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Watching You: A Novel
Watching You: A Novel
Watching You: A Novel
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Watching You: A Novel

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“Quickly and assuredly, Jewell builds an ecosystem of countervailing suspicions…Tricky, clever, unexpected.” —New York Times Book Review

“Brace yourself as Jewell stacks up the secrets, then lights a long, slow fuse.” —People

“A seize-you-by-the-throat thriller and a genuinely moving family drama.” —A.J. Finn, #1 New York Times bestselling author of The Woman in the Window

The instant New York Times and #1 Sunday Times bestselling author of the Then She Was Gone delivers another suspenseful page-turner about a shocking murder in a picturesque and well-to-do English town, perfect “for fans of Gone Girl, The Girl on the Train, and Luckiest Girl Alive” (Library Journal).

You’re back home after four years working abroad, new husband in tow. You’re keen to find a place of your own. But for now, you’re crashing in your big brother’s spare room.

That’s when you meet the man next door. He’s the head teacher at the local school. Twice your age. Extraordinarily attractive.

You find yourself watching him. All the time. But you never dreamed that your innocent crush might become a deadly obsession.

Or that someone is watching you.

In Lisa Jewell’s latest “bone-chilling suspense” (People), no one is who they seem—and everyone has something to hide. Perfect for fans of Gillian Flynn and Ruth Ware, Watching You will keep you guessing as “Jewell teases out her twisty plot at just the right pace” (Booklist, starred review) until the startling revelations on the very last page.
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PublisherAtria Books
Release dateDec 26, 2018
ISBN9781501190094
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Lisa Jewell

Lisa Jewell is the #1 New York Times bestselling author of nineteen novels, including The Family Upstairs and Then She Was Gone, as well as Invisible Girl and Watching You. Her novels have sold over 10 million copies internationally, and her work has also been translated into twenty-nine languages. Connect with her on Twitter @LisaJewellUK, on Instagram @LisaJewellUK, and on Facebook @LisaJewellOfficial.

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  • Rating: 5 out of 5 stars
    5/5
    Watching You is the new release from New York Times bestselling author Lisa Jewell.Melville Heights is a well to do neighbourhood in Bristol, England. But there are always secrets behind closed doors aren't there? And there most definitely are some in Melville Heights...The local headmaster Tom Fitzwilliam is loved by his students, faculty and most of his neighbors. Joey, a married neighbor wants to get a little closer. Jenna, one of his students is quite sure he's nowhere near what he purports to be. Jenna's mother agrees - and watches the Fitzwilliam house. Diary entries from the past give the reader even more food for thought. As well as police interview transcripts. Inside the Fitzwilliam house, Tom's son Freddie, keeps watch as well from his upstairs bedroom window. He takes photos and keeps detailed notes.Oh, Lisa Jewell puts a wonderful spin on the concept of Neighborhood Watch! We know there's a crime from the opening prologue. Jewell then takes us back to before the crime. Watching You is told from various viewpoints - mostly Joey, Jenna and Freddie. Despite his watching being the 'creepiest' - I enjoyed Freddie's observations the most. His outlook isn't predatory, but is instead driven by his desire to join MI5.Jewell manipulates the reader's expectations, giving us lots of reasons to think one way, while all the while laying the groundwork for an unexpected (and clever) finale. Well played Lisa Jewell!I chose to listen to Watching You. Gabrielle Glaister was the reader and she did a fantastic job. Her voice is expressive and changed to reflect who was speaking. Her accent suited the book and was very easy to understand. Her tone is lower and is pleasing to listen to. She was a new-to-me narrator that I would listen to again. Watching You was an excellent listen. I've said it before and I'll say it again - I always feel immersed in a story when I listen. Five stars for Watching You.
  • Rating: 4 out of 5 stars
    4/5
    Just who is Tom Fitzwilliam? Does anyone really know?To the outside world he is a handsome, popular, successful man, but is he really all that?Strange things always happen in the neighborhoods where Tom lives, and Melville Heights is no exception. There is spying in the neighborhood by his son, there are women in love with Tom, and there is a neighbor, Mrs. Tripp, who thinks Tom is the cause of numerous strange things happening to her and has remembered something about Tom that happened a few years ago. Could Mrs. Tripp be right about Tom and everyone else wrong thinking he is perfect? She doesn't give up.Tom’s son, Freddie, is definitely odd and frightening.There are other characters that play some major roles such as Joey who is a suspect in a murder investigation that occurred in the neighborhood and who has a crush on Tom Fitzwilliam. WATCHING YOU is definitely a study in human nature with nosy neighbors being the focus. It seemed that everyone was spying on someone with Freddie being the major one.As the book continues, the mystery about who Tom really is and who the murdered person is at the beginning of the book are slowly revealed.WATCHING YOU has a lot of unlikable and odd characters, but that is what made it good and typical Lisa Jewell. I was asking myself just who is anyone in this twisty, strange, but excellent thriller that had me wondering about all of the characters and what was happening.If you enjoy Lisa Jewell’s books, you won’t want to miss reading WATCHING YOU. The ending revelations are GREAT!! 4/5This book was given to me as an ARC by the publisher via NetGalley in exchange for an honest review.
  • Rating: 4 out of 5 stars
    4/5
    Watching You is not particularly suspenseful or thrilling, but more of a observational novel of a community told from the perspective of those that live there and who like to take community watch a little too far at times. It is slow building but the payoff is worth it. It's told from three POVs, Joey, a mid-2os girl living with her husband at her brother's and sister-in-law's house, Jenna, a teenage girl who's mom suffers from paranoid delusions, and Freddie, an introverted teen who likes to take pictures of the people in his neighborhood from his window. Besides living on the same street, they are all tied together by Tom Fitzwilliam. He's head teacher at Jenna's school, Freddie's dad, and Joey's crush. Tom exudes a magnetism that draws people to him (like Joey) but can also make people suspicious of him (like Jenna).As Joey, Jenna, and Freddy navigate changes in their lives things slowly start to unravel as past secrets revolving around Tom come to light. This is where Jewell's writing really shines. She throws in small details and some red herrings that you don't think much of until the climax when someone in their community is murdered. A few more twists happen before we discover the truth behind the murder and the past. It is a satisfying end that made the earlier lack of suspense worth it.I received an advanced copy through Netgalley in return for an honest review.
  • Rating: 5 out of 5 stars
    5/5
    A special thank you to NetGalley and Atria Books for an ARC in exchange for an honest review.Josephine "Joey" Mullen, newly married, has returned from a four year stint working abroad. She has brought her husband, Alfie, home with her. The couple has taken up residence in Joey's brother's spare room. Jack and his pregnant wife Rebecca live in the stunning Melville Heights—a community of posh character homes. When Joey meets the man two doors down, she is smitten. Tom Fitzwilliam, a dashing older man, is the headmaster of a local school. Joey's innocent crush soon turns to a dangerous obsession. And now instead of Joey watching Tom, someone is watching her, and then things turn deadly.I have reviewed Then She Was Gone and The Girls in the Garden by Lisa Jewell and was thrilled to receive an ARC of Watching You. This book was absolutely captivating right out of the gate and I couldn't read it fast enough. The story opens with a murder scene and completely grabs the reader and doesn't let go until the final twist. The reader is left guessing who the dead body is, who the killer is, and what their motivation was. Executed through multiple points of view and police reports, Jewell gives just enough away and paces the novel perfectly. Jewell's character development is incredible. She deftly handles a large cast and this is where she excels—all of the characters are key to the story. They are rich in detail, motivation, and flawed. Her writing is clever, tense, and riveting. Chock-full of family secrets, passion, obsessions, and misconceptions, this is Jewell at her finest and I highly recommend this book.
  • Rating: 4 out of 5 stars
    4/5
    Watching YouByLisa JewellWhat it's all about...Tom Fitzwilliam...master teacher, enigmatic friend, weird husband, weird father...who is this guy? He seems to seek out pretty naive young girls as well as pretty girls in their 20’s. But Jenna is suspicious...especially when she sees Mr. Fitzwilliam pay too close attention to her best friend. Why I wanted to read it...I read everything that Lisa Jewell writes. She is that good and one of my favorite authors. What made me truly enjoy this book...This mystery seemed to unfold on almost every page. I have to say that as much as I love Lisa Jewell this book was different...confusing...a bit odd. It begins with a mystery that leads us to the eventual ending of the mystery...where the mystery is finally explained...thank goodness. What sort of bothered me about this book...All paths led to Tom Fitzwilliam. Even when some of them shouldn’t. Why you should read it, too...Readers who enjoy a well written exquisitely plotted story...should enjoy this book. I received an advance reader’s copy of this book from the publisher through NetGalley and Amazon. It was my choice to read it and review it.
  • Rating: 4 out of 5 stars
    4/5
    3.5 it seems as if everyone is watching someone else. Is the woman raising her teenage daughter crazy, or is her neighbor actually guilty of something? Is the new bride, with red tassels on her red boots happily married or is she watching snd yearning for the teacher who lives a few doors down? Is the young boy in the attic watching everyone just creepy or does he have another reason? From the beginning we know there has been a murder, but we don't know who nor why. As the story unravels, we are privvy to more and more of the suspicions and secrets being harbired in this neighborhood. Rather unlikeable people for the most part.In fact for the first half of this book I felt that most keenly. Was tempted to put this aside, but as a sister read, plus I trust this author, I continued. She is in my handful of psychological thrillers writers that I will continue to read. Sure enough, certain things come to light, a few people let down their guard and just like that, she sold me, a few characters became not only likable but their action when seen under a new light, understandable. This is still a dark, twisty read, but also a good look at bullying and it's aftereffects. The damage is causes in the present and the future. So, a good message, seamlessly woven with a suspenseful read. Who is watching you?ARC from Edelweiss.
  • Rating: 5 out of 5 stars
    5/5
    Oh, how much do I love a Lisa Jewell novel? Lots and lots is the answer. She's never let me down, right from the days of Ralph's Party. Her direction has changed a little with her last few books (she's gone over to the dark side!) but what hasn't changed is her fantastic writing and her ability to craft a brilliant tale.Watching You is about just that, people watching people. It's set in a relatively small community and the geography is such that residents can quite easily be spied on or observed. Melville Heights is elevated and allows the opportunity to look down on Lower Melville and see all the goings on. This is quite clever too as the residents of Melville Heights are quite well off, the houses are big and attractive, whereas those in Lower Melville are smaller, more average. There are opportunities for hidden surveillance. Jewell sets the scene so well and easily plants the idea of being watched in the head of the reader.A lot of the story revolves around Tom Fitzwilliam, a charismatic and attractive head teacher. He's one of those men who just seems to bewitch those around him, usually women. He's certainly had an effect on Joey Mullen, who has just returned from Ibiza and is crashing at her brother's house. She becomes quite obsessed by Tom. But Jenna Tripp's mum is also obsessed with him and the idea of gang stalking, and Jenna's best friend, Bess, goes into a swoon every time Tom so much as looks at her. Tom's own teenage son keeps pictures of residents that he takes from his bedroom window. The whole story revolves around being watched. We know straightaway that something has happened to get the police involved - a body has been found. Who it is and what exactly has happened is kept from us right until the end of the book, although I did have more than an inkling of what had gone on. But I enjoyed every bit of the waiting to find out whether I was right or not.The characterisations are the biggest strength of Watching You, I think. There are quite a lot of characters to keep track of but all are so well drawn that each had their very individual identity and so it made it very easy to keep up. And then there's the deft plotting, the way that Jewell brings together this intense and gripping story, pulling all the individual strands together to make an absolutely fascinating whole. This is one seriously good book. I loved the stories of all the characters, reading about their lives, their problems, their issues. It's a perfectly constructed story of deceit, obsession, voyeurism. I thought it was fabulous.
  • Rating: 5 out of 5 stars
    5/5
    I love the twisted plot of the story , it was interesting.
  • Rating: 5 out of 5 stars
    5/5
    Absolutely a banger! Easy & quick reading, making you guess who the murderer is & why the killing was done. The ending is superb too, makes one re-think whether it was a suicide or murder. Highly recommended!
  • Rating: 4 out of 5 stars
    4/5
    Have yet to be disappointed in one of Lisa Jewell's books, and this is no exception. Great characters and suspense. Total twist at the end. Well worth the read.
  • Rating: 5 out of 5 stars
    5/5
    This is now the 3rd "thriller" novel from Lisa that I have read or listened to. I really enjoyed this. The character building and different points of view were entertaining. I love how it was written and everything came together at the end. Another novel that would make a great movie.
  • Rating: 4 out of 5 stars
    4/5
    I WOULD LIKE TO SEE A SEQUEL. I really enjoyed it
  • Rating: 5 out of 5 stars
    5/5
    I absolutely love Lisa Jewell as an author and this book is yet another to add to my list of 5 star publications. There was so much suspense, especially towards the end. Every time I thought I had an idea of what was coming next, there was another loop/turn that shocked me and took me down a different path. This was such an amazing book. I love it! Highly recommended!
  • Rating: 4 out of 5 stars
    4/5
    Happy to finally clear this Lisa Jewell book from my backlist (one of only two books of hers I’ve not yet read). Definitely a page turner, with many red herrings thrown in to obfuscate who actually committed the murder that sets the opening scene for the book. There is a classic Lisa Jewell twist(s) at the end. This is a quick read and good fare for book clubs as there are enough confusing events and characters to generate fruitful discussions.
  • Rating: 5 out of 5 stars
    5/5
    This is one of the only books I was able to read without having to force myself. The entire time I was genuinely intrigued and enjoyed every bit of it. I’m very upset it’s over now because it gave me something to look forward to after getting home in the evening.
  • Rating: 4 out of 5 stars
    4/5
    I love the way this is written! It seamlessly floats through time, from one perspective to another. The twist at the end was so unexpected until right before it happened. I loved the way that one of the main characters was written to include his Aspbergers. Excellent writing.
  • Rating: 5 out of 5 stars
    5/5
    Very hard to put down. A great book to read.
  • Rating: 5 out of 5 stars
    5/5
    I really enjoyed reading your book. I read enthusiastically and understood the story. ... If you have some great stories like this one, you can publish it on Novel Star, just submit your story to hardy@novelstar.top or joye@novelstar.top
  • Rating: 5 out of 5 stars
    5/5

    The plot is intriguing. It keeps you on the edge.. If you have some great stories like this one, you can publish it on Novel Star, just submit your story to hardy@novelstar.top or joye@novelstar.top
  • Rating: 4 out of 5 stars
    4/5
    He did it. She did it... no, he did... no, maybe it was her.
    I liked it.
  • Rating: 4 out of 5 stars
    4/5
    A young newlywed couples life is upended, and a picturesque neighborhood is shattered, when she is suspected of a savage murder. As the police gather evidence, it soon becomes clear how many secrets each family has been hiding. The story consists of a complex array of characters. Sometimes it’s almost too complex along with the fact that large parts are written in third person narrative doesn’t help. The novel opens with the murder investigation and deftly maintains its intensity and brisk pace even as the story moves through different moments in time over the previous three months. Like most of this authors books the story can best be described as being a haunting psychological thriller.
  • Rating: 4 out of 5 stars
    4/5
    Enjoyable read. A page turner.
  • Rating: 4 out of 5 stars
    4/5
    really like the way she writes. all the hints are there and just as you are getting closer to the end the pieces jump into place. really liked it.
  • Rating: 4 out of 5 stars
    4/5
    I've liked many of Lisa Jewell's books so far, but this one took quite a while for me to get hooked. I'd say about 75 pages in or so. It was a good twist in the plot though and an interesting story.
  • Rating: 4 out of 5 stars
    4/5
    Passion, paranoia, and obsession- In her novel Watching You, Lisa Jewell depicts the tragic misunderstandings that can result from their controlling influence. The main character, Joey (Josephine) Mullen, thinks she may have finally escaped her impulsive tendencies now that she has married and returned to settle down in her hometown. She hopes that a rewarding career and all the trappings of a stereotypical suburban life will propel her into mature adulthood. She soon discovers, however, that personal change is not so easily attainable. Forced to live with her successful brother and expectant sister-in-law, Joey takes an entry-level job while her husband tries to drum up work as a home painter. Dissatisfied and disappointed, she yearns for the excitement they had during their whirlwind courtship. When Joey sees an elegant, attractive older man during her commute, she feels an instant but unwelcome attraction. She keeps running into him, since he lives nearby and is the new headmaster at the local public school. Tom Fitzwilliam emerges as a central figure in the book, and much of the action revolves around him. Joey is not the only one drawn to this man. The schoolgirls are besotted with him, a paranoid neighbor is convinced that Tom is spying on her, and his wife seems to acquiesce to his every need. Only Tom’s own son and one female student at his school seem to be resistant to his charms. Tension builds as these two teens begin to uncover secrets from Tom’s past and temptations between certain characters prove irresistible. Interspersed throughout the book are police interviews, hinting that a deadly crime has occurred. Jewell uses the different perspectives and flashbacks to tantalizingly reveal the details. She keeps the reader guessing all the way to the end and turns assumptions upside down in a satisfying resolution. Watching You is a welcome addition to Jewell’s already admirable collection of fast-paced and deservedly popular novels.Thanks to Atria Books and NetGalley for an Advanced Review Copy of this book.
  • Rating: 4 out of 5 stars
    4/5
    The beginning...…….A murder has taken place. There is a clear suspect based on evidence at the scene. One of the things I loved is the author didn’t use a pronoun so you don’t know if the victim is male or female. Not until near the very end! There are alternating perspectives from several characters; these cloud the waters when you are formulating theories about the interwoven scenarios.This touches on so many issues from a school girl crush on a handsome teacher, a newly married couple who are at odds about having a baby, bullying, a mentally ill neighbor which you really feel for and a brilliant teenage boy who is expert at watching people and keeping detailed journals on activities. As a mystery/ thriller fan and reader I was pleased this wasn’t a slam dunk for me. Was I surprised about the ending? You betcha.This is the second novel I have read by Lisa Jewell and it’s most certainly not the last. I enjoyed her latest book, The Family Upstairs, and certainly enjoyed this one. Up next for me is Jewell’s novel I Found You.
  • Rating: 4 out of 5 stars
    4/5
    A little predictable but still a good read. Enjoyed it.
  • Rating: 5 out of 5 stars
    5/5
    After years abroad, Joey returns to England with her husband Alfie. In lack of alternatives, they move in with her brother Jack and his pregnant wife. The neighbourhood is full of strange people, first of all this woman who seems to have mental issues and is convinced that people are following and watching her. Then Tom Fitzwilliam’s family, he a charming teacher who immediately starts to flirt with Joey, his wife, a somehow excessive runner who only seems to live for her husband and their teenage son who closely observes everything that is going on in their street. It is all but a peaceful suburb of Bristol, it is soon to become a crime scene – but who killed whom and for which reason?Lisa Jewell opens her sixteenth novel actually with the crime scene. You know from the start that somebody has been murdered, but the victim’s identity isn’t given, only one clue to lead you in a certain direction and to keep your attention fixed on one character throughout the novel. I really liked that because the author so cleverly puts you on a track that – even if you are careful and know how crime novels sometimes play with you – you eagerly follow into the trap. It is not easy to talk about the novel without revealing too much and spoiling the fun for other readers. I especially appreciated the wrong leads, the assumptions you have about what might have happened, who the murderer could be and the reasons for his deed, that all turn out to be completely wrong. The style of writing and the artfully dropped hints keep you read on excited to come to the end and see the full picture. Carefully orchestrated, a brilliant psychological crime novel that could hardly be surpassed.
  • Rating: 4 out of 5 stars
    4/5
    I had been reading so many 4 and 5 star ratings for "Watching You" by Lisa Jewell that I was getting worried. I find that if my expectations are so high, that I am often disappointed. I need not to have worried. Lisa Jewell penned a very good psychological thriller that I had a hard time putting down. She develops her characters slowly, dropping tidbits about their lives so you get to know them as if you have met them. In this story, the area called Melville Heights is home to the various people who populate this story. From students and their families, neighbours who are a bit off and the headmaster, Tom, and his family there is quite a group of them and several of them are watching one another. Why are they watching? They have their reasons. At the centre of the story is Tom Fitzwilliam, the hot shot teacher who's come to town to clean up a troubled school. As he works on making the school good again, he is making the ladies swoon. For some reason his charm, wit and fairly run-of-the-mill dad looks appeal to everyone, making the females weak in the knees and the males wishing they were him. Everyone that is, except Jenna Tripp and her mother who know Tom Fitzwilliam is up to no good. Jenna’s best friend Bess however, is another story and obsession is putting her feelings towards Mr. Fitzwilliam lightly.

    I enjoyed this character driven psychological thriller. It was a quick, fun and fast-paced story. The story starts with a bang, a murder scene and then we weave through the lives of the characters until we find out who the murderer is. I enjoyed this plot, and loved how all of these characters in the neighborhood are linked together with invisible, twisty, threads. It's a slow build with just the exact amount of mystery to keep you turning the pages. I thought I had it all figured out based on the clever hints and clues dropped throughout the book and I was partially correct, but oh that final twist, I did not see that coming. Unfortunately, I have one niggle and that is the epilogue. It ties up all the loose ends in a "nice" way that I just didn't think was necessary. It felt very rushed to me. If it wasn't for that, this would have been a 5 star read for me. Every Lisa Jewell book I read, cements her higher on my list of favourite authors. The publisher, Atria Books, generously provided me with a copy of this book to read upon my request. The rating, opinions and ideas are my own.
  • Rating: 5 out of 5 stars
    5/5
    So far, I think this is my second time reading Ms. Jewell, and I was just as intrigued with this book as well! I was spot on to find the killer, and I raced rapidly through the pages.

Book preview

Watching You - Lisa Jewell

PROLOGUE

MARCH 24

DC Rose Pelham kneels down; she can see something behind the kitchen door, just in front of the trash can. For a minute she thinks it’s a bloodstained twist of tissue, maybe, or an old bandage. Then she thinks perhaps it is a dead flower. But as she looks at it more closely she can see that it’s a tassel. A red suede tassel. The sort that might once have been attached to a handbag, or to a boot.

It sits just on top of a small puddle of blood, strongly suggesting that it had fallen there in the aftermath of the murder. She photographs it in situ from many angles, and then, with her gloved fingers, she plucks the tassel from the floor and drops it into an evidence bag, which she seals.

She stands up and turns to survey the scene of the crime: a scruffy kitchen, old-fashioned pine units, a green Aga piled with pots and pans, a large wooden table piled with table mats and exercise books and newspapers and folded washing, a small extension to the rear with a cheap timber glazed roof, double doors to the garden, a study area with a laptop, a printer, a shredder, a table lamp.

It’s an innocuous room, bland even. A kitchen like a million other kitchens all across the country. A kitchen for drinking coffee in, for doing homework and eating breakfast and reading newspapers in. Not a kitchen for dark secrets or crimes of passion. Not a kitchen for murdering someone in.

But there, on the floor, is a body, splayed facedown inside a large, vaguely kidney-shaped pool of blood. The knife that had been used is in the kitchen sink, thoroughly washed down with a soapy sponge. The attack on the victim had been frenzied: at least twenty knife wounds to the neck, back, and shoulders. But little in the way of blood has spread to other areas of the kitchen—no handprints, no smear, no spatters—leading Rose to the conclusion that the attack had been unexpected, fast, and efficient and that the victim had had little chance to put up a fight.

Rose takes a marker pen from her jacket pocket and writes on the bag containing the red suede tassel.

Description: Red suede/suedette tassel.

Location: In front of fridge, just inside door from hallway.

Date and time of collection: Friday, March 24, 2017, 11:48 p.m.

It’s probably nothing, she muses, just a thing fallen from a fancy handbag. But nothing was often everything in forensics.

Nothing could often be the answer to the whole bloody thing.

PART ONE

1

JANUARY 2

Joey Mullen laid the flowers against the gravestone and ran her fingertip across the words engraved into the pink-veined granite.

SARAH JANE MULLEN

1962–2016

Beloved mother of Jack and Josephine

Happy new year, Mum, she said. "I’m sorry I didn’t come to see you yesterday. Alfie and I had shocking hangovers. We went to a party over in Frenchay, at Candy’s new flat. Remember Candy? Candy Boyd? She was in my year at school; she had all that long blonde hair that she could sit on? You really liked her because she always said hello to you if she passed you on the street? Anyway, she’s doing really well; she’s a physiotherapist. Or… a chiropractor? Anyway, something like that. She cried when I told her you were dead. Everyone cries when I tell them. Everyone loved you so much, Mum. Everyone wished you were their mum. I was so lucky to have a mum like you. I wish I hadn’t stayed away for so long now. If I’d known what was going to happen, I would never have gone away at all. And I’m sorry you never got to meet Alfie. He’s adorable. He works at a wine bar in town right now, but he wants to be a painter-decorator. He’s at his mum’s now, actually, painting her kitchen. Or at least, he’s supposed to be! She’s probably made him sit down and watch TV with her, knowing her. And him. He’s a bit of a procrastinator. Takes him a while to get going. But you’d love him, Mum. He’s the cutest, sweetest, nicest guy and he’s so in love with me and he treats me so well and I know how much of a worry I was to you when I was younger. I know what I put you through and I’m so, so sorry. But I wish you could see me now. I’m growing up, Mum. I’m finally growing up!"

She sighed.

"Anyway, I’d better go now. It’ll be getting dark soon and then I’ll get really scared. I love you, Mum. I miss you. I wish you weren’t dead. I wish I could go to your house and have a cup of tea with you, have a good gossip, have a bitch about Jack and Rebecca. I could tell you about the gold taps. Or maybe I could tell you about the gold taps now? No, I’ll tell you about the gold taps next time. Give you something to look forward to.

Sleep tight, Mum. I love you.


Joey climbed the steep lane from Lower Melville to the parade of houses above. Even in the sodium gloom of a January afternoon, the houses of Melville Heights popped like a row of children’s building blocks: red, yellow, turquoise, purple, lime, sage, fuchsia, red again. They sat atop a terraced embankment looking down on the small streets of Lower Melville like guests at a private party that no one else was invited to.

Iconic was the word that people used to describe this row of twenty-seven Victorian villas: the iconic painted houses of Melville Heights. Joey had seen them from a distance for most of her life. They were the sign that she was less than twenty minutes from home on long car journeys of her childhood. They followed her to work; they guided her home again. She’d been to a party once, in the pink house, when she was a student. Split crudely into flats and bedsits, smelling of damp and cooked mince, it hadn’t felt bright pink on the inside. But the views from up there were breathtaking: the River Avon pausing to arc picturesquely on its mile-long journey to the city, the patchwork fields beyond, the bulge of the landscape on the horizon into a plump hill crowned with trees that blossomed every spring into puffballs of hopeful green.

She’d dreamed of living up here as a child, oscillated between which house would be hers: the lilac or the pink. And as she grew older, the sky blue or the sage. And now, at twenty-six, she found herself living in the cobalt-blue house. Number 14. Not a sign of a lifetime of hard work and rich rewards, but a fringe benefit of her older brother’s lifetime of hard work and rich rewards.

Jack was ten years older than Joey and a consultant heart surgeon at Bristol General Hospital, one of the youngest in the county’s history. Two years ago he’d married a woman called Rebecca. Rebecca was nice, but brittle and rather humorless. Joey had always thought her lovely brother would end up with a fun-loving, no-nonsense nurse or maybe a jolly children’s doctor. But for some reason he’d chosen a strait-laced systems analyst from Staffordshire.

They’d bought their cobalt house ten months ago, when Joey was still farting about in the Balearics hosting foam parties. She hadn’t even realized it was one of the painted houses until Jack had taken her to see it when she moved back to Bristol three months ago.

You bought a painted house, she’d said, her hand against her heart. You bought a painted house and you didn’t tell me.

You didn’t ask, he’d responded. And anyway, it wasn’t my idea. It was Rebecca’s. She virtually bribed the old lady who was living here to sell up. Said it was literally the only house in Bristol she wanted to live in.

It’s beautiful, she’d said, her eyes roaming over the tasteful interior of taupe and teal and copper and gray. The most beautiful house I’ve ever seen.

I’m glad you like it, Jack had said, because Rebecca and I were wondering if you two would like to live here for a while. Just until you get yourselves sorted out.

Oh my God, she’d said, her hands at her mouth. Are you serious? Are you sure?

Of course I’m sure, he’d replied, taking her by the hand. "Come and see the attic room. It’s completely self-contained—perfect for a pair of newlyweds." He’d nudged her and grinned at her.

Joey had grinned back. No one was more surprised than she was that she had come back from Ibiza with a husband.

His name was Alfie Butter and he was very good-looking. Far too good-looking for her. Or at least, so she’d thought in the aqua haze of Ibizan nights. In the gunmetal gloom of a Bristol winter the blue, blue eyes were just blue, the Titian hair was just red, the golden tan was just sun damage. Alfie was just a regular guy.

They’d married barefoot on the beach. Joey had worn a pink chiffon slip dress and carried a posy of pink and peridot lantanas. Alfie had worn a white T-shirt and pink shorts, and white bougainvillea blossom in his hair. Their marriage had been witnessed by the managers of the hotel where they both worked. Afterward they’d had dinner on a terrace with a few friends, taken a few pills, danced until the sun came up, spent the next day in bed, and then and only then did they phone their families to tell them what they’d done.

She would have had a proper wedding if her mother had still been alive. But she was dead and Joey’s dad was not really a wedding kind of a man, nor a flying-out-to-Ibiza kind of a man, and Joey’s parents had themselves married secretly at Gretna Green when her mum was four months pregnant with Jack.

Ah, well, he’d said, with a note of relief. I suppose it’s a family tradition.


Hi, she called out in the hallway, testing for the presence of her sister-in-law. Rebecca made a lot of noise about how delighted she was to be housing a pair of twentysomething lovebirds in her immaculate, brand-new guest suite—It’s just so brilliant that we had the space for you! Really, it’s just brilliant having you here. Totally brilliant!—but her demeanor told a different story. She hid from them. All the time. In fact, she was hiding from Joey right now, pretending to be arranging things in their huge walk-in pantry.

Oh, hi! she said, turning disingenuously at Joey’s greeting, a jar of horseradish in her hand. I didn’t hear you come in!

Joey smiled brightly. She’d totally heard her coming in. There was a mug of freshly made tea still steaming on the kitchen table, a newspaper half read, a half-eaten packet of supermarket sushi. Joey pictured Rebecca Mullen twitching at the sound of Joey’s key in the lock, looking for her escape, scurrying into the pantry, and randomly picking up a jar of horseradish.

Sorry, I did shout out hello.

It’s fine. It’s fine. I’m just… She waved the jar of horseradish in a vague arc around the pantry.

Nest-building?

Yes! said Rebecca. Yes. I am. Nest-building. Exactly.

Both their eyes fell to Rebecca’s rounded stomach. Her first baby was due in four months. It was a girl baby who would, on or around May 1, become Joey’s niece. One of the reasons, Joey imagined, that Rebecca had agreed to let her and Alfie have their guest suite was that Joey was a trained nursery nurse. Not that she’d touched a baby since she was eighteen. But still, she had all the skills. She could, in theory, change a nappy in forty-eight seconds flat.


There was a stained-glass window halfway up the oak staircase that ran up the front of the house. Joey often stopped here to press her nose to the clear parts of the design, enjoying being able to see out without anyone seeing in. It was early afternoon, almost dusk at this time of the year; the trees on the hills on the other side of the river were bare and slightly awkward.

She watched a shiny black car turn from the main road in the village below and begin its ascent up the escarpment toward the terrace. The only cars that came up here were those of residents and visitors. She waited for a while longer to see who it might be. The car parked on the other side of the street and she watched a woman get out of the passenger side, a boyish, thirtysomething woman with jaw-length light-brown hair wearing a hoodie and jeans. She stood by the back door while a young boy climbed out, about fourteen years old, the spitting image of her. Then a rather handsome older man got out of the driver’s side, tall and leggy in a crumpled sky-blue polo shirt and dark jeans, short dark hair, white at the temples. He went to the boot of the car and pulled out two medium-sized suitcases, with a certain appealing effortlessness. He handed one to his son, passed a pile of coats and a carrier bag to his wife, and then they crossed the road and let themselves into the yellow house.

Joey carried on up the stairs, the image of the attractive older man returning from his family Christmas break already fading from her consciousness.

PART 1 OF RECORDED INTERVIEW

Date: 03/25/2017

Location: Trinity Road Police Station, Bristol BS2 0NW

Conducted by: Officers from Avon & Somerset Police

POLICE: This interview is being tape-recorded. I am Detective Inspector Rose Pelham and I’m based at Trinity Road Police Station. I work with the serious crime team. Could you please give us your full name?

JM: Josephine Louise Mullen.

POLICE: And your address?

JM: 14 Melville Heights, Bristol BS12 2GG.

POLICE: Thank you. And can you tell us about your relationship with Tom Fitzwilliam?

JM: He lives two doors down. He gave me a lift into work sometimes. We chatted if we bumped into each other on the street. He knew my brother and my sister-in-law.

POLICE: Thank you. And could you now tell us where you were last night between approximately 7 p.m. and 9 p.m.

JM: I was at the Bristol Harbour Hotel.

POLICE: And were you there alone?

JM: Mostly.

POLICE: Mostly? Who else was there with you?

JM: [Silence.]

POLICE: Ms. Mullen? Please could you tell us who else was there? At the Bristol Harbour Hotel?

JM: But he was only there for a few minutes. Nothing happened. It was just…

POLICE: Ms. Mullen. The name of this person. Please.

JM: It was… it was Tom Fitzwilliam.

2

JANUARY 6

Joey saw Tom Fitzwilliam again a few days later. This time it was in the village. He was coming out of the bookshop, wearing a suit and talking to someone on the phone. He said good-bye to the person on the phone, pressed his finger to the screen to end the call, and slid the phone into his jacket pocket. She saw his face as he turned left out of the shop. It held the residue of a smile. His upturned mouth made a different shape of his face. It turned up more on one side than the other. An eyebrow followed suit. A hand went to his silver-tipped hair as the wind blew it asunder. The smile turned to a grimace and made another shape of his face again. His jaw hardened. His forehead bunched. A slow blink of his eyes. And then he was walking toward his black car parked across the street, a blip blip of the locking system, a flash of lights, long legs folded away into the driver’s side. Gone.

But a shadow of him lingered on in her consciousness.


Alfie had been a crush. For months she’d watched him around the resort, made up stories about him based on tiny scraps of information she’d collected from people who’d interacted with him. No one knew where he was from. Someone thought he might have been a writer. Someone else said he was a vet. He’d had long hair then, dark red, tied back in a ponytail or sometimes a man-bun. He had a small red beard and a big fit body, a tattoo of a climbing rose all the way up his trunk, another of a pair of wings across his shoulders. He often had a guitar hanging from a strap around his chest. He rarely wore a top when he wasn’t working. He had a smile for everyone, a swagger and a cheek.

In Joey’s imagination, Alfie Butter was kind of otherworldly; she ascribed to him a sort of supernatural persona, and tried to imagine what they would talk about if their paths were ever to cross. Then one day he’d stopped her at the back of the resort next to the laundry and his blue, blue eyes had locked onto hers and he’d smiled and said, Joey, right?

She’d said yes, she was Joey.

Someone tells me you’re a Bristol girl. Is that right?

Yes, she’d said, yes, that was right.

Whereabouts?

Frenchay?

He’d punched the air. I knew it! he’d said. "I just knew it! You know when you get that feeling in your gut, and someone said you were from Bristol and I just thought Frenchay girl. Got to be. And I was right! I’m a Frenchay boy!"

Wow, she’d said, wow. It was a small, small world, she’d told him. Which school did you go to?

And Alfie had turned out to be neither supernatural nor otherworldly, a vet nor a poet, nor even very good at playing the guitar, but spectacularly good in bed and a very good hugger. He’d had her name tattooed on his ankle two weeks after their first encounter. He said he’d never felt like this about anyone, in his life, ever. He slung his heavy arm across her shoulder whenever they walked together. He pulled her onto his lap whenever she walked past him. He said he’d follow her to the ends of the earth. Then, when her mother died and she said she wanted to come home, he said he’d follow her back to Bristol. He’d proposed to her after she returned from her mother’s funeral. They’d married two weeks after that.

But what do you do with an unattainable crush once it’s yours to keep? What does it become? Should there perhaps be a word to describe it? Because that’s the thing with getting what you want: all that yearning and dreaming and fantasizing leaves a great big hole that can only be filled with more yearning and dreaming and fantasizing. And maybe that’s what lay at the root of Joey’s sudden and unexpected obsession with Tom Fitzwilliam. Maybe he arrived at the precise moment that the hole in Joey’s interior fantasy life needed filling.

And if it hadn’t been him, maybe it would have been someone else instead.

3

JANUARY 23

Tom Fitzwilliam was fifty-one and he was, according to Jack, a lovely, lovely man.

Not that Joey had asked her brother for his opinion of their neighbor—it had been offered, spontaneously, apropos of an article in the local newspaper about an award that the local school had just won.

Oh, look, he said, the paper spread open in front of him on the kitchen table. That’s our neighbor, lives two doors down. He tapped a photo with his forefinger. Tom Fitzwilliam. Lovely, lovely man.

Joey peered over Jack’s shoulder, a half-washed saucepan in one hand, a washing-up sponge in the other. Oh, she said, I’ve seen him, I think. Black car?

Yes, that’s right. He’s the headmaster of our local state school. A ‘superhead.’ He made quotes in the air with his fingers. Brought in after a bad Ofsted. His school just won something and now everyone loves him.

That’s nice, said Joey. Do you know him, then?

Yeah. Kind of. He and his wife were very helpful when we were having the building works done. They used to send us texts during the day to let us know what was happening and calmed down some other not-so-nice neighbors who were getting their knickers in a knot about dust and noise. Nice people.

Joey shrugged. Jack thought everyone was nice.

So. He closed the paper and folded it in half. How did the interview go?

Joey slung the tea towel over the side of the sink. It was OK.

She’d applied for a job at the Melville, the famous boutique hotel and bar in the village: front-of-house manager. The pleasant woman interviewing her could tell the moment she walked in that she was not fit for the purpose and Joey had made no effort to convince her otherwise.

Glorified receptionist, she said now. "Plus four night shifts a week. No thank you."

She didn’t look at Jack, didn’t want to witness his reaction to yet more evidence that his little sister was a total loser. She had quite wanted the job; the hotel was beautiful, the owner was nice, and the pay was good. The problem was that she couldn’t actually see herself in the job. The problem was… well, the problem was her. She was nearly twenty-seven. In three years’ time she would be thirty. She was a married woman. But yet, for some reason, she still felt like a child.

Fair enough, he said, turning the pages of the newspaper mechanically. I’m sure something will come up, eventually.

Bound to, she said, her heart not reaching her words.

Then, Jack, are you OK about me and Alfie being here? Like, really?

She watched her brother roll his eyes good-naturedly. Joey. For God’s sake. How many times do I have to tell you? I love having you here. And Alfie too. It’s a pleasure.

What about Rebecca, though? Are you sure she’s not regretting it?

She’s fine, Joey. We’re both fine. It’s all good.

Do you promise?

Yes, Joey. I promise.


Joey got a job three days later. It was a terrible, terrible job, but it was a job. She was now a party coordinator at a notoriously rough soft-play center in the city called Whackadoo. The uniform was an acid-yellow polo shirt with red pull-on trousers. The pay was reasonable and the hours were fine. The manager was a big, butch woman with a crew cut called Dawn to whom Joey had taken an instant liking. It could all have been worse, of course it could. Anything could always be worse. But not much.

All employees of Whackadoo were required to spend their first week on the floor. Nobody gets to sit in an office here until they’ve cleaned the toilets halfway through a party for thirty eight-year-old boys, Dawn had said, a grim twinkle in her eye.

Can’t be any worse than cleaning vomit, coke, and Jägerbombs off the bar after a fourteen-hour stag party, Joey had replied.

Probably not, Dawn had conceded. Probably not. Can you start tomorrow?


Joey stopped in the village on her way home from the interview and ordered herself a large gin and tonic in the cozy bar of the Melville Hotel. It was early for gin and tonic. The man sitting two tables away was still having breakfast. She told herself it was celebratory, but in reality, she needed something to blunt the edges of her terror and self-loathing.

Whackadoo.

Windowless cavern of unthinkable noise and bad smells. Breeze-block hellhole of spilt drinks and tantrums, where a child shat in the ball pond at least once a day apparently. She shuddered and knocked back another glug of gin. The man eating his breakfast looked at her curiously. She blinked at him imperiously.

You could see the painted houses from down here, a bolt of running color across the tops of the narrow Georgian windows. There was the cobalt blue of Jack and Rebecca’s house, the canary yellow of Tom Fitzwilliam’s. It was another world up there. Rarefied. And she, a half-formed woman working in a soft-play center: what on earth was she doing up there?

She looked down at her bitten nails, her scuffed boots, her old chinos. She thought about the aged pants she was wearing, the decrepit bra. She knew she was two months past a timely trip to the hairdresser. She was drinking gin alone in a hotel bar on a Thursday at not even midday. And then she thought of herself only five months ago, tanned and lean, clutching her bouquet, the talcum sand between her toes, the sun shining down from a vivid blue sky, standing at Alfie’s side; young, beautiful, in paradise, in love. You are the loveliest thing I have ever seen, her boss had said, wiping a tear from her own cheek. So young, so perfect, so pure.

She switched on her phone and scrolled through her gallery until she got to the wedding photos. For a few minutes she wallowed in the memories of the happiest day of her life, until she heard the bar door open and looked up.

It was him.

Tom Fitzwilliam.

The head teacher.

He pulled off his suit jacket and draped it across the back of a chair, resting a leather shoulder bag on the seat. Then, slowly, in a way that suggested either self-consciousness or a complete lack of self-consciousness, he sauntered to the bar. The barman appeared to know him. He made him a lime and soda, and told him he’d bring his food to the table when it was ready.

Joey watched him walking back to his table. He wore a blue shirt with a subtle check. The bottom buttons, she noticed, strained very gently against a slight softness and Joey felt a strange wave of pleasure, a sense of excitement about the unapologetic contours of his body, the suggestion of meals enjoyed and worries forgotten about over a bottle of decent wine. She found herself wanting to slide her fingers between those tensed buttons, to touch, just for a moment, the soft flesh beneath.

The thought shocked her, left her slightly winded. She turned her attention to her gin and tonic, aware that her glass was virtually empty, aware that it was time for her to leave. But she didn’t want to move. She couldn’t move. She was suddenly stultified by a terrible and unexpected longing. She turned slightly to catch a glimpse of his feet, his ankles, the rumpled cowl of gray cotton sock, the worn hide of black leather lace-up shoes, an inch of pale, bare flesh just there, between the sock and the hem of his trousers, which she’d been aware of him slowly tugging up before sitting down.

She was in the hard grip of a shocking physical attraction. She turned her eyes away from his feet and back to her empty glass and then to her wedding photos on her phone, which had only 2 percent charge left and was about to die. But she couldn’t, she simply couldn’t sit here staring into an empty gin glass. Not now. Not in front of this man.

She was aware of him taking papers out of his shoulder bag, shuffling them around, pulling a pen from somewhere, holding it airily away from him in one hand, clicking and unclicking, clicking and unclicking, bringing it down to make a mark on the paper, putting it away from him again. Click, click. One foot bouncing slightly against the fulcrum of the other. She would leave when the waiter came with his food. That was what she’d do. When he was distracted.

The screen of her phone turned black, finally giving up its ghost. She slipped it into her handbag and stared at the floor until finally the barman disappeared at the sound of a buzzer somewhere behind him and reappeared a moment later with some kind of sandwich on a wooden board arranged alongside a glossy hillock of herbs and curly leaves. She saw Tom move paperwork out of the way, smiling generously at the barman.

Thank you, she heard him say as she picked up her jacket and squeezed her

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