Heroes of the Now

Heroes of the Now

Marc Titus

Copyright 2010 by Marc Titus

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DEDICATION

To Deva

Thank you my beloved. I appreciate you more than words convey. You stood by me. You are amazing for your Love, strength and courage. I sit as I write this, eyes closed heart centered I infuse this page, this book… my words with Love and Gratitude. You saw the jewel behind the rough, you helped me to see and for that I am eternally grateful. I dedicate this work to you, Deva. This book came to life born from our friendship, our Love for All that Is, and the never-ending search for Truth. Thank you for everything.

I Love You

∞

TABLE OF CONTENTS

Preface

Introduction ~ The Reluctant Yogi

Chapter 1: Old Ways

Chapter 2: Letters to a Dear Friend

Chapter 3: Revelation

Chapter 4: Letters to a Dear Friend

Chapter 5: Total Personal Responsibility

Chapter 6: Letters to a Dear Friend

Chapter 7: Shamanism

Chapter 8: Letters to a Dear Friend

Chapter 9: Yoga, a Science of Integration

Chapter 10: Letters to a Dear Friend

Chapter 11: Relationships

Chapter 12: Letters to a Dear Friend

Chapter 13: True Nature

Chapter 14: Breakthrough Letter to a Dear Friend

Chapter 15: Heroes of the Now

Chapter 16: Letters to a Dear Friend

Chapter 17: What will you do?

2 Weeks to Remembering A Shamanic Yoga Journey

Day 1 – We Begin Right Here, Right Now

Day 2 – Total Personal Responsibility and More

Day 3 – Find Your Center

Day 4 – Reclaim Your Temple

Day 5 – Stand on the Earth

Day 6 – I am Grateful

Day 7 – True Nature

Day 8 – Forgive and Release

Day 9 – the Dance

Day 10 – Presence

Day 11 – Inner Child

Day 12 – Discernment and Highest Good

Day 13 – I Am…

Day 14 – Remember

Afterward

Compassionate Incident Management

ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS

To Spirit, I give immeasurable thanks and gratitude you are the Source of my inspiration.

To the many who have affected my growth on this Journey, Namaste, the Light within me, bows before the Light within you. I am grateful…

Gaylene, thank you, it was you who suggested I keep record of this experience and so I did. Leah, my friend, I thank the rain and stars for our meeting that brought about such a cherished friendship. Fred, my brother, you are a mountain of strength. Jimmy, you know… Michelle and Eli, Joanne and Weikko, Keith and Lila for seeing me.

Mom and Dad for healing with me, watching me become and Loving me just the same…

My Grandmother Diane has never left my side and to the one who still calls me his number one grandson, I am grateful.

Jeanette, you were the Angel that lifted me up when I needed wings…

Joseph, my brother, Ron, Sara, Bob, Gayle, Ben and the many others… Assistance comes in many forms and I am grateful!

Michael Jackson, until we ride together again, my brother, Alaska waits… with camera and sound, we will make that movie and the entire Universe will rejoice.

Karen, my first Sedona friend, you are AMAZING!

All the teachers in my Life… I thank you, I am becoming…

∞

Preface

Dear Friend,

I’ve missed you my friend. We haven’t spoken in a long time and I am sorry. I had to go away for a while because I was hurt and confused. I lost my faith in the world that I created and woke up one day to my life in ruins. I thought I had it so together, was on top of the world and on my game, but I was wrong.

My life was spent trying to achieve something that was unreal, a product of an unhealthy relationship with my Authentic Self. I sold out. I gave up my sovereignty to the dark side and allowed my actions to create discord in my life. Little did I know it at the time, but my actions were tainted, my friend. They were impure and unconscious, aimed at getting my way so as to protect the delicate balance needed to maintain the life I had created.

There was so much that I didn’t know back then. I was too wrapped up in the experience to take a moment to breathe, to see the truth. All the harm that came from my actions has taken much to heal. Yes, harm. I harmed others along the way, but ultimately I had been harming myself.

I hadn’t been listening to the truth beyond the chatter coming from my mind. Polluted it was, that chatter, and this pollution affected all of my undertakings. It hurt me, my friend, beyond any hurt I have ever experienced. It was so deep, to the core this pain went. Failure? Did I fail? Perhaps, but I focus not on this as I still have a chance to correct the choices and awaken to my True Nature.

What did I really know, having only seen through the blinders of my creation? The view was murky, but in my position, I was only equipped to see the illusion and continued acting from a well of ignorance. I didn’t know any better back then. I chose my actions, using my free will to enact choices that were contrary to my highest good. I knew not my True Self, but rather identified with a perception that was external in nature.

I saw my life as the reflection of situations around me and molded my being to adapt to each. I didn’t know whom I was, at the core, so I let everything around me tell me how I should be in each instance. I didn’t have a solid foundation for my being to rest upon.

Growing up I wanted to express my True Nature, but it went contrary to societal dictates. It seemed as though I was different and rather than embrace that difference as something to learn about and grow, I shut down. I closed myself to that which I knew early in life and sold out to the energies of the dark, the collective that is entrenched in our society and dictates behavioral norms.

Even now, I have met both internal and external resistance in expressing my Authentic Self, but I am stronger and more diligent. I am less engaged with the outside world now and have delved into the truth about my existence. But it remains a challenging adventure, this Shamanic Yogi path I am on. Going inside the depths of my being has exposed new realms of matter and energy to explore. Here is where my higher consciousness resides and I am now getting reacquainted. I have found the energetic wounds of the past and through Shamanic Soul Retrieval I have been healing.

You may wonder my dear friend, what possibly could have gotten into me? Why did I change? Well, it isn’t so much as changing, as it is embracing who I really am.

I am Spirit, the Divine, or God Consciousness. All these things, I have found in myself. I am Creation itself, connected to the very source that the Universe sprang forth from. Therefore, I am imbued with the very likeness of these monikers. Sadly, I didn’t know what that meant, so long ago and even now, it is a daily practice to discern the truth presented in all the situations I find myself in.

Before, I found a whirlwind at my core, untenable ground for my being to occupy, yet I did the best I could. I was very successful in a material way in that world, but my Soul cried out in anguish. I created so much pain and suffering for myself as a result of unconscious actions. I know better now, my friend. I know what my thoughts, words and actions create in the world now and I take total personal responsibility for them. I am a Divine instrument and I act from the core of my being, from my heart sharing Love with myself, then others.

When you knew me, I didn’t know myself. I didn’t Love, respect or accept myself. My negative internal dialogue was stronger, more powerful and guided by thoughts welling from a deep and polluted sub-conscious. A lifetime of experiences rooted in harmfulness, distrust, and total disregard for the divine nature of my experience left me incapable to break out of the cycle, so I became a chameleon. I had no roots in my own nature so I was constantly adapting to my environment and changing my behavior to match the situation. I was firmly rooted in that reality and it was killing me very slowly and insidiously.

My lack of self-awareness and resultant structuring of my life experience created that person and I am not proud of it. That person was spiteful, hateful and filled with darkness. He was an unfortunate being, as he had so many possibilities, but he was wasting them on a non-productive path that was draining him of his life and vitality. He was focusing on achieving something that does not need to be achieved.

I am taking steps to change this dynamic. I have found myself and am encouraging this child to step into the light of the Love in my heart. I have learned to Love myself, nurture my passions, and strengthen my Soul.

I have accepted my mistakes and forgiven them. I am committed to this path of discovery. I take total personal responsibility for my life. I align with my highest and best good and move from the center of my being with Love and kindness.

I can’t live in that old world anymore. It doesn’t resonate any longer and when I connect to the old ways, they hurt. I now live in a miraculous world, where the infinite is possible. Where my thoughts, words and actions; my Consciousness creates reality.

I have come to find out just how diligent I must remain to maintain the balance, peace and harmony I have created in my life. It has not come easily, since we last spoke. However, it has come and I feel as though I have found a way that guides my choices. I am the key to unlocking the secrets to this life experience, to opening the doorways to the Soul and living a life that is filled with the blessings of the Universe. We all hold that key, my friend. It all comes down to each of us. We can make the difference needed in the world today.

Conscious human beings are creating a new reality very much different from the current state of affairs. They are doing this by stepping out of the tread that lays before them, the familiar path leading to undesirable outcomes and blazing a new trail to their hearts desires, truly becoming the Heroes of the Now.

I have witnessed the Universe abide regardless of my intention. What an epiphany it was to understand this important truth so I have chosen to create my reality consciously.

It changed me and now I am ever-present and mindful of what I create. If I have dark thoughts, I look at them and dig deeper. If something is happening that is unpleasant or making me uncomfortable, I ask why and set about to discover the source. I have chosen to purify the fountainhead, the source of my thoughts, words and actions and in doing have healed my being in ways previously not possible. From my healing a new and beautiful world has begun to surround me. I have found that my old ways were detrimental in creating this experience, so I have renounced them. My life is more peaceful now and the journey continues…

Thank you, dear friend…

I Love You.

∞

Introduction ~ The Reluctant Yogi

I saw her one afternoon at a Sedona café. She looked up, recognition then, it’s the reluctant yogi! I looked around; surely she couldn’t be talking to me. We had only met the one time, yoga class last Sunday. I stammered a reply, not quite sure what to say. Reluctant Yogi? She made