyes locked. 'You still so beautiful' He said looking into my eyes. I went to walk o ff but he pulled me gently by my arm. I was now looking into his face. His face came closer and closer to mines. - T + Letisha - The world of my own Part 6 of 11 I could feel his breath gently hiting my lips. 'Get away from me' I said while p ushing him off. 'Tish-' He said just about to talk. 'No you listen! Im with Andr e.. ME AND YOU ARE OVER! DO YOU UNDERSTAND ME OVER!' I grabbed my phone and walk ed out the house before he could say anything else. I couldn't believe I nearly let that happen. I walked home with tears slowly falling down my face. I was fee ling so confused. Why did I even let that happen? What if it happened? I got hom e and wiped my face. Andre was in the front room holding Lahraya. 'You alrite ba bes' He said while looking at me concerned. 'Umm.. yeeh. Why is she down here?' I said trying to change the subject. 'Cause she was crying so I brought her down here' He said getting up to bring her upstairs. He brought her upstairs then ca me back into the front room where I was sitting. 'So whats up then?' He asked me while sitting next to me. 'nothing' I replied, while staring in to space. 'Tish whats wrong?' 'Nothing... just abit tired' 'Ohk... u too tired to do my hair?' 'Naa come here then' I said making a seat on the floor between my legs. He sat d own and I done his hair. When I finished he got up checked it out and smiled. I could tell he was satisfied. 'Don't you think I look sexy?' He said showing off his hair. 'Lool shut up' 'Thank you babes' He said kissing me on the forehead. H e moved down to my lips and started kissing me while pushing me back towards the sofa. I was now laying on my back and Andre was kissing me all over. He started removing my top. And kissing around my belly, trailing his tounge around my bre ast and stomach. He took off my trousers and started rubbing me through my pants . 'Andre... were in the front room..' I managed to say through deep breaths. 'Do n't worry babes.. the kids are sleeping.' 'Yeeh but they could wake up' I said b reathing heavily and slowly. He removed my pants and I was now naked. He took of f his clothes and started kissing me on my neck. 'Were ganna try do something ne w today' He said smiling. 'New? I aint giving you head!' 'Lool naa not dat' He s aid while getting up. 'You aint ganna lick me out are you' I said surprised. 'Na a neva dat' He quickly replied 'Ohh.. what then'. He started doing his dirty gri n. He put one of my legs on the top of the sofa and the other so it is hanging o ff the sofa. 'Andre what you..' Before I could finish my sentence he slowly put his tings is me. I let out a moan. He took it out then gently put it back in. He put it back in again and then kept put it in faster and faster. I held on to th e sofa gripping tighter and tighter. He came and then collapsed ontop of me. He rolled over and we were both breathing heavily. After we got our breath he start ed smiling again. 'What now?' I said looking at him suspiciously. 'You wanna try doggy?' I started smiling bare. 'Yeeh come' I went on all fours and it didn't t ake him long before he pushed it in me. He started moving faster and faster I wa s finding it difficlt to stay on all fours. I started screaming his name. It fel t so good but I couldn't take it. 'Ahhh Andre' I screamed. He kept putting it in . 'Ommgg I cant take it anymore' Just as I said that he bussed and so did I, I f ell on my back and he joined me. We both calmed down and he looked at me and smi led.'Your too much Tish' He said smiling. 'I know I know' I said laughing. He ra

ndomly started sucking my nipple. After moaning and bussing Andre picked me up a nd put me on the bed.' Wait here I'm going to make you a bath' He set me a bath, we both went in together then he washed me and the took me into the bedroom and creamed and dressed me. 'Andre.. why you being so nice?' I asked suspiciously. 'I just wanna treat my wifey and I have to make it up to you after leaving you f or 2days' 'Ohh alrite then' Knowing that he was being so nice and that he was so perfect made me feel even worse. Even though I didn't kiss Marcus I was close t o doing it. Does that make me a horrible person? Andre kissed me on my forehead and then he fell asleep while I stayed awake thinking. I didn't kiss him. I told him to stop. And I put him striaght.. I guess things aint as bad as it seems th en. I went to bed confidently knowing that things are ganna be ohk. >> The next morning << I woke up to the smell of breakfast. I smiled. I got up went in the bath put som e house clothes on and made my way to the kitchen where Andre and the kids were. I smiled at all of them eating on the table. 'Morning' I said to them all. 'Mor ning' They all said. 'Your foods on the side' Andre said. 'Thank you' I ate then too my pill and then jammed with the kids for abit. I then decided to ring Lees ha. Leesha: Hey babe Me: Heey Leesha: Hows things then? Me: Surprising they are brillent Leesha: Good So you got the Neecey thing sorted then? Me: OMG I forgot I need to sort out that bitch I said getting angry. Leesha: What happened Tish? I explained the story with Neecey and she got just as mad as me Me: Im ganna go sort her out today. Where she staying? Leesha: Last time I heard she was living with Ricardo Me: WTF Ricardo.. What a state is that how low shes gone Leesha: Yeeh... cant get no better no one talks to her and everyone calls her a sket. This might seem evil but I was happy from the fact Neecey was suffering. Ricardo was one trampy boy that you could call a man hore! He sleeps with any gyal and I heard hes had a few STI's. I started laughing. Leesha: I should come with you and fuk her up Me: Naa babe your pregnant.. I can sort dis out. Whens your scan then? Leesha: Next Tuesday Me: Ohh alrite then.. you excited Leesha: Yuup. Would my babies Godmother want to come with me to see what im havi ng Me: Yeeh! Course I said getting excited. Leesha: Alritee then good She said getting excited too. Me: Well im ganna go to Ricardo's house for Neecey. Ill ring you when I get home . Leesha: Alrite keep safe babe. Love you Me: Love you too Just as I said that Andre walked in. I hanged up the phone and Andre looked at m e suspiciously. 'Oh don't worry that's my bit on the side' I said to him, his face dropped. 'Onl y joking babes loool its Leesha' He started smiling again. 'I knew that anyways' He lied. 'Well im going out quickly watch the kids please' I said while running upstairs to put some clothes on. He followed me into the room. 'Where you going ' He asked.'Umm.. business' I replied, just like he would. 'Naa real talk.. wher e you going' He asked again. 'Ricardo's.. to find Neecey'I said while putting on my jeans. 'What you want Neecey for?' 'You think she was ganna get away with ca lling social services on me?!' I said getting angrier. 'Don't worry bout that I can sort it' He said. 'Noo I need to do this for myself' I said putting my hair

into a pony tail. 'You want me to come.' 'Naa its alrite babe ill be alrite' I z ipped up my hoddy and put on my dolly shoes. I kissed him on the cheek and then kissed the kids goodbye. 'You sure you don't want me to come?' He said worried. 'Noo ill be alrite'. He kissed me on the forehead and told me to ring him if I n eeded him. Anyone would think im going to fight in the war lol. I jumped on the bus and went to Ricardo's house. He lives in one estate with bareee flats. I kno w where he lives because back in the day, when he wasn't so trampy me, Leesha an d our other friends from school used to jam and bun at his house. Ricardo's alwa ys liked me but he just wasn't or isn't my type. I knocked on the door and Ricar do opened it. He started grinning teet. 'Soo you finally want piece of the Ric' He said smiling and going to hug me. 'Noo im not here for you.. wheres Neecey' I asked stepping into his house. 'Neecey? Why you want her? And shes upstairs in the bedroom still' He said. I didn't answer him I just made my way to the bedroo m and burst the door. She looked a state. Karma is actually a bitch. I started s miling and she looked at me worried and shocked.'Hello Neecey.. you miss me' I s aid while slowly walking towards her. 'What you doing here Tish?' She said while stuttering. 'ITS LETISHA!! You think you could call social services on me and g et away with it' I was now standing in her face and I could sense the fear in he r eyes. 'Are you scared... well good you should be cuz im gana turn your shit ov er' Before she could reply I slapped her in her head. She fell back on the bed. 'You know social services nearly took Ricardo away' I said punching her in the f ace. She tried getting up to hit me back but stopped when she looked in my eyes and seen I was mad. I continued punching and slapping her up. She tried hitting me back so I dragged her by her hair and threw her into the wardrobe. I turned a round to see Ricardo filming me beating her up. 'Wtf aint you ganna help your ch ick?' I asked him. 'Naa.. she aint my gyal she just fucks me so she can stay her e' I started laughing. 'Well tell your sket to stay away from me and my family!' I walked out and went home. When I got thereabout 30mins later Andre was sittin g down on the sofa looking at his phone. He was laughing. 'Whats so funny?' I as ked him while sitting next to him. I looked at the phone and it was the video of me beating up Neecey.'Oh shit the fool sent it to people' I said while laughing . 'Woow you fucked her up man' Andre said laughing. 'Is dat how I look when im a ngry?' I asked surprised. 'Yeeh.. sexy init?' 'Lool naa I look scarey lool'. 'Wh eres the kids?' I asked while looking around. 'My mums' 'How comes?' 'Were going shopping' 'Are we?' I said excited. 'Yehh.. go get ready den' He said. I ran up stairs and we both got dressed into some slick clothes. I was wearing a black ve st top and high waist skinny jeans with some black gladiator shoes. I put on my necklace from Andre. Hooped silver earrings and some silver bangles. I combed my hair into a pony tail with a front fringe. Andre was wearing some baggy jeans a black tshirt and a open black shirt, with black vanz. 'You look sexy' He said a dmiring what I was wearing. 'So do you' I said watching what he was wearing. 'Co me lets go before I get even more tempted. I started laughing and we made our wa y to the car. 'Were ganna go shopping then im taking you out for dinner' He said and then we started our journey. >>1month later<< Today was our last visit from social services. And the day I past my driving tes t. We just got the kids to bed and Me and Andre were just jamming as usual. And then there was a knock at the door. 'Do you wanna get it' I asked Andre. 'Naa' H e said relaxing. 'Lazy shit' I said while getting up towards the door. I opened it to see Marcus. 'Oh my days.. what now?'I said while looking at him. 'Ive come here to talk to you' 'About.. why don't you call before you come to my house' ' You don't answer my calls and its about Romario' 'What about him?' 'His mum want him back' 'His what?' 'I tried everyting to prevent it but she said she wants h im back' He said. 'Whos at the door?' Andre shouted from the front room. 'Come i n' I said to Marcus. He came in and Andre looked at us both. 'Whys he in here?' Andre said rudely. 'He just me Romario's mum wants to have him back' I said stil l in shock. 'SHE WHAT?' Andre said getting pissed. 'I knew this was ganna happen ' I said still in shock. 'So you cant do anything to help?' Andre said to Marcus . 'Naa I cant. She's his legal guardian' I sat down staring into space while tea rs rolled down my cheeks. Marcus put his hand on my shoulder and started rubbing

it. 'What you doing bruv?' Andre said getting up. 'Im comforting her... cant yo u see she's crying?' Marcus set getting up too. 'Your getting too brave these da ys blud don't touch my wifey' Andre said up in Marcus's face. 'Stop it you too' I said trying to pull them apart. 'She don't want you anymore!' Andre said. 'The other day when we was lipsing it out in my sisters yard!' Marcus said. I looked at them both shocked and Andre looked at me then Marcus. Before I could say any thing Andre punched Marcus in the face. Before I knew it they were both on the f loor fighting. 'Sttoopp!!' I shouted. I managed to drag Andre off Marcus. 'Get o ff me!' He said while brushing me off. I looked at him confused. 'Are you being serious... you actually believe him?!' I said looking at Andre with disbelief. I looked at them both and then started laughing. I started waking upstairs. 'Tish wait' Andre said. He followed me upstairs outside the room. I blocked the door and . 'Why don't you piss off!' I said shouting in his face. 'Im sorry I didn't think' 'Yeeh you didn't think.. Well think about this!' I said before slamming t he door in his face. I cant believe he actually believed him! He should of never doubted me. Maybe I was over reacting because of the shock Romario getting take n off me. I went striaght to bed. >> The next morning<< I woke up and Andre was next to me. He was just staring at me. When I opened my eyes he was staring at me. He showed me a weak smile, as if he wasn't sure if I was still vex or not. I smiled back and then his smile became bigger. 'You alrit e?' He asked me. 'Umm yeeh..' 'Uno im sorry init' 'Yeeh its alrite' 'Can I have a kiss then?' 'Noo.. you haven't brushed your teeth and neither have I' 'Fine th en' He said pretending to sulk. 'Don't try that sulking ting wid me get up we go tta lot of things to do today' I said while getting up. 'Umm Tish.. Shanakay's c oming at 2 today' 'Shanakay...' I said confused then I clocked. She is Romario's mum. I showed him a weak smile. 'Oh yeeh her.. lemi get him ready then' I said putting on a brave face. Even though this was killing me. From then until 12oclo ck I spent time with Romario. There was a knock at the door and I skipped a hear t beat. Andre got up and opened the door. Shanakay came in with Marcus. 'So what your coming to take him off me too yeh' 'Naa not even.. I just came to show Sha nakay where you lived. Im leaving now' 'Bye then' I said rudely. 'Tish.. things will be alright, yeeh' He said before walking out. Shanakay was just standing th ere. I screwed her and then went to Romario. I looked at him and I wanted to bur st into tears. I wanted to keep him so bad but I have no right although I brough t him up he wasn't my son. 'Romario.. you see that woman over there... do you re member her?' I asked him. 'Ummm I think so' He said confused. 'Ummm well she's y our mummy' I said to him. 'You're my mummy' He said confused. 'Yeeh.. well you'r e a lucky boy and have 2 mummys' 'But I want only you to be my mummy' 'I want to be your only mummy too.. but unfortunately that cant happen... you see your oth er mummy. She wants to take you with her' 'How long for?' He asked. 'Umm forever .. I think' 'Ohh' He said sounding abit upset. 'Whens he taking me?' He asked. ' Today' I said with tears rolling down my cheeks. 'Why you crying mummy don't cry ' He said rubbing my cheeks. 'I love you Romario! Remember that' I said while hu gging him. 'I love you too mummy. Don't cry' He hugged me and he said his goodby es to everyone. 'Umm thanks' Shanakay said taking Romario's bag, I screwed her a nd hugged Romario for the last time. 'Byee mummy. Bye daddy' He said while follo wing behind Shanakay. I watched him walk until I could no longer see him and tha t's when it hit me. That could be the last time I ever see Romario. He was now o fficially gone. I still took at the door looking into space. Andre softly took m e inside and sat me down. I could tell he was upset but he was trying to keep st rong for me. Shilah was crying aswell. Andre hugged us both and we all just sat there in silence. After a while I got up. 'Well im gone to cook something for us to eat. What you want for dinner tonight?' I said putting on a brave face. 'Its alrite ill cook' Andre said. 'Noo its alrite you lot sit down and relax' I smil ed and turned around. My smile dropped. I cooked dinner and we all ate pretendin g everything was alrite. We got ready for bed and me and Andre were hugging up. I was crying silently and Andre hugged me tighter and whispered in my ear 'It's going to be alrite babe.' I fell asleep with the thought that everything's not g oing to be alright. Romario's gone and hes not coming back.

- T + Letisha - The world of my own Part 7 of 11 Letisha Part 8 Read and Enjoy :) x >> 2weeks later<< This will be my first time leaving my house in 2weeks. I have isolated myself fr om everyone including Lahraya and Shilah and even Andre. I haven't been eating a nd I even had to go doctors and I was diagnosed with depression. But I didn't ca re. You may think oh well.. you lots your son.. well hes not your real son and y ou have other children. Well that's not the point Romario was my son and I had h im taken off me so quickly. Andre planned to take me and the kids shopping today. He managed to persuade me to go. I didn't and still havent paid any attention to Lahraya and Shilah. Its n ot like I don't want to or that I don't love them.. I just cant. We got out the car and Andre out Lahraya in the pushchair. 'You wanna push her?' He asked me. 'Umm naa.. ill push her later' I replied. We started walking and w ent into a few shops. We were in mcdonalds Andre and the kids were ordering thei r food while I sat and waited for them at a table. I group of boys walked in but I didn't pay them any attention. I was just staring into space and a hand waved infront of my face bringing me back to reality. I looked at him and seen it was Marcus and his friends, some of them I recognised. 'What do you want' I said sc rewing him. 'I only wanted to see if you was kool' He said. 'Do I look alrite?' I said getting pissed off. 'To be honest no' 'Marcus is being honest for a chang e! Shocking' I said sarcastically. He rolled his eyes. 'I just wanted to say sor ry bout Romario... I wish I could do something to change this but I cant. Shanak ay only wanted him back to get a council flat' He said. I looked at him shocked. 'And your letting her do this!' I said still angry. 'Noo I cant' 'Yeeh you coul d fight to get him back.. uno go to the courts. But I guess you don't care about your kids do you' I said starting to shout. Andre came over and Marcus stood ba ck. Andre sat next to me and looked at Marcus and his friends. 'What you lot say ' Andre said to them. 'Kool.. wag1... nothing still' They all replied except for Marcus. 'What you lot crowding round my wifey for?' He said looking at Marcus a nd then screwing him. 'Umm nothing we was waiting for you still' One of the boys said. 'Well aint you menta be on the block working?! And what you want me for?' 'Yeeh we finished for today.. and we was just getting something to eat and then we seen your wifey so we decided to wait for you to say koool' The other boy sa id. The boy said, I knew he was lying. He just didn't want Marcus to get in trou ble for talking to me. 'Kool..' Andre said, he then started eating his burger an d they all stood around watching him. He took a sip of his drink and then looked at them all. 'Was there something else?' He said sounding abit pissed. 'Ohh na na na' One of the boy said. 'Yeeh there is a problem' Marcus said getting brave. 'What the fuk is your problem' Andre said. 'Na na he aint got a problem' One of the boys said while pulling Marcus back. 'Listen you need to jam... the only re ason why your still in dis crew is cuz your brother is my bredrin! But if you ca rry on ima have to turn nasty you get me' Andre said. He took a sip of his drink . 'Move dis breh away from me... im tryna jam wid my family' Andre said. They al l left with Marcus. 'You alright' Andre asked me. 'Yeeh im fine' I replied. 'I b rought you a burger' He said while putting it infront of me. I smiled weakly. 'T hanks'. I looked across the table at Shilah. She was getting even prettier and l ooking just like her dad. I smiled at her and she smiled back. 'You alrite shy?' I said to her. 'Yeh thankyou' She replied politely. 'Do you wanna come sit next to me?' I asked her. 'Yeeeh pleeasse' She got up and ate next to me. I looked a t Andre, he had a smile on his face I could tell hes happy. I kissed him on the cheek. 'Past me Lahraya please' I said to Andre. He past me her and I sat her on my lap. Shes gone prettier too. She was so pretty. Im glad she grew out of Maru cs's looks and she now looks like me. I smiled at her she smiled back. It sent a

weird feeling through me and it made me realised.. at this time I need to be st rong for my family, instead of pushing them away. I kissed her on her cheek and she giggled. 'Mummys here now did you miss me?' I said to her. She just smiled. 'Are you my mummy still' Shilah asked me. 'Yeeah! Course I am forever and for al ways' 'Do you miss Romario?' Shilah asked me. 'Umm yeeh I do' I replied. 'I miss him too.. but daddy said things like this happen. But things are ganna get bett er' She said. Shes grown up. 'Your daddys right. And wow you've grown up' 'Yeeh im getting bigger and soon ill be allowed to wear high heels like you' 'Yuuup an d im ganna take you to buy your first pair' I said. We finished eating and then we went back to the car with all our shopping. We dr ove home with good vibes everyone was talking and stuff. We went inside and got the kids ready for bed. Qwqe all got in the bath and then Me and Andre tucked La hraya into bed first. 'Goodnight baby' I said to her before kissing her on the c heek. 'Night Lay lay' Andre said kissing her on the forehead. I could tell they both had a father and daughter bond, Andre even gave her the 'special girl' kiss . Lahraya calls him daddy and he calls her his daughter. Me and Andre walked tow ards the door. And then Lahraya said 'night night' We both looked at each other and smiled. 'Night baby' Me and Andre said at the same time. As soon as I shut t he door I started squealing. 'She said night night... aww shes soo grown up'. We then went to tuck Shilah into bed, she's now in Romario's old room. 'Night shy shy' I said before kissing her on her cheek. 'Night shy' Andre said. He kissed h er on the forehead/ 'Night mummy night daddy' Shilah replied. 'Ohh yeh shy tomor row me and you are ganna go shopping to decorate your room' 'Yaaaayy!! Can I do it pink and purple?' 'What ever you want' 'Yaaaay. I love you mummy' 'Love you t oo' I replied. 'What bout me?' Andre said getting upset. 'I love you too daddy' Shilah said before laughing cutely and laying down in the bed. 'Night' Me and An dre said and we then went into our room and tucked into bed with the tv on/. ' I love you Andre' I randomly saidto him. 'I love you too you random girl' He repl ied. 'Andre can you hold me'. 'Yeeh' he said while hugging me. 'Can I do somethi ng?' 'Depends' 'Can I just put my tings in you and the we cant sleep like dat' ' Wont it be uncomfortable' I said confused. 'Naa it feels good' 'Ohh alright.. bu t I aint ready' He started doing her horny smile. He started kissing along my ne ck and rubbing between me. A few minutes later I was ready. He slowly slid his t ings in and we both moaned. It was all the way in and I could feel it going hard er and harder. I was breathing heavily and so was Andre. I gradually got used to it and we both fell asleep. >>The next morning<< I woke up and Andre was still in me. It was different but felt good and made me feel closer to Andre. I slowly took it out and got up out of bed. Andre woke up too. 'You alright babes?' He asked. 'Yuup' I said smiling. 'You can go back to s leep... im taking the girls out for abit' 'Kool... go in the desk draw and take a roll of money in dere' I did what he said and there was bare and I mean bareee money in there. 'Andre... how you ganna leave this in here' 'No1 aint ganna tak e it and that's half of it' 'HALF?!' I said shocked. 'Yeeh' He replied simpally. 'Wow' I said. I cooked breakfast me and the kids ate. I got dressed and dressed them we were a ll wearing the same colours, pink. I was wearing a pink long top with footless t ights and black gladiator shoes with pink studs. I was also planning on getting Lahraya's ear pierced today. I put Lahraya and Shilah in matching outfits; a lit tle mini white skirt pink tights white dolly shoes and a white vest top with lit tle cardigans. Aww my babies looking all cute. I held both the kids hands and we walked to the car. Yeeh my car cause I drive now :D Lahraya can walk now but sh es abit slow and stumbles sometimes. I strapped them up and then put them in the car and then went for the pushchair. I drove to the shopping centre and then we nt into the decorating shop. I brought some pink and purple paint, pink carpet. I then went to the furniture shop and got some new furniture pink and purple for both the girls, that was going to get delivered tomorrow. I went to get Lahraya 's ears done and my brave little baby didn't cry. When we finished we went to mc donalds. I got something for me andre and the kids. No one is allowed to eat in my car because the seats are white. We got home and Andre was downstairs with l

uke (Keri's man) playing xbox. 'Heey' I said while putting down the shopping bag s. 'What you saying?' Luke said. 'Kool babes' He said while playing the game. 'T heres some mcdonalds for you... good thing I brought two burgers give one to Luk e' I said while putting the Mcdonalds on his lap. 'Thank you babes' 'Yeh thanks' Luke said while taking a bite out of his burger. 'Can Lahraya stay here with yo u two while me and Shy go decorate her room' I said to Andre while putting Lahra ya on the floor next to him. 'Yeeh dats kool' Andre replied. He picked her up an d then looked at her weirdly. 'Something looks different on her' 'Huuh? Ohh I go t her ears peirced' I said. 'Aww did she cry?' He said hugging her. 'Naa she did n't' 'That's my brave little girl' He said before kissing her on the forehead. ' So aint you ganna talk to daddy?' Andre said to Shilah. 'Hello daddy' She said s hyly. 'Why you acting shy.. you've seen Luke before' Andre said to her. She just giggled and pulled me upstairs. We started painting. Shilah got tired and watch ed not too long after I was finished. I even put the carpet down myself. Andre c ame upstairs and was shocked by how much I done. 'Woow.. in here looks nice' And re said. 'Thanks..' I said admiring my work. Even though it seem ive moved on fr om Romario I havent Im just getting on with life Romario will always be in my mi nd and heart and he will always be known to me as my son. 'Did you put the carpe t down?' Andre said shocked 'Yeeh lool' 'Where did you learn to do that' 'Never knew how to I just did it lol' I replied. 'Ohh kool' He said while chuckling. 'W ell its getting late now so im ganna put the kids in the bath'Andre said. He put them in the bath while I jammed and watched tv, Luke went home and I was just w atching eastenders. 'Ohh shiit poor jack' I said to myself. I then felt a worm b reath on the side of my neck. I turned to the side to see Andre smiling. 'You al rite baby' He said while jumping over the sofa and sitting next to me. 'Yeeh you ?' 'Yuup' He had that horny smile on his face. It was sexy but trust he wasn't g oing to get what he wanted tonight I was tired and I had college the next day. ' No Andre I got college tomorrow' I said to him. 'Owaaah' He said pretending to s ulk. 'Sulking isn't ganna get you any where' I said poking him on the nose. 'Its not even late' 'Its 8.30 and by the time you finished doing your 10 million pos itions it will be late' I said still watching tv. 'Fine den' He said sulking aga in. 'Stop sulking and carry me upstairs. He took a deep breath and picked me up. He started walking towards the stairs. 'Wait wait' I said. 'What?' He asked. 'I need to turn off the tv' He carried me back to turn off the tv and then carried me upstairs. I got in the shower and came back to see Andre laying on the bed s leeping. I creamed and put on some shorts and vest top and tucked me and Andre i nto bed. I kissed him on the cheek and then went to sleep. >>The next morning<< I woke up earlier than normal. I felt sick. I quickly ran to the bathroom and vo mited. Uggghh!! I washed my face and brushed my teeth and then jumped in the sho wer and got ready for college, Andre looks after the kids when ive gone college so I didn't need to worry about them. I got changed into some black leggings a r ed vest top with a black long cardigan. I put on my red studs and a red bead nec klace and a big red bangle. I finished with putting on black dolly shoes and com bing my hair into a bun. I met Keri on the bus as usual and we went to college. On our way inside we seen Jake and Calvin (Boys from mcdonalds). 'What you saying' Jake said. 'Heey' Me a nd Keri replied. 'What you two doing at lunch?' Calvin asked. 'Umm don't know mi ght go mcd's again' I replied. 'Oh kool.. were coming. Meet us at the gate yeh' 'Alrite then' Keri said. 'Bye' We both said while walking into our lesson. Not t oo long after it was lunch thankfully. We were walking out and everyone was rush ing out and I seen Keri fly infront of me. 'WTF' She said getting pissed, trust me Keri is a nice girl and everything but she can be a mad bitch when shes ready . I looked over to see Keri in some black girl from our class face, her names Sh erry. 'Who do you think your pushing?' Keri said while tying up her hair into a messy bun getting ready to fight. 'Umm.. you! You half breed' Sherry replied Me and Keri looked at each other as if to say.. yeeh its on. 'WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY ?' Keri said now taking out her earrings out. 'You heard her.. don't you underst and english' Her friend, Paula said getting involved. 'And who was talking to yo u' I said to Paula. 'Oh here goes the other half breed' Sherry replied. I starte

d laughing, I didn't need to take out my earrings because I know she wont be tou ching me ill be the one banging her up. 'Wheres this blick one going?' Keri said laughing. 'Blick I aint blick. You little half breed gyal love to hype too much ' The friend said. 'Listen to you bout half breed every minute what did you just learn the word or something? True say me and Tish got your man looking' Keri sa id. Everyone was now crowding us going ooohh and stuff. 'Whatever init! Your bot h just a man teef, don't think we don't know bout you stealing Luke off my frien d Lashalla and Tish stealing Andre off Lokota' Sherry said. 'Don't be calling me Tish like were bredrins! And what you talking about' I said both confused but p issed too. 'You heard me man teef' 'Yeeh I heard your giggs sounding voice! but I couldn't quite hear you through you African language!' I said getting even mor e angry. Everyone started killing it. 'And I beg u come abit closer to my face a nd say it again' Sherry said hyping. 'Come outside and ill show you wagwan' I se d to her. We all walked outside with the crowd following us. We got to the gates , Calvin and Jake were there they were smiling first but then looked at our face s and then at the crowd and looked as us confused. I started taking out my earri ngs, I can fight but so can Africans and this gyal was tuff and I was aiming for dis Paula gyal. I gave my earrings to Calvin and so did Keri. 'Now do you want me to say it again?' I said to Paula and Sherry. 'Yeeh do it' Paula said. 'I don 't even remember the whole sentence! But your voice reminded me of some of it... you sound like giggs and you ARE blick!' I said to her in her face. She automat ically grabbed my hair and pulled it. In my head I was thinking. Is she mad! Doe s she think she can drag my hair that ive grown for so long and get away with it . I punched her in the stomach and she bent over holding it. I grabbed her bait weave and pulled her so she dropped on the floor I started kicking her in the st omach. I then dragged her back up and the kicked her in the stomach again. I was punching and kicking her on the floor until I felt someone drag me. I could hea r Keri screaming get off me and when I looked over Calvin was carrying her. I wa s put down by who ever was carrying me. I turned around to see Jake standing the re. 'Why you pulling me off her im not finished yet' Me and Keri said at the sam e time. Paula and Sherry got up. 'I wasn't ready you caught me slipping!' Paula said brushing off herself. 'WHAT DO YOU WANT ME TO FUK YOU UP AGEN?' I said gett ing mad. Keri joined me 'I aint ganna be so nice dis time!'. Calvin and Jake dra gged me and Keri out and pulled us down the road. We got further away from the c ollege and they stopped us. 'Have you calmed down?' Calvin asked us. 'Yeeh man' I said while fixing up my hair. 'Good cause dat was jookkeee!! You both fucked d em up!!' Jake said benning. We all joined him and we talked about it all the way home. We finished eating in mcdonalds and me and Keri decided we wasn't ganna g o back to college cause we couldn't be boverd. 'So where you lot going?' Jake as ked. 'You wanna come back to mines ker?' 'Yeeh' 'Well Keri's coming back to mine s' I said to them. 'Oh kool.. you two should come mines later few of the man dem and gyal dem are ganna be there' Jake said. 'Umm I don't know if I could get a babysitter Lukes menta be going out tonight' Keri said. 'Yeeh same' I said. Calv in and Jake looked at us both shocked. 'Baby sitter?' Jake and Calvin said at th e same time. 'Yeeh... I have a baby' Keri said. 'Um yeh I have too' I said. 'Ohh h raah! Im expecting one too' Calvin said. 'Why lie?' I said. 'Real talk got one month left' He said smiling. 'Awwww... that's soo cute' Me and Keri said at the same time. 'Soo im the only one with out a yute yeh?' Jake said. 'Yuup' 'So wha t you got?' Calvin asked. 'I got a 8month old baby called Lahraya and a 4 year o ld called Lahraya' Calvin and Jake both looked at me shocked. 'So you had your f irst baby when you was 14?' Jake said. 'Loool naa Shilahs not my biological daug hter shes my boyfriends daughter' 'Ohh raah.. you got a hubby!!' They both start ed laughing. 'Me too!' Keri said. We all started laughing. 'You learn something new everyday' Calvin said. I started feeling abit dizzy and weak. 'You alrite?' Keri asked me. 'Umm yeeh... just been abit ill' I replied. 'You've gone pale!' K eri said worried. 'Yeeh I just need to go home' They took me to the bus stop. Th e bus came me and Keri got on and we said our goodbyes. We sat on the bus and I was still feeling abit weird. I felt dizzy sick and I had a headache. Keri kept on looking at me concerned. We got to my house and Andre was playing with Lahray a. 'Why you back so early?' Andre asked. 'Long story' Keri said. 'Yeeh long stor

y' I said again. Andre looked at me then turned around and then looked at me aga in. 'You alright Tish?' He said concerned. 'Umm yeeh I just feel abit-' I couldn 't finish my sentence my head was spinning and next thing I know im collapsing t o the floor. >>A few minutes later<< I opened my eyes Keri and Andre looking at me. 'You alrite babes?' Andre said lo oking worried. 'Umm yeeh...' 'The ambulance are on there way yeh babe' Keri said . 'Naa its alright' I said. I didn't need a ambulance I knew exactly what was wr ong with me. 'Na your going hospital' Andre said. 'No im alright' I said sitting up. 'Well let them examine u and see if ur kool' Keri said. The ambulance women came in and examined me in private. I explained what I thought it might be and she tried to persuade me to go to the hospital for a check up, but I didn't want to I just wanted to be home in my bed. They left and so did Keri after asking m e if I was okay a million times. 'Do you want a drink... something to eat' Andre asked. 'Naa im alrite, I just wanna get into bed' I replied. He picked me up an d took me into bed. He took off my clothes and put one of his tshirts on me. 'Th anks' I said while tucking myself into bed. 'So whats wrong with you?' He asked still looking worried. 'Well.. I don't know for definite but... when I was pregn ant with Lahraya this was exactly what happened' I said worried and confused. He looked at me confused like he didn't get what I was saying. 'Ohh' He said after clocking on. He looked just as confused and worried as me. 'But I don't know fo r definite...' 'I sware you was on the pill' 'Yeeh that doesn't always work and I kept forgetting bout them' 'Ohh koool' 'Well im going to get Shilah from schoo l with Lahraya do you want me to get you a test?' 'Ummm yeeh... oh yeeh the kids beds are coming at 4' 'Kool' He kissed me on my forehead and then left. I was j ust dozing off to sleep when my phone started ringing. I answered it without loo king who it was. 'Tiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiisssssssssssssshhhhhhhh!!!' I automatically knew who it was... Rakell. 'Alright kell?' 'Yeeehh maan what you saying babe ai nt come and seen you and my niece and nephew in a while' when she said that I st arted to feel down again but I encouraged myself to be strong. All of this was b ringing my headache back. 'Ummm Marcus never told you?' 'Told me what?' She said worried. 'Shanakay took Romario' 'SHE WHAAAATTT.... WHY THE FUK DIDN'T YOU TELL ME YOU STUPID DIK HEAD! YOU'VE BEEN LIVING IN MY YARD AND YOU COULDN'T TELL ME THAT SKET TOOK MY NEPHEW FROM HIS MUM!!' For a second I thought she was talking to me but then I realised she was talking to Marcus. They were having a argument but I couldn't focus my head was hurting too much. 'Sorry bout that Tish you al right is everything ohk?' She said in a soft tone. 'Yeeh everythings alright.. j ust been abit ill' 'Ill?? Like what?' 'I fainted today and I keep feeling dizzy and getting headaches' I explained. 'Oh... your not pregnant are you?' She said quietly. 'I don't know..' 'This is what happened when you was pregnant with Lahr aya remember when you-' 'Yeeh kell I kno.. but ima get some sleep and ill drive round to your later' 'Drive? When since you drive?' 'Lool a few weeks ago' 'ooo what kinda car?' 'BMW' 'OHHH wooow where you get that money from?' 'Andre brough t it for me for my birthday' 'Awww im soo happy for you nice to know your being treated well unlike how my dickhead brother treated you' 'Yuupp Andre's unique' 'Awww... well my mum wants to see you and ray ray soo tomorrow come pick me up i n your new caaarrr and we can go there init?' 'Yeeh course' '1oclock sound alrig ht?' 'Yeeh sounds good' 'Byee tisshh' 'Byee kelly' Locked. I smiled Kell always made me laugh. I went to sleep for abit and then I was woken by the door knockin g. I could hear Andre and the kids downstairs. I looked at the time and it was 4 oclock. I got up to help sort things out but my head started hurting again. This was really strange. I got back into bed and called Andre. 'Drrrreeee!!!' He ran upstairs. 'Whats wrong babes?' 'Nothing.. all the pink things are Shilahs and t he white ones are Lahraya's. there should be 2 chester draws 2 wardrobes 2 littl e dressing tables and 2 chairs and they should all either be pink or white. Reme mber the white things are Lahrayas and the pink things are Shilahs' 'Yeeh kool' He through the test on the bed. 'Do you want me to be with you when you take it? ' 'Lool naa I think ill be able to piss on a stick by myself... how much you pay for it' '29.99 dese tings cost bare and you only get to use them once! Do you th ink you could wash it after you use it then use it again' He said and he was act

ually serious, I looked at him and started laughing. 'Your actually jokee' I sai d while getting up, he just looked at me confused and innocently lol. I went int o the bathroom and I couldn't go toilet so I went downstairs and got a carton of apple juice. I drank half of it and I still couldn't go so I drank the whole th ing. After I then was ready so I weed on the stick. I waited for abit and read t he instructions. It said wait 3minutes so I did. I sat on the toilet and I sware this was the longest 3 mins ever. I looked at the clock in the bathroom. 5,4,3, 2,1,0. 'Annndddrrreee!!' I shouted. He ran upstairs and opened the bathroom door . 'What does it say' 'I cant look at it I'm scared' I said. He picked it up from the edge of the bath. And looked at it then looked at me. A smile crept across his face. 'Your pregnant!! You having my baby' He said getting excited. I looked at him in total shock at this moment I don't know if I am happy sad excited sca red or angry. I just sat there in shock. Im having another baby?? 'Tish you alrite' He asked sounding worried. 'Yeeh im fine' A smile crept across my face. I was now excited im having a baby... Andre's baby. I said in my head. I guess I will be fine. I have Andre and a home a car and friends and family an d I would still be able to go college and finish my course. He picked me up and started kissing me. 'You do know this means no sex for 9months!' I said. 'Yeeh I know' He said. I looked in his hand and he still had the test in his hand. 'Umm Andre why you still got it in your hand?' I asked him. 'Ohh yeeh.. what bit do you pee on anyways?' He said examining the test. 'Ummm... the bit you got in you r hand' I said while laughing. He quickly through it in the bin and washed his h ands while I stood there laughing at him. I had one of them horrible headaches a gain so decided to go back to bed. Andre cooked me dinner and brang it upstairs me andre and the kids jammed in our room for the rest of the day and I continued to have these head ache and dizziness. Andre put the kids to bed I got up to ge t in the shower then I went back into the room and changed. We were just jamming in bed talking about things till i fell asleep. >>The next morning<< I still had this stupid headache and it was driving me crazy. Andre took Shilah to nursery while I took Lahraya with me to the doctors. I had to see what was go ing on. I dashed on a tracksuite and drove to my doctors. Doctor - so how could I help you then Letisha Me - well I found out yesterday that im pregnany Doctor - congratulations Me - thankyou.. but yesterday I fainted and I keep having headaches Doctor - ohh alrite... do you feel dizzy with that? Me - yeeh and I feel sick too Doctor - alright.. im going to check your blood pressure. He checked my blood pressure Doctor - your blood pressure is very high. Have you been under a lot of stress? Me - Um a little bit Doctor - well this could be very dangerous for you baby Me - yeeh ino Doctor - well im going to give you high blood pressure tablets and you need to t ake this every day for a week then come back here so I can check your blood pres sure again. It is very important you minimize the amount your stressing Me - alright thankyou I got my tablets then drove home. I took the tablets and jammed and played with Lahraya until it was time to go Rakell's. I changed into some skinny jeans and a long sleeve black tshit and black converses. I put my hair into a ponytail and left out the house. I drove and went to Rakell's car. 'OOOOMMMGGGG' She shouted. Look at my girls car!! She strapped Tanisha in the back and got bare excited. I laughed at her. 'Come on put on some tunes and wind down the window' She said, I put on some dancehall and we danced all the way to her mums house. We pulled u p outside and Marcus and his brother and his mum were just going into the house. They all looked at me shocked and they made their way to the car except for Mar cus. 'Omgg loving the car Tish' Marcus's mum said while admiring it. 'Thannkyou Sally' I replied. I got out and hugged her and Marcus's brother Anton. 'So I gue ss Andre is treating you good' Anton said sitting in the drivers seat. 'Lool.. y

up' 'I cant stress how pissed I am with Marcus for letting you go!' He said. 'We ll his loss init' I replied. Sally took Lahraya out the car and Rakell took Tani sha out. 'Can I take the car for a spin?' Anton asked. 'Yeeh... just don't crash it' I said while dashing him the keys. I went into the house and seen Marcus in the frontroom. 'Rakell told me about what happened with Romario' Sally said. 'U mm thanks' 'Don't forget you can come to me with whatever you need or want alrit e... even though you and Marcus are not together you are still like a daughter t o me and the mother of my grand child' She said. I smiled and hugged her. 'Thank you'. Lahraya was running around and I could see Marcus looking at her. I could see his mum and Rakell screwing him and he just avoided looking at them. 'Muumm myyy I wanna go up' Lahraya said. I looked at her shocked it was her first sente nce. 'Aww baby... good girl!' I picked her up and put her in my lap. 'Can you sa y nana?' 'Nana' She replied and me and Rakell and Sally was all awwwing. She was go cutee. I hugged her and realised Marcus looking over I screwed him and conti nued conversating with Sally and Rakell. 'Im gone' Marcus said. 'Where you going don't you see your daughters here you havent even held her' 'Mum im gone' 'Well don't bother come back! Your just like your father!!' She shouted and then the door slammed. 'Sorry bout that' Sally said. 'Naa its alrite I know Marcus enough already to know that hes a shook head' 'Shook head?' She said confused. Me and Rakell started laughing. 'basically hes a coward' I explained. Anton burst into the door. 'THAT WAS HEAVEY!! THAT CAR GOES BARE FAST!' Anton said. 'You best not get me any tickets!' I said. 'Naa I drove round the block' 'You didn't get the seats dirty did you?' 'Naa man' He replied. A bit later we decided to go. 'So wh ere am I dropping you then babe' I asked Rakell. 'You can drop me to my hubbys y ard' 'Ohkk.. hold on your what?!' 'Lool... yeeh my mans house' 'And who is this then?' 'His names Dayshaun' 'ooo and is he sexy?' 'Course I only deal with the b est' She replied. 'Aww that's soo sweet' 'Ino' She said smiling. I dropped her t o her mans house then drove to my mums. I got there and my brothers Kadeem and R ico were in there. 'Hello darling' My mum said hugging me then taking Lahraya. ' Hows my two favourite girls?' She asked. 'Were fine thanks... how did you get he re? Wheres Andre and Shilah' She asked. My mum loved off Andre and Shilah. And t hankfully she already knew about Romario so I didn't have to explain everything. She put down Lahraya and she ran to Kadeem and Rico, while they played with her . 'Hes out I think...and Shilah's at nursery and I drove here' 'Drove?' They all said. 'Yeeh I drive now' 'Lemi go see dis banger' Rico said running outside. 'O OOHH SHIIITT!' he shouted. 'Oi stop swearing around my grand daughter' My mum sh outed. Kadeem ran outside too. 'OOhh raah!!' He shouted. 'Whats all the exciteme nt' My mum said while going outside. 'Woooow' She said with her eyes pocking out her head. 'Where you get this from?' She asked. 'Andre got it for me for my bir thday' 'aww aint that lovely!' She said while walking up to the car. 'Come on yo u can take us to tesco' Rico said getting in the back of the car. 'Yeeh!! Wait l et me get my coat' My mum said running into the house. Kadeem got in the back an d my mum ran out later and sat in the front. I strapped Lahraya in the car seat and drove to tesco. 'Rico wind up the window man its cold' I said. 'Naa it feels good with the wind on my face' 'Lahraya might be cold though' 'You cold ray ray ?' He asked her. 'Nooo' She replied cutely while laughing. 'Awwww... you look li ke your mum man. Poor you' Kadeem said. 'Don't you mean lucky you bitch!' I said offended. 'Naa only joking' Kadeem said laughing and playing with Lahraya. I pu lled up outside and they all jumped out with Lahraya. 'Aint you coming' My mum a sked. 'Naaa. I feel abit sick ill stay in the car' I replied. She looked at me s trangely and then shut the door. I was just jamming in the car bored looking int o space. I was just about to get out and go get them to hurry up, until I seen A ndre I was just about to been the horn but then I see one mixed race girl walk n ext to him. Wdh I thought. I watched what they were doing. He went to his car an d took out a pen and paper she wrote something on the paper he put it in his poc ket and she walked off. Its probz his cousin... or a old friend INFACT IT BEST B E. I said to myself. Not too long after My mum and Rico and Kadeem came back int o the car with bare shopping. 'You lot took your time' I shouted out the window while they put the shopping in the boot. My mum came back in the car and threw a packet of prawn cocktail crisp at me. 'How did you know I wanted that' I said s

urprised. I actually had a craving for one. 'Because when you were pregnant with Lahraya that's what you craved for all the time' She replied. I looked at her s hocked wdh how did she know. 'How did you know...' 'Im your mum I know everythin g about my kids' I should a weak smile. 'Congradualtions babe' She said getting excited. 'Thanks mum'. Kadeem and Rico came back in the car and I dropped them h ome. I was driving back to my house when my phone started ringing, it was Andre. Me - hello Andre - Where you too babes Me - On my way home. Why Andre - Could you pick up Shilah from nursery Me - Yeeh... why cant you get her though? Andre -Im just caught up doing something Me - Hmm alright bye I hung up the phone and drove to pick up Shilah. I got her from nursery and went home. I cook some macaroni and cheese. I fed the kids and then later on put the m to bed. I got in the shower and was jamming in my night clothes then my phone started ringing. Me -Hello ?- Hey tish its Rakell Me - Oh alright Kell why you ringing me from a next number Rakell - its my mans fone... I was wondering if you wanted to go out Me - Yeeh ill ask Andre to look after the kids, but I won't be drinking Rakell - Whyy not? Ohhhh Me - Yeeeh Rakell - So you are yeh? Me - Yuupp Rakell - Congradulatttiioonnss babe Me - Thanks.. but at the moment could you keep it on the d.l I don't really want people to know yet Rakell - Alright then... well ring me and tell me what Andre's saying Me - Alright bye babe I hanged up then rang Andre. Andre - Kool Me - Umm yeeh.. when you coming home? Andre - I don't know yet Me - So what is that in the morning... tonight? Andre - Im not sure im kinda busy babes Me - Alright den fine Andre - Whats wrong? Me - Nothing. Bye Andre I hanged up. How am I menta go out now. Nicole!! I thought. I quickly picked up my phone and rang her. Me - Hey nic Nicole - Heeeyy you alrite tish Me - Umm yeeh im alrite.. you out? Nicole - Yeh just on my road Me - Oh kool you got school tomorrow? Nicole - Naa study leave Me - You wanna do me a favour? Nicole - Yeh sure.. Me - Do you wanna baby sit for me and ill pay you? The kids are already sleeping Nicole - Yeh sure ill be round ina min Me - Thank you nic I hanged up and called Rakell and told her to get ready and then I started getti ng ready. I creamed and turned on my striaghteners. I put on high waist tube ski rt with a pink top with one sleeve. I put on a long silver necklace with black b ow pendant on it and some pink and black bangles. I put in some pink dangly earr ings. I straightened my hair all out with a front fringe, I put in a small bow c lip to finish. I then put on my black heels which had a pink bow on the front. W hen I finished putting my make up on the door knocked. I made my way downstairs

and opened the door it was Nicole. I told her all the usual things and then went , I picked up Rakell from her mans and we made our way to a random club. We went there and parttyyyeeedd even though I didn't drink I actually had a great time. It was like 5 in the morning, I went home after dropping Rakell home. I got in the house and Nicole was sleeping in the sofa while Andre was watching tv, he st ill had his coat on so I was guessing he just came back in. 'Where have you been den?' He asked. 'Hello to you too.. and I was out with Rakell. I would ask wher e you were but you don't tell me anything' I said while taking off my shoes. 'Yo ur pregnant you shouldn't be going out your pregnant' He said. 'Yeeh I didn't dr ink and im like a few weeks pregnant not 8 months Andre' I replied, I started wa lking up the stairs and he followed me into the bathroom. I brushed my teeth and so did he. We both then went into the bedroom and started taking off our clothe s. 'What you do today den?' I asked him. 'Nothing much just jammed with the man dem sorting out a few tings' 'Is that it?' I asked. I knew it wasn't because I s een him at tesco. 'Yeh just stayed in Remi's all day. What did you do today' He said changing the subject. 'Went to Rakell's mums house and then went to my mums and then went tesco' When I said this he quickly looked up at me. 'Ohh k kool' He said, he finished taking off his clothes and got into bed while I got into be d. He started rubbing my belly. 'In about 9 months ill be a daddy again' He said smiling, I smiled back. ' And im going to be a mummy again...any ways Im going bed night' 'Night' He replied. He kissed me on my forehead and went to sleep. Bu t I actually couldn't sleep. I was too busy thinking about the fact that Andre w as lying to me, I wanted to trust him but his lies makes me not believe him. I w as just drifting off and was woken up by a phone ringing. It wasn't mines so it must be Andre's. He was still sleeping. I picked the phone off the side to see a girl called Nelly was ringing him. I answered it. Nelly - Helloo Dre? Me - This isn't Dre Nelly - Oh whos this Me - Letisha... his girlfriend who are you Nelly - Ohh... im his...bye She hung up the phone. WTF!! I stated shaking Andre. 'Wake up!!' I shouted but n ot too loud. 'Yeehh... what isit' He answered with his eyes still shut. 'Your ph one was ringing' 'Who was it' He said with his eyes still shut. 'Nelly' I said. His eyes quickly shot open and he looked at me. 'Ohh um what did she want?' He a sked trying not to sound concerned. 'She didn't say nutting much she was just sh ocked when I told her who I was' I said trying to sound calm. 'Ohh kool' 'Aint y ou ganna tell me who she is then' 'Umm.. yeeh shes no one important still' 'What you mean no one important' 'Shes just one girl I met at one club' 'Yeeehh... an d why does she have your number?' 'Cuz I gave it to her' 'Why?' 'Cuz she asked f or it...' 'Well if you got a girlfriend wouldn't you not give her your number' ' Yeeh but I was ganna chat as a friend ting' 'Hmmm... like the girl at tesco?' 'W hat girl... Ohhh she was a friend from secondary school' I started laughing at h im sarcastically. 'I thought you stayed at Remi's all day' 'Yeeh... but I went t esco for abit' He said blatantly lying. 'Well im ganna sleep downstairs for abit ' I said sarcastically and got up, then my head started hurting again I lightly fell back into the wall holding my head. Andre rushed up and sat me on the bed. 'Get off me' I said brushing him off. 'Let me help you tish, your not well' 'Im fine. You didn't even care enough to ask what the doctor said!' I said while gra bbing a blanket and pillow. 'I forgot Tish' 'Oh yeeh im sorry... you got so much things on your plate' I said sarcastically. 'Well the doctor said I have high b lood pressure because I am stressing and uno what the stress can do?! Harm our b aby! Soo try not to forget that because I wont be' I said with tears running dow n my face. I went to take the blankets and stuff downstairs but I couldn't open the door I started shaking the handle frantiscally and eventually it opened. And re pulled me gently by my arm and hugged me tightly while I cried in his chest. 'I don't know whats happening with me any more Andre I need you to be there for me' I said crying into his chest. 'Im sorry Tish... I will be here for you for e ver' He said. I lifted my head out his chest and he kissed me on my forehead. 'I love you' He said. 'I love you too' He put me to lay on the bed and I fell asle

ep. >> the next morning<< I woke up and ran to the bathroom and was sick! Someone was in the shower but I needed to be sick desperately. Ugghh!! The worse thing eva, except for child bir th is being sick! I washed my face and brushed my teeth. 'Tish?' Nicole said it was her in the shower, but the curtains were drawn. 'Sorry babe... I had to be s ick. Im leaving now' I said while going to the door. 'You have too much to drink last night' 'Umm naa didn't drink' 'O.M.G!' She said. 'What?' I said looking ar ound me confused. 'Your pregnant!' She said. 'Umm...' I replied not knowing what to say. 'OOMMGGG YAAAY!!' She shouted. 'Loool calm down babe.. and don't say an ything to anyone yet pleaassee' I said. 'Alright' 'Well im downstairs so ill see you ina min' I said. I went into Shilahs room and woke her up. 'Wake up baby yo u got nursery' I said lightly shaking her. She eventually woke up and she moaned for abit then got up I put her in the bath and dressed her in a cute pink dunga ree's with some cuteee shoes. I then did her hair in two punches. I fed her brea kfast while I jumped in the shower. I put on a tight long blue top with some bla ck tights and blue plimsolls. I put in some blue studs and put my hair in a mess y bun. I don't know why I was dressing up but I felt like it. I went downstairs where Nicole and Andre and Shilah was. Nicole was smiling she looked at my stoma ch and then at me. 'Im not ganna show yet but its only been a few weeks' I said while walking towards the shoe rack. I put Lahraya's shoes on her and then dropp ed Nicole home and then took Lahraya to school. After taking Lahraya school and then took her Nicole home. I then went tesco and did some food shopping. >> At home << I drove outside the house and then called Andre. 'come outside and help me with the shopping please?' I shouted from outside the car. He came outside and took a ll the shopping inside for me. I sat in the front room on the sofa, Lahraya was running around with a piece of paper in her hand. I took it and opened the folde d paper. Just as I did Andre came in smiling. I opened it and started reading it . 'I wanted to tell you for myself' He said sitting next to me. I looked at the paper and him shocked. Nooo he cant leave me again!! - T + Letisha - The world of my own Part 8 of 11 Part 9!! I scanned through the letter and then looked at Andre. Dear Mr Jones You may have been expecting this letter, as officer informed you that you will h ave to go to court after you were released on bail, on the 9th of March 2010. Yo u are due on trial on the 5th of May 2010, due to recent enquires in your involv ement in the murder of Martin James which happened on the 10th of March 2010. Yo u will stand trial with others that we believe may be involved in this incident. BLA BLA BLA I scanned through the letter in complete shock. 'I didn't even know they could do that' I said. 'did you do it?' I asked him. 'N aa I never.. he was my boy why would I kill him!' 'Im sorry I have to ask init' 'Its kool.. it will be alrite ill probz just have to go there ill tell dem I don 't know nutting then ill be released' 'Yeeh but what if something goes wrong' 'W ell it wont' 'You sure?' 'Yeeh' 'How comes you kept this from me Andre?' 'I didn 't want to worry you your having my yute' 'Well what if you went pen, It would w orry me even more not knowing where you were' 'I know I know' It was silent for abit. 'Oh yeh theres one more thing' 'Huh? More bad news?' 'Naa good news I think' He gt up and got a letter from the table. He handed it t o me and I opened it and read it. It was a adaptation letter for me to adopt Shilah. I looked at Andre shocked. 'I was thinking the over day, Shilah is like a daughter to you and I wouldn't wa nt Shilah's mum to take her off you like Romario's mum did so what you say?' 'Ye

eh course!' 'And theres another thing' 'What now' I said with a worried face. 'I ts not for definite its just a suggestion, but I was wondering if I could adopt Lahraya so she could officially be my daughter?' I then had a big grin on my fac e. 'Yeeh course' 'But theres one more thing' 'Whats that?' 'Marcus needs to sign it' 'Ohh...' 'Yeeh' 'Il sort that' I said. 'You sure?' He said. 'Yeeh' I replie d, even though I didn't wanna see him, I had to. The next day After being sick :| I got in the shower and left the house. I left the kids with Andre and drove to Rakell's wondering if Marcus would be there. I knocked on th e door and after minutes Rakell answered. 'Hi' She said bluntly. 'Umm hi?' I sai d confused. 'Sorry... im just not in the mood today' 'Whats wrong?' I said while following her into the house. 'Me and Dayshaun had a argument because I said I don't want kids' 'Ohh.. hes moving abit fast aint he?' I said abit surprised 'I know but he seems to think im evil cuz I don't want another child yet, we aint e ven living together or anything' 'Aww babe... Im sure you can work this out and come to a arrangement?' 'Yeeh I hope' 'Well im here if you need me... is Marcus here?' 'Naa...he don't live here anymore and what you want him for?' She asked. 'Umm basically... Andre wants to adopt Lahraya... and I came to talk to Marcus a bout it' 'So basically you wanna take Marcus's baby away from him?' She said ang rily. 'Its not like that, Lahraya knows Andre as her dad, because Andre has alwa ys been there for her. Marcus doesn't support or even come see Lahraya all we wa nt is for Andre to be her legal guardian. I would never take her away from your family, because that is her family and you know I wouldn't do that. so I don't k now why your getting all angry' 'Well Marcus is her dad! So stop trying to chang e that! Your just loved up at the moment wait till he leaves you like Marcus did then you'll know about adoption... bout adoption, think your something better t han everyone else.. come in your flash car with your flash life' I looked at her shocked. Is she taking the piss?!? My shocked expression turned into a screw. ' Thanks Rakell... I want to make something of my life and people like you like to put me down all the time! You know what FUCK YOU!' ' How you ganna make somethi ng of your life when you got another baby on the way' 'Ive coped before and I wi ll again because I believe in my self! I have qualifications for a job and stabi lity for my kids and as long as im there for them and love them then that's all I need' I walked towards the door and she followed behind me, 'Tish im sorry... it just im under a lot of stress' 'YOUR NOT THE ONLY ONE! And you most of been t hinking all those things to say that!' 'Nooo tish I don't want us to fall out ov er this.. your my bestfriend and Tanisha's Godmother' 'Noo we have fallen out ov er this and you was my bestfriend ill always be Tanisha's because im her God mot her, ill be here for her but I don't know bout you ive never disrespected you or thought anything bad of you and you come wid dat cuz your under a lot of stress ! And im always here for you naa FUCK YOU!' I walked out and slammed the door be hind me. I didn't even feel upset I was just angry, How could my bestfriend thin k or say that to me. When im always here for her and Tanisha. I walked to the ca r park and got in my car. I was just about to drive off and there was a knock on the window, it was Marcus. I wound down the window and told him to get in the c ar. He got in and sat down. 'You kool?' He asked. 'No im pissed off!' I said. 'W hats wrong??' I don't know why but I explained everything Rakell said to me. 'Oh h rah... shes a bitch still... so what you want Andre to adopt Lahraya yeh?' 'Um m yeh that's what I came to talk to you about, I was going to ask you properly' 'Naa its kool, Lahraya deserves a good life and you and Andre can give that to h er' He said, I was shocked! 'But if you want me to sign it, then you gotta have sex with me. My exspression turned into a screw. 'YOU WHAT?!' I shouted. 'Naa im joking still' He said laughing. 'That was not funny' I said cracking a smile. T his was abit weird. Me and Marcus having a convo :S and laughing. 'That better, you look so much prettier when you smile' He said. 'Umm thanks?' I said not know ing how to respond. 'Soo what you doing with yourself these days then?' I asked him trying to get rid of the awkwardness. 'Not a lot still same old' 'Hmm...' I said. 'Whats good with you den?' 'Not a lot unoo' 'Ohkaay den... you've put on a bit of weight... not in a bad way... just abit... aww you get what I mean' He sa

id tryna make its sound betta. 'Umm yeeh.. im pregnant' 'Ohh.. how far?' 'A few weeks' 'Oh kool, congradulations' 'Thanks' 'Well im expecting too' 'AGAIN!? I me an congradualtions' 'Lool I know and thanks' He replied. There was another awkwa rd silence. 'Soo where you going now den?' I asked him. 'I was going Rakell's bu t I don't wanna go dere after shes acting like a dick head...' 'Ohk soo where yo u wanna go?' 'Ill go to my mums' He was just about to come out the car. 'Get bac k in man... ill drop you' 'Ohkool.. thanks' He got back in and I put on some mus ic while I drove. We finally got to his mums house in silence and then he came o ut. 'Thanks Tish.. ill come sign the papers 2moro yeh?' 'Yeeh thankyou,' He lean ed in the car and kissed me on the cheek then shut the door behind him and then walked into the house. Is this the new Marcus? Because if it is I'm starting to like him, not like him relationship wise, I mean friendship. I went to drive off but my phone started ringing. It was Keri. Me: Heey Keri: Hi babes, I need to go Birmingham to see my mum and Luke's being a dik hea d and made plans with his boys 2night so could you look after Ciara for me? Me: Yeeh course when you bringing her round? Keri: Around 3? I gotta get the coach at 4 Me: Alrite...see you in a hour? Keri: Thank you babe! Me: Its alritee I went home explained everything to Andre, who was as shocked as me about Marcus 's reaction. Andre was going out with Luke and dem lot too so he went to Luke's to get ready. Not too long after Keri was here with Ciara and then she left in a rush while I jammed with the girls. I then put them to bed and jammed and watch ed tv and then fell asleep. I woke up in the middle of the night and jumped in t he shower and put on some shorts and a vest top. I went back downstairs to watch some tv and then the door knocked. WTF! If its Andre watch! I walked over to th e door and answered it. Ohh it was Luke. 'Wtf are you doing here at 1 in the mor ning? I thought you were getting Ciara in the morning' I said to him. 'Yeh but I came to tell you that Andre's at mines cuz he past out on the sofa' He replied. 'Soo you couldn't ring me and tell me that?' I said confused. 'Ohh yeeh' 'Loool you drunk Luke?' I asked. 'Ummm nooo' He said while laughing. 'Come in and drin k some coffee' I made him a coffee and he sat down and drank it, while I drank m y hot chocolate. We were just talking about things and then the clumsy boy spilt his drink down his clothes. 'Ahh shit' He said while quickly taking off his top . I quickly got a wet towel and whipped the coffee off his stomach and his cheek , while laughing. He started laughing too and lend in and kissed me. I pulled aw ay, 'WHAT YOU DOING!' - T + Letisha - The world of my own Part 9 of 11 'Don't act like you don't want this' Luke said while leaning in for another kiss . 'I said no! Luke get out! Your drunk!' I said while pushing him away from me a nd leading him out the door. 'Im sorry' He said before I shut the door in his fa ce. I went back to bed angry and shocked too. The next morning I did the normal got the kids dressed and made breakfast and st uff. Put on a yellow boob tube dress with yellow gladiator. Andre wasn't home ye t. The door bell rang as usual and I went to answer it, it was Luke. 'Oh... hi' I said and while leaving the door open and letting him come in. 'Daddy!' Ciara s aid while running to her dad. 'Hi baby...Umm Tish can we talk a min' He said whi le walking into the front room. 'Go back into the kitchen Ciara and eat your bre akfast' I said while shutting the door behind her. 'Soo...' I said. 'About last night..' 'Its alrite Luke I understand you were drunk' 'The thing is... I don't even regret it' He replied. 'Huh? I don't get what you mean' 'I mean I don't reg ret kissing you... I guess what im saying is.. ive got feelings for you Tish' I just stood there not knowing what to say or how to react. 'Maybe your still abit drunk' I said while walking to the door trying to get the door. He pulled me ba

ck gently by my arm. 'Luke... you need to go' 'Cant we just talk?' 'Noo im with Andre and your with Keri! And Keri's my bestfriend and your Andre's bestfriend A nd im pregnant.Your just confused or abit drunk from last night' I said while st epping away from him. 'Tish I know how I feel me and Keri havent been working an d ive grown feelings for you. Obviously I know we cant be together cuz you're my boys wifey. But I aint ganna lie and say dat kiss didn't mean anything to me.' I just stood there silent. I didn't know how to respond. 'Well im gone now... ca n I have Ciara's bags' I went upstairs and gave him his bag. 'Byee auntie Tish' Keri said before huggin g me. I walked them to the door. 'Say bye to auntie tish den daddy and give her a hug to say thankyou for looking after me' 'Keri... you getting abit too mouthy dies days' Luke said. 'Go on den' She said putting her hands on her hips. We bo th laughed uncomfortably and Luke hugged me quickly and then left. While they we re walking off I could here Ciara telling him off for not giving me a proper hug . 'Right kiddies what you wanna do today?' I asked Lahraya and Shilah. 'Can we g o to the park?' Shilah asked. 'Sure why not... it's a nice day' 'Wheres daddy mu mmy?' Shilah asked. 'Umm he's at uncle lukes' I lied.. I didn't know where he wa s. I decided to call him but it went striaght to voicemail. So I packed a picnic bag and put the kids in the car. 'Hmm... lets go to the beach instead I havent taken you before' 'Yaaaayyy, I havent been to the beach before.. is daddy coming ?' Shilah asked. 'Umm Daddy aint answering his phone so were going to have to go without him' 'Alritee' 'We can have fun with us girls and we can get a ice crea m too' 'Yaaaayy' Shilah said and then Lahraya copied her. We got to some far bea ch and I did like I promised, I brought the kids and myself a ice cream. I made a little picnic on the sand and we relax... well I sunbathed while the kids play ed. I must of drifted off to sleep but the next thing I knew I was getting shake n lightly. I opened my eyes and quickly panicked. THE KIDS!? 'Excuse me...' I lo oked around to see the kids still playing. I then looked up to see... a man infa ct a seeexxxxxyyy man looking up at me. 'Kool?' He said to me. 'Umm yeeh...' 'So rry for waking you up but... the tide is coming in closer and its ganna wash you lot away' I looked around me and noticed the sea was really close. 'Ohh shit' I quickly packed up the things and Picked up Lahraya and struggled with the stuff . The man that woke me up took the picnic bag from me and walked with us to the car. 'Thanks... I must look like some dick head' I said laughing at myself, he j oined me laughing too. 'Naa you would of looked like a mermaid' He said still la ughing. 'Loool a mermaid uno' I said still laughing. 'Lool ino I got jokes.. com e let me help you bring your stuff to your car' 'This is my car' I said still la ughing. 'Ohh raahh!!' He said shocked. I laughed and packed the stuff and kids i nto the car. 'Soo whats your name den sexy?' He asked me. 'My names Letisha... w hats yours?' I asked. 'Antwon' He replied. 'Ohkaay, so where you from?' 'Im from Pecky still where you from?' 'Hacky' 'Ohh kool... so these your kids?' 'Yeh the y are' 'There beautiful.. just like there mum' 'Aww thankyou..' I said blushing. 'I got Letisha blushing' He said while smiling and brushing my cheek. 'Sooo.. y ou single?' 'Nope, what about you?' 'Yeeh' 'Ohkaay.. so did you come here on you r own?' I asked him. 'Naa I came wid my family... there in the arcade' 'Ohh so y ou got kids?' 'Naa, im wid my marj and my brothers and my sister' 'Ohh kaayy' 'M ummmyy im hungry' 'Alrite Shy im coming' 'Can we go mcdonalds?' 'Umm.. noo you h ad a icecream today' 'Owaaahh but we havent had mcdonalds in ages' 'Alrite alrit e' 'Yaay I love you' She said. 'I love you too baby' 'Aww that's sweet' Antwon s aid. 'Lool' 'Well ill leave you to go... but could I have your number' He asked. 'Umm I don't know' 'Its just your number... we could be friends and its not lik e im asking for a kiss' 'Ohh alrite den...' I gave him my number and went back i nto the car. And wound down the window. 'Wheres the arcade?' 'Waaayy down there' He pointed in the direction on the end of the road. 'Do you want me to drop you there?' 'Yeeh dat wud be bless' I drove him to the arcade where his family was waiting. 'Ayyy Antwon?' One of his brothers said. Antwon started laughing 'thank s for dat... would I be pushing it if I asked for a kiss?' 'Yeeh you would be' I replied. We both started laughing and he made his way out the car. 'Ina bit ill ring you' 'Hmm.. ohkaay' 'Byee' Shilah and Lahraya shouted and then they both s tarted giggling. 'Byee' Antwon replied. 'Byee sexy' He said. 'Bye antwon' 'Ayy w

hos this then... shes sexy' One of Antwons brothers said. I started laughing and then drove off. 'Their weird' Shilah said. 'I know babe' I said while giggling. We went to mcdonalds which was near and then we went home. It was about 8pm and the lights were on in my house. Infact so was the music. I carried the kids in because they were sleeping and then put them to bed. I went into the front room to see Andre with 4 other boys including Luke. 'What you saying babes?' Andre sa id while getting up and pecking me on the lips. I looked at Luke who avoided eye contact with me. 'Umm whats this?' 'I invited couple mans over' 'Ohhkaay... whe n did you get home?' 'Umm bout 2 hours ago' '2 hours ago?! Its like 8 now' 'Yeeh I feel asleep at Rigdys yard?' 'Who?' 'Mines' One of the boys said. 'Ohkaay... well I was ringing you to ask if you wanted to go beach with me and the kids tod ay... but your phone was off' 'Yeeh cause I was sleeping... relax man tish' 'I a m relaxing... im kool!' I replied getting abit heated up. 'Well you obviously ai nt' 'Andre... shut up' 'Don't tell me to shut up' He said raising his voice. 'Lo w it blud don't talk to her like dat!' Luke said getting involved. 'Don't get in volved blud!' Andre said to Luke. 'Thanks Luke but don't worry about it.... Andr e is just getting abit excited because his friends are here' I said before walki ng out and slamming the door. I took my phone and rang Leesha. 'What you doing b abe?' I asked her. 'Nothing im soo bored!' She replied. 'Come we go out! Im piss ed ooff and I need to blow some steam!' 'Yaaay! Come pick me up in a hour!' 'Ohh shiit I forgot your pregnant you sure your up to it?' I asked. 'Yeeh man im fin e... im gone to get ready come in a hour yeh' 'Byee babe'. I didn't waste no tim e I jumped in the shower and put on a long sleeve see through netted top with a cream bra underneath and high waist cream shorts, with black high platform shoes . I put on gold jewellery. My hair was wet and curly so I combed out my front fr inge and straightened it and left the back curly. Wooi I was looking hot and my belly wasn't even showing. I went downstairs and went into the front room where every one was looking at me with their mouths wide open especially Lukes. 'Where you going?' Andre asked while skanning what I was wearing. 'Out.. the kids are upstairs remember, so don't go anywhere ohh yeeh and don't wait up' I walked out side and he followed behind me. 'Tish wait.. come back upstairs lets talk...Your pregnant memba... come we can talk' He said trying to sweet talk me. 'Don't you think I know im pregnant kmt and Naa your alrite I don't wanna talk now!' I sai d before grabbing my keys and bag and walking out the house and to the car. I we nt to Leesha's who was also looking stunning and then went to one club and parti ed even though were pregnant... well Leesha don't know I am. We both got chatted up by bare mans imagie if dey knew we were pregnant lol. 'Soo how comes you aint drinking then? Anyone would think you're the pregnant on e' Leesha joked. 'Well... I am pregnant' I confessed. 'OOOMMGGG!' She shouted, c ausing everyone to turn around. 'Congradulations... how far gone' 'Not sure have nt gone for my scan but ima few weeks I think' 'Aww that's soo cutteee!! Well le ts get our pregnant asses off im tired' We both made our way to the car and I dr opped her home and went mines. It was like 4am and Andre was in the front room w atching tv. 'You still up?' I said while taking off my heels. 'Yeeh' 'ohkay...' I said while walking upstairs. 'Come back down here tish... I didn't wait for yo u to get home just for you to go upstairs come lets talk' I walked back downstai rs and sat next to him. 'Im sorry baby' He said while hugging me and kissing me on my forehead. 'Im sorry too' I replied with a big smile on my face. 'Can I hav e a kiss?' He asked and I pecked him on the lips. 'A proper one man' He said. I gave him a proper kiss and he carried me upstairs into the bed. 'You look very s exy' He said while giving me a horny smile. 'Well thankyou and stop looking at m e like dat.. we cant have sex im pregnant' I said while taking off my clothes an d putting on when of his tshirts. 'Your only a few weeks and you can have sex wh en your pregnant' He said. 'Ohh...' 'I know my tings are big but come on it wont hurt the baby' I started giggling and sat on his stomach. He turned me over so I was on my back and started kissing my neck and around my face. We were just ge tting into things until the door knocked. 'Ahh wtf man!' He moaned. He slowly go t up and made his way downstairs. She came into the room and opened the door, I followed behind him... it was Keri and she didn't look happy. 'Keri... whats wro ng?' I asked. 'I cant believe you never told me!' She said. 'Keri I was ganna te

ll you but I havent had the chance!' I said worried that our friendship was over . 'You could of at least told me in a text or rang me!' She said while making he r way into the house. 'I didn't think we should of talked about it over the phon e I wanted to tell you in person' I continued. 'Ohh its alrite I know now... so how far gone are you?' 'Huh?' I said confused. 'How many weeks or months are you ?' 'ooooooo! That?! Umm Im not sure yet im going doctors soon' I said relieved. 'Aww that's soo cutee! What did you think I was on about?' 'Umm nothing lol... I m just confused because its so early in the morning' I said laughing uncomfortab ly. 'Soo is that what you woke us up at 4 in the morning for?' Andre said while rubbing his eyes. 'Ohh yeh.. sorry I just come back from Birmingham and den Luke told me' She said. 'Luke?' I said confused. 'Umm yeeh I told him' Andre said. ' Ooo whats that on you neck?' Kelly said while rubbing my neck. 'Umm I duno' I sa id confused. 'It's a love bite.. oo did I interrupt something?' She said grinnin g. 'Umm' 'yeh you did still' Andre butted in. 'Ohh sorry... I leave you two to i t ay' She said before quickly leaving. I started making my way upstairs yawning. 'Ahh im tired' I said while throwing myself on the bed. 'Nooo! Wake up we haven t finished' Andre said while leaning over me. 'Well we hardly started tomorrow m an' I said while tucking myself in the bed. 'Fuking Keri man kmt' Andre said whi le dashing the covers over his head. >>Next morning<< I did the usual get the kids dressed and myself and made them some cereal and ja mmed in the front room. I took Shilah to school and then came back home and jamm ed. It was Andres court case in 8 days and I was kinda nervous. He was still sle eping and it was 1pm! I was just about to go upstairs but the door knocked. I pi cked up Lahraya who was crawling everywhere and opened it to see Marcus. 'Umm he llo?' I said confused. 'Hi... I aint stopping I just came to give you this' He h anded me a picture while staring at Lahraya... it was Romario. Omg he looked so grown up and its only been a few months since hes been gone. My eyes started to well up. He looked happy. 'Thankyou' I said while still starring at the picture. 'Its kool... he asked for you' Marcus said. 'You seen him?! How is he?' I said quickly. 'Hes fine... he asked for you and still calls you mummy. His mum thinks that its best you don't see him....because he would get confused or some shit l ike that' He explained. 'Oh... so shes taking care of him den' I asked. 'Yeeh' H e replied. 'Shes so pretty she looks just like you' 'Umm thanks? I mean I know.. . I mean.. yeeh?' I said not knowing how to respond. 'Dadda' Lahraya said. Marcu s looked at her but she was looking behind her.. at Andre, she stretched her han ds out for Andre. Andre nodded at Marcus and then took Lahraya with him into the front room There was silence for abit, Marcus looked abit upset. 'Well... im go ne yeh... take care' He quickly hugged me and then left. I went into the front room with the picture and handed it to Andre. 'Wow hes gro wn man' Andre said just starring at the picture' 'Yeh ino' I said. 'Im ganna fra me it and put it up' I said while take the picture and finding a frame. 'So what we ganna do today?' I asked. 'We could go for a meal with the kids when Shilah comes from school and then we can go cinema and the arcade?' 'Yeeh alrite then.. . we gotta get Shilah in a hour so I might as well get ready and then we can lea ve out' I ran upstairs and got changed into some skinny jeans while gladiator sa ndals and a white top. Andre got dressed too and was looking sexy as usual. I pu t Lahraya in a cute dress with some cute shoes. I packed some clothes for Shilah to change into and then we left out to get her. I changed her in the car while Andre drove and we went to some restaurant which had peng food and then we went to the cinema and watch some kiddy film that me and Andre fell asleep in lol and then we had a joke time in the arcade. We were making our way back home catchin g more joke. 'I don't wanna go home' Shilah moaned. 'Why not?' I asked. 'I wanna stay out' 'Hear dis one' Andre said laughing. 'So where you wanna go?' I asked her 'Swimming' She replied. 'I got a idea...how about we go stay in a hotel unti l tomorrow and we can go swimming' Andre said. 'But Shilah got school tomorrow' I said. 'Yeeh she aint going' 'Yaaaaayyy were staying in a hotel' Shilah cheered . 'So what you say? You on it?' Andre asked. 'Hmm why not' We drove home and pac ked clothes and then left. Andre drove for like an hour to a random hotel which looked posh! We checked in and stuff and headed for their indoor swimming pool w

hich looked PENNGGG! I had on a peng pink bikini. Me and Andre were sitting at t he edge of the pool while Shilah and Lahraya played in the baby pool with their arm bands lol, the water was bare shallow so nothing could happen to them. 'You look sexy man' Andre said checking me out. 'Thank you' I said blushing. 'I cant believe you've had a baby and your pregnant and still looking so good wid no str etch marks or nutting. I started smiling bare. 'You know what the bad thing is b out dis hotel ting' 'What?' I asked. 'We cant have sex cause we share a room wit h the kids' He said I started laughing and pushed him in the pool. He ducked und er the water and I laughed at the look on his face when he came back up. He spla shed me with water I started screaming bout my hair. 'Fuk this your dead' I said before jumping in the water. We started play fighting in the water and then we started lipsing, we broke apart after hearing some crying. We both rushed over t o see Lahraya sitting down crying. Andre picked her up and hushed her. 'Whats wr ong baby?' He said to her. 'I accidently splashed her with water' Shilah said. ' Aww don't worry come shy let me teach you how to swim' I said while picking her up and taking her into the other pool. After I finished Shilah could swim, but w ith armbands on. Andre was playing with Lahraya in the other pool. It was gettin g late it was about 9 so we decided to go back to the room and we all got in the shower and stuff and put the kids to bed. Me and Andre decided to go bed too. L ife was going great for me at the moment and I was loving it. Me and Andre stayed at the hotel for a few days while the kids stayed with Andre s mum. My morning sickness was getting worse and so were my constant cravings fo r cucumbers, prawn cocktail crisps and which made me hate being pregnant. After 3 days for luxury we went back home with the kids and continued are usual days. While we were at the hotel, the court case didn't come up in our coversati ons or even in my thoughts once and it was just in a matter of days, we were jus t enjoying our days together. Andre went out with Lahraya and Shilah was at scho ol. I wasn't back long before my door knocked. I got up and answered it. It was Rakell. KMRT. 'What do you want' I said while walking back inside and leaving th e front door open. 'I tried ringing you and I came here everyday for the past 3 days where you been?' She asked looking concerned. 'you havent been able to get hold of me on my phone because I either was airing your calls or because it was off because my hubby took me to a hotel out the ends for abit' I said while keep ing my eyes on the tv. 'Ohkaay.. I miss you Tish' 'Ohh.. isit' I said bluntly. ' You really hate me now don't you?' 'Naa I don't hate you... I just don't like yo u at the moment' I said coldly, my eyes were still glued to the tv. 'Im sorry Ti sh... I didn't mean anything I said. I was just angry and I can admit I was jeal ous! Please forgive me' She begged while standing in front the tv. 'If I forgive you will you move from infront the tv?' I said getting irritated. 'Maybe...' Sh e said offering a smile. I cracked a small one and she opened her arms for a hug I slowly walked to her and hugged her tightly. We catch up for abit and then sh e had to leave because she had to pick up Tanisha. I walked back in the front ro om and realised she left her phone. 'This girl always leaves sumting' I said to myself, I quickly picked it up and ran to catch her up. I left the front door op en and ran up the street she was not too far, just across the road. 'Kell!' I sh outed, she turned around. 'You forgot your phone!' I said while running across t he road without looking. She had a big grin on her face, but in a instant her sm ile turned to a spine shivering screech and before I knew it I was hit by a mass ive force and flew across the road. A car hit me. Every part of my body was hurt ing. I looked up helplessly while holding onto my stomach. 'My baby' I managed t o cry, Rakell held me in her lap crying and stroking my face, while she was on t he phone panicking to the ambulance woman. 'Rakell.. I don't want to die.. help me' I said before letting out another breath taking scream while holding my stom ach. I really didn't want to die. - T + Letisha - The world of my own Part 11 of 11 I woke up with tubes attached to me everywhere, my body felt soo sore that I cou ldn't even move. And my throat was soo sore it felt like a massive pole was down

it. I looked around without moving my body I could see andre sitting down with his head in his hand. I looked on the clock it was one of those that had the dat e and time: thursday the 29th of july... 04:30 am. 29th? I thought to myself i s wear the day i checked out of the hotel with andre was the 28th of JUNE?! Everyt hing was confusing. I kept getting flashing of the car hitting me and me crying. .. crying for.. for my BABY! Omgg my baby i thought. I tried to reach out for An dre. I just wanted him to hold me and confort me and tell me if my baby was alri te. I tried to move forward but the pain was too much. Andre quickly got up and rushed to me, he looked relieved and worried at the same time he held my hand. ' Nurse! Shes awake!' he shouted. About 4 nurses rushed in. The took the tube out my throat and i started chocking. Andre looked at me worried. 'whats happening.. Why she coughing like that!?' he asked worried, which made me worried aswell. ' dont worry andre.. Shes alrite, its because the nurse just removed the tube from Letisha's throat' the nurse said reassuring him. 'you alrite baby' andre asked me while the nurses done somethings on the machines attached to me. 'whats going on Andre.. Hows my baby.. Are we ohhkaay?' 'Hello letisha i am nurse shaw and i have been working with you and your family. You have been in a comma for a mont h and a day. You are a very lucky girl' she said. She seemed nice, but i was mor e intrested in whether my baby was alrite. 'am i going to be alrite? Is my baby alrite?' i asked. 'doctor Henley is on his way down now he will talk to you abou t everything' she said. I tried sitting up but it was making it impossible. 'Don t move Tish' Andre said taking hold of my hand. He looked soo stressed and tired . I could see pain in his eyes. I held his hand tightly and just stared into spa ce. The doctor came in and introduced himself. 'as nurse shaw told you.. Youve b een in a coma for a month and a day and to be honest we didnt think you would ma ke it, we have both good news and bad news for you do you want to hear the good news or the bad news?' he asked. 'umm bad news first please.. Is my baby alrite? ' i asked gettin worried. 'the bad news is the impact from the car with so hudge that it broke many bones in your body, so unfortunatley you will be wheel chair bound for a while' my heart sunk.. 'so what im disabled' i said with tears runn ing down my face. 'No not exaclty you have just broken several bones in both leg s and you also broke both your wrist and one of your elbows' 'ohh.. To be honest i dont care about me i am more worrried about my baby. Why aint newun telling m e anything' i said, i looked at Andre who just looked bare stress. 'thats the go od news' I automatically felt happier. 'You have a miracle baby.. Your baby surv ived and was unharmed which was shocking. we did have doubts that both of you wa snt going to survive but after you were stable and in your coma your baby still survive. Which shocked me and my team. So overal all things are good, you will n eed to stay in for another week just for observation we need to run some test on you and the baby and then hopefully you will be able to leave. Youve been very popular,youve had alot of visitors. Ill check on you later' the doctor said. 'th ank you' me and andre said and he left with the nurses behind him. Andre sat dow n next to me still holding my hand. 'i dont think you understand how much you go t me shook i havent been eating sleeping neting.. All was on my mind is what I w ould do if I.. I lost you' He said with hurt in his eyes. I looked at him while tears rolled down my face, I don't know why I was crying. 'I love you dre' I sai d. He smiled. 'You know I love you with all my heart' He replied. 'The kids have missed you! Shilah's been crying for you and she's drawn loads of pictures dat we stuck up in here' I looked around to see lots of picture she drew, it was so cute, it was me, dre, larayah and her. 'And Lahraya kept asking for you too.. Th ey been staying with my mum and your mum while I stayed here' Andre continued, I smiled. 'I wanna see them so bad' I I said. 'Well you wont have to wait long.. Everyones on their way here now' 'Everyone?' I asked. 'Yeh.. Your mum and brothe rs the kids, my mum, nicole, leesh and the rest of your gyal dem.. Including Rak ell' 'OMG kell is she alrite?' 'Yeh shes kool. Everyones just been worried about you' 'Ohh.. I feel special' I joked. But then I clocked on.. 'Hold on what abou t your court case?!' I asked, worried. 'Um.. Well talk bout it when your better' 'Naa Dre, I wanna know now' 'Well they postponed it til you get better' 'Soo th ere still carrying this on!?' 'Yeh Tish.. They need to ask questions, and I had a strap on me that they found. They have to continue the hearring' 'Strap? I don

't memba them saying neting bout a strap' 'Umm yeh dats a different story' I too k a deep breath. 'But my lawyer said that because the strap aint been used befor e so it will help when dey make their decision' I didn't know how to respond. 'S o when I come out of here you will be going court?' 'Yeh..' 'So whos ganna look after me and the kids' I asked. Just before Andre was about to answer My family and friends all walked in making a big fuss. Luke was there too.. Which will mak e it awkward. Oh great. 2weeks later I was finally let out the hospital, And I was back with my family. For the first week everyone would come round my house everyday. But now they are giving us ou r space so we can spend time as a family. Me and Andre was trying to be as happy as ever, because we didn't know what to expect. I was in a wheel chair and at t he moment Andre was looking after me and the kids, but today is Andre's court ca se and Luke will be looking after us, if Dre goes pen. All we can do is hope and pray. Andre put on his tie and shoes and we had our emotional good bye. We coul dn't even make love because almost every bone in my body's broke. 'Im ganna ring you when im done, or ill get my solicitor to ring Luke if anything else happens . Bye and I love you' Was the last thing he said to me. Luke came round and said bye and then stayed with me and the kids. Luke made us dinner, I was just silen t and he spoke to the kids and asked me a few questions, when he asked me I woul d just answer some one words. We were sitting down and watching tv and then Luke 's phone rang. We both looked at each other not knowing what to say. 'Hello -sil ence- ohkaay thanks' Luke hanged up while and his face was just straight. 'He go t five months for having a unlicensed gun, the time was reduced because the gun wasn't used and because of family circumstances' Luke said. I just looked at him , I wasn't looking at him, just in his direction. Its just one thing after anoth er. 5 months is too long. I don't even want to spend a week without him. I need Andre. 1ST Day without Andre. Straight after I found out about Andre's sentence I made Luke take me upstairs a nd I went straight to bed and stayed asleep. I was sleeping and then I felt a li ght shake. I opened my eyes to see Luke standing over me. I looked around the ro om to see some breakfast on the table and then I looked at Luke just simply conf used. This didn't seem real. 'Morning tish. I made you some breakfast' I turned back around. 'Thanks.. But im not hungry' I said with my heads under the sheet. He pulled the sheet back from over my head, I didn't have the strength to fight back so I just laid there. 'Tish this aint doing any good for you or the baby. A ndre will be back soon and everything can go back to normal' He said with a reas suring smile. 'Alrite...' I said unsure. 'I told the kids that Dre's gone on a l oong holiday. I don't think Lahraya understood but Shilah did' He said. 'Thanks' 'The kids are at your mums house already, I pack clothes for them for a few day s cuz dats how long their staying for init?' He asked. 'Yeeh' 'Now im gana take you to the bathroom so you can quickly get washed up and stuff. Ive already made you a bath and then im ganna take you to eat your breakfast' 'Ohkaay... but how am I ganna get washed? I cant do it myself' 'Ohh yeeh im ganna have to do it fo r you' He said. 'Hahahahaha are you mad?! I am not letting you see me or even to uch me naked' I said. 'Sooo what you ganna do? Stay dirty all day?' He asked. 'K MT! Ill keep my bra and pants on den' I said while he picked me up and put me in the wheel chair. 'Well how you ganna wash yourself properly den?' 'KMT oh great . Well I need you to take off my clothes.. And den just put me in the bath... il l do the rest and you can come out.' 'But how?' He asked. 'Ill find a way. Just don't try anything funny' I said. He just laughed and took me in the bathroom. H e sat me on the toilet and started taking off my night dress. It was really awkw ard. I just sat in the bathroom in my bra and pants. I could tell he felt awkwar d too. 'Umm.. Can you do the rest?' He asked tryna look away. 'Um.. Nope. I need you to take off my bra. But keep your eyes shut' 'How am I ganna undo it den?' He asked confused. 'Arrgghh for fuk sake. Your soo difficult! Just take my cloth es off all of it! I cant do it myself or I would of. Just take dem off and don't look. Why did Andre leave me with you. Of all people?!' I said getting frustrat

ed, he looked at me and started laughing. 'Its not funny!' I moaned. 'Yeh it is. . Your getting so frustrated. Andre left you with me because he trust me to take care of you all! And because no one don't wanna look after your miserable ass!' He said while still laughing. 'Ohh shut up..... People wanted to look after me bout!' He just laughed. 'Im taking off your bra first' He said while leaning for ward. He took off my bra while looking away. 'Im ganna take off yourr pants now' He took them off slowly again. And I was now there naked. Luke tried looking aw ay but he ended up looking at me again. He was just staring at me. 'LUKE. PUT.ME .IN.THE.BATH!' He quickly snapped out of his day dream and then picked me up and put me in the bath and then walked out. He was acting bare weird. And this is o nly day one.. I got another 5 months of this!